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21.5.16 Full Moon II

May 19, 2016

 

Our Chief Asteroid Officer points out that Astraea (the fifth asteroid discovered after Ceres, Pallas, Juno, and Vesta) completes the Grand Cross with the Full Moon.  Astraea is about Innocence, and she’s right at home in early Virgo.  

We can think of Virgoan innocence as “Who, me?” in the sense that when your best friend Lovingly accuses you of hiding behind a Mask (when you actually are), and you naturally and innocently reply “Who, me?”  Not that your friend would ever be dumb enough to try to label someone else’s Masks; it’s just a metaphor to explain Virgo’s function.  

Leo is where the Ego’s Self-Confidence peaks, Libra is where it meets Other, which means that all bets on Self-Confidence are up for grabs.  Virgo is in charge of the Transition.  If Virgo is the palm, Pisces is the back of the hand.  Aquarius is where the Ego’s Confidence in Community peaks, Aries is where it meets brand new territory so success will only follow from “Don’t-Know” mind.  Pisces is in charge of that Transition.

At the Full Moon we have dwarf planets Opposite one another that are both Stationary (Strong) early in this Virgo-Pisces Ego-Transition, from having a fair degree of Certainty and Comfort, to becoming a complete newbie again.  With Astraea asking, “Who, Me?”  Or as a reader says…

“Kaboom, JUST connected.  I’m wiggin’ out because I hold this perspective & perception that EVERYTHING IS A TRADE OFF.  OMG – THAT belief?  I was completely indoctrinated into THAT.  Hugo mungo either/or thinking.  I never saw the depth of this trade-off perspective and never connected it to The Grand Either/Or that permeates so much.  That they are one and the same.”

I could tell similar stories about my own Epiphanies, but this stuff moves so fast, and the nature of this Edge between Consciousness and the Unconscious is so ephemeral, that I can’t keep track from day to day of what my Psyche is doing.  I just know it’s moving through Heavy territory and making it’s own connections.  

How old was I when they had to sew my tongue back on because I bit it almost off jumping off a couch while horseplaying with my sibs?  Three?  Of course that wouldn’t have triggered my Abandonment because my father had to spend money he didn’t have.  And of course that wouldn’t have anything to do with my allergy to hospitals and my recent experience of them.  

Without knowing what but knowing it was Heavy, I used to literally paint that picture when I was in high school, the scene from the neighbor’s car, looking out over the river in the darkness.  I obviously wasn’t in my Body.  Shortly after that we moved to the downriver side of the hospital, and it took me a long time to figure out why in this picture I was looking down river.

Another reader, born during the height of the original Ouija-Board Pluto-Uranus Initiation, recommended Bill Plotkin’s Wild Mind to me.  Here are some excerpts about our Masks…

“The grave problem with having made such a pact in childhood is that, once adopted, it becomes a bedrock layer of our personalities.  Achieving liberation from our Loyal Soldier survival strategies is one of the most challenging and long-lasting tasks of the individuation process, requiring a good deal of courage, discernment, and endurance even into genuine adulthood and elderhood.” (p.133)

His pact, or Oath, is our response to our need to protect our child self from likely-fatal Abandonment by our Family or Community.  The dwarf planet Orcus, which symbolizes these Oaths, is Stationary only a few degrees from Astraea.  It’s handy, having Astraea’s Innocence there, allowing us more Empathy for the pickle that our historical tykes found themselves in.  That allows us to slap our forehead with an OMG, instead of the “How stupid can we be?” that we might otherwise greet ourself with while opening these doors.

The Pisces side of this equation features the dwarf planet OR10 – also Stationary – and the Centaur Nessus.  OR10 is about irruption of material from the Unconscious – including sudden Epiphanies.  Nessus is about Privilege and Abuse.  And all this is in the context of having Mars (Action, Anger) Oppose Vesta (Limiting Unconscious Beliefs) less than a Degree from the Full Moon axis.  All preparation for June’s Eris-Uranus (Embracing the Previously Denied) – the cosmic choreography is quite amazing.

Plotkin continues…

“Our juvenile survival strategies of self-diminishment form the core of our most self-defeating patterns: those that disparage our dreams, our potentials, and our healthy wildness, or that aggravate low self-esteem and troubles with intimacy.  And, most irksome, these strategies are often on autopilot, launched outside our awareness and without our consent or control.”

Conspiring to hold our Unique Genius in its Orphanage – or as we bring them into Consciousness, to Set it Free, as Ixion (Genius) Trines (Grace) Eris-Uranus.

More Masks from Plotkin (p.157)…

Not all of our Wounded Children are trying to help us survive.  Some are simply casualties of our other [Masks] or of the unkind actions of others.  These are our Outcasts, elements of our psyches we rejected in order to survive, in order to be accepted by others.

“These are the versions of ourselves of which we are ashamed – perhaps our gentleness or our fierceness, our sexuality, our anger or sadness, our fear or embarrassment, our love of dance or poetry, our joy or vivaciousness, or our need for touch or compassion.  Once we reject these Wounded Children and label them bad or worthless, they exist in a marginal, banished state within our psyches.  Nonetheless, we live every day with some awareness of their pain and heartache.

“For children, conscious self-rejection is less harmful than being rejected by others, even if it’s no less painful.  By restraining ourselves from acting in ways that lead to being shamed, we’re less likely to be abandoned.  The price we pay is self-shaming, resulting in Outcasts within us we’re not willing to love, who we’ve neglected and exiled.  

“Although our Outcasts persist as pockets of pain within us, they embody great gifts – strengths and sensibilities not deemed worthy by others in our early lives, but gifts we can reclaim when we’re psychologically ready to do so.  The reclamation process usually begins with grief.  We must mourn our psychological woundings by others, our consequent self-woundings, and the loss of joy, aliveness, and relationships that resulted from all our self-diminishments.”

And again (pp.186-7)…

“We’re all in recovery from Western civilization.  Sooner or later, we each must address the paramount addiction in the Western and Westernized worlds: our psychological dependence on the worldview and lifestyle of Western civilization itself.  The Western worldview says, in essence, that technological progress is the highest value, and that we were born to consume, to endlessly use and discard natural resources, other species, techno-gadgets, toys, and often, other people, especially if they’re poor or from the global South.

“It’s a world of commodities, not entities, of consumers, not human beings, and economic expansion is the primary measure of progress.  Profits are valued over people, money over meaning, our national entitlement over global peace and justice, ‘us’ over ‘them.’  This addiction to Western civilization – especially now that the Chinese, too, are hooked – is by far the most dangerous one in the world because of how rapidly and extensively it’s undermining the natural systems of the Earth.

“Addiction to Western civilization keeps us from seeing and feeling the staggering price all Earthly life pays for our consumer habit.  And it protects us from having to make any radical changes in lifestyle, or from having to grow up, leave the ‘home’ of our adolescent comforts, and embark on the hazardous journey of initiation that leads to an existence that’s life enhancing, meaningful. and fulfilling.”

Pp.208-210…

“The Shadow, one of the archetypes identified by psychologist Carl Jung, is composed of those elements of our own psyches that are unknown to us … the Shadow is not what we know about ourselves, don’t like, and keep hidden.  Rather, the Shadow is what is true about us that we don’t know – don’t know at all – and, if accused of it, would adamantly and sincerely deny.”

“Who, Me?”

“The purpose of the Shadow is to protect us from enacting personal characteristics that, if expressed, might land us in big trouble with others or ourselves.  We stuff these forbidden parts of ourselves in a corner of our psyches where we can’t find them, where we can ‘fail to notice’ them.”

“The Shadow is what our psyches repress (render unconscious), not what our Egos suppress (consciously hide from others). … This is difficult to accept and digest – that there are aspects or parts of ourselves we really don’t know and that are completely at odds with who we think we are.  

“Even when our other [Masks] act unconsciously (independently of our Egos), we know them by how they affect our lives, thoughts, and deeds.  Perhaps we don’t acknowledge them to others, but we do know them.  Not so for the elements of the Shadow.  The Shadow is always unconscious.”

Ah yes, dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sextile (Grace after we initiate) to Eris-Uranus.  Thank goodness there’s always More.

This Week (8-14 May)

May 12, 2016

On Monday 9 May (5am PDT) Jupiter turned Direct and started its final ascent into its 23-June Initiation of the North Node, which signifies a big emphasis on our Mission in the Lifetime, and in the process on our Deepest Desires.  Our Mission is larger by many orders of magnitude than our Intellect can grasp, so our Deepest Desires represent a peepshow of our Mission, presented to our Ego in a form it can understand.  As Consciousness grows, our Deepest Desires metamorphose into our Mission.

