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Half-Marathon

November 10, 2018

The next few weeks will be a bit like a half-marathon, as we run through three gauntlets and nine astroevents in rapid succession.

 

First up, on 11 November (1:30pm PST) Ceres moves into Scorpio until almost the end of January.  Ceres is about Sustainability, and Scorpio is about Getting To The Bottom of Things.  We’ve been trying to isolate Sustainable Relationships (Libra) since early September.  Now we just Want a Sustainably Lifestyle.  Well, the Easiest way to Achieve Sustainability is to think in terms of Sustenance. 

Sustenance – What Can We Do Without? – is the flip side of the Sustainability Coin.  You may be considering it already.  Turning off lights when you leave the room?  Thinking about how to get along without something instead of how to get it?  The payoff will Surprise you.  With Sign Changes, the Zeitgeist just Changes.  The more Sensitive you are to the planet and Signs, the sooner you’ll Notice it – if you’re looking, of course.

 

There are three Stations on 15-16 November, so those will keep us occupied till then.  Station Energy is most intense before the Exact Station, building as we approach the Station, then dropping off sharply.  Usually.  There are exceptions, and we need to talk about those.  Remind me.  And asteroid Karma enters Capricorn on the 16th (8pm PST).

Karma’s been in Sagittarius since the Ides of January.  Sagittarius of course is about Letting Go, so we’ve had a good run – haven’t we.  Remember how much more Limited your Life was last winter?  Karma even went Retrograde in Sagittarius, so it hung out there longer, just for us.  It only takes about ten weeks to cross Capricorn instead of ten months.  That’s just as well, because Capricorn, which stands for “Just Do It,” can get us in trouble when it comes to Karma.  Till the end of January, if it’s Habitual, we should “Just Do It For The Last Time.”  Ok?

The three 15-16 November Stations are…

  • Asteroid Moira on 15 November (4am PST).  Moira is about Choice.
  • Venus on 16 November (3am PST), which is about our Values.
  • Mercury on 16 November (5:30 pm PST) – Communication, Awareness, Mentality.

So we’re likely to Experience it as we might Experience a Moira-Venus-Mercury Initiation, meaning we’re becoming Aware that we have Choices around our own Values.  Our Betters make a big deal about Living Up To Our Values, but when you think about it, what they really want you to do is Live Up to Their Values.  You gain a lot of Self-Sovereignty when you see through that Farce.

This isn’t a real Initiation, but if it was, again depending on how Sensitive we are to it, the Energy would be very Strong on both sides of the Exact Intiation, but there would be a Shift in your Attitude.  Beforehand you’d be glib about it as if no one was watching you critically.  Then after the Exact Initiation you’d feel increasingly censured, till you took the Energy Underground.  Which is what you’ll probably do.  For a while.  Unless it’s your Mission.

We should Review Moira a bit.  Moira means Fate.  But Fate happens to us when we’re Unconscious.  When we become Conscious, we Realize we don’t have to do that any more.  Fate + Consciousness = Choice.  So we Interpret Fate as Choice.  Astrology, at least the kind that we do, is about Growing our Consciousness.  So as astrologers we always Ask first and Ask last, “Are you Conscious of this?”  Right?  With an open mind. 

Sure, they teach traditional astrology as if it was as reliable as Engineering.  When I take a course in astrology and assume it’s a seminar, and start contributing the Insights I’ve Learned from astrology, I’m usually “corrected.”  But in Real Life we’re all Different, and you’ll never know when you’re going to meet someone who’s Different from anyone you or the astroelders ever met.  Especially when more of the Others come ashore.

In the Unconscious, Opposites are Equals.  That’s why we’re advised never to use Negation when we PIAVA, and that’s why we often get the Opposite of what we Asked for when we PIAVA (which is a sign of Success).  The Unconscious has Dimensions, but it’s not Dualistic; its Directions are Circular.  For those of you who aren’t familiar with PIAVA, it’s a bottom-line concept to bring into Consciousness for the current Eon – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

 

The Big Challenge arrives in earnest before 19-20 November.  We’ll Feel this one well before that, because it’s a Biggie, and the three days between the 16th and the 19th aren’t long enough for it to run its course.  So we’ll have to go back and modify the previous Interpretation later.

The Biggie is about Nessus and OR10. Nessus Stands Still on 19 November (7am PST), and OR10 does the same on 20 November (9pm PST).

We’ve done this before recently, many times, as the two were fellow travelers for several years.  They’re no longer fellow travelers (in the sense of being Merged), but when they have Stations together it Feels like they’re Merged again.  Nessus represents Abuse and Privilege, OR10 Invasive Memories.  So this is mostly about Recovering Abuse Memories.  Recovering is the good part, because it’s not possible to Let Them Go while they’re still Unconscious.

Now, while Nessus and OR10 were Merged, we Merged with these not-so-pleasant Memories, usually Feeling Shame or/and Rage in the process.  So we’re likely to Re-Experience that, and being Creatures of Habit (er, Karma, ie Inertia), we’ll be Expecting to Merge with them again.  But we won’t, unless we make that Unconscious Choice.  We don’t need to. 

We can make the Conscious Choice to Dislodge our Identity from them this time, because now the Energies themselves are no longer Merged.  As time goes on they’ll be less and less Merged, so start now or you’ll find yourself Out of Synch with the Universe later.  Whatever sort of Ascension, 5D, Enlightenment, Bliss, Collaboration, Community, Ease, or other kind of Grace you Want to characterize your Future, being Out of Synch with the Universe won’t help at all.

This is Subtle, so Pay Attention.  When someone Abuses us and we Remember, once we get past the Shame, we Want Revenge.  We’ll Forgive eventually (even though that Feels Impossible most of the time), but we Want some kind of Compensation for having Endured that.  It Ruined our Life after all.  But here’s the Secret – Revenge will be so much more Successful if you’re no longer Attached or Identified with your Rage.  Sure, Living Well is the Best Revenge, and that may be the Choice you make.  But even if you Decide that you do want Payback, you’ll be able to exact a finer torture if you’re Neutral.

Remember, Karma is Inertia, not Retribution.  It’s Force of Habit, continuing to Choose an old Habit because it’s the Easiest thing to do – Automatic, in fact.  That’s why we need Consciousness to Abandon our Karma, because we have to Notice it before we can Change it.  Hard to Notice what’s Automatic.  So we aren’t talking about accumulating “Bad Karma” for exacting Revenge.  We’re talking about Teaching someone a Lesson they won’t Forget. 

So what if they’re Old now; we take our Karma with us to Other Lifetimes, so they’ll continue to Abuse if they don’t Learn their Lesson.  They need to be able to Notice what it feels like to be Abused, and they need to Realize that Other People aren’t their Property to be used as toys.  Once you’ve Let Go of your Rage, you’ll be able to plan an exquisite curriculum for them.  Dull blades are Harder to Ignore.  As they say, Forgive the Person, not the Behavior.  But first you have to show them that the two are Different.  As long as they’re Unconscious, the Behavior is the Person.

Now, about Forgiveness.  Like any other sort of Consciousness, Forgiveness isn’t a Decision, it’s a Discovery.  One day we just Notice that we don’t hold ill will against them any more.  Yes, we can make a Choice to Forgive – it’s just a PIAVA, but that’s really a Choice to enter into the process of Forgiving.  It’s unlikely to take you to Forgiveness straightaway, unless you were ready anyway. 

We always need to “Be Careful What We Ask For,” or better yet, “Be Mindful of What We’ve Asked For,” so we can monitor and Interpret the Funhouse-Mirror events that PIAVAs can Create when we aren’t quite ready to Receive them.  Like getting sicker initially after we Ask for Healing – we Feel sicker, so we take more of the Toxins that were making us sick.  Or finding Abuse Memories arising after we Ask for Healing of our Abuse.  No, it don’t Feel good, but we have to get them into Consciousness in order to Change them.  If we aren’t Aware of the way Consciousness arrives, we can easily tie ourself in knots.

Now, how are we likely to Experience an OR10-Nessus-Moira-Venus-Mercury faux Initiation, because that’s probably what much of November 10-20 will Feel like?  Well, put all the terms in a sentence.  Invasive Memories, Abuse, Choice, Values, Awareness.  Maybe something like Becoming Aware that we have Choice around the Values that we Created for ourself as a result of early Abuse that we now Remember?  Or becoming Aware that we have Repressed Memories of Abuse, and Choosing to Alter our Values to make room for their Recovery?

