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Halloween

October 31, 2020

I always make a lot more sense when I’m answering a direct question. Tonight my wife asked me what was going on astrologically for Halloween…

The 2020 Halloween Blue Moon Full Moon is a Stand-In for the Big Event of next Tuesday, which is when dwarf planet Varuna is Max Strong. The Full Moon is Crossing Stationary Varuna as we speak. Varuna is the Life Force. Will we still have Health Care (even if it’s mostly Care for the Cartel’s wallets, alotta people depend on it) after the Election next week? Will we Survive the Carumbavirus? Will we be able to make rent and eat? Basic stuff, very First-Chakra. You’re Feeling it already.

Meanwhile, Mercury – Mental Noise – is Lit Up on Tuesday as well. So most people are paying more Attention to the Brainrattling than the real Survival Issue, and the Antichrist is a Master at Brainrattling. Then Tuesday evening the Moon goes Outabounds, till Friday, so everybody’s gonna be Freaking Out. As soon as Varuna calms down early Wednesday afternoon, asteroid Hopi takes over (Standing Still early Saturday Morning). Hopi means Respect for All Things. So the Minorities who really take the Brunt of the American Compete-Or-Die Ethic as the Poster Children for Varuna will be Lit Up because the Cops will stand behind the AK47-toting White Supremacists as they giddily shoot anybody with a BLM sign.

Then early in the week after the Election, Ceres = Sustainability enters Pisces. You can already hear the Gnashing of Teeth as Pisces over-emotionalizes Predatory Capitalism’s total lack of Sustainability. And it’s about time somebody did, because it’s Killing All of Us and the Planet too. But the Tuesday after the Big Day, Eurydike = Trust enters Leo= Confidence, making for a huge Contrast. That’s probably when we’ll get the first hint of whether there was any legitimacy to the Election, or at least a few numbers. It’s not till the 18th that Eurydike Stands Still though, so Confusion will continue to Reign until then as Teeth-Gnashing and Confidence Compete for the Dewey headlines.

But just because Eurydike in Leo is Strong, doesn’t mean that Trust rules the day, as the Moon goes Outabounds again from November 16th to the 19th, so everyone’s Emotions are End-of-the-World riled. The 19th is kind of a watershed day, as asteroid Moira moves into Capricorn. Moira is about Fate and Choice. When our Karma is Unconscious, it’s our Fate, we just sleepwalk it. Once we bring it in Consciousness, we have Choice and we can do anything we want. “What, Karma? Don’t be silly – Been there Done that! I’m Outa Here.”

If there’s Civil War to any extent, Remember that you don’t have to Play. You can Choose to be Separate from it.

Moira will separate the Teeth-Gnashers from the AK47-Egos from the folks who will just be Pragmatically (Capricorn) Choosing (Conscious Moira) to make the Best of Whatever’s Going Down. Except…

On the 22nd, dwarf planet Nessus, which is about Abuse and Privilege, is Max Strong (Stationary), and on the 20th dwarf planet Gonggong (no kidding, there really is a dwarf planet Gonggong!), which is about Intrusive Memories, is Max Strong. So everyone’s going to be Regressing into their best Halloween Victim Disguises, Projecting all of the Abuse they’ve ever Received into whatever’s going on in the Present Moment. Meanwhile the Privileged 1% will inhabit their own Paranoid They’re going to take my Money (and probably my Guns unless I shoot first) Victim Acts. The Privileged 1% of course own all of the Supreme Court now, so we can’t expect Daddy to Rescue us.

But then on (actually, until) the 28th, Neptune goes Max Strong. Neptune means Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, so Confusion will Reign in the fourth week of November. But mid-week, Eurydike=Trust backs out of Leo, leaving the strutting Confidence-Gamers with their pants around their ankles and their day-of-the-week underwear exposed. A few hours later on the 25th, asteroid Sappho finally leaves Scorpio for Sagittarius, and we get to stop hunting that mouse in the garage (our Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love = Sappho) with the shotgun (Scorpio) and just Begin to Surrender into it (Sadge).

Giving us a possibility of a reasonably Peaceful Thanksgiving (in the US). The day after Thanksgiving, though, asteroid Atropos goes Max Strong, and Atropos is about Letting Go of Karmic Patterns. If we’re Aware that this is going on, we can Thank Them for Their Service and Wish Them Success in Crippling Other People’s Futures as they saunter off down the road, and then Celebrate our newfound Liberation!

How many of us will actually be doing that though? Letting Go of Karma is Scary, because it’s all we know, it’s what we’ve been Living All of Our Life. We don’t know what to do with the Blank Space that’s left behind, and with Neptune Max Strong, the only thing we’ll be able to Celebrate is Confusion. Which is a fabulous Habit to make, because Confusion is the first stage of Growth. And of course we could Celebrate the Spiritual Clarity, if we’re willing to seek it or let it find us.

Kind of a Blockbuster month, wasn’t it.

Before we dive into it, you might want to Resolve to Avoid Ego-Identifying with all the Sturm und Drang und Drama, and spend November Passively Observing Who You Actually Are. Not just What am I Thinking and Feeling about all this Intense Drama, but also, WHO IS IT that’s doing this Thinking and Feeling? Forget all the Adjectives that come to mind – that’s just more Thinking. What if you were a very small Entity hanging out somewhere Inside your Body? Where would that Be? Would “It” move around to different places, or would “It” have a favorite hangout? (At this level it may not be a She or a He.) Or what if It was a very large Energy Field Surrounding your Body? How Big would that be? How is It Connected to your Body?

