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Paranoid Thoughts?

June 5, 2018

We’re approaching 9 June’s Station of Nessus (3am PDT).  As most of you know, a planet’s Energy is Strongest at, and leading up to, its Station, and Nessus is about Healing Abuse and Privilege.  It’s in Pisces, which is all about Finishing Business and Letting Go of Excess Baggage, especially Heavy Emotions, so we can begin the next leg of our next Journey with a Light load.

Of course the quickest way to Heal anything is to Embrace it with Unconditional Love and Empathy, and to do that, we sometimes have to Re-Experience it in some form.  So all manner of Guilt, Veiled (or otherwise) Fear or Terror, and other Ugliness may arise between now and 9 June, including otherwise-unexplained unpleasant Experiences with other people that are Unconsciously Standing In as bit players in our Karmic Dramas.

Yes, they could be Reincarnations of our former Perps, but why not give them the Benefit of the Doubt and let them be Innocent, as in their Present Incarnation they’re likely to be.  After all, they could as likely be Reincarnations of former Victims or your own Abuse and Privilege, just with the roles switched for variety.

It’s important to be Aware that this is happening, so we can Respond positively.  It’s very easy to attribute such Flushbacks to the Present Moment, even though our daily Dramas are probably dime-novel Re-Enactments of our Karmic Traumas and all of Their previous attempts at Re-Enacting themselves, some of which could have Been or Felt very Real.

Remember that Consciousness pervades Everything, including our Karmic Traumas, and if we’re still in Separation (which to some extent we All are if we’re still Incarnate), then these Traumas are virtually “Entities” with a Life of Their own.  Until we Merge with Them, which can Be and Feel quite Horrible while we’re Transitioning into Their Experience. 

And once we’re Inside of Their Experience, we may need some or all of our Enlightened Consciousness (we All have at least some) to be Unconditionally Loving with Them.  Considering how many Lifetimes we’ve probably Lived (likely approaching Infinity), we have Seen It All Before, so it’s more about Being Loving and Gentle with all the Ickiness, once we get past being Horrified.  Maybe we should practice with Slugs.

When we mis-identify Karmic Flushbacks as Present Moment events, we’re very likely to make Decisions or Oaths like “I’ll never do that again” or “I’ll never talk to them again,” or far worse.  Decisions like this rapidly become Unconscious Limitations, and inhibit our Liberation.

We’ll draw up the chart soon, but suffice it to say for now that Orcus, the planet of Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking, Opposes the Stationary Nessus, forming the base of a T-Square to asteroid Moira.  Moira is about Fate.  Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious; Choice is what we Choose to exercise when we’re Conscious.  So we’re Taking Our Power and Breaking an Ancient Contract with our Fate, potentially the one that equates Life with Suffering.

We tend to think of such Contracts as “Facts of Life,” but in fact they’re just Political Choices we made so long ago that we’ve forgotten that it was our Choice.  While the Resistance may be substantial, and the Implications may be complex, we can actually Choose Whatever We Want.  And if we Consider it carefully and boldly, we can actually also Choose trivial Resistance and simple Implications.  That’s on of the reasons why we recommend adding “Lovingly and Gently” to our PIAVAs.

There is also a T-Square to asteroids Nemesis and Lachesis in the Nessus-Station chart.  Nemesis is about Ego Death, while Lachesis is about Choosing to Shift a Karmic or Fated Timeline before it would Shift on its own.  So what we’re really doing here, should we Choose to Accept it, is Shifting our Approach to Ego Death, toward Love and Excitement rather than Fear and Resistance. The base of this second T-Square is the Nodal Axis, with Mars (Anger or Action) on the South Node (Held Emotions) and Aletheia (Truth) on the North Node (Mission in the Lifetime).

Here’s Daniel Scranton’s Channeling for today…

http://danielscranton.com/join-team-ascension-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

We are taking nothing for granted when it comes to our participation in the shift in consciousness.  There are so many beings in this universe who are working to ensure that the shift not only occurs, but that it occurs in the way that serves the most.  We invite any and all of you who want to be a part of this conscious creation to move beyond waiting for something to happen.

“We invite you to join us in ushering in the shift and bringing about an expanded consciousness throughout the entire universe.  You don’t have to wait for any major event to occur in order to participate.

“This is a shift in consciousness, which means nothing in the physical realm is going to be responsible for making it happen.  It is the true nature of consciousness to expand and evolve, and therefore, as you make it your mission not to do something in the physical realm, but instead consciously evolve, you are joining the team.  You have opportunities every single day. They come to you in the choices that you are being given.

“And you can help yourselves and help the entire universe at the same time by making the choice that is more inclusive than exclusive.  You can help by processing your emotions.  You can help by making eye contact with someone else and helping that person understand that he or she matters.  You can be kind instead of being right.  You can forgive.  You can send transmissions of love and compassion.  You can speak your truth, be true to yourself, and love yourself no matter what you have done, or said, or thought.

“As you make a commitment now to joining the team that spans the entire galaxy and all dimensions, you are helping to usher in the best possible shift that we can all experience.  We are inviting you to join us, and we know many of you already have, but as you make the declaration, you are automatically accepted onto our little team.

20-25 Degrees

June 2, 2018

Aa apparent newcomer has written to ask about their many natal planets at around 20 Degrees, in response to our October 2016 suggestion that we begin working with these Degrees now, since they will be Lit Up when our Home Planet begins Her Big Reorg in the early 2020s – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/10/20/2020-b/ for our article and their comment. 

Of course, as we repeatedly point out, these Degrees continue to be Lit Up by many of our planetary Companions today.  As we write, one quarter of the planets we follow are in or adjacent to this Zone, which is only one sixth of the Zodiac wide.  It’s a useful question, so I’ll answer it…

Our approach is to intend to befriend the Unconscious because we Believe that the Power of the Ego is minuscule compared to the Power of the Unconscious, and because the Ego is usually Unconscious of that fact.

We also intend to work not with Qualities but with Energies and Relationships, and therefore we work mostly with what we call the “Angles,” though most astrologers would call them “Aspects.”  We prefer Angles because that’s what they are in plain language – the Angular Relationship between Planets (and other astrological Hot Spots such as the Nodes).

Unfortunately there is an astrological term “Angles” as well, meaning the Ascendant, Midheaven, etc., or the major House Cusps.  We can usually live with this ambiguity because we very seldom talk about Houses, since we write for the whole planet, and House positions vary with location.  Folks who commonly use the astrological term “Angles” may be confused by the way we use the word, alas.

Most astrologers I know would not argue that the T-Square (a third planet halfway between two planets that Oppose one another) is one of the most problematic Angular Relationships, largely because it usually seems to indicate a Sisyphean area where Success is not possible but the Compulsion to Keep Trying is unrelenting.  Consequently, the most appropriate keyword for the Ego’s Relationship to a T-Square seems to be Frustration.

We also Believe that, (1) on a Soul level, we Chose the Configurations of planets in our natal chart, because that’s what “We” (our Soul) wanted to “Work On” in the current Lifetime.  Many folks have difficulty with this concept; the easy path to it lies through shifting your Identity till you find a place from which it’s True.

We often also interpret the Configurations in our natal chart as (2) the specific Earth Energies where we Chose to help the Planet Heal. 

The first approach assumes that our Soul is using the Planet for its own Education, while the second approach assumes that we are in fact Cosmic Healers who came here to Help Earth Ascend.  Take your pick, though as usual, I recommend Both/And rather than Either/Or.

Since our reader has Uranus T-Square to their Nodes, I have no doubt that they’re in the latter category.

