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Endings II

February 11, 2018

Another place where we get very Confused about Boundaries, is the Edge between Ego and Soul.  Most people I meet have a very hard time imagining anything except a solid, opaque wall between themselves and their Soul, and they don’t even expect Mexico to pay for it.  Daniel Scranton Channels some Pleiadian Wisdom about this…

http://danielscranton.com/mission-earth-%e2%88%9ethe-pleiadian-high-council-of-seven-3/

“Before you ever set foot on planet Earth for the very first time, you understood that this was a mission.  You understood that Earth had a very special place in the galaxy and that you were embarking upon a very specific mission for all of consciousness.

“You all saw this experience as the greatest possible challenge that you could embark upon.  And while you knew that there would be some very dark times, quite a bit of pain, and a little too much suffering, you stepped right up to it and decided that this was the only place for you to be.

“Now as you began your cycle of lifetimes on planet Earth, you also understood how far you would be able to expand.  You understood that the reward for being on planet Earth was like none other in the galaxy.  And so you feel that the pain and suffering was worth it.  You may not feel it now, from where you stand, but we guarantee you that you feel it on the level of your higher self and your oversoul.

“Your next mission on this journey will be to create a brand new Earthly experience for yourselves and for all future generations, and those experiences will not be about challenges.  The next mission is about experiencing joy and unbridled, unconditional love.  You have come this far in order to feel what it is like to move from the depths of darkness to the heights of ecstasy.

“Now when you decide to embark upon the new mission is up to you.  It is up to you how much longer you play with the third-dimensional rules and when you fully embrace the fifth-dimensional perspective, the fifth-dimensional frequency, the fifth-dimensional experience of reality.  We know that many of you feel ready, and we say to you that you are.  It is all just a matter of opening your heart, letting that be your guide, and forgetting everything that you think you have learned up until this point.”

The chart of the Atropos Station is relatively simple.  Atropos Conjoins – meaning that it’s Merged With (speaking of Boundaries) Eurydike, or Trust – still barely moving after it’s 4 February Station, and precisely Conjunct Atropos when the latter Stands Still.  Are we Scared to Let Go of What We Know So Well, this Karma, and Accept what lies beyond Endings, the Unknown?  That would be natural.  If you considered it carefully, you might well find you’d much rather Step Out of your Karmic Self-Sabotage Patterns than Stay In them.  But considering it carefully would mean you’d have to recognize that your Karma is your own Creation.  Most of the time most of us just Feel Victimized by our Archetypes, as if they were woven by Someone Else.

The ignorati refer to this as “New Age Guilt,” the idea that somehow I Chose to Manifest the Reality I Live in.  Why would I Choose Suffering?  They see it that way simply because they are unable to refer to their Soul as “I” – they see their Soul as Someone Else.  So this Adventure is about Trusting that we can End Habits that no longer serve us, and still Live Well afterwards.  If it was Someone Else who installed those Habits, do we Fear that they will Punish us if we End them?  If we still Live our Life as a Child subject to our Programmers’ rules, of course we do.  But we as a Soul Chose those Programmers, to set up situations that Mirror our Karma, so we can Recognize it and End it.  Part of our Mission.

Eurydike-Atropos Station in fact makes a Trine Bridge, defining the Easy Path, across the Nodal Axis.  The Nodal Axis is nothing if it’s not our map for getting from our Karma to our Mission.  Asteroid Sappho – Self-Love – sits on our South Node, which symbolizes the Karma that we’ve sown, the Patterns and Archetypes we took this Lifetime to Let Go of.  Do we Love Ourself in spite of our Karma?

Our Mission is not Letting Go of our Karma.  It’s just that the Hidden Skills which we need in order to Achieve our Mission, are hidden beneath our Held Emotions.  Held Emotions are the Emotions we cannot face because it would be too Scary, our cosmic PTSD.  Letting Go of our Karma, Letting Go of those Archetypes, those seemingly unshakeable Habits that Sabotage us over and over again, requires that we Feel those Forbidden Emotions, requires an Ego Death.  Yet the Ego’s job is to keep us Alive.  Which is the same error we all make – the Ego is supposed to keep us Alive, not to keep itself Alive.  How can it keep us Alive though, if it Dies?  Another Paradox.

Our Karmic Archetypes are Compulsive, or we’d be able to Let them Go easily.  In the map of the Station, Pluto, symbolizing Compulsion, makes a Quincunx Bridge to the Nodal Axis.  A Quincunx Bridge is like meeting Gollum.  But rather than Solve the constant stream of Riddles, we need to Zen them – leave them as Riddles, unanswered.  Anything that the Dualistic mind can conjure to Respond to them, will be a knife in the Heart of Mystery. 

That Fearless Child, in Awe at the marvelous things around Her, completely unprepared to try to make Sense of them, and, apart from trying to Understand the Abuse she so unfairly Received, having no need to make Sense of them.  That Child, pre-Abuse, is the one we need to Recover.  She holds the Ring.  The Abuse is the re-enactment of our Karma.  Who were we before we stumbled into these Patterns of Sabotage?  We’d need to go back to Lilith, to our Self-Sovereignty.  It’s a Mystery, but if you let “I” be your Soul for a few moments, you’ll Know Exactly what it is and Who You Are.

In the Station chart, Pluto is Conjoined by Chariklo, representing our Self-Confidence.  The two of them Square Atropos-Eurydike, symbolizing Mastery through Challenge.  Mastering the subtle Art of having Confidence that our Compulsions will lead us back to Awe, the subtle Art of Trusting that Ending our 3D Timeline will Liberate us to a Greater Mastery.  It’s the same as Sappho-South Node; Loving Ourself as our Karma.  Can you let “I” be your Karma for a few moments? 

When we drop all Self-Judgment then it doesn’t matter Who We Are, does it.  We are simply Unconditional Love, Personified.  If we are “just” Love, then what do Patterns and Habits and Archetypes matter?  They don’t even exist.  We can’t be “just” Love without being in the Present Moment, and in the Present Moment our Karma is undefined.  Habits by definition Remove us from the Present Moment.

Timelines IIa

January 21, 2018

With much appreciation, a rich trove of excellent Perspectives from Undeniably Sara…

 https://undeniablysara.com/author/undeniablysara/

“Draining boiled pasta water into the sink is a trigger for me – every time.  Chopping onions, doing laundry, mopping the floor, planting a garden and driving – these are just some of the mundane everyday activities that start a movie playing in my head.  I hear every word, see each expression, smell the scents, and experience all the fear as if it were happening again right now.  Even after all these years the memories still give me pause, and I must consciously stop the movie playing and add a narrative that explains these events are in the past.  Remembering past events is not my choice but my reaction to them is, and I choose to see the ridiculousness of the people who hurt me.  It makes them seem small and less threatening which helps me keep moving forward.”

“My upbringing encouraged me to hold in my emotions and deny my secrets.  While this muting was not malicious, it resulted in devastating consequences for my life.  A strong person, I was taught, was one who did not react to emotional situations.  Only strong people restrain themselves and their feelings.  Love was one of the emotions kept under wraps encompassing the physical and verbal expressions.  In the end, hiding the abuse my children and I suffered at the hands of their father/my ex-husband resulted in physical and emotional illness, job loss and financial ruin.  I can’t help but wonder how different things would be if I was encouraged to share my thoughts and feelings.  It is difficult and many times uncomfortable to share my story or ‘sing my song’ but I know the process is healing and I am determined to prevail.”

