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Boundaries Reset Full Moon

October 5, 2017

Today’s Full Moon is about Boundaries and Consciousness, especially about Becoming Aware of Leaky Boundaries where we let our Power dribble away, and Terminating the (Unconscious) Contracts that institutionalized them in the first place.  Any time Boundary issues arise for you, check to see if you’re playing the Victim.  If you are, Choose otherwise.  It has to be a Conscious Choice.  You’ll be Dancing with all manner of Guilt, and may well be face to face with someone Begging you to “help me!” when what they really mean is, “keep being my servant; I need someone to Abuse!”…

Asteroid Lachesis is named after one of the three Fates, the one who “cuts the chord,” or determines the length of a Timeline.  Mythology applies to the Unconscious, whereas we strive for maximum Consciousness, because Consciousness gives us the Power to Choice – if we so Choose.  So from our Perspective, Lachesis means the Power to Choose when to terminate or modify a Timeline, or Archetype, or Habit, or Behavior, or Contract.

Lachesis Conjoins Neptune, which is about Emotional Baggage that has us by the short and curlies, about Archetypes we feel Married to (hence Neptune symbolizes the Cultural Unconscious).  So we have the Opportunity during the one-month Lunar Cycle, which begins now, to Disavow all manner of Archetypal Contracts that give us Dis-Ease.  And the same goes for the several other Cycles we’ve just begun or are about to begin…

  • The one-year Mercury-Makemake Cycle (Manifestation Skill)
  • The two-year Venus-Mars Cycle (Gender Rebalancing)
  • The four-year Veritas-North Node Cycle (Finding our True Mission)
  • The four-year Atropos-Orcus Cycle (Ending Obsolete Contracts)
  • The five-year Hopi-Haumea Cycle (Respecting Diversity)
  • The six-year Aletheia-Varuna Cycle (Enjoying the Vitality of Truth)
  • The Lilith-Pholus Cycle (Being Responsible to our Sovereignty)
  • The one-year Venus-Eurydike Cycle (Trusting our own Values)

See the Calendar, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/1-calendar/ , for more information of each of these Cycles.  They’re filed by date there.

Many of us are in the middle of Manifesting a portion of What We Want, and many of us are running into Speedbumps, some of which feel like Roadblocks.  Those Roadblocks and Speedbumps are nothing but Obsolete Contracts we made at one time with the Universe.  You can call them Timelines, or Archetypes, or Habits, or Behaviors, or Vows, or Oaths, or Promises, but they’re all Contracts, and the Stars are giving us Permission and Assistance at Letting Go of Them.

How do we Take Advantage of this Opportunity?  We PIAVA What We Want, and PIAVA What We Want to Jettison…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/

Intention would be a great Choice of PIAVAs.  Don’t forget Tapping when you’re dealing with Guilt and other Emotions that want to prevent you from Disavowing your Obsolete Contracts.  And remember that the Unconscious understands only Dimension, not Direction, so you don’t want to PIAVA negation.  Ask for Liberation from an Archetype, for instance.

 

Relationship Reset

October 2, 2017

Every couple years Venus zips around and catches Mars from behind, in what we call a Mars-Venus Initiation, the beginning of a new Venus-Mars Cycle.  It introduces a new Time Province in the Relationship between our Inner Female (Values, Guidance) and Inner Male (Action, Effort), which of course is the template that all of our external Relationships Mirror. 

Our new Shift in Gender Balance occurs 5 October (9:30 am PDT), at 20 Virgo, “A caravan of cars headed to the West Coast: The need of cooperative effort in reaching any ‘New World’ of experience.”  The way we usually draw our maps, the West Coast is on the Left, in a general way the Receptive or Feminine side.

The Cycle that we’re finishing began February 2015 at 2 Aries, “A comedian reveals human nature” – has that ever been true!  We’ve just been forgetting to Laugh.  Maybe this West-Coast Change of Water will help matters become a little less hilarious. 

The new Cycle begins Conjunct Eurydike (Trust).  It’s the focus of a T-Square (Challenge to Mastery) across the Opposition between Asbolus (Intuition) and Saturn-Ixion (The Most Important Thing Is to Recover Our Forbidden Genius).  In this Configuration Asbolus represents the Feminine, and Saturn-Ixion the Masculine. 

The Message is that we need to Embrace whatever remaining Guilt or Shame we have about the Forbidden part of our Genius-in-Hiding, and Trust our Intuition about how to Be in ways we haven’t Been since we were Punished for Being that way as a Child.  We need to get Conscious of our Fear that we’ll be Punished again (the Universe is likely to help by bringing it up), Poor-Sweetheart it, Tap it Out, and Trust its Urges. 

Yes, they’ll be juvenile.  If we Repressed our Genius at age 4, when They start to emerge again They’ll behave like a 4- or 5-year-old.  Go ahead and let Them Act Out – it’s the only way They’ll Grow.  And Grow They will, very quickly.  Even though They’ve been in Hiding, They’ve been watching.  Their first words and Actions will be young, but then They’ll remember what They’ve seen while Hiding, and Grow Up fast.  Trust them, says the chart…There are three Trine Bridges (Easy Alternative Paths) across the T-Square, two of which form a Air Grand Trine (Great Grace) with Asbolus.  This is fortuitous, since the two Graced Bridges are asteroid Karma (Archetypal Habits) and the South Node (Held Emotions).  Add the North Node Bridge, and we have five points of a Grand Sextile (Effortlessness – once we take the first step).  That makes the sixth point – Energy we have to add Consciously – the most Powerful in the chart.

That Vacant sixth point is 21 Aries, “A pugilist enters the ring.”  Which makes sense.  Our Genius-In-Hiding has little practice at Social Intercourse, and will be easily Intimidated.  Their residual Guilt will attract Bullying.  So we need to Defend Them.  As long as you aren’t in a bar, most Bullies will back down if you Stand Up to them.  Not to Challenge them or “return fire,” but to keep your chin horizontal and respectfully Assert your Right to Exist.  Let them have the last word.  Look them in the eye and Mirror them, borrowing their Bravado and trying it on as your own, without being bigger than your britches.

If we allow four Degrees of Sensitivity instead of three, which we can very legitimately do when looking at any Birth or Initiation, Eris (Opening to Important New Information that you sort of knew all along but never admitted to yourself) fills the Vacancy.  This suggests that the Bully will probably be the Messenger.  If a Bully insults you and rather then getting Angry, you think about it a minute and then say, “Wow, I never thought of it that way!  That makes sense!  Thanks, you’ve just helped me solve a Big Problem!” your Bully will probably be caught off guard.  

