Kegels 3

The other elements of Big Grace in the Juno-Sedna chart, and the upcoming Sedna Station chart, are two Diamond Stars.

A T-Square (drawn as a red triangle) is made up of two planets Opposite one another, with a third at their Midpoint (ie, three Signs from each).  It means a Challenge.  The ultimate aim is to become Adept at this Challenge, but it’s via the School of Hard Knocks.  If we haven’t Figured Out what we’re supposed to be Learning, we usually Experience a T-Square as Long-Suffering Frustration.

I mean, how would we know, if we didn’t have our chart drawn up?  And even then, an Ego astrologer would concur that we were screwed.  We’d just think it was horrible Karma!

That’s what I thought about my own T-Squares until I Realized that the Fourth Harmonic (a Square goes one Fourth of the way around the Zodiac) is about Dominion – Healthy Control, Mastery!  (Or, without the possible hidden implication of Slavery as the inverse of Mastery, Adeptness.)  Dominion is the Fourth Principle in the Tarot’s Major Arcana.

A natal T-Square is a Life-Long graduate seminar, where there are no real Answers, only better Questions, better because they lead to a fuller understanding of the Depth and Breadth of the Issue that the T-Square presents.  So when we Reframe it thus, each Bummer in our Life-Long series of Bummers, has taught us a new Principle, Subtlety, Corollary, Insight, or Breakthrough about the subject of our seminar.

Each time we thought we were going to get it “Right” this time!  We thought we could make External Reality match our Perfect Pictures.  And every time we Failed.  But each time we Learned more about it.  Each time we got a little closer to What We Want, though many times we’ve taken wide Detours into places we didn’t know were Related until we went there.  Truth is, we’ll never Achieve our Perfect Pictures, because Perfect Pictures are 2D Snapshots, while Real Life is a Hologram in an Infinite number of Dimensions.

Achieving our Perfect Pictures would be like trying to Grok the nature of a Butterfly by pinning it to a board.  The hardest thing about a T-Square is that we can’t give it up.  Dropping the class is not an Option, because What We Want is an Irrevocable Compulsion.  It’s What We’re Here For.  We often settle for an Addiction – we get so Frustrated by our Lack of Success, which we take as a Personal Failure, that we divert ourself with the small but Satisfying Pleasure that we can get from Sugar, Alcohol, MJ, Sex, or worse.  It’s Temporary, but by the time we Indulge, we forget our Frustration.

Let’s take an Example.  For instance, suppose we hypothesize someone who has a Life-Long Challenge (T-Square) to Figure Out how to set up Effective Boundaries (Haumea-Pallas-Aletheia) between their Soul (Uranus) and their Ego so they can Approach their LifeTime Mission (North Node).  Oh, gosh, that’s one of the T-Squares in the Juno-Sedna chart, isn’t it.  What a coincidence…

The North Node is symbolized by those earphones in the lower right.  The red triangle that points to the earphones is the T-Square.  Well, we know already that our Mission is like Differential Equations or Calculus – we never really get there, we just keep cutting the distance in half between us and it…

If What We Want is Water and it’s always just out of Reach, that’s the Picture of Frustration.  We need to Reframe it – we may never get any Water in this Lifetime, but we’re sure going to Learn everything there is to Learn about Striving for it.  And probably, literally, Die trying.  Which is Cool – we was gonna Die anyway, so why not Die for a Cause.  And there aren’t any Causes more important to us than What We Want.

So, this particular “Challenge to Figure Out how to set up Effective Boundaries between our Soul and our Ego so we can Approach our LifeTime Mission” isn’t Life-Long, it’s only temporary.  We’re using the Mean Nodes, and they move about a Degree-and-a-half per month, so this Uranus-Haumea-North Node T-Square will only be with us for a few months.  But meanwhile, here in the context of wresting Power out of Fear (Sedna Stationary), finding a Boundary  between Soul and Rebirth that Serves our Mission is a Challenge that Confronts us.

For instance, the best Boundary here between Soul and Mission might be no Boundary, and Surrendering our Sovereignty to that Degree might Scare the Living Daylights out of our Ego, not to mention how it could Frighten our Dependents, as we might be Compelled to Abandon them for some abstruse Project like Saving Antarctica for the Penguins.  Or it could Drive us to Drink.  Here’s how some folks might do these Boundary Games…

“Full of anticipation, we set off and when we had adjusted our consciousness to the high vibration, we found ourselves in the Fairy sector.  However serious the reason for our visit may be, first we must play.  This is a necessity and not a frivolity because, until we have rushed about as fast as we can, there remain clinging to us, Earth ideas, and until we are rid of them, we are unable to concentrate.  What fun this period is.

“We burst and reform only to disintegrate again almost immediately.  In this destruction, the atoms of our bodies change their positions and one of our amusements is to stop them from rejoining those of the person to whom they rightfully belong.  Of course we can never prevent them from doing this for long, but sometimes we keep them poised between the two of us, they look so funny that we begin laughing, our concentration vanishes until we are once more complete and ready to burst again.”

–Normus, “Travels,” in Daphne Charters, Forty Years with the Fairies, p.209.

♥ So, that’s a T-Square.  But weren’t we supposed to be talking about Diamond Stars?  Oh, ok, I remember now.

See the two green lines rising from the North Node?  That’s called a Finger of God, and it means Pay Attention to this!!  Some folks also call it a “Yod.”  In these charts, red lines represent Challenge, green Curiosity, and blue Grace.  Notice that when we connect the Yod to the T-Square, a web of blue lines is created on the other side of the central Opposition – literally, a Bowl of Grace.

This is a Diamond Star, and it means that the T-Square is a Self-Resolving Challenge because of the Grace in the blue lines, which make a double Trine Bridge, or two Easy Alternative Paths, across the T-Square.  Like an escalator up the side of the Cliff we Expected to have to climb.  So our two escalators in this Diamond Star are Suspending Disbelief or Allowing our Beliefs to Shift (Klotho-Vesta), and Trusting our Forbidden Genius (Eurydike-Ixion), which will require a Shift in our Values (Venus).

If we are to Trust the Genius of our True Self, we’re probably going to have to Give Up some Obedience to the Values of our former Masters or Programmers.  Recognizing that they were Doing the Best They Knew How at the Time, we just know that this is the time when we have to substitute Self-Trust for the relative Security of their Truth.

This is a Diamond Square, so this just happens, it’s not something we have to work hard at, though we may have to work a bit at Surrendering our Resistance to it – at least enough to enable us to Notice the Difference.  After all, the overall Work this week is Growth of Consciousness – Juno-Sedna.

So the Bottom Line of this Diamond Star is that both our Beliefs and our Values will Shift, or have already Shifted.  Have you Noticed any of that in your own Experience yet?  This is a big Change in our Identity, since Values and Beliefs are the Foundations of Who We Are.  And an Effortless Shift.  We haven’t mentioned Nemesis or Ego Death once, and they aren’t involved.

Well, not in an obvious way anyway.  Nemesis is Octile (Adjustment) to Mars (Action) and Trioctile (Rebalancing) to Pluto (the Underlying Energy).  Without the Diamond Star that would be enough to create some Ego Death, and at any rate no Change of Identity takes place without some Ego Death.  Death doesn’t have to be Unpleasant, however, if we Take Ourselves Lightly, like the Angels do.  That Mars-Pluto Square is about An Angel with a Harp, recall.

If you’ve Noticed your Beliefs, Values, Identity Shifting in the last several days, have you Noticed any signs of Ego Death? Getting Lost in a familiar place, for instance, where it feels like part of you knows exactly where you are, but another part is Experiencing it as Brand New.  That’s an important kind of Shift to Notice as we Grow our Consciousness.

♥ The second Diamond Star (notice the double green lines emanating from the point of the T-Square) is focused on the Stellium in Libra – Haumea-Aletheia-Pallas, or Rebirth of True Boundaries.  If our Boundaries are Out of Balance with our Soul or our Goals or our Mission, we won’t know Who to Trust, or what to eat for breakfast, or when to Meditate and when to Act.  So this is a Big Deal.

The roots of this Yod are Chiron (Despair/Miracles) and Juno-Sedna itself (Bringing our Fears into Consciousness).  As we’ve said, when our Fears are Unconscious, they Control our Life.  In order to Overcome them (or rather, Love them into becoming the Power that they really are) we need first to Bring them into Consciousness.  Despair is totally appropriate when our Unconscious Fears rule our Lives, because we’re Powerless against them.

But fortunately, Chironean Despair is easy to fix – alls we gotta do is Poor-Sweetheart ourself.  We say to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Overwhelmed, aren’t you.”  That statement Shifts our Identity from Despair to Compassion.  If we don’t Change the Subject afterwards though, we may get sucked back into Despair (though we could always Poor-Sweetheart ourself again).

Once we slip out of our stiff, scratchy Despair shirt and pull on our soft, warm Compassion hoodie, we can Change the Subject – do something else entirely, and divert our Attention.  That will allow the Overwhelming Challenges that Triggered our Despair to Resolve themselves on their own, without the Interference of our Anxiety.  After all, We are now Compassion, not Worry.

All Prayers are Answered, and a “You Poor Sweetheart…” is a Prayer of sorts, a Surrendering of the Overwhelm to your Higher Power.  It’s also a Loving Moment like Gary Craig talks about in his Unseen Therapist process (https://www.emofree.com/), which is a very Powerful Healing technique to Learn.  It’s also Easy to Learn if you’ve been PIAVAing for a while (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/).

