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Taking Our Power Back

September 18, 2019

Phew!  That was hard!  At least it’s under the bridge.  Next up, our Self-Sovereignty is tested (dwarf planet Hylonome Stationary) till 21 September 2019 (8am PDT).  The event occurs in 11 of Capricorn, within spitting distance of our just-completed 14-Capricorn Adventures with our Held Emotions (Saturn Stationary Conjunct South Node 18 September).  Those are the ones we’d rather Die than Feel, in case you’ve forgotten.

The Bane of the 21 September chart…

…is Entanglement with our Thinking-Feeling Feedback Loops (Hylonome Station Square to Mercury-Venus).  You’ve probably been dealing with those the same way I have – the recent Held Emotions business made us feel like shit, and our mind obediently and immediately sprang to work trying to Figure Out Why.  Am I right?  Didn’t work, did it.  Because it wasn’t Present Moment, it was Karma.  This is how the mind makes us Sick.  We don’t Feel well, and instead of Poor-Sweethearting ourself or otherwise being Tender and Nonjudgmental with our Body and Self, we make stuff up so we’ll Feel even worse.

That’s one of Strongest Patterns that keeps us out of 5D, the Land of Effortless Cooperation and Collaboration.  We can’t even Collaborate with ourself.  No Blame – I know from first-hand Experience that this is a very difficult Pattern to Break, and Western Culture Insists that it’s Required for membership.  In fact it’s Karma itself – if we can Break that Pattern, we can Break any.  And the Hylonome Station chart will help us out on several counts!

First of all, that Mercury-Venus Conjunction (Thinking-Feeling Feedback Loops) is party to two Unx Angles.  An Unx (which means one twelfth of something, in this care one twelfth of the Zodiac or one Sign) in astrology is two planets separated by one sign.  It means Pattern-Breaking.  One Sign ahead of Mercury-Venus is a Stellium (3 planets) that means Loosening our Boundaries against Truth (Pallas-Aletheia-Veritas)The Truth is always What’s Going On In the Present Moment.  A couple days ago, that was Feeling Like Shit.  Fine.  Not Fun, but Fine.

If we Stay in the Present Moment, we’ll Embrace that.  Maybe Explore where in our Body it’s Centered.  Maybe Soften and Warm it, since Love is Soft and Warm, while Fear is Cold and Hard.  Maybe write some Stream-of-Consciousness about it, letting ourselves Associate it with anything we’ve ever Felt before, or with any Drama it Reminds us of.  But if we try to Figure It Out so we can Fix It, what a Rejection of it that is!  We Demonstrate that it’s Intolerable.

That’s How It Got to Be a Held Emotion – that’s the Definition of a Held Emotion.  If you’re like me, you Begged the mind to give you a Believable Story that could make you Feel Better.  For a few minutes.  While making sure your Karma Stays Tightly Held, and you stay in 3D.  No Blame, Change is Scary.  But in this chart, for the next few days, with an Unx between your Feedback Loops and Present-Moment Truth, we get to see exactly how that process works, we bring it into Consciousness so we can Change it.  We can’t Change anything while it’s Unconscious – that’s almost tautological.  The Unx gives us the Opportunity.

One Sign behind Mercury-Venus Feedback Loops is another Stellium, this one about Becoming Conscious of the Vows We Have Made That Betray our Self-Love.  How many times have we “had to” do that, often in order to Avoid Death.  If you’re True to your Soul, you won’t care about Death, it’ll just be time to Change the Water, move on to Other Experiences.  If you’re True to your Ego, Anything is Preferable to Death.  But how many Lifetimes have we had to have just to begin to Know the Difference between Soul and Ego?  No Blame.  It’s not how many times we Fall Down, it’s how many times we Get Up, even if we have no idea Why or What we’re Getting Up To.

So this Unx will Help us Break our Patterns of Self-Betrayal, and it will do it by Helping us to Stay Present with the Truth of What’s Really Going On In Each Moment.  There’s a pretty Radical book called What You Think of Me Is None of My Business.  We can Reframe that as What We Think About Our Feelings is Bullshit.  Our Feelings Stand on Their Own.  The last thing they need is our Opinion about them.  The road to 5D lies through Embracing and Enjoying the Depth and Unique Flavor of Every Possible Emotion, Just As It Is.

The Becoming Conscious of the Decisions We Have Made That Betray our Self-Love Stellium also Opposes the dwarf planet that stands for Abuse and Privilege (Nessus).  So many of those Decisions we made because we were Avoiding or trying to make the best of Abuse, or when we Felt that it was okay to Abuse someone else because they were Less Than us, or they Deserved it.  The Karma involved in Abusing someone else is no Different from the Karma in Being Abused.

This Opposition between Abuse and Awareness of Self-Betraying Decisions is part of a Grand Cross, Challenging (Squaring) another Opposition, between Sustainability (dwarf planet Ceres) and Rebirth (asteroid Klotho).  A Grand Cross is a bunch of Hassles that Complement one another.  It’s not Easy, but it’s not as Frustrating as some of our other Configurations (such as a T-Square).  One of these Hassles stands out.  It’s the Hassle of Rebirth, or Starting Over.  We have to Give Up everything we thought we knew, all of our precious Survival Strategies that have kept us Okay, but still in 3D.  Rebirth is Scary.

