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Beyond Bounds and Boundaries

November 11, 2017

Here’s our 11:11 portrait, with its Grand Septile, drawn in purple…

The Septile is the Seventh Harmonic, one-seventh of the way ’round the Zodiacal hoop.  Of course the Universe is Integral, so there’s no way one segment of it can be more important than any other.  Like the day that the Heart and the Brain were arguing over which one of them was the most critical to the Survival of their Vehicle, when in walked the Colon.  But I do think of the Seventh as one of the more Important Harmonics, mostly because it’s largely ignored in Western Culture.  While they may be able to finesse or brute-force most of the other Angles, the Ego and the Intellect, the two Heroes of Western Culture, have no control over the Seventh Harmonic.

The Seventh is about Timing.  It’s what Don Juan meant when he was always urging Castaneda to “Save his Energy” – when Timing is right and your accounts in the Bank of Intention are full, Miracles happen.  So we need two things to manifest this sort of Effortlessness.  We need a meaningful amount of Attention and Passion devoted toward What-We-Want (complemented by little Attention to What-We-Don’t-Want and lots of Attention to Gratitude toward What-We-Have), and we need to be Open to our Intuition.  Without those two prerequisites, we don’t recognize it when What-We-Want steps in front of us.

We Clear our Intuition and Center our Attention by Reverting our Self-Sabotaging Archetypes and unproductive Karmic Patterns – Goddess knows we been working on that!  Then we need Timing to be in the Right Place at the Right Time so we’re ready and available when the Portal Opens.  A Grand Septile, when seven planets line up more or less equally spaced around the Zodiac, isn’t that common. 

This one isn’t perfect; it has six of seven planet well placed, leaving one Vacancy.  As you probably know by now, a Vacancy represents the Most Important part of a Configuration for us Observers, because the Vacancy specifies the Energy that we have to provide, Consciously, to Complete the Grace.  However, a Fixed Star, Agena, falls conveniently into the Vacancy, so we have help and Guidance after all.  Agena is about the sacrifice that must be made in order to permit Growth.  Of course that’s usually an Ego Death, because it’s our Ego’s job to Defend the status quo.  However, we know how to make an Ego Death Effortless, don’t we, using our “Poor-Sweethearts.”

The exact Vacancy is 27 Scorpio, “A military band marches on noisily through city streets” – exactly the Void that the Defenders of what they’d like to see as the status quo have been trying unsuccessfully to fill.  Like most Revolutions, our Band is rag-tag, which is more than fine.  All we need to get our Timing right is Clarity, Passion, and Intuition.  We don’t need military precision – in fact we need its opposite, Yintegrity.  From the Lawn Order Perspective, that looks like Chaos.  In the 60s we called it Street Theater, and had good Fun with it, because we Trusted Completely that we were being True to our Self.

And whaddayaknow, Chaos and Trust are part of our Grand Septile.  The seven members are…

  • The Pluto-Juno Initiation, which is Exact at 6pm on 11/11.  We wrote about this Union-Jack-Lawn-Order-Warship Cycle at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/11/06/november/.  Another military metaphor.  Remember we’re dealing with the Unconscious, and in the Unconscious, Opposites are seen as variations on an Equal because once we’re out of the Dualistic mind, we see them as two sides of the same Coin, and the Coin is what counts.  So we have no hesitation to Celebrate the Cycle as an Ending to military Order, and Enjoy our Individuation.

Any flag symbolism reminds us of the Pluto-Chiron Initiation in the chart and prospectus for the Century and the Millennium – “A flag turning into an Eagle turning into a Chanticleer saluting the Dawn,” which is easy to interpret as Rigid Identity being Transformed into Enlightenment through Broad Perspective and Cognitive Dissonance (holding multiple “Contradictory” Perspectives at the same time – outside of Dualism, what was formerly Contradiction is simply Paradox).

  • Lachesis-Neptune; Neptune implies Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, while Lachesis symbolizes Choice.  Which is to say that the Timing is Right for us to simply Step Out of any Archetypes we find Limiting us.  The Window is Open for Choosing to move directly to Spirit.  Or moving directly from 3D to 5D by investing Time in indulging How-We’re-Going-to-Feel-when-our-Life-is-Effortless-and-Delightful-and-our-Wishes-are-Granted-Automatically.  Or Imagining that the Rose Above the Sky Has Opened and the Light Behind the Sun Has Taken All.

The Exact Lachesis-Neptune Conjunction occurred at about 3am today 11/11.  It was not an Initiation, but a Confidence-Bulder.  The Initiation occurred 10 May of this year in 14 Pisces, “A lady wrapped in a large stole of Fox fur.”  We didn’t write about it at the time, because there were too many other amazing things going on then (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/05/09/the-rose-above-the-sky/) – which amazing things we can consider to be part and parcel of the entire 6-year Lachesis-Neptune, Choosing-Liberation Cycle – just as we can consider this Grand Septile as part and parcel of the entire 4-year Consciousness-or-Bust Juno-Pluto Cycle.  Even when Her Fur is stolen, Fox is difficult to outsmart.

  • Pallas-Moira; Lachesis is about Choosing when to Extinguish a Habit.  Moira is about Choosing whether to Accept our Fate or to Become Conscious that we Have Options.  We wrote a little about this Cycle at its April 2017 Conjunction (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/04/25/new-moon-26-4-17/): “With Moira (Fate) Conjunct Pallas (Boundaries) we’re probably talking about Being Given Opportunities to Notice and Change long-term and Karmic Habits of Giving Away Our Power.” 

Pallas’s and Moira’s orbits differ in length by only a month, so it’s almost impossible to isolate their Cycles in any organized fashion, as they Dance with one another constantly.  Consequently, Huper Boundaries are fickle.  People can go from enemy to friend and back in the blink of an eye.  In this era of Polarization (brought on by the Grand Cross in the Century and Millennium chart), every Pallas-Moira Conjunction, like this one, is an Opportunity to extend our Unconditional Love further.  Which is, after all, another prerequisite to Enlightenment.  And you know that the Timing is Right.

  • Dwarf planet Chaos represents the Unlimited-Potential characteristic of the 5D Universe when compared to 3D.  Just another indication that the Timing is Right to Exceed what we Believe we “Deserve” to Receive.  Deserving and Receiving are connected only in Abusive, Manipulative, Power-Over Relationships.  If you tend to connect them, the Time is Right to Allow yourself to Receive without Limit, because it is your birthright.  It’s best to begin PIAVAing smaller things, so you Learn to Trust your Ability and Willingness to Receive.  That Allows you to work up to Everything-You-Want.

No, we aren’t implying that Wanting is Sacred.  In fact, Wanting is a form of Scarcity.  Abundance (Having Enough to Share) is more conducive to forward progress.  But Wanting is natural, and if we can keep our Wanting within the range of the Doable, we can Want-Receive, Want-Receive, Want-Receive, and so on, till we’ve Learned to Trust the process.  Once we “graduate,” Receiving will be Instantaneous and not mediated by the Ego.  In the interim, we PIAVA as our practice at breaking the chains of the Ego’s beloved but Limited Plan-Act-Effort strategy.

  • Ceres.  Ceres means Sustainability.  Here, it just means that it’s Time to make this Change Permanent.  Not that you won’t have occasional or even frequent reversions to 3D, some by Choice.  But basically, once you use this Timing to Step Over the 5D Threshold, you won’t be going back except to visit.  The astrology Changes daily, even hourly, so this Portal is only Open for a few minutes, right?  Wrong.  All Beings Learn, and Hupers as well as any.  Every astrological Moment is an Opportunity to take that Moment’s Vibration into your Body and make the Energy Permanently yours.  All you need to do is Choose it.