As Ascension Helpers, then, our T-Squares indicate the places where our task is to suck up all the Frustration (Fear, Anger, Despair, Separation, etc) that the Planet Feels, and Transform it (we are after all nothing if not Energy Transmogrifiers) into what the Planet Prefers to Feel (Joy, Bliss, Attunement, Excitement, Unity, etc). 

How do we know what the Planet Prefers to Feel?  Easy.  She and We are One.

Note that more or less implicit in that paragraph is that Emotions are not Personal, but more like Weather or a Virus.  We Attach our Identity to an Emotion when we Associate or Merge with it, which is usually part of our Karma, or, we would suggest, because we came here to Learn and Teach how to Detach our Identity from that Emotion (look up “Poor-Sweetheart” and “Held Emotions” in the Categories list to explore further).

So, in the planets our new Friend has listed, we’d go straight to the T-Square, Uranus Square the Nodal Axis.  The Egoic side of Uranus is Disruption, and the Egoic side of the Nodes is the Desire to Let Go of Karma.  So we would suppose that our Friend, on the Ego side, is (or was, if he’s since Grown) often Frustrated by Attempting and Failing to Let Go of sticky Karmic Patterns, or what we often call Self-Sabotaging Archetypes. 

For instance, our Friend might try over and over to walk a “straight and narrow” path, only to wake up and discover that they’ve strayed from it.  Or worse, they might find that other people are repeatedly screwing them over…

Now, let’s turn this around and look at it from the Soul’s Perspective.  First of all, what Uranus Disrupts is everything that Inhibits its Purpose. 

Since most of us were Programmed to Receive Truth from Outside ourself rather than Inside, the Karmic Ego will be constantly Frustrated by the Uranian Disruption of our frequent Attempts to ignore our own Internal Truth in order to be Loyal to our Programming and Programmers. 

Truth resides in the Heart, and it’s Different for everyone, so only by Programming someone to Trust their own Heart (Uranus) can Uranian Disruption be Loved as the Urge to Liberation that it is.

Now, again from the Soul’s Perspective, the Nodal Axis is not so much about the Desire to Let Go of Karma as it’s about a Decision over which Earthly trends to emphasize.  Contrary to the usual Interpretation, Karma does not Grasp Us, We Grasp It.  So all we have to do, to quote Paul, is to “Let It Be.”

The Signs will give us more specific information. Our new Friend’s South Node is in Aquarius and North Node in Leo, indicating that their Intended (Soul-level) path runs from Social to Personal Integrity.  Learning to Love themselves Unconditionally, for instance. 

Meanwhile, Uranus is in Scorpio, which is Fearless and Relentless.  So our Friend is likely to be Driven to stop at Nothing in their Effort to Learn and Teach Unconditional Self-Love.

Which is Fantastic!  Now, what if the Ego and Programming still get in the way and continue to Sabotage us with Downers?  (Which may never actually go away, just become more quickly seen through.)  Well, Reframing help a whole lot…

A T-Square Feels Like the Compulsive need to Achieve greater Perfection around some Goal.  In this Uranus-in-Scorpio case, that would be Permanent Soul Contact.  Or, if the Soul is Dismissed, then something like an Irrepressible Urge to Disrupt Untruth. 

But even the part about Permanent Soul Contact is the Ego and Programming speaking.  If you’ve taken graduate seminars in a good program, you probably Noticed that there are no “correct” answers, there are only “interesting” questions and examination of them that is thorough and creative.

That’s where you find the T-Square – on the Soul level you’ve Intended a Lifetime where you re-examine everything over and over again, with slight variations, each time from a slightly different Perspective, so you become uniquely qualified to Teach the subject, since you’ve Experienced it from all angles, inside and out. 

And of course the key to all that is Noticing that there are no “correct” answers and that your Perfectionist Quest, while essential, was not for the purpose that you earlier supposed.  That’s the way our Mission (North Node) operates – we have a Shadow to Pursue, till we pounce on it and Discover that it’s just a Shadow, like Ged in Earthsea.

Once you’ve done this Reframing, Frustration will continue to try to sneak back into the driver’s seat, and that’s where Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and PIAVAing (look them up in the Categories list and practice them) will be useful and Powerful.

The ultimate Goal for all of us is Unconditional Self-Love, so eventually you’ll be Teaching us all.  Which we eagerly anticipate!

Thanks for writing.  Namaste.

Identity and Perspective

May 11, 2018

Here’s a great short video essay on Identity, Yintegrity, Yindependence, and Perspective…

http://www.karmatube.org/videos.php?id=7626

My considerable distractions are starting to wind down, so we should be able to return to our “regularly scheduled programming” shortly.

Consciousness of Self

April 2, 2018

Sai Baba, channeled by Jahn Kassl, has an important message for us about our Self-Sovereignty, Self-Love, Abandonment, and Suffocation…

“Neither react to praise nor to criticism!  Just say: I know who I am…

“As long as you react to encouragement or rejection with an inner emotional outburst you remain the slave of your fellow human beings.”

https://lichtweltverlag.at/en/2018/03/25/becoming-insusceptible-to-praise-and-criticism/

The rest is well worth reading.

Mission and Healing

January 26, 2018

Just in time for a Sustainable-Self-Love Ceres-Sappho Lunar Eclipse, Natalie Glasson has channeled some very useful suggestions for us from Saint Germain…

https://www.omna.org/meaning-life-saint-germain/

I recommend the whole download, but here are a few excerpts…

“I, Saint Germain, send forth my energy and light of a violet and golden clarity and purification to penetrate each of your chakras.  Please receive my light into your being allowing each chakra to harmonise and unify creating a beautiful surge and upgrade of light within your being.  As clarity and purification fill your being, emanating in all directions, allow your own inner clarity to awaken and rise into your conscious awareness.  You are a being of divine clarity.

“I, Saint Germain, invite you to recite this to yourself as you experience the light surging throughout your being,

‘I am divine clarity in manifestation.’ 

When you feel as if you are embodying the statement, feeling and acknowledging its meaning, then simply sit peacefully observing all that you are; the divine presence of clarity.  Enjoy the sensation even if you cannot understand or explain the experience.

As we begin our communication together today, with the awakened and acknowledged presence of your inner clarity, we discuss a profound subject matter; the meaning of life.  It is only with the presence of inner clarity that this subject can begin to be comprehended.  It is important for me to state that I am speaking of the meaning of earthly life and soul missions.  The meaning of life is personal to every being upon the Earth.  We cannot dictate to another being what the meaning, purpose or value of their life is…”

To discover the meaning of your life, you can begin by asking, in turn, your emotional body, mental body, physical body, spiritual body and soul, ‘What is your greatest goal in this current existence?  What do you wish to overcome or heal and what do you wish to embody fully?’  Taking time to connect with these five aspects of your being will allow you to build and form a picture of clarity, direction and encouragement within your conscious awareness that will allow you to flow deeper into your truth. 

“As a larger picture, vision, understanding or knowingness awakens within your being, so you understand the divine plan for your existence.  This will ignite greater comprehension of how you can be of service, how you can heal yourself, how you can experience fulfillment and so much more.  Letting go of your ego’s demand for separation, fear and drama, brings you to a space of peace within your being…”

“When your ego is focused on survival, this influences your entire being and reality in powerful ways promoting experiences of challenge, pain and suffering.  As well as negative and destructive thinking and feelings of being unworthy, unloved and undeserving.  When you are experiencing the ego’s perception and focus on survival each day you are distracting yourself from the true meaning of your life…  You can call upon my energies and presence, Saint Germain, to heal and dissolve the energies of fear, separation and drama you may be holding onto and embodying as well as inviting me to realign your ego to its original purpose of supporting you in experiencing fully the meaning of your life.

