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Held Emotions II

September 12, 2019

Our initiation into The Most Important Thing Is to Embrace our Held Emotions (Saturn Stationary Conjunct the South Node) is the 12 September, 2019 (8:30 pm PDT) Illumination of the symbol for Respect for All Things (Station of asteroid Hopi) in the same 14 Capricorn Degree.  These Conspirators are joined by the symbol for Becoming Aware of the Need for Self-Sovereignty (dwarf planet Hylonome, Stationary until 21 September) in 11 Capricorn.  That’s kind of a Knife Edge, Respecting All Things Without Giving Away Our Power to Any of Them.

The Self-Sovereignty issue is greatly Enhanced by a Challenge (T-Square) to the Expansion of our Awareness (Jupiter) from the symbols for Self-Sovereignty itself (Lilith) and Action/Anger (Mars).  Most especially, we’re Instructed by these “Stars” to Take Action to Get Neutral about Our Anger at The People Who Have Taken Our Power When We Gave It To ThemWe’re Angry at the People who have Taken Our Power, but it is Us – Unconsciously – who Gave It to Them.  Most of the time this happens because our Programmers installed Holes in our Auras that they could reach into and Pull our Puppet-Strings.

Here’s the chart…

If you’ve raised or otherwise worked closely with Children, you’ve probably Unconsciously or even Consciously done the same thing – found a place where you could Manipulate them, usually through Shame, in order to keep them under Control.   Especially in groups, they can be a handful…

Manipulating others for your own Gain isn’t the Travesty that it sounds like – we all do it to some extent.  There are two problems that arise when you Manipulate Children with Shame.

First, that Hole in their Aura doesn’t Heal on its own.  It stays with them into Adulthood until – and if – they Discover it and Heal it.  Till then they’re Compelled to Give Their Power Away to anyone who Discovers their Puppet Strings, and to their Frustration and Anger – and Shame, they won’t know why or how.

And second, that Hole wouldn’t be there unless it was part of their Karma, which makes it more Difficult for them to Discover and Heal it, because it was embedded in the Unconscious before they were even born.  These Huper Lifetimes are worse than Gollum’s Riddles!

There’s another Configuration that Illuminates this whole process – the symbol for Fate and Choice (asteroid Moira) and the symbol for Oath-Making and -Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus) are Merged (Conjunct) in the Hopi Station chart, and they volunteer to Help us with this Discovery (along with asteroid Veritas [Truth], they make a Double Trine Bridge [Easy Crossing] across the Nodal Axis).

Until we become Conscious of our Karma, and the Hole(s) in our Aura, we stuck with our “Fate.”  Once we Become Aware of it (Hylonome), we have Choice.  We were probably between a Rock and a Hard Place, but at some point lost in the Mists of Time, we Swore an Oath, and we Obeyed it, we Adopted it as part of our Identity, perhaps as the Core of our Identity.  Habits become Unconscious through Repetition, and in subsequent Lifetimes the Repetition was well established, but the Oath was Forgotten.  Bingo, Karma.  To Convert Fate to Choice we need to Break the Oath.  But we’ve long since Forgotten what is was.

That’s a fine Story for 3D Linear Time, but as you know, Time doesn’t really work that way.  If you’re like me, for the last week your “Random” Memories have been popping up all over the map, with little “rhyme or reason.”  That’s Real Time, with Bleedthrough from whatever Lifetime (which our Creative Memory usually inserts into the “Past” in our Current Lifetime) dripping through seemingly unpredictably, though we can often Discern Themes.

Creative Memory makes it seems like all these Random Tidbits and Recurrent Themes are part of “Us,” and they become our Identity.  But again, it doesn’t really work that way.  That’s 3D Ego-Level “Us.”  Shift your Identity to your Soul, and it looks very Different.  Karma is Personal only to the Ego, not to the Soul.  On the Soul Level, when we Choose to Slum it for a while on Earth, we pick a Project we want to help the Planet with.  The Karma is in the Energy Field of the Planet.  Other planets may not even contain the moving parts that “our” Karma is made from.

We come here to Help Convert some aspect of the Planet’s Fate to Choice, by contributing Replications of Alternative Patterns.  With enough Reps, by ourself and Others, new Habits are built into the Earth’s Energy Template.  Epigenetics, it’s called when Personalized to the Huper Level.  Project that back through Herstory.  Hupers used to be in the Habit of starving to Death in a bad winter following a poor Harvest.  Then Volunteers like you came and organized ways to store Food from one winter to the next, and ways to move Food from one valley that had a fortunate Harvest, to another that didn’t.  New Habits.

There was nothing Ego-Personal about all that; it was “just” Souls monkeying with the Energy Fields.  Death is no big deal to the Soul, it’s just another Experience.  The advantage of staying Alive longer was to build greater Knowledge and Wisdom.  A Hunter or Forager or Farmer with fifty years of Hunting or Foraging or Farming in their Winter Count is far ahead of one who flames out at twenty years.  Of course that’s just a Story too.  We as Hupers don’t generally have the Bandwidth to actually Grok what’s really going on in Dimensions (and Dementias) that we can’t even See or Touch.  But the more Metaphors and Stories and Perspectives we have, the more we can Intuit.

So how then do we actually Help Extinguish this Planetary Karma?  What if we could gather up enough Passion, Focus, and Power to just tell it to “Leave Now, and Never Come Back!“?

It’s too easy to Forget that Karma is not Present Moment, it’s not Real.  It’s a Paper Tiger, a Shadow Puppet.  Sméagol had to repeat his New Anthem three times before it took hold.  Your Attachment to “your” Karmic warp in the Force, the one you came here to Help Convert, may be a little stronger; it may take you up to ten Reps to gather enough Courage, Commitment, Passion, Confidence, Focus and Power to Banish it Forever.  The sooner you start, the sooner you finish.

We could even make “Leave Now, and Never Come Back!” another silent partner in PIAVA.  In the next post we’ll look at the other side of the coin, Healing the Holes in our Aura directly.

Busy August V

August 7, 2019

“Just when we begin to feel expert and comfortable, that is exactly when the nature of life’s restless heart forces us to move completely out of that previously comfortable era into one in which we are hopelessly inexpert.  In every stage it is as if we have to learn how to live all over again.  Though normal and unavoidable, often these natural life changes can be experienced as deep losses…

“The grief of raising children who are golden original mind-boggling beautiful sprites who become teenagers who hate us and want to get as far away from us as possible, or the grief of watching those same kids become adults as limited, afraid, and rigid as we are… are just a few of the stages of living filled with grief that are totally expected.