 

The Full Moon on the Cusp of Gemini follows closely, on 22 November (9:30 pm PST), and Neptune Stands Still shortly after that, on 25 November (5pm PST) at the Midpoint of Pisces.  The Cusp of Gemini is the quintessential point of Letting Go.  Neptune is a Powerful planet, so we’re likely to begin to Feel some Neptune Energy before we’re done with our Big Challenge.  The most Important thing to Remember about Neptune is that it renders the Material World Confusing. 

It also adds Clarity to our view of the Spiritual World, but that Confusion is what we want to Pay Attention to here, because Confusion is the First Sign of Growth, and Growth is what we want.  But, we have to Avoid reacting to Confusion by trying to “Figure It Out.”  If we Intellectualize it, we will Restrict our Growth to Zero, because it’s our Intellectual Cage that Constrains our Limited World View and with it our Limited Reality. 

Confusion is one of the most Precious and Powerful Gifts we’ll ever be Given; don’t spoil it by Thinking it out of Existence.  Relish it.  Be Excited by it.  Breathe, do Kegels.  Don’t Tap Out your Confusion; Tap out your Need to Intellectualize your Confusion.

“Even though I’m really tempted to make up Stories that can Rescue me from Feeling Confused, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”  We can’t Tolerate Confusion because it takes us back to when we weren’t Safe, when someone who was supposed to Love us was Abusing us, and it didn’t make sense, and we had to Figure Out how to Escape.  It was a matter of Life and Death.

Like Curiosity, one of our highest Priorities should be Allowing Confusion to be an Emotion that Stands on its own.  A Real Emotion doesn’t have a direct or indirect Object.  It’s “I Feel Angry,” not “I Feel Angry about…” or “-at.”  Feelings are Intransitive, if you know your grammar rules.  The modifiers we so often put on our Feeling-words take them out of the realm of Emotion and put them in the realm of Thought.  The “-about” and “-at” and other Object-like additions are Thoughts, not Feelings.

In Truth, because we’re so seldom in the Present Moment, and because we aren’t Omniscient, we never actually know the Sources of our Emotions.  We Feel Angry.  Period.  We don’t know Why.  We can know what Triggered our Anger, maybe, if we’re Aware of what transpired just before we Felt it.  But even that just tells us what the Trigger was, not the Cause.  We might be Angry because an Unconscious Abuse Memory was just Triggered, and maybe the actual Triggering was a brown coat. 

Sure, we can make up Stories about the person who was wearing the brown coat, to Imagine that they were doing all manner of awful things to us, because our Unconscious Memory is about all manner of awful things.  But they’re Innocent.  Even the Antichrist is Innocent.  We have no idea who in our Personal or Cultural or Karmic History he reminds us of.  Pontius Pilate perhaps, or Brad the Impaler, or Adolf Hitler.  For many of us, those Concentration Camps and Death Chambers are a very recent Memory, even in Linear Time.

I was born nine months to the day after the Firebombing of Hamburg.  I didn’t even know Hamburg was Firebombed until I looked up when Dresden was Firebombed because I was wondering why my teachers always said that my German accent sounded so authentic and because I used to paint pictures of cities on fire and because I used to have so many Memories and Experiences of No Way Out.  And then there was the Firebombing of Tokyo – look that one up.  Not to mention Vietnam. 

See, what’d I tell you, Abuse Memories already.

No. III

September 16, 2018

To No. II a reader responds…

“This feels like a personal horoscope.”

Alas, that’s the way it is for so many of us!  For anyone unfamiliar with Nessus, these articles would probably be valuable…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/06/03/nessus/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/06/04/nessus-two/

It should be no surprise, given the way astrology has been so explicit lately, that Lilith, Goddess of Self-Sovereignty Herself, is Lit Up while Hylonome is Standing Still.  And Lilith is Merged in the 17 September Hylonome-Station chart with the South Node, repository of our Held Emotions, aka Karma, Mirroring the Grand Cross of No. II

Our Held Emotions are the ones we’ve Repressed because we’d rather Die than Feel them.  Because they require an Ego Death in other words.  I mean, who would be crazy enough to go into an Ego Death voluntarily!?!? 

Well, I hope that I convince you to do exactly that if you read this blog long enough, because Ego Death is the fastest road to Growth in Consciousness, Liberation, Ascension, Spiritual Progress, Manifesting What You Really Want, Achieving your Lifetime Mission, ending the Heartbreak of Psoriasis, and all the other Good Things I hope you Aspire to.

You can see that Lilith-South Node anchors one end of the base of a Venus T-Square (red triangle – it’s called a “T-Square” because when you draw lines from the center of the Zodiac to each planet, it makes a “T”).  A T-Square is a Challenge to become Adept at something, in this case, Adept at adapting your Values (Venus) to Embrace your Self-Sovereignty in spite of Cultural Pressure to do otherwise.

That includes Cultural Pressure embedded in our own Programming, as we’re taught that Comfort is Good and Discomfort is Bad.  Imagine if you had been taught that Tolerating Discomfort is the pathway to Grace.  Not as the PieInTheSky religions have done, but as the esoteric branches of many religions have done, in teaching techniques to make Tolerating Discomfort more Comfortable and Productive at Liberating us from our Birdcages.

Every day I’m encountering people who are still trapped in the Fear and Anger and Potentially Rough Week series that we dealt with in late August (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/21st-century/the-teens-2010-2019/2018/august-2018/).  If we don’t “do our work” when it’s timely, we carry it with us, and Life gets more and more complicated as the Old and New Energies Confuse one another.  We Create new Held Emotions. 

When we do “do our work when it’s timely,” we’re less Compromised when we Encounter the New Energy, and better able to deal with it as a Main Effect, rather than having to deal with it as Interaction with all of our other Unfinished Business.  We enter a constantly-improving Virtuous Spiral rather than a “downward” Vicious-Cycle Whirlpool.

There’s a chart and some discussion of the December 2017 Lilith-Venus Initiation (and hence the current Venus-Lilith Cycle) at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/12/30/new-province-iii/.  “Coincidentally,” the Lilith-Venus Initiation Conjoined Hylonome!  It was at 6 Capricorn, “Ten logs lie under an archway leading to darker woods.”  Ten means Abundance, though the logs are still raw material.  The suggestion is that a Portal into the Wilderness (or, “doing our work while it is timely”) offers great Potential.

Bottom Line: if our Values seem to Conflict with our Urge toward Self-Sovereignty (which we can define as Making Choices that Lead us to Manifesting What We Really Want in the Lifetime), it’s our Values that need to be Examined and possibly Adjusted

The Self-Congratulation we use to support our Current Ego is based on our Values, but our Values are seriously Contaminated by our Programming, and may be very different from – and frequently the Opposite of – our Soul’s Desire.  Because we Live in Duality, our Soul is clever enough to Challenge our Ego to Grow by presenting the Ego with the Opposite of what the Soul Really Wants.  Like a parent using reverse psychology on their two-year-old.

No. II

September 15, 2018

Here’s a start at the Details.  The 17 September Station is Hylonome’s.  She was a Centaur who was so distraught that her Lover was killed in the disturbance where Chiron was injured, that she killed herself with the same arrow that killed her Lover.  Evidently Life without him was worthless.  In other words, she was Merged with him, she couldn’t tell where she ended and he began.

Now these Greek Myths tell us what happens when we’re Unconscious.  When we’re Conscious, we have Choices.  So, leaning toward Consciousness, we interpret dwarf planet Hylonome as the Choice to set Boundaries that facilitate our own Self-Sovereignty.  In general, we regard Self-Sovereignty as good, but we recognize that this is a Judgment, and that Judgment and Unconditional Love make uneasy mates. 

Our Judgment is Conditional – one of the characteristics of the Patriarchy is that most of us were/are Codependent – Merged with Others.  Perhaps with a Lover, maybe with a Boss, perhaps a Hero, maybe an Antagonist.  As we leave the Patriarchy behind, moving out of Codependence is an important step, because outside of the Patriarchy, the Power structure isn’t nearly as hierarchical. 

In organizations that have embraced the Digital Age, management structures have flattened considerably, as the wider spread of information has allowed Decision-Making to move lower in the structure.  The Digital Age spans the first two Centuries of the Age of Aquarius.  We’ll have more to say about Self-Sovereignty later, but for now we’ll consider it to be a positive trend.

