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Big Weeks III

March 24, 2017

So often right on cue, Dan and the Arcturians describe an excellent process for discovering the roots of our Forbidden Genius (ie, the 25 March Ixion Station) and amping up our Self-Love (which is to say, the 26 March Sappho Station)… 

http://danielscranton.com/all-aspects-of-you-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

Greetings.  We are the Arcturian Council.  We are pleased to connect with all of you.

“When you are ready to explore your consciousness to the greatest extent that you possibly can, you are going to uncover a litany of aspects of who you are.  You are almost ready to experience your whole selves and to become your whole selves.  What blocks you from doing so is the fear that you will uncover something about yourself that you cannot reconcile, that you cannot forgive, and that you cannot love.

“To be a whole being means that you must accept all aspects of you, and that means uncovering the parts of you who are lingering around because they have not yet been forgiven, accepted, and loved.  You hold the power to do this, and it’s easier than you might think.

“When you see someone in the outside world doing something that you find abhorrent, you can rest assured that there is an aspect of you that has done the exact same thing in another lifetime.  So in order for you to move forward with the integration of all aspects of self, you must be able to forgive the person that you have become aware of, and their actions.  It is not easy.

“You often determine your goodness by how you are capable of refraining from doing such things.  That makes it easier to look down upon someone who is doing the thing, or who has done the thing, that you would never do.  But this is your mission.  This is what it means to be unconditional love.  This is what it means to be compassion in action.

“There must be something, some condition, some action that you find reprehensible in order for you to make the shift.  We are not talking about the big shift here.  We are talking about making the shift from judgment and condemnation to compassion and unconditional love.

“That is in essence what the big shift is all about.  It is an opportunity for you to leave all the baggage behind, the baggage of the third dimension, the baggage that contains your judgments, your condemnations, whether they be of yourself or others.  Recognize this, however.  When you experience a judgment, or a condemnation, or both, of someone else, you might as well be experiencing it of yourself, because you cannot become aware of something that you are not already in some way, shape, or form yourself.

“When we ask you to love yourselves, we are asking you to love all aspects of yourselves, and we know it is not always easy.  But it is always worth it.

“We are the Arcturian Council, and we have enjoyed connecting with you.

Big Weeks II

March 23, 2017

This is a very intense story about Soulmates, and this segment deals with Letting Go of our Self-Rejection – obviously timely…

https://shiftingthroughlove.wordpress.com/2017/01/13/unlovable

In it the author links to a video, which I’ll repeat just in case you missed it…

Reanimating the Planet – and Cables

February 19, 2017

Without considering the context, most web designers these days recommend prohibiting what’s called “deep linking,” where you link directly to a page deep within a website.  Instead they allow only linking to a website’s home page, forcing you to search – too often in vain – for the page you want.  The reason they do this, is to get you to stumble onto other pages of interest, hoping to sell you more via “impulse buying.”  Recommending this for websites that aren’t selling anything is simply stupid.  Yet time and again I’ve seem web “designers” follow their textbooks and do this, and their clients out of naïveté follow their advice.

I don’t know whether http://www.jeshua.net/ got and took this advice, but the website doesn’t allow deep linking.  Fortunately there are transcribers who copy this material into deep-linkable websites such as…

https://eraoflight.com/2017/02/15/the-earth-body-and-soul/#more-22404

Though they don’t always make it very clear that the material isn’t theirs.  On this page, “Pamela Kribbe channels Earth” in a powerful Meditation…

I am the voice of the Earth.  I carry you in my body.  The planet on which you live and walk is my body, the expression of my soul.  You are welcome here because you are part of my body.  Your body is part of me, made of earthly matter.  Be very aware of the cells in your body, which are very small, independent entities that know exactly what they are supposed to do.  They work toward balance and harmony and cooperation in your body.

“Imagine that you are present as a brilliant sun in your body.  Your light is not of the Earth; you come from the cosmos.  You are a living soul who is able to take on various forms and now you are present in an earthly form.  Imagine that the light of your soul radiates in the center of your body, the center close to your heart.  See a light burning there and remember who you are: you are aeons old.  You have had many lives; you are not here for the first time.

Remember who you are!  Know that you are independent of this body, of this life, and of the society around you.  You have come here to bring something new, something unique, something not quite understood by those around you.  It takes courage and daring to bring in what is new, because new things cause resistance.  That is why it is so important to remember who you are: your freedom, your independence.  Only then can you really be yourself in this reality and spread your light.

“I now ask you, from that which is your heart, to connect the light of your soul with all your body cells, which have their own individual consciousness, yet which are part of me, the Earth.  Imagine that the light of your heart, your soul, joins to the consciousness of all your body cells.  Your light shines into all your cells, and your cells respond with joy.  This is what they want – they want to be inspired by you!  This is their goal; this is their function.

