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Scary Lunar Eclipse II

November 18, 2021

Sandwiched between the Storm of Sign Changes 14-21 November 2021 (previous post) and the Gonggong-Nessus Abuse Review 20-25 November, all of which tickle the Sign Cusps, the 19 November (12:58 am PST) Dang-Near Total Lunar Eclipse Full Moon chart does a good job of summarizing the whole Pickle1

💥 The first thing to notice is the Moon-Sedna Merger. Sedna is the Star of a complex Inuit story, Goddess of the Sea and of the marine Critters that have always fed the Inuit. The dwarf planet Sedna has an orbit of over eleven thousand years, compared to Pluto’s two hundred fifty years. It takes eight minutes for Light to travel from the Sun to Earth. In the far reaches of Sedna’s orbit, it takes five and a half years for the Sun’s Light to arrive. It’s quite cold out there, and our anthem that Fear is Cold and Hard while Love is Soft and Warm fits here.

A powerful Shaman disguised himself as an everyday Inuit guy, and asked Her father for Sedna’s hand in marriage. But once her father realized that Her suitor was really a Giant Bird, the father tried to rescue Her from his nest. Enraged, the Bird-Shaman rose a storm and attacked their fleeing boat. In his Terror, the father threw Sedna overboard, and when She clung to the side of the boat, cut off Her fingers. Her fingers became the Seals, and She sank to the bottom, where She still Lives, commanding the Sea Critters. Before each hunt, a Shaman is sent into the Sea to comb Her hair, placating Her rage so She’ll send some of Her Critters to be hunted. A Mermaid representing Feminine Rage and Masculine Terror.

We interpret Sedna as Converting Fear to Power, and we could equally consider it Converting Rage to Power. We usually advise Kegels as a mechanical process that will Convert Fear to Power. Kegels slow down Time, and that could also Convert Rate to Power.

💥 The second thing to notice (though it’s not in the chart) is that the Eclipsed Moon is also Merged with the Fixed Star Algol, in the Constellation Perseus. Algol is the Eye of the Gorgon, in Perseus’s hand after he has cut off Her head, as part of the destruction perpetrated by Zeus of the symbols of the Matriarchy so he can replace them with the Patriarchy. Bernadette says (Brady’s Book of Fixed Stars, p.188), “All writers agree that this is the most malefic star in the heavens and causes hangings, death by the loss of one’s head, and any other foul, demonic deed that could befall the human race.” The Chinese referred to Algol as “Piled Up Corpses.” Algol too represents Feminine Rage and Masculine Terror.

💥 The third thing to notice is the Major Challenge2 that asteroid Damocles presents to our management of these immense Energies. Damocles was a courtier to King Dionysius who flattered the opulence of the King’s Life so much that Dionysius offered to trade places with Damocles for a day. But to emphasize to Damocles that a King’s opulence comes at the price of constant danger from the King’s enemies, Dioysius hung a sword over the throne by a single horsehair. Damocles withdrew in Fear. Damocles in the chart is Larger than Life (Conjunct Jupiter).

Damocles is in the Gonggong corner of the chart, indicating that the Threat of Danger arrives through our Intrusive Memories which in the larger picture3 may well be Intrusive Memories of Abuse. However, between Damocles and Gonggong we have a Boon, in the form of asteroid Sappho, representing Self-Love. When we have our head on backwards, Sappho can also mean Self-Doubt, but Self-Doubt is never Real, it’s always just Thoughts about our Feelings.

When we Feel Self-Doubt about our Behavior or Goals, we can easily rectify that, deciding whether the Relationship merits making Amends for untoward Behavior, or running our Goals through our Heart to verify that they’re really Ours and not Someone Else’s. Self-Doubt about Our Self is Self-Abandonment. We probably need an Ego Death, but we know we can do that, don’t we, so No Worries. Usually when we Doubt Our Self, it’s because we’re trying to Judge ourself by someone else’s standards. We need to Ask ourself Who? and Why? and When did we start that? but beyond that, this is a strategy with no Winners, only Abuse.

I understand that this is can be a Dilemma if you’re trying to keep up with Amazon’s Performance Metrics and Fearing that you and/or your Family will starve if you don’t, or if Long COVID confines you to bed most of the day, but Recognize that this is about Behavior, not Self-Worth, and probably also Abusive. After a Lifetime of Abuse from others in our environs, it’s no wonder we’ve developed Habits of Self-Abuse, without even Realizing it. We feel like it’s just the Way the World Works. Many of us Bounce around from one attempt to another for the better part of our Life before we Find the place in the World where we Fit, if we ever do. Better to Bounce again than to Self-Abandon.

When we come to what feels like a Dead End, where we feel like we’re out of Bounces, we’re in the same situation as an Addict “hitting bottom.” A good way to cope with any Dead End, is to Poor-Sweetheart ourself for feeling like we’re at a Dead End. It’s a concise way to Surrender Control, to Let Go and Let God. Keep in mind that it’s not about how often we Fall Down, but how often we Get Up. If you have trouble Changing the Subject after Poor-Sweethearting yourself, Poor-Sweetheart yourself for having trouble Changing the Subject. Rinse and repeat as often as you need to. As your high-school coach used to say, “Sticktoitedness is Important.”

💥 The other two corners of the Famous Red Triangle also have their Boons. On the Moon-Sedna corner, the Moon’s North Node is nearby.4 That symbolizes our Lifetime Mission. It’s no Surprise that we’d encounter our “Upper Limits” (Gay Hendricks, The Big Leap) when we’re making major advances toward our Lifetime Mission.

💥 On the Sun corner, the Moon’s South Node5 (our Held Emotions, the ones we’d rather Die than Feel, aka our Karma) is Merged with asteroid Vesta, which symbolizes our Unconscious Limitations. That’s a tremendous Blessing, as it represents an Opportunity to Clear Out the Deepest of our Unconscious Limitations, the one’s that feel like Life or Death to us. If you Feel Deathly Ill or like Death would be a Relief, Celebrate it! That’s what it will feel like when you’re successfully Confronting Unconscious Limitations.

But the Big Boon on this corner is the asteroid Klotho, which symbolizes New Beginnings. In the midst of your Worst Feelings, you may find surges of Ecstasy climbing up your Spine – that’s what happens when you’re Willing to actually Feel those Feelings, though it’s always a Surprising “What the Devil is That about?” when it occurs. Honor it, it means Success! It means you can stop obsessing about those Bummers.

  • 1 The 25 November Station of Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is at 12 Degrees, so it’s not Cuspal, and we’ll consider it separately later. But taking the 21 November Gonggong (Intrusive Memories) Station as an introduction is warranted because Gonggong and Nessus have been traveling together for several years, so we’re accustomed to Enduring Intrusive Memories about Abuse and Privilege, so the Intrusive Memories on their own may well feel like Abuse Memories.
  • The major impact of Stations (when a planet Stands Still in the Sky) is usually felt over the week or so prior to the Station, so we’re highly likely to notice the Exaggeration (Station) of Nessus entangled with the Exaggeration of Intrusive Memories, beginning as soon as now. I’m already (on 17 November) noticing Strong Trances of Intrusive Memories, not about what I would usually consider Abuse per se, but now that I’m thinking about it, they’re revealing to me how Abusive some everyday Behaviors actually are.
  • 2 The red triangle or T-Square that Damocles and Jupiter make to the Full Moon Opposition.
  • 3 Gonggong and Nessus Stationary in the same week – see previous post and note 1 above.
  • 4 That’s the “headphones” or “earmuffs” symbol, in early Gemini. The Nodes move backwards, so from their Perspective it’s actually Late Gemini, but few Degrees.
  • 5 The “stethoscope” symbol.

There’s more – a second Famous Red Triangle T-Square Challenge that also symbolizes rising from the Ashes of your Karma, and a very Strong naked Opposition that’s actually the primary access of a Yin Gate Mystery School. After the Misery Schools we’ve been working with, that’ll be Delightful, though also not without its Frictions. We’ll deal with those in our next installment. It’s a Daunting Time, but if it doesn’t Kill us, it’ll catapult us to a much Higher level, one that we need to Aspire to if we want to Survive, and want our Species to survive, these End Times.

