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“Dark Days” 7

April 25, 2019

Okay, the Pluto Station has passed under the bridge and moved on down the River, though as I said earlier, it may linger because the three Stations (Pluto, Chariklo, Saturn) are only a few Degrees apart.  I used to Experience Pluto Stations as though I was “swimming through Jello,” but lately, while there’s a good deal of momentary Confusion, it’s been Feeling fairly ordinary.  Anyone finding Differently?

So to the extent that Pluto has moved on, we’re left in the Thick of Chariklo-Saturn-South Node, or Confidence-Attention-Karma.  Or, The Most Important Thing is to Stay in the Present Moment, or to Distinguish between the Present Moment and our Regressions.  One downside I’d not be Surprised to see is that our Karma will shake up our Confidence, and we’d be swimming in Self-Doubt instead of Jello, or worse, in Self-Recrimination.  Whenever the South Node is lit up – or asteroid Karma, or our Karma for any reason, astrological or otherwise, most of what we Experience will be Illusion.

We could easily be imagining the worst Outcome possible, then when something appears to move in that direction, we jump to the conclusion that it already, indeed, has.  For instance, if we’re thinking about how a friend might Abandon us, or thinking about Abandoning them, and they make a comment that might be interpreted as Criticism, even if it wasn’t meant that way, we could Receive their comment as the very Abandonment we’d been Expecting, and React accordingly, leaving our former friend wondering what happened.

That’s a good example, as it Illustrates how we grasp our Karma rather than the other way ’round.  Of course the critical element is the Depth of our Karmic Trance – that’s what Karma is after all, a Trance, one that Separates us from the Present Moment.

Pluto of course is all about Trance – we usually express it as a Transformation, or Formation of a New Trance.  The key to Karma is Awareness that we’ve Left the Present Moment.  Back in the 1980s we would ask ourselves, “What color is the wallpaper?” because if it was not the same as the wallpaper in the room where we were Abused, just that had the potential to jolt us out of our Unconscious Surrender to our Regression.

So with Pluto Involved (it’s still Involved even as its Influence lessens), our odds of Transforming our Karmic Trance into Awareness are actually greater.

The Karmic Trance can be very all-consuming Emotionally.  If we Hear someone Criticizing us or otherwise Shaking our Confidence, it may not matter what their Intentions are, it may Light a Fire in us that’s not easily extinguishable.

Everyone has some degree of Karmic Abandonment, and everyone has some degree of Karmic “Suffocation” – the Feeling that someone is watching us too closely, waiting for us to slip up, eager to label us Wrong, or itching Limit our Freedom.  The Libertarians carry their Suffocation to Extremes, and are proud of it.  Often, for each of us, either Abandonment or Suffocation dominates, but we can be Strong in both.  By Distinguishing when we’re Feeling Abandoned and when we’re feeling Suffocated, we up the odds that we’ll be able to recognize that it’s Our Abandonment and Our Suffocation.

When we Own these two Emotions, we can more easily Differentiate situations where we’re Being Abandoned or Suffocated, from situations where we’re Feeling Abandoned or Suffocated.  If we can do that, we up the odds that we can retract our Projections – rather than Feel Criticized and clam up, we might ask what the other person meant when they said that.  Of course, just because we’re Feeling Abandoned or Suffocated, doesn’t mean we aren’t also Being Abandoned or Suffocated – “Just because I’m Paranoid doesn’t mean they aren’t out to get me,” as we used to say.

But Recognizing these Feelings will help you decipher whether the Emotion and the Experience match in Intensity.  When they don’t, we’re either Tranced into our Karma, (when the Emotion is much more Intense than the Experience) and need to Wake Up, or we’re looking into the open jaws of a Held Emotion – that is, Tranced into Avoiding our Karma (when the Emotion is much less Intense than the Experience).  While Avoiding Karma may feel like Success, it’s not.  It means that our Karma is hiding in the Unconscious, where it’s pulling our puppet-strings.

One of the hardest things about Held Emotions is that they’re undercover.  Since we’d rather Die than Feel them, we’re highly Skilled at Avoiding them.  The Ego’s job is to keep us Alive, and if the Ego thinks we’ll Die, it’s going to Excel at Avoiding that situation.  So if we can Detect a clue to a Held Emotion by Arbitraging our Experiences and our Emotions instead of just Freaking Out, then thinking in terms of Abandonment and Suffocation will have done you a solid.

In a way it’s like your Study of Anxiety – where you’re Learning to distinguish between your fast-moving Emotions (a la Goofy) and your drudging thoughts about them (aka Anxiety).

And don’t forget Poor-Sweetheart.  Poor-Sweethearting a Real Emotion or a fake one can Feel like Avoidance, but it’s not.  Once you Empathize with what you’re really Experiencing or Feeling, you’ve already Changed the Trance.  When you then Successfully Change the Subject, you Step Out of your Karmic Trance, and every time you Step Out you build your Antikarmic Muscles.  Pretty soon you have a whole new set of Patterns.

Ancestors Full Moon 2 (Boundaries VI)

February 18, 2019

The second Self-Resolving Challenge (Diamond Star) in the 19 February Full Moon is Focused on the Life Force (Varuna)…

The Stress that needs to be Resolved (the Opposition in the base of the T-Square or red triangle) is between Whether our Actions Serve our Soul’s Purpose (Mars-Uranus) in the Lifetime, and Whether our Boundaries are True to our Soul’s Purpose (Aletheia-Pallas, both of which are Stationary or Strong).  The Suggestion is that any Limitations in our Vitality will be clues about how our Actions and Boundaries aren’t Serving our Soul’s Purpose.

The Grace which Supports our Efforts and makes the Challenge Self-Resolving, is split between…

The big uptick in participation by the Ancestors (Sun-Klotho-OR10), which we discussed in the previous post, and…

Trusting our Unique and possibly or formerly Forbidden Genius to help us be Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Eurydike-Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar), which we also talked about earlier.

The next Big Configuration in the Full Moon chart is Profound Blessings (a Grand Trine and Almost-Grand-Sextile)…

The Big Dumb-Luck Blessing (Grand Trine) is on the Cusp between Fire and Earth, mirroring the imminent (6 March) movement of Soul (Uranus) into Matter (Taurus).  The Players are an Ego Challenge as our Inner Female steps forward – for any gender (the Moon on the cusp of Virgo), the Genius-Trust-Survival Dance we’ve spoken of (Eurydike-Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar on the Sagittarius-Capricorn Cusp), and the Question about whether our Actions Serve our Soul’s Purpose (Mars in Taurus Conjunct Uranus in Aries).

The two elements in the Almost-Grand-Sextile are the Ancestors (Sun-Klotho-OR10 in early Pisces), and the Changes in our Boundaries (Pallas-Aletheia in late Libra), both of which we’ve discussed.  A Grand Sextile means that all of the elements in it are Operating Cooperatively with one another – sort of the way everything will be in 5D.  So if we can Activate the Almost-Grand-Sextile, we’ll find our Boundaries, the Ancestors, our Survival, our Genius, our Instincts (Moon), and our Actions all in Alignment.