The Jupiter-North Node Initiation is about A Volcanic Eruption, so on some levels it could be a bigger event than our 9-June Eris-Uranus Initiation.  Or at least, a more Conscious event.  Eris-Uranus will blow the gaskets off of the Masks that we use to pretend that we have socially redeeming value in spite of our Original Sins – which of course are nothing but programmed Self-Judgments.  If we have any Masks left after 2012-15.  At the very least we have to get Honest with ourself about our Deepest Desires and their addictive qualities, even if they’re not ready to dance on the World Stage.  You could call them our Hungry Ghosts.  Addiction can prevent metamorphosis.

We didn’t mention in our New Moon post that the New Moon forms a Major Tricolor with Stationary Jupiter/North Node and Saturn: Jupiter/NN-Square-Saturn-Quincunx-NewMoon-Trine-Jupiter/NN.  Which is to say that you can effectively address any Conflicts over how to Both Expand and Focus by Wondering what’s being Reborn here.

On 13 May we have an interesting Conjunction between two asteroids, Aletheia and Veritas – respectively Greek and Latin for Truth.  The Conjunction is Unx (one Sign) from the asteroid Mnemosyne – Memory.  The Unx is about

  • Breaking Patterns,
  • Letting Go of Karma,
  • Changing Habits, and
  • Untangling ourself from Archetypes.  

So this week is likely to have a lot of information for us about how our June will unfold.  

Watch your Thoughts and Emotions closely.  We all have Patterns of quickly shifting our Attention away from issues we don’t like to contemplate.  Many of these Patterns operate below the level of Consciousness, but even some of those may surface here.  If you catch yourself shifting your Attention away from your Fears, after you do your Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade, stop and examine the Fear.  You may have access this week to its roots, and if you can pull out the roots, the weed can’t regrow, as of course it will if you just keep cutting it off at ground level.

Definitely Tap out the Fears you become Conscious of, but with a twist this week.  Instead of “Even though I’m afraid of that I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself,” use “Even though I don’t know why I’m afraid of that I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself.”  Put what you do know about the Fear in place of “that.”  Confusion is good, it’s the first stage of Growth.  Be Curious about it.

Jupiter will now cross for the third time the Pisces through Gemini Duads of Virgo – the last half of the Capricorn Decanate and the first half of the Taurus Decanate.  As Jupiter dismantles our Olde Ego (that’s what Virgo does for a Living), it goes through the process of

  1. Looking to see what’s socially unacceptable (Libra),
  2. Rooting out why we do that (Scorpio),
  3. Letting Go of that (Sagittarius),
  4. Replacing it with something more useful (Capricorn),
  5. Testing it to see how it flies socially (Aquarius),
  6. Rueing our Inadequacy (Pisces), 
  7. Surrendering Control (Aries),
  8. Observing what evolves (Taurus),
  9. Adapting it to our Liking (Gemini),
  10. Nurturing it (Cancer), and finally,
  11. Wearing it as our New Ego (Leo).

We’re reviewing stages 6 through 9 here.  Be Gentle with yourself.

Dragons, Centaurs, and Kings Oh My

April 17, 2016

Lovely sight out there, with the Fulling Moon kissing Jupiter.

A note on format – the unindented bold italic text is meant for everyone.  The indented normal text is meant for anyone who’s interested in more detail, and specifically for folks who know some astrology and/or who want to learn astrology.  And…

The yet-more indented italic text explains astrological terms and processes.

We don’t follow this format exclusively, but it’s sort of a goal.

We’re about three hours from the Moon crossing the near Midpoint between Jupiter and the North Node (2am 18 PDT April), and twelve hours from the Moon crossing the far Midpoint between Chiron and the South Node (11am PDT 18 April).  The Moon has been, and will be, within one Degree of Sensitivity from this complex between about 6pm PDT 17 April till about 5pm PDT 18 April, and within three Degrees of Sensitivity from around noon PDT 17 April till around 9pm PDT 18 April.  It’d be a useful time to measure your own Sensitivity.

So…what’s this all about?

The Nodes are often referred to as “The Dragon,” the North Node as the Dragon’s Head and the South Node as the Dragon’s Tail.  A Centaur is a planetoid chasing an irregular orbit between Jupiter and Neptune – Chiron is a Centaur.  Like the half-human-half-horse Greek Centaurs, the cosmic Centaurs and half comet and half asteroid.  Jupiter was the King of the Roman Gods.

“Sensitivity” is like “slop” – we don’t wait till an astrological event is Exact, we start feeling it when it’s still some distance away – three Degrees if we’re pretty Sensitive, one Degree even if we’re a Muggle.  Of course it could be a matter of education – even a Muggle experiences the astroevents, they just aren’t Conscious of how their emotions, thoughts, circumstances, and actions are related to what’s going on in the sky.

Midpoints are just Sensitive points halfway between two planets or other Heavenly Bodies.

The Moon triggers things that are thinking about happening.  The North Node represents our Deepest Desires and Mission in the Lifetime, while Jupiter symbolizes Expansion.  One way to interpret the South Node is that it stands for our Limiting Beliefs, probably adopted from “Past Lives.”  Maybe from Childhood, but Childhood Traumas are usually hangovers from Past Lives.  Chiron is trickier.  It represents Despair or Discouragement, but it’s “curable” through Empathy.  Empathy Heals, and when we Empathize with ourself, Despair Dissolves.

The Nodes are called the “Dragon” because, like their name-sake, they can breathe fire, and occasionally get hungry and fly around torching villages for the fun of it.  They kind of represent what we’re scared to face – we shy away from our Deepest Desires (North Node) because we feel Guilty about them, and we shy away from our Limiting Beliefs (South Node) because we don’t want to have to re-Experience the heavy Emotions that surround them.

So this is a very potent combination – feeling (Healable) Despair about our Limiting Beliefs while Conscious of the pull of our Deepest Desires and our Mission on the Planet.  If we’re lucky or Skillful, we break through the Despair and leap toward our Deepest Desires and Mission.  Mind is smaller than Mission, so most of us aren’t actually able to comprehend exactly what our Mission here is, why we came here.  Our Deepest Desires are a snapshot of our Mission – by following our Bliss we move toward our Mission.

Most of us probably feel good about the idea of “Mission,” unless we think of it as an unnecessary burden.  And most of us feel some degree of Guilt or other Hesitation about our Deepest Desires, because we think they’re Selfish, or somebody told us they were naughty.  That Guilt or Hesitation is a Mirror of our Limiting Beliefs.  We have to break through that to get closer to our Mission and to our Heart’s Desire.  

So this weekend, with a little self-Empathy (Honesty with ourself about what’s really going on) we get an Opportunity to break through our Limitations and soar toward What We Want out of Life.  Huzzah!!

All this happens between 11 and 26 (three Degrees of Sensitivity) or 13 and 24 (one Degree of Sensitivity) Degrees of Virgo (Moon-North Node-Jupiter) and Pisces (South Node-Chiron), so we’re mostly talking about the second Decanate of Virgo-Pisces, or the Capricorn Decanate (Practicality) of Virgo (Transformation) and the Cancer (Nurturing) Decanate of Pisces (Embracing Unfinished Emotions).  Whatever natal planets you have in these Degrees, or in the same span of Sagittarius or Gemini, will be lit up big-time this weekend.

A Decanate is a ten-Degree section of a Sign.  So for instance, the first Decanate of Virgo (Transformation) is the Virgo Decanate (Ego Death) of Virgo, the second is the Capricorn Decanate, and the third is the Taurus (Solidifying) Decanate.  So the Virgo Transformation process involves

  • Melting down the Ego we established in Leo (Ego Death, Virgo-Virgo),
  • Coming to understand what we have to Let Go of if we are to find a new Balance (getting Practical about it, Virgo-Capricorn), and
  • Settling into a new place of relative Stability (Virgo-Taurus) in order to prepare ourself to meet Other – Other People, and Not-Me in general – in Libra.  

We enter Virgo knowing Who We Are, and we leave Virgo knowing Who We Aren’t.

The Decanates follow the Qualities of each Sign – for instance, Virgo is an Earth Sign, so its three Decanades follow the three Earth Signs.  Pisces is a Water Sign, so its three Decanates chase Water around the Zodiac.

