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Raising Vibrations

June 18, 2017

From John Perkins’s The World Is as You Dream It (pp.96-7)…

” ‘To camay,’ Manco [a Quechua Shaman] explained, ‘is to breathe unity into.  No corresponding word exists in Spanish.  Even the idea is difficult to express, for it seems that you northerners don’t believe such things.  In our lives, it is a very important concept, perhaps the most important.  We have several related words: churay, ruray, and supay.  These have to do with creating.  But camay is the most powerful.

“He knelt before a gnarled old agave, a special plant to Andean people that is related to the aloe.  ‘This plant appeared to be dead a year ago.  I camayed into it every day, and now look.’  He patted it tenderly.  ‘Old, but very much alive.’  He stood.  ‘We are all one.’  He turned slowly in a circle, his hands at his side, palms out.  ‘When one of our parts is out of balance, others can help to bring them back.  That is when we camay.’ … ‘The blowing we do during a healing is a form of camaying.  We breathe unity into the sick or injured person to restore balance.’ “

The astrological correlate of Restoring Balance is in particular the Trioctile – three eighths of the way ’round the Zodiac – and in general the Octile, one eighth of the way.  The Eighth Harmonic is itself about Rebalancing, and we favor three of them because the Third Harmonic is all about Love with Wisdom.  We’re especially fond of the Mjölnir or “Hammer of Thor” Configuration, which is a third planet Trioctile to each end of a Square.

Conventional or Ego- and Fate-Reinforcing astrology sees the Square as a Malefic, and the Hammer of Thor as Destructive.  From the Perspective of Spiritual or Ego- and Karma-Transforming astrology, the Square represents Mastery through Challenge, and the Mjölnir, like its predecessor the Vedic Vajra, symbolizes Lightning, Illumination, or Epiphany.  Our recent Stations include a couple of Mjölnirs… 

The long lavender lines are Trioctiles, the short ones Octiles.  The red Squares are, of course, Bioctiles – two eighths equals one fourth.  The Square is ultimately also about Illumination.  Jupiter is the Focus of a Mjölnir across the Sedna-South Node Square, meaning that the Jupiter Station at the Full Moon, and its ongoing Mjölnir, has Illuminated and will continue to Illuminate the Places where we Fear our own Karma – that’s basically the Regressed Hellhole I found myself in through much of the last fortnight. 

Of course we Fear our Karma – that’s the nature of Held Emotions, Emotions that we can’t Tolerate, that we’d rather Die than Re-Experience.  Which is precisely the point – we need an Ego Death here to Expand the way Jupiter would like us to.  The Jupiter T-Square crosses the Opposition between Vertias (Truth) and Juno-Chariklo (Bringing Self-Confidence under Conscious Control), but it’s also a Diamond Star, as Jupiter is at the Focus of a Finger of God from the Venus-Neptune (Our Spiritual Values) Sextile.  Which is to say that Jupiter would like us to – and is offering to help us to – Transform our Relationship to Fear and Held Emotions by Rebalancing the Relationships between our Spiritual Values, Consciousness, and Self-Confidence.

Which, incidentally, has Sedna Squaring the Nodes.  This Square will be Exact – a Can-Opener if there ever was one – on 3 July.  So we’re very lucky to have had the Jupiter Station Illuminating this Process before we get submerged into the depths of it, so we know to bring an extra oxygen tank.  The slower a planet, the deeper it’s Influence in the Unconscious.  Sedna takes fifty times as long as Pluto to make it’s way ’round the Zodiac once.  Most of the other new dwarf planets are called Plutoids, because they’re basically similar to Pluto.  Sedna is so far out that they made a whole new class for it – Sednoids.  So far it’s the only one with a name.

So, what is it that will make you soil your knickers before you can make it to the loo?  Aliens landing in your back yard?  Fire taking down your apartment block?  Nucular War?  A Lunatic in charge?  A Fairy landing on your thumb?  A Plant talking to you?  Abandonment?  Suffocation?  Your neighbors at the door with pitchforks and torches?  Not enough Money?  A Terroirist Attack?  May be a good time to do some pre-planning.

The other Mjölnir is Focused on Varuna (the Life Force), from the Square between recently-Stationary Neptune and Lilith, suggesting that Balancing your Spiritual Beliefs and your Self-Sovereignty will enhance your Life Force; or, as Michael Roads frequently says, “it’s not enough to Believe it, you have to Live it.”  The Neptune T-Square is also a Diamond Star, and one corner of a Water Grand Trine besides. 

Our third recent Station was Makemake; note that it’s Octile to both ends of the Vesta-Sappho Square – We’ll Manifest more easily when we Align our Self-Love with our Unconscious Beliefs.

Dan Scranton’s latest contribution to this issue…

http://danielscranton.com/raising-your-frequency-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

Greetings.  We are the Arcturian Council.  We are pleased to connect with all of you.

“Your frequency matters.  Your frequency, the rate at which you vibrate the energy of your consciousness, becomes your life experience.  It is as simple as that.  However, you have a lot to think about and a lot to do, and you certainly have a lot to process emotionally.  All of that leaves you with very little of your precious time to tend to your frequency.

“You would be very well served by giving it your attention at least periodically throughout your day.  It would be advantageous to you to have reminders for yourselves, to check in and feel how high or low that frequency is.

“You can tell by what you are feeling, but you can also tell by what you are thinking, and even what you are doing.  Certainly, your physical bodies are wonderful feedback mechanisms.  If there is something going on with you physically, then there is certainly something going on with you frequency-wise.  There is always some underlying vibrational cause to what you are experiencing in the physical.

“So if you pay attention to what you are doing, what you are thinking, what you are saying, and how you are feeling physically and emotionally, you will become aware of your vibration.  Once you become aware of it, the next part is to tune into it, to zero in on it.

“You do that by going within.  Pay attention to where you feel particular vibrations.  Pay attention because it serves you to, and because by giving it your attention, you automatically shift it.  You automatically shift the frequency of your vibration by intending to do so, and by focusing on it you awaken yourselves.

“You are in a constant state of awakening now.  The easiest way for you to experience an awakening is to feel into your energetic bodies.  Your energetic bodies don’t just surround you.  They can also be accessed within your physical frame, your physical structure.  And giving them your attention, giving your physical and energetic and your emotional bodies your attention, is all it takes to raise your frequency.

“We are the Arcturian Council, and we have enjoyed connecting with you.”

