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The Most Important Thing

May 9, 2020

If you can find and watch 24:30 through 35:00 of this video, you’ll be very Clear about The Most Important Thing…

If you don’t plan to spend much Future Time on this Planet, in your current Lifetime or others, then no worries.  If Life-Threatening Challenges are your Cuppa Tea, then no worries.  Otherwise, This is Big.  Compared to This, everything else is as Important as making mudpies.  So we highly recommend that you quit wasting Emotional and Physical Energy and Time fretting about the mudpies, and Commit yourself fully to The Most Important Thing.

Don’t worry about the details, just PIAVA to Lovingly and Gently come to Grok your Perfect Unique Role, in your own Time.  When you do find your Perfect Unique Role, it’ll be Great Fun, and not at all the Difficulty – or Impossibility – that you now imagine it to be.  It’s really true that If you aren’t part of the Solution you’re part of the Problem, so please, No Longer Lend Your Strength to That Which You Wish to Be Free From.

Of course your own The Most Important Thing must Arise from your own Heart, but we do need to warn that we’ll be Obsessing about our own personal The Most Important Thing till at least 9pm PDT on 10 May 2020 (when Saturn [The Most Important Thing] Stands Still in the Sky [Impacts us Strongly] at 2 Aquarius).  Oh, our Values will also be up for review till at least 11:45 pm 12 May (when Venus [Values] Stands Still in the Sky at 21 Gemini).  So lots of Self-Review.  Of course The Most Important Way to Approach The Most Important Thing is to monitor yourself to Avoid dwelling on WhatYouDon’tWant, so you can keep your Focus – which is what Creates your Future – on WhatYouDoWant.

Which, with everything (us included) Changing rapidly, means we can Expect to Experience Confusion fairly often.  Confusion isn’t my Favorite Emotion.  Which is why I’m working hard on Turning That Around, so Confusion becomes my Favorite Emotion.  Well, maybe my second-Favorite, after Ecstasy.  At any rate, Confusion is the first sign of Growth in Consciousness.  So it’s Precious.  Our Concept Set forms the skeleton for our Ego and rationalizes our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (such as “Nothing I can do about that!“).  Positive Change is Available only when our Concept Set wavers and quivers – which means we Feel Confused.

 

Tweety is our Ego, the Cage is our Concept Set, and Sylvester is everything that’s Eliminated from our Life by our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  Notice how Tweety looks kind of Confused by what’s happening.

 

However, Growth in Consciousness only occurs when we don’t try to outsmart our Confusion.  (Tweety relies on her Instinctual Wisdom of Experience, not Mentality).  When we try to Figure Out what’s Confusing us and make it Go Away, we Lose our Opportunity for Growth.  Figuring It Out just regrouts the bricks in the walls of our Concept Set.  This is especially important here while the symbol for our Ego is still Merged with the symbol for our Confidence (Stationary Saturn [Ego] Conjunct dwarf planet Chariklo [Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt], which runs from December 2019 till January 2021).  I mean, what’s more Important to the Ego than Confidence?

We know Intuitively that nothing makes a Huper more Attractive to Other Hupers than Self-Confidence.  It makes Life so much easier when Others find us Attractive and want to curry our favor.  Confidence is far more Compelling than Competence – that’s how the Antichrist Bullied his way into Fame and Glory.  Self-Doubt is one of the biggest impediments to Abundance.  Unfortunately, many of us are Addicted to Self-Doubt.  We get there by failing to Embrace Ego Death.

The Antichrist gives us a Master Teaching at Avoiding Self-Doubt.  He just Reframes History, Effortlessly and Immediately.  We may not want to do it his way, but the Lesson is Valuable because it brings the Issue into the Light of Day.  The Issue is, Do we Create our own Reality or Not?  He’s obviously a Master at Creating a Surreality that fits him to a T.  History books are full of Masters at Creating their own Surrealities.  The Antichrist Demonstrates the process – just Create your own Surreality, and whenever it conflicts with Reality, quickly Adjust it.  His Goal is Adulation.  We could emulate his techniques for other Goals, such as Abundance (Having Enough to Share), a Livable Environment, a Collaborate Culture, Immunity to 5G and Granolaviruses, Ascension, or WhateverWeWant.

Doubt and Confusion are kissing cousins.  When we Fake our way out of Doubt we often get caught.  If we aren’t famous enough, that matters.  When we try to Fake our way out of Confusion by Figuring It Out, we also Create more Trouble for ourself.  Like any other Emotion, in order to Release it we need to Accept and Embrace it Exactly as it Is.  When we do that, we dispel it – we literally break the Spell that it has cast on us.

We get Unstuck by training ourself to Notice when we’re Feeling Confused, and then Consciously Celebrate it.  Getting Beyond our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs is necessary if we are pursuing Abundance, Ascension, Enlightenment, or virtually any other major Change in our Karma(Our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs, by the way, are symbolized by asteroid Vesta, and Vesta Conjoins Stationary Venus as we speak.  We talked about that a little in Values and Beliefs Full Moon.)  We should write about the Venus-Vesta Cycle, because…

The Dance between our Values, Beliefs, Desires, Emotions, and Thoughts – including what and how we Think about our Emotions – are very Important to our progress toward WhatWeWant.  Most of us are very Confused, without Realizing it, about the Difference between Our Emotions and Our Thoughts About Our Emotions.  Emotions happen in our Body.  The minute we move into our Head and begin Thinking About our Emotions, we’ve totally Abandoned both our Emotions and our Selves.  Yet we need to Align our Passion and our Thoughts in order to Manifest Cleanly.

Does any place in your Body hurt or Feel Uncomfortable right now?  Are you Able to Lovingly and Gently put your Total Attention into that place, and watch how it Changes?  How long can you do that without Thinking About how it Feels?  It’s fine to Think About how long we’re Holding our Attention there, as long as we’re Experiencing how it Feels, and not Labeling or Comparing (as Marshall Rosenberg liked to say, “Feels Like” expresses a Thought, not an Emotion) it, or Leaving the Present Moment.

Holding your Total and Unconditionally Loving and Gentle Attention on any Discomfort in your Body is one of the most Healing things you can do for it.  When you Notice that your Attention has Wandered, just quietly Bring It Back, without Judgment.  Notice if your Body has Created any Hardening around the Discomfort, as we often do in an effort to Separate Pain from our Identity.  If there is, Consciously Soften it.  That’ll Open the blood flow around the space, and accelerate the Body’s natural Healing.  That’s what Bodies do for a Living, if we let them.

Try doing the same with a Difficult Emotion.  Locate it in your Body, and give it Total Unconditionally Loving and Gentle Attention.  If you can do that without Labeling or Comparing it, or Leaving the Present Moment, you’ll find that the Discomfort dissolves the way it does when you Poor-Sweetheart yourself.  It’s quite Miraculous if you aren’t used to doing it.  When we Leave the Present Moment – “OMG, this reminds me of…” or “What will happen if…” – we’re Thinking About the Emotion, not Feeling it, Experiencing it, or Giving it our Attention.  We’re Abandoning the Emotion and our Self.

Not that it isn’t useful to Anal-yze how any Discomfort fits into your TimeLines.  For instance, Realizing that an Unpleasant Feeling is another Mirror for a Childhood Trauma, can in a few seconds help to Heal both the Discomfort and the PTSD.  And Realizing that some Discomfort that’s Arising is a clue about why we aren’t instantly Manifesting something we just PIAVAed, can in a few seconds help to melt our Resistance to that Manifestation.

Remember that if we aren’t ready to Manifest something that we’ve PIAVAed, the first thing the Universe will do is give us an Illustration of why we aren’t ready.

But we need to Learn to instantly Recognize the Difference between our Emotions and our Thoughts About them.  A Healthy Emotion Arises and then Dissipates, Informing us about something Important in the process.  If there’s no Dissipation, it’s because we’ve shifted from Feeling it to Thinking About it.  That can Freeze Emotions for years, Creating and Deepening Karma in the process.  When we get stuck on an Emotion it’s almost always already Karmic, and every time we Think About it instead of Feeling it, we cement the Karma in place more firmly.

