Fearbruary IV

By now we’re bearing down hard on Fearbruary’s namesake, dwarf planet Sedna, which is about Converting Fear to Power. We’ve been reminding that Fear plus Breathing equals Excitement, Fear plus Tapping equals Grounding and Presence (which is intimidating to would-be antagonists), and Fear plus Kegels equals Power. In addition to a hefty dose of Terror, the Sedna story also contains strong elements of Anger and Competition.

I was into my forties before I realized that Anger was my Habitual Reaction to Fear. Useful when it’s a Fight you can Win, but when Flight or Freeze is Safer, let alone Negotiate, not so much. All Karma is a Powerful Skill, but only when we can Choose to use it when appropriate and not use it when it ain’t. If Karma is a knee-jerk Reaction, it’ll get us in trouble more often than not. We Heal that by getting Conscious about it.

Sedna is at its Strongest (Stationary) as we come up to 1pm PST 8 February, in 28 Taurus. The chart is pretty benign…

The basic Configuration is a “Square Fez with a Chinstrap” – a red-sided trapezoid with a fifth planet at the midpoint of the base. The Chinstrap – dwarf planet Ceres (Sustainability and Sustenance), is where the Power emerges. The two naked Squares (red lines) are where potential Challenges will be spawned – Sedna (Fear) to asteroid Karma (Karma) or Fear about Letting Go of What We Know Best (our Karma), and Pluto (TranceFormation) to dwarf planet Haumea (Rebirth) or Failing to Discern the Difference between Physical Death from Ego Death.

If we could train ourself to instantly Discern an Ego Death from a Threat of Physical Death, and Realize that Resistance is Futile when it comes to Letting Go of the Known (it’s inevitable, and it’ll probably be harder later), our Lives would be so much more Sustainable (the chinstrap), wouldn’t they. So we could Pray for Physical Safety, Pretend we’re Acting in a Play, Enjoy the Drama from the Perspective of the audience, and make the most out of these Opportunities to Practice these two Cosmic Skills (Ego Death and Letting Go of Karma). Letting Go of Karma usually requires an Ego Death anyway, so this is really an Amazing Opportunity.

Note: If you use a Theta Prayer, you can check to see if your prayer will work, modify it and check again, iterating as many times as necessary, till you find just the right Prayer to give you in-the-Gut Confidence in your Safety.

But a Square Fez offers an Alternative to its Challenges, namely its Diagonals (the green lines, which are “Quincunxes,” or 5 Signs long). Notice that each Square is simultaneously in two Tricolors (a triangle made up of a red Square, a green Quincunx, and either a Trine or a Sextile – a long or short blue line). A Tricolor allows one to Liberate the Grace in the blue lines by Embracing the Permanent Curiosity in the green line, which can Resolve the Challenge in the red line.

By Permanent Curiosity we mean Avoiding Trying to Figure It Out – Recognizing that Confusion is one of our most Valuable Emotions and not an invitation to “Left-Brain” Research and Analysis. If we can stay Present with the Confusion Emotion and Learn to Celebrate it, it will lead us to much more Powerful places. Someone once said (Einstein? Maybe) that “We can’t Solve a Problem using the same Thinking that postulated the Problem.” Confusion, if you can Embrace it as the Emotion that it is, will open your Intuition to a kind of Thinking that will Solve the Problem, or more likely, Perspectives that will Reframe the Problem into Opportunities.

A Quincunx is a miniature Mystery School, like a Zen Koan or a piece of a Yin Gate, a Portal to the next step in our Evolution. When you try to contemplate the sound of one hand clapping, for instance, if you take the effort seriously, you’ll be Expanding and Reframing your notions of Sound, of Hands, of Honoring, of Action, and who knows what else, and you might even discover why Beatniks used to “clap” by snapping their fingers.

The Major Tricolors (Square-Quincunx-Trine), like…

Pluto-Square-Haumea-Quincunx-Sedna-Trine-Pluto or TranceFormation Challenging Rebirth which is Curious about Fear and Power and how it might make TranceFormation Effortless,

and Sedna-Square-Karma-Quincunx-Pluto-Trine-Sedna,

…lead to Dumb-Luck Blessings that are typical of Trines. The Minor Tricolors (Square-Quincunx-Sextile), like…

Haumea-Square-Pluto-Quincunx-Karma-Sextile-Haumea or Rebirth making TranceFormation difficult while TranceFormation is in Awe of Inertia, and if we Step into it we can sort of see how Inertia facilitates Rebirth,

and Karma-Square-Sedna-Quincunx-Haumea-Sextile-Karma,

…lead to greater Engagement and probably more Wisdom, as a Sextile doesn’t unlock its Grace till we take the First Step, Participating instead of just Observing. Notice that we’re just following different paths around the lines inside the twelve-sided circle. Each path offers a different Curriculum for us, and if we have the time, we could maximize this Opportunity by following them all. Eventually we’ll end up at Ceres, the chinstrap, and make our Life more Sustainable. We’d just be adding -Sextile-Ceres to the end of each Major Tricolor, and -Quincunx-Ceres to the end of each Minor Tricolor.