Scary Lunar Eclipse I

November 16, 2021

This week is all about Sign Changes…

  • Asteroid Juno entered Capricorn Sunday 14 November 2021. Juno is about Growth in Consciousness. Since late December 2020 we’ve been Growing our Awareness of What We Needed to Let Go Of (Juno in Sagittarius). Now, till early March 2022, we get to Plug in Candidates for Refilling those Holes in Our Lives (Juno in Capricorn) that Have Been Created by All That Letting Go. Voids are seldom comfortable, so I suspect that, like me, you’ve been working overtime trying to Fix the Holes Where The Rain Gets In, with less success than you would have liked, because it wasn’t time yet. That should be Changing. Yay!
  • Asteroid Karma entered Scorpio Monday 15 November. Boo! Like Frank said to Ernest, I just get my budget in order, and along comes a big surprise, like rent, or a weekend. So as they so often do, our killjoy Ancient Habits (asteroid Karma) are already pushing and shoving their way into the Holes. But this is not without Purpose. Scorpio is Relentless about Getting to the Bottom of Things. So while Juno in Sadge went home with our marbles, now we get to deal with our Addiction to our Routines. Joe Dispenza’s free series of four short workshops (still available at https://experience.hayhouseu.com/redesigningyourdestiny-video1-whereyourattentiongoes/) is about exactly that, and it’s Right On. It’s also an excellent time to reread Gay Hendricks’s The Big Leap. Asteroid Karma (“a.Karma”) has been in Libra – I hope you Deepened your most important Relationships rather than Fleeing them – since only the last few days of August, so at least the torture was short-lived. a.Karma will be done unearthing skeletons by February 20221.
  • Asteroid Vesta enters Sagittarius Tuesday 16 November. Make up yer mind, Universe! Are we Building or Dismantling? It’s always Both/And, isn’t it. If we didn’t have Apoptosis, we’d get even fatter every day than we already do. Vesta is about Our Limiting Beliefs. These days it’s only spending about two months in each Sign. So the last two months we’ve been furiously hammering away at the Beliefs that Most Limit us (Vesta in Scorpio), and we’re probably Frustrated that they seem to still be there! We did Identify them, however, and that will be a great Boon as we Let Them Go over the next few months (Vesta in Sadge). Bear in mind that Life is a lot more complicated than our Dualistic mind can comprehend, so if you think you can actually Name your Limitations, be sure to add …or something like that… to any Descriptions of them.
  • Asteroid Sappho enters Pisces Wednesday 17 November. Sappho (Self-Love and Self-Doubt) has been in Aquarius (Social Idealism) since April, seven months, but it’ll only spend two months in Pisces. I suspect we’ll be glad about that, as we could be spending a lot of time blubbering about the Barrage of Regrets we could be inundated with, as Pisces is about Finishing Unfinished Emotional Business. Whatever you Do or Feel between now and the Ides of February, be hypervigilant about Blame. Blame, whether Self- or Other-, is a total Dead End. No better way to squelch your Growth and stop your Progress toward any Goal, than to hang yourself with the Noose of Blame. Gay Hendricks advises, “that if I could consider, even for a moment, that I was not upset for the reason I thought I was [Thoughts about our Feelings again!], then I could break out of the Trance I was in. Then, I could begin to see what the real reasons were” (op.cit. p.102).
  • Asteroid Nemesis enters Capricorn Sunday 21 November. Nemesis spent three months in Sagittarius (Letting Go Of Guilt) but it’ll only spend two months in Capricorn (Putting Guilt to Work Productively). This Sign Change will be much complicated by its concurrence with the 18-21 November Exaggeration of Intrusive Memories (21 November Station of dwarf planet Gonggong2), and by concurrent Exaggeration of our Instincts (Moon Out of Bounds 20-24 November3). Not to mention the 19 November Scary Lunar Eclipse.4
  • 1 Well, not quite. a.Karma turns Retrograde in March 2022 and backs into Scorpio again in April. It finally moves into Sagittarius “for good” in September 2022. Meanwhile, a.Karma is Out of Bounds (Exaggerated) from late December 2021 in mid-Scorpio, all through 2022, till March 2023 in early Aquarius.
  • 2 Formerly known as “OR10” or “2007 OR10” (or in some ephemerides minor planet number “225088”), the dwarf planet named after the ne’er-do-well Chinese Dragon Gonggong is about Intrusive Memories. It Stands Still at 7:28 am PST November 21, in 4 Pisces. While the connection is fading, Gonggong has been hanging out near dwarf planet Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) for the last several years. This year their Stations are four days and eight Degrees apart, but with Nemesis, an Out-of-Bounds Moon, and a Scary Full Moon Eclipse involved, they’re very likely to Test the progress we’ve been making on Clearing our Abuse Issues. Two key strategies to Remember: (1) That was Then and This is Now and (2) Don’t Trust Your Thoughts about Your Feelings – Keep Coming Back to the Emotion Itself, as a Sensation in Your Body. Sink your Breath and your Attention Deeply into that Sensation, and Persistently Reject the Temptation to Trust Your Ideas and Thoughts More Than You Trust the Sensations in Your Body. If you succeed at quieting the Noise in your Mind, the Sensations will eventually talk to you, but they’ll speak through your Unitary and Multidimensional Intuition, not through your Dualistic Mind. Truth and Healing Reside in Our Bodies, Not in Our Minds. The Nessus Station occurs at 2am PST November 25, in 12 Pisces.
  • 3 Moon Out of Bounds from 9:24 am PST 20 November in 13:14 Gemini till 7:28 pm PST 24 November in 5:49 Leo, Peaking (Stationary) 2:45 pm PST 22 November at 26:21 North Declination and 9:28 Cancer.
  • 4 Virtually (about 95%) Total Eclipse (Illumination) of the Moon 12:58 am PST 19 November in 27:15 Taurus, Conjunct dwarf planet Sedna (Converting Fear to Power) and T-Square to Jupiter and asteroid Damocles (Swords about to Fall, Amplified). More about this in the next installment. The Eclipse is at 28 Degrees, the Sign Changes at 30 = 0 Degrees, and the Gonggong Station at 4 Degrees, all on or near the Cusps, which are the equivalent of the I Ching’s Changing or Moving Lines. We’ll use the Eclipse chart to represent all three.

Love Is the Answer 2

July 6, 2021

Well, not only are we entering a Portal that can take us a long way toward Liberation from our Limitations (8 July 2021 Station of Sappho – see previous post), but it comes with the ultimate gift-wrap – a “Grand Unx”! Sounds weird I know, but an “Unx” is one twelfth of something, so an Unx is the Angle between two planets one Sign apart. And a Grand Unx

…is twelve planets one Sign apart! It’s very Powerful just to sit and lose yourself in the Merkaba-like Mandala! Since the Twelfth Harmonic is about Pattern-Breaking, a Grand Unx can make it Easier for us to shed our Limitations. We had to add two planets that aren’t usually on our starting team, but we’ve seen them both before…

  • Thereus is the Bear-Wrestler that other astrofolks have impugned, but our research showed him to be a Teacher.
  • Psyche, the impossibly cute mortal Lass that seduced Cupid with her Beauty when his mother Venus sent him to eliminate the Competition. She was eventually granted immortality so she and Cupid could marry, and became the Goddess of the Soul, or that which Animates us.

We’ll talk more about this lovely Kaleidoscope. Print it out and put it up on your wall, where you can stumble across it every few hours or minutes.

Love Is the Answer

July 5, 2021

A reader and friend and Healer always signs their emails with “Love is the answer whatever the question,” and that’ll pretty much be the theme for July, and if we make it through July Alive, for the rest of our Lives.

We interpret asteroid Sappho as Self-Love and its obverse, Self-Judgment. Self-Judgment happens when our Self-Love is Lit Up but we’re Rejecting it. If we can Learn to Be Loving with our Self-Judgment and with ourself when we’re in Self-Judgment, and make it an automatic Habit, we’ll Expand our progress Exponentially toward Enlightenment, Ascension, 5D, Harmony and Understanding, Sympathy and Trust Abounding, World Peace, Apple Pie, and All Things Wonderful. We regard this as the Single Most Important Thing that we can do toward that end. We even regard it as the Most Important Thing we can do for our Health and Vitality.

Long-time readers know that we focus in this blog on the Stations of the planets. As we all go ’round the Sun, as we appear to do, each planet travels at a different speed, and therefore sometimes pass one another. If you’ve ever noticed – as a passenger, not as a driver – that when you pass another car on the freeway and continue to go faster than it is, the other car appears to be going backwards (if you’re the driver, everyone wants you to keep your eyes on the road ahead!). The same happens when we pass another planet, or it passes us. When a planet appears to be going backwards, astrologers say that the planet is “Retrograde.”

