Fearbruary IV

By now we’re bearing down hard on Fearbruary’s namesake, dwarf planet Sedna, which is about Converting Fear to Power. We’ve been reminding that Fear plus Breathing equals Excitement, Fear plus Tapping equals Grounding and Presence (which is intimidating to would-be antagonists), and Fear plus Kegels equals Power. In addition to a hefty dose of Terror, the Sedna story also contains strong elements of Anger and Competition.

I was into my forties before I realized that Anger was my Habitual Reaction to Fear. Useful when it’s a Fight you can Win, but when Flight or Freeze is Safer, let alone Negotiate, not so much. All Karma is a Powerful Skill, but only when we can Choose to use it when appropriate and not use it when it ain’t. If Karma is a knee-jerk Reaction, it’ll get us in trouble more often than not. We Heal that by getting Conscious about it.

Sedna is at its Strongest (Stationary) as we come up to 1pm PST 8 February, in 28 Taurus. The chart is pretty benign…

The basic Configuration is a “Square Fez with a Chinstrap” – a red-sided trapezoid with a fifth planet at the midpoint of the base. The Chinstrap – dwarf planet Ceres (Sustainability and Sustenance), is where the Power emerges. The two naked Squares (red lines) are where potential Challenges will be spawned – Sedna (Fear) to asteroid Karma (Karma) or Fear about Letting Go of What We Know Best (our Karma), and Pluto (TranceFormation) to dwarf planet Haumea (Rebirth) or Failing to Discern the Difference between Physical Death from Ego Death.

If we could train ourself to instantly Discern an Ego Death from a Threat of Physical Death, and Realize that Resistance is Futile when it comes to Letting Go of the Known (it’s inevitable, and it’ll probably be harder later), our Lives would be so much more Sustainable (the chinstrap), wouldn’t they. So we could Pray for Physical Safety, Pretend we’re Acting in a Play, Enjoy the Drama from the Perspective of the audience, and make the most out of these Opportunities to Practice these two Cosmic Skills (Ego Death and Letting Go of Karma). Letting Go of Karma usually requires an Ego Death anyway, so this is really an Amazing Opportunity.

Note: If you use a Theta Prayer, you can check to see if your prayer will work, modify it and check again, iterating as many times as necessary, till you find just the right Prayer to give you in-the-Gut Confidence in your Safety.

But a Square Fez offers an Alternative to its Challenges, namely its Diagonals (the green lines, which are “Quincunxes,” or 5 Signs long). Notice that each Square is simultaneously in two Tricolors (a triangle made up of a red Square, a green Quincunx, and either a Trine or a Sextile – a long or short blue line). A Tricolor allows one to Liberate the Grace in the blue lines by Embracing the Permanent Curiosity in the green line, which can Resolve the Challenge in the red line.

By Permanent Curiosity we mean Avoiding Trying to Figure It Out – Recognizing that Confusion is one of our most Valuable Emotions and not an invitation to “Left-Brain” Research and Analysis. If we can stay Present with the Confusion Emotion and Learn to Celebrate it, it will lead us to much more Powerful places. Someone once said (Einstein? Maybe) that “We can’t Solve a Problem using the same Thinking that postulated the Problem.” Confusion, if you can Embrace it as the Emotion that it is, will open your Intuition to a kind of Thinking that will Solve the Problem, or more likely, Perspectives that will Reframe the Problem into Opportunities.

A Quincunx is a miniature Mystery School, like a Zen Koan or a piece of a Yin Gate, a Portal to the next step in our Evolution. When you try to contemplate the sound of one hand clapping, for instance, if you take the effort seriously, you’ll be Expanding and Reframing your notions of Sound, of Hands, of Honoring, of Action, and who knows what else, and you might even discover why Beatniks used to “clap” by snapping their fingers.

The Major Tricolors (Square-Quincunx-Trine), like…

Pluto-Square-Haumea-Quincunx-Sedna-Trine-Pluto or TranceFormation Challenging Rebirth which is Curious about Fear and Power and how it might make TranceFormation Effortless,

and Sedna-Square-Karma-Quincunx-Pluto-Trine-Sedna,

…lead to Dumb-Luck Blessings that are typical of Trines. The Minor Tricolors (Square-Quincunx-Sextile), like…

Haumea-Square-Pluto-Quincunx-Karma-Sextile-Haumea or Rebirth making TranceFormation difficult while TranceFormation is in Awe of Inertia, and if we Step into it we can sort of see how Inertia facilitates Rebirth,

and Karma-Square-Sedna-Quincunx-Haumea-Sextile-Karma,

…lead to greater Engagement and probably more Wisdom, as a Sextile doesn’t unlock its Grace till we take the First Step, Participating instead of just Observing. Notice that we’re just following different paths around the lines inside the twelve-sided circle. Each path offers a different Curriculum for us, and if we have the time, we could maximize this Opportunity by following them all. Eventually we’ll end up at Ceres, the chinstrap, and make our Life more Sustainable. We’d just be adding -Sextile-Ceres to the end of each Major Tricolor, and -Quincunx-Ceres to the end of each Minor Tricolor.

So the keys to the Tricolors are Haumea-Quincunx-Sedna, Karma-Quincunx-Pluto, Pluto-Quincunx-Karma, and Sedna-Quincunx-Haumea. And then, if we Chose the more Rewarding but more Effortful Minor Tricolors, we’ll have to add Haumea-Quincunx-Ceres and Karma-Quincunx-Ceres in order to “Cross Go” and Earn our Sustainability Merit Badge (if you haven’t Learned to Fully and Lovingly Embrace All of your Emotions yet, you may not Realize that Earth is just a Very Deep board game). Let’s take an example, say, Haumea-Quincunx-Sedna.

So we have a Koan about the Relationship between Rebirth and Fear/Power. (It might help to remember what Artemisia said about Power in The Findhorn Garden.) Certainly we Fear Rebirth. Our Ego is probably very Attached to our Toys and Colleagues in the Current Incarnation, and loathe to give them up. Those are Intellectualizations, and the Intellect doesn’t have the Power to Evolve us, because it’s basically a Logic machine. Give it some rules and some starting conditions, and it can dummy up a pretty fair simulation. But where is the Evolution in that? We’re just rearranging the deckchairs in our Existing Concept Set.

How might there be Power in Rebirth? How might it Feel to be Conscious of all of our Parallel Lives? Now we’re starting to get into some Koan-like Questions, which may Open us to new Intuitions that Expand our Concept Set. “How might it Feel…” is particularly Open-Ended. If you don’t just find the list of Emotions in the back of your Alexanders book and highlight a few, but Open your Emotional Body to the actual Experience, what might happen? You probably Relive some part of your Past every day. Can you be there in the Cafeteria Line, and also Be Here Now? It might be more inviting to Remember what it was like to Make Love with your All-Time Favorite Lover and also Be Here Now.

Does that feel like fuses blowing in your head? That might be a good sign. One – just One – part of what’s involved with actual Permanent Curiosity (aka Awe or Wonder, but not Wondering about, Wondering at instead), is that we have to Conceive of more Dimensions than we’re used to working with, and different Rules. Since the Universe is Both/And, what is a Contradiction to the Intellect is a Paradox to our Curiosity. Do we even know what a Paradox is, or is it just something unexplainable? It should be something that defies our Concepts of Reality, something that forces us to Choose between what we See and what we Know, or somehow Embrace them both.

A number of the folks in the Antichrist’s Cult may be doing that now, Knowing that just a month ago they were Legends in their Own Minds, but Seeing that now they’re Criminals. Many may Choose to be Martyrs, where both Stories can seem to be True, rather than Expanding their Concept Set to include the possibility that not everyone appreciates White Supremacy, or Expanding their Concept Set to include the possibility that Other People may actually have a right to Exist. But again, these are Intellectualizations. We can’t Predict how any given person will Expand their Consciousness if and when they do, because they’re an Organism much more Complex and Multidimensional than our Observing Mind.