Many of us hesitate to jump directly to 5D because we Fear we’ll leave behind What-We-Love.  Actually, indulging that Fear as an Anxiety, rather than Tapping it Out, is more likely to result in you getting left behind while What-You-Love makes the jump!

  • Which brings us to Makemake-Eurydike.  Eurydike means Trust.  Trust that you can Choose to make this Energy yours Permanently.  And of course Makemake means like it sounds – Make Make, Manifest Manifest.  Manifest What-You-Want.  Energy follows Attention, so be watchful that you catch yourself when focusing on What-You-Don’t-Want, as soon as you can.  It’s so tempting, it takes eternal vigilance.  When you catch yourself, Tap it Out.  Tapping is ideal for Negative Thought Patterns, because the whole idea is to Acknowledge that the Negative is embedded in your Energy System, then by Tapping, Rebalance your Meridians.  “Even though I tend to Attend to What-I-Don’t-Want, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”

The Makemake-Eurydike Initiation occurs 15 November, 5am PST, at 5 Libra, “A teacher revealing to his or her students the foundation of an inner knowledge upon which a ‘New World’ could be built.”  Pretty Big, eh?  It’s a 5-year Cycle, about Trusting that Receiving is not about Deserving, but about Allowing.  We make our bed first, by Clearing our Limiting Beliefs and Toxic Habits, Inviting our Intuition to Guide us to the Right Timing, and working with our PIAVAs. Then we can Relax and Enjoy sleeping in it.

  • And finally, the Star Agena.  It’s a major star in the Centaurus Constellation, which is all about Chiron’s Sacrifice.  In other words it’s the Symbol for Poor-Sweethearting, because that’s the sort of Self-Empathy which Heals “unhealable” wounds like Chiron garnered, thanks to the consequences of Herakles’s theft of Pholus’s wine.  Or, from the Patriarchal Perspective, Pholus’s failure to be Fully Able to Respond.  As one of the agents of the Patriarchy tasked to destroy the Matriarchy, though, Blame falls on Herakles.  If you still do Blame.  Blame is, you know, incompatible with the Unconditional Love we need if we want to make What-We-Want Permanent and Instantaneous.

The Yin-Feminine Matriarchy had its day and was ready to retire, though of course as is the Ego’s wont – even the Collective Ego’s, it couldn’t Acknowledge its own End.  So the Yang-Masculine Patriarchy had to hunt it down and behead it, so it could have a turn.  Just as our Birthing of the Yang-Feminine Dotterarchy requires that we hunt down the last vestiges of the Patriarchy and geld it. 

We agree with Genia Pauli Haddon that the Dotterarchy is characterized by, among other things – such as what from the Perspective of 3D looks like Magic; Power-With rather than Power-Over; Yintegrity rather than Yangtegrity; Self-Sovereignty rather than Codependence; Cooperation rather than Competition, and Balance between the Rights and Power of Individuals and the Rights and Power of Groups.  The Timing is Right.  Celebration of Diversity is a natural consequence of Unconditional Love.

None of these players are speedsters, so the Grand Septile will be with us for a while.  The quickest member is Pallas, and it will stay within three-Degree Sensitivity of its current position for another 12 days.

The 11:11 Juno-Pluto chart also includes a second Configuration in addition to the Grand Septile.  It’s drawn in light lines on the picture.  Juno-Pluto is the Focus of a Finger of God from Asbolus (Intuition) and the North Node (Life Mission), making Asbolus a Trine Bridge across the Nodes.  All that means that our two greatest Gifts here, apart from Timing, are our Intuitive Appreciation for the Hidden Skills that lie beneath our Karma (South Node), and our Attention to Anything and Everything that intrudes upon our Consciousness.

Maria Bethencourt has shared a great summary of this part of our Transition…

https://lightlover1964.wordpress.com/2017/11/09/11-11-portal-physical-symptoms-and-activations/

For instance, “Remember before your awakening how you would pray to your guardian angels at night?…WE are the Guardian Angels Of All life here now, for in 5d that is how we walk in service.  For The Highest Good Of ALL in Love.  Doesnt matter what level of consciousness, what dimension… doesn’t matter what chakra system, where, when, how…  The SOUL Of this Earth has Chosen to Offer this experience of Heaven On Earth without interference to All living beings on this planet.  You didn’t “think” prayers never get heard and answered?  We are Love, for Love is ALL THERE Is.  That is why IT Transcends the illusion of Space and Time, Consciousness and everything else…whatever that might be.”

It’s long, but I recommend a quick read of her whole article, as she catalogs many of the aches and pains and strange Sensations that we’re experiencing from what she calls the “Frequency Light Upgrades” or “FLU.”

Choice, Vitality, Instinct

October 23, 2017

We’re approaching a busy ten days, no matter how you usually Celebrate Samhain, All Saint’s Day, Día de los Muertos, Halloween, All Soul’s Day, or whatever other spin your Ancestors put on the end of the first Decan of Scorpio.  From our Calendar (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/1-calendar/)…

20 October-1 November 2017

Makemake Initiates Mars in 5 Libra on 29 October (12am PDT).

Lachesis turning Direct in 12 Pisces on 1 November (3am PDT).

Varuna turning Retrograde in 2 Leo on 1 November (9am PDT).

Quaoar Initiating Lilith in 30 Sagittarius on 1 November (~9am PDT).

There are no astrological vacuums.  If there’s little going on in the moment, it just makes us more Sensitive to what’s next.  And of course we all have our personal astroevents occurring most of the time; we only talk here about global events.  We wouldn’t usually expect to start noticing a Lachesis Station until a few days before the Event, or a Varuna Station till a week or so prior, but if nothing else is happening, the Energies are there to be appreciated.  They just aren’t as drowned out by louder voices.

Notice too that we’re in the Deep Void around the two Initiations – the current Cycle has virtually Ended, and the New Cycle has not yet begun.  So it’s the worst possible time to try to force Action on a Manifestation (Makemake-Mars), or to force our Sovereignty on our Survival (Quaoar-Lilith).  On the other hand, with any degree of Sensitivity we usually have a good Intuition about the New Cycle, and often an excellent Intuition about it. 

The usual Pattern is that the Energy of a Cycle is very strong around its Initiation, then goes “underground” till the Waxing Square, when it battles its way into prominence.  Our natural reaction is to Celebrate the New Cycle, then after the Initiation to be Disappointed when the Olde Guard “takes the T-Bird away” and squelches the Fun.  We’d be better off using the Energy of the Initiation to observe the short-term effects, and plan a long-term campaign to undermine the Olde Guard, to facilitate a faster take-off at the Waxing Square – though with Makemake-Mars the “long-term” will only be six months (versus two years plus for Quaoar-Lilith).

Lachesis’s namesake is one of the three Fates, the one who “cuts the chord” and determines how long a Fated Timeline will persist.  We consider Fate to be what happens when we’re Unconscious.  We Celebrate bringing into Awareness as many of our Karmic Dramas and Dragon’s Tails as we can wrestle to the ground.  When we’re Conscious of an Archetype, we can Choose whether it would be the most Appropriate Response to any given circumstance, or not.  So while it may Challenge us to Expand our Awareness, we consider asteroid Lachesis to be about Choice.

