Charts of the Portals XV

In Charts of the Portals XII we were talking about the chart of the 28-29 September 2020 Saturn-Chaos Stations (The Most Important Thing Is to Look Beyond Your Perceived Limitations – If You Could Do Miracles, What Would They Be?) chart…

and its red-triangle Challenges (T-Squares), particularly the Saturn-Chariklo-Pluto Challenge (The Most Important Thing may be to Remember that any Sign of Self-Doubt will be a Red Alert that our Thoughts are leaning toward the Old Paradigm, just when we need to Remain Conscious that the Paradigm is Shifting and we need to Shift with it).

We were about to talk about the Complicated “base” of that Challenge, the Opposition between Mars-Lilith-Eris (Actively Rooting Out Places Where We Deny to Ourself that We Give Away Our Power) on one side and Sappho-Juno-Haumea (Rebirth into Greater Consciousness about the Unconditionality of Our Self-Love) on the other.  We were suggesting that this Opposition should provide Clues about Why It may be Difficult to Maintain Our Confidence that we can Respond Resiliently to the Big Changes that Are Going On.

It’s really Easy to dwell on the minor details of our Daily Lives and Miss the Big Picture, especially when we’re Enervated, as the Big Changes themselves are likely to do to us.  How many of us Understand after all what Kundalini Rising (Varuna-Karma in the Global Climate Change chart) is Supposed to Feel Like.  We’re Hypnotized by Big Pharma to reach for a Drug whenever we’re Uncomfortable, because they’ve made us Believe that Discomfort is to be Avoided at all costs.

If we looked to Cause rather than Symptom, we’d Know that we’re in the middle of a Huge Ego Death (which is why we sometimes feel like we’re “dying,” and occasionally wishing we were).  Rebirth – into Greater Consciousness about the Unconditionality of Our Self-Love – is the flip side of Ego Death.  Unconditional Self-Love includes always Loving whatever is Going On for us in the Present Moment.

Can we really Love Ourself Unconditionally while Aching All Over?  Well, that’s the Assignment.  Find the place in your Body where your Discomfort is Greatest, and just Focus your Attention on it Intensely.  Attention is kind of Love Step One.  Hold your Attention there.  Fear is Hard and Cold, Love is Soft and Warm.  Put your hand on your Discomfort and Warm it Up.  Imagine Softening around it.  When your Attention Wanders, bring it back.  When your Discomfort moves, which it will do, Follow it.  You’ll be Surprised by the Miracles you Create doing this.

Actively Rooting Out Places Where We Deny to Ourself that We Give Away Our Power isn’t much more Fun than Ego Death.  We have Ego Invested in those Places, often Deeply Invested.  Ego is very often Embedded more Deeply in our Body than our Teeth are, and you know how much Fun it is when someone Roots around Trying to Pull Out your Teeth.  If we Deny these Places to ourself, unless we’re Graced with Insight (which is entirely possible, given the astrology, but we’ll have to Recognize it), that means they’re Unconscious, so we’ll have to use PIAVAs to reach down into the basement and find them.

Since we’re working with Self-Love, you’ll want to add Lovingly and Gently to your PIAVAs.  For instance, a Theta might be something like…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Lovingly and Gently Begin to Recognize the Places Where I Give Away My Power, and that I Begin to Intuit How to Lovingly and Gently Claim My Power Instead.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank You, God/Goddess.  Show Me!“

Expanding into Truth 2

As we’ve been pointing out repeatedly since July’s Truthiness post (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/07/25/truthiness/), both asteroids Aletheia (Truth of the Heart) and Veritas (Truth of the mind) are in Scorpio (Getting to the Bottom of Things, Relentlessly) and moving rapidly toward Merger (Conjunction).  So the ubiquitous news about Habitual Prevaricators getting caught standing in their own you-know-what is no Surprise.  These two Merge on 3 October 2019, about eight hours after Pluto (No Exit) Stands Still (is at Max Power).  They don’t leave Scorpio till early November.