Our Rebirth is Challenged (T-Squared) by the Contrast between our Herstorical Abuse and our Awareness of our Self-Betraying Decisions.  But it’s a Self-Resolving Challenge (a Diamond Star, or T-Square and Finger of God pointing to the same place).  The two keys (roots of the Finger of God) to Allowing our Rebirth here are Accepting the Truth about the Present Moment (Pallas-Aletheia-Veritas) and Awareness of our Self-Sovereignty (Stationary Hylonome Herself).

If “We” is our mind, then sure, Judging and Profiling Everything in our World sounds Self-Sovereign.  But while many of us Live that way, and Western Culture Rewards us handsomely for it, most of us would Hesitate a bit about Believing that this is Enlightenment.  This chart Allows us to Accept the Gift of Being Reborn truly Self-Sovereign, Self-Loving, and Committed to Staying in the Present Moment.  Don’t Reject it, ok?  At least PIAVA Accepting it!

Yes, this Hylonome Station is a transitory event.  Sure, we can be Reborn for a few days, but then the Station fades and we go back to The Way It Was, don’t we?  Well, we definitely have that Choice.  But we also have the Choice of Noticing, Learning, and Intending (or Praying, Asking, Visualizing, Affirming, Commanding, or any of the other “silent” PIAVA terms) that we don’t leave this Time window without a pretty Deep Embrace of this Rebirth.  We might even say three times, Thinking-About-Feeling, Leave Now, and Never Come Back!

Held Emotions II

September 12, 2019

Our initiation into The Most Important Thing Is to Embrace our Held Emotions (Saturn Stationary Conjunct the South Node) is the 12 September, 2019 (8:30 pm PDT) Illumination of the symbol for Respect for All Things (Station of asteroid Hopi) in the same 14 Capricorn Degree.  These Conspirators are joined by the symbol for Becoming Aware of the Need for Self-Sovereignty (dwarf planet Hylonome, Stationary until 21 September) in 11 Capricorn.  That’s kind of a Knife Edge, Respecting All Things Without Giving Away Our Power to Any of Them.

The Self-Sovereignty issue is greatly Enhanced by a Challenge (T-Square) to the Expansion of our Awareness (Jupiter) from the symbols for Self-Sovereignty itself (Lilith) and Action/Anger (Mars).  Most especially, we’re Instructed by these “Stars” to Take Action to Get Neutral about Our Anger at The People Who Have Taken Our Power When We Gave It To ThemWe’re Angry at the People who have Taken Our Power, but it is Us – Unconsciously – who Gave It to Them.  Most of the time this happens because our Programmers installed Holes in our Auras that they could reach into and Pull our Puppet-Strings.

Here’s the chart…

If you’ve raised or otherwise worked closely with Children, you’ve probably Unconsciously or even Consciously done the same thing – found a place where you could Manipulate them, usually through Shame, in order to keep them under Control.   Especially in groups, they can be a handful…

Manipulating others for your own Gain isn’t the Travesty that it sounds like – we all do it to some extent.  There are two problems that arise when you Manipulate Children with Shame.

First, that Hole in their Aura doesn’t Heal on its own.  It stays with them into Adulthood until – and if – they Discover it and Heal it.  Till then they’re Compelled to Give Their Power Away to anyone who Discovers their Puppet Strings, and to their Frustration and Anger – and Shame, they won’t know why or how.

And second, that Hole wouldn’t be there unless it was part of their Karma, which makes it more Difficult for them to Discover and Heal it, because it was embedded in the Unconscious before they were even born.  These Huper Lifetimes are worse than Gollum’s Riddles!

There’s another Configuration that Illuminates this whole process – the symbol for Fate and Choice (asteroid Moira) and the symbol for Oath-Making and -Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus) are Merged (Conjunct) in the Hopi Station chart, and they volunteer to Help us with this Discovery (along with asteroid Veritas [Truth], they make a Double Trine Bridge [Easy Crossing] across the Nodal Axis).

Until we become Conscious of our Karma, and the Hole(s) in our Aura, we stuck with our “Fate.”  Once we Become Aware of it (Hylonome), we have Choice.  We were probably between a Rock and a Hard Place, but at some point lost in the Mists of Time, we Swore an Oath, and we Obeyed it, we Adopted it as part of our Identity, perhaps as the Core of our Identity.  Habits become Unconscious through Repetition, and in subsequent Lifetimes the Repetition was well established, but the Oath was Forgotten.  Bingo, Karma.  To Convert Fate to Choice we need to Break the Oath.  But we’ve long since Forgotten what is was.

That’s a fine Story for 3D Linear Time, but as you know, Time doesn’t really work that way.  If you’re like me, for the last week your “Random” Memories have been popping up all over the map, with little “rhyme or reason.”  That’s Real Time, with Bleedthrough from whatever Lifetime (which our Creative Memory usually inserts into the “Past” in our Current Lifetime) dripping through seemingly unpredictably, though we can often Discern Themes.

Creative Memory makes it seems like all these Random Tidbits and Recurrent Themes are part of “Us,” and they become our Identity.  But again, it doesn’t really work that way.  That’s 3D Ego-Level “Us.”  Shift your Identity to your Soul, and it looks very Different.  Karma is Personal only to the Ego, not to the Soul.  On the Soul Level, when we Choose to Slum it for a while on Earth, we pick a Project we want to help the Planet with.  The Karma is in the Energy Field of the Planet.  Other planets may not even contain the moving parts that “our” Karma is made from.