♥ We don’t talk about them often, but the seven short green lines are also important, and you can take advantage of them in any chart you find them in.  They’re called “Unxes” because an “Unx” is one twelfth of something.  The Twelfth Harmonic is about Pattern-Breaking.  That’s one of the most Powerful Skills we can develop.  After all, Karma is just Patterns, so if we can Break those Patterns, we’re Golden.

In fact, the South Node (Karma itself!) has two Unxes, one to Trusting our Forbidden Genius (Aletheia-Ixion-Venus), and the other to Suspending Disbelief (Klotho-Vesta).  The implication is that these two Intentional Acts will shake a good deal of our Karma and Self-Sabotage Loose.  We won’t turn that down.

The other Unxes and Opportunities for some relatively Easy Pattern-Breaking are…

• Suspending Disbelief to Despair/Miracles (Chiron).  An excellent Example of that – when you encounter what feels like a familiar Bummer about to repeat, Suspend your Belief that it’s Inevitable.  It Aint.  Just don’t Grab it.  Just slip out the back, Jack; just get off the bus, Gus – there must be fifty ways to Leave your Karma.  And don’t for a moment think that your Kinship with your Karma isn’t a Love Relationship – how long have the two of you been Joined at the Hip after all?

• Despair/Miracles to your Soul (Uranus).  What keeps you from Uniting your Soul and your Ego?  You don’t even need to know it, you can just say to yourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, You aren’t Identifying with your Soul as much as you could be, are you.”  Then just Change the Subject and Enjoy!

• Soul to Consciousness of Fear (Juno-Sedna).  I mean, what would your Soul have to Fear, anyway?  Certainly not Annihilation, it’s Immortal by definition.  Abandonment might Sadden Her, but even that’s Doubtful, as She surely knows that Getting Lost is the first stage of Getting Found.  We may have already Resolved all of our Sedna Station Issues with that last Poor Sweetheart.  Wouldn’t that be great!

• Consciousness of Fear to Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos).  Of course we’ve already Kegeled our Fear into Power, but even then, Unlimited is pretty Scary.  Reminds us of when we used to Imagine walking off the Edge of the Flat Earth, or those Nightmares we used to have about the Grand Canyon.  Better to PIAVA our Unlimited Potential.  How else will we shake it free from our existing Limiting Beliefs?

• Unlimited Potential to our Mission (North Node).  How does that Feel – Exciting?  If it doesn’t, Breathe.  Better?  You should be Feeling a Surge of Energy up your Spine.  We may even be Wondering, what the Hell is my Mission, anyway?  If so, great – Wonder is a hidden PIAVA (don’t try to Figure It Out though – that will Limit it).  You could make it PIVAWA if you want, or even WIPAVA.

It’s really pretty Simple math – Fear Plus Breathing Equals Excitement, Fear Plus Kegels Equals Power.  We’ll probably get lots of Opportunities to practice both over the next week.

Kegels 2

We’ve a few astroevents between now and then, but it would probably be a good idea to go right into looking at the 7 February Station (Strong) of Sedna (Fear/Power).  First though, let’s go ahead and finish the Juno-Sedna interpretation we started in the previous post, Kegels 1.  The two charts are similar anyway; same Patterns, different planets.  In the intervening week, the Moon will move about three Signs, the inner planets about 7 Degrees, Mars about 4 Degrees, and the asteroids about 2 – enough to swap some of the Players in the Patterns.

We said earlier, “There is also much Grace in the [Juno-Sedna] chart (Grand Trines and Kites, Diamond Stars).”

♥ A Grand Trine means Dumb-Luck Blessings.  Grand Trines are so full of Freebies that if we’re born with one, we soon end up Believing that other people are Stupid because they aren’t harvesting the same Bounty that we harvest so Effortlessly.  While Ego Astrology Celebrates the Grand Trine as Great Grace, I interpret it as Arrogance – until we get enough Experience to Heal it by grokking that everyone has their own Skillset, usually Different from ours, and that this Difference Powers Teamwork and everything larger than what one Person can do working Alone.

Sports are used as a vehicle in schools for Teaching Teamwork.  The lack of it in the Antichrist’s house is a marker of his Unhealed Grand Trine.

If you Struggle to Manifest what you see Others Creating Easily, it may be because they have a natal Grand Trine and you don’t.  But that kind of Manifestation can be Learned.  And what we Learn is not lost when we Die.  The Aptitudes you were Born with you worked hard to Earn in Earlier Lives.  If you Lavish yourself Enjoying the Benefits of a Grand Trine and never Learn that it’s not your Innately Superior Ego that brought you Wealth, you won’t take Positive Karmic Habits with you into your next Adventure.

Karma as Inertia is easy to mistake for Karma as Retribution.  No one is being Punished for Living Large – they just never developed the Habits to Sustain it because they didn’t need to.  If you have to Learn how to Manifest, then you get to take those Habits with you.  Grand Trines can apply to specific areas of Life – just for a start there are Water (Emotion) Grand Trines and Earth (Matter) Grand Trines.

The Antichrist, a self-proclaimed Genius who turned 73 today, gets his Arrogance partly from an Unhealed Grand Trine in Air (Mentality).  Mentality is Duality – Me Smart You Dumb.  Once one understands that Opposites are actually Equal, there’s no Limit to one’s Prevarication, especially if, like the Antichrist, you have two Strong planets Stationary and Conjoined in Libra (Relationship to Other).  That’s where he gets his agile but forked tongue.  He understands Duality in Me-Other; he’s too Arrogant to apply it to his own Behavior except in Win-Lose.

“I love to crush the other side and take the benefits… You hear lots of people say that a great deal is when both sides win.  That is a bunch of crap.  In a great deal you win – not the other side.  You crush the opponent and come away with something better for yourself.”

–Robert Wright, quoting the Antichrist, in “Make Globalism Great Again,” Wired Magazine, Feb. 2019, p.64.

He’s performing a Service, showing us how Destructive Competition really is, so we can be more Excited about shifting to Collaboration.  The Antichrist’s relative Popularity, while debatable and apparently declining, illustrates the prevalence of Arrogance and Unwillingness to Examine one’s Karmic Patterns in the US.  But the very decline in this Popularity tells us that People are Noticing and Learning.  Many will Learn that their Arrogance is just Ego, not Superiority, and begin looking for Alternatives.

♥ The Grand Trine in the Juno-Sedna chart – the big blue chart-spanning triangle (see previous post) – is also an Air Grand Trine.  The Mythological Trickster Archetype is an Air Pattern.  So we can Expect intellectual Arrogance or Facility here, from ourself and from others.  If we’ve always wanted to Learn Ease with the intellectual Perspective, this is a good time to Study it.  If you’re patting yourself on the back for being so smart, know it’s not You, it’s just a Moment in the Infinity of the Universe that you happen to be Experiencing.

The Libra (Debate, Charm) side of this Grand Trine is the Stellium (group of three or more planets) of Haumea (Rebirth), Pallas (Boundaries), and Aletheia (Truth).  While the Antichrist may or may not see this Rebirth of Boundaries between Truth and Lies, many others have been, and will yet.  We have to remember that this chart also “Challenges us to see All Apparent Setbacks as the Opportunities that they really are,”  as flags that indicate we’ve stepped off the Path of the Soul, that we should check our Heart’s Compass.

The Gemini (Flexibility, Dissolution) corner is occupied by dwarf planet Chaos – Unlimited Potential.  Truth is in the Heart, not the mind (another thing that the Antichrist is Teaching us by such a sterling Example of how not to do it), and everyone’s Heart is Different. So there are no Lies in Politics, only Different Perspectives and Different camps.  The problem isn’t Lies, it’s the Fear that someone you Disagree with will kill you over it.  Since you’re dealing with Hupers, this is quite Possible, and it’s a valid Fear.

But this is Juno-Sedna – bringing Fear into Consciousness.  So Tap It Out.  Even if its True, you need to be Neutral about it so you can have a cool head when Strategizing your Defenses.

The Aquarius (Cultural Norms) corner contains asteroids Vesta (Beliefs) and Klotho (Beginnings), indicating that many will have their Beliefs revised, quite possibly without even knowing it’s happening.  A Grand Trine is so Effortless we may not even Notice that it’s going on.  It may not be that the Antichrist can’t admit Error – he may not Notice his own Errors!  If you hear his former Supporters lying that “they knew it all along,” let it be.  Be Grateful that they’ve come to their senses, we don’t care how.

So we might characterize the entire Grand Trine as Easing the Dissolution of old Cultural Boundaries.  Crises are also Opportunities, so we can use this Social Disruption to Step Out into Who We Really Are more than we usually would.  With everyone else occupied by the Chaos in their own Lives, no one will be watching us…

That dude who keeps standing up in front of the camera is only following instructions from your mother.

♥ A Kite is a Grand Trine with a growth on one side – a fourth planet Midway between two of the three in the Grand Trine.  It means that the fourth planet may become the Focus of the Benevolent Energy in the Grand Trine.  This Grand Trine makes two Kites.

♥ In the first one, the fourth “planet” is a Stellium of Ixion (our Forbidden Genius), Eurydike (Trust), and Venus (our Values).  Ixion represents our Ability to break the Cultural Mold.  Our Willingness to do so depends on our Temerity – and perhaps our Arrogance.  But the indication is that this Grand Trine may bend our Values in such a way that we Trust our own Genius more.

