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Karma Repair 2

May 17, 2019

Not a lot happening with the 18 May (2pm PDT) Full Moon, except that it could make a big dent in our Fear of Opening Up to the Truth about our Hidden Forbidden Unique Genius, the one that will Singlehandedly Save the Planet, along with all the other Single Hands that this Full Moon will help Liberate from their Fear of Opening Up to the Truth about their Forbidden Genies.  Our Hidden Forbidden Unique Genius is the missing piece in the Jigsaw Puzzle that is our 5D Future, and so is Everyone Else’s.

Which is to say that the symbol for Endings (asteroid Atropos) Resolves (Trine Bridges) the Full Moon that prominently features the symbol for Converting Fear to Power (dwarf planet Sedna stands behind the Sun) and is Supported by (Finger of God-ed by) the symbol for our Forbidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion) and the Merged (Conjoined) symbols for Rebirth and Truth (dwarf planet Haumea and asteroid Veritas)…

All in all an excellent chart, if we Remember our Kegels.

This Full Moon though is greatly overshadowed by the 19 May Merging of the symbol for The Most Important Thing (Planet) and the symbol for our Karma (the Mean South Node).  If you feel like you’re Sitting Pretty, look behind you.  There’s something lurking there that may not be Negative, but will Certainly help you Clean Up your Current Lifetime.  Remember what Alan Watts said back in the 1950s – it’s a lot harder to Let Go of our Good Karma than it is to Let Go of our Bad Karma.

Because we’re so fond of Patting ourselves on the Back for our Good Karma.  But we’ll be a lot more Effective at Changing the World if we’re Neutral.  Self-Love ain’t Positive Self-Judgment.  Self-Love is Unconditional, no Judgment involved.  The Demon lurking behind you could be Pride.

And of course it could also be all manner of Self-Sabotaging Habits, the kind we usually think of as Karma and Blame on “the Universe,” or Mom, forgetting that All of our Habits are Choices we’ve made in the past.  Is this a Free-Will Universe or not?  Free Will cuts both ways.  Of course we don’t Remember making that Choice, it was a hundred Past Lives ago.  Or a Parallel in a Galaxy far far away.

But as Seth put it so Clearly in The Nature of Personal Reality, our Karma is actually Obvious – it’s writ large in our Personal History in our Current Lifetime.  What in your Personal History do you not claim as your own Choice?  Those are the places where you’re Betraying your own Soul.  Of course your Current Ego didn’t make that Choice, because if you think of “You” as your Current Ego, you’re missing 99% of your Life.

If there’s anything in our Personal History, Good or Bad, that we don’t claim as our own Choice, whose Choice was it?  It was part of our Soul Self that our Current Ego doesn’t include.  We need to do some Ego Yoga.  It’s not as hard as it sounds.  Our Ego’s in it for Pleasure; our Soul’s in it for Experience, including Experiences that will – and have – Terrified or Horrified our Ego.

This is what a Free-Will Universe means.  If you aren’t in a Free-Will Universe, you’re just another automaton on the treadmill, where everything happens to you, and you have little or no Control.  That might be Liberating, since what you do won’t matter.  You may as well Take whatever Pleases you.  But can you even Conceive of a Universe without Cause and Effect?  That’s pretty Deep Programming.  Easier to Conceive of a Universe where we don’t have enough Information to sleuth out Cause and Effect.  And more Honest.

Let’s look at the Saturn-South Node chart tomorrow.  That’ll give you time to see what’s behind you.

Geomagnetic Jerks

May 2, 2019

Are you a Geomagnetic Jerk?  Am I?  If we are, with the Poles threatening to Reverse at any time, we need to clean up our act!

Just kidding, but I couldn’t help Reacting to the title of today’s Spaceweather.com post called The Mystery of Geomagnetic Jerks, http://spaceweather.com/archive.php?view=1&day=02&month=05&year=2019 and wondering just who these Jerks are that are messing with our Magnetic Field, which is an essential shield against Solar Storms.  Our Magnetic Field gives us Auroras, instead of setting our hair on fire!

Ah, another Insight into Discrimination Bias, another Mirror for Self-Hate.  Turns out that “Jerk” is a scienterrific technical term for an abrupt change in direction or rate of acceleration – like Restless Legs – which Jerks are what’s been happening as the North Pole scurries toward Siberia.  If you’ve been following these scurryings, you may appreciate the Spaceweather article.

Here’s an example of the free Livestreaming of the Global Earth Repair Conference, this presentation on Allying with Non-Human Intelligence for Ecosystem Restoration, at 1:45pm PDT on 3 May…

https://earthrepair.friendsofthetrees.net/2019/04/21/allying-with-non-humans-for-ecosystem-restoration/

From there, there are links to other sessions.  The Conference met their $10,000 fundraising goal this last week, enabling them to support the Livestreaming.  I believe their Intended next step is to raise $20,000 more (https://www.paypal.com/donate/?token=9VwX5Sx1D8Ls2f9TDYHnpUQeywxtgZNvH7VwxEaP7ermkCKbE4XAZg8YfHzqh4n-IxqcXG&country.x=US&locale.x=EN_US) to support putting recordings of the 160+ sessions on the internet for free World-wide access, for as long as it takes.

Meanwhile, Dan Scranton’s Arcturian Channeling for today talks about Allying with Non-Human Intelligence for Guidance about Moving Toward 5D – same thing, really…

https://danielscranton.com/the-signs-are-increasing-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/

“It is a wonderful time for all of you to start paying more attention to the signs that you are getting all around you.  We see so many humans missing out on the signs and the signals, and the little nudges that you receive.  And so, we want you to start paying more attention to all of the various ways in which the universe and your guides are speaking to you.  You often want to hear from them, but you only want to hear from them in the way that you are accustomed to receiving messages.  And yet they are speaking to you in a variety of ways.