Saint Germain, I call you forth to work with me during my sleep state from now on until your presence and service is no longer required.  Please share the most appropriate healing with me to support me in the release of any energies of fear, separation and drama.  With ease and perfection support me in making this energetic shift within my being. 

” ‘Saint Germain, I additionally invite you to dissolve the alignment of my ego to any negative aspects of survival and realign my ego to contentment, happiness and supporting me in knowing, experiencing and embodying the meaning of my life.  I thank you in advance for the work you achieve with me.’

“This request only needs to be made once to me, and I will begin the process during your sleep state, continuing until a greater sense of your meaning of your life manifests in your conscious awareness…”

The birth of the Creator within me was far greater than any experience of connection with the Creator I had previously experienced.  I discovered my self as a true expression of the Creator, feeling myself adopting the power to inspire the awakening of the Creator within others.  My journey continued to deepen into the depths of the Creator within me, and so my pathways before me became an expression of the Creator, filled with clarity, direction, peace and meaning. 

“Invite me forth to walk beside you and direct your attention to what inspires you within and around your being.”

It’s important to remember that the first stages of Growth are Noticing and Confusion.  So when the Alignment of our Ego to any Negative Aspects of Survival begins to Dissolve, the first thing we may Notice is that we’re Aligned with a negative Aspect of Survival.  We may React negatively to this Noticing, which can work as a Resistance to our Liberation.  If we Remember what we’ve Invited St. Germain to help us with (a PIAVA really) and Respond positively instead, it will accelerate our Growth.

It’s the difference between “Oh Shit, they’re raising the rent!” and Aha, there’s another Temptation to Feed the Negativity in the Universe – Thank God I’m Letting Go of Negativity!  I Congratulate myself for Noticing the Temptation.  I don’t know where the money will come from, but I’m going to Tap Out my Fear and Trust that it will come from somewhere!”  You may need to Tap on that many times to dissolve the Doubt, which may arise many times.  But that’s the path, and it’s your Persistence that will win the day.

Regression is a constant Barrier – when we Regress to the age or Lifetime where we first Learned Negativity, we often Forget the Skills we’ve Learned since.  If we get in the Habit of “Trying It [Tapping] on Everything,” like Nick Ortner and Gary Craig suggest (https://www.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=92&v=YjjI3HioqJk), then it will increase the odds that we’ll Remember it when we’re Regressed.

St. Germain invites us to include “with ease and perfection support me” in our Invocation, which is fabulous, as an inclusion like this can reduce our Debilitation from Regression.  Similarly, we often suggest including “Lovingly and Gently” as part of our PIAVAs.  Nevertheless, until we Learn to Notice that we’ve left the Present Moment and Celebrate the Noticing, Regression remains the greatest Inhibition to Letting Go of our Limiting Beliefs.  Fortunately, the sooner we Notice, the Easier it is to stay in the Present Moment, and the Easier that is, the quicker we Notice – it’s a Self-Reinforcing Virtuous Cycle.

Self-Love Eclipse I

January 25, 2018

If something is Eclipsed, it often means it’s Hidden or Obliterated…

But we see things differently here, because to us an Eclipse Illuminates by its Absence something that we never noticed because it was Omnipresent.  So to us an Eclipse is an Opportunity to Open Wide a new Window into the Unconscious.  The Ego likes to think it’s in Charge, because that’s what it’s Supposed to do, and it Feels Good to do a good job.  But it’s our Unconscious Patterns, Habits, Programming, and Archetypes that run our Life.  When our Life doesn’t Feel Good, it’s Time to Ask the Unconscious what Habits it has running which Sabotage us.

Except perhaps by Hypnosis, we can’t Control the Unconscious, though we can often PIAVA – Pray, Intend, Ask, Visualize, or Affirm – it to Change (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/ and https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/).  Commanding, Wondering (if we’re able to maintain Curiosity as Awe rather than seeking Resolution), and Expanding are also Powerful PIAVA tools, as the links detail.

So when a Window Opens into the Unconscious at an Eclipse we can Discover what we need to Ask For (or PIAVA) in order to Eliminate Self-Sabotage.  On 31 January (5:30 am PST) we’re Graced with a Total Eclipse of the Moon.  We don’t even have to See it to Feel it’s Grace; it’s Energetic as much as it’s Visual.  It’s visible though east of Germany and Tanzania, and west of Newfoundland and Peru – there’s a map at https://eclipse.gsfc.nasa.gov/LEplot/LEplot2001/LE2018Jan31T.pdf.

The Moon symbolizes our Authenticity and the Passion that Allows us to Convert Energy into Matter that holds its shape.  The two go together, as Passion doesn’t evolve from Lack of Authenticity.  So Lunar Eclipses are Opportunities to Manifest What We Want.  This one Conjoins the asteroids Ceres, which represents Sustainability, and Sappho, which stands for Self-Love.  So we’ll be Open here to Discovering and Eliminating any or all Impediments to making our Self-Love Permanently UnconditionalUnconditional Love of course is the Absence of Fear. 

Ultimately, our Self-Sabotaging Patterns are rooted in Fear.  Dylan Charles writes that “Anxiety, depression, and fear ravage so many today, but few pause to consider that in addition to the material influences in our lives, we may be also under the influence of beings which exist in dimensions outside of our ordinary perception.  But there is much more to reality than what we can see. feel, hear, taste and touch.”  There are a number of useful ways to Conceptualize these influences, but Dylan goes on to describe how Rudolph Steiner saw them…

https://deusnexus.wordpress.com/2018/01/25/rudolf-steiner/.

“Finding oneself in the rut of spiraling negative self-talk, depression, crippling anxiety, or uncontrollable, irrational fear, is a sign, as Steiner points out, of a disconnection from our true spiritual nature, exacerbated by beings who operate in the spiritual realms.”  I encourage you to read his article.  In addition to Recovering from Overwhelm, this is one of the reasons we encourage you to Tap Out or Kegel your Fear.

When a new Energy emerges into Consciousness it’s often useful to Personalize it – that’s why folks throughout Space-Time have tried to name Gods, Goddesses, Demons, and Daemons.  The very Magic in Earthsea (https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2016/10/17/the-fantastic-ursula-k-le-guin) was based partly on Naming.  Self-Love, and its correlate Forgiveness, may be easier if we Externalize our Self and give it a Name – preferably our own.  We don’t necessarily use a name there, but that’s the process we use when we Poor-Sweetheart ourself.

Then we can look in the Mirror and say to ourself, “I Love You, [Your Name]” or “I Love You, Sweetheart.”  The objective is to Notice every twitch of Discomfort that arises when you do that, then Poor-Sweetheart it, Tap it Out, Kegel it, write it down and Embrace it later, do everything you can to Make It Absolutely Your Own. 

Authenticity, Self-Love, and Self-Sovereignty are highly intertwined.  The day after the Eclipse, a new eleven-year Cycle around Letting Go of Impediments to our Self-Sovereignty begins, so at the Eclipse we’ll also be Feeling that Energy Strongly…

“Hylonome Initiates Lilith 1 February in 10 Capricorn – ‘An albatross feeding from the hand of a sailor’; It’s Time to Let Go of Inhibitions to our Self-Sovereignty and Fully Support Cooperation over Competition.”  (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/01/13/times-up-i/)

The Sailor in this Metaphor is your Ego, and the Albatross is the Unconscious.  Most of us don’t Intentionally Abandon our Self-Sovereignty, it’s our Unconscious Habits, Karma, and Archetypes that Abandon us.  While you’re Loving yourself by name in the Mirror, you might also try saying things like “I Have Absolute Power over My Actions and Desires” and Noticing whatever thoughts or Emotions or other Discomfort arise to the Contrary.  Then you can work on Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping Out, and otherwise PIAVAing your Embrace of the Discomfort.

