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March III – Self-Love

February 28, 2017

As we enter March, and Sappho (Self-Love) and Aletheia (Truth) move out of the Yin Gate (see March I), they mix it up with some planets that we haven’t been talking about much lately.  They’re Opposite one another, and an Opposition is about Duality and Ritual.  Ritual gets its Power through Repetition, so there’s a more or less “right” (ie, Repetitive) way to do it, so it is indeed an Either/Or.  Duality is the mainstay of Political Systems, including Religions and “Morality.”  “Ethics” from the Mind is a little fuzzier, but it’s usually just a description of the Morality of the Ethicist.  We all have Values in our Heart, which are much more Reliable than Morality or Ethics.

The point is that we may be kind of struggling with our Concepts of Self-Love.  We’re so used to Believing that Truth lies in the Mind rather than in the Heart.  Truth in the Heart is Situational, not Absolute.  We know it when we see it, but if we try to pin it down with words it gets stuck.  If Truth is Absolute, it’s not Truth, it’s Doctrine.  So in that Context then, what is Self-Love?  

If we take the Emotional Love we’ve Felt and point it at ourSelf, does that feel like Narcissism?  And what’s the difference between Absolute and Unconditional?  We might be working with those kinds of Questions.

What I’d contribute, is that if there is Self-Judgment, it’s not Self-Love.  I seldom meet Perfect Beings, so of course there’s Self-Judgment.  What we should be striving for is Awareness of our Self-Judgments.  When Judgment operates below the level of Consciousness, and when it operates on the level of Absolutes, it becomes Self-Sabotage.  Sabotage because if we aren’t fully in Self-Love, then to that extent we’re in Self-Sabotage.  It’s that important.

Are you in your Yes-Buts at this point?  Maybe contrasting Self-Love to Selfish?  Selfish is a relative term.  Most of us got our definition of Selfish from someone who was using it to Power-Over us.  So it’s a lousy benchmark.  Many times folks have argued that Self-Criticism is not something we can Abandon.  Folks with strong Virgo in their charts are particular prone to that Perspective.  But if we want to use Self-Criticism as a benchmark, we have to differentiate Blame from Responsibility first.

In a nutshell, Blame looks to the Past in order to attribute Cause, and often Guilt.  On the other hand Responsibility looks to the Future in order to Create more Desirable Outcomes.  We may look into the Past to try to Discover what the fulcrum is that will Create better Outcomes for us.  Maybe we were kind of drunk when we had that last car crash, and in fact hailing a cab is likely to work out better next time.  This issue is how we Feel about it.

If we’re Critical of ourself, if we Feel Bad about our role in the Water going under the bridge, that’s a form of Self-Sabotage.  We can’t Change Anything until we Accept It exactly as It Is.  It’s kind of a cliché, but if we’re saying “Wow, I’m really glad I crashed my car, because it’s Teaching me not to drink and drive, before I kill somebody,”  and we’re really Honest about Feeling more or less Good about it, then we’re Edging toward Self-Love.

What we want to aim for is Neutrality.  We’re Feel okay about any Outcome.  We have Preferences, we’d rather not be the instrument of anyone’s Death Wish, but if it happens we’ll Feel okay about it, and Take Full Responsibility for working to Create more Desirable Outcomes in the Future, once we get out of jail – maybe even before we get out.  

Well, Surprise!  One of those “new” Planets that are Dancing with Sappho and Aletheia, is none other than Pholus, which is about Taking Full Responsibility for Improving Outcomes.  Pholus is conjunct Quaoar, which is about Taking Responsibility for our Survival.  Responsibility Squared in other words.  It should be obvious that if we’ve achieved Self-Love we’ll be Taking Responsibility for our Survival.  

Both Pholus and Quaoar go Stationary (Strong) and turn Retrograde at the end of March, within a few days and within one Degree of one another.  Pholus has been less than three Degrees behind Quaoar most of the time since 2014.  While Quaoar is a dwarf planet well beyond Pluto and Pholus a Centaur closer to Neptune, at this point in their respective elliptic orbits they’re traveling at about the same speed, so Quaoar won’t Initiate Pholus until 2022.

That’s when Huperity might begin to Take Full Responsibility for its Survival.  The Initiation is in 8 Degrees of Capricorn, which is about Domesticated Birds Singing Joyously in a Sun-Lit Home.  I’ll take the Joyously part to mean that Hupers have finally Relearned how to Cooperate with Nature to at least some degree, rather than the possibility that All of Wild People have been Domesticated.

Pholus-Quaoar make a Quincunx Bridge across the Sappho-Aletheia Opposition, with Pholus-Quaoar Unx (Pattern-Breaking) to Sappho and Quincunx (Curiosity) to Aletheia.  Meanwhile, Varuna makes a Trine Bridge across the Opposition, Trine to Sappho and Sextile to Aletheia.

The Angles between Pholus-Quaoar and Sappho-Aletheia are first about Curiosity – which, recall, we regard as next to Love in Grace, since both eschew Judgment – and second about Breaking Patterns – which in turn is positive as well, since Huperity’s Patterns for Taking Responsibility for its own Survival and for Self-Love, have historically been pretty miserable.  

The other “new” planet tied to Sappho-Aletheia in the 1 March chart is Varuna, which symbolizes the Life Force.  And the Relationship between them is very positive.  Basically, at this time the Life Force is favoring Self-Love more than it’s favoring Truth.  “Truth” has to step up and Earn it’s Blessing from the Life Force, presumably by issuing from the Heart rather than the Mind, while Self-Love basks in Grace.

The combination focuses a Finger of God (Pay Attention to This!) onto Pholus-Quaoar.  That says to me that as Lightworkers we aren’t waiting until 2022, we’re building the Foundations for Communion with Nature now.  This is very true, but you’d never know it from the mainstream media (if there is such a thing anymore – I think it’s more like a number of sloughs than a main stream), unless you read the literature on Permaculture or Organic Agriculture, or Michael Roads’s Stepping…Between…Realities.

Michael’s message for today (http://int.michaelroads.org/?utm_source=365+steps+to+a+happier+more+conscious+life) is…

“Most people think that in their life anything can happen.  This is seldom true.  Lifetime following lifetime we are creating a template of probabilities, and in each life that template holds an ever more probable definition of the way that we, individually, will live.  This is the prison in which humanity is caged, and the probability is that it will continue.  

“You do, of course, have the option to break the probability template, if first you have accepted its reality.  You break the template by treating yourself with the honour and respect that you would  accord to a Goddess, or a God.  It also helps to consciously . . . choose Love!.”

By the way, this Sappho-Aletheia Cycle Initiated May 2012 in 14 Cancer, so the Cycle is about “A very old man facing a vast dark space to the northeast.”  Sounds ominous.  This Opposition, which culminates next January, is the “Blooming” of this dark Cycle – everybody blooms, even deadly Hemlock.  Rudhyar interprets the northeast as the Spiritual Void, or “that apparent Darkness which is an intense Light invisible to our senses” – very apparent in our earlier contrast between Expansion and Confusion.

By this measure then we have more apparent Darkness to reinterpret as intense Light, as the Blooming continues through this year, followed by the Fruiting, which occurs at the Phitile or Golden Angle (222.5 Degrees).  Sappho reaches the Phitile next March and the Waning Square next July.  Then they Dance around on the Waning side of the Cycle till we exit from this Void-of-the-Void in 2022.  

The 2022 Cycle will begin at 15 Taurus, “The courage needed to meet the crises precipitated by social ambition” (Rudhyar).  Sounds like we’ll want to be in the Fifth Dimension by then, or at least if we want to be Boddhisatva about it, traveling the way Michael does (Stepping…Between…Realities or Through the Eyes of Love).