“Maybe you think that the aim of your body cells is simply to maintain your body so it can function and survive; and on some level, that is true, but not on the deepest level.  Your highest purpose here on Earth is to provide an instrument through which your soul can manifest itself; that is what your body is for.  So connecting your soul with your body awareness is extremely important.  Your entire body is undergoing a transformation that cannot be explained on a material level.

“Now imagine that the light from your divine core spreads slowly from your heart and touches all your cells in a tender way: in your chest and shoulders, and throughout your neck and throat.  Then allow all the cells in your head to be touched by your soul’s energy and to take it in so they are able to get direction and guidance from the divine Source.  Allow your soul’s energy, the light of your heart, to then stream through your solar plexus, your belly, and down through your abdomen, and feel for a moment the center of your abdomen.  There may be old emotions still there, or resistances against life that make it difficult to allow in the light of your soul: ‘Is this safe?  May I really be here with my unique energy, my light?’

“See if your soul’s light can penetrate into your stomach, your tailbone, your pelvis.  If you feel places there that offer resistance, that do not allow in the light, just observe that happening and do not force anything.  Just see if there is a dark spot or a tense place somewhere in your body where the energy is somewhat constricted and concealed.  With a very accepting and open gaze, concentrate your attention on that spot of heaviness.  Your consciousness is very soft and pliable, and as a soft breeze, surround that spot with your attention.

“Inside that blocked energy, there is life that has been hidden away for a variety of reasons.  Encourage that life to make itself known to you.  Ask the question: ‘Who are you?  Don’t be afraid of me, show yourself.’  See if something appears to you: an image, a symbol; it can also be an animal or a human being, or maybe a child.  Everything that is blocked and hidden in a person wants out, wants to be free; but it is afraid, which is why it is hiding at times.  To be able to reach it, you need not force anything; it is enough to be gently present and to listen.  To not want to change anything, to not wish to get rid of this part, is the most helpful approach.

“So calmly see or sense what wants to reveal itself from that dark part. Imagine that you reach out your hand to what appears and you reassure it by telling it: ‘You are good; you are allowed to be who you really are.’  You welcome this part of yourself by taking responsibility for your energy, by promising that you will work with it.  Because in all this clogged and blocked energy there is also a strength, a capability that belongs to you.  It should never be the intention only to make a blockage or a problem disappear.  It is about transforming and releasing old energies, and so thoroughly that the core of light within you can join with it.  That is why love is the way, and not struggling with negative energies or problems that are in you, but loving them.

“Finally, let the light of your soul flow all the way down from your pelvis to your thighs and your upper legs, and give especial attention to your knees.  Imagine that the cells of the bones in your knees open up for the light from your heart.  Remember how joyful it can be to live and be active on the Earth, so retrieve those memories of joy.  Then let your light descend farther into your calves and your ankles, and fully into your feet: into your heels, the soles of your feet and your toes.

Entrust the light of your soul to the Earth.  I am here for you; you are welcome in and on me.  You do not have to go it alone.  The more you allow your soul’s light to be here, the more you are protected and carried by your own wisdom and by your connection to me, the Earth.  I salute you from my heart and want to thank you for your presence here and now.”

When I did this Meditation I found it Exhilarating except for several spots of Tension in the back of several Chakras.  When I asked “Who are you?” several Cables from a deceased parent and an old Relationship appeared.  Without reading the Meditation further, I reverted to my old Training and dealt with the Cables using old techniques of carefully working the fishhook-like cable ends out of my back, and handing them back to the virtual figure of the person who put them there.  One of them was easy, the other was difficult because the Cable-installer wasn’t working alone, but as part of a Doctrine or Lineage.

Gurus can seek Power rather than Healing per se for legitimate Healing purposes – for instance, when the Follower’s Challenges are with their Ego.  The Ego is the seat of Power in the Psyche, and in Response to Abuse the Ego may have Vowed Never to Surrender.  Some Gurus specialize in the Power Struggles which result when such a Follower Asks them for Help in working toward their Liberation.  And some “Gurus” of course seek Power for the sake of Power.  It can be difficult to tell the difference, but in general if the Guru Blesses you when you Psychically Intend to Stand as their Equal, it’s a good sign.

Many Gurus establish a Doctrine or Lineage, so their Followers can become Teachers in their stead when they leave the Physical, or so they can spread their Work farther than they could do alone.  Kind of a Spiritual or Pseudo-Spiritual equivalent to “Branding.”  So their Followers can Cable you as an agent for the Guru or the Guru’s supra-personal Lineage – the Guru need no longer be in Physical form.  Those Cables can be trickier to remove, because they were placed by agents for “Professionals,” rather than by Amateurs.  In either case there’s a good chance that the Cables will be put back once you divert your Attention.

