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Cause an Defect

August 5, 2017

A friend asks, “What do your Arcturian friends say about us creating our own reality?

Same thing Seth said in The Nature of Personal Reality.  If we want to know our Karma (the Beliefs and Habit Patterns we came into the Lifetime with, whether Productive or Self-Sabotaging in each stage of the current Life), just look at our Lifetime so far.  What we’ve Created, and are Creating, is Who We Are, Karmically.  We have the Power to Change it, sometimes quite simply, other times with impossible difficulty.  First step is to Notice what we’re Creating and have Created, and Recognize that We have Created it. 

At this point we have to stop and Examine whether we’re In Blame.  Blame is about assigning Cause to something.  It’s about the Past.  Responsibility is about Recognizing that, one way or another, we have the Power to Change Future Outcomes.  People who are unable to step out of Blame will never be able to Recognize that they Create their own Reality.  Their Reality is stuck in circular finger-pointing, and it won’t Change till they figure out how to step off of the Blame treadmill.

If we can step out of Blame then…

Is What we’re Creating What We Want?  If not then we need to Change it.  99% percent of ourself is Unconscious, and the Unconscious is non-Dual, so the Dualistic Mind can’t do the job.  The Mind is a screwdriver, the Unconscious is put together with bolts.  Cause and Effect is a Linear process, quite relevant to the realm of the Ego, but the Unconscious operates by different rules.  Time isn’t even Linear in the Unconscious – are your Dreams Linear?

Best tools for influencing the Unconscious that I’ve found so far are the PIAVAs.  Think about Intention, for instance – you’re starting with Effect and then producing Cause!  So much for Linear Time.

Yes, our Childhood Programming is overlain on top of our Karma.  But who Created our Childhood Programming?  We did.  Not We/Ego, but We/Soul.  No Judgment here; We/Soul just decided We Wanted to have more Experience in a certain arena or several.  In that sense We/Soul Chose our parents and the propaganda mills that would Program us – to Reinforce our Karma so we’d Notice it and be inspired to Change it

It is my opinion that at least some of us came to this Planet at this time in order to Assist the Planet to finish business with the Age of Pisces.  Pisces must Eschew Blame if it is to find the elevator to the next level and “get out of going through all this twice” as Dylan put it.  In that context We/Soul have adopted for We/Ego (prior to Enlightenment) a set of Karma as if it were a set of underwear; it isn’t even really “ours,” we’ve just picked it out at Goodwill because it reflects how We/Soul have Chosen to Assist the Planet.

Which is a fine way to look at it regardless – Karma is Inertia, not Retribution, so it actually has no Value (as in good or bad), it’s Neutral, just as we need to be Neutral in order not to get sucked into the Drama that the Age of Pisces gets stuck in.  Neutrality means that we don’t have any investment in any of the Outcomes, other than, optionally, those we’ve Chosen to Change.  And in fact, one of the best way to Change anything is through Acceptance.  To go one step further, we could say, unequivocally, that Nothing Changes until we Accept it Exactly As It Is.

Which simply means that we’ve Noticed that we’ve Created it, and since we Realize that, as John (and Michael Roads) says, All There Is (That’s Real) Is Love, then we have no Choice but to figure out how to Love what we’ve Created.  For instance, consider our Genius Project.  Of course we’re frustrated because it hasn’t paid off on the first try.  Duh.  How many Lifetimes have we (or the Planet) been working on this Project?  Do we Expect to Change it with one PIAVA?  (Of course it might; we might just be ready.)

What has happened so far with our Genius Project, and how do we Feel about it?  Have we figured out how to Embrace those Feelings Lovingly, so we can Lovingly Embrace what’s happened so far, so we can get on to the next step?  We need at least to Poor-Sweetheart them.  This is the Pay Attention stage of the PIAVA process.  How is what has happened related to What We Want? 

Have we appeared to move in the wrong direction?  That’s where I’m at.  That’s very common, because the Unconscious is Asking and Telling We/Ego, “Do you Trust us?  If you won’t Hold the Intention, we can’t Hold it for you.” It’s Ego that has Focus, not the Unconscious.  It takes a Partnership to Manifest.  Even a Village.

If it feels like Nothing has happened, or something unexpected has indeed happened, but it doesn’t appear to be Related to our Genius Project, then we might have to PIAVA that we come to grok (as opposed to “understand”) the Relationship well enough that we know what to do next to bring our Forbidden Genius out of Hiding.  Or better yet, just PIAVA that we take the appropriate next step, period, and just bypass the Linear Mind, and the Controlling Status-Quo-Loving Ego, entirely.

Are we making any sense?

Things haven’t felt very satisfying or stable the last several days, as Jupiter Squares Pluto, amplified by the impending 7 August Full-Moon Partial Eclipse, prelude to the 21 August Big One.  We’ll write about that next.

Response-Ability 4

May 17, 2017

This ongoing Dance between Pholus (Respond-Ability) and Quaoar (Survival Instincts) has been going on for several years; we’ve just been Paying Attention to other issues because they were more Prominent in the charts.  The Dance has been happening on the Cusp of Capricorn.  We can’t help but think that Pholus-Quaoar is about Global Warming, Ascension, and the Patriarchy.  We think of Capricorn as the “Just Do It” Sign, and Pluto (the Mandatory that can be Directed but not Reversed) is about to enter the Virgo Decanate of Capricorn (2018-2024).  That Decanate would imply “Just Break Down your Olde Ego, K?”

The Cusp of Capricorn is of course the northern Winter Solstice.  In many ancient traditions a Day begins at dusk of what most of us would usually consider the evening before, and a Year begins at the Winter Solstice.  To the Romans it initiated Saturnalia, their equivalent of Oktobefest, a celebration of disregard and reversal of the everyday rules of social discourse.  The conversion of Saturn and Capricorn (which are first cousins) from rule-flaunting to rule-making was done by the early Christians in order to enhance their Political (Either/Or) Control over the People. 

The Romans had the luxury of their Mediterranean climate.  For folks further north, the Winter Solstice meant likely hardship, dependence on Community, and the necessity to Attend to The Most Important Thing – Surviving another northern winter.  That yields the primary keywords for Capricorn and Saturn, respectively Pragmatism and Focus.