“Now, you have even more friends and well-wishers among you there on Earth, like the cats, for example, and all of the other animals.  But we are talking specifically about your non-physical friends who are giving you these signs to nudge you in a particular direction, or to let you know that you are right on track.  Sometimes it’s a subtle suggestion that will come to you three times from three different people, and you will wonder how that is possible.  Well, everything is possible, and this is highly probable.

“We can say that because we already see it happening all the time, and we see so many people missing the signs because they want to hear a little voice in their heads, or they want to see a guide appear in front of them.  But you are there now to work with the energies in a more subtle way so that you can master the different vibrations that you have available to you.

“So do look for what is subtle and what is unexpected, and certainly look for what is unexplained, for they are all bits and pieces of the guidance you are receiving every day, and you just need to tune yourselves to a bit more of a sensitive setting, instead of expecting to be hit over the head with something.  You then will follow that guidance that you get from all of these lovely beings, and you will see the positive results.  And then, because of those positive results, you will be more likely in the future to pick up on the signs you are receiving all the time.”

Ancestors Full Moon 3 (Boundaries VII)

February 18, 2019

A reader asks…

“Now how to come upon that ego death, what is that – and what does that look like?  I know it’s in the ‘literature’; the fine print!  And am I reading between the lines, perhaps, that seem to be about moving up and beyond karmic entanglement?  …it feels so weighted now.”

Yes, I realized last night that I should say more about Ego Death, but I’d already written so much that I didn’t want to stretch it out more.  So I appreciate the Question.

And yes, Ego Death is “in the literature,” at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/identity/ego-death/.  The essence is Noticing that you’re feeling like “I’d rather die than go through that again,” and a key to becoming Adept with this “ED” is to reframe the Experience from “I’d rather Die than…” to “I would rather die than…”  Making that a PIAVA would also be a boon.  There’s much more “in the literature,” for instance, when you get lost in your own ‘hood or can’t remember your own phone number, those are signs that you’re Newly Reborn.

Ego Death is a Psychological Molt that needs to occur whenever we feel Overwhelmed and Recognize that we have to Change something in order to Enjoy going on with our Life, but we also feel Trapped by our Commitments (or lack thereof if we’re Feeling Isolated) and don’t know what we even can Change.  Making our Ego Death a PIAVA Surrenders all that Change mishmash about What and Why and How and Who to our Intuition, which Knows well What needs to be Changed, and How to do it.

We might PIAVA an Ego Death with something like “I Wonder what I need to be Happy” or “Great Spirit, Please Make My Life Enjoyable (Again)” or Asking yourself “What Do I Really Want?” and then spending some time with the Feeling you would have in your Body if you had the Luxury of Allowing Yourself to Receive Exactly That.  And certainly “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel at your Wit’s End, don’t you” or “… you feel Anxious, don’t you” would be a quick way to Change the wallpaper.  Of course you’d Change the Subject after each PIAVA.

Folks say that all this “New Agey” stuff is just another excuse for putting off the Action that we need to take, but I differ adamantly about that.  Taking Action from our Dynamic Planning-Doing mindset Changes nothing, as our Inner Male can only perpetuate His Limitations.  We have to Appeal to our Inner Female to Change anything.  She Knows what must be done, and She Knows how to Motivate your Inner Male to Enjoy getting to Work when it’s Time and when it’s Right.

The whole idea behind PIAVA is that, sometime after you Change the Subject, you Wake Up and Notice that You Are Doing What It Takes to Solve the Problem, without even Noticing that you’re Doing it, because once you Changed the Subject you Changed your Perspective, and now the World is running on a whole New engine and transmission, and the words you used to use to describe your Frustration (if you even remember them, which often you won’t) aren’t even Relevant anymore.

Your Inner Lady IS your Heart, She Knows What You Want Intimately, and She Knows How to Get It, because She Knows the World Intuitively.  Your “Head” (really we’re talking about the Third Chakra, not the Sixth, so “Head” is a misnomer – your Inner Male comes out of your Solar Plexus) only Knows What You Think, and you’re Thinking that What You Want is Unreachable, and since He only Knows the World Empirically, He can only Act to Keep On Doing What He’s Been Doing, which Aint Working, or you wouldn’t be in need of an Ego Death.

And yes, Karma has been Dead for a long time now, except for our own Grasping of it.  As for the Weight,

there’s probably an Ego Death in there, and probably a Held Emotion (aka Karmic PTSD).  The quickest way to find out is to make yourself Comfortable, Locate the Heaviness in your Body, Warm It, Soften around It (Fear is Hard and Cold, Love is Soft and Warm), put your Full Attention into the Center of It, and Hold It there until the Heaviness Moves. Then Change the Subject.

Of course it will help to Give your Inner Child Permission to Blubber unashamedly and uncontrollably, and to Complain to friends – but only those who will understand that your Intention is to Let Go rather than to Bitch (a la RC – see https://www.rc.org/) or to Accuse anyone of anything.

By the way, do you know how to Complain without putting the load right on your Listeners?  You speak in I statements rather than You or They Statements, and you use Feeling verbs rather than Thinking verbs (“Feel Like” is a Thinking verb – a Feeling verb is always followed by an Emotion word such as Angry or Excited or Bummed).  This way your Listeners can Enjoy your Story, and to the extent they’re able, Empathize, without having to Take Responsibility for your Process.  If you want to study how to do this, see https://www.cnvc.org/.

