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Choice, Vitality, Instinct

October 23, 2017

We’re approaching a busy ten days, no matter how you usually Celebrate Samhain, All Saint’s Day, Día de los Muertos, Halloween, All Soul’s Day, or whatever other spin your Ancestors put on the end of the first Decan of Scorpio.  From our Calendar (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/1-calendar/)…

20 October-1 November 2017

Makemake Initiates Mars in 5 Libra on 29 October (12am PDT).

Lachesis turning Direct in 12 Pisces on 1 November (3am PDT).

Varuna turning Retrograde in 2 Leo on 1 November (9am PDT).

Quaoar Initiating Lilith in 30 Sagittarius on 1 November (~9am PDT).

There are no astrological vacuums.  If there’s little going on in the moment, it just makes us more Sensitive to what’s next.  And of course we all have our personal astroevents occurring most of the time; we only talk here about global events.  We wouldn’t usually expect to start noticing a Lachesis Station until a few days before the Event, or a Varuna Station till a week or so prior, but if nothing else is happening, the Energies are there to be appreciated.  They just aren’t as drowned out by louder voices.

Notice too that we’re in the Deep Void around the two Initiations – the current Cycle has virtually Ended, and the New Cycle has not yet begun.  So it’s the worst possible time to try to force Action on a Manifestation (Makemake-Mars), or to force our Sovereignty on our Survival (Quaoar-Lilith).  On the other hand, with any degree of Sensitivity we usually have a good Intuition about the New Cycle, and often an excellent Intuition about it. 

The usual Pattern is that the Energy of a Cycle is very strong around its Initiation, then goes “underground” till the Waxing Square, when it battles its way into prominence.  Our natural reaction is to Celebrate the New Cycle, then after the Initiation to be Disappointed when the Olde Guard “takes the T-Bird away” and squelches the Fun.  We’d be better off using the Energy of the Initiation to observe the short-term effects, and plan a long-term campaign to undermine the Olde Guard, to facilitate a faster take-off at the Waxing Square – though with Makemake-Mars the “long-term” will only be six months (versus two years plus for Quaoar-Lilith).

Lachesis’s namesake is one of the three Fates, the one who “cuts the chord” and determines how long a Fated Timeline will persist.  We consider Fate to be what happens when we’re Unconscious.  We Celebrate bringing into Awareness as many of our Karmic Dramas and Dragon’s Tails as we can wrestle to the ground.  When we’re Conscious of an Archetype, we can Choose whether it would be the most Appropriate Response to any given circumstance, or not.  So while it may Challenge us to Expand our Awareness, we consider asteroid Lachesis to be about Choice.

As it has been for a while, Lachesis is Dancing with Neptune, which is often associated with Confusion.  We know Confusion as the first stage of Growth in Consciousness, but we don’t always remember that we need to Surrender into our Confusion, rather than straining to “Figure it Out.”  Like Curiosity, it’s not about “solving” anything, it’s about Accepting that the Unknown is Approaching us, and being Open to whatever Delights are hiding behind it.  Our most important Choice here is Choosing to Challenge the Habit of Reacting to the Unknown as an intellectual problem rather than an Invitation to move to Spirit. 

This is a Cultural as well as Personal Archetype, but we Change Cultural Archetypes by Choosing to Respond differently this time in our own Life.  Choosing to follow our own Soul’s Guidance rather than following the Herd is Scary, as it often involves facing our own Abandonment.  But its a Clear and necessary path to 5D.  It’s not about Rejecting any specific Pattern out of hand, but about practicing New Alternatives so we can Learn them as we Unlearn what’s rote for us.  At the beginning of the Growth process we Reject the Old Pattern more often, so we can test New Responses.  Eventually we’ll appreciate the Archetype as a Powerful Skill, but first we must Learn that we have Choice.

It’s not a Coincidence that the Makemake-Mars (Manifestation-Action) Initiation occurs at the same time.  This two-year Cycle is about (5 Libra) “A person revealing to their students the foundation of an inner knowledge upon which a ‘new world’ can be built.”  A good candidate is the Knowledge that we’re here to be Awed by how Mother Nature stitches the Universe together, rather than to be Inflated by our prowess at solving story problems and sculpting Golden Calves in the image of our Ego.  So this whole new Cycle may not be about forcing Action on a Manifestation, but Allowing the Manifestation to Bloom in its own time.

Dwarf planet Varuna was named after one of the most ancient of Vedic God-Energies.  We interpret it as the Life Force.  We could say “our” Life Force, but it isn’t, we only borrow a shard of it for a while to Animate our Physical Vehicle.  We’ve just begun a new Aletheia-Varuna Cycle (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/10/02/relationship-reset/) that makes a Big Deal out of what is always True anyway, namely that when we Live The Truth of Who We Really Are, we’re able to Channel the Life Force much more Deeply.  Varuna is an Oceanic God, reminding us that The Truth of Who We Really Are is about What We’re Feeling in the Moment.

The current Varuna Station Opposes asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) and makes a T-Square (Challenge to Mastery) to asteroid Karma (of all people), which is joined by asteroid Hopi.  So we can expect Challenges to whether we’re Living our Truth and Embracing our Ego Deaths, or Dancing to the tunes dictated by our Karmic Dramas, particularly those Dramas that involve Profiling and Bigotry (Hopi).  The Karma-Varuna Square gives us the Opportunity to really Let Go this time of the Limiting Beliefs that were up for us at their Initiation in August 2016.

The Karma-Varuna Cycle began in August 2016 at 30 Cancer, “A daughter of the American Revolution.”  Traditionally ultra-conservative, DAR has been assertively inclusive since Eleanor Roosevelt resigned her membership in protest in 1939.  They’ve since supported many conservationist and humanitarian efforts, many oriented toward support for military personnel and veterans. 

The gap till we can feel the Lachesis and Varuna Stations isn’t completely empty.  We’re enjoying a long-lasting Seminar (Grand Quintile) on Integrity (both yin– and yang– but especially yin-), unearthing our Limiting Beliefs, and Poor-Sweethearting ourself before we broadcast negative vibes that will echo back at us (Jupiter Quintile Juno-Chariklo-Pluto Quintile Chiron Quintile Aldebaran Quintile North Node Quintile Jupiter)…

Fate and Choice

September 3, 2017

A video from last week’s Sedna Station…

Meanwhile, these poor folks keep Looking For Us in all the wrong places.  I Wonder if they’ll ever wake up…

https://www.universetoday.com/137008/breakthrough-detects-repeating-fast-radio-bursts-coming-distant-galaxy/

But what we really want to write about today is Thursday’s Station of asteroid Moira (Fate and Choice)…

By “coincidence” a reader wrote last week to inquire about their Relationship, and it turned out that they were in the middle of their Moira Returns – both of them!  A “Return” is when a planet returns to the same Sign and Degree it was in when you were born – a Birthday is just a “Solar Return.”  It’s basically a Reboot with regards to the influence of the Returning planet, in the case of Moira an Open Door to replace Ancient Habits with Conscious Choice.  When any planet Stations during a Return, we know we’re up for important Life Lessons.

Moira takes 4 years, six months, 7 days, and 8 hours (4.52 years) to complete the Zodiacal loop, so if you’re born any multiple of that from another person, you’re going to have your Moiras (Moirai in Greek) in the same place – that is, your Fate in the same ball game.  Think about that with regard to difficult siblings, cousins, parents, relatives, teachers, coaches, bosses, employees, subcontractors, clients, colleagues, teammates, neighbors, arresting officers, litigants, bounty hunters, wascally wabbits, or Antichrists in your Life. 

You can calculate the position of each person’s Moira by entering their birth date at http://www.true-node.com/eph1/?inputNumber=moira&day=1&month=9&year=2017&time=00%3A00%3A00&zone=GMT+0&interval_num=1&interval=day&lines=10&.submit=Get+Ephemeris&calendar=Gregorian&zodiac=Tropical&origin=Geocentric&lighttime=Apparent&clock=Universal+Time&zodsec=D%B0M&longitude=on .

It could make a Relationship (or a relationship) even more Confusing if one person’s Moira Opposed the other’s.  Remember though that Confusion is the first sign of Growth.

And an alliance or association would probably be even less Present-Moment, and hence even harder to understand, if the members’ Moirai Square one another (3 Signs apart in the same or adjacent Degrees).  You’ll be wondering what planet they’re from!