So how do we Activate an Almost-Grand-Trine?  We look at the Energy embedded in the sixth corner, the one that would Complete the Grand Sextile, called the Vacancy, and we Project that Energy Consciously.  Intention is probably Sufficient.  The Vacancy is 2 Cancer, “A man on a magic carpet hovers over a large area of land: The ability to expand one’s consciousness by stabilizing one’s point of view at a higher level.”  Wow, just what the original Self-Resolving Challenge, that we described in the previous post, Creates!  When astrology Repeat itself, we know we’re on the right track.  Remarkable.

The picture above also shows one other feature of the Full Moon – the Finger of God (grey-green wedge) pointing at Chiron (Despair and Miracles), so recently having moved into Aries (1pm PST 18 February).  Despair is one of the defining characteristics of Pisces, as Pisces’s job description is to Embrace All Excess Emotional Baggage, Karmic and otherwise.  So the last eight years, while Chiron has been in Pisces, have been Intense Emotionally for all of us.

By now we’ve hopefully all Learned how to Poor-Sweetheart ourself into Miracles.  By saying to ourself “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Bummed, aren’t you,” and then Changing the Subject (Putting our Attention elsewhere), we can instantly Shift our Identity from Bummed to Compassion.  We may have to rinse and repeat, or use Tapping or other PIAVAs, if we Obsess and have difficulty Changing the Subject.  (Leave a comment if these concepts are new to you.)

With Chiron in Aries, we of course could Encounter Spiritual Crises instead of Emotional Crises, and considering the State of the Planet, that may well happen.  And actually, we’re already hearing about just that on the Fake News every evening, aren’t we.  But a Spiritual Crisis is basically an Ego Death, and we’re well practiced at Embracing those, Right?  And now that we’re Adept at Embracing Emotional Crises after studying them for eight years, we won’t have to deal with those complications, Eh?

The Roots of the Chiron Finger of God are our Instincts about Ego Death (the Moon on the Cusp of Virgo), and our True Boundaries (Stationary Pallas and Aletheia).

The next Global Configuration in the Full Moon chart is a hidden Chin-Strap Square Fez, so called because the sides of the Moroccan-hat-shaped trapezium are Squares (red lines), and the blue triangle below the bottom looks like a chin strap…

It also forms a Parasol over the Juno Diamond Star, adding extra Grace to our Consciousness Expansion.  The Challenges (Squares) are real…

  • Genius-Trust-Survival (Ixion-Eurydike-Pholus-Quaoar) Challenging our Ability to Transform Despair into Miracles (Chiron).  Basically, this is about using the Tools we’ve Learned to Avoid being a Victim, for which there are many Opportunities.  We could be Victimized by Threats to our Survival.  All our Life we’ve been Victimized by the Programmers who drove our Forbidden Genius underground.  If we misinterpret Respond-Ability as Blame, we’re Victim there as well.  And Lack of Trust is a perennial source of Victimhood.

But – we know how to convert Despair to Miracles, Right?  Only our Ego can be Victim, not our Soul, and we’re in the process of moving our Ego closer and closer to Soul, Right?  So every trace of Victimhood is a Sign that we need to Surrender to an Ego Death and move into Respond-Ability.  We can do that as simply as saying to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’ve Feeling Vicimized here, aren’t you” and then Changing the Subject.

  • Our False Boundaries (Stationary Pallas and Aletheia) Challenging our Life Force (Varuna).  This can easily feel like Victimhood again – if our Boundaries aren’t working, we can feel like someone else is Manipulating or Hurting us.  If we don’t Recognize the connection, we can Experience that as a Diminution of our Vitality.  Again, we can Watch for Diminished Vitality, and when we Notice it, Look For places where our Boundaries are too weak or too strong.

But the key to any Fez is the Tricolors (red-green-blue triangles) created by the grey-green diagonals.  A Tricolor is a combination of Challenge (red), Curiosity (grey-green), and Grace (blue lines).  The prescription is to unlock the Grace by remaining in Curiosity about the Challenge, rather than trying to Figure It Out.  We can’t Figure It Out without Limiting ourself to our current concept-set, so by Avoiding that and staying with Curiosity instead, we invite Growth in Consciousness instead.

This is not the kind of Curiosity that inspires Study and Research – that’s the Figure-It-Out kind.  This is more akin to Awe and Wonder, Accepting What Is at Face Value, and Marveling at it.  Like we did very often as a kid, before we were perverted by the Over-Intellectualization of Colonial Society.

By Knowing Cause we can sometimes Manipulate circumstances to our Advantage.  To the Colonial or Capitalist mind, Win-Lose is Success.  We could use Cause for Win-Win, but first we have to Evert our notion of Success.

By Believing we Know Cause, whether we do or not, and by Enjoying the fruits of Manipulating circumstances to our Advantage, we Seduce ourselves into Believing we’re Superior to those we’re Colonizing.  That somehow makes Colonialism okay – we Rationalize that we’re somehow Helping them while we’re robbing them blind.

The problem is that we never do actually Know Cause.  We may Know some Superficial Connections, but like Vale’s recent murderous dam failures in Brazil, Colonialism always ends up Defiling the Planet and the People for the Profit of the few, and the few usually live far away from the Carnage.

So to achieve non-Figuring-It-Out Curiosity-Awe-Wonder requires a Big Ego Death relative to our Lifelong training as children of Colonialists.  Like Racism and Sexism, it takes a big jolt just to Realize that we are Racist and Sexist and Colonialist, and that we don’t know how not to be.

Moving our Perspective from Appreciation – or literally Worship – of Figuring It Out (and of Wealth and Superiority) to Appreciation of Awe and Wonder (and Sustainability and Equality), takes a Searching and Fearless Inventory of everything in our Lives, but if we want to Trust our Unique Genius and Respond Fully to our Survival Instincts, it has to be done.

We can interpret the diagonals of the Fez and their Tricolors as PIAVAs.  Using just the Major Tricolors (those with the long blue lines or Trines), we have…

  • “I Wonder if I can Poor-Sweetheart myself into Allowing Miracles to Adjust my Boundaries so that my Vitality is Improved” (Varuna Square Pallas-Aletheia Quincunx Chiron Trine Varuna – the “Quincunx” or five Signs is the grey-green Curiosity line)

PIAVA is short for Prayer-Intention-Asking-Visualizing-Affirming.  There are other, “silent” letters as well, such as Wondering, Commanding, and Expanding.  These are all Triggers for our Intuition that can Magnetize what we Want to Receive and draw it toward us – the Feminine process of Creating.  It’s an alternative to the Dynamic or Masculine process of Plan-Execute and its corollaries.  Whenever you’re dealing with What You Don’t Know, aka the Unconscious, the Magnetic process is the only one that works – and it works Wonders.

In the above we’ve used Wondering to Trigger our Intuition, and to make it work – which is to say, to Avoid trying to Figure It Out – we need to immediately Change the Subject and put our Attention elsewhere.  See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/ for more details, some of which are important.  In the below we’ll use Prayer.

