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Held Emotions II

September 12, 2019

Our initiation into The Most Important Thing Is to Embrace our Held Emotions (Saturn Stationary Conjunct the South Node) is the 12 September, 2019 (8:30 pm PDT) Illumination of the symbol for Respect for All Things (Station of asteroid Hopi) in the same 14 Capricorn Degree.  These Conspirators are joined by the symbol for Becoming Aware of the Need for Self-Sovereignty (dwarf planet Hylonome, Stationary until 21 September) in 11 Capricorn.  That’s kind of a Knife Edge, Respecting All Things Without Giving Away Our Power to Any of Them.

The Self-Sovereignty issue is greatly Enhanced by a Challenge (T-Square) to the Expansion of our Awareness (Jupiter) from the symbols for Self-Sovereignty itself (Lilith) and Action/Anger (Mars).  Most especially, we’re Instructed by these “Stars” to Take Action to Get Neutral about Our Anger at The People Who Have Taken Our Power When We Gave It To ThemWe’re Angry at the People who have Taken Our Power, but it is Us – Unconsciously – who Gave It to Them.  Most of the time this happens because our Programmers installed Holes in our Auras that they could reach into and Pull our Puppet-Strings.

Here’s the chart…

If you’ve raised or otherwise worked closely with Children, you’ve probably Unconsciously or even Consciously done the same thing – found a place where you could Manipulate them, usually through Shame, in order to keep them under Control.   Especially in groups, they can be a handful…

Manipulating others for your own Gain isn’t the Travesty that it sounds like – we all do it to some extent.  There are two problems that arise when you Manipulate Children with Shame.

First, that Hole in their Aura doesn’t Heal on its own.  It stays with them into Adulthood until – and if – they Discover it and Heal it.  Till then they’re Compelled to Give Their Power Away to anyone who Discovers their Puppet Strings, and to their Frustration and Anger – and Shame, they won’t know why or how.

And second, that Hole wouldn’t be there unless it was part of their Karma, which makes it more Difficult for them to Discover and Heal it, because it was embedded in the Unconscious before they were even born.  These Huper Lifetimes are worse than Gollum’s Riddles!

There’s another Configuration that Illuminates this whole process – the symbol for Fate and Choice (asteroid Moira) and the symbol for Oath-Making and -Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus) are Merged (Conjunct) in the Hopi Station chart, and they volunteer to Help us with this Discovery (along with asteroid Veritas [Truth], they make a Double Trine Bridge [Easy Crossing] across the Nodal Axis).

Until we become Conscious of our Karma, and the Hole(s) in our Aura, we stuck with our “Fate.”  Once we Become Aware of it (Hylonome), we have Choice.  We were probably between a Rock and a Hard Place, but at some point lost in the Mists of Time, we Swore an Oath, and we Obeyed it, we Adopted it as part of our Identity, perhaps as the Core of our Identity.  Habits become Unconscious through Repetition, and in subsequent Lifetimes the Repetition was well established, but the Oath was Forgotten.  Bingo, Karma.  To Convert Fate to Choice we need to Break the Oath.  But we’ve long since Forgotten what is was.

That’s a fine Story for 3D Linear Time, but as you know, Time doesn’t really work that way.  If you’re like me, for the last week your “Random” Memories have been popping up all over the map, with little “rhyme or reason.”  That’s Real Time, with Bleedthrough from whatever Lifetime (which our Creative Memory usually inserts into the “Past” in our Current Lifetime) dripping through seemingly unpredictably, though we can often Discern Themes.

Creative Memory makes it seems like all these Random Tidbits and Recurrent Themes are part of “Us,” and they become our Identity.  But again, it doesn’t really work that way.  That’s 3D Ego-Level “Us.”  Shift your Identity to your Soul, and it looks very Different.  Karma is Personal only to the Ego, not to the Soul.  On the Soul Level, when we Choose to Slum it for a while on Earth, we pick a Project we want to help the Planet with.  The Karma is in the Energy Field of the Planet.  Other planets may not even contain the moving parts that “our” Karma is made from.

We come here to Help Convert some aspect of the Planet’s Fate to Choice, by contributing Replications of Alternative Patterns.  With enough Reps, by ourself and Others, new Habits are built into the Earth’s Energy Template.  Epigenetics, it’s called when Personalized to the Huper Level.  Project that back through Herstory.  Hupers used to be in the Habit of starving to Death in a bad winter following a poor Harvest.  Then Volunteers like you came and organized ways to store Food from one winter to the next, and ways to move Food from one valley that had a fortunate Harvest, to another that didn’t.  New Habits.

There was nothing Ego-Personal about all that; it was “just” Souls monkeying with the Energy Fields.  Death is no big deal to the Soul, it’s just another Experience.  The advantage of staying Alive longer was to build greater Knowledge and Wisdom.  A Hunter or Forager or Farmer with fifty years of Hunting or Foraging or Farming in their Winter Count is far ahead of one who flames out at twenty years.  Of course that’s just a Story too.  We as Hupers don’t generally have the Bandwidth to actually Grok what’s really going on in Dimensions (and Dementias) that we can’t even See or Touch.  But the more Metaphors and Stories and Perspectives we have, the more we can Intuit.

So how then do we actually Help Extinguish this Planetary Karma?  What if we could gather up enough Passion, Focus, and Power to just tell it to “Leave Now, and Never Come Back!“?

It’s too easy to Forget that Karma is not Present Moment, it’s not Real.  It’s a Paper Tiger, a Shadow Puppet.  Sméagol had to repeat his New Anthem three times before it took hold.  Your Attachment to “your” Karmic warp in the Force, the one you came here to Help Convert, may be a little stronger; it may take you up to ten Reps to gather enough Courage, Commitment, Passion, Confidence, Focus and Power to Banish it Forever.  The sooner you start, the sooner you finish.

We could even make “Leave Now, and Never Come Back!” another silent partner in PIAVA.  In the next post we’ll look at the other side of the coin, Healing the Holes in our Aura directly.

2019 Q3 I

June 30, 2019

The Stations and Moons and other major astroevents in the third quarter of 2019 line up below.  Notice how often 0-7 Degrees and 22-28 Degrees are Lit Up repeatedly, marking these Degree Zones as major issues for us.  These are Zones of Transition, so we can Expect lots of Changes.  If we slide these two together, we get one Zone from 22 Degrees to 7 Degrees of the next sign, exactly 50% of the Zodiac.  Yet, not counting the Sign Changes, between 1 July and 14 September, fully 83% of the major events reside in this Transition Zone.

And between 7 and 31 July, Mercury Retrogrades over all but a few Degrees of the entire Zone, backing up from 5 Leo to 24 Cancer.  Including its two Direct passages, Mercury is in this Zone from 20 June through the Ides of August.  So we can’t say we’re blindsided!  Mercury is the symbol for Awareness, so whatever issues have arisen since the Solstice, or arise in the next week, those are the issues that we’ll be Dancing with for the next three months.

Mercury’s Journey will be about Separating our Identity from our Emotions (the Pisces Decanate of Cancer and the Leo Decanate of Leo; a Decanate is 10 Degrees) and about Distinguishing Sympathy from Compassion and our Identity from Both (the Taurus and Gemini Duads of Cancer and the Leo and Virgo Duads of Leo; a Duad is 2½ Degrees).

