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November

November 6, 2017

We’ve entered a new Time Province.  From the Calendar (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/1-calendar/)…

November 2017

Pluto Initiating Juno in 18 Capricorn on 11 November (6pm PST).

Jupiter Initiates Venus on 13 November (12am PST).

Vesta enters Scorpio on 15 November (8pm PST).

Nessus turning Direct in 6 Pisces on 16 November (8pm PST).

Sappho enters Capricorn on 17 November (12am PST).

New Moon in 27 Scorpio on 18 November (4am PST).

OR10 turning Direct in 3 Pisces on 20 November (4am PST).

Neptune turning Direct on 22 November (6:30 am PST).

Atropos enters Libra on 25 November (5am PST).

Saturn Initiates Mercury on 27 November (11pm PST).

Aletheia turning Retrograde in 9 Leo on 28 November (11pm PST).

Hopi Initiates Karma in 13 Scorpio on 29 November (6pm PST); 16-year Cycle.

I’ve indented the Initiations and Sign Changes, and left the Stations as the major entries.  The Stations are things we usually Feel quite strongly.  The Initiations and Sign Changes are “just” changes in the bathwater.  Everything is now different, but the Transitions are usually a bit less obvious. 

For instance, the 16 November Nessus Station, which depending on our Sensitivity we could begin Feeling as early as 9 November or earlier, is likely to Trigger Memories of Abuse, and likely to fill the News with even more stories of Abuse.  It’s Important when we’re flooded with Energies like these, that we try to maintain our Neutrality. 

The Suffering Springs Texas shooter was 26, which would put his natal Nessus approximately Trioctile (135 Degrees) to Biquintile (144 Degrees) from the upcoming Nessus Station.  If we’re Awake, a Trioctile represents Insight and a Biquintile Learning.  If we aren’t Awake, a Trioctile can take the flavor of a Challenge (as a “Sesqui-Square”), which could easily contribute to a person’s PTSD flipping into Paranoia.  And a Biquintile could appear as the Unknown, which in the context of Paranoia can be Maddening.

When Memories of Abuse are Triggered, The Most Important Thing is Remembering that “that was then, this is now,” that the Abuse isn’t actually going on in the Present Moment.  Well, we hope it isn’t; sometimes Re-enactment is the only way the Unconscious can get through to us that we need to Let Go of a Demon.  Usually it’s “just” the Emotions that are being Relived, not the Abuse itself – they just Feel like the same thing.  So our Gratitude that we aren’t having to Re-enact the Abuse itself is a good place to start finding Neutrality.

If the Feelings are Intense, we can of course Tap them Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4), and Poor-Sweethearting ourself (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/05/11/poor-sweethearting/) is always useful.  Without Neutrality, we’re Vulnerable to making Decisions or Vows to Protect ourself (“I’ll never do that again!”) that will turn into Limiting Beliefs and delay our Liberation. 

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Pluto Initiating Juno in 18 Capricorn (“The Union Jack flies from a British Warship“) on 11 November (6pm PST) begins a four year two month Cycle.  It’ll be interesting to see how this impacts the Brexit negotiations.  The Juno-Pluto Cycle is about Energy from the Underwhere forcing its way into Consciousness, and this Union-Jack Cycle will be about Power-Over Energy emerging into the Light.  We’ve already seen this going on around Sexual/Political Intimidation, and to a lesser extent on Racism and Politics per se

Be mindful that the Energy of a Cycle is Strong near its Initiation, but then it goes underground until the Hundredth Monkey “gets” it, around the Waxing Square, which will occur in early June 2018.  If it feels like the movement toward Self-Sovereignty and Power-With is stalling, keep Meditating and PIAVAing on it, and keep talking to your neighbors and acquaintances about it.

Energies shift when it’s no longer taboo to talk about the Elephant.  Having the Courage to disregard the taboo is your greatest Leverage – keep advocating out loud against Sexism, Racism, and Bully Politics.  You don’t need to get into arguments, as that will only harden Resistance.  Talk as if eliminating Sexism, Racism, and Bully Politics is just common sense that any reasonable person would take for granted.  If someone else wants to argue, just Listen with Neutrality and say something non-committal but thought-provoking like “It’s interesting that you feel that way.  I gotta run – have a good day!”

Here are a couple of very relevant and highly recommended Channelings on the subject…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2017/11/06/dreaming-or-your-reality/

http://danielscranton.com/the-effectiveness-of-action-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

And a powerful comment by Michael Roads from his “365 Steps”…

http://int.michaelroads.org/

Abundance is not found by focusing on what you want;
abundance is found by appreciating what you already have.
 

“Many people are almost totally preoccupied with thinking about the thousands of dollars that they would like to have.  To this end these people enter lotteries to win money, a house, a boat, car, motor-home, anything!  Even if you win, abundance does not manifest itself this way.  At best it is short term gain.  Real abundance is a state of consciousness.  You find this inner state by appreciating fully the ‘hundreds’ of dollars that you now have.  When this ‘feeling’ of appreciation is deeply established, then you will find that ‘thousands’ of dollars are being attracted into your life.  Too simple?  Try it!  Where you focus, energy flows.  It is the same as the Love principle; to constantly and consciously . . . choose Love!”

