Kundalini Rising I

The machine is a bit Atlantean, but here’s a great musical introduction to today’s post…

http://www.npr.org/sections/allsongs/2016/03/03/469027281/be-amazed-by-this-marvelous-music-machine-powered-by-2000-marbles

And one in prose…

“In the late seventies I was a tool and process engineer at Chrysler Corporation when, almost overnight, all kinds of strange and uncontrolled perceptual changes began happening to me.  These changes were the start of over two long years of valiant struggle with both my body and my mind, while I was certain that I was going slowly insane.  Most of the uncontrolled perceptions coiuld only be called psychic experiences, but I had never had those kinds of perceptions before, not did I know of anyone else who might have had such unusual experiences.  

“I was not at all familiar with concepts such as clairvoyance or clairaudience, nor did I know anyone who was.  I had neither read nor heard of anyone who claimed to be out of the body, or in two places at once.  I did not believe in reincarnation, mostly because I didn’t know anything about it beyond what the word suggested.  In addition, communication had always been something that happened between me and other people who were alive and right in front of me, or by telephone, perhaps by letter.  

“It is possible that if I had known anything about the subject of psychic experiences, this period of my life might have been a bit easier, less confusing, althought it probably would have been just as frightening.  I didn’t know it at the time, but I was suffering from what was known as kundalini, an ancient term for the sudden, massive awakening of consciousness with all of its powers, varieties of perception, and ability to enter other realms of existence.  Even if I had known something about kundalini, the metaphysical realm, or the possibiliies for experience beyond the immediate physical reality I was accustomed to, nothing would have prepared me for what I went through during this period.

“The processes of this ‘awakening’ resulted in such a wide variety of physical, mental, and emotional phenomena that every law of time, of space, of human capability and meaning that I had built my reality around was confronted, defied, and swept briskly away.  It was as if I had stumbled through some door into a realm where none of the old rules of reality applied.”

–Penny Kelly, The Elves of Lily Hill Farm, pp. ix-x

We’re moving into the last several days of the Aim Higher and Upper Limits Province (in Linear Time) that we talked about recently, as the Jupiter-North Node Quintile Yod fades.  It’s being replaced by the New Moon and Total Solar Eclipse of 8 March, 2016.  The Totality will be visible only if you’re in the mid-Pacific or Makulu or Sulawesi or Kalimantan or southern Sumatra.  That’s Borneo and Celebes to us oldsters – Celebes is where the Boogey Man lives, literally.  If you aren’t familiar with the Boogey Man, you can read about him in Tom Perkins’s Confessions of an Economic Hit Man, or Ursula Leguin’s five-book Earthsea Triology – both of which you need to read anyway, if you haven’t already.

In other words, there’s likely to be a fairly heavy four weeks ahead of us.  Let’s start with the astrology…

The Saturn-Chaos Opposition is the central axis of the Eclipse Chart.

The Most Important Thing during the next four weeks will be our Unlimited Potential.  In that sense, our Aim Higher suggestions will be more important than ever.  

Based on this information alone, what I’d suggest is that whatever ill befalls us – if any, Asking “I Wonder what Amazing Adventures will Open Up for me as a result of this Clearing” is probably our best recourse.  We want to be careful to Change the Subject after this Query, rather than trying to look for an Answer, because any Answer we come up with intellectually will be an extrapolation of our Limiting Beliefs, won’t be able to encompass the Unlimited Potential we’re moving into, and as a result will only keep us tethered to our current treadmill.  

A crazy-seeming Intuition would be a more reliable guide, but if you get one, take it with a sense of humor, as the Olde Mind can so easily make a house of cards out of it, Fantasizing on our obsolete Perceptions.  Take notes, then Change the Subject again.  Our Identities will be turned upside down in June, and we want to wait till we get past that shakeup before we start making conclusions about our individual and collective Futures.

The June Jupiter-North Node Initiation will be minor compared to the Eris-Uranus Initiation that will follow.  Eris-Uranus will bring us face to face with the elements of our True Self that we haven’t yet incorporated into our Conscious Ego.

The Saturn-Chaos Opposition is one pole of the Grand Cross.  The Opposition between the Eclipse and Jupiter forms the other pole.  The Eclipse adjoins the South Node and Chiron, and the North Node adjoins Jupiter.