Karmic Emotions are Held Emotions, the ones We’d rather Die than Feel.  So it’s a natural, Healthy Reaction to find any way we can to Avoid that, including shifting transparently from Feeling to Thinking.  If you’ve been reading this blog long, you know that “We’d rather Die than Feel that” is a misrepresentation.  It’s what we Experience, but it’s an Illusion.  It’s really “We’d rather Die than Feel that” – yes, We, our Ego, our current Identity, has to Die in order for us to Feel that.  That’s how Karma works.  The Ego’s job is to keep us Alive and Well, so this works well.

Except when we Want to Change or Manifest something that’s not already in our Karma, and then we need to Tolerate or even Court Ego Death in order to get beyond our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs.  In fact, Ego Death becomes The Most Important Thing.  It doesn’t even matter if the Planet has been Destroyed, because we in fact Create our own Reality, as a Mirror for our Internal Self-Love processes, so we’ll just Re-Create it in our Image.

We’ll talk more about these things, and how Confusion and Curiosity (the Quincunx and Finger of the Goddess) relate to one another, when we look at tomorrow’s Saturn Station chart in detail.

Ascension New Moon 3

April 21, 2020

In general New Moons and Full Moons impact the two to four weeks that follow, so the Ascension New Moon will give us a sturdy Blanket to shelter under during the upcoming several weeks of potential Difficulty.  We’ll get to the potential Difficulty shortly, but first let’s finish talking about the Blanket.

In the chart of the 22 April 2020 New Moon Blanket, we haven’t discussed the long green wedge (Finger of the Goddess) that points to “OR10” – a dwarf planet out beyond Pluto known mostly by its code name, 2007 OR10 (though recently officially named Gonggong).  OR10 is about Intrusive Memories, which are usually Karmic to some degree, and at least bitter-sweet if not downright unpleasant.  The green wedge means “Pay Attention!”  In this case, it means that those Intrusive Memories are priceless Clues about the Karma we’re being Asked to Let Go Of.

The red triangle (T-Square) that points to the upper left in the chart (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/04/19/ascension-new-moon/) represents a Challenge that Impediments to our Self-Love (Sappho-Makemake) are likely to prevent us from Letting Go Of our Self-Sabotaging Karma (South Node) and moving toward our Lifetime Mission – toward Ascension or Enlightenment (North Node). We could rephrase that as Letting Go Of our Self-Sabotage, if we can, will enable the Unconditional Self-Love that will Heal our Life.

I know that most of us most of the time consider ourselves to be Victims of our Karma, so it may sound strange to label it “Self-Sabotaging.”  But even though Karma is about Inertia rather than Retribution, it’s still our own Inertia – Habit Patterns we built up in Other Lifetimes.  A birth chart is a map of a Lifetime that We As A Soul Chose for a Lifetime.  So yes, your Ego is indeed a Victim of your Karma, but from the Perspective of your Soul, your Karma consists of Self-Sabotaging Habits that YouAsASoul Chose to Break Through in the Current Lifetime.

Since We took this Lifetime to Help Heal the Planet, we don’t need to consider this Karma to be “ours” from the Soul’s Perspective.  Certainly it’s become “ours” from the Ego’s Perspective, by Adoption.  But for each of us, our Karma is a picture of what the Planet and the Species needs to set itself Free From in order to move into its next Incarnation.  We Serve the Planet by helping Liberate It from these persistent Patterns, just as we Serve our own continuing Liberation.

The green wedge that also points to the upper left in the chart is what makes the Challenge Self-Resolving (a Diamond Star), by adding a large measure of Grace (the blue Trine Bridge under the T-Square) to the Challenge.

As always, the nature of the Challenge is to endure the Test of our mettle without sacrificing our Self-Love.  Karma is Dead, it Died in 2012 when Time As We Knew It ended.  What hasn’t Died is our Habituation to it.  So we Expect to have to Endure the same old Bummers every time a similar situation arrives.  Well, a Self-Resolving Challenge means that the same old Bummers aren’t going to Arise this time.  Can we Recognize that, and Let Go of our Expectation of Suffering?  That’s what’s being Challenged here!  Expectations are like placebos – they’re easily and often mistaken for their Mirror.

When I was in fifth grade an older student caught me alone in the restroom after school was over, and acted like he was starting to rough me up.  This was the 1950s, and beating people up was something many did for Fun (just ask The Donald or his mentor Roy Cohn).  I was trained not to fight back, and I didn’t.

After he’d acted like he was going to rough me up for several minutes, he stopped and pointed out to me that he wasn’t hurting me and didn’t plan to – what I was experiencing was Fear, not Harm.  Being in the middle of my Expectation of Harm, I was too shaken to do much except be dumbfounded, but days later, once I calmed down, I gradually realized what a Gift he had given me.

The feet of this green wedge, which are also knees of the upside-down blue truss bridge, are OR10 and the Uranus-Hopi New Moon.  What this tells us is that the Keys to Effortlessly Letting Go Of our Self-Sabotage are Paying Attention to our Intrusive Memories and to our Judgments (Hopi).

The short green lines are also important.  We don’t talk about them much, but they’re actually one of the greater Gifts of astrology.  They indicate the Twelfth Harmonic, the Pattern-Breaker.  They tell us which Habits are available for Revision…

  • Our Mission (North Node) Relative to our Vitality (Varuna [the Life Force]) – Do we regard dis-ease symptoms as something Wrong that needs to be Fixed, or as the Body bringing itself back into Balance and thus something we want to Be Lovingly Present With and Observe?  We’re kind of Living this Out Culturally with the Moronavirus, aren’t we.
  • Our Intrusive Memories (OR10) Relative to our Edges (Pallas [Boundaries] and Saturn [The Most Important Thing]) – In my fifth-grade Experience, I was deeply Identified With (ie, Ego-Involved With) my Fear – no Boundary between “me” and “my Fear.”  Examine the difference in your Body Sensations as you say “I’m Scared” and then “I Feel Scared.”  Those Distinctions are critical to staying in the Present Moment and staying Neutral, which is where we meet the Source of our Power (Saturn-Pallas Trines [Grace] Sappho-Makemake).
  • Our Edges (Pallas-Saturn) Relative to our Horror Pictures (South Node [our Karmic Powerlessness] and Ixion [our Unclaimed Unique Genius]) about Climate Change (Pholus [I Know I’m Forgetting something] and Quaoar [our Survival Instincts]) – How do we single-handedly, or Communally, “Fix” Climate Change?  By Persistently Focusing our Attention (aka Claiming our Unique Genius as Creator Beings or Manifestors) on the Future that We Want to Live In.

Of course we’re going to be running all manner of Intrusive Karmic Memories of Natural Disasters and the Greater Disasters that Hupers can make on their own.  We don’t want to Deny these.  We want to Acknowledge their Reality while we simultaneously Acknowledge that we aren’t actually Experiencing them in the Present Moment.  Thus Disidentified with the Karmic Drama we’re in a position to send it a Healing PIAVA.  That’s why we came to this Planet at this time.

What?  Oh yeah, the Difficulty coming up.  Next post.

Ascension New Moon

April 19, 2020

Wouldn’t ya know we have a barbell distribution, with most of the votes on either end.  I’ve always believed that we should be able to vote NO WAY for something, in which case nothing would get our vote, but a vote would be subtracted from the tally of the thing we voted NO WAY (or “annoying”) on.  If we tally the votes that way, we tentatively end up with hex code CC66FF for our interspersed astrologuese jargon.

Now that we’ve Claimed as much of our Power as we’re ready for (the 18 April Station of Hylonome [Self-Sovereignty]), our next major astroevent is a New Beginning on 22 April 2020 (6:25 pm PDT) that’s all about Ascension (New Moon in 4 Taurus [Matter] Conjunct Uranus [Soul]) with a Big Serving of Unconditional Self-Love (Diamond Square pointing to dwarf planet Makemake [Manifestation] and asteroid Sappho [Self-Love]).