“For this reason, though natural, common, and anticipated, it is also just as right that we should deeply express these changes as losses through grief.  For this reason, in most of the world’s natural cultures, these changes are understood and experienced tribally as lines that must be crossed ritually with the help of the entire village…

“Natural culture doesn’t need to address life changes with therapy because they anticipate these changes and have a place for the grief.  These rituals of life changes are the major parts of their tribal everyday spiritual existence.  In this way grief is not left hanging but is converted into ritual beauty and culture-supporting continuity, which is not only experienced by the people in a massive communal way, but in a massive communal way these rituals also have the people giving life back to the Divine that gives life to them and the world.”

–Martín Prechtel, The Smell of Rain on Dust, pp.9-10.

Folks of our ilk may so Celebrate the Solstices and Equinoxes, and maybe even the Cross-Quarter Days.  But the sort of Celebrations that Martín describes are less common, and more important.  And it reminds us that one Loss we often Fear but seldom Grieve is Ego Death.  Astrology schedules Ego Deaths for us frequently – such as this week.

The symbol for our Soul (Uranus) and the symbol for Expansion (Jupiter) are both Strong (Stationary) on 11 August, and the impact of the Expansion part is greatly amplified (Jupiter Stations in front of the mid-Sagittarius “Great Attractor” and the “Shapley Supercluster,” two Galaxy Clusters, one behind the other, both mostly behind the Milky Way, and each stronger than the previous, that pull all of us toward them with a Gravitational Force thousands of times that of the Milky Way itself).

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In other words, you can say, “Oh, No Thanks!” but it won’t much help.

With our Uranian Soul symbol in the Sign of Matter (Taurus), we’ve recently begun a seven-year period that we can safely call The Descent of Soul into Matter.  Soul is Asking us to Expand a great deal beyond our usual day-to-day Limitations and Habits.  Just as an example, Soul is immortal, so while it may be Compassionate, it doesn’t have the Fear of Death that “we” – our Egos – have.  So we have to Expect that it will show us pictures of Death, in a “gentle” attempt to help us move closer to Recognizing our Immortality as Souls.

Energy precedes Matter, so if we continue to Project Demise and Fear of it out in front of us, more Death is what we’ll Create.

No question that it’s usually inconvenient to have to Surrender a Lifetime where we undoubtedly have Unfinished Business, but even in that circumstance we can reframe the Ego’s Intention as helping us to move closer to Recognizing what’s Really Important – our Ego’s education! That’s a lot more important than any Unfinished Business.  It’s the inept Political notion of Karma as Retribution that leads to the conclusion that Unfinished Business weighs us down.  Sure, we can rue Unfinished Business and thus make Karma out of it, but that’s just a different Curriculum we can Choose.

But Martín is right that All Losses Must Be Grieved, and every Ego Death is a Loss.  Rather than Respectfully and Gratefully Grieve our Ego Deaths after the fact, we usually Burn Up the same Energy in Fear before the fact.  We can Feel it coming on, and the Ego starts pedaling backwards as fast as it can.  We Expect a huge Soul Download over the next several days.  Open to it.  Invite it.

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Invite your Transition to be Loving and Gentle, and Ask your Current Ego to Respond to it with Respect, Gratitude, Surrender, and Relief.  Remind your Current Ego that it’s done a fabulous job of Keeping You Alive (its job description) so far, remind it that it can Trust the Soul to do a great job of selecting a bright-eyed Happy New You for the next assignment, and give it one last Hug.

In fact, Trusting the Soul is the biggest Challenge this week (asteroid Eurydike [Trust] Square Stationary Uranus).  And the basic process is all about Manifesting Miracles into Form by Following our Inner Voices (dwarf planet Makemake [Manifestation] Opposite Chiron [Despair/Miracles] and at the Focus of a Finger of God from the Sextile between Uranus itself and dwarf planet OR10 [Intrusive Memories])

We may have to be tricky to Hear the Voices (OR10) – Sitting Silently with our Eyes closed and Shushing the mind, for instance, or Clearing our Current-Moment Thoughts and Paying Attention to Random Memories or Stories that cross our mind – maybe a plot from last week’s TV show, a Stranger you passed today who reminded you of someone, a Strange but somehow familiar Smell, or a sudden Memory of a tale your favorite Aunt told you when you were but a golden original mind-boggling beautiful sprite yourself.

Don’t Strain – the Stories and Voices are meant to Trigger your Intuition, so making it Stressful will just clamp the tubing.  You Want only Joy and Fun here; certainly your Soul wound Want it that way.  Be continually Mindful for Bummers, and Poor-Sweetheart them or Tap them Out.  When Bummers arise, know that they’re Up so you can Let Go of them (Chiron)

If no Bummers arise, Look for them!  We all have Beliefs that we Accept as Just the Way It Is (Chiron), and those are the fences that keep us as limited, afraid, and rigid as we are.  But we Accept them as Just the Way It Is, so we aren’t Aware that they keep us Limited, Afraid, and Rigid.  When we Open those Windows, Miracles await just beyond the Pane.

Jupiter will be Lighting Up our natal planets in the neighborhood of 15 Degrees, and Uranus those in the vicinity of 7 Degrees.

Leo II

July 22, 2019

Natalie Glasson’s Channels the rest of Lord Melchizedek’s comments on 1D to 9D, this time 6D to 9D…

https://www.omna.org/exploration-of-dimensions-6-9-by-lord-melchizedek/

6th Dimension

“The 6th dimension reinforces your connection and communication with your soul, allowing powerful soul discovery journeys and deepening expressions of your soul through all levels of your being.  If you are finding it challenging to connect with your soul, wish to enhance your communication with your soul or receive guidance from your soul, it is ideal to request the 6th dimension to download into your being at the appropriate vibrations to support you.

“If you wish to connect on a deeper or soul level with other people in your reality you can request this from the 6th dimension.  There are many other requests which can be made, such as the balancing of your spiritual body, clarity in order to remember divine information, wisdom and knowledge to support your ascension or synthesising with your Ascended Master self in order to discover your ascension pathway to completion of your ascension mastery upon the Earth.

“If you find your intuition is blocked or you are unable to gain inner guidance the 6th dimension can support you by aligning you with your soul…  It is so filled with inspiration and tremendous support, it is worthwhile downloading and anchoring into your being and reality, even if you are uncertain of the purpose of your anchoring.”

Handy as we’re Anchoring Soul into Matter with Uranus in Taurus.  (For 1D-5D see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/07/13/leo/.)