♥ The second Kite is formed by Uranus – your Soul.  As old Cultural Boundaries Dissolve, it’s likely to become Easier to shift our Identity closer to our Soul.

♥ Two Kites on one Grand Trine means that a third Kite would Create a Grand Sextile – Six planets more or less evenly spaced around the Loop.  So the “Vacancy” in that sixth corner makes it a Place of Power, as by Supplying the Energy that would complete the larger Configuration, we can Enjoy its Fruits.  In the case of a Grand Sextile, the Fruits are even better than a Grand Trine, because we get to participate fully, and our Actions are likely to Succeed because so many Energies are Collaborating with each other.

The Grand Sextile is an Excellent Model for 5D Manifestation – Creating by Cooperating with the Energies that constantly swirl around us.  The Vacancy is 28 Leo, “Many little Birds on a limb of a Big Tree: a wide and perhaps Confusing openness to a multiplicity of Inspiring Potentialities.”  But we know that Confusion is the first sign of Growth.  The Fixed Star Alphard also sits at 28 Leo.  It’s often associated with Victims or Perps of Violence.  Not a good Omen when Sedna is Lighting Up the Fixed Star Algol (Catastrophe).

Fortunately, we know how to turn that around.  First we get Conscious of our Fear about that.  Then we Discriminate between the Fear that we Feel in our Bodies, and our thoughts about that Fear, and Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade the thoughts so we can Focus on the Fear Sensation in our Body.  Once we’ve Embraced and Softened that, if we haven’t turned it into Love already, we can Tap It Out or Poor-Sweetheart it (see https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 and https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/) or Kegel the Hell out of it.

Then we Choose What We Want to Experience instead, PIAVA that (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/), Change the Subject, and Trust that All Prayers Are Answered while we wait Patiently.  Not that we’ll always get exactly what we PIAVAed.  We may not be ready for that.  But what we always will get is an Illustration of the Impediments that stand between us and What We Want.  Getting those up into Consciousness where we can work with them is three fourths of the Challenge of Learning to Manifest as if we had a natal Grand Trine and Empathy besides!

Kegels 1

One of these days I’ll learn better.  Here again I thought we were getting a few quiet days, when Lo, another Biggie.  As Frank or Earnest (I never knew which was which), “I just get my budget in order, and along comes a big Surprise, like rent, or a weekend!”  So, on 8 February, Sedna (Converting Fear into Power) is Stationary (Strong), but gosh, that’s nine days away.  Not that nine days isn’t too long for a buildup to a Station, especially if it’s a Big Station, or we’re more Sensitive than the average Bear – or if there isn’t much else going on.

Buuut, I just Noticed that asteroid Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) crosses Sedna this morning (30 January, 9:30 am PST), so that’ll be giving us an early preview of the Sedna Station.  This should be a good test of our Misogyny – the crossing, and the Station, occur within a few arcminutes of Algol, the Star most associated with Catastrophe – Catastrophe from the Male Perspective, as to them it symbolizes Female Rage – Algol is the eye in Medusa’s severed head.  From the Female Perspective, it’s a whole different Story.  I mean, gee, what do women have to Rage about, anyway?

If you haven’t noticed any Disturbances in a Force near you, you may want to look more closely at the Gender Dynamics – you might be overlooking something.  And if you’re really Brave, you might want to bring up the subject with members of the Other Gender.  “Is there anything you’d like to talk about, Dear?  How do you think we’re doing on the Male-Female Equality thing?  Anything we could Improve upon?”  If there’s anything a Juno Angle begs for, it’s Expansion of Consciousness.

This isn’t the Initiation of a new Cycle; that was last mid-September, at 28 Taurus, “A woman, past her ‘change of life,’ experiences a new love.”  As if Love was reserved for Youth, or defined by Hormones alone.  This is what we call a “Confidence-Builder,” the third and last Conjunction in a series.  So we’ve already had practice with this Energy, in the first half of September and November last year, and now it’s time to Integrate what we’ve Learned.  A reminder in case you’ve forgotten – Kavanaugh’s Confirmation Hearing spanned 4 September to 6 October.

The chart of this third Juno-Sedna crossing is pretty busy…

The main feature of the Juno-Sedna Conjunction itself, though not the main feature of the whole chart, is our Challenge (Square, or red line) to Receive a New Timeline (Klotho) that will turn our Beliefs (Vesta) upside down and inside out…

“You live on Earth as a human being, not as a transcendent, Angelic being or a mythical Sidhe.  However, you can unite your humanity with the Angelic and Sidhe part within you in a rooted and yet heavenly way.  This is your potential, no matter what kind of human you are. 

“How you do this is for you to discover as your journey to revelations opens to the adventure called reality.  The Angel and Sidhe in you speak to your inner core about the most gentle and magical power you are destined to be.  Unfold your wings and walk Mother Earth with tenderness and creativity so heaven can land in the world of manifested creation.” 

— Søren Hauge, The Wild Alliance: Awakening Your Inner Angel & Sidhe, p.7.

♥ The most Exciting (Excitement Less Breathing Equals Fear) feature of the chart as a whole is the Challenge (T-Square, the red triangle pointing left) to see All Apparent Setbacks as the Opportunities that they really are (Chiron = Despair and Miracles).  One of the most important parts of 5D Manifestation is Trust (Eurydike).  We are actually already Manifesting in 5D, but we don’t Trust it.  Whenever our Plans and Expectations and other Intellectualizations about Mechanisms lead us away from our Intentions, Intuitions, and Visualizations about Results, our 5D Guides are likely to spill our paint pot or poke a hole in a tire.

When we see these Gifts as setbacks and Gremlins, and Persist with our preference for Method over Result, we revert to 3D.  If instead we, chuckling, Appreciate the Interruptions as Guidance, then we can lean back, close our eyes, Meditate on What We Want rather than How We’re Planning to Get It, and rejoin the Collaborative Co-Creation that we really Want.  Why struggle against the Unseen Energies when we can Cooperate with them.  We have seen the Enemy, and it ain’t them.

Their Objective is to follow our Lead, but they’re mapping out the Effortless path to Manifesting What We Want, not the Tiresome path of How we Planned to Claim it as Our Own Creation.  The Unseen Energies are taking their cues from our Soul, not from our Ego, and that’s an incredible Gift to us if we’re Open to Looking for it.

Did you notice that this is a Gender-Balance problem?  The intellectual Focus on Method is the Dynamic Male process of Creating; the PIAVAed (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/) Focus on Desired Results is the Magnetic Female way of Manifesting.

Regardless of our external Gender, our Inner Female (Heart, Intuition) knows Where We’re Going and What We Want.  Our Inner Male (Intellect, Engineering) might know How To Get There or How to Get It, but he isn’t hip to Where or What or Why.  They need to Partner Up if we’re going to get to 5D.

The Deeper part of this Challenge/T-Square is the Gateway to our Forbidden Genius and our Unlimited Potential (dwarf planets Ixion and Chaos, in the Opposition at the base of the T-Square).  Both of these lie far beyond our Expectations and Understandings, and will Deliver Rewards that are as Exceedingly Surprising and Delightful.  This Gate is Open in this chart (ie, at this time), and the Treasures that lie beyond the Gate are Glorious.  All we have to do to Open to them, is to see Interruptions as Gifts, as hints that we were veering off course.

♥ The big red square is a Grand Cross – four planets more or less equally spaced around the Zodiacal Loop.  It’s actually more Impactful than the T-Square we’ve been talking about, but the T-Square will give us more hassles, so we’ll probably Notice it sooner.  Not only is a Grand Cross a Big Deal (because it spans the entire chart), but this one includes the Nodal Axis, meaning that it’s all about our Journey from Karma to Grace, making it Foundational.

Bringing our Fear up into Consciousness where we can Breathe it into Excitement or Kegel it into Power, is an Easy Path (Trine Bridge, the blue lines) across the Chasm between our Karma (South Node, upper left) and our Mission (North node, lower right).  Our Helpers in Disguise (remember now, Disruptions are Gifts informing us that we’re getting off course) are our own Soul (Uranus, lower left), and our Rebirth (Haumea-Aletheia-Pallas, upper right).

Allowing the Rebirth (Haumea) of our Boundaries (Pallas) between Truth (Aletheia) and Fiction, aka Suspending Disbelief, is a big part of Reframing our Setbacks and Surrendering our Ego into Service to our Soul.  Uranus is on its way back into Taurus (Solid Materiality), after spending seven years in Aries (Creative Spirit).

♥ There is also much Grace in the chart (Grand Trines and Kites, Diamond Stars), but we’ll talk about that in Kegels 2.

Manifesting in 3D and 5D

Manifesting in 5D is all about Cooperation and Collaboration and Receiving.  In 3D it’s more about Effort and Persistence and “Winning.”  Here’s an example…

We’ve spoken of the Sidhe, the True “Fairies” of Irish folklore (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/sidhe/) already, as I was introduced to them in a Fairy Study Circle created by Michael Polarski, of Fairy and Human Relations Congress Fame – which we’ve also spoken of (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/08/06/quantum-jump-27-the-real-thing-vii/).  So I jumped at the chance when Jeremy Berg, a major Sidhe collaborator…

…came to a nearby town to present a workshop.  I was a little surprised at the time by how quickly I Responded, since the town was far enough away that I would normally have had to work fairly hard to convince myself to make the trip.

