Gordy’s Knot Merit Badge #4

Predatory Capitalism and Fascism have strong tendencies to elevate Greed above all other Social “Values” and Psychopathology above all other “Skills.”  But they haven’t yet totally banned Conscience from business…

https://www.washingtonpost.com/technology/2019/05/30/tech-giant-brings-software-gun-fight/

Of course the other side of this argument, and probably the basic reason for the Amendment in the first place, is that “When guns are Outlawed, only Governments will have guns.”  I don’t know if your own local Police Department was trained in Iraq and Afghanistan and is still so terrified of Surprise Death that they would rather shoot to kill than let you finish taking out your cellphone to call your lawyer, but I look forward to a time when no one has guns.

Here’s the chart of the 30-31 May Stations of asteroids Pallas and Aletheia in 11-16 Libra…

For all but the fine print, this is also the chart for the 3 June New Moon in 13 Gemini.  We talked about the Pallas-Aletheia T-Square in the previous post.  We haven’t talked about the T-Square that’s focused on the Sun (or in the case of the New Moon, on Sun-Moon) yet.  The Obsolete Ritual (or Dualistic) Belief here is that the Oaths we have made around Abuse cannot be Reverted (Nessus Opposite Orcus).  Typically these Oaths are Promises to ourself never to Allow ourself to be Vulnerable again, or always to Avoid certain circumstances, or Never to tell anyone, or Never to Remember.  The last-named is particularly nasty, because it Poisons our Life from the Unconscious.

Since the Sun represents our Essence, and Sun-Moon our Rebirth, to have either of these Squelched by Obsolete Oaths is Suffocating.  To Breathe again we need to Recant the Oath.  That’s Difficult when we’ve Forgotten that we made it.  We have to “go meta” (raise our game to the next level) and get General, with a PIAVA such as

“God/Goddess, Creator of All Things, I Command that Oaths I have made in any Lifetime about Abuse Be Recanted, and that I remain Safe and Whole in their Absence.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  Show me.”

Then we need to Pay pretty close Attention to what’s happening around us, so we can get more Conscious about our Vulnerabilities and use the knowledge to Set the more Effective Boundaries demanded by the first T-Square (previous post).

In between the Pallas and Aletheia Stations, dwarf planet “OR10” (a dozen years after its discovery it doesn’t have a formal name yet, so it’s still hailed by its code name, “2007 OR10”) is also Stationary.  Planets are at their peak Influence when they’re Stationary, so having three planets Standing Still within a few hours has nearly the same impact as a Triple Conjunction.  A Triple Conjunction of Pallas, OR10, and Aletheia would be about Remembering the Truth about Good Boundaries.  Like Realizing that selling sub-machine guns to the average “Joe” doesn’t set a good Boundary example.

The OR10 Station chart looks like this…

We Notice that while asteroid Hopi was Stationary a few days back, it was in the same Degree as the OR10 Station, and it Dances prominently in the OR10-Station chart.  A quadruple Conjunction of Pallas, OR10, Aletheia, and Hopi would be about Remembering the Truth about Setting Respectful Boundaries with Everyone – not something we’re getting good Leadership about today.  If a few more people Realize that we aren’t being well Led in this regard, it could lead to Regime Change where it will count most.

We also Notice that in this chart we have a third T-Square to wrestle with this weekend – a T-Square focused on Climate Change, the ongoing Conjunction of dwarf planets Quaoar and Pholus (Being Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts), joined by asteroid Bee-Zed or BZ509 (Transformation).  Like OR10, BZ509 still known only by its code name.  What is the Obsolete Ritual Belief that Quaoar-Pholus-BZ509 Challenges this weekend?  It’s that we have to Sell our Soul to Manifest what we Need (Uranus-Atropos Opposite Makemake).

We can Reframe that.  Atropos symbolizes Endings, and we could Reinterpret the T-Square as Ending our Resistance to What Our Soul Wants will Manifest all manner of Miracles that will Transform our Survival Odds.  In other words, you know Intuitively what needs to happen in order to assure our Survival.

For instance, Survival won’t happen because your neighbor figured out a way to Recycle a hundred styrofoam peanuts.  Asking everyone to put their thumb in the hole in the Titanic’s hull will never Save anybody.  Survival will happen when our Government gets its head out of its Egoic Ass and makes it illegal to create or sell styrofoam peanuts.  The more people Realize that, and stop electing politicians with their heads up their Asses, the sooner we can get on with Earth Repair.

Dwarf Planet Quaoar (Survival Instincts) Initiates asteroid Bee-Zed (Transformation) on 17 June (7pm PDT) at 3 Capricorn, “A Soul, in its eagerness for Experiences, seeks Embodiment as a Huper” (we’ve edited that slightly), Beginning an eleven-year Cycle.  What’s likely to be Transformed is our Relationship to our Survival Instincts – we may start Listening.  If you have Conservative friends who suddenly turn Environmentalist, it’s probably a Walk-In.  Hooray for them.

