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Solstice New Moon I

June 22, 2017

Like the Solstice itself, the New Moon (7:30 pm PDT 23 June at 3 Cancer) still Conjoins asteroid Aletheia (Truth), still Opposes the ongoing Pholus-Quaoar Conjunction (Being Fully Responsive to our Survival Needs) that spans the Galactic Center (implying that it’s not just our Survival that’s at stake), and still makes a Grand Cross with the Chiron-Makemake Opposition.  The latter Opposition is about Making Lemonade from our Pain and Victimidity. 

I was going to look up what Dan & the Arcturians said earlier about “The way that you shed your baggage is by owning it.  The way that you own it is by releasing all of your resistance to it” (http://danielscranton.com/synchronizing-with-your-higher-selves-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/) when I discovered their even-more-appropriate Message for today…

http://danielscranton.com/past-lives-integration-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“When you are faced with something in your life that you find more than just upsetting, you are looking directly at something from one of your past lives that you are still carrying with you because you need to experience some healing, some release, some resolution, and some clearing around that particular circumstance.  You are not blank slates when you are born into your physical bodies.  You have with you at the moment of your birth an agenda and many different aspects that are seeking some sort of resolution or redemption.

“You often come in contact with these aspects of you through the traumatic experiences of your current life.  You are always giving yourselves opportunities to release that which is no longer serving you, that which has been a burden on you for quite some time, and this lifetime is the one where you will continue to give yourself those opportunities until you are willing to face that situation that’s more than just a little upsetting.

“The reality that you experience is always giving you what you need, and it is giving you what you need based upon where it is that you want to go in your personal evolution.  The end result of all of it is going to be a happier you, a more creative you, and a lighter you.  So no matter what you are facing, no matter what you are in the midst of clearing right now, it is a wonderful opportunity for you to do more than just lighten your load in this lifetime.

“You are also here in service to all of those other aspects of you in all of those other lifetimes that could use a little help, that could use some compassion, and that could certainly use some unconditional love.  This journey of yours is one elaborate plan, dreamt up by your oversoul, to give you the best possible opportunity to experience and to feel everything.  You are doing magnificent work just by living your lives, just by facing these things that you would rather not have to deal with or look at.

“And if you ask these past life aspects of yours for help, you will get it.  If you see yourself as a team, a collective, a collaboration, you are going to empower yourselves.  You are going to bring forward more strength than you knew you had, and you are going to quicken your integration experience.”

Of course in Multidimensional Reality these “Past” Lives are Concurrent, Parallel, and if you do “see yourself as a team, a collective, a collaboration,” you’re just Identifying with your Oversoul, which isn’t much different from Enlightenment or Ascension, is it.

Not only is the Solstice Grand Cross preserved in the New Moon chart, but so is the Grand Quintile that we’ve been talking about in the last two posts.  The Moon has moved on, as is Her wont, but Venus (our Values) has taken the Moon’s place, and I have no doubt that Venus will do a completely admirable job at standing in.  Orcus (Oathing and Deoathing) still leads the Grand Quintile, and when it comes to Making Oaths, what more Comprehensive and Consequential (to our 3D Ego) Oath could we Make than to Forget our Multidimensional True Self while in 3D “Reality”?  So while we’re Deoathing, why not Go For the Whole Megillah?

I mean, what else is there to say after that?

But yes, there always seems to be More, eh?  Like those Betelguesian Parallels; did we include those?  Or the ones from Deneb el Okab?

Speaking of which, we’re coming up to a huge Climax of whatever it is that we’re up to, on 4 July, when Sedna Exactly Squares the Nodes.  I’ve given 3pm PDT to it, as that’s when the Moon Completes the Grand Cross, though the Exact Sedna Square is more like late morning.  If we include asteroid Pandora (which is very appropriate – remember Hope was left at the bottom of her Jar) and the Star Deneb el Okab, we complete a full Grand Unx – twelve planets evenly spaced around the Zodiac (an “Unx” is one twelfth of something).  Unfortunately Deneb el Okab is associated with Fire raining down from the Sky, but the Grand Unx implies a Positive Outcome.  Of course, if we’re Identified with our Oversoul, they’re all Positive, so that would be an excellent practice for the next couple of weeks.

There are also three planets Stationary (very Strong) and another Out of Bounds (also very strong) on 4 July.  And Mars (Action, Anger), which has been Out of Bounds since mid-May, returns In-Bounds on 29 June.  Mercury too, which when too Strong can be vituperative, returns In-Bounds on 2 July, after being Out of Bounds since 17 June.  Ceres (Sustainability and Sustenance) steps Out of Bounds on 1 July, remaining there till the September Equinox.  Hopefully whatever the “Rockets Red Glare” reveals will be Sustainable, rather than reducing us to Sustenance or grinding us into Barley Mash.

The three Stationary planets are Haumea (Rebirth), Klotho (Cutting the Cloth for a New Timeline or Lifetime), and Sappho (Self-Love).  In the 1950s we used to say that an air-raid siren readying us for a nuclear attack indicated that it was time to “stick your head between your legs and kiss your ass goodby.”  That may be a little extreme, but it might be a good plan to Express our Gratitude to our Current Ego for its Service keeping our Physical Vehicle tooting along, and go hang out with our Oversoul.  That would be max Self-Loving, and we need a vacation anyway.

Raising Vibrations

June 18, 2017

From John Perkins’s The World Is as You Dream It (pp.96-7)…

” ‘To camay,’ Manco [a Quechua Shaman] explained, ‘is to breathe unity into.  No corresponding word exists in Spanish.  Even the idea is difficult to express, for it seems that you northerners don’t believe such things.  In our lives, it is a very important concept, perhaps the most important.  We have several related words: churay, ruray, and supay.  These have to do with creating.  But camay is the most powerful.

“He knelt before a gnarled old agave, a special plant to Andean people that is related to the aloe.  ‘This plant appeared to be dead a year ago.  I camayed into it every day, and now look.’  He patted it tenderly.  ‘Old, but very much alive.’  He stood.  ‘We are all one.’  He turned slowly in a circle, his hands at his side, palms out.  ‘When one of our parts is out of balance, others can help to bring them back.  That is when we camay.’ … ‘The blowing we do during a healing is a form of camaying.  We breathe unity into the sick or injured person to restore balance.’ “

The astrological correlate of Restoring Balance is in particular the Trioctile – three eighths of the way ’round the Zodiac – and in general the Octile, one eighth of the way.  The Eighth Harmonic is itself about Rebalancing, and we favor three of them because the Third Harmonic is all about Love with Wisdom.  We’re especially fond of the Mjölnir or “Hammer of Thor” Configuration, which is a third planet Trioctile to each end of a Square.