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“I have repeated many things I was too ignorant to repair.  At one point I merely thought I just had bad luck with relationships.  Many times I was told relationship failures were solely my responsibility.  In truth, healthy boundaries were nonexistent in my life, and it took lots of pain and loss for me to see that.  Now I understand that because I did not respect myself, I allowed others to disrespect me.  So, there is some validity to the statement that my failed relationships were my fault.  I failed to repair my broken pieces and that invited manipulative, abusive people into my life.  The process of repairing is well underway but still incomplete making me fear any new relationship.  I am hopeful that someday I will be well enough to have a healthy relationship.  Until then being single and focusing on raising my children is more than enough to fill my days while the repairs continue.”

Healing Flame

From https://alexhousemn.wordpress.com/2014/02/13/letting-your-light-shine-teens-healing-from-abuse/ via Undeniably Sara.

Timelines II

January 20, 2018

Before I go on to the Saturn-Klotho Initiation and the Haumea Station charts, let me annotate the previous post a bit more; I had to hurry it out the door because of engagements otherwise…

As Dan & Friends, and others including us, have frequently pointed out that we Feel our way into New Timelines…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/01/17/having-it-all/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/10/09/piafa-ii/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/01/02/world-peace-timeline-ii/

The Saturn-Klotho 4-Capricorn Initiation (“Capricorn 4 is ‘A group of people prepare a large canoe for a journey by water’ – starting another Timeline, an Emotional one,” 5pm PST 21 January), points us in that direction…

The chart isn’t as messy as it looks.  Put your thumb over OR10-Nessus-Nemesis at the upper right, and what we have left is a Diamond Star Enhanced by a Grand Trine…

That’s a pretty Exalted chart!  It’s all about Boundaries (Pallas).  The would-be Challenge (the T-Square) is about whether your Boundaries Enhance your Life Force or Drain it (Varuna-Aletheia), and whether your Values Serve your Self-Love or Diminish it (Venus-Sappho).  Which are pretty Fundamental, and Serious, Challenges. 

But it’s a Diamond Star – the “Bowl of Grace” under the T-Square includes What We’re Manifesting (Makemake), and Which Among Our Beliefs are Archaic (Vesta-Karma).  These are “free clues” that, if we’re Open to the Information they provide, will Facilitate our Letting Go of Values that Diminish our Self-Love and Boundaries that Drain our Life Force. 

By PIAVAing Clarity about the Disconnect between What We Want and What Actually Is (Makemake), we can see where we need to go next with our Tapping and Poor-Sweethearting.  And by PIAVAing Loving Awareness of our Archetypes, we can see where we need to Learn new Responses to the World (Vesta-Karma).

Then we have that fat Earth Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Grace) in the center, promising Great Blessings between our Boundaries (Pallas), our Truth (Veritas), and our New Timeline (Saturn-Klotho-Quaoar).

But where are the promised Emotions?  None of these twelve planets are in Water Signs.  They’re under your thumb – OR10-Nessus-Nemesis in Pisces.  OR10 signifies Intrusive Memories, Nessus represents Abuse, Nemesis symbolizes Ego Death, and Pisces is about Finishing Business with Emotional Baggage.  Yes, that’s all very Threatening, but it’s a zit on the side of a well-organized chart full of incredible Grace. 

So yes, by all means Feel and Embrace any Fear that the Threat of Revisiting your PTSD evokes.  That step is critical, as without it you may have to Re-Experience the Trauma rather than Revisit it.  What to do with Fear?  Certainly Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4), Breathe (Fear + Breathing = Excitement), and do your Kegels (which in combination with Fear cause Time to slow down so it’s more manageable). 

You may want to enlist an Ally to help keep part of you in the Present Moment.  We Heal first by first Holding our Traumatic Regression and our Present-Moment Safety in our Awareness at the same time – which is why we’ve been practicing Cognitive Dissonance (Holding Contradictory Beliefs without Competition between them) all these years.  And second, by enlisting our Present-Moment Self to Poor-Sweetheart our Regressed Self as a start toward Loving Her Unconditionally and Lovingly Reparenting Her.  Or Him.

We’re describing this as if it’s an easy mechanical process when in fact it’s an Overwhelmingly Emotional process.  But maybe not as Overwhelming as we Fear.  Karma is Dead.  We know that Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp our Karma, only because it’s a Habit we have.  Our Present-Moment Self and/or our Ally need to Give us Permission to Let Go of the Habit.  Yes, we drop into the Void when we drop that Habit, but Emptiness is the Womb that precedes Rebirth – another important reminder for our Guides to Give us.

And the chart is full of Grace.  Healing our Emotional Baggage is only the Rider; the Enhanced Diamond Star is the Horse.  The Horse can carry you much farther, and with much greater Ease, than you can travel on your own.  And the Timing is Gloriously Right.  Grand Septiles are rare, and if we can use this one to Let Go of Emotional Baggage that stands between us and our Liberation, it’s a phenomenal Blessing.  You know from Experience how Effortless something is when the Time Is Right, and how Impossible the same task can be when the Time Isn’t Right.

One more boon.  Nessus-Nemesis (Letting Go of Trauma) is part of a second T-Square, with Vesta-Karma (Archaic Self-Sabotage) and Veritas (Present-Moment Truth).  This T-Square is Trine-Bridged by Pallas/Boundaries – the primary Benefactor of the original Enhanced Diamond Star…

So, what would happen if there was an additional planet Opposing Saturn-Klotho, at 4 Cancer?  We’d have another Diamond Star, which would greatly Ease the whole Letting-Go-of-Emotional-Baggage process.  A Vacancy in an almost-Major-Configuration becomes the Power Point of the chart, because if we can Consciously provide that Energy, we Complete the Configuration and Balance the Energy – the astrological equivalent of Tapping. 

Cancer 4 is “A cat arguing with a mouse.”  That’s our Doubt, Anxiety, and Lack of Trust.  Arguments are Either/Or contests, Energy-wasting Diversions.  So we need to be Hypervigilant for these Mental Noises, Poor-Sweetheart them, Tap Out the Anxiety, thank them for attempting to contribute, Chuckle at them Tenderly, and send them away with instructions to return when they’ve Negotiated Win-Win.  They’re likely to come back with the password to Smaug’s hoard.

Abundance New Moon

January 17, 2018

The 16 January New Moon itself is more prosaic.  The Moon is the Focus of a Challenge to Mastery (T-Square), implying that we’ll be Challenged over the next few weeks.  In what way?  Well, we know our Values will be Confronted (Venus on the New Moon), and we usually have a lot of Identity Attached to our Values, so that’s a Threat.  We also know we’re up for Rebirth (Haumea on one side of the base of the T-Square).  That should be a Joyous occasion.  Oh.  Well, yeah, I guess we might hesitate to give up some of what we’re being Rebirthed from.  Hmm.  Like what? 

Well, there’s a part of our Life that we just sort of Accept as “The Way It Is” because we’ve just never seen how it might be otherwise (Moira-as-Fate et al on the other end of the base).  We’ve even set up probably-by-now-Unconscious Boundaries against the Disappointment we’ve become Resigned to (Pallas/Boundaries too).  Um, it looks like those Boundaries are Breaking Down (Eris-Uranus/Revelation of the Soul Self as well).  We know it’s Time for something Big (previous post), and the Arcturians have advised (in the post before that) – “don’t wait” for it…

Feel the vibration of that which you want to be living, and then open your heart to access the stream of Source Energy that comes to you from your heart center.  Use that energy to create the experience you want to be feeling.  Let yourself have the experience now.  Don’t wait.  Don’t even wait for what you have created to come to you before you start living it, experientially.”