Compassion cares deeply about the Suffering of Other, but it’s Neutral about the Outcome.  That sounds like an Oxymoron, but it’s actually a Paradox.  Contradictions exist only in the Dualistic mind; in the Unitary and Multidimensional Universe, there are no Contradictions.  If you can possibly give yourself Permission to Reframe Contradictions into Paradoxes, and Accept that as Reasonable, you’re on your way to Growing Out of your “Left” Brain and adding circuitry to your Corpus Callosum that will improve your Recognition of and Response to your Intuition and Instincts.

Sympathy is an Identification with, a form of Codependence.  Your Sympathy cares about the Outcome, because you’re Merged with the Object of your Sympathy, so the Outcome Happens to You.  Do you see how Important your Identity is in this Equation?  You can actually Manifest Disease with Sympathy, it you work hard enough at it.  Compassion won’t Create Disease, but it can Create Healing.

What We Feel and Who We Are, are two very different things.  Emotions are extremely Valuable parts of our Intuition and our Instincts – when we Feel them.  When we Become them, they Lose their Value.  It’s like kayaking on a fast-moving River.  As long as we’re Feeling our Emotions, we can successfully navigate the Rapids.  When we start to Become our Emotion, we go under, and if we don’t right ourself quickly, we Lose the Plot – or worse.

Now, how often are we Aware that We Have An Identity, let alone What It Is in that moment.  Once we Become an Emotion, Who’s left to Notice?  It’s Important then that we make a Habit of Asking ourself, frequently, Who Am I Right Now?  Where Is My Identity In This Moment?  It’ll be a puzzling Question at first, but keep at it.  The Answer isn’t nearly as Important as Asking the Question.  When we become Aware of a Splinter of Consciousness distinct from the Emotions or Thoughts or Trance that has us by the throat in that moment, we can Grow the Splinter by Tapping, or Poor-Sweethearting ourself, or Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrading our Self-Abusive Thoughts.

Here’s where Mercury will Dance between now and mid-August…

  • 1-3 July, 4 Degrees
  • 4-10 July, 5 Degrees
  • 11-13 July, 4 Degrees
  • 14-15 July, 3 Degrees
  • 16 July, 2 Degrees
  • 17-18 July, 1 Degrees
  • 19 July, 0 or 30 Degrees
  • 20-21 July, 29 Degrees
  • 22 July, 28 Degrees
  • 23-24 July, 27 Degrees
  • 25-26 July, 26 Degrees
  • 27-30 July, 25 Degrees
  • 31 July-1 August, 24 Degrees
  • 2-4 August, 25 Degrees
  • 5-6 August, 26 Degrees
  • 7 August, 27 Degrees
  • 8-9 August, 28 Degrees
  • 10 August, 29 Degrees
  • 11 August, 30-1 Degrees
  • 12 August, 2 Degrees
  • 13 August, 3 Degrees
  • 14 August, 4 Degrees
  • 15 August, 5-6 Degrees
  • 16 August, 7 Degrees

Print this list out, and write all of your natal planets that are between 22 and 7 Degrees (22-30 and 0-7) on the list, next to each line, ignoring the Signs.  Don’t worry about being exact – we’ve got a couple of days of leeway, and it will vary a bit depending on where we in the World anyway.  Then, each day, Ask yourself,

“Does my Identity Today – Who I Am At This Moment – seem to Relate in any way to that (or those) natal planets of mine?” 

Don’t worry about the Answer; the important thing is Asking the Question, and being Curious about what Thoughts and Feelings arise as a result.  If you end up Confused, fabulous!  That’s the best possible Outcome.  Let yourself Feel your Confusion, it’s the first sign of Growth.  If you try to Figure it Out, you Lose.  Growth only happens when you Allow Confusion.

 

Here’s a draft blow-by-blow account of the next three months…

2 July (noon PDT), New Moon and Total Solar Eclipse (South Pacific, South America) 11 Cancer

6 July (6:30 pm PDT), asteroid Karma (Habits) enters Aries

7 July (4pm PDT), Mercury (Communication) Station 5 Leo

8 July (1:30 pm PDT), Ixion Initiates Bee-Zed (Transcendence) 28 Sagittarius

8 July (4:30 pm PDT), Chiron (Despair/Miracles) Station 6 Aries

9 July (2:30 pm PDT), Haumea (Rebirth) Station 25 Libra

13 July (6pm PDT), asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) enters Leo

16 July (2:30 pm PDT), Full Moon and Partial Lunar Eclipse 25 Capricorn

17 July (noon PDT), Ceres (Sustainability) Station 1 Sagittarius

20 July (7 pm PDT), Eris (Revelation) Station 25 Aries

25 July (8:30 pm PDT), asteroid Veritas (Truth to the Mind) enters Scorpio

31 July (8pm PDT), New Moon 9 Leo

31 July (9pm PDT), Mercury (Awareness) Station 24 Cancer

5 August (3pm PDT), Karma (Karma) Station 3 Aries

6 August (4:30 pm PDT), dwarf planet Pholus (Response-Ability) backs into Sagittarius

11 August (6:30 am PDT), Jupiter (Expansion) Station 15 Sagittarius (Great Attractor)

11 August (7:30 pm PDT), Uranus (Individual Soul) Station 7 Taurus

15 August (5:30 am PDT), Full Moon 23 Aquarius

17 August (11:30 pm PDT), asteroid Aletheia (Truth of the Heart) enters Scorpio

18 August (6pm PDT), asteroid Moira (Fate/Choice) enters Virgo

20 August (11:30 pm PDT), Atropos (Ending TimeLines) Station 24 Aries

23 August (12:30 p,m PDT), asteroid Klotho (Beginning a New TimeLine) enters Gemini

23 August (5pm PDT), asteroid Juno (Edges of Consciousness) enters Virgo

24 August (10am PDT), Mars Initiates Venus (Relationship Reset) 4 Virgo

24 August (2am PDT), asteroid Pallas (Boundaries) enters Scorpio

29 August (8:30 am PDT), Sedna (Fear/Power) Station 28 Taurus

30 August (3:30 am PDT), New Moon 7 Virgo

2 September, asteroid Sappho (Self-Love) enters Virgo

3 September, asteroid Karma (Inertia) backs into Pisces

4 September, Eurydike (Trust) Station 2 Aquarius

5 September, asteroid Lachesis (Changing TimeLines) enters Leo

10 September, Ixion (Hidden Genius) Station 27 Sagittarius

13 September, Hopi (Universal Regard) Station 14 Capricorn

13 September (9:30 pm PDT), Full Moon 22 Pisces

14 September, Quaoar (Survival Instincts) Station 2 Capricorn

14 September, Pholus (Response-Ability) Station 30 Sagittarius

15 September, Saturn (Priorities) Stationary Conjunct South Node (Held Emotions) 14 Capricorn

18 September, Saturn (The Most Important Thing) (Ego Deathx Station 14 Capricorn

21 September, Hylonome (Self-Sovereignty) Station 11 Capricorn

23 September (1am PDT), Libra Equinox, 0 Libra

24 September, Asbolus (Intuition) Station 24 Gemini

24 September, Vesta (Beliefs) Station 28 Taurus

27 September, Bee-Zed (Transcendence) Station 18 Sagittarius

27 September, asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) enters Virgo

28 September (11:30 am PDT), New Moon 6 Libra

28 September, Chaos (Unlimited Potential) Station 27 Gemini

28 September, Chariklo (Self-Confidence) Station 20 Capricorn

 

Rebirth Full Moon IV

June 17, 2019

Speaking of plastic (as we were recently), here’s a status report…

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2019/jun/17/recycled-plastic-america-global-crisis

https://www.theguardian.com/environment/2019/jun/17/recycling-plastic-wrong-guide

As we said, the solution to this is super simple – just prohibit the manufacture of Instant Landfill.  But of course since the government and the manufacturers have merged, that can’t be done, because the manufacturers would lose money, and that’s obviously far more important than, say, the Oceans.  In ten US states you pay a deposit for a glass bottle, and 80% are returned and recycled.