So the keys to the Tricolors are Haumea-Quincunx-Sedna, Karma-Quincunx-Pluto, Pluto-Quincunx-Karma, and Sedna-Quincunx-Haumea. And then, if we Chose the more Rewarding but more Effortful Minor Tricolors, we’ll have to add Haumea-Quincunx-Ceres and Karma-Quincunx-Ceres in order to “Cross Go” and Earn our Sustainability Merit Badge (if you haven’t Learned to Fully and Lovingly Embrace All of your Emotions yet, you may not Realize that Earth is just a Very Deep board game). Let’s take an example, say, Haumea-Quincunx-Sedna.

So we have a Koan about the Relationship between Rebirth and Fear/Power. (It might help to remember what Artemisia said about Power in The Findhorn Garden.) Certainly we Fear Rebirth. Our Ego is probably very Attached to our Toys and Colleagues in the Current Incarnation, and loathe to give them up. Those are Intellectualizations, and the Intellect doesn’t have the Power to Evolve us, because it’s basically a Logic machine. Give it some rules and some starting conditions, and it can dummy up a pretty fair simulation. But where is the Evolution in that? We’re just rearranging the deckchairs in our Existing Concept Set.

How might there be Power in Rebirth? How might it Feel to be Conscious of all of our Parallel Lives? Now we’re starting to get into some Koan-like Questions, which may Open us to new Intuitions that Expand our Concept Set. “How might it Feel…” is particularly Open-Ended. If you don’t just find the list of Emotions in the back of your Alexanders book and highlight a few, but Open your Emotional Body to the actual Experience, what might happen? You probably Relive some part of your Past every day. Can you be there in the Cafeteria Line, and also Be Here Now? It might be more inviting to Remember what it was like to Make Love with your All-Time Favorite Lover and also Be Here Now.

Does that feel like fuses blowing in your head? That might be a good sign. One – just One – part of what’s involved with actual Permanent Curiosity (aka Awe or Wonder, but not Wondering about, Wondering at instead), is that we have to Conceive of more Dimensions than we’re used to working with, and different Rules. Since the Universe is Both/And, what is a Contradiction to the Intellect is a Paradox to our Curiosity. Do we even know what a Paradox is, or is it just something unexplainable? It should be something that defies our Concepts of Reality, something that forces us to Choose between what we See and what we Know, or somehow Embrace them both.

A number of the folks in the Antichrist’s Cult may be doing that now, Knowing that just a month ago they were Legends in their Own Minds, but Seeing that now they’re Criminals. Many may Choose to be Martyrs, where both Stories can seem to be True, rather than Expanding their Concept Set to include the possibility that not everyone appreciates White Supremacy, or Expanding their Concept Set to include the possibility that Other People may actually have a right to Exist. But again, these are Intellectualizations. We can’t Predict how any given person will Expand their Consciousness if and when they do, because they’re an Organism much more Complex and Multidimensional than our Observing Mind.

The point is that we may be going through a similar process, where some of what we See and what we Know are splitting apart. If we find ourself trying to figure out how to put Humpty-Dumpty back together again, we may want to Change the Program, and begin to Appreciate Curiosity as the Blessing that it is, as it is, without having to Dissect it. You might also find yourself in a place where you’re being Reborn and your Trances Reformed and your Karma is backing off, you Feel Empowered and Delighted by the process, and it Feels Sustainable. More Power to you!

Guilt New Moon Growth

There are two Bonus Configurations in the 16 October 2020 New Moon chart. They overlap at asteroid Juno – Growth in Consciousness. Of course Growth in Consciousness always requires an Ego Death, so it’s seldom Fun, till we Learn to Recognize Ego Deaths and Celebrate them as the stepping stones on our Path to Wholeness and Yintegrity. Then, even if it’s a Bother, at least we know what we’re doing and why!

The two Configurations are a Grand Quintile – five planets more or less equally spaced around the Zodiac, which is sort of like being Gifted with an honorary Masters Degree in the ten interrelationships between the five planets. These planets evoke the Fifth Harmonic (360 Degrees divided by 5) or Quintile Angle, which is about Teaching and Learning. In the chart below it’s the lavender Pentagram.

And a new Configuration that lacks a name but we’ll call it a Reattunement, based not on its shape but its Function, which is to Bring Ourself Back into Balance. It’s four planets arranged so that between them there are two Octiles and two Trioctiles. Octiles – the Eighth Harmonic or 360 Degrees divided by 8 – are about Adjustment, and Trioctiles are about Adjustment with Love and Wisdom. Trioctiles combine the Eighth Harmonic with the Third (360 Degrees divided by 3), which is about Love with Wisdom. The Reattunement is the orange Rectangle in the chart below…

The corner they share is occupied by asteroid Juno, so the whole Complex is about our Growth in Consciousness. This basically Happens to us, so while we can certainly Help or even Lead the process – to the extent that we Identify with our Soul – more often we’ll just be white-knuckling the Changes in our Identity and Life that Happen. Trust me, they’re for the better, even if there’s a rough patch in the Transition. It’s just Turbulence, not the MCAS.