We come here to Help Convert some aspect of the Planet’s Fate to Choice, by contributing Replications of Alternative Patterns.  With enough Reps, by ourself and Others, new Habits are built into the Earth’s Energy Template.  Epigenetics, it’s called when Personalized to the Huper Level.  Project that back through Herstory.  Hupers used to be in the Habit of starving to Death in a bad winter following a poor Harvest.  Then Volunteers like you came and organized ways to store Food from one winter to the next, and ways to move Food from one valley that had a fortunate Harvest, to another that didn’t.  New Habits.

There was nothing Ego-Personal about all that; it was “just” Souls monkeying with the Energy Fields.  Death is no big deal to the Soul, it’s just another Experience.  The advantage of staying Alive longer was to build greater Knowledge and Wisdom.  A Hunter or Forager or Farmer with fifty years of Hunting or Foraging or Farming in their Winter Count is far ahead of one who flames out at twenty years.  Of course that’s just a Story too.  We as Hupers don’t generally have the Bandwidth to actually Grok what’s really going on in Dimensions (and Dementias) that we can’t even See or Touch.  But the more Metaphors and Stories and Perspectives we have, the more we can Intuit.

So how then do we actually Help Extinguish this Planetary Karma?  What if we could gather up enough Passion, Focus, and Power to just tell it to “Leave Now, and Never Come Back!“?

It’s too easy to Forget that Karma is not Present Moment, it’s not Real.  It’s a Paper Tiger, a Shadow Puppet.  Sméagol had to repeat his New Anthem three times before it took hold.  Your Attachment to “your” Karmic warp in the Force, the one you came here to Help Convert, may be a little stronger; it may take you up to ten Reps to gather enough Courage, Commitment, Passion, Confidence, Focus and Power to Banish it Forever.  The sooner you start, the sooner you finish.

We could even make “Leave Now, and Never Come Back!” another silent partner in PIAVA.  In the next post we’ll look at the other side of the coin, Healing the Holes in our Aura directly.

TMIT Is Embracing Held Emotions

September 10, 2019

Yesterday’s Ixion (Forbidden Genius) Station was a big deal, and the 14 September 2019 Stations of Pholus and Quaoar (Responding to Survival Instincts) are huge for the likes of Climate Change and Extinctions including our own, all these (and the many other intervening diversions) are really just details in the Real Main Event, namely the 18 September Station of Saturn on the South Node.  Anyone who’s been here a while knows that we consider Saturn to mean The Most Important Thing (ie, “TMIT”), and the South Node to mean our Karma, most specifically our Held Emotions.

Held Emotions are those which “We’d rather Die than Feel,” probably because that’s what we were Feeling in a number of recent Past Deaths.  Every Past Life featured a Past Death, and physical Deaths are often unpleasant.  From the Perspective of the Immutable Soul though, every Death is just a Transition, albeit a usually difficult one.  We misinterpret Held Emotions, reading them as “We’d rather Die than Feel,” when the real issue is “We’d rather Die than Feel” – which is to say, the Ego – our Identity or We – has to Die if we want to move beyond the Blocks that our Held Emotions present.

Few of us are able to get beyond the Dualistic mind to begin to Grok our Multidimensional and Unitary Mission – why we took this particular Lifetime – as symbolized by the North Node.  But this “Dragon” (the other name for the Nodes) has a secret.  That’s why Bilbo risked getting toasted to sample Smaug’s Horde.  Hidden behind our Held Emotions are the Skills we developed in these Lifetimes where we Died so unceremoniously, and we cannot Accomplish our Mission without these Skills.  So it would be very relevant to aver that The Most Important Thing we have to do in any Lifetime, is to Learn to Embrace our Held Emotions.

In one version of the Sisiutl story of the Canadian West Coast, this Horrendous two-headed Dragon is famous for turning to Stone anyone or thing who looks it in the eye.  Not just Instant Death, but being Frozen in Terror till the End of Days.  No fun.  So how do we Overcome our Personal Sisiutl?  As Sisiutl approaches we Stand Still with our eyes closed, until He gets so close that his two heads, on either side of us, see each other, and it’s He who turns to Stone.

In other words, when these Horrendous Emotions arise, we Stand Still for them.  They aren’t Real, they aren’t Present-Moment, they’re Karma, ancient bundles of Terror dolled up in a Dragon suit, Paper Tigers, Shadow Puppets.  They become “Real” in the Present Moment only through our Beliefs and Expectations.  Nocebos, granted Life by our Projections.  If we can Tolerate the Presence of the Dragon, we can Embrace the Lost Child in the Dragon Suit.  By Embracing and Befriending that Lost Child, we Recover the Skills we need to Do What We Came Here To Accomplish.  It’s not about Heroism and Strength, it’s about Surrender and Vulnerability.

The immediate Energy is a Station of asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things) that occurs 12 September (8:30 pm PDT) in 14 Capricorn, only ten arcseconds from Saturn.  In other words, what are you Judging, what are you Resisting, of what Energy are you the Victim?  These are huge clues.  If you wait till your Held Emotions come rushing in as pure Emotion, you’ll be Overwhelmed.  But if you take your Pet Peeves and other Fears, and turn them over in your hand, you may be able to sneak down that hidden tunnel to the Lair in the Hollow Hill, where your Held Emotions sleep, and catch them unawares.