There are two other Initiations falling a few hours prior to the Mars-Venus Initiation, which Time-Coincidence will make them part of the Relationship Reset and color the next two years…

  • Varuna Initiating Aletheia in 2 Leo on 5 October (3am PDT).
  • Haumea Initiating Hopi in 24 Libra on 5 October (7am PDT).

These are six and five-year Cycles, respectively… 

  • The Aletheia-Varuna Cycle is literally about “The Truth shall set you Free” – it’s about the way Truth amps up your Energy level and your Effectiveness at meeting the World (and of course Collaborating with it). 
  • Leo 2 is about “An epidemic of mumps,” suggesting that Truth will spread through the population like a Virus, accompanied by Ego Deaths as it goes.  Most folks don’t do Ego Death as Gracefully as we’ve Learned to, so we can expect some grinding of teeth as we move through this.
  • The Hopi-Haumea Cycle is about Epiphanies of Respect for Entities whom you’ve never considered Respecting as Equals.  These sound like very positive Energies to paint onto the 3D World we’re Enduring.
  • Libra 24 is “A butterfly with a third wing on its left side,” or a Strengthening of our Intuitive Nature.  As we come to Respect Entities we’ve never considered Worthy, the impetus is likely to be sudden, possibly saving us from the embarrassment of having to explain why we haven’t been there before.  This will further the downfall of the now-so-obviously-Hollow Patriarchy.

These Cycles carry us across a major Threshold that would be useful to review.  From 1800 to 1980, the Saturn-Jupiter Initiations were in Earth Signs.  The Jupiter-Saturn Cycle governs the political economy of your Culture, and 1840-1980 approximates the Industrial Age.  From 2021 till 2160, Saturn-Jupiter Initiations will be in Air Signs – the Digital Age. 

Between 1980 and 2020, the Saturn-Jupiter Initiations stuttered…

  • 1980-2000 was the first of the Air-Sign Jupiter-Saturn Cycles and a preview of the Digital Age – 1980 when Bill Gates contracted with IBM to begin mass-producing the Personal Computer, and 2000 (almost to the day) of “Dot-Com Crash” fame. 
  • 2000-2020, home of the last Earth-Sign Cycle, has been the Debriefing for the Industrial Age.  Knowingly or not we’ve been Deciding which elements of the Industrial Era we want to carry with us into the Digital Age.  Patriarchy?  Nah.  Wage Slavery?  No thanks.  Competition?  Ummm, Collaboration is better.

Before 2021 and the full-blown Digital Age, we’ll have another Venus-Mars Cycle following the one we’re now beginning, when our Gender Balance and all it implies will Shift again.  The August 2019 Mars-Venus Initiation will be in 5 Virgo, “The opening of new levels of Consciousness.”

Back to the current Time Province, the Full Moon follows the current Mars-Venus Initiation by only a few hours, giving a big kick-start to this Community movement to the Left Coast.

Manifestation 6

October 1, 2017

We’ll call this post Manifestation 6 because five of the previous six posts have been about Manifestation (Surrendering … IX through Surrendering … Debriefing except Surrendering … XIII).  That series was called Surrendering to the Unknown because it was about the Chaos-Station/Pluto-Station Time Province.  We consider that Province to be finished.

Pluto and Chaos are still technically virtually Stationary – Chaos and Pluto are still in the same arcminutes as when they stood still, and while they’re beginning to accelerate, it’ll still be taking several days for them to move one arcminute.  For comparison, by the end of the year Chaos will be moving 8 arcminutes per week and Pluto 2 arcminutes per day.

We assume or aspire to Consciousness.  Once an astroevent is Complete or Exact, if we are Conscious that the Energy is occurring, it’s impact fades quickly.  So in this sense, in Linear Time, we consider the Station, or Strengthening of the impact of the planet’s Energy, to last only up until it’s Exact.  Once it’s started moving again, even though it’s speed is glacial, we’re now in a new Time/Energy Province.

We can, and usually do, drag Energy forward from one astroprovince to the next, by making Decisions to Defend ourself against our Vulnerability to the Energy of the old Province.

In general, dwarf planet Chaos is about that which lies beyond what we consider Possible.  The Universe is “infinite,” so it follows that our personal Limits of What’s Possible are infinitesimal by comparison.  A shortcut for Pluto is something like “that which we can’t Avoid” (though we can steer).  So a Pluto-Chaos Time Province is going to push us pretty hard up against our Limits, sort of like scraping our Identity across a cheese grater.

We get to Manifestation from having our “Face” grated simply because we’re all Learning entirely new processes for Manifestation.  Not just about the Demise of the Patriarchy and the rise of Yang Female Energy in its stead, but we now need to Learn to Manifest by Collaborating with All That Is rather than moving Dualities around a game board.  The new Time/Energy Province that we’ve entered, through October 5 (and beyond), is a Relationship Reset, and Relationship is just another Perspective on Manifestation (and vice versa of course).

Our new schedule is like this…

  • North Node Initiating Veritas at 22 Leo on 1 October (1am PDT).
  • Makemake Initiating Mercury at 4 Libra on 1 October (4pm PDT).
  • Orcus Initiating Atropos at 10 Virgo on 2 October (9am PDT).
  • Varuna Initiating Aletheia in 2 Leo on 5 October (3am PDT).
  • Haumea Initiating Hopi in 24 Libra on 5 October (7am PDT).
  • Mars Initiating Venus in 20 Virgo on 5 October (9:30 am PDT).
  • Full Moon in 13 Aries on 5 October (11:40 am PDT).

Let’s start with today’s and tomorrow’s Initiations before we move on to our Relationship Reset.  The Veritas-North Node Cycle is about facing the Truth of our Mission in the Lifetime, and 22 Leo is about “A carrier pigeon fulfilling its mission” which is a rather ironic “coincidence” since the North Node symbolizes our Mission.  Which makes us the Pigeon.  Pigeon applies to a Huper has many connotations, none of which is particularly complementary.  Victim isn’t far off. 

And yes, from the Perspective of our Ego and its Desires, we are indeed Victims of our Mission.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’d like to go out and play, but you’re stuck with this Mission, like it or not, aren’t you.”  We’ve often phrased our Mission as our “Deepest Desires.”  You wouldn’t think we’d be Victimized by that, but it’s a bit more Complex.  As Spock said, “Wanting feels better to [Hupers] than Having.”  Desire is a treadmill.  The Power to run the treadmill comes from our Deepest Desires. 

