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Abuse

April 20, 2017

Abuse and Trauma can take a lot of different forms.  Watch closely on 21-22 April for any signs or Memories of Abuse, as we will have a prime Opportunity to Let Go of Abuse.  Before we suggest how to take advantage of this Opportunity, let’s suggest what to look for.

As we say, Abuse can take many forms.  Uninvited Sexual Attention, Violence, and Bullying are the most obvious, but lack of Respect, lack of Recognition, and Power-Over in general are all Abusive.  Teasing is Abusive.  “Mild” abuse, to the extent that there is such a thing, when Chronic or Repeated, can be just as Damaging as major Trauma.  Notice that Chronic and Repeated lack of Respect, lack of Recognition, and Power-Over are central to the Patriarchy.

Without “Blaming the Victim,” when we as Receivers of Abuse, refuse to Accept it any longer, the Abuse Paradigm will collapse.  We may not be able to do that all at once, since most of us “Survive” on Money, and most of the Money is controlled by the Patriarchy.  But most of us can make small steps in the direction of Refusing to Accept Abuse while maintaining our Safety.  By PIAVAing Creativity, we may also be able to take incrementally larger steps over time.

Sooner or later the other 99 Monkeys will join us, and Abuse will fall away completely.  In the interim, we want to Become Aware Of, and PIAVA to Modify, any of our Patterns of Consciously or Unconsciously Accepting Abuse.  Moving beyond our Safety can lead to Losing Ground, so it’s important that we PIAVA and Choose Pattern Modifications that Preserve our essential Safety.

At the same time, strive to Become Aware of, and PIAVA to Modify, any of our own Patterns of Consciously or Unconsciously Perpetrating Abuse.  That can even include Judgment.  Even if they aren’t Sensitive enough to detect it, your Judgment will be an Abusive blow to the Energy System of those you Judge, even as it warps your own Aura

Don’t miss the fact that Self-Judgment is Abuse, potentially the worst kind of Abuse, because it prevents Self-Love, and Self-Love is a critical step toward Liberation.

Remember that Karma is Dead.  The next small step that we take toward Self-Sovereignty and Self-Love and Power-With could be the last step standing between us and Freedom.  Make room for that Possibility in your PIAVAs, and preface them with “Poor Sweethearts” for your Fear.  Use the Instant-Feedback property of Theta Healing to scope out your Actions in advance so you can Choose Effective and Safe Actions.

That’s a pretty high-level summary of the Issues; feel free to Ask Questions via Comments; I’ll keep them all Confidential.

So, why are we suggesting all this?  

Centaur Nessus symbolizes Abuse and Privilege. Abuse and Privilege are opposite sides of the same Coin.  The dwarf planet 2007 OR10 represents irruptions of material from the Unconscious.  Both of these are Conjunct the South Node, which represents the Unconscious Habits we brought into the current Lifetime with us.  This has been true for a while now.

This weekend, the Moon crosses this trio, Lighting them Up.  The influence is likely to be most Intense between about 10am PDT on 21 April and 4am or so PDT on 22 April, but any of us could feel it more broadly than that.

Asteroid Lachesis, symbolizing the Length of  a Timeline or interval between Ego Deaths (which can be so severe we’d “rather die” or so mild we hardly notice them), is nearby.  The presence of Lachesis implies that we may be able to shorten the chord between us and a Habit of Accepting or Perpetrating Abuse.

Meanwhile, the North Node that represents our Mission or Destination in the Lifetime is Conjoined by asteroid Karma itself, and by dwarf planet Orcus, which symbolizes Oath-Breaking.  Acceptance of Abuse often has its origin in an Oath at some point, where we Vowed to Accept Abuse in order to avoid what we regarded as worse punishment.

Mars (Action, Anger. potentially Violence) makes a T-Square (Challenge to Mastery – the red triangle pointing at Mars) across the Nodal Axis (the long red line angling upward to the right) and the Stellia (groups of 3 or more planets, not to be confused with Stella! though the meaning is similar) on each end.  This could easily amp up the Intensity of our Memories or Experience or both.  

It’s easy to Conflate Memory with the Current Moment, so be Aware that this weekend we may Experience Abuse more Intensely than it nominally is. This is what we mean when we say that Karma is a “Paper Tiger” – the appearance of a repetition of what we despise, which creates an Emotional Reaction inside of us that Feels like the “Real Thing.”  Think Southeast Asian Shadow Puppets, or Plato’s cave.

However, look at the big blue triangle also pointing at Mars.  This is a Grand Trine (three planets evenly spaced around the Zodiac), representing Big Grace and effectively erasing the Challenge in the T-Square – if we’re open to it, this combination can simply take us straight to Mastery “without passing Go”.

The other two corners of the Grand Trine are dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation) and asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death).  An Ego Death as part of a Grand Trine is highly likely to be one of those Ego Deaths that we “hardly notice.”  Makemake in the same Configuration implies that we may be able to use this Energy to eliminate Self-Sabotage, potentially permanently.

Notice also that the Mars T-Square is actually part of a Grand Cross (the red square with the X or + in the center, symbolizing the ability to juggle multiple diverse processes at once).  And Opposite Mars is the asteroid Sappho, symbolizing Self-Love.  

Sappho also makes an (upside-down) Kite out of the Grand Trine, and the planet at the “top” of a Kite (even if it’s temporarily upside-down; it’ll be right-side up in twelve hours) rules the whole Configuration.  The implication is that in this chart Self-Love can easily “trump” the Acceptance of Abuse or Privilege.

Notice also that the Sun and Mercury form a Trine Bridge across the Nodal Axis (the blue lines connecting to Sun-Mercury).  This is another Gift of Grace to reduce the Stress that would otherwise be involved.

Finally, notice the two green arrowheads or Fingers of God, pointing at Sun-Mercury and Makemake.  A Finger of God says “Pay Attention!”  Here they advise us to Pay Attention to Analyzing what’s going on (Mercury), and to the Outcome we’d like to Achieve (Makemake).

An additional subtlety: notice that Sappho is, barely, back within three Degrees of Sensitivity to Opposing dwarf planet Sedna (Fear).  Sappho is Retrograde (the “R” next to it), so it’s moving into the Opposition.  This is the beginning of the Re-Formation of the Sappho-Sedna Yin Gate that we worked with last month.  We’ll dissect that soon, as it’s barely starting.

However, what it means is that we are Learning how to Accept, Stand Up to, and Lovingly Embrace our Fear, in the process replacing it with Self-Love.  If “Poor-Sweethearts” don’t convert our Fear into Courage, Tapping or Kegels will.  There’s no need to take unnecessary risks (Safety First), but unless you’re in Grave Danger, remember that what you most Fear is very likely to be a Paper Tiger.