Makemake

June 12, 2017

Makemake is about Manifestation.  The Makemake Station, 3pm PDT 15 June in 2 Libra – if your Experience is anything like mine – Triggers all of the “personal faults” that keep us from Creating the World We Want.  The Cusp of Libra is about Meeting Other for the first time. 

“In terms of psychological development, the salient component of a child’s environment is his or her relationships with parents and caregivers.  Did we, as children, get what we needed from our relational environment to develop our individual physical, mental, emotional, relational, sexual and spiritual potential?

“When some part of us is not adequately mirrored by our parents. caregivers or teachers, our development is stunted and distorted, and we enter the domain of trauma.  We unconsciously disown the parts of ourselves that are unacceptable to those upon whom we depend, and begin to create a system that is inauthentic and false to who we really are.”

“We abandon what we might have been, to become what we think we ought to be.  We set out on a quiet pilgrimage of desperation and despair.  We become refugees from our own being.  We no longer feel real.  We are physically alive, but we die inside.  We have no choice.  It is our only means of survival.”

–J.Bruce Lloyd and Daniella Sieff, “Return from Exile: Beyond self-alienation, shame and addiction to reconnect with ourselves,” in Daniela Sieff, Understanding and Healing Emotional Trauma, p.26

Since we aren’t Real, very little of ourself feels Authentic, and everything feels like a “personal fault,” whether it’s a Rejected part of our True Self, or an Adopted part of our False Self.  Of course they’re all Skills, including the Vulnerability to Be Present with our Self-Abandonment.  And of course they don’t Feel like Skills, they Feel more like Shit, especially the Vulnerability.

And of course bringing those Faults/Skills/Shit into Consciousness is the necessary first step toward eliminating Self-Sabotage.

The Makemake Station is very different from the charts we’ve become accustomed to.  It’s a lot more straightforward.  The Bottom Line is about Taking Responsibility for the Truth of it all.  Responsibility as in being Able to Respond in ways that Improve Future Outcomes.  The Truth of it is that our Judgments are attempts to paper over our own Perceived “personal faults,” projected onto Other.  It’s a Blessing, because of where it Leads if we’re Willing to Follow it.  Compost rather than Shit…

The Makemake Station T-Squares Aletheia (Truth) and Quaoar (Survival Skills), which Conjoins Pholus (Responsibility).  And Quaoar-Pholus isn’t that far from Saturn-Ixion (The Most Important Thing is Recovering Our Forbidden Genius) – not close enough to directly color the Present Moment, but plenty close (7 Degrees) to Impact Projects begun under this watch.  Projects like the next stage of our movement into 5D.  It’s Varuna (the Life Force) that’s potentially Liberated this week.

And the isolated links to Nemesis (Ego Death) and OR10 (those horrible Vignettes) explain a lot about how this whole process is unfolding.

For you, we hope, it’s more Pleasant.  For me, it’s on my natal Neptune, so yes, we’ve been Dancing with the Material Confusion, aka Shit; now to get busy on the Spiritual Clarity part.

Orcus and Hopi I

May 18, 2017

Our next Adventure is the sequential Stations of dwarf planet Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) and asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things).  Both Stations occur just prior to 6am PST, Orcus on 21 May, and Hopi on 22 May.  This will be a particularly fascinating combination of Energies, because most of our Limiting Beliefs were founded by Oaths, Oaths always Power-Over one side or the other of some Duality, and Respect for All Things means the Absence of Judgment.

The result of the Merging of two such contrasting Energies will be laden with Paradox, and Paradox of the exact nature that Spiritual Progress is paved with.  Remember that limiting our Commitments as much as possible is a prerequisite to Yintegrity.  And to be Self-Sovereign, rather than Slaves to our Archetypes, we need to Renounce all of our Oaths.  Being thus Free, we’ll be able to follow our Instinct and Intuition without constraint.

You would think, for instance, that an Orcus-Hopi astroevent would simply be a great time to Swear to Respect All Things.  But that would Betray Respect for Ourself, as it would inhibit our Freedom to Follow our Instincts and Intuitions.  Paradox is not accessible by the logical mind. so we just have to Accept it as a Mystery.

Paradox, as we’ve said, is the realm of the Yin Gate Configuration, a Golden Rectangle bisected on the short side by a third Opposition.  By “coincidence,” there happen to be three Yin Gates in the Orcus and Hopi Station charts.  Here’s an example of one, in the Orcus Station chart…

The Orcus Station itself T-Squares (Mastery through Challenge) one axis of the Golden Rectangle (which is the blue box).  “Coincidentally,” the axis that it T-Squares is the axis between Lilith (Self-Sovereignty itself) on the right and a Conjunction of Ceres (Sustainability) and Mnemosyne (Memory) on the left.  The implication is that We Already Know How to Sustain Self-Sovereignty, all we have to do is Remember That We Know.

Another “coincidence” – one axis of each of the three Yin Gates is T-Squared by one of the Stationary planets.  Such redundancy convinces us that the Universe is serious about this message.

The Challenge is our accumulated Oaths, and the Archetypes we still cling too.  Remember that Karma is dead; our Karma does not CLING TO US, we CLING TO IT.  Are you about to do something that you’ve done before?  Do it differently.  I was about to go get a half-glass of Beer, so to break up the Pattern I’ll do a couple of pirouettes between here and refrigerator.  Not that a half-glass of Beer is a big Pattern of mine, but a trip to the refrigerator certainly is! 

Surprisingly and Remarkably, each pirouette produced a big surge of Joy.  I may adopt a new Pattern!  If you spot an old fart pirouetting down the road, say Hi.  Wait, that’s an Oath!  Revert!

The Opposition in the Yin Gate itself (the one in the center of the Golden Rectangle – I know, it’s both blue and Golden – blue because that’s how we draw Energy lines representing Grace, and Golden because the ratio of the sides is the Golden Ratio of Sacred Geometry fame) is between asteroid Veritas (Truth) and dwarf planet Hylonome (Letting Go of Archetypes) – yet another redundant repetition of our basic theme here, which is about Facing the Truth that Allowing ourself to be Directed by our Unconscious Patterns not only Inhibits our Spiritual Progress, it also generates a good deal of Self-SabotagePirouettes are in our Future whether by Oath or Instinct!

The other diagonal of this Golden Rectangle is an Opposition between asteroids Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) and Nemesis (Ego Death).  Lordy Lordy, another redundant repetition!  Well, most of us will have Ego invested in our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs – that’s how we get them to stick.  Of course we all want to be good little girls and boys, and if Granny told us over and over again that good little girls and boys don’t do that, then there you have it – Ego Investment.  

