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Original Blessing 5

July 7, 2020

One of the Emotions that Guilt (asteroid Nemesis [Ego Death]) produces is the Feeling of “waiting for the other shoe to drop.”  The Challenge (T-Square) to our Guilt in the 9 July 2020 Rebirth (dwarf planet Haumea Stationary) chart derives from two incredibly complicated clusters of planets, each cluster wrapped around one End of our Hero’s Journey (the Moon’s Nodes), our Journey from Karma (South Node) to Mission (North Node).

If we look at a Lightworker’s Lifetime from the Soul’s Perspective, before Birth, Soul/we Chooses a “Project” to work on, some element that Mother Earth wants us to Help Her with, which we call our “Mission” in the Lifetime.  Our Mind is two-dimensional, while our Mission is many-dimensional, so in order to move toward Grokking our Mission, we need to use the Heart instead.  We cannot Achieve this Mission without unlocking Skills that we Learned in other Lifetimes, but which are Hidden to us in the Current Lifetime.  That’s the Hero’s Journey, locating and unlocking those Skills, which are Hidden behind our Karma, and putting them to work in service of our Mission.

That’s the Ego over there on the left, peering out from behind a pillar.  Our Needed Skills are represented by the glowing Treasure, and sleeping (Unconscious, or Denied) Smaug symbolizes our Karma.

So let’s start with the cluster of planets (Stellium in astrologuese) that envelope the particular Karma (South Node) that we need to Let Go of for this week’s Shoe-Dropping.  We’ll start by listing them one by one…

    • Our Hidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion).
    • Headquarters (the Galactic Center).
    • Self-Sovereignty (asteroid Lilith).

Our Hidden Genius (Ixion) is Hidden for a reason – because it was Forbidden to us by our Childhood Programmers.  Pre-Birth Soul/We Chose and Programmed these Helpers so they would Shame or otherwise Prohibit us from developing our Greatest Natural Skill, because there’s no better way to make sure that an Ego won’t Forget something, then to train the Ego to Believe that it’s Verboten!

It’s awful to imply a Hierarchy, because that’s how the Patriarchy does things.  It might sound misogynistic to suggest that a Black Whole would be Feminine, but that’s what’s at Headquarters (Galactic Center).  And a Whole is definitely more Feminine than Masculine.  So let’s postulate that Headquarters is where our Grandmothers hang out.  They have a lot of good Advice for us, especially about the Timing of things.

We don’t get to Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) by following anyone else’s Rules.  We have to Follow our Heart.  So the Skills we need to Recover here appear to be about our Forbidden Genius.  What is it that we Obsess about, but which we Forbid ourself from Doing or Being?  No one Changed the World by following their Culture’s Social Norms.  Real Change is about Changing the Rules.  Who are you to Change the World?  If you don’t who will?  What is it that Holds you Back?  You don’t have to do it all at once.  Little Steps are fine.  They add up.

The cluster that surrounds our Mission (North Node) is even bigger…

    • Our Intuition (dwarf planet Asbolus).
    • Trust (asteroid Eurydike).
    • Our Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos).
    • Ending TimeLines (asteroid Atropos).

Basically, it’s about Consciously Choosing to End any TimeLines (Habits) that stand in the way of Trusting our Intuition enough to Allow it to Guide us beyond our Limitations and take us to our Dreams.  The more Outrageous your Daydreams the better, but it’s your Unconscious and Semi-Conscious Limitations that keep them as Dreams rather than Actualities.  Your Daydreams may Feel Selfish, but that’s just another Excuse.  When you’re Living your Mission it will Feel so Good that you’ll have a hard time Believing that you’re Serving Life and not just Enjoying yourself.  But in 5D, Selfish and Altruistic are the same word.

Heavy Fortnight 2

June 2, 2020

Hard to keep track of everything!  Kelley Hunter points out that the 5 June 2020 Full Moon (12:12 pm PDT) is an Eclipse.  Barely, but still an Eclipse.  Eclipses mean Enlightenment, and thus a continuation of our recent Consciousness Expansion Adventures.  Consciousness Grows not through Discovery, but through Differentiation.  We suddenly See things we didn’t See (or Feel, or Hear, or Intuit, etc), but they were there all along.  One of the best ways to do this is to suddenly Remove what we’re used to Taking for Granted.  That’s what Eclipses do, and that’s why we interpret them as Enlightenment.

As is her wont, Kelley provides a bunch of great information about it, so I don’t have to…

https://www.mynewsletterbuilder.com/email/newsletter/1414536394

She refers to it as a Venusian Eclipse, and I didn’t even put Venus on our Full Moon chart (previous post)!  It turns out that it’s a few arcminutes outside of our usual 3-Degree Sensitivity span, but that’s not why I left it out – being that close, I would have included it.  I didn’t notice it because I usually ignore Venus and Mercury, because most astrologers give them a lot of Attention – again, so I don’t have to!

We’re familiar with Processes and Events that happen all the time, and Venus and Mercury astroevents do just that.  We put most of our Attention in this blog on things that happen less often, things we’re less familiar with, which we Believe are the places where we most need additional Perspective.  It was SpaceWeather.com that first brought my Attention to Venus, pointing out that it was so close to the Sun that its dark side was facing us…

It took me a bit to figure out that picture – Venus is far too small, from where we sit, to block out the Sun!  Turns out the bright ring is Sunlight Illuminating Venus’s thin atmosphere not from behind but from nearby, and it was a very difficult photo to take because the Sun was so close.

Venus turned Retrograde on 13 May (in 22 Gemini) and actually crosses the Sun on 3 June (around noon PDT).  It goes Direct again on 25 June (in 6 Gemini), which means that we’ve been Evaluating the Flexibility (Gemini) of our Values (Venus) and our Egos and our Relationships (the Leo through Pisces Duads of Gemini) since early April, and we won’t be done with that till the end of July (the “Shadow Period” spans 10 April to 29 July).  Another angle on what we’ve said in the previous post (Nemesis, Orcus, Nessus, Atropos-Karma).  The Corollavirus has been doing this pretty well for us – or “to” us if it’s put us in Victim.  That suggests that the virus is far from “finished” with us.

Brenda Hoffman nails all this pretty well in her Channeling for today…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2020/06/01/youre-starting-to-relax/

“You are shifting so rapidly that what was is no more.  Of course, you are concerned about the riots, the virus, and your seemingly never-ending life changes.

“But all in all, you feel as if you have a handle on your life.  Something you have not felt for some time.  For you can commiserate with those enmeshed in the pain of all that is happening, but you are likely observing not participating.  Even though you understand what is happening, you choose not to experience it.

“So it is you are starting to relax.  Not in the sense of negating your surroundings or needs, but instead feeling that others can protest, worry, or test themselves.  You are not interested.  For you are at a different place.

“You know who you are or are beginning to be.  Your new entity is no longer fully part of the 3D world.

“The 3D world seems to be dramatically emphasized now – as if all the pain and suffering is before your eyes.  Areas of suffering you have ignored or tried to ignore.  At the same time, you realize that such pain and suffering is no longer your job, your business.

“You forerunners are the ones with clear heads and concise ideas.  Not necessarily to save the world, but instead to live your life in comfort.

“How can you live your life in comfort when so many are suffering?  Such is so because you are no longer participating in the pain of others.

“Of course, such a stance seems to be wrong.  For are you not your brother’s keeper?  In 3D, you most definitely were your brother’s keeper for clearing the pain of others was instrumental in your caretaking duties.

“Those fully enmeshed in pain and suffering want you to join them.  Not because you can save them, but instead, so everyone is suffering.

“That last statement is difficult for many of you to understand.  But then, remember your past suffering and need to have others understand you via similar feelings.  And if they did not respond in kind, you searched for someone who could or would nurture you through the pain.

“Such is what is happening now.  Those fully enmeshed in pain and fear want you to feel the same.

“Instead, you are pulling away for you no longer play by those 3D rules, nor do you have a need to suffer.  You have cleared that path.  As the week goes on, you will experience more of the observer role – a new piece for you.  Yes, it is happening, but it is not your problem.”