7th Dimension

“The process of detachment is the key focus of the 7th dimension, much emphasis is placed upon understanding the method and benefits of detachment, which can be applied to all levels of your being.  Detachment isn’t to disconnect or disregard, it is to let go of bonds that cause you separation with the Creator and recreate bonds of love, trust, and truth.  It is this process which instigates new learning and even a reassessment of your spiritual pathway, to accept a pathway which is meaningful for your current transitions of ascension…”

“The 9th dimension truly fuels your spiritual evolution by supporting you in accessing an abundance of inspiration, enlightenment, and divine truth, while enhancing your ability to surrender and connect with the Creator…  The 9th dimension also aids your conscious awareness of your Soul Group and your Soul Groups spiritual evolution of working with and integrating with other Soul Groups in order to aid the divine will of the Creator.”

Such as our Arcturian friends.

A reader and friend – in fact, the friend who introduced me to the Arcturians a couple of decades ago – writes…

“Information is content, or a product.  However, why wouldn’t we need to question whether the information or data is useful or inaccurate?  The problem within the digital information age is that is too easily manipulated (see deep fakes on YouTube and altered news and images that Reuters and other news outlets have been caught out pushing on an unsuspecting populace).

“My concern is that spiritual insight and wisdom, organic connection and collective community, may be shown the back seat in a robotically controlled economy and society.  Unless human beings change drastically (i.e., evolve exponentially and quickly at that) the premise and promise inferred in Mason’s vision (or Karl Marx’s) becomes as 2D as the 1’s and 0’s in the source code of the Digital Age.  Pristine and lifeless, anesthetized and sterile.

“One of tenets of non-Dualist perspectives that Eckert Tolle and others offer is that content alone will not provide liberation from suffering or our current global challenges.  Emphasis on content and information may be the last illusion that needs to be shattered.”

Yes, one of many Last Illusions, I’m sure.  It’s very tempting to Extrapolate current trends into their worst Science Fiction nightmares, whether we’re playing with our Digits, or drowning in sweat or flood from this week’s Faux News about Global Warming.  But Seth made it clear a long time ago, in The Nature of Personal Reality, that our Personal History is an excellent Mirror of our Karma, aka our Habitual Patterns of Belief.

And likewise, the content of our Intellectual and Emotional Imaginings about the Future are a perfect Mirror for the detritus that gums up our Personal Relationship to the Unconscious.  The Unconscious is anything and everything that isn’t encompassed by our Ego at the Moment.  Energy is our True Nature, till we fall through one of the slits and become Particular, which is fine as a Snapshot, but this isn’t even a Moving Picture, because those are only 2D.  What happen to the Waves and Bits after they’re photographed?  They don’t just End there.

As Energy we are all Holographic Fragments of Source.  We only Choose to Separate ourself from the Whole for Fun or Profit.  When we Meditate on Being the Whole, what else is left to Interact with?  (The State of Wholeness is an excellent place to Manifest from, BTW, if we’re into Manifesting Partness, which of course we all are.)  Imagination is our Projection of Energy into the Future, where it will Manifest as Form.  So why would we Project something we don’t Want, except for Fun or Profit?  Why don’t we Project What We Want instead?

Well, the answer is because this is a Mirror for our Relationship with the Unconscious, with everything that isn’t Embraced by our Ego at the Moment.  This is why people talk about their “Shadow” – their Belief that Darkness is a Thing rather than a 2D Projection on the wall of the cave.

2019 Q3 I

June 30, 2019

The Stations and Moons and other major astroevents in the third quarter of 2019 line up below.  Notice how often 0-7 Degrees and 22-28 Degrees are Lit Up repeatedly, marking these Degree Zones as major issues for us.  These are Zones of Transition, so we can Expect lots of Changes.  If we slide these two together, we get one Zone from 22 Degrees to 7 Degrees of the next sign, exactly 50% of the Zodiac.  Yet, not counting the Sign Changes, between 1 July and 14 September, fully 83% of the major events reside in this Transition Zone.

And between 7 and 31 July, Mercury Retrogrades over all but a few Degrees of the entire Zone, backing up from 5 Leo to 24 Cancer.  Including its two Direct passages, Mercury is in this Zone from 20 June through the Ides of August.  So we can’t say we’re blindsided!  Mercury is the symbol for Awareness, so whatever issues have arisen since the Solstice, or arise in the next week, those are the issues that we’ll be Dancing with for the next three months.

Mercury’s Journey will be about Separating our Identity from our Emotions (the Pisces Decanate of Cancer and the Leo Decanate of Leo; a Decanate is 10 Degrees) and about Distinguishing Sympathy from Compassion and our Identity from Both (the Taurus and Gemini Duads of Cancer and the Leo and Virgo Duads of Leo; a Duad is 2½ Degrees).

Compassion cares deeply about the Suffering of Other, but it’s Neutral about the Outcome.  That sounds like an Oxymoron, but it’s actually a Paradox.  Contradictions exist only in the Dualistic mind; in the Unitary and Multidimensional Universe, there are no Contradictions.  If you can possibly give yourself Permission to Reframe Contradictions into Paradoxes, and Accept that as Reasonable, you’re on your way to Growing Out of your “Left” Brain and adding circuitry to your Corpus Callosum that will improve your Recognition of and Response to your Intuition and Instincts.

Sympathy is an Identification with, a form of Codependence.  Your Sympathy cares about the Outcome, because you’re Merged with the Object of your Sympathy, so the Outcome Happens to You.  Do you see how Important your Identity is in this Equation?  You can actually Manifest Disease with Sympathy, it you work hard enough at it.  Compassion won’t Create Disease, but it can Create Healing.

What We Feel and Who We Are, are two very different things.  Emotions are extremely Valuable parts of our Intuition and our Instincts – when we Feel them.  When we Become them, they Lose their Value.  It’s like kayaking on a fast-moving River.  As long as we’re Feeling our Emotions, we can successfully navigate the Rapids.  When we start to Become our Emotion, we go under, and if we don’t right ourself quickly, we Lose the Plot – or worse.

Now, how often are we Aware that We Have An Identity, let alone What It Is in that moment.  Once we Become an Emotion, Who’s left to Notice?  It’s Important then that we make a Habit of Asking ourself, frequently, Who Am I Right Now?  Where Is My Identity In This Moment?  It’ll be a puzzling Question at first, but keep at it.  The Answer isn’t nearly as Important as Asking the Question.  When we become Aware of a Splinter of Consciousness distinct from the Emotions or Thoughts or Trance that has us by the throat in that moment, we can Grow the Splinter by Tapping, or Poor-Sweethearting ourself, or Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrading our Self-Abusive Thoughts.