By now any regular reader will be very familiar with the notion that Chiron represents Despair and Miracles, and that we convert Despair and Discouragement into Miracles by shifting from “I Am in Despair” to “I Feel Despairing,” then reaching back and Embracing our Despairing self, “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Discouraged, aren’t you.”   That shifts our Identity from being In Despair to being In Compassion.  If we can Change the Subject after that, we Open ourself to Miracles, in the sense that our Future is very likely to contain Gifts that were not within the realm of Possibility when we were in Despair.

If we aren’t successful at Changing the Subject, we Tap it Out – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 – then we circle back and Empathize with our Discouragement again.  It’s not how many times we fall down, it’s how many times we get up.  If we’ve been repeating a Pattern all our Life – which probably means many Lifetimes before that as well – then we can hardly expect to Change it with a few “reps,” though, since Karma is Dead, we’ll be surprised at how quickly we can Let Go of a Pattern that has been sabotaging us forever.

And the South Node, what does that symbolize?  None other than Patterns we’ve probably been practicing for many Lifetimes before this one, Patterns that may be self-sabotaging.  Like Kim D’Eramo says, there are no positive or negative Emotions, there are only positive and negative reactions to Emotions.  In the same vein, there are no positive or negative Patterns, there are only Patterns we repeat mindlessly and Patterns over which we have the Power to Choose to use when appropriate to the situation, and the Power to Choose not to use when it’s not appropriate – Archetypes that have us in their Spell, and Archetypes we can manipulate Consciously.  There are no negative Archetypes, only Archetypes used Unconsciously.  Breathing is an Archetype.

The bane of self-sabotage is Consciousness.  If we’re Conscious that a Pattern is repeating, we have the option to Choose an alternative.  The sooner we Notice that we’re about to do that again, the easier it is to stop.  If we add the step of Congratulating ourself for Noticing rather than Condemning ourself for repeating the Pattern, we accelerate the Change process, even if we’ve already repeated the Pattern.  We create a Virtuous Cycle – Repeat, Repeat, Notice, Repeat, Congratulate, Notice, Congratulate, Choose.  It gets easier and easier.

My Guides showed me this trick when Uranus was crossing my Neptune.  I was just starting to learn astrology.  Neptune, the Undifferentiated Sea of the Unconscious, and Uranus, the Soul’s Urge.

The worst kind of Despair is Unconscious Despair – when we don’t even consider the Possibility that something might exist – such as our Deepest Desires, or Elves – because we’ve integrated our Limiting Beliefs so well that they define our “Reality.”  We’ve encountered our Limiting Beliefs so often, and been Discouraged by their apparent impermeability, that we’ve come to accept them as just the way things are, just another “Law of Nature.”  Dwarf Planet Chaos teaches us that Possibility is Limited only by our Imagination.

If you interpret that in the most Reductionist sense, you could think, Sure, but that’s not Reality, it’s Imaginary.  So what if it’s “only” Imagination.  If we can Imagine having What we Want, we can Feel it, and if we can Feel it, we can Become it – that’s just the Chironean Empathy process in reverse.  If we Become it, we Are it, we have arrived.  Its the difference between Greed and Abundance.  Abundance is Having Enough to Share.  Stepping out of skepticism, there is ample research to show that if we can Imagine it and Feel it, and it Motivates us enough, we can also Manifest it into Hardcopy Reality, if Abundance isn’t enough for us yet.

With Jupiter on the North Node, our Deepest Desires are brightly Illuminated, even exaggerated.  The more we Let Go of our Held Emotions and Limiting Beliefs, the closer our Deepest Desires approximate our Mission for the Lifetime.  You may have noticed that when you fulfill a Deep Desire, the fulfillment becomes hollow rather rapidly, and gets replaced by another Deep Desire – if you’re lucky enough to avoid the span of Discouragement and Lackawanna that often resides between them.  That’s because Desire is not a destination, but a road sign.  Your Mission for the Lifetime always hides behind it.  This creates Pain for some.

The Saturn-Chaos Opposition is also the central axis of the Kite that rides the Grand Trine between Chaos, Pallas, and Lilith-Haumea.  