Conventional or Ego- and Fate-Reinforcing astrology sees the Square as a Malefic, and the Hammer of Thor as Destructive.  From the Perspective of Spiritual or Ego- and Karma-Transforming astrology, the Square represents Mastery through Challenge, and the Mjölnir, like its predecessor the Vedic Vajra, symbolizes Lightning, Illumination, or Epiphany.  Our recent Stations include a couple of Mjölnirs… 

The long lavender lines are Trioctiles, the short ones Octiles.  The red Squares are, of course, Bioctiles – two eighths equals one fourth.  The Square is ultimately also about Illumination.  Jupiter is the Focus of a Mjölnir across the Sedna-South Node Square, meaning that the Jupiter Station at the Full Moon, and its ongoing Mjölnir, has Illuminated and will continue to Illuminate the Places where we Fear our own Karma – that’s basically the Regressed Hellhole I found myself in through much of the last fortnight. 

Of course we Fear our Karma – that’s the nature of Held Emotions, Emotions that we can’t Tolerate, that we’d rather Die than Re-Experience.  Which is precisely the point – we need an Ego Death here to Expand the way Jupiter would like us to.  The Jupiter T-Square crosses the Opposition between Vertias (Truth) and Juno-Chariklo (Bringing Self-Confidence under Conscious Control), but it’s also a Diamond Star, as Jupiter is at the Focus of a Finger of God from the Venus-Neptune (Our Spiritual Values) Sextile.  Which is to say that Jupiter would like us to – and is offering to help us to – Transform our Relationship to Fear and Held Emotions by Rebalancing the Relationships between our Spiritual Values, Consciousness, and Self-Confidence.

Which, incidentally, has Sedna Squaring the Nodes.  This Square will be Exact – a Can-Opener if there ever was one – on 3 July.  So we’re very lucky to have had the Jupiter Station Illuminating this Process before we get submerged into the depths of it, so we know to bring an extra oxygen tank.  The slower a planet, the deeper it’s Influence in the Unconscious.  Sedna takes fifty times as long as Pluto to make it’s way ’round the Zodiac once.  Most of the other new dwarf planets are called Plutoids, because they’re basically similar to Pluto.  Sedna is so far out that they made a whole new class for it – Sednoids.  So far it’s the only one with a name.

So, what is it that will make you soil your knickers before you can make it to the loo?  Aliens landing in your back yard?  Fire taking down your apartment block?  Nucular War?  A Lunatic in charge?  A Fairy landing on your thumb?  A Plant talking to you?  Abandonment?  Suffocation?  Your neighbors at the door with pitchforks and torches?  Not enough Money?  A Terroirist Attack?  May be a good time to do some pre-planning.

The other Mjölnir is Focused on Varuna (the Life Force), from the Square between recently-Stationary Neptune and Lilith, suggesting that Balancing your Spiritual Beliefs and your Self-Sovereignty will enhance your Life Force; or, as Michael Roads frequently says, “it’s not enough to Believe it, you have to Live it.”  The Neptune T-Square is also a Diamond Star, and one corner of a Water Grand Trine besides. 

Our third recent Station was Makemake; note that it’s Octile to both ends of the Vesta-Sappho Square – We’ll Manifest more easily when we Align our Self-Love with our Unconscious Beliefs.

Dan Scranton’s latest contribution to this issue…

http://danielscranton.com/raising-your-frequency-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

Greetings.  We are the Arcturian Council.  We are pleased to connect with all of you.

“Your frequency matters.  Your frequency, the rate at which you vibrate the energy of your consciousness, becomes your life experience.  It is as simple as that.  However, you have a lot to think about and a lot to do, and you certainly have a lot to process emotionally.  All of that leaves you with very little of your precious time to tend to your frequency.

“You would be very well served by giving it your attention at least periodically throughout your day.  It would be advantageous to you to have reminders for yourselves, to check in and feel how high or low that frequency is.

“You can tell by what you are feeling, but you can also tell by what you are thinking, and even what you are doing.  Certainly, your physical bodies are wonderful feedback mechanisms.  If there is something going on with you physically, then there is certainly something going on with you frequency-wise.  There is always some underlying vibrational cause to what you are experiencing in the physical.

“So if you pay attention to what you are doing, what you are thinking, what you are saying, and how you are feeling physically and emotionally, you will become aware of your vibration.  Once you become aware of it, the next part is to tune into it, to zero in on it.

“You do that by going within.  Pay attention to where you feel particular vibrations.  Pay attention because it serves you to, and because by giving it your attention, you automatically shift it.  You automatically shift the frequency of your vibration by intending to do so, and by focusing on it you awaken yourselves.

“You are in a constant state of awakening now.  The easiest way for you to experience an awakening is to feel into your energetic bodies.  Your energetic bodies don’t just surround you.  They can also be accessed within your physical frame, your physical structure.  And giving them your attention, giving your physical and energetic and your emotional bodies your attention, is all it takes to raise your frequency.

“We are the Arcturian Council, and we have enjoyed connecting with you.”

Makemake

June 12, 2017

Makemake is about Manifestation.  The Makemake Station, 3pm PDT 15 June in 2 Libra – if your Experience is anything like mine – Triggers all of the “personal faults” that keep us from Creating the World We Want.  The Cusp of Libra is about Meeting Other for the first time. 

“In terms of psychological development, the salient component of a child’s environment is his or her relationships with parents and caregivers.  Did we, as children, get what we needed from our relational environment to develop our individual physical, mental, emotional, relational, sexual and spiritual potential?

“When some part of us is not adequately mirrored by our parents. caregivers or teachers, our development is stunted and distorted, and we enter the domain of trauma.  We unconsciously disown the parts of ourselves that are unacceptable to those upon whom we depend, and begin to create a system that is inauthentic and false to who we really are.”

“We abandon what we might have been, to become what we think we ought to be.  We set out on a quiet pilgrimage of desperation and despair.  We become refugees from our own being.  We no longer feel real.  We are physically alive, but we die inside.  We have no choice.  It is our only means of survival.”

–J.Bruce Lloyd and Daniella Sieff, “Return from Exile: Beyond self-alienation, shame and addiction to reconnect with ourselves,” in Daniela Sieff, Understanding and Healing Emotional Trauma, p.26

Since we aren’t Real, very little of ourself feels Authentic, and everything feels like a “personal fault,” whether it’s a Rejected part of our True Self, or an Adopted part of our False Self.  Of course they’re all Skills, including the Vulnerability to Be Present with our Self-Abandonment.  And of course they don’t Feel like Skills, they Feel more like Shit, especially the Vulnerability.

