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Abuse Week 1

November 18, 2019

Remember a while back when the symbol for Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus) was crossing the symbol for Invasive Memories (dwarf planet OR10) and we were very busy Enduring, and hopefully, Letting Go of lots of old Abuse Memories?  (See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/cycles/nessus-or10/.)  We get big-time flashbacks this week, as both of these dwarf planets are Strong (Stationary) on the same day again.  Fortunately, the symbol for Ending TimeLines (asteroid Atropos) is also Strong this week; that should help.  The schedule looks like this…

Up until 11am PST 20 November 2019 – Mercury (Communication, Analysis) turns Direct at 12 Scorpio.  We usually pretty much ignore Mercury because a primary thesis of ours is that the more frequently astroevents recur, the more practice we have with them, and the more Routine is our Experience of them – and Mercury does most everything frequently.  But this event stands out because Mercury has been Dancing in Scorpio (Diving Deep to Get to the Bottom of Things) at the same time as the Truth Twins (asteroids Aletheia and Veritas) were Diving Deep.

The Mercury Station chart very much introduces Abuse Week, as the symbol for Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus) and that for Making Emotional Decisions (the Moon Merged with dwarf planet Orcus) are Challenged (Squared) by the symbol for Beginning New TimeLines (asteroid Klotho).  Meanwhile our Lifetime Template (the Nodal Axis) is Challenged by the need to Confront our Fate (asteroid Moira) and our Codependence (dwarf planet Hylonome).

On the plus side of the ledger, there is Great Emotional Grace available to us (Mercury-Nessus-North Node Water Grand Trine).

Up until noon PST 21 November, the symbol for Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet OR10) is Strong (Stationary) in 4 Pisces.

Up until 4:30 pm PST 21 November, the symbol for Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus) is Strong (Stationary) in 9 Pisces.

Up until 2pm PST 22 November, the symbol for Ending Timelines (asteroid Atropos) is Strong (Stationary) at 7 Aries.

In addition to being close together in Time, these four Stations are all within a few Degrees of each other, at 4, 7, 9, and 12 Degrees.  That means we’re likely to Experience them as All One Event.  If we’ve been practicing at Becoming Conscious of our Karma so we can Choose Different Habits – as the astrology has been coaching us to do since at least the End of Time As We Know It and the Uranus-Pluto Square in 2012 – we can look forward to saying a final Goodbye to some old unpleasant Habits of being “in the wrong place at the wrong time” and getting Abused for it.

And if we’ve been practicing at Becoming Conscious of our Karma so we can Choose Different Habits, we can also look forward to getting Called Out on some old pleasant Habits of being in a position of Power and practicing Privilege.  Whenever you Exercise Privilege, someone else receives Abuse.

If we have NOT been practicing at Becoming Conscious of our Karma, we may well find ourselves in a “last straw” situation, “blowing up” at being Abused again, and finally setting a solid Boundary to prevent its recurrence.  Bravo!  May you be Bulletproof and Bullyproof!

And similarly, if we have NOT been practicing at Becoming Conscious of our “Good” (favorable to our Ego, that is) Karma or Privilege, we may find ourselves seriously shot down for Unconsciously Abusing someone.  These days that can have serious repercussions on our Reputation, Career, Relationships, and even Criminal Status.

For instance, the Billionaire Class is coming under fire for their Sociopathic Avarice these days.  Till recently they’ve been treated as if they were Gods.  The Occupy Movement and its Identification of the rest of us as “the 99%” was a necessary start, but you saw how quickly it faded into Obscurity.  This time may be more lasting.  Even some of the Billionaires are calling for a Jubilee.

Racism may be becoming more obvious as well.  A few years ago the media, the NFL, and the government conspired to take a protest against Open Season for the police to shoot to kill young black men, and Spin it into “disrespect for the flag.”  Masterful as PR, but unspeakably Evil as public or quasi-public policy, and as “journalism.”  Colin Kaepernick is becoming more visible again, with a public workout this last weekend.  Maybe there will be forward motion on Privilege and Abuse.

More on these themes and charts as the week progresses.

The Fives III

October 25, 2019

This is another hour and a half Hay House Heal Summit interview with (or lecture by) Bruce Lipton, which does an excellent job of encompassing Matter, Energy, mind, Matter, Energy, Healing, Love, Fear, Immunity, Belief, Longevity, Power, and just about anything else you can imagine.  I believe this one will be online free through 29 October 2019…

https://www.hayhousehealsummit.com/lessons/regenerate-new-cells-and-boost-your-immunity-naturally-replay

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At one point Bruce says we can’t be Open/Move Toward (Love/Heal) and be Closed/Move Away (Fear/Protect) at the same time.  Once you get good with your Mirrors, though, you actually can do Both/And, and is that ever Healing!  Next time someone very Manipulative calls you and you normally wouldn’t answer, hold up an imaginary wardrobe Mirror facing them, then pick up the phone.  Have a conversation with them, but every time you feel like you’re being led, just say “Oh” very Neutrally, and hold tight to your Mirror.  When I do that, they get very Confused, and I sweat profusely as my Body burns off Power-Give-Away Karma – it’s a Virtual Sauna.

Held Emotions Aura Holes

September 15, 2019

The “general rule” is that no one can Invade our Space if it’s Filled with our own Energy.  But as we’ve averred, our Childhood Programmers often Manipulated our Karmic Wounds to create and maintain Holes in our Aura, usually in our Back, where they could metaphorically reach in and pull our Puppet-Strings so they could maintain Control.  These Holes make it Impossible for us to keep our Space Filled with our own Energy.  So, how to Heal them.

First we have to Notice that they Exist.  That actually just requires some Reframing.  Anyone routinely and repeatedly make you Feel Angry?  Hurt?  Outraged?  Anything else Unpleasant?  Of course no one can “make you” Feel anything, but it may seem that way, and they can certainly Trigger your Feelings, and they may well do it on Purpose, the Asshole.  We have to Reframe them into our Teacher, without giving then any Deference or Respect that they haven’t Earned.  When we step out of Blame and Victimhood, these Assholes, er, Teachers, point out to us where the Holes in our Auras are, so we can Own them and Heal them.

How about Obsession?  Does anything ever Grab you and not Let Go, so your mind can’t help but Grind on it, maybe for weeks at a time?  Sure, you can get a Song fragment stuck in there, and that’s a minor example.  Send in the Clowns for instance maybe, or Stuck inside of Mobile with the Memphis Blues Again.  Sorry, hope those don’t get stuck.  But often it’s when someone does something Dumb or Hurtful or Inconsiderate, and our mind has a hard time Letting Go of it, or some insoluble Real or Imagined or Potential Problem arises, like Climate Change or a Layoff or a strange noise in the transmission or how to find a safe place to sleep, and our mind is Crunching away at it trying to Figure Out how to make it work.

