Let’s look at the web of interactions between Oaths (Vows, Promises, Decisions) and Karma (Habits, Patterns) from a different angle. In Tarot, the twelfth card in the Major Arcana is the Hanged Man. This dude is Hanging neither from his neck nor fingernails, but Hanging from his heels…
The plan being that his or her Perspective will Change. The Hanged Man card is referred to as the “Pattern-Breaker.” There is no Tarot card for Pattern-Making or Punishment-for-Breaking-an-Oath. While we might swear Oaths to ourself to try to Control our own Addictions, most of the Oaths that Orcus (Greek Horkos) Punished were Oaths of Allegiance to Others – Abdications of our Self-Sovereignty – around politics, war, economics, and servitude. The Romans and Greeks were Hyperpatriarchal Cultures, and Vows of Marital Fidelity were not part of the Oath equation…
“A real man dominated in the bedroom as he did on the battlefield. He would have sex with his slaves whether they were male or female; he would visit prostitutes; he would have homosexual encounters even while married; he would engage in pederasty; even rape was generally acceptable as long as he only raped people of a lower status.” —https://www.challies.com/articles/3-awful-features-of-roman-sexual-morality/
If you haven’t noticed the Persistence of this propensity in current Western Culture, you’re probably in Denial. Orcus’s mother, by the way, was Eris, symbol of Revelation of What’s Been Denied. You’ve probably noticed that Tolkien’s Orcs were spawned by Orcus’s visage as a Punishing – Devouring even – Monster…
The Socio-Sexual connotations reflect the Greek-Roman program of demeaning the Matriarchy – Betray your Oath as a Man [to Obey your Male superiors and Use or Ab-use Females] and you’ll be sucked back into the Toothed Womb, in the Patriarchy an Emasculating Fate worse than Death [loss of everyone’s Respect, the equivalent of Banishment]!
But, back to the astrology…
The astrological Twelfth Harmonic is the “Unx,” the Angle which Separates two planets that are one Sign apart. In the current Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar Station chart (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/03/27/tumultuous-week-1/), eight of the twelve possible Unxes are present. The implication is that we have a better-than-usual Opportunity to Let Go of Karmic Habits around each of these eight planetary Relationships. We should be able to, for instance…
Step into a New Personality wherein we have Dropped any Manifesting Habits that were not Self-Loving(Haumea Unx Sappho-Makemake).
Step into a New Personality wherein we have Dropped any Health Practices that did not further our EnLightenment(Lachesis-Varuna Unx Klotho-North Node).
Remember that Karma is Dead. When a situation arises where you’re Invited to Indulge a Self- or Health-Deprecating Habit, it will Feel perfectly Natural to Step right Into it. Just like Developing a physical muscle, it’s Repetition that Reinforces Habituation. Every time we go ahead and Step Into a Karmic Pattern, we Strengthen it. Karma is actually a Choice, once we’re Conscious of it. Each time we Choose to Step Into a Health-Promoting or Self-Loving alternative, we weaken the Karmic Habit and Strengthen our Physical and Moral (ie, Self-Love vs. Self-Abuse) Health.
Let’s take another example. It’s fairly widely Believed that 5G at least exacerbates our Experience of the Coronavirus, if not contributes directly to it. If we follow this line of thought, perhaps Nature is training, or as Darwin would put it “naturally selecting,” our Electromagnetically delicately-tuned Bodies for a Future with far greater Electromagnetic Radiation. If you’ve ever stood in a Lightning Storm, you know that few Energies are more Electrifying than those symbolized by Uranus. Uranus is in Taurus – Soul Descending into Flesh. And what could be more Electric than Soul – Invisible, Energizing, Dangerous (to the Ego), “Bottled Lightning.”
In the current chart, Uranus is joined by asteroid Eurydike, which symbolizes Trust (Initiation Exact at 11:53 am 30 March in 6 Taurus, “A cantilever bridge across a deep gorge: Overcoming separatism through group cooperation,” with Ixion Stationary!), Initiating a four-year Cycle wherein Collaboration is emphasized. Several friends, while Empathizing strongly with the Physical, Emotional, and Financial Suffering, have been Embarrassed to admit that they find current events to be Compelling and Exciting – they are indeed, without Realizing it, Trusting that Flesh will be Quickened or Electrified by Soul as we work through the seven years of Uranus in Taurus.
Another Energy in the current chart is the Revision of our Values(Venus)brought about by shifts in our Unconscious Beliefs and Limitations(asteroid Vesta)through Converting Fear to Power(dwarf planet Sedna). We’re certainly being given plenty of Opportunities for the latter. Remember your Kegels and Tapping – the sooner you Notice Fear in your Emotions or your Thinking, and Convert it to Power, the more you Weaken your Fear Karma and Strengthen your Power to Manifest the Future you Want to Live in.
These two Energies…
Trusting that Flesh is being Quickened by Soul, and
Revision of our Valuesthrough Converting Fear to Power
…are one Sign apart, an Unx Angle, promising that we can more Easily Let Go of any negative Karmic Patterns in how the two Energies Relate. For example, a very common Ego-Value is to Contract, or Circle the Wagons, in the Presence of Fear. Another common Ego-Value is to React with Fear to Strange Sensations in the Body. In other words, we tend to Energetically Collapse around Strange Sensations. “Something is Wrong! We Gotta Fix it!” is the immediate Reaction, corresponding to an Energetic Contraction. What if it was “Something is Different! Isn’t that Curious!” instead – where of course we’d prefer Awe-Wonder-Fascination Curiosity over Gotta-Figure-it-Out Curiosity.