Pholus (Being Fully Responsive) Initiates Bee-Zed on 22 June (2pm PDT) in 2 Capricorn, “Three Rose Windows in a Gothic church, one damaged by war.”  We tried Surrender to a Higher Power in Gothic days, but it turned out, as is always the case when we use an intermediary, that we were Surrendering to an Agent that was Fully Responsive only to its own Survival as our intermediary, and our Altar was destroyed in the resulting Competition for our Loyalty.  Another Either/Or Choice disguised as Spiritual.

This is also an eleven-year Cycle.  So how will we Respond this time?  By rebuilding Notre Dame, or by Sequestering Carbon and Restoring the Planetary Water Cycle?  Most educated Observers don’t think we have very many eleven-year Cycles left before we descend into Dischord and Damage the second window.  Quaoar and Pholus are the Entities that will Govern our Demise or Rescue.

We know that there are a lot more Efforts going on to Restore a Healthy Planet than the Retarded Media tells us about.  We’ve already had Saturn (The Most Important Thing) and Pluto (Compulsion) cross Quaoar-Pholus.  Jupiter (Expansion) and Ceres (Sustainability) will follow in November, and the South Node in March 2020.  Every step counts.

Gordy’s Knot Merit Badge #3

A T-Square results when two planets are on Opposite sides of the Zodiac, and a third planet is halfway between them.  It’s generally considered the most difficult astrological Configuration, because it Challenges us to overcome Frustration and Disappointment (which are caused by our inappropriate Expectations) and replace them with Excitement about the very Broad and very Subtle Experiential Education we’ve Committed ourself to.

The two planets that Oppose one another set up a Ritual Belief that is Obsolete, and the third planet takes the role of a Hammer attacking our Obsolete and hence Fragile glass-covered Ritual.  Fearing the mess that the resulting Fire Alarm will create, we hesitate to wield the Hammer.  Yet, every time we do, we find the Outcome Life-Changing, Opening us to Worlds we didn’t know could Exist.

Let’s take an example from this weekend’s chart, which contains three T-Squares or Challenges…

In the first of the three Challenges, the Obsolete Ritual Belief is that Self-Flagellation, under the Guise of “Analysis” or “Healthy Self-Criticism,” can Resolve the Frustrations we encounter about our Sovereignty.  That is, we’re unhappy with our remaining Codependence, or the way we give other people’s Feelings more weight in our deliberations than we give to our own Heart’s Desire.  That is, our Self-Abandonment is Feeling Burdensome.  We seek a way to Change ourself that will reduce our Self-Abandonment.

The Problem with this Approach is that “What we See is What we Get” – we’re trying to Change a Leopard’s spots to stripes.  The Hammer that will shatter the Status Quo is Facing the Truth that our Boundaries aren’t Working.  We don’t need to Change our Self, we need to adjust the way we Relate to Others.  We may need to Tighten Up Boundaries that bleed away our Energy, and Loosen Up Boundaries that Inhibit our pursuit of our Heart’s Desire.

That could be Difficult, as Tightening Up Boundaries that bleed away our Energy may severely test our Charisma, and will probably Hurt some people’s Feelings.  And Loosening Up Boundaries that Inhibit our pursuit of our Heart’s Desire may well be Scary.  I mean, if it’s our Heart’s Desire, why haven’t we been pursuing it All Along?  We may, for instance, have to Disobey a parent to pull this off, even if we’ve been an adult for decades.

Here, “the Obsolete Ritual Belief is that [Changing ourself] can Resolve Frustrations about our Sovereignty” is symbolized by the dwarf planet Hylonome (Self-Sovereignty) on one side of the Opposition, and on the other side the combination of Mars (Action or Anger) and asteroid Nemesis (Guilt or the Threat of Ego Death).  The third-planet Hammer in this T-Square is the dual Station of asteroids Pallas (Boundaries) and Aletheia (Truth).

Gordy’s Knot Merit Badge #2

We’re dealing with Stations at 5, 11, and 16 Degrees and a budding New Moon at 13 Degrees, which means that with our usual three Degrees of Sensitivity, more than half of the Zodiac is lit up, and more than half of your natal planets are Singing loudly.  Look at how the Planet is Responding…

UFOs galore…

https://www.nytimes.com/2019/05/26/us/politics/ufo-sightings-navy-pilots.html

And just what is an “unexpected interplanetary shock wave”?

http://spaceweather.com/archive.php?view=1&day=29&month=05&year=2019

“A minor interplanetary shock wave hit Earth (http://spaceweather.com/images2019/27may19/impact.png?PHPSESSID=776hrcea3j3u5rif4ilv7usje1) on May 26th at approximately 22:00 UT.  The CME-like disturbance was unexpected.  It caused the density of the solar wind around Earth to abruptly quadruple, while the interplanetary magnetic field doubled in strength.  Earth’s magnetosphere was rattled by the impact (http://spaceweathergallery.com/indiv_upload.php?upload_id=153791), but it did not spark a geomagnetic storm.”

But it did not spark a geomagnetic storm or Aurora.  I don’t recall ever reading about anything like this, but evidently they’re just abrupt changes in the Solar Wind (or “Winds” from other sources or Dimensions?) that aren’t predicted by the spacecraft that track Solar activity.  David Yarrow tells me that we, if we’re Open to it, detect Magnetism through our Third Eye.  Anybody Feel it?  That would be about 3pm PDT on Sunday.  At about that time I was being spoken to by a very Ancient and very large Voice while leaning against a cliff that is Sacred to the pre-Colonial inhabitants of this area.