Self-Judgment and Self-Love VII

January 22, 2019

The direct impact of the 20 January Sappho Station (Self-Love) began fading as soon as the Station was Exact, shortly after 9pm PST.  However, the impact of New and Full Moons (and Eclipses) Increase for several weeks after the fact, including the impact of the 20 January Life-Force (Varuna) Total Lunar Eclipse, which was Exact shortly after 9pm PST.  Now, if you recognize that these two times are the same, you’ll probably Intuit that the impact of the Self-Love Sappho Station will also be Increasing, since it was actually a Self-Love Life-Force Total Lunar Eclipse.

So we may not be done Confronting our Impediments to Self-Love, ie, our Self-Judgments.  The sooner you Notice and Banish (Poor-Sweetheart them or Tap them Out) your Self-Judgments, the sooner you can Bask in your Self-Appreciation.  It’s not a one-time thing – each time you Let Go of your Self-Judgments instead of Indulging them, you build a Habit that’s Foundational for Creating What You Want.

If you travel in the company of folks who like to Judge you, and who can’t Abide your Appreciating yourself, you’ll need to find a Strategy to get yourself out from under their influence.  The first step would probably be to tell them to Stop, though it would probably be a Miracle if that worked.  The second step would then to get them out of your Life, though that’s not always possible.  One of the most constructive things you can do (because it Develops a Habit that will serve you all your Life and beyond), is to Mirror them.

Unless they’re both Psychic and Sadistic (some folks are, alas), they have no control over what you do with your Thoughts and Visualizations.  First you need to Ground yourself well – imagine a cable connecting the base of your spine to the center of the Earth.  It’s a good idea to Practice that when you’re alone, without the Stress of having to relate to a Sadist.  That’ll make it easier to do when you’re in the thick of it.

Then Visualize holding an imaginary wardrobe Mirror between you, facing them.  That will send their Negative Vibes right back to them.  You can also Practice this while you’re alone.  You can certainly feel their Negative Vibes when you’re alone, bouncing from wall to wall in your Skull.  Watch what happens to those Noises when you hold up your Mirror.  You’ll need the Practice, because the first few times it won’t be easy to focus on holding the Mirror, while they’re haranguing you.

Another thing you can do in between your Sessions with your Tormentor, is to Ask yourself, Who does this person remind me of?   It probably won’t be the first person in your Young Life to Abuse you verbally.  Practice Mirroring that other person too.  They’re still very much Alive and Well in your mind, so use your Mirror to make yourself some Space that’s Safe for Self-Appreciation.  If their predecessor isn’t obvious, pick one from the movies.  The movies are full of Abusive Heroes – Hollywood thinks it’s really Cool to put other people down, Pilgrim.

Our tendency is to relive those movie Abuse Victim situations by imagining how we might put the Bully in their place, or find a priceless comeback, or just beat them senseless.  That’s not the right approach; you want their Abuse to bounce off your Mirror so you’re Teflon to their onslaught of garbage.

If you’re stuck in a position where it’s not at all Practical to get a Bully out of your Life, you can get them to Bully other people just by no longer Allowing them to Bully you.  They might escalate for a while, but soon they’ll get bored and look for more Satisfying Victims.  To make this work you’ll have to get Neutral – not Reacting or Responding in any way.  They’ll try to Shame you for that, but once you get the hang of it, your Mirror will Protect you.

The reason this is so important is that your Vulnerability is really an unrecognized Hole in your Aura.  Some Wannabe Puppet-Master in your Personal or Karmic history Manipulated you into Allowing them to Invade your Personal Space so they could reach in and make you Dance to their tune.  Probably someone who convinced you that what they were doing was called “Love.”  From the Energy Perspective that’s a Hole in your Aura.  Bullies see those Holes Unconsciously, and love to reach into them and Dance you.

Getting really good with your Mirror is the same thing as Filling in the Hole in your Aura, just seen through a different Metaphor.  If your Personal Space is Filled with your own Aura, no one can get in to Manipulate you.  If someone gets “under your skin,” it’s not that You are to Blame for it – it’s that You can Do Something to Stop it.  But you need to be the one to Commit to it.  It’ll take you some Effort and Persistence to build new Habits, but it won’t just Change Your Life, it’ll Change All of You Future Incarnations as well.

The Mythical Hylonome was so “hooked in” to her Lover that when he was killed, she killed herself with the same lance.  She was even more Codependent than Hera/Juno – at least Hera attacked her Rivals, not herself.  The dwarf planet Hylonome Danced with Saturn on 25 December 2018, when it Initiated a new Saturn-Hylonome Cycle at 11 Capricorn.  Capricorn 11 is about “A large group of Pheasant on a private estate” (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/12/08/wow-vi/).

The new Cycle has begun already, so the Energy is fading into the woodwork, but Saturn and Hylonome are still only two Degrees apart at the Full Self-Love Total Vitality Eclipse Moon, so the Energy hasn’t faded much.  The Saturn-Hylonome Cycle itself says that The Most Important Thing Is to Liberate Ourself from Codependence, and that’s one of the messages that the Eclipse brings.  Pheasants on a private estate aren’t free animals; they’re probably being kept to sell to hunters so they can Torture them as playthings.  The estate owner has his or her hand in their Auras.

So Learning to use a Mirror, and making it Habitual, isn’t just a trick to help us Experience more Self-Appreciation this week.  Once Initiations pass, a Cycle goes Underground for a while, while it gradually undermines the folks who are clinging to the old Cycle (the Bullies).  Once the faster planet (here Saturn) gets three Signs ahead of the slower planet, a Crisis erupts as the Intention of the Cycle bursts into the Open.  In this Cycle, that’ll be the middle of 2028.

