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February 17, 2018

Reader K says…

“I’m always happy to hear more (and again) about Poor-Sweethearting, Despair, and Miracles.”

This is Chiron stuff.  Most of youalls probably know Chiron as the Wounded Healer, or the Healer with the Unhealable Wound, Unhealable because it was caused by a Poisoned Spear thrown by another Centaur.  The “mental-physical-spiritual-emotional” correlate is the Held Emotions and Toxic chemicals that clog our Microtubules and block our Intuitions.

We put “mental-physical-spiritual-emotional” in quotes because while we’re used to thinking of the Mental and the Physical and the Spiritual and the Emotional (in astrology Air, Earth, Fire, and Water) as different Realms or different “Levels” of our Identity, they’re in fact different Perspectives on our Identity, which is actually Unitary (and of course simultaneously Multifarious). 

For example, if you try to Separate Thoughts from Emotions, you quickly Discover that they’re Circular, each reinforcing the other. 

In post-Boryshenko Medicine, the Mind and Body are so intimately intertwined that it’s counter-productive to try to Separate them. 

Ever seen Prayers work to Heal the Physical?  Body and Spirit are not Separate Entities, they’re just different ways of Seeing the Singular Identity.

The Centaur is half Huper and half Animal, and the Animal half – Horse – is very Strong.  That represents Consciousness and the Unconscious.  Who needs Tortoises and Hares; Imagine trying to outrun a Horse, and you can see how futile it is to try to outsmart the Unconscious.  Its weapons are Toxic, and there is no cure.  Just ask Shakespeare or Oedipus how easy it is to Overpower the Unconscious.  The Classical view is that it’s Hopeless.

We have a whole Technology for addressing the Unconscious – PIAVA we call it, for Prayer-Intention-Asking-Visualizing-Affirming – and it’s Magnetic or Indirect, not Dynamic or Direct.  It’s about Asking, not Telling (, though there’s a special case for “Commanding.” 

Our aim here of course is to help us all Grow our Consciousness to include more of what is now Unconscious or Semi-Conscious.  On the Personal level (or Perspective), we refer to this as our Karma, Habits, Patterns, Archetypes, especially those that are Self-Sabotaging. 

There are Cultural levels as well; for instance, in the Midwestern US, it’s Culturally appropriate to be “Nice” instead of Honest, which can make a big dent in our Authenticity.  With enough repetition, we’re unable to tell what’s really Authentically us, and what’s been Programmed into the Unconscious.  Since Manifesting What We Want often requires Authenticity, that’s important.  We see the same process happening in the Culture’s Programming of women and minorities as inferior.

So, this notion that we’re Unhealably Slaves to our Karma and to the Unconscious, doesn’t fit with our goal of Growing our Consciousness.  Fortunately, there is a Savior to Rescue us, named Empathy.  Eugene Gendlin, of “Focusing” fame, studied a number of psychotherapeutic methods to see if any worked better than the others.  He found that method didn’t much matter; what mattered was whether the therapist was Empathetic.  Empathy Heals.

And does Empathy Heal the Unhealable?  Absolutely. 

We use a very simple process to Initiate Empathy – we say to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Unhappy, aren’t you.”  Or, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’ve been Wounded by a Poison Spear, haven’t you.”  Or even, “You Poor Sweetheart, you were really Helpless against your uncle’s Abuse, weren’t you.” 

There’s no exclamation mark, your voice drops at the end of the sentence, as if you were trying to comfort your best friend.  It’s not quite a Question, but say it tentatively enough that your friend (or in this case, “you”) can correct you.  “No, it wasn’t my uncle, it was my stepfather.”  “No, I’m not Unhappy, I’m Terrified.”  “No, Silly, not a Poison Spear, I Twisted my Ankle.”  You won’t always get an answer, but sometimes you will, and when you do, it’s Powerful.

Folks say it’s okay to talk to yourself, but when you answer, you’re on the Edge.  Yes, the Edge of Healing.  If a part of you Responds to your Poor-Sweetheart, and you can strike up a Conversation, that’s a Big Step toward bringing important parts of the Unconscious into your Consciousness.  Fritz Perls developed a whole School or Psychology around this process.

We refer to it as the Unconscious rather than our Unconscious because the Unconscious isn’t entirely Personal.  If we View it as partially Personal (Karmic, for instance), that’s useful, but it’s just a Perspective. 

If you were able to shift your Identity to include not just your Ego but also the Unconscious, you’d instantly Grok what’s meant by We Are All One.  It doesn’t really make sense to our Mentality, because it’s not Either/Or, and the mind knows only Duality.

You don’t need a Response to your Poor-Sweetheart from some hidden part of yourself.  In fact, if you just Change the Subject – do something else and forget about what you just did, that’s when Miracles will occur.

Let’s say you Notice that you’re Discouraged.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re really Discouraged, aren’t you.”  Then you do something else, preferably something that takes your Attention off of what you were thinking about or Feeling before you Poor-Sweethearted yourself.  You can still Feel Discouraged, but be Discouraged about something else.

A Day or so later, look to see what you’re Feeling.  I predict you won’t be Discouraged any more.

The poster child for Poor Sweethearing is Despair.  The Unhealable Healer is in Despair because he’s unable to see outside of his Despair.  There’s a whole World outside of his Despair, but he doesn’t know it because he can’t See it.  We’re in Despair when we no longer believe that What We Want is possible.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair, aren’t you.”

You’re doing something similar when you Tap Out your Unpleasant or Overwhelming Feelings.  You start by phrasing the Truth about the Emotion that you’re actually Feeling.  Then you Balance your Meridians, which Changes everything.  All Dis-Ease is just a symptom of being Out of Balance.  Balance is Ease.

Poor-Sweethearting is about Identity.  When “I am Feeling Despair,” that’s a statement of Identity.  You – your State of Being – and Despair are Merged.  Short of Enlightenment, we can’t step out of Identity.  But we can Change our Identity. 

When we step outside of our Despairing self, look back at who we were Identified with, and say Compassionately, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair, aren’t you.” then we no longer are Despair, we’re now Identified with Compassion instead.  There’s the part of ourself that is/was Identified with Despair, and now we’ve created a new part of ourself that’s Identified with Compassion.  And you-as-Despair is now history, while you-as-Compassion is now Present Moment.

This sounds like a grammatical trick, but it’s not.  It’s a trick of Identity.  Once you’re Identified with Compassion, the walled-in World of Despair is no longer your World.  There are any number of new Possibilities that didn’t exist when you were in Despair.  This is the Miracle.  You’ve just Manifested the Possibility of things that were inconceivable in your previous Despairing World.  Miracles are just things that are routine in other Realities than the one you’re in.

Because of the depth of our Beliefs in the Illusion that the Physical World is Substantial and the other Worlds are relatively Insubstantial (there are Subcultures for whom each of the other three Perspectives are Substantial), and because this Illusion is Enforced so adamantly by Western Culture, it may take a lot of Practice to go from “I am Sick” to “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Sick, don’t you” to “I am Healthy.” 

It’s by no means impossible.  We could certainly do it in 5D, if we ever slipped out of 5D long enough to “be Sick.”  But we need to start small and build up our Belief that Poor-Sweethearting really works before we can shift our Identity so profoundly.  As Steven Levine used to say, “Don’t start with the 300-pound weight.”

The dwarf planet Chiron is the fulcrum around which our cup – half full or half empty – is measured.  At the turn of the current Century, Chiron was Initiated by Pluto in 12 Sagittarius, “A flag turning into an Eagle turning into a Rooster saluting the Dawn”: Narrow Identity turning into Broad Perspective turning into Enlightenment.  This is a 70-year Cycle.  The Energy “becomes Mainstream” (the Waxing Square) around 2030.

Chiron is now 66 Degrees ahead of Pluto; that’s two elevenths of the way ’round the Zodiacal loop.  A Decile is one tenth and an Unx is one twelfth, but I can’t find an English word that means one eleventh.  So we’ll have to Create one.  The German word for eleven is elf, so we’ll refer to two elevenths as a Bielfin Angle.  The Eleventh Harmonic symbolizes Strength, Lustre, Creativity, and the Second Harmonic Ritual.

This is fitting.  We have our Compulsion (Pluto) to convert Pain into Miracles (Chiron) on the road to Enlightenment by adopting a Ritual (Poor-Sweetheart) for Restoring our Strength and Creativity (Bielfin), and making us Shine again.

Ritual is dangerous, because it eventually morphs into Limiting Beliefs, especially when it’s passed down to new generations that weren’t involved in its formulation and so come to see it as “just the way the World Is.”  We’re not Swearing an Oath to uphold Poor-Sweetheart, so it’s a Both/And, not an Either/Or, so there’s some hope there that it won’t create a Cult.