If you haven’t been following this Thread, you’d do well to skim from Truthiness forward till now, as Truthiness has been entwined with our Karma and several other Heavy Threads – including getting Truthy about our own Karma.  Particularly notice how the hooligans are dressed in the first video of the Ixion, Forbidden Genius 3 post.

Our first 27 September astroevent (5:30 am PDT) is asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) moving into Virgo (Ego Death).  Nemesis symbolizes Guilt and Punishment, and we Transcend that with Ego Death – we either Accept that we’re a Bad Person, or Decide that the Rules we’ve broken are Bad, that we’re being Blamed Unfairly. or that we’re being Blamed Fairly, and Intend to Reform.  Any of which Requires an Ego Adjustment, some bigger than others.

Virgo meanwhile is the rope Bridge between Leo and Libra, between the Pinnacle of Individual Development, and the First Meeting of Other, where we’re basically Infantile.  I mean, in Leo we barely knew Other existed.  We thought those disembodied clapping hands were part of our scenery.  Maybe a zip line, or a rappel with no belay, would be a better metaphor than a rope Bridge.  If we don’t go through a tonne of Ego Adjustment in Virgo as the hands stop clapping, we’ll be in big Trouble when we get to Libra.  Maybe you remember situations where you’ve Felt at the top of your game, and Believe you were meeting someone pretty much as Equals, only to very quickly Discover they were waaay ahead of you.

It’s no Help that dwarf planet Chariklo (Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence) is also Strong (Stationary), its Energy peaking a few minutes after midnight PDT on 28 September.  Or maybe it’s Helpful, if Self-Doubt leads us to Self-Examination and Change, or we Respond to getting caught in Over-Confidence by Adjusting our Attitude.

The Nemesis Sign-Change chart is like so…

Just a Big Tricolor (Mystery; the red-green-blue triangle) and a Mjölnir (Epiphany – the lighter yellow lines).  With a Tricolor we unlock the Grace in the blue line by Refusing to Let the mind Believe that it Understands the Confusion inherent in the green line.  Said another way, there’s an Easy Relationship (Trine) between the Climate Emergency (Pholus-Quaoar) and our Ego Death (Nemesis).  But the Ease is locked out of our Awareness when we Allow the Challenge (Square) that Unconscious Fear (Vesta-Sedna) makes to our Ego (Nemesis) to Dominate our Attention.  We’re referring to Pholus-Quaoar as the Climate Emergency, but it includes the Political and Economic Uncertainty that’s Afoot.

We Restore the Ease by Surrendering to our Higher Power the Relationship between our Fear (Vesta-Sedna) and the Climate Emergency (Pholus-Quaoar), by Allowing it to remain a Mystery (Quincunx).  But that doesn’t mean we defer the Opportunity to bring the Fear up into Consciousness!  For instance, I’ve been gnawing on a Problem for several months now, without coming up with a decent suggestion to Solve it.  This morning I realized that It was Fear that I was Unconsciously focusing on, while I tried to “Solve” it by Strategizing.  That’s a Dead End, obviously.  We Resolve Fear by Embracing it.

So I did just that – laid down, located the Fear in my Body, Softened and Warmed it while Poor-Sweethearting myself (“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Scared, aren’t you”), then followed the Sensation when it Moved in my Body, and the Emotional Memories Triggered as it did.  If a Problem can’t be Resolved in a couple of months of Plotting, it’s not a Problem that will ever be Solved by Analysis, Planning, and Executing.  Declare an Intention, Command What You Want, and be Mindful to Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade Thoughts to the Contrary.  Which I did.  Didn’t immediately Solve the Problem, but it certainly Changed my Frame of Reference, so I’m more often broadcasting What I Want to the Universe instead of What I Don’t Want.

Which leads us right to the Mjölnir (Trioctiles reaching from each end of a Square), that focuses on the Saturn-South Node that plagued us last week – namely, our Karma.  Those Emotional Memories Triggered by the Movement of Energy after I Allowed the Fear to become Conscious as a Physical Sensation in my Body and Invited it to Express itself however it Chose.

