Fearbruary IV

By now we’re bearing down hard on Fearbruary’s namesake, dwarf planet Sedna, which is about Converting Fear to Power. We’ve been reminding that Fear plus Breathing equals Excitement, Fear plus Tapping equals Grounding and Presence (which is intimidating to would-be antagonists), and Fear plus Kegels equals Power. In addition to a hefty dose of Terror, the Sedna story also contains strong elements of Anger and Competition.

I was into my forties before I realized that Anger was my Habitual Reaction to Fear. Useful when it’s a Fight you can Win, but when Flight or Freeze is Safer, let alone Negotiate, not so much. All Karma is a Powerful Skill, but only when we can Choose to use it when appropriate and not use it when it ain’t. If Karma is a knee-jerk Reaction, it’ll get us in trouble more often than not. We Heal that by getting Conscious about it.

Sedna is at its Strongest (Stationary) as we come up to 1pm PST 8 February, in 28 Taurus. The chart is pretty benign…

The basic Configuration is a “Square Fez with a Chinstrap” – a red-sided trapezoid with a fifth planet at the midpoint of the base. The Chinstrap – dwarf planet Ceres (Sustainability and Sustenance), is where the Power emerges. The two naked Squares (red lines) are where potential Challenges will be spawned – Sedna (Fear) to asteroid Karma (Karma) or Fear about Letting Go of What We Know Best (our Karma), and Pluto (TranceFormation) to dwarf planet Haumea (Rebirth) or Failing to Discern the Difference between Physical Death from Ego Death.

If we could train ourself to instantly Discern an Ego Death from a Threat of Physical Death, and Realize that Resistance is Futile when it comes to Letting Go of the Known (it’s inevitable, and it’ll probably be harder later), our Lives would be so much more Sustainable (the chinstrap), wouldn’t they. So we could Pray for Physical Safety, Pretend we’re Acting in a Play, Enjoy the Drama from the Perspective of the audience, and make the most out of these Opportunities to Practice these two Cosmic Skills (Ego Death and Letting Go of Karma). Letting Go of Karma usually requires an Ego Death anyway, so this is really an Amazing Opportunity.

Note: If you use a Theta Prayer, you can check to see if your prayer will work, modify it and check again, iterating as many times as necessary, till you find just the right Prayer to give you in-the-Gut Confidence in your Safety.

But a Square Fez offers an Alternative to its Challenges, namely its Diagonals (the green lines, which are “Quincunxes,” or 5 Signs long). Notice that each Square is simultaneously in two Tricolors (a triangle made up of a red Square, a green Quincunx, and either a Trine or a Sextile – a long or short blue line). A Tricolor allows one to Liberate the Grace in the blue lines by Embracing the Permanent Curiosity in the green line, which can Resolve the Challenge in the red line.

By Permanent Curiosity we mean Avoiding Trying to Figure It Out – Recognizing that Confusion is one of our most Valuable Emotions and not an invitation to “Left-Brain” Research and Analysis. If we can stay Present with the Confusion Emotion and Learn to Celebrate it, it will lead us to much more Powerful places. Someone once said (Einstein? Maybe) that “We can’t Solve a Problem using the same Thinking that postulated the Problem.” Confusion, if you can Embrace it as the Emotion that it is, will open your Intuition to a kind of Thinking that will Solve the Problem, or more likely, Perspectives that will Reframe the Problem into Opportunities.

A Quincunx is a miniature Mystery School, like a Zen Koan or a piece of a Yin Gate, a Portal to the next step in our Evolution. When you try to contemplate the sound of one hand clapping, for instance, if you take the effort seriously, you’ll be Expanding and Reframing your notions of Sound, of Hands, of Honoring, of Action, and who knows what else, and you might even discover why Beatniks used to “clap” by snapping their fingers.

The Major Tricolors (Square-Quincunx-Trine), like…

Pluto-Square-Haumea-Quincunx-Sedna-Trine-Pluto or TranceFormation Challenging Rebirth which is Curious about Fear and Power and how it might make TranceFormation Effortless,

and Sedna-Square-Karma-Quincunx-Pluto-Trine-Sedna,

…lead to Dumb-Luck Blessings that are typical of Trines. The Minor Tricolors (Square-Quincunx-Sextile), like…

Haumea-Square-Pluto-Quincunx-Karma-Sextile-Haumea or Rebirth making TranceFormation difficult while TranceFormation is in Awe of Inertia, and if we Step into it we can sort of see how Inertia facilitates Rebirth,

and Karma-Square-Sedna-Quincunx-Haumea-Sextile-Karma,

…lead to greater Engagement and probably more Wisdom, as a Sextile doesn’t unlock its Grace till we take the First Step, Participating instead of just Observing. Notice that we’re just following different paths around the lines inside the twelve-sided circle. Each path offers a different Curriculum for us, and if we have the time, we could maximize this Opportunity by following them all. Eventually we’ll end up at Ceres, the chinstrap, and make our Life more Sustainable. We’d just be adding -Sextile-Ceres to the end of each Major Tricolor, and -Quincunx-Ceres to the end of each Minor Tricolor.