Pholus-Quaoar I

September 8, 2017

Here’s some important Perspective from Daniel Scranton’s Arcturian friends…

http://danielscranton.com/your-suns-recent-activity-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“Your identity is shifting, as you become more of who you are, and as you know this to be a truth in your reality there is nothing anyone, including your higher self, can take from you.  And that is important for your ego to understand.  Your ego is not being swept aside in favor of your higher self.  Your ego and your higher self are merging, giving you a whole new identity, a new sense of self.”

And a somewhat Challenging note on our Forbidden Genius from Raphael Awen…

https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/09/07/being-yourself-the-highest-service/

“Part of you may feel insignificant.  Part of you may feel like the opposite of any kind of greatness.  If that’s true, then truly being yourself would require starting there wouldn’t it?  It did for me…  These parts of us, whom I believe we all have, are not the limitation [that prevents] us from achieving greatness, but rather the doorway into our true greatness.  As we feel and heal the first domains of our sovereignty, our own insides, we just become more and more life; alive energy that is our deepest service to the world. 

“Ignoring this reality and then burdening ourselves with choosing a career, or looking for a way to ‘earn a living,’ or living by a ‘get ahead’ mantra is a sure way to keep this 3D suffering intact.  You ARE a powerful calling waiting upon your choice in order to ‘happen.’ “

Well, I’ve read about folks who Trusted the Universe to Provide, but I’m not there yet.  As one of my Teachers, Nancy Rubin (http://www.rubinenterprises.info/), put it thirty years ago, when she tried Trusting the Universe to Provide, folks gave her a lot of Zuchini.  Nothing wrong with Zuchini of course, and of course I’m only Receiving another Opportunity to Embrace my Limiting Beliefs about Being Responsible to Survival.

We’ve gotten some remarkable feedback from that Moira article (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/09/03/fate-and-choice/).  Here’s a sample…

“That chart for the Moira in relationships…has assisted my understanding of the relationships in my life that have been exiled, as well as relationships that were truly fated….  Thank you immensely for this gem.
The information opened the door wide and acceptance, understanding and ability to move the view easily came, and has opened or freed space within my heart.  I have sat with this and given deep gratitude to you for this truly life changing knowledge that you so lovingly shared with the world.
This morning, while on my gratitude walk, tears came flowing…so grateful is my open heart to finally FINALLY free myself from some very old patterned beliefs.  This has set free the deep grief that had been planted by myself along this way.
I am so amazed at how this informative post totally set a new stage upon which I can direct differently.”

Namaste!  I know that they’re a profound Healer themselves.  Meanwhile, we’re PIAVAing that every post be TranceReFormative on some level for every reader.  Writing them often puts me through my paces.  For instance, an “error” about the Chiron-Pluto Cycle led me on a “Wild Goose chase” through World War II, accompanied by quite a bit of Letting Go.  I can see how Survival Responsibility is Lit Up by the compulsion I’ve had to follow Irma around.  Pholus-Quaoar Completes one of my T-Squares.

Mom has completed the Element suite; the Earthquakes have arrived (magnitude 8, off the Pacific coast of southern Mexico on 7 September).  For emphasis She’s even Lit Up the Etheric Element, with a Big Solar Flare (http://www.spaceweather.com/) that created Auroras as far south as Arkansas, on the same Latitude as Cyprus…

This Auroral Eagle wasn’t seen from Arkansas but from Finland, by Jani Ylinampa…It looks a lot like the same warmongering Prussian Eagle that the Deep State has been putting on US postage stamps for the last six years or so, but remember that the chart for the current Century is largely (in addition to the Polarization) about A Flag (Nationalism) turning into an Eagle (Farseeing Perspective) turning into a Rooster Celebrating EnLightenment.  Finland of course has a deep history with both the Prussian Eagle and the two-headed Russian Eagle.

 On 30 December 1999 Pluto (Trance-Re-Formation) Initiated (Granted Shaktipat to) Chiron (Transforming Victimhood into Power) at the 12-Sagittarius Degree that sports the Flag-Eagle-Rooster Symbol.  Today the 70-year Chiron-Pluto Cycle is approaching the Waxing Quintile (Learning) stage.  So the Eagle is our Teacher about Empowerment.  Reminiscent of the Sea-Eagle that flew over here during the 21 August Total Solar Eclipse, heading east (toward the Light) – the first Sea-Eagle I’ve seen here; our local Eagles are usually of the Bald persuasion.

While the Antichrist distracts everyone with his inane antics, it destroys decades of progress on consumer, environment, and worker protections (which the Greedheads call “regulations” – they want to get rid of them so they can rip us all off and send us the bill).  And while BadHaircut distracts everyone with nuclear games, we don’t even notice that warfare is different now…

https://www.symantec.com/connect/blogs/dragonfly-western-energy-sector-targeted-sophisticated-attack-group

But there has also been some exciting progress on the Survival Responsibility fronts.  Paul Hawken’s Drawdown research project for instance has determined that educating women and girls will reduce global warming by as much as tropical reforestation, and carefully managing refrigerants will reduce it by half again as much as that...

http://www.drawdown.org/solutions

http://www.drawdown.org/solutions/women-and-girls/educating-girls

And National Geographic has a fascinating and inspiring story about Food in the Netherlands…

http://www.nationalgeographic.com/magazine/2017/09/holland-agriculture-sustainable-farming/

Cause an Defect Full Moon IV

August 9, 2017

Okay, more about the Full Moon chart and the Partial Eclipse that’s a Gateway to the impending Big Total Solar Eclipse that shines a spotlight on the USofA…

As with all Signs, we can run them Positively or we can run them Negatively.  Remember though that the World (and hopefully your segment of it) needs ultimately to be in Balance, and is Multidimensional as well, so don’t get stuck in Archetypes that worship either side of that Duality. 

(Actually, the World and yourself are always in Balance, it’s just that whatever is needed to Balance your Conscious side resides in the Unconscious.  Since the Unconscious actually rules us, then from this Perspective, the nicer you are, the meaner you really are – and vice versa.)

You’ve been to performances where you’ve been Exhausted afterward, and other performances where you’ve felt Energized after.  That’s the difference between someone who builds their own Confidence by sucking other people’s Energy (we can think of a prominent example who lives in a house that’s being remodeled at the moment), and someone who Shares their Abundant Leonine Self-Love broadly.  Abundance is having enough to Share, After all. 

This is the Duality often represented by Leo, where Sun and Mars and Atropos (Endings) are all parked at this Full Moon, along with the North Node (Lifetime Mission), Veritas (Truth), and Varuna (Life Force)Varuna will be in Leo for the next quarter-century, which should put a very Auspicious carpet under this Planet for a long while.  As for Mars in Leo, if we wrote a song about our Anger, would it draw a cheering crowd?  And when we mingle with the crowd afterward, are they the kind of people we’d Feel at Home with?

Expressing our Anger (Mars) can Create Community, and it can drive folks away.  While Communing with Everyone is a fabulous Aquarian goal (http://danielscranton.com/your-universal-family-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/), we may not actually be ready for such Sympathy and Understanding, Harmony and Trust Abounding.  And that’s all right.  We Are Who We Are, moment to moment (http://danielscranton.com/creating-experiences-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/).