Ritual is like any other Habit; it should be Consciously tested occasionally to see what alternatives there are, and to see if we’re actually Choosing the most appropriate alternative for the Situation at hand.

Endings III

February 12, 2018

Now the End of the Patriarchy is a pretty Big Ending.  See if you can figure out who said this…

“The top seven stories today are all guys getting blown up, and these are not small guys.  I think it’s going to unfold like the Tea Party, only bigger.  It’s not Me Too.  It’s not just sexual harassment.  It’s an anti-patriarchy movement.  Time’s up on 10,000 years of recorded history.  This is coming.  This is real.”

We’ll give you some time to think about it, and then later we’ll give you the answer. 

Here’s a story about Ending a Pattern and Choosing to Embrace an alternative…

With thanks to for the suggestion.

The Arcturian Perspective on Choice, via Daniel Scranton…

“By the power that you access within yourselves, you are able to produce new timelines, new probabilities, and therefore, new experiences.  We are always going to encourage you to go within yourselves to discover the power that you possess.  Your power is in your ability to focus.  You are focusers of energy, and you are accessing vibrations all the time.

“When you realize how powerful you are, and when you recognize that your power lies within you and in the present moment, that is when you will truly begin to create your reality consciously.  By demonstrating to yourselves how powerful you are, and that you can be trusted with that power, you enable yourselves to experience the new timelines that you create.

“When you are focusing on the past, or projecting out into the future similar results that you’ve achieved previously, you disempower yourselves.  You become more reactionary than creation-oriented.  Creation is the name of the game.  It’s what you came here to do.  You create, and you experience.  You experience, get information, and make choices about what you want to create next.

“Now, there are ways in which you can access your power that you have not yet discovered.  These will be coming to you as downloads that you will unlock, but the power is there.  The power is already within you.  Accessing your power is as easy as acknowledging that you have it, focusing within yourself, and activating a vibration.

“If you begin by accessing vibrations for the sheer enjoyment of it, you will recognize that you create your experience in the now moment.  You create an experience of the now moment, and that now moment expands out.  It becomes what you call the future.  And when you walk in your power, you can access any future experience you desire.  And you are ready.  You are ready to experience just how powerful you are.”

Now, as for Ending the Patriarchy…

“The top seven stories today are all guys getting blown up, and these are not small guys.  I think it’s going to unfold like the Tea Party, only bigger.  It’s not Me Too.  It’s not just sexual harassment.  It’s an anti-patriarchy movement.  Time’s up on 10,000 years of recorded history.  This is coming.  This is real.”

Steven Bannon said that!

Endings II

February 11, 2018

Another place where we get very Confused about Boundaries, is the Edge between Ego and Soul.  Most people I meet have a very hard time imagining anything except a solid, opaque wall between themselves and their Soul, and they don’t even expect Mexico to pay for it.  Daniel Scranton Channels some Pleiadian Wisdom about this…

“Before you ever set foot on planet Earth for the very first time, you understood that this was a mission.  You understood that Earth had a very special place in the galaxy and that you were embarking upon a very specific mission for all of consciousness.

“You all saw this experience as the greatest possible challenge that you could embark upon.  And while you knew that there would be some very dark times, quite a bit of pain, and a little too much suffering, you stepped right up to it and decided that this was the only place for you to be.

“Now as you began your cycle of lifetimes on planet Earth, you also understood how far you would be able to expand.  You understood that the reward for being on planet Earth was like none other in the galaxy.  And so you feel that the pain and suffering was worth it.  You may not feel it now, from where you stand, but we guarantee you that you feel it on the level of your higher self and your oversoul.

“Your next mission on this journey will be to create a brand new Earthly experience for yourselves and for all future generations, and those experiences will not be about challenges.  The next mission is about experiencing joy and unbridled, unconditional love.  You have come this far in order to feel what it is like to move from the depths of darkness to the heights of ecstasy.

“Now when you decide to embark upon the new mission is up to you.  It is up to you how much longer you play with the third-dimensional rules and when you fully embrace the fifth-dimensional perspective, the fifth-dimensional frequency, the fifth-dimensional experience of reality.  We know that many of you feel ready, and we say to you that you are.  It is all just a matter of opening your heart, letting that be your guide, and forgetting everything that you think you have learned up until this point.”

The chart of the Atropos Station is relatively simple.  Atropos Conjoins – meaning that it’s Merged With (speaking of Boundaries) Eurydike, or Trust – still barely moving after it’s 4 February Station, and precisely Conjunct Atropos when the latter Stands Still.  Are we Scared to Let Go of What We Know So Well, this Karma, and Accept what lies beyond Endings, the Unknown?  That would be natural.  If you considered it carefully, you might well find you’d much rather Step Out of your Karmic Self-Sabotage Patterns than Stay In them.  But considering it carefully would mean you’d have to recognize that your Karma is your own Creation.  Most of the time most of us just Feel Victimized by our Archetypes, as if they were woven by Someone Else.

The ignorati refer to this as “New Age Guilt,” the idea that somehow I Chose to Manifest the Reality I Live in.  Why would I Choose Suffering?  They see it that way simply because they are unable to refer to their Soul as “I” – they see their Soul as Someone Else.  So this Adventure is about Trusting that we can End Habits that no longer serve us, and still Live Well afterwards.  If it was Someone Else who installed those Habits, do we Fear that they will Punish us if we End them?  If we still Live our Life as a Child subject to our Programmers’ rules, of course we do.  But we as a Soul Chose those Programmers, to set up situations that Mirror our Karma, so we can Recognize it and End it.  Part of our Mission.

Eurydike-Atropos Station in fact makes a Trine Bridge, defining the Easy Path, across the Nodal Axis.  The Nodal Axis is nothing if it’s not our map for getting from our Karma to our Mission.  Asteroid Sappho – Self-Love – sits on our South Node, which symbolizes the Karma that we’ve sown, the Patterns and Archetypes we took this Lifetime to Let Go of.  Do we Love Ourself in spite of our Karma?

Our Mission is not Letting Go of our Karma.  It’s just that the Hidden Skills which we need in order to Achieve our Mission, are hidden beneath our Held Emotions.  Held Emotions are the Emotions we cannot face because it would be too Scary, our cosmic PTSD.  Letting Go of our Karma, Letting Go of those Archetypes, those seemingly unshakeable Habits that Sabotage us over and over again, requires that we Feel those Forbidden Emotions, requires an Ego Death.  Yet the Ego’s job is to keep us Alive.  Which is the same error we all make – the Ego is supposed to keep us Alive, not to keep itself Alive.  How can it keep us Alive though, if it Dies?  Another Paradox.

Our Karmic Archetypes are Compulsive, or we’d be able to Let them Go easily.  In the map of the Station, Pluto, symbolizing Compulsion, makes a Quincunx Bridge to the Nodal Axis.  A Quincunx Bridge is like meeting Gollum.  But rather than Solve the constant stream of Riddles, we need to Zen them – leave them as Riddles, unanswered.  Anything that the Dualistic mind can conjure to Respond to them, will be a knife in the Heart of Mystery. 

That Fearless Child, in Awe at the marvelous things around Her, completely unprepared to try to make Sense of them, and, apart from trying to Understand the Abuse she so unfairly Received, having no need to make Sense of them.  That Child, pre-Abuse, is the one we need to Recover.  She holds the Ring.  The Abuse is the re-enactment of our Karma.  Who were we before we stumbled into these Patterns of Sabotage?  We’d need to go back to Lilith, to our Self-Sovereignty.  It’s a Mystery, but if you let “I” be your Soul for a few moments, you’ll Know Exactly what it is and Who You Are.

In the Station chart, Pluto is Conjoined by Chariklo, representing our Self-Confidence.  The two of them Square Atropos-Eurydike, symbolizing Mastery through Challenge.  Mastering the subtle Art of having Confidence that our Compulsions will lead us back to Awe, the subtle Art of Trusting that Ending our 3D Timeline will Liberate us to a Greater Mastery.  It’s the same as Sappho-South Node; Loving Ourself as our Karma.  Can you let “I” be your Karma for a few moments? 

When we drop all Self-Judgment then it doesn’t matter Who We Are, does it.  We are simply Unconditional Love, Personified.  If we are “just” Love, then what do Patterns and Habits and Archetypes matter?  They don’t even exist.  We can’t be “just” Love without being in the Present Moment, and in the Present Moment our Karma is undefined.  Habits by definition Remove us from the Present Moment.

Endings I

February 11, 2018

From several posts back…

“13 February (8:30 am PST) – Atropos Stands Still.  Atropos is about Endings.  Hopefully all month we’ve been working on Ending our Disregard for and Misplacement of Trust, and our Disregard for and Misinterpretation of Fear.”