The previous SpaceWeather link explains that the “train” of bright Lights in the sky the last few nights, and the super-bright Flashes, weren’t UFOs but the 60 or so Internet satellites that SpaceX launched recently, as they each seek their own orbits around the Earth.  SpaceX plans to do this another 200 or so times, so these fireworks may become routine.

Gordy’s Merit Badge for Knots #1

Now that we’re past the Orcus (Oath-Breaking) Station, we’re well into a Gordian Knot of Energies, starting with the Station of asteroid Hopi on 26 May (3am PDT) in 5 Aquarius.  Hopi is the symbol for Respect for All Things, and by Inversion, Letting Go of Judgment, or at least, Examining our Judgments.  Earlier in May, Hopi Initiated asteroid Eurydike, symbol of Trust, in the same 5 Aquarius, which Degree is about seeking the Guidance of the Ancestors.

The 18-year Eurydike-Hopi Cycle is about Examining our Prejudices, especially the places where we don’t know that our Respect is Lacking.  I’m lucky enough to be able to Live in a place where Respect for the Planet, and Nature, and all of her Constituents, including the Ancestors, is widespread – but by no means universal.  A few days ago I had a vision where this typical view of our Bay…

was replaced with one like this…

Was I just seeing an Earth with eleven billion people instead of seven?  While the county I Live in, or rather the local Land Trust, has done a good job of protecting Farmland and Forests from development, that’s not so in the urban areas nearby, where four feet of gravel has been shoveled onto the best Farmland, and miles-long single-story “Fulfillment Centers” built on top of it.  That was after damning the Rivers so they could no longer refresh the valleys every spring with sediments fertile enough to Feed us.  Only 3% of the Planet is arable.  If we “solve” Climate Change and find viable alternatives to Farms, will that rocket us to eleven billion all the faster?

Can we Trust that the Future Earth will Look or Feel or Be anything like someplace where we would like to Live?  Or are we just Once-Borns who are here to milk the Planet for all we can get out of Her, and leave our children and our own Future Incarnations to fend for themselves in what, if anything, is left?  Of course, if we make it to 5D we won’t have this Lebensraum problem, because our Universe will have many other Dimensions in addition to the three or four that we already know and Love.

Here’s a lovely map of how we can get to 5D from here (Marko Pogačnik, Sacred Geography, p.242)…

♥ The chart of the recent Hopi-Eurydike Initiation and Hopi Station – and hence of the 18-year Cycle that we’re Beginning – makes several suggestions about this…

First, we notice that Hopi-Eurydike makes a Challenging Angle (Square) to the symbol for Our Soul (Uranus).  If our Ego and Body can Live in an eleven-billion Future, can our Soul Survive in it?

Second, the chart contains a Compounded Challenge (T-Square) focused on the symbols for Holding our Reality Stable (Moon), Self-Sovereignty (Lilith), and Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet OR10).  The base of the T-Square is an Opposition between the symbols for Sustainability (asteroid Ceres) and our Essence (Sun).  Sounds like more of the same – what’s the Challenge to Sustaining our Essence?  It’s maintaining our Identity as a Soul in a Physical Vehicle while Reality becomes so Virtual that we can’t keep track of which Emotions are our own.

And third, how exactly will we Manifest (dwarf planet Makemake as the Isolated Stand-Out in the chart) this Future?  Will we Co-Create it in the Image of our Despair (Makemake Opposite Chiron’s Unhealable Wound)?  Or will we Co-Create it as a Picture of the Miracles we can Imagine (Makemake Opposite Chiron’s Wound Healed by Empathy)?

Look at all the Options…

• Through the Hard Work (Mars) of Being Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar, Square to Chiron-Makemake – thin red lines).

• Through the Dumb-Luck Grace (Grand Trine – thin and thick blue lines) that will flow from Respect for All Things, especially Respect for our own Essence (Hopi-Eurydike Trine Sun and Makemake).

• By Surrendering (Finger of God – thin green lines) to the Mysteries (Quincunxes) of our Soul (Uranus) and Holding our Reality Stable through our Attention to our Self-Sovereignty and to our Memories of what 5D Looks and Feels Like (Moon-Lilith-OR10).

Intrusive Memories are not intrinsically Negative.  They can be Memories of our Source.  And actually, these three major Options are not Either/Or; they’re Both/And, ie, All At Once.

♥ The Timeline for this Knot unfolds like this…

13 May – Hopi Initiates Eurydike (Trusting Diversity) in 5 Aquarius

18 May – Sedna Full Moon (Mastering Fear) in 28 Scorpio-Taurus

19 May – Saturn Initiates South Node (The Most Important Thing Is Our Karma) in 21 Capricorn

23 May – Orcus (Oath-Breaking) Stationary in 10 Virgo

See the Karma Repair series of previous posts.