What if Strange Sensations in the Body Enlivened us the way Traveling in a foreign country can. Strange-Sensation symptoms of dis-ease are productively considered to be the result of the Body Restoring Balance – a runny nose as mucus dispelling virus for example. And of course unreasonable fatigue is just a Somatic request for more Rest. Healing is greatly accelerated if we Open to those Sensations (increasing Blood flow to their location) rather than Closing around them (which restricts Blood flow, inhibiting the Immune System’s white blood cells). That would greatly alter our Tolerance for the Vulnerabilities of Physicality, and tilt our Emotions toward Joy more often.
The Unx Pattern-Breaking Angle between Trusting the Present(Eurydike-Uranus) and Embracing Fear (Venus-Vesta-Sedna) opens the door to Life-Changing Transformations like this. Maybe Opening Lovingly to Unfamiliar Physical Sensations is a prerequisite for Ascension to 5D. But we need to Respond to the Opportunity. The nature of Karma is Inertia – we move toward what’s familiar, toward our Training. We need to Consciously make the Choice to move toward an Alternative instead. That by itself will Enliven us, though it will be Uncomfortable at first, till we get our New Patterns Habitualized. (What a “coincidence” – in the 7 April Full Moon chart, the Moon [Instincts] is Unx to asteroid Moira [Consciously Choosing Alternatives to Fate].)
Okay, more about the Full Moon chart and the Partial Eclipse that’s a Gateway to the impending Big Total Solar Eclipse that shines a spotlight on the USofA…
As with all Signs, we can run them Positively or we can run them Negatively. Remember though that the World (and hopefully your segment of it) needs ultimately to be in Balance, and is Multidimensional as well, so don’t get stuck in Archetypes that worship either side of that Duality.
(Actually, the World and yourself are always in Balance, it’s just that whatever is needed to Balance your Conscious side resides in the Unconscious. Since the Unconscious actually rules us, then from this Perspective, the nicer you are, the meaner you really are – and vice versa.)
You’ve been to performances where you’ve been Exhausted afterward, and other performances where you’ve felt Energized after. That’s the difference between someone who builds their own Confidence by sucking other people’s Energy (we can think of a prominent example who lives in a house that’s being remodeled at the moment), and someone who Shares their Abundant Leonine Self-Love broadly. Abundance is having enough to Share, After all.
This is the Duality often represented by Leo, where Sun and Mars and Atropos (Endings) are all parked at this Full Moon, along with the North Node (Lifetime Mission), Veritas (Truth), and Varuna (Life Force). Varuna will be in Leo for the next quarter-century, which should put a very Auspicious carpet under this Planet for a long while. As for Mars in Leo, if we wrote a song about our Anger, would it draw a cheering crowd? And when we mingle with the crowd afterward, are they the kind of people we’d Feel at Home with?
We all need a place to return to where we are Understood and Respected and Loved for exactly Who We Really Are, so for all but the most Saintly among us, that first sort of Community is what we need to Create, to make a Safe Space for us while we put the finishing touches on our Saintliness. While Anger tends to Divide, the presence of Atropos suggests that Expressing our Anger may help to Let It Go.
This is what the Leo-Aquarius Axis, which this Full Moon Illuminates, is all about, the Coin that unites the Duality. Leo is the epitome of the Individual Self, Aquarius the epitome of Community. Leo represents Fixed Fire, Stabilized Energy, or Spirit Manifested into Form. Aquarius represents Fixed Air, Ideology, or Intellect Manifested into Form. Michael Roads goes to great lengths to differentiate Intellect from Intelligence. To him Intelligence derives from the Heart and Gut, while Intellect derives from the Left Brain.
The Intellect is more than capable of supporting Intelligence, though in the Patriarchy, it’s more likely to support Morality, Politics, and the Preservation of Privilege. Intellect is finely tuned for Logical Analysis, but Logic is a house of cards built upon Assumptions. Propaganda manipulates your Logic without being Clear that its Assumptions may not be Universal. To Transform Aquarius into Intelligence Manifested into Form, we need to Let Go of our Karmic Archetypes. Our Archetypes and Limiting Beliefs are no more and no less than Unconscious Assumptions. As long as they’re Unconscious, we can only see half of the Universe.
While Astrology deals with Dualities, it also deals with the Multidimensional. Leo and Aquarius are not Complete without the other two Fixed Signs, Scorpio and Taurus (and of course the Fixed Signs are not Complete without the Creative and Mutational Signs). Scorpio as Fixed Water or Emotion, and Taurus as Fixed Earth or Matter, represent the Stabilized Emotional and Material aspects of Reality. Of course, depending on your Archetypes, Emotion and Matter can be Stabilized into either Constructive or Deconstructive Directions.
The Klotho-Sappho Conjunction (Creating a New Timeline Based on Self-Love), which is the Focus of the Full Moon T-Square, is in Scorpio, so we’re dealing with an Emotional version of Self-Love. That means the tears that come naturally to your eyes when someone validates the parts of you that are Unseen – your Genius Project, for instance – and when someone perpetrates an Act of Kindness that your own Personal Values wish everyone would do All the Time. And the Grace you Feel when someone Validates your Anger. The Leo-Aquarius Full Moon is about the Dynamic between the Individual and the Collective – between You and Other.