So here’s the core of the Hylonome Station chart…

The Station itself occurs at 6pm PDT, but we’ve drawn the chart for 8pm PDT to give the Moon time to catch up to Hylonome, as the Moon frequently serves as a Timer for larger events.

Most of you are probably too young to remember Patty Hearst’s apparent Merger with her kidnappers, but Merging with our Abusers is not at all uncommon – in fact it may be the only way we can Tolerate Abuse in situations where we don’t feel like we have a Choice.And most of us have been in that situation to one degree or another, probably many times.  Employment comes to mind.

On the left corner of the red square in the chart above is the dwarf planet Nessus, symbolizing Abuse and it’s Opposite, Privilege.  The red square is a “Grand Cross,” and it means that we bounce around between its four corners, exploring their relationships with one another.  On the right corner are the dwarf planet Orcus, symbolizing Oath-making and -breaking, and asteroid Pallas, which represents Boundaries.

Do you remember how Confused you were about your Boundaries with your Abusers?  Do you remember making Oaths, maybe to never Talk Back, maybe to never get into that situation again, maybe to get even someday, maybe to somehow Escape, maybe never to tell anyone.  Every Oath we’ve ever made and not Disavowed, is still in our Field and Limiting our Life.

So just looking at these two corners of the Grand Cross, we can see that we’re deep into Reconsidering our Boundaries against Abuse and the Oaths we made around it.  Abuse can take many forms.  We can all think of the obvious ones, but Abuse includes things like chronic Disrespect.  Whenever someone treats you as less than a Spark of the Divine, that’s Abuse.  And whenever you treat someone else as less than Divine. 

As these issues arise, remember that Confusion is good.  Confusion is the first step of Growth, but only if we Allow Confusion to stand on its own.  If our Response is to compulsively Figure It Out, we can’t help but get stuck in our Old Birdcage.  That’s one of the worst elements of Abuse – as Divine Beings, it’s Unbelievably Confusing that someone would Abuse us.  Our Oaths in Response were to Allay Confusion.  We need to Celebrate Confusion instead, and this is our chance to Disavow those Oaths we made under duress.

At the top of the red square is the asteroid Karma.  Whoa.  Remember that Karma is not Retribution, as most folks use the word.  It’s Inertia, Habit Patterns.  Whenever the asteroid is Lit Up, there are probably Patterns – Oaths and their consequences – from Past or Parallel Lives that are impacting our current Lifetime.  It’s a Blessing, because every strong Angle that asteroid Karma makes is an Opportunity to Recognize the Patterns and make alternative Choices.

And at the bottom of the Grand Cross is the asteroid Lachesis.  Lachesis was one of the three “Fates” in the Greek Worldview, the one that measured the Length of a Timeline.  That might be a Lifetime, or it might be a particular theme or segment or other part of a Lifetime.  Again, in the Greek Myth, that was an apparently unavoidable Fate.  And again, we move toward Choice.

Karma, our Ancient Patterns, is so Easy to Choose because it’s so familiar that we take it for granted.  So Easy that we almost never Notice that it’s us that is Choosing it – we usually feel like it’s imposed upon us.  If in our Karmic Pattern C happened as a result of A and B, guess what we’re going to Expect when A and B happen now!  Expectation is an Unconscious Choice, and it’s a very Strong and very Subtle Manifestor. 

So the Critical piece of Changing a Timeline we don’t like, is Awareness.  We have to Consciously Notice the deja vu, and then we have to be Aware that we’re going to Expect certain consequences, and we have to Consciously turn those Expectations aside.  We have to Choose a fresh alternative. 

Like “No.”  Not “No!” – Neutrality is important.  Not “No thank you” – we don’t need to thank someone for not Respecting our Divinity.  Just “No.”  So there’s nothing for them to React to.  No Explanation, no discussion, no argument, except maybe “What is it about No that you don’t understand?”  But even that invites Discussion, so it’s better off to think it than say it. 

Then you walk away.  Into a crowd if you don’t Feel Safe.  Which suggests that you may want to be Alert this weekend.  Not necessarily paranoid, but you might want to Avoid situations where you’re Alone with someone you’re not sure you Trust completely.  When you first Notice the deja vu, you don’t want to be Alone with someone who reminds you of a past Abuse. 

That will make you paranoid and put you at a great disadvantage, because you’ll have lost your Neutrality, and you may be Afraid to say just “No.”  The likelihood that you’ll actually re-create a historical Abuse is small, because this is about Letting Go of Past Abuse Patterns.  We only have to re-create Abuse when we’ve been too blind for too long and our Soul has given up trying to point out our “Fate” to our Ego gently.

Paranoid Thoughts?

June 5, 2018

We’re approaching 9 June’s Station of Nessus (3am PDT).  As most of you know, a planet’s Energy is Strongest at, and leading up to, its Station, and Nessus is about Healing Abuse and Privilege.  It’s in Pisces, which is all about Finishing Business and Letting Go of Excess Baggage, especially Heavy Emotions, so we can begin the next leg of our next Journey with a Light load.

Of course the quickest way to Heal anything is to Embrace it with Unconditional Love and Empathy, and to do that, we sometimes have to Re-Experience it in some form.  So all manner of Guilt, Veiled (or otherwise) Fear or Terror, and other Ugliness may arise between now and 9 June, including otherwise-unexplained unpleasant Experiences with other people that are Unconsciously Standing In as bit players in our Karmic Dramas.

Yes, they could be Reincarnations of our former Perps, but why not give them the Benefit of the Doubt and let them be Innocent, as in their Present Incarnation they’re likely to be.  After all, they could as likely be Reincarnations of former Victims or your own Abuse and Privilege, just with the roles switched for variety.

It’s important to be Aware that this is happening, so we can Respond positively.  It’s very easy to attribute such Flushbacks to the Present Moment, even though our daily Dramas are probably dime-novel Re-Enactments of our Karmic Traumas and all of Their previous attempts at Re-Enacting themselves, some of which could have Been or Felt very Real.

Remember that Consciousness pervades Everything, including our Karmic Traumas, and if we’re still in Separation (which to some extent we All are if we’re still Incarnate), then these Traumas are virtually “Entities” with a Life of Their own.  Until we Merge with Them, which can Be and Feel quite Horrible while we’re Transitioning into Their Experience. 

And once we’re Inside of Their Experience, we may need some or all of our Enlightened Consciousness (we All have at least some) to be Unconditionally Loving with Them.  Considering how many Lifetimes we’ve probably Lived (likely approaching Infinity), we have Seen It All Before, so it’s more about Being Loving and Gentle with all the Ickiness, once we get past being Horrified.  Maybe we should practice with Slugs.

When we mis-identify Karmic Flushbacks as Present Moment events, we’re very likely to make Decisions or Oaths like “I’ll never do that again” or “I’ll never talk to them again,” or far worse.  Decisions like this rapidly become Unconscious Limitations, and inhibit our Liberation.

We’ll draw up the chart soon, but suffice it to say for now that Orcus, the planet of Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking, Opposes the Stationary Nessus, forming the base of a T-Square to asteroid Moira.  Moira is about Fate.  Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious; Choice is what we Choose to exercise when we’re Conscious.  So we’re Taking Our Power and Breaking an Ancient Contract with our Fate, potentially the one that equates Life with Suffering.

We tend to think of such Contracts as “Facts of Life,” but in fact they’re just Political Choices we made so long ago that we’ve forgotten that it was our Choice.  While the Resistance may be substantial, and the Implications may be complex, we can actually Choose Whatever We Want.  And if we Consider it carefully and boldly, we can actually also Choose trivial Resistance and simple Implications.  That’s on of the reasons why we recommend adding “Lovingly and Gently” to our PIAVAs.

There is also a T-Square to asteroids Nemesis and Lachesis in the Nessus-Station chart.  Nemesis is about Ego Death, while Lachesis is about Choosing to Shift a Karmic or Fated Timeline before it would Shift on its own.  So what we’re really doing here, should we Choose to Accept it, is Shifting our Approach to Ego Death, toward Love and Excitement rather than Fear and Resistance. The base of this second T-Square is the Nodal Axis, with Mars (Anger or Action) on the South Node (Held Emotions) and Aletheia (Truth) on the North Node (Mission in the Lifetime).

Here’s Daniel Scranton’s Channeling for today…

http://danielscranton.com/join-team-ascension-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

We are taking nothing for granted when it comes to our participation in the shift in consciousness.  There are so many beings in this universe who are working to ensure that the shift not only occurs, but that it occurs in the way that serves the most.  We invite any and all of you who want to be a part of this conscious creation to move beyond waiting for something to happen.

