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Big Eclipse I

August 15, 2017

The 21 August Total Eclipse of the Sun, which spans the US from coast to coast, is in the last Degree of Leo, “A mermaid emerges from the ocean waves ready for rebirth in human form.”  This is William-Adolphe Bouguereau’s Vision of Her, from http://artsnpaintings.blogspot.com/1978/07/birth-of-venus.html

Leo 29 is the place where the Ego goes to Die.  Which is cause for High Celebration, for everyone except the Sacrificial Ego, as it’s the only way we can Grow. 

The Eclipse is in the base of a Square Fez…

The Squares or Challenges (heavy red lines) are about…

  • Fear (Eclipse Square to Stationary Sedna) and Anger, if you need that to Defend your Boundaries against Fear
  • Responsibility (Chiron Square to the Pholus-Quaoar Conjunction) to Shift from Indulging Emotional Overwhelm, to Trusting our Survival Instincts

We can sure see all that going on in the USofA!

However, the Challenges aren’t the Main Effect in a Square Fez (unless you make the Choice to lend them your Attention/Energy), the Quincunxes (the heavy green lines) are.  The Quincunxes are about Curiosity.  Not about Problem-Solving, but about the sort of Curiosity that Invites Intuition – basically, Awe and Wonder.  The Quincunxes suggest…

  • “I Wonder what it would look like to Take Responsibility for my Fear”
  • “I Wonder if there are better Responses to Emotional Overwhelm, than Self-Pity”

Certainty Reinforces your Olde Ego; Curiosity Reinforces Growth.  If you watch the News it’s Really Easy to see how Certainty is Retrogressive.

An Eclipse is a rare Opportunity to Receive Shaktipat directly from the Unity of God/Goddess (Sun/Moon), and a Total Solar Eclipse is the Queen of Eclipses.  Turn your Palms upward, roll your Eyes up, Empty yourself, and Open to Enlightenment during the Eclipse.

This particular Square Fez is a Pointy Square Fez, with our Soul Self (Uranus) at the peak of the narrow side or top of the Fez.  That creates Grace without Reserve (a Grand Trine) between our Enlightenment (the Eclipse), our Responsibility (Pholus-Quaoar), and our Soul Self (Uranus).  That’s an enormous Blessing for us, and the only cost is that we shift our Attention from the Challenges to the Wonder.

There’s an additional Stealth Challenge and Curiosity that fills the Void created by the Ego Death.  The Challenge part is apparent Conflict between what our Soul Wants and C (Uranus Square Varuna).  The Curiosity is about “I Wonder what I might Feel if I Surrender to Life Energy without trying to Edit or Limit it.” 

The Uranus-Square Varuna Challenge can be Healed by the Curiosity in the Varuna-Pholus/Quaoar Quincunx, which Opens us to the Pholus/Quaoar-Uranus Trine – ie, a Tricolor Configuration.

In case you missed the Implication, Ego Death is Heralded by the Birth of Pure Feminine Energy.  It’s interesting that the Life Force itself (Varuna), which exceeds What Our Olde Reality Believes Is Possible, sits in the first Degree of Leo (the Ego), while the Eclipse occupies the last Degree.  In other words, if we’re Open to it and successfully court Curiosity instead of Certainty, we can now Manage our Lives from our Instincts rather than from our Ego.  The first Degree of Leo is “Blood rushes to a person’s head as their vital energies are mobilized.”

But all this is just Degrees 27-1.  The Real Action, as has so often been the case for the last several years, is in Degrees 21-25.  We’ll talk about that next.

Make Ego Great Again

August 12, 2017

Well, maybe we’d really be Choosing Famine after all…

http://mashable.com/2017/08/09/north-korea-nuclear-war-climate-change-winter/#.3pYlkGLQiqn

At least we finally understand ‘Rump’s rejection of the Paris Treaty – he had a “better” way in mind.  All the Grand Trines in the Full Moon chart suggest Positive Outcomes, but from the Ego’s Perspective we’re never sure exactly what a Positive Outcome really might be, since the Ego Loves to get Attached to Dead-End status quo situations. Maybe a Nuclear Winter would end up being kinder or more equitable than rising sea levels.  Or, once ‘Rump preemptively nukes Venezuela as well, the falling dominoes might leave few of us here to Enjoy a Nuclear Winter.

Mercury’s now Retrograde, till 4 September.  It backs over much of the first half of Virgo and the last Duad (two-and-a-half Degrees) of Leo.  So the path that we’ve trod in our Mind’s Eye (it’s Mercury after all) since 24 July has involved a likely rather significant Fall from Grace with ourself, as we tested our concept of Self-Love intellectually (Cancer Duad of Leo), found it to be a miserable failure (Virgo Duad of Virgo), then studied its Mirror-Image in Others (Libra and Scorpio Duads), Rejected that (Sagittarius Duad), then began to Start Over (Capricorn Duad).

Now we run this sequence in reverse.  We have to assume that when the Universe Asks us to Repeat a sequence three or more times, it means that we’re really supposed to grok this.  So our next step will likely be to look again for Babies in the Bathwater we discarded during the first week of August, then go back and review all the Vignettes we Re-Experienced in the last week of July (Realizing now that they’re reversed left-to-right, which may mean we might want to reverse the roles in the Vignetted scenarios), and through that process, somehow Fall in Love with ourself again.

Then, between 4 September and the Equinox, we go back through the process in the original direction.  Just as Mercury begins to go Direct again, Mars goes into Virgo, assisting us in our Efforts toward Self-Improvement.  See if you can shift your Attention from Self-Improvement to Self-Acceptance in September.  Virgo can do Ego Death either way – Criticizing itself to Death or Loving itself to Death.  The Criticism path is a treadmill, the Loving path leads to Permanent Growth.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like this is The End, aren’t you.” 

By the time Mercury breaks out of it’s “Shadow Period” (29 Leo to 12 Virgo) at the Equinox, Venus will just be entering Virgo, and we’ll be ready for it.  Nobody’s going to be “Ascending” till they can do Ego Deaths Lovingly.  Surrender (Giving Over to Forces more Powerful and Benevolent than our Ego, not Giving Up) helps a great deal.

When the Sky darkens during the Total Eclipse and you can see the planets lined up, starting west-northwest of the Hole in the Sky where the Sun used to be, and stretching in a line almost halfway across the Sky toward the east-southeast, you should see Venus, Mars, the Sun, Mercury, Jupiter, and Saturn, in that order.  Venus and Jupiter will be brightest.  Mars, reddish, will be close to the Hole.  You might want to memorize this order, since you’ll only have two minutes of darkness, and the fireworks around the Hole in the Sky will be, appropriately, Demanding most of your Attention.

We have a great many metaphorical Rebirths and New Timelines these days.  This will help move us into them…

http://danielscranton.com/creating-new-timelines-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

We have observed that many of you are creating the timelines for yourselves that are ideal from your perspective, and we can see you moving closer and closer to these timelines.  This is the perfect timing to be engaged in such creative work, because you are supported by the energies that are upon you.  You are more supported in creating something new at this time than you are in creating some rehashed, ideal, third-dimensional existence.

[such as the Nuclear Winter that ‘Rump is preparing for us]

“In other words, you are moving forward, not backwards. 

[It’s only the Mind that’s moving backwards; the rest of us is moving forward]

“So in order for you to align with the energies that are moving you forward, you must be willing to go to places you have not gone before.  We are talking about vibration here.  We are talking about getting out of your heads and into the vibrational field you want to be in.

“Your heads are capable of telling you about all of the wonderful things that you have seen here on planet Earth in all of your lifetimes, and you can conjure up a pretty good experience for yourself through what you have seen, what you have done, what you have heard about, but what will absolutely knock your socks off is the unknown that you are creating.

“To create with vibration takes you beyond everything that you’ve experienced thus far in the physical and everything that you’ve ever wanted to experience as well.  Now, the fifth dimensional energies that are upon you are nudging you in this direction.  They are attempting to free you from the limitations of your minds and to nudge you into the unknown field of yet-to-be-experienced vibration.