And of course bringing those Faults/Skills/Shit into Consciousness is the necessary first step toward eliminating Self-Sabotage.

The Makemake Station is very different from the charts we’ve become accustomed to.  It’s a lot more straightforward.  The Bottom Line is about Taking Responsibility for the Truth of it all.  Responsibility as in being Able to Respond in ways that Improve Future Outcomes.  The Truth of it is that our Judgments are attempts to paper over our own Perceived “personal faults,” projected onto Other.  It’s a Blessing, because of where it Leads if we’re Willing to Follow it.  Compost rather than Shit…

The Makemake Station T-Squares Aletheia (Truth) and Quaoar (Survival Skills), which Conjoins Pholus (Responsibility).  And Quaoar-Pholus isn’t that far from Saturn-Ixion (The Most Important Thing is Recovering Our Forbidden Genius) – not close enough to directly color the Present Moment, but plenty close (7 Degrees) to Impact Projects begun under this watch.  Projects like the next stage of our movement into 5D.  It’s Varuna (the Life Force) that’s potentially Liberated this week.

And the isolated links to Nemesis (Ego Death) and OR10 (those horrible Vignettes) explain a lot about how this whole process is unfolding.

For you, we hope, it’s more Pleasant.  For me, it’s on my natal Neptune, so yes, we’ve been Dancing with the Material Confusion, aka Shit; now to get busy on the Spiritual Clarity part.

Nemesis Next

May 28, 2017

Once we get past our 4 Pisces 30 May OR10 Station, our next hurdle is the Station of Nemesis on 3 June at 5 Aquarius, followed by a 14 Libra Jupiter Station on 9 June.  Slow-moving dwarf planet that it is (at 550 years, it takes OR10 almost twice as much time to do a full loop as Pluto, which laps in 250 years), I don’t expect much bleedthrough from lowly asteroid Nemesis (which whips around every four and a half years); OR10 and its Vignettes are more likely to dominate center stage.

Orbital speed cuts both ways.  The slower a planet moves, the less often we get to Experience its Dances.  With less Experience comes less Competence, and we’re more often caught off guard.  The essence of a newly discovered planet is that its Influence is Emerging from the undifferentiated Unconscious.  When something Emerges into Consciousness, it isn’t Discovered, it’s Differentiated.  It’s not like we’re just Discovering these Vignettes – I can’t step into the shower without encountering at least one “Random” Memory of some Shameful or Guilty or Regretted Experience or event, and it’s been that way as long as I can remember.

What’s new about these Vignettes in the Age of OR10 (which was Discovered a decade ago and is the third largest Plutoid – but which still lacks a name!) is the Recognition of the Opportunity these Vignettes give us to Reorganize our Identity.  Shame is one of the most Difficult Emotions to Love to Death, but that’s exactly what we have to do with it.  And, being one of the most Difficult, it’s one of the most Rewarding.  Recovering the Identities hidden beneath our Shame is phenomenally Liberating.  Loving our Guilt to Death can also be a Powerful antidote to Self-Sabotage.  Regret, having a poignancy of its own, is Easier to be Loving with, but it’s what we Regret that we have to Recover in order to step toward Wholeness.

Now whenever we Expand our Identity to include parts that previously hid behind Shame or Guilt or Regret or Fear or any other Held (Avoided) Emotion, an Ego Death is likely.  Anytime we change the list of adjectives that we use to describe ourself, and especially when we neuter a Judgment about ourself and move from a Duality to the Coin that includes both sides, we hatch a new Ego, which means molting the old one.  So (when we use it to reorganize our Identity rather than just gossiping with ourself) there’s a strong Connection between OR10 and Nemesis anyway, even when they aren’t simultaneously Strong.

Even if we assign only one Degree to the Sensitivity of a Station, the Nemesis Station would still Light Up two and a half weeks, as it slows to Stand Still (Nemesis, like most asteroids, averages about one Degree every four days).  So there’s no question that Nemesis really is Stationary even though it’s like trying to find Saturn in daylight; the influence of the far-rarer, less-familiar, and closer-to-its-Station (hence Stronger) OR10 will drown it out.  Asteroid Nemesis was Discovered 145 years ago, so we’ve had five generations to get familiar with Ego Death.

With OR10 much Stronger just now, why don’t we see if we can Expand our Identity without the Pain we usually associate with Ego Death.  Just to take a “random” example, one of my more recent Vignettes was about the Regret I felt about, some fifty or so years ago, not Feeling (Emotional) Love for a perfectly Beautiful and Gracious young potential partner who was hungry to be Loved.  Unless you’re fully into Yintegrity around Relationship, Emotional Love is supposed to be an Either/Or, and the alternatives are socially risky.  So how might I Expand my Identity around this Vignette?

My Regret was for an Opportunity Lost, not because I was Rejected, but because my Heart “forced” me to Reject.  The other person’s Pain was and is acute for me because it is my Pain.  As a Weirdo like many of us ( http://danielscranton.com/you-are-the-leaders-of-the-future-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/ ), Rejection was my bane too.  So it hurt, and still hurts, to Reject.  When I say to myself, “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to be Loved, didn’t you,” there is a Softening in my chest and an Opening in part of my Heart, toward the back.  I can feel an energetic “muscle” between my navel and my neck (the Central Meridian perhaps) strengthening, and a whole panoply of seemingly unrelated thoughts and memories arise.  Which is just fine; we expect Paradox around Real Life.

On the other side of the coin, in another recent Vignette deriving from a few years later, a Perfectly Beautiful and Gracious potential partner who was firmly attached to someone else, showed me Exceptional Kindness, leaving me utterly Confused about how to Respond or show my Gratitude.  That Delicious Experience triggered my own Longing in a way that created Regret that I didn’t have that sort of Experience in my Life routinely.  When I try “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to be Loved, didn’t you” on this Vignette, it Opens to a black space. 

When I try “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to Possess Love, didn’t you,” my third Chakra softens into Sadness.  When I now try “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Sad about your Isolation, aren’t you,” my Yes-Buts arise – “You can’t do Either/Or, it doesn’t work” says a disembodied telepathic “voice.”  When I then try – after a couple of false starts that don’t lead to Satisfying places – a Theta Healing,

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Accept this Paradox and Let Go of All Anxiety around it;
Thank you, God/Goddess, It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done;
Show me,”

I’m left in a space that’s very Neutral, and my chest is pleasantly Expanded.

