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Response-Ability 4

May 17, 2017

This ongoing Dance between Pholus (Respond-Ability) and Quaoar (Survival Instincts) has been going on for several years; we’ve just been Paying Attention to other issues because they were more Prominent in the charts.  The Dance has been happening on the Cusp of Capricorn.  We can’t help but think that Pholus-Quaoar is about Global Warming, Ascension, and the Patriarchy.  We think of Capricorn as the “Just Do It” Sign, and Pluto (the Mandatory that can be Directed but not Reversed) is about to enter the Virgo Decanate of Capricorn (2018-2024).  That Decanate would imply “Just Break Down your Olde Ego, K?”

The Cusp of Capricorn is of course the northern Winter Solstice.  In many ancient traditions a Day begins at dusk of what most of us would usually consider the evening before, and a Year begins at the Winter Solstice.  To the Romans it initiated Saturnalia, their equivalent of Oktobefest, a celebration of disregard and reversal of the everyday rules of social discourse.  The conversion of Saturn and Capricorn (which are first cousins) from rule-flaunting to rule-making was done by the early Christians in order to enhance their Political (Either/Or) Control over the People. 

The Romans had the luxury of their Mediterranean climate.  For folks further north, the Winter Solstice meant likely hardship, dependence on Community, and the necessity to Attend to The Most Important Thing – Surviving another northern winter.  That yields the primary keywords for Capricorn and Saturn, respectively Pragmatism and Focus.

Like Aries (northern Spring), Cancer (northern Summer), and Libra (northern Autumn), Capricorn is a Cardinal or Creative Sign, signifying a Rebirth.  Aries is the Rebirth of the Indwelling Spirit (Fire) as fresh evidence of the Life Force emerges in northern Plants and Animals in March.  Cancer is the Rebirth of Compassion (Water), as the northern Earth begins to generate a surplus in June (Radishes at least, and all the Leaves we can eat).  Libra is the Rebirth of Community (Air), as the northern September Harvest requires Cooperation and Fair (ideally anyway) distribution.  And Capricorn is the Rebirth of Attention to Material Form (Earth), as Winter cold and snow demand a Focus on Physical Survival in December.

In parts of the Southern Hemisphere, the same pattern could be repeated because most of the habitable Southern Hemisphere landmass lies much closer to the Equator than in the Northern Hemisphere.  In many locations Aries represents recovery from estivation rather than recovery from hibernation.

We can see Western Civilization as a massive social experiment to see what happens when the Individual is celebrated as the Highest Expression of Huperity, rather than the Community.  Though it very much feels like a failure, it’s not a pass/fail test, it’s an experiment.  The Balance between Community and Individual isn’t a linear trend, it’s a sine curve.  As China replaces Europe and the US in the role of World trendsetter, the Balance will swing back toward Community.  Not that the Chinese are any less Patriachal, they’re just more likely to be smart enough to know when Change is necessary.

Here are a few Timepoints that you can compare to your Journal and your Schedule…

  • Mid-January through November 2015 – Quaoar on Galactic Center
  • Early February through December 2016 – Pholus on Galactic Center
  • Late January 2017 – Quaoar enters Capricorn
  • Early March through November 2017 – Saturn on Galactic Center
  • Late March 2017 – Pholus and Quaoar simultaneously Stationary (turning Retrograde) while one Degree apart across the Capricorn Cusp
  • Early June 2017 – Quaoar backs into Sagittarius
  • Mid-September 2017 – Pholus and Quaoar simultaneously Stationary (turning Direct) in Sagittarius
  • Early December 2017 –
    • Pholus Initiates Saturn in 29 Sagittarius, “A fat boy mowing the lawn of his house on an elegant suburban street
    • Quaoar re-enters Capricorn
  • Late December 2017 –
    • Saturn enters Capricorn
    • Quaoar Initiates Saturn in 1 Capricorn, “An Indian chief claims power from the assembled tribe
  • 2018-2021 – Pholus and Quaoar continue to Dance closely at their Stations
  • 20 February 2022 – Quaoar Initiates Pholus in 7 Capricorn, “A veiled prophet speaks, seized by the power of a god”

Remember that the Digital Age begins in earnest in late 2020.

We can’t address Response-Ability without commenting on “New Age Guilt.”  New Age Guilt is a misunderstanding of Taking-Responsibility-to-Create-Your-Own-Reality that occurs when Creating is seen from the Perspective of Blame.  I’ve a friend that suffers from a serious disease and a nasty hospital-acquired superbug infection.  If they try to Take the Blame for this Past Creation, then absolutely it may turn out to feel like Guilt, though I’m not sure how that Blame or Guilt would be related to “New Age.”

Blame, remember, means Assigning Cause to Past events and circumstances.  Sure, with perfect foresight they might have been somehow able to sidestep the Triggers for their misfortune, but it would be a real stretch to Blame them for it.  On the other hand, my friend is absolutely Taking Responsibility to Improve their Future Outcomes, which is exactly how Response-Ability is defined.  They are very much Intending to Create an Improved Reality for themselves in the Future, preferably the Near Future.

In Jane Roberts’s seminal Nature of Personal Reality, Seth points out that it’s Easy to know the nature of our Karma, all we need to do is summarize our Current-Lifetime Personal History.  So sure, if you want to Blame someone’s Present-Moment Ego for all of their Past Lives, you might aver that they have “Created Their Own Past Reality,” but what a stretch that would be.  It would be like that movie where they prosecuted people for crimes that they might commit in the Future.

That doesn’t mean we don’t all have the Opportunity to review our Current-Lifetime Personal History and try to fathom how to read our Limiting Beliefs from the Funhouse Mirror that it is, and use the information to reduce our Self-Sabotage.  Karma remember is Inertia – Olde Habits and their underlying Beliefs – not Retribution.  The notion that we need to be Punished, for whatever, is just Power-Over, usually perpetrated by Religions and Governments.  So it may make some sense to speak of Religious Guilt or Government Guilt.

Another way to look at the difference between Blame and Response Ability, is to look at how our Ego is defined in our self-concept.  If our Operating Ego is Merged with our Individual Soul, then we may be Open to encompassing all of our other Past and Parallel Lives, and extending our Response Ability to some of the issues in those Lifetimes, including any hypothetical Habits and Beliefs Created in those Lifetimes that may linger into the current Lifetime. Of course we’re talking about Sainthood here.

