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The Most Important Thing 4

May 21, 2020

 

In the land of the Deaf, the One-Eared is King.

 

For the 22 May 2020 (9:30 am PDT) New Moon in 3 Gemini, which applies to the next several weeks, we’re back to the 10 May Priorities Energy (Saturn Station) that we described in The Most Important Thing 2 post (the chart with the one-eared Flying Squirrel).

That was a week and a half ago, so some of the Players have Changed.  For instance, at that time Self-Love (asteroid Sappho) was the major Challenge (T-Square).  For the New Moon, the major Challenge is Manifestation (dwarf planet Makemake).  While the Object of the Challenge has changed, the Source (base of the T-Square) has not.  It’s our Life Path (Nodal Axis).

Yes, we absolutely believe in Destiny.  If you insist on remaining Unconscious.  The more Conscious we become, the more we replace Fate with Choice.  We each have a Life Mission (North Node), but it’s waaay more Multidimensional than our Dualistic Mind can grasp.  It doesn’t hurt to try, as long as you add “…or something like that” to every attempt.  In order to move toward our Life Mission, we need tools that we can only get by facing down our Held Emotions (South Node), the ones that We’d rather Die than Feel.

Oops, we put the accent on the wrong syl-ob‘ble (syllable).  It’s We’d rather Die than Feel – we don’t do Held Emotions without an Ego Death.  Ego Death is of course the second stage of Growth in Consciousness.  The first stage is Confusion, though there’s a lot of interbreeding between Ego Death and Confusion.  After the pregnancy, we Birth a new, more Conscious Ego, if we’re willing to do the Work.

Doing the Work has two parts.  The first is being willing to Tolerate our Confusion without Killing It – Killing Confusion means Trying to Figure Out (thinking) Why (again, thinking) we’re Confused so we can make it Go Away.  Confusion is an Emotion in its own right, and one of the more Powerful, if subtle, Emotions we have.  The Patriarchy gets its toxic aversion to Change by banning Confusion from polite company.   It’s not macho.

The second part of the Work is being willing to Sit Through our Ego Death without Running Away from it.  Sitting through Ego Death means Opening to whatever Emotions arise (not macho) and being Loving and Gentle (again, not macho) with them .

Yes, there will be Stories, but they aren’t necessary.  We can briefly Appreciate them, but we want to dismiss them quickly, so we can Pay as much Attention as possible to the Emotion.  The Stories are more thinking, and like Chocolate-covered quicksand, they’re totally Compelling, and difficult to escape from.  Addictive even.  How many people do you know who are Addicted to their Victim Stories?

What Victim Stories are You Addicted to?  They might make good material for you to practice on, Separating Emotion from Thinking, and using Sensation as a Guide to keep you Feeling and not Thinking.

There’s a good reason why the word Feeling applies both to Sensation and Emotion.

A good way to Open to an Emotion is to Locate it, or any Discomfort, in our Body, and put All of our Attention on that spot, while we watch what’s happening for us Emotionally.  Put your hand on that spot to warm it – Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  If you can’t find the Emotion in your Body, or there are many Discomforts, just pick the most likely spot, while trying not to think about it.  You want to Feel it, not Think it.

Emotions don’t have grammatical Objects.  You’re never Angry At [xyz], you’re just Angry.  You’re never Sad About [abc], you’re just Sad.  The grammatical Objects we love to add to Feelings are thinking, not Feeling.  Putting an Object on an Emotion freezes you in Time, and Emotions are Timeless, especially Held or Karmic Emotions.  And if an Emotion is difficult for you to Tolerate, and difficult to Let Go Of, you can bet it’s Karmic.

When an Emotion is Karmic, its roots are not in the Current Lifetime, so dwelling on some Current-Lifetime Chagrin will never touch it.  And a Karmic Emotion will be cemented in by a zillion iterations, so if you have a Story about it from a different Lifetime, dwelling on that Story is just more Karmic masturbation.  It won’t Impregnate you with a new Ego that sports Expanded Consciousness.  Just more Thinking when you need Feeling.

When our Attention Wanders, as it will, frequently, we just Lovingly and Gently bring our Attention back to where there’s Discomfort in our Body.  No Judgment.  It Is What It Is.  When the Discomfort Moves, we’ve succeeded.  We can Follow it, if we still have Attention to spare, or we can Change the Subject, wait a while, and see that happens.

From https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2012/11/05/curiosity-and-the-void-ii/

PIAVA, in case you’ve forgotten or tuned in recently, stands for Pray-Intend-Ask-Visualize-Affirm.  Each is basically similar, but some work better for some of the people some of the time…  The Magnetic Feminine manifestation process runs PIAVA, Change the Subject, Pay Attention.  You have to Change the Subject (or as the Buddhists put it, Lose Your Mind) because if you keep thinking about it, your Old Birdcage will constrain your Reality to be the way it’s always been.  And you have to Pay Attention because whenever you PIAVA anything, the first thing that the Universe provides is information about why you haven’t had what you’re asking for all along.”

As it was in our Priorities Energy, our Karma in the New Moon Energy is all about Recovering our Hidden and Forbidden Genius (South Node [Held Emotions] Conjunct dwarf planet Ixion [our Unique Genius]…) so we can “fix” Climate Change (…and dwarf planets Pholus [Are we Missing anything?] and Quaoar [Survival]).  This is a Unique Opportunity that occurs only every nineteen or so years, when our Hidden and Forbidden Genius and our Held Emotions Converge (South Node Conjunct Ixion).

We’re all troubled by Serious Problems that are much bigger than our usual Span of Control, be they Climate Change, outacontrolavirus, bumpstocks, coyotes, politics, clearcutting, Roundup, in-laws, oligarchies, taxes, overpopulation, locusts, food insecurity, pigshit lagoons, coal ash, people running around nude under their clothes, undsoweiter ecosìvia adinfinitum.

The fact that our Forbidden Genius is Verboten is almost certainly Karmic.  If you’ve ever had a Fantasy about having Superpowers and Fixing some Problem much larger than your usual Span of Control, or even publicly Expressing your Frustration about the Problem, you’re Touching your Forbidden Genius.

The World Mirrors our Inner Balance, so we all have our own Inner Climate Change process happening – we’re all Denying chronic Problems that we Believe are beyond our Span of Control because they’re hiding behind our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs.  We Deny them because it’s a healthy way to deal with Issues that would just overwhelm our current Ego.  And there’s a strong correlation between our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs and our Held Emotions.

To touch the Edges of your Held Emotions, Focus on What You Feel when you contemplate your Obsession with the Global or Personal Problems that seem to be beyond your Power to Change.

To touch the Edges of your Forbidden Genius, Focus on What You Feel when you have that Superpower Fantasy.

Then Change the Subject, and tune in tomorrow to see if anything Feels different.  Then rinse and repeat.

More to follow…

Vacancies

May 9, 2020

A reader Wonders…

“I just realized I am not well versed in the ‘vacant spot’ and how to read it; for example, 19 Virgo (near my Natal Jup) – Is the vacant point an important piece to incorporate Natal planet positions to understand creating the pattern within the transits?  Or is the vacant spot more an indication of what is to be understood from the pattern configuration?  If you have any references from your posts that I could study further?  Or maybe a quick explanation will do the trick.”

