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Fateful New Moon II

December 16, 2017

We’ve drawn in the Ego-Death component of this New Moon chart in lighter lines below…

Let’s digress a bit to discuss timing.  The Moira Station is Exact 16 December (3pm PST), the New Moon itself 17 December (10:30 pm PST), and the South Node-Nemesis Initiation 18 December (4am PST).  The Pluto-Sappho Initiation follows on 20 December (1pm PST).

In case you think that it hasn’t been insanely Busy in the Heavens lately, note that we aren’t even attempting to untangle the Initations in the New Moon Stellium or the Moira Station Stellium – there are at least fifteen of them, and they’re all Big Deals, many signifying Millennia-level Transformations.  We’re also not trying to untangle the six profound Initiations in the Jupiter-Vesta-Hopi-Karma Stellium at the focus of the Nemesis T-Square that we’re about to consider.

So, the red triangle we’ve drawn in lighter lines, is a “T-Square,” signifying Mastery through Challenge.  We’re Challenged to Master the group of planets at the “point” of the triangle, where the right angle is.  That group of planets essentially means Being Highly Motivated (Jupiter – Expansionto Let Go of Any and All Unconscious Limitations that follow us around (asteroid Vesta – Unconscious Beliefsby Changing All of Our Ancient Habit Patterns (asteroid Karmaso that We Come to Respect All Things Equally (asteroid Hopi).

Doesn’t that sound like something that’ll generate Lifetimes worth of Ego Death!  Well, turns out that one of the “roots” of the T-Square is Nemesis – Ego Death, being Initiated by the South Node  – our Karma!  So if anyone had a question about Ego Death, there’s our definitive answer.  Remember though that Karma is Dead.  Our Karma does not grasp us, we grasp our Karma.  Not because we’re preverts, but because it’s what we Know. 

It’s not even that we Fear the Unknown, really, it’s just Habit.  No different than Eggs or Porridge for breakfast, Soup-Salad-Sandwich for lunch, and Meat-Potatoes-Veggies-Desert for dinner, then TV and Popcorn.  Just what we’re used to doing, we don’t even think about it unless something rocks the boat, like maybe Nessie.  Well, that’s what the South Node is, the “Dragon’s Tail.”  In almost all ancient traditions around the World, our Karma is referred to as a Fire-Breathing Dragon.

The Golden Treasure that Bilbo sought to recover from Smaug was nothing but the 5D Treasures of Consciousness.  Better yet, if you haven’t read all six books in Ursula Le Guin’s Earthsea Trilogy, you need to get busy.  It paints a whole different – Respectful and Loving – Relationship between Human and Dragon.  Ursula’s a Genius.

Heavy stuff.  The other root of the Being Highly Motivated to Let Go of Any and All Unconscious Limitations by Changing All of Our Ancient Habit Patterns so that We Come to Respect All Things Equally T-Square is asteroid Ceres – Sustainability – on the North Node – our Mission.  Nothing will make our Mission Sustainable more than Letting Go of our Karma and Embracing the Held (Unacknowledged and Unexpressed) Emotions that lurk beneath our South Node.

I neglected to draw it in, but the asteroid Lachesis us also in this Ego-Death Configuration, at 17 Pisces, Trining Jupiter et al.  Lachesis is about Learning to short circuit our Fate by Choosing to end Karmic Patterns at the time of our own Choosing, rather than when they’re Fated to end.  That serves us well here.

So you see, everyone receives an enormous Gift this month, regardless of their “merit” or pedigree.  Letting go of Judgment and Separation is after all one of the steps on the Stairway to Heaven.

Here’s an excellent parallel track to our analysis…

https://lightlover1964.wordpress.com/2017/12/15/the-transition-between-symphonic-universes/

 

Another Choice

October 31, 2017

When we’re up against out Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, it often feels like We’re Dying, or like We’d Rather Die than have to do that again.  Today, that is likely to be some variation of Giving Away Our Power Again.  There is quite literally a Choice this morning between Claiming Our Self-Sovereignty, and Death – which is of course an Ego Death, as Ego is the only thing that ever Dies.  Well, I know, Ursula says that Coyote is always Dying too, but Coyote is just a symbol for the Ego.

This Portal is compounded by a heavy-duty Full Moon on Friday (10:30 pm PDT) that’s associated with Death – and favored by Death.  (We’ll write about this after Lachesis turns Direct and Varuna turns Retrograde on Wednesday, 9am PDT.)  In other words, Accepting and even PIAVAing an Ego Death (such as something like “Ganeshi, Please Lovingly and Gently Remove All Obstacles to My Accepting and Celebrating this Loss of Identity and Resistance to What Is!”) may be our best course by far, making our “Future” much Easier.  Or we might say, making our escape from Timespace more quicker.

Bottom Line – if you run into any apparently unsolvable issues during the next several days, Recognize that it’s an Opportunity and a Blessing.  An Opportunity to Choose Not To Understand, and to Surrender.  To Let the Universe run itself, without your having to drive.  To Wonder who you might end up Being, once you Let Go of who you thought you were.  Choose the Unknown; it’s a Big Window.  You can sit in the back seat and rubberneck, Enjoying complete Egoless Safety in your Self-Driving Universe.

Lachesis (Choice) turns Direct at 3am PDT 1 November, and Varuna (the Life Force) turns Retro at 9am PDT.  Meanwhile, Quaoar (our Survival Instincts) Initiates Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) at about 9am PDT as well.

The 3 November Full Moon (10:30 pm PDT) at 12 Taurus Sextiles the Lachesis Station, which Conjoins Neptune (Material Confusion, Spiritual Clarity).  There’s much more going on, but along with the Full Moon and Lachesis-Neptune, plus Orcus (Pattern-Breaking) and Juno-Chariklo (Confidence in our Edges), the Fixed Star Canopus completes a Grand Sextile in the Magnetic Signs.

Canopus is the Grest Navigator of the Southern Skies, the South Pole Star.  One of his tasks is Ferrying the Dead to the Underworld, so you can Give him your olde obsolete Habits and Identities and Limitation, so he can recycle them into the building blocks of something more useful.

Intuitive Confidence V – Lesson Plan

September 18, 2017

The Asbolus Station chart, and the New Moon after it, features no less than three Quintile Yods.  A Yod is a wedge-shaped triangle.  A Quintile is two planets one fifth of the way ’round the Zodiac from one another.  It means Learning and Teaching, the Fifth Harmonic.  We usually draw them in orange (though they look more red here).  A Quintile Yod is made up of two Biquintiles (two fifths of the way ’round) and one Quintile, making a narrow triangle, like these…

The three Quintile Yods include…

  • A Nemesis QYod on a base of Stationary Asbolus and Venus – we will be Learning about Ego Death with our Intuition and our Values as our Teachers
  • An Ixion-Saturn-Lilith QYod on a base of Pallas and Ceres-Aletheia-Mnemosyne – We’re finally Learning that it’s Most Important to Support the Sovereignty of our Hidden Genius, as we Remember the Truth of the Abuse that forced Her underground, and Learn to draw Boundaries to Protect Her
  • A North Node QYod on a base of Chiron and Pluto – This one is Big too; we’re Learning to Support our Lifetime Mission (whether we recognize it Consciously or not), by Accepting the necessary Self-Transformations and Empathizing with the Pain of the resulting Ego Deaths

One Quintile Yod is fairly unusual; three of them at once is a Graduate School.