As it has been for a while, Lachesis is Dancing with Neptune, which is often associated with Confusion.  We know Confusion as the first stage of Growth in Consciousness, but we don’t always remember that we need to Surrender into our Confusion, rather than straining to “Figure it Out.”  Like Curiosity, it’s not about “solving” anything, it’s about Accepting that the Unknown is Approaching us, and being Open to whatever Delights are hiding behind it.  Our most important Choice here is Choosing to Challenge the Habit of Reacting to the Unknown as an intellectual problem rather than an Invitation to move to Spirit. 

This is a Cultural as well as Personal Archetype, but we Change Cultural Archetypes by Choosing to Respond differently this time in our own Life.  Choosing to follow our own Soul’s Guidance rather than following the Herd is Scary, as it often involves facing our own Abandonment.  But its a Clear and necessary path to 5D.  It’s not about Rejecting any specific Pattern out of hand, but about practicing New Alternatives so we can Learn them as we Unlearn what’s rote for us.  At the beginning of the Growth process we Reject the Old Pattern more often, so we can test New Responses.  Eventually we’ll appreciate the Archetype as a Powerful Skill, but first we must Learn that we have Choice.

It’s not a Coincidence that the Makemake-Mars (Manifestation-Action) Initiation occurs at the same time.  This two-year Cycle is about (5 Libra) “A person revealing to their students the foundation of an inner knowledge upon which a ‘new world’ can be built.”  A good candidate is the Knowledge that we’re here to be Awed by how Mother Nature stitches the Universe together, rather than to be Inflated by our prowess at solving story problems and sculpting Golden Calves in the image of our Ego.  So this whole new Cycle may not be about forcing Action on a Manifestation, but Allowing the Manifestation to Bloom in its own time.

Dwarf planet Varuna was named after one of the most ancient of Vedic God-Energies.  We interpret it as the Life Force.  We could say “our” Life Force, but it isn’t, we only borrow a shard of it for a while to Animate our Physical Vehicle.  We’ve just begun a new Aletheia-Varuna Cycle (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/10/02/relationship-reset/) that makes a Big Deal out of what is always True anyway, namely that when we Live The Truth of Who We Really Are, we’re able to Channel the Life Force much more Deeply.  Varuna is an Oceanic God, reminding us that The Truth of Who We Really Are is about What We’re Feeling in the Moment.

The current Varuna Station Opposes asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) and makes a T-Square (Challenge to Mastery) to asteroid Karma (of all people), which is joined by asteroid Hopi.  So we can expect Challenges to whether we’re Living our Truth and Embracing our Ego Deaths, or Dancing to the tunes dictated by our Karmic Dramas, particularly those Dramas that involve Profiling and Bigotry (Hopi).  The Karma-Varuna Square gives us the Opportunity to really Let Go this time of the Limiting Beliefs that were up for us at their Initiation in August 2016.

The Karma-Varuna Cycle began in August 2016 at 30 Cancer, “A daughter of the American Revolution.”  Traditionally ultra-conservative, DAR has been assertively inclusive since Eleanor Roosevelt resigned her membership in protest in 1939.  They’ve since supported many conservationist and humanitarian efforts, many oriented toward support for military personnel and veterans. 

The gap till we can feel the Lachesis and Varuna Stations isn’t completely empty.  We’re enjoying a long-lasting Seminar (Grand Quintile) on Integrity (both yin– and yang– but especially yin-), unearthing our Limiting Beliefs, and Poor-Sweethearting ourself before we broadcast negative vibes that will echo back at us (Jupiter Quintile Juno-Chariklo-Pluto Quintile Chiron Quintile Aldebaran Quintile North Node Quintile Jupiter)…

Boundaries Reset Full Moon

October 5, 2017

Today’s Full Moon is about Boundaries and Consciousness, especially about Becoming Aware of Leaky Boundaries where we let our Power dribble away, and Terminating the (Unconscious) Contracts that institutionalized them in the first place.  Any time Boundary issues arise for you, check to see if you’re playing the Victim.  If you are, Choose otherwise.  It has to be a Conscious Choice.  You’ll be Dancing with all manner of Guilt, and may well be face to face with someone Begging you to “help me!” when what they really mean is, “keep being my servant; I need someone to Abuse!”…

Asteroid Lachesis is named after one of the three Fates, the one who “cuts the chord,” or determines the length of a Timeline.  Mythology applies to the Unconscious, whereas we strive for maximum Consciousness, because Consciousness gives us the Power to Choice – if we so Choose.  So from our Perspective, Lachesis means the Power to Choose when to terminate or modify a Timeline, or Archetype, or Habit, or Behavior, or Contract.

Lachesis Conjoins Neptune, which is about Emotional Baggage that has us by the short and curlies, about Archetypes we feel Married to (hence Neptune symbolizes the Cultural Unconscious).  So we have the Opportunity during the one-month Lunar Cycle, which begins now, to Disavow all manner of Archetypal Contracts that give us Dis-Ease.  And the same goes for the several other Cycles we’ve just begun or are about to begin…

  • The one-year Mercury-Makemake Cycle (Manifestation Skill)
  • The two-year Venus-Mars Cycle (Gender Rebalancing)
  • The four-year Veritas-North Node Cycle (Finding our True Mission)
  • The four-year Atropos-Orcus Cycle (Ending Obsolete Contracts)
  • The five-year Hopi-Haumea Cycle (Respecting Diversity)
  • The six-year Aletheia-Varuna Cycle (Enjoying the Vitality of Truth)
  • The Lilith-Pholus Cycle (Being Responsible to our Sovereignty)
  • The one-year Venus-Eurydike Cycle (Trusting our own Values)

See the Calendar, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/1-calendar/ , for more information of each of these Cycles.  They’re filed by date there.

Many of us are in the middle of Manifesting a portion of What We Want, and many of us are running into Speedbumps, some of which feel like Roadblocks.  Those Roadblocks and Speedbumps are nothing but Obsolete Contracts we made at one time with the Universe.  You can call them Timelines, or Archetypes, or Habits, or Behaviors, or Vows, or Oaths, or Promises, but they’re all Contracts, and the Stars are giving us Permission and Assistance at Letting Go of Them.

How do we Take Advantage of this Opportunity?  We PIAVA What We Want, and PIAVA What We Want to Jettison…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/

Intention would be a great Choice of PIAVAs.  Don’t forget Tapping when you’re dealing with Guilt and other Emotions that want to prevent you from Disavowing your Obsolete Contracts.  And remember that the Unconscious understands only Dimension, not Direction, so you don’t want to PIAVA negation.  Ask for Liberation from an Archetype, for instance.

 

Relationship Reset

October 2, 2017

Every couple years Venus zips around and catches Mars from behind, in what we call a Mars-Venus Initiation, the beginning of a new Venus-Mars Cycle.  It introduces a new Time Province in the Relationship between our Inner Female (Values, Guidance) and Inner Male (Action, Effort), which of course is the template that all of our external Relationships Mirror. 

Our new Shift in Gender Balance occurs 5 October (9:30 am PDT), at 20 Virgo, “A caravan of cars headed to the West Coast: The need of cooperative effort in reaching any ‘New World’ of experience.”  The way we usually draw our maps, the West Coast is on the Left, in a general way the Receptive or Feminine side.

The Cycle that we’re finishing began February 2015 at 2 Aries, “A comedian reveals human nature” – has that ever been true!  We’ve just been forgetting to Laugh.  Maybe this West-Coast Change of Water will help matters become a little less hilarious. 

The new Cycle begins Conjunct Eurydike (Trust).  It’s the focus of a T-Square (Challenge to Mastery) across the Opposition between Asbolus (Intuition) and Saturn-Ixion (The Most Important Thing Is to Recover Our Forbidden Genius).  In this Configuration Asbolus represents the Feminine, and Saturn-Ixion the Masculine. 