Yes, when you’re at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/, there’s a long column of keywords (“categories”) to the right of the text.  If you’re looking at a specific post, it doesn’t show up.  I try to add a keyword to a post only when the post explains the term, but I’m not totally consistent about categorizing all posts.  I notice that there are two cubbyholes for “Vacancy,” one under “Planets etc.” and one under “Astrologuese.”  They should be combined, as there’s no difference in how they’re used – but it would take me about an hour to combine them, so I won’t bother.

But let’s go ahead with a quick explanation, as we never know what we’re going to find from the keyword list – I “improve” my astrology constantly, so I’ll just tell you how I use Vacancies now…

Configurations in a chart are combinations of planetary angles that, usually, fill the Zodiac (usually that means they add to 360 Degrees).  For instance, the Grand Sextille comprises six planets each two Signs or 60 Degrees apart, 6 x 60 = 360.  The Grand Sextile (and the Grand Anything) is considered to be much more Powerful than six Sextiles randomly placed around a chart or less well organized.

I consider it an Almost-Grand Sextile when five of the six Positions are occupied, because if we supply the missing Energy in the sixth Position, then we Complete the Grand Sextile and Enjoy the Benefits  (kinda like Bingo or the Lotteries, of a Full Hand in Poker).  It’s similar with other Almost-Grand Configurations – Quintile, Septile, etc. Occasionally, when it seems appropriate, I’ll consider a Configuration with two Vacancies to be Almost-Grand.  Like the four adjoining Septiles we had at the 25 April 2020 Pluto Station, where just for the heck of it we looked to see if there were Stars at the missing three Positions (still in my queue, Bob!).

Notice that an Almost-Grand Cross is a T-Square – the primary Benefit of any Grand Configuration is that it’s Balanced, including the Grand Cross.  It combines four T-Squares, but it’s In Balance, so it’s not considered as Troublesome as the T-Square.  The primary Challenge of the T-Square then is to Create Balance from it.  We don’t usually consider the Vacancy of a T-Square, but it wouldn’t hurt to do so.

We were looking at a 19-Virgo Vacancy in the Almost-Grand Sextile in the 7 May Full Moon chart.  I don’t have a way to check to see if a Vacancy may be occupied by asteroids (or even dwarf planets) that I don’t usually use – I wish I did, as it would help a lot.  If anyone has a way to do this, let me know.  So if none of the “planets” (meaning planets, asteroids, dwarfs, Lights, Nodes, etc) I use are there, I look for Stars nearby.  That’s an iffy proposition, as there aren’t that many Stars that are cataloged for use by astrologers.  However, if there’s a Biggie there, like Arcturus or Regulus or Sirius, that’s Huge.

Whether there’s a Star near the Vacancy or not, if you have a natal planet there, you automatically Complete the Configuration, without even trying.  So for you it’s a full Grand Sextile, because you Embody the Energies of your natal chart.  If you have natal planets near any of the other planets in the Configuration, that’s worth noting as well, because that natal planet will be Lit Up more than usual.  As Huminals (Huper Animals), we’re like Viruses, with those little Spikes all over, corresponding to the planets in our natal chart, each of which is an Antenna for broadcasting and picking up (and maybe getting Stuck on) Energies from outside of ourself.

So that Almost-Grand Sextile in the Full Moon chart comprised…

  • Klotho – Beginning New Timelines
  • Sun-Mercury – Awareness of our Essence
  • Neptune – Our Relationship to Energies Larger than Our Own
  • Hylonome-Veritas – Insights into our Codependence
  • Moon – our Instincts

If we add a Jupiter to that in the Vacancy, which would apply only to you, we Expand everything.  A Grand Sextile itself is about fabulous Grace or Good Luck in combining the Energies in each Sextile, which in turn is about Projects where we take the First Step and the Universe takes over after that.  So for the next several weeks (Full Moon charts impact the following 2-4 weeks) we might be finding excellent progress around Expanding New Projects that involve Trusting our own Instincts more, and Listening More to (and/or PIAVAing the Assistance of) our Guides, instead of Playing to or Soliciting the Opinions of Others.

Now, for most of the rest of us, without a planet in or near 19 Virgo, we have to Consciously add the Energy of the Vacancy in order to take advantage of the Enhanced Grace of the Grand Sextile.  For a guess about what that might mean we’d read the Sabian Symbol for that Degree, 19 Virgo: “A Swimming Race.”  To me that means Efficiency at processing our Emotions.  So for the rest of us for the next several weeks we might find great progress with New Projects that involve Trusting our own Instincts more, Listening More to our Guides and Soliciting their Assistance more, and Trusting our own Emotions (as Opposed to our Thoughts About them of course), instead of Trying to Please Others.

For all of us, the Programming we received from our Mothers is likely to be particularly Lit Up, since the Saturn Station occurs on Mother’s Day.  And we can’t ignore the fact that the Moon goes Out of Bounds on Mothers Day, so it’s all going to be a lot more Emotional than it would be usually – though telling Mom to Butt Out of our Choices will probably always be a Chancy Conversation.  But its a Grand Sextile, suggesting very Positive Outcomes from any Project that we Initiate, so it may be the best time ever to Begin our Self-Liberation.

Or, you can take an Easier path, especially if your Mum is Difficult (or Deceased), and use your Mirrors instead.  Either way our Relationship with our Dear Mother is Changing, so we want to Make the Best of the Opportunity in whatever way Feels best to us – that is, by Trusting our Emotions.  If our Emotions are Conflicted, as they’re likely to be, what an Opportunity to Stay Present with our Confusion and Avoid trying to Fix it.

If your Mother is the type to Demand Commitment, what an Opportunity to Stand your Ground (Veritas-Hylonome) – “Mom, I hear that you’re Asking for a firm Commitment, but I’m not Ready to do that, so we’ll have to leave the whole Issue Dangling till I am Ready, and I don’t know when that will be.”  Then, while the odds of Success are Great (Grand Sextile), you get to Practice Not Trying to Fix or Manipulate your Mother’s Emotions!

You might think this all sounds Daunting, but it’s a Critical and Natural part of Claiming Your Power, and as we’ve said, there may never be a Better Time.  Trying to stuff your Mother’s Heavy Emotions into your Carrion Bag for the Ascension Flight won’t work.  They’ll bump you off the Flight for overweight.

The Most Important Thing

May 9, 2020

If you can find and watch 24:30 through 35:00 of this video, you’ll be very Clear about The Most Important Thing…

If you don’t plan to spend much Future Time on this Planet, in your current Lifetime or others, then no worries.  If Life-Threatening Challenges are your Cuppa Tea, then no worries.  Otherwise, This is Big.  Compared to This, everything else is as Important as making mudpies.  So we highly recommend that you quit wasting Emotional and Physical Energy and Time fretting about the mudpies, and Commit yourself fully to The Most Important Thing.

Don’t worry about the details, just PIAVA to Lovingly and Gently come to Grok your Perfect Unique Role, in your own Time.  When you do find your Perfect Unique Role, it’ll be Great Fun, and not at all the Difficulty – or Impossibility – that you now imagine it to be.  It’s really true that If you aren’t part of the Solution you’re part of the Problem, so please, No Longer Lend Your Strength to That Which You Wish to Be Free From.

