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April 14, 2016

We have dedicated our Lives to suppressing certain Emotions and Memories and even Thoughts, and for good reason.  They would Overwhelm us, and we have More Important things to do.  Till now.

Thing is, those Emotions and Memories and Thoughts are the doorways to Healing our Limiting Beliefs, making it Safe to Remove our remaining Masks, eliminating Self-Sabotage, uncorking our Forbidden Genius, and to painlessly achieving the Yintegrity and Self-Sovereignty that we so crave, but which we hold back from because we fear it would so Disrupt our Lives and the Lives of those we Love and Depend upon.  That sentence was not approved by the FDA, but I believe it’s True.  And it may even positively impact our Physical Health.

The Universe will bring these Emotions and Memories and Thoughts to us in early June, and the Universe has been, and continues to, give us Opportunities to get a head start.  And every early Opportunity we take advantage of will make June less painful.  If we’re still in Resistance to these Emotions and Memories and Thoughts in June, the process could well be painful.  The Universe is our friend, if we Learn to listen to Her.

As you probably know by now, Eris (Truthtelling) Initiates Uranus (Our Connection to Our Individual Soul) in early June.   We expect this to do a pretty good job of finishing up the Yintegrity work we’ve been doing since 2012.  Well, let’s put it this way – late May and early June will be the Can-Opener phase of this Initiation.  The Initiation occurs at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia: Openness to the influx of spiritual energies.

When an Angle between two planets repeats, as is usually the case with outer planets, the first event always catches us off guard.  The last time this event occurred was in 1926, so very few of us have Experienced it in our current Lifetime.  If you know someone in their 90s who’s freaking out, this is probably why.  The less Experience we have with an Energy, the more likely it is to catch us off guard.  Forewarned is forearmed, however, so even if we’re off guard, knowing in general what the Energy is about can help us make sense out of what’s happening, and can help us step out of the Victim Modality we’d otherwise be in.

Let’s take what we hope will be an extreme example – suppose we were sexually abused as a child.  We don’t remember it, we only notice that in some situations we feel Unsafe or Angry or Scared, or maybe we’re uncomfortable with Intimacy.  If those Memories pop up in late May or early June, we’re going to Regress to the age when the abuse occurred, and to the Skillset and Boundaries that we had – or more accurately didn’t have – at that age.  Victim Modality is a foregone conclusion, most especially if those Memories arise as a result of some similar-feeling Unsafety in the then-Present Moment.

If we are somehow reminded that there is likely to be a “100-year” Regression (a Regression on such a scale that it occurs only once in a century) going on, we’re still going to be caught off guard, but we’re likely to be able to Recover our Present-Moment Skillsets much sooner than if we didn’t get the memo, or as the case may be, the blog post.

We’ve talked before about “Sensitivity” – how Sensitive we are to an astrological event, something astrologers can “Orb,” and I sometimes call “Slop.”  When an event is pending, most folks can certainly begin feeling it when it comes within one Degree of being exact.  Of course the Muggles will be in Denial, finding all manner of excuses, thinking it’s Heartburn.  The more Sensitive among us will begin feeling an event when it comes within three Degrees.  The most Sensitive of us will feel it sooner than that.

The Eris-Uranus Initiation reaches one Degree of Sensitivity in Mid-May.  It reached three Degrees of Sensitivity in late March.  Most folks who read this are likely to be at least three-Degrees Sensitive, so most of us are already Feeling it.  We Feel it through pressure to stop hiding or covering up parts of ourself that we’ve thought were less attractive or less Skillful.  Through Vulnerability.  Through Epiphanies about where we’ve been seeing through a glass darkly.  Through old Identities and Ego-Masks and Archetypes that we’re outgrowing.  Through a Desire to stop “Playing Games.”

An Initiation is a Conjunction.  When Angles repeat three times, as the Uranus-Eris Conjunction does, the first occurrence is a Can-Opener.  It opens a “Can of Worms” that we didn’t know was waiting for us.  The second and third occurrences are also Conjunctions, but they aren’t Initiations – only the first event is an Initiation.  We’re almost always in Victim Mode during a Can-Opener.

The second occurrence is an Exposition – the same Energy recurs front and center, but this time it seems to occur in slow motion (Retrograde), so we have a far better chance of understanding what’s happening “to us,” and consequently a far better chance of moving from Victim Mode to Master Mode.  In Victim Mode things happen to us, we have no Control over them.  In Master Mode, even if things happen to us, we have Skills to deal with them adequately.  

If we Master an Energy during the Exposition, then the third occurrence is a Confidence-Builder.  The Energy and Process recurs, but this time we’re ready and able to deal with it using our now-Present-Moment Skillsets, including those we learned in the previous two events, and we sail through it, feeling great about our new Expertise.  If we didn’t Master the Energy during the Exposition, then the third occurrence becomes another Opportunity, another Exposition.

The Uranus-Pluto Square recurred six times after the Can-Opener, giving us an indication of how Important the Universe thought it was for us to Recover our Yintegrity.  As if Pluto didn’t already symbolize what is Mandatory (Adaptable but not Avoidable).  The Can-Opener (June 2012) was followed by five Expositions (October 2012, May and November 2013, May and December 2014) before the Confidence-Builder (March 2015).  

The Uranus-Eris Exposition peaks in late September, while the Confidence-Builder occurs at the Ides of March next year.

In other words, as Uranus approaches Eris, that section of the Zodiac (now 21-23 Aries) gets very Hot.  The Sun (our Essence) crossed that section last weekend (April 9-11), while Varuna (Cellular Wisdom) and Chariklo (Beauty and Charm) were Stationary.  Venus (our Values) crosses that section two weekends hence, April 22-24.  In between, this coming weekend (April 16-17), Mars (Action) and Pluto (Inevitability) are Stationary (Strong).