In general, Cables are installed as Defensive measures, not installed for Evil Intent.  They are usually set Unconsciously through Insecurity or Parental or Religious “Prerogative,” or all of the above.  So while removing Cables Relentlessly is appropriate, removing them Ruthlessly or Angrily may create backlash.

Then I read more of the Meditation…

To be able to reach it, you need not force anything; it is enough to be gently present and to listen.  To not want to change anything, to not wish to get rid of this part, is the most helpful approach.  “So calmly see or sense what wants to reveal itself from that dark part. Imagine that you reach out your hand to what appears and you reassure it by telling it: ‘You are good; you are allowed to be who you really are.’  You welcome this part of yourself by taking responsibility for your energy, by promising that you will work with it.  

“Because in all this clogged and blocked energy there is also a strength, a capability that belongs to you.  It should never be the intention only to make a blockage or a problem disappear.  It is about transforming and releasing old energies, and so thoroughly that the core of light within you can join with it.  That is why love is the way, and not struggling with negative energies or problems that are in you, but loving them.”

Hmm, sounds like we might be opening to Forbidden Genii – or certainly to the Forbidden, to Limitation.  Excellent advice.  All right!  More Work to be Done!  Hopefully from the Perspective of…

http://danielscranton.com/you-are-enough-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

This is the Atropos-Chaos (the End of Limitation) corner of our Golden Rectangle, and of course part of our Building-a-New-Timeline-based-in-Self-Love-by-getting-Honest-about-our-Fear Yin Gate.

Self Love

February 6, 2017

From Daniel Scranton and the Arcturian Council…

“Each individual must first recognize that you are able to access more Source Energy through yourselves than you have ever dreamed possible.  When you are capable of bringing Source Energy through your unique perspective, you are able to add so much to this world of yours, and to the entire universe.  This is truly where your significance lies.

“You change the world by bringing through more of that high frequency Source Energy.  Now often you seek a mission, a purpose, or some goal to achieve that will summon forth the Source Energy that we are talking about, the Source Energy that is so powerful when grounded into the physical reality.  But just by living your lives, just by having your relationships with each other, and by at times just struggling to get by, you are doing all of the summoning that is necessary.

“You see, it doesn’t matter why you are summoning forth more of that energy.  It only matters that you allow it to flow through you, and then we encourage you to recognize how your uniqueness puts a particular flavor on the energy that you bring through.  It is a flavor that only you can add to the Source Energy that you ground into the physical.”

I highly recommend the rest of Daniel’s message at…

http://danielscranton.com/let-source-energy-flow-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

From Brenda Hoffman’s LifeTapestryCreations…

“All seems hopeless – creating a helpless feeling within you because of the fear and anger now seemingly rampant.  You have read and studied what is happening – that the rage and anger are clearing the last vestiges of outer-directed power.  Even though you want to believe that such is true, your vision, your current world does not indicate that.

“Your fear continues to include all you experienced in past times and lives – the fall of Atlantis and Lemuria, the Holocaust, dictatorships, and on and on.  All of which are now displayed vibrantly via your governments and the actions of many.”

“Allow yourself to shift between the two worlds as much as you need.  For putting parameters on your growth, your exploration is no different from following the dictates of society.  There are no shoulds in the development of new you – including those you place upon yourself.”

“Perhaps you need to further explore pieces in 3D.  Maybe you do not fully believe the possibilities of 5D.  That is your right.  That is who you are.  To force yourself into something or someone different is placing unnecessary shoulds upon yourself.  Just as you cannot tell others how to live their life, you cannot force yourself to do so.”

Again, I highly recommend the rest of Brenda’s message, at…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2017/02/06/are-you-shoulding-5d-you/

Cognitive Dissonance and Heart Integrity

February 5, 2017

We always recommend that folks adopt as many different Perspectives as they possibly can, in order to see the World through many different Eyes.  This is very difficult for the mind, which thinks in Either/Ors, and often difficult for the Emotions, which thrive on Validation.  But it is the True Nature of the Heart, because the Heart is much more multi-dimensional than either the mind or the Emotions.

Also, by far the greatest driver of our Lives is the Unconscious, and in the Unconscious, as in Nature, there are no Contradictions, only apparent Paradoxes.  Getting the mind accustomed to Paradox facilitates its Acceptance of the Unconscious and its Cooperation with Nature.  If we Want Ease and Grace in our Life, there’s no better path toward it than Befriending the Unconscious and Nature.

Paradox is the nature of the Yin Gate like the one we’re in this month, where we’re Witnessing the Paradoxical Relationship between Unconscious Fear and Self-Love.  When Fear inhabits the Unconscious and we don’t know it, then we Create what we Fear.  Fear is the Absence of Love.  We need to pursue Fear with the Vigor that we pursue our Soulmate, or Money, so we can make Embracing Fear the hallmark of our Life.  Then we can Create Love, and Create from Love.