Asteroid Hopi, joining Saturn and the Dragon’s Tail, is about Respect for All Things.  A great time to go through our…

“_____, whatever I may have done or not done, or said or not said, Consciously or Unconsciously, that hurt you, I Ask your Forgiveness.  _____, whatever you may have done or not done, or said or not said, Consciously or Unconsciously, that hurt me, I forgive you.”

Be careful with this; it can easily Create Powerful Ego Deaths that you don’t notice until you Discover that you’ve Forgotten how to Drive!

♥ A few hours later, around 8:30 am PDT 27 September, asteroid Bee-Zed (or BZ509, indicating Transendence) Stands Still.  Its chart…

…is more complicated, but the core is two T-Squares (red triangles), one to Stationary Bee-Zed itself, Expanded by Jupiter (Growth), and the other to Chariklo (Self-Doubt/Confidence), Stationary less than a day later (just after midnight PDT 28 September).  Chariklo is Lit up by Pluto (Obsession), which itself is Stationary until 2 October, and our busy friend Hopi again.  This is a hell of a lot of Power.  Make sure you’re swimming downstream.

Expanding Transcendence (Jupiter and Bee-Zed) is Challenged by (Squares) the Dance (Opposition) between Choosing to Become Aware and Trust our Instincts (Moira-Juno-Moon) and Sacred Confusion about our Identity (Neptune-Lilith).  Lilith is about Bringing our Identity back Home to our Self and our Soul, rather than Investing it in someone or something External to us, such as a spouse or a job.  Confusion is always the first stage of Growth, as the Mental Cage we normally trap the Universe in, starts to warp and lead.  Sacred Confusion (Neptune) all the more.

Compulsive Attention to Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence, in the context of our Judgments (Pluto-Chariklo-Hopi) is Challenged by the Dance between our Values (Venus) and our Endings (Atropos).  In other words this is about Letting Go of Obsolete Values that Inhibit our Self-Confidence.  The Greek Atropos was the Goddess who determined the Ending of a TimeLine – a Lifetime or a Habit or a Relationship or any other Thread in your Young Life.  Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious; we replace it with Choice when we become Conscious.  Here we practice Choosing to Let Go of Values that no longer Serve us.

There is a seventh fencepost here – the budding (3 October) Conjunction between Truth of the Heart Aletheia, and Truth of the mind Veritas.  It Bridges both Oppositions – we’ll make everything a lot Easier if we steer toward Truth.

♥ We need to remind that this is all just warmup for the 2 October (11:30 pm PDT) Station of Pluto (Compulsive Change of Trance) and 3 October (8am PDT) Aletheia-Veritas Conjunction (Truth Squared).

And that 28 September is even busier than the 27th,  starting just after midnight PDT with the Station of Chariklo (Self-Doubt/Self-Confidence) which Conjoins the Stations of Pluto and Bee-Zed, and continuing at 9am PDT with the Station of dwarf planet Chaos.  Chaos is a Big Deal; if it weren’t for all these other themes going on and Pluto waving its arms, Chaos would be the Big Topic!  Here it just means that however we React and Respond to these Lit-Up Issues of Karma, Survival, Ego Death, Confidence, Truth, Growth, Ascension (into 5D), and Descension (of Soul into Matter) the Gate to the Universe is Open.  The World is our Oyster; all we need to do is Intend it.

Then, at 11:30 am PDT 28 September, the Moon is New within one arcminute of dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation).  The primary theme of the New Moon, other than Manifesting What We Want, is Descent of Soul into Matter, not just “our own” Soul into our own Body, but the Reanimation of the Planet, the Wild, and Everything In It, return to the Indigenous World where All Things Are Alive.

