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Original Blessing 5

July 7, 2020

One of the Emotions that Guilt (asteroid Nemesis [Ego Death]) produces is the Feeling of “waiting for the other shoe to drop.”  The Challenge (T-Square) to our Guilt in the 9 July 2020 Rebirth (dwarf planet Haumea Stationary) chart derives from two incredibly complicated clusters of planets, each cluster wrapped around one End of our Hero’s Journey (the Moon’s Nodes), our Journey from Karma (South Node) to Mission (North Node).

If we look at a Lightworker’s Lifetime from the Soul’s Perspective, before Birth, Soul/we Chooses a “Project” to work on, some element that Mother Earth wants us to Help Her with, which we call our “Mission” in the Lifetime.  Our Mind is two-dimensional, while our Mission is many-dimensional, so in order to move toward Grokking our Mission, we need to use the Heart instead.  We cannot Achieve this Mission without unlocking Skills that we Learned in other Lifetimes, but which are Hidden to us in the Current Lifetime.  That’s the Hero’s Journey, locating and unlocking those Skills, which are Hidden behind our Karma, and putting them to work in service of our Mission.

That’s the Ego over there on the left, peering out from behind a pillar.  Our Needed Skills are represented by the glowing Treasure, and sleeping (Unconscious, or Denied) Smaug symbolizes our Karma.

So let’s start with the cluster of planets (Stellium in astrologuese) that envelope the particular Karma (South Node) that we need to Let Go of for this week’s Shoe-Dropping.  We’ll start by listing them one by one…

    • Our Hidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion).
    • Headquarters (the Galactic Center).
    • Self-Sovereignty (asteroid Lilith).

Our Hidden Genius (Ixion) is Hidden for a reason – because it was Forbidden to us by our Childhood Programmers.  Pre-Birth Soul/We Chose and Programmed these Helpers so they would Shame or otherwise Prohibit us from developing our Greatest Natural Skill, because there’s no better way to make sure that an Ego won’t Forget something, then to train the Ego to Believe that it’s Verboten!

It’s awful to imply a Hierarchy, because that’s how the Patriarchy does things.  It might sound misogynistic to suggest that a Black Whole would be Feminine, but that’s what’s at Headquarters (Galactic Center).  And a Whole is definitely more Feminine than Masculine.  So let’s postulate that Headquarters is where our Grandmothers hang out.  They have a lot of good Advice for us, especially about the Timing of things.

We don’t get to Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) by following anyone else’s Rules.  We have to Follow our Heart.  So the Skills we need to Recover here appear to be about our Forbidden Genius.  What is it that we Obsess about, but which we Forbid ourself from Doing or Being?  No one Changed the World by following their Culture’s Social Norms.  Real Change is about Changing the Rules.  Who are you to Change the World?  If you don’t who will?  What is it that Holds you Back?  You don’t have to do it all at once.  Little Steps are fine.  They add up.

The cluster that surrounds our Mission (North Node) is even bigger…

    • Our Intuition (dwarf planet Asbolus).
    • Trust (asteroid Eurydike).
    • Our Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos).
    • Ending TimeLines (asteroid Atropos).

Basically, it’s about Consciously Choosing to End any TimeLines (Habits) that stand in the way of Trusting our Intuition enough to Allow it to Guide us beyond our Limitations and take us to our Dreams.  The more Outrageous your Daydreams the better, but it’s your Unconscious and Semi-Conscious Limitations that keep them as Dreams rather than Actualities.  Your Daydreams may Feel Selfish, but that’s just another Excuse.  When you’re Living your Mission it will Feel so Good that you’ll have a hard time Believing that you’re Serving Life and not just Enjoying yourself.  But in 5D, Selfish and Altruistic are the same word.

Original Blessing 4

July 6, 2020

Our Rebirth Energy (Station of dwarf planet Haumea in 26 Libra) will increase in influence until 11pm PDT 9 July 2020.  It’s our Honest and Fearless Inventory of what we’re Denying (Haumea opposite dwarf planet Eris [Revelation]) that will Trigger our Rebirth, and we’ll be Reborn into an Expanded Trance with greater Self-Confidence (Haumea-Eris T-Squared by Chariklo-Jupiter-Pluto).

Most of what we Think we might be Denying will be “just” Self-Judgment.  To get to the Real Deal we’ll need to access the Unconscious, which requires a PIAVA.  For example, “I Wonder what sort of Hidden Self-Judgments Limit my Freedom to Manifest What I Want,” followed by Changing the Subject.

Guilt (asteroid Nemesis [Ego Death]) will be a huge deal (the focus of a T-Square [Challenge]), but most of it won’t be Present-Moment.  If you Feel Guilt about any recent Life issues, Ask yourself, When have I Felt this before?  You may Trace it back to your Childhood, but even that will likely be a reminder of Deeper Karmic Issues (Nemesis Square to the Nodes).  While Feeling your Guilt, close your eyes and look down at your feet (yes, “look” down with your eyes closed).  What are you wearing on your feet?  Sandals?  Moccasins?  Mukluks?  Workboots?  Anything?  Let what you “see” carry you into that Lifetime, and Forgive yourself for Having Done the Best You Could.

Anything that is Challenged (Squared) by the Hero’s Journey (the Nodes) is a major Milestone on our Life Path, so this Guilt (Nemesis) is an important nut to crack.  However…

…all those bit players on both Nodes are going to complicate everything!  But now I need Sleep, so more on that tomorrow…