Haumea Initiates Lilith on 19 March, “A Butterfly with a third Wing on its left side,” which Rudhyar interprets as “The ability to develop new modes of response to basic Life situations” – more Chironean Breakthroughs.  It’s a curious “Coincidence” that the Butterfly’s third Wing is on the Yin side, when the Initiate is Lilith, our symbol of Yindependence and Self-Sovereignty.  Haumea, of course, represents Rebirth.  

Rebirth of the Feminine.  Earth First! used to pass out very low-quality bumper stickers, low quality because that made them difficult to remove.  You could surreptitiously paste them onto megatruck bumpers on wilderness portals.  They said, “With a pecker as small as mine, you need a huge powerwagon like this.  Big hands or not.  You didn’t want to get caught.

While we read Pallas as Boundaries, remember that negation is not a property of Unconscious Reality, which is to say, not a property of non-Egoic Reality.  In other words, we can read Pallas in our Kite as Letting Go of our Boundaries with Unlimited Potential and the Rebirth of Self-Sovereignty.  And of course our Saturn Kite represents Grace aplenty, so we can read the Kite as…

This will be a particularly Easy time to Gracefully Let Go of Limiting Beliefs that Separate us from a whole new Identity of Healthy Egoic Control over our Relationship to Unlimited Possibility, and to Potentiate Futures that we would Consciously Choose to Experience.  Yes, while Mindful of our Upper Limits – but in a particularly auspicious time to Transcend our Upper Limits.  Our Noticing, as we described above, may be critical in differentiating Fear of Surrendering to the threat of Ego Annihilation, from Realization that the threat was not a hungry Tiger at all, but a painting on tissue paper of a hungry Tiger, requiring more Intention than Exertion to walk through.

As we’ve often said, the “best kind of chart to have,” from the Perspective of Doingness, is a chart with both a Grand Cross and a Grand Trine.  The Grand Trine provides a priori Skill and “Luck,” while the Grand Cross provides Motivation and Skill at multitasking.  We achieve the most by starting with our best native Skills and practicing them as if we were talentless.  This is true no matter how we define “achieve.”  It’s especially auspicious if the Grand Cross and Grand Trine share a corner.  Here the Grand Trine is expanded into a Kite, and it shares its central axis with one of the arms of the Grand Cross – particularly auspicious.

They say, “Be careful what you Ask for” because no matter how carefully and exhaustively you Ask, you’re still likely to trigger unintended consequences.  And when we Ask for anything, unless we’re right on the verge of Manifesting it anyway, the first thing the Universe will provide is information about why we haven’t been Manifesting it all along.  That’s why we cycle around to Paying Attention after we Change the Subject when we PIAVA, so we can discover what else needs to be Let Go of or Asked for.

We all have Effortless Manifestation of something.  If you’ve never spent two days without Food, Fasting excepted, then you Effortlessly Manifest Food.  If you’ve never spent two days without Freedom, then you Effortlessly Manifest Freedom.  If you’ve never gone two days without Pain, then you Effortlessly Manifest Pain.  What are your Deepest Desires?  Have you ever met anyone who never seems to be without the very thing that you Want so much?  If anyone has ever Manifested it, that’s a demonstration that it’s not Reality that lacks What you Want, it’s your Limiting Beliefs that constrain your picture of Possible Realities.

These are the Main Effects.  There are a lot of Embellishments, which we’ll take up tomorrow.

Aim Higher

Step One: Focus on What you Want, not on What you don’t Want.  This step is critical, don’t skip it.

If that’s hard, start by finding something you can be Grateful for.  Running Water.  Hot Water.  Clean Water.  Enough Food, or even some Food.  A roof when it Rains.  A flush krapper.  A little less Pain than last week.  Make a short list of things you aren’t Anxious about.  The other shoulder doesn’t hurt.  Someone said a kind word to you last month.  You have a comfortable chair.  Anything will do.

Good start.  Now make a short list – several things – of what you Don’t Want.  Doesn’t matter if you’re already afflicted with it, or if it’s just threatening, or if you’re Anxious that it might threaten.  Give each of them a number, 1 to 10, 10 being “I’d Rather Die,” and 1 being “Oh Bother.”  Tap on each of them a couple times: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 if you need a review.  Then give them numbers again, 1 to 10.  Any reduction?  If not, circle that one, you’ll have to come back to it later.