Wild Weekend

February 4, 2017

Well, this weekend will be wilder than I thought.

I didn’t realize till just now that not only will Sedna (Fear) be Stationary (Strong), but also Jupiter (Expansion) – Jupiter at 11pm PST 5 February, and Sedna six hours later.  Then on 7 February, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) communes with the South Node (Archetypal Trances).

So we may end up Dancing with an outsized caricature of our Fear of Powerlessness.

Otherwise, everything we discussed in Self-Love II (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/02/02/self-love-ii/) is still happening.

That’s the Sappho/Klotho-to-Sedna/Aletheia Yin Gate embedded in the Saturn/Ixion-to-Uranus/Eris-to-Atropos/Chaos-to-Jupiter/Haumea Golden Rectangle, with Sedna/Aletheia the head of a Grand Trine/Kite.  The arms of the Kite are Chiron (T-Square to Saturn/Ixion and Atropos/Chaos) and Vesta (T-Square to Uranus/Eris and Jupiter/Haumea).  Putting all that together results in a Flying Squirrel Configuration.

That’s a heck of a lot of Support, though it may still feature an Ego Death or two.  Together with the Jupiter and Sedna Stations and the Nessus Issue, it’s an incredible – if potentially painful – Opportunity to wade around in the flooded underbelly of our Psyche, fishing for Jewels buried in the mud.

If Fear doesn’t seem to be your major keyword this weekend, look for its subtleties.  Sleeping a lot, or hardly at all?  Nervous?  Worried about anything?  Grumpy, Resentful, feeling like a Victim?  Find yourself Judging a lot?  Strong Resistance to anything?  Excited about the next four years?  Having any trouble Manifesting What You Want?  Living the Perfect Life of your Dreams?

Anything in your Life that isn’t pure Bliss is a fertile focus for some variation of the question

“What Am I Afraid Of?”

Then have a conversation with Whoever shows up.  “They” Want something that “you” don’t give a high priority, maybe something you seldom or never think about, and it’s Bottom Line to Them.  Loyalty?  Pride?  You don’t want to simplify their needs and wants, but a keyword might make your negotiations easier to start.

Both “They” and “You” are you; you just usually think of yourself as “You” rather than “They” or “Us.”  You want to find out exactly what They Want.  Listen closely to Them, without Judgment.  You can entertain ideas about how you might help Them get What They Want.  And then you can see if They’re Willing to help you get What You Want.  Convert your Yes-Buts to Yes-Ands.  It’s a Big Universe, Big enough for the Infinite Improbability Drive to create anything you Want.  You just have to Learn how to Believe that it’s Possible.

Next week’s Full Moon extends the Grace here a lot, so whatever groundwork we can do here will Expand our Blessings next week.

Chaos 4

November 6, 2016

Okay, here’s the start of our Timetable…

 

5 November

Just what’s the Truth about Chaos?

Venus Opposes asteroid Veritas (Truth) and Chaos (8pm PDT)

 

6 November

Contacting our Abandoned Genius (AG), Welcoming them Home.  Or at least, Inviting them.  “Little Sweetheart, I would Love to talk to you.  I know I’ve been absent for a long time, but I really want to start turning that around.”

If this is your first attempt to Call your AG, it will Feel like you’re talking to an empty space.  If you Feel Tension afterwards, though, you’re making progress.

Ixion Initiates Venus, 7am PST, 24 Sagittarius, “A bluebird perched on the gate of a cottage

 

7-8 November

Surrendering To our Unique Genius – PIAVAing that the Ego shift from its Habit of Actively Suppressing our AG, to Becoming Fully Responsible To our AG.  Since the Habit is Unconscious (Programmed), and probably more than Current-Lifetime, we need to do this as a PIAVA.  “Great Spirit, may I please Lovingly and Gently Learn to Support and Defend my Unique Genius.”  

This may be a long process, and what will be most important will be Recognizing when and what you’re Called to Support and Defend, since it will be buried in the Unconscious.  The Lovingly and Gently part is important, because Ego Death will be involved.  Comfort yourself by knowing that the Ego that’s Deathing isn’t really You, it was installed from outside by someone else.  Your AG is really You.

Check in and Pay Attention at least daily.  Did you notice any shift toward something that felt Different, perhaps Guilt or Shame or Fear coming up?  Were you able to connect it to your AG?  If not, what did occur in your Emotions or thoughts or external circumstances?  PIAVA to see if/how it might be connected.  Do you need to PIAVA Clarity?  Modify your original PIAVA?

Pholus Initiates Venus, 3am PST 8 November, 26 Sagittarius, “A flag bearer in a battle.”  