In a completely unconnected process, the week before Jeremy’s workshop, one of my clients asked me to attend an all-day meeting being held the day before the workshop.  My client’s meeting was to occur in another town only a few miles from the workshop, and they offered to provide lodging before and after the meeting.

Tremendous stroke of luck, as it meant that I didn’t have to get up before dawn to travel to either!  As my client was making these arrangements, they suggested I bring my wife and have a “second honeymoon.”  Well, unbeknownst to my client, it turned out that the meeting was happening in the same hotel that our wedding reception had been held in years before!  Another remarkable coincidence – or remarkable Intuition on the part of my client.

So, we went to the meeting and the workshop, and assisting Jeremy in the workshop, unbeknownst to me when I signed up, was a friend, remarkable person, and fabulous Irish Harpist, Peter Berry (https://manufacturing.dustystrings.com/blog/dusty-harp-001-interview-peter-berry).  Well, Peter, with his Harp and his incredible Bardic Genius for Story, was the officiant who married us!

Not knowing these remarkable “coincidences,” Jeremy sketched out the Sidhe way of relating to their Reality, which sounded a lot like what we might Call 5D Manifesting, where we’re in Cooperation and Collaboration with the Energies and Forces around us.  That’s one of the fundamental purposes for this blog, hoping to help us understand the Forces swirling around us at any given time, so we can more Easily Cooperate and Collaborate.

I don’t normally get this personal in this blog, but the Story is too “coincidental” to resist telling.  Back in 2012, when the World As We Know It was Ending, we spoke a lot about how a New Energy Manifests at the Beginning of a Cycle between two planets, when a faster planet passes a slower one, and the slower (more Powerful) planet Initiates the faster one, or provides Shaktipat so that the faster planet can serve to Implement the Program of the slower one.

After the Initiation – when the New Energy is Prominent, the New Energy moves underground, as the Masters of the Old Obsolete Energy work to save their Investments by Forcing the Old Energy to appear to still be Working.  If we understand these Cycles, and know where we are in which Cycles, we can ignore the Old-Energy-serving headlines, we can “no longer lend our Strength to that which we wish to be Free From” (as Jewel puts it), and put our Efforts into helping the New Energy take hold.

The New Energy comes into its own when the faster planet is three Signs ahead of (“Waxing Square to”) the slower planet.  In 2012 Uranus Waxed Square to Pluto, finally bringing the Energy of the 1960s (when Pluto Initiated Uranus) out into the mainstream.  We Intuit the nature of a Cycle first by the nature of the planets involved, then by the Sabian Symbol of the Degree in which the Initiation occurred, and third by the Birth chart of the Initiation.

One meaning for Pluto is Transformation, or Trance Re-Formation, and another is Compulsion.  The interpretation we use for Uranus is the Individual Soul.  So the 150-year-long Uranus-Pluto Cycle is about a Compulsion to Transform our Lives so that our Ego Identifies more with our Soul or Mission.  You’ll notice that we talk about that quite a bit, especially now that Uranus is Edging into Taurus (Soul Merging with Flesh), which it does again in about six weeks.

The Sabian Symbol for the Pluto-Uranus Initiation was “A Ouija Board” – Opening up to the Mysterious.  The chart of the Initiation is quite remarkable (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/05/29/yintegrity-in-public/).

So I was thinking last week about how I should be giving examples of the Waxing Square stage of Cycles, where the New Energy is coming out of the Closet, and see if we can Relate that to the Initiation, which we more often write about.  So this evening I looked to see which Cycles were at the Waxing Square, that we could write about, and lo, Mars was Waxing Square to Saturn just last week, on 21 January.

So, when was the Initiation, and what did we write about it?  I’m not trying to make this a test or testament about these methods, as I didn’t invent them – blame Dane Rudhyar for that – because, after having seen these methods work over the last half-century, I know that if I don’t understand, it’s because there’s New Information coming into my Consciousness, and it’d Behoove me to Pay Attention!

We Interpret Saturn as “The Most Important Thing” or the First Priority, and Mars as Action.  So the Mars-Saturn Cycle would be about how well we Prioritize our Actions, and whether they Further our Goals.  We have the admitted Bias that we Believe our Goals (at least while Uranus is as Lit Up as it has been) should be devoted to Opening our Ego to Adapt to Knowing and Surrendering to our Soul.

So if we go back to 2 April 2018 to find the Saturn-Mars Initiation, we find this (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/04/01/surviving-2/)…

“If we were examining Projects we’re beginning now (this Rebirth, for example), and hence using larger Sensitivities, we’d see that the Saturn-Mars Initiation is also Merged with the Quaoar and Pholus Stations.

“This means that The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is to Act (Mars) to Be Responsive to our Survival Instincts, and by extension to our Hidden Genius.  The Saturn-Mars Initiation occurs on 2 April (9am PDT) at 9 Capricorn, ‘An Angel carrying a harp.’  This begins a two-year Cycle where this Angel will facilitate our Actions when they Align with Being Responsive to our Survival and that of our Unique Genius.”

“An Angel carrying a harp!”  And of course, the stated Reason that the Sidhe are Approaching our Dimension now is because they sense that we’re about to Commit Cultural and Environmental Suicide, and they’d like to help us Choose to Avoid such a “Fate,” partly because they Live in a Parallel Dimension on the same Planet, and our Suicide will impact them as well.  Continuing with our April quote…

“So ‘you who philosophize Disgrace and criticize all Fears, take the rag away from your face, cuz now ain’t the Time for your Tears,’ as Bobby D put it.  God/Goddess is on our side after all.  It’s been a tough week, but the prognosis is good.

“You also got cheated out of a readable chart of the Healing Abuse Full Moon (see penultimate post) with its Decisions-about-Abuse-and-Privilege Paradox School, in the heavy lines…

“The light lines show that the impending Saturn-Mars Initiation T-Squares the Full Moon, but Trine-Bridges the Decisions-about-Abuse-and-Privilege central axis of the Yin Gate.  Which is to say that if we Act to Be Responsive to our Survival Instincts, and by extension to our Hidden Genius, it will Heal our Abuse Histories Paradoxically. 

“Which is good, because it’s going to be a lot easier to Act-to-Be-Responsive-to-our-Survival-Instincts than it would be to Act-to-Heal-our-Abuse-Histories, for the reasons we explained in the penultimate Healing Abuse Full Moon post.  Penultimate means the post before the previous one.  It usually means next-to-the-last, but in this case, same diff, as the last post is the one before this one.”

We didn’t discuss, at least in that post, the Yin Gate with its emphasis on the Orcus-Nessus Opposition as the Primary Paradox governing the Cycle.  Orcus symbolizes the Oaths, Promises, and Commitments that are Forgotten and become Obsolete Habits, aka Karma, and Nessus symbolizes Abuse and it’s flip side, Privilege.  One very common sort of Paradox is the Healing Crisis, where an Affliction gets worse after a Healing before it gets better, and may continue to get worse if we Distrust the Medicine, because our Afflictions are continuing Mirrors for our Attitudes.

Here in the USofA we’re in the role of the Battered Woman, where our Oaths to Support Nation and Authority, and to curry favor from Wealth, are being tested by the fact that Authority and Wealth have been Abusing their Privilege and in the process Abusing Us – and we’re Noticing!  The two diagonals of the Yin Gate (the blue Rectangle) are the Journey from Karma to Mission, including the “fact” that our Karma hides the tools we need to Reach our Mission (the Nodal Axis), and Noticing that we need to Trust our Instincts about Ending Obsolete TimeLines (Sun-Mercury Opposite Moon-Eurydike-Atropos).

My own Obsolete TimeLine that’s being Ended is my Programmed Resistance to Accepting the HardCopy Reality of the Subtle Realms and Other Dimensions, where the Energies we need to Cooperate and Collaborate and Conspire with are Swirling, in and out of our own Dimension.  Even though I’m Passionate about Reanimating the World and All of its Beings, Sentient and Otherwise (if there is such a thing as an Other-than-Sentient Entity), how much do I Allow it to interpenetrate my Life, Moment-to-Moment?

Earlier in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/04/01/surviving-2/, we point out that the Saturn-Mars Initiation is also Merged with (Conjoins) the Belief-Responsibility-Survival (Vesta-Pholus-Quaoar) Stellium, telling us that in order to Act to Support the Most Important Thing, Respond to our Survival Instincts, and Allow the Angel’s Harp to Enchant us into Collaboration and Cooperation with the Energies Swirling around us, we need to Allow our Beliefs to Shift.

I have not been Working to Shift my Beliefs; I’ve been Reading and Learning and Watching them Shift on their own. If we look at the second chart in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/04/01/surviving-2/, we see that the Belief-Responsibility-Survival-Action Challenge (the red triangle or T-Square) is Self-Resolving (the blue cat’s cradle across from it the Diamond Star created by Varuna and Pallas), and that the Belief-Responsibility-Survival-Action Challenge itself is actually between our Ability to Manifest (Makemake) and our Victimhood or Attitudinal Adeptness (Chiron).

Now, while all that well describes the Roots of the Cycle, we want to Recognize that it’s Evolving.  If we look at the chart of the Waxing Square itself, which is almost identical to the Sappho-Station (Self-Love) and Grand Octile (Epiphanies) Total-Lunar-Eclipse (Erasing our Karma and Enhancing our Vitality) charts in the Self-Judgment and Self-Love series (the previous posts), we see that our Understanding of the Most Important Actions for us to take (the Mars-Saturn T-Square) is being Transmogrified (Bee-Zed) by our New Commitment to Self-Sovereignty (Hylonome) and our Learning that we overcome our “Fate” by simply Choosing an Alternative (asteroid Moira).

