On 15 September 2019 (2:30 pm PDT), Saturn (The Most Important Thing) and the South Node (Held Emotions) pass one another. Saturn is Stationary (Strong) while this occurs. Saturn turns around and begins moving the other way (Direct) on 18 September (2am PDT), but on 15 September it’s only an arcminute (one sixtieth of a Degree) from it’s turnaround, so it’s virtually Stationary. The chart of Saturn-South Node on the 15th is almost identical to the Saturn Station chart of the 18th…
Almost. On 15 September the Moon hasn’t come around yet to Complete the Grand Sextile (six planets more or less equally spaced around the Zodiac, connected by the short blue lines), so there is no Grand Sextile in the Saturn-South Node chart. A Grand Sextile is a Great Boon, as once we take the first step on any Journey, the rest is Effortless. We couldn’t ask for a better chart for The Most Important Thing Is Our Held Emotions, as all we’ll need to do is PIAVA that our Karma “Leave Now and Never Come Back.”
However, while the Moon is working it’s way around, it’ll be a bit more Challenging. Specifically, on the 15th, in order to Complete the Grand Sextile and make it all Easy, we’ll need to fill the Vacancy Consciously. On the 15th the Moon is back at 12 Aries – same Degree Zone, but Square, or Challenging, to Saturn and the Nodes, probably making us more Emotional! The Vacancy on the 15th is at 13 Taurus, “A porter carrying heavy baggage.” How appropriate for the circumstances! Goddess Knows our Karma is Heavy Baggage. But we aren’t carrying it! A porter is!
Bear in mind that we use the Mean Node. The True Node is a bit less regular. We’ve always found the Mean Node to be adequate for our Purposes, so we’ve never Explored the True Node. If any of you have, I’ll be Grateful if you Edify me. It’s the Mean Node that meets Saturn on 15 September. The True Node crossed Saturn on 30 April 2019 in 21 Capricorn (noon PDT) and 4 July in 18 Capricorn (also noon), and will again on 27 September in 14 Capricorn (11pm PDT). The Nodes are naturally Retrograde, with an Orbital Period of about nineteen years, versus twenty-eight years for Saturn.
Remember that the nature of Karma is Illusion. If what you’re Experiencing in this period is Deja vu all over again, it’s Karma, not Present-Moment Reality. Karma dips into Present Moment Reality when it Triggers our Expectations of Doom. So there may be elements that Feel quite Real. We do need to Attend to those, but we also need to Realize that they’re Paper Tigers. The more your Expectations bring down the full weight of your Karma upon you, the more they’ll bleed into Present Moment Realty, as the Universe Mirrors the Vibrations we’re putting out.
For instance, no, those Physical Symptoms you’re Feeling aren’t Cancer or worse, though you can make them evolve into that if you Project your Fear of it strongly enough. This is when Relieving Symptoms, rather than Healing Cause, is appropriate. Yes, you want to Heal the Cause, but the Cause isn’t Physical, it’s Emotional. Heal that by Embracing it, no matter how Painful it Feels and no matter how much it feels like you’re gonna Die. Yes, you – your Ego – is going to Molt, but Physical Death and Serious Illness are in the cards only as much as your Fear of them calls them to you.
What happens when you Mirror Chocolate or Ice Cream? Hold the Mirror for a few minutes. Does anything Change?
Yesterday’s Ixion (Forbidden Genius) Station was a big deal, and the 14 September 2019 Stations of Pholus and Quaoar (Responding to Survival Instincts) are huge for the likes of Climate Change and Extinctions including our own, all these (and the many other intervening diversions) are really just details in the Real Main Event, namely the 18 September Station of Saturn on the South Node. Anyone who’s been here a while knows that we consider Saturn to mean The Most Important Thing (ie, “TMIT”), and the South Node to mean our Karma, most specifically our Held Emotions.
Held Emotions are those which “We’d rather Die than Feel,” probably because that’s what we were Feeling in a number of recent Past Deaths. Every Past Life featured a Past Death, and physical Deaths are often unpleasant. From the Perspective of the Immutable Soul though, every Death is just a Transition, albeit a usually difficult one. We misinterpret Held Emotions, reading them as “We’d rather Die than Feel,” when the real issue is “We’d rather Die than Feel” – which is to say, the Ego – our Identity or We – has to Die if we want to move beyond the Blocks that our Held Emotions present.
Few of us are able to get beyond the Dualistic mind to begin to Grok our Multidimensional and Unitary Mission – why we took this particular Lifetime – as symbolized by the North Node. But this “Dragon” (the other name for the Nodes) has a secret. That’s why Bilbo risked getting toasted to sample Smaug’s Horde. Hidden behind our Held Emotions are the Skills we developed in these Lifetimes where we Died so unceremoniously, and we cannot Accomplish our Mission without these Skills. So it would be very relevant to aver that The Most Important Thing we have to do in any Lifetime, is to Learn to Embrace our Held Emotions.
In one version of the Sisiutl story of the Canadian West Coast, this Horrendous two-headed Dragon is famous for turning to Stone anyone or thing who looks it in the eye. Not just Instant Death, but being Frozen in Terror till the End of Days. No fun. So how do we Overcome our Personal Sisiutl? As Sisiutl approaches we Stand Still with our eyes closed, until He gets so close that his two heads, on either side of us, see each other, and it’s He who turns to Stone.