Heavy Fortnight 1

June 1, 2020

Marilyn Raffaele’s Channeling of the Arcturians for today is a fabulous summary of our recent Expansion of Consciousness Adventure…

https://onenessofall.com/newest.html

 

“To help children feel that they aren’t alone with their feelings,” my friend Kalli Dakos, an acclaimed children’s book author (see https://www.amazon.com/s?k=kalli+dakos&ref=nb_sb_noss_1 and http://www.kallidakos.com/), educational consultant, and thoroughly delightful person, offers as her generous Gift to the World these wonderful poems for children about COVID-19.  I sobbed all the way through them.  Please share them with parents and teachers, and anyone who works with children, that you know

http://www.kallidakos.com/covid19.html

 

Heavy two weeks coming, on many counts.  It’s 5-12 June 2020 that’s likely to be Heaviest, but the more Sensitive among us will already be Feeling it Beginning.  Here’s a skeleton outline of our June Gauntlets…

  • 5 June (12:12 pm PDT) – Heavy Full Moon (many reasons; in 16 Sagittarius).
  • 6 June (11:15 am PDT) to 8 June (8:15 am PDT) – Probable Excess Emotionality (Moon Out of Bounds in 30 Sagittarius-25 Capricorn).
  • Until 10 June (11:15 am PDT) – Probable Excess Polarization (asteroid Aletheia [Truth of the Heart] Stationary in 15 Aquarius).
  • Until 12 June (6:30 am PDT) – Abuse and Privilege are Prominent (dwarf planet Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] Stationary in 14 Pisces).
  • Until 15 June (2:50 am PDT) – Opportunity to Let Go of Karma (asteroid Moira [Fate and Choice] Stationary in 8 Scorpio).  Two weeks after the big demonstrations.
  • Until 18 June (11am PDT) – We Get What We Ask For, literally, with the Unconscious Asking as well (dwarf planet Makemake [Manifestation] Stationary in 5 Libra).
  • Until 19 June – Invitation to Liberate our Hidden Genius (South Node [Karma] crosses dwarf planet Ixion [Forbidden Genius]).
  • 20 June (9:30 pm PDT) to 22 June (8pm PDT) – Probable Excess Emotionality (Moon Out of Bounds in 30 Gemini to 25 Cancer).
  • 20 June (10:45 pm PDT) – Self-Love New Moon in 1 Cancer.
  • Until 22 June (9:30 pm PDT) – Confusion (Neptune [Material Confusion, Spiritual Clarity] Stationary in 21 Pisces).
  • Until 29 June (11pm PDT) – Regression to 5 April (Jupiter Conjunct Pluto [Expansion Required] in 25 Capricorn).

Those many reasons for the Heaviness of the 5 June Full Moon?

#1. The Full Moon in 16 Sagittarius Channels (sits in front of) a Cosmically Immense Weight (a place we can’t see, because it’s behind the Milky Way, that has such Immense Gravity that it’s sucking everything toward it; it’s called the Great Attractor, in 15 Sagittarius).

#2. Our Essence (the Full-Moon Sun in 16 Gemini) is sandwiched between the symbol for Ending Timelines (asteroid Atropos) and the symbol for our Held Emotions (asteroid Karma), those we’d rather Die than Feel.  That is, We would rather Die than Feel – Facing these Emotions requires an Ego Death.

#3. The Full Moon is Challenged (T-Squared) by Abuse and our Angry Memories thereof, and by our Guilt about our Privilege (Stationary dwarf planet Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] Conjunct Mars [Anger] in 14-16 Pisces).

However, the Abuse and Anger are Merged with the symbol for Sustainability (dwarf planet Ceres).  How would we make Anger and Abuse Sustainable?  We’d use PIAVAs and Healthy Anger – ie, Good Boundaries – to Recognize and Revert Abuse without Creating unnecessary Limitations for ourself and without Alienating non-Abusers.  Subtle and Sophisticated, but this Combination gives us the Opportunity to Practice Finessing such a thing.

It can also be an Opportunity for us to Practice Actions (Mars) that Sustain (Ceres) our Willingness to Receive Abundance without painting it with Privilege (Nessus) and Guilt (Mars).  To work on Letting Go of having to Deserve Abundance, and Recognizing it as our Birthright.

#4. The Full Moon is also Challenged (T-Squared) by Guilt (asteroid Nemesis) and Karmic Limitations (dwarf planet Orcus [Oath-Making and -Breaking])Karma is formed by making an Oath or Vow or Promise or Decision, working hard to toe the line, forgetting we made the Oath, and coming to Believe that toeing this line is not just a Decision, but the Right Thing to Do or even the Only Thing to Do (Orcus)A formal Oath adds Social Pressure.  This puts us into Either/Or Dualistic Morality, which excludes not just the Other Side of the Duality, but the Other Dimensions as well – Unconscious Limitations in other words.

We interpret this Energy (Nemesis) as the Painful Experience of Ego Death, or the Need for Ego Death because it’s our Olde Ego that stands between us and our PIAVAed Goals.  The Ego’s justification, Consciously or Unconsciously, for Avoiding a worthwhile Ego Death, is often Loyalty to a long-forgotten Oath (Orcus).  In other words, this is an Opportunity to Practice Liberation via Oath-Breaking.

That however, will bring the wrath of both Nemesis (Mystic Punisher of Wrong-Doers) and Orcus (Mythic Punisher of Oath-Breakers) upon us – which we will then have to Recognize as Ego Death, and Endure it while Focusing on the Unknown Freedom that lies on the Far Side of it.

But there’s Good News – this Heavy Issue #4 is Self-Resolving (a Diamond Star Configuration), so any Work we do on it is Extra Credit, and we may not have to do any Work at all.

Many of you have already figured out that we’ve described a Grand Cross, with is usually about many smallish Hassles that end up Complementing one another while we end up very busy keepin’ on keepin’ on, and practicing our multi-tasking.

But it’s still a very heavy chart for very heavy times.  The 5 June Full Moon, the 10 June Aletheia Station, and 12 June Nessus Station are all on the same chart (ie, their impacts may not be easily Separable from one another) because they all happen in the same week in nearly the same Degrees, 14-16 Degrees of their respective Signs.  As the beginning of a Lunar Phase we’d expect the Full Moon to impact at least the following two weeks; as an asteroid Station we’d expect the Aletheia Station to impact the preceding several days; as a dwarf-planet Station we’d expect the Nessus Station to impact at least the preceding week, and Overlap usually means Merging…

The Most Important Thing 4

May 21, 2020

 

In the land of the Deaf, the One-Eared is King.

 

For the 22 May 2020 (9:30 am PDT) New Moon in 3 Gemini, which applies to the next several weeks, we’re back to the 10 May Priorities Energy (Saturn Station) that we described in The Most Important Thing 2 post (the chart with the one-eared Flying Squirrel).

That was a week and a half ago, so some of the Players have Changed.  For instance, at that time Self-Love (asteroid Sappho) was the major Challenge (T-Square).  For the New Moon, the major Challenge is Manifestation (dwarf planet Makemake).  While the Object of the Challenge has changed, the Source (base of the T-Square) has not.  It’s our Life Path (Nodal Axis).

Yes, we absolutely believe in Destiny.  If you insist on remaining Unconscious.  The more Conscious we become, the more we replace Fate with Choice.  We each have a Life Mission (North Node), but it’s waaay more Multidimensional than our Dualistic Mind can grasp.  It doesn’t hurt to try, as long as you add “…or something like that” to every attempt.  In order to move toward our Life Mission, we need tools that we can only get by facing down our Held Emotions (South Node), the ones that We’d rather Die than Feel.

Oops, we put the accent on the wrong syl-ob‘ble (syllable).  It’s We’d rather Die than Feel – we don’t do Held Emotions without an Ego Death.  Ego Death is of course the second stage of Growth in Consciousness.  The first stage is Confusion, though there’s a lot of interbreeding between Ego Death and Confusion.  After the pregnancy, we Birth a new, more Conscious Ego, if we’re willing to do the Work.

Doing the Work has two parts.  The first is being willing to Tolerate our Confusion without Killing It – Killing Confusion means Trying to Figure Out (thinking) Why (again, thinking) we’re Confused so we can make it Go Away.  Confusion is an Emotion in its own right, and one of the more Powerful, if subtle, Emotions we have.  The Patriarchy gets its toxic aversion to Change by banning Confusion from polite company.   It’s not macho.