“And then all you have to do is surrender to the process, because you could not possibly imagine how you are going to come to the timeline that you’re creating.  You cannot imagine because it’s something that you haven’t experienced, and you haven’t heard about yet.

“Soon enough, however, you are going to start to hear about experiences that others are having, unexplainable experiences, experiences that go beyond imagination, beyond thought.  This is what we see you all reaching for as you construct your ideal version of the fifth dimension and you continue to inch your way towards it.”

The Bottom Line is that we Create our Own Reality.  The more we Stretch ourselves beyond the daily Fear propaganda, the more we contribute to the Transformation of the Planet, and the easier it will be for all of us to Roll Our Own.

Cause an Defect Full Moon IV

August 9, 2017

Okay, more about the Full Moon chart and the Partial Eclipse that’s a Gateway to the impending Big Total Solar Eclipse that shines a spotlight on the USofA…

As with all Signs, we can run them Positively or we can run them Negatively.  Remember though that the World (and hopefully your segment of it) needs ultimately to be in Balance, and is Multidimensional as well, so don’t get stuck in Archetypes that worship either side of that Duality. 

(Actually, the World and yourself are always in Balance, it’s just that whatever is needed to Balance your Conscious side resides in the Unconscious.  Since the Unconscious actually rules us, then from this Perspective, the nicer you are, the meaner you really are – and vice versa.)

You’ve been to performances where you’ve been Exhausted afterward, and other performances where you’ve felt Energized after.  That’s the difference between someone who builds their own Confidence by sucking other people’s Energy (we can think of a prominent example who lives in a house that’s being remodeled at the moment), and someone who Shares their Abundant Leonine Self-Love broadly.  Abundance is having enough to Share, After all. 

This is the Duality often represented by Leo, where Sun and Mars and Atropos (Endings) are all parked at this Full Moon, along with the North Node (Lifetime Mission), Veritas (Truth), and Varuna (Life Force)Varuna will be in Leo for the next quarter-century, which should put a very Auspicious carpet under this Planet for a long while.  As for Mars in Leo, if we wrote a song about our Anger, would it draw a cheering crowd?  And when we mingle with the crowd afterward, are they the kind of people we’d Feel at Home with?

Expressing our Anger (Mars) can Create Community, and it can drive folks away.  While Communing with Everyone is a fabulous Aquarian goal (http://danielscranton.com/your-universal-family-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/), we may not actually be ready for such Sympathy and Understanding, Harmony and Trust Abounding.  And that’s all right.  We Are Who We Are, moment to moment (http://danielscranton.com/creating-experiences-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/).

We all need a place to return to where we are Understood and Respected and Loved for exactly Who We Really Are, so for all but the most Saintly among us, that first sort of Community is what we need to Create, to make a Safe Space for us while we put the finishing touches on our Saintliness.  While Anger tends to Divide, the presence of Atropos suggests that Expressing our Anger may help to Let It Go.

This is what the Leo-Aquarius Axis, which this Full Moon Illuminates, is all about, the Coin that unites the Duality.  Leo is the epitome of the Individual Self, Aquarius the epitome of Community.  Leo represents Fixed Fire, Stabilized Energy, or Spirit Manifested into Form.  Aquarius represents Fixed Air, Ideology, or Intellect Manifested into Form.  Michael Roads goes to great lengths to differentiate Intellect from Intelligence.  To him Intelligence derives from the Heart and Gut, while Intellect derives from the Left Brain. 

The Intellect is more than capable of supporting Intelligence, though in the Patriarchy, it’s more likely to support Morality, Politics, and the Preservation of Privilege.  Intellect is finely tuned for Logical Analysis, but Logic is a house of cards built upon Assumptions.  Propaganda manipulates your Logic without being Clear that its Assumptions may not be Universal.  To Transform Aquarius into Intelligence Manifested into Form, we need to Let Go of our Karmic Archetypes.  Our Archetypes and Limiting Beliefs are no more and no less than Unconscious Assumptions.  As long as they’re Unconscious, we can only see half of the Universe.

While Astrology deals with Dualities, it also deals with the Multidimensional.  Leo and Aquarius are not Complete without the other two Fixed Signs, Scorpio and Taurus (and of course the Fixed Signs are not Complete without the Creative and Mutational Signs).  Scorpio as Fixed Water or Emotion, and Taurus as Fixed Earth or Matter, represent the Stabilized Emotional and Material aspects of Reality.  Of course, depending on your Archetypes, Emotion and Matter can be Stabilized into either Constructive or Deconstructive Directions.

The Klotho-Sappho Conjunction (Creating a New Timeline Based on Self-Love), which is the Focus of the Full Moon T-Square, is in Scorpio, so we’re dealing with an Emotional version of Self-Love.  That means the tears that come naturally to your eyes when someone validates the parts of you that are Unseen – your Genius Project, for instance – and when someone perpetrates an Act of Kindness that your own Personal Values wish everyone would do All the Time.  And the Grace you Feel when someone Validates your Anger.  The Leo-Aquarius Full Moon is about the Dynamic between the Individual and the Collective – between You and Other.

Which means that the Taurus or Matter side of the Four-Dimensional Balance is Vacant – we need to Consciously Ground the Energy.  Dan and the Arcfolk concur – http://danielscranton.com/a-process-for-connecting-with-5d-energies-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/ .  The Vacancy is at 16 Taurus, “The inadequacy of past knowledge in times of crisis.”  Hmmm.  I’d rephrase that as “…in times of rapid Change” – in a Stable environment, traditional knowledge is actually very Powerful in a crisis.  But the point is that we need to PIAVA how to Ground ourself and our Milieu.  

There is, however, a Fixed Star in that location, Almach, which is the left foot of the Sacrificial Goddess Andromeda.  Foot as in Power, left as in Feminine Power.  Andromeda is a symbol of an Out-of-Power Tradition victimized by the Dominant Paradigm.  In other words it’s important to bring Self-Trust into Expression of our Anger, and to remember that our Intention is Self-Expression, not to be Understood.  If the Perpetrators Understand our Anger at their Oppression, their Dominance will be threatened, and they will be highly Motivated to torment us further.

Our Objective in Expressing our Anger is not Revenge or Restitution, but to Let Go of its Karmic Grasp of us.  Actually, our Karma does not Grasp us, our Ego Grasps it.  It’s a foundation for our Ego.  So to the Ego, it Feels as if it’s the Karma doing the Grasping.  We cannot Raise our Vibration until we Let Go of our Archetypes, including our Anger.  While it feels like we’re Angry at the Perps in our Present Life, it has Karmic Roots that will not be pulled out by striking out in the Present Life.

To Let Go of Anger or any strong Emotion, we need to start by Poor-Sweethearting it.  Strong Emotions are not Comfortable, and we need to Empathize with our own Discomfort.  “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel Angry, don’t you.”  It’s meant as a declaration of Self-Compassion, not an Accusation.  If being Angry makes you a bad person, find a substitute that isn’t.  “Your poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Irritated, don’t you.”  Or “Agitated,” or “Worked Up.”  Then Change the Subject, and see how long it takes for your Anger to return as a thought-stream.

The next time it arises, Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4).  If it’s at all serious, it will take several Iterations.  Measure the Intensity of your Anger on a scale of 1 to 10 before and after each Iteration, so you can Witness your Progress.  Alternate Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and any other PIAVA you can Create, making sure to Change the Subject after each process.

We should note that the Full Moon and the T-Square occur on the Midpoints of the Fixed Signs, which are the Power Points of the Zodiac, symbolizing the Four Horsepersons of the Apocalypse – Apocalypse to the Ego, Liberation of the Soul. 

We mentioned Obsession recently in this context, as Obsession can make it particularly difficult to Change the Subject, and a reader wrote to ask us how one might address Obsession.  Well, the first question I’d ask, is how might Obsession be indicated in their chart?