We all need a place to return to where we are Understood and Respected and Loved for exactly Who We Really Are, so for all but the most Saintly among us, that first sort of Community is what we need to Create, to make a Safe Space for us while we put the finishing touches on our Saintliness.  While Anger tends to Divide, the presence of Atropos suggests that Expressing our Anger may help to Let It Go.

This is what the Leo-Aquarius Axis, which this Full Moon Illuminates, is all about, the Coin that unites the Duality.  Leo is the epitome of the Individual Self, Aquarius the epitome of Community.  Leo represents Fixed Fire, Stabilized Energy, or Spirit Manifested into Form.  Aquarius represents Fixed Air, Ideology, or Intellect Manifested into Form.  Michael Roads goes to great lengths to differentiate Intellect from Intelligence.  To him Intelligence derives from the Heart and Gut, while Intellect derives from the Left Brain. 

The Intellect is more than capable of supporting Intelligence, though in the Patriarchy, it’s more likely to support Morality, Politics, and the Preservation of Privilege.  Intellect is finely tuned for Logical Analysis, but Logic is a house of cards built upon Assumptions.  Propaganda manipulates your Logic without being Clear that its Assumptions may not be Universal.  To Transform Aquarius into Intelligence Manifested into Form, we need to Let Go of our Karmic Archetypes.  Our Archetypes and Limiting Beliefs are no more and no less than Unconscious Assumptions.  As long as they’re Unconscious, we can only see half of the Universe.

While Astrology deals with Dualities, it also deals with the Multidimensional.  Leo and Aquarius are not Complete without the other two Fixed Signs, Scorpio and Taurus (and of course the Fixed Signs are not Complete without the Creative and Mutational Signs).  Scorpio as Fixed Water or Emotion, and Taurus as Fixed Earth or Matter, represent the Stabilized Emotional and Material aspects of Reality.  Of course, depending on your Archetypes, Emotion and Matter can be Stabilized into either Constructive or Deconstructive Directions.

The Klotho-Sappho Conjunction (Creating a New Timeline Based on Self-Love), which is the Focus of the Full Moon T-Square, is in Scorpio, so we’re dealing with an Emotional version of Self-Love.  That means the tears that come naturally to your eyes when someone validates the parts of you that are Unseen – your Genius Project, for instance – and when someone perpetrates an Act of Kindness that your own Personal Values wish everyone would do All the Time.  And the Grace you Feel when someone Validates your Anger.  The Leo-Aquarius Full Moon is about the Dynamic between the Individual and the Collective – between You and Other.

Which means that the Taurus or Matter side of the Four-Dimensional Balance is Vacant – we need to Consciously Ground the Energy.  Dan and the Arcfolk concur – http://danielscranton.com/a-process-for-connecting-with-5d-energies-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/ .  The Vacancy is at 16 Taurus, “The inadequacy of past knowledge in times of crisis.”  Hmmm.  I’d rephrase that as “…in times of rapid Change” – in a Stable environment, traditional knowledge is actually very Powerful in a crisis.  But the point is that we need to PIAVA how to Ground ourself and our Milieu.  

There is, however, a Fixed Star in that location, Almach, which is the left foot of the Sacrificial Goddess Andromeda.  Foot as in Power, left as in Feminine Power.  Andromeda is a symbol of an Out-of-Power Tradition victimized by the Dominant Paradigm.  In other words it’s important to bring Self-Trust into Expression of our Anger, and to remember that our Intention is Self-Expression, not to be Understood.  If the Perpetrators Understand our Anger at their Oppression, their Dominance will be threatened, and they will be highly Motivated to torment us further.

Our Objective in Expressing our Anger is not Revenge or Restitution, but to Let Go of its Karmic Grasp of us.  Actually, our Karma does not Grasp us, our Ego Grasps it.  It’s a foundation for our Ego.  So to the Ego, it Feels as if it’s the Karma doing the Grasping.  We cannot Raise our Vibration until we Let Go of our Archetypes, including our Anger.  While it feels like we’re Angry at the Perps in our Present Life, it has Karmic Roots that will not be pulled out by striking out in the Present Life.

To Let Go of Anger or any strong Emotion, we need to start by Poor-Sweethearting it.  Strong Emotions are not Comfortable, and we need to Empathize with our own Discomfort.  “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel Angry, don’t you.”  It’s meant as a declaration of Self-Compassion, not an Accusation.  If being Angry makes you a bad person, find a substitute that isn’t.  “Your poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Irritated, don’t you.”  Or “Agitated,” or “Worked Up.”  Then Change the Subject, and see how long it takes for your Anger to return as a thought-stream.

The next time it arises, Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4).  If it’s at all serious, it will take several Iterations.  Measure the Intensity of your Anger on a scale of 1 to 10 before and after each Iteration, so you can Witness your Progress.  Alternate Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and any other PIAVA you can Create, making sure to Change the Subject after each process.

We should note that the Full Moon and the T-Square occur on the Midpoints of the Fixed Signs, which are the Power Points of the Zodiac, symbolizing the Four Horsepersons of the Apocalypse – Apocalypse to the Ego, Liberation of the Soul. 

We mentioned Obsession recently in this context, as Obsession can make it particularly difficult to Change the Subject, and a reader wrote to ask us how one might address Obsession.  Well, the first question I’d ask, is how might Obsession be indicated in their chart?

If it’s really an Appropriate Expression of their natality, then they may only need to Learn to Love it to Death.  That may not stop the Obsession, but it would make it more Pleasant, as once they Learned that, Obsession would trigger Love and Pleasure for them instead of Discomfort.  Of course, Learning to Love Obsession will likely involve a good deal of Ego Death, as at least some part of them wants it to go away, and they probably have a big backlog of Other People telling them it’s wrong.  But that’s all just a map of where they need to go to Learn to be Loving with it.

So, is Obsession an Appropriate Expression of their natal chart?  What would we look for?

Well, the most obvious place to start looking is Scorpio, and to a lesser extent Taurus.  These signs, especially Scorpio, don’t Let Go when they get hold of something they don’t fully grok yet, especially something Emotional, and especially something that seems Unfair.  Does our friend have planets in Scorpio?

Well, yes. seven of them.  We work with 45 planets and other points, so the average Sign should contain less than four planets.  So seven is a whole bunch.

We can start by what we would tell any Scorpio that might help them Love themselves…

Scorpio is Compelled to Get to the Bottom of Things.  We first Meet Other in Libra, and it raises all kinds of Questions for us, about whether We’re Okay and They Aren’t or They’re Okay and We Aren’t, whenever there seems to be a Conflict or even Contrast between us.  This is how we first Discover that our own Childhood may not have been as Loving as it could have been, so it’s not at all trivial.

It’s not easy for Anyone to get to You’re Okay and I’m Okay, and for Scorpio it becomes a Compulsion.  It takes a great deal of Maturity to understand that the end point is You’re Okay and I’m Okay rather than You’re Okay or I’m Okay, which complicates the whole process until we Realize that.  We also have to Realize that just because You’re Okay and I’m Okay, that doesn’t mean I have to Tolerate you if you aren’t my cup of tea.

Also, Scorpio is Fearless in their Pursuit of Truth.  Fearlessness is the most prominent element of Scorpio.  Other people do not Trust Scorpio, partly because Scorpio asks penetrating questions that require them to examine themselves more deeply than they usually like to, partly because Scorpio has a tendency to make and hold eye contact longer than most people are comfortable with.  Other people often feel like Scorpio is Looking into the Soul (which it is), and if they aren’t fully in Self-Love, it makes them want to run away.

Because of these kinds of Reactions from Other, Scorpio is one of the most difficult Signs to Embody in Left-Brain-worshiping Western Cultures.  Remember we aren’t talking about folks with Sun in Scorpio, we’re talking about anyone with a strong emphasis in Scorpio – or Pluto, Scorpio’s “Ruler” – in their natal chart or even in their Transits and Progressions.