♥ If anyone is watching the Degrees and comparing them to their natal chart – which we should all be doing – they’re these…

• Equinox 0 Libra 23 September
• Nemesis Ingress 0 Virgo 27 September
• New Moon 6 Libra 28 September
• Aletheia-Veritas Conjunction 17 Virgo 3 October
• Bee-Zed Station 18 Sagittarius 27 September
• Chariklo Station 20 Capricorn 28 September
• Pluto Station 21 Capricorn 2 October
• Asbolus Station 24 Gemini 23 September
• Chaos Staion 27 Gemini 28 September
• Vesta Station 28 Taurus 23 September

Rebirth Full Moon III

♥ Prominent Feature Number Four is easy.  Our Merger of Instinct and Genius (Moon-Ixion Conjunct) sits in front of the Galactic Center.  That means several things.  It means that everything we’ve said should be multiplied by itself several times when we’re determining Importance.  It means that Headquarters is sick of the Petty Huper Ego screwing up our end of the Galaxy, and is making it very Clear that we need to get our Shit together instead of bathing in it.  It means that whatever Illusions we have about Making a Difference, are just Ego Trips – the notion that we’re In Charge here is a Cosmic Joke.  We just need to Surrender and Live the Best Life we can.

♥ The fifth Big Banana in the 17 June Full Moon chart is what astrologers call a “Grand Cross.”  It should be a lot Bigger Deal than it actually is, because it consists of four LifeLong Frustrations (T-Squares) back to back.  But that very back-to-backness means they actually abet one another in weird ways, so a Grand Cross person is more likely to be a High Achiever and Skilled Multi-Tasker than a Champion of Frustration.  Rather than four Frustrations, it’s more Realistic, Empirically, to look at a Grand Cross as two intertwined Dichotomies (Oppositions).

We’ve already been discussing Dichotomies, so we’re on somewhat familiar Ground.  Let’s examine each of them…

• While we’re Aware that Our Life as We Have Known It is falling apart, we’re also Conscious that Rebirth is in the air (dwarf planet Haumea Conjunct asteroid Veritas), so Ambiguity is rife.  On the other hand, we can see, with our own eyes and through the eyes of Others, that there are things in our Life that we can no longer Ignore (asteroid Klotho Conjunct dwarf planet Eris).  These seem almost Complimentary, so where is the Dichotomy?

That’s for us to Discover.  Astrology often makes synonyms Opposites, and we just have to Live with it.  For instance, we could hypothesize that our Fear about having to Face something we’ve been Ignoring is juxtaposed against our Intuitive Excitement about an Impending Future Feeling very Close at hand.  Wall Street’s maxim that a Bull Market “climbs a Wall of Worry” is a timely example.  We have no idea what’s going to Happen, but we know Something is, and it’s likely to be Big.

If we’re Comfortable with our Pluridimensional Intuition, we know that all Dichotomies are Fake News, because the Universe is a lot more complicated than that.  But if we Live in our Dualistic “Left” Brain, not knowing whether to reach for our Pinstripe Suit or our Life Jacket can be torturous.

• One end of the second Dichotomy is about Getting Conscious of the Places where we Lack Self-Love or Overestimate ourself (asteroids Sappho and Juno Conjunct).  The other end is about Questioning whether we can Trust our Self-Confidence, or Trusting it Blindly (Pluto Conjunct dwarf planet Chariklo).  If we’re in a tight situation, making a Dichotomy out of these two could either Delight us or Terrify us.  “Excellent!  I know where to beef up my Self-Love!” or “OMG, what if they Notice that I’m Faking It!”

• You can probably Imagine how the Confluence of these two Dichotomies can result in either a Nervous Breakdown, or a flurry of High-Functioning Multi-Tasking.  If we have to prepare for two possible Futures and we’re a dynamite Multi-Tasker (for example, we have a natal Grand Cross), we can stockpile Dinty Moore and Water in the garage, while we Pretend to be Hypercompetent in our make-or-break bid for the New Big-Money Client or the New Position and the Big Raise.  If we can only Focus on one Thing at once (for example, we don’t have a natal Grand Cross), we could be making a Choice, Questioning ourself, and swimming in Anxiety.