26 May – Hopi (Respect for All Things) Stationary in 5 Aquarius

30 May (11pm PDT) – asteroid Pallas (Boundaries) Stationary in 11 Libra

31 May (3am PDT) – dwarf planet OR10 (Intrusive Memories) Stationary in 5 Pisces

31 May (6:30 am) – asteroid Aletheia (Truth) Stationary in 16 Libra

3 June (3am PDT) – Sovereignty New Moon in 13 Gemini

♥ Then we go back to dealing with Abuse (Nessus Station in 12 Pisces, 11 June), though not as the same Person we were last month.

Karma Repair 5

A friend of mine recently intended to say “I’m Hungry” and it came out as “I’m Angry” – that’s how Subtle these Energies are.  They’re Opportunities; often our Karma is a lot more In-Our-Face, and it will be again if we continue to pass on the Subtle Opportunities.

Here’s the chart for the 23 May (5pm PDT) Station of Orcus in 10 Virgo, drawn in the lighter lines.  The heavier lines show the closely related 19 May Merger of Saturn with the Mean South Node in 21 Capricorn (see the previous Karma Repair posts)…

You can see that the T-Square (red triangle) containing Orcus is focused on asteroid Ceres (which would be called “Cup-Hook” if we named planets after their glyphs).  In other words, the main issue here is Sustainability.  Not just Can We Let Go of Our Karma, but also Can We Continue to Choose Otherwise?

The third corner of this T-Square triangle is dwarf planet Nessus – Abuse and Privilege.  So it’s not just Letting Go of Our Karma, it’s Permanently Letting Go of Abuse, which means Naming it what it is, and Setting Firm Boundaries around it.  And yes, asteroid Pallas (Boundaries – the diamond on a cross) is involved, in a very positive way (a Quincunx Bridge – green lines – across the Orcus-Nessus Opposition; a Quincunx Bridge means it’s Grace unless we try to Anal-yze it).

But who is this Orcus fellow?  He was a pre-Roman Etruscan God-figure whose job was to Punish Oath-Breakers.  Strikes Terror, eh?  How many times have we been threatened with Dire Consequences if we Break an Oath?  The Yangtegrity Patriarchy made a big deal of Oaths, but hereabouts we lean more toward Yintegrity, as does our 5D future.  Oaths are spawn of Duality, and we prefer to Relate to the Universe as Unitary and Multifarious.  It’s the Limited mind that has great difficulty getting past Either/Or Duality.  When we aren’t In the Flow and Living Intuitively, then Yangtegrity is useful.  But it keeps us in 3D; Either/Or is Political, Both/And is Spiritual.

It turns out that our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs have their roots in forgotten Oaths that we made a long time ago, often in other Lifetimes.  The All-or-Nothing, Unconditional nature of Oaths is a side-effect of Duality.  The rest of Life is Situational.  We don’t Vow never to cross the street, we Vow to look both ways and cross only when it’s Safe – we use the “rule” if it fits the Situation; if it doesn’t fit, we look for Alternatives.  One way to interpret the impact of Ceres in this T-Square, is that it Invites us to Let Go of our Unconditional Oaths – the last thing we want to do is Sustain our Self-Sabotage!

With Nessus involved, we have to consider examples involving Abuse.  When Uncle Andy violated us and warned that they’d kill Mom if we told anyone, of course we Vowed never to tell.  And of course we Forgot it, because we worked our butt off to Forget the whole Trauma.  So how does that Vow impact our Lives now?  What if we PIAVAed to Open up that Wound so we could Let it Go?  Would this Vow prevent that Opening from happening?  It would probably do its best to try.  Meanwhile, what Experiences does the Vow prevent us from Indulging?

Unfortunately, the Unconscious often agitates for its own Clearing.  So we may be attracted to Abusers, or to the Abused, and we may have difficulty Breaking this “Habit” until we Clear the origin.  We may not Trust other people, or we may need to keep them at a Distance.  We may have to deal with Suffocation issues that aren’t really “ours.”  These Limits may interfere with What We Really Want out of Life – our Souls are more than clever enough to set up Life circumstances where the only way we can get what we Want most is to Confront our Limits.  That’s the nature of the Nodal Axis.

But, the Orcus-Nessus Opposition (Reverting Oaths involving Abuse or Privilege) is also Bridged by blue lines, or Grace (the Trine Bridge to asteroid Nemesis, which symbolizes Ego Death). Ego Death doesn’t need to be Traumatic, though it depends on our Beliefs about how much of our Life is critically Dependent on that particular Ego.  But Trust me, there are a thousand other potential Egos waiting in the wings to take over, and most of them will do a fine job.

The Egos that won’t do a fine job, will connect you to ancillary issues that you also need to Clear in order to Liberate yourself.  You can even Modulate the pace of your Ego-Clearing – all you need to do is Ask.  “God/Goddess, please lead me Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely through the process of Liberating myself from Abuse Memories and any resulting Oaths I (or a former Incarnation) may have made as a result,” for instance.  This is a Trine Bridge, it’s the Easy Path around the difficulty.  Asking for What You Want is a fabulous way to Accept Grace.