The point is that we may be going through a similar process, where some of what we See and what we Know are splitting apart. If we find ourself trying to figure out how to put Humpty-Dumpty back together again, we may want to Change the Program, and begin to Appreciate Curiosity as the Blessing that it is, as it is, without having to Dissect it. You might also find yourself in a place where you’re being Reborn and your Trances Reformed and your Karma is backing off, you Feel Empowered and Delighted by the process, and it Feels Sustainable. More Power to you!

Wants, Mission, Compromise 1

As we get ready to write about…

• The Station of Makemake (Manifestation) at 16 June 7pm PDT 3 Libra
• The Station of Neptune (Our Relationship to All That Is Larger than Ourself) at 18 June 4:30 pm PDT 17 Pisces
• The Initiation of Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) by Eris (Revelation of What’s Been Denied) in between them at 17 June 9:30 pm PDT 24 Aries

…we find this Channeling of the Adept Sananda by Natalie Glasson about a topic I’ve tried to write about for years, never satisfactorily.  Sananda’s explication is exquisite…

https://www.omna.org/the-most-recent-channeling-from-the-sacred-school-of-omna/

“As you create an intention to follow and develop your spiritual pathway of awakening and remembering your truth, so you will move through levels and layers of ascension training.  Each period of your ascension pathway will focus you upon different areas of your body, thoughts, emotions, spiritual self, continuing until you have a deeper understanding and knowingness of yourself. 

“Your ascension journey and the levels or periods of growth and awakening you move through are unique to you and personal to the desires of your soul.  Humanity as a collective will move through layers and periods of ascension awakening and growth, this will also influence your ascension pathway and experiences. 

“It is most likely that you are evolving beyond the lessons that humanity as a collective are exploring and embodying.  However, this will influence you by returning your focus to old wounds and habits which have been resolved but may need attention at a deeper level or simply require you to confirm that the energies are no longer present within your being.

“Confirmation plays a big part in the ascension process.  You are often being guided to energies that have been resolved, healed or transformed in order to confirm to yourself the growth and understanding that has been made.  It is also a way of ensuring that all energies connected to the previous growth or awakening are balanced, harmonised and aligned before you move forth to explore a new dimension of yourself…”

And, given the recent New Moon, we’re likely to be working on old and new levels and layers of our Self-Sovereignty Issues.  Are we Manifesting What We Want?  What are the Hiccups in that process showing us about What We Still Need to Let Go Of?  Are we Compromising What We Want because of What Others Want?  Or because of What Others In our Personal or Karmic History Wanted?  Be Mindful that What We Want is always a Funhouse-Mirror Reflection of our True Mission.

As we move through this Intense span, Notice frequently What You’re Feeling.  How does it Compare to How You Want to Feel, or How You Expect to Feel when you Receive What You Want?  Are you Grounded?  Are you in Neutrality, or do you have Investments that Need to Bear Fruit before you can Relax into Acceptance?  If you’re Feeling Disappointment by recent Failures of Important Desires, how does your Current Disappointment Compare to your Past Disappointments about this?

You may find Remarkable Progress where there appeared to be crushing Disappointment.  As we “follow and develop our spiritual pathway of awakening and remembering our truth,” What We Want Changes, because We Change.  We Open to a wider Perspective and we see the World Differently.  Our Mission is the same, but our View of it is from a new place.  Celebrate the Shift.

Self-Sovereignty III

We usually talk about the Bummers in each chart first, because that’s how many of us Experience them, and if we first Empathize with what we’re Feeling, we’ll have our ear to show us how to Reframe it into “just” a Teaching Opportunity.  I hope no one gets stuck on the Bummer side of an Interpretation and doesn’t make it over to the Reframe.  If we get stuck on any of the Bummers, we need to go with it; it’s probably one of our Held Emotions, that we need to Re-Experience till we can Let Go of It.

There can be what seems like a huge gulf between the optimistic cheerleading we get from the Arcturians or our Reframes, and the potential Bummers we report or the nightly news.  Of course each of us will resonate with different Bummers, so none of them are likely to be Universal.  It’s basically Both/And in the “Real” World.  The more time we spend Feeling our way into where we Want to be, the faster we’ll Manifest it, for ourself and others.  But we can’t advise against spending time with the Bummers, because that’s how we Let them Go.

Of course, if we’re Addicted to the Bummers, recycling them without giving ourselves Opportunities to Let them Go, that doesn’t help.  And there’s one Bummer that most of us are Addicted to – our Bummer about never being able to Manifest What-We-Really-Want.

One possible way to step off of this treadmill is to always add “…or something like that” to the end of our PIAVAs.  Our Picture of What We Really Want is almost always contaminated by our Unconscious Beliefs, so the more we persist in PIAVAing this imposter, the more we reinforce our Limiting Beliefs.  We always get what we Ask for, but unfortunately, “We” in that sentence includes the Unconscious.

I’m assuming you have an established program of PIAVAing What You Really Want.  No?  If you don’t Ask, how will the Universe know What You Want?  You may want to Explore your Deservingness – which could go either way.  You may have an Unconscious or Semiconscious sense of Entitlement that prevents you from Acting in ways that will Manifest your Desires.  Or you may Unconsciously or Semiconsciously not feel like you Deserve to have your Desires met. 

Or having your Desires met might make you “one of those people” whom you don’t Respect, because some part of you feels or fears that your Desires aren’t socially acceptable or ethically sound.  That would suggest that some Gestalt work would be useful – Ask to talk to the part of you that seems to Want something that Conflicts with What-You-Really-Want.  Suppose for temporary convenience we call that your Conflict-Want.

Then we can make a Guess at what that Conflict-Want might be, and Reframe it so it’s Positive – that would be our “Inverted Conflict-Want.”  Then we can PIAVA Both/And, maybe something like “Ganeshi My Love, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Having Both [What I Really Want] And [my Inverted Conflict-Want], Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely.”

Just as an example, suppose you want Partnership, but you Fear, or alas Remember, that Partnership is so often accompanied by Abuse.  Then we’d Invert Abuse – maybe that would be Respect, or Equality, or Power, or Safety.  Then we can PIAVA Both Partnership And Personal Safety.  While we don’t want to pile too many PIAVAs on top of one another (because we won’t be able to Discern which Unintended Consequences belong to which PIAVA – see below), it doesn’t hurt to rephrase frequently.  So we might Ask for Respect, see how it Feels in our Body, then Ask for Equality or Power, and see how that Feels.  We may need to include more than one word.

The PIAVA (Praying, Intending, Asking, Visualizing, Affirming, Commanding, Wondering, and the like) process includes two additional steps – Changing the Subject and Paying Attention.

If we don’t Change the Subject (put our Attention elsewhere), we’ll remain Stuck in our old Limits.  You won’t find your car keys until you stop thinking about them.

When we’re Consciously and Unconsciously Ready to Receive, our PIAVAs will simply Manifest with a wave of the Wand.  When we have Barriers yet to Let Go Of, what will Manifest is an Illustration of these Barriers, of Why we haven’t been Manifesting all along.  So we have to Pay Attention.  After a day or two, if our PIAVA hasn’t Manifested, we have to Ask, What Did Manifest? 

Sometimes it will be the exact opposite of what we PIAVAed – an invitation to give up in Frustration, which you’ll need to refuse.  More often there will be Funhouse Mirrors involved and we’ll have to Intuit what else we need to Let Go Of or Reframe.  Then we can restructure or Change our PIAVA accordingly.

And sometimes there will be no apparent Response to our PIAVA from the Universe.  We’d just repeat our PIAVA again, with or without adjustments.