We can tread forever without ever getting to our Deepest Desire.  But as we tread, our (Ego’s) Desires get closer and closer to our Deepest (Soul’s) Desire.  Each step takes us halfway there, which means we get closer and closer without ever actually getting there.  In 3D.  It’s a Syntropic Perpetual Motion Machine.  It’s quite literally Sisyphean.

There is an asteroid Sisyphus, the largest of the known Earth-Crossing and potentially Earth-Colliding-With asteroids.  It’s about half the size of the asteroid that wiped out the Dinosaurs.  And it turns out to be in Virgo, Conjunct the budding Orcus-Atropos Initiation.  Ouch.  More on that in a minute.

But it’s not an ordinary “flying rat” that’s visiting us, it’s a Carrier Pigeon.  It Carries a Message, just as our Deepest Desire has a Message for our Ego, if we’re willing to step off the Treadmill to Receive it.

The information here is that whatever Project we’re stuck on is kind of a treadmill.  We’re on the right track, but there’s some aspect of the Project that’s being forever reduced by half, rather than converging to a point.  That’s like a T-Square, our Challenge to Mastery.  Our Expectations of Perfection or Completion are doomed to Frustration, because it’s not about Answers, it’s about Exploring the Edges and Subleties.  Are we trying to “Solve” one of our T-Squares, or even just one of our Squares (a less Complex Challenge-to-Mastery), through this stuck Project?

We recognize 22 Degrees as the nexus of heavy traffic we’ve been seeing for a long while now, and the North Node-Veritas Initiation fits right in, making a complete Grand Sextile with…

  • The 5 October Haumea-Hopi Initiation (Grokking “Respect for All Things” in a whole new way)
  • The busy Saturn-Ixion-Lilith Sellium (Our Hidden Genius Demands Sovereignty)
  • The South Node (Our Collective Past-Life Experience)
  • Eris (What We Haven’t Realized Yet)
  • Chaos (the “Impossible”)

And making “green lines” (Quincunx/Curiosity and Unx/Pattern-Breaker) to…

  • Nemesis (Ego Death)
  • Eurydike (Trust)

This bodes very well for the next 3 years and 8 months or so, the span of a Veritas-North Node Cycle.

Cause an Defect Full Moon II

August 6, 2017

At the Jupiter-Pluto Square, asteroid Aletheia (Truth) Opposes Pluto, creating a Jupiter T-Square, or a Challenge to Face the Truth about whatever it is you’ve been trying to sweep under the rug.  There are however three Bridges to mitigate the Challenge.  Most important, the Grace of Self-Love will eliminate a lot of Difficulty (asteroid Sappho makes a Trine Bridge across the T-Square)Curiosity will also be Powerful…

  • I Wonder what inhibits my Self-Sovereignty (Lilith makes a Quincunx Bridge)
  • I Wonder what Habits I can Change and how I might Change them (asteroid Atropos also makes a Quincunx Bridge)

It’s important to Remember that these are not questions for the Dualistic mind, they’re PIAVAs for the multidimensional Intuition, and must be followed by Changing the Subject.  If the mind tries to Answer them, you can write it down as a possibility, thank the mind for contributing, then Change the Subject more vigorously so you can forget what you PIAVAed.  If you can’t do that, your current thought Patterns will discard whatever your Intuition wants to contribute. 

An exception – often the mind will dismiss as politically unacceptable an immediate Intuition.  So it’s always useful to check to see if the Intuition you seek was just Rejected by the mind.  Still, write it down as a possibility, Change the Subject again, and once you’ve forgotten your PIAVA you can come back and Pay Attention to see if another Intuition popped up while you were washing dishes, or the TV program you used to Change the Subject just illuminated you, or if the possibilities you jotted down previously seem like paths worth pursuing.

Note that we use “mind” to refer to the “Left Brain” or intellectual, Logical, Dualistic, thinking mind.  Many traditions use “mind” in a larger sense, to include Intuition.  Of course dividing our Head into Left and Right “Brains” is a Dualism as well.  Different people have different sources for their Intuition – for some it’s the Heart, for others the Belly, or the Third Eye, or the Crown Chakra, and for you it could be the Faery who lives in the Salmonberry bush outside your kitchen window.  And from the Perspective of Energy Medicine, your thoughts don’t emanate from your Head at all, but from your Solar Plexus.

Let’s take an example.  Suppose you PIAVAI Wonder what inhibits my Self-Sovereignty” and the thought “My Spouse” or “My boss immediately pops up.  Well, even if that’s actually an Intuition (ie, that thought had never occurred to you before), it’s not the Intuition you seek because it Gives Away your Power.  You Create your Reality, not your Spouse or your Boss.  (Of course if you’re Soulmates who aren’t fully Self-Loving, you’ll always Project onto one another the parts of yourselves that you don’t Love yet.)  Change the Subject, K?

If you’re unable to Change the Subject, you’re Obsessing, and you may need to PIAVA that you Learn not to Obsess.  Wouldn’t it be funny if your Obsessiveness Inhibited your Self-Sovereignty, or if it was a Pattern that you would want to Change.  Voila, an Intuition.

There is a third Quintile Bridge – to Asbolus, which symbolizes Intuition itself, reinforcing our need to invoke Intuition to meet the Challenge of Facing Up to the Truth about whatever it is we’ve been trying to Blame on the Cat.  Or at least to Wonder if we can Invite a deeper level of Intuition to arise more often, and if we can Invite the Filters embedded in our thought Patterns and Beliefs to block them less often.

The gold lines on the chart show a Mjölnir or Hammer of Thor, pointing to dwarf planet OR10 from the Jupiter-Aletheia Square.  Mjölnirs are about Lightning Insights and Epiphanies, in this case coming from all of the historical and Herstorical Vignettes we’ve been Experiencing.

The purple lines show a Quintile Yod – meaning Pay Attention to Learning This! – pointing to the North Node from Chiron (Healing) and Pluto (Trance Reformation), implying that we’ll be Learning a lot about our Mission in the Lifetime from all these Adventures.