But we were in the middle of busily listing out the many Prominent Features of the 17 July Full Moon.  We only had one Big One left before we get to the Hidden Treasures.  Here’s the chart, by the way…

You can see the Full Moon’s red triangle (T-Square) and the big red box with the X in it (Grand Cross).

Next up is the big blue rectangle, which astrologers call a “Golden Rectangle” because it’s blue.  No, not really, it’s because the ratio of its short sides to its long sides is the Golden Angle, φ or Phi.  We use blue to indicated a Friendly Energy, so Golden turns out to be blue.  In a Golden Rectangle the two central diagonal Dichotomies (red lines or Oppositions) interact in a very Constructive way.

Fortunately, we’ve already talked about both Dichotomies, because one (Moon-Ixion vs. Sun-Chaos) is the Full Moon itself, and the other (Haumea-Veritas vs. Klotho-Eris) is half of the Grand Cross.  That’s the nature of Duality, isn’t it – it always ends up being Soandso versus Whosit, so Competition is assured.

In the previous posts we summarized the Full Moon as “we Succeed by Dismissing the ‘Shoulds’ that shout at us, and instead Embracing the Intuitions that are always Whispering sweet nothings in our ear,” and the other Dichotomy as “our Fear about having to Face something we’ve been Ignoring is juxtaposed against our Intuitive Excitement about an Impending Future Feeling very Close at hand.”

You can read that last paragraph a couple of time and let yourself Imagine how those two will meld, but I’ll choose “You have Intuitions about your Future, but they’re pretty quiet.  You also have a bundle of Anxieties about it, and they’re pretty loud.  Put some Effort into Deciding What You Really Want for yourself, and then Commit to spending a lot of time Focusing on How It Will Feel when that Happens.”  That’s probably enough.

Our first Hidden Treasure is only partly shown on the picture of the chart.  In the lower left you can see the symbol for our Sacred Mission, the headphones (North Node), which sits next to the symbol for Awareness and Communication (Mercury), the legless stick figure with pointy ears.  That’s fine so far, as it indicates an increasing Awareness of our Mission.  But what’s not drawn in is the symbol for Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis), which sits in the same place.

Now we’ve been preaching for a long time that we should all be Celebrating Ego Death, because it’s just a Molt, and its primary function is to eliminate our Limitations.  But I know, We’d Rather Die than Feel That Again!  Which is kinda the point, it’s just that the “We” is the Ego, so yes, Die away, K?  Feeling That Again Happens to Be Exactly How We Eliminate Our Limitations.  ‘Nuff said?

The other Hidden Treasure happens as we speak, as the symbol for Manifestation (dwarf planet Makemake) is very Strong (Stationary 2am PDT 18 June), abetted by Strength in the symbol for Truth (asteroid Veritas Stationary 1pm PDT 18 June).  This is very Easy to interpret – Don’t Fall for the Temptation to Dwell on What You Don’t Want.  Focus on What You Do Want Instead, and if you can Imagine yourself Feeling the Way You’re Going to Feel When You Do Get What You Want, You’re GoldenEvery Thought Is a Prayer, and All Prayers Are Answered.

While Attending to your own Desires is Bottom Line (It’s like Love – you have to do yourself first), this especially applies to the Future of the Planet.  Imagine yourself Feeling the Way You’re Going to Feel When You’re Living on a Planet Where Collaboration Has Replaced CompetitionWe’ll explain that in the next post.

Most of you will be reading this after the fact, but no worries – it’s Never Too Late.

“Dark Days” 7

April 25, 2019

Okay, the Pluto Station has passed under the bridge and moved on down the River, though as I said earlier, it may linger because the three Stations (Pluto, Chariklo, Saturn) are only a few Degrees apart.  I used to Experience Pluto Stations as though I was “swimming through Jello,” but lately, while there’s a good deal of momentary Confusion, it’s been Feeling fairly ordinary.  Anyone finding Differently?

So to the extent that Pluto has moved on, we’re left in the Thick of Chariklo-Saturn-South Node, or Confidence-Attention-Karma.  Or, The Most Important Thing is to Stay in the Present Moment, or to Distinguish between the Present Moment and our Regressions.  One downside I’d not be Surprised to see is that our Karma will shake up our Confidence, and we’d be swimming in Self-Doubt instead of Jello, or worse, in Self-Recrimination.  Whenever the South Node is lit up – or asteroid Karma, or our Karma for any reason, astrological or otherwise, most of what we Experience will be Illusion.

We could easily be imagining the worst Outcome possible, then when something appears to move in that direction, we jump to the conclusion that it already, indeed, has.  For instance, if we’re thinking about how a friend might Abandon us, or thinking about Abandoning them, and they make a comment that might be interpreted as Criticism, even if it wasn’t meant that way, we could Receive their comment as the very Abandonment we’d been Expecting, and React accordingly, leaving our former friend wondering what happened.

That’s a good example, as it Illustrates how we grasp our Karma rather than the other way ’round.  Of course the critical element is the Depth of our Karmic Trance – that’s what Karma is after all, a Trance, one that Separates us from the Present Moment.

Pluto of course is all about Trance – we usually express it as a Transformation, or Formation of a New Trance.  The key to Karma is Awareness that we’ve Left the Present Moment.  Back in the 1980s we would ask ourselves, “What color is the wallpaper?” because if it was not the same as the wallpaper in the room where we were Abused, just that had the potential to jolt us out of our Unconscious Surrender to our Regression.

So with Pluto Involved (it’s still Involved even as its Influence lessens), our odds of Transforming our Karmic Trance into Awareness are actually greater.

The Karmic Trance can be very all-consuming Emotionally.  If we Hear someone Criticizing us or otherwise Shaking our Confidence, it may not matter what their Intentions are, it may Light a Fire in us that’s not easily extinguishable.

Everyone has some degree of Karmic Abandonment, and everyone has some degree of Karmic “Suffocation” – the Feeling that someone is watching us too closely, waiting for us to slip up, eager to label us Wrong, or itching Limit our Freedom.  The Libertarians carry their Suffocation to Extremes, and are proud of it.  Often, for each of us, either Abandonment or Suffocation dominates, but we can be Strong in both.  By Distinguishing when we’re Feeling Abandoned and when we’re feeling Suffocated, we up the odds that we’ll be able to recognize that it’s Our Abandonment and Our Suffocation.

