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Love Ends When Judgment Replaces Curiosity

September 29, 2018

From Michael Roads’s new book, Entering the Secret World of Nature, pp.45-46…

“One day while I was learning to listen to the silent voice of the river, it asked me a question.  ‘Do you see me as new?’

“I struggled with this for a long time…  For months I practiced looking at the river to see newness while listening to the river to be sure it was not laughing at me!

“After nearly a year of this, my intent was still unwavering.  I hindsight, I now know that when you set your intent, life will take you seriously.  But, you are also required to persist.  And persist I did.  I spent most of my practice time in attempting to see the newness in my wife and my children.

“Month after month passed by, yet they remained aggravatingly the same.  Same river, same wife, same kids, same me, same old same old.  I was literally overwhelmed in sameness, but bereft of newness.  I even wondered if what I was attempting was possible, but I kept on, feeling increasingly ridiculous.

“One morning, just as I awakened, I heard/felt words moving through my consciousness.  Only the newness in you can see the newness in the river and in other people.  I thought it was the river speaking, as it seemed to carry river energy.  Later I confirmed this.

“From this point I began to look for the newness in me!  Phew!  That took another six months or more …[but] there came a breathtaking moment when I discovered the newness in me.  Then, from the foundation of this startling newness in me, I started looking for – and eventually seeing – the newness in my wife and children.  I remember the initial excitement, and the frustration of being able to tell so few of my friends; but my wife knew, and she understood.

“Eventually, when I went down to the water’s edge and looked at the river, I experienced it as continual newness.  I smiled in delight.  It seemed so simple now.  What was the difference?  As I thought about it, I realized that it is normal to look through the brain-eyes, they connect. 

“However, by persisting I had gradually learned to also look through the heart-eyes connection, which has always metaphysically existed.  It is not a by-pass of the automatic brain-eyes connection; it is an inclusion, a more holistic way of deeper seeing.  I also suspect that although this was a discovery for me, it has probably been known among indigenous people of various nations for ages.”

Drunvalo Melchizedek also talks about and teaches this in Living in the Heart.

Summer of Self-Love VI

September 27, 2018

Well, my apologies.  I’ve been so busy that I didn’t notice till yesterday that the Chaos Station was 26 July, not 28 July!  See, I’ve been too busy – I think it’s July.  Make that September!  The actual 28 September event is the Lachesis Station, which is actually okay, because after all isn’t being able to Consciously Choose the Length of our Timelines – Lachesis’s specialty – what it’s all about?  I mean, yes, we need to get Conscious of all that Unconscious material, so we make Real Choices rather than Karmic Puppet Choices, but then, Making the Choices is what it’s about.

The Chaos Station was a Yin Gate or Mystery School, where we get to Experience Paradox.  We Win if we stay with the Reality of it, the Reality that it doesn’t Make Sense.  We Lose if we Rationalize it and Make Sense of the Illusion as if it’s Reality…

The critical central axis is the Opposition between Respect for All Things (Hopi) and Consciousness of our Fear (Juno-the Edges of Consciousness and Sedna-Fear, or Power once it’s brought into Consciousness and Grounded).  So it’s our Xenophobia.  How do you Feel about yours?  “Kick the bastards out, they’re taking our jobs?”  Or “We need more Diversity!”  Or “I Feel Guilty about my Racism and Sexism.”  Or, most commonly, “What Racism?  I’m not Sexist.”

Castenada used to call it Cognitive Dissonance – holding several Contradictory notions in mind at once without having to debate about them.  Accepting that Belief in Contradiction is a Limitation of Duality that Separates us from an Alive, Unitary, Multifarious Reality that is rife with apparent Contradiction, when squeezed through the sieve of Intellect.  We build our Egos on Contradiction.  “I Am” because “I’m Not such-and-such.”

The Yin Gate is those two green Xs on each side of the red asterisk in the middle of the chart.  The red diagonals are important too…

  • Rebirth (Haumea) Opposing Authenticity (Moon, Conjunct Eris, which symbolizes Revelation of What’s Been Denied).  Another False Dichotomy.  The Second Harmonic (Opposition) represents Ritual.  So here’s our Opportunity to Choose – between Being Reborn into Authenticity, or Choosing between Rebirth and Authenticity.  Soul would Choose the former, Ego the latter.
  • Enchantment with Limitlessness (Sappho = Self-Love and the Stationary Chaos = Unlimited Potential) versus Being Responsive to our Craziness (Pholus = Being Fully Responsive and Ixion = our Forbidden Genius).  Do you see those as Contradictory?  Find a way that they are Contradictory.  Then hold every Imagined Interpretation without Judging between them.

Not drawn in is the Chiron T-Square across the Limitless-Crazy axis.  As we said last time, there’s Pain there.  We’re conditioned to Believe that our 3D Illusions are Real, and when we begin to see that they’re just Holograms, Illusion, we Freak Out a bit.  Or maybe a lot.  It destabilizes the Ego.  Which, if you want to Identify with Soul, is good.  Providing we Manage our Natural Reactions to it.  It is after all the same as “mental illness,” the only difference is whether or not we’re Managing our Egoic Reactions.

