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“Dark Days” 5

April 22, 2019

Here’s another Teaching about how to Lighten Up.  It will be online till about 9am PDT 24 April.  It’s Dr. Sue Morter speaking about Energy Flows in the Body, how the Unconscious interacts with the Body, how to Ground and Stabilize the Body and bring it back into Balance (including Kegels), and many other very Integrative Perspectives…

https://energymedicinesummit.com/program/20

Self-Judgment and Self-Love II

January 15, 2019

Of course the “good news” of a Nemesis Station Square Nessus-OR10 (Ego Death from Embracing or Poor-Sweethearting our Intrusive Abuse Memories), is that it’s an Opportunity to Clear the very Held Emotions that constitute our Unconscious Resistance to migrating into 5D, aka What We Want.  It’s not as complicated as it sounds.  Originally, we set Boundaries against Memories that would Trigger Emotions that would Overwhelm us.

As we got good at this through Repetition, we pushed the Memories and their Emotions out of our Awareness and into Karma.  We made them Unconscious, which means they’re part of Not-Me.  In Real Life we’re Infinite Light Beings Fantasizing a Material Vehicle, and from this Light-Being Perspective nothing is Not-Me.  But when we Identify with our Fantasy Material (/Emotional/Intellectual) Vehicle, then from that Perspective our Not-Me can get Overwhelmingly large, large enough to Take Control of our Vehicle behind its back, without telling us, so to speak – Out of Our Awareness.

This is the Origin of all the Good-Versus-Evil stories you’ve been taught since Birth; “Good” is your Fantasy-Vehicle Identity, and “Bad” is the Not-Me which is the rest of your Light Being, which you don’t recognize as “Me.”  Hence the Classic Warfare Model of HisStory.  His many Stories become Religions or other Group-Thinks like Make-Rome-Great-Again aka Bring-Back-the-Slaves, which the pathologically clever among us exploit for their own Gain.

Moving into Identifying with our Light Body is not a process of Struggle, but a process of Surrender or Allowing or Vulnerability – HerStory.  The Lady Warrior Archetype misses the point, but it’s an intermediate step that might help with our Liberation, if we don’t get Stuck in it.

As we attempt to return our Identity to our Infinite Light Beingness, we find that our Fantasy-Vehicle Identity has to Break Out of a series of Shells, each one Opening us to a “new” (Revealed – Eris) segment of our Not-Me, which Manifests as an Introduction to a Held Emotion (South Node or Karma).  With each Broken Shell our Me Grows toward our 5D Light Being, and our Me Grows in Power – in the sense that we now have greater Healthy Control over our Life Circumstances.

Not the Power-Over which dominates HisStory, but the Power-With that works through Collaboration with the Unseen.  The more we can Delegate Power to the Unseen Energies that actually Carry it, the Easier our Life becomes.  Except of course for the potentially unpleasant “Ego Deaths,” or Molts, or Rebirths, or Embracing/Poor-Sweethearting of our Held Emotions, that occur when one of those Shells Break, because we Experienced those Shells as Security to our Fantasy Vehicle.  Like when Nemesis Acts Out, such as Now through 17 January.

Not to Lament, as Sappho (Self-Love) is also Stationary here, through 20 January.  Unconditional Self-Love is so Central to our Light-Being Self that we’re hardly Aware of it.  While Nemesis can suck out the Air that our Fantasy Vehicle likes to Breathe, nothing can suck out the Light that our Light-Being Self Breathes, though the Illusions of our Fantasy Vehicle like to blind us to that in its misguided attempts to Protect the next Shell.

When we can Experience the Breaking of a Shell as Liberation of a more Power-With-ful Me instead of the demise of a more Limited Power-Over-ful Me, our Growth into Full Collaboration with the Universe has Arrived.  Contrary to the usual Metaphor, there are no Destinations here; there are only More Shells to Break.  5D is not an event, it’s a process, and it’s the process of Enjoying Ego Death.

So let’s have a look at this Opportunity to Experience some serious Ego Deaths in the context of serious Self-Love…

For instance, there’s Marilyn Raffaele’s Channeling for 13 January…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

(If you don’t find the 13 January 2019 message there, check http://www.onenessofall.com/archives.html.)

“We are the Arcturian Group, a collective of ascended Arcturian beings from the eighth dimension here to assist Gaia and her people during these times of ascending consciousness.

“Know that these messages as well as others that may resonate with you are in reality your own state of consciousness manifesting as the particular message.  If this were not true, you would not be drawn to or be able to understand them.

“You, who are spiritually prepared to expand beyond the illusion and integrate truth are the forefront of the ascension process.  You chose to be on earth during these times of intense energetic chaos and change in order to complete your own third dimensional spiritual journey and become the first wave of ascension and example for those following.

“You are preparing the way for those of the second wave–individuals spiritually ready to awaken but who until now have resisted doing so.  Know that the Light of so many now awakening out of three dimensional sleep state, is shifting and dissolving the old paradigm, even when things appear to be getting worse.  Try not to give up hope but rather stand back as an observer for you are soon going to see much that will restore the hope you may have lost.

“You serve as living breathing examples of unconditional love for those around you when you realize and begin to live out from a consciousness that knows unconditional love is the only reality and that anything else simply represents conditioned beliefs about love.”