Those usually aren’t as direct as someone making us Angry, but they’re Obsessions in the same ballpark.  Then there are the Disturbances in the Force, where we or It, doesn’t Feel Right, and we Obsess on what’s “wrong” or what we can do about it (beside Chocolate or Ice Cream, if we’ve brought it that far enough up into Consciousness) – or even, if Chocolate or Ice Cream keeps beckoning us like a Harpie and we don’t even Realize it’s because something doesn’t Feel Right!

In other words, we’ve Noticed an Obsession of some kind, where our Thought-Emotion Loops are caught in a Helicopter Trip, and we can’t Let Go or we’ll fall out of the Sky.  Let’s Allow ourself to make the Projection, as if someone was actually torturing us by sending Negative Energy our way.  Who would it be?  No Blame, we’re just using them as a Foil, and we won’t be hurting them.  You could Choose the person who makes you Angry, or the person who does Hurtful things, or the person you’re Obsessing about, or the first person that comes to mind as you reach for the Chocolate.  It doesn’t really matter who it is, you could Choose someone at random.

Then you take one of those portable Wardrobe Mirrors, and you hold it up, facing them.  Hold it for several minutes, while you watch what’s going on inside.  Feel Guilty?  That’s a foolproof sign that you’re on target.  Guilt and Shame were the tools used to Create the Holes in our Aura, or at least, bring them into the Current Lifetime.  Hold the Mirror, facing them, for several minutes, so the Energy is either Reflected back to them, or at least Reflected away from you.  Do you now Feel any Different than you Felt before you deployed the Mirror?  If you Feel Relief, you got the “right” person.  Still no Blame, they may just be a symbol for the right person or situation.

If you don’t Feel some Relief after a few minutes, try another person.  A different Associate, perhaps.  Or a Sibling, or an Ex.  Or the person who Programmed you – almost always a parent or parent surrogate like a grandparent or a teacher.  Once you find any person that, when you Hold the Mirror between you and they, facing them, you Feel some Relief within a minute or two, then you can move on.  Again, no Blame.  You might Feel Intensely toward this person – don’t squelch your Feelings.  But this is about You, not them.  Stay with your Real Passions, but be Present with them as Yours, not Theirs.  When you’re dealing with Karmic material, everyone else is just a bit player.

Once you have a solid Target, Hold the Mirror, facing them, for several minutes, while you watch to see what’s going on outside of yourself.  Do they just “come around to the back,” looking or walking around the Mirror, or over it, or even under it?  Many of our Programmers were just doing to us as they were done unto, they think that’s what parenting is about, so they feel no guilt about it.  If they go around your Mirror, make the Mirror bigger.  There is the Appearance of an External Source of Energy that’s being Directed at you, and it doesn’t Feel good.  So tune your Mirror to reflect this Energy back to where it came from.  Again, if you Feel Guilt, that means you’re Really on the right track.

Every time you set the Mirror, and Push Back against your Guilt, you Fill the Hole in your Aura.  This is your own Energy Body you’re working with, and your own Skill with Boundaries.  The other person or Energy source is just a symbol.  If they really have been Manipulating you in the Present Moment, they’ll Feel it, and won’t know what to make of it.  If they’re just an Innocent Stand-in for one of your Programmers or even for whomever Victimized you in that Past Life, they won’t even Notice what you’re doing.

The only thing you can ever Change is Yourself.  That’s True even for things like Climate Change, Brexit, and the Antichrist.  And most of the time our Puppet Strings are Karmic, so it’s not easy to Replace them with Self-Supporting Habits that Fill our Energy System with our own Energy.  So no one else can get in.  The secret to Replacing any Habit is Repetition.  We (1) Notice the old Habit (Giving Away our Power, Blame, Victimhood), we Respond to our Noticing first by (2) Congratulating Ourself for Noticing and then by (3) Setting a New Habit, namely using our Mirror, and (4) Repeating this sequence as many times as it takes to Replace the Habit Permanently.

I know, you’ll be Angry that you have to make this Effort, over and over, when it should be your Birthright.  You’re right, it is your Birthright, but you have to Claim it.  After a few Mirroring you’re likely to Abandon the Practice because it takes Attention, and the Burden shouldn’t be on you.  It’s your Choice.  You’re Free to continue to Suffer the Karma.  But ultimately it is your Choice.  No one else is going to do it for you.  The only thing you can Change is You, and the only thing that can really Change you is You.  But it takes Persistence.  It may take years of Reps.

They’ll get easier and easier the more you Practice.  Pretty soon you’ll start using your Mirror automatically.  With enough Practice you can actually use it while you’re talking to the person who Triggers you.  Or even while you’re talking to your former Programmer.  If you can Learn to talk and drive a car at the same time, you can Learn to talk and Mirror at the same time.  Once your New Habit is Stable enough that the Mirror starts to deploy on its own, your Holes are almost Full.  Pretty soon you’ll forget about the Mirror because you won’t need to Remember it, because your Energy System will be Full of your own Energy.  You’ll be Claiming Your Space Habitually, rather than Giving Away Your Power Habitually.

Busy August X

August 12, 2019

Our reader and friend responds, very appropriately

“But… from my Facebook feed, this is real to this younger person: ‘It feels legitimately insane to go about our day drinking coffee and walking the dog and exchanging pleasantries when our government is fascist and white supremacists are mass murdering and our planet is a few years removed from irrevocable death spiral.’ “

I couldn’t agree more, except that it’s the Culture which is insane, not your friend.  Your friend is probably just doing the best they can in Difficult circumstances.  They are after all surrounded by Fascists, Racists, Murderers, and Fiddlers, while Rome burns.  The Patriarchy has set it up to be sure that we get daily messages from the for-profit Media and elsewhere that “we are Powerless, nothing we can do to stop Fascism and Racism and Murder and Mass Extinction, it’s way too big for anyone to stop, and besides, it’s in the Constitution!”

Margaret Mead said something like Never do Nothing because you can do Too Little, but actually, other than picking up those plastic bottles on the beach and refusing to go to school on Fridays and Telling It Like It Is, what is it we can do to make a difference?