There’s a joke about two Olde-Boy psychologists trading stories about “Freudian slips.”  One says his attention was drawn to the bosom of a ticket-seller on a recent trip to Pittsburgh, and he accidentally asked for a picket to his destination instead of a ticket.  The other says, “That’s nothing.  The other day I was having dinner with my mother and when I meant to ask her to pass the butter, what came out instead was ‘Mother, you’ve ruined my Life and I hate you!’ ”  

It would be really appropriate to Mars-Pluto – and fortuitous – if such Freudian slips came out this weekend, because they would constitute bright flashing lights pointing us toward clues about what hasn’t come to the surface of Consciousness yet.  Let your tongue be your Guide this weekend.  Same with “slip-ups” of any sort.  Make a wrong turn on the way to the store?  Where did you end up?  Drop a jar of Honey on a hard floor?  What do you suppose that might mean?  PIAVA the question.  Run into someone you haven’t seen in a long time?  A stranger strikes up an interesting conversation?  Pay Attention this weekend.

In particular, in addition to the Retrograde Stations of Pluto (5am PDT 17 April at 18 Capricorn) and Mars (1am PDT 18 April at 9 Sagittarius), Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) Initiates Mercury (Communication) at 3pm PDT 16 April, in 17 Taurus, “A symbolic battle between ‘swords’ and ‘torches’.”  Fascinating Symbol, as Swords symbolize mentality, as does Mercury.  That leaves Vesta standing in for Torches, indicating that…

Our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs are Burning their way out of Denial now, and will be for the next fifteen months, while this Mercury-Vesta Cycle moves through.  Just long enough to cover the Eris-Uranus Confidence-Builder.

We’ll talk more about the Vesta-Mercury Initiation – with its two Tricolors and Grand Trine – in the next installment, but note that while it’s occurring, the Sun is crossing the asteroid Mnemosyne – Memory.  What a jokester, this Universe!

Portal 13-14.6 – Scorpio and Virgo

June 14, 2015

apon9061bpSagittarius and Scorpio.  Believe it or not, the Sagittarian Wisps are actually Crystals, of Natrolite, sitting on a more recognizable Crystal, Scorpionic Apophyllite.  Nevertheless, things are still not what they seem to be.  The recognizable Crystal is actually a Mica, Apophyllite, even though it looks nothing like a Mica.  And the Wisps are actually a Zeolite, even though they look nothing like any we’d recognize.  A Zeolite is a complex Mineral with pockets.  You wouldn’t think there’d be room in those Wisps for a pocket, let along a complex Mineral.  If you get the right Zeolite, you can dump it into a toxic mess, and the Zeolite will pocket the toxins and bring them out!  I know, She is truly amazing, especially when we forget She’s a Living Entity with many orders of magnitude more cleverness than we’ll ever dream of mustering!

Apophyllite (Potassium Calcium Fluoride Mica) is about Opening our Third Eye, appropriate for Getting to the Bottom of Things.  Green Apophyllite brings Compassion into our Intuition.  As we like to say, Apophyllite was used for Divining by the twelve Apophylls.  Natrolite (Sodium Aluminum Zeolite) is about Opening the Crown Chakra, appropriate for Letting Go of what Limits us.  Like much of the loveliest Apophyllite, this one comes from near Pune, India, a center for many different flavors of Spiritual pursuit.

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Friday the 13th falls on a Saturday this month, as Pogo used to say.  Whatever you’re Grieving, Trust that it was not planning to be part of the next phase of this Gaia-Pi Adventure.  We’re in the process now of Co-Creating what we need for the next phase.

June 13-14…

  • Makemake (Manifestation) is Stationary Direct (Strong)
  • Saturn backs into Scorpio (Did we leave any Emotional Stones unturned?)
  • The Moon Occults Mercury (Beginner’s Mind) at 5 Gemini (“A revolutionary magazine asking for action”)

Mercury and the Balsamic Moon rise ahead of the Sun, so they should make a lovely couple just before Sunrise, whether you’re in the right spot (east central Asia) to see the Moon cover Mercury or not.  The Balsamic Moon is about Letting Go, echoing our other themes.

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Saturn points us to The Most Important Thing, and informs us that all of the other priorities will be just fine playing quietly by themselves while we put all of our Attention on The Most Important Thing.  Scorpio is about Getting to the Bottom of Things, so when…

The Most Important Thing Is Getting to the Bottom of Things,

we can – appropriately – be pretty obsessive.  Another useful key phrase about Scorpio, left over from the Recovery Movement in the 1980s (when Pluto was in Scorpio) is The Way Out Is Through.  Saturn has been in Sagittarius since Christmas 2014, and in Sagittarius The Way Out Is Letting Go.  So we’ve Lightened Up quite a bit since Christmas.  But there are still some bits of Egg clinging to the pan, so we need to go back and scrub a little more.

Till last Christmas, Saturn had been in Scorpio since October 2012 – in other words, The Most Important Thing has been Getting to the Bottom of Things since Time ended and Pi took over.  For the last two and a half years The Most Important Thing has been locating anything and everything that has stood between us and taking Full Responsibility for Everything in our Lives.  Though Pi gave us that first nine months of Grand Trines to ease our Rebirth into the New Era, of course that would feel like being poked with spears and knives by everyone and everything around us, as we were educated about where we weren’t taking Responsibility.

Soooo, what did we not quite finish up?  Responsibility means being able and willing to Respond.  It looks to improve the Future, not assign causality and Blame for anything from the Past.  Anyplace in your Life where you’re still feeling like a Victim, or where you want to Blame someone else for anything?  Those are the bits of Egg we need to work with; keep your eye out for them between now and mid-September, especially toward the end of July, as Saturn turns Direct on August 1.  After mid-September, we’re in the Let-It-Go Stage “for good” – well, for two and a half years anyway.