Here’s an excellent prediction about what might happen if we, collectively, don’t manage to be Honestly Loving with ourself soon…

https://sailingondreams.wordpress.com/2016/04/17/the-redeemer/

Could be a prediction for early June’s Initiation of Uranus (our Soul Self) by Eris (the Revelation of Denial).

Aim Higher

February 26, 2016

Step One: Focus on What you Want, not on What you don’t Want.  This step is critical, don’t skip it.

If that’s hard, start by finding something you can be Grateful for.  Running Water.  Hot Water.  Clean Water.  Enough Food, or even some Food.  A roof when it Rains.  A flush krapper.  A little less Pain than last week.  Make a short list of things you aren’t Anxious about.  The other shoulder doesn’t hurt.  Someone said a kind word to you last month.  You have a comfortable chair.  Anything will do.

Good start.  Now make a short list – several things – of what you Don’t Want.  Doesn’t matter if you’re already afflicted with it, or if it’s just threatening, or if you’re Anxious that it might threaten.  Give each of them a number, 1 to 10, 10 being “I’d Rather Die,” and 1 being “Oh Bother.”  Tap on each of them a couple times: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 if you need a review.  Then give them numbers again, 1 to 10.  Any reduction?  If not, circle that one, you’ll have to come back to it later.

Now make a short list of what you Do Want, several things.  They can be an inch away or Pie in the Sky, no matter.  Give them numbers, 1 to 10, 1 being “That’d be cool” and 10 being “I’ll Die without That!”  Make a short note about how you’ll Feel when you get each one.  In descending rank order (starting with your 10), for each one, take a minute and practice Feeling exactly that.

Step Two: Focus on What you Really Want.  Take your top Want and really Feel how it’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  Touch it.  Smell it.  Hear it.  Taste it.  Embrace it.  See it.  If your second Want is close to your top Want in number, do the same with it.

Step Three: What has Stopped you from Taking What you Really Want a long time ago?  Your underprivileged upbringing?  Guilt?  Your Significant Others?  Fear?  Your Belief that it’s happening to you?  Your Mother’s Ghost?  Do you Deserve it?  Are these reasons external to you, or internal?  Tap on a few of your Stops.  Bring them inside; if it’s a Bully that’s been Stopping you, recognize that it’s your Unwillingness to Confront, or your Belief that you’d be worse off if you Confronted, or your Hopelessness.  Rather than spend a lot of time on this, take notes.  This is important, so you’ll want to come back to it later.

Step Four: Focus again on What you Really Want.  Take your top Want and really Feel how it’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  Touch it.  Smell it.  Hear it.  Taste it.  Embrace it.  See it.  Notice if it’s any easier or deeper than it was in Step Two.  If it is, make a note to repeat Steps Two and Three later.  If you want, do the same with your second Want.

Step Five: Aim Higher.  What if you could have more of What you Really Want, or What you Really Want with a lot of bells and whistles?  Feel how that’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  If you Change your mind and decide that what you Really want is something else entirely, great!  Feel how that’ll be when you Receive it.  Any Stops?  Take notes so you can come back to them later.

Step Six: Now Aim a lot Higher.  Stay with What you Want, but get ridiculous about it.  You Wanted a Mate?  Imagine having three!  A house?  Make it a mansion with its own caretaker, and a luxury RV with professional driver besides.  World Peace?  Go for Galactic Peace, or Universal Peace.  You Wanted Good Health?  Go for Good Health and Superpowers.

At this point in our Timelines, this is where we need to be.

The dwarf planet Chaos, which symbolizes Unlimited Potential, turns Direct on 29 February a few minutes after 3pm PST, 11pm UT.  It’s Stationary (at it’s most Powerful) now.  It’s in Gemini (Mutation).  No better time to nurture Huge Changes than when your Infinite Improbability Drive is firing on all cylinders.  Did you think Douglas  Adams wrote fiction?

The Chaos Station Squares Chiron, so there’s great potential for Discouragement or even Despair, but far greater potential for Miracles when we Empathize with any Discouragement we feel.  Chiron’s moving through Pisces, where it’s churning up every Emotional component of our Limiting Beliefs and exposing them to the Sun, which will sterilize them.

The asteroid Juno, which symbolizes The Growing Edge of our Consciousness, turns Retrograde on 2 March at a few minutes before 3am PST or 11am UT, meaning it’s Stationary (at it’s most Powerful) now.  This occurs at the Midpoint of Scorpio – one of the Strongest points in the Zodiac, particularly adept at turning over rocks and diving deep to uncover hidden motives.  No better time to remove Limiting Beliefs and Grow your sense of the Possible.  And Chaos will still be Stationary.

Between the Full Moon and 8 March, a Quintile between Pallas (Boundaries) and Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs and Limits) forms the base of a Quintile Yod focused on Jupiter (Expansion).  The Quintile Yod says that It’s Really Important to Pay Attention to Learning This!  Learning what?  Learning to Expand our sense of Self by stretching our Boundaries to Let Go of Limiting Beliefs.  Jupiter is in Virgo, and Virgo is about Disassembling the Ego in order to make Space for Growth.

Jupiter completes a T-Square with Chaos and Chiron, focused on Chaos – Expanding our Discouragement and Overwhelm about the sheer quantity of Possible Futures we face, and Expanding the incredible Potential for Miracles waaay beyond what we can imagine!  We just have to stretch into them.  While it’s a few Degrees out of orb, Saturn (The Most Important Thing) completes the Grand Cross – so it’s our Willingness to Focus our Attention on what we Want to Create that will Co-Create the Big Shift.

The Most Important Thing that the Lizards are here to Teach us, is that Crisis breeds Opportunity.  Read Naomi Klein’s Shock Doctrine and Tom Perkins’s New Confessions of an Economic Hit Man, and turn them on their heads – like it or not, Crisis is here, and likely to remain till 2020 (when Saturn Initiates Jupiter), What are WE going to do with the Opportunity?  Do we have enough cumulative Attention to Focus on What we Want and Shift the Planet away from Greed and Competition, and back toward Community and Collaboration?  Do we have enough Self-Love to Create what we Need for our own personal Peace, in order to have Loving Attention to spare for the Planet, so we aren’t just Projecting our Anxiety?

Jupiter meanwhile is moving toward an Initiation of the North Node (Mission and Deepest Desires) – Expanding our sense of What we Want and Where we’re Going.  That’ll happen in June, close to when Eris Initiates Uranus and we come face to face with all the ways we’ve been forcing the True Self to Hold Back.  Jupiter and the North Node are now two Degrees apart – Conjunct, in other words – meaning that we can’t tell the difference between them.  The more Work we do with our Wants and Stops now, the easier June will be, and the impact will be exponential.

Lunar Portals along the way, all ± three hours…

  • 10am PST 28 February, Moon over Stationary Juno
  • 11pm 1 March till 7am PST 2 March, Moon over Saturn corner of the Grand Cross
  • 11am PST 6 March, Moon over Pallas
  • 11am till 9pm PST 8 March, Moon over Chiron corner of the Grand Cross
  • New Moon at 6pm PST 8 March Conjoins Chiron, stretching the Grand Cross into the rest of March

If you focus on what you Don’t Want over the next several weeks, you’re going to be miserable, because you’ll be wallowing in everything you’re going to have to Give Up in order to Grow into What you Want.  If you focus on your Pain about having to Give Up what you Don’t Want but you like better than the Unknown, that’s fine – but Witness it and Embrace it.  Put All of your Attention into the center of your Pain, and leave it there until the Pain melts away.  Or step back and “You poor Sweetheart” yourself to Death.

This is, after all, a colossal Ego Death.  Re-read our Full Moon readings, Heavy I and Heavy II.  The World is Changing fast, and even when we stand up our arms aren’t long enough to reach the cord to ring the driver to let us off.  Focus on What you Want to Create, be Loving and Gentle with every Resistance you encounter, be especially Loving and Gentle with your Grief about what you’re Giving Up, but stay Present with the realization that what you’re Creating will be far better than what you’re Giving Up. 

Remember that Confusion is the first Stage of Growth, it means that your rigid mental structures, which are the intellectual rationalizations for your Limiting Beliefs, are starting to break down.  Try to avoid talking yourself out of Confusion.  Don’t forget Curiosity.  “I Wonder how the devil we’re going to pull this off!”  It is WE – we’re in this Together!  Curiosity is next to Love, as both eschew Judgment, and we know that Love is greater than Hope or Faith.

If you have notes from Steps One or Three or Four or Five, set aside as much time as you can spare between now and March 1, and between now and March 8, to work on these more.  Use your PIAVAs when you get stuck on something; see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/ if you need a review.  If What you Want is important to you, the time you spend on this will be more important than that.