So the trick is Letting Go of What We’ve Outgrown, and Keeping or Accepting What We Want to Grow Into.

Atropos is one of the three Fates, which represent Karmic Patterns that run our Lives until we become Conscious of them, after which, likely with a short Adjustment period, we Choose.  Remember that our Archetypes are Skills, incredible Skills.  What’s “wrong” with them is that we’re Stuck in them, they fire automatically, and we don’t have Free Choice to Choose the Action or Words that would be most appropriate relative to What We Want to Manifest.  Once we (1) Notice the Archetype we’re Stuck in, (2) Learn to Choose alternatives, and after we’ve (3) Ended the Compulsion, we can (4) add the Archetypal Skill back into our Repertoire.  It’s not time yet for (4); we’re mostly at (3), but definitely welcome (1) and (2) as well.

Atropos, which is turning Retrograde, will back across the first seven Duads (2½ Degrees in a Duad) of Libra.  At this point (17½ Degrees), after Exploring any number of new Encounters with Other (Other People, Other Anything) since 27 November 2017, we’re just getting to where we’re Noticing new things about our Boundaries, noticing where We End and Other Begins.

One of the most Fundamental Karmic Archetypes is Us versus Them.  It’s not just Personal, it’s deep in most Huper Culture.  Even before the Hyper-Competitive Patriarchy took over, the Matriarchies, where the Individual Ego was barely recognized, were usually sharply and often violently divided into Tribes.

Microbes don’t seem to have a strong Us-versus-Them Culture, as they freely share DNA; Antibiotic Resistance has taught us that.  Karmic Us-versus-Them may have begun with the development of Dermis.  At any rate, it’s Ancient, and Ancient Habits aren’t easily Broken.

Contrast that to the Spiritual Perspective that We Are All One.  How many of us are already “too” Empathic, taking on Other People’s and Other Entity’s issues without having Consciously Chosen to do so?  If we try to view this Contradistinction with the Dualistic mind, the gulf is uncrossable.

It’s a Paradox that actually leads us into our Multidimensionality.  In 3D we need our Mirrors to stay Safe and to keep our Empathy from Overwhelming our Ego.  Pushing the Ego beyond the point of Overwhelm can cause a backlash in our Growth.  In 5D we’re in Harmony with the rest of “Us” – with the extra Dimensions there is no Contradiction between Us as an Individual and Us as All One.  It’s Both/And.

In other words, from our 3D Perspective, Confusion is likely to rule.  Confusion is the first stage of Growth, if we can stand to Let It Be rather than trying to “figure it out.”

The “Easy Button”

February 5, 2018

Brenda Hoffman nails it today…

Many of you are stalling now because the knowledge that you are powerful enough to create anything is too frightening for you to contemplate.

“We are not chiding you, merely reminding you that you are much more powerful than you yet dare display.

“Many of you have past life traumas associated with displaying your skills in 3D.  So it is you are suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome (PTSD) as are many who serve in the military or observe violent scenes.

“Such is neither good nor bad, merely how you evaluate your current phase.  Even though you wish to move through this phase rapidly, your reality is like that of a military veteran who fears gunshots whenever a loud noise disrupts his or her being.  Similar to the PTSD experienced by many, your need is beyond someone telling you that all is well.

“You have to discover you are well even though whispers of past fears float by and through your being when you feel the need to actualize your current skillset.

“For many, it is easier to ignore that skillset, for by doing so you are not forced to acknowledge how fearful those past lives were.  A bit like those terrified of 3D water activities discovering, in what you label a past life, one of their segments was forcibly drowned.  Even though that fear is no longer logical, the fear lingers.

“The result is that you are attempting to dislodge those fears from your being, for you feel you must move forward immediately.  Forcing you to be at odds with yourself by encouraging ailments and other means to slow you down.

“Of course, reading this information creates deeper feelings of loss, fear, and internal anger.  ‘Why can’t I just move on?  What’s stopping me?’  As always, the answer is you.  The difference this time is an acknowledgment of that fact.  For clearing issues is different and easier in 5D even though you have not yet grasped that concept.

“Request help from your segments, your council, your guides, or whoever feels most right to you as you read this piece.  You no longer have to live with fears for years or even days.

“Yet, you continue to clear frightening memories with the 3D format that used to be most beneficial for you.

“You merely need to request help in acknowledging and clearing your deeply hidden fears.  You need not rest, stay home, vent, or whatever you think you should do.  All that is required is to ask for help and then allow that help to smooth out your fearful rough edges.

“You no longer are of 3D.  So you do not need to fear others or more importantly, yourself.  For many of you remain concerned that you will say something wrong, react incorrectly, or stand out in some way that encourages others to punish you for your beliefs.

“You have transitioned to personal freedom including your inner voice of rightness.  So you no longer need to sift your words and actions through your cultural sense of rightness.

“You will not be punished for being yourself as you have been in the past.

“But then, you will not believe this until you allow your PTSD to float away, as it will once you ask for assistance.  This clearing consists of two actions.  First, allow yourself to experience and express your PTSD.  Then ask for help in clearing your PTSD easily and effortlessly.  You do not need to be in your home or sanctuary, nor do you need to create illness or exhaustion as you clear this.

“Many of you are so afraid of cultural shame or ostracism that it is easier to hide your true being from even yourself.  A need that is an extension of eons of living in 3D obscurity.

“To discover if you are afraid to let down your personalized PTSD fear barrier, merely ask yourself if you are fully ready to be yourself or if you wish to be of both 3D and 5D.  If you answer that you wish to hide behind 3D convention, it is time for you to reassess how much you wish to live in freedom.

“Most of you had extremely traumatic past life experiences when you attempted to display your true self with true power.  But that was then.  Do you wish to clear those fears or to continue them so you are no longer part of this transition?

“Many of you are quite upset with that last statement for in your mind you have proved over and over again that you wish to be an instrumental part of this transition.  That even though you have a definite role to play and you wish to play that role, those memories are too painful to ignore.  Which is little different from those of you who experienced physical, sexual, and emotional violence in this lifetime.  You have the choice of continuing to slow or stop your development because of that violence or to forge ahead knowing that such is part of your history but not a stopping point.

“You were almost certainly abused in many lifetimes for displaying your Universal powers in a 3D world.  But that was then.  So are you willing to receive help easily and effortlessly by merely requesting it, or do you wish to simmer in your internal fears for a bit longer?  That is your choice.  One that you have always had even though never before has clearing such a dramatic piece been this easy.

“You are in a different place with different skills and a different physical body.  Allow that to be part of your knowingness.  And then, know that fears from the past are no longer required because this is a different time with different needs.

You are not of 3D, you are a 5D god or goddess who can easily clear that which stops you from being part of this New Earth/Universal tapestry if you so desire.

“But for many that desire is not yet there.  Allow yourself to move at the pace right for you, but know that when you are ready, that piece is easily cleared.

“Compared to your clearings while of 3D, this is a ‘piece of cake.’  The only part stopping you is fear of yourself and how you were treated by others generations, eons, or decades ago.”

Which sounds a lot like an Ego Death, Surrendering our Attachment to Struggling – that would feel like an Easy Button!  So, where is our favorite Ego-Death asteroid, Nemesis?  Remember it’s just finished crossing OR10-Nessus and dredging up our Abuse Histories and Herstories.  Well, looky here…

Neptune (Confusion) is about to Initiate Nemesis; it’ll get there on 12 February (8am PST), just in time for the Atropos Station.  Won’t that be Fun – Ego Death Dancing with Confusion!  Remember though that Confusion is the first stage of Growth, because in order to Grow we need to bust out of the Cage created by our current Concept Set, and our current Concept Set is what makes us Feel Safe, like we’re reasonably certain that the Tigers will be in their cages tonight when we go for our evening constitutional in Watermelon Sugar.

Their Union will be at 14 Pisces, “A Lady wrapped in a large stole of Fox fur: the use of intelligence and mental subtlety as a protection against storms and trials.”  Doesn’t that hit the target – just when we need our “intelligence and mental subtlety for protection,” it’s scheduled to fail.  Which is precisely the point – we’re shifting from intellectual and mental protection to Spiritual Protection, or rather, the Realization that Spirit needs no Protection, it Just Is, Indestructible and infinitely malleable Essence.

A good time to quote Frank Ostaseski…

“I had a difficult upbringing as a child. I always held up the hope that someday, someone would rescue me. I imagined that I would be saved by love coming toward me, but it was just the opposite.  I was rescued when love came through me.”

