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A Gift from the Heavens 3

January 25, 2023

Let’s finish that chart of the Saturn-Venus Initiation.

I think of the Slower Planet, here Saturn, as Giving Guidance to the Faster Planet, here Venus, and the Faster Planet Implementing the Slower Planet’s Aims. Of course that assumes some sort of Consciousness in both parties, for the Slower Planet to have Aims, and the Faster Planet to Implement them in its own Realm.

What? Planets have Consciousness? Of course they do, how else would astrology work? Oh, your “Left Brain” objects. I guess you’ve never Talked to Mother Gaia, or Listened to Her. Well, no worries, it’s just a Metaphor. Does that Discount Mother Gaia as an Imposter? Not at all. Our Minds are 2-Dimensional, while Reality is many-dimensional. So all Thoughts, including Scienterrific “Laws,” are just Thoughts, and all Thoughts are just Snapshots, Kodachrome. Not even Videos.

When you turn a Snapshot over, do you see the Other Side of the Mountain? No, you see the back of the photo paper. You can use your Thoughts to Imagine Videos, even Change the Plot, but Reality is more like a Hologram than a Movie, and it’s Living, not a Recording. The Subjects in the Hologram are Living, All of Them, with Free Will. They can follow your Expectations or Not. Now factor in, from the Traditional Wisdom, “All There Is Is Now.” Anybody on your Hologram can do Anything anytime, and a “Recording” is just a Sample, one out of All Possibilities! Our Thoughts are Beginning to Look pretty Puny.

Where were we? Oh yeah, 3D. Saturn moves 12 Degrees in a year, during which time Venus loops the entire Zodiac. So Saturn becomes the Ponderous Planner, while Venus Rushes about like Hammy,1 putting the Plans into Operation.

Saturn’s imputed Aims in the 25th Degree of Aquarius, at the end of its Scorpio Duad2 and beginning of its Sagittarius Duad, might be to Coach People to Lighten Up on their Intensity and Learn to De-Stress Themselves and Others. This would be the specific methodology for Saturn to Delegate to Venus its (Saturn’s) Aim of Honing our Inner Witness in order to Become more Aware of our Expiring Relationship Karma, Take Ownership of it, and Heal it (Lonsdale). De-Stressing would be an essential first step toward Honing our Inner Witness.

Venus’s Shtich is Values. So as Venus moves around the Zodiac, in its Role as Saturn’s Herald (it has many such Roles, as many as it has Cycles), will be Asking us to Question our Values. The first Question would be, “Which, if any, Value (Venus) are your Prioritizing (Saturn)?” When we Operate from Karma, we’re just a Robot following a Program, which probably doesn’t have anything to do with our Values. So that first question might Shock us into the Present Moment. That’s a start for Honing our Inner Witness.

As Venus moves through Pisces (27 January through 20 February), its second Question might be, “What Are You Feeling?” If Self-Awareness wasn’t a High Priority at that time, again we could be Shocked into the Present Moment, and a Follow-Up Question might be, “No, I don’t mean the Story you’re Thinking about, I mean What Are You Feeling?” Feelings are usually single-word descriptions of our Emotional State, like Angry or Sad or Euphoric. The next Follow-Up might be, “Does that Feeling have anything to do with your Relationship Patterns, especially the ones you’re Tired of, where you’re Reacting to a Memory instead of Responding to the Now?”

As Venus moves through Aries (20 February till 16 March), the next Question Venus might Ask us could be “Well, what would you Feel if it was a Perfect Relationship? Can you Imagine what that Movie would Look Like? What’s Most Important to you in a Relationship?” And So On, Und So Weiter.

But what about the Snapshot of the Initiation? As astrologers, we know that in Linear Time a Snapshot of the Heavens at a Birth is a Powerful Tool for Grokking the Subject that was Born, be it a Person or a Cycle or anything else. We’ve already talked about the Stellium, or group of planets surrounding and Merged With Venus-Saturn, the Honing our Inner Witness (Aquarius 25) in order to Become more Aware of our Expiring Relationship Karma (Atropos in Aquarius), Take Ownership of it (Damocles), and Heal it (Panacea)…

The Expiring Relationship Karma Stellium Argues with (Opposes) asteroid Artesian (an Aid to Manifestation), and Challenges (is T-Squared by – the red triangle) Trust (Eurydike). It’s Self-Resolving (a Diamond Star, the T-Square and overlain green-wedge Finger of the Goddess), so for the next year we’ll be ahead to say to ourself when it arises, “Oh, there’s Distrust again. Thanks for Contributing, but we’re doing something else just now,” like we do when Thinking butts into our Meditation. If we can Ignore Distrust it will Resolve itself.