Not only are the relevant Changes happening in the Unconscious, but they’re shifting the Future, and most of us most of the time aren’t able to see either.  There will be plenty of time for Planning, Doing, Executing the details of our Manifestations as we go forward.  Now is the time for PIAVAing the Big Picture of What we Want our Manifestation to look like, and most of all, Lovingly and Gently Letting Go of all of our internal obstacles to Receiving what we Really Want.

Heavy II

February 22, 2016

The other big Configuration in the cluster near the Midpoints of the Signs is a Yin Gate in 22-25 Degrees.  There’s a nice picture and description of a Yin Gate in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/06/13/full-moon-yin-gate-and-portal-7-5-15/ .  A Yin Gate represents an Initiation into Mystery, embodied by the Central Opposition, the one with Yods to both ends of it.  The Central Opposition in the current Yin Gate is Vesta-Eris in Aries to Haumea in Libra…

The Central Issue here is…

Becoming Aware of the Limitations imposed on our Life by our Unconscious Beliefs.  

We normally have very good reasons for keeping Unconscious Beliefs repressed, though the reason could be as simple as we’re too busy or too lazy to rework our entire approach to Life just because a few pieces don’t fit together well.  The folks at the Tea Parties carrying “Government Keep Your Hands off my Medicare” come to mind.  Or the poor saps who don’t realize that “Making American Great Again” means making it Great for the billionaires.

Often though it’s about not wanting to face down our Held Emotions – the situations that we in one Body or another endured and never want to revisit.  As we mentioned in the previous Heavy I post, those could well be coming up this week.  We can look for more clues in the “Subsidiary Issues” which we elaborated in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/06/20/the-second-harmonic/ ), but first, getting our Limiting Beliefs pulled up by the Roots is only half of the Central Issue.  The other half is a…

Rebirth of our Social Self and the way we Relate to the Outside World.

We can dig for more information about that in the Sabian Symbol, “The sight of an autumn leaf brings to a pilgrim the sudden revelation of the Mystery of Life and Death.”  I don’t think Elsie used “Pilgrim” in the same way that John Wayne did.  My guess is that rather than thinking “That Asshole!” about a fellow Pilgrim who doesn’t Behave the way Mom said every decent person should, we might think, “Whoa, that poor Bloke has probably Lived through the same sort of Nightmares I have.”

The Subsidiary Issues provide reinforcement and background, but not a lot of Insight.  They’re

  • The Threat of being Overwhelmed when our Held Emotions well up in our throat ( South Node in Pisces ) versus Allowing our Ego to be Overhauled to reorient our Life toward our Deepest Desires ( North Node in Virgo ) and 
  • Actions Motivated by Fear of Loss ( Sedna in Taurus ) versus Actions Motivated by a Deep Intuitive Understanding of Context ( Mars in Scorpio )

But now, this is a Yin Gate, which means that the two Subsidiary Issues are bound together with a Great Deal of Grace ( the Golden Rectangle ), so they complement and educate one another.  The Trines indicate Dumb-Luck Grace between Fear and Desire (which would appear to suggest that it might be a good time to Face Down our Fear), and between Karma and Action.  What sort of Action?  That’s suggested by the Sextiles, in this case Action in Pursuit of our Mission, or in Pursuit of our current picture of our Mission – namely our Deepest Desires.

The Goddess is no Dummy; she encoded our Mission into our Deepest Desires, so there’s no way we could possibly forget it.  Motivation from the intellect is fine, as far as it goes.  But it doesn’t have nearly the Power and Persistence as Motivation from the Heart or the Gut or the Groin.  We were just Programmed to Believe that those kinds of Motivations were Silly or Stupid or Uncivil.  We were easy to Program because that’s what our Held Emotions told us anyway.  Which is just another way of saying that’s what we’re doing this week, examining our Programming and our Vulnerability to it.

Then there are the Dos Equiis, the four Curiosities, where the Universe is advising us to eschew Analysis and substitute Wonder.  These are…

  • I Wonder how my Unconscious Beliefs have warped my Deepest Desires
  • I Wonder how my Beliefs have constrained my Actions
  • I Wonder how Fear of Loss Limits my social interactions
  • I Wonder how my Held Emotions have warped my social interactions

These are Mysteries.  If your mind jumps at the chance to provide simple Answers to these Musings, thank it for Contributing and change the wording.  For instance, if it’s obvious to you how your Fear of Loss Limits your social interactions, change it to “I Wonder what would happen to my Social Life if my Fear of Loss was assuaged,” or something else that triggers your Imagination rather than your intellect.

At mid-month, this Configuration was not just a Yin Gate, but also a Flying Yoda, with a Kite stretched across the Golden Rectangle, topped by Haumea, and with T-Squares to each corner-to-corner Opposition in the Golden Rectangle.  We talk about Flying Yodas in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/12/04/orcus-ii/ , but in that essay I don’t think we mentioned the embedded Yin Gate or the T-Squares.  

The picture in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/03/30/very-busy-march-31/ shows the tailed Flying Squirrel, and actually, if we moved Ceres a few degrees forward, Mercury-Juno-Makemake-Ceres-Mercury would trace out a Golden Rectangle and enclose a Yin Gate.  (That’s a hypothetical; Mercury would be likely to move forward four times faster than Ceres.)  The T-Squares in that picture would be Pallas on Mercury-Opposite-Makemake, and Mars on Juno-Opposite-Pallas.

At the moment we have only a one-armed Flying Yoda, since the other arm was formed by Klotho and Sappho.  Klotho-Sappho (cutting a new Fabric for Life based on Singing the Praises of Love) is a great arm for a Haumea Kite to have, and not only can we easily conceive that the full Flying Yoda has provided a continuing Blessing, but any projects born around mid-February will certainly receive that Blessing.

The persisting arm of the Flying Yoda is Ixion, another fabulous Blessing.  If you didn’t notice the aroma of our Abandoned Genius in the earlier discussion of Programming and Desire, you might want to re-read it.  It’s quite a “coincidence” that Ixion occupies a Ray of the Grand Trine, because while we didn’t name it that, the Ixion Discovery chart contains a full Flying Yoda, focused on Ixion itself!  See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/03/23/ixion/ .

We’ll be able to bring our Abandoned Genius home here as well, as Grace surrounds it and connects it to our Rebirth.

 

Now Retipuj Too

January 7, 2016

If we look for the most unique news event in the Collective during Mercury’s first crossing of Pallas and Pluto, and Squaring of Uranus, we find the recovery of the SpaceX first-stage rocket.  

Background, if you’ve missed the story: The US Space Agency, NASA, has been inviting private industry and small startups into the “Space Race,” in the effort to spur innovation and reduce cost.  Successful bidders include SpaceX, a rocket company founded and run by Elon Musk (PayPal, Tesla, SolarCity), whose primary motivation seems to be to colonize Mars.  

Satellite-launching rockets cost tens of millions to build, and they’ve been considered disposable, used once and discarded.  Musk’s notion is to recover and reuse them.  In mid-December a SpaceX rocket successfully launched eleven communication satellites, then turned ’round and came home, landing nose up in a bed of fire a few miles from its launch site in Florida.  Jeff Bezos’s (Amazon) rocket company, Blue Origin, has also successfully recovered used rockets by landing them vertically, but his rockets don’t reach orbital altitudes.

SpaceX aims to reduce space travel costs by 99% with rocket recovery.  Potential for increased space littering aside, this kind of puts us back in the 1960s, when the Sky was no longer the Limit, and folks purportedly walked on the Moon, before OPEC threw a wet blanket on our plans to emulate the Jetsons.  Global Warming, Syria and Russia, and the rise of China were also prominent at the Mercury-Pluto Can-Opener.

So we can expect more development of the subway-to-Mars story in mid-January, at the Mercury-Pluto Exposition.  Apart from the time-local Mercury Can-Opener template, the SpaceX story is also an excellent example of another phenomenon, the astrological Cycle.  We’ve been referring to 2012-15 as “The Return of the ’60s” because Pluto Initiated a new Cycle with Uranus in 1965, and a characteristic of the astrological Cycle is that a new Energy emerges at the Initiation, then goes underground during the first one fourth of the Cycle, or until the planets “Square” one another.  After this Waxing Square, the new Energy spreads widely.  The Uranus-Pluto Square spanned 2012-2015, and we’ve seen a number of other ’60s themes becoming prominent – civil/human rights and marijuana decriminalization among the most obvious. 