“When my son died in a motorcycle accident, I learned what being sick to death actually means.  I cried non-stop for weeks.  On one of those occasions I was outside in my garden.  I couldn’t take a deep breath and felt as if I was having a heart attack.  In a flash I felt something that I can only describe as a crack in my chest.  I could feel the earth moan and sob with me, and for a moment I thought I had lost my mind.  I could feel what all mothers who’ve lost a child feel, and I knew I was not alone in my suffering. 

“Shortly after I read a quote: ‘The heart that is open never breaks.’  In that instant, I believe, my heart was split wide open.  The loss of my son opened me to the suffering of all beings and I felt a strange peace.”

Neptune is a particular kind of Confusion, Confusion about the nature of the 3D World.  Conversely, it also signifies Clarity about the Realm of Spirit.  The Physical, Mental, Spiritual, and Emotional Realms aren’t Realms at all, they’re Perspectives.  Reality is Unitary and Multifarious.  You can use any one of those filters to view it – Physical, Mental, Spiritual, Emotional, and many many others.  Because Reality is All One, we can Heal “Emotional” issues using a Physical frame, and Change the “Physical” World using a Spiritual Perspective.  It’s what Allows Instantaneous Healing – of our Ancient Karmic PTSD, for instance.  The Easy Button!

Neptune also symbolizes Confusion because it represents the Edge between the Personal and the Transpersonal, our Relationship with Everything Larger than Ourself.  If we live in a Hostile World, then Anything Larger than Ourself is a threat.  But Hostility isn’t a property of the World, it’s a property of the Observer.  Another of those many many Perspectives, another filter that we can Choose to see the World through.  Or not.  A good time to re-read Watermelon Sugar.

How does Nemesis-Neptune relate to this week’s Main Effect, the Sedna Station?  Well, obviously Fear and Ego Death go hand in hand.  Otherwise we’d probably just call it Ego Growth.  Which wouldn’t be a bad synonym for Nemesis, actually.  But it’s more direct, as you can see in the gold lines on the chart; Nemesis-Neptune Trioctiles the ends of the Square between Aletheia/Truth and Haumea/Rebirth.  Trioctiles to the ends of a Square form a Mjōlnir or “Hammer of Thor,” signfying Epiphany.  Thor’s Hammer is actually more like Lightning than a Sledge.

We commonly refer to Sedna as representing Fear, but actually she symbolizes our Relationship to FearIf you Breathe or do Kegels while Fear is about, you see how Energizing it actually is.  And if you Tap Out your Archetypal Habitual Reactions to it and get Neutral, you see what sort of Response is actually appropriate in the Present Moment, divorced from our Karma.  Even if it’s only Relief, I often find that to be very Joyful.  Excitement, Energy, Joy – Fear is a Sheep in Wolf’s clothing.  Finding the Easy Button would be quite an Epiphany indeed!

Abundance New Moon

January 17, 2018

The 16 January New Moon itself is more prosaic.  The Moon is the Focus of a Challenge to Mastery (T-Square), implying that we’ll be Challenged over the next few weeks.  In what way?  Well, we know our Values will be Confronted (Venus on the New Moon), and we usually have a lot of Identity Attached to our Values, so that’s a Threat.  We also know we’re up for Rebirth (Haumea on one side of the base of the T-Square).  That should be a Joyous occasion.  Oh.  Well, yeah, I guess we might hesitate to give up some of what we’re being Rebirthed from.  Hmm.  Like what? 

Well, there’s a part of our Life that we just sort of Accept as “The Way It Is” because we’ve just never seen how it might be otherwise (Moira-as-Fate et al on the other end of the base).  We’ve even set up probably-by-now-Unconscious Boundaries against the Disappointment we’ve become Resigned to (Pallas/Boundaries too).  Um, it looks like those Boundaries are Breaking Down (Eris-Uranus/Revelation of the Soul Self as well).  We know it’s Time for something Big (previous post), and the Arcturians have advised (in the post before that) – “don’t wait” for it…

Feel the vibration of that which you want to be living, and then open your heart to access the stream of Source Energy that comes to you from your heart center.  Use that energy to create the experience you want to be feeling.  Let yourself have the experience now.  Don’t wait.  Don’t even wait for what you have created to come to you before you start living it, experientially.”

Kinda Scary.  What have you been thinking, “Wouldn’t it be nice to…”?  So, what stops you?  Oh, that.  Something about Survival?  Like, say, Doubt?  Lack of Trust?  Doesn’t feel like we’re making that up, but I guess we are.  Usually-Reliable Sources tell me that “there is no Universal Law of Scarcity” – there’s only misinterpreted Fear (that makes sense – Sedna makes a Quincunx Bridge to the T-Square). 

“To think prosperously in spite of appearances to the contrary is worth every effort, because it produces rich results…  Another way to invoke the law of increase, and thus to avoid the pettiness and destructiveness of the law of decrease, is by training your mind never to be disappointed.  If certain things do not come at certain times in the way you wished, do not consider it a failure. 

“Since you have not received that thing, you can instead stand firm in the faith that something much better is on the way and will appear at the right time.  When you seem to fail, remind yourself that you have not asked big enough.  Expand your viewpoint and expectation, and a larger answer than you originally anticipated will surely come.  Failure is nothing but success trying to be born in a bigger way.” 

— Catherine Ponder, The Dynamic Laws of Prosperity, pp.126-7.

Guess we better Locate this Fear stuff and Tap it Out.Besides having our Values Challenged, it looks like the Fear and the Rebirth should be where we put our Attention (the green-wedge Fingers of God).  Any other Friends in the chart?  Hmmm, looks like our Forbidden Genius may bail us out, if we’re Responsive to it (the Ixion-Pholus Trine Bridge), and our Survival Instincts should help Guide us (Quaoar Conjoining as well), though that could be a little tricky.  Remember those Boundaries against Disappointment?  They’ve been disguised as Survival Instincts all these years.  We’ll have to finesse that.

Oh my, there must be some Trauma holding up those Boundaries against What We’ve Always Wanted but Wasn’t Possible (Chiron Quincunx-Bridging the T-Square).  What if we could Choose to Neutralize the Trauma (Lachesis Conjoining, in its Guise of making the Choice to End a Timeline early – the only requirement is knowing that Fate and Karma are Paper Tigers)?  Starting by Poor-Sweethearting it maybe (it is Chiron, Master of Making Miracles out of Despair)?

Okay, forewarned is forearmed.  If we can Avoid Regressing and forgetting everything we’ve Learned in the past half-century when that Trauma revisits, we have a tentative Strategy.  I still Believe that All Prayers Are Answered sooner or later, so I think I’ll PIAVA now that I Remember.

Hmmm.  We might have a clue about when and how this Trauma (in the singular, we hope, though Traumas are known to breed) crawls out of the Mud.  Remember asteroid Nemesis, the one that we associate with Ego Death because the Goddess Nemesis was in charge of remediating Guilt?  It entered Pisces (Emotional Detox) on 15 January (4:30 am PST), and during the course of this Moon Cycle will dance with OR10 (Intrustive Memories) on 22 January (12am PST) and with Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) on 27 January (5pm PST).  That’s as good an excuse for revisiting Trauma as I can imagine.

OR10 Initiates Nemesis in 4 Pisces, “Heavy car traffic on a narrow isthmus linking two seashore resorts.”  Rudhyar’s take is “The mobility and intensity of interchanges which make possible and characterize complex social processes.”  Translate that from Sociologuese to English (“it’s a Jungle out there”) and we can end up revisiting any number of possible Trauma situations in our Personal Histories and Herstories, including episodes of Abuse.  If you have Heavy Dreams or Hallucinations around 22 January, tough it out; it’s just your Inner Child calling for you.

Nessus Initiates Nemesis in 6 Pisces, “A parade of army officers in full dress.”  I consulted for a federal agency in DC for a while back in the ’80s, and many of the denizens were ex-military.  The ex-Army people wouldn’t do anything without being told to.  The ex-Navy people were obviously trained to think for themselves, and did so.  Full dress implies Full Compliance with orders.  This conjures up the classical protocols that #MeToo is combatting.  Expect ongoing big #MeToo news toward the end of the month, and your own Abuse memories to surface.

Abuse is often associated with Sex and Violence, but it’s far more pervasive than that.  For instance, one nasty sort of Abuse is when the significant adults in your childhood never Inquire about who you are, they’re totally absorbed in Programming you to look like their portrait of what kids are supposed to look and sound and act like.  Growing Up without an accurate or caring Mirror leaves long-lasting scars in our Ego structure.  The Suffocation you may have received from overbearing adults, and the Abandonment you felt from uncaring adults, are both serious Abuse scars, whether you would use that word for them or not.