Dwarf planet Hylonome also joins Hopi, Saturn, and the South Node.  Hylonome is about Self-Sovereignty.  So you can also look over the places where you Give Your Power Away, and Ask yourself Why you do that.  Not in the sense of What Triggers It, but in the sense of What Are You Afraid Of, Why are you Compelled to Give Away Your Power in these circumstances.

What Distinguishes our Karma from our everyday Bummers, is not just Repetition, but Unconsciousness.  When we start Shaking, or have a sudden unquenchable need for Chocolate or any other of our Addictions, or have a sudden need to Sleep, we don’t think, “Oh, there’s my Karma!”  We reach for the Chocolate or the Cider or whatever Stabilizes us for the few minutes that it does.  This Moment is where our Power arises and we Give It Away.  This is the Moment when we Want to Ask, “What’s this about?”  “What am I Resisting and Hoping to Avoid?”

Our Karma is Unconscious, so Plan-Execute-Analyze won’t work.  To get behind the Veil to the Other Side we have to use PIAVA instead – Prayer, Intention, Asking, Visualizing, Affirming, and all of the “silent” terms like Commanding, Wondering, Expanding (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/ and https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/).

Ixion, Forbidden Genius 3

September 8, 2019

As you watch this terribly relevant comment from Nikoletta, remember that we Strive for Both/And, not Either/Or…

You may not have realized that LSD is a homeopathic.  This one, thanks to joAnn, is long but well worth it, as like the Ocean, it helps us Distinguish our Forbidden Genius from our Ego…

The more we can Distinguish anything from our Ego, the better off we are.  Imagine what it will be like in 2037, when we have to, in order to Survive, Open the Floodgate to our Hidden Genius!  And of course what Elizabeth describes is just PIAVA, Surrendering Control to Source.  Like Nick says about Tapping, Try It On Everything.  The more we use PIAVA, down to the tiniest details of everyday Life, the more we’ll be ready for 2037, and 2020, and 2022.

The 10 September 2019 Station of Ixion is actually the Beginning of a rather meaningful Gauntlet.  Look at this series…

  • 12 September – Station of Hopi (Respect for All Things) in 14 Capricorn suggesting that The Most Important Thing is Self-Sovereignty from our Karma (Conjunct Saturn-South Node-Hylonome)
  • 13 September – Full Moon in 22 Pisces Challenging us to use our Intuition to Abandon Self-Doubt and Denial (Angles to Asbolus, Chariklo-Pluto, and Atropos-Eris)
  • 14 September – Stations of Quaoar and Pholus (Responding to our Survival Instincts) at 30 Sagittarius-2 Capricorn in a complex chart
  • 15-18 September – Station of Saturn Conjunct South Node (The Most Important Thing Is Clearing our Karma) in 14 Capricorn with much Expansion (Self-Resolving Square to Jupiter, Grand Sextile)
  • 21 September – Station of Hylonome (Self-Sovereignty) in 11 Capricorn in another complex chart

Trust III

June 24, 2019

Here’s the Eurydike Station chart…

First thing we notice is the red triangle (T-Square), symbolic of Challenge.  Its focus is an astrological symbol for Codependence (dwarf planet Hylonome, the Y-on-a-unicycle), which means that our Identity is Entangled with another Entity.  The basic difference between Empathy and Codependence is that an Empath Knows that the Experienced Emotions are not their own; a Codependent does not.  Many Empaths are Unable, Unwilling, or Untrained to shake off the Emotions of others, but that’s a separate – and complex – issue.

The base of the triangle contradistinguishes (Opposes) the symbol for Boundaries (asteroid Pallas, a diamond on a cross) with the symbol for Ending TimeLines (asteroid Atropos).  A TimeLine can be a Lifetime, any episode of one’s Life, a particular Habit that plays a prominent role in one’s Life for a period of time, or any other interaction between Time and Life.  So this T-Square comes down to a Challenge to Consciously Create New Kinds of Boundaries that Eliminate Unproductive Codependence.

Classic examples – Learning to Love while Acknowledging and Celebrating Difference; Holding a Job without Identifying with its Role or Allowing it to Define our Security; Trusting our Resilience to Survive in almost any Circumstances; The Ability to stick to a Budget when our Expenditures Define Who We Are.

When we Believe that we’re someone that we aren’t, we’re usually Confused about our Values, because we are trying to Live from two different Hearts.  We can’t really Trust ourself, because we aren’t always Acting to our own Benefit.  In Supporting someone else’s Values, we can Betray our own, Abandoning ourself.  We have to Remediate this Consciously, because if we do it Unconsciously (by Blaming the Other and Leaving the Relationship for instance), we Learn nothing and will Repeat the Self-Abandonment.

This interlude of focus on Trust provides an Opportunity for becoming Conscious of our Codependence and taking steps to Remedy it.  Notice that the Stationary Eurydike connects the two ends of the base of the T-Square, but with blue lines (a Trine Bridge).  Blue lines symbolize Grace, indicating that Trust is an alternative to Codependence here.  Trusting that the Person or Job or other Entity or Object that we’re Codependent with has our own interests at heart?  I don’t think so.  I think it would be more about Trusting that we can Survive on our own, without Sacrificing our Identity to an Outside Object, or at least to the Outside Object that’s Lit Up for you now.