The Bottom Line is that there are very many high-profile Uncertainties in our World today.  Is it too late to sell the house at the Beach?  If I Go For Broke here will I be losing money on every transaction and hoping to make up for it on the volume?  The kids are still in school – I can’t just move to Kentucky and hope that factory doesn’t close too!  Which option will keep me out of jail and out of the hospital – Lie at the border, or tell them I’m bringing back $3,000 worth of Insulin?

♥ Well, astrology does offer a clue here (Prominent Feature #6).  One of the four corners of the Grand Gross is more of a Blessing than a Frustration (the Haumea-Veritas T-Square is a Diamond Star or Self-Resolving Challenge).  So there’s a greater probability that the Impending Rebirth that we can Sense, will Save our Ass.  The clue even suggests a Course of Action – Acknowledge our Fear of the Unknown, and Trust our Skillset to find a path out of the Wilderness if necessary (the Finger of God that converts the T-Square to a Diamond Star is based on the Sextile between dwarf planet Sedna and asteroid Karma – Remember we have Good Karma too!).

♥ A few more items left, so have patience, we don’t need to hurry.  The impact of New and Full Moons is felt more after the event, so we’re still okay…

♥ Golden Rectangle

The Hidden Treasures are…

♥ Nemesis-Mercury-North Node

♥ Upcoming Stations

“Dark Days” 3

My two primary heroes growing up were the Lone Ranger from the movies they showed Saturday mornings in the church basement, and Jesus from the stories that they told in Sunday School the next day.  It didn’t take long for me to figure out that most folks who called themselves “Christians” actually followed the Olde Testament more than what Jesus actually taught, except when they were preaching to someone else.  So it didn’t dawn on me that our “Dark Days” and Easter happen to coincide this year.  Marilyn Raffaele did pick up on that in her Channeling today…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

“Dear ones, we greet you on this religious holiday of Easter being celebrated in Christian communities the world over in remembrance of the suffering, death, and resurrection of the master teacher Jeshua.  However, just as with the Christmas story, Easter also holds much deeper meaning and every human is living the Easter story at some level.

“Every individual throughout their many lifetimes has experienced the death of old beliefs and the integration of new ones but always within the third dimensional belief system.  This is how evolution happens.  At some point a spiritual completion of sorts is reached and the death of what has become one’s outgrown state of consciousness begins.  The soul has reached a place of readiness for new and higher dimensional awareness although usually not consciously aware of it.

“Many past lives were short and filled with suffering while others were long and fulfilling but all were necessary in order for the soul to experience and grow from every aspect of three dimensional living and then move on which begins with a growing sense of dissatisfaction with what has previously been comfortable and normal.

“Confusion and a sense of loss comes as a person gradually begins to shift out of alignment with some friends, traditional family values, religious doctrine, certain foods, entertainments, work, etc.  This is the period in which many make futile attempts to restore that which they feel they are losing, not realizing that their energy is no longer in alignment with these things.

“The death throes of one’s old state of consciousness can be painful on one or all levels but is short or long depending upon resistance.  This is the period known as the ‘Dark night of the soul’ — the part of the Master’s story where he was alone, confused, and praying in the desert with a sense of what was coming.

“Change is eventually embraced and understood as being necessary and [we begin] to seek, accept, and practice increasingly higher levels of truth.  The length of this phase varies with every individual and often extends through lifetimes.  However, there eventually comes the personal resurrection and ascension that births a new state of consciousness.  The Easter story is your story.

“You have all lived as both genders, all colors, warriors, rich and poor, good and bad, etc.  Every lifetime experience has served to develop your intelligence and wisdom so that over time you became a person wise and experienced regarding the best forms of three dimensional living and survival.  It was not meant for this to be the final goal, but rather a portion of your journey toward remembering — every experience a step along the way to higher awareness.

