The machine is a bit Atlantean, but here’s a great musical introduction to today’s post…
And one in prose…
“In the late seventies I was a tool and process engineer at Chrysler Corporation when, almost overnight, all kinds of strange and uncontrolled perceptual changes began happening to me. These changes were the start of over two long years of valiant struggle with both my body and my mind, while I was certain that I was going slowly insane. Most of the uncontrolled perceptions coiuld only be called psychic experiences, but I had never had those kinds of perceptions before, not did I know of anyone else who might have had such unusual experiences.
“I was not at all familiar with concepts such as clairvoyance or clairaudience, nor did I know anyone who was. I had neither read nor heard of anyone who claimed to be out of the body, or in two places at once. I did not believe in reincarnation, mostly because I didn’t know anything about it beyond what the word suggested. In addition, communication had always been something that happened between me and other people who were alive and right in front of me, or by telephone, perhaps by letter.
“It is possible that if I had known anything about the subject of psychic experiences, this period of my life might have been a bit easier, less confusing, althought it probably would have been just as frightening. I didn’t know it at the time, but I was suffering from what was known as kundalini, an ancient term for the sudden, massive awakening of consciousness with all of its powers, varieties of perception, and ability to enter other realms of existence. Even if I had known something about kundalini, the metaphysical realm, or the possibiliies for experience beyond the immediate physical reality I was accustomed to, nothing would have prepared me for what I went through during this period.
“The processes of this ‘awakening’ resulted in such a wide variety of physical, mental, and emotional phenomena that every law of time, of space, of human capability and meaning that I had built my reality around was confronted, defied, and swept briskly away. It was as if I had stumbled through some door into a realm where none of the old rules of reality applied.”
–Penny Kelly, The Elves of Lily Hill Farm, pp. ix-x
We’re moving into the last several days of the Aim Higher and Upper Limits Province (in Linear Time) that we talked about recently, as the Jupiter-North Node Quintile Yod fades. It’s being replaced by the New Moon and Total Solar Eclipse of 8 March, 2016. The Totality will be visible only if you’re in the mid-Pacific or Makulu or Sulawesi or Kalimantan or southern Sumatra. That’s Borneo and Celebes to us oldsters – Celebes is where the Boogey Man lives, literally. If you aren’t familiar with the Boogey Man, you can read about him in Tom Perkins’s Confessions of an Economic Hit Man, or Ursula Leguin’s five-book Earthsea Triology – both of which you need to read anyway, if you haven’t already.
In other words, there’s likely to be a fairly heavy four weeks ahead of us. Let’s start with the astrology…
The Saturn-Chaos Opposition is the central axis of the Eclipse Chart.
The Most Important Thing during the next four weeks will be our Unlimited Potential. In that sense, our Aim Higher suggestions will be more important than ever.
Based on this information alone, what I’d suggest is that whatever ill befalls us – if any, Asking “I Wonder what Amazing Adventures will Open Up for me as a result of this Clearing” is probably our best recourse. We want to be careful to Change the Subject after this Query, rather than trying to look for an Answer, because any Answer we come up with intellectually will be an extrapolation of our Limiting Beliefs, won’t be able to encompass the Unlimited Potential we’re moving into, and as a result will only keep us tethered to our current treadmill.
A crazy-seeming Intuition would be a more reliable guide, but if you get one, take it with a sense of humor, as the Olde Mind can so easily make a house of cards out of it, Fantasizing on our obsolete Perceptions. Take notes, then Change the Subject again. Our Identities will be turned upside down in June, and we want to wait till we get past that shakeup before we start making conclusions about our individual and collective Futures.
The June Jupiter-North Node Initiation will be minor compared to the Eris-Uranus Initiation that will follow. Eris-Uranus will bring us face to face with the elements of our True Self that we haven’t yet incorporated into our Conscious Ego.
The Saturn-Chaos Opposition is one pole of the Grand Cross. The Opposition between the Eclipse and Jupiter forms the other pole. The Eclipse adjoins the South Node and Chiron, and the North Node adjoins Jupiter.
By now any regular reader will be very familiar with the notion that Chiron represents Despair and Miracles, and that we convert Despair and Discouragement into Miracles by shifting from “I Am in Despair” to “I Feel Despairing,” then reaching back and Embracing our Despairing self, “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Discouraged, aren’t you.” That shifts our Identity from being In Despair to being In Compassion. If we can Change the Subject after that, we Open ourself to Miracles, in the sense that our Future is very likely to contain Gifts that were not within the realm of Possibility when we were in Despair.
If we aren’t successful at Changing the Subject, we Tap it Out – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 – then we circle back and Empathize with our Discouragement again. It’s not how many times we fall down, it’s how many times we get up. If we’ve been repeating a Pattern all our Life – which probably means many Lifetimes before that as well – then we can hardly expect to Change it with a few “reps,” though, since Karma is Dead, we’ll be surprised at how quickly we can Let Go of a Pattern that has been sabotaging us forever.
And the South Node, what does that symbolize? None other than Patterns we’ve probably been practicing for many Lifetimes before this one, Patterns that may be self-sabotaging. Like Kim D’Eramo says, there are no positive or negative Emotions, there are only positive and negative reactions to Emotions. In the same vein, there are no positive or negative Patterns, there are only Patterns we repeat mindlessly and Patterns over which we have the Power to Choose to use when appropriate to the situation, and the Power to Choose not to use when it’s not appropriate – Archetypes that have us in their Spell, and Archetypes we can manipulate Consciously. There are no negative Archetypes, only Archetypes used Unconsciously. Breathing is an Archetype.