Blessing Full Moon Eclipse III

February 8, 2017

Now we get to the Juicy part, the Yin Gate.  The Full Moon bisects the long side of the Golden Rectangle, but the Yin Gate bisects the short side, giving us one of those Grand Crosses that we spoke of briefly earlier.  A Grand Cross works better than Garlic for repelling Vampires.  You’ve got four possibly-difficult planets in four Challenging Angles to one another, yet the result is that they Collaborate, because the Configuration fills the Circle and is In Balance.

Grand Crosses are either in Creative (Cardinal) or Stabilizing (Fixed) or Changeable (Mutable) Signs.  This one is in the Stabilizing Signs, which, since everything else is in high Flux, is very handy.  It should help Ground us.  In the Grand Cross we have…

  • The Moon in Leo, which will Support our Self-Loving Emotions, as long as we eschew Self-Criticism
  • The Sun in Aquarius, which will help us Build Community, as long as we eschew Idealism
  • The asteroids Sappho (Self-Love) and Klotho (the Raw Material for Creating a New Ego-Lifetime) in Scorpio, where they’ll be Diving Deep to make sure no Self-Abandoning or Self-Limiting Psychic Cysts remain
  • Our friend Sedna (Fear/Anger – !) and asteroid Aletheia (Truth) in Taurus, where they will help Ground us toward Walking in Beauty, as long as we eschew Oath-Making and Decision-Making

By bisecting the short sides of the Golden Rectangle, the Yin Gate sets up interlocking Fingers of God pointing to each end of the Sappho/Klotho-to-Sedna/Aletheia Opposition.  Meaning that we are being Asked to find some way to Balance a Rebirth into Self-Love on one hand with the Truth of our Unrecognized Fear and Anger in the other (and the exercise isn’t optional).  If that sounds Paradoxical, that’s because it is.  A Yin Gate is about Accepting Paradox as a normal part of Reality.

Which it is.  Reality is Infinite; our Either/or minds, not being able to grasp Infinity, prefer Limitation.  Our Emotional Bodies also often prefer Duality, in the form of For-or-Against postures.  We Want our Emotion-verbs to have objects – not “I’m Angry” but “I’m Angry At…” or “I’m Angry Because…”.  Of course we’d first like to shift out of Identification with our Emotions – “I Feel Anger” rather than “I Am Anger.”  

In Real Life “I Feel Anger” just means there’s an Energy Build-up in my Solar Plexus.  Usually, that is; our Energy Bodies are often twisted by our Programming.  While the Causes of an Energy Build-up in my Solar Plexus are Limited only by my Imagination, in Reality Energy isn’t Causal; It Is.  It just Is.  It doesn’t matter how it happened, only how we Respond to it.

If it’s Comfortable and Balanced by the Energy in your other Chakras, No Worries.  The more the merrier – as Daniel averred.  If it’s not Comfortable, we check our Safety.  Would our Current Ego Feel Safer if we Set a Boundary, or Fled, or Froze?  “Freezing” looks like Limiting our Vulnerability, maybe by shifting a conversation to the Weather, for instance.  

Then, once we’re Safe, if “Running our Energy” didn’t resolve it quickly, and if we couldn’t easily Tap it Out, or if it’s a recurring Pattern, we could Observe our Current Ego, to see if “We” are holding onto any Obsolete Limits.  We might be in the Habit of associating with people who don’t Support us, because of our Fear of Abandonment.  We might be Over-Reacting to Comments or Actions that really don’t have anything to do with Us, from people who really do usually Support Us.

How to tell the difference, “Objectively”?  Maybe it’s Both.  (There’s actually no such thing as Objectivity, but sometimes it’s useful to Pretend that there is.)  We could look at what Comments or Actions seemed to Anger us.  Is there any sense in which We do that to anyone?  Often the Esoteric Purpose of a Rogue Emotion or Energy Vortex is to Illuminate an Unconscious Cyst we don’t otherwise see.

So, what became of our Fear versus Anger “contest” around Sedna?  Both Jupiter (Amplification) and Sedna were Stationary over the weekend.  Well, mostly Anger, though Fear and Grief are also Present.  

In the Sedna story (one of many) that I Resonate with, a father gives his daughter’s “hand” to a stranger, who turns out to be a Sorcerer.  Alarmed, the father “steals” her back, only to be pursued by the Sorcerer, shapeshifted into Power, and Angry.  The father is Terrified, and tries to throw his daughter from the canoe to save his own ass.  She clings to the side of the canoe, so he chops off her fingers, which become the Seals, food for the People.  But the People must make offerings to Sedna, now a Sea-Goddess, in order to apease her Anger.

So, mea culpa, I associated with the father’s Terror, and interpreted Sedna as Fear.  It’s easy to see how one could associate with the daughter’s – or even the sorcerer’s – Anger instead.  The daughter has been criminally Abandoned – but Abandonment is a Fear, though often Experienced as Anger.

Some (edited) excerpts…

“While I’d say Anger, I wonder how much of that is a reaction to Disbelief that what I thought was giving from love has been treated so shabbily.  So, moving from Fear of Betrayal and Abandonment to accepting that those have happened, but I survived.  So I’d say self-protective rage?  Or maybe the rage is self-righteous?  It’s a very fine line.  But I’d say the difference is seeing more clearly, taking responsibility for my part, and then moving on, without engaging and without plans to continue having those people in my life.”

“Fear is there, yes, but anger was prime the last 3 days.”

“I did experience Sedna as anger, or actually even contempt.  I worked with the contempt for awhile.  There was a panic attack or two, and more shifting and praying.  But then, yesterday, a release.  An enormous release of soul crushing rage-pain I had been carrying around with me for three years daily.  I keep checking in with myself amazed.  Am I finally free of this?  I feel.  Yes, it isn’t there.  Check again.  Still free.  And again.  It’s gone.  That thing that haunted me, that thing that was my dismemberment floating on an iceberg abandoned is gone.”

“Yes…anger on Saturday evening…irritable and overwhelmed.  Followed by waking on Sunday morning to sadness and then the fear kicked in and simmered along much of the day.”

“The weekend brought a lot of emotions up – and you’re right, primarily anger!  A lot of this I’d been carrying around in my sub conscious and was brought to the surface.  On Monday the main emotion was acceptance.  More than I’ve ever felt before.”

“Tremendous almost bottomless (nearly impersonal) fear.”

“Neither Fear nor Anger, but an incredibly deep revisiting of trauma experienced when I was very young.  I think there is no real gender-dependent reponse here, but response based on how much we have processed along the way.  A dear friend of mine, with whom we always swap the emotional intensity of these challenging times, also experienced a positive weekend.  So yeah, ongoing, remaining positive, and the weekend also brought lots of manifestation potential.”

“The men couldn’t handle our intensity — when we vigorously debated our positions, the guys walked out the door!”

I’d attribute the Profound Clearing that several folks reported, to the Yin Gate rather than to Sedna herself.  And Anger is an appropriate response to Fear, if we Choose to Fight rather than Flee or Freeze.  In the Patriarchy, the Male has the Power, so it’s he that’s in a position to be the Abandoner – till Terror causes his wits to Abandon him.  

I agree that it’s ultimately Gender-neutral, as anyone can exhibit behaviors and characteristics that in Patriarchal Cultures are Gender-dependent, and Profiling is always dangerous.  In Patriarchy Power-Dynamics, though, Gender is very significant, even if it’s not always determinate.

And yes, “response based on how much we have processed along the way” is relevant.  There does appear to be a Progression, where we become less Self-Sabotaging as we Track Down, Embrace and Let Go of our catalog of Karmic Archetypes, Patterns, Self-Sabotage, Chronic Bummers, Dank Undercurrents, and other Psychic Cysts.  But it’s definitely not Linear.  

I’d say that, if a person has Squares in their natality in 20-26 Degrees, and has sailed through the last several months unscathed, then Self-Congratulations are in order!  But it says little about Big Energies that may occur in the rest of the Degrees, between 27 and 19.  

