Denying Nature, Transmuting Abuse

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Pan, Nature’s Head Dude, represented by the asteroid that bears His name, is Lit Up Bigtime today,¹ and has been for several days. It’ll also hang around for a week or so, but the Peak of the Energy was today. Unless we made an important Self-Protecting Decision, in which case it can become Karma and Hang Around till we Let It Go.²

The most important thing to know about this, is that Pan is Merged with both Our Soul and Our Mission.³ That’s a Powerful combination. The second-most important thing to know is that Pan and Our Soul and Our Mission have been ganging up on our Held Emotions, trying to talk them into Emerging from Hiding and Liberating us into Enlightenment.⁴ Held Emotions are the ones that we’d Rather Die Than Feel, and they’re usually Unconscious. Held Emotions are always Karmic, and Karma is never Present Moment until we make it so through Belief, so it’s not Physical Death that we Unconsciously Fear, it’s Ego Death.

And Rightly So, because the Ego is the part of our Psyche that’s in charge of Keeping us Alive! Crabs wear their Skeleton on the Outside, so they have to Molt in order to Grow, and once they Molt it takes them a week or so to harden their new larger Shell, during which time they’re extremely vulnerable to being eaten, nutcracker not required. While we probably aren’t direct descendants of Crabs, we may still have that Genetic Memory in our Karma, and for sure, when we Molt our Egos – Shell is actually a good synonym for Ego – we’re quite Defenseless until we Learn to Explain and Justify our new Ego, so there’s more than one parallel between us and Crabs.

We have to Accept Ego Death if we’re Committed to Ascension, and once we do we realize how many Ego Deaths we’ve already Lived Through Successfully – the Proof is in the Pudding. We Learn to Recognize the signs and Embrace the Fear that arises, and Learn to sail through them with Ease. The Held Emotions are always harder to Embrace, because they’re often Karma cemented by Vows we made to ourself while we were Physically Dying in another Lifetime – “I’ll Never do that again!” Those stick like Glue #10.

The third-most important thing abut Pan’s visit, is that we’re being Asked to Let Go of our Patterns around Abuse and Privilege.⁵ While we’ve had a lot of Practice over the last few years, especially when Abuse and Privilege was traveling hand in hand with Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet Gonggong) during 2015 and 2016. Revisiting Childhood Abuse is never Fun, and Dealing with Ancestral Abuse is always Tortuous and Confusing. And while Privilege seems like it should be a Privilege, it has its own Karma.

I’m always reminded of Stephen Levine’s story about a Meditation Retreat where in one session he was Reliving an Auschwitz Experience and Feeling Relieved that his Sense of Victimization was Justified. Then when he went back into Meditation after a Break, he was the one wearing the Jackboots. Wise men have said it before, but Doing Unto Creates the same Karma as Being Done Unto. That’s why Karma, which is the Inertia of Habit, is easily Confused with Retribution. When you Accept the Traditional Wisdom that We Are All One, that becomes Obvious.

Today in Florida and Texas they’re only Burning Books and The Mouse, and in Florida and Georgia and Colorado they’re trying to Burn Down Democracy, so the Oligarchy can Take All. They aren’t Burning and Drowning Witches again yet. Everyone’s Cutting Down and Burning Down the Sacred Groves again, as if they ever stopped. And some Races are undergoing Genocide as we speak. Abuse and Privilege stretches far beyond the Sexual.

The fourth-most important thing about Pan’s Illuminations, is that we’re also being Invited to Revisit and Let Go Of our Karma around the times when our Cultures Expanded so far Beyond our Values, or Beyond Values that would have Permitted our Survival, that our Civilization Collapsed.⁶

¹ Asteroid Pan Stationary 10 January 2023 (PST 4:20 am, GMT 12:20 pm 10th, IST 5:40 pm 10th, AEDT Qld 10:20 pm) in 13 Taurus, “What we carry around with us is whatever we can believe in and partake in with fantasy, speculation, wonderings, and with every tool of our soul. Whichever world we dream up we can enter, ensoul, and become entirely absorbed in. It is up to us whether it is life-giving or sterile, theoretical or practical, isolating or connecting us with something vast, more universal, more archetypal.” —Ellias Lonsdale, 360 Degrees of Your Soul Destiny, p.77.

² Life-or-Death Decisions often become Karma because we either already Believe, or have to Make ourself Believe, that our Choice was the only way out. Once we convince ourself of that, it becomes an Unconscious Limitation that’s an integral part of our Worldview as if it was a “law of Physics” (which are actually Cultural Karmic Limitations). Worse, it could have been a distant ancestor that made such a Decision (like avoiding Pork in the Middle East in the Olde Days), and the Limitation was passed down to us through Programming. Since we have no way of remembering the origin of such Karma, and since we’re Ridiculed or Shamed for Ignoring it, Letting Go of that sort of Karma has its own Difficulties. We have to lean on our natal Ixion (Psychopathic Ignorer of Traditions) to Transcend it.

³ Conjunct Uranus and North Node.

⁴ Pan-Uranus-North Node Opposite Ka’epaoka’awela (Transmutation), South Node (Held Emotions), and Zhulong (Enlightenment).

⁵ Naked (by its lonesome, without Squares) Opposition between Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) in Pisces (Emotional Baggage) and Orcus (Pattern-Breaking) in Virgo (Ego Death).

⁶ The Pan-Uranus-North Node (Soul-Mission-Nature) Opposition to Ka’epaoka’awela-South Node-Zhulong (Transmutation-Held Emotions-Enlightenment) is T-Squared by the Merger of Venus (Values), Icarus (Dangerous Ambitions), and Atlantis (Civilization Collapse).

Amethyst, Clear Quartz turned purple by Radiation, is the Classical Aid to Ego Death. Its Crown–Chakra Color reminds us nonverbally that we are Spiritual Beings having a Physical Experience, and that Emotional Drama is part of Physical Experience for Hupers, so it Behooves us to Activate our Observer Self, make some Popcorn, and Enjoy the Movie, rather than Empathizing ourselves into the Drama.

Of course, if we Detach like this before we Explore and Embrace the Experience, we can drive our Resisted Emotions further into the dark corners of the Dungeon, especially when we’re Dealing with Held Emotions. So we don’t want to Skip that Explore-and-Embrace Step. We can Explore Emotion through Sensation, for instance, since Sensation involves less Drama, as long as we Avoid Indulging our Thoughts about our Sensations. If we do, we just withdraw our Attention from the Thoughts and Re-Invest It into the Body. To Embrace, we only need to remember that Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.

When we Ask ourself Where in my Body am I Feeling this? and Focus our Attention Deeply into that Place and Hold it there, persistently Returning our Attention when it Wanders, our Judgment-Free Laser Attention can Heal without time-consuming distractions to Story, which is just Metaphor anyway. When we’re Working with Karma, there’s no one Story, there are probably at least hundreds, so Story really is a Diversion. Story is good for Invoking the Occulted Emotion, but beyond that it can become the Ego’s attempt to Avoid Change by monopolizing the Conversation.

Once the Discomfort or Intensity in our Body Moves, we’re Done, we can Detach, though we may need to Return later for a Booster or several. This all sounds Mechanical and Unfeeling, and Held Emotions often involve Horrific Terrors. They’re best just Touched in the Emotional Realm, then Explored and Embraced in the Sensation Realm. Then when we Return to Touch them again, the Intensity may be Less. If it’s not, Gary Craig, who developed EFT or Tapping, has a series of videos demonstrating the use of EFT on PTSD. PTSD and Karma are not the same thing, but PTSD is probably usually Karmic.

Amethyst from the Thunder Bay area of Lake Superior in North Ontario Canada, is often speckled with dots of Rust or Hematite, Iron Oxide. These are red, the color of the Root Chakra, so they can help us Stay Grounded while we’re Exploring out Beyond our Crown Chakra and Deep Inside our Skin. As Angie Arrien liked to say, it will help us Walk the Spiritual Path with Practical Feet.