If on the other hand our Ego is Merged with our Physical Body, which Fear of Death would Betray, since our Soul is immortal; or Merged with our Dualistic mind, which would be Betrayed by the presence of Either/Or Judgment of any kind; or Merged with our Emotions and Betrayed by Resistance or Attachment to any of them.  Knowing this could help us define our homework.

Fate is what happens TO us when we’re Unconscious of the Archetypes (Karma) that run our Lives.  When we bring these into Consciousness we gain the Power to Choose otherwise, often referred to as “Free Will.”  Identifying with our Physical or mental or Emotional Bodies keeps Archetypes frozen in the Unconscious.  Identification with our Individual Soul is an ambitious Goal that most of will never achieve.  However, every step we can take in that direction will reduce our Self-Sabotage.

We can never say how accurate and how metaphorical we might be when sending a Healing to someone else (or even to ourself!), but when I send a Theta Healing to my friend for their affliction, the picture I get is one of Panic.  When I then send a Healing for their affliction and their Panic and their Belief that the superbug can kill their physical body, the picture I get is one of Peace and Competence.  So if we revert to the previous Response-Ability 3 post for Guidance, we might Wonder if it would help my friend to Ask themself whether they have an Ancient memory and a Held Emotion around Fear of Being Poisoned, and if so to see where it might lead to Tap that Out and Poor-Sweetheart it.

Moving from Blame to Response-Ability isn’t easy, because Blame is a Closed Universe.  There are no logical paths out of Blame; the only way to exit is is to PIAVA an exit.  Given our conditioning it’s even more difficult, but we’re even better off if we can glimpse the World through eyes other than Cause and Effect.  Cause and Effect is absolutely dependent on Linear Time, and every Spiritual tradition on the Planet advises that All There Is Is Now. 

Without Cause and Effect, there is no Blame.  Response-Ability can run completely on PIAVAs – no need for Cause and Effect at all.  Your PIAVAs don’t “Cause” your Future Outcomes, they “merely” have potential to shift the Beliefs that Control your Perceptions of “Reality.”

Ending Limitation

April 2, 2017

Curious that both Daniel and Michael focused on Letting Go of our old baggage today.  Daniel…

http://danielscranton.com/re-creating-the-past-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

What we really want you to recognize is that you created something in your past that was meant to serve you in some way, and until you see it that way, it cannot.  You cannot receive the benefit of what you have created until you accept that you created it and that you created it for a very specific reason.  The reason is always that you have something to gain from the experience.

And Michael (2 April “365 Steps” email, http://int.michaelroads.org/ )…

“With the mind full of the detritus of life, it can literally ferment, causing a type of mental inebriation.  This is the person who, addicted to thinking, is regurgitating continually their endless negative mental clutter.  When we surrender the mind, discarding our burden of thought, letting go all attachment to our thoughts, to the ‘rights and wrongs’ of the ‘this and that’ of life, we become mindless.  It is quite a paradox when you consider that we need to be mindless to be more mindful!”

And the emphasis on Expanding beyond Limitation of the last few days – we wouldn’t normally see either of these as particularly Saturnian, though it makes total sense that they would be The Most Important Thing in this day and age.

Well, as is often the case, turns out there are good astological correlates.  What a coincidence!  Among other things, there are two Sign Changes, and a budding Initiation, that are all very relevant.

First, at 4pm PDT on 31 March, asteroid Atropos moved out of Gemini and into Cancer.  Atropos, which symbolizes Endings, has been anchoring one corner of the long-standing and now broken Golden Rectangle that we’ve been discussing for a long while, and which has provided the nest for our profound Yin Gates.

Gemini is good at Letting Go, but it has a short Attention Span; it’s just as likely to Grab It Back as it is to Let It Go permanently.  Letting Go is incidental to Gemini.  It’s primary job is to Disassemble a new Creation in order to find what is and isn’t working and what could be improved.  If the Creation stops working or fails to improve when Gemini Lets Go of a part, Gemini will Put It Back and move on to the next part.

Cancer on the other hand has a definite exogenous Purpose – Nurturing.  So it doesn’t matter if a part of our Creation works (to prop up an obsolete Identity for instance!) or not; if it doesn’t Nurture, Out It Goes.  That explains a lot of the background for Daniel’s and Michael’s readings.

Second, at 12am PDT on 1 April, asteroid Moira left Pisces and entered Aries.  Moira is about “Fate” – that which follows us faithfully till we Get Conscious about it so we can exercise Choice about whether or not we want to keep it and when we might want to use or disuse it.  Pisces is about Finishing Emotional Business.  And Aries is about Intuitively Creating a New Endeavor.

That makes it glaringly obvious that Holding On to what doesn’t work is just silly.  Who needs it!  Aries is completely non-intellectual about its Creation.  Aries has a quick mind, but it won’t have any idea what it’s Building till five years later.  It’s all seat-of-the-pants.

So Moira entering Aries will make us much more Willing to Accept the Unknown.  Normally we reject what we don’t Understand, but here we’ll be very Willing to walk undefended into unknown territory, and very Willing to drop our Defenses to do it.

And third, at 6am on 3 April, dwarf planet Chaos Initiates asteroid Veritas.  Chaos represents the Zero Point Field, or Unlimited Potential.  And Veritas means Truth.  So while previously we shied away from the relative Freedom of our Forbidden Genius because we Feared the Unknown, now we’ll understand the Truth of our Limitlessness, and recognize our former Limits as the Fake News that they were.

The Initiation occurs at 21 Gemini, “A tumultuous labor demonstration.”  This is a 64-month Cycle, so for the next five years we can expect those parts of our Selves that actually do the work – our Identities – to revolt against low wages (Lack of Self-Love), poor working conditions (unnecessary Limitation), and the absence of Respect and Safety (Self-Criticism).