Don’t make it a war, make it a Campaign to Collaborate with a suspicious Ally that doesn’t Trust you, but bear the flag of your AG.  When trying to tame a Wild or Abused Animal, you don’t pursue, you Offer a Gift of Value, then sit nearby and wait for Them to come out of hiding, sitting still while They accept the Gift so as not to scare Them away.  If They don’t come out, give Them more Space.  It They do, wait an inch or two closer to the next Gift you Offer.  Your initial gift is Respect, which is a pretty big Gift.

You are likely to have many Insights about which Unconscious Beliefs you need to Let Go of, and how you got them.  Be Loving and Gentle with yourself, and be Persistent with Forgiveness.

Mercury at 21 Scorpio is at the focus of a Configuration where two Trideciles connect to each end of a Biquintile – Big Learning with much Payoff, with Vesta and Neptune-South Node at the ends of the Biquintile.  Also, Jupiter joins Vesta in making a Quintile Yod focused on Neptune-South Node.

Unpleasant Memories of Abuse and Privilege may arise; locate them in your Body if you can, warm them, and soften around them.  It may be surprisingly Easy to Let Them Go, so don’t hesitate to try that – Karma is after all Dead.  Take care to be very Loving and Gentle with yourself.

The Moon crosses Stationary Nessus (6pm PST), and OR10 (7pm PST).  Nessus Turns Direct on 14 November, OR10 on 19 November.  Both are at 3 Pisces, which symbolizes Extinction.

 

9 November

A good day to Meditate or Pray for Guidance.

Michael: “Maybe my potential is something I am forever reaching toward.”
Pan: “Or maybe your potential is the other side of the current life you are living.  Maybe your potential is being lived simultaneously by the potential you.”
Michael: “Oh my gosh!  More Oneness.  If I separate myself from my potential, my awareness and perception separates me from it.  It places my potential into a future I will never reach.  Even though my potential and I remain as One.  Does this mean that as I struggle to reach my potential, I am forever creating a space between my current and future potential?  Gosh, Pan, this is difficult to comprehend.”
Pan: “Let it sit with you.”
–Michael Roads, Stepping… Between… Realities, p.273

The Universe is Both/And.  We need to be comfortable with Cognitive Dissonance.

The Galactic Center Initiates Venus, 11am PST, 28 Sagittarius, Firewood for Winter.

Unpleasant Memories of Abuse and Privilege may still be arising; locate them in your Body if you can, warm them, and soften around them.  It may be surprisingly Easy to Let Them Go, so don’t hesitate to try that – Karma is after all Dead.  Take care to be very Loving and Gentle with yourself.

Be very watchful for any Feelings of “I’d rather Die” or Despair, and immediately respond with “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really feeling at rope’s end, aren’t you.”  If there’s any Response, continue to Empathize, “I know, I Abandoned you, didn’t I.  I’m really sorry, I didn’t know what else to do.”  “I know it felt horrible and terrifying – I was there.”  “I’m still Learning how to do this, but I promise to do my best from now on to Be There for you.  If I screw up again, please yell at me.”

The Moon crosses Neptune-South Node, Occulting Neptune, 7am PST 9 November, 10 Pisces, Flying Blind.  Moon crosses Chiron, 3am PST 10 November, 21 Pisces, “Under the watchful and kind eye of a Chinese servant, a girl fondles (sic) a little white lamb.”  We don’t know if it was Mary.  In context, interesting choice of verbs.

 

10 November

You want Both/And – Survival of most of your Existing Self, and Recovery of your AG.  You’ll be Letting Go of some self-concepts, some of which will Feel like part of You, but you don’t need to burn any bridges or jump off any cliffs to see if you can fly.  You’ll eventually adjust your circle of friends and colleagues, as you Change, and you may need to set Boundaries with people who depend on your Programming for their Security, but you can do that Gently and Lovingly.  If you can’t imagine how, PIAVA it.

Quaoar Initiates Venus, 7am PST, 29 Sagittarius, “A fat boy mowing the lawn of his house on an elegant suburban street.”  This Sabian Symbol is always puzzling, but consider that it’s the last Degree of Sagittarius, before we enter Capricorn.  Sagittarius is about Letting Go and Letting Be, while Capricorn is about Just Fix It.  The Indulgence in the Symbol could be the Sign that we’ve Let Go enough now, it’s Time to get Proactive again.

Dreams?  or Nightmares, or you were too restless to sleep?    Unpleasant Memories of Abuse and Privilege may still be arising; locate them in your Body if you can, warm them, and soften around them.  It may be surprisingly Easy to Let Them Go, so don’t hesitate to try that – Karma is after all Dead.  Take care to be very Loving and Gentle with yourself.

Be very watchful for any Feelings of Discouragement, and immediately respond with “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling awful, aren’t you.”  If there’s any Response, continue to Empathize, “I know, I Let you Down back then.  I’m really really sorry, I was really scared too, and I didn’t know what else to do.”  “It must have Felt horrible and terrifying for you.”  “I’m still Learning how to do this, but I promise to do my best from now on to Be There for you.  If I screw up again, please yell at me.”  “I really want us to connect.”

Moon crosses Chiron, 3am PST, 21 Pisces, “Under the watchful and kind eye of a Chinese servant, a girl fondles a little white lamb.”