Kinda Scary.  What have you been thinking, “Wouldn’t it be nice to…”?  So, what stops you?  Oh, that.  Something about Survival?  Like, say, Doubt?  Lack of Trust?  Doesn’t feel like we’re making that up, but I guess we are.  Usually-Reliable Sources tell me that “there is no Universal Law of Scarcity” – there’s only misinterpreted Fear (that makes sense – Sedna makes a Quincunx Bridge to the T-Square). 

“To think prosperously in spite of appearances to the contrary is worth every effort, because it produces rich results…  Another way to invoke the law of increase, and thus to avoid the pettiness and destructiveness of the law of decrease, is by training your mind never to be disappointed.  If certain things do not come at certain times in the way you wished, do not consider it a failure. 

“Since you have not received that thing, you can instead stand firm in the faith that something much better is on the way and will appear at the right time.  When you seem to fail, remind yourself that you have not asked big enough.  Expand your viewpoint and expectation, and a larger answer than you originally anticipated will surely come.  Failure is nothing but success trying to be born in a bigger way.” 

— Catherine Ponder, The Dynamic Laws of Prosperity, pp.126-7.

Guess we better Locate this Fear stuff and Tap it Out.Besides having our Values Challenged, it looks like the Fear and the Rebirth should be where we put our Attention (the green-wedge Fingers of God).  Any other Friends in the chart?  Hmmm, looks like our Forbidden Genius may bail us out, if we’re Responsive to it (the Ixion-Pholus Trine Bridge), and our Survival Instincts should help Guide us (Quaoar Conjoining as well), though that could be a little tricky.  Remember those Boundaries against Disappointment?  They’ve been disguised as Survival Instincts all these years.  We’ll have to finesse that.

Oh my, there must be some Trauma holding up those Boundaries against What We’ve Always Wanted but Wasn’t Possible (Chiron Quincunx-Bridging the T-Square).  What if we could Choose to Neutralize the Trauma (Lachesis Conjoining, in its Guise of making the Choice to End a Timeline early – the only requirement is knowing that Fate and Karma are Paper Tigers)?  Starting by Poor-Sweethearting it maybe (it is Chiron, Master of Making Miracles out of Despair)?

Okay, forewarned is forearmed.  If we can Avoid Regressing and forgetting everything we’ve Learned in the past half-century when that Trauma revisits, we have a tentative Strategy.  I still Believe that All Prayers Are Answered sooner or later, so I think I’ll PIAVA now that I Remember.

Hmmm.  We might have a clue about when and how this Trauma (in the singular, we hope, though Traumas are known to breed) crawls out of the Mud.  Remember asteroid Nemesis, the one that we associate with Ego Death because the Goddess Nemesis was in charge of remediating Guilt?  It entered Pisces (Emotional Detox) on 15 January (4:30 am PST), and during the course of this Moon Cycle will dance with OR10 (Intrustive Memories) on 22 January (12am PST) and with Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) on 27 January (5pm PST).  That’s as good an excuse for revisiting Trauma as I can imagine.

OR10 Initiates Nemesis in 4 Pisces, “Heavy car traffic on a narrow isthmus linking two seashore resorts.”  Rudhyar’s take is “The mobility and intensity of interchanges which make possible and characterize complex social processes.”  Translate that from Sociologuese to English (“it’s a Jungle out there”) and we can end up revisiting any number of possible Trauma situations in our Personal Histories and Herstories, including episodes of Abuse.  If you have Heavy Dreams or Hallucinations around 22 January, tough it out; it’s just your Inner Child calling for you.

Nessus Initiates Nemesis in 6 Pisces, “A parade of army officers in full dress.”  I consulted for a federal agency in DC for a while back in the ’80s, and many of the denizens were ex-military.  The ex-Army people wouldn’t do anything without being told to.  The ex-Navy people were obviously trained to think for themselves, and did so.  Full dress implies Full Compliance with orders.  This conjures up the classical protocols that #MeToo is combatting.  Expect ongoing big #MeToo news toward the end of the month, and your own Abuse memories to surface.

Abuse is often associated with Sex and Violence, but it’s far more pervasive than that.  For instance, one nasty sort of Abuse is when the significant adults in your childhood never Inquire about who you are, they’re totally absorbed in Programming you to look like their portrait of what kids are supposed to look and sound and act like.  Growing Up without an accurate or caring Mirror leaves long-lasting scars in our Ego structure.  The Suffocation you may have received from overbearing adults, and the Abandonment you felt from uncaring adults, are both serious Abuse scars, whether you would use that word for them or not.

New Province VI-2b

January 7, 2018

Here’s an “I second the Yintegrity motion” from the Arcturians, channeled by Cherie Frances this time…

 https://roserambles.org/2018/01/04/the-arcturians-mother-earth-will-take-her-seat-amongst-the-galaxies-of-the-universe-jan-4-2018/

“Let us speak a little of what it takes to release the tension of the new beginnings upon your Earth realm.  Feel yourselves grow, change envelop the new tidings of love and joy – and heartfelt displeasure at what it was that took you so far to get here to this stage of love, joy and unity.  Feel yourselves expanding, growing and maturing evermore into the unfolding and refolding and back and forth, like the tides, into the ever more complex multidimensionality of your Selves and cells. 

“We are here to bring you the upmost of important of messages.  It is: Be who you are.  Not what others believe or expect of you.  You are who you are for a reason.  For the Earth realm.  Not for the Higher realms or any other realm.  You are on planet Earth, in and on the heart of Gaia for a reason.  Embrace it, acknowledge it, share it among yourselves. 

“There is so much escaping and expectation, and mourning and loss and it saddens us kinfolk among you to see you are not living up to your expectations of what it actually means to be on the Earth realm.  Changing, obscuring, desensitising and obfuscating the Truth for realities of unknown measure.  We understand it is difficult to live the realities of who you are, why so many cling to un-realities, driven by ego and greed… yet find within yourselves the measure of the ‘small’ person you are, the smallest most secret and hidden part of yourselves that have been closed up and hidden for fear of being trampled on and exposed. 

“Bring them out in full force.  Expose them for the greatness and beauty of all their honour.  This is the smallest most vulnerable, most magnificent part of your Selves that must expand in consciousness.  Stretch out and reach for the stars, planets and galaxies that long to realise the strength of your muster.  Earth will take its seat amongst the galaxies of the universe as one of its allies of strength and unity in the Federation of Light.”

Of course one of the first Yes-Butts about Yintegrity is, How do we Survive doing Yintegrity when the rest of the World is doing YangtegrityThe Yes-And is that we minimize our Commitments, Renegotiate often, and, when we don’t have an opportunity to Renegotiate and the Relationship is valuable, Make Amends.

A more consequential Yes-But is What if I have parts of myself that for very good reasons I don’t like?  And worse, parts of myself that I know very well others don’t like, because they’ve told me so, loud and clear?  Sure, we can “Prescribe” more Self-Love and more Self-Sovereignty, but really, how do you Respond to that? – “Easy for you to say?”  I mean, we’ve been working with that Energy all our Life, and have we found Resolution yet?

Now that our Forbidden Genii are pushing to the fore, we’ve got some real homework to do.

These Energies have three feet in the Unconscious – if they were Conscious we’d have Dismissed them long ago – and we don’t Change the Unconscious with Prescription.  We’ve spoken often about how to use the combination of PIAVAing, Poor-Sweethearting, and Tapping, iteratively to Liberate ourselves from Archetypes.  But what if, Nevertheless, They Persist?  And what if we don’t yet have enough Clear Consciousness about them to know how to proceed?