The bane of self-sabotage is Consciousness. If we’re Conscious that a Pattern is repeating, we have the option to Choose an alternative. The sooner we Notice that we’re about to do that again, the easier it is to stop. If we add the step of Congratulating ourself for Noticing rather than Condemning ourself for repeating the Pattern, we accelerate the Change process, even if we’ve already repeated the Pattern. We create a Virtuous Cycle – Repeat, Repeat, Notice, Repeat, Congratulate, Notice, Congratulate, Choose. It gets easier and easier.
My Guides showed me this trick when Uranus was crossing my Neptune. I was just starting to learn astrology. Neptune, the Undifferentiated Sea of the Unconscious, and Uranus, the Soul’s Urge.
The worst kind of Despair is Unconscious Despair – when we don’t even consider the Possibility that something might exist – such as our Deepest Desires, or Elves – because we’ve integrated our Limiting Beliefs so well that they define our “Reality.” We’ve encountered our Limiting Beliefs so often, and been Discouraged by their apparent impermeability, that we’ve come to accept them as just the way things are, just another “Law of Nature.” Dwarf Planet Chaos teaches us that Possibility is Limited only by our Imagination.
If you interpret that in the most Reductionist sense, you could think, Sure, but that’s not Reality, it’s Imaginary. So what if it’s “only” Imagination. If we can Imagine having What we Want, we can Feel it, and if we can Feel it, we can Become it – that’s just the Chironean Empathy process in reverse. If we Become it, we Are it, we have arrived. Its the difference between Greed and Abundance. Abundance is Having Enough to Share. Stepping out of skepticism, there is ample research to show that if we can Imagine it and Feel it, and it Motivates us enough, we can also Manifest it into Hardcopy Reality, if Abundance isn’t enough for us yet.
With Jupiter on the North Node, our Deepest Desires are brightly Illuminated, even exaggerated. The more we Let Go of our Held Emotions and Limiting Beliefs, the closer our Deepest Desires approximate our Mission for the Lifetime. You may have noticed that when you fulfill a Deep Desire, the fulfillment becomes hollow rather rapidly, and gets replaced by another Deep Desire – if you’re lucky enough to avoid the span of Discouragement and Lackawanna that often resides between them. That’s because Desire is not a destination, but a road sign. Your Mission for the Lifetime always hides behind it. This creates Pain for some.
The Saturn-Chaos Opposition is also the central axis of the Kite that rides the Grand Trine between Chaos, Pallas, and Lilith-Haumea.
Haumea Initiates Lilith on 19 March, “A Butterfly with a third Wing on its left side,” which Rudhyar interprets as “The ability to develop new modes of response to basic Life situations” – more Chironean Breakthroughs. It’s a curious “Coincidence” that the Butterfly’s third Wing is on the Yin side, when the Initiate is Lilith, our symbol of Yindependence and Self-Sovereignty. Haumea, of course, represents Rebirth.
Rebirth of the Feminine. Earth First! used to pass out very low-quality bumper stickers, low quality because that made them difficult to remove. You could surreptitiously paste them onto megatruck bumpers on wilderness portals. They said, “With a pecker as small as mine, you need a huge powerwagon like this. Big hands or not. You didn’t want to get caught.
While we read Pallas as Boundaries, remember that negation is not a property of Unconscious Reality, which is to say, not a property of non-Egoic Reality. In other words, we can read Pallas in our Kite as Letting Go of our Boundaries with Unlimited Potential and the Rebirth of Self-Sovereignty. And of course our Saturn Kite represents Grace aplenty, so we can read the Kite as…
This will be a particularly Easy time to Gracefully Let Go of Limiting Beliefs that Separate us from a whole new Identity of Healthy Egoic Control over our Relationship to Unlimited Possibility, and to Potentiate Futures that we would Consciously Choose to Experience. Yes, while Mindful of our Upper Limits – but in a particularly auspicious time to Transcend our Upper Limits. Our Noticing, as we described above, may be critical in differentiating Fear of Surrendering to the threat of Ego Annihilation, from Realization that the threat was not a hungry Tiger at all, but a painting on tissue paper of a hungry Tiger, requiring more Intention than Exertion to walk through.
As we’ve often said, the “best kind of chart to have,” from the Perspective of Doingness, is a chart with both a Grand Cross and a Grand Trine. The Grand Trine provides a priori Skill and “Luck,” while the Grand Cross provides Motivation and Skill at multitasking. We achieve the most by starting with our best native Skills and practicing them as if we were talentless. This is true no matter how we define “achieve.” It’s especially auspicious if the Grand Cross and Grand Trine share a corner. Here the Grand Trine is expanded into a Kite, and it shares its central axis with one of the arms of the Grand Cross – particularly auspicious.
They say, “Be careful what you Ask for” because no matter how carefully and exhaustively you Ask, you’re still likely to trigger unintended consequences. And when we Ask for anything, unless we’re right on the verge of Manifesting it anyway, the first thing the Universe will provide is information about why we haven’t been Manifesting it all along. That’s why we cycle around to Paying Attention after we Change the Subject when we PIAVA, so we can discover what else needs to be Let Go of or Asked for.
We all have Effortless Manifestation of something. If you’ve never spent two days without Food, Fasting excepted, then you Effortlessly Manifest Food. If you’ve never spent two days without Freedom, then you Effortlessly Manifest Freedom. If you’ve never gone two days without Pain, then you Effortlessly Manifest Pain. What are your Deepest Desires? Have you ever met anyone who never seems to be without the very thing that you Want so much? If anyone has ever Manifested it, that’s a demonstration that it’s not Reality that lacks What you Want, it’s your Limiting Beliefs that constrain your picture of Possible Realities.
These are the Main Effects. There are a lot of Embellishments, which we’ll take up tomorrow.