World Peace Timeline II

January 2, 2018

Sheila writes…

” ‘Whether the rest of your human cohorts know it or not, there is a best possible timeline for ascension, and they are in favor of that at the level of their highest selves.  That means they are contributing energy and desire to being on that timeline. You can tap into that.  You can feel for the best possible timeline for ascension, and with the collective energy of humanity you can bring it about.’

“I suspect we need either further instructions or to assume that all this intent will lead in good directions.”

I know, it sounds obscure.  But it’s the best suggestion I’ve seen.  I think the key is

“You can feel for the best possible timeline for ascension.” 

If you’re like me, the first thing we need to do is define Ascension.  I had no idea what the word meant till I read Michael Roads’s Through the Eyes of Love series and, particularly, his Stepping…Between…Realities.  He makes it clear that what he refers to as Ascension is “just” what I’ve always regarded as an Ideal – where everyone does Win-Win with everyone else, we’re all well Supported by one another, we all have Respect for All Things, including the “Things” that most folks hereabout would consider inanimate or insensate, we Collaborate with Nature rather than trying to Control Her, everyone is regarded as The Best, and as Rodney famously said, “Why can’t we all just get along?”

In my view, the primary impediment to Ascension is Judgment. 

“It’s okay (or even righteous) for me to take as much as I possibly can of your

[choose one or several: power, money, affection, food, shelter, praise, land, people for slaves, water, clean air, etc etc]

without giving back, because I’m

[choose one or several: better, smarter, whiter, holier, slicker, more well-endowed, etc etc]

than you,” for instance. 

Your Ideal World will certainly differ in details, but I wouldn’t be too surprised if it shares a lot of basic traits with mine.

My interpretation of “feel for” is to Imagine what it will be like to Live in such an Ideal World, and spend time being Present with that Feeling, replacing the Yes-Buts that arise with Yes-Ands, Tapping Out any Fear or Anger or Grief that arises, and maybe even PIAVAing (including, yes, Intention) whatever verbalizations you have for it.  In other words, Feel what you would Feel if you were there, and Feel it as often as possible.

My interpretation of “Timeline” is any Lifetime or segment thereof that’s reasonably distinct from other segments, where the segmentation can be in time or in quality.  For instance, the classical Greek Dramas are all Timelines.  If I’m Fated to Seduce my Anima (or, in the Drama itself, my Mother), for instance, the portion of my Life where that Archetype dominates would be my Anima-Lust Timeline.  If I’m trained to crave Dependence rather than Self-Sovereignty, the portion of my life where that Archetype dominates would be my Codependence Timeline.  If I have to work for The Man to Survive for a while, that would be my Slavery Timeline.

The same would apply to a Culture or a Tribe.  The political Life of Germany from mid-1930s to mid-1940s would be it’s Fascist Timeline.  Facebook, Google, the NSA, and the Antichrist Movement form a similar Timeline in the Culture of the US.  Most countries on the Planet have had a Colonial Timeline, either as Victim or Perp, of varying length.  Most countries have had a Television Timeline (which doubled the murder rate in many of them).  We enter an Off-Planet Timeline during the 1960s.

So to “Feel for the best possible Timeline for Ascension,”  I would first spend time Consciously Invoking what I Expect to Feel in my own Ideal World. 

Then I would, in turns, think about the major categories of People on the Planet that I’m aware of: Immigrants, Refugees, Homeless, Working Poor, Wage Slaves, Managers, Mechanical Turks, Hourly Workers, Retired Folks, Children, Adolescents, Student Debtors, Credit-Card Debtors, Gamblers, Investors, The 1%, Singles, Marrieds, Gays, Native Peoples, Minorities, Empaths, Psychopaths, Obsessive Compulsives, Introverts, Extroverts, People who “Live off the Land,” Folks who are Healthy, Sick, Disabled, Over-Confident, Depressed, Addicted, Overweight, Abused, Privileged, Hypercompetitive, … you get the idea. 

Obviously we’d want to combine or Choose a manageable number of groups who are likely to have different notions of what World Peace or an Ideal World means.  The idea is to Imagine what the Ideal World might be to Other People, and what they might Feel in their Ideal World.  For each one of these groups’ Imagined Ideal Worlds that are markedly different from my own Ideal World (such as Win-Lose People), can I find a “Coin” that would encompass their Ideal and mine?  Or do I need to PIAVA or otherwise work on dropping my Judgment of them?

I would gradually converge to a Collective Imagined Feeling or set of Feelings that would result from the Planet Collectively “Ascending.”  At each intermediate stage in that Process I’d spend time Meditating on whatever my Imagined Feeling had evolved to at that point in time.

Or, you can Generalize by Imagining what it will Feel like when Everyone Feels really good about their Lives, then gradually Expand geographically – Everyone in their Household, then on their Block, in their Neighborhood, in their Burb or Town, in their County, in their State or Province, in their Region, in their Country, on their Continent, on their Planet, in the Neighborhood of their Planet, in their Solar System, in their Galaxy, etc.  You’ve probably forgotten, but Expanding of this sort is actually one of the unrepresented terms in PIAVA.

When you get done with this, move on to the Other Animals, the Plants, the Insects, the Mushrooms, the Microbes, the Stones, the Clouds, the Wind, the Dirt, the Waters, the Emotions, the Ethers, and all of the other Entities that you usually consider insentient or inanimate, or don’t consider at all.  In Roads’s and my version of Ascension, ALL Entities Collaborate with ALL Others.  Maybe it’s like that in your Version too?  A bit like the Restaurant at the End of the Universe.

Then you can take it Inside.  How will each of your Systems (Skeleton, Muscles, Glands, etc) and Organs Feel when they have their Druthers?  Your Chakras?  Your Nadis?  Your Meridians?  Your Healthy Cells?  Unhealthy Cells?  Gut Microbes?  Mitochondria?  Proteins?  Fats?  Enzymes?  Synapses?  Neurotransmitters?  Molecules of all stripes?  Atoms?  Quarks?   Strings? Vibrations?  Silly, yes, but quite Real.  All Entities on All levels, eh?

I know, Impossible.  Pick and Choose.  What seems most Important or most Effective to you?  If you can only spare five minutes a day, what Feels like the Most Important Thing on this menu to Do?  Five minutes is far better than nothing, though, really, what’s more Important than Ascension of the Planet?  Everything else will take care of itself, right?  Or, this menu might Inspire something entirely different for you – More Power to you!   You can even just Intend “what he said.”

Steven Levine’s Guided Meditations, Explorations, and Healings is a compendium of Meditations that will take us to the same place, where every part of ourself and Others are Forgiven for everything we or they may have said or done or thought, Consciously or Unconsciously, that was Harmful.  And while we’re at it, Steven’s Who Dies? is absolutely fundamental to our Identity Work, which in turn is Fundamental to the Ego Deaths that are inevitable – though not necessarily painful – in a Year Dedicated to Soul/Uranus and Manifestation/Makemake.  Manifesting What We Want, including Ascension, is all about Identity.  Who Dies? is Identity 101.  If you haven’t yet, read Who Dies? before you read anything more that I write.

Fateful New Moon III – Survival

December 24, 2017

By now the Crescent Moon has already appeared, but the first appearance of the Crescent is a symbol for the Activation of the New Moon Energies into Hardcopy “Reality,” aka Matter.  So while we’re a bit past the “Fateful” New Moon, what we’re writing about here is really quite relevant to the Lunar Cycle, as it was impending at the moment of the New Moon…

Traditional astrology makes a Big Deal out of Sign Changes, when a planet moves from one Sign to the next.  That’s appropriate, as a Sign Change represents a Change in the Zeitgeist.  For instance, Saturn moves out of Sagittarius and into Capricorn on 19 December (8pm PST), and of course the Sun enters Capricorn, as it does every year, on 21 December (5pm PST).  Sagittarius is about Letting Go, while Capricorn’s theme is Just Fix It. 

Since Saturn signifies The Most Important Thing, this is a pretty big Change, from The Most Important Thing is to Let It Go (Sagittarius)…

(seems like we haven’t had much Choice but to Let It Go for a while now), to The Most Important Thing is to Just Fix It (Capricorn).

Well, someone mixed up the title, but that’s okay, it’s a catchy tune, and the concepts are related. 

That’ll be nice if things Just Get Fixed.  So far we’ve fixed Net Brutality and dooH niboR taxes, and Saturn isn’t even there yet.  Saturn’s been in Sagittarius for three years now; on average it hangs out in one Sign for thirty months.  We must’ve needed a lot of Letting Go, eh?  It stays in Capricorn for three years too – Lord knows we need a lot of Fixin’. 