In other words, when these Horrendous Emotions arise, we Stand Still for them. They aren’t Real, they aren’t Present-Moment, they’re Karma, ancient bundles of Terror dolled up in a Dragon suit, Paper Tigers, Shadow Puppets. They become “Real” in the Present Moment only through our Beliefs and Expectations. Nocebos, granted Life by our Projections. If we can Tolerate the Presence of the Dragon, we can Embrace the Lost Child in the Dragon Suit. By Embracing and Befriending that Lost Child, we Recover the Skills we need to Do What We Came Here To Accomplish. It’s not about Heroism and Strength, it’s about Surrender and Vulnerability.
The immediate Energy is a Station of asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things) that occurs 12 September (8:30 pm PDT) in 14 Capricorn, only ten arcseconds from Saturn. In other words, what are you Judging, what are you Resisting, of what Energy are you the Victim? These are huge clues. If you wait till your Held Emotions come rushing in as pure Emotion, you’ll be Overwhelmed. But if you take your Pet Peeves and other Fears, and turn them over in your hand, you may be able to sneak down that hidden tunnel to the Lair in the Hollow Hill, where your Held Emotions sleep, and catch them unawares.
Dwarf planet Hylonome also joins Hopi, Saturn, and the South Node. Hylonome is about Self-Sovereignty. So you can also look over the places where you Give Your Power Away, and Ask yourself Why you do that. Not in the sense of What Triggers It, but in the sense of What Are You Afraid Of, Why are you Compelled to Give Away Your Power in these circumstances.
What Distinguishes our Karma from our everyday Bummers, is not just Repetition, but Unconsciousness. When we start Shaking, or have a sudden unquenchable need for Chocolate or any other of our Addictions, or have a sudden need to Sleep, we don’t think, “Oh, there’s my Karma!” We reach for the Chocolate or the Cider or whatever Stabilizes us for the few minutes that it does. This Moment is where our Power arises and we Give It Away. This is the Moment when we Want to Ask, “What’s this about?” “What am I Resisting and Hoping to Avoid?”
In the chart that’s in the previous post – and all such charts – the red triangles indicate Stress, Challenge, Relative Difficulty, while the blue lines indicate Grace, Ease, Blessings. Because Stress, Challenge, and Difficulty are what produce Wisdom, people who have Learned to Respond to Stress Productively will regard such Challenges as Invitations to Add to their Experience and Wisdom. The astrological Perspective is particularly Valuable for its ability to Illuminate what might otherwise escape our Notice.
For instance, for the last several days I’ve been Impatient, and Feeling overloaded, even though I’ve actually been under less deadline pressure than I usually am, and even though I’ve been letting some of my lower Priorities slide completely. That’s a common side-effect of Saturn astroevents like the 19 May Saturn-Nodes event – The Most Important Thing rises to take up most of our Attention, and all of our other Priorities recede. I have to conclude that Paying Attention to my Irritation is TheMost Important Thing facing me at the moment.
We don’t really know when something that seems trivial to us is actually a Window that will open into a Whole New Universe.
So let’s look more closely at this chart. The first thing we Notice is that the astrological symbol for Compulsion (Pluto) is Merged with (Conjunct) Saturn-Nodes. So this is something we’re unlikely to be able to circumvent; we ignore it at our peril. We’re also simultaneously Fated (asteroid Moira) to Attend to our Mission (North Node).
Moira means Fate and Choice both because in the Unconscious there is no Direction, there is only Dimension. Like the Reality that it is, the Unconscious is Unitary and Multifarious – it’s Fractal or Holographic – its Essence is repeated at any and all scales. Many of us see the Universe only through the mind, which is Dualistic. In the mind it’ll never be anything except Fate versus Free Will. But they’re two sides of the same Coin. In order to appreciate the Coins instead of just seeing the Sides, you need to Transcend the mind.
So we’re Compelled here to see the Coin that unifies our Karma with our Mission in the Lifetime.
And the Nodes (Karma and Mission) are Challenged by (Squared by – the red lines indicating right Angles) the astrological symbol for our Unconscious Limitations.
So were Compelled to see how our Unconscious Limitations, our Karma, and our Mission, are really One Energy, but One Energy that can be seen Differently from many Different Angles. Sit for a moment in the Center of that Bubble, close your Eyes, and Notice what happens.
What about the blue lines? The Nodal Axis is Challenged by Vesta and Unconscious Limitations, but it’s Graced by Neptune. Neptune represents Material Confusion but Spiritual Clarity. That was most likely your Ego that was sitting in the Center of that Bubble. Now send your Soul into the Center of that Bubble instead, and notice what happens.
But wait. Neptune is also the focus of a second T-Square of its own, across the Duality between Expansion (Jupiter) and Epiphany about How to Break Patterns (dwarf planet Asbolus = Intuition, Conjunct asteroid Lachesis = Changing Timelines).
The two T-Squares Resolve one another – the Challenge of one is the Easy Path (blue lines or Trine Bridge) of the other. Neptune will teach us How to Break our Karmic Patterns and Liberate us from our Limitations. Neptune symbolizes Everything that is Larger than we are – Everything that is Larger than the Ego. So to Transcend the Ego we need to Ask for Advice from the Unknown, we have to PIAVA (Pray, Intend, Ask, Visualize, Affirm, Wonder, Command, etc).
The long green lines (the Quincunxes, or five Signs) tell us where the Mysteries lie, what to PIAVA…
“I Wonder How I might Expand (Jupiter) into Choosing (Moira) my Mission (North Node).”
“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Intuit (Asbolus) How to Rapidly, Completely, Effortlessly, Lovingly, and Gently Let Go (Lachesis) of my Karmic Patterns (Saturn-South Node); It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done; Show me.”