These kinds of influences often draw Scorpio toward Addiction, and Teaching them to Love Themselves Exactly As They Are is the first step to helping them get out of Addiction, as the most prominent trigger for their Desire to Medicate is the Anxiety produced by their Need to Get to the Bottom of Things that are Forbidden to them.  Strong Scorpio is a good indicator that a person’s Forbidden Genius lies in sophisticated Research of Private Investigation.

That’s the gist of what we would tell any Scorpio, or anyone with a strong Pluto, in a reading.

So, which planets are we talking about?  Ixion (Forbidden Genius), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), Ceres (Sustainability), Klotho (Plotting a New Timeline), and Vertex (Intuition) are all at the Midpoint of Scorpio, which just happens to be (there go those Coincidences again!) where Transiting Klotho and Sappho (Starting a New Timeline based on Self-Love) happen to be sitting as we speak, making their T-Square to the 7 August Full Moon.

Whoa, this is Big.  The Midpoint of Scorpio is one of the Four Horsefolk of Ego Death, so we probably have a case of chronic Self-Attack (that is Ego-Attack, not Soul-Attack).  Sir Self-Lance-a-Lot.  All very strongly Lit Up this week.  So we’d prescribe a strong ongoing dose of Poor-Sweethearts.  Can we even interpret a Klotho-Sappho Transit, Square to a Full Moon, sitting on a natal Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium?

Oops, have to interrupt again.  A Stellium (three or more planets in the same place) isn’t easy.  What would we tell someone with a Stellium in their chart, to help them Learn to Appreciate their Uniqueness?

Well, the Culture we grow up in has certain Differentiations that are an integral part of the Culture.  For instance, Boys are different from Girls, and never the twain shall meet.  What fireworks have been going on the USofA when that Differentiation is Challenged!  The youngsters understand that they’re both just People, but the Differentiation is so ingrained in the brains of the oldsters that they fight it all the way to the “Supreme” Court, and Obsess (!) on it.

So when we have two or more planets in the same place, we don’t know the Difference.  Folks who start a Life when Mars and Venus are Conjoined (in or close to the same Degree) have no idea that there’s any Difference at all!  So they have a difficult time Relating to, and Being Related to by, anyone who’s Obsessed with the Difference, because their brains are wired very differently.

And that’s just two planets.  With a five-planet Stellium, the difficulty of Communicating with Others is multiplied many times.  To start with, only 2.5% of us will have a 5-planet Stellium (using 45 planets), so we can expect to be able to Communicate at all with one person in 40.  However, what’s the probability that the next person with a 5-planet Stellium is going to have a Stellium that includes the same five planets?

Without breaking any blood vessels in my brain, I’d guess that would be something like 1/9 to the fourth or fifth power, or about one person in 60,000, although that assumes that the 45 planets are distributed randomly around the Zodiac, which is far from true.  You could start a worldwide club, advertising on the internet to connect with everyone who started Life with a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium.  You might end up with just the people who were born on the same day and year as you.

And now you’re going to run into another problem.  Very few of these people will have ever learned to Love themselves, even if their Stellium isn’t in Scorpio.  When you meet a Soulmate, if your Self-Love isn’t Total, you’re going to Project your Self-Rejection all over one another, and end up hating one another, very soon.  I once introduced two people with very similar, very unusual birth charts, Scorpios even, and they became housemates.  That lasted about a month before they ran screaming from one another.

So until you Learn to Love your own Uniqueness fairly thoroughly, you may need to settle for non-intimate Relationships for a while.  Look for people who are already Ascended or Enlightened, who may be able to Accept you Exactly As You Are, even if they’re not like you at all – they may even find your Uniqueness fascinating.  There should be a reasonable number of those folks around.  You won’t be their Onliest…

Since you are a shining light
There’s many that you’ll see
But I have to deal with envy
When you choose the precious few
Who’ve left their pride on the other side of
Coming back to you

as Leonard Cohen put it, but at least you’ll be Accepted, and you’ll get a taste of what it will be like to Love your Uniqueness, till you Lesrn to Obsess on Loving your Uniqueness.

Well, we know that this person, on the Soul Level, Intends in this Lifetime to Get to the Bottom of Self-Abuse (and I don’t mean self-pleasuring) once and for all (Klotho-Sappho).  So they probably “hired” parents and other significant adults that programmed a good deal of persistent Self-Rejection (Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres) into them as Children.  That’s how we do it – whatever we Intend to Let Go Of permanently in a Lifetime, we on the Soul level make sure we get a big dose of it, so we’ll Recognize it and be Motivated to Change the Pattern.

So, with Mars and Atropos on the Full-Moon Sun, it would be a fabulous time to start writing a series of Angry letters, that they don’t intend to send, to their Childhood Programmers, so they can begin Getting to the Bottom of their Abandoned Genius’s Real Feelings.  We can Learn about Blame and Responsibility later.

Oh, did I forget to mention that Jupiter (Amplification) and Sappho (Self-Love) are also in Scorpio?  So our friend is even more Determined to break out of her prison of Self-Admonishment, as she has Chosen (on the Soul level) to Obsess about her Amplified Desire for Self-Love!

Did someone say Obsession?  Damn Right!  Obsessed with this prison-break, and for damn good reasons!!!  It’s a central theme of their Soul-level Plan for the Lifetime!  So come Hell or High Water, they need to start Obsessing (and PIAVAing) on Learning how to Celebrate Obsession like it is the Incredible Gift to themselves that it truly is!  Set a timer, and Celebrate Obsession at least once an hour, every day.

Okay, with the preliminaries out of the way we can get down the the meat of the issue.  Their Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium is Opposed by Chiron (Despair and Miracle).  That’s like a dagger held by her Programmers, slicing little chunks out of her skin constantly.  To move from Despair to Miracle we need to Empathize with our Despair.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Down on yourself, don’t you.”  Now, we know that Changing the Subject (which gets the mind and old Karmic Patterns out of the way so they don’t re-up the Despair) won’t be easy – that’s the whole issue, isn’t it.

So we can try building a strong practice of Tapping (YouTube link above).  “Even though I’m Obsessing about this Despair, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  Measuring the Intensity of Feeling (0 to 10) before and after each of many Iterations will be important – as long as you’re getting any reduction, keep Tapping, till you get close to zero.  If you aren’t getting reduction, try alternating with Poor-Sweethearts, or Dancing, or doing anything Different.  This is Multi-Lifetime stuff, so you need to be Obsessive about working on it, but then, that’s your specialty, eh?

Phew, that’s a lot, isn’t it.  Are we done?  Not a chance.  Mercury, of all people, makes a T-Square across the Opposition between the Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium and Chiron.  Now we have to interrupt again, since T-Squares are quite difficult, so we have to give our standard speech about how to Love a T-Square…

A T-Square is like a graduate seminar.  We Expect to be able to “get it right” once in a while, so we can feel halfway Competent.  But with a T-Square, there is no “getting it right.”  In a graduate seminar there are no right Answers, only clever and relevant Questions.  No matter how long anyone Lives a T-Square, they’ll never Feel Satisfied about it, until they Learn to Appreciate that on a Soul level they’ve adopted this Issue as a Lifetime Learning Opportunity, and each time it arises – which is likely to be daily – they’ll be working on a new, more subtle and broader, version of the same Lesson.