Kundalini New Moon

January 26, 2017

We need to start here…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JDCjj9NNevw

The 27 January New Moon (4pm PST) Conjoins the asteroid Lachesis, named for the Bushmaster – largest, most dangerous, and most primitive of the Snakes.  Here’s some notes on the homeopathic remedy Lachesis, by veteran homeopath David Lilley at http://www.britishhomeopathic.org/bha-charity/how-we-can-help/medicine-a-z/lachesis/

“Lachesis may be viewed with the eye of a shaman to better penetrate the snake’s hidden genius.  She provides the matriarchal image of all snakes, for not only is she the largest representative of the most evolved snake family, she is also the only pit-viper that… [produces] eggs, all others… [give] birth to live young.  Hence she is the forerunner, the source and essence of all things serpentine and venomous, and the jungle is her shrine.

“This is significant.  She comes from the bosom of Gaia (Mother Earth), from the reproductive centre of the planet, its metabolic heart, the equatorial rainforests of the Amazon basin.  Here speciation is at its most prodigious; it is Gaia’s hothouse for the generation of diverse life forms – a teeming paradise – a Garden of Eden.  Deep within its steamy density lurks the awesome bushmaster, her venom charged with the creative and destructive passion of the planet.  She is the serpent of our genesis!”

Isn’t this intriguing, as we near the end of our Lilith-Sedna Yin Gate.  Lilith was the original Female Huper, who in search of Self-Sovereignty left Adam before he and his Rib allowed the Serpent to Apple them.  The Yin Gate is about accepting the Paradox that we must Embrace our Fears (Sedna) to attain our Sovereignty.  Lilley continues (hmm, Lilley, Lilith, curious)…

“In the Judeo-Christian creation myth the snake is portrayed as the evil tempter and seducer, the very personification of deception and intrigue, premeditating and perpetrating the downfall of mankind.  Aptly it is coiled round the Tree of Knowledge, or of Intellect, and induces Adam, via Eve, to partake of the fruit and lose his innocence – the innocence of instinctive, animal existence that keeps the urges and impulses within the bounds of natural restraint and in harmony with life’s laws.  

“This is symbolic of mankind attaining that level of intellectual and emotional capacity which permits ‘freedom of choice’ and custodianship of the conscience, a release, unfolding and responsibility which were bound to bring conceit and conflict.

“There is no cult more universal or ambivalent than that of the serpent.  In ancient cultures the snake was above all a magical and religious image of the creator divinity itself, or a symbol of the primeval life force, the primitive animal will, which it is our destiny to wrestle and ultimately subdue.  

“As such it embodies all man’s potentialities, the divine and the mortal, the sacred and the profane, and the contention between the two.  The snake has always been perceived as a dualistic force, a source of strength when mastered, but potentially dangerous and often emblematic of chaos and corruption when yielded to.”

“Rooted since antiquity in paradox and polarity, duality is the very essence of the snake, of Lachesis and of the subject who requires this wonderful remedy.  As with so many of us, they are in contention with themselves – the lower self opposes the higher, the animal nature vies with the human, deceit confronts sincerity, egotism struggles against selflessness, arrogance competes with diffidence and perversity challenges morality.  Conscience and desire strive for dominance.  The entire sphere of spiritual conflict is the battlefield of Lachesis.  The conflict is often heroic.”

Of course, the “subject who requires this wonderful remedy” is our Planet, Cultures, and Identities at this point in Linear Time.

“The venom from which the remedy is prepared is immensely powerful and destructive and those who require it are proportionately of an intense and passionate nature.  The Lachesis individual is ever in danger of being possessed by passions and feelings.  They are aware of the struggle within them, their labile emotions and thoughts and their unpredictability.  

“At times they feel at the mercy of their emotions, torn between the promptings of their heart and their head, between their thoughts and feelings and between desire and guilt.  If they are unable to indulge their passions or sublimate their emotions through creative release, they will have to repress them and the price is emotional or physical ill-health.

The snake in movement is a miracle to behold.  Without legs to propel it the creature flows effortlessly along, like a shining rivulet – sinuous and silent.  The entire energy of the snake is manifested in fluidity and flow.  In the course of evolution the snake withdrew its limbs to attain flow.  Its venom contains enzymes, which dissolve and digest the tissues of its prey, causing what was firm and solid to break down into a fluid form, which can flow.  Flow is intrinsic to the snake and this is equally true of the Lachesis person.  In any condition where suppression of flow or function predominates, be it emotional, intellectual or physiological, Lachesis may be indicated.”

The bushmaster is a master of camouflage.  It is a “sit and wait” predator, using its cryptic colouring to deceive and ambush its prey.  In a similar manner the Lachesis individual can practice cunning and deceit to waylay the innocent and naïve.  They don [sic] a deceptive mask to conceal their unscrupulous intentions – they are not what they seem.  They hatch plots and schemes to catch the unwary, but also to revenge themselves against those they consider enemies.”

The snake has always been recognised as a sexual or phallic symbol, implying a strong sexuality and a powerful libido or sex drive.  The sexual energy is the most fundamental energy of Lachesis and its power lies behind the intensity, the turbulent passion and the creative genius of the archetype.  It must find expression sexually, creatively, religiously or spiritually.  It may not be suppressed.”

“The sexuality is always coiled and ready to strike. Many will say that if their sex life is good, life is good.  It is part of the flow so essential to snake life; it relieves tension and stress.  The female particularly brings to a relationship a passionate romanticism and ardour, which enriches it.  She is conscious of her sexuality and its power and uses it.  She moves with serpentine grace and is able to charge the simplest action with sexual energy.”

Both the asteroid and the Bushmaster were named after the Mythological Lachesis, one of the three Fates, she who alotted the Length of Life – which we interpret as the Longevity of an Egoic Identity, since that is what we actually Experience as “Life.”  We of course, are very recently Reborn, as dwarf planet Haumea, symbolizing Rebirth, has been greatly magnified for the last several weeks.

It’s important to remember that Fate and Free Will, like all Dualities, are properties of the Observing Either/Or Mind, not properties of the Observed Both/And Universe.

There are actually four asteroids named after the Fates – Klotho who cuts the fabric of a Life, Lachesis who measures its Length, Atropos who cuts the chord when Time is up, and Moira whose name collectively symbolizes all three aspects of Fate.  And all four of these asteroids are Lit Up during this New Moon, and by extension, during the next several weeks.  If you told someone that we are entering a Fateful Month, you’d be quite correct.