There are lots of additional details worth describing.

For instance, the Big Serving of Unconditional Self-Love might end up dominating the week, since it takes the form of a Challenge that Resolves itself (a Diamond Star, or T-Square and GoddessFinger both focusing on Makemake-Sappho)

https://www.wikihow.com/Hug-Yourself

…and since it at least partially Resolves the Most Meaningful, Rewarding, and Mysterious Processes in our Life (the base of the T-Square is the Nodal Axis [our Lifetime Path]).  The Mission end of this Process is Unadulterated, or Whole (North Node in 3 Cancer, without Conjunctions).  Our Mission is usually just beyond our comprehension, but at least here we may be able to Sense the Whole of it.

The Karma end of the Process is all wrapped up in the big Extended Climate Change Drama (including the Granolavirus) and our Potential Unique Personal Contribution to Regenerating our Species and its Role on the Planet (South Node [our Held Emotions that we’d rather Die than Feel] Conjunct dwarf planets Pholus [Covering All the Bases], Quaoar [our Survival Instincts], and Ixion [our Forbidden Genius]).

As many have averred, the big Extended Climate Change Drama (including the Corollavirus) is actually a Funhouse Mirror Image of the process of Ascension into 5D.  Marilyn Raffaele’s Arcturian friends began their Channeling today with…

https://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

Understand that you are presently engaged in one facet of earth’s ascension process and that something much bigger than disease is taking place.  As you witness chaos keep in mind that these times are bringing change to many universally accepted but false three dimensional concepts...”

And as we and others have often averred, we are Outpicturing – Manifesting – our Future now and in every moment through our Thoughts and FeelingsOur Reality is Created by our Energy.  If we spend our Limited Time and Attention on What We Don’t Want, that’s ultimately what we’re likely to Manifest.

If we instead devote our Limited Time and Attention to What We Want and How We’ll Feel When We Create It, THAT’S what we’re more likely to Manifest.

This is Complicated, largely Unconscious, and Dependent on many Multidimensional factors that we usually don’t consider (Pholus).  But we are Spiritual Creators, and we spend every moment, waking or otherwise, Creating (PIAVAing) our Future.  Creating our Individual Future, yes, but since the Boundaries (asteroid Pallas) between the Egos and Bodies and Minds of our self and our Fellow Travelers (including not just the People but also the Critters and Plants and Crystals) are totally Imaginary, Creating our Collective Future as well.

The Individual and the Collective occupy the same Space and Time.  They are Separate in our Dualistic Mind, but not in Objective Reality.  But both the Individual and the Collective are Infinitely Redefinable.  The Collective is not a big box of Sandwiches, it’s a big Cauldron of Soup.  And a gazillion little bowls.  And the containers are Imaginary.  The Boundaries aren’t even lines on a map.  They’re Ideas in our Minds, flexing constantly.

Every Thought is a Prayer, and All Prayers are Answered.  That’s a preposterous idea, isn’t it, because the result is Unimaginably Multidimensional.  That’s Exactly how Limited our everyday Dualistic Mind is, compared to an Infinite Universe.  If we Want to Manifest Consciously, we need to Upgrade our Thinking.

What if every Decision we ever made Created a New Universe that included that version of ourself, along with Parallel Universes containing versions of ourself that made the Decision Differently.  When we Rue a Decision made long ago, especially one which we made Unconsciously – which we’ve been doing lately, haven’t we (dwarf planet OR10, which we’ll get to later) – we’re Experiencing Bleedthrough from that other Universe.  We don’t have the Bandwidth to comprehend the Multiverse Intellectually.

But we can Grok the Multiverse a little bit Intuitively, and that’s a place to start Expanding our Ideas about Boundaries between “us” and “them” (the New Moon T-Squares the Opposition between Saturn [The Most Important Thing] Conjunct Pallas [Boundaries] and Varuna [the Life Force]; meanwhile the New Moon-Uranus Stellium itself is also Conjoined by asteroid Hopi [Respect for All Things/Beings]).

We’re being Gifted here with Unconditional Self-Love

(Diamond Star to Makemake-Sappho from the Nodal Axis – !!! – think about What That Means !!!  What more could we possibly Ask for?).

It’s not about What We Want for Everyone Else, It’s about What We Want for Me, Myself, and I.  What “they” Want for themselves is not the same as What We Want for Ourself.  The Golden Rule was always Fucked.  In a Win-Win Universe it’s always Do Unto Others as They Want to Be Done Unto.

The Cosmic Jigsaw Puzzle self-assembles into the Perfect Tapestry when Each of Us Outpictures What We Want and of course when Each of Us is also Advanced Enough to Avoid Harming Others, including not Abusing them by Dishonoring their Self-Sovereignty.  Yes, “We” got a ways to go, but the only Person you can Change is You, so our Work is Well-Defined, isn’t it.

The chart for the 22 April Uranus-Hopi-Makemake-Sappho New Moon…

That’s not all, but it’s a whole lot, and we’ll continue in the next post.  How are we doing with Route 66?

Perspectives

February 9, 2020

Marko Pogačnik is a Slovenian Artist and Geomancer, and a UNESCO Artist for Peace (http://www.markopogacnik.com/).  He contracts with governments in Eastern Europe to repair damaged Ley Lines and other Geomantic phenomena.  As a result of the long Russian influence, Eastern Europe is much more open to Earth Energies than Western Europe and its spawn.  A meditation Marko suggests…

http://www.markopogacnik.com/?p=1815

“TREASURE WITHIN

“From the ethical point of view the way how people in general treat each other nowadays – and also beings of nature – can not be accepted any more.  But it seems impossible to change the situation by intensifying the legal control.  What would certainly help is the possibility that human beings would remember their deeper identity and the reason why Gaia, the Earth, has invited humanity to join her evolution.

“The matrix of our cosmic identity is the great treasure that we, human beings carry within ourselves.

“The purpose of the following meditation is to find the place where the jewel of human identity is stored within our multidimensional being.  Secondly it needs to radiate into the world the need of the moment: to bring the true human identity into expression in the daily life.

  • “Imagine that your breast bone is the trunk of the inner tree of life.  Our creative capacities, our consciousness and hands represent its crown.
  • “The tree of life develops its roots at the lower end point of the breast bone.
  • “There, among the roots of the tree of life you should search for the greatest treasure that we carry within ourselves.  You can imagine it as a jewel with many facets – the cosmic matrix of the human being.
  • “It is given to each human being before stepping upon the path of incarnation.  But unfortunately it gets mostly forgotten after landing upon the Earth.
  • “And after you have found the great jewel among the roots of the tree of life, lift it to the level of your heart and let it radiate into the world to help fellow human beings to awake and to reconnect with the matrix that each one of us carries within.”

Here’s another quote from Marko, describing a talk he’ll be giving in the Western US on 2 July 2020…

http://www.fairycongress.com/marko-pogacnik-comes-to-washington-state/

CLIMATE CHANGES AS OPPORTUNITY FOR THE EVOLUTION OF THE EARTH AND THE HUMAN CULTURE

“Deep changes that our planet is going through are often presented as approaching horror.  Such a negative image is the result of human loss of the inner connection to the Earth and its consciousness. 

“The author presents his experiences while working with treasures and traumas of Earth’s landscapes and urban ambiences showing that Gaia is consciously decomposing the extremely closed space of reality constructed during the last 5 millennia under the rule of the dominating rationality. 

“At the same time, Gaia as guiding creative force of the planet is constructing a different space of reality which is multidimensional.  It stands for the future of the planet and also of the human culture.

Here’s what I consider to be a very Important contribution from Camilla Blossom Bishop…

https://camillablossom.com/2020/01/28/are-you-nature-conscious/

“Are You Nature Conscious?