Here’s where Mercury will Dance between now and mid-August…

  • 1-3 July, 4 Degrees
  • 4-10 July, 5 Degrees
  • 11-13 July, 4 Degrees
  • 14-15 July, 3 Degrees
  • 16 July, 2 Degrees
  • 17-18 July, 1 Degrees
  • 19 July, 0 or 30 Degrees
  • 20-21 July, 29 Degrees
  • 22 July, 28 Degrees
  • 23-24 July, 27 Degrees
  • 25-26 July, 26 Degrees
  • 27-30 July, 25 Degrees
  • 31 July-1 August, 24 Degrees
  • 2-4 August, 25 Degrees
  • 5-6 August, 26 Degrees
  • 7 August, 27 Degrees
  • 8-9 August, 28 Degrees
  • 10 August, 29 Degrees
  • 11 August, 30-1 Degrees
  • 12 August, 2 Degrees
  • 13 August, 3 Degrees
  • 14 August, 4 Degrees
  • 15 August, 5-6 Degrees
  • 16 August, 7 Degrees

Print this list out, and write all of your natal planets that are between 22 and 7 Degrees (22-30 and 0-7) on the list, next to each line, ignoring the Signs.  Don’t worry about being exact – we’ve got a couple of days of leeway, and it will vary a bit depending on where we in the World anyway.  Then, each day, Ask yourself,

“Does my Identity Today – Who I Am At This Moment – seem to Relate in any way to that (or those) natal planets of mine?” 

Don’t worry about the Answer; the important thing is Asking the Question, and being Curious about what Thoughts and Feelings arise as a result.  If you end up Confused, fabulous!  That’s the best possible Outcome.  Let yourself Feel your Confusion, it’s the first sign of Growth.  If you try to Figure it Out, you Lose.  Growth only happens when you Allow Confusion.

 

Here’s a draft blow-by-blow account of the next three months…

2 July (noon PDT), New Moon and Total Solar Eclipse (South Pacific, South America) 11 Cancer

6 July (6:30 pm PDT), asteroid Karma (Habits) enters Aries

7 July (4pm PDT), Mercury (Communication) Station 5 Leo

8 July (1:30 pm PDT), Ixion Initiates Bee-Zed (Transcendence) 28 Sagittarius

8 July (4:30 pm PDT), Chiron (Despair/Miracles) Station 6 Aries

9 July (2:30 pm PDT), Haumea (Rebirth) Station 25 Libra

13 July (6pm PDT), asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) enters Leo

16 July (2:30 pm PDT), Full Moon and Partial Lunar Eclipse 25 Capricorn

17 July (noon PDT), Ceres (Sustainability) Station 1 Sagittarius

20 July (7 pm PDT), Eris (Revelation) Station 25 Aries

25 July (8:30 pm PDT), asteroid Veritas (Truth to the Mind) enters Scorpio

31 July (8pm PDT), New Moon 9 Leo

31 July (9pm PDT), Mercury (Awareness) Station 24 Cancer

5 August (3pm PDT), Karma (Karma) Station 3 Aries

6 August (4:30 pm PDT), dwarf planet Pholus (Response-Ability) backs into Sagittarius

11 August (6:30 am PDT), Jupiter (Expansion) Station 15 Sagittarius (Great Attractor)

11 August (7:30 pm PDT), Uranus (Individual Soul) Station 7 Taurus

15 August (5:30 am PDT), Full Moon 23 Aquarius

17 August (11:30 pm PDT), asteroid Aletheia (Truth of the Heart) enters Scorpio

18 August (6pm PDT), asteroid Moira (Fate/Choice) enters Virgo

20 August (11:30 pm PDT), Atropos (Ending TimeLines) Station 24 Aries

23 August (12:30 p,m PDT), asteroid Klotho (Beginning a New TimeLine) enters Gemini

23 August (5pm PDT), asteroid Juno (Edges of Consciousness) enters Virgo

24 August (10am PDT), Mars Initiates Venus (Relationship Reset) 4 Virgo

24 August (2am PDT), asteroid Pallas (Boundaries) enters Scorpio

29 August (8:30 am PDT), Sedna (Fear/Power) Station 28 Taurus

30 August (3:30 am PDT), New Moon 7 Virgo

2 September, asteroid Sappho (Self-Love) enters Virgo

3 September, asteroid Karma (Inertia) backs into Pisces

4 September, Eurydike (Trust) Station 2 Aquarius

5 September, asteroid Lachesis (Changing TimeLines) enters Leo

10 September, Ixion (Hidden Genius) Station 27 Sagittarius

13 September, Hopi (Universal Regard) Station 14 Capricorn

13 September (9:30 pm PDT), Full Moon 22 Pisces

14 September, Quaoar (Survival Instincts) Station 2 Capricorn

14 September, Pholus (Response-Ability) Station 30 Sagittarius

15 September, Saturn (Priorities) Stationary Conjunct South Node (Held Emotions) 14 Capricorn

18 September, Saturn (The Most Important Thing) (Ego Deathx Station 14 Capricorn

21 September, Hylonome (Self-Sovereignty) Station 11 Capricorn

23 September (1am PDT), Libra Equinox, 0 Libra

24 September, Asbolus (Intuition) Station 24 Gemini

24 September, Vesta (Beliefs) Station 28 Taurus

27 September, Bee-Zed (Transcendence) Station 18 Sagittarius

27 September, asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) enters Virgo

28 September (11:30 am PDT), New Moon 6 Libra

28 September, Chaos (Unlimited Potential) Station 27 Gemini

28 September, Chariklo (Self-Confidence) Station 20 Capricorn

 

Cancer Solstice 1

June 21, 2019

The way we look at it, the recent Stations of Makemake (symbol of Manifestation) and Veritas (symbol of Truth) will have a big Influence on the coming several months because their Energies were peaking at (and therefore heavily impacted) the Full Moon, and a New or Full Moon’s Energies influences the following several weeks, which includes the Solstice, which in turn impacts the following three to six months.  I could summarize what that Influence will be about, but it would be better if you re-read the Rebirth Full Moon series, and notice what pops out at you.  We will all take different portions of the Energies to the bank with us.

If we were to reduce all that to one sentence, though, I’d say that the primary Energy has probably Triggered and may continue to Trigger our Scarcity Issues and raise the danger that we’ll Act on them and Create more Scarcity.  The only thing we can Manifest from a State of Fear is more Fear.  In spite of many Challenges, the overall Energies were very Beneficial, so we have to read those Energies as Opportunities to Let Go of Our Scarcity Karma and Make Room for Greater Abundance in our Future.  We could Experience Scarcity or Abundance of Anything – Money, Security, Affection, Attention, Food, Happiness, you name it.

