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The Most Important Thing 4

May 21, 2020

 

In the land of the Deaf, the One-Eared is King.

 

For the 22 May 2020 (9:30 am PDT) New Moon in 3 Gemini, which applies to the next several weeks, we’re back to the 10 May Priorities Energy (Saturn Station) that we described in The Most Important Thing 2 post (the chart with the one-eared Flying Squirrel).

That was a week and a half ago, so some of the Players have Changed.  For instance, at that time Self-Love (asteroid Sappho) was the major Challenge (T-Square).  For the New Moon, the major Challenge is Manifestation (dwarf planet Makemake).  While the Object of the Challenge has changed, the Source (base of the T-Square) has not.  It’s our Life Path (Nodal Axis).

Yes, we absolutely believe in Destiny.  If you insist on remaining Unconscious.  The more Conscious we become, the more we replace Fate with Choice.  We each have a Life Mission (North Node), but it’s waaay more Multidimensional than our Dualistic Mind can grasp.  It doesn’t hurt to try, as long as you add “…or something like that” to every attempt.  In order to move toward our Life Mission, we need tools that we can only get by facing down our Held Emotions (South Node), the ones that We’d rather Die than Feel.

Oops, we put the accent on the wrong syl-ob‘ble (syllable).  It’s We’d rather Die than Feel – we don’t do Held Emotions without an Ego Death.  Ego Death is of course the second stage of Growth in Consciousness.  The first stage is Confusion, though there’s a lot of interbreeding between Ego Death and Confusion.  After the pregnancy, we Birth a new, more Conscious Ego, if we’re willing to do the Work.

Doing the Work has two parts.  The first is being willing to Tolerate our Confusion without Killing It – Killing Confusion means Trying to Figure Out (thinking) Why (again, thinking) we’re Confused so we can make it Go Away.  Confusion is an Emotion in its own right, and one of the more Powerful, if subtle, Emotions we have.  The Patriarchy gets its toxic aversion to Change by banning Confusion from polite company.   It’s not macho.

The second part of the Work is being willing to Sit Through our Ego Death without Running Away from it.  Sitting through Ego Death means Opening to whatever Emotions arise (not macho) and being Loving and Gentle (again, not macho) with them .

Yes, there will be Stories, but they aren’t necessary.  We can briefly Appreciate them, but we want to dismiss them quickly, so we can Pay as much Attention as possible to the Emotion.  The Stories are more thinking, and like Chocolate-covered quicksand, they’re totally Compelling, and difficult to escape from.  Addictive even.  How many people do you know who are Addicted to their Victim Stories?

What Victim Stories are You Addicted to?  They might make good material for you to practice on, Separating Emotion from Thinking, and using Sensation as a Guide to keep you Feeling and not Thinking.

There’s a good reason why the word Feeling applies both to Sensation and Emotion.

A good way to Open to an Emotion is to Locate it, or any Discomfort, in our Body, and put All of our Attention on that spot, while we watch what’s happening for us Emotionally.  Put your hand on that spot to warm it – Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  If you can’t find the Emotion in your Body, or there are many Discomforts, just pick the most likely spot, while trying not to think about it.  You want to Feel it, not Think it.

Emotions don’t have grammatical Objects.  You’re never Angry At [xyz], you’re just Angry.  You’re never Sad About [abc], you’re just Sad.  The grammatical Objects we love to add to Feelings are thinking, not Feeling.  Putting an Object on an Emotion freezes you in Time, and Emotions are Timeless, especially Held or Karmic Emotions.  And if an Emotion is difficult for you to Tolerate, and difficult to Let Go Of, you can bet it’s Karmic.

When an Emotion is Karmic, its roots are not in the Current Lifetime, so dwelling on some Current-Lifetime Chagrin will never touch it.  And a Karmic Emotion will be cemented in by a zillion iterations, so if you have a Story about it from a different Lifetime, dwelling on that Story is just more Karmic masturbation.  It won’t Impregnate you with a new Ego that sports Expanded Consciousness.  Just more Thinking when you need Feeling.

When our Attention Wanders, as it will, frequently, we just Lovingly and Gently bring our Attention back to where there’s Discomfort in our Body.  No Judgment.  It Is What It Is.  When the Discomfort Moves, we’ve succeeded.  We can Follow it, if we still have Attention to spare, or we can Change the Subject, wait a while, and see that happens.