Speaking astrologically, the Energies that we’ve been dealing with have been extraordinarily Positive.  Our Difficulty with them arises because it’s now so obvious that Clearing is no longer a Luxury.  Our Egos can no longer so easily duck and dodge.  Look at it this way…  

On 2/22/2022, Quaoar (our Survival Instinct) Initiates Pholus (Taking Full Responsibility), at 7:00 Capricorn,A veiled prophet speaks, seized by the Power of a God.”  2/22/2022 reduces to the Twelfth Harmonic – Pattern-Breaking.  We’re already well within this Energy, as Pholus is only one and a quarter Degrees from Quaoar.

Chaos 1

November 5, 2016

In our earlier post Rebirth of Genius, we talked about the Golden Rectangle that continues to Bless us.  A Golden Rectangle is very much Beneficent, though of course it includes a few Challenges – whenever we’re Graced with a Big Blessing, we face the Challenge of facing down our Resistance to Change and to the resulting Ego Death.  The Rectangle is Golden because it is structured using the Golden Angle that organizes Nature.

The four corners of the Golden Rectangle are

  • Dwarf planet Chaos – Unlimited Potential (with asteroid Veritas – Truth)
  • Ixion-Pholus – Being Fully Responsible to our Abandoned Genius (with Quaoar – Survival – nearby)
  • Sappho-Haumea – Rebirth into Self-Love
  • Uranus-Eris – Identifying with the Truth of the Soul Self (with asteroid Mnemosyne – Memory, and Ceres – Sustainability)

We’ve been working on our Yintegrity (Trusting our Intuition and Instincts) prominently for four years now, and in the background for the fifty years before that.  Doesn’t matter if you aren’t that old – we’re all working to Grow the Consciousness of the Species, so you were born into the process.  We’re now having a Big Rebirth of major portions of our Soul Self.

We’ve also been working for several years on our Unity with All Things, and the Mulifariousness that invariable accompanies it, as a herd of Centaurs and dwarf planets has migrated across the Galactic Center over the last several years.  Most prominently, Pholus, symbolizing Full Responsibility, remains, along with Ixion, which symbolizes Rejected Genius.

So we interpret the Golden Rectangle as bringing our Rejected Genius, the Star of our Soul Self, into our Heart where it can be Acknowledged, Embraced, and Expressed.  Lots of cosmic folks are Lighting Up the Golden Rectangle over the next several days as we approach the Full Moon.  We’ll talk about those soon, but first let’s let Michael Roads and Lilou Mace introduce the process…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5DZRyv3rllk

*Lots* Going On 1

October 5, 2016

Where to start?

(1) With the big Jupiter Septile Yod I guess.  It’s with us from around 1 October through 7 October.  Remember last week’s Magic Storm?  That was about one version of what we call “Magic” – the Miracle of Timing.  It’s one of the greatest Blessings that follow from developing your Intuition.  You can spend years (or Lifetimes) trying to do something without success, when the Timing isn’t right.  Then, when the Timing is right, you can accomplish it in a Heartbeat.  

Don Juan was always trying to teach Castaneda to “Save his Power,” and this is what he meant – don’t waste your Energy when the Timing isn’t right.  This is the Seventh Harmonic; planets one seventh of the way ’round the Zodiac from one another, or two or three sevenths.  How do we know when the Timing is right?  Our Intuition tells us, but we have to Listen to it and not let the noisy mind overrule it because it would be hard to defend in a debate.  The Moon, in its esoteric Meaning of Instinct and Authenticity, also plays a big role.

Look for places where you’re wasting Energy fretting about not doing something that your Shoulds are nagging about, when the Timing isn’t right, and places where you feel like you’re on a treadmill.  Watch for things that happen in a flash when you expected them to take forever.  We’re Learning here about the Held Emotions and Other People’s Expectations (such as Believing we have to explain ourself) that block us from Trusting our Intuition implicitly, instantly, and unquestioningly.

This next itemdddd deserves a long essay of its own, but I don’t have time right now, so I’ll be “brief”…  

(2) As we’ve discussed at length, we’re being Asked in no uncertain terms to take Responsibility to Embrace the Brilliance, Gorgeousness, Talent, and Fabulosity of the Truth of our Abandoned Genius.  Because the Programming that forced us to Abandon this part of ourself was Abusive, we have to work through a great deal of Pain to get to this Responsibility.  

(3) Until around 10 October, we’re Gifted with unusual Ease in this task.  You definitely want to take advantage of this.  How?  The easiest way is Self-Empathy – and being constantly Watchful for whatever you’re Feeling in the Present Moment…  

  • Anger?  Any Self-Judgment there?  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re questioning your Right to Self-Protection, aren’t you.”  
  • Worry?  Undifferentiated Unease?  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Anxious, aren’t you.”  
  • Not sure what’s going on?  Trying to figure it out mentally?  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Confused, aren’t you.”  

Wait – Confusion’s the first sign of Growth, right?  Hooray, the Timing is Right to Celebrate!

(4) It gets better.  Surrendering to our Rebirth (which may of course Feel like Ego Death), and Surrendering to the Unknown (which is always Scary), will unleash tremendous Grace on not only the Challenge of Letting Go of our Limiting Programming, but also on any unfinished elements of our many-year task of Removing our Masks and becoming more Authentic to Who We Really Are.  That part is Given to us, all we need to do is stop Resisting it.  

We do have to add one Energy on our own, however, to make it all work Effortlessly.  That Energy is Bravery and Persistence.  If we’re Conscious of our Fear of Death and the Unknown, we can Tap Out the Overwhelm, Locate it in our Bodies, Warm it, Soften around it, Love it where it is, and Breathe into it.  Considering what’s Going On, this will be a Big Order, not because it’s so difficult to Tap or Warm or Breathe, but because what we Fear is so Big that we can’t see it.

We’re looking at our Relationships, our Economic Situation, our Health, our Well-Being, our Anxiety, our Emotions – everything facing and surrounding us.  But what’s Going On is Bigger than that.  A lot Bigger.  Imagine a cloud of Darkness surrounding your House, then your Neighborhood, then your Town, your County, your Region, your Country, your Continent, your Planet, your Solar System, your Galaxy.  That’s what we are Unconsciously Fearing here, and for most of us, it’s not Conscious.  Once we’re Conscious of it, we can Tap Out the Overwhelm, Locate it in our Bod, Love it, Breathe into it.

That part’s “easy,” once we get Conscious of our Fear of Transformation, and find the Courage and Persistence to find the Light Switch that’s hidden within All That Darkness somewhere, and pull it.  It’s Intimidating, but the Light that’s Behind the Sun is far more immense.  Bruce Cockburn said it well half a century ago…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g5fiawMknm0

So does Lisa Rising Berry, who advises us that “We have been taught to fear Dark energy, but it is the source of all creation,” at…

https://lisarisingberry.wordpress.com/2016/10/05/azoth-energy-coming-to-fruition-much-will-be-purified-and-transformed/

It’s a longer version than Bruce’s, but worthwhile, as she ties it in to many ancient and recent traditions, which, remarkably, we can and will match to what’s Going On in the sky now.

Expansion, recall, is one of the many obscure variations of PIAVA.  Find the Light Behind the Sun by Grounding yourself, then move your Consciousness up and out through the center of the top of your Head till you Connect to the Light.

(5-11) We’ll translate these into English soon.

(1) The Septile Yod points at Jupiter (Expansion) from a base of the Waxing Septile from Ceres (Sustainability) to the Conjunction between Neptune (Culture, Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity) and the South Node (Held Emotion and Hidden Skills).

(2) We’re in the midst of a long-lived Chiron (Despair and Miracle) T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) on a base of the Opposition between Pholus-Ixion (Responsibility-Genius) and dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential), the latter joined by asteroid Veritas (Truth).  

(3) Asteroid Karma (Inertia) has come into a Sextile to Haumea (Rebirth), with Chiron at the Far Midpoint.  That creates a Chiron Diamond Star (Difficult Challenge Made Easier) across the Chiron T-Square, as both Haumea and Karma form Trine Bridges across the T-Square, in the form of a “bowl of Grace” under it.