Big Blessing Full Moon – Cutting the Cloth IIIb

March 11, 2017

Okay…

  • We’re still in the “Now” portion of the New Moon chart (ie, the three-Degrees-of- Sensitivity part that pertains to this weekend, this coming week, and a few weeks thereafter), and
  • We’re about to look at the Grace and Curiosity segments of this chart.  
  • In the previous post we looked at the Challenges in this Now portion of the chart.  
  • In our next post we’ll start to look at the “New-Projects” portion of the New Moon chart (ie, the six-Degrees-of-Sensitivity part that pertains to any new projects we’re Beginning, including the New Ego Timeline we’re Birthing with the 13 March Station of Klotho.

So, the Grace in the Now portion of the New Moon chart…

First, paradoxically, Fear and Anger are our Friends here.  Remember that the purpose of a Yin Gate like the one we’ve been Enjoying, is to Teach us to Accept Paradox, and not try to Squeeze it into Either/Or boxes.  If we Strive to Eschew Judgment, which we need to do if we are to move “onward and upward,” then we have to Realize that Everything is at times our Ally and at times our Challenge.

In general, a Full Moon represents a reasonably-friendly Contest between our Paternal Programming and our Maternal Programming.  There may not be one-to-one relationships between Paternal Programming and Paters, and between Maternal Programming and Maters, as we could have gotten either sort of Programming from literally anyone.  In general, our Paternal Programming is Rules-based and Clear, while our Maternal Programming is Situational and Fuzzy.  The former is an intellectual interpretation of the Spiritual, and the latter is more Emotional and Grounded in the Body.

At a Virgo Full Moon like this one, the roles are Confused.  We’re looking at the Emotional side of the Paternal, and the Medusal, apparently-Destructive side of the Maternal.  Our Paternal Programming is especially Confused in this one, because it’s facing Despair, having to make Choices in unfamiliar territory, and Feels like it has very little wiggle-room.  In these circumstances, where our normally-Reliable Archetypes are failing us, Fear and Anger are natural Reactions to the Confusion and Disorder.  

So we have to follow Daniel Scranton’s advice around Fear and Anger…

http://danielscranton.com/explore-your-emotions-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

And then Choose to Relate TO our Fear and not FROM our Fear, and Relate TO our Anger and not FROM our Anger, to use Stephen Levine’s Guidance.  You can use Poor-Sweethearts if you want – “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Confused/Scared/Angry, aren’t you.”  Or any other method of Emotion-Bending and Mind-Bending that works for you.  

Yes, this is very Convoluted.  That’s the whole point.  And from the Perspective of Expanding (or even Exploding) our Perspectives, it’s one hell of a Teaching if we can stick it out and Avoid the Temptation to revert to Certainty.

Whoa, you’re thinking, “That’s Grace?”  Yes, incredible Grace.  In this Rebirth we’re turning ourselves Inside-Out, moving our Vulnerabilities to the Outside, in the form of Openness to the Unexpected, and moving our Protections to the Inside, in the form of Trust that this process with which we have no Current-Lifetime Experience, is Safe for us.  And this Teaching is an excellent Lesson in exactly that.  Without that Trust, we don’t Grow.

Intense.  We’re looking at Sun (Paternal Programming) in Pisces (Exploring the Limits of Emotion) Conjunct (Merged With) Chiron (Despair and Miracle), Pallas (Boundaries), and Moira (Fate), Opposite (Dancing with Duality) Moon (Instinct and Manifestation via PIAVA) in Virgo (Deconstruction of the Ego), with the Opposition Trine-Bridged (Graced) by Sedna (Fear and Anger) in Taurus (Interpretation of Meaning).

I think that’s enough for one sitting, don’t you?  Especially if you actually do the homework,  We’ll continue tomorrow.

Kundalini New Moon

January 26, 2017

We need to start here…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JDCjj9NNevw

The 27 January New Moon (4pm PST) Conjoins the asteroid Lachesis, named for the Bushmaster – largest, most dangerous, and most primitive of the Snakes.  Here’s some notes on the homeopathic remedy Lachesis, by veteran homeopath David Lilley at http://www.britishhomeopathic.org/bha-charity/how-we-can-help/medicine-a-z/lachesis/

“Lachesis may be viewed with the eye of a shaman to better penetrate the snake’s hidden genius.  She provides the matriarchal image of all snakes, for not only is she the largest representative of the most evolved snake family, she is also the only pit-viper that… [produces] eggs, all others… [give] birth to live young.  Hence she is the forerunner, the source and essence of all things serpentine and venomous, and the jungle is her shrine.

“This is significant.  She comes from the bosom of Gaia (Mother Earth), from the reproductive centre of the planet, its metabolic heart, the equatorial rainforests of the Amazon basin.  Here speciation is at its most prodigious; it is Gaia’s hothouse for the generation of diverse life forms – a teeming paradise – a Garden of Eden.  Deep within its steamy density lurks the awesome bushmaster, her venom charged with the creative and destructive passion of the planet.  She is the serpent of our genesis!”

Isn’t this intriguing, as we near the end of our Lilith-Sedna Yin Gate.  Lilith was the original Female Huper, who in search of Self-Sovereignty left Adam before he and his Rib allowed the Serpent to Apple them.  The Yin Gate is about accepting the Paradox that we must Embrace our Fears (Sedna) to attain our Sovereignty.  Lilley continues (hmm, Lilley, Lilith, curious)…

“In the Judeo-Christian creation myth the snake is portrayed as the evil tempter and seducer, the very personification of deception and intrigue, premeditating and perpetrating the downfall of mankind.  Aptly it is coiled round the Tree of Knowledge, or of Intellect, and induces Adam, via Eve, to partake of the fruit and lose his innocence – the innocence of instinctive, animal existence that keeps the urges and impulses within the bounds of natural restraint and in harmony with life’s laws.  

“This is symbolic of mankind attaining that level of intellectual and emotional capacity which permits ‘freedom of choice’ and custodianship of the conscience, a release, unfolding and responsibility which were bound to bring conceit and conflict.

“There is no cult more universal or ambivalent than that of the serpent.  In ancient cultures the snake was above all a magical and religious image of the creator divinity itself, or a symbol of the primeval life force, the primitive animal will, which it is our destiny to wrestle and ultimately subdue.  

“As such it embodies all man’s potentialities, the divine and the mortal, the sacred and the profane, and the contention between the two.  The snake has always been perceived as a dualistic force, a source of strength when mastered, but potentially dangerous and often emblematic of chaos and corruption when yielded to.”