But it ain’t over yet. There are two more oh-so-relevant astroevents on November 29th. First asteroid Vesta, which symbolizes our Unconscious Limitations, Merges with dwarf planet Orcus, which is about Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking. It turns out that our Unconscious Limitations are the result of Oaths or Vows or Promises or even Decisions that we made in Other Lifetimes. As we discussed at length in the previous post, our Self-Limiting Beliefs will be Lit Up for several months so we can Recognize that That Ain’t Really Us and Choose to be Someone Else.

So on the 29th, and in the week or so leading up to it, our Limited Beliefs will Meet Their Makers. If we Forget that It’s about Letting Go, it’ll be really Easy to instead Grab them, because they’ll be so Familiar and therefore so Comfortable. We just need to Remember that any time Limitation or Bummers arise, Let Them Go. You don’t need to Understand anything, you can just Let It Go. If you can’t Remember what it was a few minutes later, that’s fabulous, you’ve indeed Let It Go.

And on the 29th, asteroid Karma (you can imagine what it symbolizes) moves into Virgo till 23 January. We don’t Let Go of Karma without an Ego Death, because if we weren’t Ego-Attached to it, it wouldn’t be Karma. And the Essence of Virgo is Ego Death. So this will be a Nightmare of Struggles if we Resist it. Don’t. You go to visit a friend and you don’t recognize their street. You wake up and you can’t Remember your Passwords. You Forget people’s names, even your friends and colleagues. You can’t recall how to hold a fork, for God’s sake! Those are Signs of Ego Death. Celebrate them.

Those are gentle Ego Deaths, the kind that arise after you’ve Realized you’re up against your own Limitations, and you’ve Prayed to Let Them Go in some way or another. The not-so-gentle Ego Deaths are times like when you get really Angry when someone Insults you, even inadvertently (I’m being kinda flippant in this post, a lot less careful with my Language than usual – I may have Insulted you several times already!). Or you get really Embarrassed when you Forget your boss’s name, and there’s no way your boss is every going to know what an Ego Death is, and you go away in Shame.

Unpleasant Emotions like Anger and Shame and Grief and Sorrow are clues that you’re approaching an Ego Death, and you have the Option of Choosing it – by Lovingly Embracing the Unpleasant Emotion in your Body, or Rejecting it – by Thinking yourself more Deeply into the Anger or Shame or Grief or Sorrow. No Self-Blame though – we need to Think ourself Deep enough into the Unpleasant Emotion to be able to Know what we’re Embracing. Embracing the name of an Emotion is Just Thinking, not an Ego Death at all, though using that as a Mantra might invoke the Emotion.

Asteroid Karma returns to Virgo in June, July, and August for the real Work, the December-January Teaser is just an introduction. Between February and May it’s Dodging back deep into Leo, to gather up more Limitations that you can Ego-Death into Has-Beens.

Handmaids and Handbaskets

October 28, 2020

Other than the fact that it actually is, there are several astroenergies about these days that can “make” us feel like the World is going to Hell in a Handbasket.

On 22 October 2020 for instance, asteroid Vesta, which symbolizes our Unconscious and Semi-Conscious Limiting Beliefs, entered Virgo, which, representing as it does Ego Death, is big on Criticism. Without Self-Criticism, where would our Motivation arise to propel us into Ego Death? — Which ranges from mostly Unpleasant to, more commonly, I’d rather Die than Do That! In between Self-Criticism and Ego Death, before we muster the Motivation to Actually Change, we Protect our Ego by Projecting our Self-Criticisms onto Others.

When we base our Ego on our Pet Peeves – “I’m not one of those People who…” – we can’t really say that our Limiting Beliefs are Unconscious, we just don’t Own them. So we have to refer to them as Semi-Conscious. If we put some thought into it, and/or enlist our Honest friends, we could all easily catalog our “Unconscious” Limiting Beliefs. They aren’t hidden. They’re writ huge in the current Political Polarity, where some folks are Choosing Homicide over Ego Death. The people with a Compulsive need to Control your Behavior preach about Freedom, while the people who are Compelled to Do what they Want preach about Control.

In my own back yard, I’m Praying that all of the ways my father predicted my Failures are Lit Up because They’re Leaving Town, not because they’re coming home to roost. Meanwhile I’m sure wasting a lot of Energy Fighting them Off. I should be Accepting them, not because he was right about me, but because I have to Accept them as Self-Criticisms before I can Motivate my own Ego Death and Let Them Go for good. Till then I’m driven by the Trance that his repeated disdain installed in the Unconscious that I Live with.

Because I Experienced his Energy as a wet blanket on mine, I used to think that his Saturn must be on my Sun. Once I knew how to check though, I discovered that it’s my Saturn that was on his Sun! Growing up in the Depression, where there were always a hundred people lined up to take whatever job he could get, he had to suppress the Lightheartedness of his Gemini Sun in order to avoid being seen as a flibbertigibbet. Growing up as I did in the 50s and 60s, after his Generation had busted their butts to rebuild a World Economy (not that it’s a solid measure of anything, but it wasn’t until 1954 that the stock market exceeded its 1929 high), my own Gemini Saturn flibbertigibbet was a source of Pride.