Karma Repair 4

In the chart that’s in the previous post – and all such charts – the red triangles indicate Stress, Challenge, Relative Difficulty, while the blue lines indicate Grace, Ease, Blessings.  Because Stress, Challenge, and Difficulty are what produce Wisdom, people who have Learned to Respond to Stress Productively will regard such Challenges as Invitations to Add to their Experience and Wisdom.  The astrological Perspective is particularly Valuable for its ability to Illuminate what might otherwise escape our Notice.

For instance, for the last several days I’ve been Impatient, and Feeling overloaded, even though I’ve actually been under less deadline pressure than I usually am, and even though I’ve been letting some of my lower Priorities slide completely.  That’s a common side-effect of Saturn astroevents like the 19 May Saturn-Nodes event – The Most Important Thing rises to take up most of our Attention, and all of our other Priorities recede.  I have to conclude that Paying Attention to my Irritation is The Most Important Thing facing me at the moment.

We don’t really know when something that seems trivial to us is actually a Window that will open into a Whole New Universe.

So let’s look more closely at this chart.  The first thing we Notice is that the astrological symbol for Compulsion (Pluto) is Merged with (Conjunct) Saturn-Nodes.  So this is something we’re unlikely to be able to circumvent; we ignore it at our peril.  We’re also simultaneously Fated (asteroid Moira) to Attend to our Mission (North Node).

Moira means Fate and Choice both because in the Unconscious there is no Direction, there is only Dimension.  Like the Reality that it is, the Unconscious is Unitary and Multifarious – it’s Fractal or Holographic – its Essence is repeated at any and all scales.  Many of us see the Universe only through the mind, which is Dualistic.  In the mind it’ll never be anything except Fate versus Free Will.  But they’re two sides of the same Coin.  In order to appreciate the Coins instead of just seeing the Sides, you need to Transcend the mind.

So we’re Compelled here to see the Coin that unifies our Karma with our Mission in the Lifetime.

And the Nodes (Karma and Mission) are Challenged by (Squared by – the red lines indicating right Angles) the astrological symbol for our Unconscious Limitations.

So were Compelled to see how our Unconscious Limitations, our Karma, and our Mission, are really One Energy, but One Energy that can be seen Differently from many Different Angles.  Sit for a moment in the Center of that Bubble, close your Eyes, and Notice what happens.

What about the blue lines?  The Nodal Axis is Challenged by Vesta and Unconscious Limitations, but it’s Graced by Neptune.  Neptune represents Material Confusion but Spiritual Clarity.  That was most likely your Ego that was sitting in the Center of that Bubble.  Now send your Soul into the Center of that Bubble instead, and notice what happens.

But wait.  Neptune is also the focus of a second T-Square of its own, across the Duality between Expansion (Jupiter) and Epiphany about How to Break Patterns (dwarf planet Asbolus = Intuition, Conjunct asteroid Lachesis = Changing Timelines).

The two T-Squares Resolve one another – the Challenge of one is the Easy Path (blue lines or Trine Bridge) of the other.  Neptune will teach us How to Break our Karmic Patterns and Liberate us from our Limitations.  Neptune symbolizes Everything that is Larger than we are – Everything that is Larger than the Ego.  So to Transcend the Ego we need to Ask for Advice from the Unknown, we have to PIAVA (Pray, Intend, Ask, Visualize, Affirm, Wonder, Command, etc).

The long green lines (the Quincunxes, or five Signs) tell us where the Mysteries lie, what to PIAVA…

“I Wonder How I might Expand (Jupiter) into Choosing (Moira) my Mission (North Node).”

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Intuit (Asbolus) How to Rapidly, Completely, Effortlessly, Lovingly, and Gently Let Go (Lachesis) of my Karmic Patterns (Saturn-South Node); It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done; Show me.”

But now we need to Change the Subject.  If we don’t Change the Subject, the old Duality of our current mental Concept Set will reassert itself and stick our Karma right back “where it belongs.”  That’s what the mind Believes, that what’s always been True (in its Limited Purview) is what will Keep us Safe.  So we need to Busy the mind elsewhere for a while, as our PIAVAs bake…

Karma Repair 3

The astrological symbols for Karma (South Node) and for The Most Important Thing (Saturn) are Merged (Conjoined), with the Merger culminating on 19 May (noon PDT).  In our previous post we emphasized Choice and its Lack as an excellent measure of when our Karma is or was Lit Up, and it turns out that the astrological symbol for Choice (asteroid Moira) is also Merged with the symbol for Free Will (North Node).  Choice is the inverse of Fate, and while Fate is what Happens to us when we’re Unconscious, Choice is what we gain when we become Conscious of the places where we’ve been Denying our Volition, the places where we feel like we’ve been, or are being, Victims.

Karma and Choice are pretty much Opposites, conceptually and astrologically.  But today this Duality is very Brightly Lit Up, because the astrological symbols for Karma (South Node) and Choice (Moira) are also on Opposite sides of our Planet.  An astrological Opposition like this is particularly emphasized when a third planet is halfway between them, and the astrological symbol for Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta) is sitting right there.

In other words, this is a particularly poignant time for Getting Conscious of the Unconscious Beliefs that Limit us.  Think about anything that you’ve worked your butt off your whole Life to Attain, but with Limited Success.  You’ve certainly witnessed other people for whom this Attainment seemed Effortless, and wondered why!  Well, if anyone does it, you Know it’s not Impossible.  So why not you?