(4) Asteroid Karma and Ixion-Pholus join with Uranus-Eris (Removing our Masks, Yintegrity) to form a Grand Trine, a Haumea Kite, and a Chaos-Veritas Kite, leaving one Vacancy to Create a Grand Sextile.  The Vacancy is 23 Capricorn, which is about Bravery in Combat.  Capricorn 23 is also the location of the January 2020 Pluto-Saturn Initiation.

All these Goings On (#2-5), as has often been the case recently, are in 22-25 of their respective Signs. The mid-October (and all month) Nemesis-Juno Conjunction ( https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/09/30/nemesis/ ) is in the same range, at 24 Scorpio, as is the Nova in the Constellation Lupus.

Thanks to Eliza Ayres for leading us to Lisa’s post – https://bluedragonjournal.com/2016/10/05/lisa-rising-berry-azoth-energy-coming-to-fruition/

(5) By around 10 October, Karma breaks out of the Diamond Star and Grand Trine, but asteroid Hopi (Respect for all Things) moves into Opposition to Chiron, completing the Grand Cross till around 20 October.  The Grand Cross will still be Trine-Bridged by a Golden Rectangle and Quincunx-Bridged by Haumea and Uranus-Eris.  

The trace of our previous Bravery Vacancy will still make a Grand Trine with Haumea and Chaos, and Kites pointing to Uranus-Eris and Ixion-Pholus.

(6) We have two Initiations today (5 October).  Normally we’d cast Initiations as the centerpiece of our Interpretations – their relegation to footnotes shows how Big (#1-4) are.

First, Quaoar (Survival) Initiates Moira (Fate), which sounds pretty heavy.  The Degree is 28 Sagittarius, an old bridge still in use, and of course the Galactic Center, which is a pretty old bridge all right.

(7) Second, Lilith (Yindependence) Initiates Venus (Values) – the Blue Kachina that Lisa mentions, a significant milestone on our path toward the Yang Feminine Energy that we expect to replace the Patriarchy.  It occurs at 16 Scorpio, which symbolizes a girl breaking into a smile.  Mid-Scorpio is one of the four “Horsepersons of the Apocalyse” or Power Points of the Zodiac.

(8) The Red Kachina that Lisa mentions is found in the Initiations of Mars (Energy, Action) by Hylonome (Grieving the Disattachment from an Archetype) and Chariklo (Charm and Grace)…

First, Hylonome-Mars 29 September in 2 Capricorn, three Gothic Rose windows, one damaged by war.

(9) Second, Chariklo-Mars 3 October in 4 Capricorn, outfitting a large canoe.

(10) On 8 October, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) and OR10 (Irruptions from the Deep Unconscious) Conjoin.  This is a long-term, slow-moving astroevent, and can be blamed for much of our Pain, as we become Aware of and Let Go of old Abuse.  See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/10/02/trigger-warnings/ .

(11) At our mid-month Yin-Gate Nemesis-Juno Conjunction (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/09/30/nemesis/ ), Mars will be Initiated by Pluto (Transformation, aka Trance-reFormation), which is Opposing Sirius, which Lisa mentions in regard to the Hopi Prophesies.

Responsibility IV

September 9, 2016

Hylonome turns Direct (8am PDT 10 September and 9am PDT when the Moon crosses Hylonome)
Chariklo turns Direct (3pm PDT 19 September and 1pm PDT when the Moon crosses Chariklo)

A reader writes…

“I woke up feeling so much fear… a feeling like I was a child who was taken care of by adults and now they all suddenly left without preparing me for the world and I was alone and I had no clue how to survive in the world without the adults taking care of me…

“I felt like a child who thinks nothing can go wrong in their life, a bit cocky, ready to take on anyone who they don’t like…. suddenly come to realize all that confidence and cockiness and feeling invincible is no longer here when the support of the adults is gone and suddenly the support system is gone and I have to fend for myself…. it was pure fear…. I cannot even tell you how intense and weird and foreign it felt…”

It’d be difficult to find a better description of Chariklo and Hylonome.  I’ve never found it easy to explain, but I’ve always said that “Beauty has its own Karma.”  Like Romney’s 47% and Trump’s “What have you got to lose?”, or losing our credit cards, Privilege is Blind to Lack of Privilege.  And among modern Hupers, Beauty begets Privilege.  Chariklo is about Beauty and Charm.

Hylonome on the other hand is about Loss of an Archetype that we Depend upon.  We’ve Given Away our Power to someone or some thing that we’ve Merged with, and when the object of our Projection goes away, we’re left without our own Resilience and means of Independent Survival.  Hylonome and Chariklo have been traveling together since early 2014, though Chariklo will begin pulling ahead now.

Hylonome Initiated Chariklo at the end of January 2015 in 30 Sagittarius, which is about the Repetition of Ritual.  No question that there’s Power there, but is it Support, or Obligation?

It should be fairly obvious, again, that these last three years have been preparing us for the Loss of what we have come to Take for Granted.  The Saturn-Neptune (Cultural Structure), Saturn-Pluto (Zeitgeist Clarity), and Jupiter-Saturn (Cultural-Economic Balance) Cycles are all Waning (Deconstructing), with the Saturn-Chiron (Limits of Possibility) Cycle joining them by year-end.  Our proper course is Letting Go of anything unnecessary, in preparation for major Changes.

Several of these major Cycles recharge in the first year or two of the next Decade.  The 1/1/2000 chart also promises major Changes – Loss of the Veil that Constrains our sense of Reality (Neptune-Nodes), Loss of National Identity (Chiron-Pluto), and Loss of Surplus (Ceres Rising).  

Over the next six months new Saturn (Structure) Cycles will be Initiated by all of the players we’re dancing with now – Ixion, Pholus, Quaoar, Hylonome, Chariklo, sharply Changing the way we relate to Genius, Responsibility, Survival, Identity, and Privilege.  Mars will cross this field over the next month, Changing the way we apply our Energy to these endeavors.  Jupiter will run this Gauntlet in 2019.

Hylonome and Chariklo have moved into Capricorn, whose motto is “Just Fix It.”  The message for us is to Examine our Attachments, and Transform or Jettison all Self-Sabotaging Identities that we find, along with those which don’t Serve our Mission.  The other gangsters – Saturn, Ixion, Pholus, Quaoar – are still in Sagittarius.  Sagittarius is “Mutable Fire,” or Spiritual Mutation – Burning Off the chaff, Letting Go before we burn our fingers.

The Waxing Cycles provide clues about where we’re heading – Uranus-Pluto (Yintegrity), Chiron-Pluto (Transformation of Identity), Chiron-Neptune (Transformation of Culture – our Fresh Violets in an Ancient Pottery Bowl), Uranus-Neptune (We Are All One).  Bottom Line?  Back to Community.  Time for a Searching and Fearless Inventory.  If it’s not growing Organic Corn, Compost it.

Eris-Uranus New Moon

June 3, 2016

Bottom Line

The 4 June New Moon is a major trigger for the 9 June Eris-Uranus Initiation, which is about Getting Honest with Ourselves around our formerly-Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  We’ve also referred to them as Masks and Archetypes, and Despair.  This is really about Rebirth.  Unfortunately it may not be the most Effortless Birth, as our favorite Pattern is to cling to our Olde Ego while the New Ego is trying to get born.  That’s very painful.

We have to Let Go and Let God/Goddess.  Trust the process.  Whenever the going gets tough, recognize that you’re in Resistance to the Change.  It may not at all be obvious what else you can do besides Resist – Resistance is your Olde Ego trying to Survive, and that’s exactly what Egos do for a living, they’re good at it, and that’s why you hire them, because when they Survive, you Survive.  Except during the occasional Rebirths; we have to endure an Ego Death to allow a Rebirth.  