 

I’ll finish tomorrow, though the first 11 November astroevent is at 2am PST.

Portal 13.10 Part IV

October 11, 2016

Respect for All Things means we need to Own our Projections.  We often see them through a Funhouse Mirror, but the Judgments we Project out onto the World, and of course the Self-Judgments we Introject onto ourselves – have their roots in our own Programming.  While Hopi is Lit Up we get to Review all the places where Judgment interrupts our free and easy Acceptance of the World and its Denizens – including ourself – as they are.  Our Programmers worked hard trying to get us to be the way they wanted us to be, and that all too often wasn’t at all the way we wanted to be.

There’s no Blame here – “we” (our pre-birth Soulself) Chose our Programmers, because the fastest way to Clear away obsolete Patterns (aka Karma) is to have someone rub them in our face.  It’s all Mirrors – Programming Mirrors the Patterns we’ve Chosen to Clear, our Judgments Mirror our Self-Hate, which in turn often Mirrors our Programming.  But it’s usually Funhouse Mirrors.  Like Dreams, there’s a good deal of Symbolism and Surrogation involved.

Be forewarned that there’s a good chance that Memories of Trauma, Abuse, or Privilege may surface here.  If these are disturbing, they can throw you off guard.  Be prepared to take special care to be Loving with yourself in the Present Moment, and at whatever age you may Regress to.  If you start to lose track of which You is which, look in your wallet for clues to your current age.  

You want to Remember your Experiences, not Relive them. 

You may want to call a Trusted Friend, someone who won’t Reject or Judge you, so you have a Lifeline if you need one.  Abusers usually threaten, so there may be much Fear involved.  Did you have a “Cookie Lady” when you were growing up – a neighbor or teacher who was kind to you, and whom you Trusted?  Bring their Memory into your Field.

The Conjunction of Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) with OR10 (Irruption of Unconscious Contents) was exact on 7 October, and remains very much with us, as the Dance between The Donald and The Hillary amply demonstrate. 

The Chiron-Hopi Opposition is Bridged (Graced) by a Triple Conjunction of Venus (Kindheartedness), Juno (Growth in Consciousness), and asteroid Nemesis (which could be double-edged – your Nemesis-Perp in Trauma, and the Nemesis of your Current Ego, which needs to Retire in order for your new True Self to be Reborn).

We mentioned Eugene Gendlin earlier.  His book Let Your Body Interpret Your Dreams gives many techniques for working with Dreams, that work just as well for working out Memories and the Symbolism and Projections in our Waking Trances.  One of the most effective I’ve found – after you’ve Tapped Out any Overwhelm or Fear, when you’re Safe, and when you have access to an Ally who can help you stay grounded and on track – is to Imagine yourself Being an antagonist or protagonist in your Drama.  How does it Feel in your Body when you imagine yourself for a moment Being The Donald, or The Hillary, or The Vladimir, or The Obomba, or The Kapernick, or the Preditor across the street?

That may sound Risky, but these are Germinal Times.

Where do you Feel this in your Body?  Is it unpleasant?  Can you be Loving with it there?  Soften it, Warm it?  Once you let your Attention Dissolve into that place in your Body, Ask yourself, “How Old Am I?”  Do any Memories surface?  Give yourself, either in the Present Moment or in your Regression-Space or both, a “You poor Sweetheart…” if necessary.  Did you make any Oaths then, to Be or Not to Be any particular way?  Are you tempted to make any Oaths now, perhaps to Liberate yourself from that Limiting Belief – by replacing it with another one?  

Gendlin also warns about Either/Or.  If you want to Change anything as a result of this, don’t flip from Black to White or vice versa; Change it by five or ten percent instead.  The results will be much more Sustainable.

The Timing for these Adventures couldn’t be better, as we’re in the process of being Reborn into the Truth of our Self, and Blessed with Motivation to Recover our Abandoned Genius.  The Great Benefactor Jupiter is Dancing with our Karma and our Faith, to make our Patterns more Sustainable.

Haumea Opposing Uranus-Eris Trine-Bridged by Ixion-Pholus; Jupiter Septile Yod from Ceres and Neptune-South Node.  Just by itself, Neptune on the South Node means we’re in the Soup, with the kettle slowly warming.

 

 

Quaoar Brilliant

26-28; Grand Cross 22-25

picture https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/08/17/grace-and-discouragement-pictures/ 

 

Huge Reboot 10

September 18, 2016

And now that we’re deep into the Sappho-Jupiter-Makemake Triple Conjunction (Expanding Self-Loving Abundance), we may as well mention a couple of additional speedbumps.  We mentioned that any emphasis on Self-Love will trigger all of your reasons to recall your Self-Rejection – as Opportunities to Let them Go.  We grasp our Karma, not the other way around, because once we get a whiff of old Bummers, we Expect them to follow through.  So, Change your Expectations.  If that’s hard, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade and persist.  Not how many times you fall down, how many times you get up.

So, while in Reboot 9 we proposed that Clearing our Limiting Beliefs was The Most Important Thing, it turns out that “God” also wants us to Pay Attention to the Quality of our Self-Love.