One of my first Rock photos. Most of these were taken with a very early digital camera, before they had large “viewfinder” screens. Using that camera was very much point and shoot, as the screen was too small to really see what I was photographing. I used to call it my Magic Camera, as many of its photos were just that. I suppose I could claim some credit via my Intuition or Instincts, as my Intellect was pretty much blinded by the small screen. Sometimes I imagine how it would be to Live like that, watching Crystals spontaneously and Magically sprouting Flames. I expect 5D to be as full of Delightful Surprises. Hopefully some day I’ll Deprogram my “left brain” enough to approach it.

Equality FULL Moon

Sides…

• You’d think by now I can tell NEW Moons from FULL Moons. I think it’s about Attention! And if it’s an Intuition, as Errors often are, what does it Indicate? I just started thinking of a Full Moon as an Initiation of a process that would Culminate at the Third-Quarter Moon. Hmmm. I Wonder.
• The Moon is In Bounds till 3:13 am PDT (11:13 am BST in England and 8:13 pm AEST in Eastern Oz) 16 September 2022 in 8 Gemini, when it moves Out of Bounds (Hupersons tend to be more Excitable) over the Northern Hemisphere, till 3:40 am PST 21 September.
• Have we mentioned that asteroid Lachesis (Unexpired Karma that We Can Consciously Let Go Of ) returned In Bounds on 8 September? That may make it a little harder to Let Go of Active Karma, but Persistence is Recommended, because All Karma is Vulnerable since it Died with Linear Time in 2012. We hold on to our Karma because it’s so Familiar and Comfortable, even when it’s untoward. We hold on to Linear Time because the rest of the World still Lives in the Yangtegrity Patriarchy. We hope you’re continuing to Minimize your Commitments, Renegotiate When you Can, and Make Amends When Renegotiation Is Not Possible and the Relationship Is Worth Keeping, as we Recommend as a crutch for our Yintegrity till we can hang out There All Day.
• Of course, without Linear Time astrology is up a certain creek without the appropriate Tool to move on, but it still seems to be Useful, right?
• Speaking of Karma, Out of Bounds asteroid Karma moves into Sagittarius (The Way Out Is Letting Go) “for good” (till it moves on into Capricorn) at 1am PDT (9am BST, 6pm AEST) on the Ides of September. Except for dipping a toe into Sadge in March and April, it’s been Dancing in Scorpio (The Way Out is Through, often Excruciatingly) since last December. It won’t return In Bounds (Less Intensity), though, till next March. It will be Rubbing Our Faces in our Emotional Baggage from July to October next year, though, as it Retrogrades in Pisces (Clearing Expired Emotions).
• Out of Bounds Dwarf planet Asbolus (Enhanced Intuition) moves into Cancer 11pm PDT 15 September (7am BST, 4pm AEST, both 16 September), which should make us a bit less Judgmental.
• Asteroid Tantalus moves into Leo today (11 September 2022) at 6pm PDT (2am BST, 11am AEST, both tomorrow). The SuperPower of Tantalus is to Teach us to Relish Desire more than we Appreciate its Consummation. Small wonder it shares a root with Tantric. Here’s an excellent example of the Challenge or Victim, or Shadow, side of this Dimension…

Entree…

The 3am PDT (11am BST, 8pm AEST) 10 September 2022 Full Moon was in 18 Pisces. While they’re quite busy during the event, we Expect the New and Full Moons to see their primary Impact over the following several weeks, including an Energy Peak approximately a week after the event. In this case that’ll be the neighborhood of 3pm PDT 17 September (11pm BST, 8am AEST 18 September), at the Third Quarter Moon (the Waning Sun-Moon Square). The Energy Peak should mirror what we’re writing about below, perhaps with its own Embellishments.

However, by 17 September we’ll be deep into Climage Change et al (Stations of Quaoar and Pholus 18-19 September). Remember what the et al stands for? We had a list once, but I can never find it. I know it included all of the Main Effects that are Rapidly Changing these days – Gender Balance and Inclusion, Rejection of War as Barbaric, Racial Equality, Consciousness about Pollution, Death Throes of the Patriarchy, and of course all the accouterments of the End Times – Pestilence, Famine, War, Locusts, all the Fun things we associate with the Apocalypse. It’s important to Remember, though, that Karma Is Expectation. When we see certain Happenings, we Expect certain ills to follow. When we Change our Expectations, we Change our Karma.

Interesting that so many Voices are Recalling the Abuses of Colonialism. Just one example – a Carnegie Mellon Professor of Language put it thus, “If anyone expects me to express anything but disdain for the monarch who supervised a government that sponsored the genocide that massacred and displaced half my family and the consequences of which those alive today are still trying to overcome, you can keep wishing upon a star,” referring to her Experience in Nigeria.

The Full Moon Conjoins dwarf planet Nessus (Abuse and Privilege). If Abuse and Privilege are the end points of a Dimension, what would we call the Dimension? How about Equality. The Full Moon has two not-really-Self-Resolving, but Much-Enhanced Challenges or SuperPowers,¹ depending on our Approach to them. One of them Suggests that our best Defense against Abuse is Self-Love.² The other is about Making a Safe Home in Our Body for Our Soul by Attending to our Self-Sovereignty.³

So, if a Full Moon is an Initiation of a Process that becomes Evident at the Third-Quarter Moon, what might we Predict for 17 September? Maybe some major News about Sovereignty? Or about Respect for Nature? Dwarf planet Altjira T-Squared the Full-Moon Axis at the Full Moon, and Altjira is Stationary on 18 September, peaking at 11:20 pm PDT in 19 Gemini.

Dessert…

¹ T-Squares without Coincident Fingers of the Goddess, but with Coincident Grand Trines.

² Dwarf planet Altjira (The Diva of Life itself ) T-Squares the Full Moon Axis, with Narcissus (Self-Love) and Saturn (The Most Important Thing) on the other corners of the Altjira Grand Trine.

³ Uranus Conjunct North Node (Soul Merged with Life Mission) in Taurus T-Squares Saturn (The Most Important Thing) in Aquarius Opposite (Debating With) asteroid Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) and Hybris (Hubris) in Leo. The Coincident Grand Trine connects Uranus-North Node with dwarf planet Hylonome (Codependence) in Capricorn and the Sun (Our Essence) in Virgo.

A Week Off…Sorta

This is very good. Dr. Dispenza Approaches Change from many angles, including SuperScienterrific and SuperMagical. You might remember him from the What the Bleep movie. He’s a Chiropractor whose body was mangled by an auto while he was riding his bicycle. He rejected the Medical treatment that was offered to him because it promised little permanent gain, and spent the next looong while in Meditation, eventually Healing himself. As he says in the first Meditation, he monitors the Physiology of his workshop participants Scienterrifically so he can see what effects Change best, modifies his workshop strategy accordingly, and does it again for each workshop.

He’s Amazing, frankly. Also quite expensive, so his freebies are especially Appreciated! The first link is to four 15-minute Meditations on Attention, Creativity, Creating a New Reality, and Creating a New Destiny, intended to be used one per day…

.https://experience.hayhouseu.com/redesigningyourdestiny-index-eg-2022/.

This second link is one of Dr. Dispenza’s Immersion Meditations, this one taking your Attention out of your usual Assemblage Point, and trying it on elsewhere…

.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fDaH8d8CYOE.

Kind of like the Journey from the Webb to the Beginning of Linear Time that Bob (in Coloniser Queensland) sent, or this one Looking out the Back Window.