Which means that the Taurus or Matter side of the Four-Dimensional Balance is Vacant – we need to Consciously Ground the Energy. Dan and the Arcfolk concur –http://danielscranton.com/a-process-for-connecting-with-5d-energies-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/. The Vacancy is at 16 Taurus, “The inadequacy of past knowledge in times of crisis.” Hmmm. I’d rephrase that as “…in times of rapid Change” – in a Stable environment, traditional knowledge is actually very Powerful in a crisis. But the point is that we need to PIAVA how to Ground ourself and our Milieu.
There is, however, a Fixed Star in that location, Almach, which is the left foot of the Sacrificial Goddess Andromeda. Foot as in Power, left as in Feminine Power. Andromeda is a symbol of an Out-of-Power Tradition victimized by the Dominant Paradigm. In other words it’s important to bring Self-Trust into Expression of our Anger, and to remember that our Intention is Self-Expression, not to be Understood. If the Perpetrators Understand our Anger at their Oppression, their Dominance will be threatened, and they will be highly Motivated to torment us further.
Our Objective in Expressing our Anger is not Revenge or Restitution, but to Let Go of its Karmic Grasp of us. Actually, our Karma does not Grasp us, our Ego Grasps it. It’s a foundation for our Ego. So to the Ego, it Feels as if it’s the Karma doing the Grasping. We cannot Raise our Vibration until we Let Go of our Archetypes, including our Anger. While it feels like we’re Angry at the Perps in our Present Life, it has Karmic Roots that will not be pulled out by striking out in the Present Life.
To Let Go of Anger or any strong Emotion, we need to start by Poor-Sweethearting it. Strong Emotions are not Comfortable, and we need to Empathize with our own Discomfort. “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel Angry, don’t you.” It’s meant as a declaration of Self-Compassion, not an Accusation. If being Angry makes you a bad person, find a substitute that isn’t. “Your poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Irritated, don’t you.” Or “Agitated,” or “Worked Up.” Then Change the Subject, and see how long it takes for your Anger to return as a thought-stream.
The next time it arises, Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4). If it’s at all serious, it will take several Iterations. Measure the Intensity of your Anger on a scale of 1 to 10 before and after each Iteration, so you can Witness your Progress. Alternate Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and any other PIAVA you can Create, making sure to Change the Subject after each process.
We should note that the Full Moon and the T-Square occur on the Midpoints of the Fixed Signs, which are the Power Points of the Zodiac, symbolizing the Four Horsepersons of the Apocalypse – Apocalypse to the Ego, Liberation of the Soul.
We mentioned Obsession recently in this context, as Obsession can make it particularly difficult to Change the Subject, and a reader wrote to ask us how one might address Obsession. Well, the first question I’d ask, is how might Obsession be indicated in their chart?
If it’s really an Appropriate Expression of their natality, then they may only need to Learn to Love it to Death. That may not stop the Obsession, but it would make it more Pleasant, as once they Learned that, Obsession would trigger Love and Pleasure for them instead of Discomfort. Of course, Learning to Love Obsession will likely involve a good deal of Ego Death, as at least some part of them wants it to go away, and they probably have a big backlog of Other People telling them it’s wrong. But that’s all just a map of where they need to go to Learn to be Loving with it.
So, is Obsession an Appropriate Expression of their natal chart? What would we look for?
Well, the most obvious place to start looking is Scorpio, and to a lesser extent Taurus. These signs, especially Scorpio, don’t Let Go when they get hold of something they don’t fully grok yet, especially something Emotional, and especially something that seems Unfair. Does our friend have planets in Scorpio?
Well, yes. seven of them. We work with 45 planets and other points, so the average Sign should contain less than four planets. So seven is a whole bunch.
We can start by what we would tell any Scorpio that might help them Love themselves…
Scorpio is Compelled to Get to the Bottom of Things. We first Meet Other in Libra, and it raises all kinds of Questions for us, about whether We’re Okay and They Aren’t or They’re Okay and We Aren’t, whenever there seems to be a Conflict or even Contrast between us. This is how we first Discover that our own Childhood may not have been as Loving as it could have been, so it’s not at all trivial.
It’s not easy for Anyone to get to You’re Okay and I’m Okay, and for Scorpio it becomes a Compulsion. It takes a great deal of Maturity to understand that the end point is You’re Okay and I’m Okay rather than You’re Okay or I’m Okay, which complicates the whole process until we Realize that. We also have to Realize that just because You’re Okay and I’m Okay, that doesn’t mean I have to Tolerate you if you aren’t my cup of tea.
Also, Scorpio is Fearless in their Pursuit of Truth. Fearlessness is the most prominent element of Scorpio. Other people do not Trust Scorpio, partly because Scorpio asks penetrating questions that require them to examine themselves more deeply than they usually like to, partly because Scorpio has a tendency to make and hold eye contact longer than most people are comfortable with. Other people often feel like Scorpio is Looking into the Soul (which it is), and if they aren’t fully in Self-Love, it makes them want to run away.
Because of these kinds of Reactions from Other, Scorpio is one of the most difficult Signs to Embody in Left-Brain-worshiping Western Cultures. Remember we aren’t talking about folks with Sun in Scorpio, we’re talking about anyone with a strong emphasis in Scorpio – or Pluto, Scorpio’s “Ruler” – in their natal chart or even in their Transits and Progressions.