Since we’re only a Deflation-Delaying Ongoing Heroic Monetary Stimulus or a Hyperinflation away from our next Great Depression – many are already there – it’s appropriate that my father’s Information would emerge for me now from the Unconscious. I even had a vivid dream yesterday of setting up a homeless camp for myself in an empty corner of a strip mall. My camp wasn’t protected from rain or cold, it had no latrine or provision for food or sleep, but because it featured what have more or less been prize possessions for me for much of my Life, I was happy with it. Bookcases! It was made of Empty Bookcases. Clap your hands! Till strangers feigning Authority started prying them apart looking for contraband and woke me up.

So Virgo will be Lighting Up all of our Self-Limiting Beliefs, until mid-July 2021. Mostly we’ll Experience these as Judgments of Other People. It’s Safe to assume that whatever we Judge in Others is a caricature of an important part of Ourself that we don’t Allow to Express itself. These caricatures are Funhouse Mirrors and are seldom easy to decypher, especially anal-ytically. Since we’ve banished them to Live in the Unconscious, we’re more likely to find success by PIAVAing them.

We may be particularly Open to Insight around 9-10 November, as Vesta is Strong then (Standing Still), while the Moon crosses it. That begins our real Ego Death Curriculum, as Vesta enters what astrologers call its “Shadow Period,” the window of its Retrogradation. Between 9 November 2020 and 27 June 2021, Vesta Dances across 7-22 Virgo three times. If this process unfolds like it often does, our Troublesome Semi-Conscious Evil Twins will Act Out between 9 November 2020 and 19 January 2021. They may be especially Active around 7 December and 4 January, when the Moon visits Vesta.

Vesta first crosses 7 Virgo on 9 October, and then on 19 January, in 22 Virgo, it turns Retrograde and starts moving Backwards. It Retrogrades from 22 back to 7 Virgo until 20 April 2021. During this period we should be gaining Insight into our Projected Self-Judgments, with a boost from the Moon around 1 and 27 February and 26 March.

Finally, after 20 April, we enter the “Confidence-Building” phase, as Vesta moves forward (“Direct”) again, crossing 7-22 Virgo for the third time – by then we’ll have become “Old Hands” at using Ego Death to Claim our Projected Self-Judgments as Our Own, and if we Succeed we’ll be much closer to the Unconditional Self-Love that we need to move into The Light. The Moon will again Clarify things around 23 April, 20 May, and 17 June, and we Graduate from the whole Retrograde Adventure on 27 June 2021.

And when any planet Dances across the same patch of astrological surreal estate thrice, it’s going to get pretty Intimate with any other planet that happens to be Dancing in that same patch at the same time. So, anybody Sitting Around in the middle half of Virgo these days?

Yes, dwarf planet Orcus. “Does anybody remember Orcus,” as Robert Plant famously almost sang? The Fearsome Mythic Orcus worked for the Pre-Romans, Punishing Oath-Breakers. With Women closer to Property than People in those days, Relationship Oaths weren’t the Issue so much as Loyalty Oaths for soldiers and servants and perhaps business dealings. The problem with Oaths, and their equivalents Vows, Promises, Commitments, and even Decisions, is that they’re Sticky. These days, many of us Swear a lot, casually. We may want to reconsider what we’re Doing there.

Since we Feared the Punishment for Oath-Breaking, we worked hard to Avoid it, and the Easiest way to do that was to “Forget” that it was a Decision (which could theoretically be Renegotiated), and instead consider it to be Just The Way Things Are. If we can succeed at that, Reneging doesn’t even seem possible. And while we may not be able to take Money with us from one Lifetime to the next, we can certainly take Attitudes. So when we Forget a Decision and it becomes Just The Way Things Are, it becomes Karma, and will Follow us around till we figure out What we need to Renounce, and How to do it.

The How is actually Easy, we just need to Realize that a Limitation isn’t Just The Way Things Are, it’s Just our Karma, and Karma is only Sticky because we’re so Comfortable thinking that it’s Just The Way Things Are. The What is a bigger question, being another Funhouse Mirror that we’re probably Projecting on Others. If we aren’t always in Abundance (Having Enough to Share) in our current Lifetime for instance, When and To Whom might “we” have Sworn an Oath of Poverty or the equivalent? Maybe that Convent in France in the 7th Century? Or was it even on Earth? Maybe we were a Coyote and felt sorry for the Squirrels.

That kind of info isn’t always the Easiest to Retrieve, especially with “Left Brain” methods. We’ll be rooting in the Unconscious, so we’ll need PIAVA again. Maybe something like a Theta – “God/Goddess, Creator of All There Is, I Command that I Connect to All of my Vows of [e.g. Poverty] in All of my Lifetimes. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!” We don’t need to Remember them all – there may be a bewildering number. We just need to Flash on our Frame of Mind and Heart while we were Swearing the Oath.

Then, while we’re there, we may need some sort of Renunciation Ritual. Writing and Burning perhaps, or “Revert!“, or whatever works for you. Another Theta might work, maybe “God/Goddess, Creator of All There Is, I Command that I Now Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely Renounce All of my Vows of [Poverty] in All of my Lifetimes. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!”

If you don’t Feel a sense of Immediate Liberation, check to see if you skipped over a Yes-But or two. Then Tap Out any remaining Resistance – “Even though I have Resistance to Letting Go of [Poverty], I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself…” Then repeat your Renunciation Theta, and alternate Theta and Tapping till you Feel the Liberation you Want. If it’s not working, sleep on it and try again tomorrow. We can’t always Change Lifetimes of Habit in a single sitting.