Let’s take an example.  This is the approximate birth chart of one of the long-time Perps of Abuse of Power, currently a “Victim” (not that they haven’t worked hard to earn this dubious distinction) of #MeToo…

We find a serious Challenge (T-Square) to Self-Love (Sappho) and to Ending their Resistance (Atropos) to same (the Houses aren’t accurate).  If you knew who this is, you’d see instantly how they’ve made a fortune by Acting Out that Challenge.  Though this may or may not have been a Conscious choice on their part, it’s an example of how Recovering our Forbidden Genius can pave our Yellow Brick Road.  That’s one way to put our Forbidden Genius to work – Act it Out in a way that seems like you’re making a parody of It. 

A parody of It in others of course – few of us have a Forbidden Genius that’s so unique that others won’t understand our Pain, and appreciate the opportunity to make Light of it.  That’s likely to feel very Vulnerable – of course your audience will think you’re talking about yourself, which will likely Retrigger the Shame that drove your Genius underground in the first place.  Our “Native” (that’s what astrologers call the person whose chart they’re reading – the one with the “Nativity”) may have been able to pull this off because of Intuitive Memories of Trust (Asbolus Opposite Mnemosyne-Aletheia in the base of the Sappho-Asbolus T-Square).

So we have a Perp who’s been Abusing Power.  So where is their Nessus, the dwarf planet that we associate with Abuse and Privilege?  Okay, it’s seriously Challenged by (T-Square to) Compulsion (Pluto) and Action (Mars).  Anybody with a Nessus-Mars-Pluto T-Square has dialed up a very serious Karmic Lifetime.  Most folks with this Configuration, if they haven’t gotten very Conscious and very Practiced with this Energy, are probably in prison.  If this is your Forbidden Genius, prison counselors aren’t very well paid, but there’s a huge and lucrative market for Hollywood crime scriptwriters.  

Ah, the T-Square is Completed, by Venus, making a Grand Cross.  A Grand Cross is more Balanced than a T-Square alone (even though a Grand Cross is composed of four T-Squares), probably making our Native less Out of Control.  And Venus would soften the whole Energy – though worse case it could make for an Unconscious person who Values (Venus) Active Compulsive Abuse of Power.  So far we have a person who might do well as a Detective, since they’d know quite well what Motivates many scofflaws.

And, our Perp’s Nessus is at the focus of a Pay-Attention (Finger of God – the green wedge).  That will raise the probability that our Native gets Conscious of their Compulsions.  And if they don’t get Conscious, it’ll raise the probability that Trouble will find them, and it’ll Escalate its prodding until they do figure it out.

Ah again – look at all those blue lines!  Those represent Blessings.  The big blue triangle is a Grand Trine, symbolizing Dumb-Luck Grace, the kind of Luck that can make us Arrogant till we figure out that everyone has a Unique Skill.  It’s in the Earth Signs, so our Native will be very Grounded, and that includes Mars, so they’re likely to be less reckless in their Actions than they otherwise might be. 

And there’s more – the shorter blue lines trace out five sides of a hexagram or Grand Sextile.  A Grand Sextile makes the results of their Actions likely to be successful, but theirs is one corner (labeled with a “V” in a circle, for “Vacancy”) short of Complete, so they’ll need to contribute that Energy Consciously to make their Endeavors work out.  That corner is occupied by a Star, however – Markeb, signifying Steadiness in the course of Movement – and Good Fortune followed by Disgrace.  But, as it’s in a Grand Sextile, the Disgrace may not be as complete as it has been with some #MeToo Perps.

I made a quick check on five other #MeToo Perps relative to their natal Nessus, and found…

Nessus-Lilith Square Mars-Pluto Square Jupiter Square Chiron
Nessus Square Pluto
Pluto T-Square on Nessus Opposite Mars
Nessus-Jupiter Square Pluto
Nessus Opposite Jupiter

So, what’s our point?  When our Development of a particular Skill is Frozen st some age, our Psychological Age with that Skill remains the same as it was at the time the Skill was Frozen.  In addition, when the Issue arises, we Regress to that Age, and lose track of ALL of the Skills we’ve Learned since.  In a Culture that’s very screwed up about Power and Sex, when either or both are Strong in a chart they’re likely to be driven underground, producing many adults whose relationship to Power and Sex remains Infantile or Adolescent, and who lose most of their Adult Skills when Issues of Power or Sex arise.

Power and Sex are additionally complicated in some cases by Genetic and Socially Conditioned Patterns that differ from the Cultural Norms.  There may be Unconscious Archetypes or Conscious Strategies operating that are perfectly Healthy in some Cultures, just not in the Culture that the person happens to be operating in. 

For instance, in some Cultures and Species it’s appropriate for Survival that the alpha males do most of the mating – and in practice that’s often what happens in Human society.  The rest of the males shift to the Yin Masculine as Genia Haddon calls it, as the equivalent of “Worker Bees.”  When an alpha male is a Bully, or when a beta or omega male has a high Sex drive and low Consciousness, problems arise.  The #MeToo Perps fall mostly in the latter category.

What’s True about Power and Sex will also be True about any other aspect of our Forbidden Genius, whatever Skill that involves.

So, what do we do about this?  Well, of course the first thing we need to do is get Conscious of what’s Frozen.  Since we Regress when it comes up, we’re very likely to be Frightened by it; it’s as Overwhelming now as it was then, because we are then.  It’s also almost always Karmic, so we’re also Regressed to “Previous” Lives where the Issue was unresolved, so it’s probably Traumatic, and may well have led to our Death in those Lifetimes.  So there are Strong barriers to a straightforward Recovery. 

We need to start with any kernel we can get hold of – which is probably easy, since it’s likely to be something about what we’ve always Craved but have never given ourselves Permission to Receive.  Which may look like something we’ve been trying hard to Achieve all our Life but never successfully.  Nevertheless, we Persisted.  We never had a choice.

Bessel van der Kolk’s Experience and Research (The Body Keeps the Score) shows that one of the most reliable ways to overcome PTSD is Theater.  We don’t need to move to Hollywood or get involved with our local theater group; all we need is a Trusted Collaborator or two.  We let our Creativity loose and Dance around the kernel we have.  This may or may not shake loose the Held Emotions so we can endeavor to Heal them, but it will give us practice.  Our primary need is to advance the age of our Frozen Skillset, and we do that the same way we would have done it at the age of its Freezing – we practice.

Once we are able to put and keep our Current-Moment Adult and our Regressed Child in the same room at the same time, the many additional Skillsets that our Adult can contribute will be a tremendous aid to advancing our Frozen Skillset beyond the age of the Regressed Child.

Bounds and Boundaries

November 8, 2017

We’ve been adding things to the Calendar (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/1-calendar/), and for early November we’ve added…

  • Pallas Out of Bounds from 26 October till 24 January 2018.
  • Mercury goes Out of Bounds on 9 November until 7 December.

Like Sign Changes and Initiations, when a planet goes Out of Bounds it’s like a change of bathwater, as the Planet’s Energy and its Impact on the microcosm of our Lives become Stronger till it returns to the flock. 

Because the Earth’s Axis of Rotation isn’t perpendicular to its Orbit around the Sun, we get Seasons – for part of the year our half of the Pomegranate is tilted toward the Sun (“Summer” we call it), and for part of the year our half leans away from the Sun.  From our Perspective on the Planet, it looks like the Sun travels North from 21 December till 21 June, then turns and heads South again till the next 21 December.   These extremes, traced on the Planet, are called the Tropic of Cancer and the Tropic of Capricorn, and they’re at 23:27 Degrees North and South of the Equator.