“Unconditional love can only ever be all there is because there is only ONE–one substance, one life, one reality, one law.  Love is the energetic glue connecting everything within this Infinite ONE and those who [naively] continue to believe in and live out from a consciousness of separation and duality create for themselves the illusory forms of these beliefs.

“You can ignore, but never change the reality of Oneness by judging from outer appearances as proof of its nonexistence.  Continuing to hold to the third dimensional belief system after outgrowing it only delays a person’s spiritual evolution because Oneness is the foundation of all reality and must be acknowledged at some point.  For some it may be in a future life, for you it is now.

“There are some who present a very religious face to the public, preaching ideas of love, but who do not practice them when confronted with experiences or opportunities that may result in personal inconvenience or lifestyle discomfort.  Unconditional love cannot continue being flowery words spoken or written, but must become an attained state of consciousness.

“Because Love/oneness is the only reality, all false concepts about love must be allowed to fade away and be replaced by a deeper realization of what love really is.  The third dimensional belief system has created and promoted hundreds of concepts of love, the grandest of them being romantic love.

“Romantic love is based in the belief that everyone is half of a couple.  This concept would be true if humans were simply physical, but they are not and never have been.  Although appearing to be just physical, the reality is that everyone is a whole and complete expression of Divine consciousness having the experience of being in physical form.

“Many, even the very evolved are reluctant to move past their favorite three dimensional concepts of love but as long as an individual continues to seek wholeness, happiness, and fulfillment from another, they remain just that– half of a couple.”

“Let go of concepts proclaiming that things need, should, or must be a certain way in order to be correct.  Most of the world’s ‘shoulds and shouldn’ts’ have been carried in collective consciousness from earlier times when they may have actually made sense for personal safety.  Others are nothing more than rules and regulations given by third dimensional thinkers, governments, and religious leaders often to promote their own agendas.

“You are ready to come out from under the bondage of three dimensional thinking because you have evolved beyond the need for someone to tell you what is right and what is wrong–you already know what is right and wrong.

“Allow yourselves to be who and what you are.  If family or friends think you have become a ‘weirdo’, simply laugh, bless them, and move on.  Does God need outer validation?  Where could it come from since IT is all there is?  …

“For some it takes a great deal of courage to live truth when it begins to unfold from within.  A person may be afraid to speak of these things to those of his old mindset be they family, friends, or church elders.  Living truth is not for the faint hearted especially in the beginning, but continuing to align with some organization or individual out of fear of criticism serves only to keep the person in energy he has outgrown and where he will continue to create experiences reflective of that energy.

“The choice is yours, dear ones.  Do you choose to be what you already are or do you wish to continue with the illusion of being a poor human constantly suffering third dimensional problems and continually seeking a savior, human or Divine, to save you?.

“Stop waiting for someone or something to change the world for you.  Only the awakened consciousness of the collective can and is shifting the three dimensional world out of illusion.

“Allow the real YOU to create your experiences.  You are your own Light should you choose to accept this fact.

“You are Divine Consciousness in expression.  Claim it.”

Or Dan Scranton’s Channeling for 14 January…

https://danielscranton.com/defeating-others-is-not-a-part-of-the-shift-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We are more than satisfied with the progress of humanity, and furthermore, we are certain that your progress will continue to impress us.  Now, we know that it is easy to find the faults with where you are as a collective and to focus on them because they are right there in your face, very loud and somewhat destructive.

“So your approach now to helping humanity as the lightworkers you are has to be aimed at changing the way you perceive those noisy, low frequency aspects of the human collective.  We invite you to see that humanity is getting all of this out of its system in preparation for the shift in consciousness.  There are very old disputes that you have on planet Earth, and they actually extend back even further than when human life on Earth began.

“You are there settling very old scores, and you have needed to try the old way of going about it for quite some time.  Again, you need to realize what works by first realizing what does not work.  Seeking to defeat the so-called enemy, no matter how bad they appear to be, will never work for humanity, and there’s a reason for that.  The reason is that you are there to bring together all aspects of you so that you can become your higher selves.

“You cannot bring together all of the parts if any of the parts are eliminated or destroyed.  Again, we invite you to see the attempts to destroy one group of humans by another as the last gasp, the last ditch effort for certain aspects of humanity to cling to the third dimensional ways.

“If you are receiving this transmission, you are not among those who wish to do this.  And so again, we urge you all to be the peace, and the sanity, be the calm at the center of the storm.  And in so doing, you will integrate yourselves, your human collective, and this beautiful galaxy of ours.”

Half-Marathon

November 10, 2018

The next few weeks will be a bit like a half-marathon, as we run through three gauntlets and nine astroevents in rapid succession.

 

First up, on 11 November (1:30pm PST) Ceres moves into Scorpio until almost the end of January.  Ceres is about Sustainability, and Scorpio is about Getting To The Bottom of Things.  We’ve been trying to isolate Sustainable Relationships (Libra) since early September.  Now we just Want a Sustainably Lifestyle.  Well, the Easiest way to Achieve Sustainability is to think in terms of Sustenance. 

Sustenance – What Can We Do Without? – is the flip side of the Sustainability Coin.  You may be considering it already.  Turning off lights when you leave the room?  Thinking about how to get along without something instead of how to get it?  The payoff will Surprise you.  With Sign Changes, the Zeitgeist just Changes.  The more Sensitive you are to the planet and Signs, the sooner you’ll Notice it – if you’re looking, of course.