These kinds of influences often draw Scorpio toward Addiction, and Teaching them to Love Themselves Exactly As They Are is the first step to helping them get out of Addiction, as the most prominent trigger for their Desire to Medicate is the Anxiety produced by their Need to Get to the Bottom of Things that are Forbidden to them. Strong Scorpio is a good indicator that a person’s Forbidden Genius lies in sophisticated Research of Private Investigation.
That’s the gist of what we would tell any Scorpio, or anyone with a strong Pluto, in a reading.
So, which planets are we talking about? Ixion (Forbidden Genius), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), Ceres (Sustainability), Klotho (Plotting a New Timeline), and Vertex (Intuition) are all at the Midpoint of Scorpio, which just happens to be (there go those Coincidences again!) where Transiting Klotho and Sappho (Starting a New Timeline based on Self-Love) happen to be sitting as we speak, making their T-Square to the 7 August Full Moon.
Whoa, this is Big. The Midpoint of Scorpio is one of the Four Horsefolk of Ego Death, so we probably have a case of chronic Self-Attack (that is Ego-Attack, not Soul-Attack). Sir Self-Lance-a-Lot. All very strongly Lit Up this week. So we’d prescribe a strong ongoing dose of Poor-Sweethearts. Can we even interpret a Klotho-Sappho Transit, Square to a Full Moon, sitting on a natal Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium?
Oops, have to interrupt again. A Stellium (three or more planets in the same place) isn’t easy. What would we tell someone with a Stellium in their chart, to help them Learn to Appreciate their Uniqueness?
Well, the Culture we grow up in has certain Differentiations that are an integral part of the Culture. For instance, Boys are different from Girls, and never the twain shall meet. What fireworks have been going on the USofA when that Differentiation is Challenged! The youngsters understand that they’re both just People, but the Differentiation is so ingrained in the brains of the oldsters that they fight it all the way to the “Supreme” Court, and Obsess (!) on it.
So when we have two or more planets in the same place, we don’t know the Difference. Folks who start a Life when Mars and Venus are Conjoined (in or close to the same Degree) have no idea that there’s any Difference at all! So they have a difficult time Relating to, and Being Related to by, anyone who’s Obsessed with the Difference, because their brains are wired very differently.
And that’s just two planets. With a five-planet Stellium, the difficulty of Communicating with Others is multiplied many times. To start with, only 2.5% of us will have a 5-planet Stellium (using 45 planets), so we can expect to be able to Communicate at all with one person in 40. However, what’s the probability that the next person with a 5-planet Stellium is going to have a Stellium that includes the same five planets?
Without breaking any blood vessels in my brain, I’d guess that would be something like 1/9 to the fourth or fifth power, or about one person in 60,000, although that assumes that the 45 planets are distributed randomly around the Zodiac, which is far from true. You could start a worldwide club, advertising on the internet to connect with everyone who started Life with a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium. You might end up with just the people who were born on the same day and year as you.
And now you’re going to run into another problem. Very few of these people will have ever learned to Love themselves, even if their Stellium isn’t in Scorpio. When you meet a Soulmate, if your Self-Love isn’t Total, you’re going to Project your Self-Rejection all over one another, and end up hating one another, very soon. I once introduced two people with very similar, very unusual birth charts, Scorpios even, and they became housemates. That lasted about a month before they ran screaming from one another.
So until you Learn to Love your own Uniqueness fairly thoroughly, you may need to settle for non-intimate Relationships for a while. Look for people who are already Ascended or Enlightened, who may be able to Accept you Exactly As You Are, even if they’re not like you at all – they may even find your Uniqueness fascinating. There should be a reasonable number of those folks around. You won’t be their Onliest…
Since you are a shining light
There’s many that you’ll see
But I have to deal with envy
When you choose the precious few
Who’ve left their pride on the other side of
Coming back to you
as Leonard Cohen put it, but at least you’ll be Accepted, and you’ll get a taste of what it will be like to Love your Uniqueness, till you Lesrn to Obsess on Loving your Uniqueness.
Well, we know that this person, on the Soul Level, Intends in this Lifetime to Get to the Bottom of Self-Abuse (and I don’t mean self-pleasuring) once and for all (Klotho-Sappho). So they probably “hired” parents and other significant adults that programmed a good deal of persistent Self-Rejection (Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres) into them as Children. That’s how we do it – whatever we Intend to Let Go Of permanently in a Lifetime, we on the Soul level make sure we get a big dose of it, so we’ll Recognize it and be Motivated to Change the Pattern.
So, with Mars and Atropos on the Full-Moon Sun, it would be a fabulous time to start writing a series of Angry letters, that they don’t intend to send, to their Childhood Programmers, so they can begin Getting to the Bottom of their Abandoned Genius’s Real Feelings. We can Learn about Blame and Responsibility later.
Oh, did I forget to mention that Jupiter (Amplification) and Sappho (Self-Love) are also in Scorpio? So our friend is even more Determined to break out of her prison of Self-Admonishment, as she has Chosen (on the Soul level) to Obsess about her Amplified Desire for Self-Love!
Did someone say Obsession? Damn Right! Obsessed with this prison-break, and for damn good reasons!!! It’s a central theme of their Soul-level Plan for the Lifetime! So come Hell or High Water, they need to start Obsessing (and PIAVAing) on Learning how to Celebrate Obsession like it is the Incredible Gift to themselves that it truly is! Set a timer, and Celebrate Obsession at least once an hour, every day.