The more you can Begin To and Persist At Filling the Hole in your own Aura now, the more likely you’ll find yourself Flying Free in 2028 instead of being Dinner for some Bully.  This whole business with the Antichrist Bullying Federal employees and elected officials in the US, is probably an excellent reflection of the Dance between Saturn-Hylonome and Sappho.  They were five Signs apart (Quincunx) at the Eclipse – that means our best Strategy is Curiosity.

Saturn and Hylonome were also Conjoined by Bee-Zed, which symbolizes Transcendence.  Transcending Codependence gives us an Opportunity to make our new Self-Sovereignty Habits Easier to Develop.  It’s part of the Mars T-Square that we discussed in Self-Love V (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/01/19/self-judgment-and-self-love-v/), the one that Recommends that we Choose to Act.  Acting to Fill the Hole in our own Aura is one of the best things we can do, because Filling our own Aura will make it Easier for everyone else on the Planet to Fill theirs.

Besides, wouldn’t it be great to eliminate Bullies in 2020 instead of waiting till 2028?  It’ll be a lot harder then than it is now.  Ms. May and M. Macron are in interesting pickles as well.  Ms. May seems to be simply lost in an Illusion of Power that she doesn’t have.  Perhaps the Ghost of the Empire has its hand in her Aura, or the Ghost of Ms. Thatcher.

Self-Judgment and Self-Love VI

January 20, 2019

Did we emphasize enough how we might Respond to encountering any Impediments to our Self-Love?  The Easiest would probably be Poor-Sweethearting.  All you have to do is say to yourself, silently or not, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Guilty, aren’t you.” for, e.g., Guilt.  You could plug in any other Self-Judgment, or a different verb, such as “Discouraged,” or even “you’d rather Die, wouldn’t you.”

But before we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, we may want to get Conscious of how we’re Identifying ourself.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’d rather Die, wouldn’t you” might be exactly what you need if you’re Identifying with Extricating yourself from a situation that has no other exits.  But we can make an intermediate step – Identifying with what we’re Feeling.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Hopelessness, aren’t you” Identifies that you’re dealing with an Emotion rather than hardcopy 3D Reality.

Emotions can be Crippling, we know that, but they aren’t the Whole Story.  There are always other Perspectives.  Just Acknowledging that we’re dealing with an Emotion, rather than a Complete Reality, Expands our Awareness because we can’t help but Realize now that there are other things in the Universe besides Emotion.  For many of us, our Emotions are our Bottom Line, but they aren’t Everything.  So doing your Poor-Sweetheart once again with Feeling is useful, but it’s not the real point of Poor-Sweethearting.

When you talk to yourself and address yourself as “You,” you Step Out of your former Identity.  When you talk to yourself Compassionately, you’re no longer Identifying with the Bummer you want to Leave Behind, you’re now Identifying with Compassion – you’re actually stepping into Self-Love.  As long as you aren’t saying it Sarcastically, by adding the Poor you also take a step toward Empathy.

Our Self-Talk and our Thoughts Reveal where our actual Identity sits in any given moment.  Becoming Aware that we’re Talking to Ourself and that we’re Thinking, is a major Expansion of Consciousness, especially if we can make it a Habit.  When we shift from “I’d rather Die” to “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair, aren’t you,” our Identity shifts first from Despair itself, to our Emotions.  We Create Miracles by taking the next step – we Change the Subject.

We’ve Poor-Sweethearted ourself, now we need to Step Aside so it can do its work.  If we continue to focus on Despair or Emotion after we’ve Poor-Sweethearted ourself, we aren’t using the Power inherent in it.  Think of a Bummer, even a tiny one, for a minute.  Then Poor-Sweetheart yourself about it, then look to see if your Mood or Vibration has shifted.  I always feel much Lighter afterward, and I suspect you will too.

Once we move our Attention away, the Magic can happen.  If we’re still thinking about the Bummer, nothing has Changed, and we may need to try another strategy, like Tapping.  Toggling back and forth from Poor-Sweethearting to Tapping, and back again, as many times as you need to, could be very Powerful.  Our Habitual Thoughts are Cages that stop us from entering the Dangerous (to the Ego) world of Growth.  Only by Changing the Subject can we allow the bars to re-form to Enclose a larger space.

A technical note: Feeling Like does not introduce an Emotion, it introduces a Thought.  The word Feeling must be followed by a word that indicates an Emotion, before you’re really dealing with Emotion.  If you’re Feeling Like Shit, you’re still in your Thoughts.  You’re Referring to neither your Emotions nor your Physical Body, but your Judgments about one or the other, or both.  Judgments are Thoughts.  Differentiating your Emotions from your Thoughts is a very Powerful Growth in Consciousness all by itself.

The chart of today’s (20 January 9:15 pm PST) 1 Leo Total Lunar Eclipse Vitality Full Moon, apart from the Grand Octile, is busy…

But if you look at the big blue triangle (Grand Trine, aka Dumb-Luck Blessings), you’ll notice that Chiron (it looks like a key) and Ceres (like an upside-down cuphook) are two of the three corners – Moon-Varuna-North Node (Instincts-Life Force-Mission) is the third.  Plus, by adding Sun-South Node-Karma-Atropos-Mercury (Essence-Held Emotions-Bad Habits-Endings-Awareness; it’s a story problem – make a sentence including all five of these concepts) we make a Kite (Directed Dumb-Luck Blessings).

So whatever else is going on here at the Sappho-Station Total-Lunar-Eclipse Vitality Full Moon, the route to making it all Effortless lies through Chiron (Despair, Miracles, Poor-Sweethearting) and Ceres (Sustainability) – making it a Lifetime Habit to Poor-Sweetheart yourself at the first sign of distress.  You aren’t Avoiding anything by Poor-Sweethearting it; you’re Stepping Out of the Way so your Heart (aka your Inner Female) can Love it to death without interference from the Limitations of your Present-Moment Ego.