Well, I still argue that the most effective thing we can do, is to spend time Meditating on What We Want, and minimize the time we spend Dwelling on What We Don’t Want.  However, that doesn’t stop us from also being Activists, if we can do it without putting ourselves in too much danger from a Patriarchal backlash.  As Activists, I believe it’s best to Focus on what we’re most Passionate about, and put our Energy into Building up replacements for the sick institutions rather than tearing them down.

There will be plenty of people with plenty of Anger that will do a fine job of tearing down the sick ones when the time is right.  But by then we want to have mature organizations to plug in, in their place, because we don’t want the Angry ones designing our New institutions.

Jeffrey Smith’s Institute for Responsible Technology, https://responsibletechnology.org/, is an example.  IRT has done more to expose the lies behind Glyphosate poison, and break down Big Farma’s Propaganda Wall, than anyone, yet I can’t tell if there is anyone but Jeffrey in IRT – it could be a one-person operation!  I’ve never met him, but I’d guess Jeffrey has a pretty big Ego to carry on doing what he does.  More Power to him!  He’s a great example of dwarf planet Ixion – he’s breaking every Sposta (“You’re Sposta do it this way!” – namely shut up and behave yourself) in the book, and he’s making a big dent in the Fascism, Mass Murders, and Mass Extinctions.

Ronnie Cummins, https://www.organicconsumers.org/, is another crusader that started off as a Lone Wolf, and is doing a fabulous job of Facing Down the Insanity.  Rosemary Gladstar (https://sagemountain.com/), Joseph Mercola (https://www.mercola.com/), Jeffrey Bland (https://www.ifm.org/), Mark Kastel and Will Fantle (https://www.cornucopia.org/), and many others have all started institutions that could easily replace the Fascist jokers that claim to Protect us (oh, right, I meant “Regulate”) us in The Swamp.  Not to mention Greta Thunberg, the teenager who started an International Movement by skipping school and sitting alone next to the Swedish Parliament with a sign.

The Advantage of operating from the Heart or the Right Brain or the Inner Female or Intuition or even the Gut, is that we aren’t hobbled by that Left-Brain Propaganda about Contradiction.  I mean, Are we “Sposta” be Neutral, or are we Sposta be Passionate – make up your mind!  Yes.  Both/And.  Absolutely Neutral and Max Passionate is what we need.  If we aren’t Neutral we’ll get hung up Ego-Identifying with details and Lose the Plot.  If we aren’t Passionate, we’ll never Persevere when an Authority tells us to Stop.

Busy August IX

August 12, 2019

A reader writes…

“Good news or fake news?

“From Daniel Scranton’s The Great Earth Experiment ∞ The 9D Arcturian Council  [https://danielscranton.com/the-great-earth-experiment-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/]:

” ‘The ripple effect will be felt throughout the galaxy when there is peace on Earth, and there will be peace on Earth.  And we are not talking about hundreds of years from now.  We are talking about within the next decade.’ “

The Future is ours to Create.  Matter and its embellishments (such as Behavior and Emotion) take Form around Seeds of Energy.  The more time you spend Feeling the way you’ll Feel when you Create What You Want, the sooner you’ll Create it.  The more time you spend in Doubt, the more Uncertainty you’ll Create.

One of the Delusions that we suffer under, with great help from the Media and the Snake Oil Vendors that keep it alive and the Smooth Talkers who Enrich themselves from it at your expense, is that the “Outside World” exists.  We have the Power to Live in whatever World we Wish to Live in – but do we use our Power that way?  Or are we too busy Dwelling in a World that we Don’t Want?  The World we see is a Mirror for our Inner State of Bliss or Confusion or Dissatisfaction.  If we aren’t in Bliss, we can at least try Confusion – it’s the first stage of Growth.  All we need to do is Stay in Confusion rather than thinking our way out of it using the same Tools that have Created our Displeasure for all these years.

Of course, probably the best way to Create Peace on Earth would be to Eliminate all the Hupers, and we’re Manifesting that fairly well so far, aren’t we.  Why would that be, when we’re all wrapped so snugly in Unconditional Self-Love?  What?  We have Conditions on our Self-Love?  Well, when will we Love ourself Unconditionally?  How can we Create Peace in our World if we can’t even Love ourself Unconditionally?

We have the Power.  How do we Use it?  And Who makes those Choices?  If we aren’t Manifesting What We Want, we need to find out Who inside us is making those Choices, and somehow Figure Out or Intuit or PIAVA how to Befriend them so we’re both working on the same agenda and not Sabotaging one another constantly.  If we’re waiting for Other People to make the Changes we Want them to make, it’s likely to be a long wait.  What was it Gandhi said, Be the Change you wish to see in the World?  I Wonder why He would say such a silly thing.

Boundaries III

February 11, 2019

A we mentioned in Boundaries, “Other, of course, isn’t just Other Hupers.”  We’ve been writing about Libra and Pallas for several days without realizing till now that Other and Boundary are really the same concept or word, just seen from different Perspectives.  Without a Boundary there wouldn’t be an Other, and without Other we’d never have the notion of Boundary.  It’s all about Identity, which is a lot more Fluid than we usually think.  And about Duality, which is a lot more Limiting than we usually think.

We Hupers usually think of the Veil between us and the Other Side as more of a Limitation than a Boundary, but Boundary it is, and the Other Side is as much an element of Libra as your paramour.

“He was not wakened again by Alder, but he had a bad dream of his own.

“He was standing by a wall of stone near the top of a long hillside of dry grey grass that ran down from dimness into the dark.  He knew he had been there before, had stood there before, but he did not know when, or what place it was.  Someone was standing on the other side of the wall, the downhill side, not far away.  He could not see the face, only that it was a tall man, cloaked.  He knew that he knew him.  The man spoke to him, using his true name.  He said, ‘You will soon be here, Ged.’

“Cold to the bone, he sat up, staring to see the space of the house about him, to draw its reality about him like a blanket.  He looked out the window at the stars.  The cold came into his heart then.  They were not the stars of summer, beloved, familiar, the Cart, the Falcon, the Dancers, the Heart of the Swan.  They were the Other stars, the small, still stars of the dry land, that never rise or set.  He had known their names once, when he knew the names of things.

” ‘Avert!’ he said aloud and made the gesture to turn away misfortune that he had learned when he was ten years old.”  (Ursula Le Guin, The Other Wind, pp.12-13)

“We who have true names keep them when we die, it’s our use-name that is forgotten… This is a mystery to the learned, I can tell you, but as well as we understand it, a true name is a word in the True Speech. … When my master Aihal died, my wife was there with him; and as he was dying he said to her, ‘It is changed, all changed.‘  He was looking across that wall.  From which side I do not know.”  (ibid, p.45)

“Kalessin said: ‘Long ago we chose.  We chose freedom.  Men chose the yoke.  We chose fire and the wind.  They chose water and the earth.  We chose the west,  and they chose the east.’