So you remember how to do Ego Death, right?  You reinterpret “I’d rather DIE” to actually be “I’D rather die,” and them you just let it happen.  Egos are like Moles (the ones in your yard) – if you ever do succeed in killing one, another one will pop up to replace it before you can say “Hooray, I’m Freee at Last!”   Chagrin (or Terror) over Ego Death is totally wasted; new Egos are a dime a dozen.  When someone tells you they gave up their Ego when they were Enlightened, that’s their Ego talking. 

You Embrace Confusion as the First Stage of Growth in Consciousness, which heralds less Slavery to Archetypes and less Self-Sabotage (and another sign of Ego Death).  You might be driving or walking a few blocks from home, and suddenly realize that you’re in a very different World, even while you know exactly where you are.  You might suddenly forget all your passwords, or your spouse’s name, because without warning you’ve regressed to age 6 or 12 or 32 or Atlantis or the time you met Genghis Khan, when the Steppes were in bloom.

As with Curiosity, you want to Break all Habits (Oaths!) to try to Understand.  Trying to Understand means you’re scrambling back to your Olde Ego, and losing all the benefits of Psychic and Spiritual Growth.  Confusion and Curiosity are Beautiful just as they are, they aren’t problems to be solved or reasons to exercise that big glucose-burner in your skull.  They’re glorious states to relax into.  They will take you to Heaven if you let them.

This is only one part of the Orcus-Station chart; we’ll take up other parts in the next installment.  For now, notice that the Orcus Station happens to be Conjunct asteroid Karma – yet one more confirmation of our basic theme of Liberation.  The Initiation of Karma by Orcus already occurred, in mid-November of last year, at 10 Virgo, “”Two heads looking out and beyond the shadows: The growth of true understanding, born out of the transcendence of duality even while immersed in the world of duality.” 

The Validations just keep on coming!  The Karma-Orcus Exposition (Retrograde Conjunction) occurred in early March, and the Confidence-Builder (final crossing) will happen on 30 May.  By then we should be feeling pretty good about how much Karmic baggage we’ve been putting out on the curb for recycling.

May I

April 30, 2017

May looks a little calmer than we’ve become accustomed to, other than the ongoing Big Events like the Fear/Self-Love Yin Gate and our Rebirth into Yintegrity and our Abandoned-Genius Recovery and our interview with the Galactic Center.  Well, that doesn’t sound so calmer does it.  But we’re used to these Energies, they aren’t sneaking in the back door after we go to bed any more, they’re at the front door knocking while we’re awake. 

It’s lack of Experience with an Energy that makes it most Challenging for us.  As all these dwarf planets have been Discovered over the last couple of decades, Energies that have been buried in the Unconscious now see the Light of day, and it will take Western Cultures a while to “Ascend” to becoming accustomed to working with them Consciously.  Eastern and Primary (what used to be called “Primitive”) Cultures have always known about them, which is why these Cultures are Rising while Western Cultures are Sinking to the extent that they aren’t adapting.

Communication and Negotiation should flow more smoothly again after 3 May (10am PDT) as Mercury turns Direct again after its three-week hiatus.  The Station occurs right on Uranus (our Soul Self) and Eris (Revelation of What the Ego Couldn’t Abide and Previously Held out of Consciousness), so Communication and Negotiation between Our Various Selves will be Enhanced the most.  Go for Win-Win – Listen carefully to seek the Positive Result that each of your Internal Voices Wants, and then Ask your Other Selves how they can Help without giving up their own Needs. 

If Other People are Acting out these roles for you, they’ll trigger strong Emotions in you (negative or positive).  Don’t fall for that – it’s called Projection, and it’s Toxic.  Just Ask yourself, “What part of ME is that character Standing In for?” and go from there to Win-Win.  If the character is too odious to actually be part of ME (for instance, they might be an empty suit whose only attribute is pathological Self-Confidence), then your work is cut out for you – Face Down the Ego Death and Embrace the Hell out of your Nemesis.

The 10 May Full Moon (Illumination) will Stretch us more, as the (Full) Moon itself teams up with Pluto (What We Can Maneuver but not Reverse) and Juno (What’s Coming into Consciousness) to form the base of a Finger of God (Pay Attention to This!) pointing at dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential, Infinite Choice).  This will be much Enhanced by the simultaneous Station (Strengthening) of Juno (9 May 4pm PDT), so we can Expect a great deal of Vulnerability.

This is joined by a huge and closely related Grand Quintile (the Gift of Easy Learning) that will help us a lot, though we’re still likely to Experience Ego Deaths around it, as Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) and Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) join the Full-Moon Sun in the Grand Quintile along with Jupiter (Expansion) and Saturn-Ixion (The Most Important Thing is to Recover our Abandoned Genius).

Once we Recognize and Respond to Emotional and Physical Pain as the Learning Opportunities that they are, and locate our Excitement about the Unknown Glory that lies beyond the Limitations that we’re about to Leap Over, Ego Death becomes a Joy. 

We of course also have to Recognize that the Unknown Glory is Unknown, and let it remain so.  If we try to speculate on its color and flavor with the mind, we’re simply Embracing the Limitations we could be Letting Go Of.  Better to Embrace the Excitement in our Emotional Body without needing a reason to be Excited other than “Yay!  This Excitement Feels Great, This is the Way I Want to Feel more often in my Future, and Practice Makes Perfect!”

 

March IVb – Venus-Envy

March 3, 2017

Anxious?  The Retrogradation of Venus “is” (as without, so within) the Descent of Inanna, where the Goddess is systematically stripped of Her Olde Ego.  If you haven’t read Starhawk’s Truth or Dare, her wonderful Manifesto of Power-With, now is the time to do it.  Whatever you’re Anxious about today, probably identifies the Ego/Beliefs/Limitations that are about to be rinsed away over the next six weeks.

Tapping this morning on “I am scared about…” I realized that I was strongly emphasizing the first word, the “I” part.  So I Tapped on “I am that I am” instead, which quelled the mental noise and left the Apprehension in the Body – which is at least closer to Truth, and Feels that way.  Tapping on just “I’m Scared” several times reduces the intensity of that.  

I’m reminded of a snippet of an old Mel Gibson film I saw once.  Some monster of a guy was threatening to beat the krap out of him and he says, “Are you going to kill me?”  And the monster says “Whazzamatta, you scared?”  And Gibson says “No, I’m just trying to plan my day.”