“Rooted since antiquity in paradox and polarity, duality is the very essence of the snake, of Lachesis and of the subject who requires this wonderful remedy.  As with so many of us, they are in contention with themselves – the lower self opposes the higher, the animal nature vies with the human, deceit confronts sincerity, egotism struggles against selflessness, arrogance competes with diffidence and perversity challenges morality.  Conscience and desire strive for dominance.  The entire sphere of spiritual conflict is the battlefield of Lachesis.  The conflict is often heroic.”

Of course, the “subject who requires this wonderful remedy” is our Planet, Cultures, and Identities at this point in Linear Time.

“The venom from which the remedy is prepared is immensely powerful and destructive and those who require it are proportionately of an intense and passionate nature.  The Lachesis individual is ever in danger of being possessed by passions and feelings.  They are aware of the struggle within them, their labile emotions and thoughts and their unpredictability.  

“At times they feel at the mercy of their emotions, torn between the promptings of their heart and their head, between their thoughts and feelings and between desire and guilt.  If they are unable to indulge their passions or sublimate their emotions through creative release, they will have to repress them and the price is emotional or physical ill-health.

The snake in movement is a miracle to behold.  Without legs to propel it the creature flows effortlessly along, like a shining rivulet – sinuous and silent.  The entire energy of the snake is manifested in fluidity and flow.  In the course of evolution the snake withdrew its limbs to attain flow.  Its venom contains enzymes, which dissolve and digest the tissues of its prey, causing what was firm and solid to break down into a fluid form, which can flow.  Flow is intrinsic to the snake and this is equally true of the Lachesis person.  In any condition where suppression of flow or function predominates, be it emotional, intellectual or physiological, Lachesis may be indicated.”

The bushmaster is a master of camouflage.  It is a “sit and wait” predator, using its cryptic colouring to deceive and ambush its prey.  In a similar manner the Lachesis individual can practice cunning and deceit to waylay the innocent and naïve.  They don [sic] a deceptive mask to conceal their unscrupulous intentions – they are not what they seem.  They hatch plots and schemes to catch the unwary, but also to revenge themselves against those they consider enemies.”

The snake has always been recognised as a sexual or phallic symbol, implying a strong sexuality and a powerful libido or sex drive.  The sexual energy is the most fundamental energy of Lachesis and its power lies behind the intensity, the turbulent passion and the creative genius of the archetype.  It must find expression sexually, creatively, religiously or spiritually.  It may not be suppressed.”

“The sexuality is always coiled and ready to strike. Many will say that if their sex life is good, life is good.  It is part of the flow so essential to snake life; it relieves tension and stress.  The female particularly brings to a relationship a passionate romanticism and ardour, which enriches it.  She is conscious of her sexuality and its power and uses it.  She moves with serpentine grace and is able to charge the simplest action with sexual energy.”

Both the asteroid and the Bushmaster were named after the Mythological Lachesis, one of the three Fates, she who alotted the Length of Life – which we interpret as the Longevity of an Egoic Identity, since that is what we actually Experience as “Life.”  We of course, are very recently Reborn, as dwarf planet Haumea, symbolizing Rebirth, has been greatly magnified for the last several weeks.

It’s important to remember that Fate and Free Will, like all Dualities, are properties of the Observing Either/Or Mind, not properties of the Observed Both/And Universe.

There are actually four asteroids named after the Fates – Klotho who cuts the fabric of a Life, Lachesis who measures its Length, Atropos who cuts the chord when Time is up, and Moira whose name collectively symbolizes all three aspects of Fate.  And all four of these asteroids are Lit Up during this New Moon, and by extension, during the next several weeks.  If you told someone that we are entering a Fateful Month, you’d be quite correct.

Moira herself – Fate per se – is very busy flushing out all our Memories of being trapped on the Victim side of the Abuse/Privilege Coin.  This is not a Coin you want to be on either side of, actually, because Privilege is the flip side of Abuse, and the Unconscious (which, lest we forget, happens to run the show here) recognizes only Dimension, not Direction.  In other words, Victim and Perp are the same Energy, just witnessed from different angles.  We’d prefer to be off that Dimension entirely.  Avenging our Victim just makes us Victim of our own Perp.

Asteroid Moira sits in a Stellium with Nessus (Abuse and Privilege), OR10 (Irruption of Unconscious Contents), and the South Node (our Karmic Archetypes and Forbidden Emotions), Opposing the Royal Star Regulus.  The four Royal Stars all symbolized Successful Endeavors but for a downfall, each Star having its own Curse.  Regulus symbolizes Success as long as one avoids Revenge.

Asteroid Klotho, who weaves the fabric of Life, is just behind the curtain, about to enter Act Two of our Yin Gate, where Lilith/Self-Sovereignty is replaced by Sappho/Self-Love Conjoining Klotho.  Having achieved Self-Sovereignty by Being Fully Responsible to our Unconscious Fears, we’re about to assemble a whole new Timeline, or Ego-Lifetime, founded in Self-Love.

And asteroid Atropos, mistress of Endings, Conjoins dwarf planet Chaos.  Chaos, recall, represents Unlimited Potential, and Dances with our Forbidden Genius in the Golden Rectangle, promising the Sky when we fully Embrace our Uniqueness.  We explained the ongoing Golden Rectangle in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/01/19/january-week-3-end-big-doins/ (and many earlier posts).  We interpret this Atropos-Chaos Conjunction as an End to our Limits, or Reconsideration of what we thought was Impossible.

We’ll talk about how this New Moon Challenges our Hope in the next installment.

Yintegrity Rising

June 23, 2016

A reader writes…

I don’t think they are happy with me.  I am not following their tradition and I’m not sure what the impact of that will be, but I don’t care!  I’m not doing what I should, I’m doing what I want.  And that is SO different for me.

“I’ve always been the analyze/plan/execute person.  I do my duty.  I fulfill my promises.  If I commit, I follow through.  Period.  No doubt.  No question.  I guess what you would call “Yangtegrity.”  And it has served me well.  Very well.  For my whole life.