Okay, with the preliminaries out of the way we can get down the the meat of the issue. Their Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium is Opposed by Chiron (Despair and Miracle). That’s like a dagger held by her Programmers, slicing little chunks out of her skin constantly. To move from Despair to Miracle we need to Empathize with our Despair. “You Poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Down on yourself, don’t you.” Now, we know that Changing the Subject (which gets the mind and old Karmic Patterns out of the way so they don’t re-up the Despair) won’t be easy – that’s the whole issue, isn’t it.
So we can try building a strong practice of Tapping (YouTube link above). “Even though I’m Obsessing about this Despair, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.” Measuring the Intensity of Feeling (0 to 10) before and after each of many Iterations will be important – as long as you’re getting any reduction, keep Tapping, till you get close to zero. If you aren’t getting reduction, try alternating with Poor-Sweethearts, or Dancing, or doing anything Different. This is Multi-Lifetime stuff, so you need to be Obsessive about working on it, but then, that’s your specialty, eh?
Phew, that’s a lot, isn’t it. Are we done? Not a chance. Mercury, of all people, makes a T-Square across the Opposition between the Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium and Chiron. Now we have to interrupt again, since T-Squares are quite difficult, so we have to give our standard speech about how to Love a T-Square…
A T-Square is like a graduate seminar. We Expect to be able to “get it right” once in a while, so we can feel halfway Competent. But with a T-Square, there is no “getting it right.” In a graduate seminar there are no right Answers, only clever and relevant Questions. No matter how long anyone Lives a T-Square, they’ll never Feel Satisfied about it, until they Learn to Appreciate that on a Soul level they’ve adopted this Issue as a Lifetime Learning Opportunity, and each time it arises – which is likely to be daily – they’ll be working on a new, more subtle and broader, version of the same Lesson.
It’s pass/fail, and you only pass when you Recognize that this is your Lifetime Study Project, and Honor yourself for the Fact that you actually know a Hell of a lot more about it than most anyone else on the Planet, because you wrestle with it daily. You begin to Change a “bad” Habit by Noticing that you’re Doing it again, and Congratulating yourself for Noticing rather than Cursing yourself for Doing it again – substituting positive reinforcement for negative reinforcement, because reinforcement is cumulative.
So when you Notice that you’re working on that Issue again, Congratulate yourself for looking at it from yet another Perspective, and Honor yourself for all of the Perspectives you’ve already Discovered, rather than Indulging your Frustration at not getting it Right yet again, you’ll shift your Perspective toward what is otherwise one of your greatest Frustrations.
That’s what T-Squares are all about. Now, what about this Mercury T-Square? Well a Mercury T-Square (until you make the shift we just talked about) means that your mind is always picking at you. Anxiety ‘R’ Us, and it’s not just Worry, it’s Negative Self-Talk. So we have to Learn to Notice that we’re Doing Negative Self-Talk again, Congratulate ourself for Noticing, and Honor ourself for how Skilled we’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk.
If a friend complained to you about their Negative Self-Talk, I’ll bet you could give them a thousand suggestions for dealing with it. You’re a World Expert on Negative Self-Talk. You could write best-sellers about it. You need to Honor yourself for that, even if it doesn’t Feel True at first. I guarantee you, it is True.
Now, we’re dealing with Negative Self-Talk about Chiron Opposite a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium, which isn’t chicken-feed. With Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex as part of your Stellium, a deep part of you (with strong Scorpio, Diving Deep is one of your greatest Skills) knows Intuitively (Vertex) that your Survival (Quaoar) is Assured (Ceres) once you Begin (Klotho) to Love Yourself Exactly As You Are. You just don’t know where to start because no one has ever Mirrored your True Self to you.
Then we add Ixion. We have to interrupt again for our Learn-to-Love-Ixion speech…
Ixion was the Bad Boy of the Greek Pantheon, who was basically a sociopath who thought all rules applied to everyone else (like that fellow in the house that’s pained white and being remodeled). Well, talk to any Accomplished Genius, and they’ll tell you they didn’t get there by following other people’s rules. To live Genius you need to break as many rules as you can get away with.
But you’ll always be condemned for it. So, not actually being a sociopath, you’ll need to develop a thick skin about Criticism from Others. And with your parents and other Programmers probably very Critical people, you’re going to have a lot of Olde Reactions to Criticism, and probably “Leave your Body” (space out) when someone starts Criticizing you. Well, you probably want to enlist some friends and Act Out a thousand Criticism scenarios, till you can Stay Present with Yourself when being Criticized, and Learn when Defending yourself is a waste of time that’ll just get more Criticism, and How to Defend yourself when it’s worth it (ie, with a Relationship you Want to Keep).
In Cultures that Value Conformity, Ixion is Rejected out of hand. That’s why we refer to that part of ourself as our Forbidden or Abandoned or Pathological Genius, and refer to Recovery of that part of ourself as our Genius Project. It’s a Big Project for everyone, but especially important for you. Eventually, once you become the World’s foremost Psychoanalyst, or the World’s most Unique Artist who Communicates with parts of people that have never been Communicated to before ever, you’ll understand how Unique you are, and Honor it.
But meanwhile, there’s homework to be done, because you’re probably in the Habit of giving your Unique Genius more Negative Self-Talk than anyone. So you’ll have to Learn toNotice that you’re Doing Negative Self-Talk about your Unmirrored Uniqueness again, Congratulate yourself for Noticing, and Honor yourself for how Skilled you’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk about your Uniqueness.
Lots of work ahead, but at least now you have a curriculum.