Okay, so we seem to have Expanded our Consciousness (while seeming to Silence some intellectual Noise) without having to Endure any grueling Ego Deaths.  Nemesis is not inherently about Pain.  It’s our Resistance to Change that creates Pain.  The Ego by its nature is Tenacious, and that’s a good thing.  We need to Negotiate Win-Win with it and with the Unconscious that runs the Show most of the time.  Michael Roads has some nice ideas for us (Through the Eyes of Love: Book Three, pp.176-7)…

“If, living in New York City, you decide to fly to Sydney, Australia, you are not going to just wander into the airport and get on the first plane going anywhere.  You are going to determine your destination and buy tickets accordingly, making sure you get on the correct aircraft.

“On that basis, if, when you wake up in the morning, you get out of bed and mindlessly go about your day … as you have every other day … it is going to be a day, a year, a life of endless repeats of all your yesterdays.  Literally, lifetimes of repetitions.

“If, however, you wake up in the morning, and placing your hands over your heart, you murmur, ‘Today, I choose Love.  Today, I am going to focus on loving myself, on loving other people, and loving my life.’  This is a prime, life-changing choice.  With this beginning to your day, you consciously revisit that choice, living it, feeling it, and reaffirming it as often as you can throughout the day.”

“It has to be a conscious choice.  Conscious choices are rare.  Most choices are subconscious, following an already predetermined pattern of which most people are unaware [which is ‘fate’].  So, another morning, hand over heart, ‘Today I choose appreciation.  Today I will appreciate myself, other people, and my life.’  Choices like this are life-changing.

“Another day, ‘Today I choose respect.  Today I am going to respect myself, other people, and my life.  And so on.  Day-after-day you make the choices that remodel and renovate your life.  But, it all has to be conscious choices, and those choices must be consciously lived.”

Orcus and Hopi IV

May 20, 2017

A reader notes…

“It’s the Ixion-Chaos Axis that the Hopi Station T-Squares.  The first thing that tells us is that We Need to Immediately Forgive the Perps Who Suppressed our Genius.  We cannot maintain Respect for All Things if we harbor resentment toward our Programmers, and Respect for All Things is precisely the Challenge that here haunts the Recovery of our Genius.

“As we Strive to Immediately Forgive the Purps, we want to remember that Forgiving does not mean ‘making up.’  Forgiveness is about Letting Go of our Internal Stress, not about Loosening Boundaries.  As we’ve said many times, Forgiveness isn’t a Decision, it’s a Discovery – one day we wake up and Discover -“ Lo, We aren’t Angry about that any more!  Just because Forgiveness isn’t a Decision, though, doesn’t mean it can’t be an Intention.

“And Forgiveness doesn’t mean we discard the Lesson that we aren’t Safe being Vulnerable around those folks or in those circumstances; it just means that we don’t have to constantly remind ourselves how Angry we are in order to Keep ourself Safe.  We’ve Forgiven ourself for being so inappropriately Vulnerable.  It means we now have a new Habit of routinely Keeping ourself Safe in similar circumstances – we’ve Expanded our Consciousness and Let Go of an Archetype that compelled us to Abandon ourself and Give Away our Power.”

“I had a dream last night…

“Walking with a big but light suitcase.  A relative, who touched me inappropriately when I was 11, is leading the way, we go up some outdoor stairs that are covered.  The relative takes the suitcase from me.  We reach upstairs into a bright room, but the relative has lost their shoes.

“I woke up and realized although I had thought I had let it go, it was still something I did think about…  And realized my dream said I can let it go, the staircase although outside was enclosed like it had no light…  Walking up was like walking into the light, my relative taking the suitcase was letting go the baggage, and their losing their shoes was like something was taken from them in life that caused them pain and inconvenience. 

“Then I read your post and realized how relevant my dream was to this.”

The key here is “…I can Let It Go…”  Traumas never leave us completely, because “we” (on the Soul level) “signed up” (if “we” indeed Choose to Take Full Response-Ability) for them so we could Experience them, and the PTSD (in the beginning) and Trace (once we’ve Let Go of the Emotional Load around them) are the equivalent of our Degree, gathering dust up in a frame on the wall.

Even in the most Powerful of Gary Craig’s Letting-Go-of-PTSD videos, the process takes many Tapping iterations; the path from PTSD to Trace is gradual, each step Letting Go of another layer of Held Emotions.  Consider that we may well have repeated the Trauma in various forms thousands of times over various Lifetimes, as we Explored variations, Left Karmic Reminders for ourself, recruited several of our Twigmates to Act out the different roles in our Drama, and swapped roles and genders.  Archetypes are not simple or one-dimensional, or we would have penetrated their Mystery long ago.

Current-Life “Operational” Identities are very useful.  If you Identify yourself as an astrologer, it makes doing astrology easier, because you aren’t always struggling against “yourself” to do it.  If you Identify with “Science” (as it’s generally practiced, where you get nowhere without a pat on the head from your senior “peers”), you’ll have a hard time doing astrology, because you won’t have access to the Associative Skills that it requires. 

But there’s nothing wrong with Identifying yourself as an astrologer on Tuesday and as a peer-reviewed Scientist on Wednesday, just as you might Identify yourself as an employee at 11am and as a parent at 8pm.  You probably either practice multiple Identities, or struggle with them, frequently, as for instance when you get a call at work from your child’s school, or when your political party asks you to Deny Climate Change but you can see it all around you plain as day.

Well, it’s no harder to Identify with a Parallel Life – I’ll wager you actually do it every day.  I’ve a friend who just returned from Italy and sent pictures, and a couple of times I caught myself staring at a building or a village in one of the pictures and spontaneously Imagining I was Living there.  Every time you get Spaced Out for a few minutes you could well be Experiencing a Parallel.  Remember that Time is an Illusion; those few seconds could be a long time in that other place.  Then there are Dreams.

Okay, now that you realize that you know how to manage multiple Identities sequentially and simultaneously, why not check in with the MC of the whole show, your Soul Self.  Give it a PIAVA; I’ll wager you’ll be surprised at what happens.

Orcus and Hopi I

May 18, 2017

Our next Adventure is the sequential Stations of dwarf planet Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) and asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things).  Both Stations occur just prior to 6am PST, Orcus on 21 May, and Hopi on 22 May.  This will be a particularly fascinating combination of Energies, because most of our Limiting Beliefs were founded by Oaths, Oaths always Power-Over one side or the other of some Duality, and Respect for All Things means the Absence of Judgment.