 

There are three Stations on 15-16 November, so those will keep us occupied till then.  Station Energy is most intense before the Exact Station, building as we approach the Station, then dropping off sharply.  Usually.  There are exceptions, and we need to talk about those.  Remind me.  And asteroid Karma enters Capricorn on the 16th (8pm PST).

Karma’s been in Sagittarius since the Ides of January.  Sagittarius of course is about Letting Go, so we’ve had a good run – haven’t we.  Remember how much more Limited your Life was last winter?  Karma even went Retrograde in Sagittarius, so it hung out there longer, just for us.  It only takes about ten weeks to cross Capricorn instead of ten months.  That’s just as well, because Capricorn, which stands for “Just Do It,” can get us in trouble when it comes to Karma.  Till the end of January, if it’s Habitual, we should “Just Do It For The Last Time.”  Ok?

The three 15-16 November Stations are…

  • Asteroid Moira on 15 November (4am PST).  Moira is about Choice.
  • Venus on 16 November (3am PST), which is about our Values.
  • Mercury on 16 November (5:30 pm PST) – Communication, Awareness, Mentality.

So we’re likely to Experience it as we might Experience a Moira-Venus-Mercury Initiation, meaning we’re becoming Aware that we have Choices around our own Values.  Our Betters make a big deal about Living Up To Our Values, but when you think about it, what they really want you to do is Live Up to Their Values.  You gain a lot of Self-Sovereignty when you see through that Farce.

This isn’t a real Initiation, but if it was, again depending on how Sensitive we are to it, the Energy would be very Strong on both sides of the Exact Intiation, but there would be a Shift in your Attitude.  Beforehand you’d be glib about it as if no one was watching you critically.  Then after the Exact Initiation you’d feel increasingly censured, till you took the Energy Underground.  Which is what you’ll probably do.  For a while.  Unless it’s your Mission.

We should Review Moira a bit.  Moira means Fate.  But Fate happens to us when we’re Unconscious.  When we become Conscious, we Realize we don’t have to do that any more.  Fate + Consciousness = Choice.  So we Interpret Fate as Choice.  Astrology, at least the kind that we do, is about Growing our Consciousness.  So as astrologers we always Ask first and Ask last, “Are you Conscious of this?”  Right?  With an open mind. 

Sure, they teach traditional astrology as if it was as reliable as Engineering.  When I take a course in astrology and assume it’s a seminar, and start contributing the Insights I’ve Learned from astrology, I’m usually “corrected.”  But in Real Life we’re all Different, and you’ll never know when you’re going to meet someone who’s Different from anyone you or the astroelders ever met.  Especially when more of the Others come ashore.

In the Unconscious, Opposites are Equals.  That’s why we’re advised never to use Negation when we PIAVA, and that’s why we often get the Opposite of what we Asked for when we PIAVA (which is a sign of Success).  The Unconscious has Dimensions, but it’s not Dualistic; its Directions are Circular.  For those of you who aren’t familiar with PIAVA, it’s a bottom-line concept to bring into Consciousness for the current Eon – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

 

The Big Challenge arrives in earnest before 19-20 November.  We’ll Feel this one well before that, because it’s a Biggie, and the three days between the 16th and the 19th aren’t long enough for it to run its course.  So we’ll have to go back and modify the previous Interpretation later.

The Biggie is about Nessus and OR10. Nessus Stands Still on 19 November (7am PST), and OR10 does the same on 20 November (9pm PST).

We’ve done this before recently, many times, as the two were fellow travelers for several years.  They’re no longer fellow travelers (in the sense of being Merged), but when they have Stations together it Feels like they’re Merged again.  Nessus represents Abuse and Privilege, OR10 Invasive Memories.  So this is mostly about Recovering Abuse Memories.  Recovering is the good part, because it’s not possible to Let Them Go while they’re still Unconscious.

Now, while Nessus and OR10 were Merged, we Merged with these not-so-pleasant Memories, usually Feeling Shame or/and Rage in the process.  So we’re likely to Re-Experience that, and being Creatures of Habit (er, Karma, ie Inertia), we’ll be Expecting to Merge with them again.  But we won’t, unless we make that Unconscious Choice.  We don’t need to. 

We can make the Conscious Choice to Dislodge our Identity from them this time, because now the Energies themselves are no longer Merged.  As time goes on they’ll be less and less Merged, so start now or you’ll find yourself Out of Synch with the Universe later.  Whatever sort of Ascension, 5D, Enlightenment, Bliss, Collaboration, Community, Ease, or other kind of Grace you Want to characterize your Future, being Out of Synch with the Universe won’t help at all.

This is Subtle, so Pay Attention.  When someone Abuses us and we Remember, once we get past the Shame, we Want Revenge.  We’ll Forgive eventually (even though that Feels Impossible most of the time), but we Want some kind of Compensation for having Endured that.  It Ruined our Life after all.  But here’s the Secret – Revenge will be so much more Successful if you’re no longer Attached or Identified with your Rage.  Sure, Living Well is the Best Revenge, and that may be the Choice you make.  But even if you Decide that you do want Payback, you’ll be able to exact a finer torture if you’re Neutral.

Remember, Karma is Inertia, not Retribution.  It’s Force of Habit, continuing to Choose an old Habit because it’s the Easiest thing to do – Automatic, in fact.  That’s why we need Consciousness to Abandon our Karma, because we have to Notice it before we can Change it.  Hard to Notice what’s Automatic.  So we aren’t talking about accumulating “Bad Karma” for exacting Revenge.  We’re talking about Teaching someone a Lesson they won’t Forget. 