Like Aries (northern Spring), Cancer (northern Summer), and Libra (northern Autumn), Capricorn is a Cardinal or Creative Sign, signifying a Rebirth.  Aries is the Rebirth of the Indwelling Spirit (Fire) as fresh evidence of the Life Force emerges in northern Plants and Animals in March.  Cancer is the Rebirth of Compassion (Water), as the northern Earth begins to generate a surplus in June (Radishes at least, and all the Leaves we can eat).  Libra is the Rebirth of Community (Air), as the northern September Harvest requires Cooperation and Fair (ideally anyway) distribution.  And Capricorn is the Rebirth of Attention to Material Form (Earth), as Winter cold and snow demand a Focus on Physical Survival in December.

In parts of the Southern Hemisphere, the same pattern could be repeated because most of the habitable Southern Hemisphere landmass lies much closer to the Equator than in the Northern Hemisphere.  In many locations Aries represents recovery from estivation rather than recovery from hibernation.

We can see Western Civilization as a massive social experiment to see what happens when the Individual is celebrated as the Highest Expression of Huperity, rather than the Community.  Though it very much feels like a failure, it’s not a pass/fail test, it’s an experiment.  The Balance between Community and Individual isn’t a linear trend, it’s a sine curve.  As China replaces Europe and the US in the role of World trendsetter, the Balance will swing back toward Community.  Not that the Chinese are any less Patriachal, they’re just more likely to be smart enough to know when Change is necessary.

Here are a few Timepoints that you can compare to your Journal and your Schedule…

  • Mid-January through November 2015 – Quaoar on Galactic Center
  • Early February through December 2016 – Pholus on Galactic Center
  • Late January 2017 – Quaoar enters Capricorn
  • Early March through November 2017 – Saturn on Galactic Center
  • Late March 2017 – Pholus and Quaoar simultaneously Stationary (turning Retrograde) while one Degree apart across the Capricorn Cusp
  • Early June 2017 – Quaoar backs into Sagittarius
  • Mid-September 2017 – Pholus and Quaoar simultaneously Stationary (turning Direct) in Sagittarius
  • Early December 2017 –
    • Pholus Initiates Saturn in 29 Sagittarius, “A fat boy mowing the lawn of his house on an elegant suburban street
    • Quaoar re-enters Capricorn
  • Late December 2017 –
    • Saturn enters Capricorn
    • Quaoar Initiates Saturn in 1 Capricorn, “An Indian chief claims power from the assembled tribe
  • 2018-2021 – Pholus and Quaoar continue to Dance closely at their Stations
  • 20 February 2022 – Quaoar Initiates Pholus in 7 Capricorn, “A veiled prophet speaks, seized by the power of a god”

Remember that the Digital Age begins in earnest in late 2020.

We can’t address Response-Ability without commenting on “New Age Guilt.”  New Age Guilt is a misunderstanding of Taking-Responsibility-to-Create-Your-Own-Reality that occurs when Creating is seen from the Perspective of Blame.  I’ve a friend that suffers from a serious disease and a nasty hospital-acquired superbug infection.  If they try to Take the Blame for this Past Creation, then absolutely it may turn out to feel like Guilt, though I’m not sure how that Blame or Guilt would be related to “New Age.”

Blame, remember, means Assigning Cause to Past events and circumstances.  Sure, with perfect foresight they might have been somehow able to sidestep the Triggers for their misfortune, but it would be a real stretch to Blame them for it.  On the other hand, my friend is absolutely Taking Responsibility to Improve their Future Outcomes, which is exactly how Response-Ability is defined.  They are very much Intending to Create an Improved Reality for themselves in the Future, preferably the Near Future.

In Jane Roberts’s seminal Nature of Personal Reality, Seth points out that it’s Easy to know the nature of our Karma, all we need to do is summarize our Current-Lifetime Personal History.  So sure, if you want to Blame someone’s Present-Moment Ego for all of their Past Lives, you might aver that they have “Created Their Own Past Reality,” but what a stretch that would be.  It would be like that movie where they prosecuted people for crimes that they might commit in the Future.

That doesn’t mean we don’t all have the Opportunity to review our Current-Lifetime Personal History and try to fathom how to read our Limiting Beliefs from the Funhouse Mirror that it is, and use the information to reduce our Self-Sabotage.  Karma remember is Inertia – Olde Habits and their underlying Beliefs – not Retribution.  The notion that we need to be Punished, for whatever, is just Power-Over, usually perpetrated by Religions and Governments.  So it may make some sense to speak of Religious Guilt or Government Guilt.

Another way to look at the difference between Blame and Response Ability, is to look at how our Ego is defined in our self-concept.  If our Operating Ego is Merged with our Individual Soul, then we may be Open to encompassing all of our other Past and Parallel Lives, and extending our Response Ability to some of the issues in those Lifetimes, including any hypothetical Habits and Beliefs Created in those Lifetimes that may linger into the current Lifetime. Of course we’re talking about Sainthood here.

If on the other hand our Ego is Merged with our Physical Body, which Fear of Death would Betray, since our Soul is immortal; or Merged with our Dualistic mind, which would be Betrayed by the presence of Either/Or Judgment of any kind; or Merged with our Emotions and Betrayed by Resistance or Attachment to any of them.  Knowing this could help us define our homework.

Fate is what happens TO us when we’re Unconscious of the Archetypes (Karma) that run our Lives.  When we bring these into Consciousness we gain the Power to Choose otherwise, often referred to as “Free Will.”  Identifying with our Physical or mental or Emotional Bodies keeps Archetypes frozen in the Unconscious.  Identification with our Individual Soul is an ambitious Goal that most of will never achieve.  However, every step we can take in that direction will reduce our Self-Sabotage.

We can never say how accurate and how metaphorical we might be when sending a Healing to someone else (or even to ourself!), but when I send a Theta Healing to my friend for their affliction, the picture I get is one of Panic.  When I then send a Healing for their affliction and their Panic and their Belief that the superbug can kill their physical body, the picture I get is one of Peace and Competence.  So if we revert to the previous Response-Ability 3 post for Guidance, we might Wonder if it would help my friend to Ask themself whether they have an Ancient memory and a Held Emotion around Fear of Being Poisoned, and if so to see where it might lead to Tap that Out and Poor-Sweetheart it.