Moira herself – Fate per se – is very busy flushing out all our Memories of being trapped on the Victim side of the Abuse/Privilege Coin.  This is not a Coin you want to be on either side of, actually, because Privilege is the flip side of Abuse, and the Unconscious (which, lest we forget, happens to run the show here) recognizes only Dimension, not Direction.  In other words, Victim and Perp are the same Energy, just witnessed from different angles.  We’d prefer to be off that Dimension entirely.  Avenging our Victim just makes us Victim of our own Perp.

Asteroid Moira sits in a Stellium with Nessus (Abuse and Privilege), OR10 (Irruption of Unconscious Contents), and the South Node (our Karmic Archetypes and Forbidden Emotions), Opposing the Royal Star Regulus.  The four Royal Stars all symbolized Successful Endeavors but for a downfall, each Star having its own Curse.  Regulus symbolizes Success as long as one avoids Revenge.

Asteroid Klotho, who weaves the fabric of Life, is just behind the curtain, about to enter Act Two of our Yin Gate, where Lilith/Self-Sovereignty is replaced by Sappho/Self-Love Conjoining Klotho.  Having achieved Self-Sovereignty by Being Fully Responsible to our Unconscious Fears, we’re about to assemble a whole new Timeline, or Ego-Lifetime, founded in Self-Love.

And asteroid Atropos, mistress of Endings, Conjoins dwarf planet Chaos.  Chaos, recall, represents Unlimited Potential, and Dances with our Forbidden Genius in the Golden Rectangle, promising the Sky when we fully Embrace our Uniqueness.  We explained the ongoing Golden Rectangle in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/01/19/january-week-3-end-big-doins/ (and many earlier posts).  We interpret this Atropos-Chaos Conjunction as an End to our Limits, or Reconsideration of what we thought was Impossible.

We’ll talk about how this New Moon Challenges our Hope in the next installment.

January, Week 1, Update 2

January 4, 2017

We’ve amended the December beginnings of our “Week” with a few Angles previously omitted, and we’ve gotten ourselves up to date through 7 January, in revising…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/01/02/january-week-1/

Tomorrow we’ll tackle the 8 January Mercury Station, the 9 January Eris Station, and the many other exhausting Dramas that fill January.

I’m grateful that when I catch myself sinking into vague or acute Physical or Emotional Discomfort and trying to “figure out what’s wrong,” reminding myself that “This is about Letting Go,” and that it’s what’s right, shifts the Energy almost immediately.  Their are plenty of Heavies yet to come.

January, Week 1

January 2, 2017

January is very busy.  There are three main threads, along with a number of more isolated Energies, so we’ll get to practice being Conscious of our Multidimensional Selves as we Juggle the threads.  I’ll color-code the three Energies, and catalog the first week or so…

The First Energy is our old Friend, Recovering our Abandoned Genius and Continuing to Remove our Masks.  This is a big collection of planets in a large number of different Signs, in 20-26 Degrees.  It’s an excellent time to become Intimate with the elements in your natal chart in these Degrees, as this will indicate your Attitudes that are under major Adjustment.  This isn’t new; we’ve been working it with since Time As We Know It Ended in 2012.  If it’s still giving you fits, the elements from your natal chart will probably give you major clues to help you Let Go of your remaining Constraints to Knowing, Being, and Expressing your True Self.

This Energy is the Golden Rectangle composed of the Opposition from Saturn-Ixion-Juno-Nemesis to dwarf planet Chaos, T-Squared by Chiron, and the Opposition from Jupiter-Haumea to Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne, with the Oppositions Trine and Sextile to one another.  Asteroids Eurydike and Moira complete the Grand Sextile.  The 12 January Full Moon makes a Grand Cross with the Opposition from Jupiter-Haumea to Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne.  The fireworks explode in early January when a Grand Quintile connects the Saturn-Ixion-Juno-Nemesis with the Venus-Pallas-Nessus-OR10 Stellium of the Second Energy, along with Hopi, Vesta, and the Moon.

This is also our Mystery School, where we’re Learning to Accept Paradox as a basic principle of Non-Dual Reality, particularly as it applies to the Paradoxical Relationship between our Self-Sovereignty and our Acceptance of the Truth of what we Fear.  In February this becomes the Acceptance of the Paradoxical Relationship between our Acceptance of the Truth of what we Fear and our Assembly of a New Lifetime/Ego based on Self-Love.

This is the Yin Gate formed by the Opposition between Lilith and Sedna-Aletheia, which Opposition splits the Golden Rectangle on its long dimension.  In February the asteroids Sappho and Klotho Conjoin Opposite Sedna-Aletheia, as Lilith moves on.

We’ve a fair amount of recent Experience with the Second Energy, too.  It’s about Letting Go of the Impact of our Abuse Traumas.  Remember that Traumas can be Acute (specific Incidents) or Chronic (slow-motion, more or less continuous, and more easily dismissed as “normal”), and they can be ours or someone else’s – such as your Great Grandmother’s, who went to her grave without ever talking about her Abuse Traumas, but they’re embedded in your Epigenetics (the Reprogrammable portions of your Genetics).  Her never discussing them with anyone makes them very difficult to Identify and Shed.  This Energy is at 3-4 Degrees, mostly of Pisces, though a few other Signs collaborate.  Again, it will trigger your natal Configurations at 3-4 Degrees.

This Energy is mostly the Venus-Pallas-Nessus-OR10 Stellium, which is at the focus of a Finger of God across the Sextile between Vesta and Stationary Makemake. 

We’ve also been dealing with the Third Energy for a while, off and on.  You’ll recognize it as The Oaths We Made to Protect Ourself and How They Morphed into Limiting Beliefs and Held Emotions – and Hidden Skills.  The Thinning of the Veil is part of this process.  This Energy is mostly at 7-10 Degrees, of Pisces and Virgo.

This is the Stellium formed by Venus, Mars, Pallas, Neptune, and the South Node, Opposed by dwarf planet Orcus (and of course the North Node).

If you’d like short keywords or phrases so you can easily remember which Energy is which, try Yintegrity/Abandoned Genius, Abuse/Privilege, and Oath-Breaking/Limiting Beliefs.

Since we care more about Interpretation than Prediction, we’re including a few related prior astroevents.  What follows is an outline.  I’ll be adding commentary to it as the week goes on, so check back every day or two.  Note that, except for the “Moon over” and “Moon Opposite” events, these Energies are not solitary events; most of them will begin to be Felt a day to a week prior to the date indicated, sometimes longer.  And of course many of them Initiate Cycles that may be Experienced for months or years or decades to come; remember that the Energy of a Cycle is particularly strong at it’s Initiation

27 December:
>>> Saturn Initiates Nemesis (The Most Important Thing Is Letting Go of Our Olde Ego Structures – Our Beliefs about Who We Are), 1pm PST 27/12, Sagittarius 21 (Using Our Imagination to Transcend Mundane Physical and Emotional “Realities”); We need to stay in Gratitude about how our Olde Ego Structures have kept us Alive so far, and got us to where we are.  But they’re now Obsolete, and will soon be Ripped Away, so we’re much better off being Proactive about Letting them Go Lovingly and Gently, with Gratitude.  This is the Initiation of a Cycle that lasts more than five years (64 months).
>>> Nemesis Opposes Chaos, 6pm PST 27/12, Sagittarius 22; Another “minor” peak in the Recovery of our Abandoned Genius, this one likely to Illuminate our Attachment to our Limiting Beliefs.