While the Sun will never, in the current paradigm, be directly overhead anywhere on the Globe North or South of these Limits, many of the other Heavenly Bodies aren’t so timid.  When one of them does go further North or South, we say that it’s “Out of Bounds,” and its Influence Waxes.

When Pallas is Out of Bounds, our Boundaries become more important.  Ideally, we’d set our Boundaries Intuitively based on the Current Situation in each Present Moment.  But we all have Boundaries that are too Tight, when we “profile” someone or something because of their race or headgear or language or gender or fellow travelers, for instance.  We miss out on all they have to Share with us, and if we profile them out of our Lives routinely there’s an excellent chance that they have a whole lot to teach us. 

And we all have Boundaries that are too Loose, when we Give Away our Power or stumble into situations where we get ripped off or Abused.  Too-Tight or Too-Loose Boundaries are often Archetypal, with Karmic and Ancestral implications.  For instance, there’s a good chance that some of our Boundaries are determined by what was Safe or not many generations back in our family history or herstory.  These kinds of Boundaries often have correlates in our Energy System.

For instance, when someone is chronically Abused as a Child, there’s usually a systematic effort to Program the Child to be Unconsciously Vulnerable.  This often looks to a Psychic like a Hole in the person’s Aura, as if their puppet strings are hanging out of the Hole, waiting for someone to trigger the Programming and pull the strings.  Because it’s Unconscious it can be a harder “Addiction” to Transcend than a serious substance Addiction.  If you ever try to teach someone how to use Mirrors to keep themselves Safe, and don’t understand why they have such Resistance to learning to use them, you’ve encountered that Unconscious Programming.

Bottom Line, over the next eleven weeks, till Pallas returns In Bounds on 24 January, we need to be Alert for any sign that our own Unconscious Programming around Safety and Vulnerability has been Triggered.  Every recurrence is a golden Opportunity for us to bring the Programming up into Consciousness where we can Transcend the Archetype and Liberate ourself from its chains.  The flight to 5D doesn’t allow carry-on Archetypes.

Pallas will also be Stationary in mid-December, which means that the second week of December will be particularly Open Season for us to Witness and Discern our Psychic Vulnerabilities.  One Key is to Congratulate yourself for Noticing them, and Resist the temptation to Criticize ourself for Acting them Out again.  That Self-Criticism is part and parcel of our Childhood Manipulation Programming.  We’re supposed to Feel Bad about ourself – that’s what makes us Vulnerable to repeated Abuse.  As you Resist it, Congratulate yourself for Noticing the Self-Criticism as well!

The Stations of OR10 and Nessus (Memories of Abuse) are also only a little over a week away.  Those are likely to Trigger more Opportunities too.  Apart from all of the Hollywood stories, here’s another good example.  Female Public Defenders in one big city in the US report that they are often confronted by male inmates exposing themselves and masturbating during counseling sessions, and city administrators have not been willing or able to Stop the Abuse. 

For instance, the city took to buying pizza for Abusers who abstained for 30 days, which caused non-Abusers to become Abusers so they could get pizza too.  The Public Defenders have recently sued the city to Act effectively to Stop the Abuse.  That’s Pallas Out of Bounds in Action.  Hopefully your own Abuse stories are more about too many sugary snacks or sitting too much.  Either of those can actually put us on track for a long and unpleasant Death, and may not be any easier to Stop, but at least we’re likely to Enjoy them more.

And as if our Monkey Minds aren’t noisy enough, Mercury’s Out-of-Bounds Adventure for the next month is likely to give us Grief as well, and Mercury also turns Retrograde for the first three weeks of December.  I’m painting these as Negative so that we can be Aware of the Self-Sabotaging Habit Patterns they can bring to our Attention.  We could also paint them as Glorious Opportunities to squelch Archetypes that Limit us, which is also what they are.  There’s no reason to approach them with trepidation; Excitement over the Possibilities for Liberation is actually more appropriate.

An excellent example of “Profiling” is our Hope to be Saved, our Terror of, or our Disbelief in, Off-Planet Entities.  I have news – you’re already surrounded by them.  Here’s Daniel Scranton’s input for today…

http://danielscranton.com/andromedan-upgrades-downloads-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We’ve brought forth a tremendous amount of energy, and you have all demonstrated an ability to absorb and assimilate that energy.  Now you have a new opportunity to receive from some of our galactic partners.

“There are beings from the Andromedan Star System who want to help, and their energy is quite different.  It is quite dissimilar to our energy and to your own, and so as you receive it you may feel that you are not in alignment.  You may feel, for a time, as though you are experiencing more ascension symptoms, tiredness, and disorientation.

“The good news is that with your Andromedan upgrades and downloads, you will be able to access parts of yourself that you didn’t even know existed.  You will have new perspectives and a myriad of guidance coming from within you…  You can pat yourselves on the back, and you can give yourselves plenty of rest and relaxation in order to keep up with these Andromedan energies.

“There is something quite jarring about receiving so much, but the growing pains are symptoms that you are releasing that which no longer serves you in the process.  You are capable of opening yourselves up and receiving so much energy and information, and you are still just dipping your toes into the waters.”

Remember we encountered the Andromedans a month ago, when through Natalie Glasson they invited us to Request to insert Orbs into our Chakras…

https://www.omna.org/accelerating-mastery-andromedans/

“With a request, we, the Andromedans, will place an orb of our light of a purple, violet and turquoise colour into one of your chakras.  As you receive and accept the orb of light so it will expand merging with your entire being.  Within the Andromedan orb of light will be the energies, wisdom and guidance as guided by your soul to support you in contemplating, understanding and embodying the next stage of your spiritual mastery. 

“The Andromedans will support you in accessing the necessary wisdom, integrating the new perspective and moving forth to the next stage of your ascension process.  This is a wonderful practice to achieve whenever you feel confused, that you are unable to accelerate your ascension or access new awareness.  The Andromedans will make you aware of the energies and wisdom there is a need for you to focus upon to further aid your mastery.”

Remember the Resistance we had to “Implants” when we encountered Channelings from Off-Planet early on?  Were those appropriate Boundaries?  I’ve Requested four of these Orbs with good result, and I’ve just Requested a fifth, for my Throat Chakra. 

Another place where Loosening your Boundaries, if they aren’t already, is valuable, is with Fairy Consciousness…

https://www.omna.org/fairy-consciousness-list-of-channeled-messages/

These Wonderful Beings are incredible helpmates for any number of tasks that you wouldn’t imagine, and they seem Delighted to help.  For instance, only they have been able to warm my chronically-cold toes when I ask them to, greatly improving my Sleep!  Here’s a sample of their Wisdom, also Channeled by Natalie…

https://www.omna.org/embedding-consciousness-fairy-kingdom/

“We wish to alert you to your natural ability and instinct of seeding the consciousness of the Creator into wherever you place your focus.  You are able to deliver, anchor and share the consciousness, light, love and vibration of the Creator with any being whether they are open or closed to your beliefs.  This is a very powerful statement but it is true, it gives to you power, a loving power to instigate positive and loving shifts upon the Earth. 

“It is not that a person or soul needs to shift their awareness to hold a like mind to you but more so that you have the ability of sharing the Creator with others in order to instigate a new awakening of wisdom and sacred awareness within their minds and being.  Even as fairies working with the Earth and humanity we encounter what you may liken to stubborn or stagnate energies within the Earth and humanity, we give much attention to these areas swelling our light to embed it deeply in the hope of a reaction of light and love awareness.