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The Station of Makemake in 29 Virgo (“A seeker after occult knowledge is reading an ancient scroll which illumines her mind”) suggests that…

We should be on the lookout for What We Need to Survive in this New Era.  We first experimented with meeting our new Next-Phase Tribe (Makemake in Libra) from mid-October 2013 to mid-March 2014.  Then last September we renewed this quest.  In mid-July we get serious about it.  In between – March-August of 2014 and mid-May through mid-July of this year, we review our own Blocks to receiving our new Community.  Virgo is about breaking down the Ego so we’re ready to meet Other without prejudice – without Judgment.  Ego is a force for good; it’s primary Mission is to keep us alive. The only problem with Ego is that it’s “sticky.”

Sure, Narcissism can feel like a pain if we’re stuck with having to deal with someone else’s Narcissism, but that’s just about our own unwillingness or inability to set working Boundaries.  Our own Narcissism?  Not to worry; it’s its own best frenemy. 

A caution for Virgo, though.  Since Ego-Recycling and Virgo are so poorly understood in Ego-dominated Western culture, Virgo ends up being seen as nit-picky and critical, and Virgo grows up with a programmed self-hate from introjecting this criticality.  So anyone with strong Virgo will likely worry about their own Narcissism.  But Virgo is the Opposite of Narcissistic.  What’s the Coin?  Self-Love.  Self-Transformation (Virgo) is about Self-Love, for sure.  Transformation isn’t about hating what’s being Transformed, it’s about Transcending what’s being Transformed.

A functioning Ego is flexible enough to Celebrate our own unique Skills fully – without having to compete them with the unique Skills of Others, and to Recognize when and where it would serve our Community better to delegate to the superior unique Skills of Another.  A “normal” Ego, more concerned with how many strokes we get, gets stuck on the last hurt or triumph, and loses track of the Present Moment.

This is what Virgo is about.  Pisces is about making a break from a Community that we’ve outgrown, with all of the Grief and unfulfilled Wishes and lack of Recognition and unexpressed Angers and Fear of Abandonment that’s involved in Letting Go of a Community without the assurance that we’ll be accepted into a new one.  Neptune and Chiron are working us through all that Drama and Trauma.  Virgo is about making a break from a sticky Ego that we’ve outgrown, with all of the Grief and unfulfilled Wishes and lack of Recognition and unexpressed Angers and Fear of Abandonment that’s involved in Letting Go of an Identity without the assurance that a new one will function any better than the old one.  Or, in a word, Ego Death.  Makemake is helping us through this wicket, and it’s an excellent Guide to have, as its focus is always on Co-Creating the new tools we’ll need to Survive in a new Era.

So as we go back into Getting to the Bottom of Things, we’re also back in Ego Death.  With Saturn, we’re just re-entering our last review period (ie, just tiptoeing back into Scorpio and hoping she doesn’t wake up).  With Makemake, we’ve already finished our review (ie, already backtracked into Virgo, and now we’re turning to exit for the final time), so we’re in better shape there.  Between now and mid-July we’ll be making the adjustments that will “fix” the Responsibility shortcomings that we’ve already encountered.

So while there may be a few Surprises awaiting us on the Emotional front, on the Ego front we’ve probably seen that last of them.  Is it any easier to step aside and Witness an Emotion that threatens to overwhelm us, than it is to step aside and Witness an Identity that’s sabotaging us?  You bet.  It’s when the Emotion and the Identity are intertwined, that the greatest difficulties arise.  And as we encounter the last few Emotions that Separate us from Joy and Light, we should already have some degree of Ego Detachment.

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Cuspal Saturn and Stationary Makemake are Sextile to one another, sharing the quality of Magnetism.

Sextiles connect two Signs that have either Magnetism or Dynamism in common, so on this basic level they aren’t competing with one another.  It’s the Sixth Harmonic, so the basic Energy is about Partnership – Win-Win. 

It’s a Waxing Sextile, several years into the Saturn-Makemake Cycle that began in September 2009 at 26 Virgo, “A boy with a censer serves the priest near the altar.”  In terms of current events, we could trip into a number of directions on that one, about boy-priest relationships or about “making things smell better.”

In our tradition of focusing on what’s being Healed, we’ll do just that, and propose that the current 33-year Saturn-Makemake Cycle is about Healing the lost art of Apprenticeship.  In pre-Industrial society, as children we “played” at learning the “work” our elders were doing, automatically learning Survival Skills in the process.  Since that link was broken by the various forms of Industrial Slavery (schools that removed children from parents so they could be propagandized into one paradigm, work that separated the workplace from the family so compassion could be removed from working conditions, etc), child-adult relationships have been strained and forced into unfamiliar forms.

A Saturn-Makemake Cycle would be about Building the Structures that Support Survival in the next Paradigm.  So we could see the current Cycle as Restructuring Apprenticeship to reintegrate Spirituality and Survival (“Work”) and Everyday Life.  Industrial and Religious Culture rigidly divided these into separate days of the week.  Remember that what we’re going here (2000-2020) in the Jupiter-Saturn Cycles is, on the Cultural level, deciding what parts of the Industrial Age we want to take with us into the Digital Age.  The Sextile represents Grace after we take the first step.  The Cultural level is assembled from accumulation of Personal levels.  So an appropriate question to ask ourselves might be…

Are there concrete steps I can take right now, to integrate my Spiritual Life with my Everyday Life and What I Do to Survive?  Have I already taken any steps like this?  Can I start to build them into Patterns that can become the infrastructure of Life in the Next Phase?

Nessus Two

June 4, 2015

proustite2067bp That dull surface is a characteristic of Arsenic minerals.  But note the barely-hidden Passion.  This one is Proustite, Silver Arsenic Sulfide, the Feminine half of Kundalini.

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Soulspeak resonates with our Nessus Energy…

https://soulspeak2013.wordpress.com/2015/06/04/at-the-table-devils-song/

The Zodiac is fractal.  The Wheel is divided by two, by three, by four, by twelve, by 36, by 144, and by 360, and that doesn’t count the Harmonics.  The 144ths are called “Dwads” or “Duads,” and the 133rd Duad is where Emotion overwhelms us.  It’s the first two-and-a-half Degrees of Pisces, and it’s Pure Pisces, all Emotion, all Mutable Emotion.  “Mutable” is the name astrologers give to the Recycling parts of the Zodiac, the Deconstruction, the Breaking Down into raw material so something new can be Created.  The Spiritual Function of Pisces is to Let Go of specific Emotions, and the first Duad shows us what it is that we need to Let Go of.