Pluto’s been in Capricorn for ten years, and it doesn’t seem like much has gotten Fixed, mostly the other way around, unless you’re redundantly wealthy and don’t care about your Planet.   On the other hand, if we have Respect for All Things, we have to assume that this is a Healing Crisis, and that the foundations are actually crumbling, and we’ll see the edifice topple from its own weight ‘ere long.  Like the way it’s been going with Power and the Exploitation of Women.  We actually don’t need to look too hard for evidence of crumbling foundations.

Maybe when Saturn gets to Pluto in January 2020, we’ll have another big Tripping Point.  That Initiation happens at 23 Capricorn, “A soldier receiving two awards for bravery in combat.”  The last Jedi maybe.  But there is a long list of Big Initiations occurring – too many to write about – so we could well see more Tripping Points.  For instance, Pholus Initiated Saturn (The Most Important Thing is Taking Full Responsibility, recalling that Responsibility is not Blame) on 4 December.

And one of the biggest December Initiations is the Quaoar-Saturn Initiation on 23 December (11am PST), Initiating a new 33-year Cycle.  It occurs at 1 Capricorn, “A Native American Chief claims power from the assembled tribes.”  From our Western European Perspective, that sounds Patriarchal, but in most Native Cultures, the Chief was in charge of War and not much else.  It was the Matriarchy that ruled everything else.

Quaoar represents our Survival Instincts; the God-figure Quaoar taught the California Native Americans how to Live in harmony with the Landscape they Lived in, just as Makemake channeled similar wisdom to the the folks on Rapa Nui.  So the theme here is that The Most Important Thing is Listening to Our Survival Instincts.  That adds considerable weight to the notion that The Most Important Thing is to Just Fix It, and suggests that we may be near a Tipping Point on Global Warming.

Here’s the chart – “Q” is short for Quaoar…

The focus is on Varuna – the Life Force – at the point of a Finger of God (Pay Attention! – the green wedge).  the other side of the base of the Finger of God is Moon-OR10-Nessus, representing the Healing of Memories of Abuse – and the Healing of Illusions of Privilege.  Saturn-Quaoar Conjoins (implying that the Initiation and the entire Cycle is Merged with…) Pholus (Responsibility), Venus (our Values), and the Sun (our Essence).  In other words, this is a Biggie, and it’s critical to maintenance of the Life Force on the Planet and in our own Bodies.

Imagine how much Life Force you’ll regain by Healing your own Memories of Abuse.  Then Intend it. 

Imagine how much Life Force you’ll regain by Healing your Illusions of Privilege.  While it may Feel Liberating in the immediate moment, Privilege is a burden.  Equality and Community far exceed the benefits of Privilege.  As we shift from Competition to Cooperation and Collaboration, we no longer waste Energy maintaining Privilege.

Halfway between Quaoar-Saturn-et al and Moon-OR10-Nessus, and Opposite Varuna, sits Juno, implying that becoming Conscious of the Relationship between how Alive we Feel and our Memories of Abuse and Privilege, is the key to restoring our Survival Instincts and giving them Priority.

There’s a second chart in the Quaoar-Saturn Initiation, half a Sign from the Initiation itself…

The core of this chart is Jupiter, Expansion.  How do we Expand (our Life Force)?  By Choosing (the T-Square as Mastery through Challenge) to give our Mission (North Node) Priority (Ceres) over our South Node (Suffering).  The chart includes a tremendous Gift – the Air Grand Trine (Great Blessings – the blue triangle) between our Suffering, our Intuition (Asbolus), and Trust (Eurydike), Kited by Ceres-North Node (Directed toward making our Mission Primary).  Jupiter also Trines (Blessing) Lachesis (Choosing to abort a Timeline midstream), lending us Grace to Break our Karmic Patterns.

The chart includes four Fingers of God, or Foci for our Attention…

  • Ceres-North Node, our Mission
  • Pluto, advising against Resistance, since it will be Futile
  • Asbolus, our Intuition
  • Lachesis, our Power to Choose

The Power to Choose is devilishly Subtle.  We are our Karmic Patterns, we’re Merged with them, we Identity with them.  Rejecting them feels like Rejecting ourself.  More than that, we don’t know that we can Reject them!  Our Identification with them is Unconscious.  How to Break out of this prison?  Your Desires.

There are things you Want, things you’ve Wanted all your Life, things you’ve never been able to perfect, no matter how many ways you’ve tried.  Not Material things, but Emotional-Spiritual things.  Peace, Relationship, Love, Faith, Security, Self-Sovereignty, Community, Belonging, Equality, Trust, for example.  How many of those examples can you claim as yours?  What would you add?  The Tension between What You Want and What You Have is your fulcrum of Power. 

Pick one of your Lifelong Desires, and Give Yourself Permission to Have it.  A ton of Yes-Buts may well arise; rephrase them as Yes-Ands.  Then forget about it, focus on other things for a day.  This time tomorrow, look to see what came up in your Life.  Any Insights?  Any Liberation from Tension?  Any Guilt you can Tap Out?  Owning our Lifelong Wants is an important key to Liberating the Life Force.  Manifesting What You Want happens automatically when you’ve Surrendered all  of your Resistance to it. 

You won’t have to Work at it or Do anything to get it; it will come to you.  Your Wants are perfectly Natural, and shared by Others.  When you stop Resisting them, you Manifest a Reality where they just happen, because they’re Natural.  You’ve envied and studied many People who already Have What You Want, and you’ve Learned that they aren’t doing anything special or different, they’re just being themselves.  Well?

Two subcharts that are half a Sign apart, are potential goldmines for the Octile series of Angles (the metallic lines in the chart below).  The Quaoar-Saturn Initiation sits at the Midpoint of the Jupiter-South Node Square.  That Square is about Mastering (through Challenge of course) the technique of Healing our Suffering by Amplifying it.  Our natural tendency is to Deny it, run from it, Resist it, even Curse it.  What we need to do instead is Love it to Death.  Once we Embrace our Suffering Unconditionally, we Welcome it as a natural part of Life.  It becomes Compassion instead of Suffering. 

We can touch the Edges of that by Poor-Sweethearting ourself – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Suffering, aren’t you.”  You may hear a tiny voice agreeing.  One of the most effective ways to Heal PTSD is through Theater.  Once you’re able to Act Out the role of your Suffering consumately, you have Mastered it, and it is no longer your Master.  Take that tiny voice (or any suspicions you have), and Act them Out.  Keen about them. 

Imagine what you’d say to someone who’s telling you to forget your Suffering and “Move On,” if you had Permission to be totally Honest and Direct.  Imagine what you’d say, if you had no reason to be other than totally Direct and Honest, to someone who’s telling you that your Suffering is your own Choice.  How would you Respond to someone who tells you “Frankly, Scarlet, I don’t give a Damn!”  Scream and shout your True Feelings.  Amplify your Truth, no matter how much you would normally Judge it.  With Jupiter-Nodes, this is the time to do precisely this. 

Act it Out like your Survival depended on your Winning the Role.

The Quaoar-Saturn Initiation Trioctiles Ceres-North Node, so Breakthrough Insights about your True Mission in this Lifetime are likely.  When you Amplify your Suffering and Learn to Embrace it Fully as a most-Valued part of your True Self, as your Crown Jewel, you’ll Discover the Skills that are Hidden beneath your former Resistance to it.  Those Skills happen to be exactly what you Need to achieve your Lifetime Mission, to obtain exactly What You Want.  Your Suffering, and your Mission and Wants, are two sides of the same Coin.

There’s one caveat.  Desire is slippery.  Once you achieve the Form of What You’ve Always Wanted, you’ll Want something else.  That’s because your Picture of What You’ve Always Wanted, is a composite of the Spiritual Essence of What Your Soul Wants for you on the one hand, and What Your Ego Can Accept.  If you can Picture it, it’s probably not the Bottom Line, because it’s probably Material to some degree.  On the other hand, if you can Feel it, you’ll be a lot closer.

Imagine Achieving What You’ve Always Wanted, That Which Will Most, Finally, Make You Feel Whole.  Now focus on What You Feel when you Imagine that.  That’s a lot closer to your Mission.  Emotion isn’t Everything, but it’s Fundamental to Manifestation.  Those People who already have What You’ve Always Wanted, and who do it so Effortlessly?  They Feel it.  There’s a Paradox here, because once you Feel what it will feel like when you Get What You’ve Always Wanted, you no longer Need What You’ve Always Wanted.  You already Have it.  You can just bask in the Feeling which you now know how to Create and, with a little effort, Maintain.