When we Own these two Emotions, we can more easily Differentiate situations where we’re Being Abandoned or Suffocated, from situations where we’re Feeling Abandoned or Suffocated.  If we can do that, we up the odds that we can retract our Projections – rather than Feel Criticized and clam up, we might ask what the other person meant when they said that.  Of course, just because we’re Feeling Abandoned or Suffocated, doesn’t mean we aren’t also Being Abandoned or Suffocated – “Just because I’m Paranoid doesn’t mean they aren’t out to get me,” as we used to say.

But Recognizing these Feelings will help you decipher whether the Emotion and the Experience match in Intensity.  When they don’t, we’re either Tranced into our Karma, (when the Emotion is much more Intense than the Experience) and need to Wake Up, or we’re looking into the open jaws of a Held Emotion – that is, Tranced into Avoiding our Karma (when the Emotion is much less Intense than the Experience).  While Avoiding Karma may feel like Success, it’s not.  It means that our Karma is hiding in the Unconscious, where it’s pulling our puppet-strings.

One of the hardest things about Held Emotions is that they’re undercover.  Since we’d rather Die than Feel them, we’re highly Skilled at Avoiding them.  The Ego’s job is to keep us Alive, and if the Ego thinks we’ll Die, it’s going to Excel at Avoiding that situation.  So if we can Detect a clue to a Held Emotion by Arbitraging our Experiences and our Emotions instead of just Freaking Out, then thinking in terms of Abandonment and Suffocation will have done you a solid.

In a way it’s like your Study of Anxiety – where you’re Learning to distinguish between your fast-moving Emotions (a la Goofy) and your drudging thoughts about them (aka Anxiety).

And don’t forget Poor-Sweetheart.  Poor-Sweethearting a Real Emotion or a fake one can Feel like Avoidance, but it’s not.  Once you Empathize with what you’re really Experiencing or Feeling, you’ve already Changed the Trance.  When you then Successfully Change the Subject, you Step Out of your Karmic Trance, and every time you Step Out you build your Antikarmic Muscles.  Pretty soon you have a whole new set of Patterns.

“Dark Days” 5

April 22, 2019

Here’s another Teaching about how to Lighten Up.  It will be online till about 9am PDT 24 April.  It’s Dr. Sue Morter speaking about Energy Flows in the Body, how the Unconscious interacts with the Body, how to Ground and Stabilize the Body and bring it back into Balance (including Kegels), and many other very Integrative Perspectives…

https://energymedicinesummit.com/program/20

“Dark Days” 3

April 21, 2019

My two primary heroes growing up were the Lone Ranger from the movies they showed Saturday mornings in the church basement, and Jesus from the stories that they told in Sunday School the next day.  It didn’t take long for me to figure out that most folks who called themselves “Christians” actually followed the Olde Testament more than what Jesus actually taught, except when they were preaching to someone else.  So it didn’t dawn on me that our “Dark Days” and Easter happen to coincide this year.  Marilyn Raffaele did pick up on that in her Channeling today…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

Dear ones, we greet you on this religious holiday of Easter being celebrated in Christian communities the world over in remembrance of the suffering, death, and resurrection of the master teacher Jeshua.  However, just as with the Christmas story, Easter also holds much deeper meaning and every human is living the Easter story at some level.

“Every individual throughout their many lifetimes has experienced the death of old beliefs and the integration of new ones but always within the third dimensional belief system.  This is how evolution happens.  At some point a spiritual completion of sorts is reached and the death of what has become one’s outgrown state of consciousness begins.  The soul has reached a place of readiness for new and higher dimensional awareness although usually not consciously aware of it.

“Many past lives were short and filled with suffering while others were long and fulfilling but all were necessary in order for the soul to experience and grow from every aspect of three dimensional living and then move on which begins with a growing sense of dissatisfaction with what has previously been comfortable and normal.

“Confusion and a sense of loss comes as a person gradually begins to shift out of alignment with some friends, traditional family values, religious doctrine, certain foods, entertainments, work, etc.  This is the period in which many make futile attempts to restore that which they feel they are losing, not realizing that their energy is no longer in alignment with these things.

“The death throes of one’s old state of consciousness can be painful on one or all levels but is short or long depending upon resistance.  This is the period known as the ‘Dark night of the soul’ — the part of the Master’s story where he was alone, confused, and praying in the desert with a sense of what was coming.

“Change is eventually embraced and understood as being necessary and [we begin] to seek, accept, and practice increasingly higher levels of truth.  The length of this phase varies with every individual and often extends through lifetimes.  However, there eventually comes the personal resurrection and ascension that births a new state of consciousness.  The Easter story is your story.

“You have all lived as both genders, all colors, warriors, rich and poor, good and bad, etc.  Every lifetime experience has served to develop your intelligence and wisdom so that over time you became a person wise and experienced regarding the best forms of three dimensional living and survival.  It was not meant for this to be the final goal, but rather a portion of your journey toward remembering — every experience a step along the way to higher awareness.

“Ascension is a process.  When a spiritually prepared person becomes comfortable in their three dimensional world believing that they have reached the pinnacle of success and that there is nothing more, this world will often collapse on one or more levels — physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually allowing the first stage of their personal Easter to begin.

“For those living fully in the the third dimensional belief system these types of experiences are usually the manifestation of their belief in duality and separation but for the spiritually evolved, they represent the dissolution of the person’s old illusory belief system.  Always remember that nothing real can ever be lost but rather only changes form.  That which seems to have disappeared will reappear in better and higher form if it is a part of one’s consciousness of wholeness.

“The crucifixion of one’s belief system can be an excruciating experience leaving the person with no foundation to depend upon or to look toward for answers and solutions.  Friends and family often try to assist during this period but are unable to because the three dimensional tools they offer are not in alignment with the higher frequency process taking place.

“After many ‘failures’ to recreate what has been lost with three dimensional solutions, [we begin] to give up and stop resisting which then allows [us] to open to the inner guidance that has always been present but ignored.  [We] begin to disengage from the false beliefs that created the pain and suffering, and enter the ‘tomb’ to rest and process what has taken place.

“A new and higher state of consciousness is born as the individual rises out of [their] personal death and darkness, a consciousness that only those at a similar level of awareness can recognize.  As [they begin] incorporating and living from their new awareness, more truth unfolds and they become increasingly enlightened until at a certain point they are ready for ascension out of their old state of consciousness.

“On earth at this time, ascension means the shift of consciousness out of the third dimension and into the fifth, a dimension governed by frequencies of unconditional love and Oneness.

“The Christ is already fully present within each and every person but can not be experienced until recognized.  Many continue to cry out, ‘How could a loving God allow this?’  God activity cannot be present in a vacuum but must flow through his expressions on earth.  It is the same as having a large bank account that one is totally unaware of and so lives ignorantly in poverty.