But now we need to Change the Subject. If we don’t Change the Subject, the old Duality of our current mental Concept Set will reassert itself and stick our Karma right back “where it belongs.” That’s what the mind Believes, that what’s always been True (in its Limited Purview) is what will Keep us Safe. So we need to Busy the mind elsewhere for a while, as our PIAVAs bake…
The astrological symbols for Karma (South Node) and for The Most Important Thing (Saturn) are Merged (Conjoined), with the Merger culminating on 19 May (noon PDT). In our previous post we emphasized Choice and its Lack as an excellent measure of when our Karma is or was Lit Up, and it turns out that the astrological symbol for Choice (asteroid Moira) is also Merged with the symbol for Free Will (North Node). Choice is the inverse of Fate, and while Fate is what Happens to us when we’re Unconscious, Choice is what we gain when we become Conscious of the places where we’ve been Denying our Volition, the places where we feel like we’ve been, or are being, Victims.
Karma and Choice are pretty much Opposites, conceptually and astrologically. But today this Duality is very Brightly Lit Up, because the astrological symbols for Karma (South Node) and Choice (Moira) are also on Opposite sides of our Planet. An astrological Opposition like this is particularly emphasized when a third planet is halfway between them, and the astrological symbol for Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta) is sitting right there.
In other words, this is a particularly poignant time for Getting Conscious of the Unconscious Beliefs that Limit us. Think about anything that you’ve worked your butt off your whole Life to Attain, but with Limited Success. You’ve certainly witnessed other people for whom this Attainment seemed Effortless, and wondered why! Well, if anyone does it, you Know it’s not Impossible. So why not you?
Probably because you’re butting your head against a Karmic Limitation that you haven’t brought into Consciousness Clearly yet, so you can Negotiate Win-Win with your other Life Objectives, and Strategize your path to Attainment.
Now is the time to Get Clear about this. What’s been Frustrating for you the last few days? How is it that this is Beyond your Control? What other Choices are you making that Prevent you from taking Control of this?
This may not be a huge Drama – we’re more likely to already be Conscious about those, even if we haven’t Taken Control of them yet. It’s Unconscious, so that guarantees that it will be Subtle, some Dimension you haven’t Fully Become Aware of yet.
A good example is Abandonment and Suffocation. Our Emotional Reactions in Relationship become a lot Clearer when we Reframe them in terms of whether we’re Feeling “Abandoned” or “Suffocated” in each moment. Feeling Suffocated means that there isn’t room for your own Truth and Reality, because your partner doesn’t make space for it. Feeling Abandoned means that you don’t feel like you’re Receiving some important Energy that you regard as a bottom-line result of Relationship.
This is very relevant in your Relationship to your Culture as well, in addition to your partner, family, and friends. Some Karmic Energies are more Cultural than Personal, though they all have a Personal component.
Balancing each person’s Abandonment and Suffocation, relative to the partner’s, is probably the most important work you can do in Relationship. And until you become Aware of your own Abandonment and Suffocation tendencies, you’ll Blame your partner for what are really your own Choices. Often all you need to do to solve these kinds of Relationship issues is to Get Conscious and Speak Up.
Which raises the question, why haven’t you been Conscious and Speaking Up all along?
The answer to that is probably that you were Programmed not to Notice. You may have met Deep Anger when you told your Dad or Mom that you felt like they were Abandoning you because of all the Effort and Attention they put into their Work. “I work so hard to support you guys!” might have been their Angry reply. Henceforth Abandonment would not have been Acceptable for you to Feel.
These are the kinds of thing that can Become Conscious over the next few days, and they can Change your Life. Most of our Unconscious Limitations are the result of Decisions like the one to squelch our Abandonment. When they were made in a different Lifetime, or in this Lifetime before you were Verbal, they can be much harder to bring into Consciousness.
Well, it turns out that it’s also a great time to bring these Well-Hidden Decisions into Consciousness, because on 23 May (5pm PDT) the astrological symbol for exactly these kinds of Decisions, Vows, Promises, and Oaths is at its Brightest (dwarf planet Orcus is Stationary). Loyalty to our Oaths was more important in the Olde Days, because Cultures were likely to rely more on Dependencies – Slavery, for instance. Dependencies are just as vital today, but they’re pushed into the Unconscious by the Propaganda that our Masters feed us about “Freedom.”
The 23 May Oath-Breaking Energy – Breaking the Obsolete Decisions that keep our Limiting Beliefs Unconscious – is Lit Up now, as an astrological event like this (the Station of a dwarf planet) will impact almost everyone for at least a week before it peaks. And it will Interact intensely with the 19 May Karma-Choice Energy. The 18 May Energy we wrote about in the previous post is a Full Moon, and Moon Energies typically reveal themselves after the astroevent. So we’ll also be Dancing with this Mastery-of-our-Fear-around-our-Hidden-Genius Full-Moon Energy as well.
So this is a Big Opportunity to make Big Changes in our Lives. In the chart below we’ve used heavy lines for the 19 May Energy about Choice (Saturn-South Node), and lighter lines for the 23 May Energy about Obsolete Decisions (Stationary Orcus)…
As you can see, we’ve barely scratched the surface of this chart; we’ll fill in more detail in the next post.