Finally, the three heavy green lines show two interlocking Fingers of God or Yods (also collectively known as a Sextile Fez), pointing at Pluto and Asbolus.  That tells us that Trance Reformation (Pluto) and Intuition (Asbolus) should be primary objects of our Attention (the Yods), and that maintaining Curiosity and Eschewing Certainty about Trance Reformation and Intuition will help us short-circuit the Challenges we’re likely to Encounter around Conflicts between our Egoic Attachments to Limiting Beliefs on the one hand, and our Self-Love on the other (the Square from Atropos/Endings to Sappho/Self-Love).

The Aletheia-Jupiter Square is also Waning, and that Cycle began in December 2009 at 22 Aquarius, “A rug on the floor of a nursery allows children to play in comfort and warmth.”  So as we move into the Void phase of this Cycle then, we might Expect some Austerity.  But wait.  We roll our own, don’t we.

Astrology tells us where we’re likely to go if we follow our Fate.  But our Fate is bound up in our Unconscious Beliefs and the Archetypes to which we’ve been Hypnotized.  To break free of our Fate we need only bring these Beliefs and Archetypes into Consciousness where they can be Changed.  That’s the sense in which we are denizens of “Free Will.”

Astrology tells us about what’s going on in the Unconscious.  But the Unconscious is Non-Dual.  So Astrology tells us Dimensions – in this case our Degree of “Comfort and Warmth” (and by the way, Warm is Love and Cool is Fear, just as the Absence of Warmth is Coolth).  So, if we’re Conscious, we supply the Direction – more Comfort and Warmth, or less Comfort and Warmth.  Yes, we’re moving toward Sustenance, but that’s about Giving Up what is Unnecessary, not about Giving Up what we Enjoy.

By entering the Void phase, we know that, as far as Truth (Aletheia) and Expansion (Jupiter) go, we may no longer be able to “play in comfort and warmth.”  Ah, that’s the missing piece isn’t it.  As Jupiter-Pluto Asks us to Reform our Trances around the places where we’re Out of Truth, we’ll be Experiencing some Discomfort and Fear as we Adjust.

So we need a PIAVA that will let us Have our Pudding and Eat it too.  Maybe something like, “Ganeshi My Love, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Enjoying enough Comfort and Warmth while my Trances around my Relationship to Truth are being Reformed, that I’m not Tempted to Abandon my Genius Project.”

Orcus and Hopi I

May 18, 2017

Our next Adventure is the sequential Stations of dwarf planet Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) and asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things).  Both Stations occur just prior to 6am PST, Orcus on 21 May, and Hopi on 22 May.  This will be a particularly fascinating combination of Energies, because most of our Limiting Beliefs were founded by Oaths, Oaths always Power-Over one side or the other of some Duality, and Respect for All Things means the Absence of Judgment.

The result of the Merging of two such contrasting Energies will be laden with Paradox, and Paradox of the exact nature that Spiritual Progress is paved with.  Remember that limiting our Commitments as much as possible is a prerequisite to Yintegrity.  And to be Self-Sovereign, rather than Slaves to our Archetypes, we need to Renounce all of our Oaths.  Being thus Free, we’ll be able to follow our Instinct and Intuition without constraint.

You would think, for instance, that an Orcus-Hopi astroevent would simply be a great time to Swear to Respect All Things.  But that would Betray Respect for Ourself, as it would inhibit our Freedom to Follow our Instincts and Intuitions.  Paradox is not accessible by the logical mind. so we just have to Accept it as a Mystery.

Paradox, as we’ve said, is the realm of the Yin Gate Configuration, a Golden Rectangle bisected on the short side by a third Opposition.  By “coincidence,” there happen to be three Yin Gates in the Orcus and Hopi Station charts.  Here’s an example of one, in the Orcus Station chart…

The Orcus Station itself T-Squares (Mastery through Challenge) one axis of the Golden Rectangle (which is the blue box).  “Coincidentally,” the axis that it T-Squares is the axis between Lilith (Self-Sovereignty itself) on the right and a Conjunction of Ceres (Sustainability) and Mnemosyne (Memory) on the left.  The implication is that We Already Know How to Sustain Self-Sovereignty, all we have to do is Remember That We Know.

Another “coincidence” – one axis of each of the three Yin Gates is T-Squared by one of the Stationary planets.  Such redundancy convinces us that the Universe is serious about this message.

The Challenge is our accumulated Oaths, and the Archetypes we still cling too.  Remember that Karma is dead; our Karma does not CLING TO US, we CLING TO IT.  Are you about to do something that you’ve done before?  Do it differently.  I was about to go get a half-glass of Beer, so to break up the Pattern I’ll do a couple of pirouettes between here and refrigerator.  Not that a half-glass of Beer is a big Pattern of mine, but a trip to the refrigerator certainly is! 

Surprisingly and Remarkably, each pirouette produced a big surge of Joy.  I may adopt a new Pattern!  If you spot an old fart pirouetting down the road, say Hi.  Wait, that’s an Oath!  Revert!

The Opposition in the Yin Gate itself (the one in the center of the Golden Rectangle – I know, it’s both blue and Golden – blue because that’s how we draw Energy lines representing Grace, and Golden because the ratio of the sides is the Golden Ratio of Sacred Geometry fame) is between asteroid Veritas (Truth) and dwarf planet Hylonome (Letting Go of Archetypes) – yet another redundant repetition of our basic theme here, which is about Facing the Truth that Allowing ourself to be Directed by our Unconscious Patterns not only Inhibits our Spiritual Progress, it also generates a good deal of Self-SabotagePirouettes are in our Future whether by Oath or Instinct!

The other diagonal of this Golden Rectangle is an Opposition between asteroids Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) and Nemesis (Ego Death).  Lordy Lordy, another redundant repetition!  Well, most of us will have Ego invested in our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs – that’s how we get them to stick.  Of course we all want to be good little girls and boys, and if Granny told us over and over again that good little girls and boys don’t do that, then there you have it – Ego Investment.  

So you remember how to do Ego Death, right?  You reinterpret “I’d rather DIE” to actually be “I’D rather die,” and them you just let it happen.  Egos are like Moles (the ones in your yard) – if you ever do succeed in killing one, another one will pop up to replace it before you can say “Hooray, I’m Freee at Last!”   Chagrin (or Terror) over Ego Death is totally wasted; new Egos are a dime a dozen.  When someone tells you they gave up their Ego when they were Enlightened, that’s their Ego talking. 

