Nessus Three

Mimetite, another compelling toxin – Lead Arsenate Chloride.  It’s usually safer to make a tincture with toxic Crystals and Minerals – put the Crystal in a glass bowl inside of a larger bowl, and add Water to the larger bowl so no Water gets into the smaller bowl and touches the Crystal.  Leave it in the Sunlight or Moonlight for a couple of days, then use the Water as you would a Safer Stone.  Or, just Meditate on the picture.  Mimetite helps us come back to ourSelf and our True Purpose.

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Nessus is no longer Stationary, and no longer in the first few Degrees of Pisces, so if echos of Abuse of any kind assault us now, they should be easier to Let Go than might otherwise be the case.  Nevertheless, there is no shortage of PowerUnder in the Patriarchal World (we’re not implying that Ladies can’t do PowerOver), and since the Emotional scars from Abuse can light up at any time, and spontaneously, it never hurts to know the signs so we can increase our chances of Empathizing with our historical Self.  And Nessus will be back in the most Vulnerable Degrees of Pisces in the second half of 2015.  So it’s worth a few more words.

And one sign we forgot to mention in Nessus Two is “I’d rather Die than go through that again!”  At the moment Nessus is in the second Duad (two and a half Degrees) of Pisces, so that Emotion is less likely to arise, than when it’s in the first Duad.  But if and when it does ever arise for you, the key thing to remember is that you’re probably putting the emphasis on the wrong place.  It’s not

“I’d rather Die than go through that again!”

it’s

“I’d rather Die than go through that again!”

because this Emotion arises at the quintessential moment of Ego Death.  And if you can succeed in making that shift in emphasis while you’re Feeling it, it’s jumping-up-and-down YOO HOO! Celebration time, because you’ll only have to make that shift once!!

Of course, the difficult part is having the Presence to step outside of that Feeling once you’re in it, because you aren’t home, you’ve been replaced by your historical/Karmic Self.  But, once you do bridge that gap between then and now, and can make that shift from Die to I, that’s YOO HOO time!

The other thing we didn’t mention in Nessus Two, is Chiron.  We’re talking about transcending Discouragement and Despair and moving into the Miracle of Rebirth instead, and that’s Chiron’s middle name.

Chiron (orbit 50 years) is at a Waxing Duodecile to Nessus’s (orbit 120 years) Station – in the Twentieth Harmonic.

The Twentieth Harmonic (18 Degrees) is the Aeon, or the principle and Wisdom of a Broad Perspective, particularly with regard to Time; the Power to give birth to new Forms; and the integration of the various segments of our Lives which are usually separate.  Most of the multiples of 18 Degrees are absorbed by the Tenth, Fifth, and Fourth Harmonic (and Second).  The exceptions are the Triduodecile (54 Degrees), Sepduodecile (126 Degrees), and Ennea- or Nonaduodecile (162 degrees).

The current Chiron-Nessus Cycle began January 10, 2006 in 3 Aquarius, “A deserter from the Navy: The individual’s self-realization through a crucial repudiation of a collective status which has become unbearable.”  The subtext is Rudhyar’s, and unusual; Rudhyar is usually more supportive of the status quo and Community standards than he is of Liberation of the individual.

But the idea of Abandoning a prior Commitment – the Commitment we made to PowerUnder in order to secure our own relative Safety in earlier  trying circumstances – is completely appropriate!  So we can consider the next several weeks to be a particularly fabulous time to Let Go of our PowerUnder Programming.

The major impact of a Station usually precedes the Station, but this Nessus Station, and its simultaneous Initiation of Atropos, is close enough to be considered an important part of the June 2 Full Moon chart, giving it (partial) Sovereignty over the several weeks following the Full Moon.  The Chiron-Nessus Waxing Duodecile is exact on June 6.

That immediately sounds scary to me, as it would seem to expose us to extreme Vulnerability.  Yet wouldn’t it be great to be out from under the Limiting Beliefs that have separated us from our Dreams?  So we probably want to Pray or Intend or Ask or Vizualise or Imagine Feeling or Affirm or Command or Expand Into (or any other variation of PIAVA) Safety and Grace as we make the Transition.  And Tap Out any real Fear that does arise.  It’s actually completely possible to graduate from PowerUnder into PowerWith.  Once we leave our own PowerUnder, the Bullies lose their Magnetic Attraction to us.

Nessus Two

 That dull surface is a characteristic of Arsenic minerals.  But note the barely-hidden Passion.  This one is Proustite, Silver Arsenic Sulfide, the Feminine half of Kundalini.

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Soulspeak resonates with our Nessus Energy…

https://soulspeak2013.wordpress.com/2015/06/04/at-the-table-devils-song/

The Zodiac is fractal.  The Wheel is divided by two, by three, by four, by twelve, by 36, by 144, and by 360, and that doesn’t count the Harmonics.  The 144ths are called “Dwads” or “Duads,” and the 133rd Duad is where Emotion overwhelms us.  It’s the first two-and-a-half Degrees of Pisces, and it’s Pure Pisces, all Emotion, all Mutable Emotion.  “Mutable” is the name astrologers give to the Recycling parts of the Zodiac, the Deconstruction, the Breaking Down into raw material so something new can be Created.  The Spiritual Function of Pisces is to Let Go of specific Emotions, and the first Duad shows us what it is that we need to Let Go of.

