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Beyond Bounds and Boundaries

November 11, 2017

Here’s our 11:11 portrait, with its Grand Septile, drawn in purple…

The Septile is the Seventh Harmonic, one-seventh of the way ’round the Zodiacal hoop.  Of course the Universe is Integral, so there’s no way one segment of it can be more important than any other.  Like the day that the Heart and the Brain were arguing over which one of them was the most critical to the Survival of their Vehicle, when in walked the Colon.  But I do think of the Seventh as one of the more Important Harmonics, mostly because it’s largely ignored in Western Culture.  While they may be able to finesse or brute-force most of the other Angles, the Ego and the Intellect, the two Heroes of Western Culture, have no control over the Seventh Harmonic.

The Seventh is about Timing.  It’s what Don Juan meant when he was always urging Castaneda to “Save his Energy” – when Timing is right and your accounts in the Bank of Intention are full, Miracles happen.  So we need two things to manifest this sort of Effortlessness.  We need a meaningful amount of Attention and Passion devoted toward What-We-Want (complemented by little Attention to What-We-Don’t-Want and lots of Attention to Gratitude toward What-We-Have), and we need to be Open to our Intuition.  Without those two prerequisites, we don’t recognize it when What-We-Want steps in front of us.

We Clear our Intuition and Center our Attention by Reverting our Self-Sabotaging Archetypes and unproductive Karmic Patterns – Goddess knows we been working on that!  Then we need Timing to be in the Right Place at the Right Time so we’re ready and available when the Portal Opens.  A Grand Septile, when seven planets line up more or less equally spaced around the Zodiac, isn’t that common. 

This one isn’t perfect; it has six of seven planet well placed, leaving one Vacancy.  As you probably know by now, a Vacancy represents the Most Important part of a Configuration for us Observers, because the Vacancy specifies the Energy that we have to provide, Consciously, to Complete the Grace.  However, a Fixed Star, Agena, falls conveniently into the Vacancy, so we have help and Guidance after all.  Agena is about the sacrifice that must be made in order to permit Growth.  Of course that’s usually an Ego Death, because it’s our Ego’s job to Defend the status quo.  However, we know how to make an Ego Death Effortless, don’t we, using our “Poor-Sweethearts.”

The exact Vacancy is 27 Scorpio, “A military band marches on noisily through city streets” – exactly the Void that the Defenders of what they’d like to see as the status quo have been trying unsuccessfully to fill.  Like most Revolutions, our Band is rag-tag, which is more than fine.  All we need to get our Timing right is Clarity, Passion, and Intuition.  We don’t need military precision – in fact we need its opposite, Yintegrity.  From the Lawn Order Perspective, that looks like Chaos.  In the 60s we called it Street Theater, and had good Fun with it, because we Trusted Completely that we were being True to our Self.

And whaddayaknow, Chaos and Trust are part of our Grand Septile.  The seven members are…

  • The Pluto-Juno Initiation, which is Exact at 6pm on 11/11.  We wrote about this Union-Jack-Lawn-Order-Warship Cycle at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/11/06/november/.  Another military metaphor.  Remember we’re dealing with the Unconscious, and in the Unconscious, Opposites are seen as variations on an Equal because once we’re out of the Dualistic mind, we see them as two sides of the same Coin, and the Coin is what counts.  So we have no hesitation to Celebrate the Cycle as an Ending to military Order, and Enjoy our Individuation.

Any flag symbolism reminds us of the Pluto-Chiron Initiation in the chart and prospectus for the Century and the Millennium – “A flag turning into an Eagle turning into a Chanticleer saluting the Dawn,” which is easy to interpret as Rigid Identity being Transformed into Enlightenment through Broad Perspective and Cognitive Dissonance (holding multiple “Contradictory” Perspectives at the same time – outside of Dualism, what was formerly Contradiction is simply Paradox).

  • Lachesis-Neptune; Neptune implies Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, while Lachesis symbolizes Choice.  Which is to say that the Timing is Right for us to simply Step Out of any Archetypes we find Limiting us.  The Window is Open for Choosing to move directly to Spirit.  Or moving directly from 3D to 5D by investing Time in indulging How-We’re-Going-to-Feel-when-our-Life-is-Effortless-and-Delightful-and-our-Wishes-are-Granted-Automatically.  Or Imagining that the Rose Above the Sky Has Opened and the Light Behind the Sun Has Taken All.

The Exact Lachesis-Neptune Conjunction occurred at about 3am today 11/11.  It was not an Initiation, but a Confidence-Bulder.  The Initiation occurred 10 May of this year in 14 Pisces, “A lady wrapped in a large stole of Fox fur.”  We didn’t write about it at the time, because there were too many other amazing things going on then (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/05/09/the-rose-above-the-sky/) – which amazing things we can consider to be part and parcel of the entire 6-year Lachesis-Neptune, Choosing-Liberation Cycle – just as we can consider this Grand Septile as part and parcel of the entire 4-year Consciousness-or-Bust Juno-Pluto Cycle.  Even when Her Fur is stolen, Fox is difficult to outsmart.

  • Pallas-Moira; Lachesis is about Choosing when to Extinguish a Habit.  Moira is about Choosing whether to Accept our Fate or to Become Conscious that we Have Options.  We wrote a little about this Cycle at its April 2017 Conjunction (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/04/25/new-moon-26-4-17/): “With Moira (Fate) Conjunct Pallas (Boundaries) we’re probably talking about Being Given Opportunities to Notice and Change long-term and Karmic Habits of Giving Away Our Power.” 

Pallas’s and Moira’s orbits differ in length by only a month, so it’s almost impossible to isolate their Cycles in any organized fashion, as they Dance with one another constantly.  Consequently, Huper Boundaries are fickle.  People can go from enemy to friend and back in the blink of an eye.  In this era of Polarization (brought on by the Grand Cross in the Century and Millennium chart), every Pallas-Moira Conjunction, like this one, is an Opportunity to extend our Unconditional Love further.  Which is, after all, another prerequisite to Enlightenment.  And you know that the Timing is Right.

  • Dwarf planet Chaos represents the Unlimited-Potential characteristic of the 5D Universe when compared to 3D.  Just another indication that the Timing is Right to Exceed what we Believe we “Deserve” to Receive.  Deserving and Receiving are connected only in Abusive, Manipulative, Power-Over Relationships.  If you tend to connect them, the Time is Right to Allow yourself to Receive without Limit, because it is your birthright.  It’s best to begin PIAVAing smaller things, so you Learn to Trust your Ability and Willingness to Receive.  That Allows you to work up to Everything-You-Want.

No, we aren’t implying that Wanting is Sacred.  In fact, Wanting is a form of Scarcity.  Abundance (Having Enough to Share) is more conducive to forward progress.  But Wanting is natural, and if we can keep our Wanting within the range of the Doable, we can Want-Receive, Want-Receive, Want-Receive, and so on, till we’ve Learned to Trust the process.  Once we “graduate,” Receiving will be Instantaneous and not mediated by the Ego.  In the interim, we PIAVA as our practice at breaking the chains of the Ego’s beloved but Limited Plan-Act-Effort strategy.

  • Ceres.  Ceres means Sustainability.  Here, it just means that it’s Time to make this Change Permanent.  Not that you won’t have occasional or even frequent reversions to 3D, some by Choice.  But basically, once you use this Timing to Step Over the 5D Threshold, you won’t be going back except to visit.  The astrology Changes daily, even hourly, so this Portal is only Open for a few minutes, right?  Wrong.  All Beings Learn, and Hupers as well as any.  Every astrological Moment is an Opportunity to take that Moment’s Vibration into your Body and make the Energy Permanently yours.  All you need to do is Choose it.

Many of us hesitate to jump directly to 5D because we Fear we’ll leave behind What-We-Love.  Actually, indulging that Fear as an Anxiety, rather than Tapping it Out, is more likely to result in you getting left behind while What-You-Love makes the jump!

  • Which brings us to Makemake-Eurydike.  Eurydike means Trust.  Trust that you can Choose to make this Energy yours Permanently.  And of course Makemake means like it sounds – Make Make, Manifest Manifest.  Manifest What-You-Want.  Energy follows Attention, so be watchful that you catch yourself when focusing on What-You-Don’t-Want, as soon as you can.  It’s so tempting, it takes eternal vigilance.  When you catch yourself, Tap it Out.  Tapping is ideal for Negative Thought Patterns, because the whole idea is to Acknowledge that the Negative is embedded in your Energy System, then by Tapping, Rebalance your Meridians.  “Even though I tend to Attend to What-I-Don’t-Want, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”

The Makemake-Eurydike Initiation occurs 15 November, 5am PST, at 5 Libra, “A teacher revealing to his or her students the foundation of an inner knowledge upon which a ‘New World’ could be built.”  Pretty Big, eh?  It’s a 5-year Cycle, about Trusting that Receiving is not about Deserving, but about Allowing.  We make our bed first, by Clearing our Limiting Beliefs and Toxic Habits, Inviting our Intuition to Guide us to the Right Timing, and working with our PIAVAs. Then we can Relax and Enjoy sleeping in it.