“Over the past…18 months, two years, there’s been a growing resistance to all of it!  I don’t even want to show up half the time!  (I’ve always taught my kids-Showing up is 80% of success.)  My intellect is so confused, my ego is having panic attacks.  Is this moving into Yintegrity?  

“There’s a third part of me that is very calmly standing by, reassuring that we’ll work out a new way of functioning, everything will be fine, the earth will not stop spinning on its axis.  So is that the pressure and fear I’m feeling?  The shift into Yintegrity?”

You bet!!  

And like any Big Change, there’s a hollow space, a gap, where our Olde Ego is in Lackawanna (“I know I’m done for; why should I care?”), and our New Ego hasn’t got its training wheels on straight yet.  So we’re wobbly.  Confusion is good; it’s a reliable sign that we’re Growing.  Anxiety is common, as our Olde Patriarchy-Attuned Egos needed to know what was going on so they could figure out who to Please how, when.

Time for PIAVAs.  “Great Spirit, please help me Trust my True Future so I can Surrender my False Past more comfortably” or the like.  “I wonder where the Hell I’m going, anyway.”  With Saturn Waning Square to Neptune and moving into the Void Space between them, The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is Confusion (Neptune).  Neptune symbolizes Confusion when viewing the World through Material Eyes, and Clarity when we shift to Spiritual Eyes.  “Ganeshi, please Remove all Obstacles to Opening my Third Eye.”

 Another timely story…

https://alchemicalastrology.wordpress.com/2016/06/21/professionautism/

Love the title – ProfessionAutism.  I read it as Professionalism twice before I noticed the Aut.  In another post she says Pluto is on her Moon – I don’t know of any greater Emotional Challenge.  A perfect time to “hang loose,” but not even that is easy under Pluto-Moon.  “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that Ease and Grace fill my Life.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess. … Show me.”

That’s a simplified form of Theta Healing.  Once you say “Show me,” look to see whether your Vision or other Intuitive Sense shows you bathed in Ease and Grace.  If not, look to see what else you need to Command.  Maybe Trust, or Enough to Eat, or just Breathing.

When the World, or your Community, or just your Household or Camp, operates through Yintegrity, the whole World is different.  People do things when they want to, and when someone resents something not being done, it’s up to them to recognize that it’s their job to do.  Or their job to inspire (not require or bully) someone else to do it, maybe as a group project where participation is of course optional – you would join or not because, in the moment, it’s more fun than doing otherwise.  

The Most Important Thing gets done, even if it’s not what you thought was The Most Important Thing.  Between the Waning Saturn Square to Neptune and the next Initiation, Cultures break down.  The next Neptune-Saturn Initiation isn’t until 2026, six years into the Digital Age.  It’s at the Aries Point – Manifestation into (Feminine) Form.  Aries Creates by Instinct, not by having a picture beforehand of the “finished” product.  Creating and “finishing” are two different Universes, with only accidental intersections.

Here’s a picture of it anyway – it’s not a “finished” picture, but a picture of the Yintegrity process unfolding…

https://cristenrodgers.net/2016/06/23/speak-your-truth-not-your-mind/

I would suggest though, that “The ways in which Other Living Things can speak may also be almost infinite – the truth or a lie, clearly or in riddles, with language or with art.”  We maybe just haven’t heard them yet, till we get our Third Eye – or Ear – Open.  And that Everything is Living.

And, Saturn runs a Gauntlet of Initiations before it gets back to Neptune – Ixion, Pholus, Quaoar, the Galactic Center, Chariklo, Hylonome, Pluto. OR10, and Nessus!  Saturn will be a very different Animal by then, and we will be too.  Sounds like this Gauntlet would be worth a post of its own, eh?

And we didn’t even notice that Saturn was Initiated by the Great Attractor this last February, with an Exposition in May!  The Great Attractor is Headquarters to the Galactic Center – Cosmic HQ.  No wonder it’s been a heavy year so far, as if we haven’t had enough excuses!  We’re being asked to align ourselves with an Energy more Powerful than even Galactic Energy.

Eris-Uranus New Moon

June 3, 2016

Bottom Line

The 4 June New Moon is a major trigger for the 9 June Eris-Uranus Initiation, which is about Getting Honest with Ourselves around our formerly-Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  We’ve also referred to them as Masks and Archetypes, and Despair.  This is really about Rebirth.  Unfortunately it may not be the most Effortless Birth, as our favorite Pattern is to cling to our Olde Ego while the New Ego is trying to get born.  That’s very painful.

We have to Let Go and Let God/Goddess.  Trust the process.  Whenever the going gets tough, recognize that you’re in Resistance to the Change.  It may not at all be obvious what else you can do besides Resist – Resistance is your Olde Ego trying to Survive, and that’s exactly what Egos do for a living, they’re good at it, and that’s why you hire them, because when they Survive, you Survive.  Except during the occasional Rebirths; we have to endure an Ego Death to allow a Rebirth.  

Your New Ego isn’t formed yet, and while we may have an inkling where to find its chrysalis, we won’t know what it Feels like.  So we’re stuck with PIAVAs (“God/Goddess, please give me a clue what to do besides Resist” or “I Wonder what it will Feel like when I finish wriggling out of this old carapace that’s so tight I can’t Breathe”) and Tapping (“Even though I feel worthless and hopeless, I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself”) and Empathizing (“You poor Sweetheart, you really feel like you’re being tortured, don’t you”) and the like.

Once you succeed in Letting Go, you’ll be surprised at how quickly it gets Easy.

 

Details

1.  There’s a big Challenge to Embrace our Despair.  Remember that “Unconscious Despair” is failure to Believe that what you Need is even Possible.  Set aside your YesButs for a moment and Imagine that you could have what you Need or Want.  Now go back to your YesButs and convert each one to a YesAnd.  “YesBut you just aren’t Sexy enough to get that” might become “YesAnd I just Need one Lover.”  “YesBut you’ll never be able to earn enough Money for that” may be “YesAnd What If someone gave it to me as a Gift!”

You want to Touch that Feeling that you would have if your Dream came true, and hold it as long as you can, till it becomes a when rather than an if,  If you can hold that Feeling enough, it won’t matter whether your Dream actually Manifests, because you’ll already have what your Dream would have given you – Peace, Joy, Excitement, Self-Respect, Power, Grace.  What’s a Lover or a Red Convertible compared to that!  And if you had those Feelings most of the time, you could probably score Lovers and Convertibles pretty easy, if you still wanted to.