“This is not always possible as some energy will only shift with divine timing or readiness, but we wish for you to know that as and with your light you have the ability to instigate shifts through embedding seeds of light.  This is not to manipulate or over power energies, people or situations but to know that through your generosity you can set the stage for the beauty of the Creator to manifest and form once more.”

November

November 6, 2017

We’ve entered a new Time Province.  From the Calendar (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/1-calendar/)…

November 2017

Pluto Initiating Juno in 18 Capricorn on 11 November (6pm PST).

Jupiter Initiates Venus on 13 November (12am PST).

Vesta enters Scorpio on 15 November (8pm PST).

Nessus turning Direct in 6 Pisces on 16 November (8pm PST).

Sappho enters Capricorn on 17 November (12am PST).

New Moon in 27 Scorpio on 18 November (4am PST).

OR10 turning Direct in 3 Pisces on 20 November (4am PST).

Neptune turning Direct on 22 November (6:30 am PST).

Atropos enters Libra on 25 November (5am PST).

Saturn Initiates Mercury on 27 November (11pm PST).

Aletheia turning Retrograde in 9 Leo on 28 November (11pm PST).

Hopi Initiates Karma in 13 Scorpio on 29 November (6pm PST); 16-year Cycle.

I’ve indented the Initiations and Sign Changes, and left the Stations as the major entries.  The Stations are things we usually Feel quite strongly.  The Initiations and Sign Changes are “just” changes in the bathwater.  Everything is now different, but the Transitions are usually a bit less obvious. 

For instance, the 16 November Nessus Station, which depending on our Sensitivity we could begin Feeling as early as 9 November or earlier, is likely to Trigger Memories of Abuse, and likely to fill the News with even more stories of Abuse.  It’s Important when we’re flooded with Energies like these, that we try to maintain our Neutrality. 

The Suffering Springs Texas shooter was 26, which would put his natal Nessus approximately Trioctile (135 Degrees) to Biquintile (144 Degrees) from the upcoming Nessus Station.  If we’re Awake, a Trioctile represents Insight and a Biquintile Learning.  If we aren’t Awake, a Trioctile can take the flavor of a Challenge (as a “Sesqui-Square”), which could easily contribute to a person’s PTSD flipping into Paranoia.  And a Biquintile could appear as the Unknown, which in the context of Paranoia can be Maddening.

When Memories of Abuse are Triggered, The Most Important Thing is Remembering that “that was then, this is now,” that the Abuse isn’t actually going on in the Present Moment.  Well, we hope it isn’t; sometimes Re-enactment is the only way the Unconscious can get through to us that we need to Let Go of a Demon.  Usually it’s “just” the Emotions that are being Relived, not the Abuse itself – they just Feel like the same thing.  So our Gratitude that we aren’t having to Re-enact the Abuse itself is a good place to start finding Neutrality.

If the Feelings are Intense, we can of course Tap them Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4), and Poor-Sweethearting ourself (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/05/11/poor-sweethearting/) is always useful.  Without Neutrality, we’re Vulnerable to making Decisions or Vows to Protect ourself (“I’ll never do that again!”) that will turn into Limiting Beliefs and delay our Liberation. 

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Pluto Initiating Juno in 18 Capricorn (“The Union Jack flies from a British Warship“) on 11 November (6pm PST) begins a four year two month Cycle.  It’ll be interesting to see how this impacts the Brexit negotiations.  The Juno-Pluto Cycle is about Energy from the Underwhere forcing its way into Consciousness, and this Union-Jack Cycle will be about Power-Over Energy emerging into the Light.  We’ve already seen this going on around Sexual/Political Intimidation, and to a lesser extent on Racism and Politics per se

Be mindful that the Energy of a Cycle is Strong near its Initiation, but then it goes underground until the Hundredth Monkey “gets” it, around the Waxing Square, which will occur in early June 2018.  If it feels like the movement toward Self-Sovereignty and Power-With is stalling, keep Meditating and PIAVAing on it, and keep talking to your neighbors and acquaintances about it.

Energies shift when it’s no longer taboo to talk about the Elephant.  Having the Courage to disregard the taboo is your greatest Leverage – keep advocating out loud against Sexism, Racism, and Bully Politics.  You don’t need to get into arguments, as that will only harden Resistance.  Talk as if eliminating Sexism, Racism, and Bully Politics is just common sense that any reasonable person would take for granted.  If someone else wants to argue, just Listen with Neutrality and say something non-committal but thought-provoking like “It’s interesting that you feel that way.  I gotta run – have a good day!”

Here are a couple of very relevant and highly recommended Channelings on the subject…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2017/11/06/dreaming-or-your-reality/

http://danielscranton.com/the-effectiveness-of-action-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

And a powerful comment by Michael Roads from his “365 Steps”…

http://int.michaelroads.org/

Abundance is not found by focusing on what you want;
abundance is found by appreciating what you already have.
 

“Many people are almost totally preoccupied with thinking about the thousands of dollars that they would like to have.  To this end these people enter lotteries to win money, a house, a boat, car, motor-home, anything!  Even if you win, abundance does not manifest itself this way.  At best it is short term gain.  Real abundance is a state of consciousness.  You find this inner state by appreciating fully the ‘hundreds’ of dollars that you now have.  When this ‘feeling’ of appreciation is deeply established, then you will find that ‘thousands’ of dollars are being attracted into your life.  Too simple?  Try it!  Where you focus, energy flows.  It is the same as the Love principle; to constantly and consciously . . . choose Love!”

To Thine Own Self

July 18, 2017

Okay, we’ve Survived (right?) the Option to Change Ancient Patterns (Lachesis Station), now on to I Gotta Be Me (Eris Station).  Yes, we’re chomping at the bit to tell those folks what they’re doing wrong, but they don’t actually have anything to do with it; we’re just Projecting.  What is it We Want for Ourself?  Are they really stopping us, or are we stopping ourself? 

With Win-Win and Both/And you can do almost anything.  You can even Abuse Other, though you’ll Regret it, as you’ll be the Abused soon enough.  That’s not Retribution, it’s the simple fact that Abuser and Abused, Power-Over and Victim, are just different sides of the same Coin.  Flip it in the air, and it could come down on either side.  There are better Coins to play with.

Of course if you’re already Dancing with the Abuse Coin, it’s sticky, and prying it out of your hand isn’t easy.  But even though the Lachesis Station is past Exactitude, Lachesis is still moving very slowly, so there’s still plenty of Opportunities for PIAVAing to Change your Patterns.  The “I” in PIAVA, for instance, is very Powerful.  Just don’t waste your Energy and Abuse your own Karma trying to Change Someone Else’s Patterns, ok?

The truth of your power is that it has always existed within you and that you have always had access to it.  However, you have been taught that your power comes from your mind, your actions, the amount of money you have in your bank account, the number of people that you have working for you, and many other false idols.

“The power that you seek in those objects, people, and circumstances, is fleeting at best.  External power will always leave you wanting more, and it can leave you completely, and then what will you do?  Hopefully, eventually, you will all come to the realization that your power is your ability to access a vibration.

“Everything that you want to experience, you want because of the vibration you associate that experience with, but you don’t have to wait for anything, or anyone, or any circumstance, in order to feel those vibrations rippling through you.  Those vibrations that you seek are a part of the totality of who you are.  You are Source Energy Beings, and Source Energy is all vibration.

“You, as a conscious being, get to choose which of those vibrations you activate, thereby empowering yourselves to experience whatever you want to experience right here and right now.  No waiting for an outside manifestation to occur is necessary. Get your confirmation from how you feel.”