Moving from Blame to Response-Ability isn’t easy, because Blame is a Closed Universe.  There are no logical paths out of Blame; the only way to exit is is to PIAVA an exit.  Given our conditioning it’s even more difficult, but we’re even better off if we can glimpse the World through eyes other than Cause and Effect.  Cause and Effect is absolutely dependent on Linear Time, and every Spiritual tradition on the Planet advises that All There Is Is Now. 

Without Cause and Effect, there is no Blame.  Response-Ability can run completely on PIAVAs – no need for Cause and Effect at all.  Your PIAVAs don’t “Cause” your Future Outcomes, they “merely” have potential to shift the Beliefs that Control your Perceptions of “Reality.”

Response-Ability 3

May 16, 2017

Given how we Interpreted the various Angles to Pholus earlier (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/05/14/response-ability/)…

  • Galactic Headquarters is telling us that Recovering our Abandoned Genius is not just The Most Important Thing, it’s also Critical for our Survival
  • Much Grace is available to us if we Interview our Mission for the Lifetime in the context of what Galactic Headquarters is telling us
  • The Pain that is likely to be involved in our Held Emotions and Despair that we’ve never been able to Heal them
  • Our Life Force is in the Balance
  • We have much to Learn

How do we take Full Responsibility for this?

Well, the first thing we need to do is Change our preposition…

How do we become Fully Responsible TO this?

We can start at the bottom and work up…

  • We have much to Learn:
    • That’s a shift of Attitude already, as we’re advised to approach the issue with Curiosity, hoping to grok things which we haven’t grokked before.  That’s a lot different from the pre-baked Rhetoric which we’ve been hearing, and probably speaking.
  • Our Life Force is in the Balance: 
    • Where in our Life do we suffer Lack?  We need to take a Searching Inventory of that, to determine if this is an Unmet Need, or an Excess Ambition.  The flip side of Sustainability is Sustenance – what can we do without, and what do we really Need?  Do we go to bed Satisfied with our day?  Do we wake up Excited about our new day?  How could we shift to add Excitement and Satisfaction to our Life?
  • The Pain that is likely to be involved in our Held Emotions and Despair that we’ve never been able to Heal them:
    • What’s the worst thing we can Imagine?  How would that make us Feel?  Are we completely Comfortable with those Feelings?  How would we Respond to the worst thing we can Imagine?  Would our Feelings inhibit our Response, or support it?  Can we practice Poor-Sweethearting those Feelings?
    • How would we approach our Death?  With Fear?  How can we shift that so we approach it with Loving Kindness?  What if how we approach our Death has a lot to do with how much Fun our “Next” Lifetime will be?  How often have we Experienced Ego Death in our Current Lifetime?  Can we tell the difference between Ego Death and Physical Death?
  • Much Grace is available to us if we Interview our Mission for the Lifetime in the context of what Galactic Headquarters is telling us:
    • Do we have a rough idea of what our Mission is in this Lifetime, why we took Form as a Huper at this time?  Or did it just Happen To us?  If there’s a part of us that groks, more or less, why we’re Here Now?  Maybe it would be useful to PIAVA getting to know that part of us?
  • Galactic Headquarters is telling us that Recovering our Abandoned Genius is not just The Most Important Thing, it’s also Critical for our Survival:

    • That’s a pretty heavy Assignment.  Do we have an inkling what Galactic HQ is talking about?  Maybe it would be useful to PIAVA increased Clarity around this?  We don’t want Understanding; that just rearranges the deck chairs.  We already know that we Need is to be Open to grokking things which we haven’t grokked before.  Grokking involves the Heart, not the mind.

As the Transformation Game says, “The most difficult tasks are only given to the most competent people.”

Response-Ability

May 14, 2017

 

Here’s some Wisdom for us, from Suzanne Lie, Channeling the Arcturians…

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.co.uk/2017/05/driving-to-my-new-life-sue-lie-and.html

“Please remember that real is a third dimensional word, the term ‘real’ is much more a perceptual decision than a reality.  For uncountable incarnations, humans have perceived the third dimension as real, the fourth dimension as dreamtime, or perhaps a meditation or creativity, and the fifth dimension was experienced as a fantasy, a desire, or in the very best case, a distant possible reality.

“What is interesting is that the fifth dimension is actually the threshold into the real worlds.  There are the sixth dimension and beyond real worlds, and the fifth dimension, as the threshold to those real worlds.  This fifth dimensional threshold allows those ones who can cross that threshold to go into the sixth dimension and beyond of ‘real realities.’

“Now let us take a moment to define the term ‘real reality.’  Real reality is a reality in which you take full responsibility, and/or credit, for the experiences that you created.

“In other words, reality is real when you, the creator of that reality, take full responsibility for your creation.  Humans often do not like this component of a ‘real reality’ (as opposed to an illusion of reality) because you must look deeply at your own power of creation, as well as to release all sense of victimization.”

If we speak of Full Responsibility, we have to look at what dwarf planet Pholus is up to, and it’s actually been quite busy…

  • It’s still on the Galactic Center – ie, Galactic Headquarters is asking us to look sharper
  • It’s still Conjunct Quaoar, meaning that it’s Critical for our Survival
  • By now Saturn has inched closer, which is to say, it’s now The Most Important Thing
  • Along with Ixion, which is still Conjunct Saturn and virtually Conjunct Pholus, which tells us that Galactic Headquarters is telling us that Recovering our Abandoned Genius is not just The Most Important Thing, it’s also Critical for our Survival
  • It makes a Grand Trine with Mercury and the North Node, which implies that much Grace is available to us if we Interview our Mission for the Lifetime in the context of what Galactic Headquarters is telling us (see previous bullet)
  • The Grand Trine is really a Kite pointed at the South Node, suggesting that what’s really Most Important is Taking Full Responsibility for our Held Emotions (that is, the Emotions we’d rather Die than Feel)
  • It Squares Chiron, illuminating the Pain that is likely to be involved in our Held Emotions and Despair that we’ve never been able to Heal them – which we must address with Loving Kindness for ourself and our Pain (ie, Poor-Sweethearts)
  • Along with the South Node it’s the base of a Finger of God pointing to Varuna, which says that our Life Force is in the Balance
  • Four of the five corners of the Full Moon’s Grand Quintile remain – Pholus-Quaoar-Saturn-Ixion, Sedna-Sun, Vesta, and Jupiter, though some of the internal Angles are getting ragged.  Nessus is still Quintile Saturn-Ixion, but a bit out of range for Pholus itself.  That is, we have much to Learn, and while some of it will be easy, some of it will be harder to grasp.
  • We didn’t mark it as part of our Grand Unx (see the last picture in The Rose above the Sky at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/05/09/the-rose-above-the-sky/ ), but you can sketch both Pholus and Quaoar in next to Saturn and Ixion in the upper right.