You Embrace Confusion as the First Stage of Growth in Consciousness, which heralds less Slavery to Archetypes and less Self-Sabotage (and another sign of Ego Death).  You might be driving or walking a few blocks from home, and suddenly realize that you’re in a very different World, even while you know exactly where you are.  You might suddenly forget all your passwords, or your spouse’s name, because without warning you’ve regressed to age 6 or 12 or 32 or Atlantis or the time you met Genghis Khan, when the Steppes were in bloom.

As with Curiosity, you want to Break all Habits (Oaths!) to try to Understand.  Trying to Understand means you’re scrambling back to your Olde Ego, and losing all the benefits of Psychic and Spiritual Growth.  Confusion and Curiosity are Beautiful just as they are, they aren’t problems to be solved or reasons to exercise that big glucose-burner in your skull.  They’re glorious states to relax into.  They will take you to Heaven if you let them.

This is only one part of the Orcus-Station chart; we’ll take up other parts in the next installment.  For now, notice that the Orcus Station happens to be Conjunct asteroid Karma – yet one more confirmation of our basic theme of Liberation.  The Initiation of Karma by Orcus already occurred, in mid-November of last year, at 10 Virgo, “”Two heads looking out and beyond the shadows: The growth of true understanding, born out of the transcendence of duality even while immersed in the world of duality.” 

The Validations just keep on coming!  The Karma-Orcus Exposition (Retrograde Conjunction) occurred in early March, and the Confidence-Builder (final crossing) will happen on 30 May.  By then we should be feeling pretty good about how much Karmic baggage we’ve been putting out on the curb for recycling.

Blessing Full Moon Eclipse III

February 8, 2017

Now we get to the Juicy part, the Yin Gate.  The Full Moon bisects the long side of the Golden Rectangle, but the Yin Gate bisects the short side, giving us one of those Grand Crosses that we spoke of briefly earlier.  A Grand Cross works better than Garlic for repelling Vampires.  You’ve got four possibly-difficult planets in four Challenging Angles to one another, yet the result is that they Collaborate, because the Configuration fills the Circle and is In Balance.

Grand Crosses are either in Creative (Cardinal) or Stabilizing (Fixed) or Changeable (Mutable) Signs.  This one is in the Stabilizing Signs, which, since everything else is in high Flux, is very handy.  It should help Ground us.  In the Grand Cross we have…

  • The Moon in Leo, which will Support our Self-Loving Emotions, as long as we eschew Self-Criticism
  • The Sun in Aquarius, which will help us Build Community, as long as we eschew Idealism
  • The asteroids Sappho (Self-Love) and Klotho (the Raw Material for Creating a New Ego-Lifetime) in Scorpio, where they’ll be Diving Deep to make sure no Self-Abandoning or Self-Limiting Psychic Cysts remain
  • Our friend Sedna (Fear/Anger – !) and asteroid Aletheia (Truth) in Taurus, where they will help Ground us toward Walking in Beauty, as long as we eschew Oath-Making and Decision-Making

By bisecting the short sides of the Golden Rectangle, the Yin Gate sets up interlocking Fingers of God pointing to each end of the Sappho/Klotho-to-Sedna/Aletheia Opposition.  Meaning that we are being Asked to find some way to Balance a Rebirth into Self-Love on one hand with the Truth of our Unrecognized Fear and Anger in the other (and the exercise isn’t optional).  If that sounds Paradoxical, that’s because it is.  A Yin Gate is about Accepting Paradox as a normal part of Reality.

Which it is.  Reality is Infinite; our Either/or minds, not being able to grasp Infinity, prefer Limitation.  Our Emotional Bodies also often prefer Duality, in the form of For-or-Against postures.  We Want our Emotion-verbs to have objects – not “I’m Angry” but “I’m Angry At…” or “I’m Angry Because…”.  Of course we’d first like to shift out of Identification with our Emotions – “I Feel Anger” rather than “I Am Anger.”  

In Real Life “I Feel Anger” just means there’s an Energy Build-up in my Solar Plexus.  Usually, that is; our Energy Bodies are often twisted by our Programming.  While the Causes of an Energy Build-up in my Solar Plexus are Limited only by my Imagination, in Reality Energy isn’t Causal; It Is.  It just Is.  It doesn’t matter how it happened, only how we Respond to it.

If it’s Comfortable and Balanced by the Energy in your other Chakras, No Worries.  The more the merrier – as Daniel averred.  If it’s not Comfortable, we check our Safety.  Would our Current Ego Feel Safer if we Set a Boundary, or Fled, or Froze?  “Freezing” looks like Limiting our Vulnerability, maybe by shifting a conversation to the Weather, for instance.  

Then, once we’re Safe, if “Running our Energy” didn’t resolve it quickly, and if we couldn’t easily Tap it Out, or if it’s a recurring Pattern, we could Observe our Current Ego, to see if “We” are holding onto any Obsolete Limits.  We might be in the Habit of associating with people who don’t Support us, because of our Fear of Abandonment.  We might be Over-Reacting to Comments or Actions that really don’t have anything to do with Us, from people who really do usually Support Us.

How to tell the difference, “Objectively”?  Maybe it’s Both.  (There’s actually no such thing as Objectivity, but sometimes it’s useful to Pretend that there is.)  We could look at what Comments or Actions seemed to Anger us.  Is there any sense in which We do that to anyone?  Often the Esoteric Purpose of a Rogue Emotion or Energy Vortex is to Illuminate an Unconscious Cyst we don’t otherwise see.

So, what became of our Fear versus Anger “contest” around Sedna?  Both Jupiter (Amplification) and Sedna were Stationary over the weekend.  Well, mostly Anger, though Fear and Grief are also Present.  

In the Sedna story (one of many) that I Resonate with, a father gives his daughter’s “hand” to a stranger, who turns out to be a Sorcerer.  Alarmed, the father “steals” her back, only to be pursued by the Sorcerer, shapeshifted into Power, and Angry.  The father is Terrified, and tries to throw his daughter from the canoe to save his own ass.  She clings to the side of the canoe, so he chops off her fingers, which become the Seals, food for the People.  But the People must make offerings to Sedna, now a Sea-Goddess, in order to apease her Anger.

So, mea culpa, I associated with the father’s Terror, and interpreted Sedna as Fear.  It’s easy to see how one could associate with the daughter’s – or even the sorcerer’s – Anger instead.  The daughter has been criminally Abandoned – but Abandonment is a Fear, though often Experienced as Anger.