28 December:
>>> Saturn Squares Chiron, 4pm 28/12, Sagittarius-Pisces 22; One of four Squares between Juno-Nemesis-Saturn-Ixion and Chiron, part of the Chiron T-Square across the Opposition between Juno-Nemesis-Saturn-Ixion and dwarf planet Chaos.  We spoke at length about these processes in Like John Saidhttps://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/12/27/like-john-said/ .
>>> Saturn Oppposes Chaos, 11pm PST 28/12, Sagittarius-Gemini 22; more of the same.

29 December:
>>> Chiron Squares Chaos, 11am, Pisces-Sagittarius 22; yet more.  

30 December:
>>> Chariklo Initiates Sun (Walking in Beauty) Capricorn 9 (Connecting to Nature and God through our Emotions); We bottled up some of our Brilliance, Gorgeousness, Talent, and Fabulousness when we were Reacting and Responding as best we could to our Abuse Traumas.  Consciousness of what we bottled up will help us Let it Back Out Safely.  Beginning a one-year Cycle.

1 January 2017:
>>> Lilith Opposes Sedna, 9pm PST 1/1, Scorpio-Taurus 26; This is the apex of our current Mystery School around the Paradox about how Self-Knowledge about Fear Interacts with Self-Sovereignty.  In particular you may be dealing with Fear.   Try a “You poor Sweetheart…” on it.  The School goes on through most of January, then is replaced by a related Mystery School at the end of the month.  See also 6 January.
>>> Sedna-Aletheia are the focus of a Quintile Yod from Jupiter and Mercury; This represents an Expansion of what we Know about our Fears. 

>>> Neptune Initiates Mars (Integration of Spirit and Form) Pisces 10 (Flying Blind); This Initiates a two-year Cycle where we Learn to Trust that Spirit and Form are in fact already, always, Integrated; they’re only Separate in the eyes of the Dualistic Mind.  The Implications of this Separation are immense – on our physical and mental health for instance, when we Believe that something is “wrong.”  It’s not wrong, it’s Information about what’s Out of Balance, and what’s Out of Balance is often only our Perception.
If we Trust that Spirit and Form are always already Integrated in spite of our thoughts about and Resistance to the issue, aren’t we already “Ascended”? We’re just continuing to Manifest Third-Dementia Duality because that’s what we Believe is “Real.”  We may be able to PIAVA our way out of Duality, since we know that PIAVA (as long as we can Change the Subject) can Transcend the mind.  Another Paradox from our Mystery School, as well as a very Important Teaching about Manifestation.   By being co-incident in Linear Time, after all, these three Energies become three Perspectives on the same Heuristic.

1-2 January:
>>>Moon over Venus-Pallas-OR10-Nessus, 7pm PST 1/1 to noon 2/1, Pisces 3-4; We are likely to Experience this as Heavy Emotion arising from the toxic cyst formed by our historical Abuse Traumas, whether Consciously or not (I’ve been Feeling it as a low-level nonspecific Lackawanna, for instance).  However, remember that the “real” meaning of the Moon is Instinct – these are Split-Off Contents in the Unconscious that crave our Loving Embrace – Make It So.

>>> Makemake (Manifestation) Stationary Retrograde Libra 4 (Youth in Spiritual Communion around a Campfire); The other five Waves are already here, patiently Manifesting their Hearts’ Desires through Spirit rather than through Form.  We join their Effort by Letting Go of our Conscious, Semi-Conscious, and Unconscious Beliefs that it is Reality that’s Corrupt, rather than the Duality of the mind that’s Corrupt.  By Embracing the Reality of our Self-Sabotage and “Loving it to Death,” we allow ourself to Focus our Clear Intention on our own Hearts’ Desires. 

2-3 January:
>>> Moon over South Node-Neptune-Mars, 9am PST 2/1 to 3am 3/1, Pisces 7-10; Remember that Confusion is the first stage of Growth; avoid trying to “figure it out” and instead just pretend that you’re stoned.  The Veil is weak here; if you can avoid Indulging your Bummers, you may be able to see through into Pure Intention and Uncluttered Manifestation.  Look to see whether this is in Harmony with Nature or in Conflict with Her.
>>> Moon over Chiron, 5pm PST 3/1 ±3 hours, Pisces 22; Chiron (Despair and Miracle) is working its way into being the focus of a T-Square (Challenge) across the Opposition between Jupiter-Haumea (Expanded Rebirth) and Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (in a word, our Yintegrity).  Stay very Mindful of using your “You poor Sweetheart…”s whenever your Mood slips into any sort of Discomfort.

5 January:  A very busy day…
>>> Pallas Initiates Venus (Setting Important Boundaries Lovingly but Unambiguously), 5am PST 5/1, Pisces 3 (Obsolescence); While like all astroindications this could go either way (we’re looking at the Unconscious after all, where Duality doesn’t exist), but given the general End-of-Tolerance-for-Abuse climate we’re in, we’re going to read this as the Initiation of a 17-month Cycle where we Learn that we no longer need to Abandon ourself when Attacked.  If you’re Attached to the Patriarchy’s Power-Over mores, you’ll be ahead to proactively enroll in a sexual harassment class.
>>> OR10 Initiates Venus (Clues to which of our Values are truly our Heart’s Truth, and which are Programming or Karma), 2pm PST, Pisces 3 (Obsolescence); A one-year Cycle starts, where we Discover and Transform old Values that were never Truly Ours and Heart-based, but Programmed by our Forebears or Culture or Karma.  Any Value based on Judgment is a candidate, Discerning Preference from Judgment; liking Peach Pie more than Apple Pie is a Preference, Hating Apples is a Judgment.  Morals are usually Either/Or, thus excellent suspects for Programming.