Your New Ego isn’t formed yet, and while we may have an inkling where to find its chrysalis, we won’t know what it Feels like.  So we’re stuck with PIAVAs (“God/Goddess, please give me a clue what to do besides Resist” or “I Wonder what it will Feel like when I finish wriggling out of this old carapace that’s so tight I can’t Breathe”) and Tapping (“Even though I feel worthless and hopeless, I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself”) and Empathizing (“You poor Sweetheart, you really feel like you’re being tortured, don’t you”) and the like.

Once you succeed in Letting Go, you’ll be surprised at how quickly it gets Easy.

 

Details

1.  There’s a big Challenge to Embrace our Despair.  Remember that “Unconscious Despair” is failure to Believe that what you Need is even Possible.  Set aside your YesButs for a moment and Imagine that you could have what you Need or Want.  Now go back to your YesButs and convert each one to a YesAnd.  “YesBut you just aren’t Sexy enough to get that” might become “YesAnd I just Need one Lover.”  “YesBut you’ll never be able to earn enough Money for that” may be “YesAnd What If someone gave it to me as a Gift!”

You want to Touch that Feeling that you would have if your Dream came true, and hold it as long as you can, till it becomes a when rather than an if,  If you can hold that Feeling enough, it won’t matter whether your Dream actually Manifests, because you’ll already have what your Dream would have given you – Peace, Joy, Excitement, Self-Respect, Power, Grace.  What’s a Lover or a Red Convertible compared to that!  And if you had those Feelings most of the time, you could probably score Lovers and Convertibles pretty easy, if you still wanted to.

This is the difference between your Deepest Desires and your Mission in the Lifetime.  What you Desire isn’t actually the Object of your Dreams, it only seems that way because you live in a Material World.  What you actually Crave, what you came her to achieve, is How the Object of your Dreams Makes you Feel.  From that Feeling you can have anything you Ask for.  And guess what!  You’ll be Asking for different things, and they won’t have any YesButs.  It’s a Hologram, y’know, and you’re the projector.

2.  While this is a big Challenge, it doesn’t come without tools that can actually make it pretty Easy.  However, to manifest the Ease, we have to realize that Rebirth is the Ego’s Least Favorite party game, and Love our Olde Ego into oblivion.  Try Gratitude that It’s gotten you this far.  Try just really really appreciating how incredibly Comfortable your Olde Ego Feels, and PIAVA that your New Ego is going to Feel even more Comfortable once you’ve moved through the Grief of Giving Up your Olde Friend who’s kept you Safe.

3.  What will make your Rebirth Easier?  Getting Honest about what you’ve been trying to hide from yourself.  You may not know the details, but you know the general theme.  Abuse?  You don’t need to remember who or when, you just need to Trust your Feelings about it.  Fear?  Anger?  Embrace them.  Locate them in your Body, and move all of your Attention into the center of that place, and hold it there.  Bring it back when it wanders.  Stay with it till it dissolves or moves.  If it moves, follow it.

Eventually you’ll need to Surrender all Blame.  Blame looks toward the Past to assign Cause, while Responsibility looks toward the Future to improve Outcomes.  Any time you catch yourself attributing some Emotion or Sensation in your Body to any outside Cause, stop and bring your Attention back into your Body.  I’m always gnawing at myself because my neighbors have no idea what I’m trying to do in my Garden, and condemn it as a Jungle.

I need to catch myself thinking that, and bring my Attention back into my own Body.  Those Emotions and Sensations have their Roots in my Personal and Karmic Histories.  Those are my Emotions, the neighbors only trigger them.  I need to take up the Practice of locating them in my Body, and Loving them right where they are, exactly as they are.  If I Reject any Emotion, I dampen them all, and without any of them I’m not a Whole Person, I’m dis-eased.

Use this general model with everything that you suspect may be lurking in your Underwhere – Inadequacy, Self-Hate, Belief in Fate, Addiction, Guilt, Shame, any Limiting Belief, and anything else that comes up.  When the Emotion begins to Overwhelm, Tap it Out.

4.  The whole chart actually falls into a pool of Enormous Grace, but there’s a leak in the pool.  To plug it, we need to recognize the Challenges we’ve Lived through, Honor ourself for Living through them, and be Willing to talk about them so others can Learn from our travails.

 

The Astrology

  1.  Aside from the Eris-Uranus Initiation itself of course, the primary focus of the chart is a Chiron T-Square (Challenge to Convert Despair to Miracles) across and Opposition between an Ixion-Pholus Conjunction (Taking Full Responsibility to Let our Orphaned Genius out of the closet) and a Karma-Chaos Conjunction (But without my old Patterns it all looks Chaotic! or Karma is Dead; Long Live Karma!).
  2. This T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) is actually a Diamond Star (Making what would be difficult, Easy), with Sappho (Self-Love) and a Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction (either Feeling like you had this coming, or Recognizing that Rebirth feels like Death because they’re just different sides of the same Coin) on the feet of the Chiron Yod.
  3. The Eris-Uranus Initiation (Revelation of Denial) is at the focus of a Quintile Yod (huge Learning Opportunity).  However, the Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction Opposes the Eris-Uranus Initiation, converting the QYod into a Quintile Kite and shifting some of the emphasis onto Haumea-Nemesis.  A Yod pointing to a Sedna-Atropos Conjunction (The Demise of Fear, foreshadowed of course by the Fear of Demise) from the base of the Sextile from Haumea-Nemesis to Ixion-Pholus.
  4. Eris-Uranus, Karma-Chaos, Sappho, Haumea-Nemesis, and Ixion-Pholus form five points of a Grand Sextile (Enormous Grace, though we need to take the first step).  The Vacancy is 24 Aquarius, “A person, having overcome their compulsions, shares the deep wisdom that results from their experience: The constructive use to which difficult past experiences can be put as examples for those who are still striving to overcome their compulsions,” aka Archetypes/Masks/Karma.

Who Have I Become?

December 25, 2015

That’s today’s question, with Uranus Stationary and turning Direct at 8pm PST ( http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pst20.htm ) on 25 December.  We’ve been wrestling with all manner of Demons and Daemons, most of which have proven to be imaginary (which unfortunately makes them no less profound), for the last many months.  We’ve only had time to deal with each Present Moment as it has passed, as Change has tumbled down upon us and we’ve struggled to find the Means and the Courage to Change what we know we must, the Serenity to Accept what we don’t seem to be able to Change, and the Wisdom to figure out which is which without totally burning ourselves out.  Now we come up for air, and we’re met with this Big Question, 

Who Have I Become? 

We’ve Changed, and now we get a week to figure out how, to figure out Who We’ve Become!

Uranus turned Retrograde in late July, backing over 21-17 Aries.  If you have any natal planets in 17-21 of the Cardinal Signs (Aries, Cancer, Libra, Capricorn), your Uranus Can-Opener occurred in April-to-July, and Exposition in August-to-December; your Confidence-Builder is scheduled for January-March 2016.  Those natal planets will tell you a lot about Who You’ve Become.  17-21 is the Scorpio Duad of Aries; we’ll have been adding embellishments to Version 3.1 of our Lifetime Creation, and Diving Deep to locate obstacles to its progress. 

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For the last year our noses have been rubbed in Sustainability and Sustenance.  As of this morning, that pulse is finished, and won’t return until mid-2017.  Let’s hope the efforts to stem Climate Change, such as they are, won’t stall out in the interim.  

Dwarf planet Ceres (Sustainability) has been Out of Bounds (Strong) since just after Christmas of 2014.  It’s now back In Bounds until July-through-mid-September 2017.  Even if it’s less pronounced for the next year and a half, it was still Rising (Coming into Awareness) everywhere on the Planet on 1/1/2000, making it the bellwringer for the Century.