“Intentions are great to have when working with nature and land.  Yet, that is not enough.  You need consent.

“When you ask permission, or consent, from the land spirits and invisible beings of nature, you will know that your intentions are not just yours but are welcomed by the beings that live there.

“I call this nature consciousness.  Nature consciousness flourishes when you are attuned to nature when making decisions, and when you are open to invitations to co-create with nature and the spirits of place.

“I first became aware of this issue when I felt land being ‘used’ as a backdrop or location to host events.  The land spirits and ancestors that lived there did not always seem very keen to participate in these events.  At times, I sensed that the land did not want an event to happen at all.  The event was disruptive to the place.

“Or, worse yet, were events that happened without permission and the people hosting it never cleaned up their energy afterwards—emotional, mental, spiritual, and such.  This energetic debris congested the land and created heaviness among the elementals and nature spirits.  The land spirits felt affected by stagnation, lack of respect, confusion, and in extreme cases violence.

“When the land and its spirits are considered as an integral part of the event, the event is showered with beautiful energy of the fairies, nature spirits, elementals, ancestral spirits of land.

“Be nature conscious with all your land decisions…

“Do the land spirits want your upcoming event held on the property?

“Is there a specific area that is best for an event and an area that needs rest?

“Is this the optimal garden location according to the fairies and nature spirits?

“So, if you want to host an event, offer healing treatments, or change something in the landscape, build a house, make sure you ask permission from the land spirits so you will create the optimal situation for everyone.  Check in well before you want to make plans.

“Make sure you are acting from a place of nature consciousness – in alignment with your land and nature.  Your land spirits will thank you in many unexpected ways including bringing harmony, peace, and love to all your events.”

And it’s not just “Nature” that’s a Conscious Partner in everything we do.  In France they have a philosophy called Resistentialism, which deals with that they refer to as the “Innate Perversion of Inanimate Objects.”  The philosophy is proven by dropping a piece of toast covered with peanut butter and jam, and observing that when dropped on linoleum or tile, it always lands face up.  But when dropped on carpet, it always lands jam down.

However, there is no such thing as an “Inanimate Object.”  There is only an “Unconscious Observer” who fails to Notice that All Objects and Energies are Conscious, and need to be Addressed as such.  Seek Consent from your toast, your jam, and your floor, and the formerly “Inanimate” Spirits may “thank you in many unexpected ways including bringing harmony, peace, and love to all your events.”

And a Teaching on Duality from Neale Donald Walsch, forwarded by a reader…

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“In just a few days… people in many countries will be celebrating Valentine’s Day by giving… gifts as an open declaration of their love for another.

“And there is something wonderful about this day in our still-just-emerging new year of 2020: we are seeing more love than ever before shared more openly than ever before by members of our species.

“We are also seeing more alienation than ever before, expressed more openly than ever before.  Yet this need not be a cause for discouragement.  It can, in fact, be a sign that we are at last ready for what could be humanity’s greatest celebration: a quantum leap into our long-predicted thousand years of peace.

“What we are seeing in these days and times is consistent with what is called, in the published dialogues of Conversations with God, the ‘Law of Opposites.’

“This law states that the moment you declare yourself to be anything, everything unlike it will come into the space of your awareness.  That is because the collective consciousness of all sentient beings works systematically to create a Contextual Field within which that which they choose to Be may become manifest in their experience.

“Put simply, if they wish to know themselves experientially as being ‘warm,’ that which is called ‘cold’ must exist.

“If they wish to know themselves experientially as being ‘big,’ that which is called ‘small’ must exist.

“What they are not must exist in their awareness if they wish to experience what they choose to be.  You can (to use an example) choose to be ‘the light,’ but you cannot experience that choice in the complete absence of the darkness.

“I have gone into a bit of detail about this now so that we can know that discouragement over some of what is going on in the world right today can rightly be replaced by Encouragement, as we recognize exactly what is happening.

“We are seeing a precise demonstration of the Law of Opposites, and that tells us that we are on the right track as our species advances in its evolution.

“The important thing now is to remain conscious of the role we can play in moving this process forward.  There is no question that these days and time are among the most meaningful in human history, because we are transforming, right now, into the grandest version of the greatest vision ever we held about Who We Are.

“It is, as my dear friend Barbara Marx Hubbard always reminded us, a birthing process, and as such it sometimes can be painful.

“What I am seeing all around me now is a growing awareness of all of this among people everywhere.  Our collective consciousness is expanding at an astonishing rate, and we are beginning to rise up in the face of ‘the opposite’ of what we have chosen to be, and lovingly encouraging a change of course for humanity.

Conversations with God Book 4: Awaken the Species placed before us a powerful invitation to do just that, together with a set of very practical tools to help us.

“Among these tools was a remarkable list of the differences in the behaviors of an awakened species when compared to the behaviors of humans living in an unawakened state, so that we could have a measure to see how we are doing.

“I’m excited to tell you that I am seeing more and more people stepping into these behaviors every day – no doubt in response to the Law of Opposites.

“Here is that list, taken right from the CWG text, to remind and re-energize those of us who have already seen it, and to inspire those who are seeing it for the first time:

“1. An awakened species sees the Unity of All Life and lives into it.  Humans in an unawakened state often deny it or ignore it.

“2. An awakened species tells the truth, always.  Humans in an unawakened state too often lie, to themselves as well as others.

“3. An awakened species says one thing and will do what they say.  Humans in an unawakened state often say one thing and do another.

“4. An awakened species, having seen and acknowledged what is so, will always do what works.  Humans in an unawakened state often do the opposite.

“5. An awakened species does not embrace a principle in its civilization that correlates with the concepts that humans refer to as ‘justice’ and ‘punishment.’

“6. An awakened species does not embrace a principle in its civilization that correlates with the concept that humans refer to as ‘insufficiency.’

“7. An awakened species does not embrace a principle in its civilization that correlates with the concept that humans refer to as ‘ownership.’

“8. An awakened species shares everything with everyone all the time.  Humans in an unawakened state often do not, only sharing with others in limited circumstances.

“9. An awakened species creates a balance between technology and cosmology; between machines and nature.  Humans in an unawakened state often do not.

“10. An awakened species would never under any circumstances terminate the current physical expression of another sentient being unless asked directly by that other being to do so.  Humans in an unawakened state often kill other humans without that other human requesting them to.

“11. An awakened species would never do anything that could potentially damage or harm the physical environment that supports the members of the species when they are physicalized.  Humans in an unawakened state often do so.

“12. An awakened species never poisons itself.  Humans in an unawakened state often do so.

“13. An awakened species never competes.  Humans in an unawakened state are often in competition with each other.

“14. An awakened species is clear that it needs nothing.  Humans in an unawakened state often create a need-based experience.

“15. An awakened species experiences and expresses unconditional love for everyone.  Humans in an unawakened state often cannot imagine even a Deity who does this, much less do they do it themselves.

“16. An awakened species has harnessed the power of metaphysics.  Humans in an unawakened state often largely ignore it.

“This is a great checklist, and as we approach this Valentine’s Day, I see people everywhere working to integrate those ideas into the life, placing before humanity not only more and more love, but a whole new cultural story, and sending us in fresh and uplifting directions in relationships, work, marriage, culture, education, parenting, and every area of human endeavor.

“So be not discouraged as the Law of Opposites plays itself out in wonderfully positive ways. It surely will, as you and others like you continue to take the lead in producing that outcome.

“And if you do get a tiny bit dismayed here and there, remember this invitation from Conversations with God:

“Raise not your fist to heaven and curse the darkness not, but be a light unTO the darkness, that you might know who you really are.  Let your light so shine before men, that all those whose lives you touch may know who they really are as well.—

Sounds like 5D, don’t it.

2019 Q4 and 2020 Q1 Stations

October 16, 2019

Ontario.