“Through unawakened ignorance, the third dimensional state of consciousness has created the world of pain, suffering, lack, and limitation that most have come to accept as normal.  A world that many continue begging God to change.  Divine Consciousness knows nothing about what three dimensional thinking is creating because illusion does not exist in Divine Consciousness.  This is why the changes you wish to see, you must create.

“The Easter experience is here for all who choose it.  Mankind is now in the midst of the suffering, pondering, and dying part in preparation for resurrecting out of the duality and separation that has ruled and governed over hundreds of lifetimes.

“Up to now individuals had to physically die in order to ascend to a higher dimension, but at this powerful time mankind is ascending while in physical body.  The integration of higher more refined Light energies cannot take place with the old still in place, which is why most of you are in the process of clearing old cellular energy and remaining karmic issues at this time.

“Arcturian Group wishes to speak of the energy changes taking place on earth.  As the frequencies of earth become increasingly refined, there comes increasing chaos because when Light flows to that which is dark and heavy, it causes a reaction.

“Those continuing to hold tightly to the illusions of old energy are experiencing resistance and fear as they struggle through means that no longer work, to keep the status quo.  Everyone, those awake and those who are not, is experiencing the higher frequency energies, but because many do not understand what is going on, they are acting out in ways that make sense to their unawakened consciousness.

“Negative and false beliefs are beginning to be recognized for what they are, in the awareness of an increasing number of people starting to realize that they no longer agree with many of the beliefs and laws they previously accepted.  People are waking up the world over and starting to question what they have been told which in turn is causing resistance and action on the part of those who thrive from everything remaining in old energy.

“Hold to your center dear ones, holding the Light of truth closely within you at all times.  [Avoid getting] overly involved in the negative appearances that confront your awareness every day.  Concern and worry over appearances only adds more energy to those very things.  Allow false creations to dissolve into the nothingness that they really are, which will happen if they are no longer fed.

“Much is yet to be revealed.  Let trust and truth be your shield and sword, always remembering that nothing can make you less than the Divine Being that you are.  If someone were to shoot you in the heart, you would continue simply watching the show but from a different seat.  You are Divine beings always have been and forever will be, for there is nothing else.

“This realization is your Easter.”

In her post today, katie agrees…

https://roseandcactusquartz.com/2019/04/21/what-are-you/

“Your worth is stable and everlasting no matter what.  By the way, this wasn’t an easy conclusion to come to.  I spent a long time alone without a lot of these things [job, family, money, house, ‘expressing myself a certain way, looking a certain way, etc..  You can fill in your own blanks’] because I needed to learn I was worthy without them.

“One day when I thought I had had enough of ‘learning,’ it dawned on me that without all of these things that I thought were so important – I am talking make-or-break, life-or-death – that I was still here.  It sounds incredibly simple, but I spent so much time believing that these external things (could be anything for you) were what validated and affirmed my life!  Then I had the epiphany that I still very much exist with or without them.  I am valid with or without them.  I am an amazing, abundant person with or without them.”

A few folks have expressed that these “Dark Days” posts have Frightened them.  But how can anyone be Frightened by their own Karma, which they’ve so Intimately Lived With their whole Lives?  Well, actually, it’s easy – we’ve all painted a False Ego over our True Selves, and over our Karma, and it’s that False Ego that’s Frightened, because it Fears (Ego) Death.  But we’ve gone through Ego Death before, many times, haven’t we, and guess what – we’re still here!  With Uranus now in Taurus (Descent of Soul into Flesh), what an excellent Opportunity to Notice the Difference between Ego and Soul!

And as always, the Emergence of Fear is itself a fabulous Opportunity to Remember that Fear + Breathing = Excitement and Fear + Kegels = Power.  That’s especially relevant now, because Power and Chariklo’s primary characteristic, Self-Confidence, go hand in hand.  With seven-day Sensitivity, Chariklo’s Strengthening of Influence (Station) begins today.  And it’s not a huge leap to go from Pluto’s Compulsion, to Motivation, to Excitement (Pluto’s Station is Exact in only three days).  So Fear is Right On here, we just need to Respond to it Lovingly and Powerfully.

Remember the Lesson that Pluto taught us – that when Emotions are operating properly, they “go right through us,” and move on in a few moments?

If any Emotion befalls you and lasts more than five minutes, it’s no longer an Emotion that you’re Experiencing, it’s your Thoughts about your Emotion.  Those Thoughts are 99.9% Bullshit.  You’ve just gone from whatever Emotion you originally Encountered, to the Emotion of Anxiety.  When you try to Live your Life from the Bullshit Contents of the Stories that your Anxious Thoughts tell you, Failure is guaranteed.

The most Life-Changing thing we can Learn from these “Dark Days” (Pluto-Chariklo-Saturn-South Node) Dramas is to Notice that we’re in Anxiety and Deal With it as Anxiety.  That means Embracing it as the Emotion that it is, Poor-Sweethearting ourself (“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Anxiety, aren’t you”), and Changing the Subject.  When Anxious Thoughts Bully their way back in, Rinse and Repeat, as often as necessary.  It’s not how many times we Fall Down that counts, it’s how many times we Get Up.

No Limits IV

March 4, 2019

The third chart that’s relevant to this week, in addition to…

  • The 5 March (3:30 pm PST) Station of dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential) in 24 Gemini (see No Limits II, two posts ago)
  • The 6 March (8am PST) New Moon in 16 Pisces (see No Limits III, the previous post)

…is the chart for the 5 March (10:30 am PST) Station of Mercury in 30 Pisces, which also covers the 6 March (12:30 pm PST) Entry of Uranus into Taurus.  This third chart looks like so…

Mercury is about Communication.  When it goes Retrograde, as it’s doing now, the standard interpretation is that Travel becomes Difficult.  Like other arenas, Consciousness fixes so much of our would-be Fate.  If you’ve already scheduled Travel for March, be mindful that there could be hiccups, and if you meet them with Humor and the Expectation that they’ll be minor, they’ll probably prove to be so.  Every thought is a Prayer after all.  Ruminating on the Downside Empowers it, especially with Chaos Lit Up – Chaos can represent Unlimited Potential for Hassle if we Invite it to.

Mercury comes up to within a half Degree of the Start-Over Place, the Cusp of Aries (which symbolizes Creative Energy).  Now it’s turning about and will mosey back to the Midpoint of Pisces (which represents Letting Go of Emotions) at the end of March.  The Big Deal here is that its Station reaches across the aisle and Conjoins recently-Ensconced-in-Aries Chiron, the Adept of Converting Despair to Miracle.  This will color the entire three weeks of Mercury’s Regression.

The Message is that we want to be Ready to Poor-Sweetheart any Emotional setbacks we encounter in March.  That should get Easier after the Equinox, when asteroid Atropos (Endings) Enters Pisces.  Poor-Sweethearting our Feelings is very different from Denying, Ignoring, Suppressing, or Disregarding them, even though Poor-Sweethearting only takes a few minutes.  Poor-Sweethearting Acknowledges them Respectfully and Compassionately, and when the Human Unit is working properly, that’s all that’s necessary.

If we’re dealing with Karmic Held Emotions, we’ll find more homework – for instance, “You Poor Sweetheart, you feel like you’re Dying, don’t you” or “You Poor Sweetheart, you feel like you’d rather Die than Experience that again, don’t you.”  But we may be surprised at how Powerful even that is.