So what if they’re Old now; we take our Karma with us to Other Lifetimes, so they’ll continue to Abuse if they don’t Learn their Lesson.  They need to be able to Notice what it feels like to be Abused, and they need to Realize that Other People aren’t their Property to be used as toys.  Once you’ve Let Go of your Rage, you’ll be able to plan an exquisite curriculum for them.  Dull blades are Harder to Ignore.  As they say, Forgive the Person, not the Behavior.  But first you have to show them that the two are Different.  As long as they’re Unconscious, the Behavior is the Person.

Now, about Forgiveness.  Like any other sort of Consciousness, Forgiveness isn’t a Decision, it’s a Discovery.  One day we just Notice that we don’t hold ill will against them any more.  Yes, we can make a Choice to Forgive – it’s just a PIAVA, but that’s really a Choice to enter into the process of Forgiving.  It’s unlikely to take you to Forgiveness straightaway, unless you were ready anyway. 

We always need to “Be Careful What We Ask For,” or better yet, “Be Mindful of What We’ve Asked For,” so we can monitor and Interpret the Funhouse-Mirror events that PIAVAs can Create when we aren’t quite ready to Receive them.  Like getting sicker initially after we Ask for Healing – we Feel sicker, so we take more of the Toxins that were making us sick.  Or finding Abuse Memories arising after we Ask for Healing of our Abuse.  No, it don’t Feel good, but we have to get them into Consciousness in order to Change them.  If we aren’t Aware of the way Consciousness arrives, we can easily tie ourself in knots.

Now, how are we likely to Experience an OR10-Nessus-Moira-Venus-Mercury faux Initiation, because that’s probably what much of November 10-20 will Feel like?  Well, put all the terms in a sentence.  Invasive Memories, Abuse, Choice, Values, Awareness.  Maybe something like Becoming Aware that we have Choice around the Values that we Created for ourself as a result of early Abuse that we now Remember?  Or becoming Aware that we have Repressed Memories of Abuse, and Choosing to Alter our Values to make room for their Recovery?

 

The Full Moon on the Cusp of Gemini follows closely, on 22 November (9:30 pm PST), and Neptune Stands Still shortly after that, on 25 November (5pm PST) at the Midpoint of Pisces.  The Cusp of Gemini is the quintessential point of Letting Go.  Neptune is a Powerful planet, so we’re likely to begin to Feel some Neptune Energy before we’re done with our Big Challenge.  The most Important thing to Remember about Neptune is that it renders the Material World Confusing. 

It also adds Clarity to our view of the Spiritual World, but that Confusion is what we want to Pay Attention to here, because Confusion is the First Sign of Growth, and Growth is what we want.  But, we have to Avoid reacting to Confusion by trying to “Figure It Out.”  If we Intellectualize it, we will Restrict our Growth to Zero, because it’s our Intellectual Cage that Constrains our Limited World View and with it our Limited Reality. 

Confusion is one of the most Precious and Powerful Gifts we’ll ever be Given; don’t spoil it by Thinking it out of Existence.  Relish it.  Be Excited by it.  Breathe, do Kegels.  Don’t Tap Out your Confusion; Tap out your Need to Intellectualize your Confusion.

“Even though I’m really tempted to make up Stories that can Rescue me from Feeling Confused, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”  We can’t Tolerate Confusion because it takes us back to when we weren’t Safe, when someone who was supposed to Love us was Abusing us, and it didn’t make sense, and we had to Figure Out how to Escape.  It was a matter of Life and Death.

Like Curiosity, one of our highest Priorities should be Allowing Confusion to be an Emotion that Stands on its own.  A Real Emotion doesn’t have a direct or indirect Object.  It’s “I Feel Angry,” not “I Feel Angry about…” or “-at.”  Feelings are Intransitive, if you know your grammar rules.  The modifiers we so often put on our Feeling-words take them out of the realm of Emotion and put them in the realm of Thought.  The “-about” and “-at” and other Object-like additions are Thoughts, not Feelings.

In Truth, because we’re so seldom in the Present Moment, and because we aren’t Omniscient, we never actually know the Sources of our Emotions.  We Feel Angry.  Period.  We don’t know Why.  We can know what Triggered our Anger, maybe, if we’re Aware of what transpired just before we Felt it.  But even that just tells us what the Trigger was, not the Cause.  We might be Angry because an Unconscious Abuse Memory was just Triggered, and maybe the actual Triggering was a brown coat. 

Sure, we can make up Stories about the person who was wearing the brown coat, to Imagine that they were doing all manner of awful things to us, because our Unconscious Memory is about all manner of awful things.  But they’re Innocent.  Even the Antichrist is Innocent.  We have no idea who in our Personal or Cultural or Karmic History he reminds us of.  Pontius Pilate perhaps, or Brad the Impaler, or Adolf Hitler.  For many of us, those Concentration Camps and Death Chambers are a very recent Memory, even in Linear Time.

I was born nine months to the day after the Firebombing of Hamburg.  I didn’t even know Hamburg was Firebombed until I looked up when Dresden was Firebombed because I was wondering why my teachers always said that my German accent sounded so authentic and because I used to paint pictures of cities on fire and because I used to have so many Memories and Experiences of No Way Out.  And then there was the Firebombing of Tokyo – look that one up.  Not to mention Vietnam. 