The inmates on this Planet actually Believe that their Limits really are the Edge of the World, and they’ll go to great lengths, incarcerating you even, to keep you from Dropping off the Edge.  So you can’t just Go Crazy.  You have to Pretend like you Understand their Illusions and Believe in them too.  Isn’t that Weird?

Summer of Self-Love V

September 26, 2018

The Big Deal here is that Chiron has Retrograded back into Pisces.  Chiron often means Despair if you get Lost in your Feelings, and Miracles if you Empathize with your Feeler (that’s you) – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair again, aren’t you” – said to yourself.  And of course no one gets Lost in their Feelings more than Pisces.

We tend to Identify with our Emotions and thoughts – you can tell when that’s happening just by “Watching your Language” – when we say “I Am Angry,” Angry’Я’Us – we and Anger are the same, we’re Identified with the Emotion.  That’s actually very different from “I Feel Angry,” where an Emoter’Я’Us, not an Emotion.  This is not a silly distinction.  Go a step further and say to yourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Angry, aren’t you,” and now Empathy’Я’Us.  Empathy Heals, especially Self-Empathy.

There’s another Important Distinction that we all need to Learn – the Difference between Emotions and Thoughts.  Emotions happen in your Body in the Present Moment.  If you stop and Experience your Body in Real Time when you’re Feeling Anger, you’ll find all kinds of things going on – jaw jutting forward, teeth grinding, belly tightened, any number of Sensations.  That is Emotion.

Now, when we’re Angry we usually Talk to ourself to pump up our Anger.  “That so-and-so did such-and-such to me and I don’t like it.  How could anyone be such a creep!  Grrrrr”  That’s not Emotion.  That is thought.  Thought does horrible thing to Emotions.  We totally Abandon the Body and the Present Motion, and bury ourself (literally) in our thoughts about our Emotion, and in the “Past” (they did such-and-such!) and “Future” (that’ll ruin our plans!).

Past and Future are Illusions.  Really, All There Is Is Now.  Like Ram Dass liked to say, “Be Here Now.”  That’s all that’s Real.  And your thoughts, noisy and irrepressible as they are, are not Real either.  Thoughts don’t Grow Corn.

While Anger makes a good example, because it’s pronounced in the Body and because it’s so evocative of self-reinforcing thoughts, Anxiety and Despair are more important Emotions to Examine.  Where and How does Anxiety Feel in the Body in the Present Moment?  Anxiety is tricky.  It could show up as an Urge to Eat, whether we’re actually Hungry or not.  Or as Nausea.  It could show up as Vibration in the Body, or Restlessness, or an urge to check our smartphone, or to buy something. 

Often a way to Identify Anxiety is by the Obsessive and Circular thoughts that accompany it.  When thoughts are Obsessive and Circular, we need to Ask ourself, What’s Going On in My Body Right Now?  While any Emotion can go Unconscious, Anxiety is very good at it.  Anxiety may be Unconscious low-grade Fear, and our Circular Obsessions Efforts to Keep ourself Safe. 

We Liberate ourselves from Circular Obsessions by Getting into the Present Moment.  What do I Feel in my Body, Where, Right Now?  Developing this Habit – shifting from Focusing on the Content of our thoughts about our Feelings, to Identifying the Feelings themselves as Sensations in our Present-Moment Body – is Life-Changing.

Another complexity around Anxiety – it’s often not even Ours.  If Obsessive Circular thoughts keep recurring even when we Identify the Emotion in our Body, it’s worth a try to take the first person who comes to mind, and Mirror them.  Hold up an imaginary wardrobe Mirror facing them for a few minutes, which watching to see if your Inner Sensations Change.  While this Habit of Mirroring may end up being more complicated, it can also become Life-Changing.

Then there’s Despair, Chiron’s favorite “Unhealable Healer” Emotion.  When I think about Despair, other than slumping shoulders and a downward chin, I can’t even Identify what my Physical Sensations would be.  It’s as if Despair is just a thought trap, where all of our thoughts focus on negative outcomes and negative regard for self.  It hardly qualifies as an Emotion, it’s more a shitstorm of thoughts.

Chiron hangs out in Pisces till mid-February before returning to Aries “for good” (well, for nine years; it doesn’t return to Pisces till 2061).  You can see that this really is an Opportunity.  You could easily make a case that many of the Souls here today are here to take advantage of Chiron in Pisces, because it’s the Ideal environment for Finishing Business with the Held Emotions that Limit our Lives on many fronts.

With the 26 September Chaos Station still Prominent with its Limitless Potential – our Limitless Potential – there’s no better time than now to make that Shift.  Instantaneous Healing is not only Possible, it’s Available to you.  PIAVA it.  You never know what might happen.  You might Trip Out so far you never get back to know that you’ve left.  Oh, by the way, did I mention that the Chaos Station Squares Chiron?