The Message is that we need to Embrace whatever remaining Guilt or Shame we have about the Forbidden part of our Genius-in-Hiding, and Trust our Intuition about how to Be in ways we haven’t Been since we were Punished for Being that way as a Child.  We need to get Conscious of our Fear that we’ll be Punished again (the Universe is likely to help by bringing it up), Poor-Sweetheart it, Tap it Out, and Trust its Urges. 

Yes, they’ll be juvenile.  If we Repressed our Genius at age 4, when They start to emerge again They’ll behave like a 4- or 5-year-old.  Go ahead and let Them Act Out – it’s the only way They’ll Grow.  And Grow They will, very quickly.  Even though They’ve been in Hiding, They’ve been watching.  Their first words and Actions will be young, but then They’ll remember what They’ve seen while Hiding, and Grow Up fast.  Trust them, says the chart…There are three Trine Bridges (Easy Alternative Paths) across the T-Square, two of which form a Air Grand Trine (Great Grace) with Asbolus.  This is fortuitous, since the two Graced Bridges are asteroid Karma (Archetypal Habits) and the South Node (Held Emotions).  Add the North Node Bridge, and we have five points of a Grand Sextile (Effortlessness – once we take the first step).  That makes the sixth point – Energy we have to add Consciously – the most Powerful in the chart.

That Vacant sixth point is 21 Aries, “A pugilist enters the ring.”  Which makes sense.  Our Genius-In-Hiding has little practice at Social Intercourse, and will be easily Intimidated.  Their residual Guilt will attract Bullying.  So we need to Defend Them.  As long as you aren’t in a bar, most Bullies will back down if you Stand Up to them.  Not to Challenge them or “return fire,” but to keep your chin horizontal and respectfully Assert your Right to Exist.  Let them have the last word.  Look them in the eye and Mirror them, borrowing their Bravado and trying it on as your own, without being bigger than your britches.

If we allow four Degrees of Sensitivity instead of three, which we can very legitimately do when looking at any Birth or Initiation, Eris (Opening to Important New Information that you sort of knew all along but never admitted to yourself) fills the Vacancy.  This suggests that the Bully will probably be the Messenger.  If a Bully insults you and rather then getting Angry, you think about it a minute and then say, “Wow, I never thought of it that way!  That makes sense!  Thanks, you’ve just helped me solve a Big Problem!” your Bully will probably be caught off guard.  

There are two other Initiations falling a few hours prior to the Mars-Venus Initiation, which Time-Coincidence will make them part of the Relationship Reset and color the next two years…

  • Varuna Initiating Aletheia in 2 Leo on 5 October (3am PDT).
  • Haumea Initiating Hopi in 24 Libra on 5 October (7am PDT).

These are six and five-year Cycles, respectively… 

  • The Aletheia-Varuna Cycle is literally about “The Truth shall set you Free” – it’s about the way Truth amps up your Energy level and your Effectiveness at meeting the World (and of course Collaborating with it). 
  • Leo 2 is about “An epidemic of mumps,” suggesting that Truth will spread through the population like a Virus, accompanied by Ego Deaths as it goes.  Most folks don’t do Ego Death as Gracefully as we’ve Learned to, so we can expect some grinding of teeth as we move through this.
  • The Hopi-Haumea Cycle is about Epiphanies of Respect for Entities whom you’ve never considered Respecting as Equals.  These sound like very positive Energies to paint onto the 3D World we’re Enduring.
  • Libra 24 is “A butterfly with a third wing on its left side,” or a Strengthening of our Intuitive Nature.  As we come to Respect Entities we’ve never considered Worthy, the impetus is likely to be sudden, possibly saving us from the embarrassment of having to explain why we haven’t been there before.  This will further the downfall of the now-so-obviously-Hollow Patriarchy.

These Cycles carry us across a major Threshold that would be useful to review.  From 1800 to 1980, the Saturn-Jupiter Initiations were in Earth Signs.  The Jupiter-Saturn Cycle governs the political economy of your Culture, and 1840-1980 approximates the Industrial Age.  From 2021 till 2160, Saturn-Jupiter Initiations will be in Air Signs – the Digital Age. 

Between 1980 and 2020, the Saturn-Jupiter Initiations stuttered…

  • 1980-2000 was the first of the Air-Sign Jupiter-Saturn Cycles and a preview of the Digital Age – 1980 when Bill Gates contracted with IBM to begin mass-producing the Personal Computer, and 2000 (almost to the day) of “Dot-Com Crash” fame. 
  • 2000-2020, home of the last Earth-Sign Cycle, has been the Debriefing for the Industrial Age.  Knowingly or not we’ve been Deciding which elements of the Industrial Era we want to carry with us into the Digital Age.  Patriarchy?  Nah.  Wage Slavery?  No thanks.  Competition?  Ummm, Collaboration is better.

Before 2021 and the full-blown Digital Age, we’ll have another Venus-Mars Cycle following the one we’re now beginning, when our Gender Balance and all it implies will Shift again.  The August 2019 Mars-Venus Initiation will be in 5 Virgo, “The opening of new levels of Consciousness.”

Back to the current Time Province, the Full Moon follows the current Mars-Venus Initiation by only a few hours, giving a big kick-start to this Community movement to the Left Coast.

Manifestation 6

October 1, 2017

We’ll call this post Manifestation 6 because five of the previous six posts have been about Manifestation (Surrendering … IX through Surrendering … Debriefing except Surrendering … XIII).  That series was called Surrendering to the Unknown because it was about the Chaos-Station/Pluto-Station Time Province.  We consider that Province to be finished.

Pluto and Chaos are still technically virtually Stationary – Chaos and Pluto are still in the same arcminutes as when they stood still, and while they’re beginning to accelerate, it’ll still be taking several days for them to move one arcminute.  For comparison, by the end of the year Chaos will be moving 8 arcminutes per week and Pluto 2 arcminutes per day.

We assume or aspire to Consciousness.  Once an astroevent is Complete or Exact, if we are Conscious that the Energy is occurring, it’s impact fades quickly.  So in this sense, in Linear Time, we consider the Station, or Strengthening of the impact of the planet’s Energy, to last only up until it’s Exact.  Once it’s started moving again, even though it’s speed is glacial, we’re now in a new Time/Energy Province.

We can, and usually do, drag Energy forward from one astroprovince to the next, by making Decisions to Defend ourself against our Vulnerability to the Energy of the old Province.

In general, dwarf planet Chaos is about that which lies beyond what we consider Possible.  The Universe is “infinite,” so it follows that our personal Limits of What’s Possible are infinitesimal by comparison.  A shortcut for Pluto is something like “that which we can’t Avoid” (though we can steer).  So a Pluto-Chaos Time Province is going to push us pretty hard up against our Limits, sort of like scraping our Identity across a cheese grater.

We get to Manifestation from having our “Face” grated simply because we’re all Learning entirely new processes for Manifestation.  Not just about the Demise of the Patriarchy and the rise of Yang Female Energy in its stead, but we now need to Learn to Manifest by Collaborating with All That Is rather than moving Dualities around a game board.  The new Time/Energy Province that we’ve entered, through October 5 (and beyond), is a Relationship Reset, and Relationship is just another Perspective on Manifestation (and vice versa of course).