So yes, given the state of the World and an imminent Descent into Ego Death, a measure of enduring vague Fear is probably appropriate.  It might be a good time to try out the Violet Fire…

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.co.uk/2017/02/blazing-violet-fire-through-suzanne-lie.html

I’m lost without the Anxiety, because if I don’t know what ills may befall me I don’t know what to Do to protect myself from them.  Which is actually good, since Anxiety seldom makes accurate predictions, excepting self-fulfilling prophesies.  As is so often the case, Daniel Scranton’s Arcturian Channeling for today addresses the issue succinctly…

http://danielscranton.com/go-beyond-thought-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

Of course he doesn’t call it that, or even refer directly to it, but he’s basically talking about PIAVAing.  In case you’re new here, that means…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/09/02/piava-review/

Rather than What To Do to Protect myself from What I Fear, PIAVA suggests I focus on What I Want.  I mean, if I’m Anxious about those things, it means I’m not fully prepared for them, so Ego Death around them is a great Outcome, as it may well Liberate me from my Limiting Beliefs around them, which would be a huge boon.  An imminent Ego Death is cause for Celebration, though I haven’t Breathed enough yet to get to Excitement.  So I can try PIAVAs on the order of “May I be relieved of cause for Anxiety around…”

And it helps to recall that my Anxieties were around issues I’ve previously PIAVAed about – that’s a call to Pay Attention.  When I do Pay Attention I understand immediately that these Anxieties are Up so I can Let Go of them.  The Archetype, the Karmic Pattern to be Broken, is Worry, intellectualizing the Emotional and Physical.  As for the vague Apprehension – just an exercise in Soft Belly.

Whenever Ego Death lurks, we should Ask, Where is Nemesis?  In ten days she crosses Pluto.  A Pluto Ego Death should be a big one.  Turns out that today is the day when Nemesis comes within our usual standard of three Degrees of Sensitivity to Pluto.  Nemesis-Pluto is a five-year Cycle, taking us up to – haven’t we seen this number recently? – 2022.  The Initiation is 13 March at 4am in 20 Capricorn – “A hidden choir singing,” invoking Heaven.  So perhaps just PIAVAing Heaven on Earth would be appropriate, though it’s Scary to contemplate the potential Healing Crises from that!  What the Hell, though, we’re already Scared.

The next Question that pops to mind, Where is Eurydike – Trust?  The Eurydice Myth was all about Trusting that Escape from Pluto’s Realm was possible!  This deserves an essay all its own…

Asteroid Eurydike is one foot of another Flying Squirrel Configuration that features three Fingers of God, pointing at 

  • Eurydike (Trust) itself, from the Sextile between Mercury-Neptune (Confusion) and Hylonome-Juno-Chariklo (Becoming Conscious of Charismatic Archetypes
  • Hopi (Respect for All Things), across the Sextile from Mnemosyne-Ceres (Remembering How to Create Sustainability) to Mercury-Neptune
  • Mercury-Neptune at the head of the Kite Opposite Karma-Orcus (Breaking Archetypal Oaths) at the Midpoint between Hopi and Eurydike

Mercury-Neptune – Blessed Confusion – is in charge of the whole Eurydike Configuration.  Neptune Initiates Mercury at 4am PST on 4 March at 12 Pisces, being “tested” as we are Initiated into a new phase of our Spiritual Evolution.  Okay.

January, Week 3 – Ego Death Week I

January 16, 2017

So, what’s an Ego Death?  Addicts, Born-Again Christians, and Tibetan Buddhists might be the only folks around who really understand what it means.  It happens when we realize that what we’re doing in Life is really not working, and our only option is to “Give Up,” or, more properly, “Give It Over.”  

Remember the old saw about doing the same thing over and over and expecting different outcomes?  When we Realize that we’re doing the same thing over and over again and it’s never accomplished what we’d hoped it would, we’re stopped cold in our tracks, and know that we have to try something new.

Only problem is, do we know how to try something new?  Or will we just try the same old thing under a different disguise.  It helps a lot to understand the concept of Identity, because an Ego Death is a Change of Identity, like when Clark becomes Superman.  

For most of us most of the Time, our Identity is transparent to us, because we’re relating from it rather than to it, as Stephen Levine says (Turning toward the Mystery, p.53).  When we say “I’m [not] one of those people who…” our Identity becomes opaque and observable, but who among us says that as an Observation about our Limits, rather than a boast about our Prejudices?

And worse, how many times a day do we make a Decision or Choice based on an unstated “I’m [not] one of those people who…”?  At least if we go around saying, to ourself or others, “I’m [not] one of those people who…”, we’re Conscious of our Identity, even if we don’t realize it’s a Mask and a Limitation.  

Let’s take a Real-Time example.  Suppose I think “I’m one of those people who writes good blogs.”  And Suppose I start thinking, “This one is hard,” and I have to stop and PIAVA assistance to communicate clearly, because I like that Feeling of finishing a post and thinking to myself, “This is really good!”  Then Suppose what happens next is that I Feel Despair about accomplishing it.

Well, I’m closing in on my Identity as a writer, aren’t I.  You’d think that when I had to Ask for help, my Identity would have already taken a hit.  (Notice that “My Identity” and “I” are synonyms – substitute one for the other in those sentences and see if it’s illustrative of anything.)  No, I/my-Identity long ago Realized that I/my-Identity could do anything a lot better when I/it had help from the Ethers.  But I/it didn’t really Change the Subject, did I/it.  I/it went straight from PIAVAing to Despair.

Of course.  Our poster child for Despair, Chiron, is dancing with Mars (16 January, 10pm PST, 22 Pisces – A new law is promulgated.)  I’ve already had one episode of intense Frustration this evening, where I got to watch how I React to an impassable dead end.

So how do we (ie, I/my-Identity) Change the Subject?  (Notice the editorial we-Identity creeping in there.)  Well, I/my-body have to pee anyway, and I/it want some ice cream, and I/it can use one of my standbys, a hand of solitaire.  Diversions!  That’ll Change the Subject!  Of course, the Sugar has cut me/it off from my/its Feelings.  So, now what.  

Well, I/it can try to Pay Attention.  What was my/its original issue/PIAVA?  Oh yeah, how would I/it Feel if I/it wrote a lousy blog post.  Well, unfortunately for youalls, I/it is not that much of a Perfectionist.  (I/it is Noticing I/my-Cleverness subtly patting me/it on the back for writing this as a narrative.)