The most dramatically successful PIAVA I ever did, was to repeat the same PIAVA over and over again, in writing, allowing it to change slightly each time a small improvement would suggest itself.  I would write it until my writing was perfectly smooth, then do something else for a while, then write again, so I was writing for ten minutes or so, three or four times a day, for several days.  Within a week, my PIAVA had Manifested so well that I had to PIAVA that it slow down.

Some comments from the Arcturians…

http://danielscranton.com/the-oversoul-connection-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have established a connection with every single Oversoul of every single human being in existence at this time, and we can say that without a doubt, your Oversouls are doing a fantastic job of giving you exactly what you need when you need it.  For those of you who are unfamiliar with the concept of the Oversoul, it is the next step up from the higher self.  It is the way that you organize your consciousness, a sort of home base for all of your lifetimes in all dimensions and in all time periods.

“Your Oversouls are remarkable beings, and they need no assistance from us.  However, in the interest of integration, they have allowed us to offer our insights.  Your Oversouls exist on the tenth, eleventh, and twelfth dimensions, and so when we connect with them consciously, it is a type of channeling that we are doing.

“We can also report to you that every single one of you is working together on the Oversoul level.  No matter what your differences are as humans, you all love one another at the Oversoul level.  You collaborate.  You co-create.  It is beautiful to behold the intricate weaving of stories that occurs when you observe humanity from that level of consciousness…”

http://danielscranton.com/your-requests-are-granted-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We are welcoming in all of the requests that you have sent directly to us.  We are feeling the vibrations of those requests, and we are happy to report that most of what we receive is indicating that you are all coming together more as a collective.  Your requests are often selfless.  Your requests are often inclusive of others.  Your requests are largely about creating a better world for everyone, rather than just a better world for you as individuals.

“Therefore, we are able to chart your progress by noticing how evolved your requests have come.  Now, we are also happy to report that these requests are more than that.  They are more than just you all seeking help from outside of yourselves.  When you make these requests, you are holding yourselves in the vibration of them.  You are creating that which you are asking for, and you are co-creating with higher-frequency beings such as ourselves.

“Therefore, you are taking on more of a spirit of collaboration, which is very fifth dimensional.  We also want you to know that there are others around you who are coming up with similar requests to yours.  Therefore, you are also co-creating in the physical, in the fourth dimension, as a human collective.  Again, you are creating a better world for everyone, and it is true that you are stronger when you work together than when you seek to do everything as individuals.

“We know that you are working more with vibration than with thought and action.  We are pleased to see you making this evolutionary jump forward, and we are pleased to give you this progress report.  We also want you to know that your requests are being granted and that now all that is left for you to do is to relax and receive.

“Keep sifting and sorting through your life experiences and coming up with these requests.  Keep seeing the bigger picture and including your fellow humans, and that fifth-dimensional Earth will be yours before you know it.”

Paranoid Thoughts?

We’re approaching 9 June’s Station of Nessus (3am PDT).  As most of you know, a planet’s Energy is Strongest at, and leading up to, its Station, and Nessus is about Healing Abuse and Privilege.  It’s in Pisces, which is all about Finishing Business and Letting Go of Excess Baggage, especially Heavy Emotions, so we can begin the next leg of our next Journey with a Light load.

Of course the quickest way to Heal anything is to Embrace it with Unconditional Love and Empathy, and to do that, we sometimes have to Re-Experience it in some form.  So all manner of Guilt, Veiled (or otherwise) Fear or Terror, and other Ugliness may arise between now and 9 June, including otherwise-unexplained unpleasant Experiences with other people that are Unconsciously Standing In as bit players in our Karmic Dramas.

Yes, they could be Reincarnations of our former Perps, but why not give them the Benefit of the Doubt and let them be Innocent, as in their Present Incarnation they’re likely to be.  After all, they could as likely be Reincarnations of former Victims or your own Abuse and Privilege, just with the roles switched for variety.

It’s important to be Aware that this is happening, so we can Respond positively.  It’s very easy to attribute such Flushbacks to the Present Moment, even though our daily Dramas are probably dime-novel Re-Enactments of our Karmic Traumas and all of Their previous attempts at Re-Enacting themselves, some of which could have Been or Felt very Real.

Remember that Consciousness pervades Everything, including our Karmic Traumas, and if we’re still in Separation (which to some extent we All are if we’re still Incarnate), then these Traumas are virtually “Entities” with a Life of Their own.  Until we Merge with Them, which can Be and Feel quite Horrible while we’re Transitioning into Their Experience. 

And once we’re Inside of Their Experience, we may need some or all of our Enlightened Consciousness (we All have at least some) to be Unconditionally Loving with Them.  Considering how many Lifetimes we’ve probably Lived (likely approaching Infinity), we have Seen It All Before, so it’s more about Being Loving and Gentle with all the Ickiness, once we get past being Horrified.  Maybe we should practice with Slugs.

When we mis-identify Karmic Flushbacks as Present Moment events, we’re very likely to make Decisions or Oaths like “I’ll never do that again” or “I’ll never talk to them again,” or far worse.  Decisions like this rapidly become Unconscious Limitations, and inhibit our Liberation.

We’ll draw up the chart soon, but suffice it to say for now that Orcus, the planet of Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking, Opposes the Stationary Nessus, forming the base of a T-Square to asteroid Moira.  Moira is about Fate.  Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious; Choice is what we Choose to exercise when we’re Conscious.  So we’re Taking Our Power and Breaking an Ancient Contract with our Fate, potentially the one that equates Life with Suffering.

We tend to think of such Contracts as “Facts of Life,” but in fact they’re just Political Choices we made so long ago that we’ve forgotten that it was our Choice.  While the Resistance may be substantial, and the Implications may be complex, we can actually Choose Whatever We Want.  And if we Consider it carefully and boldly, we can actually also Choose trivial Resistance and simple Implications.  That’s on of the reasons why we recommend adding “Lovingly and Gently” to our PIAVAs.

There is also a T-Square to asteroids Nemesis and Lachesis in the Nessus-Station chart.  Nemesis is about Ego Death, while Lachesis is about Choosing to Shift a Karmic or Fated Timeline before it would Shift on its own.  So what we’re really doing here, should we Choose to Accept it, is Shifting our Approach to Ego Death, toward Love and Excitement rather than Fear and Resistance. The base of this second T-Square is the Nodal Axis, with Mars (Anger or Action) on the South Node (Held Emotions) and Aletheia (Truth) on the North Node (Mission in the Lifetime).

Here’s Daniel Scranton’s Channeling for today…

http://danielscranton.com/join-team-ascension-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We are taking nothing for granted when it comes to our participation in the shift in consciousness.  There are so many beings in this universe who are working to ensure that the shift not only occurs, but that it occurs in the way that serves the most.  We invite any and all of you who want to be a part of this conscious creation to move beyond waiting for something to happen.

“We invite you to join us in ushering in the shift and bringing about an expanded consciousness throughout the entire universe.  You don’t have to wait for any major event to occur in order to participate.

“This is a shift in consciousness, which means nothing in the physical realm is going to be responsible for making it happen.  It is the true nature of consciousness to expand and evolve, and therefore, as you make it your mission not to do something in the physical realm, but instead consciously evolve, you are joining the team.  You have opportunities every single day. They come to you in the choices that you are being given.

“And you can help yourselves and help the entire universe at the same time by making the choice that is more inclusive than exclusive.  You can help by processing your emotions.  You can help by making eye contact with someone else and helping that person understand that he or she matters.  You can be kind instead of being right.  You can forgive.  You can send transmissions of love and compassion.  You can speak your truth, be true to yourself, and love yourself no matter what you have done, or said, or thought.

“As you make a commitment now to joining the team that spans the entire galaxy and all dimensions, you are helping to usher in the best possible shift that we can all experience.  We are inviting you to join us, and we know many of you already have, but as you make the declaration, you are automatically accepted onto our little team.