Codependence/Hylonome also connects the two ends of the long red line that is a Contradistinction (Opposition) between the symbol for Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus, the N-on-a-Unicycle) and Making or Breaking Oaths (dwarf planet Orcus).  We can read this as Forgiving our Codependence when it Protects us from Abuse, and that may be relevant in some cases.  But in the context of Growing Consciousness, it’s more likely to be about Becoming Aware of situations, through our Codependence, that Allow us to identify a source of Oaths we’ve made in the past which Limit us today.

For instance, if I have a Codependent Relationship with Money, did I make a Decision sometime in the past never to appear Poor?  If so, was that Decision based on Pride?  On the obvious correlation between Poverty and Powerlessness?  How old was I when I made such a Decision?  What else was going on at the time in my Family of Origin?  Was a Past or Parallel Life involved?

The long green lines (Quincunxes, connecting planets five Signs apart) are all about Curiosity, especially Curiosity of the sort that Inspires genuine Interest, not to “Figure It Out,” but to Fully Appreciate its apparent Uniqueness and Difference.  There are three such Questions, each relating to a short green line signifying Pattern-Breaking (Unxes, connecting planets one Sign apart)

  • I Wonder (Quincunx) which Oaths (Orcus) I can Trust (Eurydike) to Reveal (Unx) the sources of my Codependence (Hylonome) so I can Let it Go.
  • I Wonder how I might modify my Boundaries (Pallas) in order to Break my Habit (Unx) of Trusting (Eurydike) my Privilege (Nessus).
  • I Wonder what Oaths (Orcus) I can Revert (Atropos) to curtail (Unx) Abuse (Nessus).

Lots to Wonder about, and a few days off to Indulge in Wondering, as our next major astroevent isn’t till the 2 July New Moon.  However, the New Moon is in the same 11th Degree as the Eurydike Station, so these same planets are involved, and many of the same Angles.  So we’ll be continuing to work with these issues.

For instance, the New Moon Opposes Hylonome/Codependence and T-Squares Pallas/Boundaries.  Moira/Choice has moved into position to create a Yin Gate with its Opposition to Eurydike/Trust, indicating a Mysterious Non-Dual Relationship between Choice and Trust.  We’ll map all this out soon.

Self-Sovereignty

April 8, 2019

Though the 5 April Sovereignty New Moon (see previous post) remains in full effect, we’re also well into a new Time Province, the astrohighlights of which are…

  • 4-8 April brings an Emphasis on Sustainability, which includes our Ability and Willingness to drop that which is Unnecessary, since Sustenance is the other side of the Resilience Coin.  (Ceres Station in 15 Sagittarius, 8 April 9:30 pm PDT.)  Sagittarius 15 is the location of the “Great Attractor,” which is an unknown Source of Cosmic Suction that’s pulling our Galaxy and many others toward itself.
  • 3-10 April Challenges us to Let Go of the Limitations that Inhibit us from Expanding in all Directions – our Horizons, our Perspectives, our Relationships, our Life, and in particular, Limitations on our Loving Attention to the Guidance provided by our Emotions and Instincts.  (Jupiter Station in 25 Sagittarius, 10 April, 10am PDT, Opposed by the Moon.)
  • 6-13 April is likely to see issues of Vitality becoming prominent.  An excellent time to Expand our notions about Healing.  What Inhibits or Prevents our own Healing?  Who taught us that there were Limits to Healing?  Have we begun to Realize how wrong they were?  (Varuna Station in 1 Leo, 13 April, 10:30 am PDT.)
  • 9-16 April will find us Exploring Practical issues around our Sovereignty.  If we Respond with Obedience to those who want us to follow Their Rules, how does that make us Feel?  How often do we get Practice Responding Differently?  Do we even Notice when we’re Obeying our own Programming, our Shoulds?  Maybe it’s time to Practice shaking things up a little, starting with places where the Impact won’t be too Consequential.  Self-Sovereignty is already Critically important, and it will only become more so.  (Hylonome Station in 15 Capricorn, 16 April, 4:30 pm PDT.)

Here’s an excerpt from Dan Scranton’s recent Channeling on this…

https://danielscranton.com/self-expression-ascension-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/

“So many humans are afraid to express themselves as they truly are, because of a fear of backlash, whether from parents, friends, co-workers, teachers, or even government officials.  There are so many beings on your world that you give your power away to.  There are so many other humans that have positions of authority and so many humans who feel afraid to be who they really are because of what could happen as a result.

“And those fears really are about what has happened already in other lifetimes, but you all don’t know that.  And so, there are many awakened individuals now who are the trailblazers in terms of their willingness to be unique and different and in terms of their willingness to express themselves in spite of what might happen if the wrong person or people were to find out.  That’s the type of courage humanity needs right now.”

Very much an underscore on the 5 April New Moon.

Once we get past the Ides of April, we enter what we’ve referred to as “Dark Days.”  That of course is Optional, but many astrologers – those prefer to stoke Egos and Fear, will label it so and many people – those who cower before Growth, will Experience it so.  Simply put, the theme of the last half of April is The Most Important Thing is the Transformation of our Self-Confidence.  Really all we have to do, is Remember to Refuse to Believe the content of our Doubts.  We’ll talk more about this as the month proceeds.