“And Kalessin said: ‘But always among us some envy them their wealth, and always among them some envy us our liberty.  So it was that evil came into us and will come into us again, until we choose again, and forever, to be free.  Soon I am going beyond the west to fly on the Other Wind.  I will lead you there, or wait for you, if you will come.’ …

“Then Kalessin said, ‘Once we were one people.  And in sign of that, in every generation of men, one or two are born who are dragons also.  And in every generation of our people, longer than the quick lives of men, one of us is born who is also human.  Of these one is now living in the Inner Isles.  And there is one of them living there now who is a dragon.  These two are the messengers, the bringers of choice.  There will be no more such born to us or to them.  For the balance changes.’ ”  (Ibid, pp.167-68)

We can also compare our day-to-day Experience with that of Daphne Charters and her friends (Forty Years with the Fairies, pp.260-61)…

“This work, in which we all assist, is known as a transformation.  We seek and find a lost soul whose astral body, as well as the physical, has died, leaving no trace to normal Astral eyes.  However, because we cannot see a ‘dead’ person, owing to his faster rate of vibration, it does not follow that he has no body.  So it is with those whose vibrations have sunk through the years until only the Great Ones know where they lie.

“We find these people by their vibration, however slow and, although we are unable to see them when we reach them, we mark the spot and direct rays of power and love upon them until their vibrations are sufficiently raised for the bodies to become visible to us.  This is the first stage in the rehabilitation of ‘lost souls,’ as much power has to be directed to them over sometimes long periods before consciousness returns.

“In order to achieve even the first part of the transformation, it is necessary for many hundreds of people from the Astral to gather together.  By passing power through their bodies, it becomes sufficiently coarsened to be effective amidst very slow vibrating matter.  This is where Daphne is of use to us, for her physical body vibrates slower than those of us who live on the Astral, a higher plane, thus power which is passed through her coarsens the whole.

“Unless you are clairvoyant, you will not have seen a display of power so you cannot know the magnitude of the volume, or the intensity of light.  Fairies can naturally see this power for it is their life’s work to distribute it, but normally they know only the quantity which they can collectively produce in their own group.  Our own fairies, who always help us, are ever amused at the never-ending supply so we were interested to see how the delegates would be affected…”

“How different is the power which we witnessed today to that which is known by the same name on Earth.  Man ever seeks for power to overcome his neighbors, to add to his possessions, or to acquire authority over more people.  Today we were privileged to see the essence from which all these petty misnomers have their being.

“But this true-power, in its purity of purpose, performed a deed so wondrous that if men were told of it, they would not believe.  If only those who sought to misuse it understood the condition in which they will find themselves when their ridiculous, puffed-up physical bodies and accompanying personalities are no more, perhaps they would then use it to lift up instead of to crush, to comfort rather than exploit, and, in the happiness which they would at last know, they would find the key to a better world.”

So, I was Wondering about the Other planet in Libra, Makemake.  And it turns out that, at least for now, the Bottom Line of Makemake in Libra is that If we Want to Manifest What We Want, we have to Seek Out and Revert our Victim Postures.  Drawing up the Makemake chart for the moment when Juno enters Gemini – ie, when we are likely to be due for substantial Consciousness Expansion (8:30 pm PST 10 February)…

…Reveals two big Challenges (T-Squares)…

A Challenge to Manifestation itself (Makemake) between Making it a Value of ours to be Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Venus-Pholus-Quaoar) and Choosing Consciousness over Fate (asteroid Moira).

Fate is what happens To Us when we’re not Conscious of what’s going on.  It’s not about Why but rather about What.  What’s the Pattern?  When our Repeating Bummers happen, what Precedes them?  When “bad luck” befalls us, there’s a sequence of events that leads up to it.  We aren’t talking Cause & Effect – that’s a left-brain dead end.  Useful if you’re Stuck in the 3D Dynamic Masculine Creative process, but Obfuscating if you want to use 5D Magnetic Feminine Manifestation methods.

PIAVA that you become aware of What Precedes your Self-Sabotage.  If you already knew what it was you’d have fixed it long ago.  It’s behind your Blinders, and you won’t see it without enlisting the Cooperation of the Unconscious – that is, using PIAVA.  For instance, “Lord Ganesh, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Realizing How I Stumble into Self-Sabotage.”  Once you get Conscious about these Patterns, you can Choose otherwise.  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

We’ve been working with Responding Fully (Pholus) to our Survival Instincts (Quaoar) – ie, Disallowing our Yes-Buts that try to Protect our Routines – for a long time.  We’re running out of Excuses.  It’s past time to Accept this as a basic Value.

The second Challenge is about Reframing the Beliefs Created by our Victim Postures (Vesta-OR10-Nessus) between Ego Death (Nemesis) and Sustainability (Ceres).

Like our Survival Instincts, we’ve also been working with our Abuse Memories for a long time now.  First we have to Retrieve them – or Allow them to Retrieve us (OR10), and Acknowledge their Reality.  Then we have to Empathize with our Real Victim, Revert any Blaming-the-Victim behavior we indulged or encountered, and Deal with our Real Emotions.  That usually takes a lot more than a few hundred Poor-Sweethearts, though they can be useful.  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/.

People talk a lot about Forgiveness, but in a real sense what we need is the Opposite of Forgiveness, as our original Tolerance was a form of Forgiveness to begin with.  We don’t Forgive; we Discover that we’ve Forgiven.  It’s an Observation, not an Action.  As with Self-Sabotage, we need to Discover what Preceded our episodes of Abuse, so we can Learn to Recognize the Pattern before it turns Abusive, and Choose Otherwise.  While Sharing all this increases the Pain, it’s often very difficult to do alone.

Yes, just about every step in the process of Clearing Abuse – Recall, Acceptance, Self-Empathy, Embracing our Real, Explosive Emotions, Opening to the Patterns – requires an Ego Death (Nemesis).  Our Resistance to Ego Death must be Reframed, so we Recognize when it’s happening and Learn to Celebrate it as the fastest route to Living a Better Life.

And as we move through Abuse, we have to Recognize that we’re likely to be Abused in some ways every day.  Every “trivial” unkind remark, Intentional or otherwise, can make us Feel Less-Than.  So we have to get very good at Recognizing it, Owning and Healing our Reactions, and approaching Ego Death as we would a Latte, in order to make this whole process Sustainable (Ceres).