If it’s really an Appropriate Expression of their natality, then they may only need to Learn to Love it to Death.  That may not stop the Obsession, but it would make it more Pleasant, as once they Learned that, Obsession would trigger Love and Pleasure for them instead of Discomfort.  Of course, Learning to Love Obsession will likely involve a good deal of Ego Death, as at least some part of them wants it to go away, and they probably have a big backlog of Other People telling them it’s wrong.  But that’s all just a map of where they need to go to Learn to be Loving with it.

So, is Obsession an Appropriate Expression of their natal chart?  What would we look for?

Well, the most obvious place to start looking is Scorpio, and to a lesser extent Taurus.  These signs, especially Scorpio, don’t Let Go when they get hold of something they don’t fully grok yet, especially something Emotional, and especially something that seems Unfair.  Does our friend have planets in Scorpio?

Well, yes. seven of them.  We work with 45 planets and other points, so the average Sign should contain less than four planets.  So seven is a whole bunch.

We can start by what we would tell any Scorpio that might help them Love themselves…

Scorpio is Compelled to Get to the Bottom of Things.  We first Meet Other in Libra, and it raises all kinds of Questions for us, about whether We’re Okay and They Aren’t or They’re Okay and We Aren’t, whenever there seems to be a Conflict or even Contrast between us.  This is how we first Discover that our own Childhood may not have been as Loving as it could have been, so it’s not at all trivial.

It’s not easy for Anyone to get to You’re Okay and I’m Okay, and for Scorpio it becomes a Compulsion.  It takes a great deal of Maturity to understand that the end point is You’re Okay and I’m Okay rather than You’re Okay or I’m Okay, which complicates the whole process until we Realize that.  We also have to Realize that just because You’re Okay and I’m Okay, that doesn’t mean I have to Tolerate you if you aren’t my cup of tea.

Also, Scorpio is Fearless in their Pursuit of Truth.  Fearlessness is the most prominent element of Scorpio.  Other people do not Trust Scorpio, partly because Scorpio asks penetrating questions that require them to examine themselves more deeply than they usually like to, partly because Scorpio has a tendency to make and hold eye contact longer than most people are comfortable with.  Other people often feel like Scorpio is Looking into the Soul (which it is), and if they aren’t fully in Self-Love, it makes them want to run away.

Because of these kinds of Reactions from Other, Scorpio is one of the most difficult Signs to Embody in Left-Brain-worshiping Western Cultures.  Remember we aren’t talking about folks with Sun in Scorpio, we’re talking about anyone with a strong emphasis in Scorpio – or Pluto, Scorpio’s “Ruler” – in their natal chart or even in their Transits and Progressions.

These kinds of influences often draw Scorpio toward Addiction, and Teaching them to Love Themselves Exactly As They Are is the first step to helping them get out of Addiction, as the most prominent trigger for their Desire to Medicate is the Anxiety produced by their Need to Get to the Bottom of Things that are Forbidden to them.  Strong Scorpio is a good indicator that a person’s Forbidden Genius lies in sophisticated Research of Private Investigation.

That’s the gist of what we would tell any Scorpio, or anyone with a strong Pluto, in a reading.

So, which planets are we talking about?  Ixion (Forbidden Genius), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), Ceres (Sustainability), Klotho (Plotting a New Timeline), and Vertex (Intuition) are all at the Midpoint of Scorpio, which just happens to be (there go those Coincidences again!) where Transiting Klotho and Sappho (Starting a New Timeline based on Self-Love) happen to be sitting as we speak, making their T-Square to the 7 August Full Moon.

Whoa, this is Big.  The Midpoint of Scorpio is one of the Four Horsefolk of Ego Death, so we probably have a case of chronic Self-Attack (that is Ego-Attack, not Soul-Attack).  Sir Self-Lance-a-Lot.  All very strongly Lit Up this week.  So we’d prescribe a strong ongoing dose of Poor-Sweethearts.  Can we even interpret a Klotho-Sappho Transit, Square to a Full Moon, sitting on a natal Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium?

Oops, have to interrupt again.  A Stellium (three or more planets in the same place) isn’t easy.  What would we tell someone with a Stellium in their chart, to help them Learn to Appreciate their Uniqueness?

Well, the Culture we grow up in has certain Differentiations that are an integral part of the Culture.  For instance, Boys are different from Girls, and never the twain shall meet.  What fireworks have been going on the USofA when that Differentiation is Challenged!  The youngsters understand that they’re both just People, but the Differentiation is so ingrained in the brains of the oldsters that they fight it all the way to the “Supreme” Court, and Obsess (!) on it.

So when we have two or more planets in the same place, we don’t know the Difference.  Folks who start a Life when Mars and Venus are Conjoined (in or close to the same Degree) have no idea that there’s any Difference at all!  So they have a difficult time Relating to, and Being Related to by, anyone who’s Obsessed with the Difference, because their brains are wired very differently.

And that’s just two planets.  With a five-planet Stellium, the difficulty of Communicating with Others is multiplied many times.  To start with, only 2.5% of us will have a 5-planet Stellium (using 45 planets), so we can expect to be able to Communicate at all with one person in 40.  However, what’s the probability that the next person with a 5-planet Stellium is going to have a Stellium that includes the same five planets?

Without breaking any blood vessels in my brain, I’d guess that would be something like 1/9 to the fourth or fifth power, or about one person in 60,000, although that assumes that the 45 planets are distributed randomly around the Zodiac, which is far from true.  You could start a worldwide club, advertising on the internet to connect with everyone who started Life with a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium.  You might end up with just the people who were born on the same day and year as you.

And now you’re going to run into another problem.  Very few of these people will have ever learned to Love themselves, even if their Stellium isn’t in Scorpio.  When you meet a Soulmate, if your Self-Love isn’t Total, you’re going to Project your Self-Rejection all over one another, and end up hating one another, very soon.  I once introduced two people with very similar, very unusual birth charts, Scorpios even, and they became housemates.  That lasted about a month before they ran screaming from one another.

So until you Learn to Love your own Uniqueness fairly thoroughly, you may need to settle for non-intimate Relationships for a while.  Look for people who are already Ascended or Enlightened, who may be able to Accept you Exactly As You Are, even if they’re not like you at all – they may even find your Uniqueness fascinating.  There should be a reasonable number of those folks around.  You won’t be their Onliest…

Since you are a shining light
There’s many that you’ll see
But I have to deal with envy
When you choose the precious few
Who’ve left their pride on the other side of
Coming back to you

as Leonard Cohen put it, but at least you’ll be Accepted, and you’ll get a taste of what it will be like to Love your Uniqueness, till you Lesrn to Obsess on Loving your Uniqueness.

Well, we know that this person, on the Soul Level, Intends in this Lifetime to Get to the Bottom of Self-Abuse (and I don’t mean self-pleasuring) once and for all (Klotho-Sappho).  So they probably “hired” parents and other significant adults that programmed a good deal of persistent Self-Rejection (Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres) into them as Children.  That’s how we do it – whatever we Intend to Let Go Of permanently in a Lifetime, we on the Soul level make sure we get a big dose of it, so we’ll Recognize it and be Motivated to Change the Pattern.

So, with Mars and Atropos on the Full-Moon Sun, it would be a fabulous time to start writing a series of Angry letters, that they don’t intend to send, to their Childhood Programmers, so they can begin Getting to the Bottom of their Abandoned Genius’s Real Feelings.  We can Learn about Blame and Responsibility later.

Oh, did I forget to mention that Jupiter (Amplification) and Sappho (Self-Love) are also in Scorpio?  So our friend is even more Determined to break out of her prison of Self-Admonishment, as she has Chosen (on the Soul level) to Obsess about her Amplified Desire for Self-Love!

Did someone say Obsession?  Damn Right!  Obsessed with this prison-break, and for damn good reasons!!!  It’s a central theme of their Soul-level Plan for the Lifetime!  So come Hell or High Water, they need to start Obsessing (and PIAVAing) on Learning how to Celebrate Obsession like it is the Incredible Gift to themselves that it truly is!  Set a timer, and Celebrate Obsession at least once an hour, every day.