Another Molt IV

October 18, 2018

And the week wasn’t just about Ego Death, it was also about Transcendence, as asteroid BZ509 was also Stationary, on 17 October.  Pairing their Stations in time is like having BZ509 Initiate a new Cycle with Nemesis – we have to read them as if they were Merged.  BZ509 is a recently-discovered asteroid with a somewhat Jupiter-like orbit, which would give it some of the Power of Jupiter.  But its orbit is Backward relative to most everyone else.  It symbolizes Transcendence.

Here’s the chart of its Station…

A lot more going on here than in the Nemesis-Station chart.  Just for starters, we notice that the BZ509 Station is Merged with (Conjoins) both our friend Saturn, whom we’ve just discussed, and dwarf planet Hylonome.  Hylonome is about Stepping Out of Relationships where we’ve been Merged with Other.

Of course that only applies to college freshpersons without dependencies and other complications.  Real Life is a lot more complicated.  But the “Leaving” isn’t really about Physical Separation, it’s about Egoic Separation, about becoming your own person, directed by your own Mission, and not someone else’s.  When we Change, the World Changes to reflect our Change.  Many of the repercussions we Fear don’t actually evolve, and/or they’re Compensated by other Changes we didn’t foresee.

So in this case I was probably Merged with Rebellion, possibly as an Unconscious (and probably Karmic, given the Nemesis-Station chart) Reaction to having been Judged all my Life for “Lacking” Discipline.  Everybody’s got a Saturn, so nobody Lacks Discipline – we just don’t understand how their Protocols differ from ours.

So to complete my homework I need to spend some time Wondering how Rebellion and Self-Sabotage have complemented one another in my Karmic history.  If I don’t do that, I’ll likely be less Conscious the next time Saturn and Mars are in a Challenging Angle to one another. 

A seldom-mentioned subtext of PIAVA is Expansion.  Like that old Meditation where you become as big as your house, then your yard, etc etc till you’re as big as the Galaxy.  Or the one where you Ascend to larger and larger Geophysical Perspectives.  These are good ways to Explore your Karmic history, while Remembering that All There Is Is Now.

Mars is Waxing Novile to Saturn these days.  The Novile is about Meditation.  The current Mars-Saturn Cycle Initiated early April of this year in 9 Capricorn, “An Angel carrying a harp.”  That’s pretty cool.  The Mars-Saturn Cycle is about how our Energy interacts with our Attention to The Most Important Thing.

This chart has two Big Challenges (T-Squares)…

  • Can we stop Projecting those Memories of Abuse onto everyone who reminds us of our historical Abusers?  Or Get more Neutral about the Memories themselves, so we can Respond instead of Reacting in the many situations where they arise, especially when they’re Unconscious?  (Nessus-OR10 T-Square on Hopi-Lachesis Opposition)
  • Do we Trust our own Values?  Do they Deserve to be Trusted, or do they need to be Updated, particularly the Values that came to us from our Karma?   Or from our Abuse?  (Eurydike-Venus T-Square on Lilith-South Node to Varuna-North Node Opposition)

And the most prominent planets in the chart are the two outliers that aren’t knitted into the bottom of the chart like everyone else is – Lachesis (Changing TimeLines by Choice) and Varuna-North Node (achieving Good Health by Cleaning Up our Karma and Attending to our Mission).

There’s a potentially interesting free series of webinars this weekend called “Finding the Life You Were Born to Live: Astrology, Life Purpose & Destiny,” https://www.astrologyuniversity.com/astrology-destiny-and-life-purpose-summit/, put on by Astrology University (which I’ve never heard of, but their faculty is reputable).  They include a Wonderful quote from Dane Rudhyar…

“When you don’t follow your nature there is a hole in the universe where you were supposed to be.”

Notice that these two form the base of a Yod (Pay Attention to…) focused on Saturn-BZ509-Hylonome (Transcending our Patterns of Giving Away Our Power).  Touchè.

No. IV

September 17, 2018

So far we haven’t looked at Hylonome itself, the Star of this show.  As we’ve indicated, dwarf planet Hylonome is about…

  • Merging with Other people (or concepts, or ideals, or Values), sometimes Unconsciously, sometimes because we don’t Believe we have a Choice
  • Becoming Conscious of Merging with Other
  • Making Choices that Support What We Really Want rather than What They Want.

Notice when we Choose to Kiss Someone’s Ass because we Believe it’s the best way to get What We Want, that’s a Conscious Choice, and probably more about Vesta than Hylonome.  If we don’t Believe there are Other Ways to get What We Want, then Hylonome might be involved, as that’s really about being Unconscious of Alternatives (of which there are always many, once we shift our Perspective).

The major Angles that Hylonome makes in its Station chart are…

  • Transcending our Codependence – Hylonome Conjunct BZ509
  • Becoming Authentic with ourself about the situations where we Give Away our Power – Hylonome Conjunct Moon
  • Being Challenged to make our Self-Sovereignty Sustainable – Hylonome Square Ceres
  • Facilitating Changes in our Karmic Timelines – Part of the “Bowl of Grace” under the Lachesis Diamond Star that’s part of the Lachesis-Nessus-Karma-Orcus/Pallas Grand Cross
  • Facilitating our Mission in the Lifetime – Focus of a Yod from the North Node and Lachesis
  • Making it Easier to Disrupt our Held Emotions about Bondage – Hylonome Unx Lilith-South Node
  • Making it Easier to Break our Karmic Patterns – Hylonome Unx asteroid Karma

The structure of the chart is like a Radio Telescope or a Reflecting Telescope, where a large bowl of Mirrors or Antennas Reflect signals back to  Central Point…

The single point is asteroid Lachesis.  Lachesis was the Greek “Fate” who determined the length of a Fated Timeline.  Fate happens to us when we’re Living our Lives Unconsciously.  When we Notice the Archetypal Patterns that are running our Lives, Realize that there are Alternatives, and Decide to Choose Habits that Support What We Want, we’re using Lachesis as a trigger for our Sovereignty to Choose when to start and stop each Timeline in our Life. 