So the keys to the Tricolors are Haumea-Quincunx-Sedna, Karma-Quincunx-Pluto, Pluto-Quincunx-Karma, and Sedna-Quincunx-Haumea. And then, if we Chose the more Rewarding but more Effortful Minor Tricolors, we’ll have to add Haumea-Quincunx-Ceres and Karma-Quincunx-Ceres in order to “Cross Go” and Earn our Sustainability Merit Badge (if you haven’t Learned to Fully and Lovingly Embrace All of your Emotions yet, you may not Realize that Earth is just a Very Deep board game). Let’s take an example, say, Haumea-Quincunx-Sedna.

So we have a Koan about the Relationship between Rebirth and Fear/Power. (It might help to remember what Artemisia said about Power in The Findhorn Garden.) Certainly we Fear Rebirth. Our Ego is probably very Attached to our Toys and Colleagues in the Current Incarnation, and loathe to give them up. Those are Intellectualizations, and the Intellect doesn’t have the Power to Evolve us, because it’s basically a Logic machine. Give it some rules and some starting conditions, and it can dummy up a pretty fair simulation. But where is the Evolution in that? We’re just rearranging the deckchairs in our Existing Concept Set.

How might there be Power in Rebirth? How might it Feel to be Conscious of all of our Parallel Lives? Now we’re starting to get into some Koan-like Questions, which may Open us to new Intuitions that Expand our Concept Set. “How might it Feel…” is particularly Open-Ended. If you don’t just find the list of Emotions in the back of your Alexanders book and highlight a few, but Open your Emotional Body to the actual Experience, what might happen? You probably Relive some part of your Past every day. Can you be there in the Cafeteria Line, and also Be Here Now? It might be more inviting to Remember what it was like to Make Love with your All-Time Favorite Lover and also Be Here Now.

Does that feel like fuses blowing in your head? That might be a good sign. One – just One – part of what’s involved with actual Permanent Curiosity (aka Awe or Wonder, but not Wondering about, Wondering at instead), is that we have to Conceive of more Dimensions than we’re used to working with, and different Rules. Since the Universe is Both/And, what is a Contradiction to the Intellect is a Paradox to our Curiosity. Do we even know what a Paradox is, or is it just something unexplainable? It should be something that defies our Concepts of Reality, something that forces us to Choose between what we See and what we Know, or somehow Embrace them both.

A number of the folks in the Antichrist’s Cult may be doing that now, Knowing that just a month ago they were Legends in their Own Minds, but Seeing that now they’re Criminals. Many may Choose to be Martyrs, where both Stories can seem to be True, rather than Expanding their Concept Set to include the possibility that not everyone appreciates White Supremacy, or Expanding their Concept Set to include the possibility that Other People may actually have a right to Exist. But again, these are Intellectualizations. We can’t Predict how any given person will Expand their Consciousness if and when they do, because they’re an Organism much more Complex and Multidimensional than our Observing Mind.

The point is that we may be going through a similar process, where some of what we See and what we Know are splitting apart. If we find ourself trying to figure out how to put Humpty-Dumpty back together again, we may want to Change the Program, and begin to Appreciate Curiosity as the Blessing that it is, as it is, without having to Dissect it. You might also find yourself in a place where you’re being Reborn and your Trances Reformed and your Karma is backing off, you Feel Empowered and Delighted by the process, and it Feels Sustainable. More Power to you!