Here’s another one, below. I have no idea how Scienterrifically Valid this one is, it’s way out of my league. I can only say that I’ve always Sensed Intuitively that the Big Bang was what we heard when those jets cracked the Sound Barrier on their way to intercept some idiot in his putt-putt plane that tinkered his way into the President’s flight path…

I think after all these Doubly and Triply and Fourfold Self-Resolving Challenges/SuperPowers, it’s probably time to review our Upper Limits – the way we Manifest some Bummer right after we Accept a Big Gift of Growth, just because we’d be Lost without our Bummers. Gay Hendricks has the best (only?) coverage I know of, in his book The Big Leap, where he describes how to Leap from our Zone of Excellence to our Zone of Genius. A Bonus – he tells us how to Master Time rather than being its Slave.

Marilyn Raffaele also Channels some excellent Advice for us at…

.https://onenessofall.com/newest.html.

“Resist nothing. It is not your job as Light workers to save the world with three dimensional solutions. Your job and what you came to do as evolved individuals is to hold the Light by being the Light. Because there is only ONE Consciousness, the Light you hold in your consciousness automatically assists and lifts those near or far able to align with that same energy.

“Enjoy the ordinary things of life. Take time to have a glass of wine, read a good book, laugh with friends, or walk in nature and talk to the trees. These things are just as spiritual as sitting in church listening to someone else’s concepts of truth or engaging in prayers that beg and plead. The energy of joy is of a much higher resonance than that of ‘I don’t have. Give, give, give. Poor me.’

“Be aware of your thoughts as you go about your day, staying anchored in truth as best you can. Energy is always attracted to energy it can align with because energy is always seeking oneness and wholeness regardless of how dense or light the energy may be.”

The Moon will be Out of Bounds over the Southern Hemisphere in a few hours, starting at 4:42 am PDT 3 September 2022 (12:42 pm BST in England, 9:42 pm AEST in Eastern Oz). It’ll hang there till 7:41 am PDT 7 September (3:41 pm BST 7 September and 12:41 am 8 September). Expect everyone to be a little more Panicky, though they’ve been plenty Panicky already this week. Like Tapping, where you Speak the Truth about what’s going on in your Body so your Body calms down because now it knows that you know so it no longer has to shout, this Moon OOB could act like a Homeopathic.

There are several Sign Changes coming up…

• Venus moves from Leo into Virgo 9:04 pm PDT 4 September (5:04 am BST 5 September in Liverpool, 2:04 pm AEST 5 September in Sydney). Expect Ego Deaths. Turn your Upper Limits into Ego Deaths, by Asking yourself, What am I not Owning?
• Pallas moves from Gemini into Cancer 9:58 pm 5 September (5:58 am BST 6 September in Bristol, 2:58 pm AEST 6 September in the Snowys). Boundaries should be less Flibbertigibbet and more Compassionate.
• Aletheia also move from Gemini into Cancer 10:07 am 7 September (6:07 pm BST 7 September in Cambridge, 3:07 am AEST 8 September in Canberra). Opening the Heart. Finally!
• Tantalus moves from Cancer into Leo 5:59 pm PDT 11 September (1:59 am BST 12 September, 10:59 am AEST 12 September). Now we’ll be Tempted by Egotism instead of Codependence. Do what you do when you catch yourself Thinking during Meditation – Oh, there’s Thinking Again! Thanks for Contributing! Oh, there’s Ego Again! Luv Ya, Kiddo!

And Mercury Stands Still and turns Retrograde 8:38 pm PDT 9 September (4:38 am BST 10 September, 1:38 pm AEST 10 September) for three weeks. You know the drill, it happens three times a year – possible Travel disruptions (as if that hasn’t been everywhere already!), botched Communication, Contracts may require Renegotiation in October after Mercury goes Direct again (on the 3rd).

Then there’s the Full Moon 2:59 am PDT 10 September (10:59 am BST, 7:59 pm AEST), in 18 Pisces, but we’ll Experience most of its impact after the fact. It has two Sorta-Self-Resolving Challenges (no Fingers of the Goddess, but two Grand Trine Boons – see previous post) or SuperPowers.

The Full Moon Emphasizes Inequality (Moon Merged with Nessus, Abuse and Privilege), and the Impact will likely Emerge through Challenges to the Living Environment of Earth (T-Square to Altjira, Diva of Life). Hopefully it will still provide for Life, maybe “just” Limp a little more. The Boon (Grand Trine) is about the Oligarchs (asteroid Narcissus) and The Most Important Thing (Saturn). Reread Marilyn’s Channeling above – maybe if we all Sent Light to the 1% they’d start Paying More Attention to the Earth’s Livability than to their Hoarded Wealth.

I know, I can hear the Chorus, What a Waste of the Light – we should be sending it to the people that they’ve Ripped Off. Yes, that too. But save a trickle for the Greedheads – you know, we can always send Infra-Red Light up their behinds, disguised as something caused by the Broken Climate, like a downed Power Line. It might even Cauterize their Polyps and make them Feel less Avaricious. But don’t Forget to Resist Nothing. We want to Manifest a Better Way, and Let the Old Way crumble from the Rot in its Foundation.

The Challenge to our Soul, still Merged with our Life Mission (Uranus-North Node), is about Credibility (asteroid Kassandra) and The Most Important Thing, which in this case is probably the degree to which Society is able to Support us (Saturn in Aquarius). It sounds a lot like Jay Powell’s Recession will be Upon Us, with less Employment and a lot more Bankruptcies. I could think of far worse Scenarios, but I’ve Canceled-Neutralized-Upgraded them, so I won’t.

Then we go back to Work. Our Enthusiasm (asteroid Icarus Stationary) is tested until 12:38 am PDT 12 September (8:38 am BST, 5:38 pm AEST). Burn-out is a Likelihood if we don’t Pay Attention to our Upper Limits.

And our Willingness to Break the Rules (dwarf planet Ixion Stationary) is tested until 10:58 pm PDT 13 September (6:58 am BST 14 September, 3:58 pm AEST 14 September). We could well be Feeling that one already. Why would we want to Break the Rules? Well, to begin with, ask any Muggle – Striving for Ascension Breaks All Kinds of Rules. The only way to Facilitate Change is to Break the Rules. Like the folks fighting to Unionize, for one thing, or the folks fighting to stop More Fossil Fuel mining and burning, especially in Red-Lined Loci of Intense Poverty. It used to be that the 1% got Filthy Rich by doing things that hadn’t been declared Illegal yet. Now it’s more often not getting caught yet, though a zillion Rip-Offs are still perfectly Legal.

We’ll talk more about the I-twins soon.

Pattern-Busting Full Moon

Margery asks if we could show a picture of the 6:36 pm PDT 11 August 2022 Full Moon chart, which we could call a Ball-of-Yarn configuration, as it would keep a Cat occupied till nap time. We actually call it a Grand Unx – an “unx” is one twelfth of something, and a “grand” fills the Zodiac, so a Grand Unx is twelve planets equally spaced around the Astroloop. Yes, we could always get one of these if we use enough asteroids, and we use quite a few, but it’s been quite a while since we’ve seen one, so it’s not as facile as it seems. The main feature is twelve Unx Angles, each of which indicates Pattern-Breaking, so it’s a chart worth celebrating, especially as these Heavy Energies that so many people are reporting are Lighting Up everything in our Karma that we haven’t Cleared yet.