Okay, I/it admit it, I’m Feeling Confused.  Are you/your-Identity Feeling Confused too?  Confusion is good, Confusion is the first sign of Growth, right?  Growth in Consciousness isn’t possible without an Ego Death.  We’re like the Snake and Turtle and Crab – our Identity is literally an exoskeleton, and we have to molt it in order to Grow.  So, now, are you perfectly Clear about what an Ego Death is?  

No?  Well, good, because if you were, you wouldn’t have Grown, you’d just have been playing Scrabble with me.  Maybe we’ve talked circles around it long enough to plant seeds into your Intuition, maybe not.  At any rate, besides Learning about our Relationship to Despair and Frustration, this week we’re also going to be Confronting two other Big Ego Deaths.

In the first one, we’re face-fo-face with our Abandoned Genius, and we won’t recognize them unless we’re willing to Embrace a Big Ego Death, aka a Change in Who We Believe Ourselves to “Be,” on a deep level.  

19 January, 1am PST, Ixion (Abandoned Genius) Initiates Juno (the Edges of Consciousness), Sagittarius 26 (“A Flag Bearer”).  Oh my, a Flag is an Identity, isn’t it!

What might this look like?  

Well, we might meet someone we’re intensely Jealous or Envious of.  Someone who has all the glorious Qualities that we’ve always wished we had, and wears them as if they’re Effortless.  Someone Brilliant, Gorgeous, Talented, and Fabulous.  I Wonder what would happen if we tried to Mirror their admirable Qualities instead of Shying away from them or Feeling Inferior.

We could meet someone we immediately really dislike, and probably not know why.  Whoever suppressed our Genius probably started very early in our Lifetime, before we had developed much of an Identity and Memory, or even before we had collected enough Experience to even detect a difference.  So when we encounter a Mirror of our Programmers, we might simmer internally without knowing why.  So we may imagine that we don’t like them because “they’re one of those people who…”

Or, maybe we’ll meet someone whom we have an intense Desire to Please.  There’s a good chance we’re still Collaborating in the Suppression of our Genius,, and to the extent that’s True, someone who reminds us of our Programmers may seem like someone we need to Please.  Like Unconsciously falling in “love” with our Kidnappers.

So, if our Identity is Paying Attention, we could try, after we find a Safe Space and Time to do it in, Imagining ourself to be the person who Triggered us, and then watching to see what arises.  Even if you detect nothing, you may still have planted a few seeds in your Intuition, to sprout later.

Shedding

December 30, 2016

Snagged on a poignant Vignette this morning, I caught myself beginning to indulge my Pain.  So I Shed – which feels somewhere between Opening my Angelwings and pouring a quart of (dry) water over my head – and in the process Realized that Stephen Levine’s writings would be particularly Powerful for us in this phase of our Transition.  My copies of his books aren’t handy, but I believe it was Healing into Life and Death or Guided Meditations, Explorations, and Healings that I was thinking of, probably the latter, the one full of incredibly Heart-Opening Guided Meditations.

There is a big difference between Forgiveness and Boundaries.  Forgiveness is a Discovery, not a Decision – you wake up one day and Discover that you aren’t Angry at them any more.  Which doesn’t mean you can’t Invite Forgiveness into your Life, as Stephen often does in these Meditations.  This is a Memory, not a quote…

“Whatever you may have done to Hurt me, Consciously or otherwise, I Forgive you.

“Whatever I may have done to Hurt you, Consciously or otherwise, I Ask that you Forgive me.”

I don’t think Stephen would mind if I misquoted him or borrowed his Work; he had an Ego as Inclusive as the Galaxy.  We’re approaching the first anniversary of his Transition out of his Incarnation…  

https://www.ramdass.org/remembering-stephen-levine-1937-2016/

Hurt is complicated – it can be a Commission or an Omission, or something else entirely, often “just” a Misalignment, where you’re trying to relate but you’re on different tracks.  But where there’s Pain, Inviting Forgiveness is useful.  This one is a quote, from http://levinetalks.com/Writings/single_post/ego-death 

“In the course of breaking the narrow confines of the self-image, a whole new world becomes available when you find out who you aren’t, including your suffering, which wipes out most of your precious/painful identity.  This can be a little disconcerting.

“Just before my face fell off, I looked back at my life as though it were my own.  I was possessed by memory.
“But as I passed behind the well-woven tapestry of appearances, history was undone.  The knots and snags that hold the illusion in place unraveling.
“The suffering defended so long dissolved like the Cheshire smile as a karmic wind caught a loose end and pulled . . .
“In transit beyond the known.”

And if you haven’t yet, and you can spare a week where you can’t do anything else but read (because it’s so compelling), Stephen’s Who Dies? is required reading for anyone.  Actually there’s a good chance you’ll find it to be The Most Important Thing you’ve ever done, so “sparing” a week might not be the right verb.

Back in the 1980s, when Pluto was in Scorpio (“The Way Out is Through”), before it crossed Sagittarius (“The Way Out is Letting Go”) into Capricorn (“Just Fix It Already”), a wonderful body of Literature was produced by the
“Recovery Movement.”  One of my favorites was Susan Forward’s Toxic Parents.  Nothing against parents, and mine were by no means the worst, but this book just does a great job of differentiating Forgiveness from Boundaries, and we need to understand this.

Like John Said…

December 27, 2016

Remember Both/And; Truth is Different for each of us because Truth resides in the Heart, not in the mind’s Duality.  Even if this is not your Truth, it may be useful to you, as all New Perspectives are.  New Perspectives may help you Let Go of Judgment of Others, they may help you Let Go of Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, and they may Grow Corn for you in Unusual Circumstances.

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2017, which is a Tenth-Harmonic (Abundance) Year, begins with dwarf planet Makemake Stationary.  A planet is at its Strongest when it’s Stationary.  The Essence of Makemake is Manifestation.  As John said…

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2016/12/it-is-now-arcturians-through-suzanne-lie.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EqP3wT5lpa4

But first we need to get past this week’s once-in-a-millennium Funfest.  Actually, though, since they’re co-incident, we need to interpret them as one astroevent.  How we Respond to this week will have a big Impact on how our Manifestation Skills shift in the New Year.  There are many Keys to that process…

(1) The Most Important Thing is inviting our Abandoned Genius to come Home.  Treat them like a Wild Animal that you’re trying to tame.  Offer them a Treat – like maybe an Open Heart to them, then step back and sit down, facing slightly away, so they don’t think you’re watching them (Change the Subject).  Then – sit quietly and Wait.  As long as it takes.  You can’t approach them directly.  You have to Demonstrate your Loving Kindness, Be Open and Inviting but Neutral and Non-Attached, and Let Them Approach You.  If you do that, they will come, you just don’t know how long it will take, so you need Patience.  