We have to say that a Relationship between two people with their Moirai in the same place, would be a “Fated” Relationship.  “Preplanned” would be a synonym in some Belief Sets, as would “Addictive” in others.  Very few of us are born in full Consciousness, and only Consciousness allows us to step out of Fate, step out of our Karma, and step into Choice.  So it’s going to take some time for most of us to “wake up” enough to be able to Choose whether or not a “Fated” Relationship is What We Want (if we have a Choice). 

With a Moira Return every 4½ years, we get to Reboot our “Choice of Fate (or not)” fairly frequently.

A “Fated” Relationship doesn’t at all have to be a “bad” one.  In fact, in most cases it would be a strong incentive for us to get Conscious, and if Consciousness is part of our Mission in the Lifetime, thinking of it as “Preplanned” is probably apt, if metaphorical.  If our “Fated” Relationships are Comfortable, we probably wouldn’t think twice about them; we’d just think that’s the way Relationships are supposed to be,, though we’d both probably have to be pretty Masterful at Self-Love.  Like those folks you know who met their Soulmates in high school and lived Happily Ever After.

If there were otherwise many Dischordant elements between our charts, we’d probably spend a lot of time Wondering why we’re attracted to someone so different from ourself.  Of course the answer would be So We Can Get Conscious, but they don’t usually teach that in school.

Our reader had their Exact Moira Return earlier in August; their partner won’t have theirs until next year.  Even though their natal Moirai are only a few Degrees apart, Moira’s Retrograde period intervenes.  Moira backs up from 10 Taurus to 26 Aries, a Degree Zone that has to do with finishing and critiquing the Design of a new Project, and building it out to the point where it’s recognizable for what it will eventually become.  Aries Projects are Compulsive, Impulsive, and Spiritually Motivated, so the intellect is flying blind – we know there’s a Plan and that it’s important, we just don’t know what the Plan is yet. 

We’ve come through the 26-Aries-to-10-Taurus Degree Zone once, now we’ll back over it and reconsider everything until mid-December, then make a second pass until early next March.  By then, whatever we’re working on should look pretty good.  We may even be able to guess what it’s about, though we’ll probably be wrong.  It’s better to leave Arian Projects as Mysteries, so we don’t screw them up with our Expectations and misguided Control issues.

In our reader’s case, at their Moira Return in mid-August they entered into a new phase in their progression toward Full Consciousness.  Now their new phase is on hold until December, while they revise their Approach to Life and their Personal history in light of what they’ve Realized.  Remember, Consciousness is not a process of Discovery, it’s one of Differentiation.  When we Become Conscious of something, it’s not new, it’s been their all along, we just haven’t Differentiated it from the background.

The most difficult part of any Relationship is Boundaries.  Putting it mildly, as if we’re Neutral in any Relationship, “Was that you that offended me, or am I being over-sensitive?” or “Am I rude and insulting, or is that you over-reacting?”  And the Bullying version, “I was just joking.”  In the case of interrelated Moirai, even more than usual, it would more often be “You just Triggered my Held Emotions, thank you very much,” or in the vernacular, “You Motherf…!”  As if anyone is Neutral when their Held Emotions are Lit.

Our reader also happens to have a Life Mission of Exploring Boundaries (asteroid Pallas Square to their Nodes), so they’ve “Chosen” (on the Soul level) a very serious Challenge for themselves.  As the Findhorn Transformation Game says, “The hardest jobs are only given to the best people.”  Their best bet in such a situation is probably to Dedicate their Life to Neutrality.  Gay Hendricks once spoke of a client of his who would reply to any Challenge, no matter how confrontative, “I Wonder how I might put that to good use.”

The prerequisite for Neutrality in difficult situations is Staying in the Present Moment.  Not at all Easy when our Held Emotions are coming up, but actually essential for any of us, if we hope to Liberate ourself from our Self-Sabotaging Archetypes.  Staying in the Present Moment means Attending to what’s going on at the moment in our Physical Vehicle.  Trading “You Motherf…!” for “Wow, do I ever feel strong Anger arising from my Belly!” or “Geez, my body temperature just rose ten Degrees!”  “I Wonder what would happen if I took a Deep Breath, or did Kegels.”  “I have to go to the bathroom; I’ll get back to you on this later.”

Sedna Teaches us that Anger and Fear are close cousins; Anger and Fear probably have their Moirai Square to one another.  If Anger is Fight, Fear is Freeze.  Flight is probably more often a reasonable Conscious or Unconscious Choice, as Anger is not your best friend when you Fight, and Freezing is a bad choice when staring at truck headlights.  If our aim is to Embrace Consciousness, then both Anger and Fear are prime Portals into What’s Asking To Be Examined.  Of course, Safety First, so when at all possible we want to be in a 100% Supportive environment when we Examine either Anger or Fear. 

If our environment isn’t 100% Supportive, we need a Safe exit, so we can Engage briefly, then Withdraw without penalty while we bring ourself back to the Present Moment as much as we can.  Tapping can play that role to some extent; Energy follows Attention, so we can productively Imagine that we’re Tapping in circumstances where physical Tapping would be inconvenient.  Another useful tool is our Mirror.

In any Difficult, Confusing, or Ill-Defined-Boundary situation, we can Imagine holding up a wardrobe Mirror between us and our protagonist, with the Mirror side facing them.  We can do this while they’re present and we’re Engaged with them, or while they’re absent, whenever we’re trying to iron out “who did what to whom when.”  Often we may need to expand the Mirror; sometimes we need a 360-degree dome around us, and sometimes we need to practice holding that Mirror long enough that we develop new Habits of Self-Protection.

Places where we have weak Boundaries are not accidents.  Someone Programmed us that way, and it’s Energetic equivalent is a hole in our Aura, often in the back of the Heart.  Not that we need to Blame them for Programming us, beyond being Honest with ourself about our Anger about it.  Eventually we’ll discover that we (Soul-we) actually Asked them to Program us, so we could Learn how to Recover from it and henceforth never again surrender Unconsciously to Manipulation.

When using our Mirror, the important thing is to watch what happens in the Present Moment.  Do we feel Safer or less Agitated?  That’s the primary objective.  Does their Attitude change?  That’s secondary, but still important; we have to Accept that we can Change no one except ourself.  But when we Change, the World Changes, because Real Life is not Dual, it’s Unitary and Multifarious. 

Ego Boundaries, while critically important to our Survival, are just a house of cards.  The Soul survives a million Egos, so Survival is really just an Ego thing anyway, but Exploring these Edges is precisely how we Expand our Consciousness.  So the Ego is in no sense trivial, even if its Illusory!

So if our protagonist’s Attitude changes, that’s evidence that our Mirror is working.

Learning how to Manifest a Safe Space for the Ego is an important part of Creating Peace.  How can we Tolerate anyone who is Different from us if we don’t have a Safe Space for our own Ego, our own Self-Protection?  While we appropriately disparage and disdain the 1% and the Antichrist and Extremists of all stripes, one thing they Demonstrate for us very well, is that they have a Safe Space for their Egos.  We can Imitate that without Selling Out, because we aren’t Sociopaths.

Make Ego Great Again II

August 13, 2017

A friend sent this link to a Vedic interpretation of Eclipses…

http://visionaryreadings.com/the-meaning-of-eclipses-in-vedic-astrology/

And then described how their Life has been bothered by bureaucratic snafus recently. 

Where we are Looking has a lot to do with how we Perceive Reality.  Consider the contrast between Looking at the Fear Propaganda on TV in the USofA, or Looking at, for example, http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html or http://danielscranton.com/ .  Not to imply that the Arcturians have any kind of monopoly on Relevance to what’s happening on the Planet.  You might resonate more to the Pleiadeans or https://lightquest-intl.com/ or http://www.starwars.com/games-apps .

Vedic astrology has a tendency to Believe it does have a monopoly on Truth.  If it provides Perspective that is useful to you, then, as with any Perspective, by all means use it.  The more Lenses we have to see the World through, the closer we are to actually participating in Reality rather than our own Projections.  When any Perspective strikes Fear, though, we need to Tap Out the Fear before we use the Perspective.  If a Perspective is good for nothing more than bringing Unconscious Fear into Consciousness where you can Love it to Death, then it’s a very Powerful Perspective for you.  Alternatively, with a technique like Theta Healing, where the Outcome is immediately available to us, we can modify our Command until we find one that works, or alternate Theta and Tapping.