But the Biggest Influence on the Cancer Solstice will be the Station of Neptune shortly before the Solstice itself.  Neptune symbolizes Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, so as we’ve been wrestling with our Scarcity we’ve probably found it Confusing.  Part of us has likely been more than Willing to Continue to Operate Abundantly (Abundance means Having Enough to Share), while there has probably been another Voice warning us that our Largesse may be followed by a bill we’ll have Difficulty paying.  But neither Voice has been loud enough to Dominate.  Hence Confusion, as one part of us Acts one way and another part Acts differently, and we aren’t quite sure just Who We Are.

The Neptune Station occurs at 7:30 am PDT in 19 Pisces, and the Cancer Solstice at 9am PDT, in by definition 0:00 of Cancer.  That puts the Solstice Sun 101 Degrees ahead of Neptune, a Waxing Biseptile.  The Septile series of Angles are all about Timing, and the Biseptile is about the Timing of Either/Or Decisions.  Many of us tend to see Reality as a series of Snapshots rather than a Moving Picture, so unless some barker is screaming at us that their unprecedented Bargain expires in an hour, we may not think much about Timing.

But Timing is critical around Everything.  If our favorite Psychic tells us we’ll meet our Soulmate or our Benefactor in the Produce Department at Whole Foods, will we be present enough to inquire When?  What if they left three minutes before we got there, or we wander off to Frozen Foods two minutes before they arrive?  Would we even Ask, Do you mean this year?  Or this Lifetime?  Seven (Septile) is a lucky number for a good reason – it’s about being in the Right Place at the Right Time.

The Neptune Station itself presents a Challenge (the focus of a T-Square) to Distinguish between our Longstanding Desires (Jupiter in Sagittarius) and our Fleeting Intuitions (Asbolus in Gemini).  But the more Profound Challenge in the Neptune-Station chart is a Karmic one, a Challenge to Discern the Truth (T-Square focused on asteroid Aletheia) about our Karma and our Mission (South and North Nodes, aka the Dragon’s Tail and Head).  Our Karma or Held Emotions are marked as The Most Important Thing (South Node Conjunct Saturn), and our Mission is marked as Requiring Ego Death (North Node Conjunct asteroid Nemesis).

That merits repeating…

The Biggest Influence on the Cancer Solstice will be the Station of Neptune shortly before the Solstice itself.  This Neptune Station Challenges us to Distinguish between our Longstanding Desires and our Fleeting Intuitions, and to Trust our Intuitions about our Longstanding Desires.  But the more Profound Challenge in the Neptune-Station chart is a Karmic one, a Challenge to Discern the Truth about our Karma and our Mission.  And our Intuitions about our Longstanding Desires will give us an excellent education on  the Truth about our Karma and our Mission (the two T-Squares are one Sign apart, which means it’s about Pattern-Breaking).  Our Karma or Held Emotions are marked as The Most Important Thing, and our Mission is marked as Requiring Ego Death.

That should actually be no Surprise, as the Essence of Karma is that it Requires Ego Death to Transcend.  It’s a little heavier than, say, Reverting a Peanut-Butter-for-Lunch Habit.  But this Message says that The Time Is Now.  The Boon in the Neptune-Station chart is that our Dualistic mind will benefit us (Grand Trine in Air), particularly our Attention to our Longstanding Desires (Jupiter in Sagittarius).

Our interpretation of Jupiter in Sagittarius as our “Longstanding Desires” is a little indirect.  Jupiter symbolizes our Lust for Expansion, and our Desires certainly Expand us.  Of course our Resistance to our Desires makes it seem like they’ll Shrink us, but that’s just our Resistance.  Achieving a Desire puts us in that Empty place that Requires another Desire to replace the retired one, lest we Loose the Sense of Self that comes with a Directed Striving – which process is actually an Expansion.  it’s also a version of an Ego Death, but one that has an Easier Prognosis than those resulting from I’d Rather Die Than Feel That Again.

Sagittarius is about Letting Go.  It’s about Changes (Mutable) in our Spirituality (Fire).  Air and Fire Signs are related because mentality (Air) is the ladder to Spirit (Fire).  Our Consciousness Expands when we pry loose a bar in the Mental Birdcage that defines our Limitations.  Our Core Longstanding Desires are to Transcend those Limitations, but our Longstanding Desires as we perceive them ARE the bars in our Birdcage.  Yes, Neptune is about Confusion – need an example?

Suppose for instance we Crave Freedom from the Constraints of Limited Money.  We interpret that Desire as Wanting More Money.  But that’s not what Limits us.  What Limits us is The Belief that we Need More Money to Thrive.  That Belief is a bar in our Birdcage, a Mental-Emotional, probably Programmed, probably Karmic, Construct that Holds our Reality together.  Yes, Holds our Reality Together.  Contemplate Living without Money for a minute, and Feel all of your Structures crumbling around you.  The astrological symbol for the Glue that Holds Reality Together is the Moon, and sure ’nuff, the Moon is one corner of the Grand Trine (and Jupiter Kite) in the Neptune-Station chart.

So in Real Life, your Longstanding Desires are symbols for your Lust for Transcending your Limitations.  Now, that’s a Jungian Perspective, one that assumes the primary Drive in the Unconscious is the Urge to Wholeness, one that everyone who persists in reading this blog certainly has.  We don’t mean to imply that Everyone shares this primary Drive.  Others may be primarily Driven by, for instance, an Urge to Be Adulated, or an Urge to “drink tea, save animals, and nap,” as the tag on my Buddha Teabag suggests today.  We don’t want or need to project our Urge to Wholeness on anyone else, because that will only impede our Ascension.  In fact, trying to Influence or Judge anyone else’s Life in any way always impedes our own Ascension.

Rebirth Full Moon V

June 18, 2019

This Mirror is too relevant to pass up.  In the emailed 17 June Guardian Brexit Weekly Briefing

“In the Guardian, Fintan O’Toole says politicians’ talk of Britain’s ‘national humiliation’ is dangerous:

” ‘Yes, of course, the Brexit debacle has reduced Britain’s prestige around the world.  And the withdrawal agreement negotiated by Theresa May is indeed a miserable thing when compared with the glorious visions that preceded it.  But Britain has not been humiliated by the EU – the deal was shaped by May’s (and Arlene Foster’s) red lines.  Britain did not get what the Brexiters fantasised about, but it did get what it actually asked for.