>>> Moon over Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne and Opposite Jupiter, 4pm PST 5/1 to 6a 6/1, Aries 21-24; Jupiter is increasingly amping up our mandate to Let Go of our remaining Masks.  You can interpret Lunar Emotionality a number of ways, but the most productive way is as an Intuition.  What comes up here for you?  Here at the dawn of these brand new Venus-Pallas and Venus-Nessus Cycles, you may want to see if any unpleasant Feelings diminish when you resolve to keep firmer Boundaries, or, if you’re uncertain you can pull that off, PIAVA to Learn to set firmer Boundaries Charmingly, Forcefully, and Consistently.  It might be a good time to do a Theta Healing (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/ ) on this, and carefully work through any Resistance or Hesitation you encounter in the Show Me phase.
>>> Nessus Initiates Venus (Surrendering to Abuse was probably a Survival mechanism for most of us, rather than a Heart-based Value, though we don’t mean to Judge True Masochists, if there is such a thing; on the other hand, the Privilege to Abuse is definitely a Patriarchal Value – but is it Heart-based, or Programmed?), 9PM PST 5/1, Pisces 4 (Heavy Cross-Traffic at Seashore Resorts); This Initiates an only-13-month Cycle, but it’s a big one, considering the context – see at least January 8 and today’s first entry.
Whatever Abuse we Allow ourselves to Receive, Pay Close Attention.  What’s our Motivation?  Is it really Masochism, or Fear of our own Power, Fear of reprisal, Unworthiness, Lack of Self-Love, or ???  If the Abuse is minor, or we have little Hesitation to set a Boundary, it may be useful to Allow the Abuse so we can study Why we were tempted to Allow it.  This is huge not just for us as Evolving Individuals, but also huge for the Human Collective and the Planet.  This includes being Abused by For-Profit Medicine.
Whatever
 Abuse we Allow ourself to Perpetrate against another, Pay close Attention as well.  Is this type of Abuse legal?  Does your Victim object?  Do you Believe they’re secretly pleased?  Is your Motivation the sense of Safety or Superiority you get from knowing you can Power-Over someone, or Believing you have the Right to do so?  Something you’d brag about to your Friends?  Is it to Satisfy some Desire of yours?  Is it an Addiction?  (Some define Addiction as continuing to do something after you “get in trouble” for it – but we’d have to exclude “getting in trouble” that’s an Act of Abrogating your Self-Sovereignty, such as “getting in trouble” with your Abuser.)  Do you Feel good about it?  Do you plan to keep doing it whenever you can?  If not, do you have a Plan for Changing your Behavior?

6 January: Another very busy day…
>>> Juno
 Opposes Chaos, 12am PST 6/1, Sagittarius-Gemini 21; Juno’s Dancing with Saturn and Ixion Opposing Chaos.  Juno represents the Edges of Consciousness, so we should be due for some Illumination here if we’re Open to Receiving it.
>>> Lilith Opposes Aletheia, 4am PST 6/1, Scorpio-Taurus 26; This is the secondary apex of our current Mystery School around the Paradox about how Self-Knowledge about Fear Interacts with Self-Sovereignty.  This apex is more about Truth per se than Fear itself.  Another good place for a Theta Healing where you work through the Resistance (see “>>> Moon over Uranus et al, 4am PST 5/1…”); the more you’re in Truth and in Consciousness about your Fears, the less they’ll rule your Life and Limit your Experience of it, no matter how you React or Respond to them.  The School goes on through most of January, then is replaced by a related Mystery School at the end of the month.  See also 1 January (“>>> Lilith Opposes Sedna, 9pm PST 1/1…”).

>>> OR10 Initiates Pallas (Likely to be lots of Vignettes – spontaneous Dramatic Memories – about times when you Gave Away your Power or Powered-Over others or didn’t intervene when you witnessed Abuse
), 11am PST, Pisces 3 (Obsolescence); The start of a four-year (50-month) Cycle where our Psyche is likely to show us scenarios from our Life where Boundaries different from those we had at the time would work better.  As you’re observing the show, be careful to distinguish Responsibility from Blame; Blame looks for Past Cause, while Responsibility looks for ways to improve Future Outcomes.  It’s probably better though to Let Go and let these Vignettes “Roll Off our Back,” rather than trying to “Figure them Out.”  The Letting Go will Create Wisdom, which will serve us much better, rather than Knowledge.  
>>> Ixion Initiates Nemesis (Embracing the probably-Chronic Traumas that Isolated our Abandoned Genius), noon PST, Sagittarius 25 (Play despite apparent handicaps); This is the Beginning of an almost-six-year (71 months) Cycle where we Learn about our Abandoned Genius and loosen our Attachment to their Abandonment.  Nemesis was the Goddess assigned the task of punishing folks who offended the Gods with their Hubris.  She’s an excellent stand-in for Ego Death.  We have elaborate Ego Structures built up to keep our Abandoned Genius Suppressed.  You could think of those Structures as sort of like the Emperor’s Wall on the Mexican border or your local Sewage Treatment plant – those Energies must be controlled and contained at any cost!
Deconstructing this Wall to let our Rejected Self back in could be Painful.  You may be ahead to make a list of all epithets and labels that seem negative to you.  Have you ever told a friend or acquaintance “I’m not one of 
those people!”?  What offends you in other people?  What characteristic or behavior would be a reason to reject someone?  What’s the most odious or repugnant thing someone could do?  What do you hate most in other people?  What would you never do?  You might want to sit with some of these vile things and see if you can find some Compassion for them.

7 January:
>>> Juno Squares Chiron, 5am PST 7/1, Sagittarius-Pisces 22; One of four Squares between Juno-Nemesis-Saturn-Ixion and Chiron, part of the ongoing T-Square with dwarf planet Chaos; see Like John Saidlink above (28 December).  This one may be painful, as the Edge of your Consciousness (and of your Ego) are torn open if you’re in Resistance.  If you Let Go of your Resistance (“You poor Sweetheart, this feels horrible, doesn’t it.”) it will help a lot.
>>> Grand Quintile linking Juno-Nemesis-Saturn-Ixion with OR10-Nessus-Pallas-Venus-South Node, Vesta, Hopi, and the Moon, 1-7pm PST; This now gets interesting.  The Quintile mean that this is about Learning; the Grand part means that it’s about Wisdom as much as Knowledge, as it Spans the Whole.  We will be Learning how…
The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is to Open up to Greater Consciousness (Juno), Let Go of our Olde Identity (Nemesis), and Accept our Abandoned Genius (Ixion)…
Relates to…
Our Karmic Dance (South Node) between our Boundaries (Pallas), our Values (Venus), and Memories (OR10) of our Abuse (Nessus).
Them’s Big Doin’s.
The other players in the Grand (Integrating) Quintile (Learning) are…
Our Limiting Beliefs (Vesta), Respect for All Things (Hopi). and our Authenticity (Moon)…
Hopi tells us that there’s no room here for Blame (“You poor Sweetheart, Blame is so much easier, isn’t it.”), we have to Be Responsible TO All of the many Parts of Ourself that are Dancing here.  Letting Go of our old notion that we were “responsible for” (ie, “it was our own fault”).  Yes, we were Powerless to stop it, and yes, they Abused their Power, but the time for Keening about our Loss is long past.
To Make Space in our Bodies for the New Energies moving onto the Planet, we need to Accept that It Was What It Was.  This may take a large number of “You poor Sweetheart…”s, about whatever Emotions arise.  Tapping as well, any number of times.  Measure your before-and-after Distress (one to ten), and let the Topic evolve.  Take as long as you need; it’s The Most Important Thing you’re Doing, and probably The Most Important Thing you’ll ever Do, perhaps even The Thing You Came Here To Do.  Your Work here will help move the Planet out of the Patriarchy.