Fear is a Trickster and a Master of Disguise.  As you pursue your Fears, the Theta Healing technique, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/ , is Powerful, because it can show us what we’ve overlooked in our PIAVAs and what Disguises remain for us to Embrace.

The Universe itself is inherently Unknowable, because the mind can’t grasp Infinity in any meaningful way, and the Universe – or at least, the Multiverse, is Limitless.  So the more we get stuck on one Perspective, the less we See of the Universe and the greater the Limitations on what we can Create.  Courting multiple Perspectives loosens up the mind’s grasping at Certainty and the Emotions’ desperation for Validation.

Daniel Scranton and the Arcturian Council offer this suggestion, which I completely agree with…

“In your quest for enlightenment, you often seek out a teaching, a guide, a guru, someone who can help you along your way.  This is helpful for you, but you can also be limited by the teachings of the guru or the guide that you are following.  You can find yourself restricted to only accepting that which fits into the beliefs that you are adhering to.

“We include ourselves in the guides that we are talking to you about.  We don’t want to limit you in any way, and so we don’t want people to only listen to us, especially if that means they are not listening to themselves.  What we would much rather see each of you do is take something from what the teachers and the guides and the gurus offer, but we also would like to see you make those teachings your own.

“We would like to see more of you creating your own form of spirituality.  We invite you to develop your own worldview and to take a little bit from what each of us offers, and then apply those teachings.  Use those teachings.  See what works for you and what does not.  Feel into what resonates with you and let go of the rest.”

He goes on, at… 

http://danielscranton.com/be-your-own-guru-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

And I recommend the rest.

Self-Love II

February 2, 2017

We’ve been working with our Golden Rectangle for many months now, and it continues in place till almost the end of February.  A Golden Rectangle is a Configuration of planets that symbolizes Creativity in Harmony with Nature – which is one hallmark of 5D Reality.

For review, the four corners of the Golden Rectangle are…

  • Saturn-Ixion (The Most Important Thing is Recovering our Lost Genius)
  • Atropos-Chaos (the End of Limitation)
  • Uranus-Eris (Obedience to the Soul’s Truth)
  • Jupiter-Haumea (Expansive Rebirth)

Embedded within this Golden Rectangle during January was a Yin Gate that facilitated the Recovery of our Self-Sovereignty through courting Awareness of, and Lovingly Embracing, as many of our Unconscious Fears as we could ferret out.  This was often not Fun, as we Repressed those Fears because they were debilitating.  A Yin Gate symbolizes a Mystery School, where we’re forced to Learn to accept Paradox and see the World through multiple Perspectives at once.

Yin Gate occurs when a third Opposition occurs at the Midpoints of the short sides of a Golden Rectangle.  This creates interlocking Fingers of God pointing to the ends of this third Opposition.  January’s Yin Gate featured an Opposition between Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) and Sedna-Aletheia (The Truth of our Fears).

That Yin Gate Closes today, 2 February, as Lilith moves out of its Opposition to Sedna-Aletheia.  However, a second Yin Gate Opened yesterday, 1 February, and remains Open through most of February.  This February Yin Gate is about Building a New Timeline or Ego-Lifetime based on Self-Love, Driven by Harnessing our formerly-Unconscious Fears.  Fear plus Breathing Equals Excitement, the mortar for our new Timeline.

Opposing Sedna-Aletheia during February is the Conjunction of asteroids Sappho (Self-Love) and Klotho (of the three Fates, the one who “cuts the cloth” out of which a Lifetime is assembled).

Klotho Initiated Sappho on 27 January at 22 Scorpio, “Hunters shooting wild ducks” – a good metaphor for our Efforts to pin down and bring “home” (into Consciousness) our remaining Unconscious Fears.  Fear is the Absence of Love, so filling these holes in the Unconscious, like moving targets on an open sky, is our task in February.  This is a fifteen-year Cycle.

The Sappho/Klotho to Sedna/Aletheia Opposition remains within our usual three Degrees of Sensitivity from 1 February till 26 February, though Aletheia moves on around 22 February.  There are peaks in the Yin Gate Energy on 11 February when Sappho Exactly Opposes Sedna, and 19 February when Klotho Exactly Opposes Sedna.

 

Self-Love I

February 2, 2017

Here’s an excellent summary of February’s astroadventures, exerpted from Brenda Hoffman’s http://www.LifeTapestryCreations.com  at 

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2017/01/16/creating-a-new-world-order/

“Many of you continue to rue your inability to create that which would make your personal life joyous.  Do not fret for even though you skipped a practice set as it were, the energies flowing about you now are to help you remember your self-love and therefore, creative skills.