That is, a Finger of God points at Sappho-Jupiter-Makemake from the Sextile between Ceres (Sustainability, Permanence) and Nessus-OR10 (Irruption of Unconscious Contents about Abuse and Privilege).

In particular, there’s a suggestion that Memories of Abuse – or Abuse of Privilege – may pop up unbidden.  Or bidden, if you want to push the envelope.  Welcome them as a Clearing.  They may bring up Challenging Emotions, but that’s exactly what’s going on here – Neptune, South Node, and Chiron are in Pisces after all, and Pisces is about Finishing Unfinished Emotional Business.  Use you many tools if they do – Tapping, “You poor Sweetheart…” et al.  

They’re coming up now, if they do, in order to make your Recovery Permanent.  They may come up in unremembered Dreams, of course.  You don’t need to process them intellectually, and may not need to process them Consciously.  You’re free to Change the Subject.  Just make a note to Pay Attention in a few months to see if your sense of undefined Dread arises less often.  And you do need to be Loving and Gentle with yourself – that’s what breaks the Pattern, and that’s what Sappho-Jupiter-Makemake’s all about.

And of course, Recovering from past Abuse, including the sort of Self-Abuse and Self-Sabotage and Self-Abandonment involved with Either/Or Oathing and the Limiting Beliefs that result, is really the same thing as Clearing our Limiting Beliefs, isn’t it.  The Universe is just coming at us from all Angles, to make sure we’re Supported on all sides.

We’re also “Celebrating” the End of our Attachment to Archetypes around Charisma.  If you want to know where Unexamined Charisma leads, just look to T’Rump.  Charisma Unexamined is an Archetype.  It’s like an Imaginary Bridge over a chasm.  It works fine as long as you don’t Realize that the Bridge is Imaginary when you’re halfway across.

Sappho-Jupiter-Makemake is also the focus of a T-Square across the Opposition between the asteroid Atropos (Endings) and Hylonome-Chariklo (Grief over the Loss of Identity with an Archetype).

All that said, the net result is extraordinary Positive.  A great deal of very Effective and very Targeted Grace is also Present, which will make everything much Easier than it otherwise would be.

A Finger of God and a T-Square pointing at the same planet(s) makes a Diamond Star configuration, where the “Bowl of Grace” under the T-Square (the Sextiles and Trines between the ends of the base of the T-Square and the base of the Yod) make the Challenge of the T-Square very Gracious, and the Mastery less Effortful.  

Fateful Full Moon

April 20, 2016

There are three big themes to the 21 April Full Moon (10:30pm PDT) – Transitions, Fate, and Truth.

  • Transitions because the Full Moon occurs on a Cusp between two Signs – a place of Change, Transformation, often Contradistinction.
  • Fate because the asteroid Moira – Fate – Motivates (T-Squares) it.  Fate and Free Will are of course a Duality, an Either/Or, an Intellectualization.  Real Life is Both/And.  How can anything be Both/And when they’re Opposites? Well, if that’s upsetting to you, the answer is in your hand – you’ve shifted into Emotion – Cusps again, the Cusps between modalities of Perception.  You could also have shifted into Body or Spirit.  Either/Or is a characteristic of mind, and though we’re trained to Believe that mind is bigger than the Universe, in Real Life the Universe is much bigger than mind.
  • Truth because both of the Truth asteroids – Aletheia (Greek) and Veritas (Roman) adjoin the Sun.  Which brings us back to the larger theme of Removing our Masks.

Let’s focus on the Cusps…

  • The Moon itself is on the Cusp of Scorpio.  Here we Change from intellectually and Creatively contemplating the new-found concept of Other (Not-I, including Other People), to intense Emotional Curiosity about Other.  Does Other really exist, or is that just a Mirror?  Does the Other Side really exist, or is it just a Projection?
  • The Sun is on the Cusp of Taurus, along with the asteroids Aletheia, Veritas, and Atropos.  Atropos is Responsible for enforcing the measure of length of Life – another form of Truth.  At the Cusp of Taurus we shift from Making Things Up, to Casting them in Stone.  The Edge between what may or may not be Fantasy, and what the Muggles would consider “Real.”  Natural-born Chemists think it’s Matter that’s Real, while natural-born Physicists know that it’s Energy that’s Real.  Yes, I do take sides, though of course it’s Both/And.
  • The asteroid Moira – Fate – sits on the Cusp of Aquarius, as do we.  Sit on the Cusp of the Age of Aquarius I mean.  Here we move from hard-nosed down-to-Earth Pragmatism, to Idealism, or Idolatry.  Notice anybody worshipping Sacred Cows or Golden Calfs?  Such as Power, or Profit?

All together eight of the twelve Cusps are involved in the Full Moon.  If we’re worried that our Fate is to contemplate Truth and Compassion (if Other is a Mirror, we better find Compassion!), the other five Cusps each provide alternate paths that are easier than that one.