8 January:
Mercury Stationary Direct 2am Sadge 29
Nessus Initiates Pallas Pisces 4

9 January:
Eris Stationary Direct Aries 23
Karma Stationary Retrograde Virgo 18

10 January:
Sun over Uranus et al
Sun-Uranus 8am

11 January:
Sun Opposes Jupiter 9pm
Saturn Initiates Juno Sagittarius 23

12 January:
Almost-Grand Quintile
Full Moon 4am Cancer 23
Moon-Uranus 1am
Moon Opposes Jupiter 3am

Here’s a sketch of the rest of January, should you want to plan ahead…

13 January:
Neptune Initiates Venus Pisces 11

17 January:
Aletheia Stationary Direct Taurus 26
Chiron Init Mars Pisces 22

18 January:
Moon over Jupiter
Moon Opposes Uranus 8pm

19 January:
Moon-Jupiter 12am
Ixion Initiates Juno Sadge 26
Mars Squares Saturn 1am

22 January:
Haumea Stationary Retrograde Libra 24

24 January:
Hopi Stationary Retrograde 13 Libra
Mars-Saturn 3am

25 January:
Veritas Stationary Direct 10 Gemini
Chiron Initiates Venus 22-3 Pisces

26 January:
Moon over Pluto 1am
Moon Square Uranus 7am
Moon Square Jupiter 11am

27 January:
Sappho Conjunct Klotho Scorpio 22
Quaoar Enters Capricorn
New Moon 4pm Aquarius 9

30 January:
Venus Enters Shadow Period Pisces 27

1 February:
Neptune Initiates Pallas Pisces 11

6 February:
Jupiter Stationary Retrograde Conjunct Haumea Libra 24
Sedna Stationary Direct Taurus 26

15 February:
Ixion Initiates Saturn Sagittarius 26

Like John Said…

December 27, 2016

Remember Both/And; Truth is Different for each of us because Truth resides in the Heart, not in the mind’s Duality.  Even if this is not your Truth, it may be useful to you, as all New Perspectives are.  New Perspectives may help you Let Go of Judgment of Others, they may help you Let Go of Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, and they may Grow Corn for you in Unusual Circumstances.

  ♥    ♥    ♥    ♥    ♥    ♥    ♥  

2017, which is a Tenth-Harmonic (Abundance) Year, begins with dwarf planet Makemake Stationary.  A planet is at its Strongest when it’s Stationary.  The Essence of Makemake is Manifestation.  As John said…

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2016/12/it-is-now-arcturians-through-suzanne-lie.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EqP3wT5lpa4

But first we need to get past this week’s once-in-a-millennium Funfest.  Actually, though, since they’re co-incident, we need to interpret them as one astroevent.  How we Respond to this week will have a big Impact on how our Manifestation Skills shift in the New Year.  There are many Keys to that process…

(1) The Most Important Thing is inviting our Abandoned Genius to come Home.  Treat them like a Wild Animal that you’re trying to tame.  Offer them a Treat – like maybe an Open Heart to them, then step back and sit down, facing slightly away, so they don’t think you’re watching them (Change the Subject).  Then – sit quietly and Wait.  As long as it takes.  You can’t approach them directly.  You have to Demonstrate your Loving Kindness, Be Open and Inviting but Neutral and Non-Attached, and Let Them Approach You.  If you do that, they will come, you just don’t know how long it will take, so you need Patience.  

(2) You have Time, you don’t need to rush.  What you do need to do is to Show Them Consistency, and Avoid sudden moves that would Startle them.  Find your Space of Loving Kindness, and Apologize to your Abandoned Genius  for Allowing them be Banished from your Life.  Don’t Punish yourself, it was something you had to do in order to Survive at the Time, and your Safety was then paramount.  But Feel their Pain and Abandonment, over having been Banished all these years.  Then PIAVA that they Return to You, Let It Go, and send them Love.  Then after a while – several to many hours – check to see if you’ve Learned anything.  Then Do It Again.

(3) While you’re doing the Processes above and below, hold a Crystal or Jewel or Stone in your hand.  Choose one that you feel very Safe and Loving with.  If it’s wearable, great, wear it all week.  If not, keep it in a pocket if you can.  If it’s too big for that, put in a Sacred Space and Be There or Visualize it as you begin each of these Processes (do these whenever you think of it all week – constantly if possible!).  If you don’t have the perfect Crystal handy, gaze at this one…

Annabergite 3952 photo:J.Buss

Print it out (from http://www.jbuss.com/jbl4d/annabergite1.htm ) and carry it with you; that’s your Abandoned Genius sparkling there in the center, as It – that is, You, the Abandoned part of You – struggles to escape the maw that’s about to devour It – that is, You, your historical You.

(4) Be Compassionate with any Pain you Feel.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really hurting aren’t you.”  Then put your thoughts on something else.  After a while you can check in again to see if you’re still in Pain.  If you aren’t, spend a few minutes in Gratitude.  If you are still (or again) in Pain, give yourself another “You poor Sweetheart…”  When You are Hurting, that’s literally True – You Are Hurt.  When you give yourself a “You poor Sweetheart…” You aren’t Hurt any more, You Are Compassion.  And Empathy Heals.  

(5) You don’t have to Fix anything or Change anything, you just have to be Loving and Gentle with yourself.  It’s actually The Most Important Thing.  Ask yourself, “I Wonder what would happen if I Trusted that my own Empathy is Enough to Heal Myself.”  Don’t seek Answers, just stay in Wonder as long as you can.  If you want you can Imagine that it’s True, then look to see what your Inner Eye sees.  If you see Peace, you’re Golden.  If you see Trouble, Ask what you’re Feeling there, and give yourself another “You poor Sweetheart…” about that.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Doubt, aren’t you.”