And Sustainability-Ceres is the kingpin of the whole chart, as it is the head of a Kite that connects the two T-Squares.  A Kite is a Grand Trine (three planets equally spaced around the Circle) with a fourth planet halfway between two of the three.  The fourth planet – Ceres – becomes the Focus of the substantial Dumb-Luck Blessings served up by the Grand Trine.

So we have a Golden Opportunity to bring these Challenges – Cleaning Up our Manifestations by Choosing to Support our Survival Instincts, and Rooting Out the Limiting Beliefs that our Abuse History has left us with – into Resolution, where they Serve our Deepest Desires rather than Sabotaging them.

The three corners of the Grand Trine, or Big Grace, are Manifestation (Makemake), Ego Death (Nemesis), and The End of Karma (asteroids Atropos and Karma).  We’ve actually been working on the Death of Karma for a lot longer than we’ve been working on Abuse Memories or Responding to Survival Instincts.  The Realization in the Western World that Karma is about Inertia rather than Retribution has been with us since Alan Watts’s books in the 1950s.

A corollary is that Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp it.  Like our Other Challenges, Letting Go of Our Karma involves Noticing when it’s recurring, Reverting our Belief that it’s Inevitable, Discovering the Patterns that led up to it, Noticing when those Patterns Begin the next time, and Choosing an Alternative.  The Death of Karma is a Given in this Drama; it’s not something we’re being Scheduled to work on, it’s something that we can use as a model for the Abuse and Survival Issues we are working on.

Dragon, of course, is a synonym for Karma, and as we saw, Dragons have gone to fly on the Other Wind.

Kegels 5

February 7, 2019

I see that more folks than usual are up late looking for answers.  At the risk of sounding oversimple, it probably wouldn’t hurt to review the equations in Einstein’s famous Theory of Relativity…

  • Fear + Courage = Perspective
  • Fear + Breathing = Excitement
  • Fear + Tapping = Grounding
  • Fear + Kegels = Power
  • Anxiety + Poor-Sweethearting = Detachment

I often write late at night, and I used to live in a basement apartment.  While writing I would sometimes feel the hairs on the back of my neck rising, as if someone was just outside my curtained windows looking for an opening.  One night I gathered up my courage and flung open the door – to find a Glorious Full Moon staring at me from the Darkness!

Another time I lived in a creaky old house, and I was alone in the house, in my bedroom with the door shut, when a series of creaks and groans sounded for all the world like someone sneaking up to my door.  Again I flung open the door – and found myself staring at a wardrobe mirror leaning against the wall in the hall, just outside my door.  Now that was scary!  “We have found the Enemy…” as Pogo used to say.

Fear + Breathing is an old equation, which I’ve heard from many reliable sources, and which works well.  Dr. Kim has dozens of excellent variations at…

https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=dr+kim+d%27eramo+anxiety

Many of the videos that are less than two minutes long are pitches for her longer sessions, but most of the longer ones share Powerful Mind-Body techniques, like this one…

Dr. Kim includes Tapping in many of these videos.  One of the first things we do in serious Fear is Leave Our Body.  Tapping (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) can bring us back in.  In some sense, Leaving our Body is an effective strategy – if someone is about to kill us, we’re already gone, so there isn’t much else they can do to hurt us.  But it may help create a lousy next Lifetime, if we re-enter as a Terrified, Implacable Child.  We have more tools at our disposal when we stay in our Body, or get back In.

I’ve mentioned my Kegels story before, so humor me while I repeat it.  I Learned about Fear and Kegels in a workshop with Jack Schwarz (http://holisticu.org/).  Quite innocently, I went to see the movie Aliens after the workshop.  If you haven’t seen it, the Fear level goes off the charts after a few minutes, and never comes back down till a few minutes before the end of the movie.  Having just Learned it, I was doing Kegels like mad all through the movie – two hours of solid Kegeling!

Jack taught that Kegels Slow Down Time.  If Fear is coming at you at 2mph, it’s a lot easier to handle than at 60mph.  Between the movie theater and where I lived was a mile-long bridge, and after the movie it took me absolutely Forever to cross that bridge!  In that mile I looked at my speedometer maybe ten times, and it kept saying 40mph, but the bridge wouldn’t go away.  It was like being in the Twilight Zone.  I’ve never heard anyone mention Kegels in connection with sports, but I now understand how someone can hit an 80mph curveball.  Sports often refers to it as being “In the Zone.”

And once we’ve determined that our Fear or Agitation is not Present-Moment, or that we aren’t in Imminent Danger, we can say to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Anxious, aren’t you.”  Or “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Worried about that deadline, aren’t you.”  As Quilless testified in her Comment to Kegels 4, she “experienced notable Shifts” when she Poor-Sweethearted herself.  It’s a remarkably simple and Powerful technique.

We don’t Leave our Body when we Poor-Sweetheart, but we certainly Leave our Ego, or rather, switch Horses to a different Ego.  It’s basically a Shift into Self-Love.  It’s particularly effective with Anxiety and Worry, because those are markers for being Out Of Self-Love and Questioning our own Competence.  Every Experience is an Opportunity to Learn something Life-Changing.  What if we started every morning with “I Wonder What Wonderful Life-Changing Things I’ll Learn Today.”

One thing I Learned today is that I can afford to be even more Assertive about shunting my Shoulds to the side to make more room for my Wannas.  I tried to work on a big project that’s due next week, and got nowhere, wasting several unproductive hours in the process.  Even when I Noticed how much more Anxiety was involved in having to do everything myself, and PIAVAed help from the Great Spirit and Her Designees, I got nowhere!  So I got the message, Gave It Over, and dove Joyfully into my Wannas.

Considering that Sedna (Fear/Power) is Stationary (Strong) within an eighth of a Degree of the Fixed Star Algol (the Eye of Medusa), we need to review the status of Gender Balance in the World this week.  I think this sums it up fairly well…

…with Speaker Pelosi giving the Antichrist a Celebratory Stinkeye for soundbiting compromise while offering none.  Not exactly a Perseus Moment for the Alpha.

Self-Judgment and Self-Love VI

January 20, 2019

Did we emphasize enough how we might Respond to encountering any Impediments to our Self-Love?  The Easiest would probably be Poor-Sweethearting.  All you have to do is say to yourself, silently or not, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Guilty, aren’t you.” for, e.g., Guilt.  You could plug in any other Self-Judgment, or a different verb, such as “Discouraged,” or even “you’d rather Die, wouldn’t you.”