Much more to be said about Responsibility, but I’m out of time at the moment, so we’ll continue Tuesday if not tomorrow.

 

 

Next Up: Responsibility

March 26, 2017

As we said earlier, both of the last two weeks of March are Heavy.  We’ve already introduced the 3/27 New Moon, at…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/03/24/big-weeks-iii

Our next big Adventure is about Responsibility, as dwarf planet and Centaur Pholus Stands Still at 1am PDT 28 March, five hours after the New Moon.  A planet is at its Strongest when it Stands Still, and the New Moon will stretch Pholus-Stationary Energy over several weeks afterward.

I doubt that we can explain the difference between Blame and Responsibility too often.  In a Nutshell, Blame looks backward to Assign Cause, while Responsibility looks forward to Change Outcomes.  Yes, there may be some backward-looking to seek potential levers to facilitate Future Change, but it will be incidental.  

Blame is a Universe unto itself, a Closed System.  Like Cause and Effect, when you’re inside the Bubble, you can’t see out of it.  People who can’t see beyond the opaque Wall of Blame often misinterpret the need for Responsibility as “New Age Guilt,” especially as it applies to dis-ease.  Taking Responsibility for our own Health has nothing to do with who or what causes dis-ease.  It has to do with what we do about it in the Future.

In the Greek Iconography, Pholus met his demise as a result of failing to Attend to what was in retrospect The Most Important Thing, and for taking only partial Responsibility for it.  So when we look into the Unconscious for parallels to Pholus what do we find?  While it may be Conscious Disregard, it’s more often Lack of Awareness itself.

If my Bones ache from eating Gluten two days earlier, it may not be easy to make the Connection.  If my sinuses flush from eating Sugar, will I believe I’m coming down with a cold and, through my thoughts and Emotional response, actually Create a cold?  It’s not like there are ever any shortages of cold germs – it’s my Vulnerability that can make the difference, including my Emotional Vulnerability.

With an Infinity of factors to Take Responsibility for, how do we Discover or Decide which ones to Pay Attention to, and which ones are The Most Important – especially since becoming Conscious of an Infinity of factors sounds impossible?  We hone our Intuition; it’s the only tool we have that can cover the waterfront.  

Long ago when I studied Time Management, the bottom line was that it was necessary to always have a handle on, and Attend to, The Most Important Thing.  What they didn’t Teach, but what was obvious to me, was that in order to know what The Most Important Thing is, we need to keep our Intuition sharp.  And in order to sense any relevant Intuition, we’d need to be Relaxed.  So it turns out that The Most Important Thing is to be Relaxed.

For which PIAVA is well suited – if we Trust it.  “The Gods” don’t appreciate it if we PIAVA the same thing over and over again without first Changing the Subject, Paying Attention, and adjusting our PIAVA accordingly.  So Trusting that our PIAVAs are in the right queue is important.  Luckily, asteroid Eurydike, which symbolizes Trust, Stands Still at 2am PDT on 1 April (no foolin’), so we get good practice here.

So with Pholus Standing Still our best bet may be to PIAVA something on the order of…

“Great Spirit, please Grant me Clarity around The Most Important Thing I need to Take Responsibility for, and Help me know how to do it best.”

“I Wonder how I might Always Pay Attention to my Intuition and Take Full Responsibility for Acting accordingly.”

On 31 March (2am PDT), dwarf planet Quaoar Stands Still.  Pholus and Quaoar have been traveling together for a long time, and their Stations have been near-simultaneous, and near to the Galactic Center.  Quaoar is about our Survival Guidance.  When the World is Stable, Survival Guidance comes from the Ancestors.  When the World is Changing Rapidly, as it is now, we also need our Intuition.

We’re also aided here by Saturn, which in turn Stands Still on 5 April (10pm PDT).  That’s more than a week away, with two other Stations in between, so normally we’d keep our focus on the near term.  But Saturn is actually Stationary as we speak, within two arcminutes of its ultimate Station.  I have no doubt that this is why we’ve been called to talk a lot about The Most Important Thing, which is Saturn’s Mantra.

We don’t like to Abandon our Secondary Priorities, because they’re our Fallbacks should our First Priority encounter difficulty.  But when Saturn is Lit Up, the message is that our Backup Priorities will Take Care of Themselves for a while, so we don’t need to worry about putting them on the back shelf – they’ll be waiting for us when we get around to picking them up again.

So this week the program tells us that The Most Important Thing is to Trust that all Prayers are answered while we PIAVA to have our Intuition working flawlessly to keep us Informed about what we need to Take Full Responsibility For in order to ensure our Survival, and how to accomplish exactly that.

Now, bear in mind (it’s part of PIAVA actually) that when we are ready to Receive, the Universe gives us exactly what we Need.  When we aren’t ready to Receive, the Universe gives us Information about Why We Aren’t Ready.  So yes, we Trust our PIAVAs, but when they don’t seem to “deliver,” we Take Full Responsibility for Paying Attention to see what they did deliver, because whatever that was, it contains the Information we need to adjust our PIAVA so we Ask for what we are ready to Receive.

Theta Healing is particularly good at this, because it can provide instant feedback, so we don’t need to wait a day or so after Changing the Subject, before we Pay Attention.  A Theta Healing might be…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Receive Clarity around The Most Important Thing I need to Take Responsibility For, and how to do exactly that.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank You!  [Breathe]  Show me!”

When you Command “Show Me!” you should See the Clarity being “Delivered” – or, you may Feel it or Know it or Hear it, or Automatic-Write it – whatever Channel your Intuition works best in.  Or, you’ll See or Feel what else you need to add to your PIAVA.  For instance, you might Feel a sense of Inadequacy, and need to modify your PIAVA to something like…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I am Worthy of Receiving Clarity around The Most Important Thing I need to Take Responsibility For and how to do exactly that, and that I Receive it.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank You!  [Breathe]  Show me!”