Now make a short list of what you Do Want, several things.  They can be an inch away or Pie in the Sky, no matter.  Give them numbers, 1 to 10, 1 being “That’d be cool” and 10 being “I’ll Die without That!”  Make a short note about how you’ll Feel when you get each one.  In descending rank order (starting with your 10), for each one, take a minute and practice Feeling exactly that.

Step Two: Focus on What you Really Want.  Take your top Want and really Feel how it’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  Touch it.  Smell it.  Hear it.  Taste it.  Embrace it.  See it.  If your second Want is close to your top Want in number, do the same with it.

Step Three: What has Stopped you from Taking What you Really Want a long time ago?  Your underprivileged upbringing?  Guilt?  Your Significant Others?  Fear?  Your Belief that it’s happening to you?  Your Mother’s Ghost?  Do you Deserve it?  Are these reasons external to you, or internal?  Tap on a few of your Stops.  Bring them inside; if it’s a Bully that’s been Stopping you, recognize that it’s your Unwillingness to Confront, or your Belief that you’d be worse off if you Confronted, or your Hopelessness.  Rather than spend a lot of time on this, take notes.  This is important, so you’ll want to come back to it later.

Step Four: Focus again on What you Really Want.  Take your top Want and really Feel how it’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  Touch it.  Smell it.  Hear it.  Taste it.  Embrace it.  See it.  Notice if it’s any easier or deeper than it was in Step Two.  If it is, make a note to repeat Steps Two and Three later.  If you want, do the same with your second Want.

Step Five: Aim Higher.  What if you could have more of What you Really Want, or What you Really Want with a lot of bells and whistles?  Feel how that’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  If you Change your mind and decide that what you Really want is something else entirely, great!  Feel how that’ll be when you Receive it.  Any Stops?  Take notes so you can come back to them later.

Step Six: Now Aim a lot Higher.  Stay with What you Want, but get ridiculous about it.  You Wanted a Mate?  Imagine having three!  A house?  Make it a mansion with its own caretaker, and a luxury RV with professional driver besides.  World Peace?  Go for Galactic Peace, or Universal Peace.  You Wanted Good Health?  Go for Good Health and Superpowers.

At this point in our Timelines, this is where we need to be.

The dwarf planet Chaos, which symbolizes Unlimited Potential, turns Direct on 29 February a few minutes after 3pm PST, 11pm UT.  It’s Stationary (at it’s most Powerful) now.  It’s in Gemini (Mutation).  No better time to nurture Huge Changes than when your Infinite Improbability Drive is firing on all cylinders.  Did you think Douglas  Adams wrote fiction?

The Chaos Station Squares Chiron, so there’s great potential for Discouragement or even Despair, but far greater potential for Miracles when we Empathize with any Discouragement we feel.  Chiron’s moving through Pisces, where it’s churning up every Emotional component of our Limiting Beliefs and exposing them to the Sun, which will sterilize them.

The asteroid Juno, which symbolizes The Growing Edge of our Consciousness, turns Retrograde on 2 March at a few minutes before 3am PST or 11am UT, meaning it’s Stationary (at it’s most Powerful) now.  This occurs at the Midpoint of Scorpio – one of the Strongest points in the Zodiac, particularly adept at turning over rocks and diving deep to uncover hidden motives.  No better time to remove Limiting Beliefs and Grow your sense of the Possible.  And Chaos will still be Stationary.

Between the Full Moon and 8 March, a Quintile between Pallas (Boundaries) and Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs and Limits) forms the base of a Quintile Yod focused on Jupiter (Expansion).  The Quintile Yod says that It’s Really Important to Pay Attention to Learning This!  Learning what?  Learning to Expand our sense of Self by stretching our Boundaries to Let Go of Limiting Beliefs.  Jupiter is in Virgo, and Virgo is about Disassembling the Ego in order to make Space for Growth.