Just a few Examples…

• Karma is dead; it died with Linear Time ten years ago. But we’re all still clinging to its corpse. Whenever a polyp of Karma breaks off and falls away, we Feel Weird, we don’t know what’s happening, and our name isn’t even Mr. Jones. We reach out for the familiar, to Anchor ourself. What’s familiar? Our Karma! So we Embrace those old Comfortable Patterns enthusiastically, as if they were our favorite snacks! But Looky Here! That so-very-Intense Exaggerated Karma Frosted with the Emotions We’d Rather Die than Feel (asteroid Karma Out of Bounds on the South Node) is Unx to (one Sign from) New Beginnings (asteroid Klotho)! So without even trying, we can Break this Pattern of Grasping our Dead Karma – all we need to do is Announce our Intention to Let Our Dead Karma Go like a Hot Potato Instead!
• But wait! We’ve all Wrapped our Identity around our Karma – it’s inevitable. Our Karma is Who We Are, so no matter how nasty it is, we’re Ego-Attached to it. If we haven’t yet caught ourself Bragging about our Karma, we need to start Listening to what we’re saying! We can Intend to Let It Go, but what about the Ego Death – those aren’t Fun! What’s on the other side of Karma-South Node? Asteroid Narcissus (Overfocus on our Identity)! So without even trying, we can Break this Pattern of Ego-Identifying with our Karma – all we need to do is Announce our Intention to Experience our Ego Deaths Lovingly and Gently so We Can Be Excited about the Glorious Freedom we’ll Enjoy once we do!
• But Hold On! What about our Abuse Karma and all of the Unconscious Limitations that we use to Protect ourself from those Memories (Nessus-Vesta-Heracles) that we’ve buried so deep in the Dungeon that we don’t even know they happened? Well, Trusting our Instincts Unquestioningly (Saturn-Moon) Unxes that Stellium (Nessus-Vesta-Heracles), so without even trying, we can Break this Pattern of Being Triggered for no apparent reason – all we need to do is Vow from now on to Act on our Instincts Immediately, without Questioning them and without ever Explaining them, no matter how Weird we think it’ll look to others.
• But Shit, when I’m Triggered I’m usually Feeling Depressed and Powerless, and my Instincts are nowhere in sight! Often I Feel Depressed and Powerless and I don’t even know when or how I was Triggered! I usually think it’s “just me” that’s Depressing and Powerless. But on the other side of Nessus-Vesta-Heracles, it’s Unx to Despair and Miracles (Chiron). Well, we know how to Poor Sweetheart ourself out of Despair and Create Miracles, but when we’re Depressed and Powerless, we’re Regressed to whatever Bummers we’re Unconsciously Reliving. When we Regress, we Forget everything we’ve Learned since those Repressed Bummers happened! So without even trying, we can Break this Pattern of Forgetting What We Know – all we need to do is Vow from now on that when we’re Regressed we’ll Remember All of the Tools We’ve Learned to Restore our Current-Life Identity, like Poor-Sweethearting!

No Wonder the Energies Feel Heavy!! Can you Imagine how the other eight Unxes might play out?

Apart from the Glories of the Grand Unx, the Big Deal about this Full Moon is that it “Squares the Nodes.” What does that mean?

• Well, the Nodal Axis – South Node to North Node – is the most important Axis in a chart, as it indicates the Source, Direction, and Destination of “the Native” (the person or event for which the chart is drawn). In this Full Moon, the Source is a Karmic Hellhole, the Destination is Reunion of Day-to-Day Identity with Soul, and the Direction is from Emotional Overload to Stability.¹
• At any Full Moon, our Inner Male and our Inner Female are Face-to-Face, where as much as they are able, they can be Honest about the Quality of their Union. In Carl Jung’s approach to Psychology, which we applaud, the Perfection of this Union is more or less equivalent to Enlightenment, thus a Key Ingredient of our 5D Endeavors.
• The “Square” means that these two Critically Important Axes sit at Right Angles to one another, meaning in applied mathematics that they are Independent – they do not Influence one another under the radar. So our Purpose (Nodal Axis) and our Integrity (Inner Harmony) are a priori Unrelated, and each can Operate and Negotiate without Unconsciously Compromising themself.

Notice how different this is than the conventional astrological interpretation of a Square – as a Crisis. In a Left-Brain Patriarchal Culture, the very idea of Surrendering Power to the Female is Anathema. In this blog we’ve been inching toward interpreting Squares as Superpowers rather than Challenges. We don’t mean that the Challenges go away. In the previous post we averred that “If We Aren’t Ready to Receive What We’re Asking For, the Universe Will Show Us Examples of Why We Aren’t.” If we Experience our Squares as Superpowers, we’re Ready to Receive What We Want. If we Experience them as Challenges, the Universe is Clarifying for us Exactly what we still need to Let Go Of in order to Support Ourself without Unconscious Compromise, aka without Self-Sabotage.

The Loud and Clear Message in this particular Full Moon is that The Most Important Thing is to Trust our Instincts.² Jung used to say that people who emphasized Thinking were not Rational, because they weren’t in touch with their Values (which are accessed through Emotion). In an Ideal Lifetime, our Inner Female calls the shots (assuming She’s in touch with Her Feelings), and our Inner Male follows Her lead. That’s Inner Female and Inner Male – any Relationship between actual Living People needs relative Equality in both Vision and Action, as each person will contribute Vision from their own Inner Female, and each person will contribute Action from their own Inner Male.

A Grand Unx is so incredibly rich that we’ve only begun to scratch the surface. Full Moon Energies are usually Prominent for several weeks afterward, so we have time, and we’ll Dive Deeper in the next post.

• ¹ Source = South Node, Merged with asteroid Karma Out of Bounds (Exaggerated ), Destination = North Node, Merged with Uranus (Soul ), Direction = Scorpio (Fearless Searching) to Taurus (Grounded Materiality).
• ² Moon (Instincts) Conjunct Saturn (The Most Important Thing).

Whack-A-Mole

That’s really what Karma is like isn’t it, Whack-A-Mole. Not to mention Karma’s Messenger, astrology. It’s critical to be Aware of any Fear that astrology ever Triggers for you. Astrology is a Teacher, and if you’re Scared by any of your Teachers, you need to Stand Up to them and not let them Intimidate you. If they throw you out of class, so be it, that wasn’t the right class for you anyway. And if it’s a class in Fear, you need to Stand Up anyway, the straighter the better, to get a good Grounding and a good straight Energy Flow between the Earth Star beneath your Feet and the Higher Chakras above your head, if you want to pass the class.

When I wake up before I get back in my Body, with my skin crawling from Fear, the most effective technique I’ve used is Tapping. “Even though I’m Scared, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself…” Repeatedly, till my skin has stopped trying to crawl under the bed, till I feel Grounded again, and I’m Clear and Ready to deal with the Fear Effectively. We don’t have to move our Body, because our Energy System registers Imagined Taps almost as well as Physical Taps. Long Inhales and Exhales, through the Nose only, helps too. They’ll take your Body out of Fight/Flight/Freeze mode.

Not that I’m forecasting Fear astrologically, but the next big Mole or astroevent to Whack, on 16 June 2022, is about Abuse and Privilege, which can Trigger Deep and Unpleasant Emotions. From the Nutshell Perspective, that chart features three Challenges that aren’t Self-Resolving, though all three are also major parties to Dumb-Luck Blessings, and the three Challenges are all Connected tightly together by the Blessings.¹ It sounds like one of those astrological Configurations where it’s best that we don’t try to Intervene to Mitigate our Memories of Abuse, but do the best we can to Stand Still and let the Energy run its course, as each Challenge looks like it will end up being the Resolution for the Others, unless we try to Rescue our Olde Ego, and screw it all up. Plus, it promises a Big Jump in our Consciousness if we’re able to Let It Be and Observe it with relative Detachment.²

Well, Abuse and Privilege is the next Mole to Whack if we don’t count the 14 June Full Supermoon.³ While we’re likely to Feel the Impact of the 16 June event Grow till the 16th, then taper off (assuming we haven’t Intervened), we’re likely to Feel the Influence of the 14 June event Growing Stronger after the 14th, though the two will be Muddled, since we’re Feeling both already, and we really should consider them both together. Even astrologically Unrelated events Merge when they Converge in Linear Time.⁴

Which is Fortunate, since the Full Supermoon is all about Self-Love, Self-Respect, Self-Appreciation, and Self-Sovereignty.⁵ So if we can keep our Eye on those four Qualities while we’re Feeling Around in our Abuse/Privilege History, Herstory, and other Lifetimes in Other Places, we’ll Win an (perhaps the Most ) Esteemed Lifetime Prize, which is Expanding Our Consciousness into Greater Love in the Face of Potential Disaster.