Probably because you’re butting your head against a Karmic Limitation that you haven’t brought into Consciousness Clearly yet, so you can Negotiate Win-Win with your other Life Objectives, and Strategize your path to Attainment.

Now is the time to Get Clear about this.  What’s been Frustrating for you the last few days?  How is it that this is Beyond your Control?  What other Choices are you making that Prevent you from taking Control of this? 

This may not be a huge Drama – we’re more likely to already be Conscious about those, even if we haven’t Taken Control of them yet.  It’s Unconscious, so that guarantees that it will be Subtle, some Dimension you haven’t Fully Become Aware of yet.

A good example is Abandonment and Suffocation.  Our Emotional Reactions in Relationship become a lot Clearer when we Reframe them in terms of whether we’re Feeling “Abandoned” or “Suffocated” in each moment.  Feeling Suffocated means that there isn’t room for your own Truth and Reality, because your partner doesn’t make space for it.  Feeling Abandoned means that you don’t feel like you’re Receiving some important Energy that you regard as a bottom-line result of Relationship.

This is very relevant in your Relationship to your Culture as well, in addition to your partner, family, and friends.  Some Karmic Energies are more Cultural than Personal, though they all have a Personal component.

Balancing each person’s Abandonment and Suffocation, relative to the partner’s, is probably the most important work you can do in Relationship.  And until you become Aware of your own Abandonment and Suffocation tendencies, you’ll Blame your partner for what are really your own Choices.  Often all you need to do to solve these kinds of Relationship issues is to Get Conscious and Speak Up.

Which raises the question, why haven’t you been Conscious and Speaking Up all along?

The answer to that is probably that you were Programmed not to Notice.  You may have met Deep Anger when you told your Dad or Mom that you felt like they were Abandoning you because of all the Effort and Attention they put into their Work.  “I work so hard to support you guys!” might have been their Angry reply.  Henceforth Abandonment would not have been Acceptable for you to Feel.

These are the kinds of thing that can Become Conscious over the next few days, and they can Change your Life.  Most of our Unconscious Limitations are the result of Decisions like the one to squelch our Abandonment.  When they were made in a different Lifetime, or in this Lifetime before you were Verbal, they can be much harder to bring into Consciousness.

Well, it turns out that it’s also a great time to bring these Well-Hidden Decisions into Consciousness, because on 23 May (5pm PDT) the astrological symbol for exactly these kinds of Decisions, Vows, Promises, and Oaths is at its Brightest (dwarf planet Orcus is Stationary).  Loyalty to our Oaths was more important in the Olde Days, because Cultures were likely to rely more on Dependencies – Slavery, for instance.  Dependencies are just as vital today, but they’re pushed into the Unconscious by the Propaganda that our Masters feed us about “Freedom.”

The 23 May Oath-Breaking Energy – Breaking the Obsolete Decisions that keep our Limiting Beliefs Unconscious – is Lit Up now, as an astrological event like this (the Station of a dwarf planet) will impact almost everyone for at least a week before it peaks.  And it will Interact intensely with the 19 May Karma-Choice Energy.  The 18 May Energy we wrote about in the previous post is a Full Moon, and Moon Energies typically reveal themselves after the astroevent.  So we’ll also be Dancing with this Mastery-of-our-Fear-around-our-Hidden-Genius Full-Moon Energy as well.

So this is a Big Opportunity to make Big Changes in our Lives.  In the chart below we’ve used heavy lines for the 19 May Energy about Choice (Saturn-South Node), and lighter lines for the 23 May Energy about Obsolete Decisions (Stationary Orcus)…

As you can see, we’ve barely scratched the surface of this chart; we’ll fill in more detail in the next post.

Karma Repair 2

Not a lot happening with the 18 May (2pm PDT) Full Moon, except that it could make a big dent in our Fear of Opening Up to the Truth about our Hidden Forbidden Unique Genius, the one that will Singlehandedly Save the Planet, along with all the other Single Hands that this Full Moon will help Liberate from their Fear of Opening Up to the Truth about their Forbidden Genies.  Our Hidden Forbidden Unique Genius is the missing piece in the Jigsaw Puzzle that is our 5D Future, and so is Everyone Else’s.

Which is to say that the symbol for Endings (asteroid Atropos) Resolves (Trine Bridges) the Full Moon that prominently features the symbol for Converting Fear to Power (dwarf planet Sedna stands behind the Sun) and is Supported by (Finger of God-ed by) the symbol for our Forbidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion) and the Merged (Conjoined) symbols for Rebirth and Truth (dwarf planet Haumea and asteroid Veritas)…

All in all an excellent chart, if we Remember our Kegels.

This Full Moon though is greatly overshadowed by the 19 May Merging of the symbol for The Most Important Thing (Planet) and the symbol for our Karma (the Mean South Node).  If you feel like you’re Sitting Pretty, look behind you.  There’s something lurking there that may not be Negative, but will Certainly help you Clean Up your Current Lifetime.  Remember what Alan Watts said back in the 1950s – it’s a lot harder to Let Go of our Good Karma than it is to Let Go of our Bad Karma.