In the previous post, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/09/18/intuitive-confidence-iv-asbolus/, we drew in, in light lines, the ongoing Earth Grand Trine that includes the 17 September Chariklo Station, partly to remind us that it’s still about, and partly to point out that… 

  • Orcus Initiated Mercury in 10 Virgo on 17 September (6pm PDT).
  • Orcus Initiated Moon in 10 Virgo on 18 September (noon PDT).
  • Orcus Initiates Mars in 10 Virgo on 19 September (10:30 am PDT).

10 Virgo is “Two heads looking out and beyond the shadows,” which Rudhyar interprets as Transcending Duality.  Wouldn’t that be nice.  Orcus is about Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking.  The Etruscan God Orcus was in charge of Punishing Oath-Breakers.  Oaths serve only to enforce Slavery, whether to outside Authority or to our own mind.  A distant Ancestor once took an Oath to Breathe Oxygen, so we can’t dismiss Oaths completely – we’re Creatures of Habit, and we’d all be stumbling around like one-year-olds if we weren’t, if we made it to year one. 

However, there’s a one-to-one relationship between Oaths we’ve made and Archetypes that Enslave us.  We live 99% from the Unconscious, and many of the Archetypal Programs running in the Unconscious are Limiting Beliefs.  Since those Limiting Beliefs travel with us from Lifetime to Lifetime, we’ve Vowed to Escape from some of them during the current Lifetime.  The Etruscans were right – Breaking an Oath requires Punishment, and we feel it as Guilt. 

Yes, we Disappoint and Abandon many people, in this Lifetime and others, when we disavow an Oath, and that doesn’t feel good.  This Discomfort is part of our Ego Death.  We use the Ego to Merge with an Oath to create a Limiting Belief – it Defines us – otherwise we wouldn’t reliably Obey it.  So Transcending it requires an Ego Death.  

Big Eclipse I

August 15, 2017

The 21 August Total Eclipse of the Sun, which spans the US from coast to coast, is in the last Degree of Leo, “A mermaid emerges from the ocean waves ready for rebirth in human form.”  This is William-Adolphe Bouguereau’s Vision of Her, from http://artsnpaintings.blogspot.com/1978/07/birth-of-venus.html

Leo 29 is the place where the Ego goes to Die.  Which is cause for High Celebration, for everyone except the Sacrificial Ego, as it’s the only way we can Grow. 

The Eclipse is in the base of a Square Fez…

The Squares or Challenges (heavy red lines) are about…

  • Fear (Eclipse Square to Stationary Sedna) and Anger, if you need that to Defend your Boundaries against Fear
  • Responsibility (Chiron Square to the Pholus-Quaoar Conjunction) to Shift from Indulging Emotional Overwhelm, to Trusting our Survival Instincts

We can sure see all that going on in the USofA!

However, the Challenges aren’t the Main Effect in a Square Fez (unless you make the Choice to lend them your Attention/Energy), the Quincunxes (the heavy green lines) are.  The Quincunxes are about Curiosity.  Not about Problem-Solving, but about the sort of Curiosity that Invites Intuition – basically, Awe and Wonder.  The Quincunxes suggest…

  • “I Wonder what it would look like to Take Responsibility for my Fear”
  • “I Wonder if there are better Responses to Emotional Overwhelm, than Self-Pity”

Certainty Reinforces your Olde Ego; Curiosity Reinforces Growth.  If you watch the News it’s Really Easy to see how Certainty is Retrogressive.

An Eclipse is a rare Opportunity to Receive Shaktipat directly from the Unity of God/Goddess (Sun/Moon), and a Total Solar Eclipse is the Queen of Eclipses.  Turn your Palms upward, roll your Eyes up, Empty yourself, and Open to Enlightenment during the Eclipse.

This particular Square Fez is a Pointy Square Fez, with our Soul Self (Uranus) at the peak of the narrow side or top of the Fez.  That creates Grace without Reserve (a Grand Trine) between our Enlightenment (the Eclipse), our Responsibility (Pholus-Quaoar), and our Soul Self (Uranus).  That’s an enormous Blessing for us, and the only cost is that we shift our Attention from the Challenges to the Wonder.

There’s an additional Stealth Challenge and Curiosity that fills the Void created by the Ego Death.  The Challenge part is apparent Conflict between what our Soul Wants and C (Uranus Square Varuna).  The Curiosity is about “I Wonder what I might Feel if I Surrender to Life Energy without trying to Edit or Limit it.” 

The Uranus-Square Varuna Challenge can be Healed by the Curiosity in the Varuna-Pholus/Quaoar Quincunx, which Opens us to the Pholus/Quaoar-Uranus Trine – ie, a Tricolor Configuration.

In case you missed the Implication, Ego Death is Heralded by the Birth of Pure Feminine Energy.  It’s interesting that the Life Force itself (Varuna), which exceeds What Our Olde Reality Believes Is Possible, sits in the first Degree of Leo (the Ego), while the Eclipse occupies the last Degree.  In other words, if we’re Open to it and successfully court Curiosity instead of Certainty, we can now Manage our Lives from our Instincts rather than from our Ego.  The first Degree of Leo is “Blood rushes to a person’s head as their vital energies are mobilized.”

But all this is just Degrees 27-1.  The Real Action, as has so often been the case for the last several years, is in Degrees 21-25.  We’ll talk about that next.

Make Ego Great Again

August 12, 2017

Well, maybe we’d really be Choosing Famine after all…

http://mashable.com/2017/08/09/north-korea-nuclear-war-climate-change-winter/#.3pYlkGLQiqn

At least we finally understand ‘Rump’s rejection of the Paris Treaty – he had a “better” way in mind.  All the Grand Trines in the Full Moon chart suggest Positive Outcomes, but from the Ego’s Perspective we’re never sure exactly what a Positive Outcome really might be, since the Ego Loves to get Attached to Dead-End status quo situations. Maybe a Nuclear Winter would end up being kinder or more equitable than rising sea levels.  Or, once ‘Rump preemptively nukes Venezuela as well, the falling dominoes might leave few of us here to Enjoy a Nuclear Winter.

Mercury’s now Retrograde, till 4 September.  It backs over much of the first half of Virgo and the last Duad (two-and-a-half Degrees) of Leo.  So the path that we’ve trod in our Mind’s Eye (it’s Mercury after all) since 24 July has involved a likely rather significant Fall from Grace with ourself, as we tested our concept of Self-Love intellectually (Cancer Duad of Leo), found it to be a miserable failure (Virgo Duad of Virgo), then studied its Mirror-Image in Others (Libra and Scorpio Duads), Rejected that (Sagittarius Duad), then began to Start Over (Capricorn Duad).

Now we run this sequence in reverse.  We have to assume that when the Universe Asks us to Repeat a sequence three or more times, it means that we’re really supposed to grok this.  So our next step will likely be to look again for Babies in the Bathwater we discarded during the first week of August, then go back and review all the Vignettes we Re-Experienced in the last week of July (Realizing now that they’re reversed left-to-right, which may mean we might want to reverse the roles in the Vignetted scenarios), and through that process, somehow Fall in Love with ourself again.

Then, between 4 September and the Equinox, we go back through the process in the original direction.  Just as Mercury begins to go Direct again, Mars goes into Virgo, assisting us in our Efforts toward Self-Improvement.  See if you can shift your Attention from Self-Improvement to Self-Acceptance in September.  Virgo can do Ego Death either way – Criticizing itself to Death or Loving itself to Death.  The Criticism path is a treadmill, the Loving path leads to Permanent Growth.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like this is The End, aren’t you.” 