Our Lineage is Immortal. We’ve Suffered so we could Truly Understand the Suffering of Others in order to give them the Gift of Healing Empathy. It’s time to Step Back Up and Honor Ourselves for that.

• ¹ Dwarf planet Nessus (Abuse and Privilege – you can’t have one without the other ) Stationary (Exaggerated ) until 3:50 am PDT 16 June 2022 (which is 11:50 am BST in London and 8:50 pm AEST in Eastern Australia, both 16 June), in 17 Pisces (Innocent Awe). We’ll cover the three T-Squares (Challenges) and the three Grand Trines (Dumb-Luck Blessings) later.
• ² The Nessus Station is Merged with asteroid Juno (Expansion of Consciousness) also in 17 Pisces.
• ³ Full Supermoon (Illumination) in 24 Sagittarius (The Divine Mother ), near the Fixed Star Ras Alhague (Healing) occurs at 4:52 am PDT 14 June 2022 (12:52 pm BST in Cambridge and 9:52 pm in Sydney, both 14 June). A Supermoon is a Full Moon that appears larger than usual because the Moon is at or near its Perigee, at the closer end of its Oval-shaped orbit around the Earth.
• ⁴ The Nessus Station is 82° ahead of the Full Moon and 98° behind the Full-Moon Sun. The Moon makes a Waning Triununtile (3/11 of the Zodiac) to Nessus, and the Sun a Waxing Triuntricile (3/13) to Nessus. The Waning Triununtile is about Humbly Loving the Way Our Talents Have Shone (Third and Eleventh Harmonics), and the Waxing Triuntricile is about Intending to Respect and Embrace Our Ego Deaths (Third and Thirteenth Harmonics). This is where the Self-Appreciation and Self-Respect at note ⁵ arise.
• ⁵ At the Full Moon, the Sun at 24 Gemini (Union with Mother Gaia) Merges with asteroid Sappho (Self-Love) in 23 Gemini (Enlightenment ) and dwarf planet Asbolus (Open to Channeling) in 27 Gemini (Removing Our Masks). There are two prominent Fixed Stars in 23 Gemini, El Nath (The Illumination and Creative Destruction of Thor’s Hammer) and Phact (Exploring the Unknown). The Self-Sovereignty arises from another planet in the Full Moon chart, which we’ll explain later.

Scary Lunar Eclipse I

This week is all about Sign Changes…

• Asteroid Juno entered Capricorn Sunday 14 November 2021. Juno is about Growth in Consciousness. Since late December 2020 we’ve been Growing our Awareness of What We Needed to Let Go Of (Juno in Sagittarius). Now, till early March 2022, we get to Plug in Candidates for Refilling those Holes in Our Lives (Juno in Capricorn) that Have Been Created by All That Letting Go. Voids are seldom comfortable, so I suspect that, like me, you’ve been working overtime trying to Fix the Holes Where The Rain Gets In, with less success than you would have liked, because it wasn’t time yet. That should be Changing. Yay!
• Asteroid Karma entered Scorpio Monday 15 November. Boo! Like Frank said to Ernest, I just get my budget in order, and along comes a big surprise, like rent, or a weekend. So as they so often do, our killjoy Ancient Habits (asteroid Karma) are already pushing and shoving their way into the Holes. But this is not without Purpose. Scorpio is Relentless about Getting to the Bottom of Things. So while Juno in Sadge went home with our marbles, now we get to deal with our Addiction to our Routines. Joe Dispenza’s free series of four short workshops (still available at https://experience.hayhouseu.com/redesigningyourdestiny-video1-whereyourattentiongoes/) is about exactly that, and it’s Right On. It’s also an excellent time to reread Gay Hendricks’s The Big Leap. Asteroid Karma (“a.Karma”) has been in Libra – I hope you Deepened your most important Relationships rather than Fleeing them – since only the last few days of August, so at least the torture was short-lived. a.Karma will be done unearthing skeletons by February 2022¹.
• Asteroid Vesta enters Sagittarius Tuesday 16 November. Make up yer mind, Universe! Are we Building or Dismantling? It’s always Both/And, isn’t it. If we didn’t have Apoptosis, we’d get even fatter every day than we already do. Vesta is about Our Limiting Beliefs. These days it’s only spending about two months in each Sign. So the last two months we’ve been furiously hammering away at the Beliefs that Most Limit us (Vesta in Scorpio), and we’re probably Frustrated that they seem to still be there! We did Identify them, however, and that will be a great Boon as we Let Them Go over the next few months (Vesta in Sadge). Bear in mind that Life is a lot more complicated than our Dualistic mind can comprehend, so if you think you can actually Name your Limitations, be sure to add …or something like that… to any Descriptions of them.
• Asteroid Sappho enters Pisces Wednesday 17 November. Sappho (Self-Love and Self-Doubt) has been in Aquarius (Social Idealism) since April, seven months, but it’ll only spend two months in Pisces. I suspect we’ll be glad about that, as we could be spending a lot of time blubbering about the Barrage of Regrets we could be inundated with, as Pisces is about Finishing Unfinished Emotional Business. Whatever you Do or Feel between now and the Ides of February, be hypervigilant about Blame. Blame, whether Self- or Other-, is a total Dead End. No better way to squelch your Growth and stop your Progress toward any Goal, than to hang yourself with the Noose of Blame. Gay Hendricks advises, “that if I could consider, even for a moment, that I was not upset for the reason I thought I was [Thoughts about our Feelings again!], then I could break out of the Trance I was in. Then, I could begin to see what the real reasons were” (op.cit. p.102).
• Asteroid Nemesis enters Capricorn Sunday 21 November. Nemesis spent three months in Sagittarius (Letting Go Of Guilt) but it’ll only spend two months in Capricorn (Putting Guilt to Work Productively). This Sign Change will be much complicated by its concurrence with the 18-21 November Exaggeration of Intrusive Memories (21 November Station of dwarf planet Gonggong²), and by concurrent Exaggeration of our Instincts (Moon Out of Bounds 20-24 November³). Not to mention the 19 November Scary Lunar Eclipse.⁴

• ¹ Well, not quite. a.Karma turns Retrograde in March 2022 and backs into Scorpio again in April. It finally moves into Sagittarius “for good” in September 2022. Meanwhile, a.Karma is Out of Bounds (Exaggerated) from late December 2021 in mid-Scorpio, all through 2022, till March 2023 in early Aquarius.
• ² Formerly known as “OR10” or “2007 OR10” (or in some ephemerides minor planet number “225088”), the dwarf planet named after the ne’er-do-well Chinese Dragon Gonggong is about Intrusive Memories. It Stands Still at 7:28 am PST November 21, in 4 Pisces. While the connection is fading, Gonggong has been hanging out near dwarf planet Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) for the last several years. This year their Stations are four days and eight Degrees apart, but with Nemesis, an Out-of-Bounds Moon, and a Scary Full Moon Eclipse involved, they’re very likely to Test the progress we’ve been making on Clearing our Abuse Issues. Two key strategies to Remember: (1) That was Then and This is Now and (2) Don’t Trust Your Thoughts about Your Feelings – Keep Coming Back to the Emotion Itself, as a Sensation in Your Body. Sink your Breath and your Attention Deeply into that Sensation, and Persistently Reject the Temptation to Trust Your Ideas and Thoughts More Than You Trust the Sensations in Your Body. If you succeed at quieting the Noise in your Mind, the Sensations will eventually talk to you, but they’ll speak through your Unitary and Multidimensional Intuition, not through your Dualistic Mind. Truth and Healing Reside in Our Bodies, Not in Our Minds. The Nessus Station occurs at 2am PST November 25, in 12 Pisces.
• ³ Moon Out of Bounds from 9:24 am PST 20 November in 13:14 Gemini till 7:28 pm PST 24 November in 5:49 Leo, Peaking (Stationary) 2:45 pm PST 22 November at 26:21 North Declination and 9:28 Cancer.
• ⁴ Virtually (about 95%) Total Eclipse (Illumination) of the Moon 12:58 am PST 19 November in 27:15 Taurus, Conjunct dwarf planet Sedna (Converting Fear to Power) and T-Square to Jupiter and asteroid Damocles (Swords about to Fall, Amplified). More about this in the next installment. The Eclipse is at 28 Degrees, the Sign Changes at 30 = 0 Degrees, and the Gonggong Station at 4 Degrees, all on or near the Cusps, which are the equivalent of the I Ching’s Changing or Moving Lines. We’ll use the Eclipse chart to represent all three.