From https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2012/11/05/curiosity-and-the-void-ii/

PIAVA, in case you’ve forgotten or tuned in recently, stands for Pray-Intend-Ask-Visualize-Affirm.  Each is basically similar, but some work better for some of the people some of the time…  The Magnetic Feminine manifestation process runs PIAVA, Change the Subject, Pay Attention.  You have to Change the Subject (or as the Buddhists put it, Lose Your Mind) because if you keep thinking about it, your Old Birdcage will constrain your Reality to be the way it’s always been.  And you have to Pay Attention because whenever you PIAVA anything, the first thing that the Universe provides is information about why you haven’t had what you’re asking for all along.”

As it was in our Priorities Energy, our Karma in the New Moon Energy is all about Recovering our Hidden and Forbidden Genius (South Node [Held Emotions] Conjunct dwarf planet Ixion [our Unique Genius]…) so we can “fix” Climate Change (…and dwarf planets Pholus [Are we Missing anything?] and Quaoar [Survival]).  This is a Unique Opportunity that occurs only every nineteen or so years, when our Hidden and Forbidden Genius and our Held Emotions Converge (South Node Conjunct Ixion).

We’re all troubled by Serious Problems that are much bigger than our usual Span of Control, be they Climate Change, outacontrolavirus, bumpstocks, coyotes, politics, clearcutting, Roundup, in-laws, oligarchies, taxes, overpopulation, locusts, food insecurity, pigshit lagoons, coal ash, people running around nude under their clothes, undsoweiter ecosìvia adinfinitum.

The fact that our Forbidden Genius is Verboten is almost certainly Karmic.  If you’ve ever had a Fantasy about having Superpowers and Fixing some Problem much larger than your usual Span of Control, or even publicly Expressing your Frustration about the Problem, you’re Touching your Forbidden Genius.

The World Mirrors our Inner Balance, so we all have our own Inner Climate Change process happening – we’re all Denying chronic Problems that we Believe are beyond our Span of Control because they’re hiding behind our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs.  We Deny them because it’s a healthy way to deal with Issues that would just overwhelm our current Ego.  And there’s a strong correlation between our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs and our Held Emotions.

To touch the Edges of your Held Emotions, Focus on What You Feel when you contemplate your Obsession with the Global or Personal Problems that seem to be beyond your Power to Change.

To touch the Edges of your Forbidden Genius, Focus on What You Feel when you have that Superpower Fantasy.

Then Change the Subject, and tune in tomorrow to see if anything Feels different.  Then rinse and repeat.

More to follow…

Karma Repair 2

May 17, 2019

Not a lot happening with the 18 May (2pm PDT) Full Moon, except that it could make a big dent in our Fear of Opening Up to the Truth about our Hidden Forbidden Unique Genius, the one that will Singlehandedly Save the Planet, along with all the other Single Hands that this Full Moon will help Liberate from their Fear of Opening Up to the Truth about their Forbidden Genies.  Our Hidden Forbidden Unique Genius is the missing piece in the Jigsaw Puzzle that is our 5D Future, and so is Everyone Else’s.

Which is to say that the symbol for Endings (asteroid Atropos) Resolves (Trine Bridges) the Full Moon that prominently features the symbol for Converting Fear to Power (dwarf planet Sedna stands behind the Sun) and is Supported by (Finger of God-ed by) the symbol for our Forbidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion) and the Merged (Conjoined) symbols for Rebirth and Truth (dwarf planet Haumea and asteroid Veritas)…

All in all an excellent chart, if we Remember our Kegels.

This Full Moon though is greatly overshadowed by the 19 May Merging of the symbol for The Most Important Thing (Planet) and the symbol for our Karma (the Mean South Node).  If you feel like you’re Sitting Pretty, look behind you.  There’s something lurking there that may not be Negative, but will Certainly help you Clean Up your Current Lifetime.  Remember what Alan Watts said back in the 1950s – it’s a lot harder to Let Go of our Good Karma than it is to Let Go of our Bad Karma.

Because we’re so fond of Patting ourselves on the Back for our Good Karma.  But we’ll be a lot more Effective at Changing the World if we’re Neutral.  Self-Love ain’t Positive Self-Judgment.  Self-Love is Unconditional, no Judgment involved.  The Demon lurking behind you could be Pride.