Nessus in Pisces, in general, would be about the Emotions that arise around PowerOver, around Privilege and its Abuse.  Remember that Power is never Given, only Taken.  When we appear to “Give our Power away” it’s only because it was Taken by our earlier Programming. 

We were washed with these Emotions in April through July of 2014.  Our second Opportunity for this sort of baptism was 7 February through 10 April of this year.  Were those periods unusually Emotional for you?  We’ll get our third and last immersion between August 2015 and mid-February 2016.  This opportunity to Clear the negative aftereffects of PowerOver comes around only once every 120 years.  For most of us it’s a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. 

If we’re taking maximum advantage of it, we’ll let the Emotions have their way with us during these time periods.  Our ultimate objective is to Lovingly Witness these Emotions from the outside, but in order to get there we need first to Experience them.  We hide from our unpleasant Emotions, memories of Abuse most of all.  So we need to make ourselves available, invite them, make space for them, or they’ll stay in hiding.  It takes Courage, but you have Courage aplenty, or you wouldn’t have signed on to this Lifetime.

 In the 134th Duad we begin to burn off what we’re ready to Let Go.  Yesterday’s Nessus Station was in the 134th Duad.  Nessus has already danced in the 133rd Duad twice, and it will dance there once more before it moves on.  If we review our journals and mark our calendars, we can be prepared to move through the process with greater ease, though it won’t be effortless, because Pisces is about Finishing Business and Letting Go.  All Losses must be Grieved, and you’d seldom use Grief and Fun in the same sentence – though of course it’s never too late to start.

So the stage we’re in now, is the Letting Go stage.  We’ve bathed twice, now we’re drying off.  We entered this phase on April 10, and we’ll be here till the end of July.  Then we go back into the pool for a final rinse, till mid-February.  If you’re still wrestling with dark Shadows from your earlier immersions, you may want to imagine one of those super-bright LED flashlights on the end of your middle finger, and just annihilate the Shadow as soon as it enters your mind or Heart.  The bright Light won’t hurt your Heart, She’ll Love it.  Shadows are sort of Magical that way; Light disappears them without a trace.

This stage is the Creative Fire section of Pisces.  In it we begin to convert the Energy locked in those Shadows into Passion.  It often feels like a Passion for Revenge, or a Passion to make sure that never happens to anyone again.  But it needn’t be.  It can simply be a Passion for Living that was previously blocked by the PowerUnder cage we were put in, so the Passion can just be our Heart’s Desire, having nothing to do with the nature of our Abuse.  This is the early stage, so there’s nothing organized or final – or even explainable to anyone – it’s just an urge to experiment with New toys.

There is a lot more to PowerOver and Abuse than overt sexual and physical Abuse, and PowerUnder can be either Acute or Chronic.  For instance, if as a child you were never recognized for who you really are, as everyone just tried to Program you to be who they wanted you to be – that’s a serious case of Abuse.  Without Drama you may not recognize it as Abuse.  Sometimes there was a “cookie lady,” someone who, even if they didn’t recognize your Genius, they recognized your right to be You and didn’t try to change you.  If there was someone like that in your young Life, they would be an excellent memory for you to keep handy during this Creative Fire stage. 

Don’t be intimidated by the term “Genius” – everyone has Genius of some sort.  The people you perceive as having Genius are people who probably had the opportunity to develop it because they were raised in PowerWith.  It’s never too late to start, and it’s not about recognition, it’s about Living your Passion and Following your Bliss.

Our Asteroid-Goddess reader Elizabeth points out that the Station of Nessus was also an Initiation of the 4-year asteroid Atropos, at 4 Pisces, “Heavy car traffic on a narrow isthmus linking two seashore resorts.”  Among the three Fates, Atropos was the one who cut the chord when the time was ripe.

With a literal interpretation, we could imagine that many more of our fellow Entities will be finishing their Work or for some other reason  bailing out, and leaving the Planet.  But our perspective is not that astrology can symbolize the negative, but that astrology can symbolize the Healing of the negative.  So yes, by all means, celebrate your Ego Deaths!!  Do you remember the signs? 

• Confusion as your old milestones and millstones crumble
  
• Fear as the bars on your Birdcage loosen
  
• Very familiar circumstances suddenly seeming a little strange, like the color is off or the accent’s on the wrong syllable or something. 
• Habitual Judgment being replaced by Curiosity
  
• Unexplained and unexplainable physical surges of Excitement as you start to Breathe and experience what it’s like to be Living Free without your usual narrator

This is the Aries portion of Pisces.  Pisces is all about Emotion – both Wallowing and Letting Go – but Aries is about Trusting Instincts you don’t even recognize as Instincts.  It’s about doing “crazy” things, things that won’t start to make sense until five years from now.  Things your Spirit wants to try out, that it probably hasn’t even informed your mind about, since your mind is likely to just YesBut it away.  When you notice that you’re Feeling or Doing something unexpected on a whim, be Curious about who is Feeling or Doing that! 

• Patient Curiosity, waiting for Clarity from outside
• Not intellectual Curiosity, searching for an answer

We’re still used to being mired in Grief of some sort as we navigate the Wake for our Ego Death.  But that’s your New Identity out there Feeling and Doing those spontaneous things that don’t make any sense yet.  Welcome them…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=idWguVzQRWs