The second part of the Work is being willing to Sit Through our Ego Death without Running Away from it.  Sitting through Ego Death means Opening to whatever Emotions arise (not macho) and being Loving and Gentle (again, not macho) with them .

Yes, there will be Stories, but they aren’t necessary.  We can briefly Appreciate them, but we want to dismiss them quickly, so we can Pay as much Attention as possible to the Emotion.  The Stories are more thinking, and like Chocolate-covered quicksand, they’re totally Compelling, and difficult to escape from.  Addictive even.  How many people do you know who are Addicted to their Victim Stories?

What Victim Stories are You Addicted to?  They might make good material for you to practice on, Separating Emotion from Thinking, and using Sensation as a Guide to keep you Feeling and not Thinking.

There’s a good reason why the word Feeling applies both to Sensation and Emotion.

A good way to Open to an Emotion is to Locate it, or any Discomfort, in our Body, and put All of our Attention on that spot, while we watch what’s happening for us Emotionally.  Put your hand on that spot to warm it – Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  If you can’t find the Emotion in your Body, or there are many Discomforts, just pick the most likely spot, while trying not to think about it.  You want to Feel it, not Think it.

Emotions don’t have grammatical Objects.  You’re never Angry At [xyz], you’re just Angry.  You’re never Sad About [abc], you’re just Sad.  The grammatical Objects we love to add to Feelings are thinking, not Feeling.  Putting an Object on an Emotion freezes you in Time, and Emotions are Timeless, especially Held or Karmic Emotions.  And if an Emotion is difficult for you to Tolerate, and difficult to Let Go Of, you can bet it’s Karmic.

When an Emotion is Karmic, its roots are not in the Current Lifetime, so dwelling on some Current-Lifetime Chagrin will never touch it.  And a Karmic Emotion will be cemented in by a zillion iterations, so if you have a Story about it from a different Lifetime, dwelling on that Story is just more Karmic masturbation.  It won’t Impregnate you with a new Ego that sports Expanded Consciousness.  Just more Thinking when you need Feeling.

When our Attention Wanders, as it will, frequently, we just Lovingly and Gently bring our Attention back to where there’s Discomfort in our Body.  No Judgment.  It Is What It Is.  When the Discomfort Moves, we’ve succeeded.  We can Follow it, if we still have Attention to spare, or we can Change the Subject, wait a while, and see that happens.

From https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2012/11/05/curiosity-and-the-void-ii/

PIAVA, in case you’ve forgotten or tuned in recently, stands for Pray-Intend-Ask-Visualize-Affirm.  Each is basically similar, but some work better for some of the people some of the time…  The Magnetic Feminine manifestation process runs PIAVA, Change the Subject, Pay Attention.  You have to Change the Subject (or as the Buddhists put it, Lose Your Mind) because if you keep thinking about it, your Old Birdcage will constrain your Reality to be the way it’s always been.  And you have to Pay Attention because whenever you PIAVA anything, the first thing that the Universe provides is information about why you haven’t had what you’re asking for all along.”

As it was in our Priorities Energy, our Karma in the New Moon Energy is all about Recovering our Hidden and Forbidden Genius (South Node [Held Emotions] Conjunct dwarf planet Ixion [our Unique Genius]…) so we can “fix” Climate Change (…and dwarf planets Pholus [Are we Missing anything?] and Quaoar [Survival]).  This is a Unique Opportunity that occurs only every nineteen or so years, when our Hidden and Forbidden Genius and our Held Emotions Converge (South Node Conjunct Ixion).

We’re all troubled by Serious Problems that are much bigger than our usual Span of Control, be they Climate Change, outacontrolavirus, bumpstocks, coyotes, politics, clearcutting, Roundup, in-laws, oligarchies, taxes, overpopulation, locusts, food insecurity, pigshit lagoons, coal ash, people running around nude under their clothes, undsoweiter ecosìvia adinfinitum.

The fact that our Forbidden Genius is Verboten is almost certainly Karmic.  If you’ve ever had a Fantasy about having Superpowers and Fixing some Problem much larger than your usual Span of Control, or even publicly Expressing your Frustration about the Problem, you’re Touching your Forbidden Genius.

The World Mirrors our Inner Balance, so we all have our own Inner Climate Change process happening – we’re all Denying chronic Problems that we Believe are beyond our Span of Control because they’re hiding behind our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs.  We Deny them because it’s a healthy way to deal with Issues that would just overwhelm our current Ego.  And there’s a strong correlation between our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs and our Held Emotions.

To touch the Edges of your Held Emotions, Focus on What You Feel when you contemplate your Obsession with the Global or Personal Problems that seem to be beyond your Power to Change.

To touch the Edges of your Forbidden Genius, Focus on What You Feel when you have that Superpower Fantasy.

Then Change the Subject, and tune in tomorrow to see if anything Feels different.  Then rinse and repeat.

More to follow…

The Most Important Thing

May 9, 2020

If you can find and watch 24:30 through 35:00 of this video, you’ll be very Clear about The Most Important Thing…

If you don’t plan to spend much Future Time on this Planet, in your current Lifetime or others, then no worries.  If Life-Threatening Challenges are your Cuppa Tea, then no worries.  Otherwise, This is Big.  Compared to This, everything else is as Important as making mudpies.  So we highly recommend that you quit wasting Emotional and Physical Energy and Time fretting about the mudpies, and Commit yourself fully to The Most Important Thing.

Don’t worry about the details, just PIAVA to Lovingly and Gently come to Grok your Perfect Unique Role, in your own Time.  When you do find your Perfect Unique Role, it’ll be Great Fun, and not at all the Difficulty – or Impossibility – that you now imagine it to be.  It’s really true that If you aren’t part of the Solution you’re part of the Problem, so please, No Longer Lend Your Strength to That Which You Wish to Be Free From.

Of course your own The Most Important Thing must Arise from your own Heart, but we do need to warn that we’ll be Obsessing about our own personal The Most Important Thing till at least 9pm PDT on 10 May 2020 (when Saturn [The Most Important Thing] Stands Still in the Sky [Impacts us Strongly] at 2 Aquarius).  Oh, our Values will also be up for review till at least 11:45 pm 12 May (when Venus [Values] Stands Still in the Sky at 21 Gemini).  So lots of Self-Review.  Of course The Most Important Way to Approach The Most Important Thing is to monitor yourself to Avoid dwelling on WhatYouDon’tWant, so you can keep your Focus – which is what Creates your Future – on WhatYouDoWant.

Which, with everything (us included) Changing rapidly, means we can Expect to Experience Confusion fairly often.  Confusion isn’t my Favorite Emotion.  Which is why I’m working hard on Turning That Around, so Confusion becomes my Favorite Emotion.  Well, maybe my second-Favorite, after Ecstasy.  At any rate, Confusion is the first sign of Growth in Consciousness.  So it’s Precious.  Our Concept Set forms the skeleton for our Ego and rationalizes our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (such as “Nothing I can do about that!“).  Positive Change is Available only when our Concept Set wavers and quivers – which means we Feel Confused.

 

Tweety is our Ego, the Cage is our Concept Set, and Sylvester is everything that’s Eliminated from our Life by our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  Notice how Tweety looks kind of Confused by what’s happening.

 

However, Growth in Consciousness only occurs when we don’t try to outsmart our Confusion.  (Tweety relies on her Instinctual Wisdom of Experience, not Mentality).  When we try to Figure Out what’s Confusing us and make it Go Away, we Lose our Opportunity for Growth.  Figuring It Out just regrouts the bricks in the walls of our Concept Set.  This is especially important here while the symbol for our Ego is still Merged with the symbol for our Confidence (Stationary Saturn [Ego] Conjunct dwarf planet Chariklo [Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt], which runs from December 2019 till January 2021).  I mean, what’s more Important to the Ego than Confidence?

We know Intuitively that nothing makes a Huper more Attractive to Other Hupers than Self-Confidence.  It makes Life so much easier when Others find us Attractive and want to curry our favor.  Confidence is far more Compelling than Competence – that’s how the Antichrist Bullied his way into Fame and Glory.  Self-Doubt is one of the biggest impediments to Abundance.  Unfortunately, many of us are Addicted to Self-Doubt.  We get there by failing to Embrace Ego Death.