  • Our first Escape Route is the Cusp of Capricorn (where reside the dwarf planets Quaoar and Hylonome), where we Change from Letting Go of difficulties, to actually having to try to Resolve them.  (Quaoar-Hylonome tells us that if we want to Survive, we need to Molt, shed our old Ego and Open Up to the new.)
  • The Cusp of Pisces is our second path to higher ground.  Here we’re fairly rudely dumped from drinking beer and discussing grand schemes for solving the problems created by the existence of Other, to having to Feel the Realities that arise because of the existence of Other.  (On this Cusp we find the asteroids Pallas and Lachesis, and the dwarf planets OR10 and Nessus, reminders that a Life in the realm of Matter is a Privilege and a Deep Mystery, and one which has well-defined Boundaries.)

The last three Cusps are about Curiosity (Quincunxes to the Sun or Moon).

  • The asteroids Ceres (Sustainability) and Mnemosyne (Memory) decorate the Cusp of Aries.  Buddhists say that if you immerse yourself in the Water (Emotion), you’ll come out in the Fire (Spirit), and this is the place where you’ll come out.  I Wonder where these Memories will lead me.
  • The asteroid Karma is parked on the Cusp of Gemini.  On this Cusp we go from being Trapped in Stone, to being Liberated, free to walk around and Be whomever we want to Be.  I Wonder how we could ever find a more perfect place for Karma.
  • Finally, the Cusp of Libra is where we find the dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation).  At the Cusp of Libra we’ve just finished an unpleasant-feeling period of Ego Transformations, and we’re ready to test our new Selves out on Other People.  I Wonder how I’ll be received.

Adventures in Consciousness!

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn VI

March 28, 2016

More comments around Privilege…

“I’ve done so much mirroring over the last few years; I even carry a small mirror in my purse for those ‘special occasions’  and finger it discreetly when the need arises.  I also have a mirror set up in the library that I can angle towards the direction of whichever person isn’t respecting my boundaries at any given moment.”
Fantastic!  Keep up the Good Work!!  Persist till it becomes completely automatic.
“Not sure I have the expertise to close holes in my aura on my own but will ask around about people who might be able to help with that.”

You ARE closing the holes in your Aura.  Think about how many years it took the significant adults (and older siblings if any) in your childhood to get you programmed to be Vulnerable to their Needs and Whims – and how many Lifetimes before that.  Self-Sovereignty isn’t a single Decision, it’s a Lifestyle, which impacts the Choices you make every moment.  Slavery is still quite legal in many places on this Planet.  Most of us may have more Lifetimes as Slaves and Masters than as Freepersons.  

You may be able to find a Psychic Healer to help you, but the way you close the hole in your Aura is with Discernment (Noticing when Violation is occurring, at more and more subtle levels; Witnessing; and Empathy if or when there’s Time and Safety for it) and Persistence (making the Decision to Support your own Sovereignty and Doing it, over and over again until it’s second nature, like riding a bicycle).  You might find that experience with a Psychic Healer just gives you (to your chagrin) more opportunity to Discern and Persist!

Response-ability, right?”

Absolutely!  Developing the Ability to Respond rather than React.  Responding from Choice, or from an Archetype (Pattern, Habit) that we’ve Chosen to Self-Install, rather than from an Archetype that someone else Programmed us to React from.  

The ancient Command… 

“Revert!”

is an excellent one to use when someone threatens us with a curse.  Feel bad about sending a curse back to the one who curses you?  That’s exactly the Programmed Self-Abuse you can use as your unfailingly reliable signal that it’s time to Discern and Persist.  When you get stuck on an Edge between Compassion and Sovereignty, recognize the Confusion – the first sign of Growth – and Surrender to a PIAVA.

When our own “negative” Programming threatens us with an untoward thought or Feeling… 

“Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade”

is a good mantra – Cancel the thought, Neutralize the Energy already manifested, and Upgrade the thinking unit.

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn V

March 27, 2016

Yet another reader writes (a hot topic, eh?)…

“A former ‘bestie’ who has (after my inner enlightenment) shown herself to actually be a ‘frienemy,’ posted a pic of her hand in a splint, held in the position of an ‘F-you’ finger, which seems synchronous enough on its own, but when I send a friendly note of commiseration, she replied, ‘There needs to be someone incapacitated at all times — your turn next!’ 
“It felt as close to a curse as I’ve experienced.

Definitely!  Sad that someone has an Unconscious Belief in Suffering, but not I suppose unusual.

“My husband, a lovely practical man who is able to shed others’ energies like a duck, laughed and asked why I even engaged her.  Good question.  I suppose I am still looking to heal something there. 
“But my larger query is about dealing with a situation stronger than ‘taunts’ — what appears to be active desire to wish ill on me.
“Seems very Ixion, no?  Wasn’t he the one who gave something poisoned to Hercules’ wife that she then unwittingly gave him and caused his death?”

That was Nessus, while he was dying after Hercules wounded him to revenge Nessus’s attempted rape of Hercules’ wife.  What tangled webs we weave, eh?