(6) You are Learning a Paradox about how…

  • Self-Sovereignty (which includes Doing and Having What you Want)

is Related to… 

  • Being Truthful with Yourself about What you Fear

The Relationship isn’t Logical, so don’t try to make it so.  Imagine how you’ll Feel when you can Do and Have exactly what you Want to Do and Have, moment to moment.  Then Ask yourself if you have any Yes-Buts.  Take them one by one, and convert them to Yes-Ands.  This is a Paradox, remember, it doesn’t make sense.  Maybe something like… “I Have Complete Freedom and Abundance, Yes, And my Life is falling apart because I’m not honoring my ten zillion Commitments!”  Or… “I Have Complete Freedom and Abundance, Yes, And how am I treating other people?”  Then just Change the Subject.  Nothing to Solve, nothing to Fix, just another Paradox.  Trust a Perfect Unfoldment; you just See Through a Glass Darkly.

(7) Be on the lookout for Ego Death.  The Signs are Thinking “I’d rather Die” or “I’d do anything for Love, but I won’t do That,” Not recognizing the landmarks in your own neighborhood, Feeling Confused, Not being able to keep your regular schedule, Feeling like you’re just now meeting old friends or colleagues for the first time.  It’s like you’re a Walk-In, but you aren’t.  It’s Weird.  An Ego Death is actually an Ego Rebirth.  It’s exactly what you Crave.  Our natural Reaction is to do everything we can to Prevent a Death/Rebirth; you want to do everything you can to be Loving and Gentle with it.  You’re a Babe in Arms, put yourself to your Breast, rock, and coo.

(8) Every Memory, Flashback, Vignette, and Historical Flash you Receive is Significant.  This is what it’s about.  They’re all either…

  • Related to how you were before your “Betters” Abandoned/Abused you
  • Related to the chronic or acute Traumas that characterized or precipitated your Abandonment
  • Related to your resulting Lifetime Self-Abandonment
  • Related to the many episodes in your Life where you exercised your now-Habitual Self-Abandonment (any “If-Only-I’d-Have…” Flashbacks?)
  • Related to your Shoulds (which are all Self-Abandonments)
  • Related to the Limiting Beliefs and Karmic Archetypes that are Lit Up so you can become Conscious of them and Choose to Let them Go
  • Related to episodes of Genuine Self-Love and Self-Care (for Contrast)

Or several/many/ all of the above.

As we’ve said, these are Big Doin’s.

Makemake’s Exact Retrograde Station is at 3pm PST on 2 January.

(1) Abandoned Genius (AG) as The Most Important Thing (TMIT): Saturn/TMIT Conjunct Ixion/AG and Nemesis/Ego-Death Oppose dwarf planet Chaos/Unlimited-Potential, forming the base of a Chiron/Despair-and-Miracle T-Square/Challenge.  Saturn-Ixion Opposite Chaos and Jupiter-Haumea/Big-Rebirth Opposite Uranus-Ceres-Eris-Mnemosyne/Memories -to-make-our-True-Self-Sustainable form a  Golden Rectangle/Creative-Genius.

(2a) Having Time: Ixion Initiates Saturn 15 February in 25 Sagittarius.  Other closely related intermediate events:

  • Ixion Initiates Nemesis 6 January 25 Sagittarius
  • Juno Opposes Chaos 6 January
  • Juno Squares Chiron 7 January 
  • Saturn Initiates Juno 11 January 23 Sagittarius
  • Ixion Initiates Juno 19 January 26 Sagittarius
  • Jupiter Stationary Retrograde Conjunct Haumea 6 February 24 Libra

(2b) Survival/Safety: Moira/Fate Sextile Saturn-Ixion-Nemesis-Juno etc etc.

(3) Crystal: the Vacancy that completes the Chiron T-Square is 22 Virgo, A royal coat of arms rich in Precious Stones.  Annabergite is one of the few Crystalline Minerals that was Organically Alive just before it Crystalized.  The appropriate Heart color and dangerous positioning on this one is a convenient “coincidence.”  Or, you could use this Cluster (from http://www.jbuss.com/jbl4/tbam1878bp.htm ), with the Violet Flame:

(4) Compassion/Empathy: the Chiron T-Square.

(5) Wonder and Trust: the Tricolor Saturn-Ixion-Nemesis-Juno Square Chiron Quincunx Eurydike/Trust Trine Saturn-Ixion et al.

(6) Self-Sovereignty/Truth-Fear: Sedna-Aletheaia/Being-Truthful-about-our-Fear to Lilith/Self-Sovereignty Yin Gate/Mystery School embedded in the Golden Rectangle in (1).

(7) Ego Death: Jupiter/Amplification Conjunct Haumea/Rebirth, Uranus-Eris Stellium, Saturn-Ixion Stellium, etc etc etc.

(8) Flashbacks: Mnemosyne/Memories in the Uranus-Eris Stellium, Nemesis/Regret in the Saturn-Ixion Stellium, Aletheia/Truth on Sedna, etc etc etc.

Portal 17.12 and Abuse II

December 14, 2016

Reader Eliza Ayres, author of  https://bluedragonjournal.com/ , responds…

This is a perfect description of events that took place in my own experience this past year.  Fortunately, I saw through the abuse, realized that I needed to separate from the perceived abuser, work through the issues that I had reacted to (low-self esteem, financial insecurity, anxiety over an indeterminate “future” etc) and recognize that the only one I could work on was myself.  

“So I did… and have emerged a new being, filled with a greater compassion, not only for myself but others.  I have forgiven the abuser, but they are no longer a part of life, by mutual choice.  I hope this article aids others to focus on self-healing and self-care so that they, too, can arrive at new understandings of the complicated release of old energies involves.  This is not a case of the present being a continuation of past abuse; more it was time for me to clear the emotions that came up, which had been long suppressed.  

“I could handle the situation now without coming to physical harm.  The pain involved was not long-lived, at least on my side; I’m not responsible for how the other individual involved has handled anything that came up for them.  Now when things come up in my life, I attempt to look at them from a more neutral point-of-view, so I can study the emotions and thoughts… allow them to move through without clinging to them and recreating pain long forgotten and dissolved.  Thanks for writing this!”

“When you are able to begin to heal from abuse, which can also be self-abuse, you need to recognize that the abuser has been a teacher or mentor on your journey.  They have aided in bringing to light that which needs to shift in your life, whether you need to embark on a physical healing regime, to release long-held emotions and thought patterns that no longer have any relevance in your current circumstances or to simply let go of anything and everything that is holding your ability to be happy, despite appearances.  

“Being grateful, forgiving the abuser and learning from the experience, gaining good boundaries and re-discovering the beauty, grace and potential that exists within yourself will aid in healing old wounds, whether physical, mental or emotional or all three.  It is a return to Wholeness which is required before one can fully embark or continue on their journey.”