“We invite you to join us in ushering in the shift and bringing about an expanded consciousness throughout the entire universe.  You don’t have to wait for any major event to occur in order to participate.

“This is a shift in consciousness, which means nothing in the physical realm is going to be responsible for making it happen.  It is the true nature of consciousness to expand and evolve, and therefore, as you make it your mission not to do something in the physical realm, but instead consciously evolve, you are joining the team.  You have opportunities every single day. They come to you in the choices that you are being given.

“And you can help yourselves and help the entire universe at the same time by making the choice that is more inclusive than exclusive.  You can help by processing your emotions.  You can help by making eye contact with someone else and helping that person understand that he or she matters.  You can be kind instead of being right.  You can forgive.  You can send transmissions of love and compassion.  You can speak your truth, be true to yourself, and love yourself no matter what you have done, or said, or thought.

“As you make a commitment now to joining the team that spans the entire galaxy and all dimensions, you are helping to usher in the best possible shift that we can all experience.  We are inviting you to join us, and we know many of you already have, but as you make the declaration, you are automatically accepted onto our little team.

Healing Abuse Full Moon

March 30, 2018

The Paradox Yin Gate Full Moon will impact us strongly from a few days before 31 March (4:30 am PST), to several weeks thereafter.  It’s at 11 Degrees of Libra.  A Yin Gate (three Oppositions one Sign apart; the Power arises from the four Quincunxes formed by the ends of the Oppositions) Configuration symbolizes a Mystery School to Teach us how to Accept Paradox…

“The current composition of the Earth’s space comes into being through a very limited cooperation between the rational mind on one side and the consciousness of nature, including its life forces, on the other.  It is a result of a millennia-long process during which the [European-dominated] collective human mind has selected only those elements of the multidimensional reality that can be addressed through rational thought and causal logic.  We [in Cultures of European origin] currently perceive and live in space as a rationally structured extract of reality, not reality itself.” –Mark0 Pogačnik, Sacred Geography, p.13.

Communication (Mercury) Conjoins Essence (the Sun), indicating Insight, while asteroids Trust (Eurydike) and Endings (Atropos) are Merged with (Conjoin) the Goddess (Moon), signifying that we’re in the process of Letting Go of Barriers to Trust.  The Full Moon itself is one diagonal axis of the Yin Gate, while the Nodal Axis is the other – meaning that the Paradoxes that we’re Learning to Accept As They Are (rather than trying to squeeze them into Duality) here are Fundamental to Life.

Action (Mars), Focus (Saturn), and Letting Go of Obstacles to Self-Sovereignty (Hylonome) Challenge (T-Square) the Full Moon.  Bottom Line, this Full Moon (apart from the Paradoxes) is about Trusting that if we take the Risk to Express our True Self, the Universe will make a Safe Space for us.

We can Expect major Epiphanies around Fear, Truth, and Self-Abandonment (Mjōlnirs to Sedna from the Moon-Hylonome Square, to Veritas from the Sun-Hylonome Square, and to Hynonome-Saturn-Mars from the Veritas-Sedna Square; a Mjōlnir is formed when a third planet sits at the Far Midpoint between the two ends of a Square, Trioctile to each).  When Fear arises, and when you don’t feel Grounded, remember your Tapping, Breathing, and Kegels.

The crux (central axis) of the Paradox Lesson is the Opposition between Abuse and Privilege (Nessus) and Breaking Oaths (Orcus)Under the Duress of Abuse, we made Pledges to ourself such as “I can Never talk about this or they’ll Kill Mom,” and “This is too Painful or Weird, I have to Numb myself to it in order to Survive,” and “I don’t know how or when, but someday I’ll get even for this,” and the like. 

The Pledges may have been Conscious, Semi-Conscious, or fully Unconscious (made without our Conscious Awareness).  Abuse can take many forms – sexual, physical, mental, emotional, neglect or Abandonment, overfocus or Suffocation, Shaming, and many other processes, including Adults Expecting to be Parented by their Children.

These Oaths present major Lose-Lose Dilemmas.  By definition we were on the Losing end of Privilege, which means we lacked a context and language to put the Abuse into any sort of Framework or Context.  No matter how Obsessively we tried, we were never able to figure out “What did I do to Deserve this?” 

So we never had a way to Explain it to ourself, let alone talk about it, even if we could do so without disastrous consequences.  That’s still True today.  You can Justify neither your Victim nor your Outrage, and those two Mysterious and Powerful parts of yourself are still Arguing vehemently with one another inside yourself.

The Paradox is that It-Was-What-It-Was and there’s nothing we can do to Change it other than (starting by) Accepting our Confusion for the True Emotion that Confusion is, without trying to make Sense of it. 

It might help us get grounded if we open a journal and write out both sides of the Argument, one of the left-hand page and the other on the right-hand page.  The “Reasons” for the Abuse we received were not from the Current Lifetime, which Limits our ability to Grok What Happened and Why.  Give the Effort to Understand over to the Goddess, every time you’re Tempted to Indulge it.

Poor-Sweetheart your Abused Self, your Confused Self, your Angry Self, and any other Folk who show up.  Then Listen to see if they have anything to say to you.  Healing won’t occur till you Learn to Embrace every one of your Inner Denizens with Unconditional Self-Love.  Consistently and Permanently.  See if you can move in this direction while using as few words as possible.

PTSD Gauntlet II

February 19, 2018

For convenience I’m using the Intuition/Asbolus-Station chart to illustrate the Memories-Mind, Abuse-Mind, Memories-Essence, and Abuse-Essence Initiations we talked about in the previous post.  These four are one-year Cycles.  If we have time next week, we’ll do the Memories/Abuse-Edges of Consciousness Initiations separately.  In the chart the heavy lines are the Memories/OR10 Angles, and the lighter lines are the Abuse/Nessus Angles.

Starting with the Memories Angles, the Challenge (heavy red triangle or T-Square) for processing our Memories (OR10) has to do with Truth (asteroid Veritas) and Respect for All Things (asteroid Hopi).

As is often the case, Dan Scranton Channeled a post on this topic recently…

http://danielscranton.com/respecting-different-points-of-view-and-the-people-who-hold-them-%e2%88%9ethe-creators/

“What is a wonderful thing to us is to see two people who have very different points of view on very many topics still being able to relate to one another as human beings and as beings of love and light, existing at the same time and same place, allowing one another to have different points of view and respecting each other.  That is what we want most for you.  It is harmony.  It is releasing judgment of others for being in the opposing viewpoint camp and knowing that ultimately that these differences in opinion that you have are what make this world so special.”

And it turns out to be Fundamental – in order to “graduate” from 3D Duality to 5D Multidimensionality, we need to Accept the apparent Paradox of “Cognitive Dissonance,” or Holding Contradictory Perspectives in the Mind at the same time, without letting either one diminish the other.  In the context of Perp and Victim of Abuse, this is Trial by Fire, a big assignment for someone just starting their Healing from Abuse, and probably more than anyone has a right to expect.

Can we Forgive and Respect a Perp while Honestly facing the Truth of their Transgressions?  That’s a very sophisticated position to Live Out Fully, and Living it Out Fully is important to Recovery.  On the other hand, both the Psycho-Spiritual quality of the Newer Earthlings and the Intensity of the New Energies are greatly enhanced, so we don’t want to sell anyone short.  I suppose we’re seeing all this in flaming color in the news with Dr. Nasser and the Parkland Florida Disaster.

Basically, it’s about Fully Feeling our Anger, which is necessary for our Healing and necessary for Learning to Avoid Future Abuse, while Avoiding Blame and Focusing on Improving Outcomes.  I haven’t heard the amazing youngsters in Parkland Blaming the Perp, but rather putting their Anger into Changing the “adult” political dysfunction that keeps allowing mass shootings to happen.  Which is exactly how it should work – putting our Anger into Informed Boundaries to prevent it from happening again.

There are two Bridges, or Easier pathways for “resolving” the Challenge of the Hopi T-Square – a Trine Bridge (just plain Grace) through Responsibility (dwarf planet Pholus) and our Survival Instincts (dwarf planet Quaoar), and a Quincunx Bridge (Prescribing Curiosity) through the Life Force (dwarf planet Varuna) and Memory (asteroid Mnemosyne).  The Parkland youngsters perfectly illustrate the Trine Bridge through Responsibility (Responding so as to Improve Future Outcomes) and promoting Survival.