Just consider Distrust to be an Emotion in it’s own right, and therefore Notice when you’re trying to attribute it to something or someone, or attach other external qualifiers to it, and Realize that this is Thinking about Distrust, and Not Feeling Distrust. If you can’t Identify the Emotion without Thinking it, Experience it through Sensation – Where do you Feel it in your Body? Is it Cold? Tight? Contracted? If you have trouble with this, work with Julie Henderson’s powerful little book The Lover Within.

They aren’t drawn in, but the Trines and Sextiles between the ends of the base of the red T-Square and the ends of the base of the green Finger, create the Bowl of Grace which makes the combination Self-Resolving. The green lines are Quincunxes, joining planets five Signs apart and symbolizing Curiosity. Each Quincunx is a Mystery School, a Portal that leads beyond 2D into the Intuitive, where Intellect can only Mislead. So the Relationships between Trust and Denial (Eris), and between Trust and The Truth of our Intuition (Heart’s Truth Aletheia Merged with Intuition Asbolus) must be Accepted as is, not Analyzed.

Aletheia and Asbolus, both Out of Bounds (Intensified), have been Dancing together since September, and they’ll continue into early May. Their September Initiation was at 30 Gemini, Home of Betelgeuse, Achievement and The Hollowness of Being Outer-Directed, so they’ll Teach us to Look Inward for our Intuition by Realizing how Empty Achievement is. When you’ve Learned to Sit With Distrust as a Sensation, and Quieted the Mind, and Waited silently long enough for your Intuition to begin to Trust that you won’t Dismiss it Out of Hand again, and you Ask Respectfully, your Intuition will Sing to you.

Aletheia-Asbolus is also one side of the base of a second T-Square, this one without Self-Resolution, so it’s up to us to sweat this one out. Its Focus is Vesta-Neptune, almost a cliché, as Vesta symbolizes Unconscious Limitations, and Neptune Confusion. Neptune is always about Trance, and our normal situation is that we’re Entranced by our Unconscious Limitations so that we Believe they’re characteristics of Reality rather than Barriers in our Mind. Confusion is of course the First Stage of Growth, but to take Advantage we have to be willing to Sit With Confusion as a Feeling, without trying to Analyze or Intellectualize or Attribute it to anything.

We should by now be getting familiar with that speech about Feelings versus Thoughts, understand what it means and what we have to do with it. If you’re already a Pro with Emotion, Ignore me, I’m just Preaching to Myself, the part of me that’s Entranced by the “Left Brain.” The Cosmic Joke is that Confusion about our Unconscious Limitations is caused by the Argument (Opposition) between this tenuous Trust in the Truth of our Intuition and guess who – Pinocchio, the famous Unconscious Serial Prevaricator! The Bronx is dealing with a Pinocchio grifting their seat in the US House of Reprehensibles as we speak, and they’re totally Confused about it. As we discussed in the recent A Gift from the Heavens 2 post, it’ll probably be May before they figure it out, if then.

The Saturn-Venus Initiation chart also features a single Naked Square (one not connected to other Squares), between Eris and Hylonome-Pandora Out of Bounds, suggesting that we’re Hoping (Pandora) that we can squeak by without having to Deal with the Codependence (Hylonome) that we’ve been Denying (Eris). Alas, Hope is not a Winning Strategy, so we probably will have to do that in order to stay in Coherence with ourself. Ditch the Guilt though (Guilt is another one of those attribution- and object-free Emotions that we have to deal with through Sensation, as these Feelings are never Present-Moment) – Denial is a Healthy Protection for the Ego when it’s not quite ready to process something else because its plate is already too full. You’ll know when its Moment Arises, so don’t worry about it.