The root of the monopoly tendency in Vedic astrology is Religious Politics.  Simply put, if it’s Either/Or it’s Political.  If it’s Both/And, it’s Spiritual.  We make no claim that this is an absolute Truth, but we suggest strongly that it’s a very Reliable First Approximation and a very Useful Perspective.  Vedic astrology supported Political Hinduism, as distinct from Esoteric Hinduism.  Political Hinduism supported ongoing Abuse of the Dalit or Harijan caste just as Political Christianity supported ongoing Slavery and Abuse of Primary Cultures everywhere they were encountered.  Certainty is a Tool of Political Agendas.

We look at it this way.  Hinduism is frequently accused of promoting Fatalism, and Political Hinduism certainly appears to.  As with most Religions, I don’t believe that Esoteric Hinduism does promote Fatalism.  Fate and Free Will are usually seen as an Either/Or, so as with any Duality, we Know that this is a 3D Veil attempting to obscure the Both/And, Multifarious and Unitary Reality on the Other Side.

The difference between Fate and Free Will is that our Fate is what befalls us when we’re Captives of the Karmic and Generational and Social Archetypes that we usually refer to as our Limiting Beliefs.  Free Will is what we Obtain when we step outside of the Limited Reality of the these Archetypes.  Even the “Laws” of Physics are simply Archetypes, Projections of the Ego’s need for Stasis and the mind’s need for the Illusion of Understanding.  If you’ve ever had a Wannabe Guru Manifest in your bedroom in a pillar of shimmering colored pinpricks of light like on Star Trek, you’d understand this.  Or Channeled an Antarean, or met a Walk-In, or Encountered one of your Doubles.

To me Growth in Consciousness (which means Freeing yourself from some Archetype), which usually requires an Ego Death of some sort, is not about Discovery, but about Differentiation.  We See or Feel more layers of Reality when we start noticing that there are Trees in the Forest, Trees of different Colors, Trees that have Birds and Bears in them, Birds and Bear that may be different from one another and that eat different Foods, etc etc.  There is no better way to Illuminate an Archetype or Assumption that we’ve wrapped our Limited view of Reality around, than for it suddenly to disappear.

Would we notice if suddenly all the Birch Trees disappeared from the Forest?  We might only notice that something had Changed.  But if they reappeared while we were pondering what it was that Changed, then suddenly our Consciousness would have a whole new Perspective on Birch Trees.  This is precisely what happens during an Eclipse; that which we Assume is Constant blinks off for a short time, then returns to its former Glory.  And we’re talking about the Sun, which Symbolizes our Essence.  Hence we consider Eclipses to be about Illumination, and that’s precisely what they are. 

Remember that in the Unconscious there is no Negation.  When you Pray for No War, you’re most likely to get War, because the Unconscious does not have a No in its vocabulary.  As we usually put it, astrology and the Unconscious determine Dimension, but not Direction.  The Cat may still be Alive or Not.  Eclipse is the Absence of Light, as Fear is the Absence of Love.  The Dimensions in those statements are Light and Love.  The Direction – Absence or Presence – is a Political Decision by the Ego, by yourself.

When you make a Decision to Choose Light and Love rather than Absence on any Issue in your Life, you threaten the Karmic or Family or Cultural Archetype that would keep you in Scarcity, with Fire and Fury like the World has never known.  So guess what the Archetype does in return?  It threatens to surround your Ego with Missiles, while its Ally the Ego warns you to seek cover and “not” to look at the flash.  As if you would have time for anything approaching that.  Ego and Archetype are one and the same. 

Hence we always recommend adding “Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely” to our PIAVAs

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/

PIAVAs directly address the Unconscious.  The Unconscious is in Charge, and one of its “Rules” is that no Prayer goes unanswered – that’s just a Perspective, but we suggest strongly that it’s a Reliable First Approximation and a Useful Perspective.   Use it as a filter to Examine your Life.  Every Negative thought you have is a Prayer.  Every Victim Emotion that you have is a Prayer.  Your Prayers specify the Dimension, and your Negativity and Victimhood specify the Direction.  Thoughts and Emotions are self-reinforcing, and their Negativity and Victimhood reinforce each other.  Your Negative thoughts and Victim Emotions are generated by your Archetypes.

When you PIAVA something and you’re ready to Receive it, the Universe will deliver it, just like Amazon or Taobao.  When you aren’t ready to Receive it, what the Universe will deliver, when you see the Universe through a Benevolent Lens, is Illustration of Why You Haven’t Been Manifesting That All Along.  That often looks like the Opposite of what you Asked for – the same principle as an Eclipse; often the fastest way to get you to Notice something that you’ve been taking for granted, is to Remove it.

There are some things which you have always been Abundant in.  Your Archetypes support your Ego in those arenas.  There are other things that have always been Difficult for you.  Those Define your Self-Sabotaging Archetypes.  Jane Roberts’s (Seth’s) The Nature of Personal Reality is an excellent exposition of this Lens.

Your thoughts and Emotions are not beyond your Control.  Your Ego can Choose to Intervene and Change the Direction.  It may take years of Persistence to shut down a strong Archetype, but never consider it Impossible.  You can PIAVA Assistance in Changing the Direction of the Archetype from Scarcity to Abundance – or vice versa for Abuse, though you’re better off Asking for Respect and Inviolate Boundaries, or whatever it is that you Want, rather than Asking for what you Don’t Want.

In Real Life this is an Either/Or Universe.  Fate is still going on.  If your Fate is to be Rich and Famous and Irresistible, then you may not want to Change it – though “Good” Karma is said to be harder to Change than “Bad” Karma, so when you start to get tired of being Rich and Famous and Irresistible, you may want to PIAVA Choice.  You may want to Choose Rich and Famous and Irresistible on Tuesdays and Fridays, Happy and Private on Wednesdays and Thursdays, and Surprised on Saturdays and Sundays and Mondays – but even that is an Archetype that will be Obsolete soon.

There isn’t much difference between Attention and Intention.  If your Attention is always on Negativity and Scarcity, whether in thought or Emotion, the Unconscious will consider that your Intention, and Manifest it for you.  Your Attention is under your Control.  You may have a nasty Habit of Focusing on your Negative thoughts and Bummer Emotions, and it may take a lot of Work to Change the Habit, but it is doable.  The Key is Noticing and Congratulating.

Rather than beating yourself up when you Notice that you’re Unconsciously indulging your Negativity, Congratulate yourself for Noticing.  You’re substituting Positive Reinforcement for Negative Reinforcement, and the more often you do this, the easier it becomes.  You’ll be surprised at how Effective this simple step is; Congratulate yourself for Noticing that you’re Repeating an undesired Habit, rather than cursing yourself for Repeating the Habit.

This particular Eclipse occurs while Mercury is Retrograde, and the Vedic Eclipse interpretation we linked to at the beginning of this article reads much like the average Western astrology’s interpretation of Mercury Retrograde.  Our approach to Retrogradations is the same as our approach to Eclipses.  But rather than Demanifestation of something routine, a Retrogradation may encourage Obsession on it – not a matter of Dimension, just a matter of Direction, so absolutely available to be Changed by the Ego with PIAVAs and Persistence. 

I usually find Retrogrades to be more Contemplative than Obsessive, but the same Energies apply – Contemplate What you Want, not What you Don’t Want.  If you’re particularly Skilled at Obsession, Obsess on What you Want, not on What you don’t Want.  We’ve already talked about Obsession and Changing the Subject, an important step in PIAVAing

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/08/09/cause-an-defect-full-moon-iv/

If you can’t shake Negative Energy while you’re trying to Focus on What You Want, Tap it Out.  Be sure to measure the Intensity of the Energy before and after Tapping, and Recognize that you may need to Iterate, and even alternate with other forms of PIAVAing.  Persistence counts.

The dwarf planet that deals with our Unlimited Potential is Chaos, which is in the Air Grand Trine and Dynamic Grand Sextile of the recent Full Moon; see the previous post.  It’s joined in the Grand Trine by Haumea/Rebirth and South Node/Karma, but the other three, Fire, points in the Grand Sextile are North Node/Mission and Purpose, Eris/Revelation of Denial, and Lilith-Saturn-Ixion-Pholus/In Order to Achieve Self-Sovereignty the Most Important Thing is that we Become Responsible to our Unique and Probably Forbidden Genius.

The dwarf planet and Centaur Hylonome deals with Letting Go of Archetypes, and the asteroid Juno deals with the Edges of Consciousness.  It’s no Coincidence that they’re Conjunct as we speak.  Hylonome Initiated Juno in February 2017, starting a new 9-year Cycle at 8 Capricorn, “In a Sun-lit home domestic birds sing joyously.”  We’re in the middle of the Exposition (which actually peaked 28 July).  The Confidence-Builder occurs at the September Equinox.