See, what’d I tell you, Abuse Memories already.

Hope You’re Rested III

September 6, 2018

Phase 2 of our Adventures about The Most Important Thing Is Rebirthing Our Forbidden Genius is here, and it emphasizes the Rebirthing part, namely, the 7 September (3pm PDT) Klotho Station at 15 Degrees of – you guessed it – Capricorn.  Any Rebirth worth its salt involves an Ego Death, including this one…

Which includes Curiousness (Quincunx) between our Rebirth (the Stationary Klotho) and both Ego Death (Nemesis) and Self-Love (Sappho), which itself might be considered a Curious combination.  A new Cycle between these two began in early August (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/cycles/sappho-nemesis/), with an image about Little Kids being Excited about getting the Materialistic Gifts that they believed they Really Wanted.

True Curiosity Asks Big Questions without really expecting an Answer.  The Answer is eventually delivered by the Universe in mysterious ways, through Events and Occurrences.  But if we think we Know the Answer to the Question, we don’t get to Receive the Insightful Wisdom that the Real Answer holds.  The Questions are something like…

  • I Wonder what sort of Ego Death I’ll have to Endure to Rebirth my Forbidden Genius.
  • I Wonder what Unconscious parts of Myself I’m not Loving.
  • I Wonder what it would be like to Love my Ego Deaths.

There is one thing that’s fairly clear.  This adventure in Rebirthing Our Forbidden Genius as The Most Important Thing isn’t about Self-Judgment or Intention to Change.  It’s about Accepting, not Judging.  About Expanding to make room for the Previously Unknown, and Rebalancing everything to Integrate it all. 

What, you say, Saturn about Expanding?  That’s supposed to be Jupiter.  You forget that in the Unconscious, Opposites are Equals.  The Unconscious is Circular, not Linear.  If we try to make the Circular Unconscious Linear in order to make it Conscious, the only thing we’ve done is pour cement into Duality and Separation.  Instead, we have to make Consciousness Circular, even Spherical.

20-25 Degrees

June 2, 2018

Aa apparent newcomer has written to ask about their many natal planets at around 20 Degrees, in response to our October 2016 suggestion that we begin working with these Degrees now, since they will be Lit Up when our Home Planet begins Her Big Reorg in the early 2020s – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/10/20/2020-b/ for our article and their comment. 

Of course, as we repeatedly point out, these Degrees continue to be Lit Up by many of our planetary Companions today.  As we write, one quarter of the planets we follow are in or adjacent to this Zone, which is only one sixth of the Zodiac wide.  It’s a useful question, so I’ll answer it…

Our approach is to intend to befriend the Unconscious because we Believe that the Power of the Ego is minuscule compared to the Power of the Unconscious, and because the Ego is usually Unconscious of that fact.

We also intend to work not with Qualities but with Energies and Relationships, and therefore we work mostly with what we call the “Angles,” though most astrologers would call them “Aspects.”  We prefer Angles because that’s what they are in plain language – the Angular Relationship between Planets (and other astrological Hot Spots such as the Nodes).

Unfortunately there is an astrological term “Angles” as well, meaning the Ascendant, Midheaven, etc., or the major House Cusps.  We can usually live with this ambiguity because we very seldom talk about Houses, since we write for the whole planet, and House positions vary with location.  Folks who commonly use the astrological term “Angles” may be confused by the way we use the word, alas.

Most astrologers I know would not argue that the T-Square (a third planet halfway between two planets that Oppose one another) is one of the most problematic Angular Relationships, largely because it usually seems to indicate a Sisyphean area where Success is not possible but the Compulsion to Keep Trying is unrelenting.  Consequently, the most appropriate keyword for the Ego’s Relationship to a T-Square seems to be Frustration.

We also Believe that, (1) on a Soul level, we Chose the Configurations of planets in our natal chart, because that’s what “We” (our Soul) wanted to “Work On” in the current Lifetime.  Many folks have difficulty with this concept; the easy path to it lies through shifting your Identity till you find a place from which it’s True.

We often also interpret the Configurations in our natal chart as (2) the specific Earth Energies where we Chose to help the Planet Heal. 

The first approach assumes that our Soul is using the Planet for its own Education, while the second approach assumes that we are in fact Cosmic Healers who came here to Help Earth Ascend.  Take your pick, though as usual, I recommend Both/And rather than Either/Or.

Since our reader has Uranus T-Square to their Nodes, I have no doubt that they’re in the latter category.

As Ascension Helpers, then, our T-Squares indicate the places where our task is to suck up all the Frustration (Fear, Anger, Despair, Separation, etc) that the Planet Feels, and Transform it (we are after all nothing if not Energy Transmogrifiers) into what the Planet Prefers to Feel (Joy, Bliss, Attunement, Excitement, Unity, etc). 

How do we know what the Planet Prefers to Feel?  Easy.  She and We are One.

Note that more or less implicit in that paragraph is that Emotions are not Personal, but more like Weather or a Virus.  We Attach our Identity to an Emotion when we Associate or Merge with it, which is usually part of our Karma, or, we would suggest, because we came here to Learn and Teach how to Detach our Identity from that Emotion (look up “Poor-Sweetheart” and “Held Emotions” in the Categories list to explore further).