Okay, with the preliminaries out of the way we can get down the the meat of the issue.  Their Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium is Opposed by Chiron (Despair and Miracle).  That’s like a dagger held by her Programmers, slicing little chunks out of her skin constantly.  To move from Despair to Miracle we need to Empathize with our Despair.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Down on yourself, don’t you.”  Now, we know that Changing the Subject (which gets the mind and old Karmic Patterns out of the way so they don’t re-up the Despair) won’t be easy – that’s the whole issue, isn’t it.

So we can try building a strong practice of Tapping (YouTube link above).  “Even though I’m Obsessing about this Despair, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  Measuring the Intensity of Feeling (0 to 10) before and after each of many Iterations will be important – as long as you’re getting any reduction, keep Tapping, till you get close to zero.  If you aren’t getting reduction, try alternating with Poor-Sweethearts, or Dancing, or doing anything Different.  This is Multi-Lifetime stuff, so you need to be Obsessive about working on it, but then, that’s your specialty, eh?

Phew, that’s a lot, isn’t it.  Are we done?  Not a chance.  Mercury, of all people, makes a T-Square across the Opposition between the Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium and Chiron.  Now we have to interrupt again, since T-Squares are quite difficult, so we have to give our standard speech about how to Love a T-Square…

A T-Square is like a graduate seminar.  We Expect to be able to “get it right” once in a while, so we can feel halfway Competent.  But with a T-Square, there is no “getting it right.”  In a graduate seminar there are no right Answers, only clever and relevant Questions.  No matter how long anyone Lives a T-Square, they’ll never Feel Satisfied about it, until they Learn to Appreciate that on a Soul level they’ve adopted this Issue as a Lifetime Learning Opportunity, and each time it arises – which is likely to be daily – they’ll be working on a new, more subtle and broader, version of the same Lesson.

It’s pass/fail, and you only pass when you Recognize that this is your Lifetime Study Project, and Honor yourself for the Fact that you actually know a Hell of a lot more about it than most anyone else on the Planet, because you wrestle with it daily.  You begin to Change a “bad” Habit by Noticing that you’re Doing it again, and Congratulating yourself for Noticing rather than Cursing yourself for Doing it again – substituting positive reinforcement for negative reinforcement, because reinforcement is cumulative.

So when you Notice that you’re working on that Issue again, Congratulate yourself for looking at it from yet another Perspective, and Honor yourself for all of the Perspectives you’ve already Discovered, rather than Indulging your Frustration at not getting it Right yet again, you’ll shift your Perspective toward what is otherwise one of your greatest Frustrations.

That’s what T-Squares are all about.  Now, what about this Mercury T-Square?  Well a Mercury T-Square (until you make the shift we just talked about) means that your mind is always picking at you.  Anxiety ‘R’ Us, and it’s not just Worry, it’s Negative Self-Talk.  So we have to Learn to Notice that we’re Doing Negative Self-Talk again, Congratulate ourself for Noticing, and Honor ourself for how Skilled we’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk.

If a friend complained to you about their Negative Self-Talk, I’ll bet you could give them a thousand suggestions for dealing with it.  You’re a World Expert on Negative Self-Talk.  You could write best-sellers about it.  You need to Honor yourself for that, even if it doesn’t Feel True at first.  I guarantee you, it is True.

Now, we’re dealing with Negative Self-Talk about Chiron Opposite a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium, which isn’t chicken-feed.  With Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex as part of your Stellium, a deep part of you (with strong Scorpio, Diving Deep is one of your greatest Skills) knows Intuitively (Vertex) that your Survival (Quaoar) is Assured (Ceres) once you Begin (Klotho) to Love Yourself Exactly As You Are.  You just don’t know where to start because no one has ever Mirrored your True Self to you.

Then we add Ixion. We have to interrupt again for our Learn-to-Love-Ixion speech…

Ixion was the Bad Boy of the Greek Pantheon, who was basically a sociopath who thought all rules applied to everyone else (like that fellow in the house that’s pained white and being remodeled).  Well, talk to any Accomplished Genius, and they’ll tell you they didn’t get there by following other people’s rules.  To live Genius you need to break as many rules as you can get away with.

But you’ll always be condemned for it.  So, not actually being a sociopath, you’ll need to develop a thick skin about Criticism from Others.  And with your parents and other Programmers probably very Critical people, you’re going to have a lot of Olde Reactions to Criticism, and probably “Leave your Body” (space out) when someone starts Criticizing you.  Well, you probably want to enlist some friends and Act Out a thousand Criticism scenarios, till you can Stay Present with Yourself when being Criticized, and Learn when Defending yourself is a waste of time that’ll just get more Criticism, and How to Defend yourself when it’s worth it (ie, with a Relationship you Want to Keep).

In Cultures that Value Conformity, Ixion is Rejected out of hand.  That’s why we refer to that part of ourself as our Forbidden or Abandoned or Pathological Genius, and refer to Recovery of that part of ourself as our Genius Project.  It’s a Big Project for everyone, but especially important for you.  Eventually, once you become the World’s foremost Psychoanalyst, or the World’s most Unique Artist who Communicates with parts of people that have never been Communicated to before ever, you’ll understand how Unique you are, and Honor it.

But meanwhile, there’s homework to be done, because you’re probably in the Habit of giving your Unique Genius more Negative Self-Talk than anyone.  So you’ll have to Learn to Notice that you’re Doing Negative Self-Talk about your Unmirrored Uniqueness again, Congratulate yourself for Noticing, and Honor yourself for how Skilled you’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk about your Uniqueness

Lots of work ahead, but at least now you have a curriculum.

What’s that?  Oh, we aren’t quite done?  Oh yeah, remember that Jupiter-Sappho in Scorpio?  Well, it happens to be in a “Grand Cross,” Opposite a Stellium of Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sedna (Fear), Chariklo (Self-Confidence), and Moira (Choosing Consciousness), with Sedna Stationary (Strong), Square to a Stellium of Sun (your Essence), Atropos (Endings), and Mnemosyne (Memory), which is in turn Opposite to a Stellium of Orcus (Breaking Vows), Hylonome (Escaping from Archetypes), and Lachesis (Duration), with Lachesis Exactly Stationary (very Strong).  All this is actually enormously Positive, but there’s a lot in it that needs to be Learned to Love.

We won’t take that up now, we’ll save it for after you’ve digested some of the earlier homework, which is more than ample.  The earlier homework is Lit Up Bigtime by the Full Moon, so it’s a more current assignment anyway.  This later Grand Cross is Lit Up only by the Transiting Conjunction of Varuna (the Life Force) and Veritas (Truth), which is actually quite a lot, but nothing compared to how much your Mercury T-Square and Ixion Stellium are Lit Up.

Oh, also, when you’re ready, remind me to talk about the “Vacancy” to your Mercury T-Square.

And, once you’ve started on the earlier homework in earnest, we can talk about that friend you mentioned, and see how they might, by virtue of their own birth chart, inadvertently trigger either your Mercury-Chiron-Ixion-et al T-Square or your Lachesis-et al Grand Cross, or both.  We’ll also need to cover Blame and Responsibility then.

Oh, and since Pluto (Transformation) is similar to Scorpio, and likely to be involved in Obsession, we should eventually look at that too.  It’s after all Conjunct Saturn (The Most Important Thing), so that’s a strong indication that Obsession is actually your Greatest Skill, you just need to Learn to Love it.  Also, Pluto-Saturn makes a T-Square across your Nodes (Why You Took This Lifetime), so that’s another indicator that This is the Lifetime you Chose, on the Soul level, to become the World’s greatest Expert on Obsession, and once and for all Let Go of your Ego Attachment to it, and Let Go of your Rejection of Obsession and of yourself

Plus, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is on your North Node (Your Mission in the Lifetime) and Moon-Venus (Your Instincts and Values) is on your South Node (The Karmic Impediments to your Mission that you Chose on the Soul level to help you Accomplish your Mission in the Lifetime, which Impediments happen to hide the Skills you need to Accomplish your Mission), further complicating this T-Square.