Nemesis Next

May 28, 2017

Once we get past our 4 Pisces 30 May OR10 Station, our next hurdle is the Station of Nemesis on 3 June at 5 Aquarius, followed by a 14 Libra Jupiter Station on 9 June.  Slow-moving dwarf planet that it is (at 550 years, it takes OR10 almost twice as much time to do a full loop as Pluto, which laps in 250 years), I don’t expect much bleedthrough from lowly asteroid Nemesis (which whips around every four and a half years); OR10 and its Vignettes are more likely to dominate center stage.

Orbital speed cuts both ways.  The slower a planet moves, the less often we get to Experience its Dances.  With less Experience comes less Competence, and we’re more often caught off guard.  The essence of a newly discovered planet is that its Influence is Emerging from the undifferentiated Unconscious.  When something Emerges into Consciousness, it isn’t Discovered, it’s Differentiated.  It’s not like we’re just Discovering these Vignettes – I can’t step into the shower without encountering at least one “Random” Memory of some Shameful or Guilty or Regretted Experience or event, and it’s been that way as long as I can remember.

What’s new about these Vignettes in the Age of OR10 (which was Discovered a decade ago and is the third largest Plutoid – but which still lacks a name!) is the Recognition of the Opportunity these Vignettes give us to Reorganize our Identity.  Shame is one of the most Difficult Emotions to Love to Death, but that’s exactly what we have to do with it.  And, being one of the most Difficult, it’s one of the most Rewarding.  Recovering the Identities hidden beneath our Shame is phenomenally Liberating.  Loving our Guilt to Death can also be a Powerful antidote to Self-Sabotage.  Regret, having a poignancy of its own, is Easier to be Loving with, but it’s what we Regret that we have to Recover in order to step toward Wholeness.

Now whenever we Expand our Identity to include parts that previously hid behind Shame or Guilt or Regret or Fear or any other Held (Avoided) Emotion, an Ego Death is likely.  Anytime we change the list of adjectives that we use to describe ourself, and especially when we neuter a Judgment about ourself and move from a Duality to the Coin that includes both sides, we hatch a new Ego, which means molting the old one.  So (when we use it to reorganize our Identity rather than just gossiping with ourself) there’s a strong Connection between OR10 and Nemesis anyway, even when they aren’t simultaneously Strong.

Even if we assign only one Degree to the Sensitivity of a Station, the Nemesis Station would still Light Up two and a half weeks, as it slows to Stand Still (Nemesis, like most asteroids, averages about one Degree every four days).  So there’s no question that Nemesis really is Stationary even though it’s like trying to find Saturn in daylight; the influence of the far-rarer, less-familiar, and closer-to-its-Station (hence Stronger) OR10 will drown it out.  Asteroid Nemesis was Discovered 145 years ago, so we’ve had five generations to get familiar with Ego Death.

With OR10 much Stronger just now, why don’t we see if we can Expand our Identity without the Pain we usually associate with Ego Death.  Just to take a “random” example, one of my more recent Vignettes was about the Regret I felt about, some fifty or so years ago, not Feeling (Emotional) Love for a perfectly Beautiful and Gracious young potential partner who was hungry to be Loved.  Unless you’re fully into Yintegrity around Relationship, Emotional Love is supposed to be an Either/Or, and the alternatives are socially risky.  So how might I Expand my Identity around this Vignette?

My Regret was for an Opportunity Lost, not because I was Rejected, but because my Heart “forced” me to Reject.  The other person’s Pain was and is acute for me because it is my Pain.  As a Weirdo like many of us ( http://danielscranton.com/you-are-the-leaders-of-the-future-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/ ), Rejection was my bane too.  So it hurt, and still hurts, to Reject.  When I say to myself, “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to be Loved, didn’t you,” there is a Softening in my chest and an Opening in part of my Heart, toward the back.  I can feel an energetic “muscle” between my navel and my neck (the Central Meridian perhaps) strengthening, and a whole panoply of seemingly unrelated thoughts and memories arise.  Which is just fine; we expect Paradox around Real Life.

On the other side of the coin, in another recent Vignette deriving from a few years later, a Perfectly Beautiful and Gracious potential partner who was firmly attached to someone else, showed me Exceptional Kindness, leaving me utterly Confused about how to Respond or show my Gratitude.  That Delicious Experience triggered my own Longing in a way that created Regret that I didn’t have that sort of Experience in my Life routinely.  When I try “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to be Loved, didn’t you” on this Vignette, it Opens to a black space. 

When I try “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to Possess Love, didn’t you,” my third Chakra softens into Sadness.  When I now try “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Sad about your Isolation, aren’t you,” my Yes-Buts arise – “You can’t do Either/Or, it doesn’t work” says a disembodied telepathic “voice.”  When I then try – after a couple of false starts that don’t lead to Satisfying places – a Theta Healing,

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Accept this Paradox and Let Go of All Anxiety around it;
Thank you, God/Goddess, It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done;
Show me,”

I’m left in a space that’s very Neutral, and my chest is pleasantly Expanded.

Okay, so we seem to have Expanded our Consciousness (while seeming to Silence some intellectual Noise) without having to Endure any grueling Ego Deaths.  Nemesis is not inherently about Pain.  It’s our Resistance to Change that creates Pain.  The Ego by its nature is Tenacious, and that’s a good thing.  We need to Negotiate Win-Win with it and with the Unconscious that runs the Show most of the time.  Michael Roads has some nice ideas for us (Through the Eyes of Love: Book Three, pp.176-7)…

“If, living in New York City, you decide to fly to Sydney, Australia, you are not going to just wander into the airport and get on the first plane going anywhere.  You are going to determine your destination and buy tickets accordingly, making sure you get on the correct aircraft.

“On that basis, if, when you wake up in the morning, you get out of bed and mindlessly go about your day … as you have every other day … it is going to be a day, a year, a life of endless repeats of all your yesterdays.  Literally, lifetimes of repetitions.

“If, however, you wake up in the morning, and placing your hands over your heart, you murmur, ‘Today, I choose Love.  Today, I am going to focus on loving myself, on loving other people, and loving my life.’  This is a prime, life-changing choice.  With this beginning to your day, you consciously revisit that choice, living it, feeling it, and reaffirming it as often as you can throughout the day.”

“It has to be a conscious choice.  Conscious choices are rare.  Most choices are subconscious, following an already predetermined pattern of which most people are unaware [which is ‘fate’].  So, another morning, hand over heart, ‘Today I choose appreciation.  Today I will appreciate myself, other people, and my life.’  Choices like this are life-changing.

“Another day, ‘Today I choose respect.  Today I am going to respect myself, other people, and my life.  And so on.  Day-after-day you make the choices that remodel and renovate your life.  But, it all has to be conscious choices, and those choices must be consciously lived.”

Response-Ability 4

May 17, 2017

This ongoing Dance between Pholus (Respond-Ability) and Quaoar (Survival Instincts) has been going on for several years; we’ve just been Paying Attention to other issues because they were more Prominent in the charts.  The Dance has been happening on the Cusp of Capricorn.  We can’t help but think that Pholus-Quaoar is about Global Warming, Ascension, and the Patriarchy.  We think of Capricorn as the “Just Do It” Sign, and Pluto (the Mandatory that can be Directed but not Reversed) is about to enter the Virgo Decanate of Capricorn (2018-2024).  That Decanate would imply “Just Break Down your Olde Ego, K?”

The Cusp of Capricorn is of course the northern Winter Solstice.  In many ancient traditions a Day begins at dusk of what most of us would usually consider the evening before, and a Year begins at the Winter Solstice.  To the Romans it initiated Saturnalia, their equivalent of Oktobefest, a celebration of disregard and reversal of the everyday rules of social discourse.  The conversion of Saturn and Capricorn (which are first cousins) from rule-flaunting to rule-making was done by the early Christians in order to enhance their Political (Either/Or) Control over the People. 

The Romans had the luxury of their Mediterranean climate.  For folks further north, the Winter Solstice meant likely hardship, dependence on Community, and the necessity to Attend to The Most Important Thing – Surviving another northern winter.  That yields the primary keywords for Capricorn and Saturn, respectively Pragmatism and Focus.