Many astrologers pay attention to Retrograde motion, and to the subtle differences it makes in how the planet influences the Affairs of Hupers and other Earthly Entities. We pretty much Ignore that, as I’ve found in my many decades of following astrology that, except in special cases, it’s not that big a deal to me. Or it’s too subtle for me, which is fine with me, since I like to keep my eye on the Big Picture. On the other hand, what we Do pay Attention to in this blog, are the Transitions that planets make between Direct and Retrograde motion, and back again. We and other astrologers refer to this Transition as a Station, because in the process the planet becomes Stationary in the Sky.

When we speak in English instead of astrologuese, we often refer to a Station as an Exaggeration of the planet’s Energy. So we might say that there’s an “Exaggeration of Self-Love or Self-Judgment (asteroid Sappho Stationary),” or when we slip into astrologuese, “Station of Sappho (Exaggeration of Self-Love or Self-Judgment),” or the like. We pay Attention to planetary Stations because the impact that a planet has on us Earthlings is much Stronger when the planet is Stationary. This makes it Easier to Learn about the planet and its Tricks, and it’s especially important when the Station happens to fall close to one of our natal planets, because it will Trigger whatever Karma or Unfinished Business that we have with the Energy embodied by that natal planet. If we really Learn to Be Loving with our Self-Judgment and with ourself when we’re in Self-Judgment, and make it an automatic Habit, we can Clear whatever untoward Karma we have with that Energy, quite possibly for good.

All of which is a long way of saying that the first Station of July is a Sappho Station, on 8 July 2021 (3:45 pm PDT), in 28 Aquarius. So this coming week will give us the Opportunity to Clear any Negative Karma we have around any natal planet we have within several Degrees of 28 Aquarius. To a lesser extent, we can also use it to Clear Negative Karma around natal planets we have near 28 Degrees of any of the other “Fixed” or Stabilizing Signs (Leo, Scorpio, and Taurus). All we have to do is to Be Loving with our Self-Judgments and with ourself when we’re in Self-Judgment.

We can’t just suddenly Love what we Judge, because your Deeper You will know you’re just scamming it. The first thing we can do, is Love ourself while we’re in Judgment. We can try TappingEven though I’m in Judgment, I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself…” That should bring your Mental Body into better Alignment with your Energy Body. You want to repeat that Tapping as many times as it takes to feel solid about yourself. From there you can begin to work with What it is you Judge about them. Use all of your Critical Observer Skills, but try to Avoid your Analysis Skills. For me, “Even though I Judge Greed, I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself…” might come next. Probably good to Change the Subject and give it a rest around this point, and check back in tomorrow or the next day. We have all month after all.

We assign the Sappho Station to highlight the whole month of July not only because Love is The Most Important Thing and Love doesn’t happen without Self-Love, but also because after Sappho there are six other planetary Stations in July, and five of them are within three Degrees of the Station of Sappho, plus seven Sign Changes, which occur two Degrees away. That’s a huge Emphasis on the Cusps between the Signs, which are about Changes.

The Impact of a Station is Strongest in the week prior to the Station, but it remains Strong in the week or so afterward as well. The Impact often Peaks when the planet Stands Still, but it can be Felt before or after, depending on interactions with other planets, and interactions with your natal planets. The other Stations…

  • Exaggerated Rebirth (dwarf planet Haumea Stationary 11 July 5:54 am PDT, in 27 Libra). To the extent we succeed in Loving our way through the Sappho Station, this Portal could take us to places we’ve only Dreamed of.
  • Exaggerated Boundaries (asteroid Pallas Stationary 14 July 12:40 am PDT, in 28 Pisces). Time to harden Boundaries with the folks who have been sharing our Pity Party about how Abused we’ve been by those we’ve been Judging, and Soften our Boundaries yet more with the Parts of ourself that have been propping up our Ego with pride about our Judgments. NOT to soften our Boundaries with those whom we’ve been Judging. We still may not Like those people, and we don’t want to be Self-Abusive about all this. We mostly want to Recover the Parts of ourself that we’ve been Rejecting, see if we can Befriend them and Negotiate a Win-Win with them, and see where that leads.

We also Reset our Relationships (Venus Conjunct Mars 13 July 6:32 am PDT, in 20 Leo) on the same day as we Reorganize our Boundaries. What a “Coincidence”! 20 Leo is “Zuni Indians perform a Ritual to the Sun: A return to the glorification of natural energies.” Hallelujah!

  • Possible Exaggerated Despair (Chiron Stationary 15 July 9:40 am PDT, in 13 Aries). Note that this isn’t close to our 28 Degree Hot Spot, but we’re talking about some potentially devastating Ego Deaths here, and Discouragement lingering in the background can hardly be helpful. Remember your Self-Empathy (“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Horrible, aren’t you ” – then Change the Subject), as it Creates Miracles that will mesh with this Rebirth beautifully, and probably Ecstatically.
  • Exaggerated Guilt (asteroid Nemesis Stationary 18 July 1:06 pm PDT, in 29 Scorpio). We’ve been Confused by this since early April, when Nemesis went Retrograde in mid-Sagittarius (the Way Out is through Letting Go) and fell back into Scorpio (the Way Out is through Diving Deeper, till we Get to the Bottom of This) on 24 June. Nemesis has been in Scorpio (Compulsively Wallowing in our Guilt) since 26 October, and what a Healing Crisis that always is! It will move back into Sagittarius “for good” on 11 August, and what a Relief that will be! Meanwhile, be sure to be Loving with your Guilt, and with yourself while you’re in Guilt. Later we’ll Tap this out like we’re doing with Judgment.
  • Exaggerated Revelation of What’s Been Denied (dwarf planet Eris Stationary 20 July 2:08 am PDT, in 25 Aries). What a “Coincidence” that Eris would Light Up while we’re working with the Parts of ourself that we haven’t Acknowledged.
  • Exaggerated Fate, and if we’re Conscious, its obverse, Choice (asteroid Moira Stationary 22 July 9:12 pm PDT, in 29 Pisces). Another remarkable “Coincidence,” that our Fate (ie, our Karma) should be Lit Up just as we’re Clearing that very Karma. What a Gift this is. Notice that this is the same location as our earlier Pallas (Boundaries) Station. It’s a good time to recall that our Karma/Fate is a Political Fiction that disappears as soon as we Bring it into Consciousness, and do the hard work of Noticing that it’s been Screwing Up that part of our Life too! while we Patiently and Consciously Replace it with New Habits.
  • Exaggerated Growth in Consciousness (asteroid Juno Stationary, 2 August 4:23 pm PDT, 9 Sagittarius). Another remarkable “Coincidence” – Growth in Consciousness is exactly what’s needed to Revert our Negative Karma.

Plus, we have seven Sign Changes, which of course also occur close to our Open Wound at 28 Degrees, and three of which are moving into the Sign of Ego Death (Virgo)…

  • Aletheia (Truth of the Heart) enters Taurus (Walking in Beauty) 9 July 6:22 am PDT.
  • Mercury (Mental Gymnastics) enters Cancer (Nurturing) 11 July 1:35 pm PDT.
  • Ixion (our Unique Genius) backs into Sagittarius (Letting Go of our Inhibitions) 16 July 2:48 am PDT.
  • Venus (our Values) enters Virgo (Ego Death) 22 July 5:36 pm PDT.
  • Mercury (Communication, Anal-ysis) enters Leo (Self-Appreciation) 27 July 6:11 pm PDT.
  • Mars (Action) enters Virgo (Ego Death) 29 July 1:00 pm PDT.
  • Atropos (Karma Reaching Its Natural Expiry Date) enters Virgo (Ego Death) 1 August 4:07 pm PDT.

And, did we mention that the 8 July Sappho Station, the 9 July New Moon, the 22 July Moira Station, and the 23 July Full Moon all occur while the Moon (Instincts, Manifestation) is Out of Bounds (Strong).

Rebirth

January 23, 2021

is our next big Station event, as dwarf planet Haumea, named after Pele’s Hawaiian Fertility-Goddess Daughter, Stands Still in the Sky at 10:45 am PST 26 January 2021, in 29 Libra. We’re already immersed in its Energy. Unless you think like a Rock, or spend most of your time in Fire Signs, I suppose Haumea could seem like a Violent Rebirth, especially if your house gets in the way. It certainly Violates the Ego, usually emerging in the wake of its Annihilation. That’s almost always a positive development though, well worth the labor pains.