  • And finally, the Star Agena.  It’s a major star in the Centaurus Constellation, which is all about Chiron’s Sacrifice.  In other words it’s the Symbol for Poor-Sweethearting, because that’s the sort of Self-Empathy which Heals “unhealable” wounds like Chiron garnered, thanks to the consequences of Herakles’s theft of Pholus’s wine.  Or, from the Patriarchal Perspective, Pholus’s failure to be Fully Able to Respond.  As one of the agents of the Patriarchy tasked to destroy the Matriarchy, though, Blame falls on Herakles.  If you still do Blame.  Blame is, you know, incompatible with the Unconditional Love we need if we want to make What-We-Want Permanent and Instantaneous.

The Yin-Feminine Matriarchy had its day and was ready to retire, though of course as is the Ego’s wont – even the Collective Ego’s, it couldn’t Acknowledge its own End.  So the Yang-Masculine Patriarchy had to hunt it down and behead it, so it could have a turn.  Just as our Birthing of the Yang-Feminine Dotterarchy requires that we hunt down the last vestiges of the Patriarchy and geld it. 

We agree with Genia Pauli Haddon that the Dotterarchy is characterized by, among other things – such as what from the Perspective of 3D looks like Magic; Power-With rather than Power-Over; Yintegrity rather than Yangtegrity; Self-Sovereignty rather than Codependence; Cooperation rather than Competition, and Balance between the Rights and Power of Individuals and the Rights and Power of Groups.  The Timing is Right.  Celebration of Diversity is a natural consequence of Unconditional Love.

None of these players are speedsters, so the Grand Septile will be with us for a while.  The quickest member is Pallas, and it will stay within three-Degree Sensitivity of its current position for another 12 days.

The 11:11 Juno-Pluto chart also includes a second Configuration in addition to the Grand Septile.  It’s drawn in light lines on the picture.  Juno-Pluto is the Focus of a Finger of God from Asbolus (Intuition) and the North Node (Life Mission), making Asbolus a Trine Bridge across the Nodes.  All that means that our two greatest Gifts here, apart from Timing, are our Intuitive Appreciation for the Hidden Skills that lie beneath our Karma (South Node), and our Attention to Anything and Everything that intrudes upon our Consciousness.

Maria Bethencourt has shared a great summary of this part of our Transition…

https://lightlover1964.wordpress.com/2017/11/09/11-11-portal-physical-symptoms-and-activations/

For instance, “Remember before your awakening how you would pray to your guardian angels at night?…WE are the Guardian Angels Of All life here now, for in 5d that is how we walk in service.  For The Highest Good Of ALL in Love.  Doesnt matter what level of consciousness, what dimension… doesn’t matter what chakra system, where, when, how…  The SOUL Of this Earth has Chosen to Offer this experience of Heaven On Earth without interference to All living beings on this planet.  You didn’t “think” prayers never get heard and answered?  We are Love, for Love is ALL THERE Is.  That is why IT Transcends the illusion of Space and Time, Consciousness and everything else…whatever that might be.”

It’s long, but I recommend a quick read of her whole article, as she catalogs many of the aches and pains and strange Sensations that we’re experiencing from what she calls the “Frequency Light Upgrades” or “FLU.”

Another Choice

October 31, 2017

When we’re up against out Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, it often feels like We’re Dying, or like We’d Rather Die than have to do that again.  Today, that is likely to be some variation of Giving Away Our Power Again.  There is quite literally a Choice this morning between Claiming Our Self-Sovereignty, and Death – which is of course an Ego Death, as Ego is the only thing that ever Dies.  Well, I know, Ursula says that Coyote is always Dying too, but Coyote is just a symbol for the Ego.

This Portal is compounded by a heavy-duty Full Moon on Friday (10:30 pm PDT) that’s associated with Death – and favored by Death.  (We’ll write about this after Lachesis turns Direct and Varuna turns Retrograde on Wednesday, 9am PDT.)  In other words, Accepting and even PIAVAing an Ego Death (such as something like “Ganeshi, Please Lovingly and Gently Remove All Obstacles to My Accepting and Celebrating this Loss of Identity and Resistance to What Is!”) may be our best course by far, making our “Future” much Easier.  Or we might say, making our escape from Timespace more quicker.

Bottom Line – if you run into any apparently unsolvable issues during the next several days, Recognize that it’s an Opportunity and a Blessing.  An Opportunity to Choose Not To Understand, and to Surrender.  To Let the Universe run itself, without your having to drive.  To Wonder who you might end up Being, once you Let Go of who you thought you were.  Choose the Unknown; it’s a Big Window.  You can sit in the back seat and rubberneck, Enjoying complete Egoless Safety in your Self-Driving Universe.

Lachesis (Choice) turns Direct at 3am PDT 1 November, and Varuna (the Life Force) turns Retro at 9am PDT.  Meanwhile, Quaoar (our Survival Instincts) Initiates Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) at about 9am PDT as well.

The 3 November Full Moon (10:30 pm PDT) at 12 Taurus Sextiles the Lachesis Station, which Conjoins Neptune (Material Confusion, Spiritual Clarity).  There’s much more going on, but along with the Full Moon and Lachesis-Neptune, plus Orcus (Pattern-Breaking) and Juno-Chariklo (Confidence in our Edges), the Fixed Star Canopus completes a Grand Sextile in the Magnetic Signs.

Canopus is the Grest Navigator of the Southern Skies, the South Pole Star.  One of his tasks is Ferrying the Dead to the Underworld, so you can Give him your olde obsolete Habits and Identities and Limitation, so he can recycle them into the building blocks of something more useful.

Surrendering to the Unknown XI

September 27, 2017

A reader sent me this link a while ago, and just today I’ve finally found time to look it over.  Here’s an excerpt…

https://personalityhacker.com/podcast-episode-0039-systems-thinking/

“In this podcast on Systems Thinking and the Illusion of Cause-and-Effect you’ll find:

  • “There is no such thing as Cause and Effect but only ‘Emergent Properties of Systems’
  • “Systems Thinking is a way of thinking or interacting with reality that is different from basic Cause and Effect
  • “When we try to create influenced results, we end up having limited influence over it because we are not seeing the other Influencers or Nodes in the system
  • “To have a desired result, recognize that nodes have to work in a certain way to have an ’emergent’ (thing that emerges from all things working together)
  • “We turn to Cause and Effect thinking because things are too complex to understand and because it is easier to fuse Sequential events
  • “A System is a cluster of themes working together influencing each other; doing things synchronously and asynchronously and bringing about an inevitable emergent
  • “Two things to keep in mind about systems:
    • “Initial Condition (starting condition of a system)
    • “How the nodes in the system interact with each other”

What a coincidence that I’d look at it today, eh?  I’ve read some about Systems Theory, but I’ve never actually studied it.  I’m surprised to find that it can be formulated to eschew Cause and Effect!  Of course themes “working together influencing each other” can be seen as a set of Cause and Effect Relationships if the System encompasses Linear Time, but we don’t usually include feedback and mutual influence when we think of the Cartesian God Causean Defect.

The point is that our Antagonist and Identity from the previous post are two Nodes in a complex Conscious-Subconscious System, Pluto and Capricorn are two more Nodes, while Self and Other are two additional Nodes, which incorporate a Codependence-Sovereign axis into the System – if the System incorporates Duality and thus can be said to have axes.  We may instead just have a cluster of Nodes – Sovereignty, Interdependence, YintegrityYangtegrity, Codependence, and however else we want to differentiate Relationship.

When I look through this lens at the Frequencies I’m trying to Manifest, while “I” am at least several Nodes in these Systems, it’s as if this “I” is outside of the System looking in.  That partial Separation might be useful for locating the Resistance Nodes (like my Abandonment and my overfocus on Mechanism), the Persistence and Discouragement Nodes, the Outcome Nodes, the Emotion Nodes (especially including the Passion that glues Energy into Form), the Self-Worth Nodes, the 3D-Trap Nodes (like Linear Time and Causan Defect and Analysis – like this one).  But we hammer in our pitons as we climb.

Without Intending it, I pick up a book and open it at random.  Interesting…

“One of the problems with the spiritual quest is that it can become so intellectual that the one quality that will help you the most is lost.  That quality is the ability to love.  Many come to me and say they want to love but don’t know how, so I would now like to share with you some of my observations of [huper]kind.  In this time of mentalization, of concepts and ideas, [hupers are] forgetting something very simple. 