But before we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, we may want to get Conscious of how we’re Identifying ourself.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’d rather Die, wouldn’t you” might be exactly what you need if you’re Identifying with Extricating yourself from a situation that has no other exits.  But we can make an intermediate step – Identifying with what we’re Feeling.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Hopelessness, aren’t you” Identifies that you’re dealing with an Emotion rather than hardcopy 3D Reality.

Emotions can be Crippling, we know that, but they aren’t the Whole Story.  There are always other Perspectives.  Just Acknowledging that we’re dealing with an Emotion, rather than a Complete Reality, Expands our Awareness because we can’t help but Realize now that there are other things in the Universe besides Emotion.  For many of us, our Emotions are our Bottom Line, but they aren’t Everything.  So doing your Poor-Sweetheart once again with Feeling is useful, but it’s not the real point of Poor-Sweethearting.

When you talk to yourself and address yourself as “You,” you Step Out of your former Identity.  When you talk to yourself Compassionately, you’re no longer Identifying with the Bummer you want to Leave Behind, you’re now Identifying with Compassion – you’re actually stepping into Self-Love.  As long as you aren’t saying it Sarcastically, by adding the Poor you also take a step toward Empathy.

Our Self-Talk and our Thoughts Reveal where our actual Identity sits in any given moment.  Becoming Aware that we’re Talking to Ourself and that we’re Thinking, is a major Expansion of Consciousness, especially if we can make it a Habit.  When we shift from “I’d rather Die” to “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair, aren’t you,” our Identity shifts first from Despair itself, to our Emotions.  We Create Miracles by taking the next step – we Change the Subject.

We’ve Poor-Sweethearted ourself, now we need to Step Aside so it can do its work.  If we continue to focus on Despair or Emotion after we’ve Poor-Sweethearted ourself, we aren’t using the Power inherent in it.  Think of a Bummer, even a tiny one, for a minute.  Then Poor-Sweetheart yourself about it, then look to see if your Mood or Vibration has shifted.  I always feel much Lighter afterward, and I suspect you will too.

Once we move our Attention away, the Magic can happen.  If we’re still thinking about the Bummer, nothing has Changed, and we may need to try another strategy, like Tapping.  Toggling back and forth from Poor-Sweethearting to Tapping, and back again, as many times as you need to, could be very Powerful.  Our Habitual Thoughts are Cages that stop us from entering the Dangerous (to the Ego) world of Growth.  Only by Changing the Subject can we allow the bars to re-form to Enclose a larger space.

A technical note: Feeling Like does not introduce an Emotion, it introduces a Thought.  The word Feeling must be followed by a word that indicates an Emotion, before you’re really dealing with Emotion.  If you’re Feeling Like Shit, you’re still in your Thoughts.  You’re Referring to neither your Emotions nor your Physical Body, but your Judgments about one or the other, or both.  Judgments are Thoughts.  Differentiating your Emotions from your Thoughts is a very Powerful Growth in Consciousness all by itself.

The chart of today’s (20 January 9:15 pm PST) 1 Leo Total Lunar Eclipse Vitality Full Moon, apart from the Grand Octile, is busy…

But if you look at the big blue triangle (Grand Trine, aka Dumb-Luck Blessings), you’ll notice that Chiron (it looks like a key) and Ceres (like an upside-down cuphook) are two of the three corners – Moon-Varuna-North Node (Instincts-Life Force-Mission) is the third.  Plus, by adding Sun-South Node-Karma-Atropos-Mercury (Essence-Held Emotions-Bad Habits-Endings-Awareness; it’s a story problem – make a sentence including all five of these concepts) we make a Kite (Directed Dumb-Luck Blessings).

So whatever else is going on here at the Sappho-Station Total-Lunar-Eclipse Vitality Full Moon, the route to making it all Effortless lies through Chiron (Despair, Miracles, Poor-Sweethearting) and Ceres (Sustainability) – making it a Lifetime Habit to Poor-Sweetheart yourself at the first sign of distress.  You aren’t Avoiding anything by Poor-Sweethearting it; you’re Stepping Out of the Way so your Heart (aka your Inner Female) can Love it to death without interference from the Limitations of your Present-Moment Ego.

Dr. Kim is on track with the Year of Self-Love as well – if like me you’re irritated by the constant movement of the camera, you may want to click to a blank tab so you can Listen without the distraction…

I wonder if it’d be easier to watch if I said to myself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Irritiated, aren’t you.”  Let me give it a try…  Yup, complete transformation!

Self-Judgment and Self-Love II

January 15, 2019

Of course the “good news” of a Nemesis Station Square Nessus-OR10 (Ego Death from Embracing or Poor-Sweethearting our Intrusive Abuse Memories), is that it’s an Opportunity to Clear the very Held Emotions that constitute our Unconscious Resistance to migrating into 5D, aka What We Want.  It’s not as complicated as it sounds.  Originally, we set Boundaries against Memories that would Trigger Emotions that would Overwhelm us.

As we got good at this through Repetition, we pushed the Memories and their Emotions out of our Awareness and into Karma.  We made them Unconscious, which means they’re part of Not-Me.  In Real Life we’re Infinite Light Beings Fantasizing a Material Vehicle, and from this Light-Being Perspective nothing is Not-Me.  But when we Identify with our Fantasy Material (/Emotional/Intellectual) Vehicle, then from that Perspective our Not-Me can get Overwhelmingly large, large enough to Take Control of our Vehicle behind its back, without telling us, so to speak – Out of Our Awareness.

This is the Origin of all the Good-Versus-Evil stories you’ve been taught since Birth; “Good” is your Fantasy-Vehicle Identity, and “Bad” is the Not-Me which is the rest of your Light Being, which you don’t recognize as “Me.”  Hence the Classic Warfare Model of HisStory.  His many Stories become Religions or other Group-Thinks like Make-Rome-Great-Again aka Bring-Back-the-Slaves, which the pathologically clever among us exploit for their own Gain.

Moving into Identifying with our Light Body is not a process of Struggle, but a process of Surrender or Allowing or Vulnerability – HerStory.  The Lady Warrior Archetype misses the point, but it’s an intermediate step that might help with our Liberation, if we don’t get Stuck in it.

As we attempt to return our Identity to our Infinite Light Beingness, we find that our Fantasy-Vehicle Identity has to Break Out of a series of Shells, each one Opening us to a “new” (Revealed – Eris) segment of our Not-Me, which Manifests as an Introduction to a Held Emotion (South Node or Karma).  With each Broken Shell our Me Grows toward our 5D Light Being, and our Me Grows in Power – in the sense that we now have greater Healthy Control over our Life Circumstances.