The Quincunx Bridge is more Curious (pun intended).  Asteroid Mnemosyne symbolizes the Memory Process in general, as a subcategory of the Illusion of Time, while dwarf planet OR10 is more about Intrusive Memories and Content rather than Process.  OR10, just by nature of being Intrusive, hints that it’s a timer for our Held Emotions.  The Quincunx between Mnemosyne and OR10 asks us be Curious about how Process and Content relate to one another. 

Perhaps we’re back to Hamerof’s Microtubules.  Since it’s the Edges of Consciousness, Juno, that’s Conjunct OR10 and Quincunx Mnemosyne-Varuna, that actually makes sense.  It’s like we’re being Asked to Remember the Life Force – which again aligns with the notion of a timer for Intruding Held Emotions, as Held Emotions certainly Limit our Life Force. 

What’s that got to do with Respect for All Things, the onus of the T-Square that’s Quincunx-Bridged by Mnemosyne-Varuna?  Well, that’s the Question, and the Quincunx Asks that we leave it hanging without an Answer, like an open mailbox waiting patiently for a letter from the Universe.

The Abuse/Nessus Initiation of Essence/Sun is an annual event that suggests what sort of Healing we’ll be pursuing deeply for the year to come.  As we mentioned in the previous post, the Degree symbol is “Illuminated by a Shaft of Light, a large Cross lies on rocks surrounded by Sea Mist.”  That sounds to me like for the coming year we’re going to be Letting Go of the Abuse caused by the Either/Or Religious Programming that we grew up under.

The Angles in the Abuse half of this chart are the ones drawn in lighter lines.  The major Configuration is a “Sextile Fez” – the trapezoid connecting Nessus, dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation), and asteroids Ceres (Sustainability) and Moira (Choice).  Fez Energy is driven by the diagonal Quincunxes – Manifestation/Makemake to Choice/Moira, and Abuse/Nessus to Sustainability/Ceres.

Well we don’t want to Sustain Abuse, we want to Sustain Healing.  The Quincunx tells us to keep the Question unanswered, which we can do with a PIAVA – such as “I Wonder how Healing from Abuse can be Sustained this year.”  Then of course we have to Change the Subject, and let the “how” unfold as the year progresses.

We want to do the same with Manifesting Choice or Choosing to Manifest, though of course Healing Abuse means Letting Go of Limiting Beliefs, which in turn means Having Choice and Liberating Life Force to Manifest.  But that’s an Answer, not a Question.  We can be Curious about how that might unfold, but better yet, we can Accept that as a Given, and PIAVA the Universe to Surprise us with deeper Truths.  Perhaps something like “I Wonder what I’ll Choose to Manifest this year.”

The Fez has a tassel on one side – asteroid Lachesis.  Relative to the Unconscious, Lachesis is about enduring the Fated Timeline of a thread in the tapestry of our Lives.  But since we’re rooting for Consciousness, it becomes Choosing to end a Timeline that doesn’t serve us, especially one that Sabotages us.  The Opposition to Makemake Asks us “What Is It that We’ve Always Wanted, but our Limiting Beliefs Made it appear to be Impossible?”

You may want to Stretch a little, as your Deepest Desire may be so far from Possible in your view that you gave up on it so long ago that you’ve Forgotten it.  Or rather, almost Forgotten it.  It’s there.  You may need to PIAVA it – “I Wonder if I even know what my Deepest Desire Is.” 

PTSD Gauntlet I

February 18, 2018

Our next general Big Deal is the 23 February (8pm PST) Station of Asbolus, which means a strengthening of our Intuition between now and the 23rd.  That event turns out to be pretty complex, and we’ll get to that soon.  But first, between 20 February and 25 February, and extending until 11 March, we endure a Gauntlet of events that are likely to Trigger our Abuse Herstories.  (History is the story that the Abuser tells, at least during the reign of the Patriarchy.)

Before we even move into that, though, lets talk about how Abuse and Intuition interact.  Bottom Line, Abuse really screws up our Intuition.  It makes us Hyperaware, which is actually Beneficial for the Development of Consciousness, but it also makes us Paranoid.  So one of our greatest Opportunities here will be Learning to better Differentiate what’s an Intuition and what’s a Fear.

Let me start by quickly describing how I Differentiate Fear from Intuition.  I’ll be brief here; we can go into this more later if anyone wants, but you can dig further yourself by looking up Theta Healing, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/, and Tapping, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4.  If you haven’t tried them yet, I recommend practicing with each of them separately before you try them as Differentiators. 

And if anyone has other methods that you use for Differentiating Intuitions from Fears, we’d Love to hear about them!

When Fear Overwhelms me, I Tap it Out.  You know what I mean, you’re sort of “beside yourself,” you Leave your Body, things tingle, you can almost feel your follicles shifting.  You’re definitely not in the Present Moment, you’re lost in the Future/Past Re- or Pre-Living the Fearsome version of the event you’re imagining.  Do you recognize what I’m referring to? 

Like getting awakened from sleep or half-sleep by a threatening sound and you can’t tell if it came from outside yourself or from a Dream, or just your ears tricking you.  When I get to this place it usually takes two or three rounds of Tapping to get myself back into my Body and into the Present Moment.  Once I get back, I can make a quiet assessment of the potential threat, and either dismiss it or get up and check.

Now suppose I’m planning a trip tomorrow, and having images of getting into a wreck.  Or someone I’m Attached to is taking a trip.  When you think about how ridiculous it is, even masochistic, to get into a sheet-metal box and get it whipping around at 100kph only a foot or two from other metal boxes whipping around at 100kph, at night, in the rain, with nothing but the Attention of two Hupers keeping your boxes from annihilating each other, there’s no shame in getting paranoid about it!  There’s nothing Reliable about the Attention of two Hupers.

So I start by Thetaing/Commanding a Safe Trip and a Safe Return.  If I can See myself or my Attachee sitting at home reading peacefully after the trip, and See that their vehicle is in the driveway undamaged, then we’re Golden.  Often Fear intercedes before I even get halfway through my Theta.  Then we’re back to the sound-in-the-night scenario, and I have to Tap our whatever I’m Feeling.  Then I Theta again, and if the ShowMe come out fine, we’re Good again.

It could take several iterations to get to Golden, or it could require a Renegotiation of my original Theta.  Maybe I want to Imagine taking a different route.  Maybe I want to Imagine doing this on a different day.  Maybe I want to Imagine ordering a delivery instead of shopping.  Maybe I want to Imagine calling instead of visiting.  Maybe there’s a much Easier way that I haven’t thought of yet.  This could take a while, this Theta-Tap-Theta-Tap-usw Iteration, possibly with other PIAVA variations thrown in where relevant.  But I don’t leave until I See a Safe Return.

I’m guessing that this is what Dan Scranton’s Channeled friends mean when they suggest that we “let [our] frequency pave the way” (http://danielscranton.com/open-yourselves-to-an-infinite-array-of-possibilities-%e2%88%9ethe-creators/) or “If you begin by accessing vibrations…, you will recognize that you create your experience in the now moment.  You create an experience of the now moment, and that now moment expands out.  It becomes what you call the future.  And when you walk in your power, you can access any future experience you desire” (http://danielscranton.com/how-powerful-you-are-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council-2/).

The great thing about Theta Healing is that we get instant feedback about whether our Command will Manifest the Vibration we Want to Manifest.

Before we get to the Timeline, let me give you a couple of Resources.  UndeniablySara, https://undeniablysara.com/2018/02/17/1347/, is a daily short blog with wonderful tips for dealing with Abuse or Discomfort.  Like this one…

The short text (link above) is even better.  Or this one (from https://undeniablysara.com/2018/02/15/1339/)…

Enduring and Healing from Chronic or Acute Disease or Injury, Mental Illness, Addiction, and the debilitating effects of Abuse, have a lot in common.  Cultural Attitudes, and our resulting introjected Guilt/Shame/Anger will differ, but these all require a lot of Self-Empathy and Gentleness.  We’d like to say that they require Self-Love, but the source of Dis-Ease can make us Unconsciously Despairing (we don’t even know it’s Possible) about that.  Poor-Sweethearting is a place to start.

Swan Waters, http://swanwaters.com/, is another valuable resource, that UndeniablySara has led me to.  It even has a post on how to tell the Difference between Intuition and Fear, http://swanwaters.com/difference-intuition-fear/… 

“Who are we to say that this person is bad news?  Who are we to say there is something fishy about this new business opportunity?  Well, the flipside of that is the following question: who will we be when we’re suffering the consequences of being too scared to trust [our Intuition that the person or proposition was not in our best interests].”