And of course, if we are in the habit or Denying, Ignoring, Suppressing, or Disregarding all or some of our Emotions, we could spend a lot of time floundering around not Knowing what the heck is happening to us.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you don’t know what you’re Feeling, do you” might be our new anthem.

Mercury-Chiron also makes a Square (Challenge) to Pholus-Ixion on the Cusp of Capricorn.  Pholus (our Desire or Need to Get Serious about Owning our Self-Sabotage) in Capricorn (Just Fix It!) is in the process of detaching itself from dwarf planet Ixion (our Forbidden Genius) which is still in Sagittarius (The Way Out Is To Let Go).  This Promises Impatience, as Pholus chomps at the bit while Ixion Lingers over finding and cutting the last few bits of the Shame that has kept It in Chains.

Uranus, symbol for Soul, Enters Taurus 4½ hours after the New Moon, telling us that we may Need to Address Health Issues before the Soul can Enter Flesh in its Full Glory (Trumpets, Chorus of Angels, etc).  Our Life Force (Varuna) is Challenged (T-Square) by the Need to Resolve any Apparent Conflict (Opposition) between the Rebirth (Haumea) available when we Adjust our Boundaries (Pallas) to Reflect our Heart’s Truth (Aletheia), and our Soul’s Purpose (Uranus).

Brenda Hoffman’s Channeling for today reflects this Life Force and Health theme…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2019/03/04/cellular-muck-is-out-of-here/

In other words, you’re probably Well Aware of the Habit Patterns that Impact your Vitality, but so far you haven’t Motivated yourself enough to Change them.  But now it’s Time to quit procrastinating, and Change your Lifestyle.  Your Lack of Motivation indicates that you need to reach across the Low Stone Wall and Enlist the Aid of the Unconscious.

R.J. Stewart (in The Underworld Initiation: A Journey Toward Psychic Transformation) tells us that this model of Consciousness-Unconsciousness is wrong, at least relative to Gaelic Tradition.  What we see as the Unconscious is actually Another, very Real, World.  A Parallel Life as it were, if we Personalize it.  Which is fine – rather than Enlisting “the Unconscious” we can Enlist our Parallel!  That has Advantages anyway.

We Enlist the Aid of the Unconscious, and of our Parallels and Guides and Angels, by using PIAVA (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/).

The “V,” for Visualization, will be handy here.  Alternatively or Additionally, you can also “Feelize” – Feeling Into A Future instead of Seeing it in your “mind’s Eye.”  Our Objective is a Healthy and Vigorous Body for our Soul to use as its Vehicle.  The more time we can spend Seeing ourself cast in that Image and/or Feeling what we’ll Feel when we arrive there, the better.  We could even Imagine ourself Changing the World by Speaking Clearly and Powerfully, or by Extending our Power through our Hara.

The point is that we want to Psychically Practice Being who we need to Become, and we want to make it a major Agenda item on our daily schedule.  This Practice is likely to Awaken Fears that we’ve been Hiding from ourself, probably Fears related to the way our Forbidden Genius was Shamed into Hiding.  Theta Healing would be a good PIAVA to use on these Fears – “God/Goddess, I Command that I Choose to Conclude these Fear Timelines, Lovingly, Rapidly, and Safely.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done!  Thank you God/Goddess!  Show me!”

We’re referring here to the Merger of Sedna (Fear) and Lachesis (Consciously Choosing to End a Timeline) which ties together the Mercury Station, the Uranus Sign Change, our Health Challenge, and the Recovery of our Forbidden Genius.  We can look forward to a Momentous March!

“Experiments show that the focus of our attention changes reality itself and suggest that we live in an interactive universe.”  Gregg Braden, The Spontaneous Healing of Belief, p.x.

Some relevant articles follow.  First, the most Comprehensive (and Clear and Short!) Perspective I’ve seen on the Schumann Resonance, also called the “Heartbeat of the Earth,” which has been fibrillating…

https://drjoedispenza.net/blog/consciousness/what-does-the-spike-in-the-schumann-resonance-mean/

Second, a useful Perspective on Relating to Nature, aided of course by Attunement to the new Schumann Resonance…

https://qz.com/1557308/psychoterratica-is-the-trauma-caused-by-distance-from-nature/

Third, two independent Processes for Directly Improving our Health…

https://www.pccmarkets.com/sound-consumer/2019-03/eat-organic-lower-cancer-risk-by-25/

https://www.pccmarkets.com/sound-consumer/2019-03/new-study-finds-less-diabetes-with-organics/

We want to add a comment to these, however.  They refer to Eating Organic Food, but based on my Experience and on everything else I know, Eating Organic is not quite enough, as part of the lethality of the SAD or Standard American Diet, is Packaged Food, Organic or Otherwise.  So it’s more about Eating Organic Fruits and Vegetables and Paying Attention to Fiber, though the Diabetes article advises that if you’re Eating Meat, Eggs, and/or Dairy, make those Organic as well.  And be Cautious with All Packaged food.  Restaurants, unless they’re Organic, become anathema.

It’s not generally known, but almost all “conventional” (ie, Non-Organic) Grains and Sugars are saturated with Glyphosate (Roundup) immediately before harvest, leaving them highly contaminated.  As an FDA-certified Antibiotic, Glyphosate, by allowing only your most destructive gut flora to survive, literally Eats your stomach lining, which is (or was) the Front Line of your Immune System.  If for any reason you Avoid Gluten, you may have noticed that it’s almost impossible to find Organic Gluten-Free Grains.  These people – https://www.happycampersgf.com/ – are a welcome exception.

If you know your Local Farmers, it doesn’t have to be Certified Organic (which is expensive), it just has to use Organic Methods and eschew Toxic Chemicals.  To Resolve Apparent Conflict between the Rebirth available when we Adjust our Boundaries to Reflect our Heart’s Truth and our Soul’s Purpose, we may have to Adjust our Budget Priorities, and/or Get Creative about how we Obtain our Food.  The Environmental Working Group (https://www.ewg.org/) and the Cornucopia Institute (https://www.cornucopia.org/) may be helpful.

Kegels 5

February 7, 2019

I see that more folks than usual are up late looking for answers.  At the risk of sounding oversimple, it probably wouldn’t hurt to review the equations in Einstein’s famous Theory of Relativity…

  • Fear + Courage = Perspective
  • Fear + Breathing = Excitement
  • Fear + Tapping = Grounding
  • Fear + Kegels = Power
  • Anxiety + Poor-Sweethearting = Detachment

I often write late at night, and I used to live in a basement apartment.  While writing I would sometimes feel the hairs on the back of my neck rising, as if someone was just outside my curtained windows looking for an opening.  One night I gathered up my courage and flung open the door – to find a Glorious Full Moon staring at me from the Darkness!

Another time I lived in a creaky old house, and I was alone in the house, in my bedroom with the door shut, when a series of creaks and groans sounded for all the world like someone sneaking up to my door.  Again I flung open the door – and found myself staring at a wardrobe mirror leaning against the wall in the hall, just outside my door.  Now that was scary!  “We have found the Enemy…” as Pogo used to say.