One of my favorite Intuition Crystals is Apophyllite, so named because it was also a favorite of the twelve Apophylls. I even carry a small matrix of Apophyllite Crystals on my dashboard, where it watches the Road ahead, since Intuition Sees Around Corners and through Haze. Apophyllite is a Phyllosilicate, a Mica, even if it doesn’t look like a Mica. The flat diamond shapes at the from of the Crystal below, are where smaller Crystals broke off between their “sheets.” Micas are strongly melded within their Phyllo-dough-like sheets, but poorly attached between their layers. A group of Mica sheets is even called a “Book!” Notice the Fish swimming off to the left…

1 This video of Hammy in Over the Hedge is a Perfect Illustration of what happens when you do enough Kegels to Stop Time. Of course that would be a whole lot of Kegels, but you can see from the Video a dramatization of how useful Kegels are for Dealing with Fear.

2 This is pretty Esoteric, but also Basic, and will help you Understand the Relationships between Signs, avoid Memorization, and Overemphasis on a few Samples as “Types.”

A Duad means a twosome (like a Triad is three), but in astrology it refers to a 2½ Degree section of the Zodiac. Each Sign has 12 Duads, the first being eponymous, and the rest proceeding in order – an example would best explain that. Saturn is in Aquarius. The twelve Duads of Aquarius are like so…

0-2½° Aquarius Duad of Aquarius2½-5° Pisces Duad of Aquarius5-7½° Aries Duad of Aquarius
7½-10° Taurus Duad of Aquarius10-12½° Gemini Duad of Aquarius12½-15° Cancer Duad of Aquarius
15-17½° Leo Duad of Aquarius17½-20° Virgo Duad of Aquarius20-22½° Libra Duad of Aquarius
22½-25° Scorpio Duad of Aquarius25-27½° Sagittarius Duad of Aquarius27½-30° Capricorn Duad of Aquarius

Through all twelve of these Duads, Saturn’s Aim would be Aquarian. We could define that lots of ways, for now let’s just say that Aquarius Aims to Improve Social Order. The secondary sign might be described as a Method that Aquarius might use. So the Aquarius Duad of Aquarius might be Improving Social Order by Talking about it (Aquarius is Fixed Air – Idealism, so the Aquarian Method might be Discussing Our Ideals with Others, or Arguing about how Our Ideals Are So Much Better than Others – the “Fixed” part). We say “might be” instead of “is” because there are many good ways to characterize each Sign. The Pisces Duad might be Improving Social Order by Empathizing with Others, the Aries Duad by Creating new Intuitive Models for Society

Aquarius Duad of Aquarius might be Improving Social Order by Talking about itPisces Duad might be Improving Social Order by Empathizing with OthersAries Duad by Creating new Intuitive Models for Society
Taurus Duad perhaps by Testing the Models in HardcopyGemini Duad by Including Lots of OptionsCancer Duad by Demonstrating how Nurturing it Would Be
Leo Duad by Describing How Good People Would FeelVirgo Duad by Adding ways for Members of the Society to GrowLibra Duad by Opportunities to Meet Others
Scorpio Duad by Including Ways to Mitigate Ongoing DifficultiesSagittarius Duad by Breathing Exercises to De-stress CompetitionCapricorn Duad by Writing the Report

Signs are also divided into Decanates, 10-Degree sections, where the first Decanate is eponymous, like the Aquarius Decanate of Aquarius (0-10°), and the other two Decanates are named for the other two Air Signs, in order, so 10-20° is the Gemini Decanate, and 20-30° is the Libra Decanate. The Decanates, like the Duads, Express the Underlying Sign in ways that are reminiscent of the Secondary Sign.

The Karmic Digital Age

December 24, 2020

Since Karma is Dead, it won’t be a problem that the Digital Age is Karmic, right? Almost enough to make a person subscribe to Retribution…

But no, Karma is Inertia, and do we ever have Inertia! Huge Inertia in government dysfunction, possibly increasing Inertia with apparently more Powerful Mutant Ninja Garudaviruses in the wings in spite of the nascent Vaccines, Inertia with Inequality as the Robber Barons use Virus-Rescue dollars for their own lunch money and worse, far too much Inertia in Global Balming, und so weiter.