“Ascension is a process.  When a spiritually prepared person becomes comfortable in their three dimensional world believing that they have reached the pinnacle of success and that there is nothing more, this world will often collapse on one or more levels — physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually allowing the first stage of their personal Easter to begin.

“For those living fully in the the third dimensional belief system these types of experiences are usually the manifestation of their belief in duality and separation but for the spiritually evolved, they represent the dissolution of the person’s old illusory belief system.  Always remember that nothing real can ever be lost but rather only changes form.  That which seems to have disappeared will reappear in better and higher form if it is a part of one’s consciousness of wholeness.

“The crucifixion of one’s belief system can be an excruciating experience leaving the person with no foundation to depend upon or to look toward for answers and solutions.  Friends and family often try to assist during this period but are unable to because the three dimensional tools they offer are not in alignment with the higher frequency process taking place.

“After many ‘failures’ to recreate what has been lost with three dimensional solutions, [we begin] to give up and stop resisting which then allows [us] to open to the inner guidance that has always been present but ignored.  [We] begin to disengage from the false beliefs that created the pain and suffering, and enter the ‘tomb’ to rest and process what has taken place.

“A new and higher state of consciousness is born as the individual rises out of [their] personal death and darkness, a consciousness that only those at a similar level of awareness can recognize.  As [they begin] incorporating and living from their new awareness, more truth unfolds and they become increasingly enlightened until at a certain point they are ready for ascension out of their old state of consciousness.

“On earth at this time, ascension means the shift of consciousness out of the third dimension and into the fifth, a dimension governed by frequencies of unconditional love and Oneness.

“The Christ is already fully present within each and every person but can not be experienced until recognized.  Many continue to cry out, ‘How could a loving God allow this?’  God activity cannot be present in a vacuum but must flow through his expressions on earth.  It is the same as having a large bank account that one is totally unaware of and so lives ignorantly in poverty.

“Through unawakened ignorance, the third dimensional state of consciousness has created the world of pain, suffering, lack, and limitation that most have come to accept as normal.  A world that many continue begging God to change.  Divine Consciousness knows nothing about what three dimensional thinking is creating because illusion does not exist in Divine Consciousness.  This is why the changes you wish to see, you must create.

“The Easter experience is here for all who choose it.  Mankind is now in the midst of the suffering, pondering, and dying part in preparation for resurrecting out of the duality and separation that has ruled and governed over hundreds of lifetimes.

“Up to now individuals had to physically die in order to ascend to a higher dimension, but at this powerful time mankind is ascending while in physical body.  The integration of higher more refined Light energies cannot take place with the old still in place, which is why most of you are in the process of clearing old cellular energy and remaining karmic issues at this time.

“Arcturian Group wishes to speak of the energy changes taking place on earth.  As the frequencies of earth become increasingly refined, there comes increasing chaos because when Light flows to that which is dark and heavy, it causes a reaction.

“Those continuing to hold tightly to the illusions of old energy are experiencing resistance and fear as they struggle through means that no longer work, to keep the status quo.  Everyone, those awake and those who are not, is experiencing the higher frequency energies, but because many do not understand what is going on, they are acting out in ways that make sense to their unawakened consciousness.

“Negative and false beliefs are beginning to be recognized for what they are, in the awareness of an increasing number of people starting to realize that they no longer agree with many of the beliefs and laws they previously accepted.  People are waking up the world over and starting to question what they have been told which in turn is causing resistance and action on the part of those who thrive from everything remaining in old energy.

“Hold to your center dear ones, holding the Light of truth closely within you at all times.  [Avoid getting] overly involved in the negative appearances that confront your awareness every day.  Concern and worry over appearances only adds more energy to those very things.  Allow false creations to dissolve into the nothingness that they really are, which will happen if they are no longer fed.

“Much is yet to be revealed.  Let trust and truth be your shield and sword, always remembering that nothing can make you less than the Divine Being that you are.  If someone were to shoot you in the heart, you would continue simply watching the show but from a different seat.  You are Divine beings always have been and forever will be, for there is nothing else.