Fear + Breathing is an old equation, which I’ve heard from many reliable sources, and which works well.  Dr. Kim has dozens of excellent variations at…

https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=dr+kim+d%27eramo+anxiety

Many of the videos that are less than two minutes long are pitches for her longer sessions, but most of the longer ones share Powerful Mind-Body techniques, like this one…

Dr. Kim includes Tapping in many of these videos.  One of the first things we do in serious Fear is Leave Our Body.  Tapping (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) can bring us back in.  In some sense, Leaving our Body is an effective strategy – if someone is about to kill us, we’re already gone, so there isn’t much else they can do to hurt us.  But it may help create a lousy next Lifetime, if we re-enter as a Terrified, Implacable Child.  We have more tools at our disposal when we stay in our Body, or get back In.

I’ve mentioned my Kegels story before, so humor me while I repeat it.  I Learned about Fear and Kegels in a workshop with Jack Schwarz (http://holisticu.org/).  Quite innocently, I went to see the movie Aliens after the workshop.  If you haven’t seen it, the Fear level goes off the charts after a few minutes, and never comes back down till a few minutes before the end of the movie.  Having just Learned it, I was doing Kegels like mad all through the movie – two hours of solid Kegeling!

Jack taught that Kegels Slow Down Time.  If Fear is coming at you at 2mph, it’s a lot easier to handle than at 60mph.  Between the movie theater and where I lived was a mile-long bridge, and after the movie it took me absolutely Forever to cross that bridge!  In that mile I looked at my speedometer maybe ten times, and it kept saying 40mph, but the bridge wouldn’t go away.  It was like being in the Twilight Zone.  I’ve never heard anyone mention Kegels in connection with sports, but I now understand how someone can hit an 80mph curveball.  Sports often refers to it as being “In the Zone.”

And once we’ve determined that our Fear or Agitation is not Present-Moment, or that we aren’t in Imminent Danger, we can say to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Anxious, aren’t you.”  Or “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Worried about that deadline, aren’t you.”  As Quilless testified in her Comment to Kegels 4, she “experienced notable Shifts” when she Poor-Sweethearted herself.  It’s a remarkably simple and Powerful technique.

We don’t Leave our Body when we Poor-Sweetheart, but we certainly Leave our Ego, or rather, switch Horses to a different Ego.  It’s basically a Shift into Self-Love.  It’s particularly effective with Anxiety and Worry, because those are markers for being Out Of Self-Love and Questioning our own Competence.  Every Experience is an Opportunity to Learn something Life-Changing.  What if we started every morning with “I Wonder What Wonderful Life-Changing Things I’ll Learn Today.”

One thing I Learned today is that I can afford to be even more Assertive about shunting my Shoulds to the side to make more room for my Wannas.  I tried to work on a big project that’s due next week, and got nowhere, wasting several unproductive hours in the process.  Even when I Noticed how much more Anxiety was involved in having to do everything myself, and PIAVAed help from the Great Spirit and Her Designees, I got nowhere!  So I got the message, Gave It Over, and dove Joyfully into my Wannas.

Considering that Sedna (Fear/Power) is Stationary (Strong) within an eighth of a Degree of the Fixed Star Algol (the Eye of Medusa), we need to review the status of Gender Balance in the World this week.  I think this sums it up fairly well…

…with Speaker Pelosi giving the Antichrist a Celebratory Stinkeye for soundbiting compromise while offering none.  Not exactly a Perseus Moment for the Alpha.

Self-Judgment and Self-Love VI

January 20, 2019

Did we emphasize enough how we might Respond to encountering any Impediments to our Self-Love?  The Easiest would probably be Poor-Sweethearting.  All you have to do is say to yourself, silently or not, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Guilty, aren’t you.” for, e.g., Guilt.  You could plug in any other Self-Judgment, or a different verb, such as “Discouraged,” or even “you’d rather Die, wouldn’t you.”

But before we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, we may want to get Conscious of how we’re Identifying ourself.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’d rather Die, wouldn’t you” might be exactly what you need if you’re Identifying with Extricating yourself from a situation that has no other exits.  But we can make an intermediate step – Identifying with what we’re Feeling.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Hopelessness, aren’t you” Identifies that you’re dealing with an Emotion rather than hardcopy 3D Reality.

Emotions can be Crippling, we know that, but they aren’t the Whole Story.  There are always other Perspectives.  Just Acknowledging that we’re dealing with an Emotion, rather than a Complete Reality, Expands our Awareness because we can’t help but Realize now that there are other things in the Universe besides Emotion.  For many of us, our Emotions are our Bottom Line, but they aren’t Everything.  So doing your Poor-Sweetheart once again with Feeling is useful, but it’s not the real point of Poor-Sweethearting.

When you talk to yourself and address yourself as “You,” you Step Out of your former Identity.  When you talk to yourself Compassionately, you’re no longer Identifying with the Bummer you want to Leave Behind, you’re now Identifying with Compassion – you’re actually stepping into Self-Love.  As long as you aren’t saying it Sarcastically, by adding the Poor you also take a step toward Empathy.

Our Self-Talk and our Thoughts Reveal where our actual Identity sits in any given moment.  Becoming Aware that we’re Talking to Ourself and that we’re Thinking, is a major Expansion of Consciousness, especially if we can make it a Habit.  When we shift from “I’d rather Die” to “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair, aren’t you,” our Identity shifts first from Despair itself, to our Emotions.  We Create Miracles by taking the next step – we Change the Subject.

We’ve Poor-Sweethearted ourself, now we need to Step Aside so it can do its work.  If we continue to focus on Despair or Emotion after we’ve Poor-Sweethearted ourself, we aren’t using the Power inherent in it.  Think of a Bummer, even a tiny one, for a minute.  Then Poor-Sweetheart yourself about it, then look to see if your Mood or Vibration has shifted.  I always feel much Lighter afterward, and I suspect you will too.

Once we move our Attention away, the Magic can happen.  If we’re still thinking about the Bummer, nothing has Changed, and we may need to try another strategy, like Tapping.  Toggling back and forth from Poor-Sweethearting to Tapping, and back again, as many times as you need to, could be very Powerful.  Our Habitual Thoughts are Cages that stop us from entering the Dangerous (to the Ego) world of Growth.  Only by Changing the Subject can we allow the bars to re-form to Enclose a larger space.

A technical note: Feeling Like does not introduce an Emotion, it introduces a Thought.  The word Feeling must be followed by a word that indicates an Emotion, before you’re really dealing with Emotion.  If you’re Feeling Like Shit, you’re still in your Thoughts.  You’re Referring to neither your Emotions nor your Physical Body, but your Judgments about one or the other, or both.  Judgments are Thoughts.  Differentiating your Emotions from your Thoughts is a very Powerful Growth in Consciousness all by itself.