Here’s another good UndeniablySara that she borrowed from Swan Waters, https://undeniablysara.com/2018/02/09/hurt-but-not-broken/

As usual, the text is even better.

Now, our upcoming Timeline.  We’ve been dealing with Intrusive Memories (symbolized by dwarf planet OR10) of Abuse (symbolized by dwarf planet Nessus) for a while now, as these two dwarf planets have been traveling together.  We’re beginning to get some Relief, as Abuse/Nessus has pulled away from Memories/OR10.  However, a crowd of faster interlopers is moving through the territory they’re in.

The interlopers are Essence (the Sun), Mind (Mercury), and the Edges of Consciousness (asteroid Juno).  The Timeline looks like this.  The dates and times are when the Influence ends; Expect to Feel the Energy during the preceding several days…

  • 19 February (6pm PST) – Mind/Mercury crosses Memory/OR10; Expect your Paranoid Mind to make up all manner of unpleasant Dances; Tap them out and Theta What You Want.
  • These next two Energies will be interwoven…
  • 21 February (noon PST) – Mind/Mercury crosses Abuse/Nessus; If you catch yourself enduring Abuse in the Present Moment, then Congratulations – you’re waking up!  I know, you still have some work to do extricating yourself, but at least you now know that you must.  More likely, these will be Flashbacks.  Tap out the Regression, and use the Information you’re getting to refine What You Want to Create.
  • 21 February (8pm PST) – Essence/Sun crosses Memory/OR10; While the Mercury events were probably vividly imagined, these are more likely to tease out Body Memories.  No fun.  Keep Tapping.  It just Feels like Present Moment; you can be Grateful that it isn’t.  When you get back to yourself, focus on the Vibration you Want to Feel.
  • 25 February (6am PST) – Essence/Sun crosses Abuse/Nessus; More Body Memories of the actual Abuse are likely.  Poor-Sweetheart yourself, a lot.  See previous event.
  • These next two Energies will have a longer lead-in time, perhaps as much as a week…
  • 3 March (6am PST) – Edges of Consciousness/Juno crosses Memories/OR10; Remember that Confusion is the first stage of Growth, if you can stand to Let It Be Confusion, and not have to “figure it out.”  Growth of Consciousness usually requires an Ego Death, as the Ego’s legitimate role is to filter out threats to the status quo, and Growth in Consciousness is a threat to the status quo.  You may Feel like you’re Dying, but you aren’t, what’s happening is that You are Dying, that is, your Identity is Molting, casting off a shell it’s outgrown.  We’re very vulnerable when we Molt, till we’ve calcified our new shell.  Be very gentle with yourself, and avoid unnecessary risks.
  • 11 March (2pm PST) – Edges of Consciousness/Juno crosses Abuse/Nessus; This could involve more detail than you really want to remember, but know that it will ultimately Serve you.  See the previous entry, only worse – or better, if you’re looking forward to your Healing even as you look backward into your Living Nightmares.  By the Ides, you’ll be soaring, having Let Go of a ton of dead weight.

Memories/OR10 is at 4 Pisces, “Heavy car traffic on a narrow isthmus linking two seaside resorts.”  The heavy traffic is all of the Mental Activity that is triggered.  The narrow isthmus is the Constrained thinking that our Abuse has Created.  While those with Clear Microtubules Live in a World full of Possibilities, our Limiting Beliefs force us to Live in a World that’s narrowed by the Limits to Safety that our Experiences have Programmed for us.  The seaside resorts are where we get to watch the Clear folks having so much unbridled Fun.

Abuse/Nessus is at 7 Pisces, “Illuminated by a Shaft of Light, a large Cross lies on rocks surrounded by Sea Mist.”  The Sea Mist is Confusion.  The Cross is what we bear as we Struggle into Healing.  If we’re an Addict, we know what “on the rocks” means.  The picture doesn’t say the Cross is broken, but the implication is there to the paranoid mind.  Of course if we’re bearing it, broken is good.  Then there’s the Shaft of Light.  That’s very hopeful, but as a Shaft it’s also a very narrow exit tunnel for us, again reflecting our Limiting Beliefs.

Those are both very negative interpretations, right?  Did you notice?  This is the Energy we’re likely to be encountering.  If we’re Aware that a Shitstorm is approaching, we can get out our umbrella.  How can we improve the interpretations?

I’m an Introvert, so the last thing I want is heavy traffic and seaside resorts.  So I’d substitute walking on a deserted Beach with a carefully selected companion or two, if any.  Let the Extroverts burn themselves out however they like.  If I was an Extrovert, I’d just Imagine a wide spot in the road, park the car in it and walk up the Beach to the resort ahead.

And I can be Grateful for any source of Illumination.  If it’s Focused, more Power to it.  I can Choose to have the Cross represent Walking the Spiritual (vertical) Path with Practical (horizontal) Feet, as Angie used to say.  Rudolph Steiner, with his assertion that Spirit Descending into Matter wasn’t a lot different from Matter Ascending into Spirit, might agree.  The Sea Mist can by Mystery, Grace Unborn.

Next we’ll look at the chart, to see what it tells us.

Timelines IIb

January 21, 2018

Did we provide the Timing for the Nemesis-Nessus Initiations?

An Initiation, by the way, is “just” a Conjunction – when one planet passes another in the Sky, but if the Conjunction stutters (planets are Curious Beings; often when they pass another planet they’ll turn around and come back for a second and third look, and sometimes more), only the first Conjunction in a series is an Initiation. 

The slower a planet is, the “wiser” its influence.  So when a slower planet Initiates a faster one, it’s like the faster planet is giving Shakipat to the slower planet.  The Initiation “informs” the subsequent Cycle.  For instance, Nemesis-Nessus Cycles last four years and four months, give or take, and the current Cycle begins at 6 Pisces, which means “A parade of army officers in full dress.”  So the next four years plus… 

A Nemesis-Nessus Cycle is about Healing Abuse.  Well, more generally it’s about the current-moment Relationship between Ego Death and Abuse or Privilege.  But here we Strive for greater Consciousness, Healing, and Self-Love, so of course we’ll be talking about Healing from Abuse when “Ego Death and Abuse or Privilege” is Lit Up. 

Ego Death is what we almost always have to endure in order to actually make a significant Change in our Lives.  It isn’t always Painful, but often is, as one of the early steps in Ego Death is being forced somehow to Re-Experience the events that led to the formation of our Current Ego.  Now Ego is a good thing – it’s the part of our Psyche that’s in charge of our Survival.  Which means that Ego Death is always Scary.

It Feels like “I am DYING!” which is true, but the accent is on the wrong syllable.  It’s really “<I> – my Olde Ego – is Dying,” or Molting.  If you’re a Narcissistic Duck with the Fairest Feathers of Them All, “you” Die every year when your old Feathers fall off.  Everyone who wears their skeleton on the outside – Crabs, Snakes, Bugs, Hupers (Psychically), has to Molt in order to Grow.

Some people – we could name many in the news for instance – have significant Healing from Privilege to go through!  Most of us have Privilege in our Karma as well as Abuse, and eventually we’ll have to Heal that too.  Suppose for instance you’re a Middle Child.  As a temporary Last-Born you may have been Privileged with more Attention for a while till your younger sibling was born.  Then you may have Experienced your subsequent Abandonment as Abuse, once your “replacement” got all the Attention. 

And for every Past Life as a Slave, we probably also have one as a Slaveowner.  We may or may not consider Privilege to be “Good” Karma, but Alan Watts always said that it’s harder to Let Go of our Good Karma than it is to Let Go of our Bad Karma.  Even if we Strive toward Abundance, the Path to Abundance lies through Detachment.  And Nothing Changes until we Accept it Exactly As It Is.  We can’t Detach from anything without first Accepting it.

And Acceptance doesn’t mean Tolerance.  By Accepting it we become Conscious of it, and without Consciousness there is no Change.  It’s like Blame and Responsibility – Blame is assigning Causation to something in the Past, Responsibility is Choosing to Respond Differently in the Future in order to Achieve Improved Outcomes.  We have to Accept what Happened in the Past in order to move forward without Rancor that would color what we Create in the Future.