Snakes and Ladders I

With a huge Reset going on here, it makes more sense to use Birth-chart Sensitivity or “Orb” – 6-8 Degrees, rather than our usual 3-Degree Current-Moment or “Transit”-chart Sensitivity, so we’ve Compromised to a degree.  All of this month’s Stations occur in the same 0-to-9-Degree Zone, and the early-June Nessus Station is at 10 Degrees.  ‘Tis a busy chart.

We should start with the “biggest” Configuration, which is a Grand Cross (Hassles Galore, but they’re often Mutually Complementary) and a Grand Trine (Blessings Galore) with common corners.  This is traditionally considered an “ideal” chart, as it combines great Energy and Motivation (the Grand Cross) with ample Grace (the Grand Trine). 

That is, however, a Colonialist Perspective, where the most Celebrated Traits are Effort and Successful Exploitation of Others.  The current Western Patriarchal and Hierarchical Cultural model, in other words, where the Strong win over the “Weak” (including those with different Life Goals, which are by definition Weak).  The Prize is Ego Inflation, Confidence, and Privilege.  Aka Corruption and Abuse, when seen from underneath. 

We can see this playing out in the news all over the Planet, as this Game is the stock and trade of the Declining Patriarchy.  There’s nothing Abusive or Colonialist or Patriarchal about a Grand Cross-Grand Trine (“GC-GT”) chart itself; it’s the notion that it’s an ideal chart that’s Patriarchal.  There’s a sense in which being born with such a chart “condemns” one to a Life of Effort and Achievement.  But Effort and Achievement can readily be directed toward non-Patriarchal Goals like Community, Collaboration, Balance, Flow, Attunement, and the like.

Here’s the Grand Cross-Grand Trine version of the chart…

We’ve drawn the chart for the time when the Moon reaches the Midpoint between the 18 May Atropos Station (Endings) at Degree 1 and the 21 May Klotho Station (Beginnings) at Degree 0.  You can see that the other two Fate asteroids, Lachesis (the Length of a Timeline) and Moira (Fate or Choice) are close by at 6 and 5 Degrees respectively.  [In case you’ve forgotten, we always round Degrees up – 29 becomes 30 or 0, 0 becomes 1, etc.]

The Grand Trine is extended into a Kite by Chiron, but if we focus first on the primary GC-GT elements, it’s the Atropos-Eurydike-Makemake (Endings-Trusting-Creating) Stellium (a group of 3 or more planets) that’s the overwhelming Star of the chart, as the corner where the GC and the GT converge, as well as the location of the Atropos Station.

So the first thing we need to do is talk about the Cusp of Libra, which is as important as the Aries Point (Cusp of Aries).  At the Aries Point a Seed of Spirit is planted into the fertile soil of our Soul.  At the Libra Cusp we meet Other for the first time.  Aries-to-Virgo is about our Personal Development, Libra-to-Pisces our Social Development.

We are, All of us, as Individuals and as Members of Groups of all sizes, entering a whole new phase in our Relationship to Other Individuals, and a whole new phase in our Relationship to Community.  In a nutshell, we’re now Creating our own Social and Relationship Realities (Makemake), Dropping our Olde Obsolete Patterns around Relationship and Culture (Atropos), and Trusting that we’re going in the right direction (Eurydike) even though we seem to be Betraying Mom’s admonition that “You cannot do that, it breaks all the rules you learned in school.”

Keep that in mind when you’re tempted to be Motivated by Guilt or a Need to Please Others at the Expense of your own Values and Needs.  Expect your Self-Sovereignty to be Tested as we approach 27 May (the Eurydike/Trust Station), when we’re likely to be Tempted to turn back to our Olde Codependent Ways when our old playmates complain that they are being Betrayed by the Shift in our Values and Behaviors.

Which is where Chiron comes in.  The Kite shifts the focus of the GC-GT to Chiron, at the top of the Kite.  Atropos-Eurydike-Makemake (Trusting-that-We-Can-End-Impediments-to-Manifesting-What-We-Want) becomes the Tail that Wags the Dog, and the Dog is Chiron or Despair, Despair that we “can’t win” – we get little Support for trying to Go Our Own Way, but the rewards for running our old Patterns are diminishing rapidly.

Until of course we Empathize with our Despair – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re feeling like you can’t Win, aren’t you.”

The other two corners of the Grand Trine, from which our Blessings flow, are

• Taking an Active Part in our New Beginnings (Mars-Klotho), which will probably seem Confusing and Difficult until 21 May, when Klotho Completes its Station.  Confusion is the first stage of Growth.

• Following our Essence (Sun), our Heart, or our Guidance, which in the midst of Rapid and Big Change, can also be Confusing.  We may be in the Habit of Resisting our Fate in favor of Choice, but in this case we’re Asked to Choose to Accept our Fate, because our Fate is Transformation (Moira Conjunct Sun).

A final Caveat.  If you have Expectations about What-It-Will-Look-Like-When-You-Go-Your-Own-Way, rest assured that they’re Dead Wrong, no matter how Psychic you’ve proven to be in the past.  This is a New Game.  Yes, if you’re Intuitive you’ll Recognize Home when you see it, but it’s the Vibration you’ll Recognize, not the Form. 

If you’re eager to Play It Forward, focus on How-It-Will-Feel-When-You-Go-Your-Own-Way instead.  And make the Effort to Revert to a Blank Slate before noon PDT on 21 May, so you can be Surprised and Delighted when it Feels Even Better once Klotho Completes its Station.

Another Complication – at 11 am PDT on 22 May, Orcus Completes its Station.  Orcus is about Pattern-Breaking.  So even after noon on 21 May you might still be a prisoner to  your Olde Archetypes.  So feel free to focus on How-It-Will-Feel-When-You-Go-Your-Own-Way, but you also want to PIAVA that you can Gently and Lovingly and Rapidly and Completely Let Go of All Patterns and Habits that Inhibit your Soul’s Destiny and your Ego’s Transformation to Supporting it Fully.

Close your Eyes and Look around for any Cables, Chains, or Dark Spots, particularly behind you.  One at a time, Gently remove the Barbed Hooks at your end of each Cable or Chain, and hand it back to its Source.  If its Source won’t take it, feed it to an Alligator.  Alligators are very Skilled at this Work.  One at a time, put a Mirror between you and any Dark Spots, facing the Dark Spot, then switch on the Bright Light that aims into the Darkness from the top of the Mirror.

Scan your Body for any Foreign Feelings – crawling or goosebumps or raised hackles (but not just your neck).  Put your Attention into that Hole in your Aura, and PIAVA that your Self-Sovereignty and your Essence Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely patch the Hole, Permanently, with your own Energy. 

You’re likely to feel Vulnerable there for a couple of days; consider the fact that you can now Feel your Vulnerability as evidence that you’re Healing – till now you were Unconscious of the Wound.  Like a Tick or Mosquito, your Programmers distracted your Attention before they installed the Hooks.  Whenever you’re Conscious of Feeling the Vulnerability, Fill it with your own Heart Energy.

More to follow.

Portal 1.5 III

As we mentioned in the previous post, “There are other Changes going on as well” – that is, other Initiations or Conjunctions or Changes of the Nature of the Field or Trance that we’re Embedded in.  I missed one in that post…

• Revelation of what’s been Denied Initiating Ego Death (Eris Initiating Nemesis)

until Marilyn Raffaele reminded me…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

“Choosing to to remain locked in some particular belief system in order to please others or simply ‘keep the peace’ is a surrendering of personal power. This does not mean that you abandon family and friends unless it becomes necessary which it sometimes does.  It simply means that you stay centered in truth and alert to the temptation to align with any beliefs the group may hold but that you no longer resonate with.   Life becomes  being ‘In the world, but not of it’.”