Sam Haines II

Our Friend and Healer Camilla Blossom Bishop has contributed suggestions for Inviting the Water Dragons to help us deal with any Heavy Emotions that might crowd in while dwarf planets Gonggong (Intrusive Memories) and Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) are Dancing cheek to cheek in November (see previous post) – or any other times! In fact, we may be starting in now (as it has been for me), since asteroid Moira (Fate and Choice) is Strong now (Stationary 6:36 am PST 2 November 2021, in 15 Pisces), while also Dancing with (Conjunct) Nessus, suggesting we’ll be working with Multi-Lifetime Abuse material.

An excerpt from https://camillablossom.com/big-emotions/…

“During a powerful full moon trip to the Washington Coast, I felt the Water Dragons come close. They brought me healing energy and a deep sense of peace and calm.

“At this time of year when the veils grow thin, I feel the presence of Paul, my boyfriend, who passed almost one year ago. His spirit is with me helping me connect with my grief… and letting it flow… into love.

“When Big Emotions move through, I let Water Dragon show me the way.

“Water Dragons are elemental guardians with mastery of water… feelings and emotions. They show up when we need to face our stormy seas, emotional depths, and come to a place of healing.

“Water Dragon can help us FEEL Big Emotions.

“More than that, Water Dragon can help us come to greater acceptance and peace about our emotional process. They help us navigate a way to pass through a deep experience without getting stuck or distracted – including sounding, breathing, spiral dancing, and flowing.”

Gonggong’s namesake was Himself a Water Dragon, who unleashed a distructive global flood, and tilted the Earth, creating the Precession of the Equinoxes and our dozen ±2,000-year Ages. And Gonggong and Nessus are of course in Pisces, a Water Sign. The other Dragon planet that we use, Zhulong, the Red Dragon of Enlightenment, is also in a Water Sign, Scorpio.

I’ve been Feeling many Visitations from the Other Side of the Veil lately too, as we approach Their Time, Samhain. I know well that it’s not easy to contact the Elementals if we don’t know how to Recognize them when they’re Here, which of course they always are. One resource that I’ve learned a lot from, is Thomas Mayer’s book Answering the Call of the Elementals: Practices for Connecting with Nature Spirits…

“When we experience something in the world, we always have numerous impressions. We can see, smell, taste, hear, and touch it. We also experience forces, feelings, mental pictures, and thoughts. When I look at a stone I experience being held; granite induces different feelings from sandstone. With a stone as my object of perception, for example, I have different thoughts from those I have if I am looking at the sea.

“There is a central presupposition working in the background that we do not question. We separate our perceptions into inner and outer world. We think of our seeing, touching, smelling, tasting, and hearing impressions as an outer world, independent of ourselves, and we think of all other perceptions, such as feelings, mental pictures, and thoughts, as the reactions of our inner soul to the outer world. In this way, we divide the field of perception into two realms through a hidden but entrenched belief that prevents us from seeing this separation, or from being able to think about it clearly. This resistance to clear thinking shows just how strong this belief is.

“As a result of this separation we say, ‘The feeling I get from the stone is mine not the stone’s,’ but we treat the color of the stone differently, saying ‘The color belongs to the stone.’

“This split into inner and outer worlds of perception makes no sense, because there is no color except if I experience one. The perception of color is never separated from me or my consciousness. Outer and inner do not appear in perception: when seeing, there is an experience of colors and forms but no inner and outer; when feeling, there is an experience of feelings but no inner and outer; when thinking, there is the experience of thinking but no inner and outer.

“Consciously reflected self-observation shows that all perceptions are always a uniform process. The concepts of ‘inner’ and ‘outer’ are completely inappropriate here. They do not emerge from the process of perception; they are superimposed upon this process after the fact. You cannot make headway by using these concepts, but to distance yourself from them is also not easy. We have become accustomed to them; they give our soul security.

“But if we avoid separating our perceptions into inner and outer realms, both the color and feeling impressions of the stone are of equal importance. We observe that the whole world is woven through with a feeling plane. Whenever we perceive, feelings are also created. If we do not separate into inner and outer, we can say that the feeling belongs to the stone, just as the color, the form, and the solidity belong to the stone. There is a feeling level to the world, and these feelings belong to the things of the world.

“With this discussion about the stone we are now already very close to the elemental beings, because the feeling that belongs to the stone does not exist in empty space; it has a carrier. This reveals itself when you hold the feeling meditatively in your awareness, intensifying the feeling in yourself, a feeling that is held by the elemental beings of the stone. So the elementals are the carriers of the feeling level of the world. I cannot think of a more poignant characterization of the elemental beings. They carry the feelings of the world.” (pp.18-19)

And we can extrapolate this to Time and Astrology – the planets-Signs-Angles¹ Configurations carry the Feelings of the Moment. And when one of those Momentary Feelings gets Stuck on a burr on our Ego, rather than rolling off and moving on like a Feeling is meant to do, we Identify with that Feeling, and then rapidly get Lost in Our-Thoughts-About-Our-Feelings. Not that this is a Negative process; we re-investigate our previous Experiences through this process, and in Positive Circumstances and Responses, we Clear away old Stuck places – grind down the burr a little more – and Heal. Or, if we aren’t Ready to Heal that burr yet, we add a little clay to it and make it a little taller, so the next time a Momentary Feeling gets Stuck on it, our Experience of it is a little more Painful, so the likelihood is a little greater that we’ll Wake Up and Notice how we’re in the Habit of Reacting to it.²

• ¹ And -Houses. The Solar Year and the Lunar Month are divided into twelve Signs, and the 24-hour Day is divided into twelve Houses. I think of the planets as Feelings or Energies, the Signs as Filters or Lenses, the Angles as Triggers for our Reactions, and the Houses as where the Energies are likely to land in our Day-to-Day Mundane World.
• ² This is a parallel Metaphor for the notion that Karma is Inertia, and every time we Indulge our Karma Unconsciously, we make it a little Stronger, while every time we Notice that we’re starting down that road again, and cut a U-ey instead (ie, Choose an Alternate Response), we make the Karma a little Weaker. Just like muscles, it’s Reps that add muscle (or fat) here and not there. The notion that Karma is Retribution, by the way, is just Judgment, Dualism, Politics. You don’t want to fall for that Dead-End; it was just someone’s effort to try to Manipulate and Control you.

Samhain

Enjoy the relative break this week (there are no Stations¹), as it gets busier in November.² By the end of the week though, we’re likely to be struggling with “Decisions” about our Fate – as if Fate and Decision belong in the same sentence.³ They do, actually, as the Path to Leaving Fate Behind lies through Consciousness. Since our Anal-ytical Mind doesn’t have the Key to the Gates of the Unconscious, we have to Invite our Intuitive Mind (with a PIAVA or several) if we want to bring our Fate into our Consciousness, where we can Replace it with Choice. So we can at least make the Decision to PIAVA Exploration of the Underwhere – that’s pretty much what Samhain’s about anyway.