“This realization is your Easter.”

In her post today, katie agrees…

https://roseandcactusquartz.com/2019/04/21/what-are-you/

“Your worth is stable and everlasting no matter what.  By the way, this wasn’t an easy conclusion to come to.  I spent a long time alone without a lot of these things [job, family, money, house, ‘expressing myself a certain way, looking a certain way, etc..  You can fill in your own blanks’] because I needed to learn I was worthy without them.

“One day when I thought I had had enough of ‘learning,’ it dawned on me that without all of these things that I thought were so important – I am talking make-or-break, life-or-death – that I was still here.  It sounds incredibly simple, but I spent so much time believing that these external things (could be anything for you) were what validated and affirmed my life!  Then I had the epiphany that I still very much exist with or without them.  I am valid with or without them.  I am an amazing, abundant person with or without them.”

A few folks have expressed that these “Dark Days” posts have Frightened them.  But how can anyone be Frightened by their own Karma, which they’ve so Intimately Lived With their whole Lives?  Well, actually, it’s easy – we’ve all painted a False Ego over our True Selves, and over our Karma, and it’s that False Ego that’s Frightened, because it Fears (Ego) Death.  But we’ve gone through Ego Death before, many times, haven’t we, and guess what – we’re still here!  With Uranus now in Taurus (Descent of Soul into Flesh), what an excellent Opportunity to Notice the Difference between Ego and Soul!

And as always, the Emergence of Fear is itself a fabulous Opportunity to Remember that Fear + Breathing = Excitement and Fear + Kegels = Power.  That’s especially relevant now, because Power and Chariklo’s primary characteristic, Self-Confidence, go hand in hand.  With seven-day Sensitivity, Chariklo’s Strengthening of Influence (Station) begins today.  And it’s not a huge leap to go from Pluto’s Compulsion, to Motivation, to Excitement (Pluto’s Station is Exact in only three days).  So Fear is Right On here, we just need to Respond to it Lovingly and Powerfully.

Remember the Lesson that Pluto taught us – that when Emotions are operating properly, they “go right through us,” and move on in a few moments?

If any Emotion befalls you and lasts more than five minutes, it’s no longer an Emotion that you’re Experiencing, it’s your Thoughts about your Emotion.  Those Thoughts are 99.9% Bullshit.  You’ve just gone from whatever Emotion you originally Encountered, to the Emotion of Anxiety.  When you try to Live your Life from the Bullshit Contents of the Stories that your Anxious Thoughts tell you, Failure is guaranteed.

The most Life-Changing thing we can Learn from these “Dark Days” (Pluto-Chariklo-Saturn-South Node) Dramas is to Notice that we’re in Anxiety and Deal With it as Anxiety.  That means Embracing it as the Emotion that it is, Poor-Sweethearting ourself (“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Anxiety, aren’t you”), and Changing the Subject.  When Anxious Thoughts Bully their way back in, Rinse and Repeat, as often as necessary.  It’s not how many times we Fall Down that counts, it’s how many times we Get Up.

“Dark Days” 2

♥ Here’s an excellent way to Lighten Up these “Dark Days” – Donna Eden’s free Energy Medicine & Healing Summit that lasts all week, 22-26 April, led by her daughter Dondi Dahlin, at…

https://energymedicinesummit.com/

I’m told that each session will be available for 48 hours after it plays live.  I’m looking forward to…

• Donna herself speaking about The Assemblage Point (“The Power of this extraordinary Energy and how to Align with it; How it works with the Aura and the Heart Chakra; How figure eights keep it shining bright”) and

• Judith Orloff on Balance as an Empath (“Identify if you’re an Empath and/or highly Sensitive person; Discover why you feel exhausted, anxious, and physically ill; Learn how to Set Boundaries and Trust your Intuition),

…both Tuesday morning.  While I think of an Ego Death as a Shift in our “Assemblage Point,” I don’t really Know what Castaneda’s Don Juan meant by that term.  I expect Donna, Seeing Energy as she does, will Know though, so I’m Excited to hear what she has to say about it.