  • “Ganeshi, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Avoiding Victimhood about my Genius and my Survival, while Supporting my Vitality.”

Then we Change the Subject.  By Surrendering Control over the Relationships between (1) Victimhood (Chiron) and (2) Genius-Survival (Ixion-Quaoar) and (3) Vitality (Varuna), and Delegating them to the Remover of Obstacles Ganesh, we’ve Invited our Intuition to Resolve any Conflicts that may arise between them.

That leaves only what’s usually ignored in astrology – the four “Unxes” in the Full Moon chart.  Unx means one twelfth, and it names the Angle between two planets that are one Sign apart…

These are the short green lines.  This is the Twelfth Harmonic, which is about Pattern-Breaking.  So any Self-Sabotaging Habits you have between the Energies on each end of an Unx, this is a great time to replace these Habits with Self-Supporting Patterns.  The Unxes here are…

  • Do you Sabotage your Vitality, by eating Sugar or other empty calories like White Bread, for instance, or failing to eat enough Green Vegetables or Drink enough Water?  You have Instincts that tell you not to do this – do you Ignore them or not even Recognize them?  Now would be a good time to PIAVA that you Attune yourself to them.  (Moon Unx Varuna)
  • Many of us have Habitual Actions that don’t Serve our Soul.  It’s an excellent time to PIAVA that we become Conscious of them so we can Change them.  (Juno Unx Mars-Uranus)
  • And most of us probably feel like Victims of these non-Soul-Serving Actions, as if someone else made us do them (and indeed, we may have been Programmed to do them by someone else).  “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Victimized by those Actions, don’t you.”  (Chiron Unx Mars-Uranus)
  • I’m Worried that these Ancestors are coming to Kick Ass because we’re Screwing Up!  “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Scared by this Possibility, don’t you.”  (Chiron Unx Sun-Klotho-OR10)

Confusion and Growth

February 4, 2019

The New Moon isn’t the Star of its own chart here.  Neptune is, as should be obvious from a glance at the chart…

Neptune is not only the focus of a Challenging T-Square (the red triangle), but also the apex of an Epiphanic Mjölnir (the big orange wedge).  The New Moon does provide an Easy Path (Trine Bridge, the blue lines) through any Difficulties that might arise.  What does this Easy Path look like?  As we suggested in the previous post, find it by Staying as True as you can to your uncontaminated Deepest Desires.

The orange Octiles and Trioctiles dominate the chart.  Nothing like the vibrant Grand Octile in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/01/18/self-judgment-and-self-love-iv/, but impressive nonetheless.  Octiles are about Adjustments, Trioctiles about Bringing Things Back into Balance.  We can use some of that.  A lot of it actually.

The Neptune Mjölnir combines two Trioctiles on a Square (Challenge, red line at the base) between Boundaries (Pallas) and the Life Force (Varuna) – there are places in our Life where we Resist certain kinds of Experience, and the Resistance eats away at our Life Force.  We Resist these Experiences because they Confuse us, and we’re very Vulnerable when we’re Confused.

Folks might try to tell you that this Vulnerability is exactly what will Heal, but you won’t Hear it.  But there’s a good chance that you’ll encounter Insights in the next few weeks that you will be able to Hear.  It’s likely that these Insights will have something to do with Self-Love (Sappho), and will help you shift your Identity from Defending your Masks to Supporting your Soul (Uranus).

The New Moon itself is Octile to Chiron (Despair/Miracles) and to Venus (Values), signifying that we’re due to be Adjusting our Values so they are more Invigorating (or even Thrilling) than Limiting.  If you get stuck, use your Poor-Sweethearts“You Poor Sweetheart, you won’t let yourself Enjoy what you Really Want, will you.”  You Believe you’re a Victim of this, that someone else is somehow the Perp.  But they aren’t, it’s you.

That’s Hard, because you can’t just Betray your own Values.  They’re there for good reasons.  Besides Letting other people Down you’d feel like you’ve Let yourself Down.  So what to do?  Well, you can Change the Subject after you Poor-Sweetheart yourself about Depriving yourself of Enjoyment.  Your mind can’t solve this or any other Neptune problem, and it’ll try damn hard to do it.  Sound familiar?

Poor-Sweethearting and then Changing the Subject is a Powerful Invitation for your Intuition to suggest Alternatives to what you’ve been doing all of your Life, Alternatives that your mind will never think of.  You may not even see them as related to your Resistance to Self-Love, till long after you’ve Opened Up to them.  If it’s hard to Change the Subject because your mind keeps returning to the “Problem,” go deeper.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you can’t Change the Subject, can you.”  Then Change the Subject.  The mind isn’t easy to outsmart, but Patient Persistence helps.

Self-Judgment and Self-Love VI

January 20, 2019

Did we emphasize enough how we might Respond to encountering any Impediments to our Self-Love?  The Easiest would probably be Poor-Sweethearting.  All you have to do is say to yourself, silently or not, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Guilty, aren’t you.” for, e.g., Guilt.  You could plug in any other Self-Judgment, or a different verb, such as “Discouraged,” or even “you’d rather Die, wouldn’t you.”

But before we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, we may want to get Conscious of how we’re Identifying ourself.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’d rather Die, wouldn’t you” might be exactly what you need if you’re Identifying with Extricating yourself from a situation that has no other exits.  But we can make an intermediate step – Identifying with what we’re Feeling.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Hopelessness, aren’t you” Identifies that you’re dealing with an Emotion rather than hardcopy 3D Reality.

Emotions can be Crippling, we know that, but they aren’t the Whole Story.  There are always other Perspectives.  Just Acknowledging that we’re dealing with an Emotion, rather than a Complete Reality, Expands our Awareness because we can’t help but Realize now that there are other things in the Universe besides Emotion.  For many of us, our Emotions are our Bottom Line, but they aren’t Everything.  So doing your Poor-Sweetheart once again with Feeling is useful, but it’s not the real point of Poor-Sweethearting.

When you talk to yourself and address yourself as “You,” you Step Out of your former Identity.  When you talk to yourself Compassionately, you’re no longer Identifying with the Bummer you want to Leave Behind, you’re now Identifying with Compassion – you’re actually stepping into Self-Love.  As long as you aren’t saying it Sarcastically, by adding the Poor you also take a step toward Empathy.

Our Self-Talk and our Thoughts Reveal where our actual Identity sits in any given moment.  Becoming Aware that we’re Talking to Ourself and that we’re Thinking, is a major Expansion of Consciousness, especially if we can make it a Habit.  When we shift from “I’d rather Die” to “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair, aren’t you,” our Identity shifts first from Despair itself, to our Emotions.  We Create Miracles by taking the next step – we Change the Subject.

We’ve Poor-Sweethearted ourself, now we need to Step Aside so it can do its work.  If we continue to focus on Despair or Emotion after we’ve Poor-Sweethearted ourself, we aren’t using the Power inherent in it.  Think of a Bummer, even a tiny one, for a minute.  Then Poor-Sweetheart yourself about it, then look to see if your Mood or Vibration has shifted.  I always feel much Lighter afterward, and I suspect you will too.