Nessus in Pisces, in general, would be about the Emotions that arise around PowerOver, around Privilege and its Abuse.  Remember that Power is never Given, only Taken.  When we appear to “Give our Power away” it’s only because it was Taken by our earlier Programming. 

We were washed with these Emotions in April through July of 2014.  Our second Opportunity for this sort of baptism was 7 February through 10 April of this year.  Were those periods unusually Emotional for you?  We’ll get our third and last immersion between August 2015 and mid-February 2016.  This opportunity to Clear the negative aftereffects of PowerOver comes around only once every 120 years.  For most of us it’s a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. 

If we’re taking maximum advantage of it, we’ll let the Emotions have their way with us during these time periods.  Our ultimate objective is to Lovingly Witness these Emotions from the outside, but in order to get there we need first to Experience them.  We hide from our unpleasant Emotions, memories of Abuse most of all.  So we need to make ourselves available, invite them, make space for them, or they’ll stay in hiding.  It takes Courage, but you have Courage aplenty, or you wouldn’t have signed on to this Lifetime.

 In the 134th Duad we begin to burn off what we’re ready to Let Go.  Yesterday’s Nessus Station was in the 134th Duad.  Nessus has already danced in the 133rd Duad twice, and it will dance there once more before it moves on.  If we review our journals and mark our calendars, we can be prepared to move through the process with greater ease, though it won’t be effortless, because Pisces is about Finishing Business and Letting Go.  All Losses must be Grieved, and you’d seldom use Grief and Fun in the same sentence – though of course it’s never too late to start.

So the stage we’re in now, is the Letting Go stage.  We’ve bathed twice, now we’re drying off.  We entered this phase on April 10, and we’ll be here till the end of July.  Then we go back into the pool for a final rinse, till mid-February.  If you’re still wrestling with dark Shadows from your earlier immersions, you may want to imagine one of those super-bright LED flashlights on the end of your middle finger, and just annihilate the Shadow as soon as it enters your mind or Heart.  The bright Light won’t hurt your Heart, She’ll Love it.  Shadows are sort of Magical that way; Light disappears them without a trace.

This stage is the Creative Fire section of Pisces.  In it we begin to convert the Energy locked in those Shadows into Passion.  It often feels like a Passion for Revenge, or a Passion to make sure that never happens to anyone again.  But it needn’t be.  It can simply be a Passion for Living that was previously blocked by the PowerUnder cage we were put in, so the Passion can just be our Heart’s Desire, having nothing to do with the nature of our Abuse.  This is the early stage, so there’s nothing organized or final – or even explainable to anyone – it’s just an urge to experiment with New toys.

There is a lot more to PowerOver and Abuse than overt sexual and physical Abuse, and PowerUnder can be either Acute or Chronic.  For instance, if as a child you were never recognized for who you really are, as everyone just tried to Program you to be who they wanted you to be – that’s a serious case of Abuse.  Without Drama you may not recognize it as Abuse.  Sometimes there was a “cookie lady,” someone who, even if they didn’t recognize your Genius, they recognized your right to be You and didn’t try to change you.  If there was someone like that in your young Life, they would be an excellent memory for you to keep handy during this Creative Fire stage. 

Don’t be intimidated by the term “Genius” – everyone has Genius of some sort.  The people you perceive as having Genius are people who probably had the opportunity to develop it because they were raised in PowerWith.  It’s never too late to start, and it’s not about recognition, it’s about Living your Passion and Following your Bliss.

Our Asteroid-Goddess reader Elizabeth points out that the Station of Nessus was also an Initiation of the 4-year asteroid Atropos, at 4 Pisces, “Heavy car traffic on a narrow isthmus linking two seashore resorts.”  Among the three Fates, Atropos was the one who cut the chord when the time was ripe.

With a literal interpretation, we could imagine that many more of our fellow Entities will be finishing their Work or for some other reason  bailing out, and leaving the Planet.  But our perspective is not that astrology can symbolize the negative, but that astrology can symbolize the Healing of the negative.  So yes, by all means, celebrate your Ego Deaths!!  Do you remember the signs? 

  • Confusion as your old milestones and millstones crumble
  • Fear as the bars on your Birdcage loosen
  • Very familiar circumstances suddenly seeming a little strange, like the color is off or the accent’s on the wrong syllable or something. 
  • Habitual Judgment being replaced by Curiosity
  • Unexplained and unexplainable physical surges of Excitement as you start to Breathe and experience what it’s like to be Living Free without your usual narrator

This is the Aries portion of Pisces.  Pisces is all about Emotion – both Wallowing and Letting Go – but Aries is about Trusting Instincts you don’t even recognize as Instincts.  It’s about doing “crazy” things, things that won’t start to make sense until five years from now.  Things your Spirit wants to try out, that it probably hasn’t even informed your mind about, since your mind is likely to just YesBut it away.  When you notice that you’re Feeling or Doing something unexpected on a whim, be Curious about who is Feeling or Doing that! 

  • Patient Curiosity, waiting for Clarity from outside
  • Not intellectual Curiosity, searching for an answer

We’re still used to being mired in Grief of some sort as we navigate the Wake for our Ego Death.  But that’s your New Identity out there Feeling and Doing those spontaneous things that don’t make any sense yet.  Welcome them…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=idWguVzQRWs

Portals 1.2-1.6

January 2, 2015

apach7100bpTransparent Obsidian (Volcanic Glass) is called Apache Tears.  It protects the psyche by bringing illumination into the Root Chakra Staying Grounded this week is an excellent idea!