Some (edited) excerpts…

“While I’d say Anger, I wonder how much of that is a reaction to Disbelief that what I thought was giving from love has been treated so shabbily.  So, moving from Fear of Betrayal and Abandonment to accepting that those have happened, but I survived.  So I’d say self-protective rage?  Or maybe the rage is self-righteous?  It’s a very fine line.  But I’d say the difference is seeing more clearly, taking responsibility for my part, and then moving on, without engaging and without plans to continue having those people in my life.”

“Fear is there, yes, but anger was prime the last 3 days.”

“I did experience Sedna as anger, or actually even contempt.  I worked with the contempt for awhile.  There was a panic attack or two, and more shifting and praying.  But then, yesterday, a release.  An enormous release of soul crushing rage-pain I had been carrying around with me for three years daily.  I keep checking in with myself amazed.  Am I finally free of this?  I feel.  Yes, it isn’t there.  Check again.  Still free.  And again.  It’s gone.  That thing that haunted me, that thing that was my dismemberment floating on an iceberg abandoned is gone.”

“Yes…anger on Saturday evening…irritable and overwhelmed.  Followed by waking on Sunday morning to sadness and then the fear kicked in and simmered along much of the day.”

“The weekend brought a lot of emotions up – and you’re right, primarily anger!  A lot of this I’d been carrying around in my sub conscious and was brought to the surface.  On Monday the main emotion was acceptance.  More than I’ve ever felt before.”

“Tremendous almost bottomless (nearly impersonal) fear.”

“Neither Fear nor Anger, but an incredibly deep revisiting of trauma experienced when I was very young.  I think there is no real gender-dependent reponse here, but response based on how much we have processed along the way.  A dear friend of mine, with whom we always swap the emotional intensity of these challenging times, also experienced a positive weekend.  So yeah, ongoing, remaining positive, and the weekend also brought lots of manifestation potential.”

“The men couldn’t handle our intensity — when we vigorously debated our positions, the guys walked out the door!”

I’d attribute the Profound Clearing that several folks reported, to the Yin Gate rather than to Sedna herself.  And Anger is an appropriate response to Fear, if we Choose to Fight rather than Flee or Freeze.  In the Patriarchy, the Male has the Power, so it’s he that’s in a position to be the Abandoner – till Terror causes his wits to Abandon him.  

I agree that it’s ultimately Gender-neutral, as anyone can exhibit behaviors and characteristics that in Patriarchal Cultures are Gender-dependent, and Profiling is always dangerous.  In Patriarchy Power-Dynamics, though, Gender is very significant, even if it’s not always determinate.

And yes, “response based on how much we have processed along the way” is relevant.  There does appear to be a Progression, where we become less Self-Sabotaging as we Track Down, Embrace and Let Go of our catalog of Karmic Archetypes, Patterns, Self-Sabotage, Chronic Bummers, Dank Undercurrents, and other Psychic Cysts.  But it’s definitely not Linear.  

I’d say that, if a person has Squares in their natality in 20-26 Degrees, and has sailed through the last several months unscathed, then Self-Congratulations are in order!  But it says little about Big Energies that may occur in the rest of the Degrees, between 27 and 19.  

Speaking astrologically, the Energies that we’ve been dealing with have been extraordinarily Positive.  Our Difficulty with them arises because it’s now so obvious that Clearing is no longer a Luxury.  Our Egos can no longer so easily duck and dodge.  Look at it this way…  

On 2/22/2022, Quaoar (our Survival Instinct) Initiates Pholus (Taking Full Responsibility), at 7:00 Capricorn,A veiled prophet speaks, seized by the Power of a God.”  2/22/2022 reduces to the Twelfth Harmonic – Pattern-Breaking.  We’re already well within this Energy, as Pholus is only one and a quarter Degrees from Quaoar.

Portal 24.11b

November 24, 2016

We painted a fairly complete summary of the overall Jupiter-Square-Pluto (Letting Go of Insecurity) chart in Everybody Survive? …

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/11/21/everybody-survive-2/

We mentioned the Grand Sextile that asteroid Eurydike (Trust) completes, which includes the ongoing Golden Rectangle with Ixion, Chaos, Haumea, and Uranus-Eris-Ceres, which we’ve been discussing for a while as Grace-Full Recovery of our Abandoned Genius.  And we mentioned the two ancillary T-Squares to Chiron (Self-Empathy for difficult Emotions) and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty).  

All together, this is a very positive combination of Ease (the Grand Sextile) and Motivation (the T-Squares).  Michael Roads would see it as a lovely Torsion between Structure and Drive, between Stability and Change, frequently flashing the Brilliant White of Balance.

The Jupiter-Pluto Square itself occurs at 16 of Libra and Capricorn, at about 3pm PST.  As we detailed in the previous post, this is about Letting Go of Insecurity.  Its several companions (Moon – Instinct, Venus – Values, and Lachesis – Timing of Ego Shifts) smear it across the following several days.  

The times given are the times when the astroevent is exact or complete – most of us are likely to feel the Energy start to abate about then.  Should be interesting relative to any Challenges around other people you’re hanging out with.  The durations in parens are a guess at how long ahead of time we’re likely to be Feeling the Energy – depending on your Sensitivity of course…

  • 24 November…
    • 3pm PST –
      • Waning Jupiter-Pluto Square, Asking us to Expand into Emptiness.  The Eurydike/Eurydice story is about failure to escape from Pluto’s Realm (the Other Side of the Veil) because of Lack of Trust; the suggestion here is that we Expand our Metaphysical Self to encompass Pluto and his Realm.  (a month)
      • Lachesis Inititates Venus at 16 Capricorn, “Recess“; beginning a 16-month Cycle where it’s Important that we Suspend our Values so they can reorganize themselves to make sense of our recent and forthcoming Experience with the Changes.  If you hear yourself starting to say “I’m [not] the kind or person who…” swallow it so you don’t stop yourself from Growing.  (a day)
    • 6-8pm PST – 
      • Moon Waning Square Lachesis, Voiding of a one-month Cycle that Initiated at 9 Capricorn on 4 November; the Angel that’s been with us packs up her Harp, getting ready to leave.  (3 hours)
      • Jupiter Initiates the Moon at 16 Libra; this is a one-month Cycle reflecting the Jupiter-Pluto Deconstruction.  If you’ve been Grasping things you’re afraid to Lose, it would be an excellent time to PIAVA that you keep their Essence or Better and have an Effortless Transition.  (3 hours)
      • Moon Squares Pluto; this is a Waning Square in a Cycle that began on 5 November at 16 Capricorn, and essentially means that Recess is over.  (3 hours)
  • 25 November…
    • 6am – Venus Waxing Squares Jupiter, moving a one-year Cycle into Full Visibility; the Cycle began in late August at 28 Virgo, “A bald man has seized Power.”  So, now we know it’s a wig.  (a day)
  • 26 November…
    • 5am – Pluto Initiates Lachesis at 16 Capricorn, Recess again; this starts a four-year Cycle where we’re expected to be wearing the right uniform.  Ouch.  (a week)
  • 28 November…
    • Lachesis Waxing Square Jupiter, bringing into Full View a six-year Cycle that began in May 2014 at 20 Cancer, “Venetian gondoliers giving a serenade,” where we gain Energy by breaking with tradition.  About that uniform.  (a week)