Jupiter completes a T-Square with Chaos and Chiron, focused on Chaos – Expanding our Discouragement and Overwhelm about the sheer quantity of Possible Futures we face, and Expanding the incredible Potential for Miracles waaay beyond what we can imagine!  We just have to stretch into them.  While it’s a few Degrees out of orb, Saturn (The Most Important Thing) completes the Grand Cross – so it’s our Willingness to Focus our Attention on what we Want to Create that will Co-Create the Big Shift.

The Most Important Thing that the Lizards are here to Teach us, is that Crisis breeds Opportunity.  Read Naomi Klein’s Shock Doctrine and Tom Perkins’s New Confessions of an Economic Hit Man, and turn them on their heads – like it or not, Crisis is here, and likely to remain till 2020 (when Saturn Initiates Jupiter), What are WE going to do with the Opportunity?  Do we have enough cumulative Attention to Focus on What we Want and Shift the Planet away from Greed and Competition, and back toward Community and Collaboration?  Do we have enough Self-Love to Create what we Need for our own personal Peace, in order to have Loving Attention to spare for the Planet, so we aren’t just Projecting our Anxiety?

Jupiter meanwhile is moving toward an Initiation of the North Node (Mission and Deepest Desires) – Expanding our sense of What we Want and Where we’re Going.  That’ll happen in June, close to when Eris Initiates Uranus and we come face to face with all the ways we’ve been forcing the True Self to Hold Back.  Jupiter and the North Node are now two Degrees apart – Conjunct, in other words – meaning that we can’t tell the difference between them.  The more Work we do with our Wants and Stops now, the easier June will be, and the impact will be exponential.

Lunar Portals along the way, all ± three hours…

• 10am PST 28 February, Moon over Stationary Juno
• 11pm 1 March till 7am PST 2 March, Moon over Saturn corner of the Grand Cross
• 11am PST 6 March, Moon over Pallas
• 11am till 9pm PST 8 March, Moon over Chiron corner of the Grand Cross
• New Moon at 6pm PST 8 March Conjoins Chiron, stretching the Grand Cross into the rest of March

If you focus on what you Don’t Want over the next several weeks, you’re going to be miserable, because you’ll be wallowing in everything you’re going to have to Give Up in order to Grow into What you Want.  If you focus on your Pain about having to Give Up what you Don’t Want but you like better than the Unknown, that’s fine – but Witness it and Embrace it.  Put All of your Attention into the center of your Pain, and leave it there until the Pain melts away.  Or step back and “You poor Sweetheart” yourself to Death.

This is, after all, a colossal Ego Death.  Re-read our Full Moon readings, Heavy I and Heavy II.  The World is Changing fast, and even when we stand up our arms aren’t long enough to reach the cord to ring the driver to let us off.  Focus on What you Want to Create, be Loving and Gentle with every Resistance you encounter, be especially Loving and Gentle with your Grief about what you’re Giving Up, but stay Present with the realization that what you’re Creating will be far better than what you’re Giving Up. 

Remember that Confusion is the first Stage of Growth, it means that your rigid mental structures, which are the intellectual rationalizations for your Limiting Beliefs, are starting to break down.  Try to avoid talking yourself out of Confusion.  Don’t forget Curiosity.  “I Wonder how the devil we’re going to pull this off!”  It is WE – we’re in this Together!  Curiosity is next to Love, as both eschew Judgment, and we know that Love is greater than Hope or Faith.

If you have notes from Steps One or Three or Four or Five, set aside as much time as you can spare between now and March 1, and between now and March 8, to work on these more.  Use your PIAVAs when you get stuck on something; see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/ if you need a review.  If What you Want is important to you, the time you spend on this will be more important than that.

Not only are the relevant Changes happening in the Unconscious, but they’re shifting the Future, and most of us most of the time aren’t able to see either.  There will be plenty of time for Planning, Doing, Executing the details of our Manifestations as we go forward.  Now is the time for PIAVAing the Big Picture of What we Want our Manifestation to look like, and most of all, Lovingly and Gently Letting Go of all of our internal obstacles to Receiving what we Really Want.

Heavy I

With so many planet clustering near the Midpoints of their Signs, the Full Moon features a couple of very large-scale  Configurations.  Let’s call the first one a Butterfly, in 17-20 Degrees.