That’s a lot, but Remember that, as the Findhorn Transformation Game says, the Hardest Assignments are only given to the Best People.

Cause an Defect Full Moon I

August 6, 2017

As we said last time, things haven’t felt very satisfying or stable the last several days, as Jupiter Squares Pluto, amplified by the impending 7 August Full-Moon Partial Eclipse, prelude to the 21 August Big One.   The Jupiter-Pluto Cycle is about Expanding our Transformation, and the two Squares in the Cycle are about being Challenged to Master the next stage of our Transmogrification. 

Remember that Pluto astroevents are like floating down a big River.  You can hear the roar of the rapids ahead and you can steer to one bank or the other to portage around them, but if you try to paddle upstream you’ll just get swept backwards over the falls.  So Resistance is not only futile, it’s Self-Destructive.  Go with the Flow.

Of the two Squares in any Cycle (when the two planets are three Signs apart), the first or Waxing Square is about being Challenged to Let Go of the dregs of the previous Cycle and fully Commit to the present one.  The second or Waning Square is about Letting Go of any Attachment you’ve made to the current Cycle, because the Energies of the current Cycle are disintegrating.  Think Barnes & Noble, post-Amazon.

So, what are we Letting Go of – what’s the Current Cycle about?  It was Initiated 12 December 2007 at 29 Sagittarius, “A fat boy mowing the lawn of his house on an elegant suburban street.”  Always a puzzling Symbol.  Rudhyar’s interpretation seems oriented toward Materialism, Ego, and Status-Quo; he sometimes did that.  Sagittarius is itself about Letting Go, Spiritual Fire, burning away what’s Obsolete, before we start over on version 4.0 with a whole new Grounding, and the last Degree of Sagittarius should be a final big Catharsis. 

So the Symbol is Antonymous.  Being Non-Dual, the Unconscious Loves tko be Antonymous.  That’s why She has a reputation as a Trickster.  So what means it?  Well, the “elegant” neighborhood tells us we’re dealing with Materiality and probably Ego-Attachment.  Elsie Channeled these Symbols in the 1930s, so the boy’s heft is probably not a symptom of the modern Salt- and Sugar- and Chemical-laden microwaved synthetic GMO diet, but simply to Over-Indulgence.  Of course it could be genetic; the boy may be on his way to becoming the fastest Offensive Lineman in the NFL, but I don’t think the adjective “fat” would be the most apt word to describe that.

The “fat” conflicts with “mowing,” as we’re used to associating fat with inactivity.  So it’s easy to imagine the lad sweating and grumbling to himself.  Perhaps it’s a punishment – if he did it frequently he’d probably weigh less.  Every time I see that Symbol I can’t help but think of J.R. Simplot’s house in Boise, which is perched on top of a small hillock, 30-40 feet above the elegant suburban street, surrounded by lawn on the slopes, which seem not so far from vertical.  Boise is hot in the summer, when grass grows, so this kid is unlikely to make it through even one mowing without hospitalization.

Now, if we add to this image the fact that since 2007 we’ve seen a vast reorganization of modern Life, the Symbol smacks of the need for Sustainability.  Sustainability and Sustenance are really the same thing, and they imply Letting Go of the Unnecessary.  What it reminds me of is the ongoing Pholus-Quaoar-Galactic Center Stellium, which in no uncertain terms reminds us that we’re Responsible for the Survival of the Planet. 

So Bottom Line, this Jupiter-Pluto Cycle is about Letting Go of our Materialism, and the Waning Square of the Cycle is about Stepping Away from that Letting Go.  The nature of a Waning Square is that we don’t know what comes next.  Our Assignment is to clear away all Expectations so we can be Open to the next Cycle without preconceptions.  If we knew what the next Cycle was about, we’d contaminate it by viewing it through the eyes of the old Cycle.  In other words, our Transformation is no longer about Letting Go of Attachment to Materialism.  It’s about Curiosity and Wonder.

The Waning Square was Exact at half-past 10am PDT on 4 August.  When outer planets make Angles to one another, they often do it three or more times, which gives us Opportunities to practice.  This is the third time Jupiter has Squared Pluto.  We call the third time a “Confidence-Builder” event, because by now we’ve had our practice.  The first Waning Square was 24 November 2016; we call that the “Can-Opener” because if we don’t do astrology, we’re usually caught off guard by the abrupt shift in Energy.

So if you have a journal you can look to see what sort of Experiences you Enjoyed (or otherwise), internally and externally, Circumstances and Reactions, last mid-November, as the Energy was intensifying.  If you don’t have a journal you can look back to https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/11/26/the-thousand-vignettes/ and the several posts preceding it.  It was a very busy time. 

The second Waning Square is usually when the faster planet is Retrograde, so we Experience the same Energies less Dramatically, giving us time and space to Learn more about them.  We call this second recurrence an “Exposition” because it Exposes more information about what’s going on.  Whatever we didn’t resolve at the Can-Opener (when we’re often Overwhelmed by the new Energy) or at the Exposition, will be Lit Up now, at the Confidence-Builder. 

It’s mop-up time around Materialism and Ego-Attachment to it.  There’s a big White House on the east coast of the US where all that’s being Acted Our for us in Real Time on Reality TV.  With a fat boy mowing the greens of his elegant suburban golf course even.

Cause an Defect

August 5, 2017

A friend asks, “What do your Arcturian friends say about us creating our own reality?

Same thing Seth said in The Nature of Personal Reality.  If we want to know our Karma (the Beliefs and Habit Patterns we came into the Lifetime with, whether Productive or Self-Sabotaging in each stage of the current Life), just look at our Lifetime so far.  What we’ve Created, and are Creating, is Who We Are, Karmically.  We have the Power to Change it, sometimes quite simply, other times with impossible difficulty.  First step is to Notice what we’re Creating and have Created, and Recognize that We have Created it. 

At this point we have to stop and Examine whether we’re In Blame.  Blame is about assigning Cause to something.  It’s about the Past.  Responsibility is about Recognizing that, one way or another, we have the Power to Change Future Outcomes.  People who are unable to step out of Blame will never be able to Recognize that they Create their own Reality.  Their Reality is stuck in circular finger-pointing, and it won’t Change till they figure out how to step off of the Blame treadmill.

If we can step out of Blame then…

Is What we’re Creating What We Want?  If not then we need to Change it.  99% percent of ourself is Unconscious, and the Unconscious is non-Dual, so the Dualistic Mind can’t do the job.  The Mind is a screwdriver, the Unconscious is put together with bolts.  Cause and Effect is a Linear process, quite relevant to the realm of the Ego, but the Unconscious operates by different rules.  Time isn’t even Linear in the Unconscious – are your Dreams Linear?

Best tools for influencing the Unconscious that I’ve found so far are the PIAVAs.  Think about Intention, for instance – you’re starting with Effect and then producing Cause!  So much for Linear Time.

Yes, our Childhood Programming is overlain on top of our Karma.  But who Created our Childhood Programming?  We did.  Not We/Ego, but We/Soul.  No Judgment here; We/Soul just decided We Wanted to have more Experience in a certain arena or several.  In that sense We/Soul Chose our parents and the propaganda mills that would Program us – to Reinforce our Karma so we’d Notice it and be inspired to Change it

It is my opinion that at least some of us came to this Planet at this time in order to Assist the Planet to finish business with the Age of Pisces.  Pisces must Eschew Blame if it is to find the elevator to the next level and “get out of going through all this twice” as Dylan put it.  In that context We/Soul have adopted for We/Ego (prior to Enlightenment) a set of Karma as if it were a set of underwear; it isn’t even really “ours,” we’ve just picked it out at Goodwill because it reflects how We/Soul have Chosen to Assist the Planet.