(2) You have Time, you don’t need to rush.  What you do need to do is to Show Them Consistency, and Avoid sudden moves that would Startle them.  Find your Space of Loving Kindness, and Apologize to your Abandoned Genius  for Allowing them be Banished from your Life.  Don’t Punish yourself, it was something you had to do in order to Survive at the Time, and your Safety was then paramount.  But Feel their Pain and Abandonment, over having been Banished all these years.  Then PIAVA that they Return to You, Let It Go, and send them Love.  Then after a while – several to many hours – check to see if you’ve Learned anything.  Then Do It Again.

(3) While you’re doing the Processes above and below, hold a Crystal or Jewel or Stone in your hand.  Choose one that you feel very Safe and Loving with.  If it’s wearable, great, wear it all week.  If not, keep it in a pocket if you can.  If it’s too big for that, put in a Sacred Space and Be There or Visualize it as you begin each of these Processes (do these whenever you think of it all week – constantly if possible!).  If you don’t have the perfect Crystal handy, gaze at this one…

Annabergite 3952 photo:J.Buss

Print it out (from http://www.jbuss.com/jbl4d/annabergite1.htm ) and carry it with you; that’s your Abandoned Genius sparkling there in the center, as It – that is, You, the Abandoned part of You – struggles to escape the maw that’s about to devour It – that is, You, your historical You.

(4) Be Compassionate with any Pain you Feel.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really hurting aren’t you.”  Then put your thoughts on something else.  After a while you can check in again to see if you’re still in Pain.  If you aren’t, spend a few minutes in Gratitude.  If you are still (or again) in Pain, give yourself another “You poor Sweetheart…”  When You are Hurting, that’s literally True – You Are Hurt.  When you give yourself a “You poor Sweetheart…” You aren’t Hurt any more, You Are Compassion.  And Empathy Heals.  

(5) You don’t have to Fix anything or Change anything, you just have to be Loving and Gentle with yourself.  It’s actually The Most Important Thing.  Ask yourself, “I Wonder what would happen if I Trusted that my own Empathy is Enough to Heal Myself.”  Don’t seek Answers, just stay in Wonder as long as you can.  If you want you can Imagine that it’s True, then look to see what your Inner Eye sees.  If you see Peace, you’re Golden.  If you see Trouble, Ask what you’re Feeling there, and give yourself another “You poor Sweetheart…” about that.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Doubt, aren’t you.”

(6) You are Learning a Paradox about how…

  • Self-Sovereignty (which includes Doing and Having What you Want)

is Related to… 

  • Being Truthful with Yourself about What you Fear

The Relationship isn’t Logical, so don’t try to make it so.  Imagine how you’ll Feel when you can Do and Have exactly what you Want to Do and Have, moment to moment.  Then Ask yourself if you have any Yes-Buts.  Take them one by one, and convert them to Yes-Ands.  This is a Paradox, remember, it doesn’t make sense.  Maybe something like… “I Have Complete Freedom and Abundance, Yes, And my Life is falling apart because I’m not honoring my ten zillion Commitments!”  Or… “I Have Complete Freedom and Abundance, Yes, And how am I treating other people?”  Then just Change the Subject.  Nothing to Solve, nothing to Fix, just another Paradox.  Trust a Perfect Unfoldment; you just See Through a Glass Darkly.

(7) Be on the lookout for Ego Death.  The Signs are Thinking “I’d rather Die” or “I’d do anything for Love, but I won’t do That,” Not recognizing the landmarks in your own neighborhood, Feeling Confused, Not being able to keep your regular schedule, Feeling like you’re just now meeting old friends or colleagues for the first time.  It’s like you’re a Walk-In, but you aren’t.  It’s Weird.  An Ego Death is actually an Ego Rebirth.  It’s exactly what you Crave.  Our natural Reaction is to do everything we can to Prevent a Death/Rebirth; you want to do everything you can to be Loving and Gentle with it.  You’re a Babe in Arms, put yourself to your Breast, rock, and coo.

(8) Every Memory, Flashback, Vignette, and Historical Flash you Receive is Significant.  This is what it’s about.  They’re all either…

  • Related to how you were before your “Betters” Abandoned/Abused you
  • Related to the chronic or acute Traumas that characterized or precipitated your Abandonment
  • Related to your resulting Lifetime Self-Abandonment
  • Related to the many episodes in your Life where you exercised your now-Habitual Self-Abandonment (any “If-Only-I’d-Have…” Flashbacks?)
  • Related to your Shoulds (which are all Self-Abandonments)
  • Related to the Limiting Beliefs and Karmic Archetypes that are Lit Up so you can become Conscious of them and Choose to Let them Go
  • Related to episodes of Genuine Self-Love and Self-Care (for Contrast)

Or several/many/ all of the above.

As we’ve said, these are Big Doin’s.

Makemake’s Exact Retrograde Station is at 3pm PST on 2 January.

(1) Abandoned Genius (AG) as The Most Important Thing (TMIT): Saturn/TMIT Conjunct Ixion/AG and Nemesis/Ego-Death Oppose dwarf planet Chaos/Unlimited-Potential, forming the base of a Chiron/Despair-and-Miracle T-Square/Challenge.  Saturn-Ixion Opposite Chaos and Jupiter-Haumea/Big-Rebirth Opposite Uranus-Ceres-Eris-Mnemosyne/Memories -to-make-our-True-Self-Sustainable form a  Golden Rectangle/Creative-Genius.

(2a) Having Time: Ixion Initiates Saturn 15 February in 25 Sagittarius.  Other closely related intermediate events:

  • Ixion Initiates Nemesis 6 January 25 Sagittarius
  • Juno Opposes Chaos 6 January
  • Juno Squares Chiron 7 January 
  • Saturn Initiates Juno 11 January 23 Sagittarius
  • Ixion Initiates Juno 19 January 26 Sagittarius
  • Jupiter Stationary Retrograde Conjunct Haumea 6 February 24 Libra

(2b) Survival/Safety: Moira/Fate Sextile Saturn-Ixion-Nemesis-Juno etc etc.