Portal 17.12 and Abuse

December 14, 2016

Remembering that our Purpose here (and probably the only thing we can do) in this Time-Space is to Let Go of our Held Emotions – our historical Pain – so it no longer Creates Self-Sabotage as we try to Manifest a Life we Love on a Planet infused with Love and Support and Community and Collaboration and Praise, we’re entering several days where what’s in our face is Abuse.  If this has already been going on for you, no surprise, as we’ve actually been doing this since early 2015.

Let’s start with some definition.  Whenever someone speaks to you using “You-Statements” and they aren’t praising your Brilliance, Gorgeousness, Talent, and Fabulosity, that’s Abuse.  Obviously, there are much more blatant and serious forms of Abuse, mostly having to do with Power-Over.  A significant tell is that it Hurts you, but that’s not always obvious.  The other side of the Abuse Coin is Privilege – the other person Believes they have the right to Abuse you, possibly even “for your own good” – Power-Over.  If you grant them the Privilege to Power-Over you, then Hurt may not be as Clear.  Teasing is a good example – Teasing is Abuse where the rules of the game are that you’re supposed to play along with the Abuse.

Now, on a Free-Will Planet such as ours, no one can actually ever Hurt you; it’s a Choice you make, to indulge your Hurt Feelings.  And virtually every time you are Hurt, the other person’s Remarks or Actions are actually Triggers for your own Held Emotions.  That’s actually a good thing, because the only thing we have the Power to Change is Ourself.  We can’t Change the Perp, nor would we Want to, because that would be Powering-Over their Choices.  We definitely want to drastically Change the circumstances of our Relationship with them, but all of the Levers and Dials for that process are within Ourself.

That does NOT mean that the Abused is to Blame or Responsible for Past Abuse that has happened TO them.  Remember that Blame looks to the Past to assign Who Did What, while Responsibility looks to the Future to assure that Nobody Does That Kind of Thing to Us Again.  Blame will Manifest only more Abuse.  Anger is something else; in our Anger at being Abused we will, Hopefully, go through a phase where we are Blaming our Abusers.  I say Hopefully because we don’t want to Blame ourself instead.  Let’s unwrap that.

I am Angry at the person who Abused me.  I’m also Angry at myself for Letting it happen again.  We have to do two things with this Anger.  First, it’s the fuel for setting up a Protection from our Abuser.  It doesn’t matter whether they’re to Blame as the Perp, or if they innocently stepped on our sore toe.  We need to Protect ourself from them.  Later we can reconsider whether or not we have Forgiven them.  For now, Safety First.  Only when we’re Safe can we look at ourself to see how we can convert that Anger at ourself into Self-Care.

Forgiveness isn’t a Decision, it’s a Discovery.  We can Actively Intend to Forgive someone, but Forgiveness doesn’t actually happen until it does, in its own Time.   First we set Effective Boundaries against the alleged Perp, then, once we’re Safe, we Explore our own part in the Drama.  Abuse is a Dance, and it takes two (at least).  We talked a little about all this before, at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/10/17/power-under/ , the last time we encountered this 17.12 Energy.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Hurt and Abused here, aren’t you” would be a good place to start.  That would put you in Compassion toward yourself.  Compassion toward your Abuser comes much later, if it comes at all.

This is really a Test of your Skill at Discerning Blame from Responsbility.  If you have to start with “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Blaming yourself here, aren’t you” that’s fine; just do whatever you need to do to avoid Self-Blame.  There is no exit from Self-Blame.  Stepping out of that dead-end is the first task, and you may just need to PIAVA it.  Blame in general is a sealed Universe, and it’s very difficult to see out of it.  We could go on at length, but I hope this gives you enough clues to take your next step; let me know if you feel stuck or have questions; I’ll do my best to find time to Respond.  I’ll treat all comments on this Confidentially.

For now, the Bottom Line is that We’re Finished With This Abuse Energy.  Yes, it will be in our face until 17 December, but this is the Confidence-Builder phase of this astroevent.  When we first encounter an astroEnergy, especially if it’s one we don’t encounter often (or ever in the current Lifetime), we’re caught off guard and it opens a Can of Worms, or often, of Snakes.  We call that first event a Can-Opener.  Many astroevents recur several times; we refer to the intermediate events as Expositions, because each one Exposes more about our Reaction to the Can-Opener.  By the time we get to the last event of the series, provided our Objective has been to Expand our Consciousness, we’re fully trained, and the last recurrence is in fact a Confidence-Builder.

This astroevent is the Initiation of Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) by OR10 (Irruption of Unconscious Contents).  The Initiation itself took place in May 2015, at 4 Pisces, “Heavy traffic on a narrow spit linking two seaside resorts.”  The image is full of Emotional Loading (Seaside), Karmic history (heavy traffic), doorways (narrow spit), Either/Or Duality (two) and the ultimate promise of being able to Let Down our Guard Safely (resorts).  The Expositions were June 2015, January 2016, and September 2016).

The current Confidence-Builder occurs at 3 Pisces, “Petrified tree trunks like broken on desert sand” – our Abuse Archetypes have been broken and left to ossify.

Nessus-OR10 is at the focus of a Finger of God from Vesta (Archetypes) and Makemake (Manifestation) – If we want to Manifest Free of Self-Sabotage, we have to Pay Attention to Abuse and Privilege.  Vesta is also the focus of a Quintile Yod from the Sun and Neptune – We’re Learning here about our Karmic Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.

It also Trine-Bridges (Provides an Easy Path to Mastery) a Makemake T-Square across the Opposition between Hylonome (Letting Go of Archetypes) and Atropos (Endings) – that sounds pretty self-explanatory!

And it makes a Trioctile Bridge (Epiphany) to a Pluto (Trance Re-Formation) T-Square on the Jupiter-Mnemosyne (Memories up in our Face) Opposition – also pretty self-explanatory!  For emphasis, and to assure that we Understand what’s going on, Mercury (mentality) is Stationary (Strong) on Pluto.

While this is happening, between the Ides of December and the Solstice, the Sun is being Initiated by the Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar-Galactic Center Stellium, which we’ll talk about separately, as it gives us a whole new Perspective on Responsibility.

Varuna (the Life Force) also just re-entered Cancer (Nurturance) after dipping His toe into the Leo (Confidence) Ocean between mid-September and mid-December.   It returns to Leo next July for another dip, but doesn’t enter Leo for good till June 2018.

We’ll come back to these Trauma-Dramas just before Christmas, but when they hit then, rest assured it’ll be only a glancing blow meant to demonstrate how good your new Armor is.  We’ll also get some excellent training in Setting Boundaries against Abuse 5-9 January.

Nessus and OR10 both Initiate Mars on 23 December, in the Broken Trees Degree, and Initiate Pallas 6-9 January.  Pallas-OR10 occurs in the Broken Trees Degree, while Pallas-Nessus occurs in the Heavy Traffic Degree.