• ¹ As regular readers know, for our Interpretations we rely mostly on the Planetary Stations – when planets Stand Still in the Sky. The planets don’t Stand Still like a Hummer or a Kestrel Hovering. Since the Earth spins at about a thousand miles per hour at its surface, the “Stars” are always moving. So the only way we can tell that a planet is “Standing Still” is by taking a snapshot of it at the same time every night, to see if it’s moving relative to the stable background Stars. The influence of a planet is Strongest when it Stands Still. The fact that, at the Equator, the surface of the Earth travels at a thousand miles an hour in the Round-Earth Metaphor, yet we can stand up without getting knocked down or blown off, should be strong evidence for an Alternate Metaphor.

• ² Besides Moira/Fate (see note ³ below), November also includes Stations/Exaggerations of…
  • Varuna/Life Force in Leo/Confidence on 6 November 2021,
  • Pallas/Boundaries in Pisces/Emotions Versus Thoughts About Same on 8 November,
  • Gonggong/Intrusive Memories in Pisces/Unfinished Business on 21 November,
  • Veritas/Truth of the Mind in Aries/Clean Slate on November 24,
  • Nessus/Abuse and Privilege in Pisces/Victimhood on 25 November, and
  • Neptune/Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity in Pisces/Emotional Confusion and Spiritual Devotion on 1 December.
• So the second half of November could be pretty Heavy, as we could be grappling with Intrusive Memories about Abuse and Privilege, while during that span both the Moon and Venus are Out of Bounds (Strong, Heavily Justified Emotions – always a Time to Strive to Differentiate our Emotions from our Thoughts-About-Our-Emotions). Plus, Nemesis/Guilt Changes Signs, entering Capricorn/Just the Facts, Ma’am on 21 November. The Gonggong-Nessus events occur during Thanksgiving Week in the US, a time when many of us already struggle with Unfinished Family-of-Origin Business. But this isn’t our first time Carving the Turkey, as Gonggong and Nessus have been traveling together and Stationing together for several years already, and their cross-contamination is actually declining. If you can talk yourself into “That Was Then, This Is Now,” and realize that what was happening then was Abuse while what’s happening now is Emotion, that might help.
• November includes lots of Sign Changes as well…
  • Mercury/Mind enters Scorpio/Fearless Search for the Ultimate Truth on 5 October 2021 and enters Sagittarius/The Way Out is Through Letting Go on 24 November,
  • Venus/Values enters Capricorn/Just Fix It, OK? on 5 November,
  • Ixion/Forbidden Genius enters Capricorn/Damn the Torpedoes, Do It Anyway 6 November,
  • Chariklo/Confidence and Doubt enters Aquarius/Barroom Politics 9 November,
  • Juno/Growth in Consciousness enters Capricorn/If It Doesn’t Grow Corn, Start Over 14 November,
  • Asteroid Karma/Karma enters Scorpio/Relentlessness 15 November,
  • Vesta/Unconscious Limitations enters Sagittarius/Throw Caution to the Wind 16 November,
  • Sappho/Self-Love enters Pisces/Emotional Baggage, but You Can Let It Go If You Just Renounce Your Victimhood, and
  • Klotho/Rebirth enters Sagittarius/Choose Freedom and Self-Expression This Time 26 November.
• Venus/Heart is Out of Bounds all month (from 10 October till 7 December) so we’ll likely find ourselves Outraged by Violations of our Values, and
• The Moon is Out of Bounds/Well-Rationalized Heavy Emotions for several days following the 7th and 20th November.
• Busy Busy Busy.

• ³ Asteroid Moira/Fate and Choice Stationary 2 November 2021, in 15 Pisces/Hopeless Cases and Lost Causes. Pisces is about Unfinished Business and Unnecessary Baggage, Emotionally, so it could Feel pretty Heavy for us. If you get Discouraged, don’t forget to try Poor-Sweethearting yourself. It seems trivial, but if you take it seriously, it often produces Miracles. You do have to Change the Subject though.

Without Stations, we should be getting a Break, right? Well, we did just have a Full Moon, and the New and Full Moons tell us about the several weeks that follow them. So we’ll look to the 20 October Full Moon to Guide us through the rest of October. It’s not the prettiest Moon in the Cheese Shop…

Any Compulsive Self-Doubt we have may be Lit Up pretty Brightly. This will ultimately be very Healing, but in the interim we’ll likely have to Endure some pretty serious Secret Revelations and Ego Rebirth, turning our Life around completely.⁴

And there may be more Zombies than usual among the Trick-or-Treaters this Halloween.⁵ Again, like usual, it’s Ego Death we worry about, and it’s seldom Fatal, except to your old Limited Ego.

• ⁴ A Pluto-Chariklo Conjunction (Compulsive Insecurity – or Narcissism) in Capricorn (Pragmatism) makes a serious Challenge (T_Square) to a Competition (Opposition) between Previously Hidden Deep Truths (Aletheia/Truth of the Heart Conjunct Eris/Revelation of What’s Been Denied, behind the Full Moon in Aries) and a Very Confusing and Complicated Rebirth (Haumea/Rebirth Conjunct asteroids Pandora/Travails and Hope and Atlantis/Technological Self-Destruction, behind the Sun). One could have a Field Day translating that into US Politics, but I won’t. Or the Drama-of-the-Week at Facebook (recently renamed Faceplant).

• ⁵ A second Challenge involves Sedna/Converting Fear to Power T-Squaring (Major Challenge) the Dance (Opposition) between Respect for Death (asteroid Requiem in Leo/Self-Love) and the Sword of Damocles (asteroid Damocles in Aquarius/Social Ideals). We’ll likely Enjoy Life more if we Remember that we very rarely actually physically Die, but that our Ego Molts often, and that usually feels like we’re Fixin’ to Die.

Love Is the Answer 3

We’re still deep in this Self-Love Pressure-Cooker Portal. We’ve endured the 8 July 2021 Challenge to Self-Love Itself (asteroid Sappho Stationary or Exaggerated), the 11 July Rebirth (dwarf planet Haumea Stationary), which always requires an Ego Death, the 13 July Reset of our Relationships (Mars Initiating Venus) with its Challenge to our Codependence, and the 14 July Scrambling of our Boundaries (asteroid Pallas Stationary). Of our six July Stations in the 25-29 Degree Zone, we’re three down and three to go. We don’t expect the last three to be any Easier than the first three, but we’ll get to that shortly.

Buried in the middle of this first trio was a 15 July Challenge to our Élan (Chiron Stationary 9:40 am PDT, in 13 Aries). It happens seven Degrees and two days from our Relationship Reset (Mars-Venus Initiation), so each event is prominent in the other’s chart. It proposes a Healing of our Abuse Karma. Not a Healing of Abuse, but a Healing of our Abuse Karma – meaning a Change that will echo back and forth across Time, with Potentially Huge Implications.

Occurring in July where it’s Surrounded and Embraced by Self-Love, and Supervised by our Soul (Uranus T-Square), it stands a good chance of Succeeding. But of course, as with any Healing, the Ego has to accede, and also as with any Healing, we have to Fully Embrace what we’re Intending to Heal before the Wound will Budge. The general rule, and it’s Solid, is that In order for Anything to Change, we must first Accept It Fully Exactly as It Is. Change means we’re Passionate about NOT Accepting Repetitions, but if we don’t first Accept Historical or Herstorical occurrences with Neutrality, the Change won’t stick.

Sound Contradictory? Contradictions occur only in Duality; in higher Dimensions, it’s Paradox. Passionate Neutrality is a Paradox. It means that we have no Emotional or Identity Attachment to Past or Future occurrences, in this case, of Abuse, but we have both Emotional and Identity Attachment to the Active Prevention or Avoidance of ongoing Current-Moment occurrences. If that sounds difficult to pull off, it’s because it is, when seen with the Dualistic Mind. When seen with the Heart, it makes perfect sense. One implication is that every setback is simply another Lesson in the ongoing Committed Effort. As with Addiction, we’re never Recovered, but always In Recovery.

But let’s look at the chart…

We see the two big red triangles, or Challenges (T-Squares). The upper one, pointing to asteroid Juno (Expansion of Consciousness), tells us what’s happening “to” us. The lower one, pointing to Uranus (Soul ), tells us what to do to succeed at the Task presented by the upper one, namely to Let Go of Our Abuse Karma.