Before we get there however, we have a bunch of Sign Changes and other minutiae to Entertain us…

🌅 Asteroid Klotho is also about Rebirth, as it’s the Greek Goddess of Fate after whom cloth was named. She “cut the cloth” from which our Fate was sewn. Consciousness is our Get Out of Fate Free card. Well, almost Free. We have to not only bring our Fate or Karma into Consciousness, but then we have to Notice when it begins to recur, Choose to Do or Invite something different, and then Repeat many times till it becomes the Dominant Habit. It may be a Help to do this while Klotho is lit up, such as this week or the week of 15 February, as that should make it much easier to Begin a New and Better Pattern to replace the olde Karmic one.

Klotho moved into Scorpio on 19 January, though it turns Retrograde 19 February and backs into Libra again in March. It won’t return to Scorpio till September, and then it hurries through, moving into Sagittarius in November. Klotho in Libra increases the odds of making Connections with new people, while in Scorpio it’s about Inspirational New Projects that have Deep Meaning for you. In Sagittarius you’re likely to be Opening Space for the Unknown to occur.

🌅 Asteroid Nemesis, which we might Experience as Guilt if we don’t Let Go of it, and as Ego Death if we do, has been in Scorpio since October 2020, wherein we’ve probably taken Guilt and Ego Death very seriously. It moved into Sagittarius 21 January, where we’ll be highly Motivated to Clear our Guilt Calendar so we can Enjoy Life more while Sea Level is still at bay. We’ll be Letting Go of Guilt till June before Nemesis backs into Scorpio to reprocess the Regrets which have proved Resistant to our efforts to Leave them Behind. We have to Fully Accept Reality As It Is before we can Change it. It returns to Sagittarius in August and in November moves on into Capricorn.

🌅 Asteroid Moira is named after the Goddess of Fate herself. It symbolizes that ancient mental masturbation about whether Fate or Free Will characterizes our Planet. It’s like when the Heart and Brain were arguing over which of them was more indispensable, when in walked the Anus. All Either/Ors are artifacts of the Observing Mind, because Reality doesn’t include Either/Ors, just Both/Ands. The difference between Fate and Free Will is Consciousness. When we’re Conscious of our “Fate” (ie, our Karma or pre-birth Habit Patterns) we can Choose Otherwise.

Moira entered Capricorn in November, wherein Pragmatism was likely to rule and we hopefully Discerned quite a bit of Karma and scheduled it for Change. In Aquarius, which it entered on 22 January but in which it only remains for two months before moving on to Pisces, we’re likely to be working on Changing our Social Habits, softening some Boundaries and stiffening others. The recent shift where the urge to Pale Supremacy managed to criminalize itself is undoubtedly a prime example. Even if it ends up swept under the rug again, every episode like this one weakens the Karmic Pattern.

🌅 Speaking of Karma (it’s always Listening!), asteroid Karma backed into Leo on 22 January. It’s been in Leo since September, but began visiting Virgo in November. When Karma’s in Leo we work on our Unconditional Self-Love. In Virgo we just Surrender (Willingly or otherwise) our Self-Doubt to Ego Death. Our remedial work in Leo lasts till June, then we finish Virgo in the following three months. It would behoove us to Reframe Self-Doubt as a signal to Poor-Sweetheart ourself, instead of a signal to go into the mind and figure out why we’re so inferior.

🌪️ Then there’s Moon Out of Bounds, when the Moon moves more Northerly than the Sun’s Northern Solstice and we become more Emotional than usual. It’s subtle, because we attribute it to External “Causes” rather than our Internal Reactions. Emotions don’t have Causes. Cause is an Intellectual Concept that Western Civilization has become Addicted to since Isaac Newton got pissed off after Eve hit him in the head with an Apple. The Moon goes Out of Bounds at 7:10 pm PST on 24 January, till 6:53 pm PST on 27 January. It’s Stationary, as it turns around to head back South, on 26 January at 7:40 am PST. While it’s Out of Bounds it spans 22 Gemini through 30 Cancer, Standing Still at 11 Cancer.

🌅 On 26 January, Haumea Stands Still Conjunct Klotho, but we’ll have been Feeling this Urge to Reboot all week already. We’re intending to dedicate a post to this Station soon.

🌅 On 27 January Chariklo moves into Aquarius. Chariklo isn’t just another asteroid, but a dwarf planet with a 63-year orbit, so this is a Big Deal. Chariklo is about Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt. In Capricorn, where it’s been since January 2015, we’ve had the tools (Capricorn’s Practicality) to effectively address and Reject Self-Doubt, but we’re more likely to have followed the Cultural Folly of our Programming and gone into our Mental Labyrinth seeking “Reasons” that we might be able to “Correct,” simply because that’s our Cultural Karma. Self-Doubt is an Emotion, so seeking Reasons is like looking under the streetlight for the keys that we lost back in the woods, because the Light’s better under the streetlight. Like Despair, Self-Doubt is another prime candidate for Poor-Sweethearting.

Chariklo stays in Aquarius till February 2028, except for a short Capricorn debriefing in September-November 2021 and a preview of Pisces in April-July 2027. Chariklo in Aquarius is likely to Challenge our Codependence, as we may be in the Habit of Confusing Social Approval with Self-Confidence. 5D won’t work unless we all Contribute our Heart’s Truth without Diminishing or Intimidating anyone else’s Heart’s Truth (we’re fresh from a four-year lesson from a Master about how NOT to do this). So we may have to Work on ourself, and solicit Help from others, to Learn to have complete Confidence in our own Heart’s Truth without hedging it to protect or flatter anyone else’s Ego, and without Hesitating out of Caution or Fear, as some of us may have been doing for the last four years living under the shadow of an Abusive Tyrant wannabe.

🌅 Then on 28 January asteroid Sappho (symbolizing Unconditional Self-Love) moves into Capricorn until April 2021, from Sagittarius where it’s been since November 2020. Since November we’ve been Letting Go of Impediments to our Unconditional Self-Love. Now we’ll turn the tides and begin Learning new ways to Enhance our Self-Love. While Sappho in Capricorn is short-lived, its timing is obviously a booster for the entrance of Chariklo into Aquarius.

If nothing else we can work on the Habit of quickly Poor-Sweethearting ourself (and then of course Changing the Subject) every time we Notice that we’re touching Self-Doubt or Hesitating to Speak our Truth because of Codependence or Caution. We don’t need to practice Taking Risks to Speak our Truth when it’s Dangerous. Every time we Poor-Sweetheart ourself we shift our Identity, and once we’ve shifted it enough times we’ll find ourself Speaking Up with Full Authority and without Coercion, as we simply get Grounded in our own Truth. When our Languaging doesn’t Coerce and our Authority is Grounded, our Presence will be Strong enough that Danger is no longer an issue. As my First Teacher used to say, “When your Body is Filled with your own Energy, no one can Invade you.”

🌅 Finally, at 3pm PST on 29 January, Out-of-Bounds asteroid Eurydike (Trust) reaches its Northernmost extent at 29 Degrees North and Stands Still as it turns around to head South again. It’s at 18 Cancer when it Stations. I expect we’ll be more Intensely Experiencing whatever Trust Issues we may be Working with, for the week or so prior to the 29th. A likely time for this Experience to peak would be the neighborhood of 9pm PST 26 January, when the Out-of-Bounds Moon crosses the Out-of-Bounds Eurydike. The crossing is in longitude, at 19 Cancer – the Moon will be only 25 Degrees North, four Degrees South of Eurydike. That would be approximately overhead at Havana Cuba and Fort Lauderdale Florida, or Dhaka Bengladesh and Lhasa Tibet. Your 19-Cancer natal planets may be jumping up and down and shouting for your Attention.

Abuse Flushbacks III

November 26, 2020

Alas, we aren’t done with our Abuse Flushbacks yet, as the 30 November 2020 Full Moon (1:30 am PST, in 9 Gemini) is Challenged (T-Squared) by Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus). The Full Moon also includes a second significant Challenge. While not done pouting, and probably not done seeking revenge, at least the Antichrist has allowed the Future to proceed. Interesting coincidence that he did it the day after his favorite planet, Nessus, finished being Exaggerated (Stationary).

We have a couple of Thresholds today (Sign Changes, on 25 November). The asteroid of Trust (Eurydike), having dipped his toe into Majesty (Leo) for two weeks, discovered that the World was not ready to Embrace Respect (Leo) yet, and at 8am PST hightailed it back into Compassion (Cancer). He’ll try again in early June to see if we’re able by then to have Confidence (Leo) in our Trust for one another. I hope everybody remembers that if one party plays Win-Win and the other plays Win-Lose, the Win-Lose party Wins.