“What you are forgetting is that the basic quality of [huper] consciousness is love.  The ever-shifting shadows that play upon the surface of that love are really nothing more than shadows, but since you have taken them to be reality, the play engrosses you and the love eludes you…

“The first thing needed is to see yourself differently.  Do not view yourself as some little worm scrambling for love but as a full-blown, wondrously open being, filled with abiding love…  When you meditate…  I think it important that you concentrate on the center which you call the heart center.”  –Bartholomew, I Come as a Brother, p.126-7

Michael Roads is always talking about Choosing Love, but this sort of puts it in a new Light.  So I’ll fill my little Node-filled Manifestation pinball machine with Heart Energy, and see where the marble flies to.

Intuitive Confidence V – Lesson Plan

September 18, 2017

The Asbolus Station chart, and the New Moon after it, features no less than three Quintile Yods.  A Yod is a wedge-shaped triangle.  A Quintile is two planets one fifth of the way ’round the Zodiac from one another.  It means Learning and Teaching, the Fifth Harmonic.  We usually draw them in orange (though they look more red here).  A Quintile Yod is made up of two Biquintiles (two fifths of the way ’round) and one Quintile, making a narrow triangle, like these…

The three Quintile Yods include…

  • A Nemesis QYod on a base of Stationary Asbolus and Venus – we will be Learning about Ego Death with our Intuition and our Values as our Teachers
  • An Ixion-Saturn-Lilith QYod on a base of Pallas and Ceres-Aletheia-Mnemosyne – We’re finally Learning that it’s Most Important to Support the Sovereignty of our Hidden Genius, as we Remember the Truth of the Abuse that forced Her underground, and Learn to draw Boundaries to Protect Her
  • A North Node QYod on a base of Chiron and Pluto – This one is Big too; we’re Learning to Support our Lifetime Mission (whether we recognize it Consciously or not), by Accepting the necessary Self-Transformations and Empathizing with the Pain of the resulting Ego Deaths

One Quintile Yod is fairly unusual; three of them at once is a Graduate School.

In the previous post, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/09/18/intuitive-confidence-iv-asbolus/, we drew in, in light lines, the ongoing Earth Grand Trine that includes the 17 September Chariklo Station, partly to remind us that it’s still about, and partly to point out that… 

  • Orcus Initiated Mercury in 10 Virgo on 17 September (6pm PDT).
  • Orcus Initiated Moon in 10 Virgo on 18 September (noon PDT).
  • Orcus Initiates Mars in 10 Virgo on 19 September (10:30 am PDT).

10 Virgo is “Two heads looking out and beyond the shadows,” which Rudhyar interprets as Transcending Duality.  Wouldn’t that be nice.  Orcus is about Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking.  The Etruscan God Orcus was in charge of Punishing Oath-Breakers.  Oaths serve only to enforce Slavery, whether to outside Authority or to our own mind.  A distant Ancestor once took an Oath to Breathe Oxygen, so we can’t dismiss Oaths completely – we’re Creatures of Habit, and we’d all be stumbling around like one-year-olds if we weren’t, if we made it to year one. 

However, there’s a one-to-one relationship between Oaths we’ve made and Archetypes that Enslave us.  We live 99% from the Unconscious, and many of the Archetypal Programs running in the Unconscious are Limiting Beliefs.  Since those Limiting Beliefs travel with us from Lifetime to Lifetime, we’ve Vowed to Escape from some of them during the current Lifetime.  The Etruscans were right – Breaking an Oath requires Punishment, and we feel it as Guilt. 

Yes, we Disappoint and Abandon many people, in this Lifetime and others, when we disavow an Oath, and that doesn’t feel good.  This Discomfort is part of our Ego Death.  We use the Ego to Merge with an Oath to create a Limiting Belief – it Defines us – otherwise we wouldn’t reliably Obey it.  So Transcending it requires an Ego Death.  

Fate and Choice

September 3, 2017

A video from last week’s Sedna Station…

Meanwhile, these poor folks keep Looking For Us in all the wrong places.  I Wonder if they’ll ever wake up…

https://www.universetoday.com/137008/breakthrough-detects-repeating-fast-radio-bursts-coming-distant-galaxy/

But what we really want to write about today is Thursday’s Station of asteroid Moira (Fate and Choice)…

By “coincidence” a reader wrote last week to inquire about their Relationship, and it turned out that they were in the middle of their Moira Returns – both of them!  A “Return” is when a planet returns to the same Sign and Degree it was in when you were born – a Birthday is just a “Solar Return.”  It’s basically a Reboot with regards to the influence of the Returning planet, in the case of Moira an Open Door to replace Ancient Habits with Conscious Choice.  When any planet Stations during a Return, we know we’re up for important Life Lessons.

Moira takes 4 years, six months, 7 days, and 8 hours (4.52 years) to complete the Zodiacal loop, so if you’re born any multiple of that from another person, you’re going to have your Moiras (Moirai in Greek) in the same place – that is, your Fate in the same ball game.  Think about that with regard to difficult siblings, cousins, parents, relatives, teachers, coaches, bosses, employees, subcontractors, clients, colleagues, teammates, neighbors, arresting officers, litigants, bounty hunters, wascally wabbits, or Antichrists in your Life. 

You can calculate the position of each person’s Moira by entering their birth date at http://www.true-node.com/eph1/?inputNumber=moira&day=1&month=9&year=2017&time=00%3A00%3A00&zone=GMT+0&interval_num=1&interval=day&lines=10&.submit=Get+Ephemeris&calendar=Gregorian&zodiac=Tropical&origin=Geocentric&lighttime=Apparent&clock=Universal+Time&zodsec=D%B0M&longitude=on .

It could make a Relationship (or a relationship) even more Confusing if one person’s Moira Opposed the other’s.  Remember though that Confusion is the first sign of Growth.

And an alliance or association would probably be even less Present-Moment, and hence even harder to understand, if the members’ Moirai Square one another (3 Signs apart in the same or adjacent Degrees).  You’ll be wondering what planet they’re from!

We have to say that a Relationship between two people with their Moirai in the same place, would be a “Fated” Relationship.  “Preplanned” would be a synonym in some Belief Sets, as would “Addictive” in others.  Very few of us are born in full Consciousness, and only Consciousness allows us to step out of Fate, step out of our Karma, and step into Choice.  So it’s going to take some time for most of us to “wake up” enough to be able to Choose whether or not a “Fated” Relationship is What We Want (if we have a Choice). 

With a Moira Return every 4½ years, we get to Reboot our “Choice of Fate (or not)” fairly frequently.

A “Fated” Relationship doesn’t at all have to be a “bad” one.  In fact, in most cases it would be a strong incentive for us to get Conscious, and if Consciousness is part of our Mission in the Lifetime, thinking of it as “Preplanned” is probably apt, if metaphorical.  If our “Fated” Relationships are Comfortable, we probably wouldn’t think twice about them; we’d just think that’s the way Relationships are supposed to be,, though we’d both probably have to be pretty Masterful at Self-Love.  Like those folks you know who met their Soulmates in high school and lived Happily Ever After.

If there were otherwise many Dischordant elements between our charts, we’d probably spend a lot of time Wondering why we’re attracted to someone so different from ourself.  Of course the answer would be So We Can Get Conscious, but they don’t usually teach that in school.

Our reader had their Exact Moira Return earlier in August; their partner won’t have theirs until next year.  Even though their natal Moirai are only a few Degrees apart, Moira’s Retrograde period intervenes.  Moira backs up from 10 Taurus to 26 Aries, a Degree Zone that has to do with finishing and critiquing the Design of a new Project, and building it out to the point where it’s recognizable for what it will eventually become.  Aries Projects are Compulsive, Impulsive, and Spiritually Motivated, so the intellect is flying blind – we know there’s a Plan and that it’s important, we just don’t know what the Plan is yet. 

We’ve come through the 26-Aries-to-10-Taurus Degree Zone once, now we’ll back over it and reconsider everything until mid-December, then make a second pass until early next March.  By then, whatever we’re working on should look pretty good.  We may even be able to guess what it’s about, though we’ll probably be wrong.  It’s better to leave Arian Projects as Mysteries, so we don’t screw them up with our Expectations and misguided Control issues.

In our reader’s case, at their Moira Return in mid-August they entered into a new phase in their progression toward Full Consciousness.  Now their new phase is on hold until December, while they revise their Approach to Life and their Personal history in light of what they’ve Realized.  Remember, Consciousness is not a process of Discovery, it’s one of Differentiation.  When we Become Conscious of something, it’s not new, it’s been their all along, we just haven’t Differentiated it from the background.

The most difficult part of any Relationship is Boundaries.  Putting it mildly, as if we’re Neutral in any Relationship, “Was that you that offended me, or am I being over-sensitive?” or “Am I rude and insulting, or is that you over-reacting?”  And the Bullying version, “I was just joking.”  In the case of interrelated Moirai, even more than usual, it would more often be “You just Triggered my Held Emotions, thank you very much,” or in the vernacular, “You Motherf…!”  As if anyone is Neutral when their Held Emotions are Lit.