Vesta first crosses Orcus on 29 November (4pm PST), in 14 Virgo, while both planets are Direct (moving forward). Considering the Players, this may be a fairly Explosive Experience, as our Unconscious Limitation literally “Meets its Maker.” We usually refer to this first of the three events in a Triple-Crossing as a “Can-Opener,” as a Can of Worms often appears in our Life, sometimes fairly Traumatically. If you have any natal planets in mid-Virgo, that’ll Complicate matters and make the Experience more Intense.

We can often dodge Trauma just by knowing that such an event is about to occur. If, say, our natal Mars is in mid-Virgo, and wee’re Conscious that an “Event” is about to Go Off, we can be Alert for any sign that Anger or Physical Injury is about to happen, and Revert it. A few days prior, we can Theta that we’ll be particularly Alert for the next week. A few Kegels can Slow Time for us so we can be more Aware. Sometimes nothing happens just because we’re Aware. Even if a Trauma sneaks up on us, as they often do, knowing what was going on astrologically can help us interpret “our own” role in the event and Neutralize our Victimhood.

We aren’t “Blaming the Victim” for Traumatic events, we’re Recognizing that Life is Fully Interactive. We actually Invite our Experiences, sometimes Consciously and sometimes Unconsciously. When we can Intuit or Figure Out Who in the Underwhere is Inviting our Unpleasant Experiences, we can Ask them what their Needs and Wants are, remind them of our then-Ego’s Needs and Wants, and Renegotiate with them to move toward Win-Win, where each of our “parts” is helping the other Achieve their Goals.

In this process “both of us” are usually Changed, as we move toward Knowing that We Are They and They Are Us and eventually Drop All Separation. This is the Growth in Consciousness that asteroid Juno presides over. What’s Juno got to do with all this? As we speak, Juno is Quintiling Vesta, and Quintiles (one fifth of the Zodiac or 72 Degrees) are about Teaching and Learning. On 29 November, Juno will Quintile Vesta-Orcus.

Also on 29 November, Neptune will be Standing Still (Strong) in Pisces, roughly Opposite Vesta-Orcus. Neptune likes to Confuse everything Material so we can Clearly see the Spiritual side of things. We may also be Letting Go of Abuse Patterns (Nessus Opposite Vesta-Orcus), Discovering Unexpected Heart Truths (Aletheia Quincunx V-O), Breaking Patterns that have Inhibited our Rebirth (Klotho Unx V-O), and Enjoying Clarity on Guilt and Codependence (Nemesis Sextile and Hylonome Trine V-O). Busy day – mark your calendar!

We refer to the second event of a Triple-Crossing as the “Exposition,” because it usually Exposes much more about whatever occurred at the Can-Opener. At any Exposition, the faster planet (here Vesta) will be Retrograde, which will Slow whatever processes are occurring so we can see them more Clearly. In this case, Orcus will also be Retrograde. The Vesta-Orcus Exposition occurs on 13 March 2021 in 13 Virgo.

We call the final of the three crossings a “Confidence-Builder,” because by now, if we’ve been Paying Attention, we’re Experienced with the Collision and Collusion of these two Energies, and we know how to Respond. The Vesta-Orcus Confidence-Builder happens on 25 May 2021 in 12 Virgo. Orcus is Standing Still and Turning Direct (Strongest) when this occurs, so we can Expect it to be particularly Powerful.

That’s one of the astroevents that can help us feel like the World is going to Hell in a Handbasket. The other Biggie is asteroid Nemesis (Guilt and Ego Death) moving into Scorpio (Fearlessness about Getting to the Bottom of Things). That happened a few days ago, on 26 October (2:40 pm PDT). Actually, both Nemesis and Scorpio can Feel a lot more ominous than either Vesta or Virgo, so hopefully we’ll have time to write soon about how this will Unfold. Nemesis only stays in Scorpio for three months, though it returns for seven weeks next summer.

And while we’re on the subject of Sign Changes, asteroid Klotho (Beginning New TimeLines) moved into Libra (Meeting Other) on 17 October for three months. That was probably a Relief after nine weeks in Virgo, where we would have been Clearing Resistance to Being Reborn.

Heavy Fortnight 1

June 1, 2020

Marilyn Raffaele’s Channeling of the Arcturians for today is a fabulous summary of our recent Expansion of Consciousness Adventure…

https://onenessofall.com/newest.html

 

“To help children feel that they aren’t alone with their feelings,” my friend Kalli Dakos, an acclaimed children’s book author (see https://www.amazon.com/s?k=kalli+dakos&ref=nb_sb_noss_1 and http://www.kallidakos.com/), educational consultant, and thoroughly delightful person, offers as her generous Gift to the World these wonderful poems for children about COVID-19.  I sobbed all the way through them.  Please share them with parents and teachers, and anyone who works with children, that you know

http://www.kallidakos.com/covid19.html

 

Heavy two weeks coming, on many counts.  It’s 5-12 June 2020 that’s likely to be Heaviest, but the more Sensitive among us will already be Feeling it Beginning.  Here’s a skeleton outline of our June Gauntlets…