The chart for the 21 December 2020 Saturn-Jupiter Initiation, which Initiates the 140-year Digital Age (the span during which the Jupiter-Saturn Conjunctions occur in Air Signs) and especially the next 20 years (the current Jupiter-Saturn Cycle), features only one Big Challenge, and that’s Karma (a T-Square to asteroid Karma from the Opposition between Sedna [Converting Fear to Power] and Juno [Expansion of Consciousness])…

If that’s not enough, asteroid Karma itself is also Strong (Stationary), with Peak Exaggeration on 27 December at 2:30 am PST and two Challenges (T-Squares, the red triangles), one to Our Instincts (the Moon, from the Opposition between asteroid Karma herself and Gonggong [Flushbacks]) that Challenges us to Stay in the Present Moment, and the other to Our Willingness to Break Karmic Habits (asteroid Lachesis, from the Opposition between Jupiter-Saturn itself [the Conscious or Unconscious Decision whether to Contract away from new Energy or to Expand into Embracing it] and the Conjunction of Atropos [Karmic Patterns that have Finished their TimeLine, which our Ego may or may not have Let Go Of] and Varuna [Our Vitality])…

The Conscious or Unconscious Decision whether to Contract away from new Energy or to Expand into Embracing it (Jupiter-Saturn) in the Karma Station chart mirrors the apparent Contradiction between Converting Fear to Power (Sedna) and Expansion of Consciousness (Juno) in the Digital Age Initiation chart. Notice that these are both Either/Ors, which by now we automatically associate with the Observing Mind rather than Observed Reality – right? If we want to deal with Reality we have to Change the Subject and switch from HeadsOrTails to the Coin. Since the Mind mostly does only Either/Or, we have to Intuit the Both/And Coin.

Well, obviously, when we Contract (Saturn) away from Reality, we only drive it into the Unconscious, from where it Controls us from behind the Curtain of our Denial. No Pressure – Denial is our Best Choice when we aren’t Ready to Integrate something into Consciousness. Overwhelm will usually set us back. So at least we can Expand into Embracing (Jupiter) our Contraction. In fact, a Poor Sweetheart might be an ideal Response – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re really Frightened by that, aren’t you.” If we can then Change the Subject and go about our business without Obsessing on what Frightened us, we may be able to just Manifest the Miracle of Transcending our Fear of the New rather than Denying it.

Chiron is Positively Related (Sextile, two Signs apart, meaning Grace but we have to take the first step) to Jupiter-Saturn, and Chiron is the Unhealable Healer who Connects us to the Wisdom that What Heals is Empathy – hence our Self-Empathy Mantra, You Poor Sweetheart… Like Tapping, it Recognizes the Truth of our Heart and brings various parts of ourself into Alignment, while moving our Assemblage Point or our Identity, the Place Behind our Attention, from WhatAfflictsUs to Compassion.

Notice what Opposes Jupiter-Saturn – Varuna-Atropos (the End of Karmic Limitations to our Vitality). We can carry this directly to the Crapolavirus. Atropos stands for Karmic Patterns that have Finished on their own Accord but which our Ego may not have Let Go Of yet. In other words, the Virus is Optional if we Wish it So. Which means we have to Let Go of our Belief in Disease. Sounds Dangerous, doesn’t it. Sounds like a good way to get Dead. Yes, that’s the Sedna part. If you get stuck on that, Locate your Fear in your Body and focus Intensely on it while doing a hundred Kegels, to Convert the Fear to Power, whenever the Fear arises or returns.

Meanwhile, consider it an Experiment, and don’t Act like a Covidiot. This is like a Placebo – it works best if you Believe in it. And it will work (Jupiter-Saturn is joined by dwarf planet Chariklo [Confidence and Doubt] – Choose the Confidence side). But we’re Playing on the Growing Edge of our Consciousness (asteroid Juno), so we never quite know ahead of time if we’re Ready to Transcend. If your Intuition is working fairly well, Thetas can help you evaluate your Readiness. When we Ask for What We Want, the Universe will either Give it to us directly, or Give us a demonstration of what else we need to Let Go Of in order to become Ready to Receive. Let the Universe stub your toe, instead of Dancing with a Miserable Death.