Our reader also happens to have a Life Mission of Exploring Boundaries (asteroid Pallas Square to their Nodes), so they’ve “Chosen” (on the Soul level) a very serious Challenge for themselves.  As the Findhorn Transformation Game says, “The hardest jobs are only given to the best people.”  Their best bet in such a situation is probably to Dedicate their Life to Neutrality.  Gay Hendricks once spoke of a client of his who would reply to any Challenge, no matter how confrontative, “I Wonder how I might put that to good use.”

The prerequisite for Neutrality in difficult situations is Staying in the Present Moment.  Not at all Easy when our Held Emotions are coming up, but actually essential for any of us, if we hope to Liberate ourself from our Self-Sabotaging Archetypes.  Staying in the Present Moment means Attending to what’s going on at the moment in our Physical Vehicle.  Trading “You Motherf…!” for “Wow, do I ever feel strong Anger arising from my Belly!” or “Geez, my body temperature just rose ten Degrees!”  “I Wonder what would happen if I took a Deep Breath, or did Kegels.”  “I have to go to the bathroom; I’ll get back to you on this later.”

Sedna Teaches us that Anger and Fear are close cousins; Anger and Fear probably have their Moirai Square to one another.  If Anger is Fight, Fear is Freeze.  Flight is probably more often a reasonable Conscious or Unconscious Choice, as Anger is not your best friend when you Fight, and Freezing is a bad choice when staring at truck headlights.  If our aim is to Embrace Consciousness, then both Anger and Fear are prime Portals into What’s Asking To Be Examined.  Of course, Safety First, so when at all possible we want to be in a 100% Supportive environment when we Examine either Anger or Fear. 

If our environment isn’t 100% Supportive, we need a Safe exit, so we can Engage briefly, then Withdraw without penalty while we bring ourself back to the Present Moment as much as we can.  Tapping can play that role to some extent; Energy follows Attention, so we can productively Imagine that we’re Tapping in circumstances where physical Tapping would be inconvenient.  Another useful tool is our Mirror.

In any Difficult, Confusing, or Ill-Defined-Boundary situation, we can Imagine holding up a wardrobe Mirror between us and our protagonist, with the Mirror side facing them.  We can do this while they’re present and we’re Engaged with them, or while they’re absent, whenever we’re trying to iron out “who did what to whom when.”  Often we may need to expand the Mirror; sometimes we need a 360-degree dome around us, and sometimes we need to practice holding that Mirror long enough that we develop new Habits of Self-Protection.

Places where we have weak Boundaries are not accidents.  Someone Programmed us that way, and it’s Energetic equivalent is a hole in our Aura, often in the back of the Heart.  Not that we need to Blame them for Programming us, beyond being Honest with ourself about our Anger about it.  Eventually we’ll discover that we (Soul-we) actually Asked them to Program us, so we could Learn how to Recover from it and henceforth never again surrender Unconsciously to Manipulation.

When using our Mirror, the important thing is to watch what happens in the Present Moment.  Do we feel Safer or less Agitated?  That’s the primary objective.  Does their Attitude change?  That’s secondary, but still important; we have to Accept that we can Change no one except ourself.  But when we Change, the World Changes, because Real Life is not Dual, it’s Unitary and Multifarious. 

Ego Boundaries, while critically important to our Survival, are just a house of cards.  The Soul survives a million Egos, so Survival is really just an Ego thing anyway, but Exploring these Edges is precisely how we Expand our Consciousness.  So the Ego is in no sense trivial, even if its Illusory!

So if our protagonist’s Attitude changes, that’s evidence that our Mirror is working.

Learning how to Manifest a Safe Space for the Ego is an important part of Creating Peace.  How can we Tolerate anyone who is Different from us if we don’t have a Safe Space for our own Ego, our own Self-Protection?  While we appropriately disparage and disdain the 1% and the Antichrist and Extremists of all stripes, one thing they Demonstrate for us very well, is that they have a Safe Space for their Egos.  We can Imitate that without Selling Out, because we aren’t Sociopaths.

More Choice

August 29, 2017

The Arcturians, through Daniel Scranton, advise…

“Even the ability to connect with beings such as ourselves is one that more of you than ever are capable of having and utilizing.  We are meant to be your guides and to serve, and we want to reach as many of you as we can.

“[As for] your fifth dimensional abilities now, we must say that it’s going to be hard for some of you to accept that what you are experiencing is real.  There have been lifetimes for each of you when you’ve tapped in to abilities that others did not have, and you were branded as insane, or a witch, or in some other way ostracized.  And so, as much as you want to have the abilities that you want to have, you also understand that they come with a price.

“For some of you that price will simply be processing the fears that you have of persecution and the fears that you have of simply being weird.  For others you will need to process that branding that can take place, that persecution, and all that you have suffered in your previous lifetimes when you were able to see, and do, and hear things that others could not.”

Held Emotions, in other words.

“It’s time for all of you to step into your power so that you can guide, so that you can lead and so that you can help to awaken those who have no idea that there is a shift happening.  This can be fun for you if you allow it to be.  It does not have to be a burden.  Open yourselves up to receiving those abilities and trust that what you see, and what you hear, and what you feel is really real.”

With asteroid Moira Stationary, the Door to the Unconscious is wide Open, Allowing us to Access all manner of Information, Skills, Entities, Ghosts, Superheros, and most everything that’s Gone Walkabout.  Remember those tennis shoes that disappeared in 1988?  There is no Time or Space in the Unconscious, only Now and Here, as Ram Dass famously suggested.  So you can Choose to contact anyone or anything you like, from any current, past, or future time.  Until you get used to doing this, the results will be very subtle, and you’ll need to practice your “Well, what if it was” mantra.

The Door is Open now, but even after it closes, if you Choose to So Believe, you can take with you what you’re Learning now.  Remember that you’re Living in one corner of the Backwoods of the Galaxy, which is an infinitesimally small portion of the Universe.  So don’t be surprised if you meet Entities that you won’t find in your bathroom mirror, even during your worst hangover.

The folks in the picture Live here; who knows what the folks on Arcturus look like, or the folks who Live in the Center of the Earth.  Of course it’s all Metaphor anyway; in the best of circumstances All of our senses take in such a tiny fraction of what’s going on, and that’s in 3D where Time and Space can be pixellated.  Plus, y’know, we’re All One, so we’re only Seeing or Feeling parts of ourself.

If you’re having trouble finding the Open Door, look for any place where you have any sense of being a Victim, any situation in your Life that you feel like you didn’t Choose, anything you Don’t Want.  Those are the places where you Believe in Fate rather than your own Power.  Remarkable Miracles await you if you dare to step into those closets and Transform their contents.  The Door are Open.

Big Eclipse I

August 15, 2017

The 21 August Total Eclipse of the Sun, which spans the US from coast to coast, is in the last Degree of Leo, “A mermaid emerges from the ocean waves ready for rebirth in human form.”  This is William-Adolphe Bouguereau’s Vision of Her, from http://artsnpaintings.blogspot.com/1978/07/birth-of-venus.html

Leo 29 is the place where the Ego goes to Die.  Which is cause for High Celebration, for everyone except the Sacrificial Ego, as it’s the only way we can Grow. 

The Eclipse is in the base of a Square Fez…

The Squares or Challenges (heavy red lines) are about…

  • Fear (Eclipse Square to Stationary Sedna) and Anger, if you need that to Defend your Boundaries against Fear
  • Responsibility (Chiron Square to the Pholus-Quaoar Conjunction) to Shift from Indulging Emotional Overwhelm, to Trusting our Survival Instincts

We can sure see all that going on in the USofA!

However, the Challenges aren’t the Main Effect in a Square Fez (unless you make the Choice to lend them your Attention/Energy), the Quincunxes (the heavy green lines) are.  The Quincunxes are about Curiosity.  Not about Problem-Solving, but about the sort of Curiosity that Invites Intuition – basically, Awe and Wonder.  The Quincunxes suggest…

  • “I Wonder what it would look like to Take Responsibility for my Fear”
  • “I Wonder if there are better Responses to Emotional Overwhelm, than Self-Pity”

Certainty Reinforces your Olde Ego; Curiosity Reinforces Growth.  If you watch the News it’s Really Easy to see how Certainty is Retrogressive.

An Eclipse is a rare Opportunity to Receive Shaktipat directly from the Unity of God/Goddess (Sun/Moon), and a Total Solar Eclipse is the Queen of Eclipses.  Turn your Palms upward, roll your Eyes up, Empty yourself, and Open to Enlightenment during the Eclipse.