Dr. Kim is on track with the Year of Self-Love as well – if like me you’re irritated by the constant movement of the camera, you may want to click to a blank tab so you can Listen without the distraction…

I wonder if it’d be easier to watch if I said to myself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Irritiated, aren’t you.”  Let me give it a try…  Yup, complete transformation!

Self-Judgment and Self-Love V

January 19, 2019

If we temporarily de-emphasize the Grand Octile and just look at the same-Degree Angles to the Sappho Station…

…we can see that a Challenge around Action (Mars T-Square, the red triangle) pops out, and that Action is somehow an Easy Alternative (Trine Bridge, blue lines) to our Growing Pains (the Sappho-Jupiter Divide) and Spiritual Challenge (Neptune T-Square).  Before we sign up for a Yoga class (to Actively Stretch Into Expanded Self-Love) though, we may need to deal with the Action Challenge (Mars T-Square).

That Challenge is about how much we Realize that we have Choice (Moira) around the suggestion that The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is Transcending (Bee-Zed) our Need to Please Others (Hylonome).  Codependence is a very easily Defended excuse for postponing Self-Love because we were Programmed to Believe that Pleasing Others was Noble.  How old were we – maybe 2 or 3 – when we were taught to Share?

Which brings up an interesting point about those who never were taught to Share.  Could there be Epiphanies for them around their Control issues?  Probably not, but we can hope.

All of which suggests that perhaps we should Choose to Share more, with Trusted friends, around our closely held secrets and our most cherished possessions.  Boundaries are clearly involved in this Dance (Pallas-Haumea).  If there’s any Guilt (Nemesis) involved, Sharing more of ourself, when it’s Safe, would be even more Powerful.  And which suggests that it would behoove us to Stop Giving Away our Power, and Stop Giving Away anything else that Triggers our Scarcity but which we feel compelled to Share because we Should.  In fact, maybe…

The Bottom Line around Self-Love is always about Examining our “Shoulds.” 

Any discomfort in our Shoulders would underline that (Sappho Station in Gemini).  Then we can do that Yoga class (Saturn-BZ-Hylonome in Sagittarius) to start making it a Body Memory.

It may be useful to Remember that the Physical Dimension is just another Perspective on the Unitary Wholeness of Life, along with the Emotional, Spiritual, and Mental Perspectives.  Switching between these Perspectives – for instance, into the Physical to address an Emotional conundrum – often creates what appear to be Miracles.

The Call to Action (Mars T-Square) has two Easy Alternatives (Trine Bridges) – one to Breaking Oaths (Orcus) and one to Surrendering to Spirit (Neptune).  In fact the two of them make what’s called a Golden Rectangle (the big blue rectangle – it’s called “Golden” because the ratio between the long and short sides is the Golden Angle of Sacred Geometry fame).

We interpret a Golden Rectangle by Dancing with the diagonals.  We’ve already discussed the Choice-Shoulds (Moira v. Saturn-BZ-Hylonome) diagonal; the other is about Oaths and Sprituality (Orcus-Neptune).  The Key to this may simply be that Either/Ors are always Political; it’s Both/Ands that are Spiritual.  Sure, Religion can Inspire the Spiritual (Awe, Wonder, and Respect for All Things), but Religions, except in their Esoteric forms, usually boil down to a set of Rules, and often Require an Oath of Allegiance to these Either/Or Rules.

When we make a Promise or Vow or Oath that’s Either/Or, and if we don’t Betray it, we gradually Internalize it.  It becomes an Integral part of who we are, and we Accept it as a Value, forgetting that it derived not from the Heart but from the mind.  It becomes a Karmic Limitation for us in subsequent Lifetimes.  Stretching our Values (Venus-Jupiter) is part of the Sappho-Station/Total-Lunar-Eclipse Global Epiphany (Grand Octile).

Well, maybe not quite Global; the Eclipse is only visible from the Western Hemisphere, so maybe it’s Western Civilization and Colonial Supremacy that’s scheduled for Epiphany.

Truth Resides in the Compassionate Heart, not the Dualistic mind, and Truth is different for every person.  When we try to run our Life from Either/Or Values that we Learned from someone else, rather than from Both/And Values that we Discovered were True for us, we Live Falsely, constantly Betraying our True Self.  We’ll never find Self-Love there.

Stress – St. Gemain

August 14, 2018

Ego Death and Rebirth, like the one we’ve just been through, is usually Stressful.  This Channeling of St. Germain by Natalie Glasson is worth repeating in whole.  Slow down and take the time to read it through slowly…

https://www.omna.org/healing-and-releasing-stress/

“Stress is a general word that covers a multitude of feelings and inner experiences.  Anxiety, tension, worry, nervousness, and trauma can all be described as stress and yet each can be a completely different experience and have different impacts upon your entire being.  Stress can be experienced in certain areas of your body, mind or emotions or as a full body experience.

“Stress is a reaction within you which can take place due to thoughts, emotions, memories of the past, fears of what could happen, a traumatic situation of the present or can seem to manifest due to situations within your reality.  Stress is such a common experience in everyday reality that people believe it to be a normal and natural aspect of existence upon the Earth.  There are many types of stress and many ways in which stress can be activated.  However, I, Saint Germain, wish to share some insights with you to aid the release and healing of stress within your entire being.

“Rather than looking into the causes of stress, I, Saint Germain, wish to engage with the presence of stress within your being, how it influences you while supporting you in releasing stress from your being to recognise the light, truth and presence of the Creator within you.

“What is Stress and How is it Impacting Your Being?