For folks who don’t Believe in Magic (ie, Choice) – and therefore Karma isn’t Dead for them – Karma still means Cause and Effect. Like Blame, Cause and Effect is a very sticky artifact of the Dualistic “Left” Brain. It’s not Easy to Think in terms other than Cause and Effect, because that’s the way the Observing Brain is wired. If you Allow it, the “Right” Brain – Intuition – can go Directly from Want to Outcome without worrying about Mechanism. For Left-Brainers, the Digital Age’s focus on C&E is good, because it may Allow them to Connect their Beliefs and Behaviors to their Outcomes in spite of their red hats. And there’s a lot of Inertia there which needs to Shift before Mother Gaia can Finish her Trance(Re)formation, though when it’s Ready it can Shift overnight.

When we look more closely, we see that all three Challenges (T-Squares) are Self-Resolving (Diamond Stars – red-triangle T-Square and green-wedge Finger of the Goddess pointing to the same planet). This means that, when the Universe Threatens to Repeat your worst deja vus All Over Again, the Appropriate Response is to Smile to yourself and raise your Energy, while you Recognize that the Universe is a Trickster, and share a Chuckle with Her. She’s giving you another Opportunity to Practice using the Belief and Action that you’ve Chosen to Replace your Obsolete Karmic Pattern, or any Alternative Pattern, so you can Erase through Repetition your old Connections and cement New Patterns into your Flexible and Opportunistic Brain.

OOB Moons

July 30, 2020

How soon we forget.  The Moon goes “Out of Bounds,” increasing the possibility that our Instincts will Overpower our “Left Brains” and our sense of propriety, only every other decade, and even during its Out-of-Bounds decades, it’s only actually Out of Bounds (way far north or south of the Equator, furthur than the Sun ever goes) for a couple days every few weeks.  So all in all, over a lifetime, we’re talking less than 10% of the time.

Long-time readers will know that we consider our Comfort and Competence with different astro-Energies to be proportional to our Experience with them.  So as Individuals and as Cultures, we don’t have much Accumulated Wisdom around Moon Out of Bounds, because we haven’t had a lot of Practice dealing with it.  In my own limited personal Experience with them, a sort of Seething, Vulnerable, Hypnotizable Hysteria might be an appropriate description for them.  Your Emotions are Lit Up, and that makes it Easy for others to Manipulate them and you.

For instance, “9/11” was a quintessential Moon-OOB event.  The overreaction of Egos was about 200,000% percent, and the Manipulation that followed was centered around the association between Ego and Patriotism.  As a lapel button at the time said, “Oh well, I wasn’t using my Civil Rights anyway,” and the major provisions of the resulting Patriot Act are still in place almost 20 years later.

A major anthem of the 21st Century is “A flag turning into an Eagle turning into a Chanticleer saluting the Dawn(the Sabian Symbol for the Degree of the Pluto-Chiron Initiation that occurred on 31 December 1999).  I interpret that to mean that the Competitive Tribalistic Nationalism of Huperity will undergo a Transformation of Perspective (Eagle as Far-Seeing) leading to it’s EnLightenment.  We’re obviously still working on that theme, as the Racial (BLM vs White Nationalists) and Community (the ridiculous “Freedom” not to wear a mask vs the Willingness to help Protect one’s Family and Community in the easiest, simplest way possible) elements of Competitive Egotism come to the fore.

The two major anthems we might choose for the third decade of the 21st Century would be “A soldier receiving two medals for bravery in combat(the Sabian Symbol for the Degree of the Pluto-Saturn Initiation that occurred on 12 January 2020 a Review would be useful), and “An old adobe mission in California(the Sabian Symbol for the Degree of the Saturn-Jupiter Initiation that occurs on 21 December 2020 and begins the two-Century Digital Age).  I interpret the latter to mean major steps toward the End of Colonialism, and the former to mean major steps toward the End of the hierarchical Patriarchy and of Surrendering one’s own Sovereignty, and even of War as an Institution.

Have you ever noticed that sometimes we choose to amplify an astrological indication, and sometimes we amplify its opposite?  The reason we do this is because most of our work is about interpreting what’s going on in the Unconscious, and the Unconscious is not Dual like the Left Brain.  In the Unconscious, the other side of the Coin is as likely as the indicated side.  Since we Intend to Amplify the World We Want to Live In, we Choose the side which we believe will outpicture our Intentions.