It’s pass/fail, and you only pass when you Recognize that this is your Lifetime Study Project, and Honor yourself for the Fact that you actually know a Hell of a lot more about it than most anyone else on the Planet, because you wrestle with it daily.  You begin to Change a “bad” Habit by Noticing that you’re Doing it again, and Congratulating yourself for Noticing rather than Cursing yourself for Doing it again – substituting positive reinforcement for negative reinforcement, because reinforcement is cumulative.

So when you Notice that you’re working on that Issue again, Congratulate yourself for looking at it from yet another Perspective, and Honor yourself for all of the Perspectives you’ve already Discovered, rather than Indulging your Frustration at not getting it Right yet again, you’ll shift your Perspective toward what is otherwise one of your greatest Frustrations.

That’s what T-Squares are all about.  Now, what about this Mercury T-Square?  Well a Mercury T-Square (until you make the shift we just talked about) means that your mind is always picking at you.  Anxiety ‘R’ Us, and it’s not just Worry, it’s Negative Self-Talk.  So we have to Learn to Notice that we’re Doing Negative Self-Talk again, Congratulate ourself for Noticing, and Honor ourself for how Skilled we’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk.

If a friend complained to you about their Negative Self-Talk, I’ll bet you could give them a thousand suggestions for dealing with it.  You’re a World Expert on Negative Self-Talk.  You could write best-sellers about it.  You need to Honor yourself for that, even if it doesn’t Feel True at first.  I guarantee you, it is True.

Now, we’re dealing with Negative Self-Talk about Chiron Opposite a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium, which isn’t chicken-feed.  With Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex as part of your Stellium, a deep part of you (with strong Scorpio, Diving Deep is one of your greatest Skills) knows Intuitively (Vertex) that your Survival (Quaoar) is Assured (Ceres) once you Begin (Klotho) to Love Yourself Exactly As You Are.  You just don’t know where to start because no one has ever Mirrored your True Self to you.

Then we add Ixion. We have to interrupt again for our Learn-to-Love-Ixion speech…

Ixion was the Bad Boy of the Greek Pantheon, who was basically a sociopath who thought all rules applied to everyone else (like that fellow in the house that’s pained white and being remodeled).  Well, talk to any Accomplished Genius, and they’ll tell you they didn’t get there by following other people’s rules.  To live Genius you need to break as many rules as you can get away with.

But you’ll always be condemned for it.  So, not actually being a sociopath, you’ll need to develop a thick skin about Criticism from Others.  And with your parents and other Programmers probably very Critical people, you’re going to have a lot of Olde Reactions to Criticism, and probably “Leave your Body” (space out) when someone starts Criticizing you.  Well, you probably want to enlist some friends and Act Out a thousand Criticism scenarios, till you can Stay Present with Yourself when being Criticized, and Learn when Defending yourself is a waste of time that’ll just get more Criticism, and How to Defend yourself when it’s worth it (ie, with a Relationship you Want to Keep).

In Cultures that Value Conformity, Ixion is Rejected out of hand.  That’s why we refer to that part of ourself as our Forbidden or Abandoned or Pathological Genius, and refer to Recovery of that part of ourself as our Genius Project.  It’s a Big Project for everyone, but especially important for you.  Eventually, once you become the World’s foremost Psychoanalyst, or the World’s most Unique Artist who Communicates with parts of people that have never been Communicated to before ever, you’ll understand how Unique you are, and Honor it.

But meanwhile, there’s homework to be done, because you’re probably in the Habit of giving your Unique Genius more Negative Self-Talk than anyone.  So you’ll have to Learn to Notice that you’re Doing Negative Self-Talk about your Unmirrored Uniqueness again, Congratulate yourself for Noticing, and Honor yourself for how Skilled you’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk about your Uniqueness

Lots of work ahead, but at least now you have a curriculum.

What’s that?  Oh, we aren’t quite done?  Oh yeah, remember that Jupiter-Sappho in Scorpio?  Well, it happens to be in a “Grand Cross,” Opposite a Stellium of Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sedna (Fear), Chariklo (Self-Confidence), and Moira (Choosing Consciousness), with Sedna Stationary (Strong), Square to a Stellium of Sun (your Essence), Atropos (Endings), and Mnemosyne (Memory), which is in turn Opposite to a Stellium of Orcus (Breaking Vows), Hylonome (Escaping from Archetypes), and Lachesis (Duration), with Lachesis Exactly Stationary (very Strong).  All this is actually enormously Positive, but there’s a lot in it that needs to be Learned to Love.

We won’t take that up now, we’ll save it for after you’ve digested some of the earlier homework, which is more than ample.  The earlier homework is Lit Up Bigtime by the Full Moon, so it’s a more current assignment anyway.  This later Grand Cross is Lit Up only by the Transiting Conjunction of Varuna (the Life Force) and Veritas (Truth), which is actually quite a lot, but nothing compared to how much your Mercury T-Square and Ixion Stellium are Lit Up.

Oh, also, when you’re ready, remind me to talk about the “Vacancy” to your Mercury T-Square.

And, once you’ve started on the earlier homework in earnest, we can talk about that friend you mentioned, and see how they might, by virtue of their own birth chart, inadvertently trigger either your Mercury-Chiron-Ixion-et al T-Square or your Lachesis-et al Grand Cross, or both.  We’ll also need to cover Blame and Responsibility then.

Oh, and since Pluto (Transformation) is similar to Scorpio, and likely to be involved in Obsession, we should eventually look at that too.  It’s after all Conjunct Saturn (The Most Important Thing), so that’s a strong indication that Obsession is actually your Greatest Skill, you just need to Learn to Love it.  Also, Pluto-Saturn makes a T-Square across your Nodes (Why You Took This Lifetime), so that’s another indicator that This is the Lifetime you Chose, on the Soul level, to become the World’s greatest Expert on Obsession, and once and for all Let Go of your Ego Attachment to it, and Let Go of your Rejection of Obsession and of yourself

Plus, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is on your North Node (Your Mission in the Lifetime) and Moon-Venus (Your Instincts and Values) is on your South Node (The Karmic Impediments to your Mission that you Chose on the Soul level to help you Accomplish your Mission in the Lifetime, which Impediments happen to hide the Skills you need to Accomplish your Mission), further complicating this T-Square.

That’s a lot, but Remember that, as the Findhorn Transformation Game says, the Hardest Assignments are only given to the Best People.

Cause an Defect

August 5, 2017

A friend asks, “What do your Arcturian friends say about us creating our own reality?

Same thing Seth said in The Nature of Personal Reality.  If we want to know our Karma (the Beliefs and Habit Patterns we came into the Lifetime with, whether Productive or Self-Sabotaging in each stage of the current Life), just look at our Lifetime so far.  What we’ve Created, and are Creating, is Who We Are, Karmically.  We have the Power to Change it, sometimes quite simply, other times with impossible difficulty.  First step is to Notice what we’re Creating and have Created, and Recognize that We have Created it. 

At this point we have to stop and Examine whether we’re In Blame.  Blame is about assigning Cause to something.  It’s about the Past.  Responsibility is about Recognizing that, one way or another, we have the Power to Change Future Outcomes.  People who are unable to step out of Blame will never be able to Recognize that they Create their own Reality.  Their Reality is stuck in circular finger-pointing, and it won’t Change till they figure out how to step off of the Blame treadmill.

If we can step out of Blame then…

Is What we’re Creating What We Want?  If not then we need to Change it.  99% percent of ourself is Unconscious, and the Unconscious is non-Dual, so the Dualistic Mind can’t do the job.  The Mind is a screwdriver, the Unconscious is put together with bolts.  Cause and Effect is a Linear process, quite relevant to the realm of the Ego, but the Unconscious operates by different rules.  Time isn’t even Linear in the Unconscious – are your Dreams Linear?