“The presence of stress creates an appearance of disconnection and separation within your being and to the Creator.  You may feel isolated, alone, without support, experience a lack of trust in yourself and the continuous presence of the Creator, a feeling of disconnection with your intuition, conscious mind, guides and true self.  Stress can create feelings of wanting to give up, to flee, to hide, to blame the outside world or yourself, to judge yourself and to use anger as your power.

“When you are experiencing stress, you are unable to relax your entire being and to connect with the guidance and truth within your being.  Instead, you act and react from the wounds you are holding within you which causes you more distress, upset and a feeling of separation from others.  Some forms of stress can encourage you to achieve your goals, to move beyond limitations and boundaries.  The stress I am speaking of can be continuous and can be paralysing in some way or another.

“When stress is apparent within your being, this is a confirmation of a false perception of yourself and/ or surrounds as well as a disconnection from your power and inner guiding light.  Your false perception has been created by you to allow you to engage with and recognise wounds you are holding within your being and are ready to be released.

“The stress you are experiencing is the energy of the wounds fully connecting with you and can also be caused by your unwillingness to recognise the wounds.  Your wounds may be from this lifetime or different lifetimes, energy unresolved within your being remains within you trying to find a way to be released or healed. 

“Certain situations occur in your reality or you perceive things in a certain way in order to direct your attention to the energy you are holding onto that requires to be released, bringing you back to balance with yourself and the Creator.

“When stress remains and is ignored this can cause a deterioration in the mind, emotional balance and the health and wellbeing of the physical body as well as limiting the way you live your life.

“The Purpose of Stress

“Stress is a warning that you are energising a false perception, and this is activating a wound within your being.  Stress alerts you that healing is required, and a new awareness is waiting to dawn from within you.  You could say that stress signals to you that you are ready to move to a new level of awareness of yourself as a spiritual being and expression of the Creator.

“There is no need to try to eliminate the reaction of stress within your being as this will only create inner turmoil.  If stress is experienced for a few moments and then you react to release the inner wound or energy being activated and recognise the false perception, receiving the true perception then stress has achieved its purpose.  When you allow stress to remain within your being for days, months or even years without taking action, then you are misusing the purpose of stress and causing yourself further pain.

“The more you recognise stress, releasing and healing that which it is directing your attention to, the less stress will manifest because you are addressing and cleansing the wounds within you, therefore experiencing greater peace and balance. 

“Your body or being no longer needs to act with such vigour to get your attention because you are listening to and observing the energies within you and the perceptions you make constantly about yourself and the world around you.  Due to a greater connection with your inner balance and peace, you perceive the world within and around you from the space of truth and clarity within you.

“Have you ever read something or heard someone say something, reacted negatively only to realise you misread or misheard and interpreted it as something different to the original intention?  You are reading or hearing from wounds within you, you are perceiving your reality from those wounds and then reacting from the wounds.  It is only when you begin to clear the wounds that you perceive from the truth within you.

“Cleansing Stress from Your Entire Being

“It is important to experience this practice as much as possible until you notice that when stress activates within you it activates in a calmer way.  With repetition, you should notice a sensation of lightness as well as a greater sense of freedom within.

“I, Saint Germain encourage you to lie down and state the below invocation, place some crystals of any type around your body as if in the aura of your body beside of you.  At the end of the meditation, cleanse the crystals with water, sage smoke, intention or as you wish, to release the stress energy that has been absorbed by the crystals.  Achieve this each time.  This can also be achieved in a bath of water with some salt added and crystals.

” ‘Saint Germain, I call upon your Violet and Pearlescent Healing Spiral to cleanse my entire being of the presence and impact of all forms of stress.  I allow your Violet and Pearlescent Healing Spiral to move up and down through my being as it spins gently dissolving the presence of stress within my entire being.

” ‘Saint Germain surround me with twelve 7th Ray of Light Angels of Alchemy.  I invite the Angels of Alchemy to awaken the light within my being and assist the flow of light throughout my entire being.  Please assist in the healing of the presence and influence of stress while aligning me with the truth of the Creator within me.

” ‘Saint Germain, I call on your presence and love, please lend me your light and expanded awareness so I may realign to the core and truth of my being while recognising false perception and the messages they wish to share with me. 

” ‘With your light and love pulsing through me, oversee the release and healing of all stress within my being in a beautiful and harmonious way.  Reprogram my entire being so I am ready, willing and able to realise that when stress manifests I need to take action and listen within my being to understand the message that will offer to me greater enlightenment.

” ‘I recognise Saint Germain, the Violet and Pearlescent Healing Spiral and the twelve 7th Ray of Light Angels of Alchemy as my trio of support to assist me in releasing stress and its impact upon my being.  Help me to understand the purpose of stress within my being and where my attention needs to be directed to.  I know I can call on my trio of support to assist me at any time.  Thank you.

“Please call upon me whenever you feel the presence of stress, ask me to assist you.  Take action and realise you are energising a false perception and a wound within you, that requires to be released, is moving to the surface.  Ask yourself what is the message and insight for you to gain to move to the next level of awareness and enlightenment.”

Paranoid Thoughts?

June 5, 2018

We’re approaching 9 June’s Station of Nessus (3am PDT).  As most of you know, a planet’s Energy is Strongest at, and leading up to, its Station, and Nessus is about Healing Abuse and Privilege.  It’s in Pisces, which is all about Finishing Business and Letting Go of Excess Baggage, especially Heavy Emotions, so we can begin the next leg of our next Journey with a Light load.

Of course the quickest way to Heal anything is to Embrace it with Unconditional Love and Empathy, and to do that, we sometimes have to Re-Experience it in some form.  So all manner of Guilt, Veiled (or otherwise) Fear or Terror, and other Ugliness may arise between now and 9 June, including otherwise-unexplained unpleasant Experiences with other people that are Unconsciously Standing In as bit players in our Karmic Dramas.