Of course your own The Most Important Thing must Arise from your own Heart, but we do need to warn that we’ll be Obsessing about our own personal The Most Important Thing till at least 9pm PDT on 10 May 2020 (when Saturn [The Most Important Thing] Stands Still in the Sky [Impacts us Strongly] at 2 Aquarius).  Oh, our Values will also be up for review till at least 11:45 pm 12 May (when Venus [Values] Stands Still in the Sky at 21 Gemini).  So lots of Self-Review.  Of course The Most Important Way to Approach The Most Important Thing is to monitor yourself to Avoid dwelling on WhatYouDon’tWant, so you can keep your Focus – which is what Creates your Future – on WhatYouDoWant.

Which, with everything (us included) Changing rapidly, means we can Expect to Experience Confusion fairly often.  Confusion isn’t my Favorite Emotion.  Which is why I’m working hard on Turning That Around, so Confusion becomes my Favorite Emotion.  Well, maybe my second-Favorite, after Ecstasy.  At any rate, Confusion is the first sign of Growth in Consciousness.  So it’s Precious.  Our Concept Set forms the skeleton for our Ego and rationalizes our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (such as “Nothing I can do about that!“).  Positive Change is Available only when our Concept Set wavers and quivers – which means we Feel Confused.

 

Tweety is our Ego, the Cage is our Concept Set, and Sylvester is everything that’s Eliminated from our Life by our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  Notice how Tweety looks kind of Confused by what’s happening.

 

However, Growth in Consciousness only occurs when we don’t try to outsmart our Confusion.  (Tweety relies on her Instinctual Wisdom of Experience, not Mentality).  When we try to Figure Out what’s Confusing us and make it Go Away, we Lose our Opportunity for Growth.  Figuring It Out just regrouts the bricks in the walls of our Concept Set.  This is especially important here while the symbol for our Ego is still Merged with the symbol for our Confidence (Stationary Saturn [Ego] Conjunct dwarf planet Chariklo [Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt], which runs from December 2019 till January 2021).  I mean, what’s more Important to the Ego than Confidence?

We know Intuitively that nothing makes a Huper more Attractive to Other Hupers than Self-Confidence.  It makes Life so much easier when Others find us Attractive and want to curry our favor.  Confidence is far more Compelling than Competence – that’s how the Antichrist Bullied his way into Fame and Glory.  Self-Doubt is one of the biggest impediments to Abundance.  Unfortunately, many of us are Addicted to Self-Doubt.  We get there by failing to Embrace Ego Death.

The Antichrist gives us a Master Teaching at Avoiding Self-Doubt.  He just Reframes History, Effortlessly and Immediately.  We may not want to do it his way, but the Lesson is Valuable because it brings the Issue into the Light of Day.  The Issue is, Do we Create our own Reality or Not?  He’s obviously a Master at Creating a Surreality that fits him to a T.  History books are full of Masters at Creating their own Surrealities.  The Antichrist Demonstrates the process – just Create your own Surreality, and whenever it conflicts with Reality, quickly Adjust it.  His Goal is Adulation.  We could emulate his techniques for other Goals, such as Abundance (Having Enough to Share), a Livable Environment, a Collaborate Culture, Immunity to 5G and Granolaviruses, Ascension, or WhateverWeWant.

Doubt and Confusion are kissing cousins.  When we Fake our way out of Doubt we often get caught.  If we aren’t famous enough, that matters.  When we try to Fake our way out of Confusion by Figuring It Out, we also Create more Trouble for ourself.  Like any other Emotion, in order to Release it we need to Accept and Embrace it Exactly as it Is.  When we do that, we dispel it – we literally break the Spell that it has cast on us.

We get Unstuck by training ourself to Notice when we’re Feeling Confused, and then Consciously Celebrate it.  Getting Beyond our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs is necessary if we are pursuing Abundance, Ascension, Enlightenment, or virtually any other major Change in our Karma(Our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs, by the way, are symbolized by asteroid Vesta, and Vesta Conjoins Stationary Venus as we speak.  We talked about that a little in Values and Beliefs Full Moon.)  We should write about the Venus-Vesta Cycle, because…

The Dance between our Values, Beliefs, Desires, Emotions, and Thoughts – including what and how we Think about our Emotions – are very Important to our progress toward WhatWeWant.  Most of us are very Confused, without Realizing it, about the Difference between Our Emotions and Our Thoughts About Our Emotions.  Emotions happen in our Body.  The minute we move into our Head and begin Thinking About our Emotions, we’ve totally Abandoned both our Emotions and our Selves.  Yet we need to Align our Passion and our Thoughts in order to Manifest Cleanly.

Does any place in your Body hurt or Feel Uncomfortable right now?  Are you Able to Lovingly and Gently put your Total Attention into that place, and watch how it Changes?  How long can you do that without Thinking About how it Feels?  It’s fine to Think About how long we’re Holding our Attention there, as long as we’re Experiencing how it Feels, and not Labeling or Comparing (as Marshall Rosenberg liked to say, “Feels Like” expresses a Thought, not an Emotion) it, or Leaving the Present Moment.

Holding your Total and Unconditionally Loving and Gentle Attention on any Discomfort in your Body is one of the most Healing things you can do for it.  When you Notice that your Attention has Wandered, just quietly Bring It Back, without Judgment.  Notice if your Body has Created any Hardening around the Discomfort, as we often do in an effort to Separate Pain from our Identity.  If there is, Consciously Soften it.  That’ll Open the blood flow around the space, and accelerate the Body’s natural Healing.  That’s what Bodies do for a Living, if we let them.

Try doing the same with a Difficult Emotion.  Locate it in your Body, and give it Total Unconditionally Loving and Gentle Attention.  If you can do that without Labeling or Comparing it, or Leaving the Present Moment, you’ll find that the Discomfort dissolves the way it does when you Poor-Sweetheart yourself.  It’s quite Miraculous if you aren’t used to doing it.  When we Leave the Present Moment – “OMG, this reminds me of…” or “What will happen if…” – we’re Thinking About the Emotion, not Feeling it, Experiencing it, or Giving it our Attention.  We’re Abandoning the Emotion and our Self.

Not that it isn’t useful to Anal-yze how any Discomfort fits into your TimeLines.  For instance, Realizing that an Unpleasant Feeling is another Mirror for a Childhood Trauma, can in a few seconds help to Heal both the Discomfort and the PTSD.  And Realizing that some Discomfort that’s Arising is a clue about why we aren’t instantly Manifesting something we just PIAVAed, can in a few seconds help to melt our Resistance to that Manifestation.

Remember that if we aren’t ready to Manifest something that we’ve PIAVAed, the first thing the Universe will do is give us an Illustration of why we aren’t ready.

But we need to Learn to instantly Recognize the Difference between our Emotions and our Thoughts About them.  A Healthy Emotion Arises and then Dissipates, Informing us about something Important in the process.  If there’s no Dissipation, it’s because we’ve shifted from Feeling it to Thinking About it.  That can Freeze Emotions for years, Creating and Deepening Karma in the process.  When we get stuck on an Emotion it’s almost always already Karmic, and every time we Think About it instead of Feeling it, we cement the Karma in place more firmly.