” ‘That’s not humiliation.  But at its heart, Brexit depends on the idea that Britain cannot be an ordinary European country and, therefore, that equality within the EU is inherently humiliating.  Britain is humiliated by the EU because it expects to be superior.  But it [humiliation] is a dangerous word.  It may have no substance, but it has the power to harm.

” ‘It brings down with it an acid rain of corrosive emotions: the need, at all costs, not to lose face, the indulgence of self-pity, the demented idea that national pride can be restored only by the endurance of great pain.  It needs to be banished from the Brexit discourse.  Acknowledging reality is not humiliating.  Accepting that you have made a mistake is not humiliating.’ “

Let’s paraphrase this…

“Our Old Ego did not get what We fantasized about, but We did get what We actually Asked For, with all Our Thought-Prayers and Anxiety about What We Didn’t Want.  That’s not Humiliation.  But at its heart, Our Old Ego depends on the idea that We cannot be an Ordinary Person and, therefore, that Equality within Huperity is Inherently Humiliating.  We are Humiliated by our Ego Death because the Ego expects to be Superior.  But Humiliation is a dangerous word.  It may have no Substance, but it has the Power to Harm.

“It brings down with it an acid rain of Corrosive Emotions: the Need, at all costs, not to Lose Face, the Indulgence of Self-Pity, the Demented idea that Personal Pride can be Restored only by the Endurance of great Pain.  It needs to be Banished from the Ego Discourse.  Acknowledging Reality is not Humiliating.  Accepting that We have been Doing the Best We can – but now We’ve Learned to Do Better – is not Humiliating.”

Karma Repair 5

May 21, 2019

A friend of mine recently intended to say “I’m Hungry” and it came out as “I’m Angry” – that’s how Subtle these Energies are.  They’re Opportunities; often our Karma is a lot more In-Our-Face, and it will be again if we continue to pass on the Subtle Opportunities.

Here’s the chart for the 23 May (5pm PDT) Station of Orcus in 10 Virgo, drawn in the lighter lines.  The heavier lines show the closely related 19 May Merger of Saturn with the Mean South Node in 21 Capricorn (see the previous Karma Repair posts)…

You can see that the T-Square (red triangle) containing Orcus is focused on asteroid Ceres (which would be called “Cup-Hook” if we named planets after their glyphs).  In other words, the main issue here is Sustainability.  Not just Can We Let Go of Our Karma, but also Can We Continue to Choose Otherwise?

The third corner of this T-Square triangle is dwarf planet Nessus – Abuse and Privilege.  So it’s not just Letting Go of Our Karma, it’s Permanently Letting Go of Abuse, which means Naming it what it is, and Setting Firm Boundaries around it.  And yes, asteroid Pallas (Boundaries – the diamond on a cross) is involved, in a very positive way (a Quincunx Bridge – green lines – across the Orcus-Nessus Opposition; a Quincunx Bridge means it’s Grace unless we try to Anal-yze it).

But who is this Orcus fellow?  He was a pre-Roman Etruscan God-figure whose job was to Punish Oath-Breakers.  Strikes Terror, eh?  How many times have we been threatened with Dire Consequences if we Break an Oath?  The Yangtegrity Patriarchy made a big deal of Oaths, but hereabouts we lean more toward Yintegrity, as does our 5D future.  Oaths are spawn of Duality, and we prefer to Relate to the Universe as Unitary and Multifarious.  It’s the Limited mind that has great difficulty getting past Either/Or Duality.  When we aren’t In the Flow and Living Intuitively, then Yangtegrity is useful.  But it keeps us in 3D; Either/Or is Political, Both/And is Spiritual.

It turns out that our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs have their roots in forgotten Oaths that we made a long time ago, often in other Lifetimes.  The All-or-Nothing, Unconditional nature of Oaths is a side-effect of Duality.  The rest of Life is Situational.  We don’t Vow never to cross the street, we Vow to look both ways and cross only when it’s Safe – we use the “rule” if it fits the Situation; if it doesn’t fit, we look for Alternatives.  One way to interpret the impact of Ceres in this T-Square, is that it Invites us to Let Go of our Unconditional Oaths – the last thing we want to do is Sustain our Self-Sabotage!

With Nessus involved, we have to consider examples involving Abuse.  When Uncle Andy violated us and warned that they’d kill Mom if we told anyone, of course we Vowed never to tell.  And of course we Forgot it, because we worked our butt off to Forget the whole Trauma.  So how does that Vow impact our Lives now?  What if we PIAVAed to Open up that Wound so we could Let it Go?  Would this Vow prevent that Opening from happening?  It would probably do its best to try.  Meanwhile, what Experiences does the Vow prevent us from Indulging?

Unfortunately, the Unconscious often agitates for its own Clearing.  So we may be attracted to Abusers, or to the Abused, and we may have difficulty Breaking this “Habit” until we Clear the origin.  We may not Trust other people, or we may need to keep them at a Distance.  We may have to deal with Suffocation issues that aren’t really “ours.”  These Limits may interfere with What We Really Want out of Life – our Souls are more than clever enough to set up Life circumstances where the only way we can get what we Want most is to Confront our Limits.  That’s the nature of the Nodal Axis.

But, the Orcus-Nessus Opposition (Reverting Oaths involving Abuse or Privilege) is also Bridged by blue lines, or Grace (the Trine Bridge to asteroid Nemesis, which symbolizes Ego Death). Ego Death doesn’t need to be Traumatic, though it depends on our Beliefs about how much of our Life is critically Dependent on that particular Ego.  But Trust me, there are a thousand other potential Egos waiting in the wings to take over, and most of them will do a fine job.

The Egos that won’t do a fine job, will connect you to ancillary issues that you also need to Clear in order to Liberate yourself.  You can even Modulate the pace of your Ego-Clearing – all you need to do is Ask.  “God/Goddess, please lead me Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely through the process of Liberating myself from Abuse Memories and any resulting Oaths I (or a former Incarnation) may have made as a result,” for instance.  This is a Trine Bridge, it’s the Easy Path around the difficulty.  Asking for What You Want is a fabulous way to Accept Grace.

Karma Repair 2

May 17, 2019

Not a lot happening with the 18 May (2pm PDT) Full Moon, except that it could make a big dent in our Fear of Opening Up to the Truth about our Hidden Forbidden Unique Genius, the one that will Singlehandedly Save the Planet, along with all the other Single Hands that this Full Moon will help Liberate from their Fear of Opening Up to the Truth about their Forbidden Genies.  Our Hidden Forbidden Unique Genius is the missing piece in the Jigsaw Puzzle that is our 5D Future, and so is Everyone Else’s.