So, we’ve recently discovered that we’ve been Denying (Eris), or Forgetting, the Moon Out of Bounds periods.  In July and August they spanned or will span…

  • 8:30pm PDT 3 July through 5pm PDT 5 July,
  • 6am PDT 18 July through 3:20 am PDT 20 July,
  • 3am PDT 31 July through 9am PDT 3 August,
  • 1pm PDT 14 August through 1:30 pm PDT 16 August,
  • 5:40 am PDT 27 August through 9am PDT 29 August.

The 18-20 July OOB event amplified the Revelation (Eris Station) New Moon that we’re still deep within.  The 31 July-3 August OOB play will amplify the impending Full Moon that in turn pre-amps the 15 August Outpicturing of the Soul (Uranus Station) and the recent Demise of Victimhood (Chiron Station), as does the 14-16 August OOB Drama more directly.  The 27-29 August OOB event will likely be a Doozy, as it amplifies the amplification of Conversion of Fear to Power (Sedna Station), for those who even consider such a Conversion to be Possible.

 

Resilience

April 9, 2020

As we averred in the previous post, the 7 April Full Moon told us very clearly that the next several weeks provide an Open Window for us to Choose to Dismiss Self-Sabotage from our Field (asteroid Moira [Fate + Consciousness = Choice] Opposing asteroids Karma [Karma, which is just Habit] and Atropos [Ending Obsolete Habits]), and that the Bottom Line for that Endeavor is to Reject Other People’s Opinions, “Experts” or otherwise (dwarf planet Hylonome [Self-Sovereignty] and asteroid Veritas [Facts] T-Square to [Challenging] the Full Moon).  Find Guidance in your own Heart and Soul instead.

And over the next several days, through at least 13 April 2020 (10:30 pm PDT), The Most Important Thing is our Confidence in our Vitality and Resilience (dwarf planet Varuna [the Life Force] Stationary [Strong] at 2 Leo Opposite dwarf planet Chariklo [Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt] Conjunct Saturn [Priorities] on the Cusp of Aquarius [Moving from Body to Soul]).

The chart…

How do we “make up” Confidence?  Simply by being Vigilant for Negative Thinking and Fear, and Shifting it to Confidence in a Clear Vision of What We Want.  How do we make that Shift?

  • Saying “Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade” to ourself can Cancel our Negative Thoughts, Neutralize the Vibrations they’ve Created, and Upgrade the Thinker (Us) to help make the Shift enduring.
  • Kegels can help immensely with Fear, because they Slow Down Time, giving us more Opportunity to Protect ourself.
  • My favorite is to alternate Tapping and Theta until the final Theta “Show Me” is Clear, it’s What I Want, and it sends a bolt of Joy up my Spine.

Consider Dr. Kim D’Eramo’s Perspective…

“With all that’s going on in the world right now, how do we fight against the hazards, toxic substances and harmful radiation we can’t control?  We don’t.

“The body and everything physical is primarily vibration at its core.  The frequency of your body has everything to do with whether you are negatively affected, or stay resilient and healthy when exposed to pathogens or other harmful substances.  How do we affect the one thing we DO have power over?

“Tune in for this week’s episode of MindBody TV to learn what you can do to rise above lower frequency energies in ways that vitalize your physical body now!”

Find that episode at https://drkimderamo.com/how-to-overcome-5g-viruses-and-other-environmental-threats/.  It’s 40 minutes, but well worth the time.

“Dark Days” 5

April 22, 2019

Here’s another Teaching about how to Lighten Up.  It will be online till about 9am PDT 24 April.  It’s Dr. Sue Morter speaking about Energy Flows in the Body, how the Unconscious interacts with the Body, how to Ground and Stabilize the Body and bring it back into Balance (including Kegels), and many other very Integrative Perspectives…

https://energymedicinesummit.com/program/20

Kegels 5

February 7, 2019

I see that more folks than usual are up late looking for answers.  At the risk of sounding oversimple, it probably wouldn’t hurt to review the equations in Einstein’s famous Theory of Relativity…

  • Fear + Courage = Perspective
  • Fear + Breathing = Excitement
  • Fear + Tapping = Grounding
  • Fear + Kegels = Power
  • Anxiety + Poor-Sweethearting = Detachment

I often write late at night, and I used to live in a basement apartment.  While writing I would sometimes feel the hairs on the back of my neck rising, as if someone was just outside my curtained windows looking for an opening.  One night I gathered up my courage and flung open the door – to find a Glorious Full Moon staring at me from the Darkness!