By the time Mercury breaks out of it’s “Shadow Period” (29 Leo to 12 Virgo) at the Equinox, Venus will just be entering Virgo, and we’ll be ready for it.  Nobody’s going to be “Ascending” till they can do Ego Deaths Lovingly.  Surrender (Giving Over to Forces more Powerful and Benevolent than our Ego, not Giving Up) helps a great deal.

When the Sky darkens during the Total Eclipse and you can see the planets lined up, starting west-northwest of the Hole in the Sky where the Sun used to be, and stretching in a line almost halfway across the Sky toward the east-southeast, you should see Venus, Mars, the Sun, Mercury, Jupiter, and Saturn, in that order.  Venus and Jupiter will be brightest.  Mars, reddish, will be close to the Hole.  You might want to memorize this order, since you’ll only have two minutes of darkness, and the fireworks around the Hole in the Sky will be, appropriately, Demanding most of your Attention.

We have a great many metaphorical Rebirths and New Timelines these days.  This will help move us into them…

http://danielscranton.com/creating-new-timelines-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

We have observed that many of you are creating the timelines for yourselves that are ideal from your perspective, and we can see you moving closer and closer to these timelines.  This is the perfect timing to be engaged in such creative work, because you are supported by the energies that are upon you.  You are more supported in creating something new at this time than you are in creating some rehashed, ideal, third-dimensional existence.

[such as the Nuclear Winter that ‘Rump is preparing for us]

“In other words, you are moving forward, not backwards. 

[It’s only the Mind that’s moving backwards; the rest of us is moving forward]

“So in order for you to align with the energies that are moving you forward, you must be willing to go to places you have not gone before.  We are talking about vibration here.  We are talking about getting out of your heads and into the vibrational field you want to be in.

“Your heads are capable of telling you about all of the wonderful things that you have seen here on planet Earth in all of your lifetimes, and you can conjure up a pretty good experience for yourself through what you have seen, what you have done, what you have heard about, but what will absolutely knock your socks off is the unknown that you are creating.

“To create with vibration takes you beyond everything that you’ve experienced thus far in the physical and everything that you’ve ever wanted to experience as well.  Now, the fifth dimensional energies that are upon you are nudging you in this direction.  They are attempting to free you from the limitations of your minds and to nudge you into the unknown field of yet-to-be-experienced vibration.

“And then all you have to do is surrender to the process, because you could not possibly imagine how you are going to come to the timeline that you’re creating.  You cannot imagine because it’s something that you haven’t experienced, and you haven’t heard about yet.

“Soon enough, however, you are going to start to hear about experiences that others are having, unexplainable experiences, experiences that go beyond imagination, beyond thought.  This is what we see you all reaching for as you construct your ideal version of the fifth dimension and you continue to inch your way towards it.”

The Bottom Line is that we Create our Own Reality.  The more we Stretch ourselves beyond the daily Fear propaganda, the more we contribute to the Transformation of the Planet, and the easier it will be for all of us to Roll Our Own.

Cause an Defect Full Moon IV

August 9, 2017

Okay, more about the Full Moon chart and the Partial Eclipse that’s a Gateway to the impending Big Total Solar Eclipse that shines a spotlight on the USofA…

As with all Signs, we can run them Positively or we can run them Negatively.  Remember though that the World (and hopefully your segment of it) needs ultimately to be in Balance, and is Multidimensional as well, so don’t get stuck in Archetypes that worship either side of that Duality. 

(Actually, the World and yourself are always in Balance, it’s just that whatever is needed to Balance your Conscious side resides in the Unconscious.  Since the Unconscious actually rules us, then from this Perspective, the nicer you are, the meaner you really are – and vice versa.)

You’ve been to performances where you’ve been Exhausted afterward, and other performances where you’ve felt Energized after.  That’s the difference between someone who builds their own Confidence by sucking other people’s Energy (we can think of a prominent example who lives in a house that’s being remodeled at the moment), and someone who Shares their Abundant Leonine Self-Love broadly.  Abundance is having enough to Share, After all. 

This is the Duality often represented by Leo, where Sun and Mars and Atropos (Endings) are all parked at this Full Moon, along with the North Node (Lifetime Mission), Veritas (Truth), and Varuna (Life Force)Varuna will be in Leo for the next quarter-century, which should put a very Auspicious carpet under this Planet for a long while.  As for Mars in Leo, if we wrote a song about our Anger, would it draw a cheering crowd?  And when we mingle with the crowd afterward, are they the kind of people we’d Feel at Home with?

Expressing our Anger (Mars) can Create Community, and it can drive folks away.  While Communing with Everyone is a fabulous Aquarian goal (http://danielscranton.com/your-universal-family-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/), we may not actually be ready for such Sympathy and Understanding, Harmony and Trust Abounding.  And that’s all right.  We Are Who We Are, moment to moment (http://danielscranton.com/creating-experiences-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/).

We all need a place to return to where we are Understood and Respected and Loved for exactly Who We Really Are, so for all but the most Saintly among us, that first sort of Community is what we need to Create, to make a Safe Space for us while we put the finishing touches on our Saintliness.  While Anger tends to Divide, the presence of Atropos suggests that Expressing our Anger may help to Let It Go.

This is what the Leo-Aquarius Axis, which this Full Moon Illuminates, is all about, the Coin that unites the Duality.  Leo is the epitome of the Individual Self, Aquarius the epitome of Community.  Leo represents Fixed Fire, Stabilized Energy, or Spirit Manifested into Form.  Aquarius represents Fixed Air, Ideology, or Intellect Manifested into Form.  Michael Roads goes to great lengths to differentiate Intellect from Intelligence.  To him Intelligence derives from the Heart and Gut, while Intellect derives from the Left Brain. 

The Intellect is more than capable of supporting Intelligence, though in the Patriarchy, it’s more likely to support Morality, Politics, and the Preservation of Privilege.  Intellect is finely tuned for Logical Analysis, but Logic is a house of cards built upon Assumptions.  Propaganda manipulates your Logic without being Clear that its Assumptions may not be Universal.  To Transform Aquarius into Intelligence Manifested into Form, we need to Let Go of our Karmic Archetypes.  Our Archetypes and Limiting Beliefs are no more and no less than Unconscious Assumptions.  As long as they’re Unconscious, we can only see half of the Universe.

While Astrology deals with Dualities, it also deals with the Multidimensional.  Leo and Aquarius are not Complete without the other two Fixed Signs, Scorpio and Taurus (and of course the Fixed Signs are not Complete without the Creative and Mutational Signs).  Scorpio as Fixed Water or Emotion, and Taurus as Fixed Earth or Matter, represent the Stabilized Emotional and Material aspects of Reality.  Of course, depending on your Archetypes, Emotion and Matter can be Stabilized into either Constructive or Deconstructive Directions.

The Klotho-Sappho Conjunction (Creating a New Timeline Based on Self-Love), which is the Focus of the Full Moon T-Square, is in Scorpio, so we’re dealing with an Emotional version of Self-Love.  That means the tears that come naturally to your eyes when someone validates the parts of you that are Unseen – your Genius Project, for instance – and when someone perpetrates an Act of Kindness that your own Personal Values wish everyone would do All the Time.  And the Grace you Feel when someone Validates your Anger.  The Leo-Aquarius Full Moon is about the Dynamic between the Individual and the Collective – between You and Other.