Trusting Hurricanes

Trust is our Biggest Issue till 3 September 2019 at around 3:30 pm PDT, as the astrosymbol for Trust Dominates (asteroid Eurydike Stationary).  That’s 6:30 pm Tuesday evening Florida time.  Sometimes the slate needs to be wiped Clean for us before we Recognize that we need to Start Over.  The astroevent is at 2 Aquarius, so you may be Feeling this pickle around any of your natal planets in the Zone between 29 and 5 Degrees.  Unless we make a long list of individual notes (for instance, we could dissect the four [!] Square-Fez Takeout Cartons), the chart isn’t easy to interpret…

The two major Challenges (T-Squares) are aligned so as to make one another Self-Resolving (Diamond Stars, ie, a T-Square and a Finger of God pointing to the same Focus), so we won’t worry much about them.  We’ll mention them in the next post, since they may scare us while they’re Resolving themselves.  They’re about Health, and about Which Way to Proceed as we Start Over.

Once we bypass those, we’re left with the Hurricane, in the form of a Singular Challenge between our Despair over Real and Imagined Traumas and the Threats that Climate Change brings (the naked Square between asteroid Karma Conjunct Chiron in early Aries and dwarf planets Pholus and Quaoar Conjunct on the Cusp of Capricorn).  We aren’t all Threatened by Hurricanes – some of us just by the Loss of the Illusion of Democracy.  The excessive immigration that Triggered Brexit, for instance, resulted from Drought in the Middle East and North Africa.

Our Karma is not Present-Moment, which is to say, is not Real.  It is Imagined.  Once it begins to Threaten us, our Expectations take over, and we Recreate the Patterns that we know so well, often making it Present Moment.  That’s actually Optional, but since our Karmic Patterns are so well-Practiced (often “Perfect” even), we often don’t Notice.

We’re familiar with Chiron, the symbol for Converting Despair to Miracles.  When we Poor-Sweetheart ourself (“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re feeling like those Old Bummers are threatening again, aren’t you.”), we shift from Identifying with what was Bumming us Out, to Identifying with Compassion.  As Einstein famously may or may not have said, we can’t solve a problem using the same Paradigm that Created it.  We have to Shift to a new Paradigm, and there’s no Shift more Powerful than a Shift of Identity.  Once we do, what was Impossible in the Old mindset, becomes Easy in the New one – a Miracle.

Asteroid Karma is Retrograde, and hasn’t been Initiated by Chiron yet – that won’t happen till New Years Day 2020.  Talk about Prophetic!  The New Cycle will begin at 2 Aries, “A comedian reveals Human Nature.”  In other words, we either need to Receive 2020 as a Cosmic Joke, or we need to get really good at Shifting our Paradigms.  We could even Shift ourself right into 5D, and skip 2020 entirely.

So one end of this Challenge is about Choosing to Either wallow in our Victimhood (Karma), Or Shift into Creating Miracles.  I found our earlier essays on Karma-Chiron to be informative (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/cycles/asteroid-cycles/karma-chiron/), especially the Cerussite-Barite-Hematite Crystals.

The other end of the Challenge is Climate Change.  Dwarf planet Quaoar symbolizes our Survival Instincts.  Our Instincts should tell us not to burn the siding to keep warm in the winter, but as the Slapstick Hupers that we are, we often “naively” do just that.  Thing is, they’re Instincts.  Like Intuition and Dream and Coincidence, Western “Civilization” and its Patriarchal focus on mind has relegated our Instincts to the “Only” category – You can Ignore that, it’s Only your Instincts (Hint – it was Political).

Dwarf planet Pholus, meanwhile, is about What we think we can Ignore.  Or even, What we haven’t thought about.  Are we not thinking about it because it’s Overwhelming?  Paradise CA was, as towns go, quite well Prepared for Fire.  But not at all Prepared for that kind of Fire, because no one even Conceived of it, or if they did, they Dismissed it as Paranoid.  As they say, Just because you’re Paranoid, doesn’t mean “they” aren’t out to “get” you.  Now, does it make sense to spend 300% of our time and resources preparing for something with a vanishingly small probability of occurring?  It’s “never” happened before, after all.

No, it doesn’t make sense.  But that’s what the Mythological Pholus discovered – major Catastrophe as a result of something he hadn’t considered.  Vanishingly small probability.  His oversight got him dead, along with many of his mates, and got Chiron so famously Wounded.  Now the probability of Catastrophic Climate Change, like the probability of Catastrophic Earthquakes for many of us, is closer to One than Vanishingly small.  Yet how much Effort do we put into Preparation?  How much Effort is appropriate?  It may be too late for Prevention.  How do we allocate our time and resources?

But if we’re Attending to our Instincts and Intuitions, it’s not about Making Sense, is it.  It’s about Trust, once we get out of the “Left-Brain” Paradigm enough to discover what to Trust!