(3) Crystal: the Vacancy that completes the Chiron T-Square is 22 Virgo, A royal coat of arms rich in Precious Stones.  Annabergite is one of the few Crystalline Minerals that was Organically Alive just before it Crystalized.  The appropriate Heart color and dangerous positioning on this one is a convenient “coincidence.”  Or, you could use this Cluster (from http://www.jbuss.com/jbl4/tbam1878bp.htm ), with the Violet Flame:

(4) Compassion/Empathy: the Chiron T-Square.

(5) Wonder and Trust: the Tricolor Saturn-Ixion-Nemesis-Juno Square Chiron Quincunx Eurydike/Trust Trine Saturn-Ixion et al.

(6) Self-Sovereignty/Truth-Fear: Sedna-Aletheaia/Being-Truthful-about-our-Fear to Lilith/Self-Sovereignty Yin Gate/Mystery School embedded in the Golden Rectangle in (1).

(7) Ego Death: Jupiter/Amplification Conjunct Haumea/Rebirth, Uranus-Eris Stellium, Saturn-Ixion Stellium, etc etc etc.

(8) Flashbacks: Mnemosyne/Memories in the Uranus-Eris Stellium, Nemesis/Regret in the Saturn-Ixion Stellium, Aletheia/Truth on Sedna, etc etc etc.

1 December and the Angels

December 1, 2016

Today’s chart looks a lot like the New Moon chart from a couple of days ago.  The

  • (1) Big Learning-to-Embrace-Fear Opportunity (Grand Quintile), the
  • (2) Abandoned-Genius-Recovery Mystery School (Yin Gate), and the
  • (3) Great Grace around Trust (Grand Sextile)

Configurations all remain, with their flood of Ten Thousand Vignettes and no shortage of Ego Deaths.  It’s a busy month.  

In the first week or so…

  • (4) Expect the Ten Thousand Vignettes to continue to Expand greatly, in service of the continuing Removal of our Masks.
  • (5) Our Opportunity/Challenge to Let Go of obsolete Oaths, Promises, stuck Patterns, and Limiting Beliefs is much enhanced by the Station of dwarf planet Orcus.
  • (6) Our Trust issues become more obvious; if we Remember that we’re immortal Souls taking a vacation in a physical Body, it might make Trust easier – the Soul is invulnerable, though if We-as-a-Body Forget our Soul-Self too much we can miss the Cmail* requesting that we check in for our return flight, extending our vacation more than we’ll Enjoy.         (*Channeled message) 
  • (7) We’re working on our article on Lunar Emotional Energy as the glue that holds Matter together.  The theme runs a lot like this:  It’s Passion that drives Manifestation, but it’s the combination of Conscious Passion and Unconscious Passion that does the work.  As we Unify these two, Manifestation becomes more Effortless.  In early December there’s a big push toward making our Mask Removal Permanent, an essential step toward Integrating our Passions and eliminating Self-Sabotage.
  • (8) Think about how the last week or two have been very different in your Life.  Seeing more Mysterious movements out of the corner of your eye?  Obvious signs of Ego Rebirth (such as feeling lost on a route you’ve traveled often)?  Long deep Sleeps?  Unusually sharp Intuitions?  Unexplainable surges of Excitement?  Angels are becoming more Present; keep your eye out for evidence of them.  The more you Acknowledge their Presence, the more they can work their Magic.
  • (9) If you’re thinking hard about Survival under difficult circumstances, you aren’t alone.  These are Instincts.  However, see (6), (7), and (8).
  • (10) Some of those Ten Thousand Vignettes and Survival scenarios may seem intolerable, like You’d rather Die than go through that again.  It’s an Invitation to Ego Death; do RSVP; if you Embrace the Sensation (“You poor Sweetheart, you’d rather Die than do that again, wouldn’t you”) you’re less likely to have to endure it again. 
  • (11) Remember that the basic assignment is the Deepening of Self-Love.

Oh, and Italy votes to leave the EU on 4 December, or rather, Italy votes on whether or not to leave the EU on 4 December – the next shoe dropping in the Collapse of Cultures as we know them.  

In astrologuese…

(1) The Sedna (Embracing Fear) Grand Quintile with Vesta (Limiting Unconscious Beliefs), Jupiter (Expansion), Moon-Mercury-Quaoar (Survival Issues; see also (9)) and Neptune-South Node (Embracing Emerging Held Emotions, Loss of the Veil, Collapse of Cultures; Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity).

(2) The Ixion Mystery School – the Golden Rectangle formed by Ixion-Pholus (Being Fully Responsible to our Abandoned Genius), Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Haumea (Rebirth), and Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (Identifying with our Soul Self).  Embedded in the Golden Rectangle is a Yin Gate between Sedna (Embracing Fear) and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty).

(3) The Eurydike Grand Sextile, formed by the Golden Rectangle (2) and an Opposition between Pallas (Boundaries) and Eurydike (Trust); Pallas-Eurydike forms a Grand Cross with Sedna-Lilith.

(4) Mnemosyne (Memories) Stationary Direct 6 December (Strong; we don’t usually give asteroids more than 3-4 days of Sensitivity, but it’s been within one Degree of its Station since 18 November, and could be one of the major Triggers for our Ten Thousand Vignettes) at 7pm PST at 20 Aries (“A young girl feeding birds in winter; overcoming crises through compassion“) and of course still very much Conjunct Uranus-Eris-Ceres (Making our True Self or Yintegrity Permanent).

(5) Orcus (Making and Breaking of Oaths) Stationary Retrograde 7 December (very Strong for at least a week prior; it’s been within one Degree of its Station since about 22 September) at noon PST on the South Node (Karma, Held Emotions, Archetypes we’ve Merged with, Hidden Skills).

 (6) Eurydike (Trust) Stationary Retrograde 9 December (Strong for at least 3-4 days prior; within one Degree since 20 November) at 9am PST in 24 Leo (“Totally concentrated upon inner spiritual attainment, a person is sitting in a state of complete neglect of bodily appearance and cleanliness“); does 24 Degrees sound familiar?  How about…

  • Eurydike Opposite Pallas (Boundaries) and Square the Lilith-Sedna Opposition (Fear of Misogyny), making a Grand Cross (Busy Busy Busy); of course the Lilith-Sedna Opposition is the core of the Mystery School (see (2) above).
  • Eurydike Trine to Ixion-Pholus (Being Fully Responsible to Recover our Abandoned Genius, Brilliance, Gorgeousness, Talent, and Fabulosity) and Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (see (4) above), making a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Grace).
  • Eurydike Sextile to Haumea (Rebirth) and Chaos (Unlimited Potential), completing the Grand Sextile (Great Grace – after We take the first step).  The first step is Self-Love; in (4) above You are the Bird and the Young Girl both – “You poor Sweetheart…” – see (10) below.