Which is a fine way to look at it regardless – Karma is Inertia, not Retribution, so it actually has no Value (as in good or bad), it’s Neutral, just as we need to be Neutral in order not to get sucked into the Drama that the Age of Pisces gets stuck in.  Neutrality means that we don’t have any investment in any of the Outcomes, other than, optionally, those we’ve Chosen to Change.  And in fact, one of the best way to Change anything is through Acceptance.  To go one step further, we could say, unequivocally, that Nothing Changes until we Accept it Exactly As It Is.

Which simply means that we’ve Noticed that we’ve Created it, and since we Realize that, as John (and Michael Roads) says, All There Is (That’s Real) Is Love, then we have no Choice but to figure out how to Love what we’ve Created.  For instance, consider our Genius Project.  Of course we’re frustrated because it hasn’t paid off on the first try.  Duh.  How many Lifetimes have we (or the Planet) been working on this Project?  Do we Expect to Change it with one PIAVA?  (Of course it might; we might just be ready.)

What has happened so far with our Genius Project, and how do we Feel about it?  Have we figured out how to Embrace those Feelings Lovingly, so we can Lovingly Embrace what’s happened so far, so we can get on to the next step?  We need at least to Poor-Sweetheart them.  This is the Pay Attention stage of the PIAVA process.  How is what has happened related to What We Want? 

Have we appeared to move in the wrong direction?  That’s where I’m at.  That’s very common, because the Unconscious is Asking and Telling We/Ego, “Do you Trust us?  If you won’t Hold the Intention, we can’t Hold it for you.” It’s Ego that has Focus, not the Unconscious.  It takes a Partnership to Manifest.  Even a Village.

If it feels like Nothing has happened, or something unexpected has indeed happened, but it doesn’t appear to be Related to our Genius Project, then we might have to PIAVA that we come to grok (as opposed to “understand”) the Relationship well enough that we know what to do next to bring our Forbidden Genius out of Hiding.  Or better yet, just PIAVA that we take the appropriate next step, period, and just bypass the Linear Mind, and the Controlling Status-Quo-Loving Ego, entirely.

Are we making any sense?

Things haven’t felt very satisfying or stable the last several days, as Jupiter Squares Pluto, amplified by the impending 7 August Full-Moon Partial Eclipse, prelude to the 21 August Big One.  We’ll write about that next.

Fear and Anger and Joy, O My

July 31, 2017

Here’s an excerpt from a fascinating piece Channeled by Brenda Hoffman, very relevant to our current Uranus Station…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2017/07/31/fear-addiction/

Many of you are experiencing emotional and physical sensations that seem unusual – similar to what you experienced in puberty.  You’re developing according to your Universal blueprint, just as you once did in 3D puberty.  The only rule for developing as you intended before this lifetime’s earth entry is to follow your joy even if it seems wrong according to others.  Self-love and self-worth energies are raining from the Universes to help you find your true self during this confusing time.

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“You are quite comfortable with, some might say addicted to, fear and anger.  You might be missing fear, for self-love feels new and therefore, uncomfortable.  So you draw past fears to you to return to your comfort zone.

“You initiated this journey as 3D beings filled with fears, anger, lack of self-love, and sadness from eons of earth experiences.  Consequently, you cleared your big fear and anger pieces, often also cleaning the corners, as you progressed in this transition – and the Universes provided you with a cleaning service via self-love energies.

“But many of you have returned to cleaning your being instead of moving into joy as was expected.  Of course, there are pieces deep within you that are counterproductive to your joyful life.  Of course, there are beings that remind you or are a replay of interactions you had in past lives.  But for you to clear beyond what is required to move into joy is for you to negate all you have completed until now.

“You are indeed more comfortable with fear than joy.  Maybe the media encourages your current deep anger or perhaps it is politics, a relationship, coworker, community member, or on and on.  But before you become totally enmeshed in determining why you are angry, perhaps you wish to ask yourself if you are angry so you do not have to leave your comfort zone – your last-ditch effort to remain in fear.  Like those grasping onto a mountain ledge with their fingernails before dropping into the abyss.

“You are of 5D and you are surrounded by love not fear energies.  So it is you must ask yourself if your latest foray into fear is to stop you from your new love lessons or because you need to clear a specific piece before you can love yourself.

“Most often, the intensity of your fear or anger is the determining factor.  If a fear seems to take over your life; if your thoughts and comments are related to this piece; if it is difficult for you to imagine a joy scenario because you are so fearful or angry, it is likely that you are taking extra-credit fear lessons.

“Even though such cannot happen if you remain enveloped in fear, you are fully capable of creating a new life of joy.  It is time to sense, see and feel joy.  Anything that removes you from that place is most likely extra-credit fear…

“For you to concentrate on fear instead of joy is for you to know that you are negating your powers – and you.  So be it.”

4 July VII – Solar Return and PIAVA

July 1, 2017

A reader writes…

“Is it (a) coincidence, (b) deeply meaningful or (c) a wash that my birthday is July 3?  Do you put stock in solar returns?

“I do feel like I underwent resurrection without dying when I left the my old job forever on Sept 4, 2014, yet I was in some sort of bardo until recently, when energy returned at last.  It has felt like a next life beginning in this life with no need to leave the body.  Is this birthday takeoff time? :)

“Many thanks for all your perceptions and encouragement.”

(b), Yes, Yes, and Thanks for the kind words!  I.e., absolutely Deeply Meaningful and Takeoff Time!!  And yes, I do Solar Returns and find them useful and meaningful. 

It varies with the Person, but in general I’d say that anybody with a Birthday between about June 23 and July 8 will either Take Off or Get Stuck in their Held Emotions as a correlate of the 4 July events, along with anybody who has any natal planets (especially Moon or Nodes) in 20-27 Degrees (the Haumea Station), in 23-30 Degrees (Sedna-Moon-Nodes), or in 7-18 Degrees (the Klotho and Sappho Stations) of any Sign

That would mean anybody with a Birthday between roughly the 10th and 21st, or 27th and 7th, of any month.  That would omit only about a third of us.  And that’s just a three-Degree Sensitivity window; it would be easy to justify a bigger window.  And can you Imagine anyone not having any planets in 7-18 or 20-30 Degrees?  And that’s only considering the Major Angles.  In other words, Everybody.  But you’re absolutely right, especially folks with birthdays in the last week of June or the first week of July.  You and your fellow Sun-in-the-Leo-through-Capricorn-duads-of-Cancer will Lead the rest of us out of the Wilderness.  We will welcome your Guest Blogs.

A duad is two and a half Degrees.  In Cancer we start with the Cancer duad, then Leo, etc ’round the loop till we get to the Gemini duad at 27.5-30 Degrees.  So June 23-July 8 corresponds to roughly Sun in the Leo duad (2.5-5 Degrees) through Sun in the Capricorn duad (15-17.5 Degrees).

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The format of this blog makes comments fairly difficult to follow, so when comments or answers seem like they might be useful to everyone, I like to repeat them in a post.

Reader K says, about 4 July VII – Sedna in Real Time III and PIAVA

“This is precious.  I’ve read them [the PIAVA posts] all and literally feel how they feed my soul.  Very grateful.  The hard work is still to be done.”

Thanks, K!  Start with PIAVAing that “My Life Gets Very Easy Now That I Remember to Let God/Goddess Do the Work by PIAVAing about Everything” or something like that, then add “…Rapidly and Completely and Lovingly and Gently!” to every PIAVA.  You’ll be surprised and delighted!  Like having two cats in the yard…

Everything we Believe we Aren’t in a particular moment, resides in the Unconscious.  So if I Self-Identify as an astrologer, then my janitor and my lorry driver and my insurance saleswoman and my prime minister are Out There in the Not-Me.  If I’m Self-Identified with my Shame, then my Confidence and Presence and Groundedness are Out There.  If I Self-Identify with my Woundedness, then my Healing is waiting for me Out There.  Waiting to be Called, actually.  You are always Whole and In Balance, but your Consciousness can easily get Out Of Balance – and what Balances the Whole You is parked and idling in the Unconscious, your name on the keys in the ignition.