All of which leads us to https://www.instagram.com/p/Bs__j4Zgw8v/.

Self-Judgment and Self-Love VIII

Two other Cycles Began today, 22 January, both members of the Grand Octile we discussed in Self-Love IV (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/01/18/self-judgment-and-self-love-iv/).

♥ Haumea Initiated Pallas at 9:30 am PST.  This almost-five-year Cycle is about Resetting all of our Boundaries.  There’s an obvious Connection to our Self-Sovereignty, as our Boundaries are what Separates Me from Not-Me.  Expanding our Consciousness is usually about Growing Me into Not-Me, but Rooting Not-Me out of Me can be more essential.  There’s no way we can Pursue What We Want if we can’t tell What Our Puppet-Master Wants from What We Want.

Our Mission isn’t even something we Recognize till we Banish Who We Should Be and Claim Ownership of Who We Are.  This Cycle Begins in 27 Libra, “An airplane sails, high in the clear sky.”  Our only tether would be Fossil Fuel.  The implication is that we may want to Let Go of the Old Order and make our own Homestead.  Not necessarily as a hardcopy Farm, but as an Independent Agency, where we Depend as little as possible on the Fossil Culture that’s so obviously in serious Decline.

The Guardian has an interesting review of a book on what the author calls Surveillance Capitalism…

https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2019/jan/20/shoshana-zuboff-age-of-surveillance-capitalism-google-facebook

“The result [of Surveillance Capitalism] is that the choice mechanisms we have traditionally associated with the private realm are eroded or vitiated.  There can be no exit from processes that are intentionally designed to bypass individual awareness and produce ignorance, especially when these are the very same processes upon which we must depend for effective daily life.”

So perhaps we should also be thinking about cutting our Digital Lifeline as well.  While an airplane can only go so far without refueling, what’s the point if it has no idea where it’s going?  It’s Connection to GPS and airports is very useful if we want more than Joyrides.  We intend to dissect 2020 soon, with its earnest Beginning of the Digital Age.  Will it Embrace us, or Betray us?  If current trends aren’t diverted, it’ll be the latter.

♥ Jupiter Initiated Venus at 4:30 am PST.  While this is only a one-year Cycle, it’s about Expanding our Values, which is important for our Task of Growing our Consciousness into a Space where we are able to Manifest our Heart’s Desires.  The Cycle Begins at 16 Sagittarius, “Seagulls fly around a ship in expectation of food.”  More Flying, but in this Cycle we’re Flying Toward, and, basically, Begging for scraps.  We could easily end up in that role in the Digital Age.

♥ But in addition to the Sabian Symbol of the Initiation Degree of a Cycle, we also rely on the chart of its Initiation, since that is indeed its Birth chart.  And both of these Cycles are Born at the Grand-Octile Life-Force Self-Love Full Moon Total Lunar Eclipse that we’ve been writing about for the last ten days.  So we can expect the Changes in our Boundaries and Values to be permeated with Insight, Love, Vitality, Curiosity, Liberation, and Grace, even as Surveillance Catpiddleism and its Digital allies make Expansion of our Consciousness critical for our Survival.

“It was strange and rather gratifying that I, who am one of the lowliest members of our group, should have been chosen, with two of the humbler fairies in theirs, to bring before the band the possibility of yet another branch of helping those in trouble.  This rescue work has now become one of their regular tasks.

“From one meeting to another I’m filled with anticipation as to what we shall do and where we shall go on our next.

“Together we have seen things which I never knew existed and Nixus and Lyssis have taught me almost all I know about meditation.  I try to learn now, not only because I want to understand about everything within my mental range but because, in discussing new-found facts with them, they always somehow shed a different light on the subject.  They disclose to me each new aspect as they learn it, whether it is about healing, their work with the human earthbound, or their counterpart in the fairy world.

“They encourage me in my so far vain efforts to come in closer contact with my ceris (a member of another evolution), and when I can’t hear what he is saying to me, they act as interpreters.  They tell me about the many entities upon whom I rely for my continued existence in my present form.  About these, I know even less than I do about my ceris.

“Some time ago I felt that, with so many things going on around me, if I became in tune with all of them, the whole issue would be confused.  I understand now, however, that this isn’t true, that as one became in tune with another evolution, a whole new sector of one’s mind became animated, and one is thus equipped to receive more and more knowledge.

“When one realizes that each evolution has its own rate of vibration and that everything that grows with them and ’round them is also vibrating faster or slower than all the other evolutions, that they have their own plants and animals, different types of homes, instruments, music and all the others, one realizes that one isn’t going to have a dull moment for a good many thousand years.  Each new aspect learned opens up others till my head spins at the thought.

“I’ve talked to quite a lot of people about these other evolutions and they seem even less known than the fairies, which all goes to prove that just because a person’s dead, he doesn’t necessarily know much, if any, more than you do.

“Where we do score, though, is that as soon as we start wondering about some new subject, and we make a few enquiries about it, it’s never long before we just ‘happen’ to run into someone who can answer the questions which have been puzzling us.  A little later we also ‘happen’ to run into someone who holds classes on the very subject that interests us and so we are gradually led from one teacher to another until we are ready for the more practical side to be demonstrated.”

–“Nixus and Lyssis,” by John, in Daphne Charters, My Forty Years with the Fairies, pp. 161-2.

Self-Judgment and Self-Love VII

The direct impact of the 20 January Sappho Station (Self-Love) began fading as soon as the Station was Exact, shortly after 9pm PST.  However, the impact of New and Full Moons (and Eclipses) Increase for several weeks after the fact, including the impact of the 20 January Life-Force (Varuna) Total Lunar Eclipse, which was Exact shortly after 9pm PST.  Now, if you recognize that these two times are the same, you’ll probably Intuit that the impact of the Self-Love Sappho Station will also be Increasing, since it was actually a Self-Love Life-Force Total Lunar Eclipse.

So we may not be done Confronting our Impediments to Self-Love, ie, our Self-Judgments.  The sooner you Notice and Banish (Poor-Sweetheart them or Tap them Out) your Self-Judgments, the sooner you can Bask in your Self-Appreciation.  It’s not a one-time thing – each time you Let Go of your Self-Judgments instead of Indulging them, you build a Habit that’s Foundational for Creating What You Want.

If you travel in the company of folks who like to Judge you, and who can’t Abide your Appreciating yourself, you’ll need to find a Strategy to get yourself out from under their influence.  The first step would probably be to tell them to Stop, though it would probably be a Miracle if that worked.  The second step would then to get them out of your Life, though that’s not always possible.  One of the most constructive things you can do (because it Develops a Habit that will serve you all your Life and beyond), is to Mirror them.

Unless they’re both Psychic and Sadistic (some folks are, alas), they have no control over what you do with your Thoughts and Visualizations.  First you need to Ground yourself well – imagine a cable connecting the base of your spine to the center of the Earth.  It’s a good idea to Practice that when you’re alone, without the Stress of having to relate to a Sadist.  That’ll make it easier to do when you’re in the thick of it.

Then Visualize holding an imaginary wardrobe Mirror between you, facing them.  That will send their Negative Vibes right back to them.  You can also Practice this while you’re alone.  You can certainly feel their Negative Vibes when you’re alone, bouncing from wall to wall in your Skull.  Watch what happens to those Noises when you hold up your Mirror.  You’ll need the Practice, because the first few times it won’t be easy to focus on holding the Mirror, while they’re haranguing you.

Another thing you can do in between your Sessions with your Tormentor, is to Ask yourself, Who does this person remind me of?   It probably won’t be the first person in your Young Life to Abuse you verbally.  Practice Mirroring that other person too.  They’re still very much Alive and Well in your mind, so use your Mirror to make yourself some Space that’s Safe for Self-Appreciation.  If their predecessor isn’t obvious, pick one from the movies.  The movies are full of Abusive Heroes – Hollywood thinks it’s really Cool to put other people down, Pilgrim.

Our tendency is to relive those movie Abuse Victim situations by imagining how we might put the Bully in their place, or find a priceless comeback, or just beat them senseless.  That’s not the right approach; you want their Abuse to bounce off your Mirror so you’re Teflon to their onslaught of garbage.

If you’re stuck in a position where it’s not at all Practical to get a Bully out of your Life, you can get them to Bully other people just by no longer Allowing them to Bully you.  They might escalate for a while, but soon they’ll get bored and look for more Satisfying Victims.  To make this work you’ll have to get Neutral – not Reacting or Responding in any way.  They’ll try to Shame you for that, but once you get the hang of it, your Mirror will Protect you.

The reason this is so important is that your Vulnerability is really an unrecognized Hole in your Aura.  Some Wannabe Puppet-Master in your Personal or Karmic history Manipulated you into Allowing them to Invade your Personal Space so they could reach in and make you Dance to their tune.  Probably someone who convinced you that what they were doing was called “Love.”  From the Energy Perspective that’s a Hole in your Aura.  Bullies see those Holes Unconsciously, and love to reach into them and Dance you.

Getting really good with your Mirror is the same thing as Filling in the Hole in your Aura, just seen through a different Metaphor.  If your Personal Space is Filled with your own Aura, no one can get in to Manipulate you.  If someone gets “under your skin,” it’s not that You are to Blame for it – it’s that You can Do Something to Stop it.  But you need to be the one to Commit to it.  It’ll take you some Effort and Persistence to build new Habits, but it won’t just Change Your Life, it’ll Change All of You Future Incarnations as well.