Our new schedule is like this…

  • North Node Initiating Veritas at 22 Leo on 1 October (1am PDT).
  • Makemake Initiating Mercury at 4 Libra on 1 October (4pm PDT).
  • Orcus Initiating Atropos at 10 Virgo on 2 October (9am PDT).
  • Varuna Initiating Aletheia in 2 Leo on 5 October (3am PDT).
  • Haumea Initiating Hopi in 24 Libra on 5 October (7am PDT).
  • Mars Initiating Venus in 20 Virgo on 5 October (9:30 am PDT).
  • Full Moon in 13 Aries on 5 October (11:40 am PDT).

Let’s start with today’s and tomorrow’s Initiations before we move on to our Relationship Reset.  The Veritas-North Node Cycle is about facing the Truth of our Mission in the Lifetime, and 22 Leo is about “A carrier pigeon fulfilling its mission” which is a rather ironic “coincidence” since the North Node symbolizes our Mission.  Which makes us the Pigeon.  Pigeon applies to a Huper has many connotations, none of which is particularly complementary.  Victim isn’t far off. 

And yes, from the Perspective of our Ego and its Desires, we are indeed Victims of our Mission.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’d like to go out and play, but you’re stuck with this Mission, like it or not, aren’t you.”  We’ve often phrased our Mission as our “Deepest Desires.”  You wouldn’t think we’d be Victimized by that, but it’s a bit more Complex.  As Spock said, “Wanting feels better to [Hupers] than Having.”  Desire is a treadmill.  The Power to run the treadmill comes from our Deepest Desires. 

We can tread forever without ever getting to our Deepest Desire.  But as we tread, our (Ego’s) Desires get closer and closer to our Deepest (Soul’s) Desire.  Each step takes us halfway there, which means we get closer and closer without ever actually getting there.  In 3D.  It’s a Syntropic Perpetual Motion Machine.  It’s quite literally Sisyphean.

There is an asteroid Sisyphus, the largest of the known Earth-Crossing and potentially Earth-Colliding-With asteroids.  It’s about half the size of the asteroid that wiped out the Dinosaurs.  And it turns out to be in Virgo, Conjunct the budding Orcus-Atropos Initiation.  Ouch.  More on that in a minute.

But it’s not an ordinary “flying rat” that’s visiting us, it’s a Carrier Pigeon.  It Carries a Message, just as our Deepest Desire has a Message for our Ego, if we’re willing to step off the Treadmill to Receive it.

The information here is that whatever Project we’re stuck on is kind of a treadmill.  We’re on the right track, but there’s some aspect of the Project that’s being forever reduced by half, rather than converging to a point.  That’s like a T-Square, our Challenge to Mastery.  Our Expectations of Perfection or Completion are doomed to Frustration, because it’s not about Answers, it’s about Exploring the Edges and Subleties.  Are we trying to “Solve” one of our T-Squares, or even just one of our Squares (a less Complex Challenge-to-Mastery), through this stuck Project?

We recognize 22 Degrees as the nexus of heavy traffic we’ve been seeing for a long while now, and the North Node-Veritas Initiation fits right in, making a complete Grand Sextile with…

  • The 5 October Haumea-Hopi Initiation (Grokking “Respect for All Things” in a whole new way)
  • The busy Saturn-Ixion-Lilith Sellium (Our Hidden Genius Demands Sovereignty)
  • The South Node (Our Collective Past-Life Experience)
  • Eris (What We Haven’t Realized Yet)
  • Chaos (the “Impossible”)

And making “green lines” (Quincunx/Curiosity and Unx/Pattern-Breaker) to…

  • Nemesis (Ego Death)
  • Eurydike (Trust)

This bodes very well for the next 3 years and 8 months or so, the span of a Veritas-North Node Cycle.

Cause an Defect Full Moon II

August 6, 2017

At the Jupiter-Pluto Square, asteroid Aletheia (Truth) Opposes Pluto, creating a Jupiter T-Square, or a Challenge to Face the Truth about whatever it is you’ve been trying to sweep under the rug.  There are however three Bridges to mitigate the Challenge.  Most important, the Grace of Self-Love will eliminate a lot of Difficulty (asteroid Sappho makes a Trine Bridge across the T-Square)Curiosity will also be Powerful…

  • I Wonder what inhibits my Self-Sovereignty (Lilith makes a Quincunx Bridge)
  • I Wonder what Habits I can Change and how I might Change them (asteroid Atropos also makes a Quincunx Bridge)

It’s important to Remember that these are not questions for the Dualistic mind, they’re PIAVAs for the multidimensional Intuition, and must be followed by Changing the Subject.  If the mind tries to Answer them, you can write it down as a possibility, thank the mind for contributing, then Change the Subject more vigorously so you can forget what you PIAVAed.  If you can’t do that, your current thought Patterns will discard whatever your Intuition wants to contribute. 

An exception – often the mind will dismiss as politically unacceptable an immediate Intuition.  So it’s always useful to check to see if the Intuition you seek was just Rejected by the mind.  Still, write it down as a possibility, Change the Subject again, and once you’ve forgotten your PIAVA you can come back and Pay Attention to see if another Intuition popped up while you were washing dishes, or the TV program you used to Change the Subject just illuminated you, or if the possibilities you jotted down previously seem like paths worth pursuing.

Note that we use “mind” to refer to the “Left Brain” or intellectual, Logical, Dualistic, thinking mind.  Many traditions use “mind” in a larger sense, to include Intuition.  Of course dividing our Head into Left and Right “Brains” is a Dualism as well.  Different people have different sources for their Intuition – for some it’s the Heart, for others the Belly, or the Third Eye, or the Crown Chakra, and for you it could be the Faery who lives in the Salmonberry bush outside your kitchen window.  And from the Perspective of Energy Medicine, your thoughts don’t emanate from your Head at all, but from your Solar Plexus.

Let’s take an example.  Suppose you PIAVAI Wonder what inhibits my Self-Sovereignty” and the thought “My Spouse” or “My boss immediately pops up.  Well, even if that’s actually an Intuition (ie, that thought had never occurred to you before), it’s not the Intuition you seek because it Gives Away your Power.  You Create your Reality, not your Spouse or your Boss.  (Of course if you’re Soulmates who aren’t fully Self-Loving, you’ll always Project onto one another the parts of yourselves that you don’t Love yet.)  Change the Subject, K?

If you’re unable to Change the Subject, you’re Obsessing, and you may need to PIAVA that you Learn not to Obsess.  Wouldn’t it be funny if your Obsessiveness Inhibited your Self-Sovereignty, or if it was a Pattern that you would want to Change.  Voila, an Intuition.

There is a third Quintile Bridge – to Asbolus, which symbolizes Intuition itself, reinforcing our need to invoke Intuition to meet the Challenge of Facing Up to the Truth about whatever it is we’ve been trying to Blame on the Cat.  Or at least to Wonder if we can Invite a deeper level of Intuition to arise more often, and if we can Invite the Filters embedded in our thought Patterns and Beliefs to block them less often.

The gold lines on the chart show a Mjölnir or Hammer of Thor, pointing to dwarf planet OR10 from the Jupiter-Aletheia Square.  Mjölnirs are about Lightning Insights and Epiphanies, in this case coming from all of the historical and Herstorical Vignettes we’ve been Experiencing.

The purple lines show a Quintile Yod – meaning Pay Attention to Learning This! – pointing to the North Node from Chiron (Healing) and Pluto (Trance Reformation), implying that we’ll be Learning a lot about our Mission in the Lifetime from all these Adventures.