Now that we have a “week off” more or less, let’s look at the remainder of 2019 and the first quarter of 2020.  We’ll use several “shorthand” abbreviations or symbols…

  • Â.Mickie stands for asteroid Mickie
  • Ð.Goofy stands for dwarf planet Goofy
  • Š/ stands for Station, when a planet’s Energy is especially Strong
  • Î stands for Initiation of a New Cycle between two planets

Below we list only the Stations (plus one major Initiation), or the times when a planet’s Energy is Strongest and most Distinct or Identifiable.  When there are several planets Stationary at the same time, though, it will likely be hard to Distinguish the Separate Influence of each planet, because their Energies will be Merged.  When two planets are Stationary at the same time, it’s as if they’re Conjunct.

In general, we Experience the Energy of a Station before it happens, as the Energy Intensifies until it is “Complete” (the planet starts moving in the other Direction), and then it drops off rapidly.  In cases where we aren’t Neutral to the Energy, we may make Decisions about it, and those Decisions (Orcus) will carry the Energy over into the time following the Station, possibly even eventually Creating new Karma.

For instance, the Energy of asteroid Moira is about Fate and Choice – Fate in situations where our Karma is still Unconscious…

Someone else is doing something to me

and Choice in situations where we’ve brought the Karma into Consciousness…

Oh!  I’m really not Experiencing what they seem to be Doing, I’m Experiencing my own lifelong Habitual Reaction to it!  They don’t even know I’m here!

Once we’re Conscious, we can Choose to Respond Constructively, rather than Reacting from our Victimhood.

So if we’re Insulted or Angered by something someone Says or Does, and we don’t Realize that it’s our Button that’s been pushed, we might Decide that this person is not “on our side,” and make them (or worse, people like that) a Lifelong Enemy.  And if we stay in 3D (which is likely if we haven’t Cleared our Karma), we’re likely to continue the same Conflict into Other Lifetimes.  You can tie up all Deviations from Whirled Peas and all of World History in this simple wrapper, and there won’t be much left to Clean Up.

On the other hand, we might Feel Insulted or Angry, but if we Recognize that it’s our Feeling, we may Choose to Agree to Disagree, or even move to a different Meeting, but we won’t make it into a Capital Offense.

Rose Quartz.

There are a number of ways to guess how soon we’ll begin to Experience a Station before it’s Complete, but a useful rule of thumb is…

  • A week for the four outer planets, asteroid Bee-Zed, and the dwarf planets except dwarf planet Ceres (that is, everyone with orbits longer than ten years)
  • Several days for the three inner planets, the asteroids, and dwarf planet Ceres (orbits between one and ten years)
  • Since “Tropical” astrology (the kind we use) sees events from the Perspective of Earth, neither Earth nor Sun nor Moon are ever Stationary

We might also begin to Experience the Energy of the next Station as soon as the current Station is Complete.  Our General Sensitivity is obviously relevant.  And if a Station occurs on one of our natal planets, we’ll React more Strongly and probably sooner.

If we want an Astrological Rule rather than Empirical Guidance, the usual Sensitivity projects that the Impact begins when the Stationing planet is less than one Degree from its Exact Station.  However, some of the newer dwarf planets (such as Sedna) move less than one Degree in a year, which would mean they’re Always Stationary.  And yes, we can certainly interpret that to mean that Fear is Omnipresent, as was common Before the Current Era (ie, BCE or BC)!  If we’re in the Habit of Converting Fear to Power (with Kegels for instance), then this is a Powerful interpretation!

But using lengthy Stations can give us so much overlap that we’re never sure what’s happening.

Asteroids usually take about four days to move one Degree, but when they’re slowing down to Stop and Turn Around, they’ll be much slower.  For instance, rather than 23-26 October for the first Klotho Station, you might look at 11-26 October (the one-Degree range) instead, and Pay a lot more Attention if you have a natal planet near the Ides of Gemini.

Bottom Line, feel free to start my date ranges sooner.  But if you’re still Experiencing Strong Energy after the Station, in order to Avoid accumulating new Karma you want to look over the last several days to see if you’ve made any Decisions based on your Discomfort with the Energy of the Station.  If so, Own your Discomfort and Revert your Decisions.

Initiations are Conjunctions, and Conjunctions act like Stations in that we Experience the Energy increasing in Strength as the Exact Conjunction approaches, then it drops off rapidly, assuming we’ve Captured the available Learning to keep, and not the Energy.  Again, we want to Pay Attention to Discomfort before the Initiation, and Work on Ourself to Own and Revert if necessary after the Initiation.  What we Learn from any astroevent is ours to keep.  They’re all Teachers.

Initiations Differ from Conjunctions, however, in that they also Begin a new Cycle, and the Energy that’s Born at the Initiation – including your Reactions to and Learnings from the Initiation – will Endure on some level for the entire Cycle, whether the Cycle is Initiated by a New Moon (28 days) or by Saturn and Pluto (30-some years).

We’ve added a few words of preliminary interpretation, but of course the actual interpretation will flow from a chart drawn for the Station, which we don’t normally do till we’re getting close to the event.  The preliminary interpretation will probably hang True, but it may not be The Most Important interpretation.

The short interpretations below are Dimensions, not Directions. The Direction is up to us.  For instance, in the first few days of November Our Perspective on our Vitality may Improve or Decline.  If the latter, it’s Identifying Karma for us to Let Go Of.  If we Allow our Victimhood to Reinforce the Decline, we Lose.  If we Notice the Decline and Realize that we have the Power to Heal (Tapping, Poor-Sweethearting, PIAVAing, Plan-Executing, Invoking the Unseen Therapist, et al), we Win.

If Our Perspective on our Vitality Improves, Gratitude is Relevant.  You don’t want to use the Improvement to pad your Ego – it’s not your Ego that Heals, though it can certainly Catalyze Healing, and increasing Self-Love is always Valuable, but not for Cause.  If Self-Love depends on Cause, it will never become Unconditional.  Self-Love is the Natural Condition we Strive to Return to, and we can certainly Congratulate ourself for Work Well Done when we step in that Direction.  But it’s Grace that Heals, and to Welcome and Encourage Grace, lift out the “c” and drop in a “titud,” then give it plenty of Exercise.

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23-26 October – New Beginnings (Š/Â.Klotho 15 Gemini)

30 October-4 November – Our Perspective on our Vitality (Š/Mercury 28 Scorpio; Š/Ð.Varuna 4 Leo)

31 October-3 November – Obsolete Habits (Š/Â.Karma 20 Pisces)

16-22 November – Ending Emotional Flashbacks (Š/Ð.OR10 4 Pisces; Š/Ð.Nessus 9 Pisces; Š/Â.Atropos 7 Aries; Š/Mercury 12 Scorpio)

23-27 November – Confusion and Bliss (Š/Neptune 16 Pisces)

7-15 December – Sidestepping Bummers (Š/Ð.Orcus 13 Virgo; Š/Chiron 2 Aries; Š/Â.Lachesis 21 Leo)

26-29 December – Unconscious Beliefs (Š/Â.Vesta 13 Taurus)

30 December-6 January – New Creations (Š/Ð.Makemake 7 Libra; Š/Â.Klotho 5 Gemini)

6-12 January – Opening to Soul (Š/Ð.Eris 24 Aries; Š/Uranus 3 Taurus; Pluto Î Saturn)

13-17 January – Ego Death (Š/Â.Nemesis 27 Virgo)

20-26 January – Rebirth (Š/Ð.Haumea 28 Libra)

2-8 February – Mastering Fear (Š/Â.Sappho 16 Libra; Š/Â.Juno 22 Libra; Š/Ð.Sedna 27 Taurus)

16-17 February – Emotional Intelligence (Š/Mercury 13 Pisces).

25 February-1 March – Intuition Breakthrough (Š/Â.Bee-Zed 28 Sagittarius; Š/Ð.Asbolus 20 Gemini)

1-6 March – New Horizons (Š/Ð.Chaos 25 Gemini)

9-10 March – Social Intelligence (Š/Mercury 29 Aquarius).