In the Reattunement, Uranus – symbolizing Our Soul – Adjusts our Comprehension of our Life Mission – as it Octiles the North Node. We’re beginning to get a rough idea of where we’re heading and why, which might help Explain why our Anxiety has decreased somewhat over the last week – at least, we Hope it has for you, as it has for others we know. Ego astrologers interpret Uranus as Disruption, and we regard it as Disrupting whatever is no longer in Alignment with our Soul’s Path in the Lifetime. So the more we Identify with what we’re being Asked to Surrender, the more Ego Death will be involved, and the rougher the Turbulence in our Life. No Blame or Shame, it’s just How We Grow. Some of our crutches are just Stickier than others, and its a Different Maze for each of us.

Meanwhile, our Growth in Consciousness helps us Grok our Held Emotions – Juno Octile South Node. With Retrograde Mercury crossing Juno, we may even Understand some of them, though Understanding is always Dangerous, because it’s not very Dimensional and it’s so Sticky. Our Concept Set is a Cage that entraps the Ego, and it takes a lot of Effort and Practice to Let Go of our Attachment to our Concept Set – and the Effort is Ongoing, it’s not like we Learn it and we’re Done. We Learn it and then for the next hundred Lifetimes we’re Surprised when You Mean It Applies to THAT too?

It’s what Castaneda called “Cognitive Dissonance,” or Learning to Hold and Live Out Contradicting Beliefs at the same time. There are no Contradictions in Real Life, because Real Life is Unitary and Multifarious, while Contradiction is a Political Construct in the mind of the Observer. We Accept our Fate and Exercise our Free Will simultaneously, for instance, because we Recognize that both are just Ideas, and don’t really have much Impact on Reality. The more we Identify with either or both of them, the more they Impact Our Perception of Reality, but compared to, say, Gravity, or Momentum, Ideas don’t carry much weight in Real Life.

Even though Gravity and Momentum are just Ideas too, and either could get us Dead if we Ignore them in the wrong circumstances. Like the Critters in Orwell’s Animal Farm, all Ideas are Equal, but some Ideas are more Equal than others. Yes, We Create Our Own Reality, but when Our Reality gets too far out of Alignment with the Current Global Trance, our Life gets more Difficult. That works both ways – when our Reality Lags the Current Trance, and when it Leads the Current Trance too much. Both/And always works better than Either/Or, but we can’t pull it off if we Identify with the Either or with the Or. You know why Angels can Fly, right?

The Trioctiles in the Reattunement are Juno to North Node – Our Growth in Consciousness Allowing us to better Grok our Mission in the Lifetime – and Uranus to South Node – Our Soul Intervening to Lighten our Ego Death Load – the more we Identify with Our Soul, the less we have to deal with Ego Death, because our Soul is Immortal, it’s “just Energy.” Remember what Einstein said, Energy is Matter multiplied by a Number approximately seven orders of magnitude bigger than the National Debt (multiply the National Debt by three then add seven zeros). Of course it depends on what units you’re using, but you get the Idea.

The parameters in our Honorary Masters Degree are Growth in Consciousness – asteroid Juno, Expansion of our Trance – Jupiter-Pluto, Our Degree of Victimhood – Chiron, Our Unconscious Beliefs – asteroid Vesta, and Our Collection of Concepts about Materiality – dwarf planet Altjira. These are pretty Heady Concepts, enough to qualify us to rewrite René Descartes’s Principles of Philosophy or Isaac Newton’s Mathematical Principles of Natural Philosophy, if we don’t get too far from the Current Trance.

Think about how each of the ten lines in the map below indicate a Relationship. For instance, do you feel like your Trance (how you interpret your Experience of Life) has Expanded lately? That is, have any of your Attitudes, toward things that are Important to you, Changed? Has your Anxiety Diminished, or Changed, about anything? Has this Changed any of your Unconscious Limiting Beliefs? I know, they’re Unconscious, but your Life mirrors them, usually through your Judgments. Are you Judging anything less harshly than you were a few weeks ago? These Changes might show up most vividly when you think about the Krapolavirus or the Election or Black Lives Matter or your Abundance or Lack thereof.

Review each of the five items and each of the ten lines. Has your Consciousness of Victimhood Grown? Where in your Life do you still not feel like you have Healthy Control? To what Degree do you feel like you’re a Victim of having Taken Material Form? Are you a Soul in a Body, or a Body with a Soul? Are you Conscious that it was a Choice? Do you have any Access to whoever you might have been before you made that Choice? Or was it someone else’s Choice? Do you Celebrate the Choice?