Remembering that our Purpose here (and probably the only thing we can do) in this Time-Space is to Let Go of our Held Emotions – our historical Pain – so it no longer Creates Self-Sabotage as we try to Manifest a Life we Love on a Planet infused with Love and Support and Community and Collaboration and Praise, we’re entering several days where what’s in our face is Abuse. If this has already been going on for you, no surprise, as we’ve actually been doing this since early 2015.
Let’s start with some definition. Whenever someone speaks to you using “You-Statements” and they aren’t praising your Brilliance, Gorgeousness, Talent, and Fabulosity, that’s Abuse. Obviously, there are much more blatant and serious forms of Abuse, mostly having to do with Power-Over. A significant tell is that it Hurts you, but that’s not always obvious. The other side of the Abuse Coin is Privilege – the other person Believes they have the right to Abuse you, possibly even “for your own good” – Power-Over. If you grant them the Privilege to Power-Over you, then Hurt may not be as Clear. Teasing is a good example – Teasing is Abuse where the rules of the game are that you’re supposed to play along with the Abuse.
Now, on a Free-Will Planet such as ours, no one can actually ever Hurt you; it’s a Choice you make, to indulge your Hurt Feelings. And virtually every time you are Hurt, the other person’s Remarks or Actions are actually Triggers for your own Held Emotions. That’s actually a good thing, because the only thing we have the Power to Change is Ourself. We can’t Change the Perp, nor would we Want to, because that would be Powering-Over their Choices. We definitely want to drastically Change the circumstances of our Relationship with them, but all of the Levers and Dials for that process are within Ourself.
That does NOT mean that the Abused is to Blame or Responsible for Past Abuse that has happened TO them. Remember that Blame looks to the Past to assign Who Did What, while Responsibility looks to the Future to assure that Nobody Does That Kind of Thing to Us Again. Blame will Manifest only more Abuse. Anger is something else; in our Anger at being Abused we will, Hopefully, go through a phase where we are Blaming our Abusers. I say Hopefully because we don’t want to Blame ourself instead. Let’s unwrap that.
I am Angry at the person who Abused me. I’m also Angry at myself for Letting it happen again. We have to do two things with this Anger. First, it’s the fuel for setting up a Protection from our Abuser. It doesn’t matter whether they’re to Blame as the Perp, or if they innocently stepped on our sore toe. We need to Protect ourself from them. Later we can reconsider whether or not we have Forgiven them. For now, Safety First. Only when we’re Safe can we look at ourself to see how we can convert that Anger at ourself into Self-Care.
Forgiveness isn’t a Decision, it’s a Discovery. We can Actively Intend to Forgive someone, but Forgiveness doesn’t actually happen until it does, in its own Time. First we set Effective Boundaries against the alleged Perp, then, once we’re Safe, we Explore our own part in the Drama. Abuse is a Dance, and it takes two (at least). We talked a little about all this before, at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/10/17/power-under/ , the last time we encountered this 17.12 Energy. “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Hurt and Abused here, aren’t you” would be a good place to start. That would put you in Compassion toward yourself. Compassion toward your Abuser comes much later, if it comes at all.
This is really a Test of your Skill at Discerning Blame from Responsbility. If you have to start with “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Blaming yourself here, aren’t you” that’s fine; just do whatever you need to do to avoid Self-Blame. There is no exit from Self-Blame. Stepping out of that dead-end is the first task, and you may just need to PIAVA it. Blame in general is a sealed Universe, and it’s very difficult to see out of it. We could go on at length, but I hope this gives you enough clues to take your next step; let me know if you feel stuck or have questions; I’ll do my best to find time to Respond. I’ll treat all comments on this Confidentially.
For now, the Bottom Line is that We’re Finished With This Abuse Energy. Yes, it will be in our face until 17 December, but this is the Confidence-Builder phase of this astroevent. When we first encounter an astroEnergy, especially if it’s one we don’t encounter often (or ever in the current Lifetime), we’re caught off guard and it opens a Can of Worms, or often, of Snakes. We call that first event a Can-Opener. Many astroevents recur several times; we refer to the intermediate events as Expositions, because each one Exposes more about our Reaction to the Can-Opener. By the time we get to the last event of the series, provided our Objective has been to Expand our Consciousness, we’re fully trained, and the last recurrence is in fact a Confidence-Builder.
This astroevent is the Initiation of Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) by OR10 (Irruption of Unconscious Contents). The Initiation itself took place in May 2015, at 4 Pisces, “Heavy traffic on a narrow spit linking two seaside resorts.” The image is full of Emotional Loading (Seaside), Karmic history (heavy traffic), doorways (narrow spit), Either/Or Duality (two) and the ultimate promise of being able to Let Down our Guard Safely (resorts). The Expositions were June 2015, January 2016, and September 2016).
The current Confidence-Builder occurs at 3 Pisces, “Petrified tree trunks like broken on desert sand” – our Abuse Archetypes have been broken and left to ossify.
Nessus-OR10 is at the focus of a Finger of God from Vesta (Archetypes) and Makemake (Manifestation) – If we want to Manifest Free of Self-Sabotage, we have to Pay Attention to Abuse and Privilege. Vesta is also the focus of a Quintile Yod from the Sun and Neptune – We’re Learning here about our Karmic Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.
It also Trine-Bridges (Provides an Easy Path to Mastery) a Makemake T-Square across the Opposition between Hylonome (Letting Go of Archetypes) and Atropos (Endings) – that sounds pretty self-explanatory!
And it makes a Trioctile Bridge (Epiphany) to a Pluto (Trance Re-Formation) T-Square on the Jupiter-Mnemosyne (Memories up in our Face) Opposition – also pretty self-explanatory! For emphasis, and to assure that we Understand what’s going on, Mercury (mentality) is Stationary (Strong) on Pluto.
While this is happening, between the Ides of December and the Solstice, the Sun is being Initiated by the Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar-Galactic Center Stellium, which we’ll talk about separately, as it gives us a whole new Perspective on Responsibility.
Varuna (the Life Force) also just re-entered Cancer (Nurturance) after dipping His toe into the Leo (Confidence) Ocean between mid-September and mid-December. It returns to Leo next July for another dip, but doesn’t enter Leo for good till June 2018.
We’ll come back to these Trauma-Dramas just before Christmas, but when they hit then, rest assured it’ll be only a glancing blow meant to demonstrate how good your new Armor is. We’ll also get some excellent training in Setting Boundaries against Abuse 5-9 January.
Nessus and OR10 both Initiate Mars on 23 December, in the Broken Trees Degree, and Initiate Pallas 6-9 January. Pallas-OR10 occurs in the Broken Trees Degree, while Pallas-Nessus occurs in the Heavy Traffic Degree.