And at around 1pm PST, the asteroid of Self-Love (Sappho) finished her Investigation of Hidden Impediments (Scorpio) to Unconditional Self-Love, and moved into the space where she can Shake them Off (Sagittarius), Tenderize the scar tissue, and fully Embrace herself. This period only lasts till the end of January, but then she Gets to Work in Earnest (Capricorn) on the many new projects that her newfound Wholeness permits, before she does a Deep Review of the Social Contract (Retrograde in Aquarius) starting in April and taking up most of the rest of 2021.

Meanwhile, back to the future, as we’re already Deep in the Arms of Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity (Neptune Stationary 28 November 4:30 pm PST in 19 Pisces). The most important thing to Remember while Neptune is Acting Out, is that Confusion is the first Stage of Growth. Confusion means that the intellectual justifications for our Limiting Beliefs are Breaking Down, and these Beliefs are like a Birdcage that keeps us Locked In, but also provide Comfort because it’s Familiar. It’s Scary when the bars in the Cage loosen, as if Granny gave Sylvester the keys to Tweety’s Cage, and we’re Tweety. If it’s too Scary, try Kegels. Or just Breathe – Fear plus Breathing = Excitement.

Simultaneous with the Neptune Station we’re Blessed with an Exaggeration of our Ability to Reject Obsolete Habits (Station of asteroid Atropos 27 November 12:50 pm PST in 8 Leo), especially with regard to Health and Vitality (Conjunct dwarf planet Varuna). The Atropos Station occurs two and a half days and one and a half Degrees before the Full Moon, and Atropos-Varuna is the Focus of the second Challenge in the Full Moon chart. We’ll describe the details of that Challenge later.

Be Mindful that Rejecting Obsolete Health and Vitality Habits often coincides with “Healing Crises,” when symptoms worsen. Many of us got special treatment when we were sick as children, and we Learned that getting sick was a way to get an extra vacation, even if we had to tolerate the symptoms of it. Though the “modern” Scienterrific and Capitalist view is that Illness is a Biochemical process, Biochemistry is really a Perspective, not an Objective Absolute.

Illness is actually a Trance, and with enough Power and Skill it’s possible to Take Off an Illness the way we Take Off a coat, though so far, relatively few people have that much Power and Skill. You may know someone who’s Experienced such a “Miracle Healing,” or Experienced one yourself. I’ve mentioned a few in these pages. They’re common in Homeopathy and Acupuncture, because we’ve been Programmed to Believe in the Allopathic Birdcage that excludes low-profit modalities.

The Bottom Line is that, if you’re Feeling Unwell and your symptoms worsen this weekend, wait until after the 30 November Full Moon to get Scared about it. You may discover that your Fear would have been wasted, as you were just having a “Healing Crisis.” But meanwhile, we have a fabulous Opportunity to watch ourself argue with ourself over which Mental-Emotional Reality we Want to Subscribe to – “I’m gonna Die!” or “I Wonder if I really can Take this Off like a coat.” Have Fun with it.

When you’re in the “Wondering if you really can Take this Off like a coat” role, make the Effort to stay in Curiosity, and Avoid Anal-ysis and Answers and Yes-Buts, and Especially Avoid looking for Mechanisms. If you know the Mechanism, it’s not a Miracle, and you Want to Cultivate Miracles so you can go Directly from Objective to Outcome through enlisting the right Allies and Perspectives, as we will in 5D. More like, “Wouldn’t it be Awesome if I could Take this Off like a coat.” Indulge that “Fantasy,” and see how long you can stay in that “Daydream.” You might start to Recognize other Lifetimes where that sort of Healing was routine.

We’ve been busy working on other Issues and haven’t been talking about it, but don’t forget that we’re only three and a half weeks from the Beginning of the Digital Age (Jupiter-Saturn Conjunctions in Air Signs, this one 21 December 9am PST in 1 Aquarius, 7 hours after the Capricorn Solstice). This replacement for the 200-year Industrial Age (Jupiter- Saturn Conjunctions in Earth Signs) that faded in 1980 to make room for a 20-year Digital Teaser (1980-2000) and a 20-year Industrial Debriefing (2000-2020), will span the next two centuries.

Remember what Life was like when computers only lived in Institutions? The desktop computer became useful for more than hobbyists and feasible on a wide scale when IBM introduced the “PC” with Microsoft “DOS” software, just about the time of the first Jupiter-Saturn Air Conjunction in 1980. At about the same time, clumsy “1G” cellular phone systems were introduced in Japan and Scandinavia (the first iPhone didn’t appear till 2007). A primitive version of Microsoft Windows appeared in 1985. The World Wide Web (then commonly called the “World Wide Wait”) and the “web browser” were introduced in 1991. The “Dot-Com Crash” in 2000 coincided almost to the day with the end of the Digital Teaser (last Earth-Sign Jupiter-Saturn Conjunction).

The Digital Teaser was about more than computing, though most of the other new technologies that came along were enhanced, or even made feasible, by computing. The “rare-earth” Neodymium Magnet, which makes modern electric cars and wind power generation feasible, was developed in 1984. The Lithium-Ion Battery was prototyped in 1985 and commercialized in 1991. Toyota combined these with a small gasoline engine, controlled by computer, in the Prius, the first mass-produced modern electric car, introduced in 1997. Without the higher power output of the Nd Magnet and the light weight of Li-ion Batteries, electric cars never got beyond the golf cart.

On 29 November (4pm PST in 14 Virgo), Vesta (Unconscious Limiting Beliefs) Conjoins Orcus (Breaking Karmic Vows and Decisions). We’ve talked about this a couple of times recently, and it’s a window where Letting Go of Obsolete Habits may be Easier than they would be otherwise. On the other hand you may have to Re-Experience some of the reasons you made those Karmic Vows and Decisions, which could be a Bummer. Be Mindful of this, so you can Focus on the Letting Go instead of being Sucked into the Emotional Drama of the Memories.

Also on 29 November, asteroid Karma leaves Leo and moves into Virgo (6pm PST). The upside here is that Virgo is about Ego Death, and we need Ego Death in order to Jettison our Attachment to Karma, because our Karma is a big part of that Birdcage that keeps us Comfortable but Limited. “Ego” is just Identity. One minute you’re a Nurse or a Construction Worker or a Cook, another you’re a Spouse or a Parent or an Employee, the next you’re Watching TV. “You Are” is a statement of Identity, “You Are X” means that you and X are the same thing.

If you have a heavy Mental-Emotional Investment in being a Nurse or Spouse or TV-Watcher, then that Identity (Ego) will Limit your Ability to Shift your Identity. That’s Ego Death, where our Investment causes us to think “I will Die!” instead of I will Die!” (ie, “My Identity will be Transformed!“), with all of the Emotional Baggage that comes along with Fear of Death. I hope you’re starting to see how we’re tied into a huge Gordian Knot this weekend, where everything is all tangled up with everything else. Keep Fantasizing about how much you’ll Enjoy 5D, where you’re so In Tune with Nature that you know exactly Who to Ask to Manifest any Outcome you Want, without having to Force anything.

Self-Love New Moon 2

November 14, 2020

In the 14 November 2020 New Moon chart, the planets in the “Basket of Grace” (blue upside-down Truss Bridge) under the red triangle are an interesting pair. They tell us How the Nasty Challenge (T-Square red triangle) will Self-Resolve. First there’s dwarf planet Eris, which is about Revelation of What’s Been Denied, and second there’s dwarf planet Asbolus, meaning Intuition, Merged With (Conjunct) the North Node, which indicates our Lifetime Mission.

Our Life Mission is way too multidimensional for the Dualistic Mind to be able to do more than get an occasional glimpse of it from one angle, so if our Life Mission were an Elephant, we’d be the seven Blind Men trying to figure out what it is. Our Intuition, though, is able to handle many more Dimensions, as long as we don’t constantly Diminish it by squeezing it into Words. So our Intuition has been giving us Videos of our Life Mission in the form of Skits from our Childhood and Past Lives (Eris).

Asbolus and the North Node are three and a half Degrees apart and separating, so the Connection is weakening, but both of them are well within three Degrees of the New Moon, so they’re Reconnected and Re-Energized by the New Moon. (Three Degrees is the Limit of Connection that we use in this blog; it and one Degree are the most common Limits of Connection that astrologers use. The less Difference between the Locations, the Stronger the Connection.) The Asbolus-North Node Connection was Exact at the end of August, within one Degree between mid-August and mid-September, and within three Degrees between late July and late September, so we’ve been Experiencing this Connection for a while.