Though Marilyn’s Channeling would also fit perfectly well with…

• The Most Important Thing Initiating Letting Go of Codependence (Saturn Initiating Hylonome)

And with the fact that by now we’re deep into the Energy of the first Station of May, the 8 May Station of asteroid Vesta (1 am PDT at 5 Capricorn), which herself symbolizes Beliefs.  Unconscious Beliefs have a particularly strong hold on us because when we don’t Discern their existence, we never Reconsider them.  When they start to become Conscious and we begin to Question whether they Serve us or the Planet, it can be particularly disruptive, often even Blasphemously, to Relationships based on Mutual Belief.

So many of our Beliefs are Installed by our Programmers, using Repetition, “Logic” (such as “You wouldn’t want someone else to do that to you, would you?”), Story (Snidely: “Did you hear what Soandso did to Whozit?”), and particularly Shaming and other forms of Abuse.  Shame is one of the hardest Belief Traps to Escape from, because it’s a Feeling so Distasteful that we never want to do the Work Exploring it.  Abandonment can be as Difficult, as it can create a Blank Spot in our Awareness.

Many others of our Beliefs are Karmic and Enforced by other Held Emotions, Emotions that are equally Distasteful as Shame to us personally, Emotions that we’d “rather Die” than Experience again.  To break free of these we need on some level, Voluntarily or otherwise, to endure the Ego Death (Nemesis) that breaking out of our cage often requires.

Another of the “other Changes going on as well”…

• Fear Initiating Fate, or Embracing Fear as Power Initiating Choice, depending on whether the Universe is Perp or Partner to you (Sedna and Moira)

is also well covered in Marilyn’s Channeling…

“Words and actions that flow from an evolved state of consciousness are capable of triggering a new state of awareness for those seriously seeking a higher way for themselves and the world.  Many are on the verge of awakening at this time and those satisfied with the status quo are becoming a minority.  Some who have always lived in fear are now reclaiming the power they ignorantly gave away and feeling comfortable instead of fearful doing it.  You are on the verge of much change in spite of appearances but you must be patient and allow the process.

“We wish to speak to the idea of security which in the third dimension primarily revolves around vulnerability and separation, concepts designed to keep the majority locked in fear.  The only real security there ever is or will be is already fully present within you.  Safety and security is the automatic manifestation of the conscious realization that there is nothing you need to protect yourself against.  This is your protective work, not the hundreds of material concepts believed necessary for personal survival.

 

“The third dimensional belief system holds that there are millions of people, places, and things you need protection from–diseases, bad people, dangerous places and anything deemed dangerous by those in authority.  If there is only ONE, who or what can there be that you need protection from?”

Gauntlet VIII – Chiron

Anybody who’s “been here” a while knows that Chiron can be a Bear. 

It’s about Getting Conscious of our Wounds.  Like Saturn helping to Educate us about which Traumas are Really Going On in the Moment and which are Flushbacks, if we’re Conscious of our Wounds we can Differentiate them from new Arrows.  For Present-Moment Traumas we want to improve our Boundaries to stop or dodge the Arrows and Prevent further Harm, and for Flushbacks we want to be very Loving with ourself in order to Heal the Wounds. These are very Different Responses.

That’s a hidden benefit of using our Mirrors to fend off apparent negative Energy coming at us.  Using a Mirror is very Powerful for any situation where you’re having Difficulty being Present with yourself (or Others) and staying Grounded… 

• When you’re talking to someone and feel insulted for instance.  Is that your Wound, or are you being Attacked?  Or both?  It takes a bit of Practice to Imagine a big Mirror, facing them, while you’re talking to someone, but once you get the hang of it, it’s not too hard.  If the Mirror Changes your Feeling State almost immediately, you were being Attacked. If it doesn’t Change your Feeling State, then it may be “just” your Wound. 

Using Mirrors might seem like a silly game, but your Wound is a Hole in your Aura.  It was installed by your Programmers so they could Control you.  Being Persistent about using Mirrors like this will eventually become a Habit; you’ll start to do the Energetic Equivalent of using a Mirror, but without the Mirror, and without thinking about it.  And that’s just another way of saying that  you’ve Healed the Hole in your Aura and taken a big step toward Self-Sovereignty.

• Another excellent Mirror situation is when you’re mind is stuck in a Helicopter Trip.  You keep going ’round and ’round, either about some Duality you can’t Decide about, or when you’re Imagining arguing with someone or justifying yourself to them.  Take the first person you think of (it may not be the same person you’re arguing with), and Imagine Mirroring them.  If the Cycling stops, you’re Golden.  If it doesn’t, try the second person that comes to mind.

For instance, one of my Programmers wanted very much for me to be a certain way.  It wasn’t a way I wanted to be.  I Mirrored them fairly often for months, maybe years.  They would “come around to the back door” when I set up the Mirror, and to find Peace I would have to use a miniature domed stadium lined with Mirrors on the outside.  Eventually it became a Habit. 

Often this is your only path toward improving your Relationship with someone who isn’t very Conscious – talking with them about it just isn’t in the realm of possibility.  My Programmer was certainly not Conscious that they were drilling a Hole in my Aura, and in the off chance that they were, would they admit it?  Unlikely.

• Emotions are supposed to visit for a little while, then move on.  We think of Emotions as “ours,” but they aren’t really, they’re like weather, they blow in and then they blow away.  Sometimes they Resonate and we can use them; other times they feel like they came uninvited out of “left field.”  When an Emotion blows through and sticks to you like Velcro, it may be an imitation of one of your Held Emotions.

One of the principles of Emotional Healing is that it’s Impossible to Let Go of Other Peoples’ Feelings.  So if an unwelcome Emotion moves in and unpacks, use your Mirror on the first person who comes to mind, to see if you’re carrying someone else’s Emotions.  If you get almost-immediate Relief, just bring back the Mirror whenever you start to go back into that closet.  Some people are very accomplished at getting Other people to carry their Held Emotions for them.

In fact, it’s highly likely that you and I do the same.  We’re Scared Shitless of Power, so we Project our Anger (Envy really) on folks who throw Power around like it was a Frisbee.  Death of any sort is such a big Threat to our Ego that we wrap ourself in Grief whenever anyone Transitions to a New Lifetime instead of helping them Celebrate and get Grounded into their new Surroundings.  If their next Life is anything like this one, they’ll be pretty Helpless for a while, and can use all the Support we can Give them.

The Mirror will help you Distinguish your own Held Emotions from Other people’s Held Emotions.  If an unfriendly Emotion moves in to stay, and you Mirror everyone who you suspect might be Projecting it your way, all to no effect, then it’s probably one of your own Held Emotions.  Feels like a Bummer, but in fact it’s a tremendous Opportunity – our Held Emotions are Unconscious, aka Invisible to us.  When one becomes opaque, we can take steps to Heal it.

How?  Own it.  Locate it in your Body, and Love it to Death.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Imagine Softening and Warming around the place where it sits in your Body.  Put your hand over where you find it in your Body, to Warm it.  If it moves, follow it.  Actually, once it moves, you’ve “won.”  Follow it anyway, just to be sure.  You might well get Images of what caused the Emotion to get stuck in the first place, but you don’t need them, and in fact if they appear they may put you in your Anal-ytical mind and distract you from Softening and Warming.

Guess what.  This is what Illness is about.  If you’re very good at Denying your Held Emotions on every other Level, they’ll come to visit on the Physical Level.  Besides, they aren’t Levels, they’re Perspectives.  It’s All One Thing, we just think it’s Different because we’re seeing it from a Different Angle.  So you may not begin with a Held Emotion, you may begin with a Toothache or any Pain or Physical Discomfort, or even Diagnosis if you’re in the Habit of Delegating care and feeding of your Physical Vehicle to the Medical Cartel.