Finally, the three heavy green lines show two interlocking Fingers of God or Yods (also collectively known as a Sextile Fez), pointing at Pluto and Asbolus.  That tells us that Trance Reformation (Pluto) and Intuition (Asbolus) should be primary objects of our Attention (the Yods), and that maintaining Curiosity and Eschewing Certainty about Trance Reformation and Intuition will help us short-circuit the Challenges we’re likely to Encounter around Conflicts between our Egoic Attachments to Limiting Beliefs on the one hand, and our Self-Love on the other (the Square from Atropos/Endings to Sappho/Self-Love).

The Aletheia-Jupiter Square is also Waning, and that Cycle began in December 2009 at 22 Aquarius, “A rug on the floor of a nursery allows children to play in comfort and warmth.”  So as we move into the Void phase of this Cycle then, we might Expect some Austerity.  But wait.  We roll our own, don’t we.

Astrology tells us where we’re likely to go if we follow our Fate.  But our Fate is bound up in our Unconscious Beliefs and the Archetypes to which we’ve been Hypnotized.  To break free of our Fate we need only bring these Beliefs and Archetypes into Consciousness where they can be Changed.  That’s the sense in which we are denizens of “Free Will.”

Astrology tells us about what’s going on in the Unconscious.  But the Unconscious is Non-Dual.  So Astrology tells us Dimensions – in this case our Degree of “Comfort and Warmth” (and by the way, Warm is Love and Cool is Fear, just as the Absence of Warmth is Coolth).  So, if we’re Conscious, we supply the Direction – more Comfort and Warmth, or less Comfort and Warmth.  Yes, we’re moving toward Sustenance, but that’s about Giving Up what is Unnecessary, not about Giving Up what we Enjoy.

By entering the Void phase, we know that, as far as Truth (Aletheia) and Expansion (Jupiter) go, we may no longer be able to “play in comfort and warmth.”  Ah, that’s the missing piece isn’t it.  As Jupiter-Pluto Asks us to Reform our Trances around the places where we’re Out of Truth, we’ll be Experiencing some Discomfort and Fear as we Adjust.

So we need a PIAVA that will let us Have our Pudding and Eat it too.  Maybe something like, “Ganeshi My Love, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Enjoying enough Comfort and Warmth while my Trances around my Relationship to Truth are being Reformed, that I’m not Tempted to Abandon my Genius Project.”

Orcus and Hopi I

May 18, 2017

Our next Adventure is the sequential Stations of dwarf planet Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) and asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things).  Both Stations occur just prior to 6am PST, Orcus on 21 May, and Hopi on 22 May.  This will be a particularly fascinating combination of Energies, because most of our Limiting Beliefs were founded by Oaths, Oaths always Power-Over one side or the other of some Duality, and Respect for All Things means the Absence of Judgment.

The result of the Merging of two such contrasting Energies will be laden with Paradox, and Paradox of the exact nature that Spiritual Progress is paved with.  Remember that limiting our Commitments as much as possible is a prerequisite to Yintegrity.  And to be Self-Sovereign, rather than Slaves to our Archetypes, we need to Renounce all of our Oaths.  Being thus Free, we’ll be able to follow our Instinct and Intuition without constraint.

You would think, for instance, that an Orcus-Hopi astroevent would simply be a great time to Swear to Respect All Things.  But that would Betray Respect for Ourself, as it would inhibit our Freedom to Follow our Instincts and Intuitions.  Paradox is not accessible by the logical mind. so we just have to Accept it as a Mystery.

Paradox, as we’ve said, is the realm of the Yin Gate Configuration, a Golden Rectangle bisected on the short side by a third Opposition.  By “coincidence,” there happen to be three Yin Gates in the Orcus and Hopi Station charts.  Here’s an example of one, in the Orcus Station chart…

The Orcus Station itself T-Squares (Mastery through Challenge) one axis of the Golden Rectangle (which is the blue box).  “Coincidentally,” the axis that it T-Squares is the axis between Lilith (Self-Sovereignty itself) on the right and a Conjunction of Ceres (Sustainability) and Mnemosyne (Memory) on the left.  The implication is that We Already Know How to Sustain Self-Sovereignty, all we have to do is Remember That We Know.

Another “coincidence” – one axis of each of the three Yin Gates is T-Squared by one of the Stationary planets.  Such redundancy convinces us that the Universe is serious about this message.

The Challenge is our accumulated Oaths, and the Archetypes we still cling too.  Remember that Karma is dead; our Karma does not CLING TO US, we CLING TO IT.  Are you about to do something that you’ve done before?  Do it differently.  I was about to go get a half-glass of Beer, so to break up the Pattern I’ll do a couple of pirouettes between here and refrigerator.  Not that a half-glass of Beer is a big Pattern of mine, but a trip to the refrigerator certainly is! 

Surprisingly and Remarkably, each pirouette produced a big surge of Joy.  I may adopt a new Pattern!  If you spot an old fart pirouetting down the road, say Hi.  Wait, that’s an Oath!  Revert!

The Opposition in the Yin Gate itself (the one in the center of the Golden Rectangle – I know, it’s both blue and Golden – blue because that’s how we draw Energy lines representing Grace, and Golden because the ratio of the sides is the Golden Ratio of Sacred Geometry fame) is between asteroid Veritas (Truth) and dwarf planet Hylonome (Letting Go of Archetypes) – yet another redundant repetition of our basic theme here, which is about Facing the Truth that Allowing ourself to be Directed by our Unconscious Patterns not only Inhibits our Spiritual Progress, it also generates a good deal of Self-SabotagePirouettes are in our Future whether by Oath or Instinct!

The other diagonal of this Golden Rectangle is an Opposition between asteroids Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) and Nemesis (Ego Death).  Lordy Lordy, another redundant repetition!  Well, most of us will have Ego invested in our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs – that’s how we get them to stick.  Of course we all want to be good little girls and boys, and if Granny told us over and over again that good little girls and boys don’t do that, then there you have it – Ego Investment.  

So you remember how to do Ego Death, right?  You reinterpret “I’d rather DIE” to actually be “I’D rather die,” and them you just let it happen.  Egos are like Moles (the ones in your yard) – if you ever do succeed in killing one, another one will pop up to replace it before you can say “Hooray, I’m Freee at Last!”   Chagrin (or Terror) over Ego Death is totally wasted; new Egos are a dime a dozen.  When someone tells you they gave up their Ego when they were Enlightened, that’s their Ego talking. 

You Embrace Confusion as the First Stage of Growth in Consciousness, which heralds less Slavery to Archetypes and less Self-Sabotage (and another sign of Ego Death).  You might be driving or walking a few blocks from home, and suddenly realize that you’re in a very different World, even while you know exactly where you are.  You might suddenly forget all your passwords, or your spouse’s name, because without warning you’ve regressed to age 6 or 12 or 32 or Atlantis or the time you met Genghis Khan, when the Steppes were in bloom.

As with Curiosity, you want to Break all Habits (Oaths!) to try to Understand.  Trying to Understand means you’re scrambling back to your Olde Ego, and losing all the benefits of Psychic and Spiritual Growth.  Confusion and Curiosity are Beautiful just as they are, they aren’t problems to be solved or reasons to exercise that big glucose-burner in your skull.  They’re glorious states to relax into.  They will take you to Heaven if you let them.

This is only one part of the Orcus-Station chart; we’ll take up other parts in the next installment.  For now, notice that the Orcus Station happens to be Conjunct asteroid Karma – yet one more confirmation of our basic theme of Liberation.  The Initiation of Karma by Orcus already occurred, in mid-November of last year, at 10 Virgo, “”Two heads looking out and beyond the shadows: The growth of true understanding, born out of the transcendence of duality even while immersed in the world of duality.” 