Karmic Emotions are Held Emotions, the ones We’d rather Die than Feel.  So it’s a natural, Healthy Reaction to find any way we can to Avoid that, including shifting transparently from Feeling to Thinking.  If you’ve been reading this blog long, you know that “We’d rather Die than Feel that” is a misrepresentation.  It’s what we Experience, but it’s an Illusion.  It’s really “We’d rather Die than Feel that” – yes, We, our Ego, our current Identity, has to Die in order for us to Feel that.  That’s how Karma works.  The Ego’s job is to keep us Alive and Well, so this works well.

Except when we Want to Change or Manifest something that’s not already in our Karma, and then we need to Tolerate or even Court Ego Death in order to get beyond our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs.  In fact, Ego Death becomes The Most Important Thing.  It doesn’t even matter if the Planet has been Destroyed, because we in fact Create our own Reality, as a Mirror for our Internal Self-Love processes, so we’ll just Re-Create it in our Image.

We’ll talk more about these things, and how Confusion and Curiosity (the Quincunx and Finger of the Goddess) relate to one another, when we look at tomorrow’s Saturn Station chart in detail.

That Guy with the Wings on His Feet

February 19, 2020

As it’s wont to do, planet Mercury turned around and started going Backwards 16 February 2020 (5pm PST).  This will be very difficult for you to verify, since Mercury is too close to the Sun to be seen most of the time, and “Backwards” in this context is kind of metaphorical.  Mercury symbolizes Communication, Awareness, Thought, and Analysis mostly.  Backwards (“Retrograde”) Mercury has a bad rap around travel, but if like the Angels we take travel delays and disruptions Lightly, we can still Fly.

A planet goes Backwards when it wants us to really Pay Attention to some Lesson it has in mind.  It crosses the same zone of the Zodiac thrice, to make sure we don’t Lose the Plot.  The Plot this month is about the Thinking we’ve been doing, and the Conclusions we’ve been drawing, about the way our Culture should work (Mercury thrice crossing the last few Degrees of Aquarius), and how we Respond to this Emotionally (Mercury thrice crossing the first dozen Degrees of Pisces).

Overzealous Emotions cause our Mentality to Misfire.  It’s one thing that some of us are Emotional Thinkers – when we’re Analyzing something, How We Feel about it is one of our most important criteria, and that’s just Who We Are.  But it’s quite another thing when something Triggers our Karmic Judgments and we lose all hope of Neutrality.  Neutrality after all is where we must be if we want to Change or Manifest anything.  For instance, if we try to Create Peace from a position of Anger, all we’re going to get is more Anger.  Trying to Create Peace from a posture of Bliss will probably only promote Denial.

And in the section of the Zodiac that Mercury crosses thrice, there sit a couple of dwarf planets that are likely to Trigger our Karma.  One of these is the symbol for Intrusive Memories (the as-yet-unnamed dwarf planet that we affectionately call “OR10”) which are usually Karmic.  The other stands for Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus).  That’s almost always Karmicas well.  The timetable looks something like this…

  • 2 February – Mercury begins its first crossing (at 29 Aquarius)
    • 6 February – Mercury Triggers Intrusive Memories
    • 11 February – Mercury Triggers Abuse and Privilege Issues or Memories
  • 16 February – Mercury turns Backwards (at 13 Pisces)
    • 21 February – Mercury Triggers Abuse and Privilege Issues or Memories
    • 28 February – Mercury Triggers Intrusive Memories
  • 9 March – Mercury goes Forward again (at 29 Aquarius)
    • 22 March – Mercury Triggers Intrusive Memories
    • 29 March – Mercury Triggers Abuse and Privilege Issues or Memories
  • 30 March – Mercury finishes third crossing (at 13 Pisces)

When planets change their Direction, they Slooowww Dowwwn, Stop, and then slowly Accelerate again.  While they are Slowing and Stopping (ie, 16 February and 9 March), their Influence upon us is at its Strongest.

Do you have any record or recollections of what was going on for you around 6 or 11 February, give or take a day or two?  The usual astrological process is that this first crossing raises an Issue or Problem (we refer to this as a “Can-Opener”), which usually puts us into our Victim.  Then the second crossing (the “Exposition”), if we’re Awake and Responsive to it, Teaches us a lot about what’s really going down, and we can begin to see our own Role in it.  By the third crossing (the “Confidence-Builder”), if we were Awake at the second one, the original Issue or Problem recurs, but this time we Realize what’s happening, and we Handle it with Aplomb.

Mercury stutters like this three times a year, so we get a good deal of Practice with it.  Our Journey from Victim to Adept increases our Neutrality a lot, helping us to be more Objective and Effective Problem-Solvers.

If you happen to have a birth (“natal”) planet in the thrice-crossed Zone of a Backwardation, the Cosmic Headmistress is giving you a Special Lesson.  For instance, one reader has their birth planet that means Truth of the Heart (asteroid Aletheia) in the Zone of this Mercury trifecta, and that planet is in a Challenging Relationship (Square) to their birth planet that stands for their Soul (Uranus).  Birth-planet Relationships are with us for our entire Life, so the more Practice we get with them, the better.

So our reader may frequently run into Issues where they feel like the Desires of their Soul, and the Desires of their Heart, are in Conflict.  How can Soul and Heart be in Conflict?  Heart should Serve Soul, and do it Well.  But Karma can intervene and mess things up.  That makes it even more important to Practice with the Energy, and bring it into Consciousness, so they can Notice when the Karmic prompter is reminding them of their Lines, and Frankly, Not Give a Damn about what it is they’re Supposed To do or say.

Our reader’s Heart-Truth planet, with it’s Teasing Relationship with their Soul, is Triggered by Mercury on 4 February, 1 March, and 19 March.  The most important thing to remember about our birth-planet Relationships, is that they’re like a Graduate Seminar.  They aren’t Problems to be Solved, they’re Dramas to be Studied.  We don’t Solve Dramas, we just Learn how to Handle them a little better each time we deal with them.  They have no Clean Edges, they’re always Ragged.

Imagine you’re an fiction writer studying situations where a person’s Heart would lead them in a different direction than their Soul would, so you could write a realistic short story about their Adventures.  With that mindset, after several repetitions of this Pattern in your Life, you could write the script of your next episode of it.  That would probably help immensely to make it Easier for you to Step Out of that Role the next time those circumstances arose, and Enjoy playing the role of someone else in your script, or someone different entirely.

If we Endure our “favorite” Karmic – aka Educational – Drama once more and leave its Edges just a little less Ragged than the last time, then we’ve Succeeded Greatly, and we need to Acknowledge ourself with Celebration.  While we’re “still kickin’,” we’ll probably never know Why our Immortal Soul Chose to Experience a Lifetime with such a Drama in it.  We just have to Accept that it in fact Did, Trust its Wisdom, and try to be a good Student.

The more Conscious we can be about the Dramas hard-wired into our birth charts, the better, but we also have to remember that it’s not about Analysis (even when Mercury is being Compulsively Analytical), it’s about Experience.  We get a little more hip to our Dramas each time we Repeat them, whether we beat ourself up for Stumbling over them again, or Congratulate ourself for being Open to Learning more about them.  Analysis can give us “Book-Larnin’,” but it isn’t nearly multidimensional enough to give us Wisdom.  For that we need Experience.  That’s what Karma is all about – Inertia, Repetition, how to Use the Patterns we have to their Best Advantage, instead of being Victimized by them.