So, in the planets our new Friend has listed, we’d go straight to the T-Square, Uranus Square the Nodal Axis.  The Egoic side of Uranus is Disruption, and the Egoic side of the Nodes is the Desire to Let Go of Karma.  So we would suppose that our Friend, on the Ego side, is (or was, if he’s since Grown) often Frustrated by Attempting and Failing to Let Go of sticky Karmic Patterns, or what we often call Self-Sabotaging Archetypes. 

For instance, our Friend might try over and over to walk a “straight and narrow” path, only to wake up and discover that they’ve strayed from it.  Or worse, they might find that other people are repeatedly screwing them over…

Now, let’s turn this around and look at it from the Soul’s Perspective.  First of all, what Uranus Disrupts is everything that Inhibits its Purpose. 

Since most of us were Programmed to Receive Truth from Outside ourself rather than Inside, the Karmic Ego will be constantly Frustrated by the Uranian Disruption of our frequent Attempts to ignore our own Internal Truth in order to be Loyal to our Programming and Programmers. 

Truth resides in the Heart, and it’s Different for everyone, so only by Programming someone to Trust their own Heart (Uranus) can Uranian Disruption be Loved as the Urge to Liberation that it is.

Now, again from the Soul’s Perspective, the Nodal Axis is not so much about the Desire to Let Go of Karma as it’s about a Decision over which Earthly trends to emphasize.  Contrary to the usual Interpretation, Karma does not Grasp Us, We Grasp It.  So all we have to do, to quote Paul, is to “Let It Be.”

The Signs will give us more specific information. Our new Friend’s South Node is in Aquarius and North Node in Leo, indicating that their Intended (Soul-level) path runs from Social to Personal Integrity.  Learning to Love themselves Unconditionally, for instance. 

Meanwhile, Uranus is in Scorpio, which is Fearless and Relentless.  So our Friend is likely to be Driven to stop at Nothing in their Effort to Learn and Teach Unconditional Self-Love.

Which is Fantastic!  Now, what if the Ego and Programming still get in the way and continue to Sabotage us with Downers?  (Which may never actually go away, just become more quickly seen through.)  Well, Reframing help a whole lot…

A T-Square Feels Like the Compulsive need to Achieve greater Perfection around some Goal.  In this Uranus-in-Scorpio case, that would be Permanent Soul Contact.  Or, if the Soul is Dismissed, then something like an Irrepressible Urge to Disrupt Untruth. 

But even the part about Permanent Soul Contact is the Ego and Programming speaking.  If you’ve taken graduate seminars in a good program, you probably Noticed that there are no “correct” answers, there are only “interesting” questions and examination of them that is thorough and creative.

That’s where you find the T-Square – on the Soul level you’ve Intended a Lifetime where you re-examine everything over and over again, with slight variations, each time from a slightly different Perspective, so you become uniquely qualified to Teach the subject, since you’ve Experienced it from all angles, inside and out. 

And of course the key to all that is Noticing that there are no “correct” answers and that your Perfectionist Quest, while essential, was not for the purpose that you earlier supposed.  That’s the way our Mission (North Node) operates – we have a Shadow to Pursue, till we pounce on it and Discover that it’s just a Shadow, like Ged in Earthsea.

Once you’ve done this Reframing, Frustration will continue to try to sneak back into the driver’s seat, and that’s where Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and PIAVAing (look them up in the Categories list and practice them) will be useful and Powerful.

The ultimate Goal for all of us is Unconditional Self-Love, so eventually you’ll be Teaching us all.  Which we eagerly anticipate!

Thanks for writing.  Namaste.

Gauntlet XI – Winding Down

April 22, 2018

We’re down to the last day of the April Gauntlet.  The Pluto Station (Changing the Water in the Aquarium we’re immersed in) and the Chariklo Station (Transforming our Concept of Walking in Beauty) are a day and two Degrees apart, so they basically share a chart…

The Stations are complicated by issues of Self-Sovereignty and Action, not to mention a big Challengeto Acknowledge the Truth that our previous Timeline has run its course and, should we Choose to Accept it, our Life will be very Different from now on – or at least from tomorrow on, once the Chariklo Station (6am PDT 23 April) finishes with us.

Once again with astrologuese…

The Stations are complicated by issues of Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) and Action (Mars), not to mention a big Challenge (T-Square, the red triangle) to Acknowledge the Truth that our previous Timeline has run its course and, should we Choose to Accept it, our Life will be very Different from now on (the base of the T-Square is Rebirth/Haumea and Truth/Veritas Opposing Ego Death/Nemesis, Revelation/Eris, and Choice of Timelines/Lachesis) – or at least from tomorrow on, once the Chariklo Station (6am PDT 23 April) finishes with us.

We’ve highlighted should we Choose to Accept it because that’s a key to the whole complex.  Asteroid Lachesis is the “Fate” or Goddess that “measures the length” of a Lifetime or a Timeline (a thematic segment of a Lifetime).  Fate is what happens to us when we Live from the Unconscious.  When we Live from Consciousness, we substitute Choice for Fate.

Pluto is the Big River of Time, the personification of Irresistible Power.  Planets exercise their Strongest Impact when they’re Stationary.  So we can read the Stationary Pluto-Stationary Chariklo-Mars-Lilith Stellium (group of 3 or more planets) as Having the Supreme Confidence (Stationary Chariklo) to Use the Momentum Created by the Current Big Shift in the Flow of Time (Stationary Pluto), to Act (Mars) in Support of Our Willingness to Create Our Own Reality (Lilith).