The Antichrist gives us a Master Teaching at Avoiding Self-Doubt.  He just Reframes History, Effortlessly and Immediately.  We may not want to do it his way, but the Lesson is Valuable because it brings the Issue into the Light of Day.  The Issue is, Do we Create our own Reality or Not?  He’s obviously a Master at Creating a Surreality that fits him to a T.  History books are full of Masters at Creating their own Surrealities.  The Antichrist Demonstrates the process – just Create your own Surreality, and whenever it conflicts with Reality, quickly Adjust it.  His Goal is Adulation.  We could emulate his techniques for other Goals, such as Abundance (Having Enough to Share), a Livable Environment, a Collaborate Culture, Immunity to 5G and Granolaviruses, Ascension, or WhateverWeWant.

Doubt and Confusion are kissing cousins.  When we Fake our way out of Doubt we often get caught.  If we aren’t famous enough, that matters.  When we try to Fake our way out of Confusion by Figuring It Out, we also Create more Trouble for ourself.  Like any other Emotion, in order to Release it we need to Accept and Embrace it Exactly as it Is.  When we do that, we dispel it – we literally break the Spell that it has cast on us.

We get Unstuck by training ourself to Notice when we’re Feeling Confused, and then Consciously Celebrate it.  Getting Beyond our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs is necessary if we are pursuing Abundance, Ascension, Enlightenment, or virtually any other major Change in our Karma(Our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs, by the way, are symbolized by asteroid Vesta, and Vesta Conjoins Stationary Venus as we speak.  We talked about that a little in Values and Beliefs Full Moon.)  We should write about the Venus-Vesta Cycle, because…

The Dance between our Values, Beliefs, Desires, Emotions, and Thoughts – including what and how we Think about our Emotions – are very Important to our progress toward WhatWeWant.  Most of us are very Confused, without Realizing it, about the Difference between Our Emotions and Our Thoughts About Our Emotions.  Emotions happen in our Body.  The minute we move into our Head and begin Thinking About our Emotions, we’ve totally Abandoned both our Emotions and our Selves.  Yet we need to Align our Passion and our Thoughts in order to Manifest Cleanly.

Does any place in your Body hurt or Feel Uncomfortable right now?  Are you Able to Lovingly and Gently put your Total Attention into that place, and watch how it Changes?  How long can you do that without Thinking About how it Feels?  It’s fine to Think About how long we’re Holding our Attention there, as long as we’re Experiencing how it Feels, and not Labeling or Comparing (as Marshall Rosenberg liked to say, “Feels Like” expresses a Thought, not an Emotion) it, or Leaving the Present Moment.

Holding your Total and Unconditionally Loving and Gentle Attention on any Discomfort in your Body is one of the most Healing things you can do for it.  When you Notice that your Attention has Wandered, just quietly Bring It Back, without Judgment.  Notice if your Body has Created any Hardening around the Discomfort, as we often do in an effort to Separate Pain from our Identity.  If there is, Consciously Soften it.  That’ll Open the blood flow around the space, and accelerate the Body’s natural Healing.  That’s what Bodies do for a Living, if we let them.

Try doing the same with a Difficult Emotion.  Locate it in your Body, and give it Total Unconditionally Loving and Gentle Attention.  If you can do that without Labeling or Comparing it, or Leaving the Present Moment, you’ll find that the Discomfort dissolves the way it does when you Poor-Sweetheart yourself.  It’s quite Miraculous if you aren’t used to doing it.  When we Leave the Present Moment – “OMG, this reminds me of…” or “What will happen if…” – we’re Thinking About the Emotion, not Feeling it, Experiencing it, or Giving it our Attention.  We’re Abandoning the Emotion and our Self.

Not that it isn’t useful to Anal-yze how any Discomfort fits into your TimeLines.  For instance, Realizing that an Unpleasant Feeling is another Mirror for a Childhood Trauma, can in a few seconds help to Heal both the Discomfort and the PTSD.  And Realizing that some Discomfort that’s Arising is a clue about why we aren’t instantly Manifesting something we just PIAVAed, can in a few seconds help to melt our Resistance to that Manifestation.

Remember that if we aren’t ready to Manifest something that we’ve PIAVAed, the first thing the Universe will do is give us an Illustration of why we aren’t ready.

But we need to Learn to instantly Recognize the Difference between our Emotions and our Thoughts About them.  A Healthy Emotion Arises and then Dissipates, Informing us about something Important in the process.  If there’s no Dissipation, it’s because we’ve shifted from Feeling it to Thinking About it.  That can Freeze Emotions for years, Creating and Deepening Karma in the process.  When we get stuck on an Emotion it’s almost always already Karmic, and every time we Think About it instead of Feeling it, we cement the Karma in place more firmly.

Karmic Emotions are Held Emotions, the ones We’d rather Die than Feel.  So it’s a natural, Healthy Reaction to find any way we can to Avoid that, including shifting transparently from Feeling to Thinking.  If you’ve been reading this blog long, you know that “We’d rather Die than Feel that” is a misrepresentation.  It’s what we Experience, but it’s an Illusion.  It’s really “We’d rather Die than Feel that” – yes, We, our Ego, our current Identity, has to Die in order for us to Feel that.  That’s how Karma works.  The Ego’s job is to keep us Alive and Well, so this works well.

Except when we Want to Change or Manifest something that’s not already in our Karma, and then we need to Tolerate or even Court Ego Death in order to get beyond our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs.  In fact, Ego Death becomes The Most Important Thing.  It doesn’t even matter if the Planet has been Destroyed, because we in fact Create our own Reality, as a Mirror for our Internal Self-Love processes, so we’ll just Re-Create it in our Image.

We’ll talk more about these things, and how Confusion and Curiosity (the Quincunx and Finger of the Goddess) relate to one another, when we look at tomorrow’s Saturn Station chart in detail.

Under the Blanket 2

April 26, 2020

Like the Zodiac, Signs are divided into twelve sections.  These are called “Duads,” each 2½ Degrees wide.  The first Duad of Capricorn is the “Capricorn Duad of Capricorn,” the second the “Aquarius Duad of Capricorn,” etc.  By “coincidence,” the current span of Pluto’s Retrogradation is within an arcminute or two of spanning Exactly one 2½-Degree “Duad” – the ninth Duad of Capricorn, 22½ to 25 Degrees, is the Virgo Duad.

Virgo is the Sign of Ego Death.  Leo is the epitome of the Individual Ego, Libra is all about Meeting Other, and Virgo spans the Gap between them.  You could even think of Virgo as the Sign of the Necessity for the Realization that We Are All One, the Sign where we Recognize what Stephanie was talking about the other day – that “The coronavirus is a reflection of a deeper and even more deadly disorder, the illusion of Separation.”

As we all know by now, the first sign of Growth in Consciousness is Confusion.  If anything is Confusing, it’s Meeting Other.  “Other” of course is Not Me, so it begins with a big strike against it.  Just consider the Landings, when Aliens from Out There come to visit – how many movies are there about that?  How often do they end well?  How do you keep Fear from trying to Destroy Them before They Destroy you?

But what if they Pretend to be Friendly?  Will we ever lose our Mistrust?  If they do Nice Things for us, will we Want More?  Of course we will!  What if they want Nice Things from us?  Will we even Realize that, if we don’t even know what Other is?  Boundaries!  That’s really Confusing!  Just dealing with someone from a different family is a constant Challenge, one that you know well if you’ve ever been married, unless you live in a very rigid Culture and you’re both Bots.

What if they don’t like what we Give them?  If they do like it, will we ever be able to get rid of them when we Want our Space?  Libra, and the Rehearsal in Virgo, make Leo look sooo Easy!

In an Unenlightened Leo, Other exists only as supporting actors for the One and Only Me.  There’s a perfect example in the News every day, and there’s a reason for that.  In an Enlightened Leo, Ego exists only to Serve the Whole.  Compare Jim Morrison with Fred Rogers.  Either way, Leo comes to an end, and after that Peak…

What comes next?  Confusion?  There is no Guidebook, no Mentors, for Virgo.  You’re on your own.  And that Leo Ego has to Break.  It has to Open Up to More, when there is no More.