To make a Butterfly, take a Quincunx Box – two Oppositions one Sign apart – and add a T-Square to each Opposition.  A Quincunx Box is driven by the Oppositions, but the foci of the T-Squares would obviously be dominating points as well, since they overlight the Oppositions.  Once we interpreted the T-Squares, we could say that the Quincunx between the two T-Square foci is the crux of the Butterfly Configuration.

The Oppositions are Jupiter-Chiron (Be Mindful that Discouragement doesn’t get Blown Up here; Witness and Embrace it, and it will be the Miracles that Explode instead) and Lilith-Uranus (How does your Olde Ego prevent your True Self from having Sovereignty over “You”?).  They’re joined by Unxes (Pattern-Breaking) and Quincunxes (Curiosity).  So we might see the Box as…

The Emotions may not seem straightforward here, but this Feels a lot more complicated than it really is.  What is it that your True Self wants, that You aren’t Allowing it to pursue?  The last thing we need is Confrontation between the Ego and the True Self – and at this time…

Because the Full Moon Opposing the OR10-Nessus Initiation will give anything Repressed a great deal of Power.  Even though it’s the True Self, it could easily arrive in the guise of a threatening intruder, if the Olde Ego isn’t willing to Grow on it’s own.  Remember that we’re rehearsing for an Eris-Uranus Initiation, where unflattering secrets will be thrown onto the table, in the effort to get us to clean up any unfinished Uranus-Pluto Yintegrity business.  Jupiter and Chiron are both about to Initiate the Nodes as well, so this is all about Karma and Mission – and Deepest Desires.

…this could easily be what occurs, if we don’t take steps to avoid it.  What steps?

Move to the Quincunxes – Lilith-Chiron and Jupiter-Uranus…

We don’t deal with the Unconscious using the same methodology we’d use to build a Fire or plant a Tree.  We don’t Act, we Allow.  We need PIAVA.  We need Questions on the order of…

Great Spirit, how might I Surrender Gracefully to my Higher Self, without being hijacked by my Fears and Discouragements?

I know, you were Programmed as a child to Believe that your Deepest Desires were Unholy, rather than urges from your Higher Self.  That’s the Programming we’re working with here, our Fears of Unholiness.  It’s called Karma.  Most of us also Learned that Karma can’t be Changed – hence our Discouragement.  That’s what we’re overcoming.

With dwarf planet Orcus Opposite the Neptune-Ceres Opposition, all of our Beliefs that our Deepest Desires are socially unacceptable are lit up.  With Asbolus T-Squaring this Opposition, however, Intuitions are available about how we can turn this around.  

It’s not a Question we’re seeking to Answer; it’s a Question we want to Forget for a while.  If our Ego or True Self don’t let us Forget, we need to patiently and persistently keep Changing the Subject.  Your Ego honestly doesn’t Know how to Answer it, and the mind can only screw things up more than they are; if the mind could Answer this Question, it would have done so a loooong time ago.  After a week or so, we can look back to see if the Great Spirit has provided any Insights.

T-Squaring the Lilith-Uranus Opposition is Pluto.  Transformation awaits us, and it’s not optional.  We will be operating more from our Self-Sovereignty in the Future.  What’s optional is how we handle the Egoic Disruption.  It might behoove to add a qualifier…

Great Spirit, how might I Surrender Gracefully to my Higher Self, Lovingly and Gently, without being hijacked by my Fears and Discouragements?

T-Squaring the Jupiter-Chiron Opposition is the dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential, not Disorder)…

The danger here is that we’ll be thinking waaay too small.  In fact, we shouldn’t be thinking at all – about solutions.  This would be an excellent time to fantasize.  Pull out all the stops.  What if anything you Want was easily within your grasp?  How would that Feel in your Body?  I know, you’d be bored to tears very quickly.  But how would it Feel for the first several years, while you were busy putting your Deepest Desires into motion, before you got jaded.  

And what about the belt, that big Pluto-Chaos Quincunx from wingtip to wingtip?  