  • 5 June (12:12 pm PDT) – Heavy Full Moon (many reasons; in 16 Sagittarius).
  • 6 June (11:15 am PDT) to 8 June (8:15 am PDT) – Probable Excess Emotionality (Moon Out of Bounds in 30 Sagittarius-25 Capricorn).
  • Until 10 June (11:15 am PDT) – Probable Excess Polarization (asteroid Aletheia [Truth of the Heart] Stationary in 15 Aquarius).
  • Until 12 June (6:30 am PDT) – Abuse and Privilege are Prominent (dwarf planet Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] Stationary in 14 Pisces).
  • Until 15 June (2:50 am PDT) – Opportunity to Let Go of Karma (asteroid Moira [Fate and Choice] Stationary in 8 Scorpio).  Two weeks after the big demonstrations.
  • Until 18 June (11am PDT) – We Get What We Ask For, literally, with the Unconscious Asking as well (dwarf planet Makemake [Manifestation] Stationary in 5 Libra).
  • Until 19 June – Invitation to Liberate our Hidden Genius (South Node [Karma] crosses dwarf planet Ixion [Forbidden Genius]).
  • 20 June (9:30 pm PDT) to 22 June (8pm PDT) – Probable Excess Emotionality (Moon Out of Bounds in 30 Gemini to 25 Cancer).
  • 20 June (10:45 pm PDT) – Self-Love New Moon in 1 Cancer.
  • Until 22 June (9:30 pm PDT) – Confusion (Neptune [Material Confusion, Spiritual Clarity] Stationary in 21 Pisces).
  • Until 29 June (11pm PDT) – Regression to 5 April (Jupiter Conjunct Pluto [Expansion Required] in 25 Capricorn).

Those many reasons for the Heaviness of the 5 June Full Moon?

#1. The Full Moon in 16 Sagittarius Channels (sits in front of) a Cosmically Immense Weight (a place we can’t see, because it’s behind the Milky Way, that has such Immense Gravity that it’s sucking everything toward it; it’s called the Great Attractor, in 15 Sagittarius).

#2. Our Essence (the Full-Moon Sun in 16 Gemini) is sandwiched between the symbol for Ending Timelines (asteroid Atropos) and the symbol for our Held Emotions (asteroid Karma), those we’d rather Die than Feel.  That is, We would rather Die than Feel – Facing these Emotions requires an Ego Death.

#3. The Full Moon is Challenged (T-Squared) by Abuse and our Angry Memories thereof, and by our Guilt about our Privilege (Stationary dwarf planet Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] Conjunct Mars [Anger] in 14-16 Pisces).

However, the Abuse and Anger are Merged with the symbol for Sustainability (dwarf planet Ceres).  How would we make Anger and Abuse Sustainable?  We’d use PIAVAs and Healthy Anger – ie, Good Boundaries – to Recognize and Revert Abuse without Creating unnecessary Limitations for ourself and without Alienating non-Abusers.  Subtle and Sophisticated, but this Combination gives us the Opportunity to Practice Finessing such a thing.

It can also be an Opportunity for us to Practice Actions (Mars) that Sustain (Ceres) our Willingness to Receive Abundance without painting it with Privilege (Nessus) and Guilt (Mars).  To work on Letting Go of having to Deserve Abundance, and Recognizing it as our Birthright.

#4. The Full Moon is also Challenged (T-Squared) by Guilt (asteroid Nemesis) and Karmic Limitations (dwarf planet Orcus [Oath-Making and -Breaking])Karma is formed by making an Oath or Vow or Promise or Decision, working hard to toe the line, forgetting we made the Oath, and coming to Believe that toeing this line is not just a Decision, but the Right Thing to Do or even the Only Thing to Do (Orcus)A formal Oath adds Social Pressure.  This puts us into Either/Or Dualistic Morality, which excludes not just the Other Side of the Duality, but the Other Dimensions as well – Unconscious Limitations in other words.

We interpret this Energy (Nemesis) as the Painful Experience of Ego Death, or the Need for Ego Death because it’s our Olde Ego that stands between us and our PIAVAed Goals.  The Ego’s justification, Consciously or Unconsciously, for Avoiding a worthwhile Ego Death, is often Loyalty to a long-forgotten Oath (Orcus).  In other words, this is an Opportunity to Practice Liberation via Oath-Breaking.

That however, will bring the wrath of both Nemesis (Mystic Punisher of Wrong-Doers) and Orcus (Mythic Punisher of Oath-Breakers) upon us – which we will then have to Recognize as Ego Death, and Endure it while Focusing on the Unknown Freedom that lies on the Far Side of it.

But there’s Good News – this Heavy Issue #4 is Self-Resolving (a Diamond Star Configuration), so any Work we do on it is Extra Credit, and we may not have to do any Work at all.

Many of you have already figured out that we’ve described a Grand Cross, with is usually about many smallish Hassles that end up Complementing one another while we end up very busy keepin’ on keepin’ on, and practicing our multi-tasking.

But it’s still a very heavy chart for very heavy times.  The 5 June Full Moon, the 10 June Aletheia Station, and 12 June Nessus Station are all on the same chart (ie, their impacts may not be easily Separable from one another) because they all happen in the same week in nearly the same Degrees, 14-16 Degrees of their respective Signs.  As the beginning of a Lunar Phase we’d expect the Full Moon to impact at least the following two weeks; as an asteroid Station we’d expect the Aletheia Station to impact the preceding several days; as a dwarf-planet Station we’d expect the Nessus Station to impact at least the preceding week, and Overlap usually means Merging…

the Most Important Thing 5

May 23, 2020

Before I forget, the Moon goes Out of Bounds again from 2:38 pm PDT 24 May till 1:23 pm PDT 26 May 2020.  Emotions run more Strongly when the Moon is Out of Bounds, which it does for several days every two weeks for 10-11 years, then not at all for the following 10-11 years.  We just started one of these decade-long “OOB” periods.  The Moon first went OOB on 19 February, the day the US stock market peaked.  The first day of the previous Moon-OOB decade was 11 September 2001 (“9/11”).