19-25 March – Claiming Our Power (Š/Â.Moira 20 Scorpio; Š/Â.Lachesis 8 Leo)

25 March-3 April – Survival Breakthrough (Š/Ð.Ixion 1 Capricorn; Š/Ð.Pholus 5 Capricorn; Š/Ð.Quaoar 5 Capricorn)

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We aren’t adding the Moons and Sign Changes to this list, because they have different orientations in Time, and they would just make the list overlong.  The above are what we regard as The Most Important astroevents of the next six months.  We’ll table the Moons and Sign Changes separately, and maybe add the Out-of-Bounds periods, since the Moon starts going Out-of-Bounds in March for the first time in a decade.  Then if we get time, we can combine the lists to make a complete calendar.

Karma Repair 2

May 17, 2019

Not a lot happening with the 18 May (2pm PDT) Full Moon, except that it could make a big dent in our Fear of Opening Up to the Truth about our Hidden Forbidden Unique Genius, the one that will Singlehandedly Save the Planet, along with all the other Single Hands that this Full Moon will help Liberate from their Fear of Opening Up to the Truth about their Forbidden Genies.  Our Hidden Forbidden Unique Genius is the missing piece in the Jigsaw Puzzle that is our 5D Future, and so is Everyone Else’s.

Which is to say that the symbol for Endings (asteroid Atropos) Resolves (Trine Bridges) the Full Moon that prominently features the symbol for Converting Fear to Power (dwarf planet Sedna stands behind the Sun) and is Supported by (Finger of God-ed by) the symbol for our Forbidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion) and the Merged (Conjoined) symbols for Rebirth and Truth (dwarf planet Haumea and asteroid Veritas)…

All in all an excellent chart, if we Remember our Kegels.

This Full Moon though is greatly overshadowed by the 19 May Merging of the symbol for The Most Important Thing (Planet) and the symbol for our Karma (the Mean South Node).  If you feel like you’re Sitting Pretty, look behind you.  There’s something lurking there that may not be Negative, but will Certainly help you Clean Up your Current Lifetime.  Remember what Alan Watts said back in the 1950s – it’s a lot harder to Let Go of our Good Karma than it is to Let Go of our Bad Karma.

Because we’re so fond of Patting ourselves on the Back for our Good Karma.  But we’ll be a lot more Effective at Changing the World if we’re Neutral.  Self-Love ain’t Positive Self-Judgment.  Self-Love is Unconditional, no Judgment involved.  The Demon lurking behind you could be Pride.

And of course it could also be all manner of Self-Sabotaging Habits, the kind we usually think of as Karma and Blame on “the Universe,” or Mom, forgetting that All of our Habits are Choices we’ve made in the past.  Is this a Free-Will Universe or not?  Free Will cuts both ways.  Of course we don’t Remember making that Choice, it was a hundred Past Lives ago.  Or a Parallel in a Galaxy far far away.

But as Seth put it so Clearly in The Nature of Personal Reality, our Karma is actually Obvious – it’s writ large in our Personal History in our Current Lifetime.  What in your Personal History do you not claim as your own Choice?  Those are the places where you’re Betraying your own Soul.  Of course your Current Ego didn’t make that Choice, because if you think of “You” as your Current Ego, you’re missing 99% of your Life.

If there’s anything in our Personal History, Good or Bad, that we don’t claim as our own Choice, whose Choice was it?  It was part of our Soul Self that our Current Ego doesn’t include.  We need to do some Ego Yoga.  It’s not as hard as it sounds.  Our Ego’s in it for Pleasure; our Soul’s in it for Experience, including Experiences that will – and have – Terrified or Horrified our Ego.

This is what a Free-Will Universe means.  If you aren’t in a Free-Will Universe, you’re just another automaton on the treadmill, where everything happens to you, and you have little or no Control.  That might be Liberating, since what you do won’t matter.  You may as well Take whatever Pleases you.  But can you even Conceive of a Universe without Cause and Effect?  That’s pretty Deep Programming.  Easier to Conceive of a Universe where we don’t have enough Information to sleuth out Cause and Effect.  And more Honest.

Let’s look at the Saturn-South Node chart tomorrow.  That’ll give you time to see what’s behind you.

Geomagnetic Jerks

May 2, 2019

Are you a Geomagnetic Jerk?  Am I?  If we are, with the Poles threatening to Reverse at any time, we need to clean up our act!

Just kidding, but I couldn’t help Reacting to the title of today’s Spaceweather.com post called The Mystery of Geomagnetic Jerks, http://spaceweather.com/archive.php?view=1&day=02&month=05&year=2019 and wondering just who these Jerks are that are messing with our Magnetic Field, which is an essential shield against Solar Storms.  Our Magnetic Field gives us Auroras, instead of setting our hair on fire!

Ah, another Insight into Discrimination Bias, another Mirror for Self-Hate.  Turns out that “Jerk” is a scienterrific technical term for an abrupt change in direction or rate of acceleration – like Restless Legs – which Jerks are what’s been happening as the North Pole scurries toward Siberia.  If you’ve been following these scurryings, you may appreciate the Spaceweather article.

Here’s an example of the free Livestreaming of the Global Earth Repair Conference, this presentation on Allying with Non-Human Intelligence for Ecosystem Restoration, at 1:45pm PDT on 3 May…

https://earthrepair.friendsofthetrees.net/2019/04/21/allying-with-non-humans-for-ecosystem-restoration/

From there, there are links to other sessions.  The Conference met their $10,000 fundraising goal this last week, enabling them to support the Livestreaming.  I believe their Intended next step is to raise $20,000 more (https://www.paypal.com/donate/?token=9VwX5Sx1D8Ls2f9TDYHnpUQeywxtgZNvH7VwxEaP7ermkCKbE4XAZg8YfHzqh4n-IxqcXG&country.x=US&locale.x=EN_US) to support putting recordings of the 160+ sessions on the internet for free World-wide access, for as long as it takes.

Meanwhile, Dan Scranton’s Arcturian Channeling for today talks about Allying with Non-Human Intelligence for Guidance about Moving Toward 5D – same thing, really…

https://danielscranton.com/the-signs-are-increasing-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/

“It is a wonderful time for all of you to start paying more attention to the signs that you are getting all around you.  We see so many humans missing out on the signs and the signals, and the little nudges that you receive.  And so, we want you to start paying more attention to all of the various ways in which the universe and your guides are speaking to you.  You often want to hear from them, but you only want to hear from them in the way that you are accustomed to receiving messages.  And yet they are speaking to you in a variety of ways.

“Now, you have even more friends and well-wishers among you there on Earth, like the cats, for example, and all of the other animals.  But we are talking specifically about your non-physical friends who are giving you these signs to nudge you in a particular direction, or to let you know that you are right on track.  Sometimes it’s a subtle suggestion that will come to you three times from three different people, and you will wonder how that is possible.  Well, everything is possible, and this is highly probable.

“We can say that because we already see it happening all the time, and we see so many people missing the signs because they want to hear a little voice in their heads, or they want to see a guide appear in front of them.  But you are there now to work with the energies in a more subtle way so that you can master the different vibrations that you have available to you.

“So do look for what is subtle and what is unexpected, and certainly look for what is unexplained, for they are all bits and pieces of the guidance you are receiving every day, and you just need to tune yourselves to a bit more of a sensitive setting, instead of expecting to be hit over the head with something.  You then will follow that guidance that you get from all of these lovely beings, and you will see the positive results.  And then, because of those positive results, you will be more likely in the future to pick up on the signs you are receiving all the time.”

Ancestors Full Moon 3 (Boundaries VII)

February 18, 2019

A reader asks…

“Now how to come upon that ego death, what is that – and what does that look like?  I know it’s in the ‘literature’; the fine print!  And am I reading between the lines, perhaps, that seem to be about moving up and beyond karmic entanglement?  …it feels so weighted now.”