Another time I lived in a creaky old house, and I was alone in the house, in my bedroom with the door shut, when a series of creaks and groans sounded for all the world like someone sneaking up to my door.  Again I flung open the door – and found myself staring at a wardrobe mirror leaning against the wall in the hall, just outside my door.  Now that was scary!  “We have found the Enemy…” as Pogo used to say.

Fear + Breathing is an old equation, which I’ve heard from many reliable sources, and which works well.  Dr. Kim has dozens of excellent variations at…

https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=dr+kim+d%27eramo+anxiety

Many of the videos that are less than two minutes long are pitches for her longer sessions, but most of the longer ones share Powerful Mind-Body techniques, like this one…

Dr. Kim includes Tapping in many of these videos.  One of the first things we do in serious Fear is Leave Our Body.  Tapping (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) can bring us back in.  In some sense, Leaving our Body is an effective strategy – if someone is about to kill us, we’re already gone, so there isn’t much else they can do to hurt us.  But it may help create a lousy next Lifetime, if we re-enter as a Terrified, Implacable Child.  We have more tools at our disposal when we stay in our Body, or get back In.

I’ve mentioned my Kegels story before, so humor me while I repeat it.  I Learned about Fear and Kegels in a workshop with Jack Schwarz (http://holisticu.org/).  Quite innocently, I went to see the movie Aliens after the workshop.  If you haven’t seen it, the Fear level goes off the charts after a few minutes, and never comes back down till a few minutes before the end of the movie.  Having just Learned it, I was doing Kegels like mad all through the movie – two hours of solid Kegeling!

Jack taught that Kegels Slow Down Time.  If Fear is coming at you at 2mph, it’s a lot easier to handle than at 60mph.  Between the movie theater and where I lived was a mile-long bridge, and after the movie it took me absolutely Forever to cross that bridge!  In that mile I looked at my speedometer maybe ten times, and it kept saying 40mph, but the bridge wouldn’t go away.  It was like being in the Twilight Zone.  I’ve never heard anyone mention Kegels in connection with sports, but I now understand how someone can hit an 80mph curveball.  Sports often refers to it as being “In the Zone.”

And once we’ve determined that our Fear or Agitation is not Present-Moment, or that we aren’t in Imminent Danger, we can say to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Anxious, aren’t you.”  Or “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Worried about that deadline, aren’t you.”  As Quilless testified in her Comment to Kegels 4, she “experienced notable Shifts” when she Poor-Sweethearted herself.  It’s a remarkably simple and Powerful technique.

We don’t Leave our Body when we Poor-Sweetheart, but we certainly Leave our Ego, or rather, switch Horses to a different Ego.  It’s basically a Shift into Self-Love.  It’s particularly effective with Anxiety and Worry, because those are markers for being Out Of Self-Love and Questioning our own Competence.  Every Experience is an Opportunity to Learn something Life-Changing.  What if we started every morning with “I Wonder What Wonderful Life-Changing Things I’ll Learn Today.”

One thing I Learned today is that I can afford to be even more Assertive about shunting my Shoulds to the side to make more room for my Wannas.  I tried to work on a big project that’s due next week, and got nowhere, wasting several unproductive hours in the process.  Even when I Noticed how much more Anxiety was involved in having to do everything myself, and PIAVAed help from the Great Spirit and Her Designees, I got nowhere!  So I got the message, Gave It Over, and dove Joyfully into my Wannas.

Considering that Sedna (Fear/Power) is Stationary (Strong) within an eighth of a Degree of the Fixed Star Algol (the Eye of Medusa), we need to review the status of Gender Balance in the World this week.  I think this sums it up fairly well…

…with Speaker Pelosi giving the Antichrist a Celebratory Stinkeye for soundbiting compromise while offering none.  Not exactly a Perseus Moment for the Alpha.