Not the Power-Over which dominates HisStory, but the Power-With that works through Collaboration with the Unseen.  The more we can Delegate Power to the Unseen Energies that actually Carry it, the Easier our Life becomes.  Except of course for the potentially unpleasant “Ego Deaths,” or Molts, or Rebirths, or Embracing/Poor-Sweethearting of our Held Emotions, that occur when one of those Shells Break, because we Experienced those Shells as Security to our Fantasy Vehicle.  Like when Nemesis Acts Out, such as Now through 17 January.

Not to Lament, as Sappho (Self-Love) is also Stationary here, through 20 January.  Unconditional Self-Love is so Central to our Light-Being Self that we’re hardly Aware of it.  While Nemesis can suck out the Air that our Fantasy Vehicle likes to Breathe, nothing can suck out the Light that our Light-Being Self Breathes, though the Illusions of our Fantasy Vehicle like to blind us to that in its misguided attempts to Protect the next Shell.

When we can Experience the Breaking of a Shell as Liberation of a more Power-With-ful Me instead of the demise of a more Limited Power-Over-ful Me, our Growth into Full Collaboration with the Universe has Arrived.  Contrary to the usual Metaphor, there are no Destinations here; there are only More Shells to Break.  5D is not an event, it’s a process, and it’s the process of Enjoying Ego Death.

So let’s have a look at this Opportunity to Experience some serious Ego Deaths in the context of serious Self-Love…

For instance, there’s Marilyn Raffaele’s Channeling for 13 January…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

(If you don’t find the 13 January 2019 message there, check http://www.onenessofall.com/archives.html.)

“We are the Arcturian Group, a collective of ascended Arcturian beings from the eighth dimension here to assist Gaia and her people during these times of ascending consciousness.

“Know that these messages as well as others that may resonate with you are in reality your own state of consciousness manifesting as the particular message.  If this were not true, you would not be drawn to or be able to understand them.

“You, who are spiritually prepared to expand beyond the illusion and integrate truth are the forefront of the ascension process.  You chose to be on earth during these times of intense energetic chaos and change in order to complete your own third dimensional spiritual journey and become the first wave of ascension and example for those following.

“You are preparing the way for those of the second wave–individuals spiritually ready to awaken but who until now have resisted doing so.  Know that the Light of so many now awakening out of three dimensional sleep state, is shifting and dissolving the old paradigm, even when things appear to be getting worse.  Try not to give up hope but rather stand back as an observer for you are soon going to see much that will restore the hope you may have lost.

“You serve as living breathing examples of unconditional love for those around you when you realize and begin to live out from a consciousness that knows unconditional love is the only reality and that anything else simply represents conditioned beliefs about love.”

“Unconditional love can only ever be all there is because there is only ONE–one substance, one life, one reality, one law.  Love is the energetic glue connecting everything within this Infinite ONE and those who [naively] continue to believe in and live out from a consciousness of separation and duality create for themselves the illusory forms of these beliefs.

“You can ignore, but never change the reality of Oneness by judging from outer appearances as proof of its nonexistence.  Continuing to hold to the third dimensional belief system after outgrowing it only delays a person’s spiritual evolution because Oneness is the foundation of all reality and must be acknowledged at some point.  For some it may be in a future life, for you it is now.

“There are some who present a very religious face to the public, preaching ideas of love, but who do not practice them when confronted with experiences or opportunities that may result in personal inconvenience or lifestyle discomfort.  Unconditional love cannot continue being flowery words spoken or written, but must become an attained state of consciousness.

“Because Love/oneness is the only reality, all false concepts about love must be allowed to fade away and be replaced by a deeper realization of what love really is.  The third dimensional belief system has created and promoted hundreds of concepts of love, the grandest of them being romantic love.

“Romantic love is based in the belief that everyone is half of a couple.  This concept would be true if humans were simply physical, but they are not and never have been.  Although appearing to be just physical, the reality is that everyone is a whole and complete expression of Divine consciousness having the experience of being in physical form.

“Many, even the very evolved are reluctant to move past their favorite three dimensional concepts of love but as long as an individual continues to seek wholeness, happiness, and fulfillment from another, they remain just that– half of a couple.”

“Let go of concepts proclaiming that things need, should, or must be a certain way in order to be correct.  Most of the world’s ‘shoulds and shouldn’ts’ have been carried in collective consciousness from earlier times when they may have actually made sense for personal safety.  Others are nothing more than rules and regulations given by third dimensional thinkers, governments, and religious leaders often to promote their own agendas.

“You are ready to come out from under the bondage of three dimensional thinking because you have evolved beyond the need for someone to tell you what is right and what is wrong–you already know what is right and wrong.

“Allow yourselves to be who and what you are.  If family or friends think you have become a ‘weirdo’, simply laugh, bless them, and move on.  Does God need outer validation?  Where could it come from since IT is all there is?  …

“For some it takes a great deal of courage to live truth when it begins to unfold from within.  A person may be afraid to speak of these things to those of his old mindset be they family, friends, or church elders.  Living truth is not for the faint hearted especially in the beginning, but continuing to align with some organization or individual out of fear of criticism serves only to keep the person in energy he has outgrown and where he will continue to create experiences reflective of that energy.

“The choice is yours, dear ones.  Do you choose to be what you already are or do you wish to continue with the illusion of being a poor human constantly suffering third dimensional problems and continually seeking a savior, human or Divine, to save you?.

“Stop waiting for someone or something to change the world for you.  Only the awakened consciousness of the collective can and is shifting the three dimensional world out of illusion.

“Allow the real YOU to create your experiences.  You are your own Light should you choose to accept this fact.

“You are Divine Consciousness in expression.  Claim it.”

Or Dan Scranton’s Channeling for 14 January…

https://danielscranton.com/defeating-others-is-not-a-part-of-the-shift-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We are more than satisfied with the progress of humanity, and furthermore, we are certain that your progress will continue to impress us.  Now, we know that it is easy to find the faults with where you are as a collective and to focus on them because they are right there in your face, very loud and somewhat destructive.

“So your approach now to helping humanity as the lightworkers you are has to be aimed at changing the way you perceive those noisy, low frequency aspects of the human collective.  We invite you to see that humanity is getting all of this out of its system in preparation for the shift in consciousness.  There are very old disputes that you have on planet Earth, and they actually extend back even further than when human life on Earth began.

“You are there settling very old scores, and you have needed to try the old way of going about it for quite some time.  Again, you need to realize what works by first realizing what does not work.  Seeking to defeat the so-called enemy, no matter how bad they appear to be, will never work for humanity, and there’s a reason for that.  The reason is that you are there to bring together all aspects of you so that you can become your higher selves.