(7) Ceres (Sustainability) Stationary Direct 9 December (Strong for at least 3-4 days prior; within one Degree since 22 November) at 4pm PST in 22 Aries (“The gate to the garden of all fulfilled desires“); see (4) above.

(8) on 5 December at about 3am, Hylonome (Detaching from Archetypes) Waxing Squares (Challenge) Makemake (Manifestation).  The Hylonome-Makemake Cycle in general is about Letting Go of Self-Sabotage.  The Energy of a Cycle is strong around its Initiation, then goes underground till the Waxing Square, then reaches the mainstream.  The current Cycle was Initiated in June 1989 (think Harmonic Convergence) at 3 Virgo, “Two Guardian Angels“!

(9) Quaoar (Survival) Initiates Mercury (Mentality, Communication) 2 December at 2pm PST in 30 Sagittarius (“The Pope blessing the faithful”).

(10) Nemesis (Ego Death) Initiates the Sun (our Essence) 2 December at noon PST in 12 Sagittarius (“A flag turns into an Eagle, turning into a Chanticleer [Rooster] saluting the Dawn”); again, this is the Degree of the Pluto-Chiron Initiation at the turn of the Century, suggesting our Journey from Separation to Unity, Nationalism to a broader, sharper Perspective and from there to the Return of the Light.  The Sun-Nemesis Cycle is about the Evolution of the Self.

(11) Asteroid Sappho (Self-Love) entered Scorpio (Relentlessness) a few days before the New Moon.  We’re warming up to an Initiation of Sappho by Klotho (Designing a new Ego-Lifetime) near the end of January.

Yintegrity Rising

June 23, 2016

A reader writes…

I don’t think they are happy with me.  I am not following their tradition and I’m not sure what the impact of that will be, but I don’t care!  I’m not doing what I should, I’m doing what I want.  And that is SO different for me.

“I’ve always been the analyze/plan/execute person.  I do my duty.  I fulfill my promises.  If I commit, I follow through.  Period.  No doubt.  No question.  I guess what you would call “Yangtegrity.”  And it has served me well.  Very well.  For my whole life.

“Over the past…18 months, two years, there’s been a growing resistance to all of it!  I don’t even want to show up half the time!  (I’ve always taught my kids-Showing up is 80% of success.)  My intellect is so confused, my ego is having panic attacks.  Is this moving into Yintegrity?  

“There’s a third part of me that is very calmly standing by, reassuring that we’ll work out a new way of functioning, everything will be fine, the earth will not stop spinning on its axis.  So is that the pressure and fear I’m feeling?  The shift into Yintegrity?”

You bet!!  

And like any Big Change, there’s a hollow space, a gap, where our Olde Ego is in Lackawanna (“I know I’m done for; why should I care?”), and our New Ego hasn’t got its training wheels on straight yet.  So we’re wobbly.  Confusion is good; it’s a reliable sign that we’re Growing.  Anxiety is common, as our Olde Patriarchy-Attuned Egos needed to know what was going on so they could figure out who to Please how, when.

Time for PIAVAs.  “Great Spirit, please help me Trust my True Future so I can Surrender my False Past more comfortably” or the like.  “I wonder where the Hell I’m going, anyway.”  With Saturn Waning Square to Neptune and moving into the Void Space between them, The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is Confusion (Neptune).  Neptune symbolizes Confusion when viewing the World through Material Eyes, and Clarity when we shift to Spiritual Eyes.  “Ganeshi, please Remove all Obstacles to Opening my Third Eye.”

 Another timely story…

https://alchemicalastrology.wordpress.com/2016/06/21/professionautism/

Love the title – ProfessionAutism.  I read it as Professionalism twice before I noticed the Aut.  In another post she says Pluto is on her Moon – I don’t know of any greater Emotional Challenge.  A perfect time to “hang loose,” but not even that is easy under Pluto-Moon.  “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that Ease and Grace fill my Life.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess. … Show me.”

That’s a simplified form of Theta Healing.  Once you say “Show me,” look to see whether your Vision or other Intuitive Sense shows you bathed in Ease and Grace.  If not, look to see what else you need to Command.  Maybe Trust, or Enough to Eat, or just Breathing.

When the World, or your Community, or just your Household or Camp, operates through Yintegrity, the whole World is different.  People do things when they want to, and when someone resents something not being done, it’s up to them to recognize that it’s their job to do.  Or their job to inspire (not require or bully) someone else to do it, maybe as a group project where participation is of course optional – you would join or not because, in the moment, it’s more fun than doing otherwise.  

The Most Important Thing gets done, even if it’s not what you thought was The Most Important Thing.  Between the Waning Saturn Square to Neptune and the next Initiation, Cultures break down.  The next Neptune-Saturn Initiation isn’t until 2026, six years into the Digital Age.  It’s at the Aries Point – Manifestation into (Feminine) Form.  Aries Creates by Instinct, not by having a picture beforehand of the “finished” product.  Creating and “finishing” are two different Universes, with only accidental intersections.

Here’s a picture of it anyway – it’s not a “finished” picture, but a picture of the Yintegrity process unfolding…

https://cristenrodgers.net/2016/06/23/speak-your-truth-not-your-mind/

I would suggest though, that “The ways in which Other Living Things can speak may also be almost infinite – the truth or a lie, clearly or in riddles, with language or with art.”  We maybe just haven’t heard them yet, till we get our Third Eye – or Ear – Open.  And that Everything is Living.

And, Saturn runs a Gauntlet of Initiations before it gets back to Neptune – Ixion, Pholus, Quaoar, the Galactic Center, Chariklo, Hylonome, Pluto. OR10, and Nessus!  Saturn will be a very different Animal by then, and we will be too.  Sounds like this Gauntlet would be worth a post of its own, eh?

And we didn’t even notice that Saturn was Initiated by the Great Attractor this last February, with an Exposition in May!  The Great Attractor is Headquarters to the Galactic Center – Cosmic HQ.  No wonder it’s been a heavy year so far, as if we haven’t had enough excuses!  We’re being asked to align ourselves with an Energy more Powerful than even Galactic Energy.