The result of the Merging of two such contrasting Energies will be laden with Paradox, and Paradox of the exact nature that Spiritual Progress is paved with.  Remember that limiting our Commitments as much as possible is a prerequisite to Yintegrity.  And to be Self-Sovereign, rather than Slaves to our Archetypes, we need to Renounce all of our Oaths.  Being thus Free, we’ll be able to follow our Instinct and Intuition without constraint.

You would think, for instance, that an Orcus-Hopi astroevent would simply be a great time to Swear to Respect All Things.  But that would Betray Respect for Ourself, as it would inhibit our Freedom to Follow our Instincts and Intuitions.  Paradox is not accessible by the logical mind. so we just have to Accept it as a Mystery.

Paradox, as we’ve said, is the realm of the Yin Gate Configuration, a Golden Rectangle bisected on the short side by a third Opposition.  By “coincidence,” there happen to be three Yin Gates in the Orcus and Hopi Station charts.  Here’s an example of one, in the Orcus Station chart…

The Orcus Station itself T-Squares (Mastery through Challenge) one axis of the Golden Rectangle (which is the blue box).  “Coincidentally,” the axis that it T-Squares is the axis between Lilith (Self-Sovereignty itself) on the right and a Conjunction of Ceres (Sustainability) and Mnemosyne (Memory) on the left.  The implication is that We Already Know How to Sustain Self-Sovereignty, all we have to do is Remember That We Know.

Another “coincidence” – one axis of each of the three Yin Gates is T-Squared by one of the Stationary planets.  Such redundancy convinces us that the Universe is serious about this message.

The Challenge is our accumulated Oaths, and the Archetypes we still cling too.  Remember that Karma is dead; our Karma does not CLING TO US, we CLING TO IT.  Are you about to do something that you’ve done before?  Do it differently.  I was about to go get a half-glass of Beer, so to break up the Pattern I’ll do a couple of pirouettes between here and refrigerator.  Not that a half-glass of Beer is a big Pattern of mine, but a trip to the refrigerator certainly is! 

Surprisingly and Remarkably, each pirouette produced a big surge of Joy.  I may adopt a new Pattern!  If you spot an old fart pirouetting down the road, say Hi.  Wait, that’s an Oath!  Revert!

The Opposition in the Yin Gate itself (the one in the center of the Golden Rectangle – I know, it’s both blue and Golden – blue because that’s how we draw Energy lines representing Grace, and Golden because the ratio of the sides is the Golden Ratio of Sacred Geometry fame) is between asteroid Veritas (Truth) and dwarf planet Hylonome (Letting Go of Archetypes) – yet another redundant repetition of our basic theme here, which is about Facing the Truth that Allowing ourself to be Directed by our Unconscious Patterns not only Inhibits our Spiritual Progress, it also generates a good deal of Self-SabotagePirouettes are in our Future whether by Oath or Instinct!

The other diagonal of this Golden Rectangle is an Opposition between asteroids Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) and Nemesis (Ego Death).  Lordy Lordy, another redundant repetition!  Well, most of us will have Ego invested in our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs – that’s how we get them to stick.  Of course we all want to be good little girls and boys, and if Granny told us over and over again that good little girls and boys don’t do that, then there you have it – Ego Investment.  

So you remember how to do Ego Death, right?  You reinterpret “I’d rather DIE” to actually be “I’D rather die,” and them you just let it happen.  Egos are like Moles (the ones in your yard) – if you ever do succeed in killing one, another one will pop up to replace it before you can say “Hooray, I’m Freee at Last!”   Chagrin (or Terror) over Ego Death is totally wasted; new Egos are a dime a dozen.  When someone tells you they gave up their Ego when they were Enlightened, that’s their Ego talking. 

You Embrace Confusion as the First Stage of Growth in Consciousness, which heralds less Slavery to Archetypes and less Self-Sabotage (and another sign of Ego Death).  You might be driving or walking a few blocks from home, and suddenly realize that you’re in a very different World, even while you know exactly where you are.  You might suddenly forget all your passwords, or your spouse’s name, because without warning you’ve regressed to age 6 or 12 or 32 or Atlantis or the time you met Genghis Khan, when the Steppes were in bloom.

As with Curiosity, you want to Break all Habits (Oaths!) to try to Understand.  Trying to Understand means you’re scrambling back to your Olde Ego, and losing all the benefits of Psychic and Spiritual Growth.  Confusion and Curiosity are Beautiful just as they are, they aren’t problems to be solved or reasons to exercise that big glucose-burner in your skull.  They’re glorious states to relax into.  They will take you to Heaven if you let them.

This is only one part of the Orcus-Station chart; we’ll take up other parts in the next installment.  For now, notice that the Orcus Station happens to be Conjunct asteroid Karma – yet one more confirmation of our basic theme of Liberation.  The Initiation of Karma by Orcus already occurred, in mid-November of last year, at 10 Virgo, “”Two heads looking out and beyond the shadows: The growth of true understanding, born out of the transcendence of duality even while immersed in the world of duality.” 

The Validations just keep on coming!  The Karma-Orcus Exposition (Retrograde Conjunction) occurred in early March, and the Confidence-Builder (final crossing) will happen on 30 May.  By then we should be feeling pretty good about how much Karmic baggage we’ve been putting out on the curb for recycling.

Response-Ability 4

May 17, 2017

This ongoing Dance between Pholus (Respond-Ability) and Quaoar (Survival Instincts) has been going on for several years; we’ve just been Paying Attention to other issues because they were more Prominent in the charts.  The Dance has been happening on the Cusp of Capricorn.  We can’t help but think that Pholus-Quaoar is about Global Warming, Ascension, and the Patriarchy.  We think of Capricorn as the “Just Do It” Sign, and Pluto (the Mandatory that can be Directed but not Reversed) is about to enter the Virgo Decanate of Capricorn (2018-2024).  That Decanate would imply “Just Break Down your Olde Ego, K?”

The Cusp of Capricorn is of course the northern Winter Solstice.  In many ancient traditions a Day begins at dusk of what most of us would usually consider the evening before, and a Year begins at the Winter Solstice.  To the Romans it initiated Saturnalia, their equivalent of Oktobefest, a celebration of disregard and reversal of the everyday rules of social discourse.  The conversion of Saturn and Capricorn (which are first cousins) from rule-flaunting to rule-making was done by the early Christians in order to enhance their Political (Either/Or) Control over the People. 

The Romans had the luxury of their Mediterranean climate.  For folks further north, the Winter Solstice meant likely hardship, dependence on Community, and the necessity to Attend to The Most Important Thing – Surviving another northern winter.  That yields the primary keywords for Capricorn and Saturn, respectively Pragmatism and Focus.