Deal with Physical Pain and Discomfort the same way – Locate it in your Body, and Love it to Death.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Imagine Softening and Warming around the place where it sits in your Body.  Put your hand over where you find it in your Body, to Warm it.  If it moves, follow it.  Actually, once it moves, you’ve “won.”  Follow it anyway, just to be sure. 

And anybody who’s “been here” a while knows that we always recommend “Poor-Sweethearting” ourself whenever Chiron is Lit Up, and at any other time when you aren’t totally Pleased with your internal or external Circumstances.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling [Insulted] [Invaded] [Confused] [Sick] [Pain], aren’t you.”

We bring all this up because after seven years in Pisces, Chiron is moving into Aries (1am PDT 17 April).  Emotions don’t go away when Pisces goes away, though they get less Prominent.  And there are plenty of other planets still in Pisces; for instance Confusion/Neptune will be there till 2026, and Abuse/Nessus till 2034.  So you’ll have plenty of Opportunities yet to Practice your Mirroring and Poor-Sweethearting Skills.

As for Chiron, rather than the Emotional Crises we’ve been Enduring since 2011, we’ll be Experiencing Spiritual Crises till Chiron moves into Taurus in 2027, then we’ll be Enjoying Material Crises for a while.  So our Practice with Emotions will serve us well while we’re doing “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like God has Abandoned you, aren’t you” or “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like the Planet is Failing, don’t you.”

If course, long before then we’ll have enfolded all these Healing techniques into automatic Habits, and firing them off so fast we won’t even be Aware that we’re doing it.  Right?

Fateful New Moon III – Survival

By now the Crescent Moon has already appeared, but the first appearance of the Crescent is a symbol for the Activation of the New Moon Energies into Hardcopy “Reality,” aka Matter.  So while we’re a bit past the “Fateful” New Moon, what we’re writing about here is really quite relevant to the Lunar Cycle, as it was impending at the moment of the New Moon…

Traditional astrology makes a Big Deal out of Sign Changes, when a planet moves from one Sign to the next.  That’s appropriate, as a Sign Change represents a Change in the Zeitgeist.  For instance, Saturn moves out of Sagittarius and into Capricorn on 19 December (8pm PST), and of course the Sun enters Capricorn, as it does every year, on 21 December (5pm PST).  Sagittarius is about Letting Go, while Capricorn’s theme is Just Fix It. 

Since Saturn signifies The Most Important Thing, this is a pretty big Change, from The Most Important Thing is to Let It Go (Sagittarius)…

(seems like we haven’t had much Choice but to Let It Go for a while now), to The Most Important Thing is to Just Fix It (Capricorn).

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Well, someone mixed up the title, but that’s okay, it’s a catchy tune, and the concepts are related. 

That’ll be nice if things Just Get Fixed.  So far we’ve fixed Net Brutality and dooH niboR taxes, and Saturn isn’t even there yet.  Saturn’s been in Sagittarius for three years now; on average it hangs out in one Sign for thirty months.  We must’ve needed a lot of Letting Go, eh?  It stays in Capricorn for three years too – Lord knows we need a lot of Fixin’. 

Pluto’s been in Capricorn for ten years, and it doesn’t seem like much has gotten Fixed, mostly the other way around, unless you’re redundantly wealthy and don’t care about your Planet.   On the other hand, if we have Respect for All Things, we have to assume that this is a Healing Crisis, and that the foundations are actually crumbling, and we’ll see the edifice topple from its own weight ‘ere long.  Like the way it’s been going with Power and the Exploitation of Women.  We actually don’t need to look too hard for evidence of crumbling foundations.

Maybe when Saturn gets to Pluto in January 2020, we’ll have another big Tripping Point.  That Initiation happens at 23 Capricorn, “A soldier receiving two awards for bravery in combat.”  The last Jedi maybe.  But there is a long list of Big Initiations occurring – too many to write about – so we could well see more Tripping Points.  For instance, Pholus Initiated Saturn (The Most Important Thing is Taking Full Responsibility, recalling that Responsibility is not Blame) on 4 December.

And one of the biggest December Initiations is the Quaoar-Saturn Initiation on 23 December (11am PST), Initiating a new 33-year Cycle.  It occurs at 1 Capricorn, “A Native American Chief claims power from the assembled tribes.”  From our Western European Perspective, that sounds Patriarchal, but in most Native Cultures, the Chief was in charge of War and not much else.  It was the Matriarchy that ruled everything else.

Quaoar represents our Survival Instincts; the God-figure Quaoar taught the California Native Americans how to Live in harmony with the Landscape they Lived in, just as Makemake channeled similar wisdom to the the folks on Rapa Nui.  So the theme here is that The Most Important Thing is Listening to Our Survival Instincts.  That adds considerable weight to the notion that The Most Important Thing is to Just Fix It, and suggests that we may be near a Tipping Point on Global Warming.

Here’s the chart – “Q” is short for Quaoar…

The focus is on Varuna – the Life Force – at the point of a Finger of God (Pay Attention! – the green wedge).  the other side of the base of the Finger of God is Moon-OR10-Nessus, representing the Healing of Memories of Abuse – and the Healing of Illusions of Privilege.  Saturn-Quaoar Conjoins (implying that the Initiation and the entire Cycle is Merged with…) Pholus (Responsibility), Venus (our Values), and the Sun (our Essence).  In other words, this is a Biggie, and it’s critical to maintenance of the Life Force on the Planet and in our own Bodies.

Imagine how much Life Force you’ll regain by Healing your own Memories of Abuse.  Then Intend it. 

Imagine how much Life Force you’ll regain by Healing your Illusions of Privilege.  While it may Feel Liberating in the immediate moment, Privilege is a burden.  Equality and Community far exceed the benefits of Privilege.  As we shift from Competition to Cooperation and Collaboration, we no longer waste Energy maintaining Privilege.

Halfway between Quaoar-Saturn-et al and Moon-OR10-Nessus, and Opposite Varuna, sits Juno, implying that becoming Conscious of the Relationship between how Alive we Feel and our Memories of Abuse and Privilege, is the key to restoring our Survival Instincts and giving them Priority.

There’s a second chart in the Quaoar-Saturn Initiation, half a Sign from the Initiation itself…

The core of this chart is Jupiter, Expansion.  How do we Expand (our Life Force)?  By Choosing (the T-Square as Mastery through Challenge) to give our Mission (North Node) Priority (Ceres) over our South Node (Suffering).  The chart includes a tremendous Gift – the Air Grand Trine (Great Blessings – the blue triangle) between our Suffering, our Intuition (Asbolus), and Trust (Eurydike), Kited by Ceres-North Node (Directed toward making our Mission Primary).  Jupiter also Trines (Blessing) Lachesis (Choosing to abort a Timeline midstream), lending us Grace to Break our Karmic Patterns.

The chart includes four Fingers of God, or Foci for our Attention…

• Ceres-North Node, our Mission
• Pluto, advising against Resistance, since it will be Futile
• Asbolus, our Intuition
• Lachesis, our Power to Choose

The Power to Choose is devilishly Subtle.  We are our Karmic Patterns, we’re Merged with them, we Identity with them.  Rejecting them feels like Rejecting ourself.  More than that, we don’t know that we can Reject them!  Our Identification with them is Unconscious.  How to Break out of this prison?  Your Desires.

There are things you Want, things you’ve Wanted all your Life, things you’ve never been able to perfect, no matter how many ways you’ve tried.  Not Material things, but Emotional-Spiritual things.  Peace, Relationship, Love, Faith, Security, Self-Sovereignty, Community, Belonging, Equality, Trust, for example.  How many of those examples can you claim as yours?  What would you add?  The Tension between What You Want and What You Have is your fulcrum of Power. 

