Paranoid Thoughts II

A couple of quick notes about the previous post…

First, we mentioned “Shifting our Approach to Ego Death, toward Love and Excitement rather than Fear and Resistance” and some may have wondered how the devil we could be Excited and Loving about Ego Death.  I mean, we’d probably usually have to be awfully miserable to be Excited about Dying.  But an Ego Death is just a Molt. 

When a Crab wriggles out of its old shell, it’s so they can Grow.  Their old shell is rigid, and they can only get exactly as big as the shell before they need to trade it in for a bigger one.  Turns out the Crab is a fabulous metaphor for Ego Death, because once they wriggle out, their nascent new shell is soft, and they have to hide out till it hardens, in order to avoid being a tasty meal for someone else.

So instead of Resisting Ego Death beforehand, then afterwards wallowing in the residue of our Resistance (such as the repercussions of the Limiting Oaths we spoke of in the last post), we can Choose to Recognize that an Ego Death is on its way, and Focus our Attention on the Excitement we’ll feel when we’ve cast off that old Limiting Shell and are Free to Explore New Possibilities.

Of course many of us, much of the time, Are our Ego, so it’s not trivial to just step aside and say Okay, I’ll Die now.  In Buffalo Gals, Ursula talks about how “Coyote is always dying!”  Coyote is a clever one.  So what’s an easily-remembered trick for stepping outside of the Ego into the Ethers?  Michael Pollan talks about this quite a bit in his new book How to Change Your Mind, but I think just “Poor-Sweethearting” yourself is a lot quicker and easier.

“You Poor Sweetheart, are you feeling like you’d rather Die?”  Then of course you’d pause to see if the Bummed You had anything to say to the now-Empathic You.  And preferable Change the Subject to see what might happen next.  Then after a while you could see if any remnants of the Bummed You was still about, and if so Ask them, “What would your Next Life be like for you if it was Pure Heaven?”  Then the two of You could talk about it and come up with something Exciting that you could both Love.

We need to take one other Lesson from Mr. & Ms. Crab – hide out for a while after an Ego Death.  We’ll be very Vulnerable and Tender, a virtual Newborn, and we’ll need extra Care and Protection.  And we’re the best person to provide it, since even our Most Loved ones may be motivated to take advantage of our Vulnerability and Manipulate us (No Blame, we all do it).  Meditation, Introversion, Introspection.

Second, you may have experienced that (lack of) transition from Nessus (Abuse) to the Dan Scranton Channeling (Ascension) as a bit abrupt, so I wanted to be explicit that the more we can Clear our Abuse Traumas (which turns out to be the same as Clearing our Abuse Expectations), the more we can move our Life into Expectations of Grace. 

Who knows how or “by whom” it’s being or been engineered, but given recent astrological processes, it doesn’t seem like a coincidence that the Nessus Station precedes the “influx of energies that are coming our way… as part of the solstice” (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/06/01/solstice-i/).

After the Nessus Station (9 June) and before the Solstice (21 June 3am PDT), we have two more Stations, or rather, one more double Station, as Makemake Stands Still 16 June (7pm PDT at 3 Libra) and Neptune 18 June (4:30 pm at 17 Pisces).  When two Stations occur close together, it’s as though the two planets are Conjoining.  Since Neptune and Makemake Conjoin only every 51,000 years, this is a rare opportunity for us.

Neptune is about anything Bigger than we are, and especially everything Bigger than our Ego.  For instance, Group Souls, including Cultures, are prominent in the realm of Neptune, as are the notions of God and Goddess.

If you’ve ever noticed how you Act and Talk differently in the presence of one person, than you do in the presence of another, or how someone else does this, you’re looking at different Group Souls.  Of course in all probability Codependence (the disinclination to displease) will be involved, probably to a larger extent, but Group Souls are also active there – and we can productively examine our Codependence by looking at it through the window of Group Souls.  How does your Codependence differ when you’re with different people or different groups?

When in the Solstice I post Dan’s Arcturian friends speak about…

“If you can think more as a being in a collective, rather than as an individual, then you can band together and…”

They’re talking about our Neptunian Identities.  And when they finish the sentence with…

“…in your co-creative power, you can make broad and sweeping changes on planet Earth.

They’re talking about Makemake, as Makemake is all about Manifestation.

Neptune is now 167 Degrees ahead of Makemake.  That’s nine twentieths of the way ’round the Zodiacal loop.  The Twentieth Harmonic is the Aeon, signifying the sort of Wisdom that encompasses “longevity, history, and broad perspective” in all circumstances, to quote Angie.