Yes, I realized last night that I should say more about Ego Death, but I’d already written so much that I didn’t want to stretch it out more.  So I appreciate the Question.

And yes, Ego Death is “in the literature,” at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/identity/ego-death/.  The essence is Noticing that you’re feeling like “I’d rather die than go through that again,” and a key to becoming Adept with this “ED” is to reframe the Experience from “I’d rather Die than…” to “I would rather die than…”  Making that a PIAVA would also be a boon.  There’s much more “in the literature,” for instance, when you get lost in your own ‘hood or can’t remember your own phone number, those are signs that you’re Newly Reborn.

Ego Death is a Psychological Molt that needs to occur whenever we feel Overwhelmed and Recognize that we have to Change something in order to Enjoy going on with our Life, but we also feel Trapped by our Commitments (or lack thereof if we’re Feeling Isolated) and don’t know what we even can Change.  Making our Ego Death a PIAVA Surrenders all that Change mishmash about What and Why and How and Who to our Intuition, which Knows well What needs to be Changed, and How to do it.

We might PIAVA an Ego Death with something like “I Wonder what I need to be Happy” or “Great Spirit, Please Make My Life Enjoyable (Again)” or Asking yourself “What Do I Really Want?” and then spending some time with the Feeling you would have in your Body if you had the Luxury of Allowing Yourself to Receive Exactly That.  And certainly “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel at your Wit’s End, don’t you” or “… you feel Anxious, don’t you” would be a quick way to Change the wallpaper.  Of course you’d Change the Subject after each PIAVA.

Folks say that all this “New Agey” stuff is just another excuse for putting off the Action that we need to take, but I differ adamantly about that.  Taking Action from our Dynamic Planning-Doing mindset Changes nothing, as our Inner Male can only perpetuate His Limitations.  We have to Appeal to our Inner Female to Change anything.  She Knows what must be done, and She Knows how to Motivate your Inner Male to Enjoy getting to Work when it’s Time and when it’s Right.

The whole idea behind PIAVA is that, sometime after you Change the Subject, you Wake Up and Notice that You Are Doing What It Takes to Solve the Problem, without even Noticing that you’re Doing it, because once you Changed the Subject you Changed your Perspective, and now the World is running on a whole New engine and transmission, and the words you used to use to describe your Frustration (if you even remember them, which often you won’t) aren’t even Relevant anymore.

Your Inner Lady IS your Heart, She Knows What You Want Intimately, and She Knows How to Get It, because She Knows the World Intuitively.  Your “Head” (really we’re talking about the Third Chakra, not the Sixth, so “Head” is a misnomer – your Inner Male comes out of your Solar Plexus) only Knows What You Think, and you’re Thinking that What You Want is Unreachable, and since He only Knows the World Empirically, He can only Act to Keep On Doing What He’s Been Doing, which Aint Working, or you wouldn’t be in need of an Ego Death.

And yes, Karma has been Dead for a long time now, except for our own Grasping of it.  As for the Weight,

there’s probably an Ego Death in there, and probably a Held Emotion (aka Karmic PTSD).  The quickest way to find out is to make yourself Comfortable, Locate the Heaviness in your Body, Warm It, Soften around It (Fear is Hard and Cold, Love is Soft and Warm), put your Full Attention into the Center of It, and Hold It there until the Heaviness Moves. Then Change the Subject.

Of course it will help to Give your Inner Child Permission to Blubber unashamedly and uncontrollably, and to Complain to friends – but only those who will understand that your Intention is to Let Go rather than to Bitch (a la RC – see https://www.rc.org/) or to Accuse anyone of anything.

By the way, do you know how to Complain without putting the load right on your Listeners?  You speak in I statements rather than You or They Statements, and you use Feeling verbs rather than Thinking verbs (“Feel Like” is a Thinking verb – a Feeling verb is always followed by an Emotion word such as Angry or Excited or Bummed).  This way your Listeners can Enjoy your Story, and to the extent they’re able, Empathize, without having to Take Responsibility for your Process.  If you want to study how to do this, see https://www.cnvc.org/.

Self-Judgment and Self-Love VII

January 22, 2019

The direct impact of the 20 January Sappho Station (Self-Love) began fading as soon as the Station was Exact, shortly after 9pm PST.  However, the impact of New and Full Moons (and Eclipses) Increase for several weeks after the fact, including the impact of the 20 January Life-Force (Varuna) Total Lunar Eclipse, which was Exact shortly after 9pm PST.  Now, if you recognize that these two times are the same, you’ll probably Intuit that the impact of the Self-Love Sappho Station will also be Increasing, since it was actually a Self-Love Life-Force Total Lunar Eclipse.

So we may not be done Confronting our Impediments to Self-Love, ie, our Self-Judgments.  The sooner you Notice and Banish (Poor-Sweetheart them or Tap them Out) your Self-Judgments, the sooner you can Bask in your Self-Appreciation.  It’s not a one-time thing – each time you Let Go of your Self-Judgments instead of Indulging them, you build a Habit that’s Foundational for Creating What You Want.

If you travel in the company of folks who like to Judge you, and who can’t Abide your Appreciating yourself, you’ll need to find a Strategy to get yourself out from under their influence.  The first step would probably be to tell them to Stop, though it would probably be a Miracle if that worked.  The second step would then to get them out of your Life, though that’s not always possible.  One of the most constructive things you can do (because it Develops a Habit that will serve you all your Life and beyond), is to Mirror them.

Unless they’re both Psychic and Sadistic (some folks are, alas), they have no control over what you do with your Thoughts and Visualizations.  First you need to Ground yourself well – imagine a cable connecting the base of your spine to the center of the Earth.  It’s a good idea to Practice that when you’re alone, without the Stress of having to relate to a Sadist.  That’ll make it easier to do when you’re in the thick of it.

Then Visualize holding an imaginary wardrobe Mirror between you, facing them.  That will send their Negative Vibes right back to them.  You can also Practice this while you’re alone.  You can certainly feel their Negative Vibes when you’re alone, bouncing from wall to wall in your Skull.  Watch what happens to those Noises when you hold up your Mirror.  You’ll need the Practice, because the first few times it won’t be easy to focus on holding the Mirror, while they’re haranguing you.

Another thing you can do in between your Sessions with your Tormentor, is to Ask yourself, Who does this person remind me of?   It probably won’t be the first person in your Young Life to Abuse you verbally.  Practice Mirroring that other person too.  They’re still very much Alive and Well in your mind, so use your Mirror to make yourself some Space that’s Safe for Self-Appreciation.  If their predecessor isn’t obvious, pick one from the movies.  The movies are full of Abusive Heroes – Hollywood thinks it’s really Cool to put other people down, Pilgrim.

Our tendency is to relive those movie Abuse Victim situations by imagining how we might put the Bully in their place, or find a priceless comeback, or just beat them senseless.  That’s not the right approach; you want their Abuse to bounce off your Mirror so you’re Teflon to their onslaught of garbage.

If you’re stuck in a position where it’s not at all Practical to get a Bully out of your Life, you can get them to Bully other people just by no longer Allowing them to Bully you.  They might escalate for a while, but soon they’ll get bored and look for more Satisfying Victims.  To make this work you’ll have to get Neutral – not Reacting or Responding in any way.  They’ll try to Shame you for that, but once you get the hang of it, your Mirror will Protect you.

The reason this is so important is that your Vulnerability is really an unrecognized Hole in your Aura.  Some Wannabe Puppet-Master in your Personal or Karmic history Manipulated you into Allowing them to Invade your Personal Space so they could reach in and make you Dance to their tune.  Probably someone who convinced you that what they were doing was called “Love.”  From the Energy Perspective that’s a Hole in your Aura.  Bullies see those Holes Unconsciously, and love to reach into them and Dance you.