Is there still a gap between Feeling that, and What You’ve Always Wanted?  When you’re Feeling that, do you still crave the Picture of What You’ve Always Wanted?  Take it a step further.  Maybe you can Feel what you imagine it will Feel like when you’ve Reunited with your Soulmate, but you still Long for the Contact.  Then Ask yourself, what else will you get from your Soulmate, besides that Feeling?  Sure, there’s the Physical Contact, and you may have to Trust that you’re more likely to meet your Soulmate if you spend time Feeling what it will Feel Like when you do.

But, going a step further, maybe what you Believe your Soulmate will give you, for instance, is Unconditional Respect.  You may not have cast or Pictured What You’ve Always Wanted as Unconditional Respect, but consider it.  Is that a part of What You’ve Always Wanted?  I’ve occasionally introduced folks who are very close to being Twigmates astrologically (some consider us to have many “Twigmates” – Souls who are leaves on the same branch as we are, with whom we’ve had many Lifetimes), and after initial amazement, they’ve ended up disliking one another intensely.  Why?  They weren’t Unconditionally Respectful of themselves.

They Judged parts of themself, Unconsciously, Believing their Judgment was a valid Response to their role in their Environment.  Folks who Suffer from Perfectionism can be particularly Vulnerable to this.  Can we be Unconditionally Respectful of our Perfectionism, without Judging any other parts of ourself?  It’s all about Timing.  If we Learn to “Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade” the instant we detect ourself Judging, then with a smile Honor our Perfectionism, I suspect we could resolve this Paradox fairly well.

Our ballbuster here is Judgment.  While Saturn represents Discrimination, Jupiter symbolizes Tolerance.  We can Discriminate, Choosing between alternatives, without Judging what we didn’t Choose.  Jupiter would take it a step further, Surrendering to either, being Open to how either would Change us.  If our Identity is Flexible, we can always adapt.  Without Discriminating against Discrimination, when that’s what we Choose.

Fateful New Moon II

December 16, 2017

We’ve drawn in the Ego-Death component of this New Moon chart in lighter lines below…

Let’s digress a bit to discuss timing.  The Moira Station is Exact 16 December (3pm PST), the New Moon itself 17 December (10:30 pm PST), and the South Node-Nemesis Initiation 18 December (4am PST).  The Pluto-Sappho Initiation follows on 20 December (1pm PST).

In case you think that it hasn’t been insanely Busy in the Heavens lately, note that we aren’t even attempting to untangle the Initations in the New Moon Stellium or the Moira Station Stellium – there are at least fifteen of them, and they’re all Big Deals, many signifying Millennia-level Transformations.  We’re also not trying to untangle the six profound Initiations in the Jupiter-Vesta-Hopi-Karma Stellium at the focus of the Nemesis T-Square that we’re about to consider.

So, the red triangle we’ve drawn in lighter lines, is a “T-Square,” signifying Mastery through Challenge.  We’re Challenged to Master the group of planets at the “point” of the triangle, where the right angle is.  That group of planets essentially means Being Highly Motivated (Jupiter – Expansionto Let Go of Any and All Unconscious Limitations that follow us around (asteroid Vesta – Unconscious Beliefsby Changing All of Our Ancient Habit Patterns (asteroid Karmaso that We Come to Respect All Things Equally (asteroid Hopi).

Doesn’t that sound like something that’ll generate Lifetimes worth of Ego Death!  Well, turns out that one of the “roots” of the T-Square is Nemesis – Ego Death, being Initiated by the South Node  – our Karma!  So if anyone had a question about Ego Death, there’s our definitive answer.  Remember though that Karma is Dead.  Our Karma does not grasp us, we grasp our Karma.  Not because we’re preverts, but because it’s what we Know. 

It’s not even that we Fear the Unknown, really, it’s just Habit.  No different than Eggs or Porridge for breakfast, Soup-Salad-Sandwich for lunch, and Meat-Potatoes-Veggies-Desert for dinner, then TV and Popcorn.  Just what we’re used to doing, we don’t even think about it unless something rocks the boat, like maybe Nessie.  Well, that’s what the South Node is, the “Dragon’s Tail.”  In almost all ancient traditions around the World, our Karma is referred to as a Fire-Breathing Dragon.

The Golden Treasure that Bilbo sought to recover from Smaug was nothing but the 5D Treasures of Consciousness.  Better yet, if you haven’t read all six books in Ursula Le Guin’s Earthsea Trilogy, you need to get busy.  It paints a whole different – Respectful and Loving – Relationship between Human and Dragon.  Ursula’s a Genius.

Heavy stuff.  The other root of the Being Highly Motivated to Let Go of Any and All Unconscious Limitations by Changing All of Our Ancient Habit Patterns so that We Come to Respect All Things Equally T-Square is asteroid Ceres – Sustainability – on the North Node – our Mission.  Nothing will make our Mission Sustainable more than Letting Go of our Karma and Embracing the Held (Unacknowledged and Unexpressed) Emotions that lurk beneath our South Node.

I neglected to draw it in, but the asteroid Lachesis us also in this Ego-Death Configuration, at 17 Pisces, Trining Jupiter et al.  Lachesis is about Learning to short circuit our Fate by Choosing to end Karmic Patterns at the time of our own Choosing, rather than when they’re Fated to end.  That serves us well here.

So you see, everyone receives an enormous Gift this month, regardless of their “merit” or pedigree.  Letting go of Judgment and Separation is after all one of the steps on the Stairway to Heaven.

Here’s an excellent parallel track to our analysis…


Beyond Bounds and Boundaries

November 11, 2017

Here’s our 11:11 portrait, with its Grand Septile, drawn in purple…

The Septile is the Seventh Harmonic, one-seventh of the way ’round the Zodiacal hoop.  Of course the Universe is Integral, so there’s no way one segment of it can be more important than any other.  Like the day that the Heart and the Brain were arguing over which one of them was the most critical to the Survival of their Vehicle, when in walked the Colon.  But I do think of the Seventh as one of the more Important Harmonics, mostly because it’s largely ignored in Western Culture.  While they may be able to finesse or brute-force most of the other Angles, the Ego and the Intellect, the two Heroes of Western Culture, have no control over the Seventh Harmonic.

The Seventh is about Timing.  It’s what Don Juan meant when he was always urging Castaneda to “Save his Energy” – when Timing is right and your accounts in the Bank of Intention are full, Miracles happen.  So we need two things to manifest this sort of Effortlessness.  We need a meaningful amount of Attention and Passion devoted toward What-We-Want (complemented by little Attention to What-We-Don’t-Want and lots of Attention to Gratitude toward What-We-Have), and we need to be Open to our Intuition.  Without those two prerequisites, we don’t recognize it when What-We-Want steps in front of us.

We Clear our Intuition and Center our Attention by Reverting our Self-Sabotaging Archetypes and unproductive Karmic Patterns – Goddess knows we been working on that!  Then we need Timing to be in the Right Place at the Right Time so we’re ready and available when the Portal Opens.  A Grand Septile, when seven planets line up more or less equally spaced around the Zodiac, isn’t that common. 

This one isn’t perfect; it has six of seven planet well placed, leaving one Vacancy.  As you probably know by now, a Vacancy represents the Most Important part of a Configuration for us Observers, because the Vacancy specifies the Energy that we have to provide, Consciously, to Complete the Grace.  However, a Fixed Star, Agena, falls conveniently into the Vacancy, so we have help and Guidance after all.  Agena is about the sacrifice that must be made in order to permit Growth.  Of course that’s usually an Ego Death, because it’s our Ego’s job to Defend the status quo.  However, we know how to make an Ego Death Effortless, don’t we, using our “Poor-Sweethearts.”

The exact Vacancy is 27 Scorpio, “A military band marches on noisily through city streets” – exactly the Void that the Defenders of what they’d like to see as the status quo have been trying unsuccessfully to fill.  Like most Revolutions, our Band is rag-tag, which is more than fine.  All we need to get our Timing right is Clarity, Passion, and Intuition.  We don’t need military precision – in fact we need its opposite, Yintegrity.  From the Lawn Order Perspective, that looks like Chaos.  In the 60s we called it Street Theater, and had good Fun with it, because we Trusted Completely that we were being True to our Self.

And whaddayaknow, Chaos and Trust are part of our Grand Septile.  The seven members are…

  • The Pluto-Juno Initiation, which is Exact at 6pm on 11/11.  We wrote about this Union-Jack-Lawn-Order-Warship Cycle at  Another military metaphor.  Remember we’re dealing with the Unconscious, and in the Unconscious, Opposites are seen as variations on an Equal because once we’re out of the Dualistic mind, we see them as two sides of the same Coin, and the Coin is what counts.  So we have no hesitation to Celebrate the Cycle as an Ending to military Order, and Enjoy our Individuation.