Like Aries (northern Spring), Cancer (northern Summer), and Libra (northern Autumn), Capricorn is a Cardinal or Creative Sign, signifying a Rebirth.  Aries is the Rebirth of the Indwelling Spirit (Fire) as fresh evidence of the Life Force emerges in northern Plants and Animals in March.  Cancer is the Rebirth of Compassion (Water), as the northern Earth begins to generate a surplus in June (Radishes at least, and all the Leaves we can eat).  Libra is the Rebirth of Community (Air), as the northern September Harvest requires Cooperation and Fair (ideally anyway) distribution.  And Capricorn is the Rebirth of Attention to Material Form (Earth), as Winter cold and snow demand a Focus on Physical Survival in December.

In parts of the Southern Hemisphere, the same pattern could be repeated because most of the habitable Southern Hemisphere landmass lies much closer to the Equator than in the Northern Hemisphere.  In many locations Aries represents recovery from estivation rather than recovery from hibernation.

We can see Western Civilization as a massive social experiment to see what happens when the Individual is celebrated as the Highest Expression of Huperity, rather than the Community.  Though it very much feels like a failure, it’s not a pass/fail test, it’s an experiment.  The Balance between Community and Individual isn’t a linear trend, it’s a sine curve.  As China replaces Europe and the US in the role of World trendsetter, the Balance will swing back toward Community.  Not that the Chinese are any less Patriachal, they’re just more likely to be smart enough to know when Change is necessary.

Here are a few Timepoints that you can compare to your Journal and your Schedule…

  • Mid-January through November 2015 – Quaoar on Galactic Center
  • Early February through December 2016 – Pholus on Galactic Center
  • Late January 2017 – Quaoar enters Capricorn
  • Early March through November 2017 – Saturn on Galactic Center
  • Late March 2017 – Pholus and Quaoar simultaneously Stationary (turning Retrograde) while one Degree apart across the Capricorn Cusp
  • Early June 2017 – Quaoar backs into Sagittarius
  • Mid-September 2017 – Pholus and Quaoar simultaneously Stationary (turning Direct) in Sagittarius
  • Early December 2017 –
    • Pholus Initiates Saturn in 29 Sagittarius, “A fat boy mowing the lawn of his house on an elegant suburban street
    • Quaoar re-enters Capricorn
  • Late December 2017 –
    • Saturn enters Capricorn
    • Quaoar Initiates Saturn in 1 Capricorn, “An Indian chief claims power from the assembled tribe
  • 2018-2021 – Pholus and Quaoar continue to Dance closely at their Stations
  • 20 February 2022 – Quaoar Initiates Pholus in 7 Capricorn, “A veiled prophet speaks, seized by the power of a god”

Remember that the Digital Age begins in earnest in late 2020.

We can’t address Response-Ability without commenting on “New Age Guilt.”  New Age Guilt is a misunderstanding of Taking-Responsibility-to-Create-Your-Own-Reality that occurs when Creating is seen from the Perspective of Blame.  I’ve a friend that suffers from a serious disease and a nasty hospital-acquired superbug infection.  If they try to Take the Blame for this Past Creation, then absolutely it may turn out to feel like Guilt, though I’m not sure how that Blame or Guilt would be related to “New Age.”

Blame, remember, means Assigning Cause to Past events and circumstances.  Sure, with perfect foresight they might have been somehow able to sidestep the Triggers for their misfortune, but it would be a real stretch to Blame them for it.  On the other hand, my friend is absolutely Taking Responsibility to Improve their Future Outcomes, which is exactly how Response-Ability is defined.  They are very much Intending to Create an Improved Reality for themselves in the Future, preferably the Near Future.

In Jane Roberts’s seminal Nature of Personal Reality, Seth points out that it’s Easy to know the nature of our Karma, all we need to do is summarize our Current-Lifetime Personal History.  So sure, if you want to Blame someone’s Present-Moment Ego for all of their Past Lives, you might aver that they have “Created Their Own Past Reality,” but what a stretch that would be.  It would be like that movie where they prosecuted people for crimes that they might commit in the Future.

That doesn’t mean we don’t all have the Opportunity to review our Current-Lifetime Personal History and try to fathom how to read our Limiting Beliefs from the Funhouse Mirror that it is, and use the information to reduce our Self-Sabotage.  Karma remember is Inertia – Olde Habits and their underlying Beliefs – not Retribution.  The notion that we need to be Punished, for whatever, is just Power-Over, usually perpetrated by Religions and Governments.  So it may make some sense to speak of Religious Guilt or Government Guilt.

Another way to look at the difference between Blame and Response Ability, is to look at how our Ego is defined in our self-concept.  If our Operating Ego is Merged with our Individual Soul, then we may be Open to encompassing all of our other Past and Parallel Lives, and extending our Response Ability to some of the issues in those Lifetimes, including any hypothetical Habits and Beliefs Created in those Lifetimes that may linger into the current Lifetime. Of course we’re talking about Sainthood here.

If on the other hand our Ego is Merged with our Physical Body, which Fear of Death would Betray, since our Soul is immortal; or Merged with our Dualistic mind, which would be Betrayed by the presence of Either/Or Judgment of any kind; or Merged with our Emotions and Betrayed by Resistance or Attachment to any of them.  Knowing this could help us define our homework.

Fate is what happens TO us when we’re Unconscious of the Archetypes (Karma) that run our Lives.  When we bring these into Consciousness we gain the Power to Choose otherwise, often referred to as “Free Will.”  Identifying with our Physical or mental or Emotional Bodies keeps Archetypes frozen in the Unconscious.  Identification with our Individual Soul is an ambitious Goal that most of will never achieve.  However, every step we can take in that direction will reduce our Self-Sabotage.

We can never say how accurate and how metaphorical we might be when sending a Healing to someone else (or even to ourself!), but when I send a Theta Healing to my friend for their affliction, the picture I get is one of Panic.  When I then send a Healing for their affliction and their Panic and their Belief that the superbug can kill their physical body, the picture I get is one of Peace and Competence.  So if we revert to the previous Response-Ability 3 post for Guidance, we might Wonder if it would help my friend to Ask themself whether they have an Ancient memory and a Held Emotion around Fear of Being Poisoned, and if so to see where it might lead to Tap that Out and Poor-Sweetheart it.

Moving from Blame to Response-Ability isn’t easy, because Blame is a Closed Universe.  There are no logical paths out of Blame; the only way to exit is is to PIAVA an exit.  Given our conditioning it’s even more difficult, but we’re even better off if we can glimpse the World through eyes other than Cause and Effect.  Cause and Effect is absolutely dependent on Linear Time, and every Spiritual tradition on the Planet advises that All There Is Is Now. 

Without Cause and Effect, there is no Blame.  Response-Ability can run completely on PIAVAs – no need for Cause and Effect at all.  Your PIAVAs don’t “Cause” your Future Outcomes, they “merely” have potential to shift the Beliefs that Control your Perceptions of “Reality.”

Ending Limitation

April 2, 2017

Curious that both Daniel and Michael focused on Letting Go of our old baggage today.  Daniel…

http://danielscranton.com/re-creating-the-past-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

What we really want you to recognize is that you created something in your past that was meant to serve you in some way, and until you see it that way, it cannot.  You cannot receive the benefit of what you have created until you accept that you created it and that you created it for a very specific reason.  The reason is always that you have something to gain from the experience.

And Michael (2 April “365 Steps” email, http://int.michaelroads.org/ )…

“With the mind full of the detritus of life, it can literally ferment, causing a type of mental inebriation.  This is the person who, addicted to thinking, is regurgitating continually their endless negative mental clutter.  When we surrender the mind, discarding our burden of thought, letting go all attachment to our thoughts, to the ‘rights and wrongs’ of the ‘this and that’ of life, we become mindless.  It is quite a paradox when you consider that we need to be mindless to be more mindful!”

And the emphasis on Expanding beyond Limitation of the last few days – we wouldn’t normally see either of these as particularly Saturnian, though it makes total sense that they would be The Most Important Thing in this day and age.

Well, as is often the case, turns out there are good astological correlates.  What a coincidence!  Among other things, there are two Sign Changes, and a budding Initiation, that are all very relevant.

First, at 4pm PDT on 31 March, asteroid Atropos moved out of Gemini and into Cancer.  Atropos, which symbolizes Endings, has been anchoring one corner of the long-standing and now broken Golden Rectangle that we’ve been discussing for a long while, and which has provided the nest for our profound Yin Gates.