Two planets are said to “Square” one another, or to “be Square” to each other, when they are 90 Degrees apart, or one fourth of the way around the Zodiac from one another.   In “Tropical” astrology, which we practice, the two imaginary lines drawn from Earth to each planet would be perpendicular to each other.  So one of them would be rising or setting when the other was directly overhead.  

A “Waxing” Square is created when the faster planet reaches one fourth of the way around the Zodiacal loop, ahead of the slower planet.  The slower planet is moving too, so the Square doesn’t occur 90 Degrees from where the planets met, but rather when there are 90 Degrees between the two planets in real time.  The “Waning” Square occurs when the faster planet is 270 Degrees ahead of, or 90 Degrees behind, the slower planet.

Keep in mind that the planets move from West to East.  Its the daily turning of the Earth into the East that makes it look to us as though the planets and Stars and Sun and Moon move from East to West.  You can see how the planets themselves move by taking a snapshot of the Sky every night at midnight.

As the name implies, a Square signifies a Fourth Harmonic relationship between the two planets.  The Fourth Harmonic is about Dominion, and the Square is about Mastery through Challenge.  If you think about your frustrations and breakthroughs in trying to Relate to someone who is very different from you in ways that you don’t understand, you’ll get a good handle on the Square.  If you succumb to Preconceptions and Judgments and Other People’s Opinions and Expectations, you won’t get very far in either Relationships or Squares.  If you’re genuinely interested in overcoming the barriers, willing to learn and practice new Skills, able to try something else when one strategy doesn’t work, open to Surprise, able to Suspend Judgment, and willing to give yourself credit for all the hard Work, you’ll find both Relationships and Squares to be Exciting and Rewarding.

Now it’s Jupiter’s turn to face the Mirror at the back of the bus – Retipuj Egardorter.  We pay attention to the Stations, when a planet is changing directions, because that’s one of the times when a planet’s influence is Strongest, and because of these triple-plays, which are often Life-Changing.  Jupiter’s triple-cross spans 14-24 Degrees of Virgo and mid-October 2015 through early August 2016.  Jupiter starts moving forward again on 9 May.  

One of Jupiter’s triple-plays, for instance, is an Opposition to Chiron.  The Can-Opener occurred in early November.  Jupiter may have Expanded your Discouragement then, in an effort to get you to step over the wall into Miracles.  If you allowed Preconceptions and Judgments to slow you down then – this is common for Can-Openers, because they introduce us to new territory – we get another chance at the Exposition in late February.  Expositions are easier, first because we’ve now seen it before, but also because events and feelings unfold more slowly and gradually, giving us a better opportunity to study and understand what’s going on.  Our Confidence-Builder will occur in mid-August.

The Jupiter-Station chart is a busy one…

  • The Jupiter-Edargorter Station is Conjunct the North Node, while the Moon and Ixion T-Square the Nodes
  • Jupiter is also the focus of a Yod based on the Ceres-Eris Sextile
  • It’s also the tail of a South-Node Kite, Grand-Trining Pallas and Sedna
  • Sedna’s the focus of a Yod from the Haumea-Moon/Ixion Sextile
  • Haumea has it’s own Yod, based on the North Node-Eris Sextile
  • Pallas is also the focus of a T-Square across the Haumea-Eris Opposition
  • Eris is Stationary, turning Direct in two days at the head of a second Kite with s Chaos-Ceres-Haumea Grand Trine, T-Squared by the New Moon 
  • The Eris-Haumea Opposition also forms a Trioctile Box with the Orcus-Neptune Opposition

It’s going to be a hard month for keeping secrets, and for keeping our remaining Masks held tight, as the New Moon extends this chart into the rest of January.  Our “Pathological Genius” – our Unique Skills that have been Shamed into the Dungeon – will be irrepressible.  Fear may be prominent, especially Fear of Abandonment and Annihilation as we move through the Ego Deaths necessary for Rebirth into our own Truth.  There will be Boundaries to be moved, to Allow new parts of our Self to emerge into the Light of Day and to Defend their right to do so.  It won’t feel any better but it will help anyway, if we remember that Courage is not the absence of Fear but the willingness to Act in the face of Fear.  

If you have any natal planets in 14-24 Degrees of any of the mutable Signs (Virgo, Pisces, Gemini, Sagittarius), Jupiter is asking you to Expand around them.

This is basically the Pisces, Aries, and Taurus Duads of Virgo, a Duad being one twelfth of a Sign.  If we regard Virgo (which we do) as the place where we dissemble the individual Ego in order to prepare to meet Other, then this is the area where we’ve pretty much dissembled, and now we’re starting to experiment with rebuilding.  

2007 OR10 – Part II

November 3, 2015

Of course we can also use any other method of Divination to determine how to summarize the influence of a new planet.  For instance, Numerologically, 2007 OR10 is a “6,” The Lovers, symbolizing Partnership.  Partnership becomes possible when we Become Conscious of our Unconscious Beliefs, since we would then no longer attribute Motives to our potential Partners out of our own collection of Karmic, Egoic, and Family-of-Origin Dramas.  It’s all Relative, of course; Perfectionism might have a place in the Enneagram, but it’s an Either/Or, so we have to consider it an artifact of the intellect and not a property of the external World.

When OR10 dances with other planets?  There will be many more this winter, when the Inner Planets move through Pisces, but there have been a few lately as well.  Your Journal will serve you well.  What was going on in your Young Life in February 2011 and March 2012?  Any common themes during those periods?  Unconscious Emotions may have been giving us Grief in early 2011, and giving our Cultures fits in early 2012.

2007 OR10 Initiated Chiron (Nothing works!) in early March 2011 at 2 Pisces, “A squirrel hiding from hunters” (How our Unconscious Sabotage loves disguises!), and Initiated Neptune (Why is the US killing innocent people and supporting unelected autocrats, creating more insurgents?) in early April 2012 at 3 Pisces, “Petrified tree trunks lie broken on desert sand” (Ossified Cultural Patterns – such as government policy designed to promote Arms Merchants, per Eisenhower’s 50-year-old warning).  The Chiron-OR10 Cycle will average 50-some years, and the Neptune-OR10 Cycle will span around 300 years, and both should represent a pretty thorough Liver Cleanse for Huperity, as the Shift hits the fan.

As both Neptune and OR10 are Stationary on 18-19 October (and the week prior), we can expect more Ossified Cultural Patterns to come out into Consciousness.  Nothing Changes till it comes into Consciousness.  After their 2012 Conjunction, Neptune and OR10 are still traveling within a few Degrees of each other (five this year), so we can expect Cultural Renaissance to be strong for several years on either side of 2012.  

A planet’s Perihelion (closest approach to the Sun and hence to us) is also telling.  For instance, Pluto’s Perihelion is in Scorpio – big surprise, eh?  Uranus’s is in Virgo (Disrupting the old Ego), Neptune’s in mid-Leo (the Courage of Faith).  OR10’s Perihelion is 29 Degrees of Virgo (“A seeker after occult knowledge is reading an ancient scroll which illumines his mind“), giving us a chance to clean up our Act before we meet Other as we get to the Cusp of Libra.

Look up your own natal 2007 OR10 position at…

http://www.true-node.com/eph1/?inputNumber=225088&day=1&month=1&year=1950&time=00%3A00%3A00&zone=GMT+0&interval_num=1&interval=day&lines=120&.submit=Get+Ephemeris&calendar=Gregorian&zodiac=Tropical&origin=Geocentric&lighttime=True&clock=Universal+Time&zodsec=D%B0M&longitude=on&declination=on

Change the date so it’s a week or so prior to your birth, click the boxes for “Show Zodiacal Longitude” and “Show Declination” if they aren’t already checked, then click the “Get Ephemeris” box.  It may take a minute.  If “DECL” is numerically (ignore the +/-) more than 23°27, your OR10 is Out of Bounds.  If the “LONG” column starts or stops saying “Rx” within a few days of your birthdate, your OR10 is Stationary.  Out of Bounds and Stationary both mean Strong; your drive to clean up your Unconscious Act will have a big impact on your Life.  The table will give “Universal Time,” but OR10 moves so slowly relative to us that time of day won’t matter.

The second segment of OR10’s Discovery chart rivals the first segment in importance; the presence of OR10 itself in the first segment tilts it toward most important.  In both segments significant elements of Motivation combine with significant elements of Grace.  The theme of Becoming Conscious of our Unconscious Beliefs repeats in the second segment, while it asks for a more Assertive role in developing our Pathological Genius in ways that don’t create more Karma.  This segment includes the “Masculine Dilemma” – in Patriarchal Cultures, how does Dynamic Energy support Magnetic Energy without abusing Privilege and Power Over?