Not a lot happening with the 18 May (2pm PDT) Full Moon, except that it could make a big dent in our Fear of Opening Up to the Truth about our Hidden Forbidden Unique Genius, the one that will Singlehandedly Save the Planet, along with all the other Single Hands that this Full Moon will help Liberate from their Fear of Opening Up to the Truth about their Forbidden Genies. Our Hidden Forbidden Unique Genius is the missing piece in the Jigsaw Puzzle that is our 5D Future, and so is Everyone Else’s.
Which is to say that the symbol for Endings (asteroid Atropos) Resolves (Trine Bridges) the Full Moon that prominently features the symbol for Converting Fear to Power (dwarf planet Sedna stands behind the Sun) and is Supported by (Finger of God-ed by) the symbol for our Forbidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion) and the Merged (Conjoined) symbols for Rebirth and Truth (dwarf planet Haumea and asteroid Veritas)…
All in all an excellent chart, if we Remember our Kegels.
This Full Moon though is greatly overshadowed by the 19 May Merging of the symbol for The Most Important Thing (Planet) and the symbol for our Karma (the Mean South Node). If you feel like you’re Sitting Pretty, look behind you. There’s something lurking there that may not be Negative, but will Certainly help you Clean Up your Current Lifetime. Remember what Alan Watts said back in the 1950s – it’s a lot harder to Let Go of our Good Karma than it is to Let Go of our Bad Karma.
Because we’re so fond of Patting ourselves on the Back for our Good Karma. But we’ll be a lot more Effective at Changing the World if we’re Neutral. Self-Love ain’t Positive Self-Judgment. Self-Love is Unconditional, no Judgment involved. The Demon lurking behind you could be Pride.
And of course it could also be all manner of Self-Sabotaging Habits, the kind we usually think of as Karma and Blame on “the Universe,” or Mom, forgetting that All of our Habits are Choices we’ve made in the past. Is this a Free-Will Universe or not? Free Will cuts both ways. Of course we don’t Remember making that Choice, it was a hundred Past Lives ago. Or a Parallel in a Galaxy far far away.
But as Seth put it so Clearly in The Nature of Personal Reality, our Karma is actually Obvious – it’s writ large in our Personal History in our Current Lifetime. What in your Personal History do you not claim as your own Choice? Those are the places where you’re Betraying your own Soul. Of course your Current Ego didn’t make that Choice, because if you think of “You” as your Current Ego, you’re missing 99% of your Life.
If there’s anything in our Personal History, Good or Bad, that we don’t claim as our own Choice, whose Choice was it? It was part of our Soul Self that our Current Ego doesn’t include. We need to do some Ego Yoga. It’s not as hard as it sounds. Our Ego’s in it for Pleasure; our Soul’s in it for Experience, including Experiences that will – and have – Terrified or Horrified our Ego.
This is what a Free-Will Universe means. If you aren’t in a Free-Will Universe, you’re just another automaton on the treadmill, where everything happens to you, and you have little or no Control. That might be Liberating, since what you do won’t matter. You may as well Take whatever Pleases you. But can you even Conceive of a Universe without Cause and Effect? That’s pretty Deep Programming. Easier to Conceive of a Universe where we don’t have enough Information to sleuth out Cause and Effect. And more Honest.
Let’s look at the Saturn-South Node chart tomorrow. That’ll give you time to see what’s behind you.
The Global Earth Repair Conference is YouTubing its sessions so we can watch them free. Since there were about 200 sessions in seven or eight time slots, there are lot of sessions I wasn’t able to attend either, even when I hopped from one session to another in one time slot, which I did whenever I wasn’t Learning a lot. Not that the sessions lacked quality – I just read a lot and Earth Repair is one of my favorite topics. I’m much more Optimistic after the Conference than I was before – many of the presenters are already Living in 5D.
Here are a couple of samples…
“When it comes to survival and sustainability, there’s only one story for the human species, and we’re all in this together… We know when we see a forest, a lake, the ocean, a natural river system, the atmosphere, that it’s more valuable than computers, cars, airplanes, which are valuable for a short time, then become trash and pollution… If we truly value natural systems, then Nature would truly become the basis of our money and our economy. To protect Nature then would not be a luxury, but a necessity.” –John D. Liu, in…
“We’re extremely conflicted and I think it has something to do with two levels of development – our brains are wired for survival, which means anger, jealousy, fear, territoriality, self-esteem, all the things that cause trouble. And our brains are also wired for beauty and connection and spirituality, and I think it’s a crisis time for us to begin to overcome this hardcore biological survival wiring and begin to activate our spiritual wiring – the forebrain.
“Buddhism does that well with mindfulness and meditation, and the other traditions that do this. It’s almost like we’re at a crisis point, not just of the Earth, but of our own human journey. Are we going to give in and basically dissolve? Will we be a failed experiment? Or, are we at the beginning of an incredibly exciting part of our journey as we begin to become more human in the sense of truly connected to loving and nurturing all life?” –Susan Eirich in…
“We are very excited about the progress that we see you all making in regards to the accessing of more of your galactic energies. You are all receiving activations all the time to awaken within you those parts of yourselves that are not from Earth, or your solar system. And we can see how these activations are affecting all of you in a positive way. Much of what you are attempting to resolve there on planet Earth at this time is related to those journeys that you have taken through all the different star systems in our galaxy.
“And so, by becoming more of the whole you, you are better equipped to handle the challenges you face right now on planet Earth. We see you getting activated and then taking what energies you are accessing from within to the different challenges that you face in your lives. Even though you still have much to resolve there on planet Earth, you are also bringing a lot to the party because of all that you have already experienced in your lifetimes in other parts of the galaxy.