Which is to say that the symbol for Endings (asteroid Atropos) Resolves (Trine Bridges) the Full Moon that prominently features the symbol for Converting Fear to Power (dwarf planet Sedna stands behind the Sun) and is Supported by (Finger of God-ed by) the symbol for our Forbidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion) and the Merged (Conjoined) symbols for Rebirth and Truth (dwarf planet Haumea and asteroid Veritas)…

All in all an excellent chart, if we Remember our Kegels.

This Full Moon though is greatly overshadowed by the 19 May Merging of the symbol for The Most Important Thing (Planet) and the symbol for our Karma (the Mean South Node).  If you feel like you’re Sitting Pretty, look behind you.  There’s something lurking there that may not be Negative, but will Certainly help you Clean Up your Current Lifetime.  Remember what Alan Watts said back in the 1950s – it’s a lot harder to Let Go of our Good Karma than it is to Let Go of our Bad Karma.

Because we’re so fond of Patting ourselves on the Back for our Good Karma.  But we’ll be a lot more Effective at Changing the World if we’re Neutral.  Self-Love ain’t Positive Self-Judgment.  Self-Love is Unconditional, no Judgment involved.  The Demon lurking behind you could be Pride.

And of course it could also be all manner of Self-Sabotaging Habits, the kind we usually think of as Karma and Blame on “the Universe,” or Mom, forgetting that All of our Habits are Choices we’ve made in the past.  Is this a Free-Will Universe or not?  Free Will cuts both ways.  Of course we don’t Remember making that Choice, it was a hundred Past Lives ago.  Or a Parallel in a Galaxy far far away.

But as Seth put it so Clearly in The Nature of Personal Reality, our Karma is actually Obvious – it’s writ large in our Personal History in our Current Lifetime.  What in your Personal History do you not claim as your own Choice?  Those are the places where you’re Betraying your own Soul.  Of course your Current Ego didn’t make that Choice, because if you think of “You” as your Current Ego, you’re missing 99% of your Life.

If there’s anything in our Personal History, Good or Bad, that we don’t claim as our own Choice, whose Choice was it?  It was part of our Soul Self that our Current Ego doesn’t include.  We need to do some Ego Yoga.  It’s not as hard as it sounds.  Our Ego’s in it for Pleasure; our Soul’s in it for Experience, including Experiences that will – and have – Terrified or Horrified our Ego.

This is what a Free-Will Universe means.  If you aren’t in a Free-Will Universe, you’re just another automaton on the treadmill, where everything happens to you, and you have little or no Control.  That might be Liberating, since what you do won’t matter.  You may as well Take whatever Pleases you.  But can you even Conceive of a Universe without Cause and Effect?  That’s pretty Deep Programming.  Easier to Conceive of a Universe where we don’t have enough Information to sleuth out Cause and Effect.  And more Honest.

Let’s look at the Saturn-South Node chart tomorrow.  That’ll give you time to see what’s behind you.

Earth Repair 2 and Karma Repair 1

May 12, 2019

The Global Earth Repair Conference is YouTubing its sessions so we can watch them free.  Since there were about 200 sessions in seven or eight time slots, there are lot of sessions I wasn’t able to attend either, even when I hopped from one session to another in one time slot, which I did whenever I wasn’t Learning a lot.  Not that the sessions lacked quality – I just read a lot and Earth Repair is one of my favorite topics.  I’m much more Optimistic after the Conference than I was before – many of the presenters are already Living in 5D.

Here are a couple of samples…

“When it comes to survival and sustainability, there’s only one story for the human species, and we’re all in this together…  We know when we see a forest, a lake, the ocean, a natural river system, the atmosphere, that it’s more valuable than computers, cars, airplanes, which are valuable for a short time, then become trash and pollution…  If we truly value natural systems, then Nature would truly become the basis of our money and our economy.  To protect Nature then would not be a luxury, but a necessity.”  –John D. Liu, in…

“We’re extremely conflicted and I think it has something to do with two levels of development – our brains are wired for survival, which means anger, jealousy, fear, territoriality, self-esteem, all the things that cause trouble.  And our brains are also wired for beauty and connection and spirituality, and I think it’s a crisis time for us to begin to overcome this hardcore biological survival wiring and begin to activate our spiritual wiring – the forebrain.

“Buddhism does that well with mindfulness and meditation, and the other traditions that do this.  It’s almost like we’re at a crisis point, not just of the Earth, but of our own human journey.  Are we going to give in and basically dissolve?  Will we be a failed experiment?  Or, are we at the beginning of an incredibly exciting part of our journey as we begin to become more human in the sense of truly connected to loving and nurturing all life?”  –Susan Eirich in…

Find out more about Susan at https://earthfireinstitute.org/our-story/, and about John at https://www.commonland.com/en and https://www.ecosystemrestorationcamps.org/foundation/john-d-liu/.  The Conference sessions that have been YouTubed so far are listed at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNPSTkjWIrl7FD31xbJ5STg/videos.  Planning is underway for followup Earth Repair Conferences in Chile, Africa, and India.

Meanwhile, in another galaxy far far away…

https://danielscranton.com/galactic-energies-within-you-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/

“We are very excited about the progress that we see you all making in regards to the accessing of more of your galactic energies.  You are all receiving activations all the time to awaken within you those parts of yourselves that are not from Earth, or your solar system.  And we can see how these activations are affecting all of you in a positive way.  Much of what you are attempting to resolve there on planet Earth at this time is related to those journeys that you have taken through all the different star systems in our galaxy.

“And so, by becoming more of the whole you, you are better equipped to handle the challenges you face right now on planet Earth.  We see you getting activated and then taking what energies you are accessing from within to the different challenges that you face in your lives.  Even though you still have much to resolve there on planet Earth, you are also bringing a lot to the party because of all that you have already experienced in your lifetimes in other parts of the galaxy.

“You draw from those Sirian, Andromedan, Pleiadian, Arcturian, and other lifetimes, and when you bring those energies forward, you make it easier for yourselves to reconcile the differences that you have there on your planet.  For example, most people are split politically.  They either go in all into one political party or all into another, and they see the others who are putting all of their energy into a different political party as the enemy.  This is a much more toned down version of the battles that have existed throughout our galaxy for millions and millions of years.

“When you recognize that you contain all of those energies inside of you, and you make it your mission to be integrated, then you can be a walking example of what it is like to bring different energies, different beliefs, different star systems, together.  And if you can do that, you certainly can resolve the differences between you and the others there on Earth who have very different beliefs.