Best tools for influencing the Unconscious that I’ve found so far are the PIAVAs.  Think about Intention, for instance – you’re starting with Effect and then producing Cause!  So much for Linear Time.

Yes, our Childhood Programming is overlain on top of our Karma.  But who Created our Childhood Programming?  We did.  Not We/Ego, but We/Soul.  No Judgment here; We/Soul just decided We Wanted to have more Experience in a certain arena or several.  In that sense We/Soul Chose our parents and the propaganda mills that would Program us – to Reinforce our Karma so we’d Notice it and be inspired to Change it

It is my opinion that at least some of us came to this Planet at this time in order to Assist the Planet to finish business with the Age of Pisces.  Pisces must Eschew Blame if it is to find the elevator to the next level and “get out of going through all this twice” as Dylan put it.  In that context We/Soul have adopted for We/Ego (prior to Enlightenment) a set of Karma as if it were a set of underwear; it isn’t even really “ours,” we’ve just picked it out at Goodwill because it reflects how We/Soul have Chosen to Assist the Planet.

Which is a fine way to look at it regardless – Karma is Inertia, not Retribution, so it actually has no Value (as in good or bad), it’s Neutral, just as we need to be Neutral in order not to get sucked into the Drama that the Age of Pisces gets stuck in.  Neutrality means that we don’t have any investment in any of the Outcomes, other than, optionally, those we’ve Chosen to Change.  And in fact, one of the best way to Change anything is through Acceptance.  To go one step further, we could say, unequivocally, that Nothing Changes until we Accept it Exactly As It Is.

Which simply means that we’ve Noticed that we’ve Created it, and since we Realize that, as John (and Michael Roads) says, All There Is (That’s Real) Is Love, then we have no Choice but to figure out how to Love what we’ve Created.  For instance, consider our Genius Project.  Of course we’re frustrated because it hasn’t paid off on the first try.  Duh.  How many Lifetimes have we (or the Planet) been working on this Project?  Do we Expect to Change it with one PIAVA?  (Of course it might; we might just be ready.)

What has happened so far with our Genius Project, and how do we Feel about it?  Have we figured out how to Embrace those Feelings Lovingly, so we can Lovingly Embrace what’s happened so far, so we can get on to the next step?  We need at least to Poor-Sweetheart them.  This is the Pay Attention stage of the PIAVA process.  How is what has happened related to What We Want? 

Have we appeared to move in the wrong direction?  That’s where I’m at.  That’s very common, because the Unconscious is Asking and Telling We/Ego, “Do you Trust us?  If you won’t Hold the Intention, we can’t Hold it for you.” It’s Ego that has Focus, not the Unconscious.  It takes a Partnership to Manifest.  Even a Village.

If it feels like Nothing has happened, or something unexpected has indeed happened, but it doesn’t appear to be Related to our Genius Project, then we might have to PIAVA that we come to grok (as opposed to “understand”) the Relationship well enough that we know what to do next to bring our Forbidden Genius out of Hiding.  Or better yet, just PIAVA that we take the appropriate next step, period, and just bypass the Linear Mind, and the Controlling Status-Quo-Loving Ego, entirely.

Are we making any sense?

Things haven’t felt very satisfying or stable the last several days, as Jupiter Squares Pluto, amplified by the impending 7 August Full-Moon Partial Eclipse, prelude to the 21 August Big One.  We’ll write about that next.

Forbidden Genius and Responsibility

April 28, 2017

Here’s a great tale from reader and Artiste Extraordinaire Mahasweta Mitra (http://creationsfromstillness.com/)…

“Things have been going downhill at work for almost a year now… and I did get into my mental loop of how do I make more money to make ends meet… but then I came to a point where I saw, I may not have money to splurge, but any time I need extra money, it somehow shows up…

“I have been leading a ladies dance group (its free, we all meet up and dance for an hour) for almost a year now…and on March 26th
(ie, the 25 March Ixion Station, the 26 March Sappho Station,
New Moon 27th March, discovering the roots of our Forbidden Genius,
            and amping up our Self-Love)
I had the inspiration to ask my dance group if they would like to start an art group… and the interest was phenomenal…

“So on April 11th
(Mercury Stationary 9 April, Hylonome Stationary 10 April,
Varuna Stationary 10 April, Full Moon 10 April: huge Potential
         for Letting Go of Karmic Chains that have inhibited our Life Force.)
we started our art group. I did not plan to take any money for this, just told them we would pool in some money to buy art supplies.
 “So many ladies showed interest that I have had to split the group into two batches.. and now two evenings I have our art group meeting up, one evening dance and one evening volunteering at prison to teach computers (this I have been doing for many years now).  I have never felt so good.. it feels like being that school kid again, leading many groups into creative things… something I lost after life happened, as a kid nothing could stop me… but then life happened and I lost my confidence and it’s like I am finding it all again…
“Last evening as I worked with the art group, I actually felt like I was back in touch with that child I remember I was… it’s a lot of work but the joy of doing it all gives me this unexplainable energy that I can keep going and not feel tired.  I also feel like I am giving back for all I have received for years now… and a knowing… it will all be OK financially… to have faith.  Not that worries don’t show up every now and then, but I am finding that I can chose to go with faith and allow the financial stress to subside.”

Pretty neat!  I’ve been seeing myself Letting Go of Anxiety around Money on multiple levels as well, and I’m frequently shocked at how Relaxed I feel even while I’m very Busy.  Previously, being Busy and being Relaxed seldom if ever Shared the same space.

Just looking at what the Moon Lights Up, this weekend should be Globally and Personally noteworthy, especially from around 9am PDT to 9pm PDT or so on 29 April.  The Moon first Tickles our Forbidden Genius (Ixion), then The Most Important Thing (Saturn), which, as it’s on the Galactic Center, is Channeling instructions from Headquarters that we eschew Despair (Venus-Chiron).  Then the Moon crosses The Truth (asteroid Veritas), before it Dances with Full Responsibility (Pholus) and our Survival Instincts (Quaoar).  Remember Responsibility ain’t Blame.  We listed that sequentially, but we’re likely to Experience it as All One Energy.  This is 26-2 Degrees.

Then on 30 April, roughly from 8am PDT to 8pm PDT, it Tickles our Grief about Letting Go of Archetypes that have kept us Safe (Hylonome) then facilitates Letting Go of Karmic Attachments (asteroids Atropos and Moira, and Pallas), and finally Dances with our Expanding Self-Confidence (Chariklo and Jupiter).  8-16 Degrees.  There is nothing so Attractive to Hupers as Self-Confidence – that’s why they refer to swindling as a “Con” Game.  If you know someone whose only marked attribute is Self-Confidence, they don’t serve to make us Doubt Self-Confidence, but to remind us that we aren’t empty suits inflated with hot air.  

What make us feel Phony is Abandoning our Forbidden Genius and being Adopted by Archetypes, not our Self-Confidence.  We’ve been faking it, but as we Allow ourself to be Adopted by our Genius, and to Abandon our Archetypes, we “make” it instead – Self-Love and Self-Confidence without any underlying Self-Doubt and Fear. 

Whatever we Learn this weekend, we follow it on May Day with two different Energies…

  • Early on (around 7am-2pm PDT) the Moon Encourages another step toward our Rebirth into Yintegrity with our Soul Self (Haumea and Eris-Uranus-Mercury)  24-26 Degrees
  • Toward early evening PDT, the Moon Triggers a new Influx of Life Force (Varuna) as we recognize that the Edges of our Consciousness have Grown (Vesta)  29-30 Degrees

Busy Busy Busy as Kurt would say.