And of course it could also be all manner of Self-Sabotaging Habits, the kind we usually think of as Karma and Blame on “the Universe,” or Mom, forgetting that All of our Habits are Choices we’ve made in the past.  Is this a Free-Will Universe or not?  Free Will cuts both ways.  Of course we don’t Remember making that Choice, it was a hundred Past Lives ago.  Or a Parallel in a Galaxy far far away.

But as Seth put it so Clearly in The Nature of Personal Reality, our Karma is actually Obvious – it’s writ large in our Personal History in our Current Lifetime.  What in your Personal History do you not claim as your own Choice?  Those are the places where you’re Betraying your own Soul.  Of course your Current Ego didn’t make that Choice, because if you think of “You” as your Current Ego, you’re missing 99% of your Life.

If there’s anything in our Personal History, Good or Bad, that we don’t claim as our own Choice, whose Choice was it?  It was part of our Soul Self that our Current Ego doesn’t include.  We need to do some Ego Yoga.  It’s not as hard as it sounds.  Our Ego’s in it for Pleasure; our Soul’s in it for Experience, including Experiences that will – and have – Terrified or Horrified our Ego.

This is what a Free-Will Universe means.  If you aren’t in a Free-Will Universe, you’re just another automaton on the treadmill, where everything happens to you, and you have little or no Control.  That might be Liberating, since what you do won’t matter.  You may as well Take whatever Pleases you.  But can you even Conceive of a Universe without Cause and Effect?  That’s pretty Deep Programming.  Easier to Conceive of a Universe where we don’t have enough Information to sleuth out Cause and Effect.  And more Honest.

Let’s look at the Saturn-South Node chart tomorrow.  That’ll give you time to see what’s behind you.

Ancestors Full Moon (Boundaries V)

February 17, 2019

Better put out a dozen extra place settings.  The Ancestors are coming for dinner, and they’ll be staying for a while.  The 19 February (8am PST) Full-Moon Sun, on the Cusp of Pisces, is joined by the Initiation of Klotho (Beginning a New Timeline) by OR10 (Intrusive Memories) at 4 Pisces, “Heavy car traffic on a narrow isthmus linking two seashore resorts.”  The Klotho-OR10 Cycle runs about four years.  The Initiation itself occurs 18 February (7:30 pm PST).

It would Behoove for us to Welcome the Ancestors.  Even though we may not be able see them, their Vibes are higher than ours, which means that they can play tricks with Matter when Displeased or Misjudged.  It will be excellent Practice anyway, Reverting all of our Judgments about them.  It’s more than likely that they Judged you, since most Ancestors have Expectations for their Spawn, while Spawn tend toward Rebellion.  So we’ll have to Intuit what their Positive Intentions were, and Honor them for that, instead of Judging them.

If that’s Confusing, just Ask them – “Why did you do that, anyway?”  Once we Understand where they were coming from, they might even Ask us how we see things Differently.  If they don’t, no worries, since this is “only” our Imagination  (if you haven’t read Robert Moss’s The Three Only Things,” this would be a good time).  We may as well tell them anyway, since we’ll be Obsessing on it and they can read our mind.  If we ever want to get to Unconditional Love – a Precondition for Peace, Grace, 5D, a rewarding Love Life, and low-interest Credit – we’ll need to Revert all of our Judgments, so we may as well start here.

The Full Moon makes a T-Square (Challenge) to Juno, which represents the Edges of Consciousness, or Growth in Consciousness.  Reverting Judgment is an excellent way to Raise our Consciousness.  In addition to being very useful now, with all of these Ancestors visiting for the next few years, it’s very timely because the Juno T-Square is a Diamond Star, so it’s Self-Resolving.  Self-Resolving Challenges are the best kind – we just need to be careful to Learn from them, rather than taking them for Granted or using them to fluff up our Ego.

A Diamond Star is composed of a T-Square (the red triangle, meaning a “Learning Opportunity,” aka Challenge) and a Finger of God (the grey-green wedge, meaning Pay Attention!) both pointing at the same place.  As you can see in the chart below, this results in a web of blue lines below the long red line (Opposition and base of the T-Square), and blue lines symbolize Grace.  So the Challenge Resolves itself Gracefully.

 Well, usually Gracefully.  In this chart, the base of the Finger of God – the source of the Grace – is very complicated, so we could still screw it up.  The Grace derives from…

Asteroids Aletheia and Pallas, Truth and Boundaries.