Abuse Week IV

November 21, 2019

A visiting Angel disguised as an electroblast from the Sun, over Norway…

https://spaceweather.com/archive.php?view=1&day=21&month=11&year=2019

We’re now deep in the grip of three separate “Stations,” or times when the influence of a planet is particularly Strong.  The three Stationary planets are

  • Dwarf planet OR10, which doesn’t have an official name yet even after a dozen years since its discovery.  It’s about Intrusive Memories, generally (though not always) what we’re more Comfortable Forgetting.  21 November 2019 (noon PST) in 4 Pisces.
  • Dwarf planet Nessus, which is about Abuse and Privilege.  Abuse occurs only when the Perp feels Privileged, which allows them to regard their Victim as Less Than in some way.  Does Abuse always follow from Privilege?  Not always, but if you want to Learn more about Abuse, start by looking at Privilege.  It might Ask you to reconsider your definition of Abuse – for instance, isn’t Homelessness a direct result of the Privilege embedded in our Culture’s Worship of Hoarding Wealth, which in turn is partially caused by the Abusiveness of our Culture’s Failure to Embrace Unconditional Community?  21 November (4:30 pm PST) in 9 Pisces.
  • Asteroid Atropos, which is about the Ending of TimeLines, where a TimeLine can be a Lifetime, a Habit, a Relationship, a job, a place to Live, or any episode in one’s Life.  Atropos is especially active in Ending Karmic Patterns.  Most of us Experience Karma as if it was Fate, but if we can bring it into Consciousness, we can convert it to Choice instead.  22 November (2pm PST) in 7 Aries.

The Locations of the three Stations, only a few Degrees apart, and their Timing at only one day apart, tell us to Interpret all three as One Energy – we most likely won’t be able to Tell the three Energies apart.  Fortunately, the Energy is overwhelmingly Positive, so set your Intention that any Abuse Memories that arise Are Being Healed and Let Go Of (I avoid the term Release because I don’t want the Unconscious to think I want to Re-new my Lease).

The overall chart is Complex…

…so we’ll break it into more manageable chunks.  Even though it’s benevolent in this case, we’ll stick to our usual habit of starting with the Challenge (T-Square).  This first chunk, below, is not just Self-Resolving (Diamond Square), but also a Dumb-Luck Blessing (Grand Trine).  It’s all about the Life Force (Varuna)

Since Hidden Emotional Gunk underlies most or possibly all Physical Discomfort, if we Allow our Abuse Memories (no matter how we Perceive them) to be about Letting Go, we’re likely to Manifest Significant and potentially Miraculous Physical Healing.  Also, since our Abuse of our Home Planet is the direct result of Denying the Life Force and Consciousness of Earth’s multifarious plenitudes of Non-Human and even Inanimate Denizens, we could see a major Tripping Point in Earth Repair as well

Looks like a spaceship jetting toward Good Health and Vitality (Varuna), don’t it?

The second chunk is about a Huge Leap forward (Diamond Star and Grand Cross) in Grokking what we are actually Capable of Accomplishing (Moon-Juno-Makemake-Sappho) and Taking Responsibility for (Pholus-Quaoar-Ceres-South Node)

Not to mention Abandoning our Victimhood (Atropos-Chiron Opposite the Makemake Stellium).

Which leaves the jumble below, the most coherent piece of which advises us that Facing the Truth about Abuse and Choosing otherwise would be an excellent road for us to follow (Finger of God to Aletheia-Veritas-Sun-Pallas, which Squares the OR10 and Nessus Stations)

Plus the suggestion that, Evoking our Life Mission – without trying to Define It! (Quincunx) – will aid that process greatly (OR10-Nessus Square Aletheia Stellium Quincunx North Node Trine OR10-Nessus Tricolor).

A second suggestion also pops out – that we use Prayer or Intention or Intuition or other process of Focusing on our Desired Outcome (PIAVA – Quincunx) rather than Planning and Executing a Defined Methodology (PDSA or the equivalent) to determine the Actions we’ll take to Abandon our Victimhood (North Node Square Atropos-Chiron Quincunx Mars Trine North Node Tricolor).

Finally, we have a potentially Huge Blessing (Almost Grand-Sextile) which we can put into Action by simply Persisting in our Efforts, and Recognizing that our Journey is a Spiral – when we Return to a Place where we’ve been Before, it’s not an indication that we haven’t made progress, because in the interim We Have Changed.  So even if our Abuse Memories Feel as Painful as before, We Have Become More Conscious, and if we think about it for a moment we’ll Realize that we’re now able to Embrace our Wounded Self more Lovingly than before, and that is a Giant Leap forward (the Vacancy is 6 Virgo, “A merry-go-round”)!

If we can find the time, we’ll flesh these out more in subsequent posts…

The Fives IV

October 26, 2019

This interview with Alberto Villoldo will be online free till 4pm PDT 27 October 2019.  It is also comprehensive, and as well introduces a couple of different and valuable Perspectives…

https://www.hayhousehealsummit.com/lessons/revolutionary-healing-techniques-from-the-ancient-shamans

For instance, one of things that Alberto points out is that the Bliss molecule DMT, which promotes Healing, is built from Serotonin, which is mostly produced by our Gut Bacteria – if you haven’t killed them by taking antibiotics and not Restored them with Probiotics.  What he doesn’t say is that Glyphosate is an FDA-certified antibiotic and virtually all non-Organic Grains and Sugars are laced with Glyphosate because it’s also a desiccant that non-Organic agriculture typically sprays onto the plants just before harvest, in order to kill the foliage and make it easier to harvest the Grains and Sugars.  So every time you eat non-Organic Grain or Sugar, you Risk Closing yourself to Healing.

Held Emotions II

September 12, 2019

Our initiation into The Most Important Thing Is to Embrace our Held Emotions (Saturn Stationary Conjunct the South Node) is the 12 September, 2019 (8:30 pm PDT) Illumination of the symbol for Respect for All Things (Station of asteroid Hopi) in the same 14 Capricorn Degree.  These Conspirators are joined by the symbol for Becoming Aware of the Need for Self-Sovereignty (dwarf planet Hylonome, Stationary until 21 September) in 11 Capricorn.  That’s kind of a Knife Edge, Respecting All Things Without Giving Away Our Power to Any of Them.

The Self-Sovereignty issue is greatly Enhanced by a Challenge (T-Square) to the Expansion of our Awareness (Jupiter) from the symbols for Self-Sovereignty itself (Lilith) and Action/Anger (Mars).  Most especially, we’re Instructed by these “Stars” to Take Action to Get Neutral about Our Anger at The People Who Have Taken Our Power When We Gave It To ThemWe’re Angry at the People who have Taken Our Power, but it is Us – Unconsciously – who Gave It to Them.  Most of the time this happens because our Programmers installed Holes in our Auras that they could reach into and Pull our Puppet-Strings.

Here’s the chart…

If you’ve raised or otherwise worked closely with Children, you’ve probably Unconsciously or even Consciously done the same thing – found a place where you could Manipulate them, usually through Shame, in order to keep them under Control.   Especially in groups, they can be a handful…

Manipulating others for your own Gain isn’t the Travesty that it sounds like – we all do it to some extent.  There are two problems that arise when you Manipulate Children with Shame.

First, that Hole in their Aura doesn’t Heal on its own.  It stays with them into Adulthood until – and if – they Discover it and Heal it.  Till then they’re Compelled to Give Their Power Away to anyone who Discovers their Puppet Strings, and to their Frustration and Anger – and Shame, they won’t know why or how.