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On a long-term project that I’m working on with several other people, I’ve been having to argue in favor of an unpopular position.  Always makes me feel disgruntled when that happens.  It feels good to get along.  My position is solidly based in half a century of professional Wisdom.  But the others would rather take a course that they think will look better.  Earlier today I had to choose, one way or another, my way or their way.  It was uncomfortable to have to choose, and I was a little short on sleep, so I napitated on it – sort of a cross between napping and meditating. 

When I was done napitating, I felt clear.  It wasn’t that important.  Yes, my position was definitely better, but the issue wasn’t that big a deal.  It was a choice I’d made over the years, and a choice I still defend as the best course, but it just wasn’t a life-or-death issue.  At least not in all but a very small percentage of situations.  So I committed to doing it their way.  I noticed when I went back to work on the project though that I felt less ownership and less enthusiasm.  I was proud of it the other way; when I did it their way, it was just okay.  But then, it was like the carvings on top of the Medieval cathedrals, that no one but the Gods, the Birds, and the Witches would ever see.  Not worth the stress.

Earlier, I’d mapped out what the Moon was doing this week, relative to my natal chart, just to kind of take inventory, and get to know better the new dwarf planets and Centaurs, and how they work in my own chart.  So after working for several hours converting the project to their way, it occurred to me to look at my Moon chart and see what was up. 

Well, the Moon was on my natal Uranus.  Ominous.

Uranus dominates the next several months, as it Initiates the South Node (which likely means that any uncleared Held Emotions may well become Disruptive) and Squares Pluto (which likely means that embracing those Emotions won’t be optional).  Uranus symbolizes Yintegrity, Self-Trust.  And here I am Abandoning myself as the Moon lights up Uranus, ranking my Value of Getting Along more highly than my Value of Trusting Myself.  And witnessing some Self-Hate as a result.

What a Karmic Pattern to Witness – Hating my own Creativity.  This is by no means a new discovery, as I’ve always encountered this kind of Rejection, but it’s a new way of looking at it, a different way of Feeling it.  It’s discouraging (the Moon has moved over my Chiron).  I don’t have any choice, except to be Loving and Gentle with my Self-Hate.  Time for more napitating, and sitting my Self-Hate down in one chair and my Creativity in another, and working out some kind of Win-Win. 

Clearly my Self-Hate’s “positive function” is to Get Along.  I’ve always just withdrawn and reminded myself not to “throw my Pearls before Swine.”  Are there better ways I can Get Along and still Live my Yintegrity?  That’s a very active conversation; at this point it’s mostly “Yes Buts” rather than “How can I helps” – work still to be done.  Fear of Isolation arises.  I used to have a Frank & Earnest cartoon showing one one of them sitting with his feet on the blotter that would have covered a desk, but which now sat on the ground.  He’s saying “I stepped back to get some perspective, and now I’m out of the picture altogether.”  I always thought it was funny first, then after a while, ominous.

The Big Events of January are…

  • The Full Moon Opposes Pluto, and Squares Uranus and the Nodes, January 3-5
  • Eris is Stationary Direct on January 9
  • The Moon crosses the Nodes and Squares Pluto on January 12
  • Haumea is Stationary Retrograde and Pluto Squares the Nodes at the New Moon on January 20, while the Moon crosses Pluto and Squares Uranus on January 19, and Mercury turns Retrograde on January 21
  • The Moon Occults Uranus and Squares Pluto on January 25
  • Uranus Initiates the South Node on January 31, as the Moon makes a Grand Cross with Pluto and the Nodes, and a Diamond Star with Pallas and the Sun, while Chiron Initiates Mars and Sedna is Stationary and turning Direct – this is a Big One

We need to include the Moon’s Uranus-Pluto adventures because Uranus-Pluto-Nodes is well within Sensitivity (within two degrees as we speak).  And we clearly need to look more closely at this upcoming Full Moon!

The Full Moon-Uranus-Pluto-Nodes Portal opens early on January 2, and closes early on January 6.

Here’s the timeline…

We need at least a day on either side of the whole span for Sensitivity.  What means it all?

Our adventures with our Karmic Patterns are just beginning; expect them to get very intense over the next four or five days.  This means that whenever you Feel recurring or strong Emotions,

Pay Attention!

It’s critically important to play Witness to these Emotions rather than getting lost in their supposed content, and to be Loving and Gentle with all parties involved – your current-moment Feeler, your Witness, and your Historical Self.  While we’ve singled out recurring and strong Emotions, Karmic Emotions can also be very subtle and well rationalized.

You saw how my Self-Rejection was very carefully entombed by making light of it intellectually – “Oh, it wasn’t very important in the grand scheme of things.”  That may have been true of the intellectual content of the scenario that I was projecting my Self-Abandonment on (and it may not have been true – this is how Intuition often arrives!).  But my Self-Abandonment itself is critically important in the grand scheme of things!  It’s part of my Mission in the Lifetime.  Your Patterns will be different, but just as important!

And by the way, let yourself sleep (or not) crazy hours this month.  When Uranus is lit up we often need less sleep (or a lot more!).  If you aren’t sleepy, get up and do something Creative.  And if you get sleepy at an inconvenient time, excuse yourself and take a nap.  You may well do surprisingly well on only a few short naps.  Have Fun with the extra time.  Above all, don’t lay in bed fretting about not being able to get enough sleep, and don’t eschew napping when you need it.  And if you want to sleep twelve hours a day, do it if you can, you just need the extra Dream time.

Portals 12.27-12.31

December 26, 2014

makemakeMakemake rescued the People of Rapa Nui by teaching them how to use Rocks to harvest Water from fog.

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It gets busy over the next several days, as we have a Station, several Initiations, and a big Moon crossing. 

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Makemake Stationary December 21-30

A Station makes the impact of the Stationary planet very strong, in this case the dwarf planet Makemake, which is about Manifestation.  So watch your thoughts and your metaphors – you could “get what you Ask for” before you even get the words out of your mouth.  The actual Makemake Station doesn’t occur till December 30 (a bit before noon PST – see http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pst12.htm for other time zones), but we’ll be feeling the Station for a week or so prior to that.