Which means that the Taurus or Matter side of the Four-Dimensional Balance is Vacant – we need to Consciously Ground the Energy.  Dan and the Arcfolk concur – http://danielscranton.com/a-process-for-connecting-with-5d-energies-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/ .  The Vacancy is at 16 Taurus, “The inadequacy of past knowledge in times of crisis.”  Hmmm.  I’d rephrase that as “…in times of rapid Change” – in a Stable environment, traditional knowledge is actually very Powerful in a crisis.  But the point is that we need to PIAVA how to Ground ourself and our Milieu.  

There is, however, a Fixed Star in that location, Almach, which is the left foot of the Sacrificial Goddess Andromeda.  Foot as in Power, left as in Feminine Power.  Andromeda is a symbol of an Out-of-Power Tradition victimized by the Dominant Paradigm.  In other words it’s important to bring Self-Trust into Expression of our Anger, and to remember that our Intention is Self-Expression, not to be Understood.  If the Perpetrators Understand our Anger at their Oppression, their Dominance will be threatened, and they will be highly Motivated to torment us further.

Our Objective in Expressing our Anger is not Revenge or Restitution, but to Let Go of its Karmic Grasp of us.  Actually, our Karma does not Grasp us, our Ego Grasps it.  It’s a foundation for our Ego.  So to the Ego, it Feels as if it’s the Karma doing the Grasping.  We cannot Raise our Vibration until we Let Go of our Archetypes, including our Anger.  While it feels like we’re Angry at the Perps in our Present Life, it has Karmic Roots that will not be pulled out by striking out in the Present Life.

To Let Go of Anger or any strong Emotion, we need to start by Poor-Sweethearting it.  Strong Emotions are not Comfortable, and we need to Empathize with our own Discomfort.  “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel Angry, don’t you.”  It’s meant as a declaration of Self-Compassion, not an Accusation.  If being Angry makes you a bad person, find a substitute that isn’t.  “Your poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Irritated, don’t you.”  Or “Agitated,” or “Worked Up.”  Then Change the Subject, and see how long it takes for your Anger to return as a thought-stream.

The next time it arises, Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4).  If it’s at all serious, it will take several Iterations.  Measure the Intensity of your Anger on a scale of 1 to 10 before and after each Iteration, so you can Witness your Progress.  Alternate Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and any other PIAVA you can Create, making sure to Change the Subject after each process.

We should note that the Full Moon and the T-Square occur on the Midpoints of the Fixed Signs, which are the Power Points of the Zodiac, symbolizing the Four Horsepersons of the Apocalypse – Apocalypse to the Ego, Liberation of the Soul. 

We mentioned Obsession recently in this context, as Obsession can make it particularly difficult to Change the Subject, and a reader wrote to ask us how one might address Obsession.  Well, the first question I’d ask, is how might Obsession be indicated in their chart?

If it’s really an Appropriate Expression of their natality, then they may only need to Learn to Love it to Death.  That may not stop the Obsession, but it would make it more Pleasant, as once they Learned that, Obsession would trigger Love and Pleasure for them instead of Discomfort.  Of course, Learning to Love Obsession will likely involve a good deal of Ego Death, as at least some part of them wants it to go away, and they probably have a big backlog of Other People telling them it’s wrong.  But that’s all just a map of where they need to go to Learn to be Loving with it.

So, is Obsession an Appropriate Expression of their natal chart?  What would we look for?

Well, the most obvious place to start looking is Scorpio, and to a lesser extent Taurus.  These signs, especially Scorpio, don’t Let Go when they get hold of something they don’t fully grok yet, especially something Emotional, and especially something that seems Unfair.  Does our friend have planets in Scorpio?

Well, yes. seven of them.  We work with 45 planets and other points, so the average Sign should contain less than four planets.  So seven is a whole bunch.

We can start by what we would tell any Scorpio that might help them Love themselves…

Scorpio is Compelled to Get to the Bottom of Things.  We first Meet Other in Libra, and it raises all kinds of Questions for us, about whether We’re Okay and They Aren’t or They’re Okay and We Aren’t, whenever there seems to be a Conflict or even Contrast between us.  This is how we first Discover that our own Childhood may not have been as Loving as it could have been, so it’s not at all trivial.

It’s not easy for Anyone to get to You’re Okay and I’m Okay, and for Scorpio it becomes a Compulsion.  It takes a great deal of Maturity to understand that the end point is You’re Okay and I’m Okay rather than You’re Okay or I’m Okay, which complicates the whole process until we Realize that.  We also have to Realize that just because You’re Okay and I’m Okay, that doesn’t mean I have to Tolerate you if you aren’t my cup of tea.

Also, Scorpio is Fearless in their Pursuit of Truth.  Fearlessness is the most prominent element of Scorpio.  Other people do not Trust Scorpio, partly because Scorpio asks penetrating questions that require them to examine themselves more deeply than they usually like to, partly because Scorpio has a tendency to make and hold eye contact longer than most people are comfortable with.  Other people often feel like Scorpio is Looking into the Soul (which it is), and if they aren’t fully in Self-Love, it makes them want to run away.

Because of these kinds of Reactions from Other, Scorpio is one of the most difficult Signs to Embody in Left-Brain-worshiping Western Cultures.  Remember we aren’t talking about folks with Sun in Scorpio, we’re talking about anyone with a strong emphasis in Scorpio – or Pluto, Scorpio’s “Ruler” – in their natal chart or even in their Transits and Progressions.

These kinds of influences often draw Scorpio toward Addiction, and Teaching them to Love Themselves Exactly As They Are is the first step to helping them get out of Addiction, as the most prominent trigger for their Desire to Medicate is the Anxiety produced by their Need to Get to the Bottom of Things that are Forbidden to them.  Strong Scorpio is a good indicator that a person’s Forbidden Genius lies in sophisticated Research of Private Investigation.

That’s the gist of what we would tell any Scorpio, or anyone with a strong Pluto, in a reading.

So, which planets are we talking about?  Ixion (Forbidden Genius), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), Ceres (Sustainability), Klotho (Plotting a New Timeline), and Vertex (Intuition) are all at the Midpoint of Scorpio, which just happens to be (there go those Coincidences again!) where Transiting Klotho and Sappho (Starting a New Timeline based on Self-Love) happen to be sitting as we speak, making their T-Square to the 7 August Full Moon.

Whoa, this is Big.  The Midpoint of Scorpio is one of the Four Horsefolk of Ego Death, so we probably have a case of chronic Self-Attack (that is Ego-Attack, not Soul-Attack).  Sir Self-Lance-a-Lot.  All very strongly Lit Up this week.  So we’d prescribe a strong ongoing dose of Poor-Sweethearts.  Can we even interpret a Klotho-Sappho Transit, Square to a Full Moon, sitting on a natal Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium?

Oops, have to interrupt again.  A Stellium (three or more planets in the same place) isn’t easy.  What would we tell someone with a Stellium in their chart, to help them Learn to Appreciate their Uniqueness?

Well, the Culture we grow up in has certain Differentiations that are an integral part of the Culture.  For instance, Boys are different from Girls, and never the twain shall meet.  What fireworks have been going on the USofA when that Differentiation is Challenged!  The youngsters understand that they’re both just People, but the Differentiation is so ingrained in the brains of the oldsters that they fight it all the way to the “Supreme” Court, and Obsess (!) on it.

So when we have two or more planets in the same place, we don’t know the Difference.  Folks who start a Life when Mars and Venus are Conjoined (in or close to the same Degree) have no idea that there’s any Difference at all!  So they have a difficult time Relating to, and Being Related to by, anyone who’s Obsessed with the Difference, because their brains are wired very differently.