Another Intense Week II

November 15, 2016

Well, no sooner had I pushed the Publish button, the doorbell rang and this book was delivered.  I started reading and it so matched the probable unfolding of the week (and the month so far) that I had to quote it…

“I was just beginning to realize that the more I struggled to learn this universal truth, the more resistance I seemed to create.  The true story I have documented here came at one of my peaks of inner growth and change.  Although change and growth were exactly what I wanted, I was never able to reconcile them with the inner hurt and emotional pain that always accompanied them.  Like most people, I strenuously resisted my own growth.  Such inner conflict inevitably increases and prolongs the trauma.

“Much of my emotional confusion was caused by discovering aspects of myself that for a long time had been submerged in my psyche.  To the world, I presented myself as a practical man, very down-to-earth, strong, and capable, with just a touch of aggression.  I really thought this was me.  Then I made a disturbing inner discovery.  At the time of the events recounted in this book, I had just learned that this was my act, the mask I wore.”

–Michael Roads, Into a Timeless Realm, p.xii.

Then he talks about his Dream where he found a small gnome “with thin sticklike limbs and a withered body” hiding in a cabinet in a disused room…

” ‘Who are you?’ I asked.
He looked at me shyly.  ‘Don’t you know?’
‘Of course I don’t.  How could I?’
‘I am your self-love,’ he replied.
I woke up crying, an outburst of gut-wrenching tears shaking my whole body as I cried from the very depths of my Being.”
–p.xiv

We are of course still working with Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne – Uranus as the True Self, Eris as the Revelation of what’s been Denied, Ceres as Making Sustainably Fruitful, and Mnemosyne as Memories.  We’ve already mentioned Haumea-Sappho, Haumea as Rebirth, Sappho as Self-Love.  

Then there’s yesterday’s Full-Moon Yin Gate Mystery School and its focus of Acknowledging our Boundaries as adequate to enforce our Self-Sovereignty against our Fear and invoke the Emergence of our Self-Trust, as part of the massive thrust for each of us to Awaken our Hidden Genius, Hidden by the very Held Emotions that we’re confronting here.

In order, the Full-Moon Yin Gate Square to Pallas (Boundaries) with Lilith (Sovereignty) on the Sun and Sedna (Fear) on the Moon, with asteroid Eurydike (Trust) at the Vacancy that would complete the Grand Cross, while the Golden Rectangle of Ixion-Pholus (Responsibility to our Abandoned Genius) Opposite Chaos-Veritas (the Truth that we are brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous) and Haumea-Sappho Opposite Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne.

Oh, and Makemake (Manifestation) Initiates Hopi (Respect for All Things) on 23 November at 4 Libra, “Around a campfire a group of young people sit in spiritual communion” – actuallythey’re already marching in support of Respect for All People.

Psyche

November 4, 2016

Well, the plot thickens again.  After reading an article about how asteroid Psyche, the 16th asteroid discovered, was mostly metal but with water on it, I looked up the asteroid Psyche, to see what she was up to in our Lives.  Lo, she’s sitting right on Orcus and the North Node, and Opposing Neptune.

Psyche’s a very complex figure in Greek Mythology.  She supposedly represents the Heroine’s Journey, but remember, this is Greek Mythology, the story of how the Patriarchy replaces the Matriarchy, subjugating the Feminine.  In most versions of the Story it’s Cupid, or Eros, that Awakens her, as if she couldn’t Awaken on her own without some lad to do it for her.

Asteroid Cupido is just past Pallas (Boundaries), and asteroid Eros is moving towards Saturn, arriving around the 21st or so, a period we’ve already described as very busy.  Psyche’s Two-Spirit counterpart Sappho (Self-Love) crosses Haumea (Rebirth) next week.

In Latin, Psyche’s name is Anima, and in Jung’s view it’s Anima that needs to Awaken in a man’s psyche, not a woman’s.

Cupid was the son of Venus.  He met Psyche when his mom sent him to punish the young lass for being too cute.  No Golden Apples involved, as Psyche, allegedly not having yet been Awakened by Cupid, was too much of a space case, aka Innocent, or Obedient.  Well-behaved, by Patriarchy standards.  Venus of course symbolizes our Values, so here’s a reiteration of our earlier themes of the Life Force overcoming our Shoulds.

In the last few days, Orcus Initiated Psyche at 9 Virgo, a Degree that’s about Self-Expression.  Orcus symbolizes our Vows and their denunciation.  More Life Force overthrowing Moral – intellectual – Conclusions and their Emotional anchors.  The North Node-Psyche Initiation is at 20 Virgo, which is about Cognitive Dissonance.  The NN-Psyche Cycle is about Following our Joy; Cognitive Dissonance is about being Comfortable with Paradox.

“Nature will find its own way through our time of Change in a natural flow.  No intellects to mess it up!  We have a choice.  We can flow with Nature, and with the nature of Change, or we can resist.  It will all play out according to our own personal state of consciousness.

“Without mental or emotional attachments, we can move easily into the new – or by staying attached to our mental and emotional programs, we can stick with more-of-the-same, going nowhere.  The choice will be less intellectual than emotional.  Emotions make the final choices, while the intellect attempts to understand.  

“If we are emotionally free, we will find that our thoughts and actions easily define the newness we are expressing.  If we are emotionally fearful, we will find that we are unable to release the program of our past.  Choice made!”

-Michael Roads, Stepping… Between… Realities, pp.163-4

Rebirth of Genius

October 31, 2016

We’ve talked many times about our Adventures in 24 Degrees of various Signs, and they’re Lit Up Big Time again today, in addition to our Resistance to The Life Force.  Today we can summarize our 24-Degree Adventures as Rebirth of Genius, as like it or not, our Abandoned Genius is being Called Out.  It should be obvious that our AG is Life-Enhancing, and our Resistance to it is Anti-Life.  But of course our Resistance was Programmed in, and there’s a good chance it’s still  reinforced by our Cultures – or we Believe it does.