What’s that? Oh, we aren’t quite done? Oh yeah, remember that Jupiter-Sappho in Scorpio? Well, it happens to be in a “Grand Cross,” Opposite a Stellium of Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sedna (Fear), Chariklo (Self-Confidence), and Moira (Choosing Consciousness), with Sedna Stationary (Strong), Square to a Stellium of Sun (your Essence), Atropos (Endings), and Mnemosyne (Memory), which is in turn Opposite to a Stellium of Orcus (Breaking Vows), Hylonome (Escaping from Archetypes), and Lachesis (Duration), with Lachesis Exactly Stationary (very Strong). All this is actually enormously Positive, but there’s a lot in it that needs to be Learned to Love.
We won’t take that up now, we’ll save it for after you’ve digested some of the earlier homework, which is more than ample. The earlier homework is Lit Up Bigtime by the Full Moon, so it’s a more current assignment anyway. This later Grand Cross is Lit Up only by the Transiting Conjunction of Varuna (the Life Force) and Veritas (Truth), which is actually quite a lot, but nothing compared to how much your Mercury T-Square and Ixion Stellium are Lit Up.
Oh, also, when you’re ready, remind me to talk about the “Vacancy” to your Mercury T-Square.
And, once you’ve started on the earlier homework in earnest, we can talk about that friend you mentioned, and see how they might, by virtue of their own birth chart, inadvertently trigger either your Mercury-Chiron-Ixion-et al T-Square or your Lachesis-et al Grand Cross, or both. We’ll also need to cover Blame and Responsibility then.
Oh, and since Pluto (Transformation) is similar to Scorpio, and likely to be involved in Obsession, we should eventually look at that too. It’s after all Conjunct Saturn (The Most Important Thing), so that’s a strong indication that Obsession is actually your Greatest Skill, you just need to Learn to Love it. Also, Pluto-Saturn makes a T-Square across your Nodes (Why You Took This Lifetime), so that’s another indicator that This is the Lifetime you Chose, on the Soul level, to become the World’s greatest Expert on Obsession, and once and for all Let Go of your Ego Attachment to it, and Let Go of your Rejection of Obsession and of yourself.
Plus, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is on your North Node (Your Mission in the Lifetime) and Moon-Venus (Your Instincts and Values) is on your South Node (The Karmic Impediments to your Mission that you Chose on the Soul level to help you Accomplish your Mission in the Lifetime, which Impediments happen to hide the Skills you need to Accomplish your Mission), further complicating this T-Square.
That’s a lot, but Remember that, as the Findhorn Transformation Game says, the Hardest Assignments are only given to the Best People.
The big event here is a Retrograde Station of asteroid Lachesis (Lak’-e-sis) on 28 April. The Mythological Lachesis was one of the three Fates, the one who measured the span of a Life. I’m guessing you’ve recently been busy revising your estimates of how long you may Live.
In this Shadow Period (the span of a Retrogradation) between 22 Sagittarius and 4 Capricorn that lasts until early August, Lachesis backs over Quaoar (Law-Giver), Pholus (Responsibility), the Galactic Center (Headquarters) and Ixion (Abandoned Genius). It’s already crossed them once, and it will cross them thrice before we’re done. The first crossing is called a “Can-Opener” because it often opens a Can of Worms you hadn’t been thinking about.
The Lachesis-Ixion Can-Opener occurred on 27 February. We were probably looking at Limitations in our Lives and Wondering how to Overcome them.
The Lachesis-Pholus Can-Opener happened on 11 March, and was probably about Realizations that we can no longer ignore certain Self-Sabotaging elements in our approach to Life.
The Lachesis-Quaoar Can-Opener was 18 March. That was probably about revising our estimations of how long we can Survive on this Planet – collectively and individually – without extreme Changes to our Lifestyle and to our basic attitude toward the Soul of the Planet,
Check your journals. The involvement of the Galactic Center makes these reconsiderations a great deal more consequential than they otherwise would be. This section of the Zodiac – the end of Sagittarius – has been lit up strongly for several years, and not by accident. This is the Scorpio zone (“Duad” in astrologuese) of Sagittarius, and the message is very clearly
What is it that I need to Let Go of, but which I’m clinging to so tightly?
It’s past time, Change is afoot, and your old approach won’t work any more, no matter how well it’s served you over the years. Ask yourself that question, and reconsider the answer you’ve already rejected. Or, if that’s not clear as a bell, omit the question mark and make it a Wondering, surrendering the question to your Intuition. That’s a better approach anyway.
The Bottom Line is that it IS possible for us to reboot our Civilizations. But we have to Listen to what’s really going on instead of gripping our Denial, we need to be Proactive about the Changes we need to make, and we need to Respect one another’s Unique Contributions, Trusting that their Intuition is correct for them, no matter how dumb it looks to us. We look just as dumb to them, and ALL Contributions are necessary.
We could easily encounter major Ego Deaths here. Remember to translate “It feels like I’m DYING!” to “It feels like I’M dying.” We cannot differentiate between “us” and our Ego – Ego Are Us. So of course an Ego Death feels like a Physical Death. But you’ll have thousands of Ego Deaths for every Physical Death, and the faster you can recognize that happening, the sooner you can begin constructively building a new Ego. They aren’t optional.
When we talk about Ego we aren’t talking about being Selfish or Self-Absorbed. We’re talking about our basic Survival Instinct. We need enough Selfishness and Self-Absorption to keep ourself Safe, and to make sure that we always see ourselves as Worthy of Safety and Survival. Those are critical distinctions; whenever you sense any Unworthiness in yourself around Safety and Survival, it’s a red flag to get Selfish and Self-Absorbed. It’s not optional.