And that’s just two planets.  With a five-planet Stellium, the difficulty of Communicating with Others is multiplied many times.  To start with, only 2.5% of us will have a 5-planet Stellium (using 45 planets), so we can expect to be able to Communicate at all with one person in 40.  However, what’s the probability that the next person with a 5-planet Stellium is going to have a Stellium that includes the same five planets?

Without breaking any blood vessels in my brain, I’d guess that would be something like 1/9 to the fourth or fifth power, or about one person in 60,000, although that assumes that the 45 planets are distributed randomly around the Zodiac, which is far from true.  You could start a worldwide club, advertising on the internet to connect with everyone who started Life with a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium.  You might end up with just the people who were born on the same day and year as you.

And now you’re going to run into another problem.  Very few of these people will have ever learned to Love themselves, even if their Stellium isn’t in Scorpio.  When you meet a Soulmate, if your Self-Love isn’t Total, you’re going to Project your Self-Rejection all over one another, and end up hating one another, very soon.  I once introduced two people with very similar, very unusual birth charts, Scorpios even, and they became housemates.  That lasted about a month before they ran screaming from one another.

So until you Learn to Love your own Uniqueness fairly thoroughly, you may need to settle for non-intimate Relationships for a while.  Look for people who are already Ascended or Enlightened, who may be able to Accept you Exactly As You Are, even if they’re not like you at all – they may even find your Uniqueness fascinating.  There should be a reasonable number of those folks around.  You won’t be their Onliest…

Since you are a shining light
There’s many that you’ll see
But I have to deal with envy
When you choose the precious few
Who’ve left their pride on the other side of
Coming back to you

as Leonard Cohen put it, but at least you’ll be Accepted, and you’ll get a taste of what it will be like to Love your Uniqueness, till you Lesrn to Obsess on Loving your Uniqueness.

Well, we know that this person, on the Soul Level, Intends in this Lifetime to Get to the Bottom of Self-Abuse (and I don’t mean self-pleasuring) once and for all (Klotho-Sappho).  So they probably “hired” parents and other significant adults that programmed a good deal of persistent Self-Rejection (Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres) into them as Children.  That’s how we do it – whatever we Intend to Let Go Of permanently in a Lifetime, we on the Soul level make sure we get a big dose of it, so we’ll Recognize it and be Motivated to Change the Pattern.

So, with Mars and Atropos on the Full-Moon Sun, it would be a fabulous time to start writing a series of Angry letters, that they don’t intend to send, to their Childhood Programmers, so they can begin Getting to the Bottom of their Abandoned Genius’s Real Feelings.  We can Learn about Blame and Responsibility later.

Oh, did I forget to mention that Jupiter (Amplification) and Sappho (Self-Love) are also in Scorpio?  So our friend is even more Determined to break out of her prison of Self-Admonishment, as she has Chosen (on the Soul level) to Obsess about her Amplified Desire for Self-Love!

Did someone say Obsession?  Damn Right!  Obsessed with this prison-break, and for damn good reasons!!!  It’s a central theme of their Soul-level Plan for the Lifetime!  So come Hell or High Water, they need to start Obsessing (and PIAVAing) on Learning how to Celebrate Obsession like it is the Incredible Gift to themselves that it truly is!  Set a timer, and Celebrate Obsession at least once an hour, every day.

Okay, with the preliminaries out of the way we can get down the the meat of the issue.  Their Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium is Opposed by Chiron (Despair and Miracle).  That’s like a dagger held by her Programmers, slicing little chunks out of her skin constantly.  To move from Despair to Miracle we need to Empathize with our Despair.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Down on yourself, don’t you.”  Now, we know that Changing the Subject (which gets the mind and old Karmic Patterns out of the way so they don’t re-up the Despair) won’t be easy – that’s the whole issue, isn’t it.

So we can try building a strong practice of Tapping (YouTube link above).  “Even though I’m Obsessing about this Despair, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  Measuring the Intensity of Feeling (0 to 10) before and after each of many Iterations will be important – as long as you’re getting any reduction, keep Tapping, till you get close to zero.  If you aren’t getting reduction, try alternating with Poor-Sweethearts, or Dancing, or doing anything Different.  This is Multi-Lifetime stuff, so you need to be Obsessive about working on it, but then, that’s your specialty, eh?

Phew, that’s a lot, isn’t it.  Are we done?  Not a chance.  Mercury, of all people, makes a T-Square across the Opposition between the Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium and Chiron.  Now we have to interrupt again, since T-Squares are quite difficult, so we have to give our standard speech about how to Love a T-Square…

A T-Square is like a graduate seminar.  We Expect to be able to “get it right” once in a while, so we can feel halfway Competent.  But with a T-Square, there is no “getting it right.”  In a graduate seminar there are no right Answers, only clever and relevant Questions.  No matter how long anyone Lives a T-Square, they’ll never Feel Satisfied about it, until they Learn to Appreciate that on a Soul level they’ve adopted this Issue as a Lifetime Learning Opportunity, and each time it arises – which is likely to be daily – they’ll be working on a new, more subtle and broader, version of the same Lesson.

It’s pass/fail, and you only pass when you Recognize that this is your Lifetime Study Project, and Honor yourself for the Fact that you actually know a Hell of a lot more about it than most anyone else on the Planet, because you wrestle with it daily.  You begin to Change a “bad” Habit by Noticing that you’re Doing it again, and Congratulating yourself for Noticing rather than Cursing yourself for Doing it again – substituting positive reinforcement for negative reinforcement, because reinforcement is cumulative.

So when you Notice that you’re working on that Issue again, Congratulate yourself for looking at it from yet another Perspective, and Honor yourself for all of the Perspectives you’ve already Discovered, rather than Indulging your Frustration at not getting it Right yet again, you’ll shift your Perspective toward what is otherwise one of your greatest Frustrations.

That’s what T-Squares are all about.  Now, what about this Mercury T-Square?  Well a Mercury T-Square (until you make the shift we just talked about) means that your mind is always picking at you.  Anxiety ‘R’ Us, and it’s not just Worry, it’s Negative Self-Talk.  So we have to Learn to Notice that we’re Doing Negative Self-Talk again, Congratulate ourself for Noticing, and Honor ourself for how Skilled we’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk.

If a friend complained to you about their Negative Self-Talk, I’ll bet you could give them a thousand suggestions for dealing with it.  You’re a World Expert on Negative Self-Talk.  You could write best-sellers about it.  You need to Honor yourself for that, even if it doesn’t Feel True at first.  I guarantee you, it is True.

Now, we’re dealing with Negative Self-Talk about Chiron Opposite a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium, which isn’t chicken-feed.  With Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex as part of your Stellium, a deep part of you (with strong Scorpio, Diving Deep is one of your greatest Skills) knows Intuitively (Vertex) that your Survival (Quaoar) is Assured (Ceres) once you Begin (Klotho) to Love Yourself Exactly As You Are.  You just don’t know where to start because no one has ever Mirrored your True Self to you.

Then we add Ixion. We have to interrupt again for our Learn-to-Love-Ixion speech…

Ixion was the Bad Boy of the Greek Pantheon, who was basically a sociopath who thought all rules applied to everyone else (like that fellow in the house that’s pained white and being remodeled).  Well, talk to any Accomplished Genius, and they’ll tell you they didn’t get there by following other people’s rules.  To live Genius you need to break as many rules as you can get away with.