“My current strategy is to imagine a beautiful mesh dome of healing light and mirrors to bounce any negative energies back at the sender, but I’m left feeling so sad.  Why this waste?  But there are likely themes of envy and competition and narcissism that I avoided seeing, out of wanting to “see the best” in her.
“So I am working hard to keep remembering that ‘I Walk in Light.’ 
“My inner Innocent wants to focus on the Good in the World, but there is a rising Inner Warrior who is sharpening her blades — standing ready to cut all ties.  Or at least polishing my shield to reflect back Medusa’s image to her.
“Also interesting how subtle threads can be plucked to create a resonance or tone that others cannot hear, but feel clear to me.
“In any case, I responded with lightness and humor that ‘no thanks — my card’s already been punched, but I was sure she had a full card that could be redeemed for perhaps a free lightning healing!’

As Alan Watts said, “It’s harder to Let Go of our Good Karma, than it is to Let Go of our Bad Karma.  Bear in mind that the Greek Myths were stories of how the Patriarchs defeated Nature, allowing the Illusion that She can be controlled, which Illusion has been busy destroying the Planet ever since.  You can see Medusa acting through the Superstorms that have been plaguing the Planet since Global Warming started to become extreme – and the Patriarchy’s impotence in its Reactions.  The appropriate Response is to Empathize with Medusa.

Yes, by all means

“a beautiful mesh dome of healing light and mirrors to bounce any negative energies back at the sender,”

though it’s useful to remember that “negative” only has meaning with regard to the Receiver, as “positive” and “negative” only exist operationally.  That means that they aren’t absolutes, but relative to the purpose and context at hand.  Maybe you could instead think in terms of Energies that don’t Serve the Highest Good of All, or the like, rather than “negative” Energies.  That’s nit-picking, but it might be useful.

“But I’m left feeling so sad.  Why this waste?”  

Yes, that’s your Resistance to having to do the Work which you Believe others should be doing – and in a Healed World they would be.  But this World needs Healing, and we’re self-appointed.  This is why we above all need Persistence, because we were programmed to Resist healing the holes in our Auras.  That’s how the significant adults in our childhood controlled us.  So that Feeling of Sadness is your key to knowing you’re on the right track.  Shift your Attention from the Sadness in your Emotional Body to the Fullness you Feel in your Energy Body when you have your Mesh Dome of Mirrors in place.  Adjust your MirrorMesh till you Feel the Fullness.

Your Sadness needs a “You poor Sweetheart, you believe it’s Sad to have to Protect yourself, don’t you” and some hugs, as you fill your Energy Space with Light.  Attend to the Edge between Sad and Safe.  I think the two of you will prefer Safe.  Natally, you have a Finger of God (Pay Attention!) pointing at Nessus, with Ixion (Orphaned Genius), Lilith (Self-Sovereignty), and the North Node (Mission) closely involved.  Nessus represents Power-Over.  

So absolutely sharpen your Inner Warrior’s blades.  You are a highly tuned Sensor for Power-Over, but your Vertex (Intuition) Squares your Nessus.  Our Squares represent Mastery through Challenge, and we of course focus on the Challenge, since it’s always demanding our Attention.  Only by carefully comparing Who We Are to Who Others Are can we see the Mastery.  Power-Over is how the Patriarchy operates, how it’s destroying the Planet.  

It’s not necessarily your duty to blow the whistle on Power-Over publicly, but in settings where the clients were Open, you could be an effective business consultant helping organizations overcome Power-Over problems in their internal Relationship Dynamics.  There are actually businesses out there that are trying to figure out how to Survive AND adapt to greater principles than Exploitation and Quarterly Profits.

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn IV

March 27, 2016

Another reader writes that during this Saturn Station and T-Square…

“As I was leaving a coffee shop near here, I had some difficulty backing my car out of a fairly small space because someone had parked their pickup truck at an angle straddling the line between the spaces, with the back end of the truck intruded into the space where my car was parked and prevented me from backing my car out easily.  He and his buddy, it turned out, were having a smoke on the other side of the truck and they basically heaped abuse on me, saying I was going to damage the truck.
“So I invited them to try to get my car out, politely pointing out that the truck was parked obliquely across the line dividing the two spaces.  Then my car got scratched due to a pipe sticking out from above the front wheel of the truck that caught my car as the fellow backed it out.  Still, they continued with their demeaning comments, repeatedly referring to me in the third person as ‘she,’ and saying things like ‘she better have insurance.’
“While they weren’t quite as scary as the characters in the movie Deliverance, I’m sure you’re conjuring an accurate image of these ‘cowboys.’  Instinctively, I didn’t argue with their (il)logic, instead apologizing and thanking them for backing my car out of the tight spot.  When I gently pointed out that it was my car that got scratched in the end, they said “Good!”
“Afterwards I felt a bit of anger and frustration (which I processed pretty easily), but mostly jubilation that I had been able to stay present enough not to get baited into the proverbial Show-Down at the OK Corral.  I realized there is no point in trying to reason with people of that level of (un)consciousness, and that it’s really not a problem simply letting go of the need to prove my point, much less seek justice in the form of reparations, or, Goddess Forbid, an apology for their crude and vaguely threatening behavior.