“Remembering your self-love is a stepping stone to trusting yourself enough to know that you will and are creating a new world order.  Not one of outer power, control, fear, and arrogance – but a new model of acceptance and love.

“But such is not visible now for you are enmeshed in the fears of the world.  Not because you have taken a step back, but because you need to remember how deep that fear is enmeshed in humanity.”

“Your ideas will seem radical, perhaps even impossible to you, as you plow ahead to create the new world.  In essence, the new world you are creating will be so counterintuitive to your 3D beliefs and thoughts as to seem like a fairytale.

“Of course, you will not be alone for your brothers and sisters of the light will support you physically, emotionally and spiritually.  Even so, the first steps to what is now considered unreality will seem almost overwhelming – like a fish swimming upstream. For that is what you will be.

“Those of 3D will not understand.  Those just opening to the light will be fearful.  While those of the light will support you in any way possible as they too create new spaces and beliefs within the current earth.

“You will, at first, feel as if you are truly alone as you verbalize hope in light of the heaviness that now permeates the globe.

“Your first thoughts are just beginning to peek outside your current fears that all might not be lost – that a new world might be built from the current chaos.”

“In your 3D world, new worlds were built upon the old.  So even though they might have had the appearance of new – such as the period Europe labels the renaissance – the fears and anger of old festered beneath the surface.  And so it would have been now if you had shifted the political climate slowly as was true in the past.

“Instead, you en masse agreed to do so with one quick period of such disarray and collapse that only a new structure built upon love could succeed.

“So it is you are now somewhat shell-shocked by recent events that speak of fear, anger and yes, even evil instead of the love you believed would automatically appear when you were ready.

“You forgot that you are the earth creators including the political and spiritual systems.  You will move beyond your fears when you are ready in the near future, or even now, to create a new world order based on love.”

We’ll look at the astrology of Self-Love in the next post.

January Week 3 End – Big Doin’s

January 19, 2017

Whew, made it through the Ixion-Juno Initiation last night, but not without Tapping and Thetaing and Poor-Sweethearting for most of the night.  Our next Big Event is a Station of dwarf planet Haumea, 4am PST 22 January.  Haumea is Pele’s daughter, symbolizing Rebirth – by Fire!  It’s been within one Degree of Sensitivity to this Station since early November, so it’s a big part of what we’ve been Experiencing, as we’ve been trying to get as many of our Unconscious Masters (Archetypes, Karma, and Unfinished Business, O My) wrestled to the Ground so we can get Reborn as Cleanly as possible.

Now that “everything else” Big has gone under the bridge, the Rebirth part takes Center Stage.  Well, almost.  The Reality Show is still about

Bringing our Unconscious Fears Up Into Our Awareness in Order to Reclaim our Self-Sovereignty

for another week or so.  So this Rebirth is kind of a Mid-term in some ways.

By 1 February we’re firmly engaged in Rebuilding a New Timeline or Ego-Lifetime that’s based on Self-Love.

So a Laser Focus on Noticing any Self-Judgment for the next 7-10 days will pay big dividends.

Self-Judgment includes any Values you have that are Moral, or based on Either/Ors.  As Alan Watts informed us,

It’s Harder to Let Go of Good Karma than it is to Let Go of Bad Karma.

And we need to jettison both if we’re going to be able to approximate Self-Love.

Our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.

It’s more than fine to have Standards of Behavior, and above all to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect.  But our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.

If we betray our own Standards of Behavior, or fail to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect, we Make Amends and move on.  If we’re in the Habit of indulging Guilt or Remorse or the like (or having a big Reaction when others fail to treat us with Respect, which is just a Mirror for our own Lack of Self-Love), then we need to Change that Habit to Tapping it Out asap so we can get on with the Critically Important Work we’re doing Rebirthing the Planet one Psyche at a time (our own).  What was that Meditation threshold that squelched Crime?  One Percent of the Neighbors Meditating?

There’s a Catch here.  Two days after Haumea’s Station, asteroid Hopi Stations.  Hopi is about Respect for all Things.  Those Sentient Beings we have to Respect?  They don’t just include folks who look like you (regardless of Color).  They include Critters and Plants and Rocks and Dirt and Planets and Stars and anything that your mind is able to Separate from the Background Noise and assign a word to.  Oh, and the Background Noise is Sentient too, especially the Background Noise.  That’s the Unconscious, Master over most of our Behavior, thought, Emotion, and even our Physiology.

So we can say that again now, with the context more clear: It’s more than fine to have Standards of Behavior, and above all to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect.

But our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.  How will we every Learn to Love our Pathological Genius otherwise?

Saturn, The Most Important Thing, is only three weeks and less than two Degrees away from being Initiated by Ixion, our Forbidden Genius.  