But you’ll always be condemned for it.  So, not actually being a sociopath, you’ll need to develop a thick skin about Criticism from Others.  And with your parents and other Programmers probably very Critical people, you’re going to have a lot of Olde Reactions to Criticism, and probably “Leave your Body” (space out) when someone starts Criticizing you.  Well, you probably want to enlist some friends and Act Out a thousand Criticism scenarios, till you can Stay Present with Yourself when being Criticized, and Learn when Defending yourself is a waste of time that’ll just get more Criticism, and How to Defend yourself when it’s worth it (ie, with a Relationship you Want to Keep).

In Cultures that Value Conformity, Ixion is Rejected out of hand.  That’s why we refer to that part of ourself as our Forbidden or Abandoned or Pathological Genius, and refer to Recovery of that part of ourself as our Genius Project.  It’s a Big Project for everyone, but especially important for you.  Eventually, once you become the World’s foremost Psychoanalyst, or the World’s most Unique Artist who Communicates with parts of people that have never been Communicated to before ever, you’ll understand how Unique you are, and Honor it.

But meanwhile, there’s homework to be done, because you’re probably in the Habit of giving your Unique Genius more Negative Self-Talk than anyone.  So you’ll have to Learn to Notice that you’re Doing Negative Self-Talk about your Unmirrored Uniqueness again, Congratulate yourself for Noticing, and Honor yourself for how Skilled you’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk about your Uniqueness

Lots of work ahead, but at least now you have a curriculum.

What’s that?  Oh, we aren’t quite done?  Oh yeah, remember that Jupiter-Sappho in Scorpio?  Well, it happens to be in a “Grand Cross,” Opposite a Stellium of Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sedna (Fear), Chariklo (Self-Confidence), and Moira (Choosing Consciousness), with Sedna Stationary (Strong), Square to a Stellium of Sun (your Essence), Atropos (Endings), and Mnemosyne (Memory), which is in turn Opposite to a Stellium of Orcus (Breaking Vows), Hylonome (Escaping from Archetypes), and Lachesis (Duration), with Lachesis Exactly Stationary (very Strong).  All this is actually enormously Positive, but there’s a lot in it that needs to be Learned to Love.

We won’t take that up now, we’ll save it for after you’ve digested some of the earlier homework, which is more than ample.  The earlier homework is Lit Up Bigtime by the Full Moon, so it’s a more current assignment anyway.  This later Grand Cross is Lit Up only by the Transiting Conjunction of Varuna (the Life Force) and Veritas (Truth), which is actually quite a lot, but nothing compared to how much your Mercury T-Square and Ixion Stellium are Lit Up.

Oh, also, when you’re ready, remind me to talk about the “Vacancy” to your Mercury T-Square.

And, once you’ve started on the earlier homework in earnest, we can talk about that friend you mentioned, and see how they might, by virtue of their own birth chart, inadvertently trigger either your Mercury-Chiron-Ixion-et al T-Square or your Lachesis-et al Grand Cross, or both.  We’ll also need to cover Blame and Responsibility then.

Oh, and since Pluto (Transformation) is similar to Scorpio, and likely to be involved in Obsession, we should eventually look at that too.  It’s after all Conjunct Saturn (The Most Important Thing), so that’s a strong indication that Obsession is actually your Greatest Skill, you just need to Learn to Love it.  Also, Pluto-Saturn makes a T-Square across your Nodes (Why You Took This Lifetime), so that’s another indicator that This is the Lifetime you Chose, on the Soul level, to become the World’s greatest Expert on Obsession, and once and for all Let Go of your Ego Attachment to it, and Let Go of your Rejection of Obsession and of yourself

Plus, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is on your North Node (Your Mission in the Lifetime) and Moon-Venus (Your Instincts and Values) is on your South Node (The Karmic Impediments to your Mission that you Chose on the Soul level to help you Accomplish your Mission in the Lifetime, which Impediments happen to hide the Skills you need to Accomplish your Mission), further complicating this T-Square.

That’s a lot, but Remember that, as the Findhorn Transformation Game says, the Hardest Assignments are only given to the Best People.

Raising Vibrations

June 18, 2017

From John Perkins’s The World Is as You Dream It (pp.96-7)…

” ‘To camay,’ Manco [a Quechua Shaman] explained, ‘is to breathe unity into.  No corresponding word exists in Spanish.  Even the idea is difficult to express, for it seems that you northerners don’t believe such things.  In our lives, it is a very important concept, perhaps the most important.  We have several related words: churay, ruray, and supay.  These have to do with creating.  But camay is the most powerful.

“He knelt before a gnarled old agave, a special plant to Andean people that is related to the aloe.  ‘This plant appeared to be dead a year ago.  I camayed into it every day, and now look.’  He patted it tenderly.  ‘Old, but very much alive.’  He stood.  ‘We are all one.’  He turned slowly in a circle, his hands at his side, palms out.  ‘When one of our parts is out of balance, others can help to bring them back.  That is when we camay.’ … ‘The blowing we do during a healing is a form of camaying.  We breathe unity into the sick or injured person to restore balance.’ “

The astrological correlate of Restoring Balance is in particular the Trioctile – three eighths of the way ’round the Zodiac – and in general the Octile, one eighth of the way.  The Eighth Harmonic is itself about Rebalancing, and we favor three of them because the Third Harmonic is all about Love with Wisdom.  We’re especially fond of the Mjölnir or “Hammer of Thor” Configuration, which is a third planet Trioctile to each end of a Square.

Conventional or Ego- and Fate-Reinforcing astrology sees the Square as a Malefic, and the Hammer of Thor as Destructive.  From the Perspective of Spiritual or Ego- and Karma-Transforming astrology, the Square represents Mastery through Challenge, and the Mjölnir, like its predecessor the Vedic Vajra, symbolizes Lightning, Illumination, or Epiphany.  Our recent Stations include a couple of Mjölnirs… 

The long lavender lines are Trioctiles, the short ones Octiles.  The red Squares are, of course, Bioctiles – two eighths equals one fourth.  The Square is ultimately also about Illumination.  Jupiter is the Focus of a Mjölnir across the Sedna-South Node Square, meaning that the Jupiter Station at the Full Moon, and its ongoing Mjölnir, has Illuminated and will continue to Illuminate the Places where we Fear our own Karma – that’s basically the Regressed Hellhole I found myself in through much of the last fortnight. 

Of course we Fear our Karma – that’s the nature of Held Emotions, Emotions that we can’t Tolerate, that we’d rather Die than Re-Experience.  Which is precisely the point – we need an Ego Death here to Expand the way Jupiter would like us to.  The Jupiter T-Square crosses the Opposition between Vertias (Truth) and Juno-Chariklo (Bringing Self-Confidence under Conscious Control), but it’s also a Diamond Star, as Jupiter is at the Focus of a Finger of God from the Venus-Neptune (Our Spiritual Values) Sextile.  Which is to say that Jupiter would like us to – and is offering to help us to – Transform our Relationship to Fear and Held Emotions by Rebalancing the Relationships between our Spiritual Values, Consciousness, and Self-Confidence.

Which, incidentally, has Sedna Squaring the Nodes.  This Square will be Exact – a Can-Opener if there ever was one – on 3 July.  So we’re very lucky to have had the Jupiter Station Illuminating this Process before we get submerged into the depths of it, so we know to bring an extra oxygen tank.  The slower a planet, the deeper it’s Influence in the Unconscious.  Sedna takes fifty times as long as Pluto to make it’s way ’round the Zodiac once.  Most of the other new dwarf planets are called Plutoids, because they’re basically similar to Pluto.  Sedna is so far out that they made a whole new class for it – Sednoids.  So far it’s the only one with a name.