When we get really good with Lachesis, we can even Decide when to bring Timelines or Wisdom, from other Lifetimes, into the Current Life.  I’ve even met people who are quite Conscious about when to begin or end a particular Lifetime.  From the Ego’s Perspective, a Lifetime is kind of the Ultimate Timeline.  From the Soul’s Perspective, a Lifetime is just one chapter in a whole series of intersecting Timelines.

 

 

No. III

September 16, 2018

To No. II a reader responds…

“This feels like a personal horoscope.”

Alas, that’s the way it is for so many of us!  For anyone unfamiliar with Nessus, these articles would probably be valuable…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/06/03/nessus/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/06/04/nessus-two/

It should be no surprise, given the way astrology has been so explicit lately, that Lilith, Goddess of Self-Sovereignty Herself, is Lit Up while Hylonome is Standing Still.  And Lilith is Merged in the 17 September Hylonome-Station chart with the South Node, repository of our Held Emotions, aka Karma, Mirroring the Grand Cross of No. II

Our Held Emotions are the ones we’ve Repressed because we’d rather Die than Feel them.  Because they require an Ego Death in other words.  I mean, who would be crazy enough to go into an Ego Death voluntarily!?!? 

Well, I hope that I convince you to do exactly that if you read this blog long enough, because Ego Death is the fastest road to Growth in Consciousness, Liberation, Ascension, Spiritual Progress, Manifesting What You Really Want, Achieving your Lifetime Mission, ending the Heartbreak of Psoriasis, and all the other Good Things I hope you Aspire to.

You can see that Lilith-South Node anchors one end of the base of a Venus T-Square (red triangle – it’s called a “T-Square” because when you draw lines from the center of the Zodiac to each planet, it makes a “T”).  A T-Square is a Challenge to become Adept at something, in this case, Adept at adapting your Values (Venus) to Embrace your Self-Sovereignty in spite of Cultural Pressure to do otherwise.

That includes Cultural Pressure embedded in our own Programming, as we’re taught that Comfort is Good and Discomfort is Bad.  Imagine if you had been taught that Tolerating Discomfort is the pathway to Grace.  Not as the PieInTheSky religions have done, but as the esoteric branches of many religions have done, in teaching techniques to make Tolerating Discomfort more Comfortable and Productive at Liberating us from our Birdcages.

Every day I’m encountering people who are still trapped in the Fear and Anger and Potentially Rough Week series that we dealt with in late August (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/21st-century/the-teens-2010-2019/2018/august-2018/).  If we don’t “do our work” when it’s timely, we carry it with us, and Life gets more and more complicated as the Old and New Energies Confuse one another.  We Create new Held Emotions. 

When we do “do our work when it’s timely,” we’re less Compromised when we Encounter the New Energy, and better able to deal with it as a Main Effect, rather than having to deal with it as Interaction with all of our other Unfinished Business.  We enter a constantly-improving Virtuous Spiral rather than a “downward” Vicious-Cycle Whirlpool.

There’s a chart and some discussion of the December 2017 Lilith-Venus Initiation (and hence the current Venus-Lilith Cycle) at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/12/30/new-province-iii/.  “Coincidentally,” the Lilith-Venus Initiation Conjoined Hylonome!  It was at 6 Capricorn, “Ten logs lie under an archway leading to darker woods.”  Ten means Abundance, though the logs are still raw material.  The suggestion is that a Portal into the Wilderness (or, “doing our work while it is timely”) offers great Potential.

Bottom Line: if our Values seem to Conflict with our Urge toward Self-Sovereignty (which we can define as Making Choices that Lead us to Manifesting What We Really Want in the Lifetime), it’s our Values that need to be Examined and possibly Adjusted

The Self-Congratulation we use to support our Current Ego is based on our Values, but our Values are seriously Contaminated by our Programming, and may be very different from – and frequently the Opposite of – our Soul’s Desire.  Because we Live in Duality, our Soul is clever enough to Challenge our Ego to Grow by presenting the Ego with the Opposite of what the Soul Really Wants.  Like a parent using reverse psychology on their two-year-old.

No. II

September 15, 2018

Here’s a start at the Details.  The 17 September Station is Hylonome’s.  She was a Centaur who was so distraught that her Lover was killed in the disturbance where Chiron was injured, that she killed herself with the same arrow that killed her Lover.  Evidently Life without him was worthless.  In other words, she was Merged with him, she couldn’t tell where she ended and he began.

Now these Greek Myths tell us what happens when we’re Unconscious.  When we’re Conscious, we have Choices.  So, leaning toward Consciousness, we interpret dwarf planet Hylonome as the Choice to set Boundaries that facilitate our own Self-Sovereignty.  In general, we regard Self-Sovereignty as good, but we recognize that this is a Judgment, and that Judgment and Unconditional Love make uneasy mates. 