The Validations just keep on coming!  The Karma-Orcus Exposition (Retrograde Conjunction) occurred in early March, and the Confidence-Builder (final crossing) will happen on 30 May.  By then we should be feeling pretty good about how much Karmic baggage we’ve been putting out on the curb for recycling.

Blessing Full Moon Eclipse III

February 8, 2017

Now we get to the Juicy part, the Yin Gate.  The Full Moon bisects the long side of the Golden Rectangle, but the Yin Gate bisects the short side, giving us one of those Grand Crosses that we spoke of briefly earlier.  A Grand Cross works better than Garlic for repelling Vampires.  You’ve got four possibly-difficult planets in four Challenging Angles to one another, yet the result is that they Collaborate, because the Configuration fills the Circle and is In Balance.

Grand Crosses are either in Creative (Cardinal) or Stabilizing (Fixed) or Changeable (Mutable) Signs.  This one is in the Stabilizing Signs, which, since everything else is in high Flux, is very handy.  It should help Ground us.  In the Grand Cross we have…

  • The Moon in Leo, which will Support our Self-Loving Emotions, as long as we eschew Self-Criticism
  • The Sun in Aquarius, which will help us Build Community, as long as we eschew Idealism
  • The asteroids Sappho (Self-Love) and Klotho (the Raw Material for Creating a New Ego-Lifetime) in Scorpio, where they’ll be Diving Deep to make sure no Self-Abandoning or Self-Limiting Psychic Cysts remain
  • Our friend Sedna (Fear/Anger – !) and asteroid Aletheia (Truth) in Taurus, where they will help Ground us toward Walking in Beauty, as long as we eschew Oath-Making and Decision-Making

By bisecting the short sides of the Golden Rectangle, the Yin Gate sets up interlocking Fingers of God pointing to each end of the Sappho/Klotho-to-Sedna/Aletheia Opposition.  Meaning that we are being Asked to find some way to Balance a Rebirth into Self-Love on one hand with the Truth of our Unrecognized Fear and Anger in the other (and the exercise isn’t optional).  If that sounds Paradoxical, that’s because it is.  A Yin Gate is about Accepting Paradox as a normal part of Reality.

Which it is.  Reality is Infinite; our Either/or minds, not being able to grasp Infinity, prefer Limitation.  Our Emotional Bodies also often prefer Duality, in the form of For-or-Against postures.  We Want our Emotion-verbs to have objects – not “I’m Angry” but “I’m Angry At…” or “I’m Angry Because…”.  Of course we’d first like to shift out of Identification with our Emotions – “I Feel Anger” rather than “I Am Anger.”  

In Real Life “I Feel Anger” just means there’s an Energy Build-up in my Solar Plexus.  Usually, that is; our Energy Bodies are often twisted by our Programming.  While the Causes of an Energy Build-up in my Solar Plexus are Limited only by my Imagination, in Reality Energy isn’t Causal; It Is.  It just Is.  It doesn’t matter how it happened, only how we Respond to it.

If it’s Comfortable and Balanced by the Energy in your other Chakras, No Worries.  The more the merrier – as Daniel averred.  If it’s not Comfortable, we check our Safety.  Would our Current Ego Feel Safer if we Set a Boundary, or Fled, or Froze?  “Freezing” looks like Limiting our Vulnerability, maybe by shifting a conversation to the Weather, for instance.  

Then, once we’re Safe, if “Running our Energy” didn’t resolve it quickly, and if we couldn’t easily Tap it Out, or if it’s a recurring Pattern, we could Observe our Current Ego, to see if “We” are holding onto any Obsolete Limits.  We might be in the Habit of associating with people who don’t Support us, because of our Fear of Abandonment.  We might be Over-Reacting to Comments or Actions that really don’t have anything to do with Us, from people who really do usually Support Us.

How to tell the difference, “Objectively”?  Maybe it’s Both.  (There’s actually no such thing as Objectivity, but sometimes it’s useful to Pretend that there is.)  We could look at what Comments or Actions seemed to Anger us.  Is there any sense in which We do that to anyone?  Often the Esoteric Purpose of a Rogue Emotion or Energy Vortex is to Illuminate an Unconscious Cyst we don’t otherwise see.

So, what became of our Fear versus Anger “contest” around Sedna?  Both Jupiter (Amplification) and Sedna were Stationary over the weekend.  Well, mostly Anger, though Fear and Grief are also Present.  

In the Sedna story (one of many) that I Resonate with, a father gives his daughter’s “hand” to a stranger, who turns out to be a Sorcerer.  Alarmed, the father “steals” her back, only to be pursued by the Sorcerer, shapeshifted into Power, and Angry.  The father is Terrified, and tries to throw his daughter from the canoe to save his own ass.  She clings to the side of the canoe, so he chops off her fingers, which become the Seals, food for the People.  But the People must make offerings to Sedna, now a Sea-Goddess, in order to apease her Anger.

So, mea culpa, I associated with the father’s Terror, and interpreted Sedna as Fear.  It’s easy to see how one could associate with the daughter’s – or even the sorcerer’s – Anger instead.  The daughter has been criminally Abandoned – but Abandonment is a Fear, though often Experienced as Anger.

Some (edited) excerpts…

“While I’d say Anger, I wonder how much of that is a reaction to Disbelief that what I thought was giving from love has been treated so shabbily.  So, moving from Fear of Betrayal and Abandonment to accepting that those have happened, but I survived.  So I’d say self-protective rage?  Or maybe the rage is self-righteous?  It’s a very fine line.  But I’d say the difference is seeing more clearly, taking responsibility for my part, and then moving on, without engaging and without plans to continue having those people in my life.”

“Fear is there, yes, but anger was prime the last 3 days.”

“I did experience Sedna as anger, or actually even contempt.  I worked with the contempt for awhile.  There was a panic attack or two, and more shifting and praying.  But then, yesterday, a release.  An enormous release of soul crushing rage-pain I had been carrying around with me for three years daily.  I keep checking in with myself amazed.  Am I finally free of this?  I feel.  Yes, it isn’t there.  Check again.  Still free.  And again.  It’s gone.  That thing that haunted me, that thing that was my dismemberment floating on an iceberg abandoned is gone.”

“Yes…anger on Saturday evening…irritable and overwhelmed.  Followed by waking on Sunday morning to sadness and then the fear kicked in and simmered along much of the day.”

“The weekend brought a lot of emotions up – and you’re right, primarily anger!  A lot of this I’d been carrying around in my sub conscious and was brought to the surface.  On Monday the main emotion was acceptance.  More than I’ve ever felt before.”

“Tremendous almost bottomless (nearly impersonal) fear.”

“Neither Fear nor Anger, but an incredibly deep revisiting of trauma experienced when I was very young.  I think there is no real gender-dependent reponse here, but response based on how much we have processed along the way.  A dear friend of mine, with whom we always swap the emotional intensity of these challenging times, also experienced a positive weekend.  So yeah, ongoing, remaining positive, and the weekend also brought lots of manifestation potential.”

“The men couldn’t handle our intensity — when we vigorously debated our positions, the guys walked out the door!”

I’d attribute the Profound Clearing that several folks reported, to the Yin Gate rather than to Sedna herself.  And Anger is an appropriate response to Fear, if we Choose to Fight rather than Flee or Freeze.  In the Patriarchy, the Male has the Power, so it’s he that’s in a position to be the Abandoner – till Terror causes his wits to Abandon him.  

I agree that it’s ultimately Gender-neutral, as anyone can exhibit behaviors and characteristics that in Patriarchal Cultures are Gender-dependent, and Profiling is always dangerous.  In Patriarchy Power-Dynamics, though, Gender is very significant, even if it’s not always determinate.