We’re almost guaranteed to get Out of Control here.  When we do, we have to go with it.  Like turning into a skid on an icy road.  If our Actions or Words are Out of Control, once we realize it, we don’t need to keep “making it worse.”  But if our Emotions get Out of Control, it’s all the more important that we Witness and Embrace them.  Once we Witness them we can step back into them and Experience what it’s like to go Beyond ourself.  Not while operating machinery of course.  In meditation.

The Butterfly also features two Major Tricolors…

In this case Pluto-Square-Uranus-Quincunx-Jupiter-Trine-Pluto, for which our earlier Question about Surrendering Gracefully would work, and Chaos-Square-Chiron-Quincunx-Lilith-Square-Chaos…

If being Out of Control is Discouraging to us, we can PIAVA something like…

I wonder how I can Shift my Perspective to emphasize my Self-Sovereignty – if I had to please only Myself, I wonder how that would Change things.

Again, this is not a Wondering in search of an Answer; it’s an invitation for a Miracle to enter, once you’re looking the other way.  

The model for these PIAVAs is finding your car keys.  If you find them “where you last had them,” fine, no worries, no need for PIAVA.  If they went Walkabout, you need to Ask for them, then Change the Subject, put your mind and attention on something else entirely.  Next thing you know, you’ll find them in the Butter dish when you go to Butter your Happy Camper Organic Gluten-Free Toast.  If they aren’t there, keep Changing the Subject.

If they don’t eventually jump out at you, you’ll need to Pay Attention.  What did happen?  You had to call a colleague and ask for a ride to work?  How is that related to your car keys?  Does your job excite your True Self?  And how is it related to your Self-Sovereignty?  If you had to please only yourself, would this be the job you’d choose?  Some things aren’t easy to Change with Force; we may need Power instead.

This Pattern gets even more interesting if we drop down to include 16 Degrees.  We add Saturn, which Opposes Chaos and turns our Chaos T-Square into a Grand Cross.  Then we look at the Midpoint of Leo, and find the asteroids Klotho and Sappho, completing the Grand Trine with Saturn and Uranus, and making a Lilith Kite.  Klotho and Sappho together cut a new cloth for your Life, Singing the Praises of Love.  

There’s also a Klotho-Sappho Yod, on a base of the Chiron-Pluto Sextile.  Sextiles mean we need to take the first step, and it needs to be Witnessing any Discouragement that may arise.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Discouraged, aren’t you.”

We may also need to remember that Witnessing is Magic.  If “I’m Discouraged,” then I’ve Changed my name and Identity.  This is Identity Self-Theft, and it can be as difficult to Recover from.  If “I Feel Discouraged,” then I’m Experiencing an Emotion.  You’ll seldom be Out of Control under “I Feel”; you could easily be Out of Healthy Control under “I am.”  By itself, Witnessing is what Einstein was referring to when he said that we can never solve a problem using the same thinking that postulated the problem.

When we add Empathy to Witnessing – not just “I Feel,” but “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel,” we’ve shifted our Identity again, and our Identity is now Compassion, Compassion for ourself.  Eugene Gendlin wrote the ground-breaking book Focusing; in his PhD thesis he showed that it doesn’t so much matter what techniques you use for Healing, what matters is the presence or absence of Empathy.  Empathy Heals.

After shifting from I am to I Feel and adding You poor Sweetheart, it’s again time to Change the Subject, while we wait for Miracles.  As with PIAVA, if you don’t Change the Subject, you’ll keep looking at the same-old same-old, using the same thinking that created the problem.  At this point mind is not your helper, and it needs to be assigned elsewhere.  

While the realm of Possibility under I am and even I feel is Constrained, the realm of Possibility under You poor Sweetheart is Unlimited.  Once you Change the Subject, the Universe is a different place.  If you want you can look back later and see what happened that wasn’t originally possible, but you probably won’t.  You’ll be too busy Enjoying your new Universe.  No matter; the only important things are to Witness, Embrace, and Change the Subject.

By the way, Uranus will probably remain Lit Up through at least June, and when Uranus is Lit Up it’s folly to try to control your Sleep Patterns.  As much as you can, Sleep or Nap when you’re Sleepy, and do something Fun when you aren’t.  You’ll get a lot more done that way, and what Sleep you do get, even if it’s less than you Expect to get, will be enough.  Uranus and Expectations aren’t very good bed partners.