“Any thoughts on where this experience fits in with the various planetary ‘assignments’ we’re facing currently?  Since I have a tight Venus-Saturn Angle natally, I figured the T-square triggered the incident, but perhaps it’s one of the other current configurations that this incident better exemplifies…?”

Well this nightmare reeks of Nessus – folks so used to Privilege that they don’t hesitate to Abuse whenever they think they can get away with it.

Stretching Values?  Well, I honor deeply your Masterful Attention to the Value of Safety.  You and I agree that there is no Learning without Safety, and it’s not unusual that when we attempt to Grow beyond what’s Safe, we often set ourselves back.  What about the Value of Self-Sovereignty?  That was blatantly violated.  But I don’t see any other Response that wouldn’t threaten your Safety even more than it was.  

So there may be a suggestion here that you could gain from PIAVAing to Lovingly and Gently increase your Self-Sovereignty AND Safety.  We might say “Self-Sovereignty without compromising Safety,” but will the Unconscious interpret “without” as a negation and therefore ignore it?  You’re good on Safety here, but I don’t think it’ll hurt to “increase Self-Sovereignty AND Safety.”

In the Saturn-Stationary T-Square chart there are 78 Degrees between Saturn and Nessus – 78 isn’t a particularly strong Angle.  What about in your natal chart?  Well, yes, a strong Angle between your natal Saturn and your natal Nessus, and the Angle is triggered by the ‘Transiting’ (in the sky now) Saturn T-Square.  Plus, Pallas (Boundaries) and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) are involved.  Where does this lead us?  There’s a suggestion that you may have an Unconscious Belief that Respect for your Right to Sovereignty over your own Space is not available to you – which, under the Patriarchy, wouldn’t be unusual.

How would we transcend the Patriarchy?  Each time we do that as individuals, we build the Archetype that will allow the Planet as a whole to transcend the Patriarchy.  The problem with Unconscious Beliefs is that they have correlates.  For instance, an Unconscious Belief that Respect is unavailable will correlate with a hole in the Aura, a hole that will be unconsciously seen by a Bully as an invitation to manipulate.  Or with a change of posture that telegraphs Vulnerability.  We don’t intend to Blame the person who is Bullied, but to Learn how to avoid being Bullied.

While we might be able to work Consciously on posture, we could easily overcorrect and invite Competition.  It’s Safer to fix the hole in our Aura.  We could do that by manipulating our own Energy field, but if we don’t routinely see Energy, or hang out with a Skilled coach who does, it’s probably easier to use our Wardrobe Mirrors…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/10/21/boundaries-forgiveness-mirrors/

The most important part of this work is Persistence.  It’s easy to say, “Why should we have to be the one to do this! Why don’t we just get Respect in the first place?”  We could Respond that if this is an issue for me, then it’s one I came into this Lifetime to Learn how to Heal.  Healing Vulnerability to Intimidation is also a critical part of the shift from the Patriarchy to a more Equitable social structure, so it would be appropriate for many of us to come onto the Planet at this Time to Learn – and hence Teach – how to command Respect without having to Work at it.  It won’t be that easy to begin with, but it will get easier as we Practice, till eventually it becomes Habitual.

Portal 11.11.15

November 11, 2015

Some excellent comments on the 11/11 Portal…

https://heartshapedeyes.wordpress.com/2015/11/11/new-moon-blessings/

https://kandicelisa.wordpress.com/2015/11/02/i-killed-him/

https://wehaveapples.wordpress.com/2015/11/11/5-reasons-why-im-not-ashamed-of-my-mental-health-condition/

http://www.isaacgeorge.com/blog/a-sacred-pathway

https://kandicelisa.wordpress.com/2015/11/08/can-you-hear-me/

There are places where strangers look you in the eye and smile as you pass on the street, and there are places where they look right through you.  Zombies.  They say that so many Souls are attracted to our Planet at this time because they don’t want to miss our Jump into Hyperspace, but sometimes you wonder if the Zombies have Souls at all.  They’re just Mirroring the parts of our Self that we’ve cut off.  As you go to sleep on Friday the 13th, first PIAVA to Let Go of Resistance easily, and to Enjoy a Loving and Gentle Soul Retrieval.  Then recall one of those Sleepwalkers you saw during the week, and just for a few minutes imagine yourself walking in their Body.  Just for a few minutes.  Then Let it Go, Change the Subject, and PIAVA to remember your Dreams.

I’ve been Learning some great new “tricks” from Francine Shapiro’s Getting Past Your Path, like this one from p.59…

“If you’re comfortable doing [this] experiment, then close your eyes, notice how your body feels – then bring up that humiliation from grade school and observe what happens.  Notice how your body feels and any thoughts that come up.  Just notice it.  Then imagine washing away the image with a high-pressure water hose or a large wet eraser, and open your eyes.  This is another technique you can use to change negative mental images.”

Or, it you get stuck in a Zombie, use it to wash away the shell and leave just your own Safe Self.