This segment includes a Grand Cross to the Nodes, overlain by a Kite focused on the non-Nodal corners of the Cross, plus an additional Conjunction that Bridges the Grand Cross and forms a Tricolor with the crossbar of the Kite.  The top of the Kite and third corner of the Grand Cross – which makes it the primary focus of the segment – is a Jupiter-Ixion Conjunction, “blowing up” our Pathological Genius.  Opposing Jupiter-Ixion is dwarf planet Chaos, indicating our Unlimited Potential when we meet the Challenge of Letting Go of our Limiting Beliefs (ie, the Nodal Axis).  The North Node is 10 Pisces, “An aviator pursues their journey, flying through ground-obscuring clouds,” which lends a sort of “End Justifies the Means” flavor to the segment.  

The crossbar of the Kite comprises a Vesta-Haumea Conjunction (Redemption) and a  Nessus-Chiron Conjunction (Healing Male Privilege).  The ancillary Square is from Nessus-Chiron to a Conjunction of Mars and Ceres (Making the Dynamic Sustainable), so the Tricolor is Nessus-Chiron Square Mars-Ceres Quincunx Vesta-Haumea Trine Nessus-Chiron: I Wonder what sort of Rebirth could Create a Sustainable Dynamism that doesn’t Act like a Bully.  The combination results in a Finger of God pointing to Vesta-Haumea from the Sextile between Mars-Ceres and the North Node.

That leaves us with a few holes to fill in Part III to follow.

Portal 13-14.6 – Scorpio and Virgo

June 14, 2015

apon9061bpSagittarius and Scorpio.  Believe it or not, the Sagittarian Wisps are actually Crystals, of Natrolite, sitting on a more recognizable Crystal, Scorpionic Apophyllite.  Nevertheless, things are still not what they seem to be.  The recognizable Crystal is actually a Mica, Apophyllite, even though it looks nothing like a Mica.  And the Wisps are actually a Zeolite, even though they look nothing like any we’d recognize.  A Zeolite is a complex Mineral with pockets.  You wouldn’t think there’d be room in those Wisps for a pocket, let along a complex Mineral.  If you get the right Zeolite, you can dump it into a toxic mess, and the Zeolite will pocket the toxins and bring them out!  I know, She is truly amazing, especially when we forget She’s a Living Entity with many orders of magnitude more cleverness than we’ll ever dream of mustering!

Apophyllite (Potassium Calcium Fluoride Mica) is about Opening our Third Eye, appropriate for Getting to the Bottom of Things.  Green Apophyllite brings Compassion into our Intuition.  As we like to say, Apophyllite was used for Divining by the twelve Apophylls.  Natrolite (Sodium Aluminum Zeolite) is about Opening the Crown Chakra, appropriate for Letting Go of what Limits us.  Like much of the loveliest Apophyllite, this one comes from near Pune, India, a center for many different flavors of Spiritual pursuit.

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Friday the 13th falls on a Saturday this month, as Pogo used to say.  Whatever you’re Grieving, Trust that it was not planning to be part of the next phase of this Gaia-Pi Adventure.  We’re in the process now of Co-Creating what we need for the next phase.

June 13-14…

  • Makemake (Manifestation) is Stationary Direct (Strong)
  • Saturn backs into Scorpio (Did we leave any Emotional Stones unturned?)
  • The Moon Occults Mercury (Beginner’s Mind) at 5 Gemini (“A revolutionary magazine asking for action”)

Mercury and the Balsamic Moon rise ahead of the Sun, so they should make a lovely couple just before Sunrise, whether you’re in the right spot (east central Asia) to see the Moon cover Mercury or not.  The Balsamic Moon is about Letting Go, echoing our other themes.

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Saturn points us to The Most Important Thing, and informs us that all of the other priorities will be just fine playing quietly by themselves while we put all of our Attention on The Most Important Thing.  Scorpio is about Getting to the Bottom of Things, so when…

The Most Important Thing Is Getting to the Bottom of Things,

we can – appropriately – be pretty obsessive.  Another useful key phrase about Scorpio, left over from the Recovery Movement in the 1980s (when Pluto was in Scorpio) is The Way Out Is Through.  Saturn has been in Sagittarius since Christmas 2014, and in Sagittarius The Way Out Is Letting Go.  So we’ve Lightened Up quite a bit since Christmas.  But there are still some bits of Egg clinging to the pan, so we need to go back and scrub a little more.

Till last Christmas, Saturn had been in Scorpio since October 2012 – in other words, The Most Important Thing has been Getting to the Bottom of Things since Time ended and Pi took over.  For the last two and a half years The Most Important Thing has been locating anything and everything that has stood between us and taking Full Responsibility for Everything in our Lives.  Though Pi gave us that first nine months of Grand Trines to ease our Rebirth into the New Era, of course that would feel like being poked with spears and knives by everyone and everything around us, as we were educated about where we weren’t taking Responsibility.

Soooo, what did we not quite finish up?  Responsibility means being able and willing to Respond.  It looks to improve the Future, not assign causality and Blame for anything from the Past.  Anyplace in your Life where you’re still feeling like a Victim, or where you want to Blame someone else for anything?  Those are the bits of Egg we need to work with; keep your eye out for them between now and mid-September, especially toward the end of July, as Saturn turns Direct on August 1.  After mid-September, we’re in the Let-It-Go Stage “for good” – well, for two and a half years anyway.

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The Station of Makemake in 29 Virgo (“A seeker after occult knowledge is reading an ancient scroll which illumines her mind”) suggests that…

We should be on the lookout for What We Need to Survive in this New Era.  We first experimented with meeting our new Next-Phase Tribe (Makemake in Libra) from mid-October 2013 to mid-March 2014.  Then last September we renewed this quest.  In mid-July we get serious about it.  In between – March-August of 2014 and mid-May through mid-July of this year, we review our own Blocks to receiving our new Community.  Virgo is about breaking down the Ego so we’re ready to meet Other without prejudice – without Judgment.  Ego is a force for good; it’s primary Mission is to keep us alive. The only problem with Ego is that it’s “sticky.”

Sure, Narcissism can feel like a pain if we’re stuck with having to deal with someone else’s Narcissism, but that’s just about our own unwillingness or inability to set working Boundaries.  Our own Narcissism?  Not to worry; it’s its own best frenemy. 

A caution for Virgo, though.  Since Ego-Recycling and Virgo are so poorly understood in Ego-dominated Western culture, Virgo ends up being seen as nit-picky and critical, and Virgo grows up with a programmed self-hate from introjecting this criticality.  So anyone with strong Virgo will likely worry about their own Narcissism.  But Virgo is the Opposite of Narcissistic.  What’s the Coin?  Self-Love.  Self-Transformation (Virgo) is about Self-Love, for sure.  Transformation isn’t about hating what’s being Transformed, it’s about Transcending what’s being Transformed.

A functioning Ego is flexible enough to Celebrate our own unique Skills fully – without having to compete them with the unique Skills of Others, and to Recognize when and where it would serve our Community better to delegate to the superior unique Skills of Another.  A “normal” Ego, more concerned with how many strokes we get, gets stuck on the last hurt or triumph, and loses track of the Present Moment.

This is what Virgo is about.  Pisces is about making a break from a Community that we’ve outgrown, with all of the Grief and unfulfilled Wishes and lack of Recognition and unexpressed Angers and Fear of Abandonment that’s involved in Letting Go of a Community without the assurance that we’ll be accepted into a new one.  Neptune and Chiron are working us through all that Drama and Trauma.  Virgo is about making a break from a sticky Ego that we’ve outgrown, with all of the Grief and unfulfilled Wishes and lack of Recognition and unexpressed Angers and Fear of Abandonment that’s involved in Letting Go of an Identity without the assurance that a new one will function any better than the old one.  Or, in a word, Ego Death.  Makemake is helping us through this wicket, and it’s an excellent Guide to have, as its focus is always on Co-Creating the new tools we’ll need to Survive in a new Era.

So as we go back into Getting to the Bottom of Things, we’re also back in Ego Death.  With Saturn, we’re just re-entering our last review period (ie, just tiptoeing back into Scorpio and hoping she doesn’t wake up).  With Makemake, we’ve already finished our review (ie, already backtracked into Virgo, and now we’re turning to exit for the final time), so we’re in better shape there.  Between now and mid-July we’ll be making the adjustments that will “fix” the Responsibility shortcomings that we’ve already encountered.