“You cannot bring together all of the parts if any of the parts are eliminated or destroyed.  Again, we invite you to see the attempts to destroy one group of humans by another as the last gasp, the last ditch effort for certain aspects of humanity to cling to the third dimensional ways.

“If you are receiving this transmission, you are not among those who wish to do this.  And so again, we urge you all to be the peace, and the sanity, be the calm at the center of the storm.  And in so doing, you will integrate yourselves, your human collective, and this beautiful galaxy of ours.”

Life Force Full Moon

January 12, 2019

It’s still a week away, but the Full Moon and Total Lunar Eclipse occurs on 20 January (9pm PST) at 1 Leo.  It’s visible in full throughout the Western Hemisphere.  And it’s Merged with (Conjunct) dwarf planet Varuna, the Life Force, the Energy which Animates Entities of all sorts.

An Eclipse symbolizes Illumination, as what we have not been Seeing is suddenly Obvious by its Absence.  Consciousness is Expanded not by Discovery, but by Differentiation.  We hear a Bird chirping in a Tree, but we can’t find it – till it moves.  Then we Realize we’ve been looking at it all along, we just didn’t Differentiate it from its Background.

“At first each change leads to new fears and discomforts but once acclimatized to the new conditions, the knowledge that they have overcome yet more hazards rewards them with greater happiness and their power grows with each new experience; the more power they develop, the speedier is their progress in every way.

“Power is the key which controls all life in growth, in colour and in form; the greater the power, the greater the progress of both the giver and receiver.  As it increases, so the capacity for giving grows and, with each advance, the giver evolves in sensitivity and is thus enabled to enjoy each ensuing experience with added understanding and pleasure.  Power is that which enables all events to take place and without it life would become extinct.

“You may think that a plant extracts all the nourishment that it requires from the soil and so, in a small measure, it does, for there is power of Life in the earth too and without this individual effort of plant or tree, it could not progress.  We can come a little more than halfway, but each entity, or part of one, whether it be man, beast, or plant, must make his contribution too.

“However much power we give, unless the recipient, by his own endeavor, opens himself to receive it, very little can penetrate his physical jacket, and if he relaxes his effort altogether, he dies; to live again, it is true, but as it is not permitted for a Man to take his life, so it is not good for a plant to die because it has ceased to thrive.

“Remember, I pray, when you are weary and wish to give in, if you relax and ask for help, we will respond immediately, for by your request you have built the bridge over which we must pass to aid you.  We are waiting, not miles up in the sky, but right by your side, and that one simple effort to contact us will serve as the breeze which will revive the almost dormant spark of courage within you.”

“Power to the fairies is work, food, drink, recreation, and love-making combined; in fact, the giving and taking of it in its various forms constitutes their entire lives…”

“Always there is a fairy present when you light a fire, whether it is an open grate of crackling logs or the kitchen boiler; it is his duty to give power to the astral body of the fuel and thus stimulate it so that it will burn brighter for your benefit.  Others, likewise, must give power to the water in your pipes, or else it would lose all its health-giving properties.  The air, too, has constantly to be revitalized or that which you draw into your lungs would choke rather than keep you alive…”

“All the material objects in your home, whether of fabric, wood or metal, must receive power, otherwise they would fall to pieces, for power is a necessity to an astral body whether of Man, beast or inanimate object, as are food and drink to the physical body of the animal and even vegetable kingdom…”

“If Man and Fairy would work together as they should, the Earth would bring forth fruits such as Man has never known.”

–Deva Marusis, “The Origin, Life, and Evolution of the Fairies,” in Daphne Charters, Forty Years with the Fairies, pp.45-54.

That which Animates.  If you know anything about Quantum Physics, you recognize the process.  Same Phenomena, different Metaphors.

There are three levels of Interpretation for Lunar Energy.  Not three levels of Lunar Energy, but three levels of sophistication in Interpreting and understanding Lunar Energy.  At the first level, the Moon represents Change, or random variation, random Motion, random Emotion.  When someone cuts you off on the freeway, sometimes you think, “They must be in a hurry,” and other times you curse them.  Random Reactions.

In the second level of Interpretation, the Moon represents our Instincts.  In the first case, you likely sensed that the person who cut you off was having an emergency of some kind, while in the second case you may have Instinctively Knew that the driver was Angry, and his (well, would a her cut you off?  Maybe, but less likely) reckless driving was an Act of Competition.

On the third level, the Moon stands for the Energy that holds Matter together, in the way described by Marusis above.  Remember, to Manifest we need Clarity, Neutrality, and Passion.  Clarity in the sense that we’ve Cleared any Resistance from the Unconscious, Neutrality in the sense that we don’t have an Emotional Investment in any specific Outcome, and Passion in the sense that we Care Deeply.

Is there a Contradiction between this Neutrality and this Passion?  Maybe, but Remember that Contradiction occurs only in Duality, ie, only in the mind of the Observer, not in Observed Reality.  So if you want to call it a Paradox instead of a Contradiction, I’d be fine with that.  Still skeptical about how you could Care Deeply and Passionately without an Emotional Attachment?  Your Passion is your Motivation.  It drives you to immer Streben.  Not getting the Outcome you want doesn’t deter you.

Consider your Deepest Desire.  You’ve been Streben for it as long as you’ve been Alive, and you still don’t have it.  Does that mean you give up?  You couldn’t if you wanted to – you’d just sublimate it and Seek it by a different name, one that is politically correct to your Ego.   Spots?  No, those aren’t Spots, they’re Stripes!  You’re the only one who Believe that, but what does that matter?  It’s just a word.

But your Deepest Desire is just a placeholder.  The closer you get to it, the more it morphs.  It’s a distorted picture of your Mission, but it’s the Clearest picture you can grok at your current level of Awareness.  Your True Mission is ineffable.  PIAVA it, and see what happens.  “I Wonder what it might look like to have Neutrality and Passion at the same time.”

This is why the Moon frequently Triggers other astroevents.  Because the Lunarglue is necessary for events or objects or circumstances to Adhere and stay Adhered.  Personalizing this Lunar Energy, whether by the name of Faerie, Ganesha, God/Goddess, the Unseen Therapist, Mother Mary, or Fred, gives you the advantage that you have someone to address when you Ask for its, or their, aid.  If you make it a Religion, you lose, because in most cases, when you confine Spirit to Either/Or, you’ve put a dagger through its Varuna.  Spirit and the Moon are Both/And.