And second, that Hole wouldn’t be there unless it was part of their Karma, which makes it more Difficult for them to Discover and Heal it, because it was embedded in the Unconscious before they were even born.  These Huper Lifetimes are worse than Gollum’s Riddles!

There’s another Configuration that Illuminates this whole process – the symbol for Fate and Choice (asteroid Moira) and the symbol for Oath-Making and -Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus) are Merged (Conjunct) in the Hopi Station chart, and they volunteer to Help us with this Discovery (along with asteroid Veritas [Truth], they make a Double Trine Bridge [Easy Crossing] across the Nodal Axis).

Until we become Conscious of our Karma, and the Hole(s) in our Aura, we stuck with our “Fate.”  Once we Become Aware of it (Hylonome), we have Choice.  We were probably between a Rock and a Hard Place, but at some point lost in the Mists of Time, we Swore an Oath, and we Obeyed it, we Adopted it as part of our Identity, perhaps as the Core of our Identity.  Habits become Unconscious through Repetition, and in subsequent Lifetimes the Repetition was well established, but the Oath was Forgotten.  Bingo, Karma.  To Convert Fate to Choice we need to Break the Oath.  But we’ve long since Forgotten what is was.

That’s a fine Story for 3D Linear Time, but as you know, Time doesn’t really work that way.  If you’re like me, for the last week your “Random” Memories have been popping up all over the map, with little “rhyme or reason.”  That’s Real Time, with Bleedthrough from whatever Lifetime (which our Creative Memory usually inserts into the “Past” in our Current Lifetime) dripping through seemingly unpredictably, though we can often Discern Themes.

Creative Memory makes it seems like all these Random Tidbits and Recurrent Themes are part of “Us,” and they become our Identity.  But again, it doesn’t really work that way.  That’s 3D Ego-Level “Us.”  Shift your Identity to your Soul, and it looks very Different.  Karma is Personal only to the Ego, not to the Soul.  On the Soul Level, when we Choose to Slum it for a while on Earth, we pick a Project we want to help the Planet with.  The Karma is in the Energy Field of the Planet.  Other planets may not even contain the moving parts that “our” Karma is made from.

We come here to Help Convert some aspect of the Planet’s Fate to Choice, by contributing Replications of Alternative Patterns.  With enough Reps, by ourself and Others, new Habits are built into the Earth’s Energy Template.  Epigenetics, it’s called when Personalized to the Huper Level.  Project that back through Herstory.  Hupers used to be in the Habit of starving to Death in a bad winter following a poor Harvest.  Then Volunteers like you came and organized ways to store Food from one winter to the next, and ways to move Food from one valley that had a fortunate Harvest, to another that didn’t.  New Habits.

There was nothing Ego-Personal about all that; it was “just” Souls monkeying with the Energy Fields.  Death is no big deal to the Soul, it’s just another Experience.  The advantage of staying Alive longer was to build greater Knowledge and Wisdom.  A Hunter or Forager or Farmer with fifty years of Hunting or Foraging or Farming in their Winter Count is far ahead of one who flames out at twenty years.  Of course that’s just a Story too.  We as Hupers don’t generally have the Bandwidth to actually Grok what’s really going on in Dimensions (and Dementias) that we can’t even See or Touch.  But the more Metaphors and Stories and Perspectives we have, the more we can Intuit.

So how then do we actually Help Extinguish this Planetary Karma?  What if we could gather up enough Passion, Focus, and Power to just tell it to “Leave Now, and Never Come Back!“?

It’s too easy to Forget that Karma is not Present Moment, it’s not Real.  It’s a Paper Tiger, a Shadow Puppet.  Sméagol had to repeat his New Anthem three times before it took hold.  Your Attachment to “your” Karmic warp in the Force, the one you came here to Help Convert, may be a little stronger; it may take you up to ten Reps to gather enough Courage, Commitment, Passion, Confidence, Focus and Power to Banish it Forever.  The sooner you start, the sooner you finish.

We could even make “Leave Now, and Never Come Back!” another silent partner in PIAVA.  In the next post we’ll look at the other side of the coin, Healing the Holes in our Aura directly.

2019 Q3 I

June 30, 2019

The Stations and Moons and other major astroevents in the third quarter of 2019 line up below.  Notice how often 0-7 Degrees and 22-28 Degrees are Lit Up repeatedly, marking these Degree Zones as major issues for us.  These are Zones of Transition, so we can Expect lots of Changes.  If we slide these two together, we get one Zone from 22 Degrees to 7 Degrees of the next sign, exactly 50% of the Zodiac.  Yet, not counting the Sign Changes, between 1 July and 14 September, fully 83% of the major events reside in this Transition Zone.

And between 7 and 31 July, Mercury Retrogrades over all but a few Degrees of the entire Zone, backing up from 5 Leo to 24 Cancer.  Including its two Direct passages, Mercury is in this Zone from 20 June through the Ides of August.  So we can’t say we’re blindsided!  Mercury is the symbol for Awareness, so whatever issues have arisen since the Solstice, or arise in the next week, those are the issues that we’ll be Dancing with for the next three months.

Mercury’s Journey will be about Separating our Identity from our Emotions (the Pisces Decanate of Cancer and the Leo Decanate of Leo; a Decanate is 10 Degrees) and about Distinguishing Sympathy from Compassion and our Identity from Both (the Taurus and Gemini Duads of Cancer and the Leo and Virgo Duads of Leo; a Duad is 2½ Degrees).

Compassion cares deeply about the Suffering of Other, but it’s Neutral about the Outcome.  That sounds like an Oxymoron, but it’s actually a Paradox.  Contradictions exist only in the Dualistic mind; in the Unitary and Multidimensional Universe, there are no Contradictions.  If you can possibly give yourself Permission to Reframe Contradictions into Paradoxes, and Accept that as Reasonable, you’re on your way to Growing Out of your “Left” Brain and adding circuitry to your Corpus Callosum that will improve your Recognition of and Response to your Intuition and Instincts.

Sympathy is an Identification with, a form of Codependence.  Your Sympathy cares about the Outcome, because you’re Merged with the Object of your Sympathy, so the Outcome Happens to You.  Do you see how Important your Identity is in this Equation?  You can actually Manifest Disease with Sympathy, it you work hard enough at it.  Compassion won’t Create Disease, but it can Create Healing.

What We Feel and Who We Are, are two very different things.  Emotions are extremely Valuable parts of our Intuition and our Instincts – when we Feel them.  When we Become them, they Lose their Value.  It’s like kayaking on a fast-moving River.  As long as we’re Feeling our Emotions, we can successfully navigate the Rapids.  When we start to Become our Emotion, we go under, and if we don’t right ourself quickly, we Lose the Plot – or worse.

Now, how often are we Aware that We Have An Identity, let alone What It Is in that moment.  Once we Become an Emotion, Who’s left to Notice?  It’s Important then that we make a Habit of Asking ourself, frequently, Who Am I Right Now?  Where Is My Identity In This Moment?  It’ll be a puzzling Question at first, but keep at it.  The Answer isn’t nearly as Important as Asking the Question.  When we become Aware of a Splinter of Consciousness distinct from the Emotions or Thoughts or Trance that has us by the throat in that moment, we can Grow the Splinter by Tapping, or Poor-Sweethearting ourself, or Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrading our Self-Abusive Thoughts.