Pick one of your Lifelong Desires, and Give Yourself Permission to Have it.  A ton of Yes-Buts may well arise; rephrase them as Yes-Ands.  Then forget about it, focus on other things for a day.  This time tomorrow, look to see what came up in your Life.  Any Insights?  Any Liberation from Tension?  Any Guilt you can Tap Out?  Owning our Lifelong Wants is an important key to Liberating the Life Force.  Manifesting What You Want happens automatically when you’ve Surrendered all  of your Resistance to it. 

You won’t have to Work at it or Do anything to get it; it will come to you.  Your Wants are perfectly Natural, and shared by Others.  When you stop Resisting them, you Manifest a Reality where they just happen, because they’re Natural.  You’ve envied and studied many People who already Have What You Want, and you’ve Learned that they aren’t doing anything special or different, they’re just being themselves.  Well?

Two subcharts that are half a Sign apart, are potential goldmines for the Octile series of Angles (the metallic lines in the chart below).  The Quaoar-Saturn Initiation sits at the Midpoint of the Jupiter-South Node Square.  That Square is about Mastering (through Challenge of course) the technique of Healing our Suffering by Amplifying it.  Our natural tendency is to Deny it, run from it, Resist it, even Curse it.  What we need to do instead is Love it to Death.  Once we Embrace our Suffering Unconditionally, we Welcome it as a natural part of Life.  It becomes Compassion instead of Suffering. 

We can touch the Edges of that by Poor-Sweethearting ourself – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Suffering, aren’t you.”  You may hear a tiny voice agreeing.  One of the most effective ways to Heal PTSD is through Theater.  Once you’re able to Act Out the role of your Suffering consumately, you have Mastered it, and it is no longer your Master.  Take that tiny voice (or any suspicions you have), and Act them Out.  Keen about them. 

Imagine what you’d say to someone who’s telling you to forget your Suffering and “Move On,” if you had Permission to be totally Honest and Direct.  Imagine what you’d say, if you had no reason to be other than totally Direct and Honest, to someone who’s telling you that your Suffering is your own Choice.  How would you Respond to someone who tells you “Frankly, Scarlet, I don’t give a Damn!”  Scream and shout your True Feelings.  Amplify your Truth, no matter how much you would normally Judge it.  With Jupiter-Nodes, this is the time to do precisely this. 

Act it Out like your Survival depended on your Winning the Role.

The Quaoar-Saturn Initiation Trioctiles Ceres-North Node, so Breakthrough Insights about your True Mission in this Lifetime are likely.  When you Amplify your Suffering and Learn to Embrace it Fully as a most-Valued part of your True Self, as your Crown Jewel, you’ll Discover the Skills that are Hidden beneath your former Resistance to it.  Those Skills happen to be exactly what you Need to achieve your Lifetime Mission, to obtain exactly What You Want.  Your Suffering, and your Mission and Wants, are two sides of the same Coin.

There’s one caveat.  Desire is slippery.  Once you achieve the Form of What You’ve Always Wanted, you’ll Want something else.  That’s because your Picture of What You’ve Always Wanted, is a composite of the Spiritual Essence of What Your Soul Wants for you on the one hand, and What Your Ego Can Accept.  If you can Picture it, it’s probably not the Bottom Line, because it’s probably Material to some degree.  On the other hand, if you can Feel it, you’ll be a lot closer.

Imagine Achieving What You’ve Always Wanted, That Which Will Most, Finally, Make You Feel Whole.  Now focus on What You Feel when you Imagine that.  That’s a lot closer to your Mission.  Emotion isn’t Everything, but it’s Fundamental to Manifestation.  Those People who already have What You’ve Always Wanted, and who do it so Effortlessly?  They Feel it.  There’s a Paradox here, because once you Feel what it will feel like when you Get What You’ve Always Wanted, you no longer Need What You’ve Always Wanted.  You already Have it.  You can just bask in the Feeling which you now know how to Create and, with a little effort, Maintain.

Is there still a gap between Feeling that, and What You’ve Always Wanted?  When you’re Feeling that, do you still crave the Picture of What You’ve Always Wanted?  Take it a step further.  Maybe you can Feel what you imagine it will Feel like when you’ve Reunited with your Soulmate, but you still Long for the Contact.  Then Ask yourself, what else will you get from your Soulmate, besides that Feeling?  Sure, there’s the Physical Contact, and you may have to Trust that you’re more likely to meet your Soulmate if you spend time Feeling what it will Feel Like when you do.

But, going a step further, maybe what you Believe your Soulmate will give you, for instance, is Unconditional Respect.  You may not have cast or Pictured What You’ve Always Wanted as Unconditional Respect, but consider it.  Is that a part of What You’ve Always Wanted?  I’ve occasionally introduced folks who are very close to being Twigmates astrologically (some consider us to have many “Twigmates” – Souls who are leaves on the same branch as we are, with whom we’ve had many Lifetimes), and after initial amazement, they’ve ended up disliking one another intensely.  Why?  They weren’t Unconditionally Respectful of themselves.

They Judged parts of themself, Unconsciously, Believing their Judgment was a valid Response to their role in their Environment.  Folks who Suffer from Perfectionism can be particularly Vulnerable to this.  Can we be Unconditionally Respectful of our Perfectionism, without Judging any other parts of ourself?  It’s all about Timing.  If we Learn to “Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade” the instant we detect ourself Judging, then with a smile Honor our Perfectionism, I suspect we could resolve this Paradox fairly well.

Our ballbuster here is Judgment.  While Saturn represents Discrimination, Jupiter symbolizes Tolerance.  We can Discriminate, Choosing between alternatives, without Judging what we didn’t Choose.  Jupiter would take it a step further, Surrendering to either, being Open to how either would Change us.  If our Identity is Flexible, we can always adapt.  Without Discriminating against Discrimination, when that’s what we Choose.

Mentation

Michael Roads, in his “365 Steps…” message for today, here in the center of several Paradox-filled Yin Gate Configurations, describes better than I can the utility of mentation in our Spiritual Adventures…

http://int.michaelroads.org/

“Understanding is usually inappropriate for our spiritual journey.  Mystery is Truth unrealised.  Most understanding is based on a conceptual rationale, rather than actual realisation.

“Understanding is a valid challenge for our everyday life in a world of ever-increasing technology.  On your spiritual journey – which is the soul purpose of you being here in the first place – understanding is an anchor that will snag on every intellectual obstacle in your immediate vicinity.

“The way to make your spiritual journey as smooth and trouble free as possible is to eschew all need to spiritually understand it.  Accept the Mystery.  Accept that while Truth is unrealised, understanding is useless flotsam on a vast ocean.  It will not support you!  When you reach the shores of Truth, you will know just how futile that intellectual flotsam was!  Even though you may experience it, it is unlikely that you will ever truly understand the power of consciously . . . choosing Love!”

Intuitive Confidence II – Massive Blessing!

The 17 September (3am PDT) Chariklo (Self-Confidence) Station contains a Blessing so strong that I don’t recall ever seeing one like it.  The Station makes only two within-three-Degrees-of-Sensitivity (“Orb” in astrospeak) Angles – both Trines (Great Grace), giving the chart only one Configuration, a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Grace).  The Grand Trine is so Blessed that, until we Realize that other people have their own Gifts and it’s not about the Ego, we usually Live it as Arrogance. 

Our respective Gifts complement one another, but when one person thinks their Gifts are the result of their own Superiority, the Collective soufflé is ruined.  In a Culture that Worships the Ego as the Supreme Beingness, this is a fatal self-inflicted wound, as the state of the World demonstrates.

So keep an eye on the Narcissists if you know any (!), they’re likely to be Over-the-Top.  I think one already is, thanks to Chuck and Nancy – the Chariklo Self-Confidence Energy will be strong for at least a week prior to the Station, longer if someone is more Sensitive to it, such as someone who is already a Narcissupremacist.  Look out for sudden reversions to Mean afterward, when the Energy starts to fade.