Both of which are Stationary, aka Strong.  Pallas’s Station is Exact 18 February (8:30 am PST) in 30 Libra, and Aletheia’s 23 February (3am PST) in 28 Libra.

For Benign Ancestors, we need only relax our Boundaries against things we can’t see.  If they want through and you won’t let them, they’ll just escalate and make it more difficult to ignore them.  Invisible doesn’t mean Not Real.  You may need to Suspend Disbelief, or shift from Either/Or to Both/And, to find this Truth.

For Abusive Ancestors, Boundaries are very tricky.  You can’t let them Walk all over you (or worse) again, but you have to find a way to Meet them as Equals, and there may still be a lot of Emotion in between.  We’ve been practicing this a lot over the last several years, as OR10 has been traveling with Nessus (Abuse, Privilege).  While Ancestors can no longer Abuse you Physically, they can still Abuse you Emotionally.

Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, Kegels, and various kinds of PIAVAing (leave a comment if any of these terms is new) can be very helpful, but our goal has to be more than Overcoming our Emotions.  At some point we need to Move Into those Emotions.  It may help to Locate them in our Body, and put as much of our Attention as we can muster into that place, and hold it there until it moves on its own.  Eventually we’ll need to Love them into Neutrality.

Trust that it is Possible to set a Boundary that’s fully Non-Judgmental and fully Protective.  But it may take a lot of Trial-and-Partial-Success (discovering what doesn’t work is a significant Success) and a lot of work Self-Loving all manner of our own Emotions to get there.

The Stellium (group of three or more planets) of dwarf planet Ixion (Natural Genius for which we have been Punished), asteroid Eurydike (Trust), and dwarf planets Pholus (Being Fully Responsive without Sacrificing Self-Sovereignty), and Quaoar (Survival Instincts).

We’ve been working with this one already.  It’s easy to dismiss Survival Instincts when Social Convention is more Powerful – we don’t want to be Chicken Little.  That’s how Global Warming gets Denied.  The larger point is that each of us is Endowed with a Unique Genius, and when these many Unique Genii are assembled in a Team, we can accomplish Anything.  But overcoming our Programmed and quite possibly Karmic Resistance to our Genius is one of our most Challenging tasks in Life.

Ixion is still in Sagittarius – the other three Players are in Capricorn.  Sagittarius is about Burning Away Untruths.  Ixion was in Scorpio from 1965-1995; that’s when we were most likely to have been Punished.  It’s been in Sagittarius since 1996, and we’ve been working on Letting Ourself Be Who We Really are ever since.  Slowly at first, then gradually accumulating Self-Trust.  A year from now Ixion moves into Capricorn (Just Fix It) – we’ve got about a year to practice letting our True Genius peek out.

It’s been Locked Up for a long time, so it’ll be clumsy when it Emerges.  We have to be gentle with it, Allowing it to appear Inept at first, till it grows Accustomed to the Light.

As the orange triangle on the chart above maps out, the Moon-Juno Square is the root of a Mjölnir (Epiphany) to the 18 February (3am PST) Saturn-Venus Initiation.  Venus-Saturn Cycles in general are about Reviewing our Values.  The ultimate Source of our Values is the Heart, but we Betray ourself to the extent that we Allow our Mentality or our Programming to direct our Life.  So each Venus-Saturn Cycle brings us the Choice to either Betray our Programming or Thinking and move toward the Heart, or to Betray our Heart again and Revalidate our Programming and Rationalizations.

Any Cycle is very Strong at its Initiation.  This Venus-Saturn Cycle lasts till December.  Its Initiation Degree informs us about its specific nature – 17 Capricorn, “A repressed woman finds a psychological release in nudism.”  Sounds like an excellent adjunct to help us Finish Stripping the artificial Costumes and Masks and Subterfuges that hide our Unique Genius.

One of the things we can do Safely to aid this Coming-Out process for our Ingenue, is to Stop Judging, Doubting, or Punishing Ourselves for our Genius!  If we can do that, She can step forward with more Confidence when She does.  Of course She may be a He, but more likely She’ll be Both/And.  If She’s still in hiding and you’re not sure Who She Is, no worries, just Stop Judging, Doubting, or Punishing Yourself for Anything!  That’s where we have to go eventually anyway!

There’s a whole lot more in this Full Moon chart, including a second Diamond Star!  To be continued…