“You draw from those Sirian, Andromedan, Pleiadian, Arcturian, and other lifetimes, and when you bring those energies forward, you make it easier for yourselves to reconcile the differences that you have there on your planet. For example, most people are split politically. They either go in all into one political party or all into another, and they see the others who are putting all of their energy into a different political party as the enemy. This is a much more toned down version of the battles that have existed throughout our galaxy for millions and millions of years.
“When you recognize that you contain all of those energies inside of you, and you make it your mission to be integrated, then you can be a walking example of what it is like to bring different energies, different beliefs, different star systems, together. And if you can do that, you certainly can resolve the differences between you and the others there on Earth who have very different beliefs.
“This is why you often find that you are the [sheep of color] in your family. Those of you who are awake are often the only ones who have the beliefs that you do, and it then falls upon you to make peace with the fact that everyone else that you are related to by blood thinks differently. And when you can do that, and you can make peace with the differences between you, then you know that you are becoming more integrating with all of the galactic energies that you have inside of you, and you are moving closer and closer to that fifth dimensional reality where all beings co-exist harmoniously. So keep up the good work.”
And on a galaxy much closer to Home, our Cosmic Recess window is beginning to close, as we’re now only seven days from the planetary equivalent of The Most Important Thing Is Your Karma (Saturn Conjunct the Mean South Node). “Mean” here means Average, not Cruel, though from the Ego’s Perspective, Cruel wouldn’t be far off the mark.
John Liu reminds us that when our Ecosystem Collapses, nothing is more Important or Valuable than some degree of Restoration. Jack Rosenberg (in Body, Self, & Soul) points out that when the Ego shatters, nothing is more Important and Valuable than Restoring a functioning Ego, because you’ll just make a big mess of anything else you try to do. And I (among others) aver that when we’re trying to Manifest something Difficult for us, nothing is more Important and Valuable than Examining our Karma.
There isn’t a lot of astrological Interaction between the 19 May Saturn-South Node Conjunction (Karma demanding Attention) and the 23 May Station of Orcus (Breaking Oaths), but in addition to their Temporal Proximity, the Topical Connections are many and Intense. We’ll take the chart apart soon, but in the interim we’ll give you some homework. Make a list of the places in your Life where you don’t Believe that you have Choice. That’ll likely turn out to be critical. And, Think about all of the Abuse Stories you’ve heard in your Life; which one had the most Emotional Impact on you?
Okay, the Pluto Station has passed under the bridge and moved on down the River, though as I said earlier, it may linger because the three Stations (Pluto, Chariklo, Saturn) are only a few Degrees apart. I used to Experience Pluto Stations as though I was “swimming through Jello,” but lately, while there’s a good deal of momentary Confusion, it’s been Feeling fairly ordinary. Anyone finding Differently?
So to the extent that Pluto has moved on, we’re left in the Thick of Chariklo-Saturn-South Node, or Confidence-Attention-Karma. Or, The Most Important Thing is to Stay in the Present Moment, or to Distinguish between the Present Moment and our Regressions. One downside I’d not be Surprised to see is that our Karma will shake up our Confidence, and we’d be swimming in Self-Doubt instead of Jello, or worse, in Self-Recrimination. Whenever the South Node is lit up – or asteroid Karma, or our Karma for any reason, astrological or otherwise, most of what we Experience will be Illusion.
We could easily be imagining the worst Outcome possible, then when something appears to move in that direction, we jump to the conclusion that it already, indeed, has. For instance, if we’re thinking about how a friend might Abandon us, or thinking about Abandoning them, and they make a comment that might be interpreted as Criticism, even if it wasn’t meant that way, we could Receive their comment as the very Abandonment we’d been Expecting, and React accordingly, leaving our former friend wondering what happened.
That’s a good example, as it Illustrates how we grasp our Karma rather than the other way ’round. Of course the critical element is the Depth of our Karmic Trance – that’s what Karma is after all, a Trance, one that Separates us from the Present Moment.
Pluto of course is all about Trance – we usually express it as a Transformation, or Formation of a New Trance. The key to Karma is Awareness that we’ve Left the Present Moment. Back in the 1980s we would ask ourselves, “What color is the wallpaper?” because if it was not the same as the wallpaper in the room where we were Abused, just that had the potential to jolt us out of our Unconscious Surrender to our Regression.
So with Pluto Involved (it’s still Involved even as its Influence lessens), our odds of Transforming our Karmic Trance into Awareness are actually greater.
The Karmic Trance can be very all-consuming Emotionally. If we Hear someone Criticizing us or otherwise Shaking our Confidence, it may not matter what their Intentions are, it may Light a Fire in us that’s not easily extinguishable.
Everyone has some degree of Karmic Abandonment, and everyone has some degree of Karmic “Suffocation” – the Feeling that someone is watching us too closely, waiting for us to slip up, eager to label us Wrong, or itching Limit our Freedom. The Libertarians carry their Suffocation to Extremes, and are proud of it. Often, for each of us, either Abandonment or Suffocation dominates, but we can be Strong in both. By Distinguishing when we’re Feeling Abandoned and when we’re feeling Suffocated, we up the odds that we’ll be able to recognize that it’s Our Abandonment and Our Suffocation.
When we Own these two Emotions, we can more easily Differentiate situations where we’re Being Abandoned or Suffocated, from situations where we’re Feeling Abandoned or Suffocated. If we can do that, we up the odds that we can retract our Projections – rather than Feel Criticized and clam up, we might ask what the other person meant when they said that. Of course, just because we’re Feeling Abandoned or Suffocated, doesn’t mean we aren’t also Being Abandoned or Suffocated – “Just because I’m Paranoid doesn’t mean they aren’t out to get me,” as we used to say.