 

in Despair, you’re likely to find your head drooping, your shoulders slumped

Summer of Self-Love IV

September 25, 2018

The Full Moon is very busy…

We could spend a lot of time with this chart, especially since it will be with us for at least the next two weeks, but there’s so much else going on that we’re unlikely to find the time.  A quick summary of a few of the biggest Trends…

We could start with the three (!) Diamond Stars, which, you probably recall, mean a Self-Resolving Challenge. 

Foremost is the Diamond Star about how The Most Important Thing is to Detect and Modify our Self-Sabotaging Unconscious Beliefs (Saturn-Vesta-Quaoar). Maybe you’ve noticed how your Stealth Addictions, the ones where your Evil Twin is Acting Out and Sabotaging you with too much Sugar or other Attention-Diverting Drugs.  The Self-Destructive Habits where you very successfully Pretend like you can “get away with it” without a second thought, until you cross the line and get yourself in trouble – and then remember, “Oh yeah, I can’t really do that, can I.”

Won’t it be fabulous if we can Heal that one way or the other – either curtail our Addictive Behavior, or figure out how to step into a Parallel Life or a Different Dimension and Repair the Original Karma so we can just Enjoy our Addiction without the negative consequences.  Instant Healing is always a Possibility.  Here, where our Difficulty is Self-Resolving, it’s worth a try to just PIAVA such a Miracle a few times.  If it fails we can always try Moderation, though of course that would require that we Recognize our Evil Twin, Consciously, so they can no longer Walk In unannounced.

This Diamond Star is Foremost because its base is the Full Moon itself, which on its own is far from simple.  The Moon is decorated with Pain or Miracles (Chiron), and the Sun dances with The Truth About Manifestation (asteroid Veritas and dwarf planet Makemake).  Which is to say, Just what sort of Pain are we Creating for ourself?

By the way, the folks who complain that “Creating Your Own Reality” amounts to “New Age Guilt” are missing the basic point – the “You” in Creating-Your-Own-Reality is not your Ego, it’s your Soul.  Whatever Reality is being Manifested “for” you, is your Soul’s Purpose.

Maybe your Soul Wants you to Experience this Bummer (we’re likely to Experience it All eventually) for some reason, or maybe there’s a Worse “Fate” awaiting you that you can Avoid by Responding Fully to your current Bummer.  Remember that Fate is what occurs when we’re Operating Unconsciously; Choice is what we get by Living our Life Consciously. 

So maybe your current Bummer is only there to remind you that you have Choice about something.  What might that be, do you suppose?  Well, we can Trust that it’s Important, because the second Diamond Star is about Trust (Eurydike), and it’s base is the Nodal Axis, which signifies our Karma and Lifetime Mission.

The Karma end is enhanced by Self-Sovereignty and Action/Anger (Lilith and Mars), while the Mission end is Dancing with our Life Force (Varuna).  Twisting the Cat’s Cradle further, the Life Force itself is the focus of the third Diamond Star, and it’s base is all about Trusting our Soul (Eurydike Opposite Uranus)!

Summer of Self-Love III

September 23, 2018

Today’s minor event is the Station of Chariklo, aka the Prominence of Self-Confidence in our Energy Fields.  Of course no events are ever “minor” for everyone, but this is minor relative to the Big Events that are building up – the 26 September Station of dwarf planet Chaos (the Prominence of our Unlimited Potentials in our Energy Fields) and the 30 September Station of Pluto (the Prominence of Mandatory but Flexible Transformations in our Energy Fields). 

Today’s Station is also not minor in the sense that it will be coloring everything else that’s going on – that is, what’s particularly Lit Up is our Self-Confidence about the Transformation of our Unlimited Potentials.  With Self-Confidence, our Unlimited Potentials could be for instance Transformed into Letting Go of our Limiting Beliefs, which could then Manifest as Letting Go of our Limits.  Which could in turn become Movement Toward Co-Creating What-We-Really-Want.

We also have a 24 September (8pm PDT) Aries (New Co-Creations) Full Moon (Blooming), which we’ll want to have a look at. 

Then on 25 September (5pm PDT), Chiron backs into Pisces for a final visit until mid-February, which will give us a final “Opportunity” to Let Go of the Held Emotions which still Limit us. 

Plus, on 26 September (12:30 am PDT), Eurydike (Trust) moves into Scorpio (the Compulsion to Get To The Bottom of Things).  For the last ten months we’ve been Learning to Trust our Relationships in new ways.  Eurydike’s Libra passage was unusually long; for the next ten weeks we’ll be Deepening our Trust in the Energies that are more Powerful than our Ego.  Our Ego is intimately intertwined with our Limits.  If we’re serious about making any Change in our Young Lives, the first step is always Transcending our Ego.

And on 28 September (10:30 pm PDT) Lachesis (Choosing our Timelines) is Stationary.  In addition to Lovingly Embracing our Ego Deaths, Accepting our Ability to Choose our Timelines is another essential step toward making any Change in our Lives.

Finally, on 29 September (4pm PDT), Juno (the Edges of our Consciousness) visits Gemini (Change) for several weeks, which should make it Easier for us to shift our Limiting Beliefs.