We still expect the second half of this decade to be economically challenging for most folks, so I don’t recommend that we reduce our Attention to Sustainability and its partner Sustenance.  Sustenance – eliminating the unnecessary – is an important part of Sustainability.  Here’s a very nice series of short videos to help us stay on track – on No-Dig, Forest Gardens, Soil Regeneration, Foraging, for instance…

http://www.permaculture.co.uk/living-with-the-land

The Digital Age, with all its disruption and restructuring, doesn’t start in earnest till 2020 (after Saturn next Initiates Jupiter).  Alternative Culture (the Fresh Violets in an Ancient Pottery Bowl Chiron-Neptune Cycle) is still in its infancy, though I hope you’re personally already deep into it.  And the Developed Nations haven’t even begun to dig themselves out of the mess that bloomed in the 2007 Derivatives Crisis – the Megacorps are much Too Bigger to Fail, and the Derivative load (leveraged bets on the outcome of earlier bets, stacked up in a house of cards) is many times larger.  The Lizards successfully blamed the 2007 Crisis on “deadbeat mortgagees” so you wouldn’t notice them transferring unmeasurable wealth from you and your children to themselves, and they’re setting up to blame the next Crisis on “deadbeat carbuyers and students” so they can repeat the process.  

If you haven’t read Naomi Klein’s Shock Doctrine, which explains the Lizards’ methodology very clearly, please do read it so you can explain it to everyone you know; I meet few people who understand how we’re being scammed, and it won’t stop till most people understand it.  They’ll exploit the next big Climate-Crisis storm the same way they exploited New Orleans in 2005.  The oddsmakers, who are much more prescient than the polls or the for-sale media, give Hilary Clinton a 75%-or-so chance of becoming the next President of the US (they give Donald “the T is silent” Trump* and the other Repos about 10%, and Bernie about 4%), which means business as usual for the New (Corporate) World Order.

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But, why do we only have a week to figure out Who We’ve Become?  Actually, it doesn’t much matter, because we’ll be someone else entirely by July (after Eris Initiates Uranus), so it’s only a brief moment of Stillness.  Several hours before the New Year here – half past 5pm PST ( http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pst17.htm ) – the dwarf planet Makemake turns Retrograde.  Makemake is about Manifestation, as its name suggests.  So for most of this week we’ll be focused more on 

What Am I Going to Create with (or for) my New Self?

than on Who Have I Become.  You’re probably already mulling this over.  You may not even have stopped to notice how Different you are now than you were six months ago.  It might not be a bad idea to give some Attention to the Who question over the next several days, lest you address the What question from the perspective of your Old Self, if your mind or Emotions haven’t caught up yet.  By Monday or Tuesday, it’d be an excellent time to review your PIAVA techniques…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/

Pick out a few simple short-term Manifestations, something you can create in an hour or so (like finding the shovel you haven’t seen since August), and a few specific PIAVA techniques to practice on.  Then, by Wednesday and Thursday, you’ll be ready for some Big-Time Manifestation Efforts.  You’ll have figured out Who You Are and What You Want Now, and you can go for it.  A planet is at its Strongest when it’s Stationary, so Peak Power runs from now till your equivalent of late afternoon Friday PST.  If you can spend Friday in Meditation, Feeling exactly the way you’re going to Feel once you’ve Manifested that Big Dream, you’ll be Golden.  Stay flexible; this is just one Station of the Tokaido, so don’t lock yourself in.  If you feel like you have to make a Decision, Choose Both/And and let the Universe show you how it can Make a Miracle.

Makemake – which is Out of Bounds – will Retrograde across 3-1 Degrees of Libra, the Libra Duad, Double Libra.  If you have planets in these first degrees of the Cardinal Signs, you’ve been doing the Can-Opener since September.  For instance, on a friend’s recommendation I bought the books Search Inside Yourself by Chade-Meng Tan and The Golem and the Jinni by Helene Wecker, just as Makemake was crossing my early-Libra planet.

This is about Manifesting an entirely new way of relating to other people, even of relating to Other, or Not-I, in general.  Even your Witnessing, your Chironean Empathy process, is a Not-I process, where you’re consciously moving your Assemblage Point, even if only in a small way, to subtly vary Who You Are moment-to-moment.  Your Emotion is still part of You in those moments, but it’s no longer where your Ego is embedded – it becomes Other, even as it remains You.  Lots of potential fun here – you can Witness yourself Witnessing yourself, for instance.  This is not an idle exercise; in an important situation, where exactly you park your Observer can change the Outcome drastically.

There is likely to be more Honesty and less Guile, though we will quickly Learn to be Honest Charmingly.  When the Unexpected pops out of you, don’t try to suppress it or apologize; instead, put your Efforts into Integrating it with the rest of who you Believe yourself to Be.  You’ll probably recognize that these Surprises are more Authentically You than you had intended.  Embrace it and Celebrate the loss of the Masks.

The Makemake Station is Squared by the ongoing Chariklo-Hylonome Conjunction, which is about Grieving the Loss of our former Charm, and/or Enjoying Freedom from an Archetype we’ve been laboring under, Walking in Beauty instead.  It’s Quincunx to 2007 OR10 (the Unexpected that’s really our Deeper Self); it would behoove to “Wonder what’ll happen next!”  It’s Trine Mercury and Sextile Venus, making a tidy little knot between Libra an Pisces.

*Thanks to Carly Fiorini for the nickname.

 

Pathological Genius and Ixion

October 15, 2015

A reader inquires…

“What do you mean by ‘Pathological Genius?’  I sort of feel it, but am still confused about it!”

Which is an excellent question.

The dwarf planet Ixion was named after a fellow who intrigued Zeus because he had no moral compunction whatsoever.   So Zeus made him a God, and he proceeded to try to rape Zeus’s wife Hera (aka Juno) – a perfect metaphor for the Shadow.   Recall that Zeus’s Mission was to destroy the traditional Matriarchy so he could replace it with the Patriarchy. 

I’m not addressing mass murderers or serial rapists here, I’m addressing US.

Whenever we repress any part of our Self, we submerge it into the Unconscious.  It doesn’t go away.  It typically constellates with other repressed material and negative Archetypes and becomes a Sea Monster that appears to constantly try to attack us, or at least persistently try to intrude into Consciousness.  Taurus Freud saw this phenomenon as disruptive to the Ego’s attempt to craft an acceptably acculturated Persona.  If we’re stuck in Scarcity, we may need to pay Attention to this Perspective.  Leo Jung on the other hand saw this phenomenon as the Psyche, seeking Wholeness, attempting to bring the repressed Energy into Consciousness and enlist the Ego to help re-integrate the repressed material.  Freud’s ideal is that a person should “fit in,” while Jung’s is that a person should seek Wholeness.  In Mazlow’s Universe, Freud’s Perspective would come first, Jung’s second.

It’s easy, if your orientation is toward “fitting in,” to see Ixion as symbolic of what we need to be Ashamed of, make Amends for, and otherwise generally keep under the blankets – Lord of the Flies.  On the other hand, if your orientation is toward Wholeness, Ixion represents our Inner Orphan, Victim of Abandonment.  Of course parenting and religioning and domesticating are writ all over these processes.  To distinguish the two we have to back up to the origins of the repression.  Abusive children learn their tactics from abusive adults.  Orphaned children mirror the Abandonment they received.  

Neither one started out as a Monster, except perhaps in the eyes of a severely repressed adult.  The deeper the repression, the more Monster-like the Shadow becomes.  As Karma, repression can accumulate and deepen over a series of Lifetimes.  The deeper the repression, the harder the Shadow tries to get into Consciousness, creating Self-Sabotage and eventually resorting to illness.  That’s a radical Perspective, not to be Confused with the notion that we are to Blame for our own illnesses.  Instead we have to Take Responsibility for our illnesses, and tracking them back to repressed Energy is a Powerful and potentially “Miraculous” part of that process.

Remember always that Responsibility means Able to Respond rather than React.  It does not mean Blame.  Blame looks to the Past to try to attribute Cause; Responsibility looks to the Future to try to improve Outcomes.  Blame is a Manipulation, an attempt at Intimidation, Power Over, and Competition.  Blame is a Bully.  Responsibility is an aspect of Power With and Collaboration.  Blame is a Universe unto itself; when you’re IN Blame, it’s very difficult to see out of it.  Learn to Discern it.