Virgo can have a Reputation for being Critical.  How else do you Break Open an Ego?  You sure can’t do it with Praise, though it’s the only language that Leo understands.  So how do we even Communicate with ourself once that Bulwark starts to Break?  Virgo is a Wilderness, a Walkabout, a Vision Quest, and it’s not Optional.

Capricorn is Grounded and Practical.  The Anthem we use for Capricorn is Just Fix It.  Capricorn knows how to Fix anything.  Okay, we’re in a Wilderness with no maps.  Where do we find Water?  Is it Safe to drink?  Can we start a Fire?  What will we Eat, where will we Sleep – is it Safe to Sleep here?  Is anyone else here?  Hello??  If only I knew the Rules!

Well, that’s just where we are, isn’t it.

Our Planet is acting like it’s trying to Shake us Off, like we’ve Overstayed our Welcome – and we have, haven’t we.  What host would invite us back if we Trashed their House the way Hupers continue to Trash our Mother’s House?  If we have any Integrity at all, we’d try to “turn over a new Leaf,” wouldn’t we.  We’d do a Searching and Fearless Moral Inventory, and find out what it is exactly that we need to Change if we ever want to be Welcome in Polite Company again.  Where do we Start?  You really don’t Like me?  It’s so Confusing.  I don’t know what to do.

It must be someone else’s fault.  If I work that angle, can I get away with it?  It’s Unconstitutional!  That’s it.  It’s Unconstitutional.  I haven’t figured out Who yet, but they’re trying to take our guns.  Our jobs.  Rape our daughters.  Frying our Brains with Microwaves.  Making evil test-tube viruses.  We’re All Gonna Die!  Oh, yeah, that’s right, it’s Ego Death, isn’t it.

A friend wrote, remembering how the Universe had bounced them around in the past.  We agreed…

“Yes, we use 12-Step processes to break our Addiction to ‘Control’ (mostly the Higher Power thing, though Fearless Inventories never hurt), roll with the punches as best we can, Listen to the ‘Suggestions’ that the Universe is so generously Giving us, and begin moving toward them as best we can instead of continuing to protect our Olde Egoe.”

Pluto is about Compulsion, Transformation, Trance Reformation.  Pluto is anything but Shallow.  Like its Alter Ego Scorpio, no Stone is left unturned.  We were just thinking we had it all figured out (Leo Duad of Capricorn) when the bottom fell out (Pluto entered Virgo Duad of Capricorn in early January 2020) and suddenly We’re All Gonna Die!  And most of us, except David Geffen, are dealing with a shitstorm of assaults on our Ego.  Job Identity disappears, maybe Health Insurance with it, just when we may need it most.  Without the Sears catalog we might have to go back to corncobs and Mullein leaves.  It’s dangerous to shop for groceries!  What kind of Decade is this?  Is this what the Age of Aquarius is supposed to be like?

This is the Dawn of the Digital Age?  Remember that the Preview of the Digital Age was 2000-2020.  We began that with a big economic crash, and we’re doing it again as the 180-year Real Thing begins.  What do we expect, if the Machines do Everything?  That the 99.9% will be able to just Relax and watch?  The Truthteller here was Bernie, but they were too comfortable to Pay Attention.  Without major Changes to the World’s Political Systems, we’re back to Dickens’s 19th Century London, after they Closed the Commons, without any remaining “unoccupied” Lands to emigrate to.

How do we Cope?  We Embrace Ego Death.  It’s “What’s Happening.”

In some cultures relying on the Grace of Other – or the Goddess – is a Sacred pursuit.  Pluto will be Dancing with Ego Death (the Virgo Duad of Capricorn) till February 2021.  The symbol for Ego Death itself (asteroid Nemesis), in the Sign of Ego Death (Virgo, and in the Capricorn Duad of Virgo), is very Strong (Stationary) until at least 30 April.  The symbol for Self-Doubt (dwarf planet Chariklo) is very Strong (Stationary) until at least 2 May (in the Sagittarius Duad of Capricorn [Letting Go]).  Emotions are Strung Out for the next several days (Moon Out of Bounds 11am PDT 27 April through 5:30 am 29 April).  Heavy Times.

Besides Allowing our Identity to Morph, our Soul is available to help (Sun Conjoins Uranus 2am PDT 26 April; Mercury Conjoins Uranus 9pm PDT 30 April).  Many have Channeled the coronavirus’s purpose, and the most comprehensive one I’ve seen is by Jeff Vander Clute.  It begins…

https://jeffvanderclute.com/articles/a-message-from-the-coronavirus/

My friends, it is true that I am here to bring closure to the inharmonious ways of being that are causing harm to humans and the whole web of life.  All the same, I am not a vengeful being or anything that is intended to be destructive.  I am simply the rebalancing agent in the overall equation of life’s evolutionary process.  By fighting me with fear in your hearts, you oppose the larger natural systems and cause me to take other forms.

“What I am, and my fundamental purpose, will not be deterred, for I am life itself acting through the available forms of distribution.  The virus that you see me as is one of an endless series of permutations.  This kind of process is one of the ways I innovate life forms and deliver new DNA sequences that will eventually be shown to be helpful. 

“The back and forth between humanity’s collective immune system and the virus is raising consciousness as humans examine their interactions, and it is literally increasing the intelligence of the superorganism that is the species as a whole.

“These tests are normal.  I repeat: these tests are normal.  For those who can hear this message and embrace me easily, you already know that fear is a much more lethal poison.  For those who will not be comforted by these words, one day you will know that I come as an act of love. 

“When you can open to the love that is at the very heart of this situation, the crisis that your media and governments decry will transform into a flower of life, spreading new consciousness and multiplying circles of cooperation.  Pay attention to your thoughts and see if you can identify the benefits of redirecting humanity’s attention from incessant wars and violence to the common ‘enemy’ that I am willing to be perceived as.

“Love will go this far, and farther, to bring healing to the mind of a young species that is still in the process of remembering itself as a divine incarnation.  Yes, you are a divine incarnation capable of fabricating realities based on goodness and beauty and compassionate understandings, actions, and beliefs. 

“Believe me when I say that I, too, am here as an act of compassion.  Accepting me in this way will lighten your heavy burden, for the divine sends only love your way.  Sometimes this love takes curious forms in order to circumvent your intricate defenses against waking up to your own glory.  I can assure you that the most functional strategy will be to embrace me as a friend of the human family...”

It’s becoming apparent that COVID-19 severity and 5G radiation are closely related.  A Worldwide event of this severity may be required to get Huperity to Recognize that Biology is an Electromagnetic process as well as a Biochemical one.  Or to Recognize that Conscious Entities are not “Resources” that can be Exploited at will for Private Profit, but must be counterparties to Negotiation and Collaboration.  If we as a Species don’t figure these things out, then the Digital Age may rapidly drive Sensitivity and Empathy to Extinction, leaving a Planet of Bots and Borgs.  Even Bionic Bots and Borgs will themselves eventually Die Out, as they’ll be subject to Entropy rather than the Syntropy of Living Organisms.  The many Great Extinctions, like Atlantis, demonstrate that Mother Earth knows how to shake off Unsustainable trends.

The 25 April Pluto Station is Merged with the astrological symbol for Growth and Expansion (Conjunct Jupiter).  This Growth in our Trance Re-Formation is Challenged by (T-Square to) the Need for a Rebirth into Consciousness of What’s been Hidden from us (dwarf planet Haumea [Rebirth] Opposite Mercury [Awareness] and dwarf planet Eris [Revelation of What’s Being Denied])Here’s the chart…

(Pluto is mislabeled as SD; it should be SR.)

Ascension New Moon

April 19, 2020

Wouldn’t ya know we have a barbell distribution, with most of the votes on either end.  I’ve always believed that we should be able to vote NO WAY for something, in which case nothing would get our vote, but a vote would be subtracted from the tally of the thing we voted NO WAY (or “annoying”) on.  If we tally the votes that way, we tentatively end up with hex code CC66FF for our interspersed astrologuese jargon.