–Daniel Scranton & The Arcturians, http://danielscranton.com/the-power-of-vibration-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

Abuse

April 20, 2017

Abuse and Trauma can take a lot of different forms.  Watch closely on 21-22 April for any signs or Memories of Abuse, as we will have a prime Opportunity to Let Go of Abuse.  Before we suggest how to take advantage of this Opportunity, let’s suggest what to look for.

As we say, Abuse can take many forms.  Uninvited Sexual Attention, Violence, and Bullying are the most obvious, but lack of Respect, lack of Recognition, and Power-Over in general are all Abusive.  Teasing is Abusive.  “Mild” abuse, to the extent that there is such a thing, when Chronic or Repeated, can be just as Damaging as major Trauma.  Notice that Chronic and Repeated lack of Respect, lack of Recognition, and Power-Over are central to the Patriarchy.

Without “Blaming the Victim,” when we as Receivers of Abuse, refuse to Accept it any longer, the Abuse Paradigm will collapse.  We may not be able to do that all at once, since most of us “Survive” on Money, and most of the Money is controlled by the Patriarchy.  But most of us can make small steps in the direction of Refusing to Accept Abuse while maintaining our Safety.  By PIAVAing Creativity, we may also be able to take incrementally larger steps over time.

Sooner or later the other 99 Monkeys will join us, and Abuse will fall away completely.  In the interim, we want to Become Aware Of, and PIAVA to Modify, any of our Patterns of Consciously or Unconsciously Accepting Abuse.  Moving beyond our Safety can lead to Losing Ground, so it’s important that we PIAVA and Choose Pattern Modifications that Preserve our essential Safety.

At the same time, strive to Become Aware of, and PIAVA to Modify, any of our own Patterns of Consciously or Unconsciously Perpetrating Abuse.  That can even include Judgment.  Even if they aren’t Sensitive enough to detect it, your Judgment will be an Abusive blow to the Energy System of those you Judge, even as it warps your own Aura

Don’t miss the fact that Self-Judgment is Abuse, potentially the worst kind of Abuse, because it prevents Self-Love, and Self-Love is a critical step toward Liberation.

Remember that Karma is Dead.  The next small step that we take toward Self-Sovereignty and Self-Love and Power-With could be the last step standing between us and Freedom.  Make room for that Possibility in your PIAVAs, and preface them with “Poor Sweethearts” for your Fear.  Use the Instant-Feedback property of Theta Healing to scope out your Actions in advance so you can Choose Effective and Safe Actions.

That’s a pretty high-level summary of the Issues; feel free to Ask Questions via Comments; I’ll keep them all Confidential.

So, why are we suggesting all this?  

Centaur Nessus symbolizes Abuse and Privilege. Abuse and Privilege are opposite sides of the same Coin.  The dwarf planet 2007 OR10 represents irruptions of material from the Unconscious.  Both of these are Conjunct the South Node, which represents the Unconscious Habits we brought into the current Lifetime with us.  This has been true for a while now.

This weekend, the Moon crosses this trio, Lighting them Up.  The influence is likely to be most Intense between about 10am PDT on 21 April and 4am or so PDT on 22 April, but any of us could feel it more broadly than that.

Asteroid Lachesis, symbolizing the Length of  a Timeline or interval between Ego Deaths (which can be so severe we’d “rather die” or so mild we hardly notice them), is nearby.  The presence of Lachesis implies that we may be able to shorten the chord between us and a Habit of Accepting or Perpetrating Abuse.

Meanwhile, the North Node that represents our Mission or Destination in the Lifetime is Conjoined by asteroid Karma itself, and by dwarf planet Orcus, which symbolizes Oath-Breaking.  Acceptance of Abuse often has its origin in an Oath at some point, where we Vowed to Accept Abuse in order to avoid what we regarded as worse punishment.

Mars (Action, Anger. potentially Violence) makes a T-Square (Challenge to Mastery – the red triangle pointing at Mars) across the Nodal Axis (the long red line angling upward to the right) and the Stellia (groups of 3 or more planets, not to be confused with Stella! though the meaning is similar) on each end.  This could easily amp up the Intensity of our Memories or Experience or both.  

It’s easy to Conflate Memory with the Current Moment, so be Aware that this weekend we may Experience Abuse more Intensely than it nominally is. This is what we mean when we say that Karma is a “Paper Tiger” – the appearance of a repetition of what we despise, which creates an Emotional Reaction inside of us that Feels like the “Real Thing.”  Think Southeast Asian Shadow Puppets, or Plato’s cave.

However, look at the big blue triangle also pointing at Mars.  This is a Grand Trine (three planets evenly spaced around the Zodiac), representing Big Grace and effectively erasing the Challenge in the T-Square – if we’re open to it, this combination can simply take us straight to Mastery “without passing Go”.

The other two corners of the Grand Trine are dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation) and asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death).  An Ego Death as part of a Grand Trine is highly likely to be one of those Ego Deaths that we “hardly notice.”  Makemake in the same Configuration implies that we may be able to use this Energy to eliminate Self-Sabotage, potentially permanently.

Notice also that the Mars T-Square is actually part of a Grand Cross (the red square with the X or + in the center, symbolizing the ability to juggle multiple diverse processes at once).  And Opposite Mars is the asteroid Sappho, symbolizing Self-Love.  

Sappho also makes an (upside-down) Kite out of the Grand Trine, and the planet at the “top” of a Kite (even if it’s temporarily upside-down; it’ll be right-side up in twelve hours) rules the whole Configuration.  The implication is that in this chart Self-Love can easily “trump” the Acceptance of Abuse or Privilege.

Notice also that the Sun and Mercury form a Trine Bridge across the Nodal Axis (the blue lines connecting to Sun-Mercury).  This is another Gift of Grace to reduce the Stress that would otherwise be involved.

Finally, notice the two green arrowheads or Fingers of God, pointing at Sun-Mercury and Makemake.  A Finger of God says “Pay Attention!”  Here they advise us to Pay Attention to Analyzing what’s going on (Mercury), and to the Outcome we’d like to Achieve (Makemake).

An additional subtlety: notice that Sappho is, barely, back within three Degrees of Sensitivity to Opposing dwarf planet Sedna (Fear).  Sappho is Retrograde (the “R” next to it), so it’s moving into the Opposition.  This is the beginning of the Re-Formation of the Sappho-Sedna Yin Gate that we worked with last month.  We’ll dissect that soon, as it’s barely starting.

However, what it means is that we are Learning how to Accept, Stand Up to, and Lovingly Embrace our Fear, in the process replacing it with Self-Love.  If “Poor-Sweethearts” don’t convert our Fear into Courage, Tapping or Kegels will.  There’s no need to take unnecessary risks (Safety First), but unless you’re in Grave Danger, remember that what you most Fear is very likely to be a Paper Tiger.

Kundalini New Moon

January 26, 2017

We need to start here…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JDCjj9NNevw

The 27 January New Moon (4pm PST) Conjoins the asteroid Lachesis, named for the Bushmaster – largest, most dangerous, and most primitive of the Snakes.  Here’s some notes on the homeopathic remedy Lachesis, by veteran homeopath David Lilley at http://www.britishhomeopathic.org/bha-charity/how-we-can-help/medicine-a-z/lachesis/

“Lachesis may be viewed with the eye of a shaman to better penetrate the snake’s hidden genius.  She provides the matriarchal image of all snakes, for not only is she the largest representative of the most evolved snake family, she is also the only pit-viper that… [produces] eggs, all others… [give] birth to live young.  Hence she is the forerunner, the source and essence of all things serpentine and venomous, and the jungle is her shrine.