Intuition can be illusive. My Intuition Teacher advised me to Ask myself “What If I Did Know?” and tentatively Believe the Answer I got. Translating an Intuition into Words is like pinning a Butterfly to a block of styrofoam – it might look good, but you’ve just Killed it. So Word Pictures of Intuitions are always tentatively or “…Or Something Like That,” as Eugene Gendlin liked to say. But the point is that the Information is Available. We can try retrieving it with a Theta such as “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Grok the Intuitions about my Life Mission that I Received over the Summer (North) or Winter (South) so they will Help Me Let Go of Karmic Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You God/Goddess. Show Me!

In case you haven’t read Heinlein, Grok means “to drink in all available aspects of reality or to become one with the observed,” the multidimensional equivalent of “Understanding,” which is what the Limited Dualistic Mind does. You may or may not Notice any lightbulbs over your head, but it may be better if you don’t, because then you’ll be less Tempted to Wordify it. Just Trust that you’ve Received and Grokked the Download, and that it has Changed you accordingly.

We need this because the next week plus will be Challenging. Our Ability to Trust, and to Grok what’s Trustable so we can Trust it, is Lit Up through 17 November, as asteroid Eurydike, which symbolizes Trust, is increasingly Exaggerated until 1am PST on 18 November. As usual with astrology, that’s for Good or Ill, as our Trust will be Challenged so we can Witness the places where we OverTrust and UnderTrust and Adjust accordingly.

In the New Moon chart asteroid Veritas, the Truth of the Mind, is Merged with Pluto, Compulsion. We may or may not Believe Facts, depending on whether or not they Align with our current Concept Set. For instance, many people Reject the Fact that the Earth is Flat (when seen from the center of a plain, for instance) because they’ve been Hypnotized by “Science” to Believe that it’s Round. It might Look Round from the Moon, but we don’t Live on the Moon. It might Look Curved from an airplane, but there are lots of Curves that aren’t Round. The Dualistic Mind will always Delude you unless you always specify the conditions under which each “Fact” is “True” – and what a Headache that would be.

It’s a lot Easier if we just recognize that like Loki or Coyote, the Mind is a Trickster, simply because it usually thinks in Either/Or, while the Universe is Both/And. “Figures don’t Lie, but Liars sure can Figure,” is a general rule that Statisticians use, if they know what they’re doing. The Truth of the Mind is always Relative to usually-unspecified and often-unknown Assumptions and Conditions, and it’s Dual, so it usually Flips rather than Adjusts. Goddess Knows we’re getting a graduate seminar in Exactly This in our Political Dramas these days. This is Grade-School Bullshit, and we need to see through it so we can instead Focus on The Most Important Thing – Climate Change, as the Dali Lama reminds us. If we don’t, Death by COVID might turn out to be the more Merciful Choice.

In the New Moon chart, Pluto-Veritas (Compulsive Belief in “Facts”) is Challenged (Squared) by Eris, or Revelation of What’s Been Denied. Compulsive Belief in “Facts” is also Contrasted (Opposed) to Respect for All Things (asteroid Hopi) – we will never see Peace and Collaboration and 5D and Sustainability as long as we invest our Trust in Either/Or. Reality is always Both/And.

Besides Compulsive Belief in “Facts” (Pluto-Veritas), Revelation of What’s Been Denied (Eris) and Respect for All Things (Hopi), the fourth corner of the big red square (a “Grand Cross” in astrologuese) in the New Moon chart is The Heart (Venus). It’s the Heart that Groks. The Truth of the Heart is symbolized by asteroid Aletheia. For any given Person, the Truth of the Heart is not Relative like “Facts” are, but Absolute. What we have to Remember about the Heart is that Everyone’s Truth of the Heart is Different. You can, if you’re clever, convince someone to Believe in the “Truth” of your “Facts.” Shame on you, but you can do it.

You’ll never convince anyone to Believe in the Truth of your Heart, if their Heart has a Different Truth. They might pretend to Believe to get you off their back, but our Heart-Truths are Permanent and Inviolable. We Recognize them Intuitively, not Intellectually. Heart-Truths are multidimensional, and suffer Wordification poorly. As long as Hupers fail to Recognize the Difference between Mind-“Facts” and Heart-Truths, and fail to Realize that Everyone’s Heart-Truths are Different, there will never be Peace on the Planet.

How does asteroid Aletheia relate to the New Moon chart? Like so…

That’s a “Grand Quintile,” Grand because it fills the whole chart, and Quintile because it features five planets more or less equally space around the Zodiac. Quintiles are about Teaching and Learning, and a Grand Quintile is about Multidimensional Teaching and Learning. There are twenty-six Relationships we’re being Taught to Grok

  • Truth of the Heart (Aletheia) to Self-Love (Sappho-New Moon)
  • Heart-Truth to Pattern-Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus)
  • Heart-Truth to Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos)
  • Heart-Truth to Freedom (Fixed Star Alpheratz)
  • Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking
  • Self-Love to Unlimited Potential
  • Self-Love to Freedom
  • Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential
  • Pattern-Breaking to Freedom
  • Unlimited Potential to Freedom

Then there are the sixteen Interaction terms…

  • Heart-Truth to Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking etc (10)
  • Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential to Freedom etc (5)
  • Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential to Freedom to Heart-Truth to Self-Love (1)

That’s a lot to Learn. It’s a good thing it’s Intuitive, as it’d boggle the Mind. These apply to the New Moon chart, ie, the next two weeks. Meanwhile we’re Dealing with Trust until 18 November, as Eurydike Stands Still. So we’ll be Learning how Trust Relates to each of those twenty-six Relationships. Busy Busy Busy.

Then the Real Teaching takes center stage, as Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet Gonggong) are Lit Up till 20 November and Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus) are Lit Up till 22 November. The Poster Child for Abuse and Privilege is the Antagonist of the Big Political Drama, and it’s our own Intrusive Memories of all of our own Karmic Abuse and Privilege Experiences and Patterns that will be Triggered. How many of us will be able to Differentiate the Present Moment from our Regressions?

And the Mind-Truths of Privilege for the White Supremacists? The Heart-Truths of Privilege for the Narcissists? I doubt that many of them will Know the Difference between Reality and their Projections, but we can always pray for Miracles. There are Intriguing Possibilities in the Angle between the New Moon and each of the three Stations – Eurydike, Gonggong, Nessus. We’ll talk about those in the next post.

Self-Love New Moon

November 13, 2020

New Moons Suggest the tone and traffic we can expect in the following two to four weeks. The 14 November 2020 (9:06 pm PST) New Moon is Merged with (Conjunct) the symbol for Unconditional Self-Love (asteroid Sappho)…

This is in Scorpio, and Scorpio is about Fearlessness and the Compulsion to Get to the Bottom of Things, so we can Expect to find All of our Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love to be showing up in the next few weeks. Welcome them. They’re Showing Up so you can Bless them and Let them Go. Once and For All, if you’re Willing. Memorize this paragraph, and repeat it to yourself every five minutes for the next several weeks.

Let’s start by Tapping Out our Impediments. “Even though I don’t Allow myself Unconditional Self-Love, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself ” or some such. What came up while you were doing that? Tap It Out.Even though I don’t Take Full Responsibility for the way Certain People Irritate Me, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself,” just to use a random example. By the way, Responsibility is very Different from Blame. Taking Responsibility means you Respond to the circumstance. If you’re good at NVC, you can talk Honestly about your Experience without making anyone Defensive, maybe even working up a Win-Win out of it. Blame is about looking backward to assign Guilt, while Responsibility is about looking forward to Change Outcomes.

Follow up your Tapping with a Theta on the order of “God/Goddess, Creator of All Things, I Command that I henceforth Unconditionally Allow Myself Unconditional Self-Love. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!” Then Tap Out each of your Yes-Buts. Go back and forth between Theta and Tapping as many times as you have Patience for.

There’s a lot to talk about in this chart, and since it’s a Self-Love chart, it Deserves every bit of it. I want to start by talking about asteroid Damocles, the symbol for Preemptive Guilt. Damocles isn’t on our list of usual astrosuspects, but he’s one of my favorites. He was a Leader with a (hopefully) virtual Sword suspended over his head, ready to drop if he made too many enemies, or the “wrong” enemy. Talk about an Editor on our Yintegrity! In the New Moon chart, Damocles Challenges (Squares) our Self-Love! If we’re always on Probation with ourself or our Loved Ones or Significant Others, we preempt our Self-Love before it even starts!