New readers may not know that we use Angeles Arrien’s Tarot Handbook as our guide to the Angular Harmonics.

And the Ninth Harmonic is about Meditation, Introversion, and Introspection.  Sounds like we’re Converging toward…

“This is a shift in consciousness, which means nothing in the physical realm is going to be responsible for making it happen.  It is the true nature of consciousness to expand and evolve, and therefore, as you make it your mission not to do something in the physical realm, but instead consciously evolve, you are joining the team.  You have opportunities every single day.  They come to you in the choices that you are being given.

“And you can help yourselves and help the entire universe at the same time by making the choice that is more inclusive than exclusive.  You can help by processing your emotions.  You can help by making eye contact with someone else and helping that person understand that he or she matters.  You can be kind instead of being right.  You can forgive.  You can send transmissions of love and compassion.  You can speak your truth, be true to yourself, and love yourself no matter what you have done, or said, or thought.”

As Dan said in the previous post.

Intuitive Confidence III – Massive Blessing II

Here’s a Massive Self-Confidence Blessing for us, from Dr. Kim…

http://drkimderamo.com/three-reasons-people-dont-heal/

“What is it that blocks so many from healing?  There are three key factors keeping you stuck.

• “OUR WAY OF BEING.  Our state of being creates a chemical imprint.  When we live in fear and try to manage our illness from a state of fight or flight we tax our bodies with stress hormones.  When we try to “fix” the body with our mind, rather than surrendering to the heart, we prevent healing.  We must allow something new to come in, and ‘let go’ of trying to fix the problem so that it can resolve.

• “VICTIM MENTALITY.  Living in a state of mind where you feel as if life is happening to you.  Feeling like nothing you do is working or helping keeps you stuck on this pattern of seeing yourself and the world.  Until we resolve what is actually happening within us, we won’t be able to let go and allow something new to come in.

• “LIVING IN A SPACE OF ‘NOT GOOD ENOUGH.’  When we feel less about ourselves and focus our attention on others needs more than our own, we can’t heal.  When you feel that you are not enough or don’t matter, your body can’t get what it needs, so you block healing.”

Of course, Changing any of the three is the Lottery Prize, but we can start by Asking ourselves if any of the three is true for us; if so, what do we Feel about it; then Tapping it Out and Thetaing it.  And following that by PIAVAing an Improved Outcome. 

See…

• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 (Tapping)
• https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/ (Theta)
  
• https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/ (PIAVA)

if you aren’t familiar with any of those three.

Or, you could nose around on Dr. Kim’s website for a hundred other suggestions, including her small but Powerful book…

http://drkimderamo.com/videos/

And today’s message from Dan’s Arcturian chorus, as is often the case, isn’t far from the current theme either…

http://danielscranton.com/what-you-want-to-create-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“It is the perfect time for all of you to consider what experiences you want to have.  It is a time where the energies have never been more supportive of moving you to the reality you want to experience.  The reason why you need to keep checking in with yourselves, as far as what it is that you want to create, is because you are changing with the energies.  Your desires are shifting, and the thought forms that you have access to are also of a higher frequency.

“So now what you want for yourself, you also want for all others.  You can see yourself as a part of a bigger picture, a collective, a human race.  And your willingness to listen to those desires that you have within you, and feel for how they resonate with your ascension, is crucial in lining you up with the experiences that you want to have.  You are meant to let this universe inspire you to want to create.

“You are not just here to evolve, transcend the physical, and escape to another dimension.  You are also here as the pioneers, creating something brand new, something never before experienced.  And in order to do that, you must acknowledge your desires, and you must be willing to receive that which you are creating.  It is important for you to feel that you deserve that which you are creating so that you can experience it.

“It is through experience that you grow, and it is through experience that you become more specified in what you are creating next.  You are absolutely worthy of everything that you want to create for yourselves and for the rest of humanity, and this journey that you are on is supposed to be one of joy and exploration.  There is plenty of energy to go around for all to live in abundance and for all to experience everything that this universe has to offer and more.”

When we Live in Harmony with our True Self, as we’ve been Learning to do since “the End of Time as We Know It” in 2012 (ie, Uranus Square Pluto, enhanced by Eris’s 2016 Initiation of Uranus, which inspired the new 90-year Uranus-Eris Cycle with “Openness to Spiritual Energy“), Self-Confidence is never an issue; it doesn’t even come up.  If Narcissism is your True Self, then you have some good models in the public eye to emulate.  It behooves us to Imagine what it is about Weird and Contrary Manifestations that might be their Positive Psychic Purpose in our Planet’s Evolution and our own.