Ixion is these days traveling in the company of dwarf planet and Centaur Pholus, which represents Taking Full Responsibility.  We are Healers, which means that above all we should do no harm.  So if our Inner Monster has done harm, Taking Full Responsibility does mean a searching and fearless inventory and Amends where necessary.  To do that we’ll need to carefully Discern Guilt over “victimless crimes” and other places were we violated someone’s irrational rule but did no actual harm, from places where we actually did harm someone.  That Discernment and Self-Forgiveness is a bigger part of Healing than the Amends.  

But there is another strong intergenerational process that we haven’t considered yet.  Consider the astrological Square, or Mastery through Challenge.  Working with our Squares is never Satisfying.  But it is always Educational.  “We” (on the Soul level) Chose Squares in our current Lifetime because we really wanted to Explore some subject very thoroughly.  We don’t generally give ourselves credit for the Mastery inherent in our Squares, because it never feels like a job well done.  But if we look at our Squares objectively, we see that our root objective has been to Explore the subject at ever deeper and ever more subtle levels.  The lack of Satisfaction simply provides the Motivation to do so.

“Our” (soul level) choice of parents and other significant adults works in a similar fashion.  If we really want to bring something up into Consciousness in a Lifetime, arrange for it to be repressed.  It won’t leave you alone until you Consciously Embrace it as your own.  So we “hire” parents to help repress our Deepest Desires and our Greatest Skills.  We flail and flail against those repressions till we finally realize that we’re fighting ourself, and surrender to allowing our Orphans to come home and take their proper role at the head of our internal household.

So while a small portion of our own personal Ixion, our Pathological Genius, will be Amendable harm that we have perpetrated, the largest portion of it will be the Skills and Desires that we wanted most to bring into Consciousness in the Lifetime.  

You can think of Ixion as a photographically negative image of your North Node.  

“It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.  Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.  We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?  Actually, who are you not to be?  You are a child of God.  Your playing small does not serve the world.  There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.  We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.  It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.  And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.  As we are liberated from our own fear, Our presence automatically liberates others.”  —Marianne Williamson, Return to Love

We repress our Genius by “hiring” significant Others who will Shame us for it, so it appears to us to be Pathological.

Some Contemporaneous History and a Touch of Herstory

October 8, 2015

http://asweetdoseofreality.com/2015/10/08/the-tpp-a-monster-too-big-to-fail/ 

“The one becomes two, and we are set for a fight.  If the divided halves no longer recognize themselves in each other.  Humans who identify exclusively with one of the Twins – or are entered and possessed by a split archetype, which lodges inside of them like a crystal shard or a dagger of ice – will turn the world into a war zone.  Partisans of the light, if it blinds them, may demonize the dark side and crusade against perceived forms of evil, making enemies of half the world and tending to become what they hate, even as they fight against it.  On the other hand, those possessed by the dark side are consumed  by the ravening jealousy of the Dark Twin, writhing against the light wherever it manifests, simply because it is the light.”  (Robert Moss, Dreamways of the Iriquois, pp.103-4)

“Her father had detailed a long arduous journey to this river.  She got here quicker than it used to take her to get to the berry patch behind her village.  This can’t be the right place, she tells herself, I got her too fast.  She might ask someone for advice, but her father warned her to trust no one for directions.  So she retraces he steps and returns to her father’s tree.  He tells he right away she make no mistake; she was exactly on track.  ‘You are coming into your own power,’ her father tells her.  ‘Time and space will work differently now.’  He does not tell her – it is something we must find out for ourselves – that if she were to put her mind to it fully, she could travel from the Talking Tree to the Tree of Life in a single bound.”  (ibid, p.92)

How will it feel in your Body when you are the Master Creator of your own Lifestream?  Even as the rest of the Planet descends into Feudalism.  If no one is Free until we’re All Free?  What’s the Coin here?

August-September VII

August 26, 2015

opalor2316bpOpal comes in many forms, and is useful for many purposes, including Soul Retrieval.  Opal is just Quartz with a bit of Water included in the Crystal Structure.  It’s the reflection off the Water molecules that creates the “Fire” or Dance of Colors in Opal.  This is an Oregon or Jelly Opal.

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After dwarf planet Sedna turned Retrograde today, it took three and a half hours for Wall Street to realize that the Fear had subsided and they could buy again.  Sedna’s a newcomer, so nobody knows a lot about it, but I interpret it as Actions taken out of Fear, and that’s certainly what Wall Street’s been doing for the last several days.  When a planet is slowing to a stop, in this case turning Retrograde (backward in the sky), we feel the planet’s effect very strongly while it’s slowing down.  Then once it stops and starts moving again in the opposite direction, the impact usually diminishes quickly.

The exception is when we personalize the Energy, and make Decisions based on it.  For instance, if we attributed the Fear around Sedna’s Station to economics, we might make a Decision to get out while we can.  Then we’ll be selling into any Recovery the market makes.  In that case, the impact of Sedna’s Station could linger long after the event.  It remains to be seen whether this is the first body blow of the Monster Depression that the bears have been predicting for years.  Economists are well know for predicting twenty of the last twelve Recessions.  But as corrections go it’s pretty routine – sure, it was 1,000 points, but that’s only six percent, and a correction of that size is long overdue.

Which doesn’t diminish the fact that we’re in uncharted territory, where derivatives (which are gambles about bets on wagers) could turn a 1,000-point decline into 10,000 points overnight if the wrong bull was gored.  And that yes, a Monster Depression is likely sometime between now and 2020, which is why we’ve been advising alternative approaches to Survival for many years as part of our Perspective on the Chiron-Neptune Cycle – growing your own food, exploring small-scale entrepreneurship with things like the Maker Movement, finding our Tribe, working toward Sustainability in any way we can.

Chiron is the poster child for a group of dwarf planets that we want to talk about today, the “Centaurs,” so named because they appear to be half asteroid and half comet, like the Centaurs of Greek fame that were half horse and half Huper.  The astro-Centaurs orbit between Saturn, Uranus and Neptune – that is, between the Will, the Individual Unconscious, and the Cultural Unconscious, or between the Ego, the Individual Soul, and the Group Soul.  As such they deal with Emotions that are on the Edges of our Consciousness.  For instance…

  • Chiron deals with Discouragement/Despair over the Shortcomings of our Limiting Beliefs, which we perceive as Limitations of Reality; once we Lovingly Witness our Despair we Expand our Consciousness and are visited by Perspectives beyond our previous Limiting Beliefs
  • Chariklo deals with the Expectation of Privilege, from the Female side (Nessus from the Male side); like Self-Love, the Expectation of Privilege tends to be Mirrored by external Reality
  • Hylonome deals with our Identity – Ego-Identification or Merging with people or things outside ourself, and in particular the Ego Death which we experience as Grief when our external Mirror-Image is broken
  • Pholus deals with the Expectations of Others, and how well we meet them; it’s about Taking Full Responsibility for what’s important to us and important to those with whom we have tacit or explicit contracts

The Centaurs represent Challenges, Challenges that we meet by Expanding our Consciousness to include Awareness of these Emotional issues which often blind-side us till we Learn to include them in our Emotional repertoire.  One of the characteristics of Centaurs is that their orbits are unstable; they could get a wild hair and fly out of here in any given millenium.

The other group of dwarf planets that we want to talk about today are “Plutoids” – asteroids that orbit in the neighborhood of Pluto.  There’s a big shift between Neptune and Pluto.  Neptune is the last of the four “Gas Giants” – huge planets that are mostly Gas, too small but otherwise Star-like – along with Uranus, Saturn, and Jupiter.  Beyond Neptune we find only small iceballs like Pluto.  Because it’s so large, Neptune’s gravity exerts a big impact on the orbits of many Plutoids.