Here’s where Mercury will Dance between now and mid-August…

  • 1-3 July, 4 Degrees
  • 4-10 July, 5 Degrees
  • 11-13 July, 4 Degrees
  • 14-15 July, 3 Degrees
  • 16 July, 2 Degrees
  • 17-18 July, 1 Degrees
  • 19 July, 0 or 30 Degrees
  • 20-21 July, 29 Degrees
  • 22 July, 28 Degrees
  • 23-24 July, 27 Degrees
  • 25-26 July, 26 Degrees
  • 27-30 July, 25 Degrees
  • 31 July-1 August, 24 Degrees
  • 2-4 August, 25 Degrees
  • 5-6 August, 26 Degrees
  • 7 August, 27 Degrees
  • 8-9 August, 28 Degrees
  • 10 August, 29 Degrees
  • 11 August, 30-1 Degrees
  • 12 August, 2 Degrees
  • 13 August, 3 Degrees
  • 14 August, 4 Degrees
  • 15 August, 5-6 Degrees
  • 16 August, 7 Degrees

Print this list out, and write all of your natal planets that are between 22 and 7 Degrees (22-30 and 0-7) on the list, next to each line, ignoring the Signs.  Don’t worry about being exact – we’ve got a couple of days of leeway, and it will vary a bit depending on where we in the World anyway.  Then, each day, Ask yourself,

“Does my Identity Today – Who I Am At This Moment – seem to Relate in any way to that (or those) natal planets of mine?” 

Don’t worry about the Answer; the important thing is Asking the Question, and being Curious about what Thoughts and Feelings arise as a result.  If you end up Confused, fabulous!  That’s the best possible Outcome.  Let yourself Feel your Confusion, it’s the first sign of Growth.  If you try to Figure it Out, you Lose.  Growth only happens when you Allow Confusion.

 

Here’s a draft blow-by-blow account of the next three months…

2 July (noon PDT), New Moon and Total Solar Eclipse (South Pacific, South America) 11 Cancer

6 July (6:30 pm PDT), asteroid Karma (Habits) enters Aries

7 July (4pm PDT), Mercury (Communication) Station 5 Leo

8 July (1:30 pm PDT), Ixion Initiates Bee-Zed (Transcendence) 28 Sagittarius

8 July (4:30 pm PDT), Chiron (Despair/Miracles) Station 6 Aries

9 July (2:30 pm PDT), Haumea (Rebirth) Station 25 Libra

13 July (6pm PDT), asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) enters Leo

16 July (2:30 pm PDT), Full Moon and Partial Lunar Eclipse 25 Capricorn

17 July (noon PDT), Ceres (Sustainability) Station 1 Sagittarius

20 July (7 pm PDT), Eris (Revelation) Station 25 Aries

25 July (8:30 pm PDT), asteroid Veritas (Truth to the Mind) enters Scorpio

31 July (8pm PDT), New Moon 9 Leo

31 July (9pm PDT), Mercury (Awareness) Station 24 Cancer

5 August (3pm PDT), Karma (Karma) Station 3 Aries

6 August (4:30 pm PDT), dwarf planet Pholus (Response-Ability) backs into Sagittarius

11 August (6:30 am PDT), Jupiter (Expansion) Station 15 Sagittarius (Great Attractor)

11 August (7:30 pm PDT), Uranus (Individual Soul) Station 7 Taurus

15 August (5:30 am PDT), Full Moon 23 Aquarius

17 August (11:30 pm PDT), asteroid Aletheia (Truth of the Heart) enters Scorpio

18 August (6pm PDT), asteroid Moira (Fate/Choice) enters Virgo

20 August (11:30 pm PDT), Atropos (Ending TimeLines) Station 24 Aries

23 August (12:30 p,m PDT), asteroid Klotho (Beginning a New TimeLine) enters Gemini

23 August (5pm PDT), asteroid Juno (Edges of Consciousness) enters Virgo

24 August (10am PDT), Mars Initiates Venus (Relationship Reset) 4 Virgo

24 August (2am PDT), asteroid Pallas (Boundaries) enters Scorpio

29 August (8:30 am PDT), Sedna (Fear/Power) Station 28 Taurus

30 August (3:30 am PDT), New Moon 7 Virgo

2 September, asteroid Sappho (Self-Love) enters Virgo

3 September, asteroid Karma (Inertia) backs into Pisces

4 September, Eurydike (Trust) Station 2 Aquarius

5 September, asteroid Lachesis (Changing TimeLines) enters Leo

10 September, Ixion (Hidden Genius) Station 27 Sagittarius

13 September, Hopi (Universal Regard) Station 14 Capricorn

13 September (9:30 pm PDT), Full Moon 22 Pisces

14 September, Quaoar (Survival Instincts) Station 2 Capricorn

14 September, Pholus (Response-Ability) Station 30 Sagittarius

15 September, Saturn (Priorities) Stationary Conjunct South Node (Held Emotions) 14 Capricorn

18 September, Saturn (The Most Important Thing) (Ego Deathx Station 14 Capricorn

21 September, Hylonome (Self-Sovereignty) Station 11 Capricorn

23 September (1am PDT), Libra Equinox, 0 Libra

24 September, Asbolus (Intuition) Station 24 Gemini

24 September, Vesta (Beliefs) Station 28 Taurus

27 September, Bee-Zed (Transcendence) Station 18 Sagittarius

27 September, asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) enters Virgo

28 September (11:30 am PDT), New Moon 6 Libra

28 September, Chaos (Unlimited Potential) Station 27 Gemini

28 September, Chariklo (Self-Confidence) Station 20 Capricorn

 

Rebirth Full Moon IV

June 17, 2019

Speaking of plastic (as we were recently), here’s a status report…

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2019/jun/17/recycled-plastic-america-global-crisis

https://www.theguardian.com/environment/2019/jun/17/recycling-plastic-wrong-guide

As we said, the solution to this is super simple – just prohibit the manufacture of Instant Landfill.  But of course since the government and the manufacturers have merged, that can’t be done, because the manufacturers would lose money, and that’s obviously far more important than, say, the Oceans.  In ten US states you pay a deposit for a glass bottle, and 80% are returned and recycled.

But we were in the middle of busily listing out the many Prominent Features of the 17 July Full Moon.  We only had one Big One left before we get to the Hidden Treasures.  Here’s the chart, by the way…

You can see the Full Moon’s red triangle (T-Square) and the big red box with the X in it (Grand Cross).

Next up is the big blue rectangle, which astrologers call a “Golden Rectangle” because it’s blue.  No, not really, it’s because the ratio of its short sides to its long sides is the Golden Angle, φ or Phi.  We use blue to indicated a Friendly Energy, so Golden turns out to be blue.  In a Golden Rectangle the two central diagonal Dichotomies (red lines or Oppositions) interact in a very Constructive way.

Fortunately, we’ve already talked about both Dichotomies, because one (Moon-Ixion vs. Sun-Chaos) is the Full Moon itself, and the other (Haumea-Veritas vs. Klotho-Eris) is half of the Grand Cross.  That’s the nature of Duality, isn’t it – it always ends up being Soandso versus Whosit, so Competition is assured.