Logic is a house of cards that stands or falls on the Assumptions we start with, which are usually Unstated or Unconscious.  If we start with the Assumption that We Are All One, which is one of several “Truths” that the Traditional Wisdom offers (along with All There Is Is Now and All There Is Is Love and I Am That I Am), then Spiritual Logic tells us that Everything We At The Moment Aren’t, resides in the Unconscious.  Among that very large crowd is someone or something, usually very plural, that Knows How and is Willing to Do or Feel or Be that which we in the Moment don’t know how to Do or Feel or Be.  So when I PIAVA, all I’m doing is Connecting via the back door to The Rest Of The Bigger Me.

Just like it’s a sign of Respect to refer to a Person by name rather than Hey You!, Personalizing portions of The Bigger Me is Powerful.  So “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is” or “Ganeshi” or any other Constellated Entity to which we might address our PIAVAs, is just a way of respectfully ringing up that part of The Bigger Me that does Know How and might be Willing to Do or Feel or Be what my present-moment Ego thinks it might need to Complete itself.

Of course my present-moment Ego might not have The Bigger Me’s Best Interests at Heart, so The Bigger Me might want to suggest alternatives (usually Easier alternatives), or provide my Ego with a Lesson Plan to bring it up to Heartspeed.  Hence the need to Pay Attention after PIAVAing and Changing the Subject, rather than Feeling Betrayed because we didn’t get what we Asked for.

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https://rememberinginfinity.wordpress.com/2014/10/08/remembering-infinity-the-approaching-storm/

4 July VII – Sedna in Real Time II

June 29, 2017

Reader alchemist0310 responds…

“yes, so none of these ‘white dudes’ are separate from us… that is what d.scranton is saying (see post below)… actually some of my absolute favorite peoples even subscribe to the fact that we all had a collective role in naming and claiming the current ‘administration’ … and i use that term very loosely… hard not to choke on my pretzels over here… but i’m really going to try to work this out in my 5d world… which as i write this is the point i suppose… voilà”

Yes, Naomi Klein’s book No Is Not Enough details the cultural trends that created the current misadministration, and points out that it’s not the “white dudes” per se that are the problem, but the trends – those are what’s in need of reversing.  But from the Perspective of the transition from Patriarchy to Yang Feminine, it is by and large the white dudes.  Not that more colorful dudes can’t be just as autocratic and Abusive; they just haven’t in recent history achieved the rank of World-Class Colonialists.

Of course it’s Both/And; remember that Sedna-Moon is making a Yin Gate – Paradox School – around Fear and Manifestation.

So if we’re All One then, how can we condemn these white dudes for Screwing all American Women politically because they don’t have the cojones to Screw them the way they prefer?  It’s like this.  We’ve Internalized these white dudes as our jailers.  We have Unconscious Limiting Karmic Beliefs that we are victims of their Abuse, that they have some Control over our Life.  Power-Over is a Hypnotic Trance, and our Personal Colonialists don’t even have to Hypnotize us any more; their Ancestors did that for them, and for us.

So yes, we can forgive these poor Dildos with dead batteries, but will that help?  It would be a lot more Powerful to look to the places in our own Life where we Act Out the role of Dildos with dead batteries, and then take out our Frustration on Others.  Hmmm.  Well, gosh, as a Political Entity, I am Acting like a Dildo with dead batteries when I Feel subjected to their Power-Over, aren’t I.  And then I take out my Frustration by calling them names.  What we Judge is never more than a Funhouse Mirror for our Limiting Beliefs.

So I can start by Poor-Sweethearting my Feelings of Helplessness in the face of their Hubris.  Then after Changing the Subject and Paying Attention, I could exercise my Real Power in any number of ways, hopefully by PIAVAing.

I’ll fall off my chair if anyone here has seen the movie The Apple War.  At least Netflix and Wikipedia now admit to having heard of it, even if no one seems to have access to a copy.  It’s even better than Over the Hedge.  In it the People call on the Old Powers to counter an attempted invasion of their Sacred Land by Big Industry.  Among many marvelous scenes where Industry is humiliated by the Old Powers, in one scene Industry tries to sabotage the People’s Resistance by setting Fire to their church.  The People simply Ask the local Giant to come and piss on the Fire.

So if I really hear Marianne when she says “Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure,” what might I do next?  Ah, maybe Visualize (the V in PIAVA, right?) myself as a Giant pissing on their parade?  Horrifying?  Piss never killed anybody; these white dudes will kill a lot of people if they have their way with us.  Imagine these Dildos running to their secret meetings through a golden shower from a hundred Giants and Giantesses.  They won’t even get electrocuted; their batteries are dead.

That’s not even Revenge, just Political Theater, like the Yes Men or Pussy Riot.  No harm done, just the remote possibility that someone (a spectator, probably not the white dudes) might get their mind pried open a little wider.  Uranus and Eris, while now five Degrees apart (still plenty close for Projects such as our Rebirth), are both part of the Grand Unx, in cahoots with Sedna-Moon-Nodes.  If we stretch our Sensitivity we could even say that Uranus still Squares Pluto – that’s all about Reliving the 1960’s, right?

Seriously, remember that Expansion is one of the silent members of the PIAVA team.  We’ve probably all done Meditations where we Imagine ourself as big as the house, the neighborhood, the town, the riding, the shire, the island, the kingdom, the continent, the Planet, the Solar System, the Galaxy, to Infinity and Beyond.  There’s enormous Power in PIAVAing from that Expanded state.  As a Giant with a full bladder, what Land would you like to Irrigate?

As Naomi says, No Is Not Enough.  As Dr. Kim says, we need to change our Yes-Buts to Yes-Ands.  While What We Don’t Want might lead us to our Abandoned Orphans the way the white dudes led us to our Powerful Giant, we need to Focus on What We Do Want, and more particularly How We’ll Feel when we Receive or Achieve exactly that, because these are Precisely the Lunar Emotions that with enough Inertia will cement that Reality into Form.  So in your Personal Utopia, who would you have replace those white dudes in their pee-soaked suits and Royal-Class Lifetime healthcare, and what would they be selling us?  Maybe it would even be You that replaces them.

It’s Dynamic Creativity that focuses on Mechanism, on How we might Receive our Freedom from Oppression.  That works great when we’re copying something we already have and Know how to Make.  Magnetic Creativity, like Responsibility, focuses on Outcomes.  Unless we’re a World-Class inventor, Mechanisms are always Limited by what we Already Know.  Outcomes are only Limited by Imagination.  Failures of Imagination are caused by our Limiting Beliefs. 

Michael Roads’s Story for today is about Doubt…

Doubt attempts to destroy trust, but trust is the killer of doubt.

“Any situation you are in that holds any doubt at all, simply trust.  If you doubt yourself, then look on it as an opportunity to learn to trust.  No matter how much doubt attempts to destroy trust, it cannot win.  Trust is the killer of doubt.  Trust, and keep on trusting.  If it all goes wrong,  you can rejuvenate doubt, or you can keep on with the power of trusting!
“No matter what it takes, trust, trust, and trust.  In what or whom do you trust?  You trust in the magnificent, metaphysical, multidimensional, immortal Being of Love and Light . . . your Self!  Never doubt this; you are capable, worthwhile, and powerful.  Your power is in your positive action.  Truly, positive action does not get more positive or powerful than when living your trust in Self.
The Goddess of Trust Eurydike Conjoins the North Node (our Destination) and Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) on one corner of the Sedna-Moon-Nodes Grand Cross (Powerful Motivation) and Grand Unx (Powerfully Breaking Patterns).