Here’s the 23 September Chariklo Station chart…

The major Configuration is a Nemesis Diamond Star – an Ego-Death Challenge that should turn out to be Self-Resolving.  This Configuration occurs when a T-Square (red triangle) and a Yod (green wedge) point to the same planet.  The combination results in a “bowl of Grace” (the Cat’s Cradle of blue lines) under the T-Square.

Notice that asteroid Klotho (New Beginnings) Conjoins the Chariklo Station and asteroid Moira (Fate and Choice) Opposes it, while asteroid Atropos (Endings) is the other corner of the Cat’s Cradle.  This is three of the four “Fate” planets, and the fourth, Lachesis, is Stationary on 28 September, ie, now.  So this Adventure is all about Gaining Confidence in our Ability To Choose What We Want, rather than having to Accept what seems to be handed to us – or shoved down our throats, by our “Fate.” 

The Difference is Conscious Awareness.  In order to Choose, we must first be Aware – Aware of what appears to be unfolding, Aware that What-We-Want does NOT appear to be occurring, Aware that there are Other Possibilities, and Aware that we can Choose.  Manifesting is like Falling Down – it doesn’t matter how many times you fail, what matters is how many times you Get Up, compare your Outcome to your Choice, Adjust, and PIAVA again.

A second Big Configuration in the chart is an almost-Complete Grand Sextile (Great Blessings, once we Initiate the process) in the Magnetic or Feminine Signs.  It includes all three of the Fate/Choice asteroids, plus Truth/Aletheia, and Moon-Neptune.  Moon is about Authenticity, and Neptune is about Everything that is Larger than the Ego, for instance, Community and Soul.  If we Choose to be Authentic to our Cultural Programming, is that really Authenticity?  In order to be Authentic to our Community, we first need to be Authentic to our Soul.

The Vacancy in the Almost-Grand-Sextile – which symbolizes the Energy we must Consciously contribute if we want to make the Blessings Flow – is the Midpoint of Taurus, corresponding to the day of St. Brigid and the Ancient Goddess from which She evolved, She of the Sacred Eternal Flame

The Midpoint of Taurus is also associated with the Great Star Aldebaran, for which Integrity is the critical key that unlocks Achievement of What-We-Really-Want.  Since Taurus and the Almost-Grand-Sextile are Feminine, we’ll translate that from Yangtegrity (what’s usually meant by Integrity, or Doing What You Said You Were Going To Do When You Said You Would Do It) to Yintegrity, which means Doing What You Damn Well Feel Like Doing When You Feel Like Doing It, aka Trusting Your Intuition.

While the tide is turning, it’s still a mostly-Yangtegrity World, so to do Yintegrity without socially self-destructing, we need to Renegotiate when necessary, and Make Amends when Renegotiation isn’t possible and the Relationship is a Keeper.  To do that effectively, we also have to Limit our Commitments, which at any rate is an important part of our Self-Sovereignty. 

A big part of that is our Ability to say “No.” – which we learned earlier in September, right?  It’s quite remarkable how these Energies are Scripted, each building on the previous.  As our Chief Asteroid Officer used to say, “You can’t make this stuff up.”

Summer of Self-Love II

September 21, 2018

Here’s the 22 September (7pm PDT) Equinox chart, which applies till the December Solstice…

The single Challenge (“Square,” the short red line) in the chart is between The-Truth-Will-Come-Out (Sun-Mercury-Veritas) and The-Most-Important-Thing-Is-To-Revise-Our-Beliefs-So-They-No-Longer-Deny-Our-Survival-Instincts (Saturn-Vesta-Quaoar), suggesting possible Hard Times ahead if we try to keep our head in the Sand. 

But the Big Picture in the chart is Dumb-Luck Grace Directed (a “Kite,” the stacked blue triangles) at Our Aptitude For Our Mission (Varuna-North Node), particularly with regard to How-Well-We-Protect-Our-Own-Health-And-Honor-Our-Physical-Vehicle.  The fact that the Equinox itself is one corner of the underlying Dumb-Luck Grace (the Grand Trine that underlies the Kite), tells us that the Challenge will Flow Easily, as long as we don’t Resist it too vigorously.

The other two corners of the Big Grace are Becoming-Conscious-Of-Our-Fear (Juno-Sedna) and Owning-Our-Anger-And-Our-Codependence (Mars-South Node-Lilith).  As part of the Big Grace, these two Energies, which would normally be some of the most Difficult things we will ever do, will also Flow Easily.

“Coincidentally,” Archangel Michael, Channeled by Natalie Glasson, has some exercises for us to Ease the process further…

https://www.omna.org/healing-archangel-michael/

“In my communication with you today, I, Archangel Michael wish to share with you tools from the Angelic Realm and my own energy to gift to you adding your ascension and empowering your current journey upon the Earth.  The tools, techniques, and practices I wish to share with you are focused upon enhancing your spiritual and physical journey upon the Earth, while recognising that both are the same. 