So, for the next four plus years the Relationship between Ego Death and Abuse is about “A parade of army officers in full dress” – we’re likely to find it easier to Heal if we can adopt a formal protocol to structure the process, and if we can do it in the context of Community, where we can “parade” our Successes.  And for the next four years plus we’ll be ahead to reframe all of our Ego Death Experiences in terms of Abuse and Privilege.

Nessus crosses OR10 – Uninvited Memories – on 22 January at 12am PST (midnight Sunday night), and crosses Nessus on 27 January at 5pm PST.  These times Initiate the new Cycles.  When a Cycle wears out, we spend a fair amount of time, usually the last fourth or so of the Cycle, “in the Void” – we’re done with the Old Cycle but the New Cycle hasn’t started yet, which leaves us Wandering in the Wilderness.  So we’ve probably been sort of Disoriented about our Healing from Abuse for the last year or so, but now we’re likely to “get down to work” on it.

Most of us spend the Void phase of a Cycle struggling in vain to keep making the Olde Cycle function like it was.  That’s a terrible waste of Energy, but unless we keep track of the Cycles – who does, anyway! – how are we to know, except Intuitively.  We usually have a Strong Intuition that something is afoot well before (weeks, in the case of a 4-year Cycle?) the Initiation of a New Cycle, though if we’re still clinging to the Olde Cycle, that will Inhibit our Intuition.

Then, Disappointingly, once the New Cycle gets underway in earnest, it seems to Disappear.  That’s because it starts working at the Foundations.  For the first quarter of a Cycle, the New Energy is busy underground battling with Unfinished Business from all of the previous Cycles.  For instance, the last Nemesis-Nessus Cycle began in March 2013 at 27 Aquarius, “An ancient pottery bowl filled with fresh violets.”  At that time, fresh off of the End of Time As We Knew It, most of us were already struggling with Change of all kinds, and hesitated to throw ourself full tilt into Healing our Abuse.

So we saved the Structure (the bowl), even though it was obsolete (ancient), and tried dolling it up a bit with Fresh Flowers.  Violets of course are very Healing for surficial Wounds.  We may even have considered the old Structure to have enduring Value (pottery).  Like the Women who voted for the Antichrist.  But all that’s Changing now that the old Cycle has died, and the Abused are Marching Forward in Full Dress and full Resolve for Change.

Now, everything we’ve talked about so far applies to All of Us.  The Culture will be a macrocosm of our Individual Experiences, and our own Personal Experiences will be a microcosm of the Global Experience, tempered by our own Personal Horoscope.  I know many have been Healing for Decades already.  I think its fair to say that more folks will be drawn to Healing, giving those with Healing Experience more Opportunities for Seva, and to pay the rent, preferably both.

You can research the position of your own natal Nessus (and Nemesis, and any other planets you want) at…

http://www.true-node.com/eph1/?inputNumber=nemesis%2Cnessus&day=1&month=1&year=1980&time=00%3A00%3A00&zone=GMT+0&interval_num=1&interval=day&lines=100&amp;.submit=Get+Ephemeris&calendar=Gregorian&zodiac=Tropical&origin=Geocentric&lighttime=Apparent&clock=Universal+Time&zodsec=D%B0M&longitude=on

If you want to forewarn yourself about Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet OR10), use the wording “2007 OR10” in the “names” field at the top of the page.  Commas separate names.  Asteroid Mnemosyne may also be involved with Memory.  You can put in as many names as you want, but only ten or so will fit on a page.  You can also put in whatever timespan you want, but for the new dwarf planets like Nessus and OR10, the orbit isn’t certain enough yet that you can go very far into the Past or Future.

A table of where the planets are at different times is called an “Ephemeris,” or “Ephemerides” (that’s plural, but if you’re looking up two planets at once, well…).  You can get an inexpensive but wholly accurate Ephemeris at…

https://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_ss_c_1_13/131-7359963-3839830?url=search-alias%3Daps&field-keywords=pocket+astrologer+2018&sprefix=pcket+astrolo%2Caps%2C772&crid=2ZUS9S3PVPCCK

It won’t cover the new dwarf planets like Nessus, or the asteroids; you’ll need to look elsewhere (like the link above, or more expensive Ephemerides) for those, but once you learn how to use an Ephemeris you’ll be off and running.

You’ll Learn a whole lot about Healing your own Abuse by Observing your Experience when the Moon and other planets cross over your natal Nessus and your natal Nemesis.  The Moon is an excellent study guide because it changes position so quickly.  I look for any of the Challenging Angles – a direct crossing, a 90-Degree Angle, 180 Degrees, and 270 Degrees. 

In other words, if your Nessus is at, say, 20 Degrees of Scorpio, then your Nessus would be Lit Up whenever the Moon was at 20 Degrees of Scorpio, 20 Degrees of Aquarius (90°), 20 Degrees of Taurus (180°), and 20 Degrees of Leo (270°).  You’d know it if your natal Nessus was at 20 Scorpio, because Jupiter, which is an Amplifier, would be sitting on it as we speak.  Using those four Angles and the Moon, you’d get to Observe how you Respond to Nessus weekly, enough to get a good handle on it fairly quickly.

Timelines IIa

January 21, 2018

With much appreciation, a rich trove of excellent Perspectives from Undeniably Sara…

 https://undeniablysara.com/author/undeniablysara/

“Draining boiled pasta water into the sink is a trigger for me – every time.  Chopping onions, doing laundry, mopping the floor, planting a garden and driving – these are just some of the mundane everyday activities that start a movie playing in my head.  I hear every word, see each expression, smell the scents, and experience all the fear as if it were happening again right now.  Even after all these years the memories still give me pause, and I must consciously stop the movie playing and add a narrative that explains these events are in the past.  Remembering past events is not my choice but my reaction to them is, and I choose to see the ridiculousness of the people who hurt me.  It makes them seem small and less threatening which helps me keep moving forward.”

“My upbringing encouraged me to hold in my emotions and deny my secrets.  While this muting was not malicious, it resulted in devastating consequences for my life.  A strong person, I was taught, was one who did not react to emotional situations.  Only strong people restrain themselves and their feelings.  Love was one of the emotions kept under wraps encompassing the physical and verbal expressions.  In the end, hiding the abuse my children and I suffered at the hands of their father/my ex-husband resulted in physical and emotional illness, job loss and financial ruin.  I can’t help but wonder how different things would be if I was encouraged to share my thoughts and feelings.  It is difficult and many times uncomfortable to share my story or ‘sing my song’ but I know the process is healing and I am determined to prevail.”

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“I have repeated many things I was too ignorant to repair.  At one point I merely thought I just had bad luck with relationships.  Many times I was told relationship failures were solely my responsibility.  In truth, healthy boundaries were nonexistent in my life, and it took lots of pain and loss for me to see that.  Now I understand that because I did not respect myself, I allowed others to disrespect me.  So, there is some validity to the statement that my failed relationships were my fault.  I failed to repair my broken pieces and that invited manipulative, abusive people into my life.  The process of repairing is well underway but still incomplete making me fear any new relationship.  I am hopeful that someday I will be well enough to have a healthy relationship.  Until then being single and focusing on raising my children is more than enough to fill my days while the repairs continue.”

Healing Flame

From https://alexhousemn.wordpress.com/2014/02/13/letting-your-light-shine-teens-healing-from-abuse/ via Undeniably Sara.

New Province VI-2b

January 7, 2018

Here’s an “I second the Yintegrity motion” from the Arcturians, channeled by Cherie Frances this time…

 https://roserambles.org/2018/01/04/the-arcturians-mother-earth-will-take-her-seat-amongst-the-galaxies-of-the-universe-jan-4-2018/

“Let us speak a little of what it takes to release the tension of the new beginnings upon your Earth realm.  Feel yourselves grow, change envelop the new tidings of love and joy – and heartfelt displeasure at what it was that took you so far to get here to this stage of love, joy and unity.  Feel yourselves expanding, growing and maturing evermore into the unfolding and refolding and back and forth, like the tides, into the ever more complex multidimensionality of your Selves and cells. 

“We are here to bring you the upmost of important of messages.  It is: Be who you are.  Not what others believe or expect of you.  You are who you are for a reason.  For the Earth realm.  Not for the Higher realms or any other realm.  You are on planet Earth, in and on the heart of Gaia for a reason.  Embrace it, acknowledge it, share it among yourselves. 