Once we move our Attention away, the Magic can happen.  If we’re still thinking about the Bummer, nothing has Changed, and we may need to try another strategy, like Tapping.  Toggling back and forth from Poor-Sweethearting to Tapping, and back again, as many times as you need to, could be very Powerful.  Our Habitual Thoughts are Cages that stop us from entering the Dangerous (to the Ego) world of Growth.  Only by Changing the Subject can we allow the bars to re-form to Enclose a larger space.

A technical note: Feeling Like does not introduce an Emotion, it introduces a Thought.  The word Feeling must be followed by a word that indicates an Emotion, before you’re really dealing with Emotion.  If you’re Feeling Like Shit, you’re still in your Thoughts.  You’re Referring to neither your Emotions nor your Physical Body, but your Judgments about one or the other, or both.  Judgments are Thoughts.  Differentiating your Emotions from your Thoughts is a very Powerful Growth in Consciousness all by itself.

The chart of today’s (20 January 9:15 pm PST) 1 Leo Total Lunar Eclipse Vitality Full Moon, apart from the Grand Octile, is busy…

But if you look at the big blue triangle (Grand Trine, aka Dumb-Luck Blessings), you’ll notice that Chiron (it looks like a key) and Ceres (like an upside-down cuphook) are two of the three corners – Moon-Varuna-North Node (Instincts-Life Force-Mission) is the third.  Plus, by adding Sun-South Node-Karma-Atropos-Mercury (Essence-Held Emotions-Bad Habits-Endings-Awareness; it’s a story problem – make a sentence including all five of these concepts) we make a Kite (Directed Dumb-Luck Blessings).

So whatever else is going on here at the Sappho-Station Total-Lunar-Eclipse Vitality Full Moon, the route to making it all Effortless lies through Chiron (Despair, Miracles, Poor-Sweethearting) and Ceres (Sustainability) – making it a Lifetime Habit to Poor-Sweetheart yourself at the first sign of distress.  You aren’t Avoiding anything by Poor-Sweethearting it; you’re Stepping Out of the Way so your Heart (aka your Inner Female) can Love it to death without interference from the Limitations of your Present-Moment Ego.

Dr. Kim is on track with the Year of Self-Love as well – if like me you’re irritated by the constant movement of the camera, you may want to click to a blank tab so you can Listen without the distraction…

I wonder if it’d be easier to watch if I said to myself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Irritiated, aren’t you.”  Let me give it a try…  Yup, complete transformation!

A Potentially Rough Week IV

August 27, 2018

A friend who has Chiron Lit Up in their natal chart worries about the Saturn-Chiron Square in the Full Moon chart…

I interpret Saturn as The Most Important Thing, and Chiron as Despair and Miracles, so this Square means that The Most Important Thing is for us to convert our Despair to Miracles.  How to do that?  The best method I’ve found is Self-Empathy.  You just say to yourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair aren’t you,” and then Change the Subject.  If your mind comes back to the Despair, do it again, maybe Tapping it Out first.

When the mind is in Despair, We Are (Our Identity Is) Despair.  Doesn’t Feel good.  As soon as we step outside of our current Despairing Self and Empathize with ourself, We Become Compassion.  Despair and Compassion Live in entirely different Worlds, even though the road signs might be the same.  Miracles that are not even remotely Possible in the Despair Universe are entirely Probably and even Everyday in the Compassion Universe. 

Of course our major hurdle at that point is Expectation; the Miracles we’d like to see happen are unlikely, because they’re Miracles engendered from Despair, and unlikely to exist in a Compassion Universe.  What is likely to happen, are Miracles that Open us to Paths that Despair was unable to See, and those Paths will lead to Places Unimagined.  So we have to stay Open, and the best way to do that is to Change the Subject – occupy ourself with something entirely different.

But we’re done with Saturn Square Chiron.  Its first “Can-Opener” occurrence was New Years 2017, its Retrograde Exposition occurrence was around May 1, 2017, and its final Confidence-Builder occurrence around November 1, 2017.  The only things remaining are its Ghosts.  They aren’t Real.  We can make them seem Real by Clinging to them.  That’s the Nature of Karma – it doesn’t Cling to us, we Cling to it.  We Clear Karma by Loving it to Death.

When you Meditate, Meditate Deeply on Despair.  Walk past the Fear and Locate it in your Body, and Love it there.  If you don’t know where it is, Ask yourself, “What if I did know?”  Love is Soft and Warm; Fear is Cold and Hard.  Put your hand over your Despair and Warm it Up.  Imagine Softening the area around it.  Open Up to it as if it’s a lost Kitten crying for your help.  PIAVA, “Great Spirit, Please help me Respond to Despair Lovingly, so that I can Let It Go Gently, Rapidly, and Completely.  Thank You, Great Spirit!”

Quantum Jump 3

July 7, 2018

The two Trine Bridges (Blessed Paths) in the 8 July Haumea Station-Lilith T-Square were from Vesta-Ixion and Moira-Chaos.  Let’s examine those a bit.

The Vesta-Ixion Cycle is short enough that we’ve already noticed one Ixion-Vesta Initiation, in November 2014 – https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/11/18/newthought-portals/.  The Cycle itself is about the Unconscious Beliefs that “we” (that is, us collaborating with our programmers and our Karma) use to keep our Hidden Genius Forbidden. 

Hopefully we will use each Initiation and Cycle to skim the Edges off of those Beliefs so we can get closer and closer to Embracing the Held Emotions at their Core.  Alternately, we’d be likely to use the Initiations and Cycles to cement our Karma further into Stone – we do that every time we re-Experience the Energy as its Victim, rather than using the Opportunity to become Conscious and Adept with it. 

We used to say “Master,” but we’ve changed that to “Adept” to eliminate any connotation of Slavery or Hierarchy, which as elements of the Patriarchy, are dead meat.

The New Cycle was Initiated at the last Equinox, 23 March, in 28 Sagittarius.  That’s the Galactic Center, so this Cycle means business.  28 Sagittarius is about “An old bridge over a beautiful stream is still in constant use.”  Without the Bridge we’d have to Wade the Stream, or Endure the Emotion.  So this year and the next few, we get to rediscover and use Ancient Techniques for Letting Go of the Restraints on our Forbidden Genius.

The Arch, which allowed folks to build Bridges when felling a tree or two didn’t work, like the Wheel, was a Miracle when someone “first” Channeled the idea.  Before they Channeled the notion of Brakes, the Wheel probably killed a lot of folks, and early imperfectly implemented Arches probably tumbled on a lot of heads too.  If you’ve ever tried building a small stone Arch, you know that it’s still a Miracle.  When we think of Miracles, we think of Chiron, so maybe one of our Ancient Techniques is Empathy – Poor-Sweethearting ourself.

“You Poor Sweetheart, you don’t have Permission to let your Greatest Genius Shine through to the rest of the World, do you.”

The Planet is a giant jigsaw Puzzle, and Each one of us is a piece in the Puzzle.  Before it can come together into a Collaborative, Peaceful, Magical World, Enough of us need to stop hiding our Light under a Basket, and Let the World Enjoy it.  The other pieces that mate with it are Waiting.  Yes, the Boundaries of those Limitations and Restraints are tinged with Pain, but with our current Rebirth, they’re worth Testing again, as the Pain may have Magically Dispersed.