“This is why you often find that you are the [sheep of color] in your family.  Those of you who are awake are often the only ones who have the beliefs that you do, and it then falls upon you to make peace with the fact that everyone else that you are related to by blood thinks differently.  And when you can do that, and you can make peace with the differences between you, then you know that you are becoming more integrating with all of the galactic energies that you have inside of you, and you are moving closer and closer to that fifth dimensional reality where all beings co-exist harmoniously.  So keep up the good work.”

And on a galaxy much closer to Home, our Cosmic Recess window is beginning to close, as we’re now only seven days from the planetary equivalent of The Most Important Thing Is Your Karma (Saturn Conjunct the Mean South Node).  “Mean” here means Average, not Cruel, though from the Ego’s Perspective, Cruel wouldn’t be far off the mark.

John Liu reminds us that when our Ecosystem Collapses, nothing is more Important or Valuable than some degree of Restoration.  Jack Rosenberg (in Body, Self, & Soul) points out that when the Ego shatters, nothing is more Important and Valuable than Restoring a functioning Ego, because you’ll just make a big mess of anything else you try to do.  And I (among others) aver that when we’re trying to Manifest something Difficult for us, nothing is more Important and Valuable than Examining our Karma.

There isn’t a lot of astrological Interaction between the 19 May Saturn-South Node Conjunction (Karma demanding Attention) and the 23 May Station of Orcus (Breaking Oaths), but in addition to their Temporal Proximity, the Topical Connections are many and Intense.  We’ll take the chart apart soon, but in the interim we’ll give you some homework.  Make a list of the places in your Life where you don’t Believe that you have Choice.  That’ll likely turn out to be critical.  And, Think about all of the Abuse Stories you’ve heard in your Life; which one had the most Emotional Impact on you?

“Dark Days” 2

April 19, 2019

Here’s an excellent way to Lighten Up these “Dark Days” – Donna Eden’s free Energy Medicine & Healing Summit that lasts all week, 22-26 April, led by her daughter Dondi Dahlin, at…

https://energymedicinesummit.com/

I’m told that each session will be available for 48 hours after it plays live.  I’m looking forward to…

  • Donna herself speaking about The Assemblage Point (“The Power of this extraordinary Energy and how to Align with it; How it works with the Aura and the Heart Chakra; How figure eights keep it shining bright”) and
  • Judith Orloff on Balance as an Empath (“Identify if you’re an Empath and/or highly Sensitive person; Discover why you feel exhausted, anxious, and physically ill; Learn how to Set Boundaries and Trust your Intuition),

…both Tuesday morning.  While I think of an Ego Death as a Shift in our “Assemblage Point,” I don’t really Know what Castaneda’s Don Juan meant by that term.  I expect Donna, Seeing Energy as she does, will Know though, so I’m Excited to hear what she has to say about it.

Here’s our “Dark Days” Itinerary…

17-24 April (more or less) – Strong Compulsions, best not Resisted, though they can be Modified if necessary to Avoid Untoward Consequences, or “Surfed” for a Gravity Boost to your Orbit.  If lack of Alignment with your Self-Image or Social Mask seems like a problem, Allow your Image or Mask to Evolve, Gently.  (Pluto Stationary in 24 Capricorn, 11:30 am 24 April)

19 April to 3 May – Soulful Full Moon (see previous and future posts)

21-28 April – Watch closely for any sign of Self-Doubt, and rather than giving it any Credence, regard it as a Regression into the most Self-Sabotaging parts of your Childhood Programming.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’ve been Programmed into Doubting yourself, haven’t you.”  If your Inner Child doesn’t Show Up for a Hug and maybe a Chat, Pretend that they have.  (Chariklo Station in 25 Capricorn, 3pm 28 April)

22-29 April – We need to Stay Focused on One Thing here, and it needs to be The Most Important Thing.  For you in this context (ie, everything else that’s going on), that may feel like Rescuing Your Partner or Someone Else who’s Important to you, or Saving Your Relationship or Your Income or Your Domicile or some other Materially or Emotionally Important issue.  Which is Fine, but do Recognize that you’ll be Abandoning your True Self if whoever you’re Rescuing, or whatever you’re Saving, is Contrary to your Liberation or to your Soul’s Truth.

No Worries, you may just be Learning the last few Lessons that you need to Learn in order to be Truly Ready to Transcend.  This isn’t our only Opportunity to Ascend, after all, just our Most Powerful One, one where we’re Jet-Propelled.  Before we’re Jet-Propelled into our Liberation, we’re likely to be Jet-Propelled into our “Shit,” so Awareness is key here.  We Want to stay Conscious of the Difference between What We Want and What We Don’t Want, and focus on the former as much as we can.  (Saturn Stationary in 21 Capricorn, 5pm PST 29 April)

23-30 April – Yes, it may well Feel Awful, because you may be Face to Face with your Held Emotions, the ones you’d rather Die than Feel.  There are literally No Greater Opportunities to Liberate yourself from your Limitations and your Self-Sabotage – from your Karma.  Remember the story of Sisiutl, a two-headed Monster so Scary that It turns to Stone whomever Sees It.  But, if you Stand Still for It as It approaches you, Its two heads will See Each Other – and Sisiutl will turn to Stone!  (Saturn Merges with True South Node, Exact at noon PDT 30 April)

Which leaves us with a Pattern that looks like this…

In other words, it’s pretty much All At Once.  We might Feel greater Compulsion early, and greater Focus later, or we might just feel Heavy, or like Shit, for the whole two weeks – the Pluto, Chariklo, Saturn, and Saturn-South Node events are also all within a few Degrees of one another, increasing the likelihood of Merger.  When the Energies Merge, our Unconscious Reaction will likely be something like The Most Important Thing is to Stop This Persistent Feeling that I’m Dying, Compulsively using Food, Alcohol, Drugs, Sex, or whatever Crutches we’re accustomed to using.

A Conscious Response might be The Most Important Thing is to Take Advantage of this Incredible Opportunity to Liberate myself from these Karmic Chains that have become so Graphically Clear.  So how might we go about that Liberation?  Lots of Tapping.  Lots of Alternating Theta and Tapping to Distinguish our Anxiety from Reality (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/).  Lots of Poor-Sweethearting.  There’s Grace in the Full Moon chart that will Help; we’ll talk more about that soon.

It’ll help to have Buddies who understand what we Want and what’s likely to Block us from it, so they can Remind us at strategic moments what’s The Most Important Thing.  We can score the Chocolate or the Tequila after we ditch them, but meanwhile they will have slowed down our Self-Destruction.

A friend once said, “I know that This Too will Change.  But you, as an astrologer, know When it will Change!”  No matter how Crummy you Feel, know that your Work will bring an Abundance of May Flowers, and it’s not far away.