January, Week 2, Early

January 8, 2017

We are all Perps as much as we are Victims.  We are always In Balance; what Feels Out of Balance is Balanced by the Unconscious.  As a Victim, at the very least we are Perpetrating a toxic Lack of Self-Love upon our Victim Self.  Moving into Balance involves bringing the Unconscious Ballast into Consciousness.  We do that with a Searching and Fearless Inventory of what Frightens us – most especially Death, since most Fears reduce to that – Owning our Fears, and Empathizing with ourselves over them: “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Scared of Death, aren’t you.”

That does two things; it gets us Honest with ourself so we no longer have to Protect ourself against what we Deny and Fear.  And it shifts our “Assemblage Point,” or Identity, from being in Fear to being in Compassion.  Examine the syntax…  

“I am Scared” literally means that Fear and I are Merged as One.

“I Feel Scared” means that I have Separated myself from my Fear far enough that I now Recognize it as an Emotion rather than a Reality.

“You poor Sweetheart, you’re Scared, aren’t you” means that I am now looking back at my (now formerly) Frightened self with Compassion.  You can shorten that last sentence to “I am … Compassion.”

This isn’t wordplay, this is quite Real.

Then we Tap ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 ).  “Even though I’m Frightened by the Idea of Death, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  It’s the same process – your Identity Assemblage Point is shifting from “I am Fear” to “I am Feeling” to I am Self-Love.”  But with Tapping, you’re also programming your Energy Body, as you tap on the Acupressure points at the end of each Meridian.

Note that we took a detour there.  Instead of “Even though I’m Frightened by Death, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself” we said “… I’m Frightened by the Idea of Death …” – which is actually usually the case.  So we go from “I am Fear” to “I am Thinking” to “I am Feeling” to “I am Self-Love.”

The two processes – “You poor Sweetheart…” and Tapping complement one another perfectly.  Tapping is Energy Medicine to calm your Emotions.  Calming your Emotions quiets the Vicious Circle of Thoughts that reinforce your Unpleasant Emotions.  “You poor Sweetheart…” puts you – your Identity, your Psychic Core – in a position to Recover the Abandoned parts of yourself that are Scared.  They’re Scared for good reason – they’ve been Abandoned, Banished.  Except in Primary Cultures where one Learns Self-Reliance as part of one’s Childhood, being Abandoned means Death.

Saying “Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade” to yourself is similar, but starts in the mental.  You’re declaring your Intention (PIAVAing in other words) that your negative thoughts be Canceled, that their Vibration (Energy, Emotion) be Neutralized, and that you be Upgraded (into Self-Love).  Every Prayer is answered, and every thought is a Prayer.  Becoming Conscious of your Self-Sabotaging thoughts is an important part of bringing the Self into Balance so your Perp and your Victim Cancel one another Out like two identical sine waves that are perfectly out of phase ( if you’re interested in the science, see https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Superposition_principle#Wave_interference ).

Helplessness and Powerlessness are Real, and it’s easy to be Victims of Helplessness and Powerlessness.  What is required is that we Be Responsible To – not For – our Helplessness and Powerlessness.

It’s not our Fault – that’s Blame, which is Looking to the Past to assign Fault.  We need to move to Responsibility, which involves Looking at the Future with the Intention of Changing Outcomes.  To be Responsible For something sounds a whole lot like being To Blame for it.  To be Responsible To something means that  we give it our Attention and Obedience.  What does it mean to be Responsible To our Powerlessness?

We can start by switching from “I am Powerless” to “I Feel Powerless.”  From there we can go to “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Powerless, aren’t you.”  We may never have the Power to Change the World (though that’s debatable), but we always have the Power to Change our Relationship to the World.  Changing ourself is the onliest Power we have.  So we’re never actually Powerless.  

We may have to Break a lot of Habits and Tap Out a lot of Emotions to Create Significant Change, but we have the Power.  We just have to take the first step.  That’s how Habits are Changed, through Repetition, starting with the first step.

As adults, most of the time our Fear of Abandonment (which our Fear of Death usually reduces to) isn’t fully Present Time – though at least in the US, our modern neo-Dickensian Culture is in fact Abandoning us.  Most of our Fear of Abandonment is a regression to the Real Abandonment we Suffered as Children, when we really didn’t have the Skills to Survive on our own, so we had to depend upon our Abusers, even though we loathed our Abuse.

But guess what.  Even though we didn’t have the Power to Change our Abuse or our Abusers, we did have the Power to Change our Relationship to our Abuse, and we did just that.  We numbed out, we went into Denial, we Learned how to put on many of the Masks that we’ve been Taking Off lately.  Denial is a healthy psychological process.  It’s what we do with Overwhelm.  If we don’t have the Skill to deal with it otherwise, we Deny it.  It’s how we Survive, losing a battle but staying Alive to potentially win the war later.

Denial is Power, part of our Skillset.  So is bringing Ballast out of the Unconscious so we can Change our Relationship to it.  We Denied our Abandonment as Children, we Recover our Abandonment as adults, by bringing it into Consciousness where we can Recognize the chain of thoughts and Emotions that feed it, Own them, “You poor Sweetheart…” them, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade them, and Tap them Out.  Not always Easy, but we have to start somewhere.  It requires only Persistence, and our Abandonment is the best Motivation there is for Persistence.

We didn’t mention earlier that before it goes Stationary in a few hours (2am PST 8 January), Mercury sticks a toe back into Sagittarius.  There in the penultimate Degree of Sagittarius, it Conjoins Quaoar (Survival), Pholus (Full Responsibility), and the Galactic Center (Communique from Headquarters) – that’s where it is as I write this.

Another thing I forgot to mention, as by “coincidence” I didn’t notice it till now, is that Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) is still Conjunct Varuna (the Life Force), which has dipped its toe back into Cancer.  So the Mercury Station is Quincunx (Curiosity) to Vesta-Varuna – in some Paradoxical and not-so-Paradoxical ways, our Epiphanies (Mercury Stationary) about Survival and Responsibility (Quaoar-Pholus) are closely Related to Letting Go of our Unconscious Beliefs that are Anti-Life -Beliefs that aren’t Self-Loving.