Now that we’ve Claimed as much of our Power as we’re ready for (the 18 April Station of Hylonome [Self-Sovereignty]), our next major astroevent is a New Beginning on 22 April 2020 (6:25 pm PDT) that’s all about Ascension (New Moon in 4 Taurus [Matter] Conjunct Uranus [Soul]) with a Big Serving of Unconditional Self-Love (Diamond Square pointing to dwarf planet Makemake [Manifestation] and asteroid Sappho [Self-Love]).

There are lots of additional details worth describing.

For instance, the Big Serving of Unconditional Self-Love might end up dominating the week, since it takes the form of a Challenge that Resolves itself (a Diamond Star, or T-Square and GoddessFinger both focusing on Makemake-Sappho)

https://www.wikihow.com/Hug-Yourself

…and since it at least partially Resolves the Most Meaningful, Rewarding, and Mysterious Processes in our Life (the base of the T-Square is the Nodal Axis [our Lifetime Path]).  The Mission end of this Process is Unadulterated, or Whole (North Node in 3 Cancer, without Conjunctions).  Our Mission is usually just beyond our comprehension, but at least here we may be able to Sense the Whole of it.

The Karma end of the Process is all wrapped up in the big Extended Climate Change Drama (including the Granolavirus) and our Potential Unique Personal Contribution to Regenerating our Species and its Role on the Planet (South Node [our Held Emotions that we’d rather Die than Feel] Conjunct dwarf planets Pholus [Covering All the Bases], Quaoar [our Survival Instincts], and Ixion [our Forbidden Genius]).

As many have averred, the big Extended Climate Change Drama (including the Corollavirus) is actually a Funhouse Mirror Image of the process of Ascension into 5D.  Marilyn Raffaele’s Arcturian friends began their Channeling today with…

https://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

Understand that you are presently engaged in one facet of earth’s ascension process and that something much bigger than disease is taking place.  As you witness chaos keep in mind that these times are bringing change to many universally accepted but false three dimensional concepts...”

And as we and others have often averred, we are Outpicturing – Manifesting – our Future now and in every moment through our Thoughts and FeelingsOur Reality is Created by our Energy.  If we spend our Limited Time and Attention on What We Don’t Want, that’s ultimately what we’re likely to Manifest.

If we instead devote our Limited Time and Attention to What We Want and How We’ll Feel When We Create It, THAT’S what we’re more likely to Manifest.

This is Complicated, largely Unconscious, and Dependent on many Multidimensional factors that we usually don’t consider (Pholus).  But we are Spiritual Creators, and we spend every moment, waking or otherwise, Creating (PIAVAing) our Future.  Creating our Individual Future, yes, but since the Boundaries (asteroid Pallas) between the Egos and Bodies and Minds of our self and our Fellow Travelers (including not just the People but also the Critters and Plants and Crystals) are totally Imaginary, Creating our Collective Future as well.

The Individual and the Collective occupy the same Space and Time.  They are Separate in our Dualistic Mind, but not in Objective Reality.  But both the Individual and the Collective are Infinitely Redefinable.  The Collective is not a big box of Sandwiches, it’s a big Cauldron of Soup.  And a gazillion little bowls.  And the containers are Imaginary.  The Boundaries aren’t even lines on a map.  They’re Ideas in our Minds, flexing constantly.

Every Thought is a Prayer, and All Prayers are Answered.  That’s a preposterous idea, isn’t it, because the result is Unimaginably Multidimensional.  That’s Exactly how Limited our everyday Dualistic Mind is, compared to an Infinite Universe.  If we Want to Manifest Consciously, we need to Upgrade our Thinking.

What if every Decision we ever made Created a New Universe that included that version of ourself, along with Parallel Universes containing versions of ourself that made the Decision Differently.  When we Rue a Decision made long ago, especially one which we made Unconsciously – which we’ve been doing lately, haven’t we (dwarf planet OR10, which we’ll get to later) – we’re Experiencing Bleedthrough from that other Universe.  We don’t have the Bandwidth to comprehend the Multiverse Intellectually.

But we can Grok the Multiverse a little bit Intuitively, and that’s a place to start Expanding our Ideas about Boundaries between “us” and “them” (the New Moon T-Squares the Opposition between Saturn [The Most Important Thing] Conjunct Pallas [Boundaries] and Varuna [the Life Force]; meanwhile the New Moon-Uranus Stellium itself is also Conjoined by asteroid Hopi [Respect for All Things/Beings]).

We’re being Gifted here with Unconditional Self-Love

(Diamond Star to Makemake-Sappho from the Nodal Axis – !!! – think about What That Means !!!  What more could we possibly Ask for?).

It’s not about What We Want for Everyone Else, It’s about What We Want for Me, Myself, and I.  What “they” Want for themselves is not the same as What We Want for Ourself.  The Golden Rule was always Fucked.  In a Win-Win Universe it’s always Do Unto Others as They Want to Be Done Unto.

The Cosmic Jigsaw Puzzle self-assembles into the Perfect Tapestry when Each of Us Outpictures What We Want and of course when Each of Us is also Advanced Enough to Avoid Harming Others, including not Abusing them by Dishonoring their Self-Sovereignty.  Yes, “We” got a ways to go, but the only Person you can Change is You, so our Work is Well-Defined, isn’t it.

The chart for the 22 April Uranus-Hopi-Makemake-Sappho New Moon…

That’s not all, but it’s a whole lot, and we’ll continue in the next post.  How are we doing with Route 66?

Changing Vitality Patterns New Moon

March 24, 2020

We’ve been going on at length this last week about asteroid Moira, named after the Goddess of Fate.  We can rephrase that sentence as three Questions: Are we as individuals Fated to repeat the Experiences of the Great Depression and the Black Death?  Is Western Civilization Fated to Collapse, like all Civilizations that came before it?  Are we as a Planet Facing the inevitable End Times?

Well, in Virtual Reality we’re already doing all those things, aren’t we.  Most of the time Most of us can’t tell the Difference between Present-Moment Hard-Copy Reality, and the Life-Like Holographic Fragments that our Karma constantly feeds us, and this New Moon sets us up for that Big-Time (in the 24 March 1:30 am New Moon chart at 5 Aries, Mercury [Awareness] Merges with dwarf planet OR10 [Intrusive Karmic Memories], and that’s in Pisces [Unfinished Karmic Emotional Business] to boot).

We aren’t referring to the Idiots who spout off about the Coronavirus being fake news – they’re on a whole different Bum Trip.  We’re referring to the rest of us.  I mean, Most of us in Former or Parallel Lives were in one Plague or another, way too many Economic Discouragements, a Civilization Collapse or two, and an End Times.  As Ursula Le Guin says in Buffalo Gals, “Coyote is always Dying.”  Those Experiences were Traumatic, so it’s no wonder we still Remember them vividly.  Until we can watch all of those film classics with complete Detachment, we’ll continue to ReExperience their Toxic Scat.

I don’t know how many noble Trees have been sacrificed to the philosophical struggle between Fate and Free Will, but I can assure you it was a Waste.  Fate and Free Will, which we usually refer to as Fate and Choice, is a Duality, an Either/Or.  Real Life is Both/And, it’s Multifarious and Unitary.  Either/Or is always a property of the Observing Mind, not a property of External Reality.

Any time we get Stuck Believing that a Duality is Real, we’re not only Off the Tracks, but we’ve swallowed the Bait in someone else’s Political Crab-pot and we’re about to be somebody’s dinner.  Political is the adjectival form of Power – we’ve Given our Power Away to someone else (the New Moon Merges with Lilith [Self-Sovereignty and Obeisance] and Chiron [Dead Ends and Miraculous Escapes]).

The Mythological Moira had three Assistant Goddesses.  One of them was Lachesis, who was in charge of measuring How Long your Karma will last.  When we become Conscious, Fate becomes Choice.  So the asteroid Lachesis, through the lens of Choice, gives us license to End Self-Sabotaging Habits at Will.  The hard part of that is our own OCD – we’re all Obsessive-Compulsive to some extent.

It’s like switching back and forth between a manual transmission and an autocratic one.  When we lapse into Habit instead of Awareness, we kill the engine in the manual car at stop signs, and then we try to shift the autocratic one.  If we do this daily, we’ll soon develop a Habit of taking a split-second to Notice which car we’re driving, before we stop or accelerate.  Whenever we begin a new Process, it takes us a while to develop “Body Memories” of our Actions, that make them automatic.