In the previous posts we summarized the Full Moon as “we Succeed by Dismissing the ‘Shoulds’ that shout at us, and instead Embracing the Intuitions that are always Whispering sweet nothings in our ear,” and the other Dichotomy as “our Fear about having to Face something we’ve been Ignoring is juxtaposed against our Intuitive Excitement about an Impending Future Feeling very Close at hand.”

You can read that last paragraph a couple of time and let yourself Imagine how those two will meld, but I’ll choose “You have Intuitions about your Future, but they’re pretty quiet.  You also have a bundle of Anxieties about it, and they’re pretty loud.  Put some Effort into Deciding What You Really Want for yourself, and then Commit to spending a lot of time Focusing on How It Will Feel when that Happens.”  That’s probably enough.

Our first Hidden Treasure is only partly shown on the picture of the chart.  In the lower left you can see the symbol for our Sacred Mission, the headphones (North Node), which sits next to the symbol for Awareness and Communication (Mercury), the legless stick figure with pointy ears.  That’s fine so far, as it indicates an increasing Awareness of our Mission.  But what’s not drawn in is the symbol for Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis), which sits in the same place.

Now we’ve been preaching for a long time that we should all be Celebrating Ego Death, because it’s just a Molt, and its primary function is to eliminate our Limitations.  But I know, We’d Rather Die than Feel That Again!  Which is kinda the point, it’s just that the “We” is the Ego, so yes, Die away, K?  Feeling That Again Happens to Be Exactly How We Eliminate Our Limitations.  ‘Nuff said?

The other Hidden Treasure happens as we speak, as the symbol for Manifestation (dwarf planet Makemake) is very Strong (Stationary 2am PDT 18 June), abetted by Strength in the symbol for Truth (asteroid Veritas Stationary 1pm PDT 18 June).  This is very Easy to interpret – Don’t Fall for the Temptation to Dwell on What You Don’t Want.  Focus on What You Do Want Instead, and if you can Imagine yourself Feeling the Way You’re Going to Feel When You Do Get What You Want, You’re GoldenEvery Thought Is a Prayer, and All Prayers Are Answered.

While Attending to your own Desires is Bottom Line (It’s like Love – you have to do yourself first), this especially applies to the Future of the Planet.  Imagine yourself Feeling the Way You’re Going to Feel When You’re Living on a Planet Where Collaboration Has Replaced CompetitionWe’ll explain that in the next post.

Most of you will be reading this after the fact, but no worries – it’s Never Too Late.

“Dark Days” 7

April 25, 2019

Okay, the Pluto Station has passed under the bridge and moved on down the River, though as I said earlier, it may linger because the three Stations (Pluto, Chariklo, Saturn) are only a few Degrees apart.  I used to Experience Pluto Stations as though I was “swimming through Jello,” but lately, while there’s a good deal of momentary Confusion, it’s been Feeling fairly ordinary.  Anyone finding Differently?

So to the extent that Pluto has moved on, we’re left in the Thick of Chariklo-Saturn-South Node, or Confidence-Attention-Karma.  Or, The Most Important Thing is to Stay in the Present Moment, or to Distinguish between the Present Moment and our Regressions.  One downside I’d not be Surprised to see is that our Karma will shake up our Confidence, and we’d be swimming in Self-Doubt instead of Jello, or worse, in Self-Recrimination.  Whenever the South Node is lit up – or asteroid Karma, or our Karma for any reason, astrological or otherwise, most of what we Experience will be Illusion.

We could easily be imagining the worst Outcome possible, then when something appears to move in that direction, we jump to the conclusion that it already, indeed, has.  For instance, if we’re thinking about how a friend might Abandon us, or thinking about Abandoning them, and they make a comment that might be interpreted as Criticism, even if it wasn’t meant that way, we could Receive their comment as the very Abandonment we’d been Expecting, and React accordingly, leaving our former friend wondering what happened.

That’s a good example, as it Illustrates how we grasp our Karma rather than the other way ’round.  Of course the critical element is the Depth of our Karmic Trance – that’s what Karma is after all, a Trance, one that Separates us from the Present Moment.

Pluto of course is all about Trance – we usually express it as a Transformation, or Formation of a New Trance.  The key to Karma is Awareness that we’ve Left the Present Moment.  Back in the 1980s we would ask ourselves, “What color is the wallpaper?” because if it was not the same as the wallpaper in the room where we were Abused, just that had the potential to jolt us out of our Unconscious Surrender to our Regression.

So with Pluto Involved (it’s still Involved even as its Influence lessens), our odds of Transforming our Karmic Trance into Awareness are actually greater.

The Karmic Trance can be very all-consuming Emotionally.  If we Hear someone Criticizing us or otherwise Shaking our Confidence, it may not matter what their Intentions are, it may Light a Fire in us that’s not easily extinguishable.

Everyone has some degree of Karmic Abandonment, and everyone has some degree of Karmic “Suffocation” – the Feeling that someone is watching us too closely, waiting for us to slip up, eager to label us Wrong, or itching Limit our Freedom.  The Libertarians carry their Suffocation to Extremes, and are proud of it.  Often, for each of us, either Abandonment or Suffocation dominates, but we can be Strong in both.  By Distinguishing when we’re Feeling Abandoned and when we’re feeling Suffocated, we up the odds that we’ll be able to recognize that it’s Our Abandonment and Our Suffocation.

When we Own these two Emotions, we can more easily Differentiate situations where we’re Being Abandoned or Suffocated, from situations where we’re Feeling Abandoned or Suffocated.  If we can do that, we up the odds that we can retract our Projections – rather than Feel Criticized and clam up, we might ask what the other person meant when they said that.  Of course, just because we’re Feeling Abandoned or Suffocated, doesn’t mean we aren’t also Being Abandoned or Suffocated – “Just because I’m Paranoid doesn’t mean they aren’t out to get me,” as we used to say.

But Recognizing these Feelings will help you decipher whether the Emotion and the Experience match in Intensity.  When they don’t, we’re either Tranced into our Karma, (when the Emotion is much more Intense than the Experience) and need to Wake Up, or we’re looking into the open jaws of a Held Emotion – that is, Tranced into Avoiding our Karma (when the Emotion is much less Intense than the Experience).  While Avoiding Karma may feel like Success, it’s not.  It means that our Karma is hiding in the Unconscious, where it’s pulling our puppet-strings.

One of the hardest things about Held Emotions is that they’re undercover.  Since we’d rather Die than Feel them, we’re highly Skilled at Avoiding them.  The Ego’s job is to keep us Alive, and if the Ego thinks we’ll Die, it’s going to Excel at Avoiding that situation.  So if we can Detect a clue to a Held Emotion by Arbitraging our Experiences and our Emotions instead of just Freaking Out, then thinking in terms of Abandonment and Suffocation will have done you a solid.

In a way it’s like your Study of Anxiety – where you’re Learning to distinguish between your fast-moving Emotions (a la Goofy) and your drudging thoughts about them (aka Anxiety).

And don’t forget Poor-Sweetheart.  Poor-Sweethearting a Real Emotion or a fake one can Feel like Avoidance, but it’s not.  Once you Empathize with what you’re really Experiencing or Feeling, you’ve already Changed the Trance.  When you then Successfully Change the Subject, you Step Out of your Karmic Trance, and every time you Step Out you build your Antikarmic Muscles.  Pretty soon you have a whole new set of Patterns.