This particular Square Fez is a Pointy Square Fez, with our Soul Self (Uranus) at the peak of the narrow side or top of the Fez.  That creates Grace without Reserve (a Grand Trine) between our Enlightenment (the Eclipse), our Responsibility (Pholus-Quaoar), and our Soul Self (Uranus).  That’s an enormous Blessing for us, and the only cost is that we shift our Attention from the Challenges to the Wonder.

There’s an additional Stealth Challenge and Curiosity that fills the Void created by the Ego Death.  The Challenge part is apparent Conflict between what our Soul Wants and C (Uranus Square Varuna).  The Curiosity is about “I Wonder what I might Feel if I Surrender to Life Energy without trying to Edit or Limit it.” 

The Uranus-Square Varuna Challenge can be Healed by the Curiosity in the Varuna-Pholus/Quaoar Quincunx, which Opens us to the Pholus/Quaoar-Uranus Trine – ie, a Tricolor Configuration.

In case you missed the Implication, Ego Death is Heralded by the Birth of Pure Feminine Energy.  It’s interesting that the Life Force itself (Varuna), which exceeds What Our Olde Reality Believes Is Possible, sits in the first Degree of Leo (the Ego), while the Eclipse occupies the last Degree.  In other words, if we’re Open to it and successfully court Curiosity instead of Certainty, we can now Manage our Lives from our Instincts rather than from our Ego.  The first Degree of Leo is “Blood rushes to a person’s head as their vital energies are mobilized.”

But all this is just Degrees 27-1.  The Real Action, as has so often been the case for the last several years, is in Degrees 21-25.  We’ll talk about that next.

Make Ego Great Again

August 12, 2017

Well, maybe we’d really be Choosing Famine after all…

http://mashable.com/2017/08/09/north-korea-nuclear-war-climate-change-winter/#.3pYlkGLQiqn

At least we finally understand ‘Rump’s rejection of the Paris Treaty – he had a “better” way in mind.  All the Grand Trines in the Full Moon chart suggest Positive Outcomes, but from the Ego’s Perspective we’re never sure exactly what a Positive Outcome really might be, since the Ego Loves to get Attached to Dead-End status quo situations. Maybe a Nuclear Winter would end up being kinder or more equitable than rising sea levels.  Or, once ‘Rump preemptively nukes Venezuela as well, the falling dominoes might leave few of us here to Enjoy a Nuclear Winter.

Mercury’s now Retrograde, till 4 September.  It backs over much of the first half of Virgo and the last Duad (two-and-a-half Degrees) of Leo.  So the path that we’ve trod in our Mind’s Eye (it’s Mercury after all) since 24 July has involved a likely rather significant Fall from Grace with ourself, as we tested our concept of Self-Love intellectually (Cancer Duad of Leo), found it to be a miserable failure (Virgo Duad of Virgo), then studied its Mirror-Image in Others (Libra and Scorpio Duads), Rejected that (Sagittarius Duad), then began to Start Over (Capricorn Duad).

Now we run this sequence in reverse.  We have to assume that when the Universe Asks us to Repeat a sequence three or more times, it means that we’re really supposed to grok this.  So our next step will likely be to look again for Babies in the Bathwater we discarded during the first week of August, then go back and review all the Vignettes we Re-Experienced in the last week of July (Realizing now that they’re reversed left-to-right, which may mean we might want to reverse the roles in the Vignetted scenarios), and through that process, somehow Fall in Love with ourself again.

Then, between 4 September and the Equinox, we go back through the process in the original direction.  Just as Mercury begins to go Direct again, Mars goes into Virgo, assisting us in our Efforts toward Self-Improvement.  See if you can shift your Attention from Self-Improvement to Self-Acceptance in September.  Virgo can do Ego Death either way – Criticizing itself to Death or Loving itself to Death.  The Criticism path is a treadmill, the Loving path leads to Permanent Growth.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like this is The End, aren’t you.” 

By the time Mercury breaks out of it’s “Shadow Period” (29 Leo to 12 Virgo) at the Equinox, Venus will just be entering Virgo, and we’ll be ready for it.  Nobody’s going to be “Ascending” till they can do Ego Deaths Lovingly.  Surrender (Giving Over to Forces more Powerful and Benevolent than our Ego, not Giving Up) helps a great deal.

When the Sky darkens during the Total Eclipse and you can see the planets lined up, starting west-northwest of the Hole in the Sky where the Sun used to be, and stretching in a line almost halfway across the Sky toward the east-southeast, you should see Venus, Mars, the Sun, Mercury, Jupiter, and Saturn, in that order.  Venus and Jupiter will be brightest.  Mars, reddish, will be close to the Hole.  You might want to memorize this order, since you’ll only have two minutes of darkness, and the fireworks around the Hole in the Sky will be, appropriately, Demanding most of your Attention.

We have a great many metaphorical Rebirths and New Timelines these days.  This will help move us into them…

http://danielscranton.com/creating-new-timelines-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

We have observed that many of you are creating the timelines for yourselves that are ideal from your perspective, and we can see you moving closer and closer to these timelines.  This is the perfect timing to be engaged in such creative work, because you are supported by the energies that are upon you.  You are more supported in creating something new at this time than you are in creating some rehashed, ideal, third-dimensional existence.

[such as the Nuclear Winter that ‘Rump is preparing for us]

“In other words, you are moving forward, not backwards. 

[It’s only the Mind that’s moving backwards; the rest of us is moving forward]

“So in order for you to align with the energies that are moving you forward, you must be willing to go to places you have not gone before.  We are talking about vibration here.  We are talking about getting out of your heads and into the vibrational field you want to be in.

“Your heads are capable of telling you about all of the wonderful things that you have seen here on planet Earth in all of your lifetimes, and you can conjure up a pretty good experience for yourself through what you have seen, what you have done, what you have heard about, but what will absolutely knock your socks off is the unknown that you are creating.

“To create with vibration takes you beyond everything that you’ve experienced thus far in the physical and everything that you’ve ever wanted to experience as well.  Now, the fifth dimensional energies that are upon you are nudging you in this direction.  They are attempting to free you from the limitations of your minds and to nudge you into the unknown field of yet-to-be-experienced vibration.

“And then all you have to do is surrender to the process, because you could not possibly imagine how you are going to come to the timeline that you’re creating.  You cannot imagine because it’s something that you haven’t experienced, and you haven’t heard about yet.

“Soon enough, however, you are going to start to hear about experiences that others are having, unexplainable experiences, experiences that go beyond imagination, beyond thought.  This is what we see you all reaching for as you construct your ideal version of the fifth dimension and you continue to inch your way towards it.”

The Bottom Line is that we Create our Own Reality.  The more we Stretch ourselves beyond the daily Fear propaganda, the more we contribute to the Transformation of the Planet, and the easier it will be for all of us to Roll Our Own.

Cause an Defect Full Moon IV

August 9, 2017

Okay, more about the Full Moon chart and the Partial Eclipse that’s a Gateway to the impending Big Total Solar Eclipse that shines a spotlight on the USofA…

As with all Signs, we can run them Positively or we can run them Negatively.  Remember though that the World (and hopefully your segment of it) needs ultimately to be in Balance, and is Multidimensional as well, so don’t get stuck in Archetypes that worship either side of that Duality. 

(Actually, the World and yourself are always in Balance, it’s just that whatever is needed to Balance your Conscious side resides in the Unconscious.  Since the Unconscious actually rules us, then from this Perspective, the nicer you are, the meaner you really are – and vice versa.)

You’ve been to performances where you’ve been Exhausted afterward, and other performances where you’ve felt Energized after.  That’s the difference between someone who builds their own Confidence by sucking other people’s Energy (we can think of a prominent example who lives in a house that’s being remodeled at the moment), and someone who Shares their Abundant Leonine Self-Love broadly.  Abundance is having enough to Share, After all. 

This is the Duality often represented by Leo, where Sun and Mars and Atropos (Endings) are all parked at this Full Moon, along with the North Node (Lifetime Mission), Veritas (Truth), and Varuna (Life Force)Varuna will be in Leo for the next quarter-century, which should put a very Auspicious carpet under this Planet for a long while.  As for Mars in Leo, if we wrote a song about our Anger, would it draw a cheering crowd?  And when we mingle with the crowd afterward, are they the kind of people we’d Feel at Home with?

Expressing our Anger (Mars) can Create Community, and it can drive folks away.  While Communing with Everyone is a fabulous Aquarian goal (http://danielscranton.com/your-universal-family-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/), we may not actually be ready for such Sympathy and Understanding, Harmony and Trust Abounding.  And that’s all right.  We Are Who We Are, moment to moment (http://danielscranton.com/creating-experiences-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/).

We all need a place to return to where we are Understood and Respected and Loved for exactly Who We Really Are, so for all but the most Saintly among us, that first sort of Community is what we need to Create, to make a Safe Space for us while we put the finishing touches on our Saintliness.  While Anger tends to Divide, the presence of Atropos suggests that Expressing our Anger may help to Let It Go.