So, what is it that will make you soil your knickers before you can make it to the loo?  Aliens landing in your back yard?  Fire taking down your apartment block?  Nucular War?  A Lunatic in charge?  A Fairy landing on your thumb?  A Plant talking to you?  Abandonment?  Suffocation?  Your neighbors at the door with pitchforks and torches?  Not enough Money?  A Terroirist Attack?  May be a good time to do some pre-planning.

The other Mjölnir is Focused on Varuna (the Life Force), from the Square between recently-Stationary Neptune and Lilith, suggesting that Balancing your Spiritual Beliefs and your Self-Sovereignty will enhance your Life Force; or, as Michael Roads frequently says, “it’s not enough to Believe it, you have to Live it.”  The Neptune T-Square is also a Diamond Star, and one corner of a Water Grand Trine besides. 

Our third recent Station was Makemake; note that it’s Octile to both ends of the Vesta-Sappho Square – We’ll Manifest more easily when we Align our Self-Love with our Unconscious Beliefs.

Dan Scranton’s latest contribution to this issue…

http://danielscranton.com/raising-your-frequency-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

Greetings.  We are the Arcturian Council.  We are pleased to connect with all of you.

“Your frequency matters.  Your frequency, the rate at which you vibrate the energy of your consciousness, becomes your life experience.  It is as simple as that.  However, you have a lot to think about and a lot to do, and you certainly have a lot to process emotionally.  All of that leaves you with very little of your precious time to tend to your frequency.

“You would be very well served by giving it your attention at least periodically throughout your day.  It would be advantageous to you to have reminders for yourselves, to check in and feel how high or low that frequency is.

“You can tell by what you are feeling, but you can also tell by what you are thinking, and even what you are doing.  Certainly, your physical bodies are wonderful feedback mechanisms.  If there is something going on with you physically, then there is certainly something going on with you frequency-wise.  There is always some underlying vibrational cause to what you are experiencing in the physical.

“So if you pay attention to what you are doing, what you are thinking, what you are saying, and how you are feeling physically and emotionally, you will become aware of your vibration.  Once you become aware of it, the next part is to tune into it, to zero in on it.

“You do that by going within.  Pay attention to where you feel particular vibrations.  Pay attention because it serves you to, and because by giving it your attention, you automatically shift it.  You automatically shift the frequency of your vibration by intending to do so, and by focusing on it you awaken yourselves.

“You are in a constant state of awakening now.  The easiest way for you to experience an awakening is to feel into your energetic bodies.  Your energetic bodies don’t just surround you.  They can also be accessed within your physical frame, your physical structure.  And giving them your attention, giving your physical and energetic and your emotional bodies your attention, is all it takes to raise your frequency.

“We are the Arcturian Council, and we have enjoyed connecting with you.”

Makemake

June 12, 2017

Makemake is about Manifestation.  The Makemake Station, 3pm PDT 15 June in 2 Libra – if your Experience is anything like mine – Triggers all of the “personal faults” that keep us from Creating the World We Want.  The Cusp of Libra is about Meeting Other for the first time. 

“In terms of psychological development, the salient component of a child’s environment is his or her relationships with parents and caregivers.  Did we, as children, get what we needed from our relational environment to develop our individual physical, mental, emotional, relational, sexual and spiritual potential?

“When some part of us is not adequately mirrored by our parents. caregivers or teachers, our development is stunted and distorted, and we enter the domain of trauma.  We unconsciously disown the parts of ourselves that are unacceptable to those upon whom we depend, and begin to create a system that is inauthentic and false to who we really are.”

“We abandon what we might have been, to become what we think we ought to be.  We set out on a quiet pilgrimage of desperation and despair.  We become refugees from our own being.  We no longer feel real.  We are physically alive, but we die inside.  We have no choice.  It is our only means of survival.”

–J.Bruce Lloyd and Daniella Sieff, “Return from Exile: Beyond self-alienation, shame and addiction to reconnect with ourselves,” in Daniela Sieff, Understanding and Healing Emotional Trauma, p.26

Since we aren’t Real, very little of ourself feels Authentic, and everything feels like a “personal fault,” whether it’s a Rejected part of our True Self, or an Adopted part of our False Self.  Of course they’re all Skills, including the Vulnerability to Be Present with our Self-Abandonment.  And of course they don’t Feel like Skills, they Feel more like Shit, especially the Vulnerability.

And of course bringing those Faults/Skills/Shit into Consciousness is the necessary first step toward eliminating Self-Sabotage.

The Makemake Station is very different from the charts we’ve become accustomed to.  It’s a lot more straightforward.  The Bottom Line is about Taking Responsibility for the Truth of it all.  Responsibility as in being Able to Respond in ways that Improve Future Outcomes.  The Truth of it is that our Judgments are attempts to paper over our own Perceived “personal faults,” projected onto Other.  It’s a Blessing, because of where it Leads if we’re Willing to Follow it.  Compost rather than Shit…

The Makemake Station T-Squares Aletheia (Truth) and Quaoar (Survival Skills), which Conjoins Pholus (Responsibility).  And Quaoar-Pholus isn’t that far from Saturn-Ixion (The Most Important Thing is Recovering Our Forbidden Genius) – not close enough to directly color the Present Moment, but plenty close (7 Degrees) to Impact Projects begun under this watch.  Projects like the next stage of our movement into 5D.  It’s Varuna (the Life Force) that’s potentially Liberated this week.

And the isolated links to Nemesis (Ego Death) and OR10 (those horrible Vignettes) explain a lot about how this whole process is unfolding.

For you, we hope, it’s more Pleasant.  For me, it’s on my natal Neptune, so yes, we’ve been Dancing with the Material Confusion, aka Shit; now to get busy on the Spiritual Clarity part.

Orcus and Hopi I

May 18, 2017

Our next Adventure is the sequential Stations of dwarf planet Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) and asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things).  Both Stations occur just prior to 6am PST, Orcus on 21 May, and Hopi on 22 May.  This will be a particularly fascinating combination of Energies, because most of our Limiting Beliefs were founded by Oaths, Oaths always Power-Over one side or the other of some Duality, and Respect for All Things means the Absence of Judgment.

The result of the Merging of two such contrasting Energies will be laden with Paradox, and Paradox of the exact nature that Spiritual Progress is paved with.  Remember that limiting our Commitments as much as possible is a prerequisite to Yintegrity.  And to be Self-Sovereign, rather than Slaves to our Archetypes, we need to Renounce all of our Oaths.  Being thus Free, we’ll be able to follow our Instinct and Intuition without constraint.

You would think, for instance, that an Orcus-Hopi astroevent would simply be a great time to Swear to Respect All Things.  But that would Betray Respect for Ourself, as it would inhibit our Freedom to Follow our Instincts and Intuitions.  Paradox is not accessible by the logical mind. so we just have to Accept it as a Mystery.

Paradox, as we’ve said, is the realm of the Yin Gate Configuration, a Golden Rectangle bisected on the short side by a third Opposition.  By “coincidence,” there happen to be three Yin Gates in the Orcus and Hopi Station charts.  Here’s an example of one, in the Orcus Station chart…

The Orcus Station itself T-Squares (Mastery through Challenge) one axis of the Golden Rectangle (which is the blue box).  “Coincidentally,” the axis that it T-Squares is the axis between Lilith (Self-Sovereignty itself) on the right and a Conjunction of Ceres (Sustainability) and Mnemosyne (Memory) on the left.  The implication is that We Already Know How to Sustain Self-Sovereignty, all we have to do is Remember That We Know.