Remember that our aim here is Consciousness, so we regard Interpretation as much more important than Prediction.  So if you’re thinking, “Shit, I wish I’d have known that ahead of time,” see if you can reframe that to “Oh, okay, I see where I might have Responded Differently.”  However we didn’t Live our Brutus Moment, that’s the Experience that is leading us to Wisdom, to where we might see it as a Mandela Moment instead.

The part about Truth (Veritas)-Rebirth (Haumea) is pretty straightforward.  The Ego Death/Nemesis-Revelation/Eris-Lachesis/Choice Stellium is more complex.  Eris is about Accepting the Revelation of what’s been hitherto Denied.  Nemesis is the Revelation that a Timeline, and the Value System that supported it, has reached a Dead-End.  In the Unconscious, it’s Ended by Punishment.  In Consciousness it’s Ended by Choosing a better Path into the Future.

So when we Face the parts of our Life that are no longer Working and Accept that we have to Let them Go, we’re Liberated into Birthing a New Reality for ourself.

The Big Challenge (T-Square) reveals an Easy Way Out (Trine Bridge, the blue lines) through our Recognition of Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos).  In other words, we’ll jump forward by thinking in terms of What Do I Really Want in this Lifetime rather than “How Can I Weasel my way out of this Pickle.”

The second Opposition (long red line) in the chart is closely related conceptually as well as astrologically – Fate Herself (asteroid Moira) Opposing Expansion (Jupiter).  As if there’s a simple Dualistic Choice between Unconsciousness (Moira) and Growth (Jupiter).  The fact that the Stations and their Baggage form the Easy Way Out (Trine Bridge) to this Opposition belies that simplicity. 

Unconsciousness is an Addiction, and while Choice is a critical step in Confronting Addiction, it’s only one step of many – ten by one common measure.  We have to Choose Consciousness over and over again until it’s Second Nature to do so (and then we have to Confront that Habit as an Archetype).  We have to Sustain Choice, and we’ll talk about that in a moment.

Then we notice that the Stations are involved in another important, if subtle, Configuration – a “Sextile Fez” (trapezoid).  In any Fez, we want to Pay Attention to the diagonals, in this case…

  • Unlimited Potential (Chaos) Quincunx (Curiosity) to the Stations and their Baggage (Pluto-Chariklo-Mars-Lilith)
  • Growth (Jupiter) Quincunx to Choosing Ego Death (Nemesis-Eris-Lachesis)

The important thing is to Allow the Curiosity to stay Curiosity, and not try to “Figure It Out.”  Figuring It Out creates Knowledge, which may be useful but is never complete or accurate.  Letting it sit as is creates instead Awe and Wonder, which is where we need to be, Awestruck by the unfathomable Miracles that surround us every day, rather than Powerhungry with the Egobound Illusion that we have Dominion here.  So we might PIAVA something like…

  • “I Wonder just how much Power I could Contain if I had the Confidence to Assert Who I Am” – notice we’re “Containing” Power, not “Asserting” it.  Reread Castaneda if you don’t understand how this works.
  • “I Wonder how Growth and Ego Death are Related – like a Crab or a Butterfly perhaps?”

Notice that these are this week’s Quincunxes, therefore this week’s Curiosities.  We’re blessed that astrology isn’t all Quincunxes, leaving us Stoned out of our minds with Awe all the time.  Curiosity and Confusion are twin Feeling States that Western “left-brain” don’t allow to be the Emotions that they actually are, instead co-opting them as Challenges to the Intellect and shutting down their pathways to Intuition and Wisdom.

Then we notice that there is a lovely perfect Five-Pointed Star in the chart, drawn in light purple lines.  That’s called a “Grand Quintile,” as it divides the Zodiac into five equal parts.  Five is the number of Learning and Teaching – we could even refer to it as Curiosity! 

The Quincunx after all if Five Unxes, or five twelfths of the way round the Zodiacal Loop.  The Twelfth Harmonic is Pattern-Breaking.  So Learning to be Present with Curiosity as an Emotion in its own right is a Powerful Pattern-Breaker and a Powerful tool for breaking free of Unconsciousness and our Limiting, Self-Sabotaging Archetypes.

So this time is shown to be a humongous Learning Opportunity.  We’re Learning about the Relationships between the five planets that make up the Grand Quintile.  Remember that while all Learning leaves a permanent Impact, it’s important that we Recognize that this chart is about the Present Moment, not about Eternity.  It’s the Wisdom we gain from Experience that can Work in Time Provinces other than the current one.  The Conclusions we draw in the Present Moment are only as good as they increment our Stash of Wisdom.

The five corners of this Grand Quintile are…

  • Rebirth-Truth (Haumea-Veritas) – This is the most important corner because it cohabits with the Configuration that holds the Stations.  The most valuable Lesson is that Ego Death is just a reboot, not a hard disk crash.  Rebirth is actually a tremendous Gift, because without if we’re stuck in Limbo, in the Void, for a while.  If you think Resisting the Temptation to pigeonhole Curiosity and Confusion is hard, what till you get to spend time in the Void!
  • Unconscious Beliefs (Vesta) – Being Unconscious, these are not generally subject to Choice, so we usually have to approach them through PIAVA.  In this case, the chart will be Exposing many of our Unconscious Beliefs for the ancient scams that they are, perpetrated by the historical equivalent of the St. Petersburg Internet Research Agency
  • Confusion (Neptune) – Ah, there She is.  She should be in here somewhere.
  • Values (Venus) – As our Unconscious Beliefs evolve, so must our Values, though we may not realize it for a while, till all the Contradictions work their way through.
  • Sustaining Commitment to our Mission – To the extent that we can generalize our Individual Missions, it’s fair to say that it’s about Growing our Consciousness, since it’s next to impossible to execute any nontrivial Mission without Growing in Consciousness.  We hinted at this while we were discussing Addiction earlier, and here it is.