Remember too that Vesta was a corner of that Grand Quintile (Learning Opportunity) that we’re enjoying today.  So the GQ is…

  • Vesta-Varuna (Rooting out Anti-Life Unconscious Beliefs)
  • Hopi (Respect for All Things – including ourself)
  • Juno-Saturn-Ixion-Nemesis (Recovery of our Abandoned Genius and the Ego Deaths and Expansion of Consciousness that are necessary to get there)
  • Pallas-Venus-OR10-Nessus-South Node (Irruption of Current- and Past-Life Memories of Abuse and the Setting of Boundaries against same)
  • Moon (Authenticity)

We’re Learning about how all of these things are Related.  How long does this Grand Quincunx stay with us?  Well, the Moon is the obvious “weak link,” as moving about half a Degree per hour, it will only stay in the GQ for about half a day (using our usual three Degrees of Sensitivity, plus another three Degrees to traverse the Angle to the Ixion and Nessus Stellia).

But even without the Moon in the GQ, we have four of the five corners of the Pentagram, which makes the Strongest point of the almost-GQ the Vacancy that the Moon temporarily occupies today.  

That position is the Midpoint of Taurus, one of the four Power Points of the Zodiac, aka the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse.  Prior to our current Precession of the Equinoxes, these were the locations of the four Royal Stars of Persia.  In mid-Taurus Aldebaran, greatest Star of all, heralded the Persian Spring, and signified Success as long as strict Integrity and Honor was followed – our Authenticity corner in the GQ.

Today, post-Precession, the Star Menkar – A Victim of the Unconscious – occupies the Midpoint of Taurus.  I’m not making this up; check Solar Fire or Bernadette Brady!  What a “coincidence,” that [Liberation from] our Victimhood by the Perp in the Unconscious occupies this Location.  The Unconscious is non-Dual; in the Unconscious Victimhood and Liberation from Victimhood are the same Energy, differing only by whether heads or tails is showing.  As Conscious Beings we have the Power to Choose, so I Choose Liberation.

The other “weak link” in the GQ is asteroid Hopi.  As an asteroid, it would normally vacate its position in about two weeks.  But Hopi turns Retrograde on 24 January, so Hopi remains within Sensitivity from December through February at the very least.  There are very slow-moving “planets” in all of the other corners – Varuna, Ixion, OR10, and Menkar, which moves only at the speed of Precession.

The next Big Adventure for this Graduate Course in Liberation from our Archetypes is 12 January, when the Moon crosses Varuna and Vesta.

January, Week 1, Update 2

January 4, 2017

We’ve amended the December beginnings of our “Week” with a few Angles previously omitted, and we’ve gotten ourselves up to date through 7 January, in revising…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/01/02/january-week-1/

Tomorrow we’ll tackle the 8 January Mercury Station, the 9 January Eris Station, and the many other exhausting Dramas that fill January.

I’m grateful that when I catch myself sinking into vague or acute Physical or Emotional Discomfort and trying to “figure out what’s wrong,” reminding myself that “This is about Letting Go,” and that it’s what’s right, shifts the Energy almost immediately.  Their are plenty of Heavies yet to come.

Shedding

December 30, 2016

Snagged on a poignant Vignette this morning, I caught myself beginning to indulge my Pain.  So I Shed – which feels somewhere between Opening my Angelwings and pouring a quart of (dry) water over my head – and in the process Realized that Stephen Levine’s writings would be particularly Powerful for us in this phase of our Transition.  My copies of his books aren’t handy, but I believe it was Healing into Life and Death or Guided Meditations, Explorations, and Healings that I was thinking of, probably the latter, the one full of incredibly Heart-Opening Guided Meditations.

There is a big difference between Forgiveness and Boundaries.  Forgiveness is a Discovery, not a Decision – you wake up one day and Discover that you aren’t Angry at them any more.  Which doesn’t mean you can’t Invite Forgiveness into your Life, as Stephen often does in these Meditations.  This is a Memory, not a quote…

“Whatever you may have done to Hurt me, Consciously or otherwise, I Forgive you.

“Whatever I may have done to Hurt you, Consciously or otherwise, I Ask that you Forgive me.”

I don’t think Stephen would mind if I misquoted him or borrowed his Work; he had an Ego as Inclusive as the Galaxy.  We’re approaching the first anniversary of his Transition out of his Incarnation…  

https://www.ramdass.org/remembering-stephen-levine-1937-2016/

Hurt is complicated – it can be a Commission or an Omission, or something else entirely, often “just” a Misalignment, where you’re trying to relate but you’re on different tracks.  But where there’s Pain, Inviting Forgiveness is useful.  This one is a quote, from http://levinetalks.com/Writings/single_post/ego-death 

“In the course of breaking the narrow confines of the self-image, a whole new world becomes available when you find out who you aren’t, including your suffering, which wipes out most of your precious/painful identity.  This can be a little disconcerting.

“Just before my face fell off, I looked back at my life as though it were my own.  I was possessed by memory.
“But as I passed behind the well-woven tapestry of appearances, history was undone.  The knots and snags that hold the illusion in place unraveling.
“The suffering defended so long dissolved like the Cheshire smile as a karmic wind caught a loose end and pulled . . .
“In transit beyond the known.”

And if you haven’t yet, and you can spare a week where you can’t do anything else but read (because it’s so compelling), Stephen’s Who Dies? is required reading for anyone.  Actually there’s a good chance you’ll find it to be The Most Important Thing you’ve ever done, so “sparing” a week might not be the right verb.

Back in the 1980s, when Pluto was in Scorpio (“The Way Out is Through”), before it crossed Sagittarius (“The Way Out is Letting Go”) into Capricorn (“Just Fix It Already”), a wonderful body of Literature was produced by the
“Recovery Movement.”  One of my favorites was Susan Forward’s Toxic Parents.  Nothing against parents, and mine were by no means the worst, but this book just does a great job of differentiating Forgiveness from Boundaries, and we need to understand this.

Uranus-Eris I

June 7, 2016

There are several layers to the 8-9 June Eris Initiation of Uranus.  The Initiation, and the next Century that it colors (the Cycle lasts about a Century), is about Abundance – Abundance of Spirit, and Abundance of the Material toys that Spirit likes to play with.  Abundance, of course, means Having Enough to Share.