“Your spiritual and physical journey are synthesised, they do not exist separately and should not be recognised as disconnected either.  Your physical life is the canvas for your spiritual being and soul to paint and create whatever inspires and fulfills you.  When you exist only in your physical reality and do not engage the presence of your soul then life becomes boring, mundane and challenging.

“When you only engage with your spiritual self and pathway and give less importance to your physical reality you miss the purpose of life and are unable to see the beauty of the Earth.  The physical reality and spiritual reality are one and the same, when you are able to recognise this, you access the magic, purpose, and fulfillment of life.”

He continues with the exercises.

And Daniel Scranton’s Arcturian friends also contribute…

https://danielscranton.com/the-ones-who-are-awakening-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We are surprised and excited to see how many people are waking up every single day.  We have noticed this trend occurring as you get closer and closer to the equinox, but we also notice that there is a portion of the population who are struggling.  They are struggling to find something to believe in, and they have not been able to make a leap of faith to the truth that we are all one and we are all Source.  They certainly are far from believing that they create their reality.

“We have been looking for ways to reach this particular group of individuals on your world, and we know that at times you will attempt to share something with one of them to bring them into the light, to help them awaken.  But you are going to have a hard time convincing someone of something when they don’t really know what they believe in.  So it is much more effective if you just hold space for those individuals.  Send them love.  Have compassion for them, and live your life without apologies.

“Live your truth in every waking moment of every day, no matter what anyone else feels or thinks about your truth.  The more of you who are out there shining your light and living your truth, the more of the human collective consciousness is going to get what you know.  You can reach more people by tapping in to the collective consciousness then you can by trying to convince someone who doesn’t want to be convinced.

“But know that those who are looking for something to believe in are always served by having those like you around.  Your presence, and the knowing that you hold within you is enough to bring one or more people to the light.”

And, though it’s too long to quote, Dr. Kim D’Eramo also repeats the same theme – Your Presence Is Your Greatest Healing Tool – to a Conference of MDs…

https://drkimderamo.com/btm-qa/

And last night I was privileged to join a short workshop in Communicating with Trees, led by Joanne Marks (http://fireweedbotanicals.ca/), and Joanne emphasized the same point about Separation – The Planet’s greatest need is that Humans get past Thinking and get down to Who We Really Are, Instinctively, As Individual Entities.

Summer of Self-Love

September 20, 2018

Well, at least a week of Self-Love, as both the 21 September Asbolus Station and the 26 September Chaos Station Conjoin asteroid Sappho, the Goddess of Self-Love.

The Chaos (Unlimited Potential) Station is the Biggie this week, but many partners are lined up to Dance with us during the Build-Up…

  • 21 September (6:30 am PDT) Asbolus (Intuition) Station in 21 Gemini, which Challenges us to Accept what’s been in the closet
    • Pluto Squaring Eris…

  • 22 September (7pm PDT) Libra Equinox – this chart will be with us till the Capricorn Solstice.  It suggests that we have Self-Judgments that are impacting our Health, and we’ll be, if we Decide to Accept the Mission, getting Conscious of the Truth around them.  Unfortunately, this message will not self-destruct in five seconds.

Of course we could have internalized someone else’s Judgments as our own.  This may be a good clue about our Forbidden Genius.  Lifelong and Life-Threatening Health issues can disappear in seconds when we find their Real Cause, which is often in our Held Emotions.  The Physical, Emotional, Mental, and Spiritual Realms are not Separate Provinces – we are One Unit, and these are simply different Perspectives on that Unit.  Ever hear of “Miracle” Healings?  This is how they occur.

The Equinox Conjoins Mercury (Awareness) and Veritas (Truth), Squares Vesta-Saturn-Quaoar (see below), Trines Sedna-Juno (Becoming Conscious about Fear), and Trine-Bridges the Opposition between Mars-South Node (Self-Inflicted Wounds) and Varuna-North Node (Perfect Health).

Our Survival Instincts will make it clear to us which Unconscious Beliefs are Most Important for us to get Conscious of and Change.  Don’t mistake your Survival Instincts for Worry or Fear.  Instead, Ask yourself,

“What Indelible ‘Truths’ Create this Worry or Fear?  If a Miracle were to Manifest right now, what would be the Perfect Result I Want?  What Prevents me from Receiving that?  What if those ‘Truths’ were just Mass Hypnosis?  If there was ever one Exception, then it ain’t a Truth, is it.”

A common culprit is some variation on the Belief that there are Walls between Body, Spirit, Emotion, and Thought.

  • 23 September (4:30 am PDT) Station of Chariklo (Confidence) in 15 Capricorn.  The Bottom Line is Choosing to Accept a Big Ego Death in order to Rebirth ourself into Confidence.  Of course the process we suggest above would Create a Big Ego Death, wouldn’t it.  You might be surprises at how Easy it turns out the to be, though.
    • Stationary Chariklo Conjoins Klotho (Choosing a New Timeline) as part of the Grace in a Nemesis (Ego Death) Diamond Star (Self-Resolving Challenge), and Opposes asteroid Moira (Choice).  Asteroid Atropos (Choosing to End an Old Timeline) is the other part of the Grace.
  • 26 September (5pm PDT) Station of dwarf planet Chaos in 26 Gemini, which promises to be a Life Lesson in Transmuting Fear of Other into Respect.