Like Aries (northern Spring), Cancer (northern Summer), and Libra (northern Autumn), Capricorn is a Cardinal or Creative Sign, signifying a Rebirth.  Aries is the Rebirth of the Indwelling Spirit (Fire) as fresh evidence of the Life Force emerges in northern Plants and Animals in March.  Cancer is the Rebirth of Compassion (Water), as the northern Earth begins to generate a surplus in June (Radishes at least, and all the Leaves we can eat).  Libra is the Rebirth of Community (Air), as the northern September Harvest requires Cooperation and Fair (ideally anyway) distribution.  And Capricorn is the Rebirth of Attention to Material Form (Earth), as Winter cold and snow demand a Focus on Physical Survival in December.

In parts of the Southern Hemisphere, the same pattern could be repeated because most of the habitable Southern Hemisphere landmass lies much closer to the Equator than in the Northern Hemisphere.  In many locations Aries represents recovery from estivation rather than recovery from hibernation.

We can see Western Civilization as a massive social experiment to see what happens when the Individual is celebrated as the Highest Expression of Huperity, rather than the Community.  Though it very much feels like a failure, it’s not a pass/fail test, it’s an experiment.  The Balance between Community and Individual isn’t a linear trend, it’s a sine curve.  As China replaces Europe and the US in the role of World trendsetter, the Balance will swing back toward Community.  Not that the Chinese are any less Patriachal, they’re just more likely to be smart enough to know when Change is necessary.

Here are a few Timepoints that you can compare to your Journal and your Schedule…

  • Mid-January through November 2015 – Quaoar on Galactic Center
  • Early February through December 2016 – Pholus on Galactic Center
  • Late January 2017 – Quaoar enters Capricorn
  • Early March through November 2017 – Saturn on Galactic Center
  • Late March 2017 – Pholus and Quaoar simultaneously Stationary (turning Retrograde) while one Degree apart across the Capricorn Cusp
  • Early June 2017 – Quaoar backs into Sagittarius
  • Mid-September 2017 – Pholus and Quaoar simultaneously Stationary (turning Direct) in Sagittarius
  • Early December 2017 –
    • Pholus Initiates Saturn in 29 Sagittarius, “A fat boy mowing the lawn of his house on an elegant suburban street
    • Quaoar re-enters Capricorn
  • Late December 2017 –
    • Saturn enters Capricorn
    • Quaoar Initiates Saturn in 1 Capricorn, “An Indian chief claims power from the assembled tribe
  • 2018-2021 – Pholus and Quaoar continue to Dance closely at their Stations
  • 20 February 2022 – Quaoar Initiates Pholus in 7 Capricorn, “A veiled prophet speaks, seized by the power of a god”

Remember that the Digital Age begins in earnest in late 2020.

We can’t address Response-Ability without commenting on “New Age Guilt.”  New Age Guilt is a misunderstanding of Taking-Responsibility-to-Create-Your-Own-Reality that occurs when Creating is seen from the Perspective of Blame.  I’ve a friend that suffers from a serious disease and a nasty hospital-acquired superbug infection.  If they try to Take the Blame for this Past Creation, then absolutely it may turn out to feel like Guilt, though I’m not sure how that Blame or Guilt would be related to “New Age.”

Blame, remember, means Assigning Cause to Past events and circumstances.  Sure, with perfect foresight they might have been somehow able to sidestep the Triggers for their misfortune, but it would be a real stretch to Blame them for it.  On the other hand, my friend is absolutely Taking Responsibility to Improve their Future Outcomes, which is exactly how Response-Ability is defined.  They are very much Intending to Create an Improved Reality for themselves in the Future, preferably the Near Future.

In Jane Roberts’s seminal Nature of Personal Reality, Seth points out that it’s Easy to know the nature of our Karma, all we need to do is summarize our Current-Lifetime Personal History.  So sure, if you want to Blame someone’s Present-Moment Ego for all of their Past Lives, you might aver that they have “Created Their Own Past Reality,” but what a stretch that would be.  It would be like that movie where they prosecuted people for crimes that they might commit in the Future.

That doesn’t mean we don’t all have the Opportunity to review our Current-Lifetime Personal History and try to fathom how to read our Limiting Beliefs from the Funhouse Mirror that it is, and use the information to reduce our Self-Sabotage.  Karma remember is Inertia – Olde Habits and their underlying Beliefs – not Retribution.  The notion that we need to be Punished, for whatever, is just Power-Over, usually perpetrated by Religions and Governments.  So it may make some sense to speak of Religious Guilt or Government Guilt.

Another way to look at the difference between Blame and Response Ability, is to look at how our Ego is defined in our self-concept.  If our Operating Ego is Merged with our Individual Soul, then we may be Open to encompassing all of our other Past and Parallel Lives, and extending our Response Ability to some of the issues in those Lifetimes, including any hypothetical Habits and Beliefs Created in those Lifetimes that may linger into the current Lifetime. Of course we’re talking about Sainthood here.

If on the other hand our Ego is Merged with our Physical Body, which Fear of Death would Betray, since our Soul is immortal; or Merged with our Dualistic mind, which would be Betrayed by the presence of Either/Or Judgment of any kind; or Merged with our Emotions and Betrayed by Resistance or Attachment to any of them.  Knowing this could help us define our homework.

Fate is what happens TO us when we’re Unconscious of the Archetypes (Karma) that run our Lives.  When we bring these into Consciousness we gain the Power to Choose otherwise, often referred to as “Free Will.”  Identifying with our Physical or mental or Emotional Bodies keeps Archetypes frozen in the Unconscious.  Identification with our Individual Soul is an ambitious Goal that most of will never achieve.  However, every step we can take in that direction will reduce our Self-Sabotage.

We can never say how accurate and how metaphorical we might be when sending a Healing to someone else (or even to ourself!), but when I send a Theta Healing to my friend for their affliction, the picture I get is one of Panic.  When I then send a Healing for their affliction and their Panic and their Belief that the superbug can kill their physical body, the picture I get is one of Peace and Competence.  So if we revert to the previous Response-Ability 3 post for Guidance, we might Wonder if it would help my friend to Ask themself whether they have an Ancient memory and a Held Emotion around Fear of Being Poisoned, and if so to see where it might lead to Tap that Out and Poor-Sweetheart it.