Let’s take the others in time order.  An Initiation means someone’s changing our Water – the Energy is shifting.

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Pluto Initiating Vesta – December 27

At a bit past 1pm PST ( http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pst13.htm ) December 27, Pluto Initiates Vesta.  Pluto doesn’t take No for an answer, and Vesta is about our Fundamentalism – the places where we take our metaphors literally.  So our Beliefs are Changing, which is good, since Belief is usually just about the last thing that gets Changed.  Belief struggles mightily to keep up with the last century’s Reality, let alone this century’s. 

Most asteroids take about four years to get back to where they started, so for the last four years our Beliefs have been justified by Outside Authority.  This is shifting.  For the next four years our Beliefs will be based on Fear of Destruction, though there will be some who Believe even more strongly that if it’s carved in Stone it must be true.

The previous Cycle began in February 2011 at 7 Capricorn, “A veiled prophet speaks, seized by the power of a god.”  The current Initiation occurs at 14 Capricorn, “An ancient bas-relief carved in granite remains a witness to a long-forgotten culture.

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Chiron Initiating Sappho – December 27

The second event is Chiron Initiating the asteroid Sappho, at around 8pm PST ( http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pst20.htm ) on December 27.  Sappho’s kind of obscure, but she’s about Lust for Yindependence and Yintegrity.  Chiron starts out Discouraging, but then, if you’re lucky or assiduous, Changes your Worldview so Discouragement becomes Excitement.  The Initiation is 14 of Pisces, “A lady wrapped in a large stole of Fox fur.

We can expect the next four years to be about using our cleverness to justify and indulge our Lust for Yindependence.  That’s clever, not disingenuous.

The prior Cycle, the one we’re finishing, began in March 2011 at 2 Pisces, “A Squirrel hiding from hunters.”  So…

With regard to our craving for Freedom from Convention, we’re changing from being the hunted to being the hunter, and changing our modus operandi from subterfuge to cleverness.  This will be very handy as we move into this last Uranus-Pluto Square, which is about dropping our Masks and letting our True Self bloom.

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Saturn Initiates Pallas – December 28

Saturn is very clear about how we need to Pay Attention to The Most Important Thing, and put lower priorities on the back burner for a while.  If we do, we leap forward; if we don’t, progress stalls.  Hence Saturn’s (inappropriate) reputation for Limitation.  When Saturn’s lit up and progress eludes us, we need to examine our priorities.  On December 23, Saturn completed its two-and-a-half-year sojourn in Scorpio. 

In Scorpio, The Most Important Thing is to Get to the Bottom of Things.  Now Saturn is in Sagittarius, where The Most Important Thing is Letting Go and Moving On.  Pallas is about Boundaries and Discernment – think “God, grant me the Strength to Change the things I can, the Serenity to Accept the things I can’t, and the Wisdom to know the difference” and you know Pallas. 

The spent Cycle was Initiated in September 2009 at Virgo 26, “A boy with a censer serves the priest near the altar.”  The current Cycle, beginning at 4pm PST ( http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pst16.htm ) December 28, starts at Sagittarius 1, “Retired army veterans gather to reawaken old memories.

We’re moving from five years where our Most Important Boundaries revolved around Tradition and Ritual, to five years when our Most Important Discernments are about Community and Bonding. 

If you’re reading the indented normal print, you see how I’ve gone from “priest and altar” to Tradition and Ritual, and gone from “gathering veterans” to Bonding and Community – and you’ve undoubtedly taken the symbols in your own direction as well!  You may have gone instead from “censer” to Incense to Trance, and from “old memories” to Traditions.  Go for it!!  That’s why I list the astrology itself, because my interpretations are just one snapshot of one moment; the astrology itself is a whole movie.

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Moon Crosses Uranus-South Node – December 28-29

Which of course triggers the Main Event of the next several months, namely Pluto Squaring the Nodes while Uranus sits on the South Node.  In case you haven’t noticed, this means that all of the heavy Emotions and childhood prohibitions that have prevented you from revealing that part of your True Self, are up in your face.  Well, it turns out that those heavy Emotions and childhood prohibitions were just protecting you from all manner of untoward consequences of letting that part of you come out and play before the right time.

Now the time is right, but you have all these Habits and Patterns built up to hide behind.  You don’t need them any more, but do you know that?  And how can you Trust that it’s now okay to come out to play?  Not easy.  Good time to stick a toe in the Water, though, to see what happens.  You’ll need all the Discernment you can muster though, to separate your Expectations from the “Real”-World consequences (the World will probably be totally nonplussed).  We don’t have to do it all in one weekend, but if you’re inspired to run a test, by all means go for it!

The Moon crosses Uranus at a bit after 8pm PST ( http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pst20.htm ) December 28, and crosses the South Node at about 1am PST ( http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pst1.htm ) on the 29th, but plan to work with this Energy from around 2pm PST ( http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pst14.htm ) December 28 till about 7am PST ( http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pst7.htm ) December 29.

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Quaoar Initiates Ceres – December 31

Unlike our Vesta Beliefs, which are usually long since obsolete and serve mostly to Limit us, Quaoar Beliefs are real Life-and-Death rules that impact our Survival.  Since Ceres represents Sustainability, Ceres-Quaoar is a pretty heavy combination.  It’s a five-year Cycle.  We’re shifting from a half-decade where we specialized in certain tasks, and segregated ourselves by tribe, to a span where we feel the need to be very clear about who we are and what we stand for.

The prior Cycle started in February 2010 at Sagittarius 22, “A Chinese laundry.”  The new Cycle begins at Sagittarius 26, “A flag bearer in a battle.

Shouting down Monsanto’s efforts to poison and monopolize our food comes to mind, along with a hundred other flavors of fascism.  Makes me curious about what will come next.