I’d call that Progress for Collective Huperity, to go from War to Pandemic in twenty years.  The Moon’s next OOB adventures were 4 March and 16-17 March.  On 23 March the US stock market finished 33% lower than its February high, the most rapid decline ever of that size.  Next up were 31 March-1 April, 12-14 April, 27-29 April, and 10-12 May.  Next month, the Moon will be OOB on 6-8 June and 20-22 June.  Watch for Emotional Reactivity and sharpened Instincts.

Well, I though we were getting a Break, but now I see that I was just looking at an incomplete calendar.  During and after our Big Expansion (Jupiter Station) event of 14 May, I missed astroevents about Truth (asteroid Veritas Stationary) on 15 May, about Boundaries (Pallas Station) on 17 May, about Self-Love (asteroid Sappho Stationary) on 19 May, and I was just about to miss an event about Oath-Breaking (Station of dwarf planet Orcus) on 23 May.  No wonder everything has felt so Rushed.

We aver that our Karma – which is Inertia from Obsolete Habits that we had cast in Stone in other Lifetimes – is the result of having made an Oath, then worked so hard to keep the Oath that we made the Habit Automatic, then Forgot that we made the Oath, and finally began to regard the Habit as “just the way it is,” without Realizing that Changing it is well within our Power.

We’re aghast at how slavishly the Antichrist’s minions lap up his ample excrement, but we React that way because we worked so hard to Forget that sucking up to Power was the only way to Survive in many situations in Times past.  We’re aghast that others haven’t Let Go of that Karma yet.  Even if we successfully maintained our own Homestead out in the Boonies, it was probably rare that one warlord or another didn’t send well-armed tax collectors and army recruiters by to help themselves to our harvest and our first-born.

The symbol for Oath-Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus) is also the symbol for Oath-Making, and it applies equally to Vows, Promises, Resolutions, and even Decisions.  As we move through this Quickening of our Journey to 5D, haven’t we been Making Oaths to Revert the Addictive and Abusive Karmic Patterns that keep us locked in 3D?  That’s good, but we also need to Recognize that we’re trading one Vow for another, and all Vows will be Hindrances in 5D.

In 5D we won’t need to use the mind’s Dualistic Habits as Enforcers, because we’ll be Living from Unconditional Self-Trust and Self-Love and Self-Acceptance.  Whatever happens, It Is What It Is, and what we think about What It Is will just put us back in 3D.  What did you Think we were Practicing when we spent the 1960s Stoned, Spaced Out, and just Grooving on everything?

The End of Time as We Know It in 2012 was about Making the 1960s Permanent, Remember (Uranus Waxing Square Pluto, following the remarkable 9 October 1965 Uranus-Pluto Conjunction at 18 Virgo, “A Ouija Board“)?  Isn’t it Curious that Maryjane is becoming Legal now, and Psilly with it.  Wouldn’t hurt to review that chart, since it’s the Fundamental chart of the Zeitgeist for the rest of this Century, Defining how we as Individual Souls (Uranus) relate to the Unconscious (Pluto), which is basically Everything that is Not-Me or Not-Ego-in-this-Moment.  Growth in Consciousness involves Stepping Into that Fathomless place, and by the way, did we mention that the symbol for Growth in Consciousness is Lit Up next week (asteroid Juno Stationary 8pm PDT 26 May).

Here’s the Orcus Station chart…

Flying Squirrels are unusually popular these days, and this one is missing its tail.  That’s a problem, because its tail is its rudder, which it would use to steer.  But then, the symbol for Oath-Breaking (Orcus) is Merged with the symbol for Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis), and yes, we can’t Revert a Karmic Oath without Enduring an Ego Death, and yes, by definition we have to Surrender Control when we descend into Ego Death.  This is Rocky’s left (Feminine) foot.

The other Players here are quite amazing.

Rocky’s right foot is the symbol for Fate and Choice (asteroid Moira) – whether we’re going to continue Denying that our Self-Sabotaging Patterns are Karmic and Accept them as the Way It Is, or Wake Up to the Realization that we can Choose to replace them with What We Want.

Rocky’s left front paw Merges his Karma (asteroid Karma) with the symbol for Consciously Ending Fated TimeLines (asteroid Atropos).  His right front paw is the symbol for Truth of the Heart (asteroid Aletheia).  His left ear is the symbol for his Soul (Uranus).

His head – literally, Where he’s Headed – is the Merger of Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) and Miracles (Chiron).  If we’re falling instead of soaring, we can also read this Lilith-Chiron as Despair over our Codependence.  But we know better.  We know that Despair is an  Emotion, and over our Codependence is grammatically an Object.  This reminds us that we’re Thinking about our Emotions, which is Toxic.  We need to Feel them instead.

We also know that the Miracle of Chiron is turning Despair inside out by Poor-Sweethearting ourselfThe Mythic Chiron was the Unhealable Healer.  When we shift from “I’m Discouraged” to “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Discouraged, aren’t you” we shift our Identity from Despair to Empathy, and it’s Empathy that Heals the Unhealable.

Rocky’s right ear is at first puzzling.  His other extremities have all been codified instructions for Healing our Karma by Oath-Breaking.  But this one appears to be Sustainable Action about Abuse (dwarf planet Ceres [Sustainability], Mars [Action], and dwarf planet Nessus [Abuse], Merged [Conjunct]).  But the symbol for Abuse is also the symbol for Privilege (Nessus).  There is no Abuse without Privilege.  So we can read it as Action to Sustain Privilege.