I didn’t write it into the chart because it’s just beyond our usual limit of three Degrees (it’s three and a half Degrees away), but asteroid Karma, signifying you guessed it, sits across the chart from Damocles, so the two of them gang up to make a Nasty Challenge (T-Square, or 90-Degree triangle). So not only are we Fearlessly Scraping the Bottom of the Barrel (Scorpio) looking for Self-Judgment – and you know damn well you’re going to Believe it when it first comes up, before you reread that earlier paragraph you saved – but we’re also Scraping the Bottoms of our Past Lives! Gonna be a Fun several weeks.

Now, bear in mind that the “we” in that sentence about Scorpio isn’t our Ego, it’s our Soul. To the Ego it’s going to feel like Somebody Else is Attacking us and Triggering our worst Vulnerabilities. Till we reread the earlier paragraph and Recognize that this is about Bringing up Ancient Scabbed-Over Buboes so they can finally be Healed. Nightmares! But look more closely. There’s a Finger of the Goddess (the green wedge, meaning Pay Attention!) pointing at the New Moon and Sappho.

When both a Nasty Challenge T-Square and a Pay Attention! Finger of the Goddess point to the same place, the result is a Self-Resolving Challenge (called a Diamond Star in astrologuese). Whew! So yes, all this Shit’s gonna hit the Fan, but If we can stand to be a Curious Spectator, it’s all going to Heal Itself! Here’s the Diamond Star…

In these charts, red means Stress (the red triangle or T-Square), green means Curiosity (the green wedge or Finger of the Goddess), and blue means Grace (the blue “basket” under the T-Square that completes the Diamond Star) – and means “Happily Ever After” if we can stand to stay in Curiosity while we Watch the Dramas Unfold without getting Anal-ytical or Emotionally Involved. It Is What It Is. Without the Curiosity, we get sucked into the Stress and Discount the Grace.

Love Dies when Judgment Replaces Curiosity.

This isn’t Curiosity as in “Hmmm, how can I fix this now?” It’s Curiosity as in “Look at that Remarkable Thing!” As in Awe and Wonder. Unconditional Self-Love is one of the keys to 5D, so I hope most of us use this Opportunity to Advance our Neutrality. But it also applies to what’s going on in the World. If we can Watch the Spectacle as if Shakespeare wrote it, and admire the Literary talent, the Drama will Self-Resolve and Subside.

That’s your Karma being Acted Out on the World Stage. As with all Karma, the Choice is yours. You can Grasp it because it’s so Familiar, and Strengthen it’s Hold on your Ego-Self. Or you can Let It Go and dare to Choose an Alternative. Meanwhile, we hope to find time to write more about the overall chart, because it’s fascinating.

Halloween

October 31, 2020

I always make a lot more sense when I’m answering a direct question. Tonight my wife asked me what was going on astrologically for Halloween…

The 2020 Halloween Blue Moon Full Moon is a Stand-In for the Big Event of next Tuesday, which is when dwarf planet Varuna is Max Strong. The Full Moon is Crossing Stationary Varuna as we speak. Varuna is the Life Force. Will we still have Health Care (even if it’s mostly Care for the Cartel’s wallets, alotta people depend on it) after the Election next week? Will we Survive the Carumbavirus? Will we be able to make rent and eat? Basic stuff, very First-Chakra. You’re Feeling it already.

Meanwhile, Mercury – Mental Noise – is Lit Up on Tuesday as well. So most people are paying more Attention to the Brainrattling than the real Survival Issue, and the Antichrist is a Master at Brainrattling. Then Tuesday evening the Moon goes Outabounds, till Friday, so everybody’s gonna be Freaking Out. As soon as Varuna calms down early Wednesday afternoon, asteroid Hopi takes over (Standing Still early Saturday Morning). Hopi means Respect for All Things. So the Minorities who really take the Brunt of the American Compete-Or-Die Ethic as the Poster Children for Varuna will be Lit Up because the Cops will stand behind the AK47-toting White Supremacists as they giddily shoot anybody with a BLM sign.

Then early in the week after the Election, Ceres = Sustainability enters Pisces. You can already hear the Gnashing of Teeth as Pisces over-emotionalizes Predatory Capitalism’s total lack of Sustainability. And it’s about time somebody did, because it’s Killing All of Us and the Planet too. But the Tuesday after the Big Day, Eurydike = Trust enters Leo= Confidence, making for a huge Contrast. That’s probably when we’ll get the first hint of whether there was any legitimacy to the Election, or at least a few numbers. It’s not till the 18th that Eurydike Stands Still though, so Confusion will continue to Reign until then as Teeth-Gnashing and Confidence Compete for the Dewey headlines.

But just because Eurydike in Leo is Strong, doesn’t mean that Trust rules the day, as the Moon goes Outabounds again from November 16th to the 19th, so everyone’s Emotions are End-of-the-World riled. The 19th is kind of a watershed day, as asteroid Moira moves into Capricorn. Moira is about Fate and Choice. When our Karma is Unconscious, it’s our Fate, we just sleepwalk it. Once we bring it in Consciousness, we have Choice and we can do anything we want. “What, Karma? Don’t be silly – Been there Done that! I’m Outa Here.”

If there’s Civil War to any extent, Remember that you don’t have to Play. You can Choose to be Separate from it.

Moira will separate the Teeth-Gnashers from the AK47-Egos from the folks who will just be Pragmatically (Capricorn) Choosing (Conscious Moira) to make the Best of Whatever’s Going Down. Except…

On the 22nd, dwarf planet Nessus, which is about Abuse and Privilege, is Max Strong (Stationary), and on the 20th dwarf planet Gonggong (no kidding, there really is a dwarf planet Gonggong!), which is about Intrusive Memories, is Max Strong. So everyone’s going to be Regressing into their best Halloween Victim Disguises, Projecting all of the Abuse they’ve ever Received into whatever’s going on in the Present Moment. Meanwhile the Privileged 1% will inhabit their own Paranoid They’re going to take my Money (and probably my Guns unless I shoot first) Victim Acts. The Privileged 1% of course own all of the Supreme Court now, so we can’t expect Daddy to Rescue us.

But then on (actually, until) the 28th, Neptune goes Max Strong. Neptune means Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, so Confusion will Reign in the fourth week of November. But mid-week, Eurydike=Trust backs out of Leo, leaving the strutting Confidence-Gamers with their pants around their ankles and their day-of-the-week underwear exposed. A few hours later on the 25th, asteroid Sappho finally leaves Scorpio for Sagittarius, and we get to stop hunting that mouse in the garage (our Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love = Sappho) with the shotgun (Scorpio) and just Begin to Surrender into it (Sadge).

Giving us a possibility of a reasonably Peaceful Thanksgiving (in the US). The day after Thanksgiving, though, asteroid Atropos goes Max Strong, and Atropos is about Letting Go of Karmic Patterns. If we’re Aware that this is going on, we can Thank Them for Their Service and Wish Them Success in Crippling Other People’s Futures as they saunter off down the road, and then Celebrate our newfound Liberation!

How many of us will actually be doing that though? Letting Go of Karma is Scary, because it’s all we know, it’s what we’ve been Living All of Our Life. We don’t know what to do with the Blank Space that’s left behind, and with Neptune Max Strong, the only thing we’ll be able to Celebrate is Confusion. Which is a fabulous Habit to make, because Confusion is the first stage of Growth. And of course we could Celebrate the Spiritual Clarity, if we’re willing to seek it or let it find us.

Kind of a Blockbuster month, wasn’t it.

Before we dive into it, you might want to Resolve to Avoid Ego-Identifying with all the Sturm und Drang und Drama, and spend November Passively Observing Who You Actually Are. Not just What am I Thinking and Feeling about all this Intense Drama, but also, WHO IS IT that’s doing this Thinking and Feeling? Forget all the Adjectives that come to mind – that’s just more Thinking. What if you were a very small Entity hanging out somewhere Inside your Body? Where would that Be? Would “It” move around to different places, or would “It” have a favorite hangout? (At this level it may not be a She or a He.) Or what if It was a very large Energy Field Surrounding your Body? How Big would that be? How is It Connected to your Body?