This is the difference between your Deepest Desires and your Mission in the Lifetime.  What you Desire isn’t actually the Object of your Dreams, it only seems that way because you live in a Material World.  What you actually Crave, what you came her to achieve, is How the Object of your Dreams Makes you Feel.  From that Feeling you can have anything you Ask for.  And guess what!  You’ll be Asking for different things, and they won’t have any YesButs.  It’s a Hologram, y’know, and you’re the projector.

2.  While this is a big Challenge, it doesn’t come without tools that can actually make it pretty Easy.  However, to manifest the Ease, we have to realize that Rebirth is the Ego’s Least Favorite party game, and Love our Olde Ego into oblivion.  Try Gratitude that It’s gotten you this far.  Try just really really appreciating how incredibly Comfortable your Olde Ego Feels, and PIAVA that your New Ego is going to Feel even more Comfortable once you’ve moved through the Grief of Giving Up your Olde Friend who’s kept you Safe.

3.  What will make your Rebirth Easier?  Getting Honest about what you’ve been trying to hide from yourself.  You may not know the details, but you know the general theme.  Abuse?  You don’t need to remember who or when, you just need to Trust your Feelings about it.  Fear?  Anger?  Embrace them.  Locate them in your Body, and move all of your Attention into the center of that place, and hold it there.  Bring it back when it wanders.  Stay with it till it dissolves or moves.  If it moves, follow it.

Eventually you’ll need to Surrender all Blame.  Blame looks toward the Past to assign Cause, while Responsibility looks toward the Future to improve Outcomes.  Any time you catch yourself attributing some Emotion or Sensation in your Body to any outside Cause, stop and bring your Attention back into your Body.  I’m always gnawing at myself because my neighbors have no idea what I’m trying to do in my Garden, and condemn it as a Jungle.

I need to catch myself thinking that, and bring my Attention back into my own Body.  Those Emotions and Sensations have their Roots in my Personal and Karmic Histories.  Those are my Emotions, the neighbors only trigger them.  I need to take up the Practice of locating them in my Body, and Loving them right where they are, exactly as they are.  If I Reject any Emotion, I dampen them all, and without any of them I’m not a Whole Person, I’m dis-eased.

Use this general model with everything that you suspect may be lurking in your Underwhere – Inadequacy, Self-Hate, Belief in Fate, Addiction, Guilt, Shame, any Limiting Belief, and anything else that comes up.  When the Emotion begins to Overwhelm, Tap it Out.

4.  The whole chart actually falls into a pool of Enormous Grace, but there’s a leak in the pool.  To plug it, we need to recognize the Challenges we’ve Lived through, Honor ourself for Living through them, and be Willing to talk about them so others can Learn from our travails.

 

The Astrology

  1.  Aside from the Eris-Uranus Initiation itself of course, the primary focus of the chart is a Chiron T-Square (Challenge to Convert Despair to Miracles) across and Opposition between an Ixion-Pholus Conjunction (Taking Full Responsibility to Let our Orphaned Genius out of the closet) and a Karma-Chaos Conjunction (But without my old Patterns it all looks Chaotic! or Karma is Dead; Long Live Karma!).
  2. This T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) is actually a Diamond Star (Making what would be difficult, Easy), with Sappho (Self-Love) and a Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction (either Feeling like you had this coming, or Recognizing that Rebirth feels like Death because they’re just different sides of the same Coin) on the feet of the Chiron Yod.
  3. The Eris-Uranus Initiation (Revelation of Denial) is at the focus of a Quintile Yod (huge Learning Opportunity).  However, the Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction Opposes the Eris-Uranus Initiation, converting the QYod into a Quintile Kite and shifting some of the emphasis onto Haumea-Nemesis.  A Yod pointing to a Sedna-Atropos Conjunction (The Demise of Fear, foreshadowed of course by the Fear of Demise) from the base of the Sextile from Haumea-Nemesis to Ixion-Pholus.
  4. Eris-Uranus, Karma-Chaos, Sappho, Haumea-Nemesis, and Ixion-Pholus form five points of a Grand Sextile (Enormous Grace, though we need to take the first step).  The Vacancy is 24 Aquarius, “A person, having overcome their compulsions, shares the deep wisdom that results from their experience: The constructive use to which difficult past experiences can be put as examples for those who are still striving to overcome their compulsions,” aka Archetypes/Masks/Karma.

Loss of the Veil

May 12, 2016

The Loss of the Veil that separates additional Dimensions from the Linear 3-4D Reality we believe ourselves to be Living in, was forecast in the 1/1/2000 chart, as Neptune Conjoined the South Node.  Here’s a story about that.

A friend managed to trip and free-fall from a standing position, hands otherwise engaged, onto their hip on a hard floor.  My friend is for their age still young and robust enough, thanks partly to Yoga, that no bones were broken, and they knew enough about self-care to treat themselves very Gently, so, thus far, there seems to be no significant damage to their Vehicle (that is, physical Body).  They did have the thought that if they were older they could easily have broken their hip.  Afterward they went to their Yoga class, and by “luck” received a half-hour massage from a master healer there.

Now here’s the weird part.  When they got back from Yoga, there were two voice messages from their adult child waiting.  My friend did not go to the hospital, no need.  But their adult child got two calls from a hospital across town, saying that their parent had been released from the hospital and was okay.  Not one call but two.  They verified that the calls were actually from the hospital, or at least that they appeared to be from a phone number registered to the hospital.

The adult child wasn’t even first on the hospital’s notification list, they were second.  The first person on the list got no calls.  Probably just a software error or newbie operator error, as hospitals ramp up their new-fangled digital medical records capabilities, right?

Phone numbers can be spoofed, but that would still leave many questions about who knew about the fall, and who would have a motivation to spoof a call from the hospital.  Maybe someone in their Yoga class was a closet hacker, overheard the story, and was planning to spoof bills from the hospital.  That would be plausible in the US, but my friend lives in a civilized country, with single-payer healthcare, so scamming is unlikely.