In November 2009 Quaoar Initiates Ceres again in 3 Capricorn, “A human soul, in its eagerness for new experiences, seeks embodiment.

Well, that could go either way – the Chinese aphorism “May you be born in an interesting Time” is generally regarded as a curse.  But at least it implies that it’ll be worth coming back for.

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All of which leaves us where exactly?  Well, one way to put all these ideas together is that the next several years will see us raising the flag of Community and eschewing the forces that would enslave the People in order to enrich a few.  We could see that.

Changes

December 26, 2014

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Lots of Rebirth going on, for better and for worse – not at all surprising after a Uranus-Stationary Solstice New Moon.  Makes the 2012 Solstice look like no big deal, as if that was just the end of some Calendar, or the End of Time, or something trivial like that.  This is New Life, like it or not.  Whatever is Changing rapidly for you, it’s important to look it squarely in the eye. 

Responsibility means being willing and able to Respond.  It’s how we avoid being victimized by events in our World that may or may not have any relationship to our own personal Manifestations.  We need to absorb our Changes quickly, partner with them, and move forward.  The World won’t wait for us.

We have no need to try to second-guess the Unconscious.  You may benefit from Asking yourself, “Did I Manifest that, and if so, how?”  But don’t get tangled up in it.  If you get an answer to that question, you’ll get it in a split second, and if you did, you’ve probably already rejected it as politically incorrect.  If you have to think about it, you’re not just wasting your time, you’re probably Creating new complications with your thoughts.  This isn’t about Guilt, it’s about Rebirth.

If you want to dissect the relationship between the Unconscious and the events in your World, get a copy of Eugene Gendlin’s Let Your Body Interpret Your Dreams and follow it closely, so you can dissect without convoluting things even more.  The only substantive difference between Your Dreams and Your “Reality” is that Your Dreams suffer less from your Limiting Beliefs.

If you do want to sit down with what has Manifested in your Life, give it its own chair.  Be the Witness.  Talk to it, Ask it questions, and let it answer.  If you aren’t sure whether or not you’re projecting, Ask yourself, “Well, what if I did know?” and take the answer that you’ve already rejected.  No thinking, this is all about First Flash.  Let it Ask you questions.  Find out what its Mission is, and share with it what you believe Yours is.  See if the two of you can work out a Win-Win, where you support one another.

If it’s entered your Life, whether you’ve Created (or Co-Created) it or not, it’s now your new partner, so the two of  you need to get on the same page as quickly as you can.

Solstice to New Year

December 24, 2014

psc_stripNacreous Norwegian clouds, caused by holes in the Ozone Layer.  Photo by Ivar Marthinusen, with thanks to

http://spaceweather.com/archive.php?view=1&day=23&month=12&year=2014

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The Tricolors (which instruct us to Respond to any Difficulty with Curiosity) that we spoke about in our last post, Curiosity ( https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/12/20/curiosity/ ), are still with us.  There are a few adjustments, which we’ll talk more about soon.
 
The Main Event for the next several months is the combination of
  • Pluto Squaring the Nodes (“Listen Up!  The instructions we’re giving you aren’t optional!” says the Unconscious),
  • Uranus Squaring Pluto (if you aren’t at the top of your game, it’s because you still aren’t fully accepting some essential part of yourself), and
  • Uranus Initiating the South Node (Don’t you dare miss a *single* opportunity to be Loving with any bummer, large or small, that you’ve seen before)
And on December 31, the dwarf planet Makemake (which is about Manifestation) is Stationary (strong), so expect to be experiencing that as we move through the holydays.  That basically means, Be careful what you Ask for, and be mindful of your thoughts because after all each thought is really a Prayer, and all Prayers are answered in one way or another.  Our thoughts are just so scrambled that when they are answered, our Manifestations are so scrambled that we don’t notice the connection. 
 
When you catch a negative thought, hit it quickly with the mantra “Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade” to Cancel the negative Manifestation, Neutralize the Energy you’ve Created, and Upgrade the thinker (you) to reduce the future scrambling. 
 
Meanwhile, here’s a nice story about Manifesting Healing…
 
           https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8-IIb4nqWU#t=136

Curiosity

December 20, 2014

x2quad_stripFriday’s Solar Flair from Sunspot AR2242, in honor of our Big New Moon Uranus-Stationary Solstice.  This one messed with communication in the Southern Hemisphere, but most of it missed us again.  Here’s a NASA video on Solar Flairs and CMEs, the latter being the more dangerous to our technologies…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TWjtYSRlOUI

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I was on a ferryboat yesterday when the boat seemed to stop about halfway through it’s journey.  My father was in the business of commercial boating, but I know nothing about it, so I’m always curious and try to guess what’s going on and why.  I was in the middle of the boat, though, so I would have had to get out of my car to see what was going on.  Not that I was being lazy (at that moment), but realizing that we were in a big Pluto T-Square to the Nodes and Uranus, I tried instead to hold onto my Curiosity.

It was near impossible.  Curiosity is like Water.  My mind was adamant though about making up stories!  It was like I was starving and someone was handing me candybars.  I finally realized that once I tried to hold on to the Curiosity, I got the Intuition that another boat was tying up the dock.  Then I remembered which boat I was on, and how that had always been the case with that boat when I had taken it before.

But I had gotten the point – are there any Tricolors to the T-Square?  Moving from the Squares to the Quincunxes will unleash the Grace of the Trines or Sextiles in the Tricolors, just as respecting my Curiosity as Curiosity, rather than as a puzzle to be solved, led to my Intuition and recollections.

The answer is Yes.  There is a prominent Minor Tricolor with Pluto Square North Node Quincunx Chiron Sextile Pluto…

For the next several months we’re being Asked (actually, ordered is a more appropriate term when Pluto is involved) to connect with our Mission in the Lifetime.  When any Uncertainty or concern arises around that –

Why am I here?  What am I supposed to be doing with my Life?  Why is this so difficult?