But Recognizing these Feelings will help you decipher whether the Emotion and the Experience match in Intensity. When they don’t, we’re either Tranced into our Karma, (when the Emotion is much more Intense than the Experience) and need to Wake Up, or we’re looking into the open jaws of a Held Emotion – that is, Tranced into Avoiding our Karma (when the Emotion is much less Intense than the Experience). While Avoiding Karma may feel like Success, it’s not. It means that our Karma is hiding in the Unconscious, where it’s pulling our puppet-strings.
One of the hardest things about Held Emotions is that they’re undercover. Since we’d rather Die than Feel them, we’re highly Skilled at Avoiding them. The Ego’s job is to keep us Alive, and if the Ego thinks we’ll Die, it’s going to Excel at Avoiding that situation. So if we can Detect a clue to a Held Emotion by Arbitraging our Experiences and our Emotions instead of just Freaking Out, then thinking in terms of Abandonment and Suffocation will have done you a solid.
In a way it’s like your Study of Anxiety – where you’re Learning to distinguish between your fast-moving Emotions (a la Goofy) and your drudging thoughts about them (aka Anxiety).
And don’t forget Poor-Sweetheart. Poor-Sweethearting a Real Emotion or a fake one can Feel like Avoidance, but it’s not. Once you Empathize with what you’re really Experiencing or Feeling, you’ve already Changed the Trance. When you then Successfully Change the Subject, you Step Out of your Karmic Trance, and every time you Step Out you build your Antikarmic Muscles. Pretty soon you have a whole new set of Patterns.
A couple of comments on the previous post, “Dark Days” 3…
We can’t Deny either Reality; we can only PIAVA that the Arcturians are right when they tell us that Huperity is actually starting to Wake Up. If “the medium is the message,” then these suggests that it is. Two more Asseverations…
My two primary heroes growing up were the Lone Ranger from the movies they showed Saturday mornings in the church basement, and Jesus from the stories that they told in Sunday School the next day. It didn’t take long for me to figure out that most folks who called themselves “Christians” actually followed the Olde Testament more than what Jesus actually taught, except when they were preaching to someone else. So it didn’t dawn on me that our “Dark Days” and Easter happen to coincide this year. Marilyn Raffaele did pick up on that in her Channeling today…
“Dear ones, we greet you on this religious holiday of Easter being celebrated in Christian communities the world over in remembrance of the suffering, death, and resurrection of the master teacher Jeshua. However, just as with the Christmas story, Easter also holds much deeper meaning and every human is living the Easter story at some level.
“Every individual throughout their many lifetimes has experienced the death of old beliefs and the integration of new ones but always within the third dimensional belief system. This is how evolution happens. At some point a spiritual completion of sorts is reached and the death of what has become one’s outgrown state of consciousness begins. The soul has reached a place of readiness for new and higher dimensional awareness although usually not consciously aware of it.
“Many past lives were short and filled with suffering while others were long and fulfilling but all were necessary in order for the soul to experience and grow from every aspect of three dimensional living and then move on which begins with a growing sense of dissatisfaction with what has previously been comfortable and normal.
“Confusion and a sense of loss comes as a person gradually begins to shift out of alignment with some friends, traditional family values, religious doctrine, certain foods, entertainments, work, etc. This is the period in which many make futile attempts to restore that which they feel they are losing, not realizing that their energy is no longer in alignment with these things.
“The death throes of one’s old state of consciousness can be painful on one or all levels but is short or long depending upon resistance. This is the period known as the ‘Dark night of the soul’ — the part of the Master’s story where he was alone, confused, and praying in the desert with a sense of what was coming.
“Change is eventually embraced and understood as being necessary and [we begin] to seek, accept, and practice increasingly higher levels of truth. The length of this phase varies with every individual and often extends through lifetimes. However, there eventually comes the personal resurrection and ascension that births a new state of consciousness. The Easter story is your story.
“You have all lived as both genders, all colors, warriors, rich and poor, good and bad, etc. Every lifetime experience has served to develop your intelligence and wisdom so that over time you became a person wise and experienced regarding the best forms of three dimensional living and survival. It was not meant for this to be the final goal, but rather a portion of your journey toward remembering — every experience a step along the way to higher awareness.
“Ascension is a process. When a spiritually prepared person becomes comfortable in their three dimensional world believing that they have reached the pinnacle of success and that there is nothing more, this world will often collapse on one or more levels — physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually allowing the first stage of their personal Easter to begin.
“For those living fully in the the third dimensional belief system these types of experiences are usually the manifestation of their belief in duality and separation but for the spiritually evolved, they represent the dissolution of the person’s old illusory belief system. Always remember that nothing real can ever be lost but rather only changes form. That which seems to have disappeared will reappear in better and higher form if it is a part of one’s consciousness of wholeness.
“The crucifixion of one’s belief system can be an excruciating experience leaving the person with no foundation to depend upon or to look toward for answers and solutions. Friends and family often try to assist during this period but are unable to because the three dimensional tools they offer are not in alignment with the higher frequency process taking place.
“After many ‘failures’ to recreate what has been lost with three dimensional solutions, [we begin] to give up and stop resisting which then allows [us] to open to the inner guidance that has always been present but ignored. [We] begin to disengage from the false beliefs that created the pain and suffering, and enter the ‘tomb’ to rest and process what has taken place.