Getting really good with your Mirror is the same thing as Filling in the Hole in your Aura, just seen through a different Metaphor.  If your Personal Space is Filled with your own Aura, no one can get in to Manipulate you.  If someone gets “under your skin,” it’s not that You are to Blame for it – it’s that You can Do Something to Stop it.  But you need to be the one to Commit to it.  It’ll take you some Effort and Persistence to build new Habits, but it won’t just Change Your Life, it’ll Change All of You Future Incarnations as well.

The Mythical Hylonome was so “hooked in” to her Lover that when he was killed, she killed herself with the same lance.  She was even more Codependent than Hera/Juno – at least Hera attacked her Rivals, not herself.  The dwarf planet Hylonome Danced with Saturn on 25 December 2018, when it Initiated a new Saturn-Hylonome Cycle at 11 Capricorn.  Capricorn 11 is about “A large group of Pheasant on a private estate” (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/12/08/wow-vi/).

The new Cycle has begun already, so the Energy is fading into the woodwork, but Saturn and Hylonome are still only two Degrees apart at the Full Self-Love Total Vitality Eclipse Moon, so the Energy hasn’t faded much.  The Saturn-Hylonome Cycle itself says that The Most Important Thing Is to Liberate Ourself from Codependence, and that’s one of the messages that the Eclipse brings.  Pheasants on a private estate aren’t free animals; they’re probably being kept to sell to hunters so they can Torture them as playthings.  The estate owner has his or her hand in their Auras.

So Learning to use a Mirror, and making it Habitual, isn’t just a trick to help us Experience more Self-Appreciation this week.  Once Initiations pass, a Cycle goes Underground for a while, while it gradually undermines the folks who are clinging to the old Cycle (the Bullies).  Once the faster planet (here Saturn) gets three Signs ahead of the slower planet, a Crisis erupts as the Intention of the Cycle bursts into the Open.  In this Cycle, that’ll be the middle of 2028.

The more you can Begin To and Persist At Filling the Hole in your own Aura now, the more likely you’ll find yourself Flying Free in 2028 instead of being Dinner for some Bully.  This whole business with the Antichrist Bullying Federal employees and elected officials in the US, is probably an excellent reflection of the Dance between Saturn-Hylonome and Sappho.  They were five Signs apart (Quincunx) at the Eclipse – that means our best Strategy is Curiosity.

Saturn and Hylonome were also Conjoined by Bee-Zed, which symbolizes Transcendence.  Transcending Codependence gives us an Opportunity to make our new Self-Sovereignty Habits Easier to Develop.  It’s part of the Mars T-Square that we discussed in Self-Love V (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/01/19/self-judgment-and-self-love-v/), the one that Recommends that we Choose to Act.  Acting to Fill the Hole in our own Aura is one of the best things we can do, because Filling our own Aura will make it Easier for everyone else on the Planet to Fill theirs.

Besides, wouldn’t it be great to eliminate Bullies in 2020 instead of waiting till 2028?  It’ll be a lot harder then than it is now.  Ms. May and M. Macron are in interesting pickles as well.  Ms. May seems to be simply lost in an Illusion of Power that she doesn’t have.  Perhaps the Ghost of the Empire has its hand in her Aura, or the Ghost of Ms. Thatcher.

Self-Judgment and Self-Love VI

January 20, 2019

Did we emphasize enough how we might Respond to encountering any Impediments to our Self-Love?  The Easiest would probably be Poor-Sweethearting.  All you have to do is say to yourself, silently or not, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Guilty, aren’t you.” for, e.g., Guilt.  You could plug in any other Self-Judgment, or a different verb, such as “Discouraged,” or even “you’d rather Die, wouldn’t you.”

But before we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, we may want to get Conscious of how we’re Identifying ourself.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’d rather Die, wouldn’t you” might be exactly what you need if you’re Identifying with Extricating yourself from a situation that has no other exits.  But we can make an intermediate step – Identifying with what we’re Feeling.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Hopelessness, aren’t you” Identifies that you’re dealing with an Emotion rather than hardcopy 3D Reality.

Emotions can be Crippling, we know that, but they aren’t the Whole Story.  There are always other Perspectives.  Just Acknowledging that we’re dealing with an Emotion, rather than a Complete Reality, Expands our Awareness because we can’t help but Realize now that there are other things in the Universe besides Emotion.  For many of us, our Emotions are our Bottom Line, but they aren’t Everything.  So doing your Poor-Sweetheart once again with Feeling is useful, but it’s not the real point of Poor-Sweethearting.

When you talk to yourself and address yourself as “You,” you Step Out of your former Identity.  When you talk to yourself Compassionately, you’re no longer Identifying with the Bummer you want to Leave Behind, you’re now Identifying with Compassion – you’re actually stepping into Self-Love.  As long as you aren’t saying it Sarcastically, by adding the Poor you also take a step toward Empathy.

Our Self-Talk and our Thoughts Reveal where our actual Identity sits in any given moment.  Becoming Aware that we’re Talking to Ourself and that we’re Thinking, is a major Expansion of Consciousness, especially if we can make it a Habit.  When we shift from “I’d rather Die” to “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair, aren’t you,” our Identity shifts first from Despair itself, to our Emotions.  We Create Miracles by taking the next step – we Change the Subject.

We’ve Poor-Sweethearted ourself, now we need to Step Aside so it can do its work.  If we continue to focus on Despair or Emotion after we’ve Poor-Sweethearted ourself, we aren’t using the Power inherent in it.  Think of a Bummer, even a tiny one, for a minute.  Then Poor-Sweetheart yourself about it, then look to see if your Mood or Vibration has shifted.  I always feel much Lighter afterward, and I suspect you will too.

Once we move our Attention away, the Magic can happen.  If we’re still thinking about the Bummer, nothing has Changed, and we may need to try another strategy, like Tapping.  Toggling back and forth from Poor-Sweethearting to Tapping, and back again, as many times as you need to, could be very Powerful.  Our Habitual Thoughts are Cages that stop us from entering the Dangerous (to the Ego) world of Growth.  Only by Changing the Subject can we allow the bars to re-form to Enclose a larger space.

A technical note: Feeling Like does not introduce an Emotion, it introduces a Thought.  The word Feeling must be followed by a word that indicates an Emotion, before you’re really dealing with Emotion.  If you’re Feeling Like Shit, you’re still in your Thoughts.  You’re Referring to neither your Emotions nor your Physical Body, but your Judgments about one or the other, or both.  Judgments are Thoughts.  Differentiating your Emotions from your Thoughts is a very Powerful Growth in Consciousness all by itself.

The chart of today’s (20 January 9:15 pm PST) 1 Leo Total Lunar Eclipse Vitality Full Moon, apart from the Grand Octile, is busy…

But if you look at the big blue triangle (Grand Trine, aka Dumb-Luck Blessings), you’ll notice that Chiron (it looks like a key) and Ceres (like an upside-down cuphook) are two of the three corners – Moon-Varuna-North Node (Instincts-Life Force-Mission) is the third.  Plus, by adding Sun-South Node-Karma-Atropos-Mercury (Essence-Held Emotions-Bad Habits-Endings-Awareness; it’s a story problem – make a sentence including all five of these concepts) we make a Kite (Directed Dumb-Luck Blessings).

So whatever else is going on here at the Sappho-Station Total-Lunar-Eclipse Vitality Full Moon, the route to making it all Effortless lies through Chiron (Despair, Miracles, Poor-Sweethearting) and Ceres (Sustainability) – making it a Lifetime Habit to Poor-Sweetheart yourself at the first sign of distress.  You aren’t Avoiding anything by Poor-Sweethearting it; you’re Stepping Out of the Way so your Heart (aka your Inner Female) can Love it to death without interference from the Limitations of your Present-Moment Ego.

Dr. Kim is on track with the Year of Self-Love as well – if like me you’re irritated by the constant movement of the camera, you may want to click to a blank tab so you can Listen without the distraction…

I wonder if it’d be easier to watch if I said to myself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Irritiated, aren’t you.”  Let me give it a try…  Yup, complete transformation!