Meanwhile, the Great Amplifier Jupiter is only two weeks and a third of a Degree shy of its Station, and less than two Degrees from Haumea.  In other words this isn’t any ordinary Molt of our Identity exoskeleton (Haumea is Stationary twice a year after all), but a Big Rebirth.  And you might notice that Sedna, our Emissary of Fear as a Gift Reminder to Embrace ourself, is Stationary along with Jupiter.

So we have a Choice here.  We can be Reborn into Big Fear, or we can be Reborn into Big Love.  We Choose the latter by hunting down our Unconscious Fear with a Searching and Fearless Inventory, then Loving our Fear into Submission.

It’s a safe bet that most or all of our Judgments have their roots embedded deep in Fear.  So if you aren’t Scared this week and next, start Examining your Judgments.  What Unconscious Fears stand behind those?  That includes our “positive” Moral Judgments – “I’m Good because I…” – what Fears stand behind those?  What would happen if you chose Yintegrity  or Self-Trust instead of “Good”?

This is what we took Birth for, and why the Planet is so overpopulated with Beings wanting in on the Action.

In case you’ve lost the bigger plot, Jupiter-Haumea is one corner of the Forbidden-Genius-Recovery Golden Rectangle that encloses our Sedna-Lilith Recovering-Self-Sovereignty-by-Embracing-our-Fear Yin Gate, which is about to morph into a Building-a-New-Lifetime-Based-on-Self-Love Yin Gate.  And of course the huge Yintegrity work we’ve been doing since Time As We Know It Ended in 2012, is another corner of the Golden Rectangle.

19 January 1am PST Ixion Initiates Juno Sadge 26
      2am PST Mars WAxing Square Saturn Pisces-Sagittarius 24

22 January 4am PST Haumea Stationary Retrograde Libra 25

24 January noon PST Hopi Stationary Retrograde Libra 13
      11pm PST Chiron Initiates Venus Pisces 22-3

25 January 2am PST Veritas Stationary Direct Gemini 10

26 January: Moon on Pluto T-Squaring Jupiter and Uranus, 1am-11am PST (Moon on Pluto 1am PST, Moon Square Uranus 7am PST, Moon Square Jupiter 11am PST)

27 January: Sappho Conjunct Klotho Scorpio 22 Opposite Sedna-Aletheia in the Yin Gate, with Sedna Stationary
      Quaoar Enters Capricorn
      New Moon 4pm Aquarius 9

30 January: Venus Enters Shadow Period Pisces 27

1 February: Neptune Initiates Pallas Pisces 11

6 February: Jupiter Stationary Retrograde Conjunct Haumea Libra 24
      Sedna Stationary Direct Taurus 26

15 February: Ixion Initiates Saturn Sagittarius 26

January, Week 2, Early

January 8, 2017

We are all Perps as much as we are Victims.  We are always In Balance; what Feels Out of Balance is Balanced by the Unconscious.  As a Victim, at the very least we are Perpetrating a toxic Lack of Self-Love upon our Victim Self.  Moving into Balance involves bringing the Unconscious Ballast into Consciousness.  We do that with a Searching and Fearless Inventory of what Frightens us – most especially Death, since most Fears reduce to that – Owning our Fears, and Empathizing with ourselves over them: “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Scared of Death, aren’t you.”

That does two things; it gets us Honest with ourself so we no longer have to Protect ourself against what we Deny and Fear.  And it shifts our “Assemblage Point,” or Identity, from being in Fear to being in Compassion.  Examine the syntax…  

“I am Scared” literally means that Fear and I are Merged as One.

“I Feel Scared” means that I have Separated myself from my Fear far enough that I now Recognize it as an Emotion rather than a Reality.

“You poor Sweetheart, you’re Scared, aren’t you” means that I am now looking back at my (now formerly) Frightened self with Compassion.  You can shorten that last sentence to “I am … Compassion.”

This isn’t wordplay, this is quite Real.

Then we Tap ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 ).  “Even though I’m Frightened by the Idea of Death, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  It’s the same process – your Identity Assemblage Point is shifting from “I am Fear” to “I am Feeling” to I am Self-Love.”  But with Tapping, you’re also programming your Energy Body, as you tap on the Acupressure points at the end of each Meridian.

Note that we took a detour there.  Instead of “Even though I’m Frightened by Death, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself” we said “… I’m Frightened by the Idea of Death …” – which is actually usually the case.  So we go from “I am Fear” to “I am Thinking” to “I am Feeling” to “I am Self-Love.”