So while there may be a few Surprises awaiting us on the Emotional front, on the Ego front we’ve probably seen that last of them.  Is it any easier to step aside and Witness an Emotion that threatens to overwhelm us, than it is to step aside and Witness an Identity that’s sabotaging us?  You bet.  It’s when the Emotion and the Identity are intertwined, that the greatest difficulties arise.  And as we encounter the last few Emotions that Separate us from Joy and Light, we should already have some degree of Ego Detachment.

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Cuspal Saturn and Stationary Makemake are Sextile to one another, sharing the quality of Magnetism.

Sextiles connect two Signs that have either Magnetism or Dynamism in common, so on this basic level they aren’t competing with one another.  It’s the Sixth Harmonic, so the basic Energy is about Partnership – Win-Win. 

It’s a Waxing Sextile, several years into the Saturn-Makemake Cycle that began in September 2009 at 26 Virgo, “A boy with a censer serves the priest near the altar.”  In terms of current events, we could trip into a number of directions on that one, about boy-priest relationships or about “making things smell better.”

In our tradition of focusing on what’s being Healed, we’ll do just that, and propose that the current 33-year Saturn-Makemake Cycle is about Healing the lost art of Apprenticeship.  In pre-Industrial society, as children we “played” at learning the “work” our elders were doing, automatically learning Survival Skills in the process.  Since that link was broken by the various forms of Industrial Slavery (schools that removed children from parents so they could be propagandized into one paradigm, work that separated the workplace from the family so compassion could be removed from working conditions, etc), child-adult relationships have been strained and forced into unfamiliar forms.

A Saturn-Makemake Cycle would be about Building the Structures that Support Survival in the next Paradigm.  So we could see the current Cycle as Restructuring Apprenticeship to reintegrate Spirituality and Survival (“Work”) and Everyday Life.  Industrial and Religious Culture rigidly divided these into separate days of the week.  Remember that what we’re going here (2000-2020) in the Jupiter-Saturn Cycles is, on the Cultural level, deciding what parts of the Industrial Age we want to take with us into the Digital Age.  The Sextile represents Grace after we take the first step.  The Cultural level is assembled from accumulation of Personal levels.  So an appropriate question to ask ourselves might be…

Are there concrete steps I can take right now, to integrate my Spiritual Life with my Everyday Life and What I Do to Survive?  Have I already taken any steps like this?  Can I start to build them into Patterns that can become the infrastructure of Life in the Next Phase?

Level 2 Discernment and Yintegrity

March 18, 2014

By now it’s silly, but I’m still kind of amazed when synchronicity works so well.  For instance, after writing Yintegrity, Yindependence, Denial, and Noticing, it was “by chance” that I picked up the book that described the three levels of Discernment and “by chance” that I opened it to that place.  Of course we could replace the “by chance” with “by virtue of the Full Moon lighting up Virgo.”  But it still kind of surprises me.  And what dropped into my inbox this morning, from places totally unconnected to this blog?  A good essay on Level 2 Discernment!

http://www.dailywealth.com/2695/bad-cat-john-s-big-secret-to-success

and a great short video on Criticism…

http://www.nytimes.com/video/theater/100000002772773/in-performance-steven-boyer.html?playlistId=1194811622182

I mean, that’s exactly what we need to confront when our True Self needs to experience and express things that we were taught were “evil.”  Angie points out in her Tarot Handbook that “evil” and “devil” are Live and Lived spelled backwards.  In the same way that an Eclipse increases our Consciousness by pointing out through their sudden absence elements of Reality that we had not yet differentiated from background noise, on the Soul level we chose our programmers so they would set up Resistance around what we wanted to Learn in the Lifetime.

For instance, suppose we came into this Lifetime to learn among other things finesse, or decisiveness.  Well, a Mars (Action, Assertion) T-Square (Mastery through Challenge), if we were paying attention, would teach us a lot about both.  But if we had significant adults in our childhood who encouraged us to be shy or to take risks, or taught us to see things from all points of view, that would compound the degree of Consciousness that we Mastered.  And of course if our childhood’s most significant adult had Saturn (Focus, apparent Limitation) or Jupiter (Expansion) or Mercury (Analysis) in the same place as our Mars, wouldn’t that make it all the more intense.

Hence the sense that we, as a Soul, “Choose our parents.”  If that sounds like we’re trying to run Time backward, that’s fine.  You don’t really experience Time as linear, or of constant width; it’s only our slavery to industrial society that encourages this pretense.  (Why do you suppose that “we” chose to endure that Trance?)  You can imagine a Soul up there calculating all manner of complications, but that’s a projection of your Mercury.  For the Wisdom of the Soul, it’s all Intuitive.  Or so we imagine, which in itself is an interesting projection.

The Universe is a holographic Mirror for our current state of Consciousness – As Within, So Without is one expression of that ancient wisdom.  We could add that idiom to our foundational assumptions about Life, the Universe, and Everything along with We Are All One and All There Is Is Now and All There Is Is Love.  So if we meet people with Level 2 Discernment, people are likely to meet us with Level 2 Discernment.  Which gives us all the more reason to feel Rejected.  Not that we need to be confrontational – we need to PIAVA a loving and gentle transition toward greater Yintegrity.  A useful practice is Separation.

Separate your Identity (Self, Ego) from your Reactions to other people’s Reactions.

Again, you use Noticing to shift your Assemblage Point, as Don Juan would have called it, or the place from which you are seeing the World.  Otto Scharmer recommends the same process in Leading from the Emerging Edge.  It’s a Chironian shift.

Whenever you notice that you have Reacted rather than Responded to any situation, shift your perspective to a place where there is no Judgment.  You won’t be able to do this in Real Time, because “You” aren’t home when you’re Reacting – it’s the Unconscious that Reacts.  Response comes from your Consciousness.  But you can do it retrospectively.

Which as a practice will expand your Consciousness and increase the odds that you’ll Respond rather than React in future circumstances.  We’re really talking here about Uranus Initiating Juno as both sit in T-Square to Pluto and Jupiter.  The advice Don’t Get Even, Get Odd is actually useful – and of course very relevant to Uranus, as “odd” is right up there with “evil” in the list of things we were educated not to be.

When we’re Responding, we can Respond any way we choose.  So once we create a Separation between our Reactor and our Identity, we can just use Level 3 Discernment with the intention of helping to educate the Other about who we really are.  Not that they are likely to understand or care (Level 1 speaking), but that doesn’t matter.  For all but the most dedicated sociopaths, they’ll eventually get Curious.  We just want to eliminate our investment in the Outcome – so we really don’t care whether they “get” it or not.

The nature of industrial Work is manipulative anyway.  Our job as anyone’s employee is to manipulate the supplier or customer or delegatee or co-worker, or even boss, so they perform their tasks in alignment with the goals of the organization that’s paying us.  They don’t pay us to be our True Selves, do they.  Even in the Arts that’s unlikely.  So when we’re Responding rather than Reacting, we can actually use Level 3 in work situations, but our objective is not to express our True Self, our objective is to further the mission of the organization.

In pre-industrial society it was more likely the case that Community and Abundance were more closely related, and in that situation, the most Abundant Communities may have been the ones where Yintegrity created the most productive teamwork.  Since the Waxing Uranus-Pluto Square is where Yintegrity becomes permanent, we certainly want to aspire to move more and more of our Life into this pre-industrial model.  That’s a long-term project, not likely one  we can do overnight, and if we expect 60-70% failure for every attempt we’re less likely to be discouraged by the timespan of the project and by the fact that as a Co-Creation, it’s not totally within our Span of Control.

But if we don’t do our own part of the Co-Creation, the risk of overall failure increases.  We don’t have to do it all ourselves, but we do need to move in that direction for ourSelves.

Discernment II

March 16, 2014

wavellite805bpWavellite (Aluminum Phosphate Fluoride) is the quintessential Crystal to facilitate Discernment.  It Mirrors Virgo, and Jack and Collen tell us that even more, it helps folks without Virgo in their horoscope find the Discernment they might otherwise lack.

Another reader writes,

“I can’t see how stage 3 in discernment could be in operation unless all parties are ‘there.’  At work I’m forced to engage in behaviors – ways of operating/functioning that are so against my way of being that it’s taking a real toll on my health.  I am trying to adjust, to let a lot go.  It works.  It doesn’t work.  The thing that works best is to be at level 2 discernment.  Though, significantly, there are behaviors attempted to be imposed around the rejected minorities I take care of professionally, which I have said outright, ‘NO, I WILL NOT PARTICIPATE!’