Any flag symbolism reminds us of the Pluto-Chiron Initiation in the chart and prospectus for the Century and the Millennium – “A flag turning into an Eagle turning into a Chanticleer saluting the Dawn,” which is easy to interpret as Rigid Identity being Transformed into Enlightenment through Broad Perspective and Cognitive Dissonance (holding multiple “Contradictory” Perspectives at the same time – outside of Dualism, what was formerly Contradiction is simply Paradox).

  • Lachesis-Neptune; Neptune implies Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, while Lachesis symbolizes Choice.  Which is to say that the Timing is Right for us to simply Step Out of any Archetypes we find Limiting us.  The Window is Open for Choosing to move directly to Spirit.  Or moving directly from 3D to 5D by investing Time in indulging How-We’re-Going-to-Feel-when-our-Life-is-Effortless-and-Delightful-and-our-Wishes-are-Granted-Automatically.  Or Imagining that the Rose Above the Sky Has Opened and the Light Behind the Sun Has Taken All.

The Exact Lachesis-Neptune Conjunction occurred at about 3am today 11/11.  It was not an Initiation, but a Confidence-Bulder.  The Initiation occurred 10 May of this year in 14 Pisces, “A lady wrapped in a large stole of Fox fur.”  We didn’t write about it at the time, because there were too many other amazing things going on then ( – which amazing things we can consider to be part and parcel of the entire 6-year Lachesis-Neptune, Choosing-Liberation Cycle – just as we can consider this Grand Septile as part and parcel of the entire 4-year Consciousness-or-Bust Juno-Pluto Cycle.  Even when Her Fur is stolen, Fox is difficult to outsmart.

  • Pallas-Moira; Lachesis is about Choosing when to Extinguish a Habit.  Moira is about Choosing whether to Accept our Fate or to Become Conscious that we Have Options.  We wrote a little about this Cycle at its April 2017 Conjunction ( “With Moira (Fate) Conjunct Pallas (Boundaries) we’re probably talking about Being Given Opportunities to Notice and Change long-term and Karmic Habits of Giving Away Our Power.” 

Pallas’s and Moira’s orbits differ in length by only a month, so it’s almost impossible to isolate their Cycles in any organized fashion, as they Dance with one another constantly.  Consequently, Huper Boundaries are fickle.  People can go from enemy to friend and back in the blink of an eye.  In this era of Polarization (brought on by the Grand Cross in the Century and Millennium chart), every Pallas-Moira Conjunction, like this one, is an Opportunity to extend our Unconditional Love further.  Which is, after all, another prerequisite to Enlightenment.  And you know that the Timing is Right.

  • Dwarf planet Chaos represents the Unlimited-Potential characteristic of the 5D Universe when compared to 3D.  Just another indication that the Timing is Right to Exceed what we Believe we “Deserve” to Receive.  Deserving and Receiving are connected only in Abusive, Manipulative, Power-Over Relationships.  If you tend to connect them, the Time is Right to Allow yourself to Receive without Limit, because it is your birthright.  It’s best to begin PIAVAing smaller things, so you Learn to Trust your Ability and Willingness to Receive.  That Allows you to work up to Everything-You-Want.

No, we aren’t implying that Wanting is Sacred.  In fact, Wanting is a form of Scarcity.  Abundance (Having Enough to Share) is more conducive to forward progress.  But Wanting is natural, and if we can keep our Wanting within the range of the Doable, we can Want-Receive, Want-Receive, Want-Receive, and so on, till we’ve Learned to Trust the process.  Once we “graduate,” Receiving will be Instantaneous and not mediated by the Ego.  In the interim, we PIAVA as our practice at breaking the chains of the Ego’s beloved but Limited Plan-Act-Effort strategy.

  • Ceres.  Ceres means Sustainability.  Here, it just means that it’s Time to make this Change Permanent.  Not that you won’t have occasional or even frequent reversions to 3D, some by Choice.  But basically, once you use this Timing to Step Over the 5D Threshold, you won’t be going back except to visit.  The astrology Changes daily, even hourly, so this Portal is only Open for a few minutes, right?  Wrong.  All Beings Learn, and Hupers as well as any.  Every astrological Moment is an Opportunity to take that Moment’s Vibration into your Body and make the Energy Permanently yours.  All you need to do is Choose it.

Many of us hesitate to jump directly to 5D because we Fear we’ll leave behind What-We-Love.  Actually, indulging that Fear as an Anxiety, rather than Tapping it Out, is more likely to result in you getting left behind while What-You-Love makes the jump!

  • Which brings us to Makemake-Eurydike.  Eurydike means Trust.  Trust that you can Choose to make this Energy yours Permanently.  And of course Makemake means like it sounds – Make Make, Manifest Manifest.  Manifest What-You-Want.  Energy follows Attention, so be watchful that you catch yourself when focusing on What-You-Don’t-Want, as soon as you can.  It’s so tempting, it takes eternal vigilance.  When you catch yourself, Tap it Out.  Tapping is ideal for Negative Thought Patterns, because the whole idea is to Acknowledge that the Negative is embedded in your Energy System, then by Tapping, Rebalance your Meridians.  “Even though I tend to Attend to What-I-Don’t-Want, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”

The Makemake-Eurydike Initiation occurs 15 November, 5am PST, at 5 Libra, “A teacher revealing to his or her students the foundation of an inner knowledge upon which a ‘New World’ could be built.”  Pretty Big, eh?  It’s a 5-year Cycle, about Trusting that Receiving is not about Deserving, but about Allowing.  We make our bed first, by Clearing our Limiting Beliefs and Toxic Habits, Inviting our Intuition to Guide us to the Right Timing, and working with our PIAVAs. Then we can Relax and Enjoy sleeping in it.

  • And finally, the Star Agena.  It’s a major star in the Centaurus Constellation, which is all about Chiron’s Sacrifice.  In other words it’s the Symbol for Poor-Sweethearting, because that’s the sort of Self-Empathy which Heals “unhealable” wounds like Chiron garnered, thanks to the consequences of Herakles’s theft of Pholus’s wine.  Or, from the Patriarchal Perspective, Pholus’s failure to be Fully Able to Respond.  As one of the agents of the Patriarchy tasked to destroy the Matriarchy, though, Blame falls on Herakles.  If you still do Blame.  Blame is, you know, incompatible with the Unconditional Love we need if we want to make What-We-Want Permanent and Instantaneous.

The Yin-Feminine Matriarchy had its day and was ready to retire, though of course as is the Ego’s wont – even the Collective Ego’s, it couldn’t Acknowledge its own End.  So the Yang-Masculine Patriarchy had to hunt it down and behead it, so it could have a turn.  Just as our Birthing of the Yang-Feminine Dotterarchy requires that we hunt down the last vestiges of the Patriarchy and geld it. 

We agree with Genia Pauli Haddon that the Dotterarchy is characterized by, among other things – such as what from the Perspective of 3D looks like Magic; Power-With rather than Power-Over; Yintegrity rather than Yangtegrity; Self-Sovereignty rather than Codependence; Cooperation rather than Competition, and Balance between the Rights and Power of Individuals and the Rights and Power of Groups.  The Timing is Right.  Celebration of Diversity is a natural consequence of Unconditional Love.

None of these players are speedsters, so the Grand Septile will be with us for a while.  The quickest member is Pallas, and it will stay within three-Degree Sensitivity of its current position for another 12 days.

The 11:11 Juno-Pluto chart also includes a second Configuration in addition to the Grand Septile.  It’s drawn in light lines on the picture.  Juno-Pluto is the Focus of a Finger of God from Asbolus (Intuition) and the North Node (Life Mission), making Asbolus a Trine Bridge across the Nodes.  All that means that our two greatest Gifts here, apart from Timing, are our Intuitive Appreciation for the Hidden Skills that lie beneath our Karma (South Node), and our Attention to Anything and Everything that intrudes upon our Consciousness.

Maria Bethencourt has shared a great summary of this part of our Transition…

For instance, “Remember before your awakening how you would pray to your guardian angels at night?…WE are the Guardian Angels Of All life here now, for in 5d that is how we walk in service.  For The Highest Good Of ALL in Love.  Doesnt matter what level of consciousness, what dimension… doesn’t matter what chakra system, where, when, how…  The SOUL Of this Earth has Chosen to Offer this experience of Heaven On Earth without interference to All living beings on this planet.  You didn’t “think” prayers never get heard and answered?  We are Love, for Love is ALL THERE Is.  That is why IT Transcends the illusion of Space and Time, Consciousness and everything else…whatever that might be.”

It’s long, but I recommend a quick read of her whole article, as she catalogs many of the aches and pains and strange Sensations that we’re experiencing from what she calls the “Frequency Light Upgrades” or “FLU.”