Moving into 5D, where we Collaborate and Cooperate with every element of our entire Universe, and every element Collaborates and Cooperates with us, is an incredible Privilege.  Do we Deserve such a Gift?  Isn’t our Deservingness a key anchor into 3D for us?  As we’re Empathizing with the Suffering and Deprivation of the coronavirus victims and the suddenly Unemployed, how can we Justify Privilege to ourselves?  A key to Sustaining Privilege (it’s even hard to write without Feeling Guilt) is Gratitude.

And Realizing that Abundance means Having Enough to Share.  Do we seek the Privilege of Abundance, or the Privilege of Wealth (having enough to Hoard)?  As we Share our Abundance, what are we Feeling?  It would be a surprise if the Ego wasn’t Indulging a bit of Better-Than.  That’s what Egos do for a Living.  Do we Lovingly and Gently Acknowledge that, without Judgment?  Or do we Identify with the Better-Than hit, and Enjoy it?  Do we just Empathize with our Ego, agreeing with it that Privilege Feels Good, without Becoming it?

Are we Reliving the many times and Lifetimes when we’ve been Without, often unto Death?  Another huge Ego-Death Opportunity, to Let Go of our Addiction to Not-Having.  What Oaths might we have made in one or more of those Lifetimes, or in this one, that Allowed us to sink into Scarcity?  Vows of Poverty without accompanying PIAVAs for Grace?  We don’t need to wait for Answers to those Questions.

We just need to PIAVA Abundance and Grace, while we Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely Let Go of All Impediments to it.  (We avoid the term Release because we don’t want anyone thinking we want to Renew our Lease on the Impediments.)  It would be a good place to use that technique of alternating between Theta Healing and Tapping until we’re Satisfied that we’re Feeling Solid about our Direction and our Progress.  We’ve described that process in several posts recently.

Oh, wait.  What about the Vacancy that would fill in the Squirrel’s tail and complete the Configuration, so we can Soar and Coast to our Heart’s content and still retain Healthy Control?  After all, we always want Both/And, right?

The Vacancy is 11 Libra, “A professor peering over their glasses at their students.”  Well, we know the professor embodies Privilege, having considerable Power over their students.  And the professor probably Feels okay about having that Power.  We know that they’re Far-Sighted, to be peering over their glasses, like Chuck Schumer does.  I don’t detect any Judgment in their peering.  Perhaps they’re Feeling Wonder.

Any stray asteroids?  Aha, asteroid Elatus is at 14 Libra, within orb.  Anyone ever hear of Elatus?  Certainly not me.  Turns out the Mythic Elatus was a Centaur, and the poison arrow that Wounded Chiron passed through his arm (killing him) on its way to Chiron’s knee!  As my former Chief Asteroid Officer (who had some magical way to look these things up) used to say, You can’t make this stuff up! 

So how will this help us Steer our Flying Squirrel into 5D?  First we assume that Death is a Soul’s Choice, to move on to something more critical, or celebrate the completion of a task.  From this Perspective, we don’t seek 5D alone.  Even if we don’t know them, we make this Journey as a Tribe.  We are not Alone.

The Star Vindemiatrix, the Grape Picker and the right wing of Virgo, is also close by at 10 Libra.  She symbolizes carefully Harvesting what we have Sown, a hint at Deservingness. 

Several Stars of the minor Constellation Corvus are also within Orb.  Corvus the Crow is a Scavenger, but doesn’t seem Ashamed of his profession.  He’s reputed to be very smart, persistently pursuing What He Wants in clever and inventive ways.  Not Proud, but Competent and Self-Possessed.  He Defends his Lineage from the assaults of Eagle by enlisting help from his Kin.

Orcus

April 4, 2020

A reader and friend asks…

“I wanted to ask you if you could look at Orcus in all of this – I have felt compelled to read Richard Tarnas’s chapter on SAT/PLU and am about to look at Jupiter in the mix but last year I read Jeremy Allan Neal’s book on Orcus which is quite chilling – some of the key words are Confinement, Imprisonment and Pitilessness.  He says you can’t really understand Orcus until you’ve thoroughly understood Pluto – so here’s our chance!”

Here’s my response…

The essence of Conservatism is a Reliance on and Loyalty to Authority.  So to a Conservative, an Oath may be Life-or-Death.  On the other hand, to Self-Sovereign people who Value Yintegrity, an Oath is a matter of pragmatism, and Renegotiated or if necessary Reverted when it becomes obsolete.  Not necessarily casually, but basically, Living is more important than Oaths.  The problem with Oaths is that we usually take them seriously enough while they serve us, that we commit to Habit the Behaviors and Thought Patterns that they demand of us.  Then we forget that the Habit serves the Oath, and presto, we’ve created Karma and Limiting Beliefs rigid Behavior that may have no Purpose relative to our Values in subsequent Lifetimes or Time Provinces, and often Sabotages those Values.

So I emphasize the Pattern-Breaking side of Orcus rather than Habit-Making or Oath-Obedience, as Pattern-Breaking is necessary for Letting Go of Karma, literally by definition.  So yes, Orcus was in charge of Punishing Oath-Breakers, with whatever horrors and tortures you can imagine.  Like Nemesis, Guilt in other words, which can actually Kill when taken to Extremes.  We can count the number of ex-cabinet members in the Antichrist’s cabinet, if we have enough fingers and toes, as examples of folks who did or appeared to Break their explicit or implicit Oath of Loyalty to the Antichrist – typical Conservative stuff, and Lit Up now because we’re entering the Age of Aquarius, wherein Ideology (Fixed Air) may be more prominent than sympathy and understanding, harmony and trust abounding – hairstyles are often symbols of Ideology and conformity.