Of course the Exceptions, and they are very prominent Exceptions, include the places where we Surrender our Self-Sovereignty to Cultural or Familial Authority or the “successful” Bullying by someone else’s Intolerance, and where our Forbidden Genius has been “beaten” out of us in one way or another.  What a “Coincidence” that the Stellium between Ixion (our Forbidden Genius), Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) and Saturn (The Most Important Thing) isn’t that far from making another Twentieth-Harmonic Angle (see previous post) to the Chariklo Station.

Arguably the greatest Blessing here is the Opportunity to get Curious and Conscious about these Exceptions so we Accept the Opportunity to convert them from “Fate” to Choice.

Intuitive Confidence II – Massive Blessing!

The 17 September (3am PDT) Chariklo (Self-Confidence) Station contains a Blessing so strong that I don’t recall ever seeing one like it.  The Station makes only two within-three-Degrees-of-Sensitivity (“Orb” in astrospeak) Angles – both Trines (Great Grace), giving the chart only one Configuration, a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Grace).  The Grand Trine is so Blessed that, until we Realize that other people have their own Gifts and it’s not about the Ego, we usually Live it as Arrogance. 

Our respective Gifts complement one another, but when one person thinks their Gifts are the result of their own Superiority, the Collective soufflé is ruined.  In a Culture that Worships the Ego as the Supreme Beingness, this is a fatal self-inflicted wound, as the state of the World demonstrates.

So keep an eye on the Narcissists if you know any (!), they’re likely to be Over-the-Top.  I think one already is, thanks to Chuck and Nancy – the Chariklo Self-Confidence Energy will be strong for at least a week prior to the Station, longer if someone is more Sensitive to it, such as someone who is already a Narcissupremacist.  Look out for sudden reversions to Mean afterward, when the Energy starts to fade.

The Grand Trine is the big blue triangle.  The orange wedge (Quintile Yod), though simultaneous, is otherwise unrelated to the Chariklo Station, unless you want to tune in to the Twentieth Harmonic.  The Moon-North Node Focus of the Quintile Yod is eighteen Degrees (one twentieth of the Zodiacal loop) from the Mercury-Mars-Orcus corner of the Grand Trine.  Which makes it even more interesting.  The Twentieth Harmonic is The Aeon, or a Time period of long but unspecified extent and…

“The principle of good judgment that is utilized in both personal and professional situations…  All perceptions come from our ability to look at the whole and… to consider longevity, history, and broad perspective…  Our creative power to give birth to new forms…  Wisdom comes from experience and is not randomly spoken…  The Last Judgment is faced in all the daily judgments we make of ourselves and others…  Reminds us to look at the history we have shared and to forgive ourselves and others for the judgments we are making about what we are doing or not doing in our lives…  Inspired vision.”  –Angeles Arrien, The Tarot Handbook, pp.95-96).

No wonder our favorite Narcissist seems to be suddenly making good decisions.  Bodes ill for the hangover though, unfortunately.

So lets look at the components of the Grand Trine and the Q-Yod…

A Chariklo-Station by itself implies a Crisis of Self-Confidence, which we may receive as Enhanced Confidence, or an Exacerbation of existing Self-Doubt.  In the latter case you can consider it a “Healing Crisis” (when an affliction gets temporarily worse just before its Demise), particularly if you are Alert enough to notice what Triggers your Self-Doubt, and Recognize that it’s a form of Anxiety. 

Anxiety is an Emotion that makes us probably even more vulnerable to “Transitiveness” than other Emotions do.  A Verb that takes an Object is called a “Transitive” Verb.  In the sentence “Donald fired Jim,” Donald is the Subject and Jim is the Object of the Verb “fired.”  In the sentence “I’m Anxious about such-and-such,” the prepositional phrase “about such-and-such” is the Object of the Verb Anxious.  Well, there’s news.  Emotions are Intransitive.  They don’t take Objects.

I’m Angry at Fred” is a bullshit sentence.  What’s really going on is that we’re Angry, and Fred happens to be in the line of fire.  We have no idea what the original source of our Emotions is.  In fact, there’s an excellent chance that they aren’t even “our” Emotions at all.  Like thoughts, Emotions float around like clouds or Viruses, and easily latched onto.  Fred might remind us of the guy who Abandoned us when we had the Plague in the Middle Ages, and Abandonment may be what Triggers our Anger.  Fred is an innocent by-stander.

It behooves us much to view all Emotions this way.  “I’m Anxious about the Future, now that I’ve been told that the World is supposed to end on 23 September.”  More Bullshit.  Our Anxiety is either pre-existing and Karmic, or Impersonal and just passing by, probably both.  In this Culture, you won’t get much support for Receiving Emotions this way, but if you want to reach for Neutrality, you’d probably be hard-pressed to find a faster route.