This is what the Leo-Aquarius Axis, which this Full Moon Illuminates, is all about, the Coin that unites the Duality.  Leo is the epitome of the Individual Self, Aquarius the epitome of Community.  Leo represents Fixed Fire, Stabilized Energy, or Spirit Manifested into Form.  Aquarius represents Fixed Air, Ideology, or Intellect Manifested into Form.  Michael Roads goes to great lengths to differentiate Intellect from Intelligence.  To him Intelligence derives from the Heart and Gut, while Intellect derives from the Left Brain. 

The Intellect is more than capable of supporting Intelligence, though in the Patriarchy, it’s more likely to support Morality, Politics, and the Preservation of Privilege.  Intellect is finely tuned for Logical Analysis, but Logic is a house of cards built upon Assumptions.  Propaganda manipulates your Logic without being Clear that its Assumptions may not be Universal.  To Transform Aquarius into Intelligence Manifested into Form, we need to Let Go of our Karmic Archetypes.  Our Archetypes and Limiting Beliefs are no more and no less than Unconscious Assumptions.  As long as they’re Unconscious, we can only see half of the Universe.

While Astrology deals with Dualities, it also deals with the Multidimensional.  Leo and Aquarius are not Complete without the other two Fixed Signs, Scorpio and Taurus (and of course the Fixed Signs are not Complete without the Creative and Mutational Signs).  Scorpio as Fixed Water or Emotion, and Taurus as Fixed Earth or Matter, represent the Stabilized Emotional and Material aspects of Reality.  Of course, depending on your Archetypes, Emotion and Matter can be Stabilized into either Constructive or Deconstructive Directions.

The Klotho-Sappho Conjunction (Creating a New Timeline Based on Self-Love), which is the Focus of the Full Moon T-Square, is in Scorpio, so we’re dealing with an Emotional version of Self-Love.  That means the tears that come naturally to your eyes when someone validates the parts of you that are Unseen – your Genius Project, for instance – and when someone perpetrates an Act of Kindness that your own Personal Values wish everyone would do All the Time.  And the Grace you Feel when someone Validates your Anger.  The Leo-Aquarius Full Moon is about the Dynamic between the Individual and the Collective – between You and Other.

Which means that the Taurus or Matter side of the Four-Dimensional Balance is Vacant – we need to Consciously Ground the Energy.  Dan and the Arcfolk concur – http://danielscranton.com/a-process-for-connecting-with-5d-energies-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/ .  The Vacancy is at 16 Taurus, “The inadequacy of past knowledge in times of crisis.”  Hmmm.  I’d rephrase that as “…in times of rapid Change” – in a Stable environment, traditional knowledge is actually very Powerful in a crisis.  But the point is that we need to PIAVA how to Ground ourself and our Milieu.  

There is, however, a Fixed Star in that location, Almach, which is the left foot of the Sacrificial Goddess Andromeda.  Foot as in Power, left as in Feminine Power.  Andromeda is a symbol of an Out-of-Power Tradition victimized by the Dominant Paradigm.  In other words it’s important to bring Self-Trust into Expression of our Anger, and to remember that our Intention is Self-Expression, not to be Understood.  If the Perpetrators Understand our Anger at their Oppression, their Dominance will be threatened, and they will be highly Motivated to torment us further.

Our Objective in Expressing our Anger is not Revenge or Restitution, but to Let Go of its Karmic Grasp of us.  Actually, our Karma does not Grasp us, our Ego Grasps it.  It’s a foundation for our Ego.  So to the Ego, it Feels as if it’s the Karma doing the Grasping.  We cannot Raise our Vibration until we Let Go of our Archetypes, including our Anger.  While it feels like we’re Angry at the Perps in our Present Life, it has Karmic Roots that will not be pulled out by striking out in the Present Life.

To Let Go of Anger or any strong Emotion, we need to start by Poor-Sweethearting it.  Strong Emotions are not Comfortable, and we need to Empathize with our own Discomfort.  “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel Angry, don’t you.”  It’s meant as a declaration of Self-Compassion, not an Accusation.  If being Angry makes you a bad person, find a substitute that isn’t.  “Your poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Irritated, don’t you.”  Or “Agitated,” or “Worked Up.”  Then Change the Subject, and see how long it takes for your Anger to return as a thought-stream.

The next time it arises, Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4).  If it’s at all serious, it will take several Iterations.  Measure the Intensity of your Anger on a scale of 1 to 10 before and after each Iteration, so you can Witness your Progress.  Alternate Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and any other PIAVA you can Create, making sure to Change the Subject after each process.

We should note that the Full Moon and the T-Square occur on the Midpoints of the Fixed Signs, which are the Power Points of the Zodiac, symbolizing the Four Horsepersons of the Apocalypse – Apocalypse to the Ego, Liberation of the Soul. 

We mentioned Obsession recently in this context, as Obsession can make it particularly difficult to Change the Subject, and a reader wrote to ask us how one might address Obsession.  Well, the first question I’d ask, is how might Obsession be indicated in their chart?

If it’s really an Appropriate Expression of their natality, then they may only need to Learn to Love it to Death.  That may not stop the Obsession, but it would make it more Pleasant, as once they Learned that, Obsession would trigger Love and Pleasure for them instead of Discomfort.  Of course, Learning to Love Obsession will likely involve a good deal of Ego Death, as at least some part of them wants it to go away, and they probably have a big backlog of Other People telling them it’s wrong.  But that’s all just a map of where they need to go to Learn to be Loving with it.

So, is Obsession an Appropriate Expression of their natal chart?  What would we look for?

Well, the most obvious place to start looking is Scorpio, and to a lesser extent Taurus.  These signs, especially Scorpio, don’t Let Go when they get hold of something they don’t fully grok yet, especially something Emotional, and especially something that seems Unfair.  Does our friend have planets in Scorpio?

Well, yes. seven of them.  We work with 45 planets and other points, so the average Sign should contain less than four planets.  So seven is a whole bunch.

We can start by what we would tell any Scorpio that might help them Love themselves…

Scorpio is Compelled to Get to the Bottom of Things.  We first Meet Other in Libra, and it raises all kinds of Questions for us, about whether We’re Okay and They Aren’t or They’re Okay and We Aren’t, whenever there seems to be a Conflict or even Contrast between us.  This is how we first Discover that our own Childhood may not have been as Loving as it could have been, so it’s not at all trivial.

It’s not easy for Anyone to get to You’re Okay and I’m Okay, and for Scorpio it becomes a Compulsion.  It takes a great deal of Maturity to understand that the end point is You’re Okay and I’m Okay rather than You’re Okay or I’m Okay, which complicates the whole process until we Realize that.  We also have to Realize that just because You’re Okay and I’m Okay, that doesn’t mean I have to Tolerate you if you aren’t my cup of tea.

Also, Scorpio is Fearless in their Pursuit of Truth.  Fearlessness is the most prominent element of Scorpio.  Other people do not Trust Scorpio, partly because Scorpio asks penetrating questions that require them to examine themselves more deeply than they usually like to, partly because Scorpio has a tendency to make and hold eye contact longer than most people are comfortable with.  Other people often feel like Scorpio is Looking into the Soul (which it is), and if they aren’t fully in Self-Love, it makes them want to run away.

Because of these kinds of Reactions from Other, Scorpio is one of the most difficult Signs to Embody in Left-Brain-worshiping Western Cultures.  Remember we aren’t talking about folks with Sun in Scorpio, we’re talking about anyone with a strong emphasis in Scorpio – or Pluto, Scorpio’s “Ruler” – in their natal chart or even in their Transits and Progressions.

These kinds of influences often draw Scorpio toward Addiction, and Teaching them to Love Themselves Exactly As They Are is the first step to helping them get out of Addiction, as the most prominent trigger for their Desire to Medicate is the Anxiety produced by their Need to Get to the Bottom of Things that are Forbidden to them.  Strong Scorpio is a good indicator that a person’s Forbidden Genius lies in sophisticated Research of Private Investigation.

That’s the gist of what we would tell any Scorpio, or anyone with a strong Pluto, in a reading.

So, which planets are we talking about?  Ixion (Forbidden Genius), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), Ceres (Sustainability), Klotho (Plotting a New Timeline), and Vertex (Intuition) are all at the Midpoint of Scorpio, which just happens to be (there go those Coincidences again!) where Transiting Klotho and Sappho (Starting a New Timeline based on Self-Love) happen to be sitting as we speak, making their T-Square to the 7 August Full Moon.