“A new and higher state of consciousness is born as the individual rises out of [their] personal death and darkness, a consciousness that only those at a similar level of awareness can recognize. As [they begin] incorporating and living from their new awareness, more truth unfolds and they become increasingly enlightened until at a certain point they are ready for ascension out of their old state of consciousness.
“On earth at this time, ascension means the shift of consciousness out of the third dimension and into the fifth, a dimension governed by frequencies of unconditional love and Oneness.
“The Christ is already fully present within each and every person but can not be experienced until recognized. Many continue to cry out, ‘How could a loving God allow this?’ God activity cannot be present in a vacuum but must flow through his expressions on earth. It is the same as having a large bank account that one is totally unaware of and so lives ignorantly in poverty.
“Through unawakened ignorance, the third dimensional state of consciousness has created the world of pain, suffering, lack, and limitation that most have come to accept as normal. A world that many continue begging God to change. Divine Consciousness knows nothing about what three dimensional thinking is creating because illusion does not exist in Divine Consciousness. This is why the changes you wish to see, you must create.
“The Easter experience is here for all who choose it. Mankind is now in the midst of the suffering, pondering, and dying part in preparation for resurrecting out of the duality and separation that has ruled and governed over hundreds of lifetimes.
“Up to now individuals had to physically die in order to ascend to a higher dimension, but at this powerful time mankind is ascending while in physical body. The integration of higher more refined Light energies cannot take place with the old still in place, which is why most of you are in the process of clearing old cellular energy and remaining karmic issues at this time.
“Arcturian Group wishes to speak of the energy changes taking place on earth. As the frequencies of earth become increasingly refined, there comes increasing chaos because when Light flows to that which is dark and heavy, it causes a reaction.
“Those continuing to hold tightly to the illusions of old energy are experiencing resistance and fear as they struggle through means that no longer work, to keep the status quo. Everyone, those awake and those who are not, is experiencing the higher frequency energies, but because many do not understand what is going on, they are acting out in ways that make sense to their unawakened consciousness.
“Negative and false beliefs are beginning to be recognized for what they are, in the awareness of an increasing number of people starting to realize that they no longer agree with many of the beliefs and laws they previously accepted. People are waking up the world over and starting to question what they have been told which in turn is causing resistance and action on the part of those who thrive from everything remaining in old energy.
“Hold to your center dear ones, holding the Light of truth closely within you at all times. [Avoid getting] overly involved in the negative appearances that confront your awareness every day. Concern and worry over appearances only adds more energy to those very things. Allow false creations to dissolve into the nothingness that they really are, which will happen if they are no longer fed.
“Much is yet to be revealed. Let trust and truth be your shield and sword, always remembering that nothing can make you less than the Divine Being that you are. If someone were to shoot you in the heart, you would continue simply watching the show but from a different seat. You are Divine beings always have been and forever will be, for there is nothing else.
“Your worth is stable and everlasting no matter what. By the way, this wasn’t an easy conclusion to come to. I spent a long time alone without a lot of these things [job, family, money, house, ‘expressing myself a certain way, looking a certain way, etc.. You can fill in your own blanks’] because I needed to learn I was worthy without them.
“One day when I thought I had had enough of ‘learning,’ it dawned on me that without all of these things that I thought were so important – I am talking make-or-break, life-or-death – that I was still here. It sounds incredibly simple, but I spent so much time believing that these external things (could be anything for you) were what validated and affirmed my life! Then I had the epiphany that I still very much exist with or without them. I am valid with or without them. I am an amazing, abundant person with or without them.”
A few folks have expressed that these “Dark Days” posts have Frightened them. But how can anyone be Frightened by their own Karma, which they’ve so Intimately Lived With their whole Lives? Well, actually, it’s easy – we’ve all painted a False Ego over our True Selves, and over our Karma, and it’s that False Ego that’s Frightened, because it Fears (Ego) Death. But we’ve gone through Ego Death before, many times, haven’t we, and guess what – we’re still here! With Uranus now in Taurus (Descent of Soul into Flesh), what an excellent Opportunity to Notice the Difference between Ego and Soul!
And as always, the Emergence of Fear is itself a fabulous Opportunity to Remember that Fear + Breathing = Excitement and Fear + Kegels = Power. That’s especially relevant now, because Power and Chariklo’s primary characteristic, Self-Confidence, go hand in hand. With seven-day Sensitivity, Chariklo’s Strengthening of Influence (Station) begins today. And it’s not a huge leap to go from Pluto’s Compulsion, to Motivation, to Excitement (Pluto’s Station is Exact in only three days). So Fear is Right On here, we just need to Respond to it Lovingly and Powerfully.
Remember the Lesson that Pluto taught us – that when Emotions are operating properly, they “go right through us,” and move on in a few moments?
If any Emotion befalls you and lasts more than five minutes, it’s no longer an Emotion that you’re Experiencing, it’s your Thoughts about your Emotion. Those Thoughts are 99.9% Bullshit. You’ve just gone from whatever Emotion you originally Encountered, to the Emotion of Anxiety. When you try to Live your Life from the Bullshit Contents of the Stories that your Anxious Thoughts tell you, Failure is guaranteed.
The most Life-Changing thing we can Learn from these “Dark Days” (Pluto-Chariklo-Saturn-South Node) Dramas is to Notice that we’re in Anxiety and Deal With it as Anxiety. That means Embracing it as the Emotion that it is, Poor-Sweethearting ourself (“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Anxiety, aren’t you”), and Changing the Subject. When Anxious Thoughts Bully their way back in, Rinse and Repeat, as often as necessary. It’s not how many times we Fall Down that counts, it’s how many times we Get Up.