Because we’re so fond of Patting ourselves on the Back for our Good Karma.  But we’ll be a lot more Effective at Changing the World if we’re Neutral.  Self-Love ain’t Positive Self-Judgment.  Self-Love is Unconditional, no Judgment involved.  The Demon lurking behind you could be Pride.

And of course it could also be all manner of Self-Sabotaging Habits, the kind we usually think of as Karma and Blame on “the Universe,” or Mom, forgetting that All of our Habits are Choices we’ve made in the past.  Is this a Free-Will Universe or not?  Free Will cuts both ways.  Of course we don’t Remember making that Choice, it was a hundred Past Lives ago.  Or a Parallel in a Galaxy far far away.

But as Seth put it so Clearly in The Nature of Personal Reality, our Karma is actually Obvious – it’s writ large in our Personal History in our Current Lifetime.  What in your Personal History do you not claim as your own Choice?  Those are the places where you’re Betraying your own Soul.  Of course your Current Ego didn’t make that Choice, because if you think of “You” as your Current Ego, you’re missing 99% of your Life.

If there’s anything in our Personal History, Good or Bad, that we don’t claim as our own Choice, whose Choice was it?  It was part of our Soul Self that our Current Ego doesn’t include.  We need to do some Ego Yoga.  It’s not as hard as it sounds.  Our Ego’s in it for Pleasure; our Soul’s in it for Experience, including Experiences that will – and have – Terrified or Horrified our Ego.

This is what a Free-Will Universe means.  If you aren’t in a Free-Will Universe, you’re just another automaton on the treadmill, where everything happens to you, and you have little or no Control.  That might be Liberating, since what you do won’t matter.  You may as well Take whatever Pleases you.  But can you even Conceive of a Universe without Cause and Effect?  That’s pretty Deep Programming.  Easier to Conceive of a Universe where we don’t have enough Information to sleuth out Cause and Effect.  And more Honest.

Let’s look at the Saturn-South Node chart tomorrow.  That’ll give you time to see what’s behind you.

Earth Repair 2 and Karma Repair 1

The Global Earth Repair Conference is YouTubing its sessions so we can watch them free.  Since there were about 200 sessions in seven or eight time slots, there are lot of sessions I wasn’t able to attend either, even when I hopped from one session to another in one time slot, which I did whenever I wasn’t Learning a lot.  Not that the sessions lacked quality – I just read a lot and Earth Repair is one of my favorite topics.  I’m much more Optimistic after the Conference than I was before – many of the presenters are already Living in 5D.

Here are a couple of samples…

“When it comes to survival and sustainability, there’s only one story for the human species, and we’re all in this together…  We know when we see a forest, a lake, the ocean, a natural river system, the atmosphere, that it’s more valuable than computers, cars, airplanes, which are valuable for a short time, then become trash and pollution…  If we truly value natural systems, then Nature would truly become the basis of our money and our economy.  To protect Nature then would not be a luxury, but a necessity.”  –John D. Liu, in…

“We’re extremely conflicted and I think it has something to do with two levels of development – our brains are wired for survival, which means anger, jealousy, fear, territoriality, self-esteem, all the things that cause trouble.  And our brains are also wired for beauty and connection and spirituality, and I think it’s a crisis time for us to begin to overcome this hardcore biological survival wiring and begin to activate our spiritual wiring – the forebrain.

“Buddhism does that well with mindfulness and meditation, and the other traditions that do this.  It’s almost like we’re at a crisis point, not just of the Earth, but of our own human journey.  Are we going to give in and basically dissolve?  Will we be a failed experiment?  Or, are we at the beginning of an incredibly exciting part of our journey as we begin to become more human in the sense of truly connected to loving and nurturing all life?”  –Susan Eirich in…

Find out more about Susan at https://earthfireinstitute.org/our-story/, and about John at https://www.commonland.com/en and https://www.ecosystemrestorationcamps.org/foundation/john-d-liu/.  The Conference sessions that have been YouTubed so far are listed at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNPSTkjWIrl7FD31xbJ5STg/videos.  Planning is underway for followup Earth Repair Conferences in Chile, Africa, and India.

Meanwhile, in another galaxy far far away…

https://danielscranton.com/galactic-energies-within-you-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/

“We are very excited about the progress that we see you all making in regards to the accessing of more of your galactic energies.  You are all receiving activations all the time to awaken within you those parts of yourselves that are not from Earth, or your solar system.  And we can see how these activations are affecting all of you in a positive way.  Much of what you are attempting to resolve there on planet Earth at this time is related to those journeys that you have taken through all the different star systems in our galaxy.

“And so, by becoming more of the whole you, you are better equipped to handle the challenges you face right now on planet Earth.  We see you getting activated and then taking what energies you are accessing from within to the different challenges that you face in your lives.  Even though you still have much to resolve there on planet Earth, you are also bringing a lot to the party because of all that you have already experienced in your lifetimes in other parts of the galaxy.

“You draw from those Sirian, Andromedan, Pleiadian, Arcturian, and other lifetimes, and when you bring those energies forward, you make it easier for yourselves to reconcile the differences that you have there on your planet.  For example, most people are split politically.  They either go in all into one political party or all into another, and they see the others who are putting all of their energy into a different political party as the enemy.  This is a much more toned down version of the battles that have existed throughout our galaxy for millions and millions of years.