If it hasn’t disappeared, the best way I know to Magically Disperse Pain is with Warmth and Softness.  Locate it in your Body.  It doesn’t matter if you don’t have the right place; here it’s Intention that counts.  Warm that place with your Hand, while you Imagine the flesh around it getting Soft and Receptive.  That brings in Blood, Energy from the Heart.  When your mind wanders, patiently bring it back to Focus on the place where Pain still resides.  When the Pain moves, you can Follow it, or you can take a break from the exercise – when the Pain moves, you’ve succeeded in breaking the Trance.

The Physical World is not Distinct or Separate from the World of Emotions or Spirit or thoughts or Beliefs or Limitations.  Each is just an alternate view of the Unity, as if you were walking around a house to see it from all angles.  Moving Pain in your Body and Shifting Limiting Beliefs are Surrogates for one another.  That’s another Miracle – how often has anyone in your Culture showed you how to Shift the Physical World by Shifting your Emotions or your Thoughts or your Prayers.  How often have you succeeded at it? 

More than once I’m sure, but it’s still a Miracle, isn’t it, because it’s outside of our Birdcage-Belief that the Physical and Emotional and Mental and Spiritual Worlds are “Levels” Distinct from one another.  Time to Realize that if you’ve seen these Miracles even once, it’s your Birdcage-Belief in Separation that’s Obsolete and Limiting.  Time to Realize that Trust is what Separates Doubt from Faith.  Doubt kills Miracles, Faith Creates them.  You can’t fake Trust, but you can Intend it. 

Imagine how Powerful you will be – using your Power for the Benefit of All, including yourself, of course – when you can address every roadblock in your path with Tools from ALL FOUR of your Toolbelts – Spiritual, Physical, Emotional, Mental.  It doesn’t matter which of these Realms your roadblock Manifests in.  You can address it with All Four.  And many others – for instance, to these four astrology adds Creation, Stabilization, and Mutation. 

You can Create a detour around your roadblock, Stabilize a Bridge over it, or Mutate it into a smooth path – in any of the Four Realms that you once considered to be Levels of Reality.  You probably once considered them to be Hierarchical Levels even, where one was better than another, or at least more equal than the others.  Hierarchies are dead meat, as is Separation.  Imagine Living at the Edges where Spirit and Matter meet.  Guess what – that’s where all Conscious Entities Live.  And all Entities are Conscious, whether or not we’ve Conceived of their Identity as Entities yet.

This is where we’re going.  Pure Magic, relative to where we’ve been.  Take a Deep Breath and Imagine every roadblock in your Life dissolving into Nothing.  This is the Rebirth we’re Experiencing right now.  Breathe It In.

Paranoid Thoughts II

June 6, 2018

A couple of quick notes about the previous post…

First, we mentioned “Shifting our Approach to Ego Death, toward Love and Excitement rather than Fear and Resistance” and some may have wondered how the devil we could be Excited and Loving about Ego Death.  I mean, we’d probably usually have to be awfully miserable to be Excited about Dying.  But an Ego Death is just a Molt. 

When a Crab wriggles out of its old shell, it’s so they can Grow.  Their old shell is rigid, and they can only get exactly as big as the shell before they need to trade it in for a bigger one.  Turns out the Crab is a fabulous metaphor for Ego Death, because once they wriggle out, their nascent new shell is soft, and they have to hide out till it hardens, in order to avoid being a tasty meal for someone else.

So instead of Resisting Ego Death beforehand, then afterwards wallowing in the residue of our Resistance (such as the repercussions of the Limiting Oaths we spoke of in the last post), we can Choose to Recognize that an Ego Death is on its way, and Focus our Attention on the Excitement we’ll feel when we’ve cast off that old Limiting Shell and are Free to Explore New Possibilities.

Of course many of us, much of the time, Are our Ego, so it’s not trivial to just step aside and say Okay, I’ll Die now.  In Buffalo Gals, Ursula talks about how “Coyote is always dying!”  Coyote is a clever one.  So what’s an easily-remembered trick for stepping outside of the Ego into the Ethers?  Michael Pollan talks about this quite a bit in his new book How to Change Your Mind, but I think just “Poor-Sweethearting” yourself is a lot quicker and easier.

“You Poor Sweetheart, are you feeling like you’d rather Die?”  Then of course you’d pause to see if the Bummed You had anything to say to the now-Empathic You.  And preferable Change the Subject to see what might happen next.  Then after a while you could see if any remnants of the Bummed You was still about, and if so Ask them, “What would your Next Life be like for you if it was Pure Heaven?”  Then the two of You could talk about it and come up with something Exciting that you could both Love.

We need to take one other Lesson from Mr. & Ms. Crab – hide out for a while after an Ego Death.  We’ll be very Vulnerable and Tender, a virtual Newborn, and we’ll need extra Care and Protection.  And we’re the best person to provide it, since even our Most Loved ones may be motivated to take advantage of our Vulnerability and Manipulate us (No Blame, we all do it).  Meditation, Introversion, Introspection.

Second, you may have experienced that (lack of) transition from Nessus (Abuse) to the Dan Scranton Channeling (Ascension) as a bit abrupt, so I wanted to be explicit that the more we can Clear our Abuse Traumas (which turns out to be the same as Clearing our Abuse Expectations), the more we can move our Life into Expectations of Grace. 

Who knows how or “by whom” it’s being or been engineered, but given recent astrological processes, it doesn’t seem like a coincidence that the Nessus Station precedes the “influx of energies that are coming our way… as part of the solstice” (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/06/01/solstice-i/).

After the Nessus Station (9 June) and before the Solstice (21 June 3am PDT), we have two more Stations, or rather, one more double Station, as Makemake Stands Still 16 June (7pm PDT at 3 Libra) and Neptune 18 June (4:30 pm at 17 Pisces).  When two Stations occur close together, it’s as though the two planets are Conjoining.  Since Neptune and Makemake Conjoin only every 51,000 years, this is a rare opportunity for us.

Neptune is about anything Bigger than we are, and especially everything Bigger than our Ego.  For instance, Group Souls, including Cultures, are prominent in the realm of Neptune, as are the notions of God and Goddess.

If you’ve ever noticed how you Act and Talk differently in the presence of one person, than you do in the presence of another, or how someone else does this, you’re looking at different Group Souls.  Of course in all probability Codependence (the disinclination to displease) will be involved, probably to a larger extent, but Group Souls are also active there – and we can productively examine our Codependence by looking at it through the window of Group Souls.  How does your Codependence differ when you’re with different people or different groups?

When in the Solstice I post Dan’s Arcturian friends speak about…

“If you can think more as a being in a collective, rather than as an individual, then you can band together and…”

They’re talking about our Neptunian Identities.  And when they finish the sentence with…

“…in your co-creative power, you can make broad and sweeping changes on planet Earth.

They’re talking about Makemake, as Makemake is all about Manifestation.