The Mythical Hylonome was so “hooked in” to her Lover that when he was killed, she killed herself with the same lance.  She was even more Codependent than Hera/Juno – at least Hera attacked her Rivals, not herself.  The dwarf planet Hylonome Danced with Saturn on 25 December 2018, when it Initiated a new Saturn-Hylonome Cycle at 11 Capricorn.  Capricorn 11 is about “A large group of Pheasant on a private estate” (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/12/08/wow-vi/).

The new Cycle has begun already, so the Energy is fading into the woodwork, but Saturn and Hylonome are still only two Degrees apart at the Full Self-Love Total Vitality Eclipse Moon, so the Energy hasn’t faded much.  The Saturn-Hylonome Cycle itself says that The Most Important Thing Is to Liberate Ourself from Codependence, and that’s one of the messages that the Eclipse brings.  Pheasants on a private estate aren’t free animals; they’re probably being kept to sell to hunters so they can Torture them as playthings.  The estate owner has his or her hand in their Auras.

So Learning to use a Mirror, and making it Habitual, isn’t just a trick to help us Experience more Self-Appreciation this week.  Once Initiations pass, a Cycle goes Underground for a while, while it gradually undermines the folks who are clinging to the old Cycle (the Bullies).  Once the faster planet (here Saturn) gets three Signs ahead of the slower planet, a Crisis erupts as the Intention of the Cycle bursts into the Open.  In this Cycle, that’ll be the middle of 2028.

The more you can Begin To and Persist At Filling the Hole in your own Aura now, the more likely you’ll find yourself Flying Free in 2028 instead of being Dinner for some Bully.  This whole business with the Antichrist Bullying Federal employees and elected officials in the US, is probably an excellent reflection of the Dance between Saturn-Hylonome and Sappho.  They were five Signs apart (Quincunx) at the Eclipse – that means our best Strategy is Curiosity.

Saturn and Hylonome were also Conjoined by Bee-Zed, which symbolizes Transcendence.  Transcending Codependence gives us an Opportunity to make our new Self-Sovereignty Habits Easier to Develop.  It’s part of the Mars T-Square that we discussed in Self-Love V (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/01/19/self-judgment-and-self-love-v/), the one that Recommends that we Choose to Act.  Acting to Fill the Hole in our own Aura is one of the best things we can do, because Filling our own Aura will make it Easier for everyone else on the Planet to Fill theirs.

Besides, wouldn’t it be great to eliminate Bullies in 2020 instead of waiting till 2028?  It’ll be a lot harder then than it is now.  Ms. May and M. Macron are in interesting pickles as well.  Ms. May seems to be simply lost in an Illusion of Power that she doesn’t have.  Perhaps the Ghost of the Empire has its hand in her Aura, or the Ghost of Ms. Thatcher.

Self-Judgment and Self-Love VI

Did we emphasize enough how we might Respond to encountering any Impediments to our Self-Love?  The Easiest would probably be Poor-Sweethearting.  All you have to do is say to yourself, silently or not, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Guilty, aren’t you.” for, e.g., Guilt.  You could plug in any other Self-Judgment, or a different verb, such as “Discouraged,” or even “you’d rather Die, wouldn’t you.”

But before we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, we may want to get Conscious of how we’re Identifying ourself.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’d rather Die, wouldn’t you” might be exactly what you need if you’re Identifying with Extricating yourself from a situation that has no other exits.  But we can make an intermediate step – Identifying with what we’re Feeling.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Hopelessness, aren’t you” Identifies that you’re dealing with an Emotion rather than hardcopy 3D Reality.

Emotions can be Crippling, we know that, but they aren’t the Whole Story.  There are always other Perspectives.  Just Acknowledging that we’re dealing with an Emotion, rather than a Complete Reality, Expands our Awareness because we can’t help but Realize now that there are other things in the Universe besides Emotion.  For many of us, our Emotions are our Bottom Line, but they aren’t Everything.  So doing your Poor-Sweetheart once again with Feeling is useful, but it’s not the real point of Poor-Sweethearting.

When you talk to yourself and address yourself as “You,” you Step Out of your former Identity.  When you talk to yourself Compassionately, you’re no longer Identifying with the Bummer you want to Leave Behind, you’re now Identifying with Compassion – you’re actually stepping into Self-Love.  As long as you aren’t saying it Sarcastically, by adding the Poor you also take a step toward Empathy.

Our Self-Talk and our Thoughts Reveal where our actual Identity sits in any given moment.  Becoming Aware that we’re Talking to Ourself and that we’re Thinking, is a major Expansion of Consciousness, especially if we can make it a Habit.  When we shift from “I’d rather Die” to “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair, aren’t you,” our Identity shifts first from Despair itself, to our Emotions.  We Create Miracles by taking the next step – we Change the Subject.

We’ve Poor-Sweethearted ourself, now we need to Step Aside so it can do its work.  If we continue to focus on Despair or Emotion after we’ve Poor-Sweethearted ourself, we aren’t using the Power inherent in it.  Think of a Bummer, even a tiny one, for a minute.  Then Poor-Sweetheart yourself about it, then look to see if your Mood or Vibration has shifted.  I always feel much Lighter afterward, and I suspect you will too.

Once we move our Attention away, the Magic can happen.  If we’re still thinking about the Bummer, nothing has Changed, and we may need to try another strategy, like Tapping.  Toggling back and forth from Poor-Sweethearting to Tapping, and back again, as many times as you need to, could be very Powerful.  Our Habitual Thoughts are Cages that stop us from entering the Dangerous (to the Ego) world of Growth.  Only by Changing the Subject can we allow the bars to re-form to Enclose a larger space.

A technical note: Feeling Like does not introduce an Emotion, it introduces a Thought.  The word Feeling must be followed by a word that indicates an Emotion, before you’re really dealing with Emotion.  If you’re Feeling Like Shit, you’re still in your Thoughts.  You’re Referring to neither your Emotions nor your Physical Body, but your Judgments about one or the other, or both.  Judgments are Thoughts.  Differentiating your Emotions from your Thoughts is a very Powerful Growth in Consciousness all by itself.

The chart of today’s (20 January 9:15 pm PST) 1 Leo Total Lunar Eclipse Vitality Full Moon, apart from the Grand Octile, is busy…

But if you look at the big blue triangle (Grand Trine, aka Dumb-Luck Blessings), you’ll notice that Chiron (it looks like a key) and Ceres (like an upside-down cuphook) are two of the three corners – Moon-Varuna-North Node (Instincts-Life Force-Mission) is the third.  Plus, by adding Sun-South Node-Karma-Atropos-Mercury (Essence-Held Emotions-Bad Habits-Endings-Awareness; it’s a story problem – make a sentence including all five of these concepts) we make a Kite (Directed Dumb-Luck Blessings).

So whatever else is going on here at the Sappho-Station Total-Lunar-Eclipse Vitality Full Moon, the route to making it all Effortless lies through Chiron (Despair, Miracles, Poor-Sweethearting) and Ceres (Sustainability) – making it a Lifetime Habit to Poor-Sweetheart yourself at the first sign of distress.  You aren’t Avoiding anything by Poor-Sweethearting it; you’re Stepping Out of the Way so your Heart (aka your Inner Female) can Love it to death without interference from the Limitations of your Present-Moment Ego.

Dr. Kim is on track with the Year of Self-Love as well – if like me you’re irritated by the constant movement of the camera, you may want to click to a blank tab so you can Listen without the distraction…

I wonder if it’d be easier to watch if I said to myself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Irritiated, aren’t you.”  Let me give it a try…  Yup, complete transformation!

Self-Judgment and Self-Love V

If we temporarily de-emphasize the Grand Octile and just look at the same-Degree Angles to the Sappho Station…

…we can see that a Challenge around Action (Mars T-Square, the red triangle) pops out, and that Action is somehow an Easy Alternative (Trine Bridge, blue lines) to our Growing Pains (the Sappho-Jupiter Divide) and Spiritual Challenge (Neptune T-Square).  Before we sign up for a Yoga class (to Actively Stretch Into Expanded Self-Love) though, we may need to deal with the Action Challenge (Mars T-Square).

That Challenge is about how much we Realize that we have Choice (Moira) around the suggestion that The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is Transcending (Bee-Zed) our Need to Please Others (Hylonome).  Codependence is a very easily Defended excuse for postponing Self-Love because we were Programmed to Believe that Pleasing Others was Noble.  How old were we – maybe 2 or 3 – when we were taught to Share?

Which brings up an interesting point about those who never were taught to Share.  Could there be Epiphanies for them around their Control issues?  Probably not, but we can hope.

All of which suggests that perhaps we should Choose to Share more, with Trusted friends, around our closely held secrets and our most cherished possessions.  Boundaries are clearly involved in this Dance (Pallas-Haumea).  If there’s any Guilt (Nemesis) involved, Sharing more of ourself, when it’s Safe, would be even more Powerful.  And which suggests that it would behoove us to Stop Giving Away our Power, and Stop Giving Away anything else that Triggers our Scarcity but which we feel compelled to Share because we Should.  In fact, maybe…

The Bottom Line around Self-Love is always about Examining our “Shoulds.” 