Following Castaneda, one of our strategies for Living in times of rapid Change (such as Now), is that, the more Perspectives we can collect, the better we’ll be prepared for a World going Weird.  It’s also a Challenge to Consciousness, as we often get to hold Contradictory Beliefs at the same time, reminding us that there are no Contradictions in Nature, only in the mind.  Mind is Dualistic – Either/or; Nature is Mutivarious and Unitary – Both/And.  Apparent Paradoxes just mean that we still see through the glass darkly.

One of the side effects of String Theory, which is still a useful way to look at sub-nano-scale physics, is that there are probably something like 11 or 12 Dimensions rather than 3 or 4, most of which are hidden from our very limited five senses – most of us can’t even see or feel radio waves.  

One possible consequence of String Theory is that there may actually be a very large number of alternate Universes, possibly supporting the notion of Parallel Lives.  One possible Perspective on this is that, each time we make a Decision, a part of ourself branches off and follows that path into an alternate Universe, while other parts of ourself take different paths into other alternate Universes.

So, again, remember that this is an exercise in Consciousness-stretching, not any proclamation of the way it really may be.  We have no idea what’s really out there.  But do keep in mind that the Veil is thinning, the Veil which separates the various alternate Universes.  Our friend isn’t trained in the Occult Arts, but definitely has the natural aptitude for them.  

Our friend did not report doing a “Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade” or a “Revert” on their Thought about how in a different circumstance bones could have broken.  Thoughts have Power.  That’s why we Cancel the Thought, Neutralize the Vibrations produced, and Upgrade the Thinker when we encounter a “negative” Thought about an outcome we wouldn’t Want to Live through.  

I’m suggesting that one way to make sense of the hospital’s weird calls, is that my friend’s Thought triggered a loose thread dangling from the fabric of an alternate Universe, which bled through to their child’s Linear Reality.  The bleedthrough may be an invitation to my friend to further develop their natural abilities in the Occult Arts – it wouldn’t be the first invitation they’ve received recently.

Now, as Robert Moss often reminds us about our Dreams, some of them are prophetic, so it behooves us to be mindful of that possibility.  Dreams, Thoughts, what’s the difference.  “Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade” has the potential to reduce the likelihood of prophesy, but it pays as we get older to Pay Closer Attention to what we do and reduce our multitasking, in order to increase our Mindfulness of each Action that we take.  

It would be a good idea for my friend to Tap Out their Thought, with a phrase something like “Even though I Feared that I could break bones, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  It could save them a future trip to the hospital.  If you’re thinking about Fate just now, Moss reports many instances where he’s had Dreams that turned out to be prophetic, but he’s recognized the Drama as it unfolded, and cut it short, avoiding the negative result of the Dream.  We haven’t finished Co-Creating the Future yet.

Fateful Full Moon

April 20, 2016

There are three big themes to the 21 April Full Moon (10:30pm PDT) – Transitions, Fate, and Truth.

  • Transitions because the Full Moon occurs on a Cusp between two Signs – a place of Change, Transformation, often Contradistinction.
  • Fate because the asteroid Moira – Fate – Motivates (T-Squares) it.  Fate and Free Will are of course a Duality, an Either/Or, an Intellectualization.  Real Life is Both/And.  How can anything be Both/And when they’re Opposites? Well, if that’s upsetting to you, the answer is in your hand – you’ve shifted into Emotion – Cusps again, the Cusps between modalities of Perception.  You could also have shifted into Body or Spirit.  Either/Or is a characteristic of mind, and though we’re trained to Believe that mind is bigger than the Universe, in Real Life the Universe is much bigger than mind.
  • Truth because both of the Truth asteroids – Aletheia (Greek) and Veritas (Roman) adjoin the Sun.  Which brings us back to the larger theme of Removing our Masks.

Let’s focus on the Cusps…

  • The Moon itself is on the Cusp of Scorpio.  Here we Change from intellectually and Creatively contemplating the new-found concept of Other (Not-I, including Other People), to intense Emotional Curiosity about Other.  Does Other really exist, or is that just a Mirror?  Does the Other Side really exist, or is it just a Projection?
  • The Sun is on the Cusp of Taurus, along with the asteroids Aletheia, Veritas, and Atropos.  Atropos is Responsible for enforcing the measure of length of Life – another form of Truth.  At the Cusp of Taurus we shift from Making Things Up, to Casting them in Stone.  The Edge between what may or may not be Fantasy, and what the Muggles would consider “Real.”  Natural-born Chemists think it’s Matter that’s Real, while natural-born Physicists know that it’s Energy that’s Real.  Yes, I do take sides, though of course it’s Both/And.
  • The asteroid Moira – Fate – sits on the Cusp of Aquarius, as do we.  Sit on the Cusp of the Age of Aquarius I mean.  Here we move from hard-nosed down-to-Earth Pragmatism, to Idealism, or Idolatry.  Notice anybody worshipping Sacred Cows or Golden Calfs?  Such as Power, or Profit?

All together eight of the twelve Cusps are involved in the Full Moon.  If we’re worried that our Fate is to contemplate Truth and Compassion (if Other is a Mirror, we better find Compassion!), the other five Cusps each provide alternate paths that are easier than that one.

  • Our first Escape Route is the Cusp of Capricorn (where reside the dwarf planets Quaoar and Hylonome), where we Change from Letting Go of difficulties, to actually having to try to Resolve them.  (Quaoar-Hylonome tells us that if we want to Survive, we need to Molt, shed our old Ego and Open Up to the new.)
  • The Cusp of Pisces is our second path to higher ground.  Here we’re fairly rudely dumped from drinking beer and discussing grand schemes for solving the problems created by the existence of Other, to having to Feel the Realities that arise because of the existence of Other.  (On this Cusp we find the asteroids Pallas and Lachesis, and the dwarf planets OR10 and Nessus, reminders that a Life in the realm of Matter is a Privilege and a Deep Mystery, and one which has well-defined Boundaries.)

The last three Cusps are about Curiosity (Quincunxes to the Sun or Moon).