Neptune is now 167 Degrees ahead of Makemake.  That’s nine twentieths of the way ’round the Zodiacal loop.  The Twentieth Harmonic is the Aeon, signifying the sort of Wisdom that encompasses “longevity, history, and broad perspective” in all circumstances, to quote Angie.

New readers may not know that we use Angeles Arrien’s Tarot Handbook as our guide to the Angular Harmonics.

And the Ninth Harmonic is about Meditation, Introversion, and Introspection.  Sounds like we’re Converging toward…

“This is a shift in consciousness, which means nothing in the physical realm is going to be responsible for making it happen.  It is the true nature of consciousness to expand and evolve, and therefore, as you make it your mission not to do something in the physical realm, but instead consciously evolve, you are joining the team.  You have opportunities every single day.  They come to you in the choices that you are being given.

“And you can help yourselves and help the entire universe at the same time by making the choice that is more inclusive than exclusive.  You can help by processing your emotions.  You can help by making eye contact with someone else and helping that person understand that he or she matters.  You can be kind instead of being right.  You can forgive.  You can send transmissions of love and compassion.  You can speak your truth, be true to yourself, and love yourself no matter what you have done, or said, or thought.”

As Dan said in the previous post.

20-25 Degrees

June 2, 2018

Aa apparent newcomer has written to ask about their many natal planets at around 20 Degrees, in response to our October 2016 suggestion that we begin working with these Degrees now, since they will be Lit Up when our Home Planet begins Her Big Reorg in the early 2020s – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/10/20/2020-b/ for our article and their comment. 

Of course, as we repeatedly point out, these Degrees continue to be Lit Up by many of our planetary Companions today.  As we write, one quarter of the planets we follow are in or adjacent to this Zone, which is only one sixth of the Zodiac wide.  It’s a useful question, so I’ll answer it…

Our approach is to intend to befriend the Unconscious because we Believe that the Power of the Ego is minuscule compared to the Power of the Unconscious, and because the Ego is usually Unconscious of that fact.

We also intend to work not with Qualities but with Energies and Relationships, and therefore we work mostly with what we call the “Angles,” though most astrologers would call them “Aspects.”  We prefer Angles because that’s what they are in plain language – the Angular Relationship between Planets (and other astrological Hot Spots such as the Nodes).

Unfortunately there is an astrological term “Angles” as well, meaning the Ascendant, Midheaven, etc., or the major House Cusps.  We can usually live with this ambiguity because we very seldom talk about Houses, since we write for the whole planet, and House positions vary with location.  Folks who commonly use the astrological term “Angles” may be confused by the way we use the word, alas.

Most astrologers I know would not argue that the T-Square (a third planet halfway between two planets that Oppose one another) is one of the most problematic Angular Relationships, largely because it usually seems to indicate a Sisyphean area where Success is not possible but the Compulsion to Keep Trying is unrelenting.  Consequently, the most appropriate keyword for the Ego’s Relationship to a T-Square seems to be Frustration.

We also Believe that, (1) on a Soul level, we Chose the Configurations of planets in our natal chart, because that’s what “We” (our Soul) wanted to “Work On” in the current Lifetime.  Many folks have difficulty with this concept; the easy path to it lies through shifting your Identity till you find a place from which it’s True.

We often also interpret the Configurations in our natal chart as (2) the specific Earth Energies where we Chose to help the Planet Heal. 

The first approach assumes that our Soul is using the Planet for its own Education, while the second approach assumes that we are in fact Cosmic Healers who came here to Help Earth Ascend.  Take your pick, though as usual, I recommend Both/And rather than Either/Or.

Since our reader has Uranus T-Square to their Nodes, I have no doubt that they’re in the latter category.

As Ascension Helpers, then, our T-Squares indicate the places where our task is to suck up all the Frustration (Fear, Anger, Despair, Separation, etc) that the Planet Feels, and Transform it (we are after all nothing if not Energy Transmogrifiers) into what the Planet Prefers to Feel (Joy, Bliss, Attunement, Excitement, Unity, etc). 

How do we know what the Planet Prefers to Feel?  Easy.  She and We are One.

Note that more or less implicit in that paragraph is that Emotions are not Personal, but more like Weather or a Virus.  We Attach our Identity to an Emotion when we Associate or Merge with it, which is usually part of our Karma, or, we would suggest, because we came here to Learn and Teach how to Detach our Identity from that Emotion (look up “Poor-Sweetheart” and “Held Emotions” in the Categories list to explore further).

So, in the planets our new Friend has listed, we’d go straight to the T-Square, Uranus Square the Nodal Axis.  The Egoic side of Uranus is Disruption, and the Egoic side of the Nodes is the Desire to Let Go of Karma.  So we would suppose that our Friend, on the Ego side, is (or was, if he’s since Grown) often Frustrated by Attempting and Failing to Let Go of sticky Karmic Patterns, or what we often call Self-Sabotaging Archetypes. 

For instance, our Friend might try over and over to walk a “straight and narrow” path, only to wake up and discover that they’ve strayed from it.  Or worse, they might find that other people are repeatedly screwing them over…

Now, let’s turn this around and look at it from the Soul’s Perspective.  First of all, what Uranus Disrupts is everything that Inhibits its Purpose. 

Since most of us were Programmed to Receive Truth from Outside ourself rather than Inside, the Karmic Ego will be constantly Frustrated by the Uranian Disruption of our frequent Attempts to ignore our own Internal Truth in order to be Loyal to our Programming and Programmers. 

Truth resides in the Heart, and it’s Different for everyone, so only by Programming someone to Trust their own Heart (Uranus) can Uranian Disruption be Loved as the Urge to Liberation that it is.

Now, again from the Soul’s Perspective, the Nodal Axis is not so much about the Desire to Let Go of Karma as it’s about a Decision over which Earthly trends to emphasize.  Contrary to the usual Interpretation, Karma does not Grasp Us, We Grasp It.  So all we have to do, to quote Paul, is to “Let It Be.”

The Signs will give us more specific information. Our new Friend’s South Node is in Aquarius and North Node in Leo, indicating that their Intended (Soul-level) path runs from Social to Personal Integrity.  Learning to Love themselves Unconditionally, for instance. 

Meanwhile, Uranus is in Scorpio, which is Fearless and Relentless.  So our Friend is likely to be Driven to stop at Nothing in their Effort to Learn and Teach Unconditional Self-Love.

Which is Fantastic!  Now, what if the Ego and Programming still get in the way and continue to Sabotage us with Downers?  (Which may never actually go away, just become more quickly seen through.)  Well, Reframing help a whole lot…

A T-Square Feels Like the Compulsive need to Achieve greater Perfection around some Goal.  In this Uranus-in-Scorpio case, that would be Permanent Soul Contact.  Or, if the Soul is Dismissed, then something like an Irrepressible Urge to Disrupt Untruth. 

But even the part about Permanent Soul Contact is the Ego and Programming speaking.  If you’ve taken graduate seminars in a good program, you probably Noticed that there are no “correct” answers, there are only “interesting” questions and examination of them that is thorough and creative.