Any discomfort in our Shoulders would underline that (Sappho Station in Gemini).  Then we can do that Yoga class (Saturn-BZ-Hylonome in Sagittarius) to start making it a Body Memory.

It may be useful to Remember that the Physical Dimension is just another Perspective on the Unitary Wholeness of Life, along with the Emotional, Spiritual, and Mental Perspectives.  Switching between these Perspectives – for instance, into the Physical to address an Emotional conundrum – often creates what appear to be Miracles.

The Call to Action (Mars T-Square) has two Easy Alternatives (Trine Bridges) – one to Breaking Oaths (Orcus) and one to Surrendering to Spirit (Neptune).  In fact the two of them make what’s called a Golden Rectangle (the big blue rectangle – it’s called “Golden” because the ratio between the long and short sides is the Golden Angle of Sacred Geometry fame).

We interpret a Golden Rectangle by Dancing with the diagonals.  We’ve already discussed the Choice-Shoulds (Moira v. Saturn-BZ-Hylonome) diagonal; the other is about Oaths and Sprituality (Orcus-Neptune).  The Key to this may simply be that Either/Ors are always Political; it’s Both/Ands that are Spiritual.  Sure, Religion can Inspire the Spiritual (Awe, Wonder, and Respect for All Things), but Religions, except in their Esoteric forms, usually boil down to a set of Rules, and often Require an Oath of Allegiance to these Either/Or Rules.

When we make a Promise or Vow or Oath that’s Either/Or, and if we don’t Betray it, we gradually Internalize it.  It becomes an Integral part of who we are, and we Accept it as a Value, forgetting that it derived not from the Heart but from the mind.  It becomes a Karmic Limitation for us in subsequent Lifetimes.  Stretching our Values (Venus-Jupiter) is part of the Sappho-Station/Total-Lunar-Eclipse Global Epiphany (Grand Octile).

Well, maybe not quite Global; the Eclipse is only visible from the Western Hemisphere, so maybe it’s Western Civilization and Colonial Supremacy that’s scheduled for Epiphany.

Truth Resides in the Compassionate Heart, not the Dualistic mind, and Truth is different for every person.  When we try to run our Life from Either/Or Values that we Learned from someone else, rather than from Both/And Values that we Discovered were True for us, we Live Falsely, constantly Betraying our True Self.  We’ll never find Self-Love there.

Self-Judgment and Self-Love II

Of course the “good news” of a Nemesis Station Square Nessus-OR10 (Ego Death from Embracing or Poor-Sweethearting our Intrusive Abuse Memories), is that it’s an Opportunity to Clear the very Held Emotions that constitute our Unconscious Resistance to migrating into 5D, aka What We Want.  It’s not as complicated as it sounds.  Originally, we set Boundaries against Memories that would Trigger Emotions that would Overwhelm us.

As we got good at this through Repetition, we pushed the Memories and their Emotions out of our Awareness and into Karma.  We made them Unconscious, which means they’re part of Not-Me.  In Real Life we’re Infinite Light Beings Fantasizing a Material Vehicle, and from this Light-Being Perspective nothing is Not-Me.  But when we Identify with our Fantasy Material (/Emotional/Intellectual) Vehicle, then from that Perspective our Not-Me can get Overwhelmingly large, large enough to Take Control of our Vehicle behind its back, without telling us, so to speak – Out of Our Awareness.

This is the Origin of all the Good-Versus-Evil stories you’ve been taught since Birth; “Good” is your Fantasy-Vehicle Identity, and “Bad” is the Not-Me which is the rest of your Light Being, which you don’t recognize as “Me.”  Hence the Classic Warfare Model of HisStory.  His many Stories become Religions or other Group-Thinks like Make-Rome-Great-Again aka Bring-Back-the-Slaves, which the pathologically clever among us exploit for their own Gain.

Moving into Identifying with our Light Body is not a process of Struggle, but a process of Surrender or Allowing or Vulnerability – HerStory.  The Lady Warrior Archetype misses the point, but it’s an intermediate step that might help with our Liberation, if we don’t get Stuck in it.

As we attempt to return our Identity to our Infinite Light Beingness, we find that our Fantasy-Vehicle Identity has to Break Out of a series of Shells, each one Opening us to a “new” (Revealed – Eris) segment of our Not-Me, which Manifests as an Introduction to a Held Emotion (South Node or Karma).  With each Broken Shell our Me Grows toward our 5D Light Being, and our Me Grows in Power – in the sense that we now have greater Healthy Control over our Life Circumstances.

Not the Power-Over which dominates HisStory, but the Power-With that works through Collaboration with the Unseen.  The more we can Delegate Power to the Unseen Energies that actually Carry it, the Easier our Life becomes.  Except of course for the potentially unpleasant “Ego Deaths,” or Molts, or Rebirths, or Embracing/Poor-Sweethearting of our Held Emotions, that occur when one of those Shells Break, because we Experienced those Shells as Security to our Fantasy Vehicle.  Like when Nemesis Acts Out, such as Now through 17 January.

Not to Lament, as Sappho (Self-Love) is also Stationary here, through 20 January.  Unconditional Self-Love is so Central to our Light-Being Self that we’re hardly Aware of it.  While Nemesis can suck out the Air that our Fantasy Vehicle likes to Breathe, nothing can suck out the Light that our Light-Being Self Breathes, though the Illusions of our Fantasy Vehicle like to blind us to that in its misguided attempts to Protect the next Shell.

When we can Experience the Breaking of a Shell as Liberation of a more Power-With-ful Me instead of the demise of a more Limited Power-Over-ful Me, our Growth into Full Collaboration with the Universe has Arrived.  Contrary to the usual Metaphor, there are no Destinations here; there are only More Shells to Break.  5D is not an event, it’s a process, and it’s the process of Enjoying Ego Death.

So let’s have a look at this Opportunity to Experience some serious Ego Deaths in the context of serious Self-Love…

For instance, there’s Marilyn Raffaele’s Channeling for 13 January…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

(If you don’t find the 13 January 2019 message there, check http://www.onenessofall.com/archives.html.)

“We are the Arcturian Group, a collective of ascended Arcturian beings from the eighth dimension here to assist Gaia and her people during these times of ascending consciousness.

“Know that these messages as well as others that may resonate with you are in reality your own state of consciousness manifesting as the particular message.  If this were not true, you would not be drawn to or be able to understand them.

“You, who are spiritually prepared to expand beyond the illusion and integrate truth are the forefront of the ascension process.  You chose to be on earth during these times of intense energetic chaos and change in order to complete your own third dimensional spiritual journey and become the first wave of ascension and example for those following.

“You are preparing the way for those of the second wave–individuals spiritually ready to awaken but who until now have resisted doing so.  Know that the Light of so many now awakening out of three dimensional sleep state, is shifting and dissolving the old paradigm, even when things appear to be getting worse.  Try not to give up hope but rather stand back as an observer for you are soon going to see much that will restore the hope you may have lost.

“You serve as living breathing examples of unconditional love for those around you when you realize and begin to live out from a consciousness that knows unconditional love is the only reality and that anything else simply represents conditioned beliefs about love.”

“Unconditional love can only ever be all there is because there is only ONE–one substance, one life, one reality, one law.  Love is the energetic glue connecting everything within this Infinite ONE and those who [naively] continue to believe in and live out from a consciousness of separation and duality create for themselves the illusory forms of these beliefs.

“You can ignore, but never change the reality of Oneness by judging from outer appearances as proof of its nonexistence.  Continuing to hold to the third dimensional belief system after outgrowing it only delays a person’s spiritual evolution because Oneness is the foundation of all reality and must be acknowledged at some point.  For some it may be in a future life, for you it is now.

“There are some who present a very religious face to the public, preaching ideas of love, but who do not practice them when confronted with experiences or opportunities that may result in personal inconvenience or lifestyle discomfort.  Unconditional love cannot continue being flowery words spoken or written, but must become an attained state of consciousness.

“Because Love/oneness is the only reality, all false concepts about love must be allowed to fade away and be replaced by a deeper realization of what love really is.  The third dimensional belief system has created and promoted hundreds of concepts of love, the grandest of them being romantic love.

“Romantic love is based in the belief that everyone is half of a couple.  This concept would be true if humans were simply physical, but they are not and never have been.  Although appearing to be just physical, the reality is that everyone is a whole and complete expression of Divine consciousness having the experience of being in physical form.

“Many, even the very evolved are reluctant to move past their favorite three dimensional concepts of love but as long as an individual continues to seek wholeness, happiness, and fulfillment from another, they remain just that– half of a couple.”

“Let go of concepts proclaiming that things need, should, or must be a certain way in order to be correct.  Most of the world’s ‘shoulds and shouldn’ts’ have been carried in collective consciousness from earlier times when they may have actually made sense for personal safety.  Others are nothing more than rules and regulations given by third dimensional thinkers, governments, and religious leaders often to promote their own agendas.

“You are ready to come out from under the bondage of three dimensional thinking because you have evolved beyond the need for someone to tell you what is right and what is wrong–you already know what is right and wrong.

“Allow yourselves to be who and what you are.  If family or friends think you have become a ‘weirdo’, simply laugh, bless them, and move on.  Does God need outer validation?  Where could it come from since IT is all there is?  …

“For some it takes a great deal of courage to live truth when it begins to unfold from within.  A person may be afraid to speak of these things to those of his old mindset be they family, friends, or church elders.  Living truth is not for the faint hearted especially in the beginning, but continuing to align with some organization or individual out of fear of criticism serves only to keep the person in energy he has outgrown and where he will continue to create experiences reflective of that energy.