Gemini is good at Letting Go, but it has a short Attention Span; it’s just as likely to Grab It Back as it is to Let It Go permanently.  Letting Go is incidental to Gemini.  It’s primary job is to Disassemble a new Creation in order to find what is and isn’t working and what could be improved.  If the Creation stops working or fails to improve when Gemini Lets Go of a part, Gemini will Put It Back and move on to the next part.

Cancer on the other hand has a definite exogenous Purpose – Nurturing.  So it doesn’t matter if a part of our Creation works (to prop up an obsolete Identity for instance!) or not; if it doesn’t Nurture, Out It Goes.  That explains a lot of the background for Daniel’s and Michael’s readings.

Second, at 12am PDT on 1 April, asteroid Moira left Pisces and entered Aries.  Moira is about “Fate” – that which follows us faithfully till we Get Conscious about it so we can exercise Choice about whether or not we want to keep it and when we might want to use or disuse it.  Pisces is about Finishing Emotional Business.  And Aries is about Intuitively Creating a New Endeavor.

That makes it glaringly obvious that Holding On to what doesn’t work is just silly.  Who needs it!  Aries is completely non-intellectual about its Creation.  Aries has a quick mind, but it won’t have any idea what it’s Building till five years later.  It’s all seat-of-the-pants.

So Moira entering Aries will make us much more Willing to Accept the Unknown.  Normally we reject what we don’t Understand, but here we’ll be very Willing to walk undefended into unknown territory, and very Willing to drop our Defenses to do it.

And third, at 6am on 3 April, dwarf planet Chaos Initiates asteroid Veritas.  Chaos represents the Zero Point Field, or Unlimited Potential.  And Veritas means Truth.  So while previously we shied away from the relative Freedom of our Forbidden Genius because we Feared the Unknown, now we’ll understand the Truth of our Limitlessness, and recognize our former Limits as the Fake News that they were.

The Initiation occurs at 21 Gemini, “A tumultuous labor demonstration.”  This is a 64-month Cycle, so for the next five years we can expect those parts of our Selves that actually do the work – our Identities – to revolt against low wages (Lack of Self-Love), poor working conditions (unnecessary Limitation), and the absence of Respect and Safety (Self-Criticism).

Big Blessing Full Moon – Cutting the Cloth IIIb

March 11, 2017

Okay…

  • We’re still in the “Now” portion of the New Moon chart (ie, the three-Degrees-of- Sensitivity part that pertains to this weekend, this coming week, and a few weeks thereafter), and
  • We’re about to look at the Grace and Curiosity segments of this chart.  
  • In the previous post we looked at the Challenges in this Now portion of the chart.  
  • In our next post we’ll start to look at the “New-Projects” portion of the New Moon chart (ie, the six-Degrees-of-Sensitivity part that pertains to any new projects we’re Beginning, including the New Ego Timeline we’re Birthing with the 13 March Station of Klotho.

So, the Grace in the Now portion of the New Moon chart…

First, paradoxically, Fear and Anger are our Friends here.  Remember that the purpose of a Yin Gate like the one we’ve been Enjoying, is to Teach us to Accept Paradox, and not try to Squeeze it into Either/Or boxes.  If we Strive to Eschew Judgment, which we need to do if we are to move “onward and upward,” then we have to Realize that Everything is at times our Ally and at times our Challenge.

In general, a Full Moon represents a reasonably-friendly Contest between our Paternal Programming and our Maternal Programming.  There may not be one-to-one relationships between Paternal Programming and Paters, and between Maternal Programming and Maters, as we could have gotten either sort of Programming from literally anyone.  In general, our Paternal Programming is Rules-based and Clear, while our Maternal Programming is Situational and Fuzzy.  The former is an intellectual interpretation of the Spiritual, and the latter is more Emotional and Grounded in the Body.

At a Virgo Full Moon like this one, the roles are Confused.  We’re looking at the Emotional side of the Paternal, and the Medusal, apparently-Destructive side of the Maternal.  Our Paternal Programming is especially Confused in this one, because it’s facing Despair, having to make Choices in unfamiliar territory, and Feels like it has very little wiggle-room.  In these circumstances, where our normally-Reliable Archetypes are failing us, Fear and Anger are natural Reactions to the Confusion and Disorder.  

So we have to follow Daniel Scranton’s advice around Fear and Anger…

http://danielscranton.com/explore-your-emotions-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

And then Choose to Relate TO our Fear and not FROM our Fear, and Relate TO our Anger and not FROM our Anger, to use Stephen Levine’s Guidance.  You can use Poor-Sweethearts if you want – “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Confused/Scared/Angry, aren’t you.”  Or any other method of Emotion-Bending and Mind-Bending that works for you.  

Yes, this is very Convoluted.  That’s the whole point.  And from the Perspective of Expanding (or even Exploding) our Perspectives, it’s one hell of a Teaching if we can stick it out and Avoid the Temptation to revert to Certainty.

Whoa, you’re thinking, “That’s Grace?”  Yes, incredible Grace.  In this Rebirth we’re turning ourselves Inside-Out, moving our Vulnerabilities to the Outside, in the form of Openness to the Unexpected, and moving our Protections to the Inside, in the form of Trust that this process with which we have no Current-Lifetime Experience, is Safe for us.  And this Teaching is an excellent Lesson in exactly that.  Without that Trust, we don’t Grow.

Intense.  We’re looking at Sun (Paternal Programming) in Pisces (Exploring the Limits of Emotion) Conjunct (Merged With) Chiron (Despair and Miracle), Pallas (Boundaries), and Moira (Fate), Opposite (Dancing with Duality) Moon (Instinct and Manifestation via PIAVA) in Virgo (Deconstruction of the Ego), with the Opposition Trine-Bridged (Graced) by Sedna (Fear and Anger) in Taurus (Interpretation of Meaning).

I think that’s enough for one sitting, don’t you?  Especially if you actually do the homework,  We’ll continue tomorrow.

Kundalini New Moon

January 26, 2017

We need to start here…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JDCjj9NNevw

The 27 January New Moon (4pm PST) Conjoins the asteroid Lachesis, named for the Bushmaster – largest, most dangerous, and most primitive of the Snakes.  Here’s some notes on the homeopathic remedy Lachesis, by veteran homeopath David Lilley at http://www.britishhomeopathic.org/bha-charity/how-we-can-help/medicine-a-z/lachesis/

“Lachesis may be viewed with the eye of a shaman to better penetrate the snake’s hidden genius.  She provides the matriarchal image of all snakes, for not only is she the largest representative of the most evolved snake family, she is also the only pit-viper that… [produces] eggs, all others… [give] birth to live young.  Hence she is the forerunner, the source and essence of all things serpentine and venomous, and the jungle is her shrine.

“This is significant.  She comes from the bosom of Gaia (Mother Earth), from the reproductive centre of the planet, its metabolic heart, the equatorial rainforests of the Amazon basin.  Here speciation is at its most prodigious; it is Gaia’s hothouse for the generation of diverse life forms – a teeming paradise – a Garden of Eden.  Deep within its steamy density lurks the awesome bushmaster, her venom charged with the creative and destructive passion of the planet.  She is the serpent of our genesis!”

Isn’t this intriguing, as we near the end of our Lilith-Sedna Yin Gate.  Lilith was the original Female Huper, who in search of Self-Sovereignty left Adam before he and his Rib allowed the Serpent to Apple them.  The Yin Gate is about accepting the Paradox that we must Embrace our Fears (Sedna) to attain our Sovereignty.  Lilley continues (hmm, Lilley, Lilith, curious)…

“In the Judeo-Christian creation myth the snake is portrayed as the evil tempter and seducer, the very personification of deception and intrigue, premeditating and perpetrating the downfall of mankind.  Aptly it is coiled round the Tree of Knowledge, or of Intellect, and induces Adam, via Eve, to partake of the fruit and lose his innocence – the innocence of instinctive, animal existence that keeps the urges and impulses within the bounds of natural restraint and in harmony with life’s laws.  

“This is symbolic of mankind attaining that level of intellectual and emotional capacity which permits ‘freedom of choice’ and custodianship of the conscience, a release, unfolding and responsibility which were bound to bring conceit and conflict.

“There is no cult more universal or ambivalent than that of the serpent.  In ancient cultures the snake was above all a magical and religious image of the creator divinity itself, or a symbol of the primeval life force, the primitive animal will, which it is our destiny to wrestle and ultimately subdue.  