But it ain’t over yet. There are two more oh-so-relevant astroevents on November 29th. First asteroid Vesta, which symbolizes our Unconscious Limitations, Merges with dwarf planet Orcus, which is about Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking. It turns out that our Unconscious Limitations are the result of Oaths or Vows or Promises or even Decisions that we made in Other Lifetimes. As we discussed at length in the previous post, our Self-Limiting Beliefs will be Lit Up for several months so we can Recognize that That Ain’t Really Us and Choose to be Someone Else.

So on the 29th, and in the week or so leading up to it, our Limited Beliefs will Meet Their Makers. If we Forget that It’s about Letting Go, it’ll be really Easy to instead Grab them, because they’ll be so Familiar and therefore so Comfortable. We just need to Remember that any time Limitation or Bummers arise, Let Them Go. You don’t need to Understand anything, you can just Let It Go. If you can’t Remember what it was a few minutes later, that’s fabulous, you’ve indeed Let It Go.

And on the 29th, asteroid Karma (you can imagine what it symbolizes) moves into Virgo till 23 January. We don’t Let Go of Karma without an Ego Death, because if we weren’t Ego-Attached to it, it wouldn’t be Karma. And the Essence of Virgo is Ego Death. So this will be a Nightmare of Struggles if we Resist it. Don’t. You go to visit a friend and you don’t recognize their street. You wake up and you can’t Remember your Passwords. You Forget people’s names, even your friends and colleagues. You can’t recall how to hold a fork, for God’s sake! Those are Signs of Ego Death. Celebrate them.

Those are gentle Ego Deaths, the kind that arise after you’ve Realized you’re up against your own Limitations, and you’ve Prayed to Let Them Go in some way or another. The not-so-gentle Ego Deaths are times like when you get really Angry when someone Insults you, even inadvertently (I’m being kinda flippant in this post, a lot less careful with my Language than usual – I may have Insulted you several times already!). Or you get really Embarrassed when you Forget your boss’s name, and there’s no way your boss is every going to know what an Ego Death is, and you go away in Shame.

Unpleasant Emotions like Anger and Shame and Grief and Sorrow are clues that you’re approaching an Ego Death, and you have the Option of Choosing it – by Lovingly Embracing the Unpleasant Emotion in your Body, or Rejecting it – by Thinking yourself more Deeply into the Anger or Shame or Grief or Sorrow. No Self-Blame though – we need to Think ourself Deep enough into the Unpleasant Emotion to be able to Know what we’re Embracing. Embracing the name of an Emotion is Just Thinking, not an Ego Death at all, though using that as a Mantra might invoke the Emotion.

Asteroid Karma returns to Virgo in June, July, and August for the real Work, the December-January Teaser is just an introduction. Between February and May it’s Dodging back deep into Leo, to gather up more Limitations that you can Ego-Death into Has-Beens.

Charts of the Portals IX

September 21, 2020

When our Responsiveness to our Survival Instincts finally Reboots “for good” (for far longer than our Lifetimes anyway) in 2022 (Quaoar Initiates Pholus, 21 February 2022, in 7 Capricorn), the event is not Cuspal.  The “Stinkbug chart”…

…occurs on the Cusps between Signs, which is astrological important, particularly for Blessings (Trines).  Trines represent Dumb-Luck Blessings because they usually connect Signs of the same Element (Fire, Air, Earth, or Water).

For instance, considering Emotions or Water Signs, Cancer (Cardinal Water) Generates Emotions, Scorpio (Fixed Water) Consolidates them, and Pisces (Mutable Water) Changes them.  So there is a Natural Flow of Energy between the three Signs, which Allows us to potentially be Complete with a Transaction.

The Grand Trine in the Stinkbug chart, however, includes two Mind (Air) Signs – Chaos in Gemini (Mutable Air) and Sappho-Juno in Libra (Cardinal Air), and one Emotion (Water) Sign – Aletheia-Ceres-Gonggong in Pisces (Mutable Water).  So the Energy of the Stinkbug Grand Trine starts by Generating Dualities (Libra), then Changing the Emotions (Pisces) that evolve from these Thoughts, and then Changing the Thoughts (Gemini) that arise from the New Emotions.  Rather than Flowing Smoothly to Completion, this Pattern is more likely to Increase Complications and Confusion.

Of course Confusion is the first Stage of Growth, to it’s not to be rued, but it may not be as obviously Dumb-Luck as the average Trine.  It’s still a Grand Trine, so the Grace is definitely there, it’s just likely to be disguised.  Prepare to be Surprised when Apparent Difficulties become Unexpected Blessings.

Now if we factor the planets into this equation…  The Energy of the Stinkbug Grand Trine starts by Generating Dualities around Self-Love and Consciousness (Sappho-Juno), then Changing our Emotions around Truth, Sustainability, and our Personal and Karmic History (Aletheia-Ceres-Gonggong) that evolve from these Thoughts about Self-Love and Consciousness, and then Changing Thoughts that arise from these New Emotions into Expansive Fantasies about How It Could Be (Chaos).

In other words, we could be Experiencing Glimpses of the World In Which We Really Want to Live while Dreaming for once that they might be Possible – which will Feel Complicated and Confusing.  All our Life, with a lot of help from Others, we’ve been Discounting the Possibility of Achieving our Dreams, so that will be the first Pattern that arises.

But this is dwarf planet Chaos.  It’s not about Possibility, it’s about Potential.  So don’t Discount your “Expansive Fantasies” here, instead use them as the ground for your Focus on The World You Want to Live In, whenever you catch yourself thinking about The World you Don’t Want to Live In.  Remember that we’re at a Crossroads here, and we’re wasting the Fruits of a Hard-Fought Lifetime if we Decide to be Victimized by all of the Changes that are Going On and will increasingly be Going On.

Another Caveat…  We Create the Dynamic way by Discounting the Improbable and Planning all of the intermediate steps to Building what we want to Bring into Form.  Dynamic Manifestation requires that we know What We Want, What It Will Look Like, and How to Build It.  It’s not Possible to Change Our World with those Constraints.  We need Magnetic Manifestation – PIAVA – to Create What We’ve Never Created, only Craved.

So besides indulging your Karmic Habits of Discounting What You Want, the second-best way to Kill it is to Believe that you have to know How to Create it.  Magnetic Creativity works by Focusing on What You Want and assiduously avoiding Focusing on the Mechanisms that might Create it.  You’re in Design here, not Engineering.  You Build the Energy, and let the Form come to you – that’s the Magnetic part!

So, if you get Confused here, Let It Be.  We need to be able to Sit with Confusion as an Emotion, without trying to “Fix” or Change it, if we are going to use it as our Engine for Growing Consciousness.  And if things get Complicated, Laugh it Off.  The Complications are part of the Engineering.  Your job is to Hold your Single-Minded Focus on What You Want.

Now, as of today, Self-Love (Sappho) and Consciousness Growth (Juno) have moved out of Creative Thought (Libra), and into Consolidating Emotion, aka Passion (Scorpio).  So our Process has Changed.  Our Dumb-Luck Grace no longer has a Motivator (Cardinal Sign).  Chaos won’t get to Cancer (Cardinal Water) till 2023, so we’re going to have to look elsewhere for a Starter.  In other cases, we’d have to Generate the Motivation ourself, but in this case we’re in luck, we have a Kite (a fourth planet midway between two of the Grand Trine planets) and the top of the Kite is in Capricorn (Cardinal Earth)!

So now the Energy begins with How We Want to Respond to Our Physical Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar in Capricorn).  Praying for a Planetary Healing is Noble, and every bit helps.  But Praying (PIAVAing, Meditating) for the World that WE Want to Live In, for the World that Supports Our Own Personal Survival and Bliss, adds a whole ‘nother Dimension, namely our Personal Passion, without violating anyone else’s Freedom to Manifest their own Reality – on their own World, not ours.

To move the Energy from Creation to Stabilization to Change (Cardinal-Fixed-Mutable), we need to run the Kite backwards (Capricorn-Scorpio-Gemini-Pisces).  So we use the Energy in our Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar in Capricorn), which run about as Deep as any Energy, to Excite our Passion for Growing our Unconditional Self-Love (Sappho-Juno in Scorpio) to Allow our Karmic Limitations to Shift and Open Up our Boundless Potential (Chaos in Gemini) so it Changes our Emotional History (Gonggong/OR10 in Pisces) and Creates an Internal Reality (Emotion<->Thought) that Sustains the Truth of our Heart (Ceres-Aletheia)which will Change (Pisces) as we bring it out of our Hope Chest and wipe away the Spiderwebs.