The Grand Trine is the big blue triangle.  The orange wedge (Quintile Yod), though simultaneous, is otherwise unrelated to the Chariklo Station, unless you want to tune in to the Twentieth Harmonic.  The Moon-North Node Focus of the Quintile Yod is eighteen Degrees (one twentieth of the Zodiacal loop) from the Mercury-Mars-Orcus corner of the Grand Trine.  Which makes it even more interesting.  The Twentieth Harmonic is The Aeon, or a Time period of long but unspecified extent and…

“The principle of good judgment that is utilized in both personal and professional situations…  All perceptions come from our ability to look at the whole and… to consider longevity, history, and broad perspective…  Our creative power to give birth to new forms…  Wisdom comes from experience and is not randomly spoken…  The Last Judgment is faced in all the daily judgments we make of ourselves and others…  Reminds us to look at the history we have shared and to forgive ourselves and others for the judgments we are making about what we are doing or not doing in our lives…  Inspired vision.”  –Angeles Arrien, The Tarot Handbook, pp.95-96).

No wonder our favorite Narcissist seems to be suddenly making good decisions.  Bodes ill for the hangover though, unfortunately.

So lets look at the components of the Grand Trine and the Q-Yod…

A Chariklo-Station by itself implies a Crisis of Self-Confidence, which we may receive as Enhanced Confidence, or an Exacerbation of existing Self-Doubt.  In the latter case you can consider it a “Healing Crisis” (when an affliction gets temporarily worse just before its Demise), particularly if you are Alert enough to notice what Triggers your Self-Doubt, and Recognize that it’s a form of Anxiety. 

Anxiety is an Emotion that makes us probably even more vulnerable to “Transitiveness” than other Emotions do.  A Verb that takes an Object is called a “Transitive” Verb.  In the sentence “Donald fired Jim,” Donald is the Subject and Jim is the Object of the Verb “fired.”  In the sentence “I’m Anxious about such-and-such,” the prepositional phrase “about such-and-such” is the Object of the Verb Anxious.  Well, there’s news.  Emotions are Intransitive.  They don’t take Objects.

I’m Angry at Fred” is a bullshit sentence.  What’s really going on is that we’re Angry, and Fred happens to be in the line of fire.  We have no idea what the original source of our Emotions is.  In fact, there’s an excellent chance that they aren’t even “our” Emotions at all.  Like thoughts, Emotions float around like clouds or Viruses, and easily latched onto.  Fred might remind us of the guy who Abandoned us when we had the Plague in the Middle Ages, and Abandonment may be what Triggers our Anger.  Fred is an innocent by-stander.

It behooves us much to view all Emotions this way.  “I’m Anxious about the Future, now that I’ve been told that the World is supposed to end on 23 September.”  More Bullshit.  Our Anxiety is either pre-existing and Karmic, or Impersonal and just passing by, probably both.  In this Culture, you won’t get much support for Receiving Emotions this way, but if you want to reach for Neutrality, you’d probably be hard-pressed to find a faster route.

The other corners of the Chariklo-Station Grand Trine are Moira, which symbolizes the Duality Fate and Choice (Your Choice), and a Stellium formed by Mercury (Mind), Mars (Action), and Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking).  Wow, this is almost Biblical or Trumpian in terms of being “The Greatest Opportunity Ever” or the like.  Here’s what this Grand Trine can show us…

• The Realization that Patterns which we’ve been regarding as “Just the Way It Is” (Moira as Fate), are actually the result of our Limiting Beliefs (Mercury-Mars-Orcus as Awareness/Mercury that we’ve been Victimized/Mars by Oaths we made Long Ago and Far Away/Orcus that we really don’t need any more).  This Realization has the potential to open us up to having Confidence (Chariklo) that we can do things that we’ve always envied other people for doing so apparently effortlessly.

• Notice that these could be “Unconscious Denial,” where we had no idea that Reality could be otherwise than Limited as we had supposed!
  

• These Realizations are the sort that can Expand our Consciousness and our Horizons greatly.

• Since it’s a Grand Trine, we could Experience Breakthroughs in Efforting, as what was previously very difficult suddenly becomes very Easy.  That is, we could suddenly discover we have Talents we didn’t know we had, which can boost our Self-Confidence.  If this happens, Look to see how Changes in your own Beliefs are involved.  If you can make this a Breakthrough in Consciousness as well as a Breakthrough in Efforting, you’ll be miles ahead.

• Your Self-Confidence could be Challenged, as the Unconscious tries to show you how you are Sabotaging yourself.  If Self-Doubt arises, or you know someone who is “shaking your Confidence daily,” or meet someone who’d like to try doing that, this represents a fabulous Opportunity to Open up to the Realization that you have Choice in the matter.

• In a situation where a Narcissist is handed a Blessing and their Ego eats it without Sharing, the part about using the Blessing to gain Consciousness becomes even more Important than it is Unlikely.  Even if the Narcissist simply lacks the necessary Skills to gain Consciousness, we can always Open to the Possibility of Evolution.  It’s been shown many times that even in biology rapid and even instantaneous Evolution occurs.
  

• This very Station may be what the Evolution of the US is all about.  The US is also an intransigent Narcissist, and perhaps what we’ll see this weekend is the Realization, by the US as a whole, that the Antichrist is just a Mirror for their own Limitations.  Maybe St. Louis will bring us a Kent State Moment.

• Jose could also create some additional Consciousness in Climate Deniers if it comes ashore, maybe in the Capitol area, where Irma missed.

The Moon-North Node Quintile Yod (which of course is about Learning and Teaching) says that we’re being Educated about our Instincts for Self-Improvement, not in anyone else’s terms, but in terms of our own Mission in the Lifetime.  Grokking our Life Mission is always difficult because it’s Multifarious and Unitary, which means that every time we try to approach it with the mind, we freeze it into Duality and hence we turn Retrograde.  We interpret the Moon as our Instincts, so we may be Semiconsciously Making new Oaths which Create Patterns that facilitate increased Conscious or Unconscious Attention to our Mission.  Yes, that could Create more Limiting Beliefs, but they may be an improvement over our previous Beliefs.

The base of the Moon-North Node Quintile Yod is the Waxing Quintile from Chiron back to Pluto.  This Chiron-Pluto Cycle, recall, is about the “Flag turning into an Eagle turning into a Rooster Saluting the Dawn,” which suggests that the Learning may be larger than Personal.  The Dance between Chiron (Letting Go of Pain through Empathy) and Pluto (Formation of a New Trance) is about “going meta” in our Personal and Planetary Evolution.  To “go meta” means to step up to a larger Perspective, as Angie Arrien’s description of the Twentieth Harmonic at the beginning of this post suggested.

We can Apply what we Learned to the content of our Anxieties on a case-by-case basis; for instance I might be able to facilitate Healing of a sore throat by Tapping or PIAVAing or Thetaing it.  But we make our Evolution exponential when we “go meta” and realize that we can Theta our Anxiety itself instead of, or in addition to, Thetaing an erroneously-Transitive Object of our Anxiety.  What a Leap this Massive Blessing would Bless us with if we really Realize that our thoughts and our Emotions are not our own, but just visiting Entities like Eeyore and Tigger and Piglet and Pooh and Gopher (apologies to British readers) and Wiley Coyote and Taz…

“This is the time of the great remembering.  When we remember our roots and that we are part of nature, life becomes more peaceful and compassionate.  Through many of us ‘mass remembering’ this, we will create a peaceful, positive, and abundant world and a permanent sustainable culture, a Permaculture, across the world.” –Robin Clafyield, “Pioneers of Permaculture,” in Permaculture North America #4, Spring 2017.