“As such it embodies all man’s potentialities, the divine and the mortal, the sacred and the profane, and the contention between the two.  The snake has always been perceived as a dualistic force, a source of strength when mastered, but potentially dangerous and often emblematic of chaos and corruption when yielded to.”

“Rooted since antiquity in paradox and polarity, duality is the very essence of the snake, of Lachesis and of the subject who requires this wonderful remedy.  As with so many of us, they are in contention with themselves – the lower self opposes the higher, the animal nature vies with the human, deceit confronts sincerity, egotism struggles against selflessness, arrogance competes with diffidence and perversity challenges morality.  Conscience and desire strive for dominance.  The entire sphere of spiritual conflict is the battlefield of Lachesis.  The conflict is often heroic.”

Of course, the “subject who requires this wonderful remedy” is our Planet, Cultures, and Identities at this point in Linear Time.

“The venom from which the remedy is prepared is immensely powerful and destructive and those who require it are proportionately of an intense and passionate nature.  The Lachesis individual is ever in danger of being possessed by passions and feelings.  They are aware of the struggle within them, their labile emotions and thoughts and their unpredictability.  

“At times they feel at the mercy of their emotions, torn between the promptings of their heart and their head, between their thoughts and feelings and between desire and guilt.  If they are unable to indulge their passions or sublimate their emotions through creative release, they will have to repress them and the price is emotional or physical ill-health.

The snake in movement is a miracle to behold.  Without legs to propel it the creature flows effortlessly along, like a shining rivulet – sinuous and silent.  The entire energy of the snake is manifested in fluidity and flow.  In the course of evolution the snake withdrew its limbs to attain flow.  Its venom contains enzymes, which dissolve and digest the tissues of its prey, causing what was firm and solid to break down into a fluid form, which can flow.  Flow is intrinsic to the snake and this is equally true of the Lachesis person.  In any condition where suppression of flow or function predominates, be it emotional, intellectual or physiological, Lachesis may be indicated.”

The bushmaster is a master of camouflage.  It is a “sit and wait” predator, using its cryptic colouring to deceive and ambush its prey.  In a similar manner the Lachesis individual can practice cunning and deceit to waylay the innocent and naïve.  They don [sic] a deceptive mask to conceal their unscrupulous intentions – they are not what they seem.  They hatch plots and schemes to catch the unwary, but also to revenge themselves against those they consider enemies.”

The snake has always been recognised as a sexual or phallic symbol, implying a strong sexuality and a powerful libido or sex drive.  The sexual energy is the most fundamental energy of Lachesis and its power lies behind the intensity, the turbulent passion and the creative genius of the archetype.  It must find expression sexually, creatively, religiously or spiritually.  It may not be suppressed.”

“The sexuality is always coiled and ready to strike. Many will say that if their sex life is good, life is good.  It is part of the flow so essential to snake life; it relieves tension and stress.  The female particularly brings to a relationship a passionate romanticism and ardour, which enriches it.  She is conscious of her sexuality and its power and uses it.  She moves with serpentine grace and is able to charge the simplest action with sexual energy.”

Both the asteroid and the Bushmaster were named after the Mythological Lachesis, one of the three Fates, she who alotted the Length of Life – which we interpret as the Longevity of an Egoic Identity, since that is what we actually Experience as “Life.”  We of course, are very recently Reborn, as dwarf planet Haumea, symbolizing Rebirth, has been greatly magnified for the last several weeks.

It’s important to remember that Fate and Free Will, like all Dualities, are properties of the Observing Either/Or Mind, not properties of the Observed Both/And Universe.

There are actually four asteroids named after the Fates – Klotho who cuts the fabric of a Life, Lachesis who measures its Length, Atropos who cuts the chord when Time is up, and Moira whose name collectively symbolizes all three aspects of Fate.  And all four of these asteroids are Lit Up during this New Moon, and by extension, during the next several weeks.  If you told someone that we are entering a Fateful Month, you’d be quite correct.

Moira herself – Fate per se – is very busy flushing out all our Memories of being trapped on the Victim side of the Abuse/Privilege Coin.  This is not a Coin you want to be on either side of, actually, because Privilege is the flip side of Abuse, and the Unconscious (which, lest we forget, happens to run the show here) recognizes only Dimension, not Direction.  In other words, Victim and Perp are the same Energy, just witnessed from different angles.  We’d prefer to be off that Dimension entirely.  Avenging our Victim just makes us Victim of our own Perp.

Asteroid Moira sits in a Stellium with Nessus (Abuse and Privilege), OR10 (Irruption of Unconscious Contents), and the South Node (our Karmic Archetypes and Forbidden Emotions), Opposing the Royal Star Regulus.  The four Royal Stars all symbolized Successful Endeavors but for a downfall, each Star having its own Curse.  Regulus symbolizes Success as long as one avoids Revenge.

Asteroid Klotho, who weaves the fabric of Life, is just behind the curtain, about to enter Act Two of our Yin Gate, where Lilith/Self-Sovereignty is replaced by Sappho/Self-Love Conjoining Klotho.  Having achieved Self-Sovereignty by Being Fully Responsible to our Unconscious Fears, we’re about to assemble a whole new Timeline, or Ego-Lifetime, founded in Self-Love.

And asteroid Atropos, mistress of Endings, Conjoins dwarf planet Chaos.  Chaos, recall, represents Unlimited Potential, and Dances with our Forbidden Genius in the Golden Rectangle, promising the Sky when we fully Embrace our Uniqueness.  We explained the ongoing Golden Rectangle in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/01/19/january-week-3-end-big-doins/ (and many earlier posts).  We interpret this Atropos-Chaos Conjunction as an End to our Limits, or Reconsideration of what we thought was Impossible.

We’ll talk about how this New Moon Challenges our Hope in the next installment.

Yintegrity Rising

June 23, 2016

A reader writes…

I don’t think they are happy with me.  I am not following their tradition and I’m not sure what the impact of that will be, but I don’t care!  I’m not doing what I should, I’m doing what I want.  And that is SO different for me.

“I’ve always been the analyze/plan/execute person.  I do my duty.  I fulfill my promises.  If I commit, I follow through.  Period.  No doubt.  No question.  I guess what you would call “Yangtegrity.”  And it has served me well.  Very well.  For my whole life.

“Over the past…18 months, two years, there’s been a growing resistance to all of it!  I don’t even want to show up half the time!  (I’ve always taught my kids-Showing up is 80% of success.)  My intellect is so confused, my ego is having panic attacks.  Is this moving into Yintegrity?  

“There’s a third part of me that is very calmly standing by, reassuring that we’ll work out a new way of functioning, everything will be fine, the earth will not stop spinning on its axis.  So is that the pressure and fear I’m feeling?  The shift into Yintegrity?”

You bet!!  

And like any Big Change, there’s a hollow space, a gap, where our Olde Ego is in Lackawanna (“I know I’m done for; why should I care?”), and our New Ego hasn’t got its training wheels on straight yet.  So we’re wobbly.  Confusion is good; it’s a reliable sign that we’re Growing.  Anxiety is common, as our Olde Patriarchy-Attuned Egos needed to know what was going on so they could figure out who to Please how, when.

Time for PIAVAs.  “Great Spirit, please help me Trust my True Future so I can Surrender my False Past more comfortably” or the like.  “I wonder where the Hell I’m going, anyway.”  With Saturn Waning Square to Neptune and moving into the Void Space between them, The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is Confusion (Neptune).  Neptune symbolizes Confusion when viewing the World through Material Eyes, and Clarity when we shift to Spiritual Eyes.  “Ganeshi, please Remove all Obstacles to Opening my Third Eye.”

 Another timely story…

https://alchemicalastrology.wordpress.com/2016/06/21/professionautism/

Love the title – ProfessionAutism.  I read it as Professionalism twice before I noticed the Aut.  In another post she says Pluto is on her Moon – I don’t know of any greater Emotional Challenge.  A perfect time to “hang loose,” but not even that is easy under Pluto-Moon.  “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that Ease and Grace fill my Life.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess. … Show me.”

That’s a simplified form of Theta Healing.  Once you say “Show me,” look to see whether your Vision or other Intuitive Sense shows you bathed in Ease and Grace.  If not, look to see what else you need to Command.  Maybe Trust, or Enough to Eat, or just Breathing.

When the World, or your Community, or just your Household or Camp, operates through Yintegrity, the whole World is different.  People do things when they want to, and when someone resents something not being done, it’s up to them to recognize that it’s their job to do.  Or their job to inspire (not require or bully) someone else to do it, maybe as a group project where participation is of course optional – you would join or not because, in the moment, it’s more fun than doing otherwise.  