That’s where you find the T-Square – on the Soul level you’ve Intended a Lifetime where you re-examine everything over and over again, with slight variations, each time from a slightly different Perspective, so you become uniquely qualified to Teach the subject, since you’ve Experienced it from all angles, inside and out. 

And of course the key to all that is Noticing that there are no “correct” answers and that your Perfectionist Quest, while essential, was not for the purpose that you earlier supposed.  That’s the way our Mission (North Node) operates – we have a Shadow to Pursue, till we pounce on it and Discover that it’s just a Shadow, like Ged in Earthsea.

Once you’ve done this Reframing, Frustration will continue to try to sneak back into the driver’s seat, and that’s where Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and PIAVAing (look them up in the Categories list and practice them) will be useful and Powerful.

The ultimate Goal for all of us is Unconditional Self-Love, so eventually you’ll be Teaching us all.  Which we eagerly anticipate!

Thanks for writing.  Namaste.

Gauntlet VIII – Chiron

April 16, 2018

Anybody who’s “been here” a while knows that Chiron can be a Bear. 

It’s about Getting Conscious of our Wounds.  Like Saturn helping to Educate us about which Traumas are Really Going On in the Moment and which are Flushbacks, if we’re Conscious of our Wounds we can Differentiate them from new Arrows.  For Present-Moment Traumas we want to improve our Boundaries to stop or dodge the Arrows and Prevent further Harm, and for Flushbacks we want to be very Loving with ourself in order to Heal the Wounds. These are very Different Responses.

That’s a hidden benefit of using our Mirrors to fend off apparent negative Energy coming at us.  Using a Mirror is very Powerful for any situation where you’re having Difficulty being Present with yourself (or Others) and staying Grounded… 

  • When you’re talking to someone and feel insulted for instance.  Is that your Wound, or are you being Attacked?  Or both?  It takes a bit of Practice to Imagine a big Mirror, facing them, while you’re talking to someone, but once you get the hang of it, it’s not too hard.  If the Mirror Changes your Feeling State almost immediately, you were being Attacked. If it doesn’t Change your Feeling State, then it may be “just” your Wound. 

Using Mirrors might seem like a silly game, but your Wound is a Hole in your Aura.  It was installed by your Programmers so they could Control you.  Being Persistent about using Mirrors like this will eventually become a Habit; you’ll start to do the Energetic Equivalent of using a Mirror, but without the Mirror, and without thinking about it.  And that’s just another way of saying that  you’ve Healed the Hole in your Aura and taken a big step toward Self-Sovereignty.

  • Another excellent Mirror situation is when you’re mind is stuck in a Helicopter Trip.  You keep going ’round and ’round, either about some Duality you can’t Decide about, or when you’re Imagining arguing with someone or justifying yourself to them.  Take the first person you think of (it may not be the same person you’re arguing with), and Imagine Mirroring them.  If the Cycling stops, you’re Golden.  If it doesn’t, try the second person that comes to mind.

For instance, one of my Programmers wanted very much for me to be a certain way.  It wasn’t a way I wanted to be.  I Mirrored them fairly often for months, maybe years.  They would “come around to the back door” when I set up the Mirror, and to find Peace I would have to use a miniature domed stadium lined with Mirrors on the outside.  Eventually it became a Habit. 

Often this is your only path toward improving your Relationship with someone who isn’t very Conscious – talking with them about it just isn’t in the realm of possibility.  My Programmer was certainly not Conscious that they were drilling a Hole in my Aura, and in the off chance that they were, would they admit it?  Unlikely.

  • Emotions are supposed to visit for a little while, then move on.  We think of Emotions as “ours,” but they aren’t really, they’re like weather, they blow in and then they blow away.  Sometimes they Resonate and we can use them; other times they feel like they came uninvited out of “left field.”  When an Emotion blows through and sticks to you like Velcro, it may be an imitation of one of your Held Emotions.

One of the principles of Emotional Healing is that it’s Impossible to Let Go of Other Peoples’ Feelings.  So if an unwelcome Emotion moves in and unpacks, use your Mirror on the first person who comes to mind, to see if you’re carrying someone else’s Emotions.  If you get almost-immediate Relief, just bring back the Mirror whenever you start to go back into that closet.  Some people are very accomplished at getting Other people to carry their Held Emotions for them.

In fact, it’s highly likely that you and I do the same.  We’re Scared Shitless of Power, so we Project our Anger (Envy really) on folks who throw Power around like it was a Frisbee.  Death of any sort is such a big Threat to our Ego that we wrap ourself in Grief whenever anyone Transitions to a New Lifetime instead of helping them Celebrate and get Grounded into their new Surroundings.  If their next Life is anything like this one, they’ll be pretty Helpless for a while, and can use all the Support we can Give them.

The Mirror will help you Distinguish your own Held Emotions from Other people’s Held Emotions.  If an unfriendly Emotion moves in to stay, and you Mirror everyone who you suspect might be Projecting it your way, all to no effect, then it’s probably one of your own Held Emotions.  Feels like a Bummer, but in fact it’s a tremendous Opportunity – our Held Emotions are Unconscious, aka Invisible to us.  When one becomes opaque, we can take steps to Heal it.

How?  Own it.  Locate it in your Body, and Love it to Death.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Imagine Softening and Warming around the place where it sits in your Body.  Put your hand over where you find it in your Body, to Warm it.  If it moves, follow it.  Actually, once it moves, you’ve “won.”  Follow it anyway, just to be sure.  You might well get Images of what caused the Emotion to get stuck in the first place, but you don’t need them, and in fact if they appear they may put you in your Anal-ytical mind and distract you from Softening and Warming.

Guess what.  This is what Illness is about.  If you’re very good at Denying your Held Emotions on every other Level, they’ll come to visit on the Physical Level.  Besides, they aren’t Levels, they’re Perspectives.  It’s All One Thing, we just think it’s Different because we’re seeing it from a Different Angle.  So you may not begin with a Held Emotion, you may begin with a Toothache or any Pain or Physical Discomfort, or even Diagnosis if you’re in the Habit of Delegating care and feeding of your Physical Vehicle to the Medical Cartel.

Deal with Physical Pain and Discomfort the same way – Locate it in your Body, and Love it to Death.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Imagine Softening and Warming around the place where it sits in your Body.  Put your hand over where you find it in your Body, to Warm it.  If it moves, follow it.  Actually, once it moves, you’ve “won.”  Follow it anyway, just to be sure. 

And anybody who’s “been here” a while knows that we always recommend “Poor-Sweethearting” ourself whenever Chiron is Lit Up, and at any other time when you aren’t totally Pleased with your internal or external Circumstances.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling [Insulted] [Invaded] [Confused] [Sick] [Pain], aren’t you.”

We bring all this up because after seven years in Pisces, Chiron is moving into Aries (1am PDT 17 April).  Emotions don’t go away when Pisces goes away, though they get less Prominent.  And there are plenty of other planets still in Pisces; for instance Confusion/Neptune will be there till 2026, and Abuse/Nessus till 2034.  So you’ll have plenty of Opportunities yet to Practice your Mirroring and Poor-Sweethearting Skills.