The other corners of the Chariklo-Station Grand Trine are Moira, which symbolizes the Duality Fate and Choice (Your Choice), and a Stellium formed by Mercury (Mind), Mars (Action), and Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking).  Wow, this is almost Biblical or Trumpian in terms of being “The Greatest Opportunity Ever” or the like.  Here’s what this Grand Trine can show us…

• The Realization that Patterns which we’ve been regarding as “Just the Way It Is” (Moira as Fate), are actually the result of our Limiting Beliefs (Mercury-Mars-Orcus as Awareness/Mercury that we’ve been Victimized/Mars by Oaths we made Long Ago and Far Away/Orcus that we really don’t need any more).  This Realization has the potential to open us up to having Confidence (Chariklo) that we can do things that we’ve always envied other people for doing so apparently effortlessly.

• Notice that these could be “Unconscious Denial,” where we had no idea that Reality could be otherwise than Limited as we had supposed!
  

• These Realizations are the sort that can Expand our Consciousness and our Horizons greatly.

• Since it’s a Grand Trine, we could Experience Breakthroughs in Efforting, as what was previously very difficult suddenly becomes very Easy.  That is, we could suddenly discover we have Talents we didn’t know we had, which can boost our Self-Confidence.  If this happens, Look to see how Changes in your own Beliefs are involved.  If you can make this a Breakthrough in Consciousness as well as a Breakthrough in Efforting, you’ll be miles ahead.

• Your Self-Confidence could be Challenged, as the Unconscious tries to show you how you are Sabotaging yourself.  If Self-Doubt arises, or you know someone who is “shaking your Confidence daily,” or meet someone who’d like to try doing that, this represents a fabulous Opportunity to Open up to the Realization that you have Choice in the matter.

• In a situation where a Narcissist is handed a Blessing and their Ego eats it without Sharing, the part about using the Blessing to gain Consciousness becomes even more Important than it is Unlikely.  Even if the Narcissist simply lacks the necessary Skills to gain Consciousness, we can always Open to the Possibility of Evolution.  It’s been shown many times that even in biology rapid and even instantaneous Evolution occurs.
  

• This very Station may be what the Evolution of the US is all about.  The US is also an intransigent Narcissist, and perhaps what we’ll see this weekend is the Realization, by the US as a whole, that the Antichrist is just a Mirror for their own Limitations.  Maybe St. Louis will bring us a Kent State Moment.

• Jose could also create some additional Consciousness in Climate Deniers if it comes ashore, maybe in the Capitol area, where Irma missed.

The Moon-North Node Quintile Yod (which of course is about Learning and Teaching) says that we’re being Educated about our Instincts for Self-Improvement, not in anyone else’s terms, but in terms of our own Mission in the Lifetime.  Grokking our Life Mission is always difficult because it’s Multifarious and Unitary, which means that every time we try to approach it with the mind, we freeze it into Duality and hence we turn Retrograde.  We interpret the Moon as our Instincts, so we may be Semiconsciously Making new Oaths which Create Patterns that facilitate increased Conscious or Unconscious Attention to our Mission.  Yes, that could Create more Limiting Beliefs, but they may be an improvement over our previous Beliefs.

The base of the Moon-North Node Quintile Yod is the Waxing Quintile from Chiron back to Pluto.  This Chiron-Pluto Cycle, recall, is about the “Flag turning into an Eagle turning into a Rooster Saluting the Dawn,” which suggests that the Learning may be larger than Personal.  The Dance between Chiron (Letting Go of Pain through Empathy) and Pluto (Formation of a New Trance) is about “going meta” in our Personal and Planetary Evolution.  To “go meta” means to step up to a larger Perspective, as Angie Arrien’s description of the Twentieth Harmonic at the beginning of this post suggested.

We can Apply what we Learned to the content of our Anxieties on a case-by-case basis; for instance I might be able to facilitate Healing of a sore throat by Tapping or PIAVAing or Thetaing it.  But we make our Evolution exponential when we “go meta” and realize that we can Theta our Anxiety itself instead of, or in addition to, Thetaing an erroneously-Transitive Object of our Anxiety.  What a Leap this Massive Blessing would Bless us with if we really Realize that our thoughts and our Emotions are not our own, but just visiting Entities like Eeyore and Tigger and Piglet and Pooh and Gopher (apologies to British readers) and Wiley Coyote and Taz…

“This is the time of the great remembering.  When we remember our roots and that we are part of nature, life becomes more peaceful and compassionate.  Through many of us ‘mass remembering’ this, we will create a peaceful, positive, and abundant world and a permanent sustainable culture, a Permaculture, across the world.” –Robin Clafyield, “Pioneers of Permaculture,” in Permaculture North America #4, Spring 2017.