“Really, I guess my true aspiration is to find level 3 people.  But for the majority of people in my daily life I aspire to remain at level 2.  BUT that keeps me wearing a mask because I cannot not be engaged with them to some extent, because I work there (or because they’re family).  It’s exhausting.  The only time I’m not exhausted is when I’m alone, in yoga class, training in the gym, or getting a massage.

“With the people I pay – yoga, gym, massage – we have fascinating ‘big-picture’ conversations and personal two-way street support conversations.  Maybe the nature of a paying contact – so boundaries stay healthy.  They actually check in with me, correspond personally in email outside of the paying contexts, checking in and offering support actually friendly and two-way, as I know what’s going on with them to a similar extent.  It’s nice.  And they are people I actually tell things to because 1) they ask, and 2) they give me interesting food for thought.  Makes a difference.”

Yes, “walking the Spiritual path with practical feet,” as Angie puts it.  So there’s work for The Man, and then there’s Community.  Isn’t that what the Industrial Revolutions brought to us, this separation of Work from Life.  When we focus on the Material, the Industrial Revolutions transformed our Lives.  We no longer have to go outside to krap in mid-winter.  Hot running Water is an incredible Blessing, as is refrigeration and a smoke-free stove.

If we don’t spend at least twenty minutes every day in deep Gratitude for hot running Water, we are in danger of losing the Blessing. 

The frail among our Elders used to walk off into the Snow in late winter (or the desert in late summer), in order to help make sure that there was enough food left for the rest of us to make it till the Plants grew again.  Now, instead, in compensation for our own history, we make futile New Years Resolutions to lose the flab from glutting ourselves over the Holidays.  They used to be Holydays, for expressing our Gratitude and PIAVAs to make it till the Growing Season without losing the people and the Rain and the Commons that we depend on for our Survival.

When we focus on the Spiritual, or Community, the Industrial Revolutions transformed our lives for the worse.  It’s not a stretch to say they destroyed Community.  And the Materialism they produced tore – and continues to tear – a huge hole in our connection to Spirit.  How much of our day do we dedicate to Gratitude to Mother Nature for the Blessings She showers upon us.

It’s not a stretch to say that we’re in danger of losing these Blessings either, as we accelerate the pollution of our Waters and Food supply with more chemicals and GMOs.  As with Criticism, there is a place where we have to Stop and back out, where we have to say “NO, I CAN NOT PARTICIPATE!”

And then there’s the mortgage.  And the banksters calling weekly to tempt us into a little more debt slavery in exchange for the promise of a little more Materialism.

In The Spirit of Intimacy: Ancient African Teachings in the Ways of Relationships, Sobonfu Somé gives us a good understanding of how much time and work it takes to maintain a level 3 Community.  If level 2 destroys our health, we may at some point have to choose between devoting our Energies to a mortgage, or to Community.  The Tiny House movement is an example of returning to Community.  Ceres is dancing with the North Node, implying that to Sustain our Mission, we may need to Surrender that which is not necessary or no longer relevant.

We need to pay attention to

“The only time I’m not exhausted is when I’m alone.”

That’s the mantra of an Introvert.  No one is purely Introverted or Extroverted, but most of us favor one or the other.  Introverts are in the minority, and all grade-school teachers are Extroverts (or they wouldn’t be teachers!), so we learned early on that the Culture at large considers Introversion to be a disease.  It’s remarkable that the APA hasn’t commissioned a drug to “cure” it (besides Coffee).  A quick test to tell where your own I/E balance-point is…

When it’s depleted, if you restore your Energy by being alone, you’re more of an Introvert.  If you restore your Energy by being with other people, you’re more of an Extrovert.  It’s not Either/Or; everyone has some of each.

And then there’s Both/And.  When I was attempting to PIAVA Relationship long ago, I discovered that I could easily manifest – and had manifested, so I knew it was possible – Freedom and Relationship, and I could create Security and Relationship, and I could manifest Excitement and Relationship, but there was no way I could create Freedom and Security and Excitement and Relationship.  Since that’s what I aspired to, it was clear that I had to learn how to do Both/And.

Our reader appears to appreciate level-3 Discernment when they find it, but believes that for work and family, level 2 appears to be the best compromise available.  There’s no problem with that – it’s not like level 3 is some sort of Holy Grail.  Many of us feel lucky to be at level 2, and most of us still spend a good deal of time at level 1 – with the Smaug-like Lizards and their Republican wannabes and collaborators, for instance, or with the 47% of us lazy freeloaders who want a free ride on the beneficence of the elite.  But our reader says their level-2 relationships are impacting their health.

I can’t say that our reader is afflicted with Unconscious Despair here, but there is the ring of Chiron in their message.  Unconscious Despair occurs when we don’t have any reason to believe that there is a practical solution to a dilemma.  Our reader may have never seen any evidence to support a belief that it is possible to manifest both Abundance and Community at the same time, especially if they’re a member of a rejected minority – an Introvert, for instance.

So then, how can we manifest Both/And, when we know we can create Both, but only each separately.

When I was discovering Both/And, I was using Asking a lot – that’s one of the A’s in PIAVA.  I was writing my Requests, so I would write things like Great Spirit, may I please have Abundance and Community, and write them over and over again until I could write the whole sentence quickly and smoothly, without any misformed letters or any trace of jerkiness in my writing.

As I wrote, I let the Request shift and change to whatever was moving into my Attention.  It might come out My material and social needs met one time, and A safe space and reliable Friends the next time, though the changes were usually more gradual.  Once I could write the sentence smoothly, I went about my day.  I would do these writing sessions several times a day, for whatever time I had free, or however long it took to get smooth.  Then, by Changing the Subject and Paying Attention, I soon realized that a powerful Asking invokes Fear.

What if I have to lose the Abundance I have in order to learn to create what I want!  What if I have to give up the Friends I do have, in order to create more Community!  

So it didn’t take long to add …lovingly and gently or …and a loving and gentle transition to the end of each Asking.  And realizing that the Unconscious has a different concept of time than the Ego, …rapidly and completely soon followed.  Some Requests got quite long!  It wouldn’t even hurt to add Gendlin’s …or something like that, to help make sure the intellect and current Consciousness weren’t maintaining control and extending the status quo.

We see a lot of people being forced into poverty against their will, no matter what level of Discernment they’re willing to practice, so Fear that Change means Scarcity is appropriate.  As I’ve been working with my own Chiron Transits over the last couple of years, I’ve spent a good deal of Energy addressing my Fear of Change by Asking for a loving and gentle transition rather than an abrupt and risky sudden Change.  As a result, I’m finding myself, in several ways, wasting less Energy on Resistance.

Chiron holds our nose to the fire – he doesn’t let up when he’s Asking us to let go of negative Beliefs and Unconscious Despair.  He values his Miracles, and doesn’t want us to fail to appreciate them.

So in one way or another, when a persistent hassle grips us, we do need to PIAVA a Reframe.

Remember that Chiron is nonlinear, nondual, and nonintellectual; we can’t think our way to a Reframe.  One way or another we have to reach into the Unconscious and pull out the wrench we need.  You can trust that the exact tool you need is there on the workbench, just where you can’t see it directly.  Chiron doesn’t leave us stranded, he just likes riddles.

Seth told us long ago that our personal history is a perfect Mirror for our unfinished business, and likewise, our current unsolvable dilemmas are the Mirror for the Energy that’s forcing it’s way into our Consciousness.  It’s a Funhouse Mirror, not literal or intellectual.  That Energy will continue to slap us around until we find a way to let it in, and it will get more and more insistent. 

With the Uranus-Pluto-Jupiter T-Square, the impetus, or rather, the Demand, to move toward Yintegrity is strong, and with Mars moving into place to complete the Grand Cross, it’s getting stronger.  And the Chiron Mjolnir isn’t about to give us much respite from the pressure either.  Some people – those who haven’t converted to positive astrology yet – see a Mjolnir not as Lightning and Epiphany, but as being caught between an irresistible force and a hard place.  The two footings of the Mjolnir are Lilith (Yindependence – unwillingness to tolerate being controlled by others) and Ceres-North Node (Sustaining our Deepest Aspirations).

In the first few minutes of this segment of Lilou’s Juicy Living Tour, Neale provides some powerful insight into all these questions…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rmvIHzUPNF8

Neale knows a bit about Abundance and poverty, transitions, and PIAVA.