The Midpoint of Sagittarius is the home of the “Great Attractor.”  No one knows what it is, but we and our neighbor Galaxies are all pouring toward it at Galactic speed.  Lilith is sitting in front of the Great Attractor, Channeling its Power into her Insatiable Lust for Self-Sovereignty.  She happens to be at the Focus of a Mjölnir (Epiphany), from Uranus-Eris (Yintegrity) and Mercury-Varuna (Awareness of the Life Force).  We’ll get to that soon, when we talk about the Klotho (Initiation of a New Timeline) and Sappho (Self-Love) Stations that are simultaneous with our Sedna-Moon-Nodes event.  The Stations are one Sign away (Breaking Patterns) from Lilith.

So it’s Clearly Time to find our Giantess of Power lurking back there in the Shadows of our Wholeness.  Don’t worry about Gender; We Be All One, remember?  If we could get five people all Feeling their Giantess of Power at once, we’d have a Movement.  Who knows what sort of Reality we might Manifest.

4 July II

June 24, 2017

If there is any one thing that I would recommend over the next ten days before our Big Event, it would be to Separate your Thoughts from your Emotions.  They feed one another, so when you start on a downward spiral, confusing them accelerates the descent.  By far the greatest proportion of our Emotion comes not from Present Moment Experience, but from our Karmic Memory banks.  So we do ourself no Service when we reinforce them – and Strengthen our grasp on our Karma in the process – with Anxious thoughts about the largely-irrelevant Present Moment.

By Separating them we increase our likelihood of Connecting with our Parallel Lives, the source of most of the Archetypes, Habits, Patterns, and Karma that we Experience as Emotion and Limiting Beliefs – the “Anchor” that Suzanne Lie will speak of in our next post, and the Walls in our “Reality” that prevent us from even seeing what’s Possible.  Connecting directly with our Parallels is a big step toward connecting with our 5D Soul Self.

How to Separate Emotion and thought? 

The easiest way I know is to Locate your Emotion or Pain in your Body.  You don’t have to be precise, or even accurate.  If you aren’t sure where it might reside in your body, Ask yourself, “What if I did know,” then take the first answer (which you may already have rejected).  The task is to Embrace the Emotion as Emotion, stripped of contamination by thought.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Hard and Cold.  Put your hand on that place in your Body, or a towel, to Warm it.  Imagine it Softening.

Your mind will wander, many times.  Just keep Lovingly and Gently bringing it back to the place you’ve identified in your Body.  If the Pain or Emotion moves, follow it.  It’s actually Success when it moves, because you’ve Softened your Emotional Scar Tissue and allowed Healing to move in with the increased blood flow.  If you start to get bored, take a break, and when your thoughts starts to Dance cheek-to-cheek with your Emotion again, come back to this practice.  You’ll be amazed at what you can Heal with this process.

(We introduced the 4 July Big Event in the “Solstice New Moon I” post,  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/06/22/solstice-new-moon-i/ , so we’re calling this “4 July II” – there is no post titled “4 July” or “4 July I.”)

Solstice New Moon I

June 22, 2017

Like the Solstice itself, the New Moon (7:30 pm PDT 23 June at 3 Cancer) still Conjoins asteroid Aletheia (Truth), still Opposes the ongoing Pholus-Quaoar Conjunction (Being Fully Responsive to our Survival Needs) that spans the Galactic Center (implying that it’s not just our Survival that’s at stake), and still makes a Grand Cross with the Chiron-Makemake Opposition.  The latter Opposition is about Making Lemonade from our Pain and Victimidity. 

I was going to look up what Dan & the Arcturians said earlier about “The way that you shed your baggage is by owning it.  The way that you own it is by releasing all of your resistance to it” (http://danielscranton.com/synchronizing-with-your-higher-selves-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/) when I discovered their even-more-appropriate Message for today…

http://danielscranton.com/past-lives-integration-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“When you are faced with something in your life that you find more than just upsetting, you are looking directly at something from one of your past lives that you are still carrying with you because you need to experience some healing, some release, some resolution, and some clearing around that particular circumstance.  You are not blank slates when you are born into your physical bodies.  You have with you at the moment of your birth an agenda and many different aspects that are seeking some sort of resolution or redemption.

“You often come in contact with these aspects of you through the traumatic experiences of your current life.  You are always giving yourselves opportunities to release that which is no longer serving you, that which has been a burden on you for quite some time, and this lifetime is the one where you will continue to give yourself those opportunities until you are willing to face that situation that’s more than just a little upsetting.

“The reality that you experience is always giving you what you need, and it is giving you what you need based upon where it is that you want to go in your personal evolution.  The end result of all of it is going to be a happier you, a more creative you, and a lighter you.  So no matter what you are facing, no matter what you are in the midst of clearing right now, it is a wonderful opportunity for you to do more than just lighten your load in this lifetime.

“You are also here in service to all of those other aspects of you in all of those other lifetimes that could use a little help, that could use some compassion, and that could certainly use some unconditional love.  This journey of yours is one elaborate plan, dreamt up by your oversoul, to give you the best possible opportunity to experience and to feel everything.  You are doing magnificent work just by living your lives, just by facing these things that you would rather not have to deal with or look at.

“And if you ask these past life aspects of yours for help, you will get it.  If you see yourself as a team, a collective, a collaboration, you are going to empower yourselves.  You are going to bring forward more strength than you knew you had, and you are going to quicken your integration experience.”

Of course in Multidimensional Reality these “Past” Lives are Concurrent, Parallel, and if you do “see yourself as a team, a collective, a collaboration,” you’re just Identifying with your Oversoul, which isn’t much different from Enlightenment or Ascension, is it.

Not only is the Solstice Grand Cross preserved in the New Moon chart, but so is the Grand Quintile that we’ve been talking about in the last two posts.  The Moon has moved on, as is Her wont, but Venus (our Values) has taken the Moon’s place, and I have no doubt that Venus will do a completely admirable job at standing in.  Orcus (Oathing and Deoathing) still leads the Grand Quintile, and when it comes to Making Oaths, what more Comprehensive and Consequential (to our 3D Ego) Oath could we Make than to Forget our Multidimensional True Self while in 3D “Reality”?  So while we’re Deoathing, why not Go For the Whole Megillah?

I mean, what else is there to say after that?

But yes, there always seems to be More, eh?  Like those Betelguesian Parallels; did we include those?  Or the ones from Deneb el Okab?

Speaking of which, we’re coming up to a huge Climax of whatever it is that we’re up to, on 4 July, when Sedna Exactly Squares the Nodes.  I’ve given 3pm PDT to it, as that’s when the Moon Completes the Grand Cross, though the Exact Sedna Square is more like late morning.  If we include asteroid Pandora (which is very appropriate – remember Hope was left at the bottom of her Jar) and the Star Deneb el Okab, we complete a full Grand Unx – twelve planets evenly spaced around the Zodiac (an “Unx” is one twelfth of something).  Unfortunately Deneb el Okab is associated with Fire raining down from the Sky, but the Grand Unx implies a Positive Outcome.  Of course, if we’re Identified with our Oversoul, they’re all Positive, so that would be an excellent practice for the next couple of weeks.

There are also three planets Stationary (very Strong) and another Out of Bounds (also very strong) on 4 July.  And Mars (Action, Anger), which has been Out of Bounds since mid-May, returns In-Bounds on 29 June.  Mercury too, which when too Strong can be vituperative, returns In-Bounds on 2 July, after being Out of Bounds since 17 June.  Ceres (Sustainability and Sustenance) steps Out of Bounds on 1 July, remaining there till the September Equinox.  Hopefully whatever the “Rockets Red Glare” reveals will be Sustainable, rather than reducing us to Sustenance or grinding us into Barley Mash.

The three Stationary planets are Haumea (Rebirth), Klotho (Cutting the Cloth for a New Timeline or Lifetime), and Sappho (Self-Love).  In the 1950s we used to say that an air-raid siren readying us for a nuclear attack indicated that it was time to “stick your head between your legs and kiss your ass goodby.”  That may be a little extreme, but it might be a good plan to Express our Gratitude to our Current Ego for its Service keeping our Physical Vehicle tooting along, and go hang out with our Oversoul.  That would be max Self-Loving, and we need a vacation anyway.