“The choice is yours, dear ones.  Do you choose to be what you already are or do you wish to continue with the illusion of being a poor human constantly suffering third dimensional problems and continually seeking a savior, human or Divine, to save you?.

“Stop waiting for someone or something to change the world for you.  Only the awakened consciousness of the collective can and is shifting the three dimensional world out of illusion.

“Allow the real YOU to create your experiences.  You are your own Light should you choose to accept this fact.

“You are Divine Consciousness in expression.  Claim it.”

Or Dan Scranton’s Channeling for 14 January…

https://danielscranton.com/defeating-others-is-not-a-part-of-the-shift-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We are more than satisfied with the progress of humanity, and furthermore, we are certain that your progress will continue to impress us.  Now, we know that it is easy to find the faults with where you are as a collective and to focus on them because they are right there in your face, very loud and somewhat destructive.

“So your approach now to helping humanity as the lightworkers you are has to be aimed at changing the way you perceive those noisy, low frequency aspects of the human collective.  We invite you to see that humanity is getting all of this out of its system in preparation for the shift in consciousness.  There are very old disputes that you have on planet Earth, and they actually extend back even further than when human life on Earth began.

“You are there settling very old scores, and you have needed to try the old way of going about it for quite some time.  Again, you need to realize what works by first realizing what does not work.  Seeking to defeat the so-called enemy, no matter how bad they appear to be, will never work for humanity, and there’s a reason for that.  The reason is that you are there to bring together all aspects of you so that you can become your higher selves.

“You cannot bring together all of the parts if any of the parts are eliminated or destroyed.  Again, we invite you to see the attempts to destroy one group of humans by another as the last gasp, the last ditch effort for certain aspects of humanity to cling to the third dimensional ways.

“If you are receiving this transmission, you are not among those who wish to do this.  And so again, we urge you all to be the peace, and the sanity, be the calm at the center of the storm.  And in so doing, you will integrate yourselves, your human collective, and this beautiful galaxy of ours.”

Self-Judgment and Self-Love

Well, my apologies.  I finally see why many folks are checking the blog’s home page – when I was cataloging the “first half of 2019” (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/12/24/2019-first-half/) I just plain missed a couple of Stations.  I thought we were getting a short break between the 12 January Lachesis Station and the 20 January Full Moon Eclipse, but no such luck!

We have to add…

♥ Self-Judgment and Self-Love, 11-20 January

• Nemesis (Guilt, Ego Death) Station, 6 Gemini, 17 January (2:30 pm PST)
• Sappho (Self-Love) Station, 12 Gemini, 20 January (9:30 pm PST)

I’ll amend that earlier post.

In other words, asteroid Nemesis – Ego Death – is Stationary as we speak.  There’s at least one positive about it – it could mean that US federal employees will start getting paid again by 18-20 January, but we’ll get to that.  The other big positive may not Feel so good, but it’s a big Opportunity.  The Nemesis Station Squares (Challenges) our old “friends” OR10 and Nessus, respectively Intrusive Memories and Abuse and Privilege.  Two things to Remember…

1. A Square seems to be about Repeated and Possibly Infinite Torture, while in fact a Square is about Complete Mastery of a Subject.  We – our Current-Moment Ego – didn’t sign up for Repeated and Possibly Infinite Torture, but actually it’s the quickest and most effective path to Complete Mastery.  Because Master can imply Slave, we’ve abandoned Mastery as a description of the Impact of a Square, however, and substituted Adeptness.  A Square is the quickest and most effective path to Becoming Completely Adept at something.
2. Karma is Dead.  When we Re-Experience a Trauma, our natural Reaction is to Push it Away.  But unfortunately that doesn’t work.  The only way to prevent it from returning Again (and Again and Again) is to Move Into it.  Recovery from Trauma was a major theme in the 1980s when Pluto was in Scorpio (fittingly), and the Anthem we used then was The Way Out Is Through.

Now that isn’t always True.  Once Pluto entered Sagittarius, The Way Out Was Letting Go.  Now Pluto is in Capricorn, so now The Way Out Is to Just Fix It.  So how to do that?  Well, one way is to toggle between Moving Into It and Letting It Go. 

We apologize for using a song sung by a Barbie-Doll mimic, because that’s just another thing that we need to Let Go of.  No wonder Lasseter’s in trouble with #MeToo…

https://msmonotone.wordpress.com/2017/09/08/hour-glass-figure/

We’ve all Suffered Abuse in some form; if you aren’t Aware of how you’ve been Abused, Ask for Awareness.  This is an Opportunity to increase your Healthy Control over your own Life.

The Key is that Karma is just Habit, and Habit is Built and Replaced by Repetition.  Every time you Re-Experience Trauma as its Victim you add cement.  But Every time you Let It Go as an Adept, you chip away the mortar.  That’s As An Adept.  That means you first have to dip your toe into it.  You can no longer Run Away from it.  It’s subtle and tricky, to Touch your old Trauma without getting sucked in and drowning in it.  If you have a friend, or a mnemonic, to remind you that it’s no longer Present Moment, that’ll help.

In the 1980s we used “What Color is the Wallpaper?” as our mnemonic, because the walls of the room we’re in now are probably a different color than the walls of the room where our Trauma occurred.  But that may suck you in too deep, if you even remember.  You need to keep at least one hand on the railing so you can pull yourself back out into Now.  Maybe a big

2019

sign?  Or a placard or poster that says something like

“Karma is Dead!
(As long as I continue to Let My Bummers Go and Let My Hurting Self into my Own Heart Unconditionally!)”

Let your Inner Artist work on that one.

Poor-Sweethearting yourself can be Powerful too (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/).

Don’t neglect Tapping.  Gary Craig had great success leading Vietnam PTSD Victims through Re-Experiencing the Edges of their Trauma and Tapping with them.  This is heavy…

In order to Move Through and Let Go of Deep Trauma you may need an EFT professional who’s familiar with PTSD.  A workable approach might be to locate one near you (or within telephone distance), connect with them, tell them you want to try EFT on your Trauma first by yourself, and ask them if they’re willing to take your call if you get in over your head.  They may have useful information for you.  The basic EFT technique I use is this one…

Finally, if it’s Painful between now and 17 January, Recognize that the 20 January Sappho Station that follows, which is all about Self-Love, occurs within a few minutes of the Total Lunar Eclipse, which will make Self-Love very Powerful and more Long-Lasting.

The major Configuration of the Nemesis Station chart…

…is a Square Fez – the Moroccan hat with red sides and blue top and bottom.  The red sides (Squares) are…

• Nemesis Square OR10-Nessus (Abuse/Privilege).  This is a Challenge – consider it an Invitation – to Let Go of our Beliefs that Abuse and Privilege follow us around like a Lost Puppy.

In the Unconscious, Opposites are Equal.  So one way to Approach our Beliefs that we attract or deserve or allowed Abuse (if we don’t bring these Beliefs into Consciousness they’ll Control our Life), is to Examine the ways we are Privileged.  Privilege is actually useful – as long as it doesn’t leave someone else without Privilege.  If you have a friend who likes to buy you lunch, Enjoy it!  And pay it forward, pass it around.  Save half to give to the homeless person on the corner.

But we want to Strive for Balance.  We want to Grant as much Privilege as we Receive.  And we want to Give as little Abuse as possible, and Receive even less.  Having Received Abuse it’s inevitable that we will Give it, Unconsciously if not Consciously.  Stay Safe, but try to steer it toward Abusers…

https://msmonotone.wordpress.com/2017/10/06/pigs-in-politics/

The Keys to any Fez are the green Diagonals (called “Quincunxes” because they connect planets that are five [Quin] Signs [Unx = 1/12] apart).  They’re part of two interlocking Major Tricolors or red-green-blue triangles, indicating Challenge/red, Question/green, Blessing/blue; the green Question Liberates the blue Blessing to resolve the red Challenge.  By Question we mean Curiosity, of the kind that eschews “Figuring It Out.”

Aka PIAVA – Praying, Intending, Asking, Visualizing or Pre-Feeling, Affirming, Commanding, Expanding, or any other Magnetic approach to Creating; see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.  We don’t want Answers, we want to Express our Curiosity about How the Result we Want will Manifest – then we want to Let It Be so the Universe can Surprise us.  Resist the Desire to know ahead of time; if you don’t get Surprised, you aren’t Growing.  If we already knew the Answer, we’d have already Manifested it.

The two Major Tricolors are…

• Nemesis Square OR10/Nessus (the Challenge to gently assist the Molt of our Abused Ego),
  • OR10/Nessus Quincunx Makemake (“I Wonder what that’ll look like when it Manifests!“),
  • Makemake Trine Nemesis (Ego Death is the Open Door to Creating).

• Makemake Square Hopi/Quaoar (the Challenge to Recognize and Relax our Judgments in order to Allow What We Want to Manifest),
  • Hopi/Quaoar Quincunx to Nemesis (“Ganeshi, Please Remove All Obstacles to Letting Go of my Attachments to my Judgments“),
  • Nemesis Trine Makemake (I’ll be better able to Manifest What I Want once I Let Go of my Inner Blocks to Receiving it).

Many thanks to MSMonotone, https://msmonotone.wordpress.com/about/home-art-work-titled-nathan-original-works-by-msmonotone-jayanti-maloney/, for the art!