The two processes – “You poor Sweetheart…” and Tapping complement one another perfectly.  Tapping is Energy Medicine to calm your Emotions.  Calming your Emotions quiets the Vicious Circle of Thoughts that reinforce your Unpleasant Emotions.  “You poor Sweetheart…” puts you – your Identity, your Psychic Core – in a position to Recover the Abandoned parts of yourself that are Scared.  They’re Scared for good reason – they’ve been Abandoned, Banished.  Except in Primary Cultures where one Learns Self-Reliance as part of one’s Childhood, being Abandoned means Death.

Saying “Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade” to yourself is similar, but starts in the mental.  You’re declaring your Intention (PIAVAing in other words) that your negative thoughts be Canceled, that their Vibration (Energy, Emotion) be Neutralized, and that you be Upgraded (into Self-Love).  Every Prayer is answered, and every thought is a Prayer.  Becoming Conscious of your Self-Sabotaging thoughts is an important part of bringing the Self into Balance so your Perp and your Victim Cancel one another Out like two identical sine waves that are perfectly out of phase ( if you’re interested in the science, see https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Superposition_principle#Wave_interference ).

Helplessness and Powerlessness are Real, and it’s easy to be Victims of Helplessness and Powerlessness.  What is required is that we Be Responsible To – not For – our Helplessness and Powerlessness.

It’s not our Fault – that’s Blame, which is Looking to the Past to assign Fault.  We need to move to Responsibility, which involves Looking at the Future with the Intention of Changing Outcomes.  To be Responsible For something sounds a whole lot like being To Blame for it.  To be Responsible To something means that  we give it our Attention and Obedience.  What does it mean to be Responsible To our Powerlessness?

We can start by switching from “I am Powerless” to “I Feel Powerless.”  From there we can go to “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Powerless, aren’t you.”  We may never have the Power to Change the World (though that’s debatable), but we always have the Power to Change our Relationship to the World.  Changing ourself is the onliest Power we have.  So we’re never actually Powerless.  

We may have to Break a lot of Habits and Tap Out a lot of Emotions to Create Significant Change, but we have the Power.  We just have to take the first step.  That’s how Habits are Changed, through Repetition, starting with the first step.

As adults, most of the time our Fear of Abandonment (which our Fear of Death usually reduces to) isn’t fully Present Time – though at least in the US, our modern neo-Dickensian Culture is in fact Abandoning us.  Most of our Fear of Abandonment is a regression to the Real Abandonment we Suffered as Children, when we really didn’t have the Skills to Survive on our own, so we had to depend upon our Abusers, even though we loathed our Abuse.

But guess what.  Even though we didn’t have the Power to Change our Abuse or our Abusers, we did have the Power to Change our Relationship to our Abuse, and we did just that.  We numbed out, we went into Denial, we Learned how to put on many of the Masks that we’ve been Taking Off lately.  Denial is a healthy psychological process.  It’s what we do with Overwhelm.  If we don’t have the Skill to deal with it otherwise, we Deny it.  It’s how we Survive, losing a battle but staying Alive to potentially win the war later.

Denial is Power, part of our Skillset.  So is bringing Ballast out of the Unconscious so we can Change our Relationship to it.  We Denied our Abandonment as Children, we Recover our Abandonment as adults, by bringing it into Consciousness where we can Recognize the chain of thoughts and Emotions that feed it, Own them, “You poor Sweetheart…” them, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade them, and Tap them Out.  Not always Easy, but we have to start somewhere.  It requires only Persistence, and our Abandonment is the best Motivation there is for Persistence.

We didn’t mention earlier that before it goes Stationary in a few hours (2am PST 8 January), Mercury sticks a toe back into Sagittarius.  There in the penultimate Degree of Sagittarius, it Conjoins Quaoar (Survival), Pholus (Full Responsibility), and the Galactic Center (Communique from Headquarters) – that’s where it is as I write this.

Another thing I forgot to mention, as by “coincidence” I didn’t notice it till now, is that Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) is still Conjunct Varuna (the Life Force), which has dipped its toe back into Cancer.  So the Mercury Station is Quincunx (Curiosity) to Vesta-Varuna – in some Paradoxical and not-so-Paradoxical ways, our Epiphanies (Mercury Stationary) about Survival and Responsibility (Quaoar-Pholus) are closely Related to Letting Go of our Unconscious Beliefs that are Anti-Life -Beliefs that aren’t Self-Loving.

Remember too that Vesta was a corner of that Grand Quintile (Learning Opportunity) that we’re enjoying today.  So the GQ is…

  • Vesta-Varuna (Rooting out Anti-Life Unconscious Beliefs)
  • Hopi (Respect for All Things – including ourself)
  • Juno-Saturn-Ixion-Nemesis (Recovery of our Abandoned Genius and the Ego Deaths and Expansion of Consciousness that are necessary to get there)
  • Pallas-Venus-OR10-Nessus-South Node (Irruption of Current- and Past-Life Memories of Abuse and the Setting of Boundaries against same)
  • Moon (Authenticity)

We’re Learning about how all of these things are Related.  How long does this Grand Quincunx stay with us?  Well, the Moon is the obvious “weak link,” as moving about half a Degree per hour, it will only stay in the GQ for about half a day (using our usual three Degrees of Sensitivity, plus another three Degrees to traverse the Angle to the Ixion and Nessus Stellia).