“There is so much escaping and expectation, and mourning and loss and it saddens us kinfolk among you to see you are not living up to your expectations of what it actually means to be on the Earth realm.  Changing, obscuring, desensitising and obfuscating the Truth for realities of unknown measure.  We understand it is difficult to live the realities of who you are, why so many cling to un-realities, driven by ego and greed… yet find within yourselves the measure of the ‘small’ person you are, the smallest most secret and hidden part of yourselves that have been closed up and hidden for fear of being trampled on and exposed. 

“Bring them out in full force.  Expose them for the greatness and beauty of all their honour.  This is the smallest most vulnerable, most magnificent part of your Selves that must expand in consciousness.  Stretch out and reach for the stars, planets and galaxies that long to realise the strength of your muster.  Earth will take its seat amongst the galaxies of the universe as one of its allies of strength and unity in the Federation of Light.”

Of course one of the first Yes-Butts about Yintegrity is, How do we Survive doing Yintegrity when the rest of the World is doing YangtegrityThe Yes-And is that we minimize our Commitments, Renegotiate often, and, when we don’t have an opportunity to Renegotiate and the Relationship is valuable, Make Amends.

A more consequential Yes-But is What if I have parts of myself that for very good reasons I don’t like?  And worse, parts of myself that I know very well others don’t like, because they’ve told me so, loud and clear?  Sure, we can “Prescribe” more Self-Love and more Self-Sovereignty, but really, how do you Respond to that? – “Easy for you to say?”  I mean, we’ve been working with that Energy all our Life, and have we found Resolution yet?

Now that our Forbidden Genii are pushing to the fore, we’ve got some real homework to do.

These Energies have three feet in the Unconscious – if they were Conscious we’d have Dismissed them long ago – and we don’t Change the Unconscious with Prescription.  We’ve spoken often about how to use the combination of PIAVAing, Poor-Sweethearting, and Tapping, iteratively to Liberate ourselves from Archetypes.  But what if, Nevertheless, They Persist?  And what if we don’t yet have enough Clear Consciousness about them to know how to proceed?

Let’s take an example.  This is the approximate birth chart of one of the long-time Perps of Abuse of Power, currently a “Victim” (not that they haven’t worked hard to earn this dubious distinction) of #MeToo…

We find a serious Challenge (T-Square) to Self-Love (Sappho) and to Ending their Resistance (Atropos) to same (the Houses aren’t accurate).  If you knew who this is, you’d see instantly how they’ve made a fortune by Acting Out that Challenge.  Though this may or may not have been a Conscious choice on their part, it’s an example of how Recovering our Forbidden Genius can pave our Yellow Brick Road.  That’s one way to put our Forbidden Genius to work – Act it Out in a way that seems like you’re making a parody of It. 

A parody of It in others of course – few of us have a Forbidden Genius that’s so unique that others won’t understand our Pain, and appreciate the opportunity to make Light of it.  That’s likely to feel very Vulnerable – of course your audience will think you’re talking about yourself, which will likely Retrigger the Shame that drove your Genius underground in the first place.  Our “Native” (that’s what astrologers call the person whose chart they’re reading – the one with the “Nativity”) may have been able to pull this off because of Intuitive Memories of Trust (Asbolus Opposite Mnemosyne-Aletheia in the base of the Sappho-Asbolus T-Square).

So we have a Perp who’s been Abusing Power.  So where is their Nessus, the dwarf planet that we associate with Abuse and Privilege?  Okay, it’s seriously Challenged by (T-Square to) Compulsion (Pluto) and Action (Mars).  Anybody with a Nessus-Mars-Pluto T-Square has dialed up a very serious Karmic Lifetime.  Most folks with this Configuration, if they haven’t gotten very Conscious and very Practiced with this Energy, are probably in prison.  If this is your Forbidden Genius, prison counselors aren’t very well paid, but there’s a huge and lucrative market for Hollywood crime scriptwriters.  

Ah, the T-Square is Completed, by Venus, making a Grand Cross.  A Grand Cross is more Balanced than a T-Square alone (even though a Grand Cross is composed of four T-Squares), probably making our Native less Out of Control.  And Venus would soften the whole Energy – though worse case it could make for an Unconscious person who Values (Venus) Active Compulsive Abuse of Power.  So far we have a person who might do well as a Detective, since they’d know quite well what Motivates many scofflaws.

And, our Perp’s Nessus is at the focus of a Pay-Attention (Finger of God – the green wedge).  That will raise the probability that our Native gets Conscious of their Compulsions.  And if they don’t get Conscious, it’ll raise the probability that Trouble will find them, and it’ll Escalate its prodding until they do figure it out.

Ah again – look at all those blue lines!  Those represent Blessings.  The big blue triangle is a Grand Trine, symbolizing Dumb-Luck Grace, the kind of Luck that can make us Arrogant till we figure out that everyone has a Unique Skill.  It’s in the Earth Signs, so our Native will be very Grounded, and that includes Mars, so they’re likely to be less reckless in their Actions than they otherwise might be. 

And there’s more – the shorter blue lines trace out five sides of a hexagram or Grand Sextile.  A Grand Sextile makes the results of their Actions likely to be successful, but theirs is one corner (labeled with a “V” in a circle, for “Vacancy”) short of Complete, so they’ll need to contribute that Energy Consciously to make their Endeavors work out.  That corner is occupied by a Star, however – Markeb, signifying Steadiness in the course of Movement – and Good Fortune followed by Disgrace.  But, as it’s in a Grand Sextile, the Disgrace may not be as complete as it has been with some #MeToo Perps.

I made a quick check on five other #MeToo Perps relative to their natal Nessus, and found…

Nessus-Lilith Square Mars-Pluto Square Jupiter Square Chiron
Nessus Square Pluto
Pluto T-Square on Nessus Opposite Mars
Nessus-Jupiter Square Pluto
Nessus Opposite Jupiter

So, what’s our point?  When our Development of a particular Skill is Frozen st some age, our Psychological Age with that Skill remains the same as it was at the time the Skill was Frozen.  In addition, when the Issue arises, we Regress to that Age, and lose track of ALL of the Skills we’ve Learned since.  In a Culture that’s very screwed up about Power and Sex, when either or both are Strong in a chart they’re likely to be driven underground, producing many adults whose relationship to Power and Sex remains Infantile or Adolescent, and who lose most of their Adult Skills when Issues of Power or Sex arise.

Power and Sex are additionally complicated in some cases by Genetic and Socially Conditioned Patterns that differ from the Cultural Norms.  There may be Unconscious Archetypes or Conscious Strategies operating that are perfectly Healthy in some Cultures, just not in the Culture that the person happens to be operating in. 

For instance, in some Cultures and Species it’s appropriate for Survival that the alpha males do most of the mating – and in practice that’s often what happens in Human society.  The rest of the males shift to the Yin Masculine as Genia Haddon calls it, as the equivalent of “Worker Bees.”  When an alpha male is a Bully, or when a beta or omega male has a high Sex drive and low Consciousness, problems arise.  The #MeToo Perps fall mostly in the latter category.

What’s True about Power and Sex will also be True about any other aspect of our Forbidden Genius, whatever Skill that involves.

So, what do we do about this?  Well, of course the first thing we need to do is get Conscious of what’s Frozen.  Since we Regress when it comes up, we’re very likely to be Frightened by it; it’s as Overwhelming now as it was then, because we are then.  It’s also almost always Karmic, so we’re also Regressed to “Previous” Lives where the Issue was unresolved, so it’s probably Traumatic, and may well have led to our Death in those Lifetimes.  So there are Strong barriers to a straightforward Recovery. 

We need to start with any kernel we can get hold of – which is probably easy, since it’s likely to be something about what we’ve always Craved but have never given ourselves Permission to Receive.  Which may look like something we’ve been trying hard to Achieve all our Life but never successfully.  Nevertheless, we Persisted.  We never had a choice.

Bessel van der Kolk’s Experience and Research (The Body Keeps the Score) shows that one of the most reliable ways to overcome PTSD is Theater.  We don’t need to move to Hollywood or get involved with our local theater group; all we need is a Trusted Collaborator or two.  We let our Creativity loose and Dance around the kernel we have.  This may or may not shake loose the Held Emotions so we can endeavor to Heal them, but it will give us practice.  Our primary need is to advance the age of our Frozen Skillset, and we do that the same way we would have done it at the age of its Freezing – we practice.

Once we are able to put and keep our Current-Moment Adult and our Regressed Child in the same room at the same time, the many additional Skillsets that our Adult can contribute will be a tremendous aid to advancing our Frozen Skillset beyond the age of the Regressed Child.