The Pattern is basically Positive, but it has its Challenges, especially now.  We’ve been ranting about Yintegrity since 2012, when “the 1960s” began returning in earnest, and we redoubled our efforts earlier this year, when Eris Initiated Uranus.  Lots of folks still interpret Eris as Dischord, but they’re missing the point.  Sure, the Golden Apple she threw into the party was Disruptive, but it was Disruptive solely because the Alpha Goddesses were in Denial about their Vanity and Competition.

Then Ceres came along to join them, demanding that we make our Yintegrity Permanent.  And now Mnemosyne is Dancing with the same Arian location, inviting us (or forcing us) to recall all the Episodes that have caused us to Suppress our Yintegrity in the first place.  

Mnemosyne crosses Eris again 2 November at noon PDT in 23 Aries, a Degree symbolizing flagrant Fecundity.

Then Haumea Opposed Uranus-Eris et al, inviting (or forcing) Rebirth – Asking us to start our Life over with a clean slate as much as we could, with more Yintegrity hanging out.  Of course that means Ego Death, as we have to Give Up all of the Psychic an Social props that were Foundational for our Olde Identity.  That Rebirth is basically still going on, and today we were fitted for diapers.

The asteroid Klotho was Initiated by Haumea today at 11am PDT, in 24 Libra, which Degree symbolizes a Butterfly with a third left wing.  Butterflies are symbols of Regeneration and Transformation anyway, and the third Left wing is an emphasis on the Feminine.  Of the three Fates, Klotho was the one who “cut the cloth,” or wove the tapestry that our Lifetime would Embody.

So if you happened to raise your arms today and felt a new wrap slipping around your shoulders, your Third Eye is working like a charm.  It’s not a coincidence that it’s our shoulders – Should-ers – that hold up our clothes – our Identity.  Probably wouldn’t hurt to strip nekkid, then hold up your arms again while you Imagine your new Cloak descending.

That’s literally “the half” of it, half of the Grace – see, already Challenging, and we’re talking about the Blessed part.

The Blessing is a Golden Rectangle, with Uranus-Eris et al and Haumea et al forming one of the two Oppositions.  The other is Ixion et al Opposing Chaos et al.  

The et al for Chaos (Unlimited Potential) is asteroid Veritas (Truth), which crossed Chaos for the second time on 26 October.  The et al for Ixion (our Abandoned Genius itself) is Pholus (Being Fully Responsible To).

In other words, the “other half” of the Grace is the Unlimited Potential that our Abandoned Genius is willing to deliver to our doorstep, if we’re willing to “swear an Oath” to Support It instead of Supporting our Olde Ego that has Suppressed It for so long.  More Ego Death, eh?  What Fun!

Okay, that’s the Good News; now what about the Bad News?  That’d be the actual Challenges.

I don’t think we have a name for this Configuration yet.  It deserves one.  Two third planets make T-Squares to each Opposition.  In this case the T-Squares are both on the same side of the long side of the Golden Rectangle.

We’ve talked about the Chiron T-Square, where Chiron Squares each end of the Chaos-Veritas Opposition to Ixion-Pholus.  The result is Despair, and Miracles when one is able to find a new Perspective that dissolves the apparent Dilemma.

The second T-Square focuses on Mars, which Squares both ends of the Opposition from Haumea et al to Uranus-Eris et al.  This one is more local in Time…

  • Mars Squared Uranus 28 October 9pm PDT
  • Mars Squared Eris 30 October 6am PDT
  • Mars Squares Haumea 31 October 2am PDT

We usually Experience Mars as being Energized, or Enervated if we’re in Resistance.

Remember all this is about Mastery through Challenge, not Challenge for the sake of hassle.

Do you have a Feeling yet for the nature of your Abandoned Genius?  If you could with a wave of your Magic Wand blow away All of your Limitations, what would be the Funnest thing you could think of to Do or Be?  What’s the first Obstacle that comes to mind when you think about Doing or Being that person?  Maybe it’s Fear of Being Judged, or something like that?

Following Eugene Gendlin, adding “…or something like that” is always a good idea, so you work with the Limitation rather than the wording.  When you named that vague Sense “Fear of Being Judged,” you had something in mind.  That’s what you want to work with.  You want to Change the Territory, not the Map.  You can redraw the Map later, once the Territory Changes.

“I Wonder what it would be like to Let Go of Fear of Being Judged.”

“Great Spirit, please Lovingly and Gently Liberate me from my Fear of Being Judged.”

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that my Fear of Being Judged melt in the Warm Embrace of my Self-Love.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you God/Goddess!  Show me.”

You might want to save that last one for 11 November, when Haumea Initiates Sappho (at 2am PST).

Use quite a bit of rehearsal when you do an important PIAVA.  Once you say “I Wonder what it would be like to Let Go of Fear of Being Judged,” you may get an immediate Insight that’s more specific or more accurate.  You may Realize for instance that you don’t Fear Being Judged, you Hate Being Judged.  Or maybe it’s not Judged so much as Judged Unfairly that you dislike.  Or maybe it’s really Fear of Being Abandoned or Outcast, because you Believe that Being Judged could lead to that.

Once you finish rehearsal and get a PIAVA that you’re satisfied with, don’t forget to Change the Subject.  You’re soliciting Big Changes here, so you probably don’t want to process more than one of your Limitations at once.  Give each PIAVA a day or two to gestate, then Pay Attention to anything unusual that occurred since you PIAVAed.  Part of your “…or something like that” may have arisen – then you can modify your PIAVA and go from there.  

If you Feel Changes, then you can move on to your next Limitation.  While there’s a peak in this Energy here, the Energy isn’t going away anytime soon.  Today there’s about a Degree and a half Separating Eris, Haumea, Ixion, and Chaos.  A year from now their Separation will be a Degree and a half.

That is, they’re 30 and 60 Degrees apart, but if we ignore their Signs and just look at their Degrees within their Signs, there’s only a Degree and a half of Separation.

If when you Pay Attention you don’t see anything relevant, then pick anything unusual or Intense, regardless of relevance, and PIAVA

“I Wonder how that is Related to my Fear of Being Judged, or Related to anything else that stops me from Following My Joy.”