The Most Important Thing gets done, even if it’s not what you thought was The Most Important Thing.  Between the Waning Saturn Square to Neptune and the next Initiation, Cultures break down.  The next Neptune-Saturn Initiation isn’t until 2026, six years into the Digital Age.  It’s at the Aries Point – Manifestation into (Feminine) Form.  Aries Creates by Instinct, not by having a picture beforehand of the “finished” product.  Creating and “finishing” are two different Universes, with only accidental intersections.

Here’s a picture of it anyway – it’s not a “finished” picture, but a picture of the Yintegrity process unfolding…

https://cristenrodgers.net/2016/06/23/speak-your-truth-not-your-mind/

I would suggest though, that “The ways in which Other Living Things can speak may also be almost infinite – the truth or a lie, clearly or in riddles, with language or with art.”  We maybe just haven’t heard them yet, till we get our Third Eye – or Ear – Open.  And that Everything is Living.

And, Saturn runs a Gauntlet of Initiations before it gets back to Neptune – Ixion, Pholus, Quaoar, the Galactic Center, Chariklo, Hylonome, Pluto. OR10, and Nessus!  Saturn will be a very different Animal by then, and we will be too.  Sounds like this Gauntlet would be worth a post of its own, eh?

And we didn’t even notice that Saturn was Initiated by the Great Attractor this last February, with an Exposition in May!  The Great Attractor is Headquarters to the Galactic Center – Cosmic HQ.  No wonder it’s been a heavy year so far, as if we haven’t had enough excuses!  We’re being asked to align ourselves with an Energy more Powerful than even Galactic Energy.

Eris-Uranus New Moon

June 3, 2016

Bottom Line

The 4 June New Moon is a major trigger for the 9 June Eris-Uranus Initiation, which is about Getting Honest with Ourselves around our formerly-Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  We’ve also referred to them as Masks and Archetypes, and Despair.  This is really about Rebirth.  Unfortunately it may not be the most Effortless Birth, as our favorite Pattern is to cling to our Olde Ego while the New Ego is trying to get born.  That’s very painful.

We have to Let Go and Let God/Goddess.  Trust the process.  Whenever the going gets tough, recognize that you’re in Resistance to the Change.  It may not at all be obvious what else you can do besides Resist – Resistance is your Olde Ego trying to Survive, and that’s exactly what Egos do for a living, they’re good at it, and that’s why you hire them, because when they Survive, you Survive.  Except during the occasional Rebirths; we have to endure an Ego Death to allow a Rebirth.  

Your New Ego isn’t formed yet, and while we may have an inkling where to find its chrysalis, we won’t know what it Feels like.  So we’re stuck with PIAVAs (“God/Goddess, please give me a clue what to do besides Resist” or “I Wonder what it will Feel like when I finish wriggling out of this old carapace that’s so tight I can’t Breathe”) and Tapping (“Even though I feel worthless and hopeless, I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself”) and Empathizing (“You poor Sweetheart, you really feel like you’re being tortured, don’t you”) and the like.

Once you succeed in Letting Go, you’ll be surprised at how quickly it gets Easy.

 

Details

1.  There’s a big Challenge to Embrace our Despair.  Remember that “Unconscious Despair” is failure to Believe that what you Need is even Possible.  Set aside your YesButs for a moment and Imagine that you could have what you Need or Want.  Now go back to your YesButs and convert each one to a YesAnd.  “YesBut you just aren’t Sexy enough to get that” might become “YesAnd I just Need one Lover.”  “YesBut you’ll never be able to earn enough Money for that” may be “YesAnd What If someone gave it to me as a Gift!”

You want to Touch that Feeling that you would have if your Dream came true, and hold it as long as you can, till it becomes a when rather than an if,  If you can hold that Feeling enough, it won’t matter whether your Dream actually Manifests, because you’ll already have what your Dream would have given you – Peace, Joy, Excitement, Self-Respect, Power, Grace.  What’s a Lover or a Red Convertible compared to that!  And if you had those Feelings most of the time, you could probably score Lovers and Convertibles pretty easy, if you still wanted to.

This is the difference between your Deepest Desires and your Mission in the Lifetime.  What you Desire isn’t actually the Object of your Dreams, it only seems that way because you live in a Material World.  What you actually Crave, what you came her to achieve, is How the Object of your Dreams Makes you Feel.  From that Feeling you can have anything you Ask for.  And guess what!  You’ll be Asking for different things, and they won’t have any YesButs.  It’s a Hologram, y’know, and you’re the projector.

2.  While this is a big Challenge, it doesn’t come without tools that can actually make it pretty Easy.  However, to manifest the Ease, we have to realize that Rebirth is the Ego’s Least Favorite party game, and Love our Olde Ego into oblivion.  Try Gratitude that It’s gotten you this far.  Try just really really appreciating how incredibly Comfortable your Olde Ego Feels, and PIAVA that your New Ego is going to Feel even more Comfortable once you’ve moved through the Grief of Giving Up your Olde Friend who’s kept you Safe.

3.  What will make your Rebirth Easier?  Getting Honest about what you’ve been trying to hide from yourself.  You may not know the details, but you know the general theme.  Abuse?  You don’t need to remember who or when, you just need to Trust your Feelings about it.  Fear?  Anger?  Embrace them.  Locate them in your Body, and move all of your Attention into the center of that place, and hold it there.  Bring it back when it wanders.  Stay with it till it dissolves or moves.  If it moves, follow it.

Eventually you’ll need to Surrender all Blame.  Blame looks toward the Past to assign Cause, while Responsibility looks toward the Future to improve Outcomes.  Any time you catch yourself attributing some Emotion or Sensation in your Body to any outside Cause, stop and bring your Attention back into your Body.  I’m always gnawing at myself because my neighbors have no idea what I’m trying to do in my Garden, and condemn it as a Jungle.

I need to catch myself thinking that, and bring my Attention back into my own Body.  Those Emotions and Sensations have their Roots in my Personal and Karmic Histories.  Those are my Emotions, the neighbors only trigger them.  I need to take up the Practice of locating them in my Body, and Loving them right where they are, exactly as they are.  If I Reject any Emotion, I dampen them all, and without any of them I’m not a Whole Person, I’m dis-eased.

Use this general model with everything that you suspect may be lurking in your Underwhere – Inadequacy, Self-Hate, Belief in Fate, Addiction, Guilt, Shame, any Limiting Belief, and anything else that comes up.  When the Emotion begins to Overwhelm, Tap it Out.

4.  The whole chart actually falls into a pool of Enormous Grace, but there’s a leak in the pool.  To plug it, we need to recognize the Challenges we’ve Lived through, Honor ourself for Living through them, and be Willing to talk about them so others can Learn from our travails.

 

The Astrology

  1.  Aside from the Eris-Uranus Initiation itself of course, the primary focus of the chart is a Chiron T-Square (Challenge to Convert Despair to Miracles) across and Opposition between an Ixion-Pholus Conjunction (Taking Full Responsibility to Let our Orphaned Genius out of the closet) and a Karma-Chaos Conjunction (But without my old Patterns it all looks Chaotic! or Karma is Dead; Long Live Karma!).
  2. This T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) is actually a Diamond Star (Making what would be difficult, Easy), with Sappho (Self-Love) and a Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction (either Feeling like you had this coming, or Recognizing that Rebirth feels like Death because they’re just different sides of the same Coin) on the feet of the Chiron Yod.
  3. The Eris-Uranus Initiation (Revelation of Denial) is at the focus of a Quintile Yod (huge Learning Opportunity).  However, the Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction Opposes the Eris-Uranus Initiation, converting the QYod into a Quintile Kite and shifting some of the emphasis onto Haumea-Nemesis.  A Yod pointing to a Sedna-Atropos Conjunction (The Demise of Fear, foreshadowed of course by the Fear of Demise) from the base of the Sextile from Haumea-Nemesis to Ixion-Pholus.
  4. Eris-Uranus, Karma-Chaos, Sappho, Haumea-Nemesis, and Ixion-Pholus form five points of a Grand Sextile (Enormous Grace, though we need to take the first step).  The Vacancy is 24 Aquarius, “A person, having overcome their compulsions, shares the deep wisdom that results from their experience: The constructive use to which difficult past experiences can be put as examples for those who are still striving to overcome their compulsions,” aka Archetypes/Masks/Karma.