Another “coincidence” – one axis of each of the three Yin Gates is T-Squared by one of the Stationary planets.  Such redundancy convinces us that the Universe is serious about this message.

The Challenge is our accumulated Oaths, and the Archetypes we still cling too.  Remember that Karma is dead; our Karma does not CLING TO US, we CLING TO IT.  Are you about to do something that you’ve done before?  Do it differently.  I was about to go get a half-glass of Beer, so to break up the Pattern I’ll do a couple of pirouettes between here and refrigerator.  Not that a half-glass of Beer is a big Pattern of mine, but a trip to the refrigerator certainly is! 

Surprisingly and Remarkably, each pirouette produced a big surge of Joy.  I may adopt a new Pattern!  If you spot an old fart pirouetting down the road, say Hi.  Wait, that’s an Oath!  Revert!

The Opposition in the Yin Gate itself (the one in the center of the Golden Rectangle – I know, it’s both blue and Golden – blue because that’s how we draw Energy lines representing Grace, and Golden because the ratio of the sides is the Golden Ratio of Sacred Geometry fame) is between asteroid Veritas (Truth) and dwarf planet Hylonome (Letting Go of Archetypes) – yet another redundant repetition of our basic theme here, which is about Facing the Truth that Allowing ourself to be Directed by our Unconscious Patterns not only Inhibits our Spiritual Progress, it also generates a good deal of Self-SabotagePirouettes are in our Future whether by Oath or Instinct!

The other diagonal of this Golden Rectangle is an Opposition between asteroids Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) and Nemesis (Ego Death).  Lordy Lordy, another redundant repetition!  Well, most of us will have Ego invested in our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs – that’s how we get them to stick.  Of course we all want to be good little girls and boys, and if Granny told us over and over again that good little girls and boys don’t do that, then there you have it – Ego Investment.  

So you remember how to do Ego Death, right?  You reinterpret “I’d rather DIE” to actually be “I’D rather die,” and them you just let it happen.  Egos are like Moles (the ones in your yard) – if you ever do succeed in killing one, another one will pop up to replace it before you can say “Hooray, I’m Freee at Last!”   Chagrin (or Terror) over Ego Death is totally wasted; new Egos are a dime a dozen.  When someone tells you they gave up their Ego when they were Enlightened, that’s their Ego talking. 

You Embrace Confusion as the First Stage of Growth in Consciousness, which heralds less Slavery to Archetypes and less Self-Sabotage (and another sign of Ego Death).  You might be driving or walking a few blocks from home, and suddenly realize that you’re in a very different World, even while you know exactly where you are.  You might suddenly forget all your passwords, or your spouse’s name, because without warning you’ve regressed to age 6 or 12 or 32 or Atlantis or the time you met Genghis Khan, when the Steppes were in bloom.

As with Curiosity, you want to Break all Habits (Oaths!) to try to Understand.  Trying to Understand means you’re scrambling back to your Olde Ego, and losing all the benefits of Psychic and Spiritual Growth.  Confusion and Curiosity are Beautiful just as they are, they aren’t problems to be solved or reasons to exercise that big glucose-burner in your skull.  They’re glorious states to relax into.  They will take you to Heaven if you let them.

This is only one part of the Orcus-Station chart; we’ll take up other parts in the next installment.  For now, notice that the Orcus Station happens to be Conjunct asteroid Karma – yet one more confirmation of our basic theme of Liberation.  The Initiation of Karma by Orcus already occurred, in mid-November of last year, at 10 Virgo, “”Two heads looking out and beyond the shadows: The growth of true understanding, born out of the transcendence of duality even while immersed in the world of duality.” 

The Validations just keep on coming!  The Karma-Orcus Exposition (Retrograde Conjunction) occurred in early March, and the Confidence-Builder (final crossing) will happen on 30 May.  By then we should be feeling pretty good about how much Karmic baggage we’ve been putting out on the curb for recycling.

May I

April 30, 2017

May looks a little calmer than we’ve become accustomed to, other than the ongoing Big Events like the Fear/Self-Love Yin Gate and our Rebirth into Yintegrity and our Abandoned-Genius Recovery and our interview with the Galactic Center.  Well, that doesn’t sound so calmer does it.  But we’re used to these Energies, they aren’t sneaking in the back door after we go to bed any more, they’re at the front door knocking while we’re awake. 

It’s lack of Experience with an Energy that makes it most Challenging for us.  As all these dwarf planets have been Discovered over the last couple of decades, Energies that have been buried in the Unconscious now see the Light of day, and it will take Western Cultures a while to “Ascend” to becoming accustomed to working with them Consciously.  Eastern and Primary (what used to be called “Primitive”) Cultures have always known about them, which is why these Cultures are Rising while Western Cultures are Sinking to the extent that they aren’t adapting.

Communication and Negotiation should flow more smoothly again after 3 May (10am PDT) as Mercury turns Direct again after its three-week hiatus.  The Station occurs right on Uranus (our Soul Self) and Eris (Revelation of What the Ego Couldn’t Abide and Previously Held out of Consciousness), so Communication and Negotiation between Our Various Selves will be Enhanced the most.  Go for Win-Win – Listen carefully to seek the Positive Result that each of your Internal Voices Wants, and then Ask your Other Selves how they can Help without giving up their own Needs. 

If Other People are Acting out these roles for you, they’ll trigger strong Emotions in you (negative or positive).  Don’t fall for that – it’s called Projection, and it’s Toxic.  Just Ask yourself, “What part of ME is that character Standing In for?” and go from there to Win-Win.  If the character is too odious to actually be part of ME (for instance, they might be an empty suit whose only attribute is pathological Self-Confidence), then your work is cut out for you – Face Down the Ego Death and Embrace the Hell out of your Nemesis.

The 10 May Full Moon (Illumination) will Stretch us more, as the (Full) Moon itself teams up with Pluto (What We Can Maneuver but not Reverse) and Juno (What’s Coming into Consciousness) to form the base of a Finger of God (Pay Attention to This!) pointing at dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential, Infinite Choice).  This will be much Enhanced by the simultaneous Station (Strengthening) of Juno (9 May 4pm PDT), so we can Expect a great deal of Vulnerability.

This is joined by a huge and closely related Grand Quintile (the Gift of Easy Learning) that will help us a lot, though we’re still likely to Experience Ego Deaths around it, as Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) and Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) join the Full-Moon Sun in the Grand Quintile along with Jupiter (Expansion) and Saturn-Ixion (The Most Important Thing is to Recover our Abandoned Genius).

Once we Recognize and Respond to Emotional and Physical Pain as the Learning Opportunities that they are, and locate our Excitement about the Unknown Glory that lies beyond the Limitations that we’re about to Leap Over, Ego Death becomes a Joy. 

We of course also have to Recognize that the Unknown Glory is Unknown, and let it remain so.  If we try to speculate on its color and flavor with the mind, we’re simply Embracing the Limitations we could be Letting Go Of.  Better to Embrace the Excitement in our Emotional Body without needing a reason to be Excited other than “Yay!  This Excitement Feels Great, This is the Way I Want to Feel more often in my Future, and Practice Makes Perfect!”