Moving from Blame to Response-Ability isn’t easy, because Blame is a Closed Universe.  There are no logical paths out of Blame; the only way to exit is is to PIAVA an exit.  Given our conditioning it’s even more difficult, but we’re even better off if we can glimpse the World through eyes other than Cause and Effect.  Cause and Effect is absolutely dependent on Linear Time, and every Spiritual tradition on the Planet advises that All There Is Is Now. 

Without Cause and Effect, there is no Blame.  Response-Ability can run completely on PIAVAs – no need for Cause and Effect at all.  Your PIAVAs don’t “Cause” your Future Outcomes, they “merely” have potential to shift the Beliefs that Control your Perceptions of “Reality.”

Poor-Sweethearting

May 11, 2017

We often talk about the Chironean process, whereby we take something that we Reject – often accompanied by Pain or even Severe Pain – Despair for instance, and convert it to Miracles.  When we’re Feeling great Pain such as Despair, it’s very difficult to Detach our Identity from the Pain.  But Pain is always much more manageable when we Feel it rather than Being it.

We often abbreviate this process by calling it “Poor-Sweethearting,” because the easiest way to put it to work is to say to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair, aren’t you.”  That simple statement is Magic, because by saying it we’re stepping out of our previous Identity – Despair – and stepping into a New Identity, as a Compassionate Witness.

Eugene Gendlin, the creator of the Focusing process, wrote his PhD dissertation on what actually worked in psychotherapy.  He observed a large number of counseling sessions that used different methods and theories of Healing, and concluded that it didn’t much matter what method or theory was used; counselors that were successful were those that Empathized with their clients.  Those that didn’t Empathize didn’t have successful outcomes with their clients.

Which is exactly what we’re doing by Poor-Sweethearting, Empathizing with ourself.  Tapping uses the same principle, when we begin the process with “Even though I’m in Despair, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself. 

When we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, we shift our Perspective.  We’re no longer looking out from the Perspective of Despair, we’re now looking in from the Perspective of Compassion.  Einstein supposedly said that you can’t solve a problem using the same thinking that postulated it, and that’s exactly what we’re doing, were changing our thinking, our Perspective.  And Poor-Sweethearting ourself is literally all we need to do because the next step is to Change the Subject, like we do when we’re PIAVAing.

If we don’t Change the Subject, our old Perspective takes back over, and we’re stuck with the same unfunctional Perspective on the same problem.  So we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, and then we just go about our business.  We may not even notice it when Miracles happen.  Miracles are simply things which are beyond the range of Possibility from our old Perspective.  Once we Change Perspectives, the range of Possibilities Changes, and Voila, Miracles.

Alternatively, before we Change the Subject we can sit with ourself for a little while after we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, because often we can hear or Feel a Child’s small voice answering us from within.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Helpless, aren’t you.”  “Well, there’s nothing I can do!” she might reply.  If we can develop a dialog with these Inner Kids of ours, that’s a goldmine.  They have untold information about how our Limiting Beliefs formed in our current Lifetime, and that information can help Liberate us from Self-Sabotage.

I certainly don’t claim to have invented Self-Empathy, but the Poor-Sweethearting process came to me after I had refused induction to Vietnam, and I was waiting for the FBI to come and arrest me.  I spent a lot of time working over many different possible actions and possible consequences in my head in those days, and Despair was never far away.  Of course it was not my first Experience with Despair, but it was a Powerful and Extended Recurrence.

I was impressed today when Daniel Scranton Channeled a more-Neutral version of the same process…

 http://danielscranton.com/the-power-of-acceptance-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“Greetings.  We are the Arcturian Council.  We are pleased to connect with all of you.

“We have always been willing to accept where you are in any moment, as a collective and as individuals.  It has been this acceptance that has allowed us to see beyond where you were in the moment, and this has given us the insights that we knew you would be able to receive at some point.

“Your willingness to accept your current circumstances in your lives will enable you to shift.  Acceptance will enable you to loosen your grip on your current set of circumstances, and that will assist you in creating something new, something more to your liking, something that you will more readily be able to enjoy.  The process of acceptance is like anything else. It doesn’t happen all at once.  It happens in stages or steps.

“First, you must be aware of something, and then you must allow yourself the reaction to it.  In other words, you’re still going to feel your emotions, even though your goal will be to find a place of acceptance within you.  After you have processed whatever emotions come up within you regarding your circumstances, you can open yourself up to the possibility that what you are experiencing in the present moment is actually serving you in some way.

“And once you come to that conclusion, it becomes easier for you then to accept the circumstances you are in.  And when you see how something serves you, you also see how it is temporary and anything that you need to do in order to move past it on the physical level.  The change becomes clearer to you, and the steps that are required to make those changes become evident.

“Most importantly, when you are in acceptance, you are not in a state of judgment.  You are not criticizing yourself for being where you are, and you are not in resistance.  Therefore, you enable yourselves to find some comfort in your current situation, some relief, and you give yourselves the necessary ingredients to catapult you into a better future.

“We are the Arcturian Council, and we have enjoyed connecting with you.”

May 3

May 2, 2017

Lots of Convergence in the Channeled material this week…

http://drkimderamo.com/working-hard-coaching-business/

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2017/05/01/pushing-the-easy-button/

http://danielscranton.com/doing-what-you-love-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

http://danielscranton.com/your-new-abilities-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

All about Making (or Taking) it Easy.  At first glance though the Mercury Station chart (3 May 10am PDT) looks pretty complicated…

We’ll deconstruct it in a minute; for now, notice the orange lines forming a “bowl.”  This is the beginnings of a Grand Quintile (Excellent Opportunity for Learning) that pretty much dominates the 10 May Full Moon chart as the Sun moves into the Vacant fifth position in the Configuration. 

We’ll talk more about that soon; for now, just be Alert that whatever Difficulty or Confusion you Encounter is really about Learning.  We can Learn all manner of “information” without encountering Discomfort, but Real Learning, as in Growth of Consciousness, is often accompanied by Difficulty or Confusion or both.  The Grand Quintile tells us not to try to Puzzle it Out, but to just be Open to Big Change.  Big Change always introduces the Unknown, and Puzzling it Out can only rearrange the deck chairs.

The rest of the chart is actually two Yin GatesBased on our recent Experience we probably think Yin Gates are pretty common, but they actually aren’t.  Two at once is fairly remarkableThe Spiritual Function of a Yin Gate is to give us the Opportunity to Embrace Paradox – that is, to escape the tyranny of the Patriarchal “left brain” and witness the World and the Mysteries more Wholistically.  Again, more admonitions not to try to make Logical Sense out of what we Experience, but rather to make Esoteric Sense out of it.