Whoa, this is Big.  The Midpoint of Scorpio is one of the Four Horsefolk of Ego Death, so we probably have a case of chronic Self-Attack (that is Ego-Attack, not Soul-Attack).  Sir Self-Lance-a-Lot.  All very strongly Lit Up this week.  So we’d prescribe a strong ongoing dose of Poor-Sweethearts.  Can we even interpret a Klotho-Sappho Transit, Square to a Full Moon, sitting on a natal Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium?

Oops, have to interrupt again.  A Stellium (three or more planets in the same place) isn’t easy.  What would we tell someone with a Stellium in their chart, to help them Learn to Appreciate their Uniqueness?

Well, the Culture we grow up in has certain Differentiations that are an integral part of the Culture.  For instance, Boys are different from Girls, and never the twain shall meet.  What fireworks have been going on the USofA when that Differentiation is Challenged!  The youngsters understand that they’re both just People, but the Differentiation is so ingrained in the brains of the oldsters that they fight it all the way to the “Supreme” Court, and Obsess (!) on it.

So when we have two or more planets in the same place, we don’t know the Difference.  Folks who start a Life when Mars and Venus are Conjoined (in or close to the same Degree) have no idea that there’s any Difference at all!  So they have a difficult time Relating to, and Being Related to by, anyone who’s Obsessed with the Difference, because their brains are wired very differently.

And that’s just two planets.  With a five-planet Stellium, the difficulty of Communicating with Others is multiplied many times.  To start with, only 2.5% of us will have a 5-planet Stellium (using 45 planets), so we can expect to be able to Communicate at all with one person in 40.  However, what’s the probability that the next person with a 5-planet Stellium is going to have a Stellium that includes the same five planets?

Without breaking any blood vessels in my brain, I’d guess that would be something like 1/9 to the fourth or fifth power, or about one person in 60,000, although that assumes that the 45 planets are distributed randomly around the Zodiac, which is far from true.  You could start a worldwide club, advertising on the internet to connect with everyone who started Life with a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium.  You might end up with just the people who were born on the same day and year as you.

And now you’re going to run into another problem.  Very few of these people will have ever learned to Love themselves, even if their Stellium isn’t in Scorpio.  When you meet a Soulmate, if your Self-Love isn’t Total, you’re going to Project your Self-Rejection all over one another, and end up hating one another, very soon.  I once introduced two people with very similar, very unusual birth charts, Scorpios even, and they became housemates.  That lasted about a month before they ran screaming from one another.

So until you Learn to Love your own Uniqueness fairly thoroughly, you may need to settle for non-intimate Relationships for a while.  Look for people who are already Ascended or Enlightened, who may be able to Accept you Exactly As You Are, even if they’re not like you at all – they may even find your Uniqueness fascinating.  There should be a reasonable number of those folks around.  You won’t be their Onliest…

Since you are a shining light
There’s many that you’ll see
But I have to deal with envy
When you choose the precious few
Who’ve left their pride on the other side of
Coming back to you

as Leonard Cohen put it, but at least you’ll be Accepted, and you’ll get a taste of what it will be like to Love your Uniqueness, till you Lesrn to Obsess on Loving your Uniqueness.

Well, we know that this person, on the Soul Level, Intends in this Lifetime to Get to the Bottom of Self-Abuse (and I don’t mean self-pleasuring) once and for all (Klotho-Sappho).  So they probably “hired” parents and other significant adults that programmed a good deal of persistent Self-Rejection (Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres) into them as Children.  That’s how we do it – whatever we Intend to Let Go Of permanently in a Lifetime, we on the Soul level make sure we get a big dose of it, so we’ll Recognize it and be Motivated to Change the Pattern.

So, with Mars and Atropos on the Full-Moon Sun, it would be a fabulous time to start writing a series of Angry letters, that they don’t intend to send, to their Childhood Programmers, so they can begin Getting to the Bottom of their Abandoned Genius’s Real Feelings.  We can Learn about Blame and Responsibility later.

Oh, did I forget to mention that Jupiter (Amplification) and Sappho (Self-Love) are also in Scorpio?  So our friend is even more Determined to break out of her prison of Self-Admonishment, as she has Chosen (on the Soul level) to Obsess about her Amplified Desire for Self-Love!

Did someone say Obsession?  Damn Right!  Obsessed with this prison-break, and for damn good reasons!!!  It’s a central theme of their Soul-level Plan for the Lifetime!  So come Hell or High Water, they need to start Obsessing (and PIAVAing) on Learning how to Celebrate Obsession like it is the Incredible Gift to themselves that it truly is!  Set a timer, and Celebrate Obsession at least once an hour, every day.

Okay, with the preliminaries out of the way we can get down the the meat of the issue.  Their Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium is Opposed by Chiron (Despair and Miracle).  That’s like a dagger held by her Programmers, slicing little chunks out of her skin constantly.  To move from Despair to Miracle we need to Empathize with our Despair.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Down on yourself, don’t you.”  Now, we know that Changing the Subject (which gets the mind and old Karmic Patterns out of the way so they don’t re-up the Despair) won’t be easy – that’s the whole issue, isn’t it.

So we can try building a strong practice of Tapping (YouTube link above).  “Even though I’m Obsessing about this Despair, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  Measuring the Intensity of Feeling (0 to 10) before and after each of many Iterations will be important – as long as you’re getting any reduction, keep Tapping, till you get close to zero.  If you aren’t getting reduction, try alternating with Poor-Sweethearts, or Dancing, or doing anything Different.  This is Multi-Lifetime stuff, so you need to be Obsessive about working on it, but then, that’s your specialty, eh?

Phew, that’s a lot, isn’t it.  Are we done?  Not a chance.  Mercury, of all people, makes a T-Square across the Opposition between the Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium and Chiron.  Now we have to interrupt again, since T-Squares are quite difficult, so we have to give our standard speech about how to Love a T-Square…

A T-Square is like a graduate seminar.  We Expect to be able to “get it right” once in a while, so we can feel halfway Competent.  But with a T-Square, there is no “getting it right.”  In a graduate seminar there are no right Answers, only clever and relevant Questions.  No matter how long anyone Lives a T-Square, they’ll never Feel Satisfied about it, until they Learn to Appreciate that on a Soul level they’ve adopted this Issue as a Lifetime Learning Opportunity, and each time it arises – which is likely to be daily – they’ll be working on a new, more subtle and broader, version of the same Lesson.

It’s pass/fail, and you only pass when you Recognize that this is your Lifetime Study Project, and Honor yourself for the Fact that you actually know a Hell of a lot more about it than most anyone else on the Planet, because you wrestle with it daily.  You begin to Change a “bad” Habit by Noticing that you’re Doing it again, and Congratulating yourself for Noticing rather than Cursing yourself for Doing it again – substituting positive reinforcement for negative reinforcement, because reinforcement is cumulative.

So when you Notice that you’re working on that Issue again, Congratulate yourself for looking at it from yet another Perspective, and Honor yourself for all of the Perspectives you’ve already Discovered, rather than Indulging your Frustration at not getting it Right yet again, you’ll shift your Perspective toward what is otherwise one of your greatest Frustrations.

That’s what T-Squares are all about.  Now, what about this Mercury T-Square?  Well a Mercury T-Square (until you make the shift we just talked about) means that your mind is always picking at you.  Anxiety ‘R’ Us, and it’s not just Worry, it’s Negative Self-Talk.  So we have to Learn to Notice that we’re Doing Negative Self-Talk again, Congratulate ourself for Noticing, and Honor ourself for how Skilled we’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk.

If a friend complained to you about their Negative Self-Talk, I’ll bet you could give them a thousand suggestions for dealing with it.  You’re a World Expert on Negative Self-Talk.  You could write best-sellers about it.  You need to Honor yourself for that, even if it doesn’t Feel True at first.  I guarantee you, it is True.

Now, we’re dealing with Negative Self-Talk about Chiron Opposite a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium, which isn’t chicken-feed.  With Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex as part of your Stellium, a deep part of you (with strong Scorpio, Diving Deep is one of your greatest Skills) knows Intuitively (Vertex) that your Survival (Quaoar) is Assured (Ceres) once you Begin (Klotho) to Love Yourself Exactly As You Are.  You just don’t know where to start because no one has ever Mirrored your True Self to you.

Then we add Ixion. We have to interrupt again for our Learn-to-Love-Ixion speech…

Ixion was the Bad Boy of the Greek Pantheon, who was basically a sociopath who thought all rules applied to everyone else (like that fellow in the house that’s pained white and being remodeled).  Well, talk to any Accomplished Genius, and they’ll tell you they didn’t get there by following other people’s rules.  To live Genius you need to break as many rules as you can get away with.

But you’ll always be condemned for it.  So, not actually being a sociopath, you’ll need to develop a thick skin about Criticism from Others.  And with your parents and other Programmers probably very Critical people, you’re going to have a lot of Olde Reactions to Criticism, and probably “Leave your Body” (space out) when someone starts Criticizing you.  Well, you probably want to enlist some friends and Act Out a thousand Criticism scenarios, till you can Stay Present with Yourself when being Criticized, and Learn when Defending yourself is a waste of time that’ll just get more Criticism, and How to Defend yourself when it’s worth it (ie, with a Relationship you Want to Keep).