    • Perfect Yin Gate, the central axis of which (the Paradoxes we’re Learning) is Hopi (Respect for All Things) Opposite Sedna-Juno (Becoming Conscious about Fear).  Chaos Conjoins Sappho (Self-Love) and Opposes Ixion-Pholus (Responding Fully to our Forbidden Genius) and Haumea (Rebirth) Opposes Moon-Eris (Becoming Authentic about our Hidden Truths).

As if this chain wasn’t Heavy enough, it’s followed closely by…

  • 28 September (10:30 pm PDT) Station of Lachesis (Choosing to Modify a Timeline) in 6 Gemini, which will involve Letting Go of more Memories of Abuse in order to Deepen our Physical Healing.

And the whole process is underlain by…

  • 30 September (7pm PDT) Station of Pluto (An Irresistible but Modifiable Force) in 19 Capricorn.  More Choosing, more Ego Death, more Truth.

Phew!  Then we get a few days off to Integrate it all before we have to/get to Confront our Old Reality and Adjust it to fit Who We’ve Become (Station of Juno 11 October in 1 Gemini).

Or, as Daniel Scranton’s Channel puts it…

https://danielscranton.com/upgrades-are-coming-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have begun the process of giving you the various upgrades that you’ve been asking for.  We are working, of course, in concert with your guides to provide you with the unique upgrades that each of you has been asking for individually.  Now, these upgrades are different than the universal ones that you sometimes receive.  Those upgrades are given because of where you are on your evolutionary journey, and they are given to everyone.

“The upgrades that we are referring to are the ones that you have personally requested, whether the request was for clairvoyance [eg the Asbolus Station], the ability to channel, or to be able to heal others.  We have been working with your guides and your higher selves because so many of you have been reaching out to us, specifically, and we have been able to convince your guides and higher selves at times that you are ready for some true growth and some new abilities that will help sustain you during the rest of the time that you have in the fourth dimension.

“We are happy and eager to provide you with these upgrades while you are asleep, and it is important for all of you to know that once you have an upgrade, you will still need to learn how to use it.  So just because you receive a clairvoyance upgrade, that doesn’t necessarily mean you are going to start accessing that gift without any focus on your part.  Most of you will still need to sit and open your third eyes to see what you are receiving.

“You will still need to master the use of the gifts you are given, and mostly you will need to trust that what you are receiving is in fact real and not just your imagination, your mind, or your ego.  Receive your new gifts graciously, and practice, practice, practice, and you will have a lot more fun there on Earth with your new toys.”

No. IV

September 17, 2018

So far we haven’t looked at Hylonome itself, the Star of this show.  As we’ve indicated, dwarf planet Hylonome is about…

  • Merging with Other people (or concepts, or ideals, or Values), sometimes Unconsciously, sometimes because we don’t Believe we have a Choice
  • Becoming Conscious of Merging with Other
  • Making Choices that Support What We Really Want rather than What They Want.

Notice when we Choose to Kiss Someone’s Ass because we Believe it’s the best way to get What We Want, that’s a Conscious Choice, and probably more about Vesta than Hylonome.  If we don’t Believe there are Other Ways to get What We Want, then Hylonome might be involved, as that’s really about being Unconscious of Alternatives (of which there are always many, once we shift our Perspective).

The major Angles that Hylonome makes in its Station chart are…

  • Transcending our Codependence – Hylonome Conjunct BZ509
  • Becoming Authentic with ourself about the situations where we Give Away our Power – Hylonome Conjunct Moon
  • Being Challenged to make our Self-Sovereignty Sustainable – Hylonome Square Ceres
  • Facilitating Changes in our Karmic Timelines – Part of the “Bowl of Grace” under the Lachesis Diamond Star that’s part of the Lachesis-Nessus-Karma-Orcus/Pallas Grand Cross
  • Facilitating our Mission in the Lifetime – Focus of a Yod from the North Node and Lachesis
  • Making it Easier to Disrupt our Held Emotions about Bondage – Hylonome Unx Lilith-South Node
  • Making it Easier to Break our Karmic Patterns – Hylonome Unx asteroid Karma

The structure of the chart is like a Radio Telescope or a Reflecting Telescope, where a large bowl of Mirrors or Antennas Reflect signals back to  Central Point…

The single point is asteroid Lachesis.  Lachesis was the Greek “Fate” who determined the length of a Fated Timeline.  Fate happens to us when we’re Living our Lives Unconsciously.  When we Notice the Archetypal Patterns that are running our Lives, Realize that there are Alternatives, and Decide to Choose Habits that Support What We Want, we’re using Lachesis as a trigger for our Sovereignty to Choose when to start and stop each Timeline in our Life. 