“When you recognize that you contain all of those energies inside of you, and you make it your mission to be integrated, then you can be a walking example of what it is like to bring different energies, different beliefs, different star systems, together.  And if you can do that, you certainly can resolve the differences between you and the others there on Earth who have very different beliefs.

“This is why you often find that you are the [sheep of color] in your family.  Those of you who are awake are often the only ones who have the beliefs that you do, and it then falls upon you to make peace with the fact that everyone else that you are related to by blood thinks differently.  And when you can do that, and you can make peace with the differences between you, then you know that you are becoming more integrating with all of the galactic energies that you have inside of you, and you are moving closer and closer to that fifth dimensional reality where all beings co-exist harmoniously.  So keep up the good work.”

And on a galaxy much closer to Home, our Cosmic Recess window is beginning to close, as we’re now only seven days from the planetary equivalent of The Most Important Thing Is Your Karma (Saturn Conjunct the Mean South Node).  “Mean” here means Average, not Cruel, though from the Ego’s Perspective, Cruel wouldn’t be far off the mark.

John Liu reminds us that when our Ecosystem Collapses, nothing is more Important or Valuable than some degree of Restoration.  Jack Rosenberg (in Body, Self, & Soul) points out that when the Ego shatters, nothing is more Important and Valuable than Restoring a functioning Ego, because you’ll just make a big mess of anything else you try to do.  And I (among others) aver that when we’re trying to Manifest something Difficult for us, nothing is more Important and Valuable than Examining our Karma.

There isn’t a lot of astrological Interaction between the 19 May Saturn-South Node Conjunction (Karma demanding Attention) and the 23 May Station of Orcus (Breaking Oaths), but in addition to their Temporal Proximity, the Topical Connections are many and Intense.  We’ll take the chart apart soon, but in the interim we’ll give you some homework.  Make a list of the places in your Life where you don’t Believe that you have Choice.  That’ll likely turn out to be critical.  And, Think about all of the Abuse Stories you’ve heard in your Life; which one had the most Emotional Impact on you?

Back

I’m back from the Global Earth Repair Conference, https://earthrepair.friendsofthetrees.net/.  I expect to be saying a lot more about this for a while, as it represents a paradigm shift for me.  Here’s a central download…

https://www.ecosystemrestorationcamps.org/

(there’s a major Ecosystem Restoration Camp just outside of Paradise, CA) and a second one…

http://www.dyarrow.org/gateway.htm

…click on “Return of the Dragon.”  We’re in a short window here without major Stations, though a quick scan of the Angles shows that there’s a lot going on; we’ll try to find time to summarize that in the next few days.  The biggest is the 19 May Merger (Conjunction) of our Karma (South Node – aka Dragon) with The Most Important Thing (Saturn), which will seriously Challenge (T-Square) our Unconscious Beliefs (Vesta).  At the Conference David gave us a quick primer on Dragon Paths, sort of the adult version of Ley Lines.

One of the things I realized during the Conference is that the Pholus-Quaoar-et al Dance on the Cusp of Capricorn isn’t just “interesting,” it’s crucial.  The Cusp of Capricorn after all is where the Harmonic Convergence began in 1988 – when this blog’s predecessors began – and where the Mayan Calendar “Ended” in 2012.

If anyone needs a primer on what the Capricorn Cusp means, just reread Dorothy Bryant’s The Kin of Ata Are Waiting for You.  Of course that’s a Northern Perspective; in the South at the Capricorn Cusp, Strawberries and Marionberries and Raspberries are ripening – a very sweet time.  Probably why both Dane Rudhyar and John D. Liu focus on the South as the next carrier of the “civilization” baton, though my bets are still on the Chinese, as they already have vast Experience with Overpopulation, and they’ve only recently come upon Profit Über Alles, and may thus be able to more easily exchange it for We’re All In This Together.

I haven’t had a chance to catch up yet on what Dan Scranton’s been writing about, but we know that lately he’s been talking more about “Contact,” which makes these mainstream articles interesting…

https://www.newsweek.com/ufo-sightings-2019-us-military-tic-tac-pentagon-navy-unidentified-aerial-1412272

https://www.washingtonpost.com/national-security/2019/04/24/how-angry-pilots-got-navy-stop-dismissing-ufo-sightings/

Our next Station, which we should start Feeling by about 16 May, will be Orcus, which symbolizes Making and Breaking Oaths.  On this Free-Will Planet, our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs pretty much all began as Oaths to Protect our Then-Present-Moment Egos.  So when Orcus is Lit Up we have the Opportunity to Become Conscious of and Recant our Ancient Karmic Oaths and Liberate ourself from our Limitations.  Remind me that we’ll need to talk about Yangtegrity and Yintegrity again in that context.

This upcoming Orcus Station makes a T-Square to the symbols for Sustainability (Ceres) and Abuse (Nessus).  So if Dolores Cannon’s work hasn’t Liberated you from Abduction Abuse issues, you may get another Opportunity this month.