Lachesis has been within one Degree of its Station – in other words, basically Standing Still and therefore Strong – since 10 April. If you aren’t a different person now than you were on 9 April, you will be soon. Take it as an Opportunity.
Mercury is also turning Retrograde on 28 April. It backs over asteroid Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs), giving us the opportunity to become Aware of our Limiting Beliefs. Awareness is a prerequisite to Change. Mercury’s Shadow Period is 15-24 Taurus and 28 April-22 May. This section of Taurus (Scorpio through Aquarius Duads) is about re-examining what we’ve been Creating, and adapting it to the Good of All. We can no longer afford Competition, lest we All go down fighting with one another. Everything we do must now be Collaborative, and directed toward Sustainability.
There are three big themes to the 21 April Full Moon (10:30pm PDT) – Transitions, Fate, and Truth.
Transitions because the Full Moon occurs on a Cusp between two Signs – a place of Change, Transformation, often Contradistinction.
Fate because the asteroid Moira – Fate – Motivates (T-Squares) it. Fate and Free Will are of course a Duality, an Either/Or, an Intellectualization. Real Life is Both/And. How can anything be Both/And when they’re Opposites? Well, if that’s upsetting to you, the answer is in your hand – you’ve shifted into Emotion – Cusps again, the Cusps between modalities of Perception. You could also have shifted into Body or Spirit. Either/Or is a characteristic of mind, and though we’re trained to Believe that mind is bigger than the Universe, in Real Life the Universe is much bigger than mind.
Truth because both of the Truth asteroids – Aletheia (Greek) and Veritas (Roman) adjoin the Sun. Which brings us back to the larger theme of Removing our Masks.
Let’s focus on the Cusps…
The Moon itself is on the Cusp of Scorpio. Here we Change from intellectually and Creatively contemplating the new-found concept of Other (Not-I, including Other People), to intense Emotional Curiosity about Other. Does Other really exist, or is that just a Mirror? Does the Other Side really exist, or is it just a Projection?
The Sun is on the Cusp of Taurus, along with the asteroids Aletheia, Veritas, and Atropos. Atropos is Responsible for enforcing the measure of length of Life – another form of Truth. At the Cusp of Taurus we shift from Making Things Up, to Casting them in Stone. The Edge between what may or may not be Fantasy, and what the Muggles would consider “Real.” Natural-born Chemists think it’s Matter that’s Real, while natural-born Physicists know that it’s Energy that’s Real. Yes, I do take sides, though of course it’s Both/And.
The asteroid Moira – Fate – sits on the Cusp of Aquarius, as do we. Sit on the Cusp of the Age of Aquarius I mean. Here we move from hard-nosed down-to-Earth Pragmatism, to Idealism, or Idolatry. Notice anybody worshipping Sacred Cows or Golden Calfs? Such as Power, or Profit?
All together eight of the twelve Cusps are involved in the Full Moon. If we’re worried that our Fate is to contemplate Truth and Compassion (if Other is a Mirror, we better find Compassion!), the other five Cusps each provide alternate paths that are easier than that one.
Our first Escape Route is the Cusp of Capricorn (where reside the dwarf planets Quaoar and Hylonome), where we Change from Letting Go of difficulties, to actually having to try to Resolve them. (Quaoar-Hylonome tells us that if we want to Survive, we need to Molt, shed our old Ego and Open Up to the new.)
The Cusp of Pisces is our second path to higher ground. Here we’re fairly rudely dumped from drinking beer and discussing grand schemes for solving the problems created by the existence of Other, to having to Feel the Realities that arise because of the existence of Other. (On this Cusp we find the asteroids Pallas and Lachesis, and the dwarf planets OR10 and Nessus, reminders that a Life in the realm of Matter is a Privilege and a Deep Mystery, and one which has well-defined Boundaries.)
The last three Cusps are about Curiosity (Quincunxes to the Sun or Moon).
The asteroids Ceres (Sustainability) and Mnemosyne (Memory) decorate the Cusp of Aries. Buddhists say that if you immerse yourself in the Water (Emotion), you’ll come out in the Fire (Spirit), and this is the place where you’ll come out. I Wonder where these Memories will lead me.
The asteroid Karma is parked on the Cusp of Gemini. On this Cusp we go from being Trapped in Stone, to being Liberated, free to walk around and Be whomever we want to Be. I Wonder how we could ever find a more perfect place for Karma.
Finally, the Cusp of Libra is where we find the dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation). At the Cusp of Libra we’ve just finished an unpleasant-feeling period of Ego Transformations, and we’re ready to test our new Selves out on Other People. I Wonder how I’ll be received.
The other big Configuration in the cluster near the Midpoints of the Signs is a Yin Gate in 22-25 Degrees. There’s a nice picture and description of a Yin Gate in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/06/13/full-moon-yin-gate-and-portal-7-5-15/ . A Yin Gate represents an Initiation into Mystery, embodied by the Central Opposition, the one with Yods to both ends of it. The Central Opposition in the current Yin Gate is Vesta-Eris in Aries to Haumea in Libra…
The Central Issue here is…
Becoming Aware of the Limitations imposed on our Life by our Unconscious Beliefs.