♥ Here’s an excellent way to Lighten Up these “Dark Days” – Donna Eden’s free Energy Medicine & Healing Summit that lasts all week, 22-26 April, led by her daughter Dondi Dahlin, at…
I’m told that each session will be available for 48 hours after it plays live. I’m looking forward to…
Donna herself speaking about TheAssemblage Point (“The Power of this extraordinary Energy and how to Align with it; How it works with the Aura and the Heart Chakra; How figure eights keep it shining bright”) and
Judith Orloff on Balance as an Empath (“Identify if you’re an Empath and/or highly Sensitive person; Discover why you feel exhausted, anxious, and physically ill; Learn how to Set Boundaries and Trust your Intuition),
…both Tuesday morning. While I think of an Ego Death as a Shift in our “Assemblage Point,” I don’t really Know what Castaneda’s Don Juan meant by that term. I expect Donna, Seeing Energy as she does, will Know though, so I’m Excited to hear what she has to say about it.
♥ Here’s our “Dark Days” Itinerary…
17-24 April (more or less) – Strong Compulsions, best not Resisted, though they can be Modified if necessary to Avoid Untoward Consequences, or “Surfed” for a Gravity Boost to your Orbit. If lack of Alignment with your Self-Image or Social Mask seems like a problem, Allow your Image or Mask to Evolve, Gently. (Pluto Stationary in 24 Capricorn, 11:30 am 24 April)
19 April to 3 May – Soulful Full Moon (see previous and future posts)
21-28 April – Watch closely for any sign of Self-Doubt, and rather than giving it any Credence, regard it as a Regression into the most Self-Sabotaging parts of your Childhood Programming. “You Poor Sweetheart, you’ve been Programmed into Doubting yourself, haven’t you.” If your Inner Child doesn’t Show Up for a Hug and maybe a Chat, Pretend that they have. (Chariklo Station in 25 Capricorn, 3pm 28 April)
22-29 April – We need to Stay Focused on One Thing here, and it needs to be The Most Important Thing. For you in this context (ie, everything else that’s going on), that may feel like Rescuing Your Partner or Someone Else who’s Important to you, or Saving Your Relationship or Your Income or Your Domicile or some other Materially or Emotionally Important issue. Which is Fine, but do Recognize that you’ll be Abandoning your True Self if whoever you’re Rescuing, or whatever you’re Saving, is Contrary to your Liberation or to your Soul’s Truth.
No Worries, you may just be Learning the last few Lessons that you need to Learn in order to be Truly Ready to Transcend. This isn’t our only Opportunity to Ascend, after all, just our Most Powerful One, one where we’re Jet-Propelled. Before we’re Jet-Propelled into our Liberation, we’re likely to be Jet-Propelled into our “Shit,” so Awareness is key here. We Want to stay Conscious of the Difference between What We Want and What We Don’t Want, and focus on the former as much as we can. (Saturn Stationary in 21 Capricorn, 5pm PST 29 April)
23-30 April – Yes, it may well Feel Awful, because you may be Face to Face with your Held Emotions, the ones you’d rather Die than Feel. There are literally No Greater Opportunities to Liberate yourself from your Limitations and your Self-Sabotage – from your Karma. Remember the story of Sisiutl, a two-headed Monster so Scary that It turns to Stone whomever Sees It. But, if you Stand Still for It as It approaches you, Its two heads will See Each Other – and Sisiutl will turn to Stone! (Saturn Merges with True South Node, Exact at noon PDT 30 April)
Which leaves us with a Pattern that looks like this…
In other words, it’s pretty much All At Once. We might Feel greater Compulsion early, and greater Focus later, or we might just feel Heavy, or like Shit, for the whole two weeks – the Pluto, Chariklo, Saturn, and Saturn-South Node events are also all within a few Degrees of one another, increasing the likelihood of Merger. When the Energies Merge, our Unconscious Reaction will likely be something like The Most Important Thing is to Stop This Persistent Feeling that I’m Dying, Compulsively using Food, Alcohol, Drugs, Sex, or whatever Crutches we’re accustomed to using.
A Conscious Response might be The Most Important Thing is to Take Advantage of this Incredible Opportunity to Liberate myself from these Karmic Chains that have become so Graphically Clear. So how might we go about that Liberation? Lots of Tapping. Lots of Alternating Theta and Tapping to Distinguish our Anxiety from Reality (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/). Lots of Poor-Sweethearting. There’s Grace in the Full Moon chart that will Help; we’ll talk more about that soon.
It’ll help to have Buddies who understand what we Want and what’s likely to Block us from it, so they can Remind us at strategic moments what’s The Most Important Thing. We can score the Chocolate or the Tequila after we ditch them, but meanwhile they will have slowed down our Self-Destruction.
A friend once said, “I know that ThisToo will Change. But you, as an astrologer, know When it will Change!” No matter how Crummy you Feel, know that your Work will bring an Abundance of May Flowers, and it’s not far away.
Almost. On 15 September the Moon hasn’t come around yet to Complete the Grand Sextile (six planets more or less equally spaced around the Zodiac, connected by the short blue lines), so there is no Grand Sextile in the Saturn-South Node chart. A Grand Sextile is a Great Boon, as once we take the first step on any Journey, the rest is Effortless. We couldn’t ask for a better chart for The Most Important Thing Is Our Held Emotions, as all we’ll need to do is PIAVA that our Karma “Leave Now and Never Come Back.”
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