But even without the Moon in the GQ, we have four of the five corners of the Pentagram, which makes the Strongest point of the almost-GQ the Vacancy that the Moon temporarily occupies today.  

That position is the Midpoint of Taurus, one of the four Power Points of the Zodiac, aka the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse.  Prior to our current Precession of the Equinoxes, these were the locations of the four Royal Stars of Persia.  In mid-Taurus Aldebaran, greatest Star of all, heralded the Persian Spring, and signified Success as long as strict Integrity and Honor was followed – our Authenticity corner in the GQ.

Today, post-Precession, the Star Menkar – A Victim of the Unconscious – occupies the Midpoint of Taurus.  I’m not making this up; check Solar Fire or Bernadette Brady!  What a “coincidence,” that [Liberation from] our Victimhood by the Perp in the Unconscious occupies this Location.  The Unconscious is non-Dual; in the Unconscious Victimhood and Liberation from Victimhood are the same Energy, differing only by whether heads or tails is showing.  As Conscious Beings we have the Power to Choose, so I Choose Liberation.

The other “weak link” in the GQ is asteroid Hopi.  As an asteroid, it would normally vacate its position in about two weeks.  But Hopi turns Retrograde on 24 January, so Hopi remains within Sensitivity from December through February at the very least.  There are very slow-moving “planets” in all of the other corners – Varuna, Ixion, OR10, and Menkar, which moves only at the speed of Precession.

The next Big Adventure for this Graduate Course in Liberation from our Archetypes is 12 January, when the Moon crosses Varuna and Vesta.

Shedding

December 30, 2016

Snagged on a poignant Vignette this morning, I caught myself beginning to indulge my Pain.  So I Shed – which feels somewhere between Opening my Angelwings and pouring a quart of (dry) water over my head – and in the process Realized that Stephen Levine’s writings would be particularly Powerful for us in this phase of our Transition.  My copies of his books aren’t handy, but I believe it was Healing into Life and Death or Guided Meditations, Explorations, and Healings that I was thinking of, probably the latter, the one full of incredibly Heart-Opening Guided Meditations.

There is a big difference between Forgiveness and Boundaries.  Forgiveness is a Discovery, not a Decision – you wake up one day and Discover that you aren’t Angry at them any more.  Which doesn’t mean you can’t Invite Forgiveness into your Life, as Stephen often does in these Meditations.  This is a Memory, not a quote…

“Whatever you may have done to Hurt me, Consciously or otherwise, I Forgive you.

“Whatever I may have done to Hurt you, Consciously or otherwise, I Ask that you Forgive me.”

I don’t think Stephen would mind if I misquoted him or borrowed his Work; he had an Ego as Inclusive as the Galaxy.  We’re approaching the first anniversary of his Transition out of his Incarnation…  

https://www.ramdass.org/remembering-stephen-levine-1937-2016/

Hurt is complicated – it can be a Commission or an Omission, or something else entirely, often “just” a Misalignment, where you’re trying to relate but you’re on different tracks.  But where there’s Pain, Inviting Forgiveness is useful.  This one is a quote, from http://levinetalks.com/Writings/single_post/ego-death 

“In the course of breaking the narrow confines of the self-image, a whole new world becomes available when you find out who you aren’t, including your suffering, which wipes out most of your precious/painful identity.  This can be a little disconcerting.

“Just before my face fell off, I looked back at my life as though it were my own.  I was possessed by memory.
“But as I passed behind the well-woven tapestry of appearances, history was undone.  The knots and snags that hold the illusion in place unraveling.
“The suffering defended so long dissolved like the Cheshire smile as a karmic wind caught a loose end and pulled . . .
“In transit beyond the known.”

And if you haven’t yet, and you can spare a week where you can’t do anything else but read (because it’s so compelling), Stephen’s Who Dies? is required reading for anyone.  Actually there’s a good chance you’ll find it to be The Most Important Thing you’ve ever done, so “sparing” a week might not be the right verb.

Back in the 1980s, when Pluto was in Scorpio (“The Way Out is Through”), before it crossed Sagittarius (“The Way Out is Letting Go”) into Capricorn (“Just Fix It Already”), a wonderful body of Literature was produced by the
“Recovery Movement.”  One of my favorites was Susan Forward’s Toxic Parents.  Nothing against parents, and mine were by no means the worst, but this book just does a great job of differentiating Forgiveness from Boundaries, and we need to understand this.