Yes, they could be Reincarnations of our former Perps, but why not give them the Benefit of the Doubt and let them be Innocent, as in their Present Incarnation they’re likely to be.  After all, they could as likely be Reincarnations of former Victims or your own Abuse and Privilege, just with the roles switched for variety.

It’s important to be Aware that this is happening, so we can Respond positively.  It’s very easy to attribute such Flushbacks to the Present Moment, even though our daily Dramas are probably dime-novel Re-Enactments of our Karmic Traumas and all of Their previous attempts at Re-Enacting themselves, some of which could have Been or Felt very Real.

Remember that Consciousness pervades Everything, including our Karmic Traumas, and if we’re still in Separation (which to some extent we All are if we’re still Incarnate), then these Traumas are virtually “Entities” with a Life of Their own.  Until we Merge with Them, which can Be and Feel quite Horrible while we’re Transitioning into Their Experience. 

And once we’re Inside of Their Experience, we may need some or all of our Enlightened Consciousness (we All have at least some) to be Unconditionally Loving with Them.  Considering how many Lifetimes we’ve probably Lived (likely approaching Infinity), we have Seen It All Before, so it’s more about Being Loving and Gentle with all the Ickiness, once we get past being Horrified.  Maybe we should practice with Slugs.

When we mis-identify Karmic Flushbacks as Present Moment events, we’re very likely to make Decisions or Oaths like “I’ll never do that again” or “I’ll never talk to them again,” or far worse.  Decisions like this rapidly become Unconscious Limitations, and inhibit our Liberation.

We’ll draw up the chart soon, but suffice it to say for now that Orcus, the planet of Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking, Opposes the Stationary Nessus, forming the base of a T-Square to asteroid Moira.  Moira is about Fate.  Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious; Choice is what we Choose to exercise when we’re Conscious.  So we’re Taking Our Power and Breaking an Ancient Contract with our Fate, potentially the one that equates Life with Suffering.

We tend to think of such Contracts as “Facts of Life,” but in fact they’re just Political Choices we made so long ago that we’ve forgotten that it was our Choice.  While the Resistance may be substantial, and the Implications may be complex, we can actually Choose Whatever We Want.  And if we Consider it carefully and boldly, we can actually also Choose trivial Resistance and simple Implications.  That’s on of the reasons why we recommend adding “Lovingly and Gently” to our PIAVAs.

There is also a T-Square to asteroids Nemesis and Lachesis in the Nessus-Station chart.  Nemesis is about Ego Death, while Lachesis is about Choosing to Shift a Karmic or Fated Timeline before it would Shift on its own.  So what we’re really doing here, should we Choose to Accept it, is Shifting our Approach to Ego Death, toward Love and Excitement rather than Fear and Resistance. The base of this second T-Square is the Nodal Axis, with Mars (Anger or Action) on the South Node (Held Emotions) and Aletheia (Truth) on the North Node (Mission in the Lifetime).

Here’s Daniel Scranton’s Channeling for today…

http://danielscranton.com/join-team-ascension-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

We are taking nothing for granted when it comes to our participation in the shift in consciousness.  There are so many beings in this universe who are working to ensure that the shift not only occurs, but that it occurs in the way that serves the most.  We invite any and all of you who want to be a part of this conscious creation to move beyond waiting for something to happen.

“We invite you to join us in ushering in the shift and bringing about an expanded consciousness throughout the entire universe.  You don’t have to wait for any major event to occur in order to participate.

“This is a shift in consciousness, which means nothing in the physical realm is going to be responsible for making it happen.  It is the true nature of consciousness to expand and evolve, and therefore, as you make it your mission not to do something in the physical realm, but instead consciously evolve, you are joining the team.  You have opportunities every single day. They come to you in the choices that you are being given.

“And you can help yourselves and help the entire universe at the same time by making the choice that is more inclusive than exclusive.  You can help by processing your emotions.  You can help by making eye contact with someone else and helping that person understand that he or she matters.  You can be kind instead of being right.  You can forgive.  You can send transmissions of love and compassion.  You can speak your truth, be true to yourself, and love yourself no matter what you have done, or said, or thought.

“As you make a commitment now to joining the team that spans the entire galaxy and all dimensions, you are helping to usher in the best possible shift that we can all experience.  We are inviting you to join us, and we know many of you already have, but as you make the declaration, you are automatically accepted onto our little team.

20-25 Degrees

June 2, 2018

Aa apparent newcomer has written to ask about their many natal planets at around 20 Degrees, in response to our October 2016 suggestion that we begin working with these Degrees now, since they will be Lit Up when our Home Planet begins Her Big Reorg in the early 2020s – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/10/20/2020-b/ for our article and their comment. 

Of course, as we repeatedly point out, these Degrees continue to be Lit Up by many of our planetary Companions today.  As we write, one quarter of the planets we follow are in or adjacent to this Zone, which is only one sixth of the Zodiac wide.  It’s a useful question, so I’ll answer it…

Our approach is to intend to befriend the Unconscious because we Believe that the Power of the Ego is minuscule compared to the Power of the Unconscious, and because the Ego is usually Unconscious of that fact.

We also intend to work not with Qualities but with Energies and Relationships, and therefore we work mostly with what we call the “Angles,” though most astrologers would call them “Aspects.”  We prefer Angles because that’s what they are in plain language – the Angular Relationship between Planets (and other astrological Hot Spots such as the Nodes).

Unfortunately there is an astrological term “Angles” as well, meaning the Ascendant, Midheaven, etc., or the major House Cusps.  We can usually live with this ambiguity because we very seldom talk about Houses, since we write for the whole planet, and House positions vary with location.  Folks who commonly use the astrological term “Angles” may be confused by the way we use the word, alas.