And yes, “response based on how much we have processed along the way” is relevant.  There does appear to be a Progression, where we become less Self-Sabotaging as we Track Down, Embrace and Let Go of our catalog of Karmic Archetypes, Patterns, Self-Sabotage, Chronic Bummers, Dank Undercurrents, and other Psychic Cysts.  But it’s definitely not Linear.  

I’d say that, if a person has Squares in their natality in 20-26 Degrees, and has sailed through the last several months unscathed, then Self-Congratulations are in order!  But it says little about Big Energies that may occur in the rest of the Degrees, between 27 and 19.  

Speaking astrologically, the Energies that we’ve been dealing with have been extraordinarily Positive.  Our Difficulty with them arises because it’s now so obvious that Clearing is no longer a Luxury.  Our Egos can no longer so easily duck and dodge.  Look at it this way…  

On 2/22/2022, Quaoar (our Survival Instinct) Initiates Pholus (Taking Full Responsibility), at 7:00 Capricorn,A veiled prophet speaks, seized by the Power of a God.”  2/22/2022 reduces to the Twelfth Harmonic – Pattern-Breaking.  We’re already well within this Energy, as Pholus is only one and a quarter Degrees from Quaoar.

Portal 24.11b

November 24, 2016

We painted a fairly complete summary of the overall Jupiter-Square-Pluto (Letting Go of Insecurity) chart in Everybody Survive? …

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/11/21/everybody-survive-2/

We mentioned the Grand Sextile that asteroid Eurydike (Trust) completes, which includes the ongoing Golden Rectangle with Ixion, Chaos, Haumea, and Uranus-Eris-Ceres, which we’ve been discussing for a while as Grace-Full Recovery of our Abandoned Genius.  And we mentioned the two ancillary T-Squares to Chiron (Self-Empathy for difficult Emotions) and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty).  

All together, this is a very positive combination of Ease (the Grand Sextile) and Motivation (the T-Squares).  Michael Roads would see it as a lovely Torsion between Structure and Drive, between Stability and Change, frequently flashing the Brilliant White of Balance.

The Jupiter-Pluto Square itself occurs at 16 of Libra and Capricorn, at about 3pm PST.  As we detailed in the previous post, this is about Letting Go of Insecurity.  Its several companions (Moon – Instinct, Venus – Values, and Lachesis – Timing of Ego Shifts) smear it across the following several days.  

The times given are the times when the astroevent is exact or complete – most of us are likely to feel the Energy start to abate about then.  Should be interesting relative to any Challenges around other people you’re hanging out with.  The durations in parens are a guess at how long ahead of time we’re likely to be Feeling the Energy – depending on your Sensitivity of course…

  • 24 November…
    • 3pm PST –
      • Waning Jupiter-Pluto Square, Asking us to Expand into Emptiness.  The Eurydike/Eurydice story is about failure to escape from Pluto’s Realm (the Other Side of the Veil) because of Lack of Trust; the suggestion here is that we Expand our Metaphysical Self to encompass Pluto and his Realm.  (a month)
      • Lachesis Inititates Venus at 16 Capricorn, “Recess“; beginning a 16-month Cycle where it’s Important that we Suspend our Values so they can reorganize themselves to make sense of our recent and forthcoming Experience with the Changes.  If you hear yourself starting to say “I’m [not] the kind or person who…” swallow it so you don’t stop yourself from Growing.  (a day)
    • 6-8pm PST – 
      • Moon Waning Square Lachesis, Voiding of a one-month Cycle that Initiated at 9 Capricorn on 4 November; the Angel that’s been with us packs up her Harp, getting ready to leave.  (3 hours)
      • Jupiter Initiates the Moon at 16 Libra; this is a one-month Cycle reflecting the Jupiter-Pluto Deconstruction.  If you’ve been Grasping things you’re afraid to Lose, it would be an excellent time to PIAVA that you keep their Essence or Better and have an Effortless Transition.  (3 hours)
      • Moon Squares Pluto; this is a Waning Square in a Cycle that began on 5 November at 16 Capricorn, and essentially means that Recess is over.  (3 hours)
  • 25 November…
    • 6am – Venus Waxing Squares Jupiter, moving a one-year Cycle into Full Visibility; the Cycle began in late August at 28 Virgo, “A bald man has seized Power.”  So, now we know it’s a wig.  (a day)
  • 26 November…
    • 5am – Pluto Initiates Lachesis at 16 Capricorn, Recess again; this starts a four-year Cycle where we’re expected to be wearing the right uniform.  Ouch.  (a week)
  • 28 November…
    • Lachesis Waxing Square Jupiter, bringing into Full View a six-year Cycle that began in May 2014 at 20 Cancer, “Venetian gondoliers giving a serenade,” where we gain Energy by breaking with tradition.  About that uniform.  (a week)

Another Intense Week II

November 15, 2016

Well, no sooner had I pushed the Publish button, the doorbell rang and this book was delivered.  I started reading and it so matched the probable unfolding of the week (and the month so far) that I had to quote it…

“I was just beginning to realize that the more I struggled to learn this universal truth, the more resistance I seemed to create.  The true story I have documented here came at one of my peaks of inner growth and change.  Although change and growth were exactly what I wanted, I was never able to reconcile them with the inner hurt and emotional pain that always accompanied them.  Like most people, I strenuously resisted my own growth.  Such inner conflict inevitably increases and prolongs the trauma.

“Much of my emotional confusion was caused by discovering aspects of myself that for a long time had been submerged in my psyche.  To the world, I presented myself as a practical man, very down-to-earth, strong, and capable, with just a touch of aggression.  I really thought this was me.  Then I made a disturbing inner discovery.  At the time of the events recounted in this book, I had just learned that this was my act, the mask I wore.”

–Michael Roads, Into a Timeless Realm, p.xii.

Then he talks about his Dream where he found a small gnome “with thin sticklike limbs and a withered body” hiding in a cabinet in a disused room…

” ‘Who are you?’ I asked.
He looked at me shyly.  ‘Don’t you know?’
‘Of course I don’t.  How could I?’
‘I am your self-love,’ he replied.
I woke up crying, an outburst of gut-wrenching tears shaking my whole body as I cried from the very depths of my Being.”
–p.xiv

We are of course still working with Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne – Uranus as the True Self, Eris as the Revelation of what’s been Denied, Ceres as Making Sustainably Fruitful, and Mnemosyne as Memories.  We’ve already mentioned Haumea-Sappho, Haumea as Rebirth, Sappho as Self-Love.  

Then there’s yesterday’s Full-Moon Yin Gate Mystery School and its focus of Acknowledging our Boundaries as adequate to enforce our Self-Sovereignty against our Fear and invoke the Emergence of our Self-Trust, as part of the massive thrust for each of us to Awaken our Hidden Genius, Hidden by the very Held Emotions that we’re confronting here.

In order, the Full-Moon Yin Gate Square to Pallas (Boundaries) with Lilith (Sovereignty) on the Sun and Sedna (Fear) on the Moon, with asteroid Eurydike (Trust) at the Vacancy that would complete the Grand Cross, while the Golden Rectangle of Ixion-Pholus (Responsibility to our Abandoned Genius) Opposite Chaos-Veritas (the Truth that we are brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous) and Haumea-Sappho Opposite Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne.

Oh, and Makemake (Manifestation) Initiates Hopi (Respect for All Things) on 23 November at 4 Libra, “Around a campfire a group of young people sit in spiritual communion” – actuallythey’re already marching in support of Respect for All People.