Let’s tease out the two Yin Gates

First, here’s the Rebirth into Yintegrity Yin Gate.  A Yin Gate is an Opposition (long red line) at the center of a Golden Rectangle (blue box).  Normally an Opposition represents a Duality; a Yin Gate Asks us to Pay Attention to the Coin rather than the heads or tails.  This one has Haumea (Rebirth) on one end and the Merger of Stationary Mercury (Paying Attention), Uranus (our Soul Self), and Eris (the Compulsion to Live our Truth) on the other.

The latter threesome represents YintegrityYangtegrity is Doing what we said we were going to do, no matter what.  Yintegrity is Doing what we darn well Feel like doing, moment to moment – this is, Trusting our Instincts and Intuitions more than we Trust our Commitments.  Of course in Yintegrity we’d Minimize our Commitments, Renegotiate often, and make quality Amends where Renegotiation wasn’t possible and the Relationship was worth keeping – we’d prefer both Yin- and Yang-tegrity to One or the Other (or neither), though we might emphasize One more than the Other while we Learn how they Differ and Practice each One.

Second there’s the Stealing Energy from Fear and Investing It in Self-Love Yin Gate, with Sedna (Fear) on one end and Sappho (Self-Love) on the other.  We’ve had Experience with this one, and discussed it at length, earlier this year.  Suddenly the Channelings – Pushing the Ease Button, Trusting Ourself – start to make Sense, eh?

In each picture we’ve drawn in the rest of the Configuration with lighter lines.  Notice that the two Yin Gates are connected by a Grand Cross (the tilted red square with the X in the center).  That just means that they’re tightly Integrated, giving us the Opportunity to Practice Yintegrity in the context of Self-Love and vice versa.

It’s worth Paying Attention to the other two Oppositions – Chaos (Unlimited Potential) Opposite Saturn-Ixion (The Most Important Thing is to Recover our Abandoned Genius), which is on the Galactic Center (Orders from HQ) and asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things) Opposite Chiron (Healing the Unhealable). 

If you’re Estranged from anyone, this would be an excellent time to Clear the Conflict, even if it’s “just” to Finish Business and Move On.  And there’s an excellent chance that what you discovered you couldn’t stand about them, or the unacceptable critique they made of you, are big neon signs pointing to your Abandoned Genius.  You don’t need to discuss that with them if it’s not Safe to do so, but you do need to spend time Exploring it on your own or with Safe Friends, because your Abandoned Genius is part of the missing link that will Heal the Unhealable elements of our Huperity, of our misuse of the Home Planet, and of the Despair we can’t help but feel about it.

Re-listen or Re-read the Channelings we began the post with; with a little Effort you’ll see the footprints of your Abandoned Genius in them.

This week I was invited to Attend a Conference on Sustainability put on by Native Americans, but I had a very difficult time finding out the timing and the agenda, even after asking for help.  Rather than reading that as a Sign that it wasn’t my cup of Buffalo Water, it occurred to me that my current path may be leading me away from Reunification with Nature – especially around the Money issues we discussed a couple of posts ago in Forbidden Genius and Responsibility

It’s very easy to make a case that Money is an Artifact of the Industrial Revolution that is on its final Debriefing (till 2021).  Is relaxing about it a Sign that we’ve Transcended it, or a Sign that we’ve Surrendered to it?  Well, today I realized that of course it’s Both/And – how could it be otherwise! – just another Paradox!

May I

April 30, 2017

May looks a little calmer than we’ve become accustomed to, other than the ongoing Big Events like the Fear/Self-Love Yin Gate and our Rebirth into Yintegrity and our Abandoned-Genius Recovery and our interview with the Galactic Center.  Well, that doesn’t sound so calmer does it.  But we’re used to these Energies, they aren’t sneaking in the back door after we go to bed any more, they’re at the front door knocking while we’re awake. 

It’s lack of Experience with an Energy that makes it most Challenging for us.  As all these dwarf planets have been Discovered over the last couple of decades, Energies that have been buried in the Unconscious now see the Light of day, and it will take Western Cultures a while to “Ascend” to becoming accustomed to working with them Consciously.  Eastern and Primary (what used to be called “Primitive”) Cultures have always known about them, which is why these Cultures are Rising while Western Cultures are Sinking to the extent that they aren’t adapting.

Communication and Negotiation should flow more smoothly again after 3 May (10am PDT) as Mercury turns Direct again after its three-week hiatus.  The Station occurs right on Uranus (our Soul Self) and Eris (Revelation of What the Ego Couldn’t Abide and Previously Held out of Consciousness), so Communication and Negotiation between Our Various Selves will be Enhanced the most.  Go for Win-Win – Listen carefully to seek the Positive Result that each of your Internal Voices Wants, and then Ask your Other Selves how they can Help without giving up their own Needs. 

If Other People are Acting out these roles for you, they’ll trigger strong Emotions in you (negative or positive).  Don’t fall for that – it’s called Projection, and it’s Toxic.  Just Ask yourself, “What part of ME is that character Standing In for?” and go from there to Win-Win.  If the character is too odious to actually be part of ME (for instance, they might be an empty suit whose only attribute is pathological Self-Confidence), then your work is cut out for you – Face Down the Ego Death and Embrace the Hell out of your Nemesis.

The 10 May Full Moon (Illumination) will Stretch us more, as the (Full) Moon itself teams up with Pluto (What We Can Maneuver but not Reverse) and Juno (What’s Coming into Consciousness) to form the base of a Finger of God (Pay Attention to This!) pointing at dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential, Infinite Choice).  This will be much Enhanced by the simultaneous Station (Strengthening) of Juno (9 May 4pm PDT), so we can Expect a great deal of Vulnerability.

This is joined by a huge and closely related Grand Quintile (the Gift of Easy Learning) that will help us a lot, though we’re still likely to Experience Ego Deaths around it, as Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) and Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) join the Full-Moon Sun in the Grand Quintile along with Jupiter (Expansion) and Saturn-Ixion (The Most Important Thing is to Recover our Abandoned Genius).

Once we Recognize and Respond to Emotional and Physical Pain as the Learning Opportunities that they are, and locate our Excitement about the Unknown Glory that lies beyond the Limitations that we’re about to Leap Over, Ego Death becomes a Joy. 

We of course also have to Recognize that the Unknown Glory is Unknown, and let it remain so.  If we try to speculate on its color and flavor with the mind, we’re simply Embracing the Limitations we could be Letting Go Of.  Better to Embrace the Excitement in our Emotional Body without needing a reason to be Excited other than “Yay!  This Excitement Feels Great, This is the Way I Want to Feel more often in my Future, and Practice Makes Perfect!”