Most astrologers I know would not argue that the T-Square (a third planet halfway between two planets that Oppose one another) is one of the most problematic Angular Relationships, largely because it usually seems to indicate a Sisyphean area where Success is not possible but the Compulsion to Keep Trying is unrelenting.  Consequently, the most appropriate keyword for the Ego’s Relationship to a T-Square seems to be Frustration.

We also Believe that, (1) on a Soul level, we Chose the Configurations of planets in our natal chart, because that’s what “We” (our Soul) wanted to “Work On” in the current Lifetime.  Many folks have difficulty with this concept; the easy path to it lies through shifting your Identity till you find a place from which it’s True.

We often also interpret the Configurations in our natal chart as (2) the specific Earth Energies where we Chose to help the Planet Heal. 

The first approach assumes that our Soul is using the Planet for its own Education, while the second approach assumes that we are in fact Cosmic Healers who came here to Help Earth Ascend.  Take your pick, though as usual, I recommend Both/And rather than Either/Or.

Since our reader has Uranus T-Square to their Nodes, I have no doubt that they’re in the latter category.

As Ascension Helpers, then, our T-Squares indicate the places where our task is to suck up all the Frustration (Fear, Anger, Despair, Separation, etc) that the Planet Feels, and Transform it (we are after all nothing if not Energy Transmogrifiers) into what the Planet Prefers to Feel (Joy, Bliss, Attunement, Excitement, Unity, etc). 

How do we know what the Planet Prefers to Feel?  Easy.  She and We are One.

Note that more or less implicit in that paragraph is that Emotions are not Personal, but more like Weather or a Virus.  We Attach our Identity to an Emotion when we Associate or Merge with it, which is usually part of our Karma, or, we would suggest, because we came here to Learn and Teach how to Detach our Identity from that Emotion (look up “Poor-Sweetheart” and “Held Emotions” in the Categories list to explore further).

So, in the planets our new Friend has listed, we’d go straight to the T-Square, Uranus Square the Nodal Axis.  The Egoic side of Uranus is Disruption, and the Egoic side of the Nodes is the Desire to Let Go of Karma.  So we would suppose that our Friend, on the Ego side, is (or was, if he’s since Grown) often Frustrated by Attempting and Failing to Let Go of sticky Karmic Patterns, or what we often call Self-Sabotaging Archetypes. 

For instance, our Friend might try over and over to walk a “straight and narrow” path, only to wake up and discover that they’ve strayed from it.  Or worse, they might find that other people are repeatedly screwing them over…

Now, let’s turn this around and look at it from the Soul’s Perspective.  First of all, what Uranus Disrupts is everything that Inhibits its Purpose. 

Since most of us were Programmed to Receive Truth from Outside ourself rather than Inside, the Karmic Ego will be constantly Frustrated by the Uranian Disruption of our frequent Attempts to ignore our own Internal Truth in order to be Loyal to our Programming and Programmers. 

Truth resides in the Heart, and it’s Different for everyone, so only by Programming someone to Trust their own Heart (Uranus) can Uranian Disruption be Loved as the Urge to Liberation that it is.

Now, again from the Soul’s Perspective, the Nodal Axis is not so much about the Desire to Let Go of Karma as it’s about a Decision over which Earthly trends to emphasize.  Contrary to the usual Interpretation, Karma does not Grasp Us, We Grasp It.  So all we have to do, to quote Paul, is to “Let It Be.”

The Signs will give us more specific information. Our new Friend’s South Node is in Aquarius and North Node in Leo, indicating that their Intended (Soul-level) path runs from Social to Personal Integrity.  Learning to Love themselves Unconditionally, for instance. 

Meanwhile, Uranus is in Scorpio, which is Fearless and Relentless.  So our Friend is likely to be Driven to stop at Nothing in their Effort to Learn and Teach Unconditional Self-Love.

Which is Fantastic!  Now, what if the Ego and Programming still get in the way and continue to Sabotage us with Downers?  (Which may never actually go away, just become more quickly seen through.)  Well, Reframing help a whole lot…

A T-Square Feels Like the Compulsive need to Achieve greater Perfection around some Goal.  In this Uranus-in-Scorpio case, that would be Permanent Soul Contact.  Or, if the Soul is Dismissed, then something like an Irrepressible Urge to Disrupt Untruth. 

But even the part about Permanent Soul Contact is the Ego and Programming speaking.  If you’ve taken graduate seminars in a good program, you probably Noticed that there are no “correct” answers, there are only “interesting” questions and examination of them that is thorough and creative.

That’s where you find the T-Square – on the Soul level you’ve Intended a Lifetime where you re-examine everything over and over again, with slight variations, each time from a slightly different Perspective, so you become uniquely qualified to Teach the subject, since you’ve Experienced it from all angles, inside and out. 

And of course the key to all that is Noticing that there are no “correct” answers and that your Perfectionist Quest, while essential, was not for the purpose that you earlier supposed.  That’s the way our Mission (North Node) operates – we have a Shadow to Pursue, till we pounce on it and Discover that it’s just a Shadow, like Ged in Earthsea.

Once you’ve done this Reframing, Frustration will continue to try to sneak back into the driver’s seat, and that’s where Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and PIAVAing (look them up in the Categories list and practice them) will be useful and Powerful.

The ultimate Goal for all of us is Unconditional Self-Love, so eventually you’ll be Teaching us all.  Which we eagerly anticipate!

Thanks for writing.  Namaste.

Identity and Perspective

May 11, 2018

Here’s a great short video essay on Identity, Yintegrity, Yindependence, and Perspective…

http://www.karmatube.org/videos.php?id=7626

My considerable distractions are starting to wind down, so we should be able to return to our “regularly scheduled programming” shortly.