Many couples, for instance, just grow in different directions, Like Jeff Bezos and his lovely ex, and if Guilt (Orcus) doesn’t force them to sneak around, they can talk about the Truth and if appropriate agree to go their separate ways without Abandoning one another.  That’s a lot closer to Unconditional Love than the alternatives, though sometimes more like sociopathy.  Now with Karma, the original Oath was not Current-Lifetime, so the Guilt or Fear of Punishment is a Paper Tiger, a Shadow Puppet that we can walk right through once we Recognize what’s going on.  Of course, since we don’t have an easy way to link the original Oath to the current Karmic Pattern, we usually have to do an Ego Death, perhaps many, to break the Trance created by the Habitualization of the Oath.

When generalized, we come to Cultural Taboos, violating which can lead to Banishment, which were often fatal in Cultures that didn’t do Walkabouts or Vision Quests.  Self-Banishment via Guilt is our current equivalent, unless we find a way to Celebrate “long beautiful hair / Shining, gleaming, steaming, flaxen, waxen / Give me down to there hair, shoulder length or longer hair” or the like.  So yes, Orcus is a task-master, but what he polices is mostly Ghostly.  Like the Sisiutl of the Canadian West Coast, we need to “stand still” and avoid his gaze, till he approaches so close that he sees his own second head when he looks at us, and turns himself to stone.

Not that Oaths don’t serve a Present-Moment Purpose, but if they’re made to keep us Safe, and they aren’t renegotiable, they can prohibit us from seeking Liberation and hence EnLightenment.  They’re pretty much Win-Win only if we crave Limitation.  Nothing wrong with that, as long as it’s synchronous with our Values.  Of defined duration would also be useful, so we can Avoid accumulating more Karma.  Otherwise, we tend to Betray ourself Unconsciously, which isn’t all that uncommon.

In the Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar Station chart (ie, current Transits, drawn in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/03/27/tumultuous-week-1/), Orcus Trioctiles Pluto and Trines asteroid Karma.  Most astrofolks would consider 135° a Sesquisquare, or junior Square.  I consider it a combination of the Third and Eighth Harmonics (tri- and -oct), or a meeting of Love with Wisdom (Third) and Restoring Balance (Eighth), which sounds pretty great to me.  The mechanism may not Feel so Loving for many of us, but the astrology suggests that we’re being Compelled (Pluto) to Lovingly Rebalance (trioctile) our Relationship to our Oaths, Vows, Promises, and Decisions, aka Let Go of our Karma.

Of course, a prominent Taboo of Western Culture is Acceptance of Death, so it does make sense, doesn’t it.  But to take that a couple of steps deeper, by accepting the philosophies of Allopathic Medicine, we’ve implicitly Decided to let ourselves be Victims of Microbes like the Coronavirus rather than embracing this Big Opportunity to Claim our Sovereignty over our own Body (ie, Chiron-Lilith Trine Varuna-Lachesis).  A Decision is just a Vow, linguistically disguised.  It may not be as initially Obvious, but our Languaging Colors our Reality just as our Oaths Influence our Behavior.

2019 Q4 II

October 24, 2019

From Dan Scranton’s Arcturian Council…

https://rainbowwaveoflight.wordpress.com/2019/10/23/the-final-months-of-2019-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/

“We are extremely excited about the potential that we see for humanity to continue to evolve in leaps and bounds for the rest of 2019.  We are seeing a trend amongst all of you where you are gaining momentum, and you are doing this by accessing the wisdom of all of your previous selves that you’ve ever been.  The wisdom that you have acquired over all of your lifetimes in this universe is becoming more available to you now because of the integration work that you are doing in this time of ascension.  And that wisdom means that you have stronger intuitive hits, stronger impulses.  It means that your downloads are coming fast and furiously, and it also means that you are very productive while you are sleeping.

“You’re opening yourselves up to these past [parallel] life versions of yourselves because they are hurting, because they are in need of your support.  They need you to help them reintegrate.  They need you to help them clear their traumas.  We know that this has been a lot of work for all of you, and we know that you have suffered quite a bit.  You felt intense emotions and didn’t know why or where they were coming from.  You’ve also experienced a tremendous amount of what we call ascension symptoms, and all of the upgrades to your bodies and your chakras have been very trying on your patience with this process of ascension.

“But in these final months that you have for the remainder of this year, you get to reap the rewards for all that hard work, all that you have endured, just by being there on Earth.  Earth is not a proving ground, and it’s not a testing facility, but it often feels that way to you.  The fact that you are ascending in this lifetime means that you signed up to face all of the trauma and the stuck negative emotions in this one lifetime, and it’s about time that you got some positive results from all of that hard work.

“The wisdom that you are downloading now will propel humanity into a higher echelon, and many of you will have your fifth dimensional experiences and think that the shift is upon you.  There’s a bit more time that needs to unfold before that happens, but you are well on your way, and this time now is when humanity takes a giant leap forward.”

Although our own Ascension is not dependent upon Humanity doing so, unless we make that Decision.  If we’ve already so Vowed, the 26 October Klotho Station T-Square to Orcus-Neptune gives us the Opportunity to Revert it.  The Bodhisattva Vow is that we’ll Return to assist Others, not that we’ll defer our own Enlightenment for it.  We can send Blessings, but we can’t do anyone else’s Work for them.  They have to make their own Choices or non-Choices.