Sedna and Fear

November 12, 2018

Sedna is the first Sednoid.  The Discovery of Sedna required a whole new class of minor planets.  Plutoids are dwarf planets that are similar to Pluto in scale, distance, and orbit.  Sedna is an order of magnitude further away than Pluto, having an orbit 45 times as long as Pluto’s.  They’re so distant that we can count on one hand the number of Sednoids discovered so far.

We’ve been interpreting Sedna as Fear because Action Committed under the Influence of Terror is the predominant Energy in the Sedna myth.  The dawn of television brought us Mutual of Omaha’s Wild Kingdom, belaboring how Nature was “red in tooth and claw.”  If you remember black and white TV you probably remember Marlin Perkins…

Young and impressionable, we didn’t make the connection until decades later between Insurance and Fear.  Other voices have since demonstrated how Nature is more accurately characterized as remarkably Collaborative and Synergistic.  Mutual of Omaha hasn’t been the only agent that Feeds on our Fear.  Politicians and color TV have since elevated Fear to a high art.  It’s a central pillar of the Healing Crisis that is the creeping Fascism that’s been trying to spread like a dark shadow across our Home Planet. 

A look at Sedna’s Discovery chart makes it obvious that its Emergence into Huper Consciousness, like Wild Kingdom ultimately was, is about Becoming Aware of our Unconscious Fear.  Here’s the chart…

Sedna sits on the North Node, meaning that Sedna’s Emergence into our Consciousness Serves our Mission directly. 

Sedna is one member of a Grand Sextile, the most favorable of all astrological Configurations, which avers that Grace will follow all of our Self-Initiated Actions.  We gain Leverage by Noticing when we’re Feeling Fear so we can Act Consciously rather than Habitually.  We Convert Fear to Power by doing Kegels, because Kegels slow down Time, giving us Time to Consider our Actions.  Remembering to Breathe is always useful too.

The other five corners of the Grand Sextile are…

  • Moira … Awareness Allows Choice to Replace Fate; Moira is Stationary as we speak
  • Nessus-Veritas-Aletheia … Revelation of the Truth about Abuse and Privilege; Nessus is Exactly Stationary a week from now, so probably already Present in our Energy Field
  • Sun-South Node … Illumination of our Self-Sabotaging Habits
  • Jupiter-Lachesis-Makemake … Changing Timelines Consciously to Expand our Ability to Create What We Want
  • The Moon – Authenticity

The Grand Sextile means that these six Principles all reinforce one another positively.

The other major element is a Diamond Star or Self-Resolving Challenge, focused on Pluto-Sappho, which implies Transformation of the Nature of our Self-Love.  It’s a lot Easier to Love ourself when we can be Authentic, Call Out Abuse when we see it, Support ourself Unconditionally, Choose to Create What We Really Want, and Know that we’re in step with our Lifetime Mission.  What can possibly go wrong?

Well, we can Allow Unconscious Fear to creep into our Attitudes and Motivate our Actions without our Becoming Aware of it.  We would be shocked if we knew how much of our Lives are Motivated by Fear – everything that’s preceded by Judgment, for instance.  Actually, feeling like “something isn’t right” is a good Indicator here in the Age of Sedna, that we’re on the Cusp of Noticing a shard of Unconscious Fear that we haven’t yet Detected and Identified as Self-Sabotaging.

I was Feeling that way last week, and I didn’t know why.  Now I understand – I have a dozen deadlines in the last half of November, and until yesterday I wasn’t sure I could meet them all.  Yesterday I didn’t finish one of the bigger ones, but I finished enough that I’m now confident that finishing it will be just a matter of walking through several well-known steps, which I expect to have ample time for.  So I was Feeling Anxiety and not recognizing it.  Anxiety is Fear in a cheap suit.

I did, today, Tap Out Anxiety, before (not instead of!) reaching for a Walnut Shortbread Cookie (it was delicious), but that was only a prelude to my Realizing, just now, that Anxiety was the source of my Feeling a Disturbance in the Force last week.  So many things have been Climaxing lately, that it won’t Surprise me at all to see Anxiety finally becoming a Trigger for Consciousness instead of a Trigger for Soul-Devouring Thoughts. 

Sedna Stands Still during the first week of the coming February.  If we take every Opportunity to be Alert to any upwelling of Anxiety between now and then, we may be able to put a checkmark next to it on our Karmic To-Do List!  That would be a Life-Changer.