Our Judgment is Conditional – one of the characteristics of the Patriarchy is that most of us were/are Codependent – Merged with Others.  Perhaps with a Lover, maybe with a Boss, perhaps a Hero, maybe an Antagonist.  As we leave the Patriarchy behind, moving out of Codependence is an important step, because outside of the Patriarchy, the Power structure isn’t nearly as hierarchical. 

In organizations that have embraced the Digital Age, management structures have flattened considerably, as the wider spread of information has allowed Decision-Making to move lower in the structure.  The Digital Age spans the first two Centuries of the Age of Aquarius.  We’ll have more to say about Self-Sovereignty later, but for now we’ll consider it to be a positive trend.

So here’s the core of the Hylonome Station chart…

The Station itself occurs at 6pm PDT, but we’ve drawn the chart for 8pm PDT to give the Moon time to catch up to Hylonome, as the Moon frequently serves as a Timer for larger events.

Most of you are probably too young to remember Patty Hearst’s apparent Merger with her kidnappers, but Merging with our Abusers is not at all uncommon – in fact it may be the only way we can Tolerate Abuse in situations where we don’t feel like we have a Choice.And most of us have been in that situation to one degree or another, probably many times.  Employment comes to mind.

On the left corner of the red square in the chart above is the dwarf planet Nessus, symbolizing Abuse and it’s Opposite, Privilege.  The red square is a “Grand Cross,” and it means that we bounce around between its four corners, exploring their relationships with one another.  On the right corner are the dwarf planet Orcus, symbolizing Oath-making and -breaking, and asteroid Pallas, which represents Boundaries.

Do you remember how Confused you were about your Boundaries with your Abusers?  Do you remember making Oaths, maybe to never Talk Back, maybe to never get into that situation again, maybe to get even someday, maybe to somehow Escape, maybe never to tell anyone.  Every Oath we’ve ever made and not Disavowed, is still in our Field and Limiting our Life.

So just looking at these two corners of the Grand Cross, we can see that we’re deep into Reconsidering our Boundaries against Abuse and the Oaths we made around it.  Abuse can take many forms.  We can all think of the obvious ones, but Abuse includes things like chronic Disrespect.  Whenever someone treats you as less than a Spark of the Divine, that’s Abuse.  And whenever you treat someone else as less than Divine. 

As these issues arise, remember that Confusion is good.  Confusion is the first step of Growth, but only if we Allow Confusion to stand on its own.  If our Response is to compulsively Figure It Out, we can’t help but get stuck in our Old Birdcage.  That’s one of the worst elements of Abuse – as Divine Beings, it’s Unbelievably Confusing that someone would Abuse us.  Our Oaths in Response were to Allay Confusion.  We need to Celebrate Confusion instead, and this is our chance to Disavow those Oaths we made under duress.

At the top of the red square is the asteroid Karma.  Whoa.  Remember that Karma is not Retribution, as most folks use the word.  It’s Inertia, Habit Patterns.  Whenever the asteroid is Lit Up, there are probably Patterns – Oaths and their consequences – from Past or Parallel Lives that are impacting our current Lifetime.  It’s a Blessing, because every strong Angle that asteroid Karma makes is an Opportunity to Recognize the Patterns and make alternative Choices.

And at the bottom of the Grand Cross is the asteroid Lachesis.  Lachesis was one of the three “Fates” in the Greek Worldview, the one that measured the Length of a Timeline.  That might be a Lifetime, or it might be a particular theme or segment or other part of a Lifetime.  Again, in the Greek Myth, that was an apparently unavoidable Fate.  And again, we move toward Choice.

Karma, our Ancient Patterns, is so Easy to Choose because it’s so familiar that we take it for granted.  So Easy that we almost never Notice that it’s us that is Choosing it – we usually feel like it’s imposed upon us.  If in our Karmic Pattern C happened as a result of A and B, guess what we’re going to Expect when A and B happen now!  Expectation is an Unconscious Choice, and it’s a very Strong and very Subtle Manifestor. 

So the Critical piece of Changing a Timeline we don’t like, is Awareness.  We have to Consciously Notice the deja vu, and then we have to be Aware that we’re going to Expect certain consequences, and we have to Consciously turn those Expectations aside.  We have to Choose a fresh alternative. 

Like “No.”  Not “No!” – Neutrality is important.  Not “No thank you” – we don’t need to thank someone for not Respecting our Divinity.  Just “No.”  So there’s nothing for them to React to.  No Explanation, no discussion, no argument, except maybe “What is it about No that you don’t understand?”  But even that invites Discussion, so it’s better off to think it than say it. 

Then you walk away.  Into a crowd if you don’t Feel Safe.  Which suggests that you may want to be Alert this weekend.  Not necessarily paranoid, but you might want to Avoid situations where you’re Alone with someone you’re not sure you Trust completely.  When you first Notice the deja vu, you don’t want to be Alone with someone who reminds you of a past Abuse. 

That will make you paranoid and put you at a great disadvantage, because you’ll have lost your Neutrality, and you may be Afraid to say just “No.”  The likelihood that you’ll actually re-create a historical Abuse is small, because this is about Letting Go of Past Abuse Patterns.  We only have to re-create Abuse when we’ve been too blind for too long and our Soul has given up trying to point out our “Fate” to our Ego gently.