“This is significant.  She comes from the bosom of Gaia (Mother Earth), from the reproductive centre of the planet, its metabolic heart, the equatorial rainforests of the Amazon basin.  Here speciation is at its most prodigious; it is Gaia’s hothouse for the generation of diverse life forms – a teeming paradise – a Garden of Eden.  Deep within its steamy density lurks the awesome bushmaster, her venom charged with the creative and destructive passion of the planet.  She is the serpent of our genesis!”

Isn’t this intriguing, as we near the end of our Lilith-Sedna Yin Gate.  Lilith was the original Female Huper, who in search of Self-Sovereignty left Adam before he and his Rib allowed the Serpent to Apple them.  The Yin Gate is about accepting the Paradox that we must Embrace our Fears (Sedna) to attain our Sovereignty.  Lilley continues (hmm, Lilley, Lilith, curious)…

“In the Judeo-Christian creation myth the snake is portrayed as the evil tempter and seducer, the very personification of deception and intrigue, premeditating and perpetrating the downfall of mankind.  Aptly it is coiled round the Tree of Knowledge, or of Intellect, and induces Adam, via Eve, to partake of the fruit and lose his innocence – the innocence of instinctive, animal existence that keeps the urges and impulses within the bounds of natural restraint and in harmony with life’s laws.  

“This is symbolic of mankind attaining that level of intellectual and emotional capacity which permits ‘freedom of choice’ and custodianship of the conscience, a release, unfolding and responsibility which were bound to bring conceit and conflict.

“There is no cult more universal or ambivalent than that of the serpent.  In ancient cultures the snake was above all a magical and religious image of the creator divinity itself, or a symbol of the primeval life force, the primitive animal will, which it is our destiny to wrestle and ultimately subdue.  

“As such it embodies all man’s potentialities, the divine and the mortal, the sacred and the profane, and the contention between the two.  The snake has always been perceived as a dualistic force, a source of strength when mastered, but potentially dangerous and often emblematic of chaos and corruption when yielded to.”

“Rooted since antiquity in paradox and polarity, duality is the very essence of the snake, of Lachesis and of the subject who requires this wonderful remedy.  As with so many of us, they are in contention with themselves – the lower self opposes the higher, the animal nature vies with the human, deceit confronts sincerity, egotism struggles against selflessness, arrogance competes with diffidence and perversity challenges morality.  Conscience and desire strive for dominance.  The entire sphere of spiritual conflict is the battlefield of Lachesis.  The conflict is often heroic.”

Of course, the “subject who requires this wonderful remedy” is our Planet, Cultures, and Identities at this point in Linear Time.

“The venom from which the remedy is prepared is immensely powerful and destructive and those who require it are proportionately of an intense and passionate nature.  The Lachesis individual is ever in danger of being possessed by passions and feelings.  They are aware of the struggle within them, their labile emotions and thoughts and their unpredictability.  

“At times they feel at the mercy of their emotions, torn between the promptings of their heart and their head, between their thoughts and feelings and between desire and guilt.  If they are unable to indulge their passions or sublimate their emotions through creative release, they will have to repress them and the price is emotional or physical ill-health.

The snake in movement is a miracle to behold.  Without legs to propel it the creature flows effortlessly along, like a shining rivulet – sinuous and silent.  The entire energy of the snake is manifested in fluidity and flow.  In the course of evolution the snake withdrew its limbs to attain flow.  Its venom contains enzymes, which dissolve and digest the tissues of its prey, causing what was firm and solid to break down into a fluid form, which can flow.  Flow is intrinsic to the snake and this is equally true of the Lachesis person.  In any condition where suppression of flow or function predominates, be it emotional, intellectual or physiological, Lachesis may be indicated.”

The bushmaster is a master of camouflage.  It is a “sit and wait” predator, using its cryptic colouring to deceive and ambush its prey.  In a similar manner the Lachesis individual can practice cunning and deceit to waylay the innocent and naïve.  They don [sic] a deceptive mask to conceal their unscrupulous intentions – they are not what they seem.  They hatch plots and schemes to catch the unwary, but also to revenge themselves against those they consider enemies.”

The snake has always been recognised as a sexual or phallic symbol, implying a strong sexuality and a powerful libido or sex drive.  The sexual energy is the most fundamental energy of Lachesis and its power lies behind the intensity, the turbulent passion and the creative genius of the archetype.  It must find expression sexually, creatively, religiously or spiritually.  It may not be suppressed.”

“The sexuality is always coiled and ready to strike. Many will say that if their sex life is good, life is good.  It is part of the flow so essential to snake life; it relieves tension and stress.  The female particularly brings to a relationship a passionate romanticism and ardour, which enriches it.  She is conscious of her sexuality and its power and uses it.  She moves with serpentine grace and is able to charge the simplest action with sexual energy.”

Both the asteroid and the Bushmaster were named after the Mythological Lachesis, one of the three Fates, she who alotted the Length of Life – which we interpret as the Longevity of an Egoic Identity, since that is what we actually Experience as “Life.”  We of course, are very recently Reborn, as dwarf planet Haumea, symbolizing Rebirth, has been greatly magnified for the last several weeks.

It’s important to remember that Fate and Free Will, like all Dualities, are properties of the Observing Either/Or Mind, not properties of the Observed Both/And Universe.

There are actually four asteroids named after the Fates – Klotho who cuts the fabric of a Life, Lachesis who measures its Length, Atropos who cuts the chord when Time is up, and Moira whose name collectively symbolizes all three aspects of Fate.  And all four of these asteroids are Lit Up during this New Moon, and by extension, during the next several weeks.  If you told someone that we are entering a Fateful Month, you’d be quite correct.

Moira herself – Fate per se – is very busy flushing out all our Memories of being trapped on the Victim side of the Abuse/Privilege Coin.  This is not a Coin you want to be on either side of, actually, because Privilege is the flip side of Abuse, and the Unconscious (which, lest we forget, happens to run the show here) recognizes only Dimension, not Direction.  In other words, Victim and Perp are the same Energy, just witnessed from different angles.  We’d prefer to be off that Dimension entirely.  Avenging our Victim just makes us Victim of our own Perp.

Asteroid Moira sits in a Stellium with Nessus (Abuse and Privilege), OR10 (Irruption of Unconscious Contents), and the South Node (our Karmic Archetypes and Forbidden Emotions), Opposing the Royal Star Regulus.  The four Royal Stars all symbolized Successful Endeavors but for a downfall, each Star having its own Curse.  Regulus symbolizes Success as long as one avoids Revenge.

Asteroid Klotho, who weaves the fabric of Life, is just behind the curtain, about to enter Act Two of our Yin Gate, where Lilith/Self-Sovereignty is replaced by Sappho/Self-Love Conjoining Klotho.  Having achieved Self-Sovereignty by Being Fully Responsible to our Unconscious Fears, we’re about to assemble a whole new Timeline, or Ego-Lifetime, founded in Self-Love.

And asteroid Atropos, mistress of Endings, Conjoins dwarf planet Chaos.  Chaos, recall, represents Unlimited Potential, and Dances with our Forbidden Genius in the Golden Rectangle, promising the Sky when we fully Embrace our Uniqueness.  We explained the ongoing Golden Rectangle in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/01/19/january-week-3-end-big-doins/ (and many earlier posts).  We interpret this Atropos-Chaos Conjunction as an End to our Limits, or Reconsideration of what we thought was Impossible.

We’ll talk about how this New Moon Challenges our Hope in the next installment.