A Powerful response to those questions would be to empathize with our Uncertainty –

“You poor Sweetheart, you’re really feeling puzzled, aren’t you.”

You don’t want to stay with the Questions, looking for answers.  Empathy takes you out of your conundrum and puts you in the role of the Witness.  The Act of Empathy will trigger your Intuition, potentially (if you can maintain the role of Witness) unleashing Miracles that will Transform your Life.

Which is to say, that’s Chiron’s role, to Transform us from Discouragement to Miracle.  The doorway to Chiron’s Transformation is Empathy.

And there is a Major Tricolor across the Pluto-South Node Square; Pluto Square to Uranus-South Node Quincunx to the asteroid Panacea Trine to Pluto…

 Panacea’s role in Mythology was as the “Universal Remedy” – she can fix what ails you.  So when we feel Stress about whether to be “nice” or Honest, and when we feel deja vu coming up over ancient experiences we’d just rather not re-experience all over again, our Power lies through…

“I Wonder what sort of Magic will just eliminate all this Stress about avoiding Bummers and worrying about saying the right things at the right times to the right people!?!?”

Once you’ve Wondered, you’ve done the Work.  You don’t need to know anything else.  You can just Imagine the Elixir you need, the perfect Fairy Dust to heal all of your Stress and leave you perfectly Self-Confident and Relaxed about your Competence to handle whatever Life throws at you today.  Shower yourself with that Elixir, and you’re ready to meet your Solstice Rebirth!  Enjoy!

Abundance II

December 17, 2014

Didn’t read this till after I published the earlier post, but it’s right on the money…

http://www.nytimes.com/2014/12/17/opinion/you-aint-seen-nothin-yet.html

Except that I have a lot less faith in the effectiveness of political action than Mark has.

The Ceres-Chiron Binovile suggests that

This may not be the time to Act, but rather a time to Meditate on the issue.  It’s easy to forget the lessons that TM taught us when they substantially reduced the crime rate in a Community by having 1% of the population in meditation…

http://tmcorkmeditation.ie/crime/

By mid-January

we’ll be in the Waning Biquintile stage of the Ceres-Chiron Cycle, where

we’ll be Learning how to Let Go of our own closet admiration for redundant wealth.

The End of Autumn II

December 16, 2014

Forgot to mention that the Capricorn Solstice New Moon is Biseptile to the Uranus Station.  So the three events – Solstice, New Moon, Uranus Station – are tied together by more than concurrency.

The Septile series is about Shamanic Energy, which is to say it’s about Trusting our Intuition to Act at the precise moment when minimum effort is required to produce maximum results, and in the precise manner to make it so.  Since chances are that Shamanic Action won’t make sense to the logical mind, we usually need to assign the role of Non-Judging Witness, or at least disinterested spectator, to the mind when this Seventh Harmonic is lit up.

That’s particularly important at the Biseptile, or two seventh of the way ’round the Zodiacal loop.  The Second Harmonic (the “bi” part) is about Transcending Duality.  The logical mind doesn’t easily move to the Coin from the contrast of heads versus tails; it requires an Intuitive leap.

So Life will be Asking us to Do things this week and next which make no sense.  Dare to go ahead and Do them.  The Uranus Station is in Aries, and Aries’s job is to lay the Spiritual Foundation for a Co-Creation that is totally Clear in the mind of the Creator of All That Is, but completely fuzzy in the mind of Her co-conspirator, us.

Also forgot to mention that our Descent into the Initiation of the South Node by Uranus begins December 20.  It’s Exact on January 31, and remains within our three-degree Orb till March 4.

An Angle is said to be “Exact” or “Complete” when the degrees and minutes match.  We feel it most from the time when the faster planet is one to three degrees away from the slower planet, to the time when the Angle is Exact.  The one to three degrees is called the “Orb” or “Sensitivity.”  If we’re Sensitive to Energy we’ll want to use three degrees of Orb.  If we’re as Sensitive as a concrete block, it doesn’t matter.  But one degree is a minimum.

For instance, on December 20 the South Node (the faster “planet”) is at 15:33 of Aries, and Uranus at 12:34 of Aries.  Since the Nodes always move backwards (the “Mean Node” anyway, which is the one we use), and since Uranus is beginning to move forward again, this is three degrees of Separation and closing.  By January 31, they converge at 13:17.  They remain within three degrees of one another till March 4.

The South Node represents our Limiting Beliefs, and Uranus our Individual Soul.  So there is an impending collision here, between our Karmic programming and our True Self, which may be painful.  The Universe is Asking us to Stand Still for whatever Emotional trauma embraces our Limiting Beliefs.  If you’re old enough and have a journal or a good memory, you can think back to May 1999, the last time Uranus Initiated the South Node.

That one occurred at 17 of Aquarius, “A watchdog stands guard, protecting his master and his possessions,” with Uranus Stationary.  So if you’ve spent the last fifteen years Protecting yourself from your Emotional trauma, no Blame!  ‘Twas the season.  This on is 14 Aries, “A serpent coiling near a man and a woman.”  That image carries a whole lot of implications, and Protection doesn’t sound like it’s one of them.

So the next few months could be quite a rodeo ride.  Since we’re dealing with Rebirth, it’s probably best not to hang on too tight, and just PIAVA a gentle landing in our new roost.

The difference between the period of Sensitivity prior to an Exact Angle, and the period of Orb that follows an Exact Angle, depends on our Consciousness. 

If we’re Conscious that the Angular event is occurring, then the impact will drop off rapidly after the event is Exact.  If we’re Victim to the event, it’s more likely to diminish slowly.  If we feel Victimized by the event and make Decisions to Protect ourselves from it, we’ll make this Victimization a permanent part of our Lives, until we Liberate ourselves from it.

So for the next several months we’re deeply entwined in Pluto Squaring the Nodes, with Uranus on the South Node.

Plan to do a lot of Surrendering until we get to the next Equinox.  In a nutshell, Resistance is not only futile, it’s counterproductive.