Nessus Three

Mimetite, another compelling toxin – Lead Arsenate Chloride.  It’s usually safer to make a tincture with toxic Crystals and Minerals – put the Crystal in a glass bowl inside of a larger bowl, and add Water to the larger bowl so no Water gets into the smaller bowl and touches the Crystal.  Leave it in the Sunlight or Moonlight for a couple of days, then use the Water as you would a Safer Stone.  Or, just Meditate on the picture.  Mimetite helps us come back to ourSelf and our True Purpose.

  Ω    Ω    Ω    Ω    Ω 

Nessus is no longer Stationary, and no longer in the first few Degrees of Pisces, so if echos of Abuse of any kind assault us now, they should be easier to Let Go than might otherwise be the case.  Nevertheless, there is no shortage of PowerUnder in the Patriarchal World (we’re not implying that Ladies can’t do PowerOver), and since the Emotional scars from Abuse can light up at any time, and spontaneously, it never hurts to know the signs so we can increase our chances of Empathizing with our historical Self.  And Nessus will be back in the most Vulnerable Degrees of Pisces in the second half of 2015.  So it’s worth a few more words.

And one sign we forgot to mention in Nessus Two is “I’d rather Die than go through that again!”  At the moment Nessus is in the second Duad (two and a half Degrees) of Pisces, so that Emotion is less likely to arise, than when it’s in the first Duad.  But if and when it does ever arise for you, the key thing to remember is that you’re probably putting the emphasis on the wrong place.  It’s not

“I’d rather Die than go through that again!”

it’s

“I’d rather Die than go through that again!”

because this Emotion arises at the quintessential moment of Ego Death.  And if you can succeed in making that shift in emphasis while you’re Feeling it, it’s jumping-up-and-down YOO HOO! Celebration time, because you’ll only have to make that shift once!!

Of course, the difficult part is having the Presence to step outside of that Feeling once you’re in it, because you aren’t home, you’ve been replaced by your historical/Karmic Self.  But, once you do bridge that gap between then and now, and can make that shift from Die to I, that’s YOO HOO time!

The other thing we didn’t mention in Nessus Two, is Chiron.  We’re talking about transcending Discouragement and Despair and moving into the Miracle of Rebirth instead, and that’s Chiron’s middle name.

Chiron (orbit 50 years) is at a Waxing Duodecile to Nessus’s (orbit 120 years) Station – in the Twentieth Harmonic.

The Twentieth Harmonic (18 Degrees) is the Aeon, or the principle and Wisdom of a Broad Perspective, particularly with regard to Time; the Power to give birth to new Forms; and the integration of the various segments of our Lives which are usually separate.  Most of the multiples of 18 Degrees are absorbed by the Tenth, Fifth, and Fourth Harmonic (and Second).  The exceptions are the Triduodecile (54 Degrees), Sepduodecile (126 Degrees), and Ennea- or Nonaduodecile (162 degrees).

The current Chiron-Nessus Cycle began January 10, 2006 in 3 Aquarius, “A deserter from the Navy: The individual’s self-realization through a crucial repudiation of a collective status which has become unbearable.”  The subtext is Rudhyar’s, and unusual; Rudhyar is usually more supportive of the status quo and Community standards than he is of Liberation of the individual.

But the idea of Abandoning a prior Commitment – the Commitment we made to PowerUnder in order to secure our own relative Safety in earlier  trying circumstances – is completely appropriate!  So we can consider the next several weeks to be a particularly fabulous time to Let Go of our PowerUnder Programming.

The major impact of a Station usually precedes the Station, but this Nessus Station, and its simultaneous Initiation of Atropos, is close enough to be considered an important part of the June 2 Full Moon chart, giving it (partial) Sovereignty over the several weeks following the Full Moon.  The Chiron-Nessus Waxing Duodecile is exact on June 6.

That immediately sounds scary to me, as it would seem to expose us to extreme Vulnerability.  Yet wouldn’t it be great to be out from under the Limiting Beliefs that have separated us from our Dreams?  So we probably want to Pray or Intend or Ask or Vizualise or Imagine Feeling or Affirm or Command or Expand Into (or any other variation of PIAVA) Safety and Grace as we make the Transition.  And Tap Out any real Fear that does arise.  It’s actually completely possible to graduate from PowerUnder into PowerWith.  Once we leave our own PowerUnder, the Bullies lose their Magnetic Attraction to us.