In Cultures that Value Conformity, Ixion is Rejected out of hand.  That’s why we refer to that part of ourself as our Forbidden or Abandoned or Pathological Genius, and refer to Recovery of that part of ourself as our Genius Project.  It’s a Big Project for everyone, but especially important for you.  Eventually, once you become the World’s foremost Psychoanalyst, or the World’s most Unique Artist who Communicates with parts of people that have never been Communicated to before ever, you’ll understand how Unique you are, and Honor it.

But meanwhile, there’s homework to be done, because you’re probably in the Habit of giving your Unique Genius more Negative Self-Talk than anyone.  So you’ll have to Learn to Notice that you’re Doing Negative Self-Talk about your Unmirrored Uniqueness again, Congratulate yourself for Noticing, and Honor yourself for how Skilled you’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk about your Uniqueness

Lots of work ahead, but at least now you have a curriculum.

What’s that?  Oh, we aren’t quite done?  Oh yeah, remember that Jupiter-Sappho in Scorpio?  Well, it happens to be in a “Grand Cross,” Opposite a Stellium of Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sedna (Fear), Chariklo (Self-Confidence), and Moira (Choosing Consciousness), with Sedna Stationary (Strong), Square to a Stellium of Sun (your Essence), Atropos (Endings), and Mnemosyne (Memory), which is in turn Opposite to a Stellium of Orcus (Breaking Vows), Hylonome (Escaping from Archetypes), and Lachesis (Duration), with Lachesis Exactly Stationary (very Strong).  All this is actually enormously Positive, but there’s a lot in it that needs to be Learned to Love.

We won’t take that up now, we’ll save it for after you’ve digested some of the earlier homework, which is more than ample.  The earlier homework is Lit Up Bigtime by the Full Moon, so it’s a more current assignment anyway.  This later Grand Cross is Lit Up only by the Transiting Conjunction of Varuna (the Life Force) and Veritas (Truth), which is actually quite a lot, but nothing compared to how much your Mercury T-Square and Ixion Stellium are Lit Up.

Oh, also, when you’re ready, remind me to talk about the “Vacancy” to your Mercury T-Square.

And, once you’ve started on the earlier homework in earnest, we can talk about that friend you mentioned, and see how they might, by virtue of their own birth chart, inadvertently trigger either your Mercury-Chiron-Ixion-et al T-Square or your Lachesis-et al Grand Cross, or both.  We’ll also need to cover Blame and Responsibility then.

Oh, and since Pluto (Transformation) is similar to Scorpio, and likely to be involved in Obsession, we should eventually look at that too.  It’s after all Conjunct Saturn (The Most Important Thing), so that’s a strong indication that Obsession is actually your Greatest Skill, you just need to Learn to Love it.  Also, Pluto-Saturn makes a T-Square across your Nodes (Why You Took This Lifetime), so that’s another indicator that This is the Lifetime you Chose, on the Soul level, to become the World’s greatest Expert on Obsession, and once and for all Let Go of your Ego Attachment to it, and Let Go of your Rejection of Obsession and of yourself

Plus, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is on your North Node (Your Mission in the Lifetime) and Moon-Venus (Your Instincts and Values) is on your South Node (The Karmic Impediments to your Mission that you Chose on the Soul level to help you Accomplish your Mission in the Lifetime, which Impediments happen to hide the Skills you need to Accomplish your Mission), further complicating this T-Square.

That’s a lot, but Remember that, as the Findhorn Transformation Game says, the Hardest Assignments are only given to the Best People.

Cause an Defect Full Moon I

August 6, 2017

As we said last time, things haven’t felt very satisfying or stable the last several days, as Jupiter Squares Pluto, amplified by the impending 7 August Full-Moon Partial Eclipse, prelude to the 21 August Big One.   The Jupiter-Pluto Cycle is about Expanding our Transformation, and the two Squares in the Cycle are about being Challenged to Master the next stage of our Transmogrification. 

Remember that Pluto astroevents are like floating down a big River.  You can hear the roar of the rapids ahead and you can steer to one bank or the other to portage around them, but if you try to paddle upstream you’ll just get swept backwards over the falls.  So Resistance is not only futile, it’s Self-Destructive.  Go with the Flow.

Of the two Squares in any Cycle (when the two planets are three Signs apart), the first or Waxing Square is about being Challenged to Let Go of the dregs of the previous Cycle and fully Commit to the present one.  The second or Waning Square is about Letting Go of any Attachment you’ve made to the current Cycle, because the Energies of the current Cycle are disintegrating.  Think Barnes & Noble, post-Amazon.

So, what are we Letting Go of – what’s the Current Cycle about?  It was Initiated 12 December 2007 at 29 Sagittarius, “A fat boy mowing the lawn of his house on an elegant suburban street.”  Always a puzzling Symbol.  Rudhyar’s interpretation seems oriented toward Materialism, Ego, and Status-Quo; he sometimes did that.  Sagittarius is itself about Letting Go, Spiritual Fire, burning away what’s Obsolete, before we start over on version 4.0 with a whole new Grounding, and the last Degree of Sagittarius should be a final big Catharsis. 

So the Symbol is Antonymous.  Being Non-Dual, the Unconscious Loves tko be Antonymous.  That’s why She has a reputation as a Trickster.  So what means it?  Well, the “elegant” neighborhood tells us we’re dealing with Materiality and probably Ego-Attachment.  Elsie Channeled these Symbols in the 1930s, so the boy’s heft is probably not a symptom of the modern Salt- and Sugar- and Chemical-laden microwaved synthetic GMO diet, but simply to Over-Indulgence.  Of course it could be genetic; the boy may be on his way to becoming the fastest Offensive Lineman in the NFL, but I don’t think the adjective “fat” would be the most apt word to describe that.

The “fat” conflicts with “mowing,” as we’re used to associating fat with inactivity.  So it’s easy to imagine the lad sweating and grumbling to himself.  Perhaps it’s a punishment – if he did it frequently he’d probably weigh less.  Every time I see that Symbol I can’t help but think of J.R. Simplot’s house in Boise, which is perched on top of a small hillock, 30-40 feet above the elegant suburban street, surrounded by lawn on the slopes, which seem not so far from vertical.  Boise is hot in the summer, when grass grows, so this kid is unlikely to make it through even one mowing without hospitalization.

Now, if we add to this image the fact that since 2007 we’ve seen a vast reorganization of modern Life, the Symbol smacks of the need for Sustainability.  Sustainability and Sustenance are really the same thing, and they imply Letting Go of the Unnecessary.  What it reminds me of is the ongoing Pholus-Quaoar-Galactic Center Stellium, which in no uncertain terms reminds us that we’re Responsible for the Survival of the Planet. 

So Bottom Line, this Jupiter-Pluto Cycle is about Letting Go of our Materialism, and the Waning Square of the Cycle is about Stepping Away from that Letting Go.  The nature of a Waning Square is that we don’t know what comes next.  Our Assignment is to clear away all Expectations so we can be Open to the next Cycle without preconceptions.  If we knew what the next Cycle was about, we’d contaminate it by viewing it through the eyes of the old Cycle.  In other words, our Transformation is no longer about Letting Go of Attachment to Materialism.  It’s about Curiosity and Wonder.

The Waning Square was Exact at half-past 10am PDT on 4 August.  When outer planets make Angles to one another, they often do it three or more times, which gives us Opportunities to practice.  This is the third time Jupiter has Squared Pluto.  We call the third time a “Confidence-Builder” event, because by now we’ve had our practice.  The first Waning Square was 24 November 2016; we call that the “Can-Opener” because if we don’t do astrology, we’re usually caught off guard by the abrupt shift in Energy.

So if you have a journal you can look to see what sort of Experiences you Enjoyed (or otherwise), internally and externally, Circumstances and Reactions, last mid-November, as the Energy was intensifying.  If you don’t have a journal you can look back to https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/11/26/the-thousand-vignettes/ and the several posts preceding it.  It was a very busy time. 

The second Waning Square is usually when the faster planet is Retrograde, so we Experience the same Energies less Dramatically, giving us time and space to Learn more about them.  We call this second recurrence an “Exposition” because it Exposes more information about what’s going on.  Whatever we didn’t resolve at the Can-Opener (when we’re often Overwhelmed by the new Energy) or at the Exposition, will be Lit Up now, at the Confidence-Builder. 

It’s mop-up time around Materialism and Ego-Attachment to it.  There’s a big White House on the east coast of the US where all that’s being Acted Our for us in Real Time on Reality TV.  With a fat boy mowing the greens of his elegant suburban golf course even.