When we get really good with Lachesis, we can even Decide when to bring Timelines or Wisdom, from other Lifetimes, into the Current Life.  I’ve even met people who are quite Conscious about when to begin or end a particular Lifetime.  From the Ego’s Perspective, a Lifetime is kind of the Ultimate Timeline.  From the Soul’s Perspective, a Lifetime is just one chapter in a whole series of intersecting Timelines.

 

 

No. III

September 16, 2018

To No. II a reader responds…

“This feels like a personal horoscope.”

Alas, that’s the way it is for so many of us!  For anyone unfamiliar with Nessus, these articles would probably be valuable…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/06/03/nessus/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/06/04/nessus-two/

It should be no surprise, given the way astrology has been so explicit lately, that Lilith, Goddess of Self-Sovereignty Herself, is Lit Up while Hylonome is Standing Still.  And Lilith is Merged in the 17 September Hylonome-Station chart with the South Node, repository of our Held Emotions, aka Karma, Mirroring the Grand Cross of No. II

Our Held Emotions are the ones we’ve Repressed because we’d rather Die than Feel them.  Because they require an Ego Death in other words.  I mean, who would be crazy enough to go into an Ego Death voluntarily!?!? 

Well, I hope that I convince you to do exactly that if you read this blog long enough, because Ego Death is the fastest road to Growth in Consciousness, Liberation, Ascension, Spiritual Progress, Manifesting What You Really Want, Achieving your Lifetime Mission, ending the Heartbreak of Psoriasis, and all the other Good Things I hope you Aspire to.

You can see that Lilith-South Node anchors one end of the base of a Venus T-Square (red triangle – it’s called a “T-Square” because when you draw lines from the center of the Zodiac to each planet, it makes a “T”).  A T-Square is a Challenge to become Adept at something, in this case, Adept at adapting your Values (Venus) to Embrace your Self-Sovereignty in spite of Cultural Pressure to do otherwise.

That includes Cultural Pressure embedded in our own Programming, as we’re taught that Comfort is Good and Discomfort is Bad.  Imagine if you had been taught that Tolerating Discomfort is the pathway to Grace.  Not as the PieInTheSky religions have done, but as the esoteric branches of many religions have done, in teaching techniques to make Tolerating Discomfort more Comfortable and Productive at Liberating us from our Birdcages.

Every day I’m encountering people who are still trapped in the Fear and Anger and Potentially Rough Week series that we dealt with in late August (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/21st-century/the-teens-2010-2019/2018/august-2018/).  If we don’t “do our work” when it’s timely, we carry it with us, and Life gets more and more complicated as the Old and New Energies Confuse one another.  We Create new Held Emotions. 

When we do “do our work when it’s timely,” we’re less Compromised when we Encounter the New Energy, and better able to deal with it as a Main Effect, rather than having to deal with it as Interaction with all of our other Unfinished Business.  We enter a constantly-improving Virtuous Spiral rather than a “downward” Vicious-Cycle Whirlpool.

There’s a chart and some discussion of the December 2017 Lilith-Venus Initiation (and hence the current Venus-Lilith Cycle) at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/12/30/new-province-iii/.  “Coincidentally,” the Lilith-Venus Initiation Conjoined Hylonome!  It was at 6 Capricorn, “Ten logs lie under an archway leading to darker woods.”  Ten means Abundance, though the logs are still raw material.  The suggestion is that a Portal into the Wilderness (or, “doing our work while it is timely”) offers great Potential.

Bottom Line: if our Values seem to Conflict with our Urge toward Self-Sovereignty (which we can define as Making Choices that Lead us to Manifesting What We Really Want in the Lifetime), it’s our Values that need to be Examined and possibly Adjusted

The Self-Congratulation we use to support our Current Ego is based on our Values, but our Values are seriously Contaminated by our Programming, and may be very different from – and frequently the Opposite of – our Soul’s Desire.  Because we Live in Duality, our Soul is clever enough to Challenge our Ego to Grow by presenting the Ego with the Opposite of what the Soul Really Wants.  Like a parent using reverse psychology on their two-year-old.

No. II

September 15, 2018

Here’s a start at the Details.  The 17 September Station is Hylonome’s.  She was a Centaur who was so distraught that her Lover was killed in the disturbance where Chiron was injured, that she killed herself with the same arrow that killed her Lover.  Evidently Life without him was worthless.  In other words, she was Merged with him, she couldn’t tell where she ended and he began.

Now these Greek Myths tell us what happens when we’re Unconscious.  When we’re Conscious, we have Choices.  So, leaning toward Consciousness, we interpret dwarf planet Hylonome as the Choice to set Boundaries that facilitate our own Self-Sovereignty.  In general, we regard Self-Sovereignty as good, but we recognize that this is a Judgment, and that Judgment and Unconditional Love make uneasy mates. 

Our Judgment is Conditional – one of the characteristics of the Patriarchy is that most of us were/are Codependent – Merged with Others.  Perhaps with a Lover, maybe with a Boss, perhaps a Hero, maybe an Antagonist.  As we leave the Patriarchy behind, moving out of Codependence is an important step, because outside of the Patriarchy, the Power structure isn’t nearly as hierarchical. 