  • The asteroids Ceres (Sustainability) and Mnemosyne (Memory) decorate the Cusp of Aries.  Buddhists say that if you immerse yourself in the Water (Emotion), you’ll come out in the Fire (Spirit), and this is the place where you’ll come out.  I Wonder where these Memories will lead me.
  • The asteroid Karma is parked on the Cusp of Gemini.  On this Cusp we go from being Trapped in Stone, to being Liberated, free to walk around and Be whomever we want to Be.  I Wonder how we could ever find a more perfect place for Karma.
  • Finally, the Cusp of Libra is where we find the dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation).  At the Cusp of Libra we’ve just finished an unpleasant-feeling period of Ego Transformations, and we’re ready to test our new Selves out on Other People.  I Wonder how I’ll be received.

Adventures in Consciousness!

Varuna

April 8, 2016

A reader comments…

“Sources I have come across point to Varuna as personification of an organizing principle older even than guts and cells … a mediator between pure fecund formlessness, Chaos, and living form … which suggests to me an affinity to the Chinese concept of Li – 

https://liology.wordpress.com/2009/12/21/nature’s-organizing-principles-the-li/ .  

A huper mind would attend to the flow of bodily processes to tune in to how Li is expressing personally.”

Brilliant!  Like the Buddhist tradition of reaching mental silence and Open Attention by following the Breath!  It’s Grandmother Spider, weaver of Life, and Raven, Creator of the World.  Among others!  Predating mentality but not Consciousness, subsuming Fate and Free Will into a fractal dance of Chance and Order, Intention and Archetype, Instinct and Opportunity.  Another…

https://liology.wordpress.com/2011/05/11/the-li-of-shared-arousal/

Fascinating!  My observation so far is that when Varuna is lit up, we seem to be able to Change Archetypes as easily as changing our pants.

The Sabian Symbol of the Station is interesting: “An Indian girl introduces her white lover to the assembled tribe.”  The Station Opposes (Mirrors) the Galactic Center and Pholus (Taking Full Responsibility).  In this case, Taking Full Responsibility means Giving up Control!  The most reliable method I know of for “descending” into The Flow, is a series of Kegels, especially under the influence of Fear.  Quaoar (the Law of Survival) Conjoins Pholus, and the Opposition is Trine-Bridged by the Conjunction between Sedna (Actions Taken out of Fear) and asteroid Karma.

The 23.3 Maker Eclipse II

March 22, 2016

The second Configuration in the Penumbral Lunar Eclipse chart is more complex.  It looks like one of those Sextants that sailors use for navigation, which is good, because in our Confusion we may need help navigating.  We can Trust that our Guides will take us where we need to go, but we don’t want Confusion to lead us astray while our Guides are waving their arms and shouting “Over Here!”  The Sextant has two foci and two components.  Shall we start with the Strongest, or the Trickiest?

Let’s take the Strongest component.  That would be a Diamond Star focused on the North Node, complemented by a Kite focused on the South Node.  That in itself is very intense, even without Chiron and Ceres Conjunct the South Node.  Of course a Diamond Star focused on a Node will form a Grand Cross, and the arms are Chaos (Unlimited Potential) and a Stationary Ixion (Abandoned Genius).  Familiar names, eh?  The arms of the Kite are Sedna (Actions Taken out of Anger and Fear) and Moirai (Fate).  Lucky that’s a Grand Trine.  The formal etymology doesn’t reflect it, but I don’t think it’s a coincidence that Moirai and Moi are pretty similar.  Kind of like “The Devil made me do it!”

The base of the Finger of God in the Diamond Star is a Sextile from Pallas (Boundaries) to Uranus-Eris-Atropos.  Atropos wields the scissors to terminate a Lifetime – or an Ego – when its time is up – more Fate.  Uranus-Eris is the prelude to their June Conjunction where our last Masks will be ripped off.  Not only that, but we have five Rays of a Grand Sextile, with the missing Ray being 22 Leo, “A carrier pigeon fulfills its mission.”  Maybe so we don’t have to?  Or maybe so we can ride along?  Lots of Energy drawing us into the North Node, or Mission.  

The bottom line here in the first component of the second Configuration is that the Currents of Grace and “Fate” are Stronger than the Challenges are Challenging.  No Shame in being swept along by Fate, since the Real World is Both/And.  Only the intellectual Cliff’s Notes version of the Real World is Either/Or, and Fate/Free Will is an Either/Or.  In Real Life, Fate and Free Will are merely different lenses for viewing the One World.  

The second component is the Tricky one.  It looks just like the first one, but it lacks the Grand Cross, substituting a T-Square instead, a T-Square focused on Moi, er, Moirai.  The Central Axis of the second Configuration – and the base of the T-Square – is the Opposition between Lilith-Haumea (Rebirth of our Yindependence) and Uranus-Eris-Atropos.  The arms of the Kite are Pallas and Chaos.  The base of the Yod is the Sextile between Sedna and Ceres-South Node-Chiron.  Like in Permaculture, no segment fills only a single function!  

The second component of the second Configuration of the Penumbral Eclipse tells us that Self-Trust is necessary.  If it feels like you’re being swept over the rapids to certain (Ego) Death, you’re on the right track.  We don’t step into our Truth the way John Wayne or Mel Gibson or The Donald or any of the Patriarchy’s swaggering Heroes do.  That’s not Self-Transformation, that’s Ego Glorification.  We step into our Truth with hesitation and trepidation, choosing our path because it feels 10% righter than the alternatives, and not sure just what the consequences will be.

Will the next stage of our Yindependence eliminate our Support System?  Will the next step in our Journey to Yintegrity bring us more Shame rather than its Transformation?  Moving into Self-Trance-Reformation feels incredibly Risky, but it also feels like we have no Choice.  As if it was Fate.  Or it may feel like we have no Choice but to step back from the brink.  No Shame in that.  We’re just rehearsing here; the real Breakthrough occurs in June, so feel free to dance around your Edges without making a final Commitment.  We’re just practicing.  

Remember that Ego is an essential part of the Psyche, the part whose job it is to keep us Alive.  We don’t Transcend Ego (except perhaps in a moment of Satori or Samadhi), we Transform Ego.  We reformulate Ego at a “higher” or “more-encompassing” place.  “Egolessness” just means we no longer waste Energy on getting Defensive.  It doesn’t mean we get careless about our belay.  The ultimate Ego Transformation is Surrender to the Truth that Lives in the Heart.