Pluto is generally associated with the “Universal” Unconscious, or the Zeitgeist, the flow of Time.  As such, it’s about Transformation – or Trance Reformation, as the Zeitgeist evolves or devolves – and about the things we pretty much must do or not do, if we don’t want to end up on a siding in the flow of Time.  While the Centaurs work on the Edges of Consciousness, the Plutoids work, for most people, beyond the Edges of Consciousness.  So we don’t normally see the Plutoids as within our Span of Control.  Of course it’s As-Without-So-Within and We-Are-All-One (including all the Entities that we don’t routinely personify), so the Edges of our Span of Control are really only the Edges of our Consciousness.

Some of the Plutoids include…

  • Quaoar – the Law-Giver, not for the sake of Order, but for the sake of Survival; Quaoar defines the Edges of Survivability
  • Ixion – Impulse, the Desire Body, that operates without concern for Other
  • Chaos – Unlimited Potential
  • Haumea – Rebirth
  • Eris – the principle of Denial and the Changes required by its Revelation
  • Makemake – Manifestation
  • SednaActions taken out of Fear

Sedna is an outlier here; Pluto and all of the others orbit between 30 and 100 times as far from the Sun as is Earth, while Sedna’s orbit ranges between 76 and 936 times as far from the Sun as we are.  For reference, Jupiter is at about five times, Saturn 10, Uranus 20, and Neptune 30 times.

All of which is background for early September, because between 4 September and 9 September, Ixion, Chariklo, Pholus, Hylonome, and Quaoar are all Stationary – and all more or less in the same place.  Astrologers call it a “Stellium” when three or more planets convene in the same Zodiacal place, but here we have a Stellium of five, all Stationary at the same time.  During a Station, as we said at the beginning, the impact of a planet is greatly exaggerated.  And during a Stellium, the Energies of the Conjoined planets are combined, which creates Energies we aren’t used to.

For instance, we’re well acquainted with the Energy of Assertion, Mars, and the Energy of Receptivity, Venus.  But now that they’re Conjoined (as they are on 31 August, with the Energy felt most strongly for the several days prior), do we know what to do with Assertive Receptivity or Receptive Assertiveness?  “Go screw yourself” is a common insult, but we don’t usually mean it literally.  If you “accused” most people of Androgyny, they’re likely to give you a similar insult.  Yet achieving Androgyny, where our Receptivity and our Assertiveness are Balanced, is a Mission of the Soul.   Would you recognize it if you saw it?  And if so, would you admire it?  Can you imagine how it might Feel to be Androgynous?  And this is only two planets.

In our 4-9 September Stellium we’re dealing with five dwarf planets being Strong at the same time, all of which have impacts much more subtle than Assertiveness and Receptivity.  And by the way, Venus is also Stationary during this period, and while it’s not in the same place, it’s in a Harmonic location to the Stellium. 

Venus is Trioctile to the Stellium, indicating that the Stellium of Stations will be inspiring us to evolve our Values.

In addition, the Stellium is Stationary very close to the Galactic Center.  This means that as these subtle Unconscious Energies combine they will be Channeling a message – Instructions – to the Unconscious from the Galactic Command Post.  So we can Expect to see a shift – a Major Shift, whether too subtle to Notice or not – in the Consciousness of the Planet.  What sort of Shift?  While since it’s Unconscious it’s not for us to know in any detail, yet if we can get an idea of what to look for, we can in a general way Witness it and Grow our Consciousness.

There are many other related Planets in the early-September chart; we’ll discuss their role as we go on.  But for now, let’s focus on trying to imagine how the Energies of the five dwarf planets in the Stellium might combine.

While the Stellium combines all five planets, two are close together but separated by a few Degrees from the other three, which are also close together.  So we can start by looking at the Pair and the Triad, then trying to tie them together.

The Pair is Pholus and Ixion.  We’ve talked about these two before, as they’ve been traveling together for a while.  Ixion is Uncontrolled Desire, Pholus Full Responsibility for the consequences of our commissions and omissions.  So this combination seems to be about Taking Full Responsibility for our Deepest Desires.  Our religious training would suggest that we interpret that as Taking Full Responsibility for controlling our Deepest Desires. 

But since the astrology we practice is about Healing and Integrating, we interpret it as Taking Full Responsibility for allowing and welcoming our Deepest Desires.  To the extent that they’ve been repressed (which we can assume – if you already Love your Deepest Desires, this is an opportunity for you to go Deeper), there will likely be some personal and social discomfort involved at first, as we experiment with how to let them out of their cages.

The Triad is composed of Quaoar, Chariklo, and Hylonome, and this Triad sits astride the Galactic Center, so forms the core of our Instructions. 

Chariklo symbolizes Beauty and Grace, and Humans are wont to give deference to Beauty and Grace – hence Chariklo has the flavor of unearned Privilege.  Of course Beauty and Grace can be Learned and so may carry a price and Feel earned.  Yet to Grow our Consciousness we may be Asked to Notice that we give deference to Beauty and Grace in situations where it may not be in our own best interests.  He turns the notions of Beauty and Grace upside down (but so what – astrology is about dimensions, not directions on the dimension), but we can’t help but wonder if The Donald (Trump, that is) isn’t personifying this Energy.  If that hunch is true, then we should expect to be hearing a lot less about him by mid-September. 

Hylonome was a female Centaur who immediately committed suicide with the lance that killed her lover.  So we have the concepts of Unbearable Grief, but even more important, the concept of Identification with Other to the point that the Self is virtually non-existent.  The implication is that we all have elements of our Identity that are Other-based.  Just as Fundamentalism is the process of Believing that your metaphors are literally true, Codependence is the process of Believing that your Mirrors are You.  We often admire what we don’t have permission to Be in ourself.  So while Grieving the Loss of our Identity is an Ego Death with all of the Soul-searing pain that involves, it’s actually a Soul Retrieval, as we are forced to give up Codependence and substitute a previously orphaned portion of our True Self.  Let’s hope this doesn’t involve the demise of a beloved World Hero or Heroine, if we have any left.

As with other processes of Growth in Consciousness and Spiritual Growth, we’re Asked to Focus on the Unknown Future rather than the Known Past.  In that task, Perpetual Curiosity is our greatest friend, as long as we can maintain it and not surrender to our craving and addiction to trying to Understand.  The World is a Mystery; when we Believe we Understand, we murder the World.  Confusion is the First Sign of Growth, but if we quash it with illusions of Understanding, we stop our Growth cold.

So we’re being Ordered (Quaoar) by Central Command (the Galactic Center) to Grieve the Loss (Hylonome) of Unearned Privilege (Chariklo), or better yet, to accept the Loss as a Return to Self, or the invocation of a Vision Quest to Retrieve a portion of the True Self through Honest Curiosity about an unknowable Future.  But wait – we’re also being Asked to either Take Full Responsibility (Pholus) for the parts of ourself which we previously rejected as unfit for polite company, or Take Full Responsibility for the parts of ourself that our friends and associates would love to be able to reject as unfit for polite company (Ixion).  Not Blame, which looks backwards to attempt to Understand a Cause (ie, murder), but Responsibility, which looks forward to attempt to improve an Outcome.

To me this suggests a further loosening of the yoke of Hierarchy and Inequality.  As Power Over corrupts, Taking Full Responsibility for Power means shifting to Power With.  If you haven’t read Starhawk’s Truth or Dare yet, this would be an excellent time to do it, as in it she Teaches us the difference between Power Over and Power With, all in the context of an Inferior Conjunction of Venus (the Descent of Inanna), which we’ve just experienced.

This is all happening in Sagittarius, the Sign of Letting Go.  So while Noticing what’s going on is appropriate as part of Growing our Consciousness, Giving Up Control is also appropriate as part of Sagittarius.  We can do Both/And, and it behooves us to do so. 

We’ll look at the rest of the early-September chart when we continue…