If rather than starting with the Recognition that a new Process will take a bit of Practice, we start with the Notion that “I’ll never be able to do this!” then we don’t even try.  We have tremendous and persistent Motivation to End our Self-Sabotaging Karma, as it repeatedly puts us into Discomfort, sometimes extreme.  But as long as we regard our Karma as being Externally Sourced, our Resistance to Change is even greater than this Motivation.

An early step is distinguishing Responsibility from Blame.  Many Resist the idea of Creating Their Own Reality because they feel like they’re being Blamed for their own Misfortune.  But they totally miss the point.  When “We” Create Our Own Reality, the “We” is not our Ego, but our Soul.  Making the Jump from Identifying with our Ego, to Identifying with our Soul, is not Easy.  It usually feels like a Death, because it is, an Ego Death.  Since the Ego’s Job is to Prevent our Death, it fights like Hell to Resist.  We have to Learn to finesse that.

Blame involves assigning Guilt about some Past Event.  On the other hand, Responsibility means Being Willing to Change Future Outcomes.  Those are very different.  We may look for apparent or adjacent “Cause” of our Self-Sabotage, in order to help us Design Strategies for Changing Future Outcomes, but even that is seldom effective, because even though it’s sometimes explained with that Metaphor, Karma is not about Cause and Effect.

Karma is Inertia.  The Cause of Karma is that you Built a Habit at some point in your Past Experience, and that Habit has become Obsolete.  Maybe on “your” (your Soul’s, not your Current-Lifetime Ego’s) former planet they put the brake on the right and the gas on the left, and “you” were a truck driver there, so “you” had a zillion reps to cement that Habit in place.  And now someone’s trying to tell you that it’s “your own” fault that “you” keep hitting the gas instead of the brake?  Of course your Current-Lifetime Ego considers that Outrageous.

It’s Obvious that it must be a Demon “Causing” this problem, because “you” aren’t even “Home” when it happens, “you” are thinking about something else.  Or at lease an Evil Twin.  Until we work on it, usually with great Effort for a long time, our Karma is Unconscious to us, precisely because it’s about Habits that we developed so thoroughly that they’re Hard-Wired into “ourself.”

There are so many other ways to Interpret our Self-Sabotaging Habits.  This is just one of them.  It’s literally True only in the Both/And sense.  We present it because it’s a Useful way to conceptualize what we’re up against when we work at Letting Go of our Karma.

We bring all this up because asteroid Lachesis, which symbolizes Potential Success about Choosing to Change or End a Lifelong Self-Sabotaging Habit, is very Strong at this New Moon (it’s Stationary at 3:40 pm PST 25 March in 8 Leo, Trine to the New Moon).  Not only that, the Habits that are most Open to Change, are Habits around our Health (Lachesis Conjunct dwarf planet Varuna [the Life Force, our Vitality])how Timely is that?

Even in the best possible circumstances, much to most of our Karma is not accessible to the Conscious mind.  So if we want to Choose to Change or End a Lifelong Habit of getting Sick, we need to use our Magnetic Creativity, ie PIAVA (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/), because Dynamic Creativity is only capable of directly impacting our Conscious Reality.

In spite of Western European Culture’s addiction to Chemistry, it’s actually more Effective to approach Wellness through our Spiritual and Emotional Bodies.  I don’t for a moment Deny that the Coronavirus is Alive and Well in 3D Reality.  I can’t speak for everyone, but in the Personal Lives of anyone reading this, this New Moon makes it very clear that the Coronavirus for us is not Present Moment.  It’s Karmic, a Hologram of our Past Traumas, a Paper Tiger, a Shadow.

First, Lachesis-Varuna is Squared [Challenged] by asteroid Karma [our Karma]. 

Second, Lachesis-Varuna sits at the focus of a Finger of God [Pay Attention!] from the Sextile between Mercury-OR10 [Awareness of Intrusive Karmic Memories] and dwarf planet Quaoar [Survival] on the South Node [Karma, Held Emotions]. 

Finally, the New Moon, Merged with Lilith-Chiron [Reclaiming our Power], Opposes asteroid Sappho [Self-Love] and dwarf planet Makemake [Manifestation], while… 

Sappho-Makemake is the focus of a Finger of God from Karma and Mercury-OR10 [Pay Attention to using your Karmic Memories to Manifest Present-Moment Self-Love by Poor-Sweethearting the Helplessness of your Karmic Self], and…

Mercury-OR10 is the focus of a Finger of God from Sappho-Makemake and Lachesis-Varuna [Pay Attention to making a Loving and Gentle Connection between your non-Present-Moment Visions and your Healing].

Oh, and dwarf planet Orcus [Oath-Breaking] Opposes Mercury-OR10.  Karma often has its origins in Oaths or Vows; if we can Channel a fairly Clear Vision of the Drama that sources our Intrusive Memories, we may be able to Revert the Ancient Oath that is at the Heart of our Attachment to 3D.

Like so…

Whether we’re Conscious of it or not, our most likely Emotional Response to the Coronavirus is Fear.  So we might Choose a PIAVA such as Tapping (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) to kick-start the Healing of our Karma

“Even though I well remember Sickness and Famine unto Death, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself…”

Supplemented by Theta Healing (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/)…

God/Goddess, Creator of All There Is, I Command that for me and my Loved Ones, 2020 be filled with Good Physical and Financial Health.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank You, God/Goddess! … Show Me!

If your “Show Me” isn’t a picture of Wellness and Abundance, Tap Out any flaws you find in the picture, and then do Theta again.  Repeat the two Prayers as necessary till you get a Perfect Show-Me and a surge of Joy up your spine.

Alternatively, we could zero in on the Flying Squirrel Configuration that has Mercury-OR10 as the head, Karma and Quaoar-South Node as the hands, Lachesis-Varuna and Sappho-Makemake as the feet, and Orcus as the tail.  Notice that a Flying Squirrel is a Kite [Directed Grace] inside a Square Fez [Mystery School] – we could regard it as a Self-Resolving Fez.

Self-Resolving or not, the Prescription of any Fez is to Avoid Anal-yzing the diagonal Quincunxes…

  • “God/Goddess, Please Grant me the Manifestation of Self-Love for, and in spite of, any Karma I might have to the Contrary [Karma Quincunx Sappho-Makemake].”
  • “My Survival Karma and my Perfect Health are entwined in Mysterious Ways; I Ask that they be disentangled and Healed [Quaoar-South Node Quincunx Lachesis-Varuna]”

Intuition, Choice, Self-Sovereignty

March 19, 2020

Or, Intellect, Fate, Codependence.  I’m told by otherwise reliable sources that our Mitochondria have direct access to all of the Information in the Universe, but that this access can be blocked by Toxins and Held Emotions.  Fate is what happens to us when we’re Victims of our Karma – that is, when our Held Emotions Limit the scope of our Reality.  Most of our Held Emotions are Unconscious, hidden behind our Judgments.  As in…

I would do anything for Love, but I won’t do that!

It’s not the 3D Reality of that! which stops us.  It’s the Emotion.  Simply put, it’s not that We’d Rather Die than Do that! – it’s actually that We’d Rather Die than Feel thatBut guess what…  It’s Karmic, it’s not Present Moment.  So what that! would you not Do for Love?  Right now you’re Safe, Right?  No Alligators within snapping distance, Right?  Ok, so Imagine yourself Doing thatYou might feel Beside Yourself, maybe with the Edge of a Cold Sweat?  But you ain’t Dead.

So now, Tap it Out…

“Even though I’d Rather Die than Do that! I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself…” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4,

and Ground yourself…

Imagine extending a Cable from the base of your Spine and Anchoring it to the Center of the Earth, then https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1ao4xdDK9iE.

Feeling more like your usual self?  Good.  Now, take a few minutes and Imagine How You’ll Feel if you actually did that!

Now, first notice that you’re still Alive, assuming you are, and then Tap It Out and Ground Yourself again…

“Even though my Ego will have to Molt before I can be comfortable Feeling that! again, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself…”

Check in with yourself several times over the next few days, and see if your Judgment has Changed at all.  If you did this for Real, it should Open your Intuition a bit.