Full Moon Configuration I

April 9, 2017

Okay, after a long bout of techno-obsolescence we’ve achieved visuals again, so we can go back to involving the “right brain” too.  This is how we do what we do.  Let’s temporarily take the 10 April Full Moon chart apart, starting with the 20-26 Degree region that the Full Moon itself occupies…

Focusing for the moment on just the heavier lines, we can see three intertwining Configurations…

  • The Grand Cross or the red box with the red “X” in the middle
  • The Trine Bridge or the blue lines connecting two corners of the red box
  • A Finger of God, which is the green arrowhead, pointing to the same place in the upper right as the blue lines do

The Full Moon is the diagonal red line from upper left to lower right.  The Moon at upper left Conjoins Haumea (Rebirth), and the Sun at lower right Conjoins Uranus and Eris (Honesty about our Soul Self) – more of what we’ve been enduring for the last five years, the Urge to be Forthcoming with our True Self.

Red lines signify Energy (or of course Resistence to same – the Unconscious knows Dimension but not Direction, so Opposites are Equal in its Realm).  The diagonal from lower left to upper right is the Square to the Full Moon, Pluto (Transformation) on the lower left to Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) on the upper right, which is labeled “oob” or Out of Bounds, which means Strong.

The resulting red Square containing a red “X” is called a Grand Cross, and it signifies Motivation.  It’s like we have four full-time jobs to do here (RebirthHonestyTransformationBeliefs) at the same time, so we’re constantly rushing from one to the other.  We don’t really get a lot of Choice, as this is happening in the Unconscious, so we can’t easily quit or shortchange any of the four, we just have to be an Efficient Multi-tasker.  That’s Motivation.

Basically, in order to be Reborn as our Soul Self in Human form, we have to get our Unconscious Beliefs Transformed.  Our Unconscious Beliefs consist of our Karmic Habituations, our Childhood Programming (which is often a Mirror for our Karma), and the various prejudices we Learn from our Culture.  Archetypes they’re called – Constellations of Energy that are stronger than, and usually invisible to, our Ego.  

That is, they run our Show.  Our Archetypes Enchant or En-Trance us.  We’re Zombies under their Command.  When we refer to Pluto as symbolizing Transformation, what we really mean is Formation of a New Trance.  On the Global scale, this is the nature of a Zeitgeist.

The blue lines represent Grace, the long blue line “Dumb-Luck” Grace (a “Trine”) that happens to us, and the short blue line (a “Sextile”) “Working” Grace, where Grace flows but we have to make the first move to get it started, like a matching grant.  

You can see the “Trine Bridge” across the Full Moon, with Moon-Haumea (Rebirth) Trine Veritas-Chaos (The Truth of Limitlessness), which Sextiles Sun-Uranus-Eris (“I Gotta Be Me”).  A Trine Bridge shows us the “easy way out” of the potential hassles (too much Energy) of the Grand Cross; in this case we see that we can facilitate our Rebirth by Letting Go of our Limitations.

The long green lines are “Quincunxes,” linking Planets that are five Signs apart, or five/twelfths of the way ’round the Zodiac from one another (Quin = 5, Unx=12).  They symbolize Curiosity.  Curiosity is in bed with Love, since they both eschew Judgment, and Judgment is the Opposite of Love.  We don’t mean Curiosity as in “How does that work?”  We mean Curiosity as in “Wow, look at that!  Isn’t that Amazing!” – the kind of Awe and Wonder you see in the face of any Newborn.

Obviously, True Curiosity can be Scary, as many of us crave the false Security provided by Understanding.  The shortcoming of Understanding is that it’s Conditional; even when it’s accurate and relevant, it’s vitally dependent upon the current Zeitgeist.  If we’ve succeeded in Accepting, simultaneously, as many different Perspectives as we can get our hands on, we’ll be less “thrown” when a Zeitgeist Changes, but even in the best case it will be a major Adjustment.

The short green lines are “Unxes,” linking two planets that are one Sign apart, or one twelfth of the way around the Loop.  Unxes are about Pattern-Breaking.  Unxes and Quincunxes are members of the Twelfth Harmonic.  The Fifth Harmonic is about Learning, so a Quin-Unx is about Learning to Break Patterns.  How do we do that?  We drop into Curiosity.

When two long green lines converge – as they do on Veritas-Chaos, it’s called a “Finger of God” – that is, the Universe is saying “Pay Attention to this!” and “Don’t try to Understand it – It Is What It Is.”  and “Accept it as an Assumption, not as a Logical Conclusion.”  Veritas-Chaos is about the Truth of Limitlessness, so this is a request by the Universe that we Loosen up on our Belief that we Understand it All.

So this segment of the New Moon chart tells us that…

  • In order to be Reborn as our Soul Self in Human form, we have to get our Unconscious Beliefs Transformed
  • We can facilitate our Rebirth by Letting Go of our Limitations
  • The Universe has requested that we Loosen up on our Belief that we Understand it All

Pretty straightforward, eh?