In the upper T-Square, the Focus is on Expansion of Consciousness (asteroid Juno), and the Root of the Challenge is an Opposition between Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus) and the Source of our Karma (asteroid Karma Conjunct dwarf planet Orcus). Orcus is about Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking. Karma results from an Oath or Vow or Promise, or even a Decision. When a Vow has Life-or-Death consequences, we avoid getting Dead by reorganizing our Worldview such that the Oath Limits our Perception of Reality. We aren’t a Person performing Military Service, we ARE a Soldier, our Identity, and the rest of our Reality follows from that base. When Soldiering becomes an Identity rather than an Action, one forgets that there are Options, and Karma is Created. Orcus Breaks Oaths by Reminding us that there are Options.

The 4½-year Karma-Orcus Cycle outpictures the stages of our Karmic Evolution in the Current Lifetime. The recently-completed Cycle began November 2016 in 10 Virgo – “Two heads looking out and beyond the shadows: The growth of true understanding, born out of the transcendence of duality even while immersed in the world of duality.” The New Cycle was born 14 July 2021 (12:49 pm PDT) in 12 Virgo, “After the wedding, the groom snatches the veil away from his bride.” Why would the groom feel the need to “snatch away” the veil, rather than just tenderly removing it? Both Insecurity and Disrespect are implied. This doesn’t mean that our New Relationship Cycle will necessarily be characterized by Insecurity and Disrespect. It does mean that, if we Choose to Pursue it with Passionate Neutrality, we can Potentially Banish Insecurity and Disrespect from our Relationships.

The chart of the 14 July Orcus-Karma Initiation (the Beginning of the Cycle) is the same as the Chiron-Station chart above, with one adjustment. In the Orcus-Karma chart, the South Node Conjoins Juno, and the North Node Creates a Balanced Grand Cross out of the Juno T-Square. That turns the Challenge into an Inconvenience. Since Banishing Insecurity and Disrespect from our Relationships would normally require Ego Death, this is a Blessed Inconvenience.

We still have the Soul Challenge (Uranus T-Square) in both the Chiron Station and the Orcus-Karma charts. On one end of its base we have The Most Important Thing (Saturn), and on the other we have Trust (asteroid Eurydike). The question is whether we Trust the Soul enough to Allow the Ego to follow the Soul’s Directions. Chiron is about Discouragement or Despair, and Miracles. From a place of Despair, it’s not Physically or Spiritually Possible to Manifest What We Want and Need. If we suddenly do start to Create it, it’s a Miracle, because something Impossible is now Manifesting. Discouragement is less Final than Despair, but it leans the same way. How do we Exit a place of Despair or Discouragement? One way is to Empathize with our Despair or Discouragement. That can be as simple as Poor-Sweethearting ourself, and then Changing the Subject.

Privilege Portal

The chart of the Emphasis on Privilege and Abuse that peaks at 5:03 am PDT on 14 June 2021 (Station of dwarf planet Nessus)…

…is all about Consciousness Expansion (the dominant feature is the T-Square [red triangle] from Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] Opposite asteroid Vesta [Unconscious Limitations] to asteroid Juno [Expansion of Consciousness], which is Conjunct the Great Attractor [Our Ultimate Destination] in 15 Sagittarius [“The Groundhog looking for its Shadow“]). While Heads always implies Tails as well, it appears to me that this Portal may be more about Privilege than about Abuse, as it Calls Out Greedheads (that is, Ground-Hogs as Hoarders and Abusers of Land). Consider this…

The guy in the pink sweater is the largest owner of farmland in the US. And he isn’t into Regenerative Farming – quite the opposite.

“Land is power, land is wealth, and, more importantly, land is about race and class. The relationship to land – who owns it, who works it and who cares for it – reflects obscene levels of inequality and legacies of colonialism and white supremacy in the United States, and also the world. Wealth accumulation always goes hand-in-hand with exploitation and dispossession. In this country, enslaved Black labor first built US wealth atop stolen Native land. The 1862 Homestead Act opened up 270m acres of Indigenous territory – which amounts to 10% of US land – for white settlement. Black, Mexican, Asian, and Native people, of course, were categorically excluded from the benefits of a federal program that subsidized and protected generations of white wealth.” —https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2021/apr/05/bill-gates-climate-crisis-farmland

But you’re probably familiar with the Shadow, “the unknown dark side of the personality. According to Jung, the shadow, in being instinctive and irrational, is prone to psychological projection, in which a perceived personal inferiority is recognized as a perceived moral deficiency in someone else. Jung writes that if these projections remain hidden, ‘the projection-making factor (the Shadow archetype) then has a free hand and can realize its object – if it has one – or bring about some other situation characteristic of its power.’ These projections insulate and harm individuals by acting as a constantly thickening veil of illusion between the ego and the real world.” —https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shadow_(psychology)

“On 24 February 2011, Italy’s Supreme Court upheld the criminal conviction of Cardinal Roberto Tucci, former president of Vatican Radio’s management committee, for creating a public nuisance by polluting the environment with radio waves. The Vatican’s broadcasts to the world, transmitted in forty languages, emanate from fifty-eight powerful radio towers occupying over one thousand acres of land, surrounded by suburban communities. And for decades, residents in those communities had been screaming that the transmissions were destroying their health as well as causing an epidemic of childhood leukemia. At the request of the Public Prosecutor’s office in Rome, which was considering bringing charges against the Vatican for negligent homicide, Judge Zaira Sacchi ordered an official investigation by the National Cancer Institute of Milan. The results, released 13 November 2010, were shocking. Between 1997 and 2003, children aged one to fourteen who lived between 6 and 12 km (3.7 to 7.5 mi) from Vatican Radio’s antenna farm developed leukemia, lymphoma, or myeloma at eight times the rate of children who lived further away. And adults who lived between 6 and 12 km from the antennas died of leukemia at almost seven times the rate of adults who lived further away.” –Arthur Firstenberg, The Invisible Rainbow, pp.231-232

“On 24 February 2011, the Supreme Court of Italy upheld the 2005 conviction of Cardinal Tucci for polluting Rome with radio waves. A ten-day suspended jail sentence was his only punishment. No one has ever been compensated for their injuries. The Prosecutor’s Office has not filed charges of negligent homicide. Vatican Radio’s antennas have not been shut down.” —ibid, p.261; see also https://www.indcatholicnews.com/news/11856

What is Unconscious is outside of our sphere of Healthy Control. Living from Unconsciousness, we’re Victims of our Fate and Karma. What is Conscious is subject to Choice. Consciousness doesn’t necessarily give us the Power, by ourself, to Change the World. But it does actually give us the Power to Change our World…

All of which doesn’t mean that our Abuse Memories (and our Outrage at Ongoing Personal and Global Abuse) won’t be Lit Up. Dwarf planets Gonggong (Intrusive Memories) and Eris (Revelation of What’s Been Denied), which abet Nessus in evoking our Abuse PTSD, haven’t been Lit Up brightly by our current Klotho/Eclipse/Nessus action, but Gonggong will be Lit Up by our 19-20 June Manifestation Adventures (simultaneous Stations of Makemake [Manifestation], Jupiter [Expansion], and Lachesis [Consciously Letting Go of Karma]). Every evocation of our Abuse PTSD is an Opportunity to Change our Programming from Revulsion to Healing. I don’t Believe that knowledge about how to make that Change is available before-hand. We just have to PIAVA the Outcome we Want, and then let it Arrive on its own.

There’s more going on in this chart…

• Soul Letting Go of Discipline that Maintains the Current Ego (Saturn Waning Square Uranus),
• Soul Descending Sustainably into Matter (Ceres Conjunct Uranus in Taurus),
• Despair over the Impossibility of Change (Chiron Opposite Klotho)

…which we can explore in the next post.