We normally have very good reasons for keeping Unconscious Beliefs repressed, though the reason could be as simple as we’re too busy or too lazy to rework our entire approach to Life just because a few pieces don’t fit together well. The folks at the Tea Parties carrying “Government Keep Your Hands off my Medicare” come to mind. Or the poor saps who don’t realize that “Making American Great Again” means making it Great for the billionaires.
Often though it’s about not wanting to face down our Held Emotions – the situations that we in one Body or another endured and never want to revisit. As we mentioned in the previous Heavy I post, those could well be coming up this week. We can look for more clues in the “Subsidiary Issues”( which we elaborated in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/06/20/the-second-harmonic/ ), but first, getting our Limiting Beliefs pulled up by the Roots is only half of the Central Issue. The other half is a…
Rebirth of our Social Self and the way we Relate to the Outside World.
We can dig for more information about that in the Sabian Symbol, “The sight of an autumn leaf brings to a pilgrim the sudden revelation of the Mystery of Life and Death.” I don’t think Elsie used “Pilgrim” in the same way that John Wayne did. My guess is that rather than thinking “That Asshole!” about a fellow Pilgrim who doesn’t Behave the way Mom said every decent person should, we might think, “Whoa, that poor Bloke has probably Lived through the same sort of Nightmares I have.”
The Subsidiary Issues provide reinforcement and background, but not a lot of Insight. They’re
The Threat of being Overwhelmed when our Held Emotions well up in our throat ( South Node in Pisces ) versus Allowing our Ego to be Overhauled to reorient our Life toward our Deepest Desires ( North Node in Virgo ) and
Actions Motivated by Fear of Loss ( Sedna in Taurus ) versus Actions Motivated by a Deep Intuitive Understanding of Context ( Mars in Scorpio )
But now, this is a Yin Gate, which means that the two Subsidiary Issues are bound together with a Great Deal of Grace ( the Golden Rectangle ), so they complement and educate one another. The Trines indicate Dumb-Luck Grace between Fear and Desire (which would appear to suggest that it might be a good time to Face Down our Fear), and between Karma and Action. What sort of Action? That’s suggested by the Sextiles, in this case Action in Pursuit of our Mission, or in Pursuit of our current picture of our Mission – namely our Deepest Desires.
The Goddess is no Dummy; she encoded our Mission into our Deepest Desires, so there’s no way we could possibly forget it. Motivation from the intellect is fine, as far as it goes. But it doesn’t have nearly the Power and Persistence as Motivation from the Heart or the Gut or the Groin. We were just Programmed to Believe that those kinds of Motivations were Silly or Stupid or Uncivil. We were easy to Program because that’s what our Held Emotions told us anyway. Which is just another way of saying that’s what we’re doing this week, examining our Programming and our Vulnerability to it.
Then there are the Dos Equiis, the four Curiosities, where the Universe is advising us to eschew Analysis and substitute Wonder. These are…
I Wonder how my Unconscious Beliefs have warped my Deepest Desires
I Wonder how my Beliefs have constrained my Actions
I Wonder how Fear of Loss Limits my social interactions
I Wonder how my Held Emotions have warped my social interactions
These are Mysteries. If your mind jumps at the chance to provide simple Answers to these Musings, thank it for Contributing and change the wording. For instance, if it’s obvious to you how your Fear of Loss Limits your social interactions, change it to “I Wonder what would happen to my Social Life if my Fear of Loss was assuaged,” or something else that triggers your Imagination rather than your intellect.
At mid-month, this Configuration was not just a Yin Gate, but also a Flying Yoda, with a Kite stretched across the Golden Rectangle, topped by Haumea, and with T-Squares to each corner-to-corner Opposition in the Golden Rectangle. We talk about Flying Yodas in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/12/04/orcus-ii/ , but in that essay I don’t think we mentioned the embedded Yin Gate or the T-Squares.
The picture in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/03/30/very-busy-march-31/ shows the tailed Flying Squirrel, and actually, if we moved Ceres a few degrees forward, Mercury-Juno-Makemake-Ceres-Mercury would trace out a Golden Rectangle and enclose a Yin Gate. (That’s a hypothetical; Mercury would be likely to move forward four times faster than Ceres.) The T-Squares in that picture would be Pallas on Mercury-Opposite-Makemake, and Mars on Juno-Opposite-Pallas.
At the moment we have only a one-armed Flying Yoda, since the other arm was formed by Klotho and Sappho. Klotho-Sappho (cutting a new Fabric for Life based on Singing the Praises of Love) is a great arm for a Haumea Kite to have, and not only can we easily conceive that the full Flying Yoda has provided a continuing Blessing, but any projects born around mid-February will certainly receive that Blessing.
The persisting arm of the Flying Yoda is Ixion, another fabulous Blessing. If you didn’t notice the aroma of our Abandoned Genius in the earlier discussion of Programming and Desire, you might want to re-read it. It’s quite a “coincidence” that Ixion occupies a Ray of the Grand Trine, because while we didn’t name it that, the Ixion Discovery chart contains a full Flying Yoda, focused on Ixion itself! See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/03/23/ixion/ .
We’ll be able to bring our Abandoned Genius home here as well, as Grace surrounds it and connects it to our Rebirth.
The Socio-Sexual connotations reflect the Greek-Roman program of demeaning the Matriarchy – Betray your Oath as a Man [to Obey your Male superiors and Use or Ab-use Females] and you’ll be sucked back into the Toothed Womb, in the Patriarchy an Emasculating Fate worse than Death [loss of everyone’s Respect, the equivalent of Banishment]!
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