Uranus symbolizes our Connection to our Individual Soul, and Eris represents the Revelation of what’s been Denied – and what threatens to remain Denied.  This is the Energy we’ve been dealing with all year so far: Removing our Masks, getting Honest with ourself, Insights about our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs, the Ego Death we need to endure in order to Expand into our Life Mission, and most prominently the Rebirth we’re Experiencing in the process.

Where has your Attention been so far this year?  On the Ego Death, or on the Rebirth?  If you Learn to recognize the symptoms of Ego Death, you can put its discomfort into Perspective while you look forward to, and PIAVA, the glorious Future your Rebirth promises.  Intention follows Attention.  The more you dwell on the Ego Death, the more you’re likely to depress your Future.

Details

(1)  The Big Picture in the first layer is all about the Rebirth.  As Rebirths go, this one is Blessed.  If we can be Present with the difficulties that are normal for Ego Death and Rebirth, the result promises Abundance of Spiritual and Material rewards.

(2)  A complexity that could hinder the Grace if allowed to develop negatively (for instance, if we failed to Love our Fear to Death, or if we sank into Despair about how distant we seem to be from Living from our True, Effortless, Joyful, Playful, Shameless Talents), can be resolved by PIAVAing “Ganeshi, please remove all Obstacles between me and Embracing my Despair” and “I Affirm that my most Powerful Skills are available for me to use without Fear.”  Or something like that.

(3)  Recovery of the Soul’s message that we’ve been Denying (seeking Truth) will leverage the Energy locked in our Fear of (Ego) Death, and in our Despair, to Power an even more profound Rebirth.  Think about it; haven’t you been thinking about how your Future looks and Feels more inviting to you than it has in a while?  Haven’t you been smiling to yourself more often in the last several days?

(4)  All year we’ve been unavoidably dwelling on what’s not been working, because it’s forced us to detour from our regular schedule to put out the Brushfires and frighten away the Wolves.  Well, we should be done with that now.  In the process we’ve Let Go of a lot of old baggage we no longer need, and, now streamlined, we’re Free to Manifest our Heart’s Desire.

(5)  The ring-pass-not between Ego Death and Rebirth is Confusion.  Most of us instantaneously convert our Confusion to either Fear or Anger, or both.  Use that Energy to protect your Boundaries, either by taking precautions against whatever your Fear warns against, or by Safely expressing your Anger to those who would Abuse you.  Then, when you’re Safe, go back and look for the Confusion beneath the Fear or Anger.

There’s a Question there – what is it?  Maybe “Why don’t people Respect me?” or “Why are people so Selfish?” or “What did I ever do to them?”  Whatever it is, make it into a PIAVA.  Maybe “I Wonder how I might command Respect” or “What would it Feel like to be as Selfish as they are, without violating my own Values” or “God/Goddess, please show me how I might Act differently, that would produce a better result.”

Think about the areas of your Life that have been working just fine.  “I Wonder what’s different about my Energy in these areas that are working, in contrast to my Energy in the areas that aren’t working.”

(6)  A major result of this Ego-Death Rebirth, is that we will be permanently Changed, as we are Learning to apply our Energy directly toward our Desires in a very Sustainable way.  You’ve probably already detected those Changes, eh?

The Astrology

(1)  The Eris-Uranus Initiation, which takes place at 24 Aries (a Vision of Abundance) is at the base of a Haumea Kite (Rebirth with Grace).  Haumea is Conjoined by the asteroid Nemesis – Rebirth is the Nemesis of the Olde Ego.  The arms of the Kite are Sappho (Self-Love) and Ixion (our Forbidden Genius).  The Grand Trine that forms the body of the Kite shines great Grace on the mantra of Soul-Love-Genius.  The Kite itself promises Rebirth into this mantra.

(2)  The arms of the Kite form the Trine atop a Square Fez, as both Sappho and Ixion are Squared by planets one Sign away on either side of Uranus-Eris.  In this Square Fez, the determining Quincunxes are Sappho-to-Chiron (Embracing our Despair) and Ixion-to-Sedna (Overcoming Fear of Embracing our Forbidden Genius).  The secret to resolving a Fez is to Surrender any difficulty in the Squares (Sedna-to-Sappho, or Fear to Love, and Ixion-to-Chiron, or Despair over ever being able to pursue our Deepest Desires), to the Mystery (ie, PIAVA) of the Quincunxes.  Sedna is Conjoined by Mercury and Atropos (Awareness of Fear of Death, or Awareness of the Death of Fear).

(3)  Chiron and Sedna-Mercury-Atropos make a Yod to Haumea-Nemesis.  Uranus-Eris makes it into a Yod Kite.  I’m told by my CAO that folks call this a Boomerang Yod, and that the focus remains on the point of the Yod (Haumea-Nemesis), but with the Power of Uranus-Eris acting like a bow-string to activate Haumea-Nemesis (Ego Death/Rebirth) even more strongly.

(4)  This Fez overlain on a Trine Kite makes a huge Five-Pointed Star (Manifestation, Power, Magic), also pointing at Haumea-Nemesis – Yet another Booster for Rebirth into our Future.  It looks a little like a Jack-in-the-box hidden inside one of those old wire-handled white thin-cardboard take-out containers from a Chinese restaurant.  We might even call the Configuration a Jack-in-the-Box, or a Chinese Takeout.

(5)  Mars (Energy, Anger) butts in, Opposing Sedna-Mercury-Atropos, and making a T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) to Sappho, in Leo, doubling our Challenge to Self-Love.  The Vacancy (26 Aquarius) that will make this into a Balanced Grand Cross is about Innovation – taking what you know about one field, and applying it to solve a problem in another field.

(6)  Mars is one corner of the foot of a Quintile Yod pointing at Ceres (Sustainability), along with Jupiter, which is Conjunct the North Node (Expanding into our Lifetime Mission, and into more directly pursuing our Desires).

Eris-Uranus New Moon

June 3, 2016

Bottom Line

The 4 June New Moon is a major trigger for the 9 June Eris-Uranus Initiation, which is about Getting Honest with Ourselves around our formerly-Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  We’ve also referred to them as Masks and Archetypes, and Despair.  This is really about Rebirth.  Unfortunately it may not be the most Effortless Birth, as our favorite Pattern is to cling to our Olde Ego while the New Ego is trying to get born.  That’s very painful.