In organizations that have embraced the Digital Age, management structures have flattened considerably, as the wider spread of information has allowed Decision-Making to move lower in the structure.  The Digital Age spans the first two Centuries of the Age of Aquarius.  We’ll have more to say about Self-Sovereignty later, but for now we’ll consider it to be a positive trend.

So here’s the core of the Hylonome Station chart…

The Station itself occurs at 6pm PDT, but we’ve drawn the chart for 8pm PDT to give the Moon time to catch up to Hylonome, as the Moon frequently serves as a Timer for larger events.

Most of you are probably too young to remember Patty Hearst’s apparent Merger with her kidnappers, but Merging with our Abusers is not at all uncommon – in fact it may be the only way we can Tolerate Abuse in situations where we don’t feel like we have a Choice.And most of us have been in that situation to one degree or another, probably many times.  Employment comes to mind.

On the left corner of the red square in the chart above is the dwarf planet Nessus, symbolizing Abuse and it’s Opposite, Privilege.  The red square is a “Grand Cross,” and it means that we bounce around between its four corners, exploring their relationships with one another.  On the right corner are the dwarf planet Orcus, symbolizing Oath-making and -breaking, and asteroid Pallas, which represents Boundaries.

Do you remember how Confused you were about your Boundaries with your Abusers?  Do you remember making Oaths, maybe to never Talk Back, maybe to never get into that situation again, maybe to get even someday, maybe to somehow Escape, maybe never to tell anyone.  Every Oath we’ve ever made and not Disavowed, is still in our Field and Limiting our Life.

So just looking at these two corners of the Grand Cross, we can see that we’re deep into Reconsidering our Boundaries against Abuse and the Oaths we made around it.  Abuse can take many forms.  We can all think of the obvious ones, but Abuse includes things like chronic Disrespect.  Whenever someone treats you as less than a Spark of the Divine, that’s Abuse.  And whenever you treat someone else as less than Divine. 

As these issues arise, remember that Confusion is good.  Confusion is the first step of Growth, but only if we Allow Confusion to stand on its own.  If our Response is to compulsively Figure It Out, we can’t help but get stuck in our Old Birdcage.  That’s one of the worst elements of Abuse – as Divine Beings, it’s Unbelievably Confusing that someone would Abuse us.  Our Oaths in Response were to Allay Confusion.  We need to Celebrate Confusion instead, and this is our chance to Disavow those Oaths we made under duress.

At the top of the red square is the asteroid Karma.  Whoa.  Remember that Karma is not Retribution, as most folks use the word.  It’s Inertia, Habit Patterns.  Whenever the asteroid is Lit Up, there are probably Patterns – Oaths and their consequences – from Past or Parallel Lives that are impacting our current Lifetime.  It’s a Blessing, because every strong Angle that asteroid Karma makes is an Opportunity to Recognize the Patterns and make alternative Choices.

And at the bottom of the Grand Cross is the asteroid Lachesis.  Lachesis was one of the three “Fates” in the Greek Worldview, the one that measured the Length of a Timeline.  That might be a Lifetime, or it might be a particular theme or segment or other part of a Lifetime.  Again, in the Greek Myth, that was an apparently unavoidable Fate.  And again, we move toward Choice.

Karma, our Ancient Patterns, is so Easy to Choose because it’s so familiar that we take it for granted.  So Easy that we almost never Notice that it’s us that is Choosing it – we usually feel like it’s imposed upon us.  If in our Karmic Pattern C happened as a result of A and B, guess what we’re going to Expect when A and B happen now!  Expectation is an Unconscious Choice, and it’s a very Strong and very Subtle Manifestor. 

So the Critical piece of Changing a Timeline we don’t like, is Awareness.  We have to Consciously Notice the deja vu, and then we have to be Aware that we’re going to Expect certain consequences, and we have to Consciously turn those Expectations aside.  We have to Choose a fresh alternative. 

Like “No.”  Not “No!” – Neutrality is important.  Not “No thank you” – we don’t need to thank someone for not Respecting our Divinity.  Just “No.”  So there’s nothing for them to React to.  No Explanation, no discussion, no argument, except maybe “What is it about No that you don’t understand?”  But even that invites Discussion, so it’s better off to think it than say it. 

Then you walk away.  Into a crowd if you don’t Feel Safe.  Which suggests that you may want to be Alert this weekend.  Not necessarily paranoid, but you might want to Avoid situations where you’re Alone with someone you’re not sure you Trust completely.  When you first Notice the deja vu, you don’t want to be Alone with someone who reminds you of a past Abuse. 

That will make you paranoid and put you at a great disadvantage, because you’ll have lost your Neutrality, and you may be Afraid to say just “No.”  The likelihood that you’ll actually re-create a historical Abuse is small, because this is about Letting Go of Past Abuse Patterns.  We only have to re-create Abuse when we’ve been too blind for too long and our Soul has given up trying to point out our “Fate” to our Ego gently.