So, what’s going on astrologically, is a Big Opening in our Relationship to our Fate (Station of asteroid Moira [Fate and Choice] in 20 Scorpio, 21 March 2020, 5:20 pm PDT).  Fate happens to us when we’re Unconscious.  Once we’re Conscious of our Karma, Fate becomes Choice.  Becoming Conscious of our Karma is actually pretty easy – just make a list of all the things in your Life so far that you Didn’t Enjoy, then rank them by How Much you Didn’t Enjoy them.

Power and Healthy Control is often a Biggie.  Do you Feel Good when you have to Take Control of a situation?  Feel Guilty afterward?  Or in Judgment about how dumb those people were that they couldn’t do it themselves?  How about when you’re Expressing your Feelings and someone tells you how to Fix It?  Or when someone tries to Control your Actions or Behavior?  Are you able to tell them to Butt Out without Offending anyone?  And Feel Okay afterward, without Guilt or Judgment?

“It is all right to destroy the things you seem to love but secretly hate.  In fact, it may be necessary to do so.”
—Clark Strand and Perdita Finn, The Way of the Rose, p.91.

Stationary asteroid Moira [Fate/Choice] is one foot of the Finger of God [Pay Attention!] in a Diamond Star [Self-Resolving Challenge formed by a Finger of God and a T-Square pointing at the same planet].  The Focus of the Diamond Star is dwarf planet Asbolus [Intuition].  The other foot of the Finger of God is dwarf planet Hylonome [Self-Sovereignty].  The base of the T-Square is the Opposition between Neptune [the Intangible] and asteroid Nemesis [Ego Death].

There’s a lot more going on here (in the Moira Station chart), but I’m out of time, so I’ll plan to continue tomorrow.

 

Manifestation New Moon

February 26, 2020

The 23 February 2020 (7:30 am PST) New Moon chart, which is prominent for the next several weeks, is pretty much a repeat of the chart of the 19 February Five Moons Enhanced Creativity astroevent (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/02/16/five-moons-enhanced-creativity/).

One emphasis will be on Manifestation (a Diamond Star or Self-Resolving Challenge to dwarf planet Makemake), although we’ll be Asked to Take a Great Deal of Responsibility for our own Negativity whenever the Manifestation isn’t Effortless (the Makemake Diamond Star Opposes Chiron-Lilith [Overcoming Victimhood] and Squares the Nodes [it’s a Life Lesson for us], with Mars, Veritas, Pholus, and Quaoar on the South Node [We Have to Face Facts about whether we’re Being Fully, Proactively Responsive to our Survival Instincts]).

Remember that Responsibility isn’t Blame.  Blame is about looking at the Past to Assign Fault, while Responsibility is about looking to the Future to Improve Outcomes.

If we’re Listening, our Inner Voices will be telling us (dwarf planet OR10 [Intrusive Memories] closely Conjunct [Merged With] the New Moon, at the focus of a Finger of God [Pay Attention!]) which Held Emotions – the ones we’d rather Die than Feel – are Inhibiting our Creativity (the South-Node Stellium [Karma] is part of two Tricolor Configurations [Healing Opportunities]), especially our Creativity at Enhancing our Vitality (the Challenge [Square] side of the Tricolor is Uranus [Soul] Square to Varuna [Life Force]).

Held Emotion is a synonym for Karma – our Ego has a severe Allergic Reaction to certain Feelings or Scenarios, often those that were associated with Past Deaths or other serious Traumas.  By and large we’ve Suppressed the original Traumas, so we’re just left with a serious Aversion to anything that reminds us of the Triggering Event.  That is, Negative Karma is “just” unhealed PTSD.

We need to Reframe our Reaction from “I would rather Die than Feel (or Do) That!” to “I would rather Die than Feel (or Do) That!” – in other words, it’s not really about the Emotion or Scenario, it’s about Identity:  Letting Go of the crippling Karma requires an Ego Death.  We need to Recognize that “I’d rather Die than Feel that!” is never Present-Moment, so it’s not only Safe to metaphorically Let Ourself Go Ahead and Die, but it’s our only Path to Liberation from our Karmic Chains.

Tapping can be very useful in this endeavor – “Even though I’d Rather Die than Feel/Do [this or that], I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself.”

It will be better if we forgo trying to Analyze exactly what it is we’re Resisting, just to Acknowledge our Resistance (we Trigger the Trine [Grace] side of a Tricolor, and heal the Square [Challenge] side of it, by making sure we Avoid Analyzing the Quincunx [Curiosity] side of it).

Here’s the New Moon chart…

In the Major Tricolor [Square-Quincunx-Trine] here, the Square [Challenge] is Uranus-to-Varuna [Soul Granting or Withholding Vitality], the Trine [Grace] is Uranus-to-South-Node-Stellium [Honesty about what’s Stressing Us], and the Quincunx [Mandatory Curiosity] is South-Node-Stellium-to-Varuna [Stress on our Life Force].  So we need to Acknowledge the Stress on our Vitality, without trying to Understand it.  We can Identify it suffixed with “…or something like that,” or we can just Poor-Sweetheart ourself – “You Poor Sweetheart, your Life Force Feels Low, doesn’t it” and not worry about Why it might be.

In the Minor Tricolor [Square-Quincunx-Sextile], the Uranus-to-Varuna Square is the same [Lack of Vitality or Difficulty Manifesting], but the Sextile [Grace after we take the First Step] is New-Moon-OR10-to-Uranus [Recognizing that those Intrusive Memories are sent by the Soul to Help us Heal] and the Quincunx is New-Moon-OR10-to-Varuna [the Intrusive Memories will Inform our Healing – but only if we don’t try to Pin Them Down Intellectually].  The Issues Involved in these Tricolor Configurations are too complex to be Grokked by the Dualistic Mind, so we need to Avoid trying to Pin Them Down like we would a Dead Butterfly.

There are two other minor but potentially Meaningful astroevents occurring on 25 February.

Our Hidden and Forbidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion) has graduated from a quarter-century of Shedding its Prohibitions (Ixion in Sagittarius), and will now begin a new 25 years of Doing Serious Work in the World (Ixion in Capricorn).  This is an Important Milestone, as our Forbidden Genii are Exactly the Skills we all need to use if we are to Succeed in Keeping our Planet Habitable.

It will be a halting Beginning, but a Beginning nonetheless.  We will have to go back into our Prohibitions a couple of times to Retrieve the Tools of our Genius Trade, but as Jack and Dean would have put it, we are On The RoadFrom 4 May till 10 September 2020, and from 16 July to 12 September 2021, Ixion Retrogrades back into Sagittarius.

Our Skill at Squelching Self-Sabotaging Habits becomes much more Down-to-Earth (asteroid Atropos enters and crosses Taurus) between 25 February and 6 May 2020 (no Atropos Retrograde periods in Taurus).  We’ve been Toying with (Visualizing, really) Changing Negative Patterns, but now we’ll get down to Business and Jettison them for good.

To jumpstart this process, Frequently put your Attention on How You’ll Feel when you’ve Let Go Of these No-Longer-Welcome Companions, including any and all Habits and Addictions you wish to Shed, no matter how Tenacious they’ve been in the Past.  The Power is now on your side.  And while these Habits are Destructive to you now, they served you well at some point in the Past, so finding Gratitude for their Service will also be helpful.  You don’t need to know When or Why, just know that you wouldn’t have them now if they weren’t Powerfully Useful to some version of “you” at some point.

There will be a couple of Red-Letter Days (more likely, the Week prior to them) during this process…

  • Around 6 March, we will be able to bring the Full Power of our Soul to bear on these Obsolete Patterns (Atropos crossing Uranus).  Take advantage of this – queue up your Most Persistent Curses for Exorcism during the first week of March.
  • Around 1 May, we will be able to Tackle our Greatest Fears and put them in their place on the wall next to the rest of our Big-Game Trophies (Atropos crossing dwarf planet Sedna).  Tapping and Kegels work very well for Grounding ourself in the Presence of Skin-Crawling Fear.

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Finally, we’re  entering the Grip of a couple of Strong Energies.  Our Intuition will be very Strong (dwarf planet Asbolus Stationary) until 1 March, and our Skill at Transcending whatever we are Done With (asteroid Bee-Zed Stationary) will also be very Strong over the same period.