We have to Let Go and Let God/Goddess.  Trust the process.  Whenever the going gets tough, recognize that you’re in Resistance to the Change.  It may not at all be obvious what else you can do besides Resist – Resistance is your Olde Ego trying to Survive, and that’s exactly what Egos do for a living, they’re good at it, and that’s why you hire them, because when they Survive, you Survive.  Except during the occasional Rebirths; we have to endure an Ego Death to allow a Rebirth.  

Your New Ego isn’t formed yet, and while we may have an inkling where to find its chrysalis, we won’t know what it Feels like.  So we’re stuck with PIAVAs (“God/Goddess, please give me a clue what to do besides Resist” or “I Wonder what it will Feel like when I finish wriggling out of this old carapace that’s so tight I can’t Breathe”) and Tapping (“Even though I feel worthless and hopeless, I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself”) and Empathizing (“You poor Sweetheart, you really feel like you’re being tortured, don’t you”) and the like.

Once you succeed in Letting Go, you’ll be surprised at how quickly it gets Easy.

 

Details

1.  There’s a big Challenge to Embrace our Despair.  Remember that “Unconscious Despair” is failure to Believe that what you Need is even Possible.  Set aside your YesButs for a moment and Imagine that you could have what you Need or Want.  Now go back to your YesButs and convert each one to a YesAnd.  “YesBut you just aren’t Sexy enough to get that” might become “YesAnd I just Need one Lover.”  “YesBut you’ll never be able to earn enough Money for that” may be “YesAnd What If someone gave it to me as a Gift!”

You want to Touch that Feeling that you would have if your Dream came true, and hold it as long as you can, till it becomes a when rather than an if,  If you can hold that Feeling enough, it won’t matter whether your Dream actually Manifests, because you’ll already have what your Dream would have given you – Peace, Joy, Excitement, Self-Respect, Power, Grace.  What’s a Lover or a Red Convertible compared to that!  And if you had those Feelings most of the time, you could probably score Lovers and Convertibles pretty easy, if you still wanted to.

This is the difference between your Deepest Desires and your Mission in the Lifetime.  What you Desire isn’t actually the Object of your Dreams, it only seems that way because you live in a Material World.  What you actually Crave, what you came her to achieve, is How the Object of your Dreams Makes you Feel.  From that Feeling you can have anything you Ask for.  And guess what!  You’ll be Asking for different things, and they won’t have any YesButs.  It’s a Hologram, y’know, and you’re the projector.

2.  While this is a big Challenge, it doesn’t come without tools that can actually make it pretty Easy.  However, to manifest the Ease, we have to realize that Rebirth is the Ego’s Least Favorite party game, and Love our Olde Ego into oblivion.  Try Gratitude that It’s gotten you this far.  Try just really really appreciating how incredibly Comfortable your Olde Ego Feels, and PIAVA that your New Ego is going to Feel even more Comfortable once you’ve moved through the Grief of Giving Up your Olde Friend who’s kept you Safe.

3.  What will make your Rebirth Easier?  Getting Honest about what you’ve been trying to hide from yourself.  You may not know the details, but you know the general theme.  Abuse?  You don’t need to remember who or when, you just need to Trust your Feelings about it.  Fear?  Anger?  Embrace them.  Locate them in your Body, and move all of your Attention into the center of that place, and hold it there.  Bring it back when it wanders.  Stay with it till it dissolves or moves.  If it moves, follow it.

Eventually you’ll need to Surrender all Blame.  Blame looks toward the Past to assign Cause, while Responsibility looks toward the Future to improve Outcomes.  Any time you catch yourself attributing some Emotion or Sensation in your Body to any outside Cause, stop and bring your Attention back into your Body.  I’m always gnawing at myself because my neighbors have no idea what I’m trying to do in my Garden, and condemn it as a Jungle.

I need to catch myself thinking that, and bring my Attention back into my own Body.  Those Emotions and Sensations have their Roots in my Personal and Karmic Histories.  Those are my Emotions, the neighbors only trigger them.  I need to take up the Practice of locating them in my Body, and Loving them right where they are, exactly as they are.  If I Reject any Emotion, I dampen them all, and without any of them I’m not a Whole Person, I’m dis-eased.

Use this general model with everything that you suspect may be lurking in your Underwhere – Inadequacy, Self-Hate, Belief in Fate, Addiction, Guilt, Shame, any Limiting Belief, and anything else that comes up.  When the Emotion begins to Overwhelm, Tap it Out.

4.  The whole chart actually falls into a pool of Enormous Grace, but there’s a leak in the pool.  To plug it, we need to recognize the Challenges we’ve Lived through, Honor ourself for Living through them, and be Willing to talk about them so others can Learn from our travails.

 

The Astrology

  1.  Aside from the Eris-Uranus Initiation itself of course, the primary focus of the chart is a Chiron T-Square (Challenge to Convert Despair to Miracles) across and Opposition between an Ixion-Pholus Conjunction (Taking Full Responsibility to Let our Orphaned Genius out of the closet) and a Karma-Chaos Conjunction (But without my old Patterns it all looks Chaotic! or Karma is Dead; Long Live Karma!).
  2. This T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) is actually a Diamond Star (Making what would be difficult, Easy), with Sappho (Self-Love) and a Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction (either Feeling like you had this coming, or Recognizing that Rebirth feels like Death because they’re just different sides of the same Coin) on the feet of the Chiron Yod.
  3. The Eris-Uranus Initiation (Revelation of Denial) is at the focus of a Quintile Yod (huge Learning Opportunity).  However, the Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction Opposes the Eris-Uranus Initiation, converting the QYod into a Quintile Kite and shifting some of the emphasis onto Haumea-Nemesis.  A Yod pointing to a Sedna-Atropos Conjunction (The Demise of Fear, foreshadowed of course by the Fear of Demise) from the base of the Sextile from Haumea-Nemesis to Ixion-Pholus.
  4. Eris-Uranus, Karma-Chaos, Sappho, Haumea-Nemesis, and Ixion-Pholus form five points of a Grand Sextile (Enormous Grace, though we need to take the first step).  The Vacancy is 24 Aquarius, “A person, having overcome their compulsions, shares the deep wisdom that results from their experience: The constructive use to which difficult past experiences can be put as examples for those who are still striving to overcome their compulsions,” aka Archetypes/Masks/Karma.