As for Chiron, rather than the Emotional Crises we’ve been Enduring since 2011, we’ll be Experiencing Spiritual Crises till Chiron moves into Taurus in 2027, then we’ll be Enjoying Material Crises for a while.  So our Practice with Emotions will serve us well while we’re doing “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like God has Abandoned you, aren’t you” or “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like the Planet is Failing, don’t you.”

If course, long before then we’ll have enfolded all these Healing techniques into automatic Habits, and firing them off so fast we won’t even be Aware that we’re doing it.  Right?

Genius, Forbidden, II (or, Don’t Panic!)

March 28, 2018

A Square Fez is a trapezoid with Squares on the non-parallel sides, like the one pictured in the previous post.  We spoke there about the Square (Mastery through Challenge) between Ixion-Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs around our Forbidden Genius) and Chiron (Despair and Miracle). 

The other Square in the Fez links our Boundaries around Fear (Sedna-Pallas) with Truth (Veritas).  Unfortunately, that fits perfectly with Opening to our Held Emotions – Loosening our Boundaries against Fear in our own Bodies in order to face the Truth about how they got there.

A Fez is addressed by Paying Attention to the diagonal Quincunxes (green lines, five Signs).  A Quincunx is about Permanent Curiosity, not the sort of Curiosity that seeks Answers, but the sort that’s akin to Awe and Wonder.  That’s not easy for many of us, as we’re so used to “Figuring It Out.”  Even astrology, after all, is just an attempt to “Figure It Out,” or at least an attempt to Figure Out which direction to head in, if not where to go.

I often think of our Process as navigating on a grid, but heading toward a destination that’s askew to the grid.  Like walking in a town with streets that run north-south and east-west, but trying to get to the northeast.  One block east, two blocks north, one block east, etc.  Oops, a dead end.  Now what.  So we need to check back with our Intuition almost constantly, every other step.  Which is actually an excellent practice, because we might eventually Learn to do just that “automatically.”

The two Quincunxes/Curiosities in the Ixion Fez are…

  • Chiron to Veritas – “You Poor Sweetheart, you may never know the Truth,” so I guess we’ll have to assume that we know part of the Truth, take a step, then check to see if we’re moving closer to it or not.  Remember when you had to Learn Calculus, or Differential Equations?  No?  Lucky you!
  • Ixion-Vesta to Sedna-Pallas – Can we Uncloak our otherwise Unconscious Beliefs by fiddling with the Habitual Boundaries around Fear in our Bodies?  We should probably be careful to insert “Lovingly and Gently” or the like into our PIAVAs, so we don’t Re-Traumatize ourself.

A looong time ago I had a friend who always looked like they were Surprised.  The way they held their mouth, I guess.  They never appeared Stressed, just Surprised.  Always.  They were a fairly undaunted Adventurer, so they knew something I didn’t.  I never Consciously tried to imitate they way the held their mouth, but it happened anyway.  Sometimes when I Feel Numb it still happens, and I can’t help but think of my friend.  Like now.

Since last night’s PIAVAs around the Edges of my Unconscious Held Emotions, I’ve continued to Feel fairly Numb, interrupted by a Dream-like Vision of having an Angry Bear trapped inside my car.  Which, I guess because it was Semi-Conscious (though unsolicited), wasn’t actually scary, though now I Feel Shaky.  Tapping on it, trying not to Close any Opened Portals.  Actually, Shaky is probably a fine Response to this chart, and by now we’re well into the Pholus Station.

The third Challenge (Square) in the Ixion-Station chart is between Venus-Uranus (Aligning our Values with our Soul Self) and Varuna-Aletheia-Mnemosyne (Remembering the Truth about our Life Force).  Well, the Truth about our Life Force is that we won’t Recover it – we won’t be Whole – till we Recover our Forbidden Genius.  So the Challenge is about Sensing the Holes in the Whole.

Now I’ve just noticed that I forgot to draw any lines to Haumea in the Ixion-Station chart, and Haumea (Rebirth) is intimately connected to everyone else there.  For instance…

  • Along with Aligning-Values-and-Soul (Uranus-Venus), Rebirth (Haumea) completes the T-Square (Challenge to Mastery) to Remembering-our-Life-Force (Varuna-Aletheia-Mnemosyne).  Being Reborn into Wholeness sounds a lot easier, actually, than Recovering our Forbidden Genius, though as a T-Square we need to, as Graciously as we can, Accept the Frustration that we can only hope to Encircle our destination, not Reach it.
  • The addition of Haumea Shifts the Great Grace (Grand Trine) between Forbidden-Genius-and-Unconscious-Beliefs (Ixion-Vesta), Aligning-Values-and-Soul (Uranus-Venus), and Truth (Veritas) into an Emphasis on Rebirth (making the Grand Trine into a Kite, not to mention the Finger of God on the Chiron-to-Sedna/Pallas Sextile).  We can read the latter Sextile as Grace and Rebirth will follow from Poor-Sweethearting our Fears.

It’s easy to forget that the “recipe” for Poor-Sweethearting says that the only thing we need to do is to Poor-Sweetheart; then we can just Change the Subject, and let the Miracles unfold.  Once we Shift from Despair to Compassion, the New Perspective will Allow what would otherwise have been Miracles, but if we micromanage the process, our Old Paradigm will Block the Miracles. 

So our best course will probably be to just follow whatever arises, and continue to Poor-Sweetheart any new Pain that comes up.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Shaky, aren’t you.”  Yes, I always felt that way while I was growing up, till I was well into my 30s.  Kept my weight down, it did.  The “Wisdom of Insecurity,” Alan Watts might call it.

Then there are the Epiphanies (Mjōlnirs, or Hammers of Thor, where a third planet sits at the Far Midpoint between two planets that are Square)!  A Mjōlnir symbolizes Lightning, or Sudden Illumination.  Each of the four Challenges is the root of an Epiphany (ie, each of the four Squares forms the base of a Mjōlnir)!  A Mjōlnir is composed of two Trioctiles, which are about Rebalancing into Wisdom.  The Mjōlnirs are…

  • The Light from Consciousness of the Edge between Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity (Juno-Neptune) Shines on the Rebirth of our Life Force (Haumea Square Varuna-Aletheia-Mnemosyne).
  • The Light from our own Ancient Archetypal Patterns (asteroid Karma, which is Stationary, Exact on 8 April) Illuminates the Dance between Realigning our Values and Remembering our Life Force (Uranus-Venus Square Varuna-Aletheia-Mnemosyne).  Our Karma is, after all, a walking talking Hitchhikers Guide to our Universe.
  • The Light from the Realization that The Most Important Thing is Letting Go of our Archetypes (Saturn-Hylonome, with Hylonome slowing down for its 13 April Station) Brightly Illumines the Truth of our Fears (Veritas Square Sedna-Pallas).
  • The Light from our Innate Knowledge of Our Own Mission (North Node) Shines on our Poor-Sweethearting of the consequences of our Childhood Abuse (Chiron Square Ixion-Vesta).

That Feels a lot better.