The chart of today’s (20 January 9:15 pm PST) 1 Leo Total Lunar Eclipse Vitality Full Moon, apart from the Grand Octile, is busy…

But if you look at the big blue triangle (Grand Trine, aka Dumb-Luck Blessings), you’ll notice that Chiron (it looks like a key) and Ceres (like an upside-down cuphook) are two of the three corners – Moon-Varuna-North Node (Instincts-Life Force-Mission) is the third.  Plus, by adding Sun-South Node-Karma-Atropos-Mercury (Essence-Held Emotions-Bad Habits-Endings-Awareness; it’s a story problem – make a sentence including all five of these concepts) we make a Kite (Directed Dumb-Luck Blessings).

So whatever else is going on here at the Sappho-Station Total-Lunar-Eclipse Vitality Full Moon, the route to making it all Effortless lies through Chiron (Despair, Miracles, Poor-Sweethearting) and Ceres (Sustainability) – making it a Lifetime Habit to Poor-Sweetheart yourself at the first sign of distress.  You aren’t Avoiding anything by Poor-Sweethearting it; you’re Stepping Out of the Way so your Heart (aka your Inner Female) can Love it to death without interference from the Limitations of your Present-Moment Ego.

Dr. Kim is on track with the Year of Self-Love as well – if like me you’re irritated by the constant movement of the camera, you may want to click to a blank tab so you can Listen without the distraction…

I wonder if it’d be easier to watch if I said to myself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Irritiated, aren’t you.”  Let me give it a try…  Yup, complete transformation!

Life Force Full Moon

January 12, 2019

It’s still a week away, but the Full Moon and Total Lunar Eclipse occurs on 20 January (9pm PST) at 1 Leo.  It’s visible in full throughout the Western Hemisphere.  And it’s Merged with (Conjunct) dwarf planet Varuna, the Life Force, the Energy which Animates Entities of all sorts.

An Eclipse symbolizes Illumination, as what we have not been Seeing is suddenly Obvious by its Absence.  Consciousness is Expanded not by Discovery, but by Differentiation.  We hear a Bird chirping in a Tree, but we can’t find it – till it moves.  Then we Realize we’ve been looking at it all along, we just didn’t Differentiate it from its Background.

“At first each change leads to new fears and discomforts but once acclimatized to the new conditions, the knowledge that they have overcome yet more hazards rewards them with greater happiness and their power grows with each new experience; the more power they develop, the speedier is their progress in every way.

“Power is the key which controls all life in growth, in colour and in form; the greater the power, the greater the progress of both the giver and receiver.  As it increases, so the capacity for giving grows and, with each advance, the giver evolves in sensitivity and is thus enabled to enjoy each ensuing experience with added understanding and pleasure.  Power is that which enables all events to take place and without it life would become extinct.

“You may think that a plant extracts all the nourishment that it requires from the soil and so, in a small measure, it does, for there is power of Life in the earth too and without this individual effort of plant or tree, it could not progress.  We can come a little more than halfway, but each entity, or part of one, whether it be man, beast, or plant, must make his contribution too.

“However much power we give, unless the recipient, by his own endeavor, opens himself to receive it, very little can penetrate his physical jacket, and if he relaxes his effort altogether, he dies; to live again, it is true, but as it is not permitted for a Man to take his life, so it is not good for a plant to die because it has ceased to thrive.

“Remember, I pray, when you are weary and wish to give in, if you relax and ask for help, we will respond immediately, for by your request you have built the bridge over which we must pass to aid you.  We are waiting, not miles up in the sky, but right by your side, and that one simple effort to contact us will serve as the breeze which will revive the almost dormant spark of courage within you.”

“Power to the fairies is work, food, drink, recreation, and love-making combined; in fact, the giving and taking of it in its various forms constitutes their entire lives…”

“Always there is a fairy present when you light a fire, whether it is an open grate of crackling logs or the kitchen boiler; it is his duty to give power to the astral body of the fuel and thus stimulate it so that it will burn brighter for your benefit.  Others, likewise, must give power to the water in your pipes, or else it would lose all its health-giving properties.  The air, too, has constantly to be revitalized or that which you draw into your lungs would choke rather than keep you alive…”

“All the material objects in your home, whether of fabric, wood or metal, must receive power, otherwise they would fall to pieces, for power is a necessity to an astral body whether of Man, beast or inanimate object, as are food and drink to the physical body of the animal and even vegetable kingdom…”

“If Man and Fairy would work together as they should, the Earth would bring forth fruits such as Man has never known.”

–Deva Marusis, “The Origin, Life, and Evolution of the Fairies,” in Daphne Charters, Forty Years with the Fairies, pp.45-54.

That which Animates.  If you know anything about Quantum Physics, you recognize the process.  Same Phenomena, different Metaphors.

There are three levels of Interpretation for Lunar Energy.  Not three levels of Lunar Energy, but three levels of sophistication in Interpreting and understanding Lunar Energy.  At the first level, the Moon represents Change, or random variation, random Motion, random Emotion.  When someone cuts you off on the freeway, sometimes you think, “They must be in a hurry,” and other times you curse them.  Random Reactions.

In the second level of Interpretation, the Moon represents our Instincts.  In the first case, you likely sensed that the person who cut you off was having an emergency of some kind, while in the second case you may have Instinctively Knew that the driver was Angry, and his (well, would a her cut you off?  Maybe, but less likely) reckless driving was an Act of Competition.

On the third level, the Moon stands for the Energy that holds Matter together, in the way described by Marusis above.  Remember, to Manifest we need Clarity, Neutrality, and Passion.  Clarity in the sense that we’ve Cleared any Resistance from the Unconscious, Neutrality in the sense that we don’t have an Emotional Investment in any specific Outcome, and Passion in the sense that we Care Deeply.

Is there a Contradiction between this Neutrality and this Passion?  Maybe, but Remember that Contradiction occurs only in Duality, ie, only in the mind of the Observer, not in Observed Reality.  So if you want to call it a Paradox instead of a Contradiction, I’d be fine with that.  Still skeptical about how you could Care Deeply and Passionately without an Emotional Attachment?  Your Passion is your Motivation.  It drives you to immer Streben.  Not getting the Outcome you want doesn’t deter you.

Consider your Deepest Desire.  You’ve been Streben for it as long as you’ve been Alive, and you still don’t have it.  Does that mean you give up?  You couldn’t if you wanted to – you’d just sublimate it and Seek it by a different name, one that is politically correct to your Ego.   Spots?  No, those aren’t Spots, they’re Stripes!  You’re the only one who Believe that, but what does that matter?  It’s just a word.

But your Deepest Desire is just a placeholder.  The closer you get to it, the more it morphs.  It’s a distorted picture of your Mission, but it’s the Clearest picture you can grok at your current level of Awareness.  Your True Mission is ineffable.  PIAVA it, and see what happens.  “I Wonder what it might look like to have Neutrality and Passion at the same time.”

This is why the Moon frequently Triggers other astroevents.  Because the Lunarglue is necessary for events or objects or circumstances to Adhere and stay Adhered.  Personalizing this Lunar Energy, whether by the name of Faerie, Ganesha, God/Goddess, the Unseen Therapist, Mother Mary, or Fred, gives you the advantage that you have someone to address when you Ask for its, or their, aid.  If you make it a Religion, you lose, because in most cases, when you confine Spirit to Either/Or, you’ve put a dagger through its Varuna.  Spirit and the Moon are Both/And.