♥ Here’s our “Dark Days” Itinerary…

17-24 April (more or less) – Strong Compulsions, best not Resisted, though they can be Modified if necessary to Avoid Untoward Consequences, or “Surfed” for a Gravity Boost to your Orbit.  If lack of Alignment with your Self-Image or Social Mask seems like a problem, Allow your Image or Mask to Evolve, Gently.  (Pluto Stationary in 24 Capricorn, 11:30 am 24 April)

19 April to 3 May – Soulful Full Moon (see previous and future posts)

21-28 April – Watch closely for any sign of Self-Doubt, and rather than giving it any Credence, regard it as a Regression into the most Self-Sabotaging parts of your Childhood Programming.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’ve been Programmed into Doubting yourself, haven’t you.”  If your Inner Child doesn’t Show Up for a Hug and maybe a Chat, Pretend that they have.  (Chariklo Station in 25 Capricorn, 3pm 28 April)

22-29 April – We need to Stay Focused on One Thing here, and it needs to be The Most Important Thing.  For you in this context (ie, everything else that’s going on), that may feel like Rescuing Your Partner or Someone Else who’s Important to you, or Saving Your Relationship or Your Income or Your Domicile or some other Materially or Emotionally Important issue.  Which is Fine, but do Recognize that you’ll be Abandoning your True Self if whoever you’re Rescuing, or whatever you’re Saving, is Contrary to your Liberation or to your Soul’s Truth.

No Worries, you may just be Learning the last few Lessons that you need to Learn in order to be Truly Ready to Transcend.  This isn’t our only Opportunity to Ascend, after all, just our Most Powerful One, one where we’re Jet-Propelled.  Before we’re Jet-Propelled into our Liberation, we’re likely to be Jet-Propelled into our “Shit,” so Awareness is key here.  We Want to stay Conscious of the Difference between What We Want and What We Don’t Want, and focus on the former as much as we can.  (Saturn Stationary in 21 Capricorn, 5pm PST 29 April)

23-30 April – Yes, it may well Feel Awful, because you may be Face to Face with your Held Emotions, the ones you’d rather Die than Feel.  There are literally No Greater Opportunities to Liberate yourself from your Limitations and your Self-Sabotage – from your Karma.  Remember the story of Sisiutl, a two-headed Monster so Scary that It turns to Stone whomever Sees It.  But, if you Stand Still for It as It approaches you, Its two heads will See Each Other – and Sisiutl will turn to Stone!  (Saturn Merges with True South Node, Exact at noon PDT 30 April)

Which leaves us with a Pattern that looks like this…

In other words, it’s pretty much All At Once.  We might Feel greater Compulsion early, and greater Focus later, or we might just feel Heavy, or like Shit, for the whole two weeks – the Pluto, Chariklo, Saturn, and Saturn-South Node events are also all within a few Degrees of one another, increasing the likelihood of Merger.  When the Energies Merge, our Unconscious Reaction will likely be something like The Most Important Thing is to Stop This Persistent Feeling that I’m Dying, Compulsively using Food, Alcohol, Drugs, Sex, or whatever Crutches we’re accustomed to using.

A Conscious Response might be The Most Important Thing is to Take Advantage of this Incredible Opportunity to Liberate myself from these Karmic Chains that have become so Graphically Clear.  So how might we go about that Liberation?  Lots of Tapping.  Lots of Alternating Theta and Tapping to Distinguish our Anxiety from Reality (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/).  Lots of Poor-Sweethearting.  There’s Grace in the Full Moon chart that will Help; we’ll talk more about that soon.

It’ll help to have Buddies who understand what we Want and what’s likely to Block us from it, so they can Remind us at strategic moments what’s The Most Important Thing.  We can score the Chocolate or the Tequila after we ditch them, but meanwhile they will have slowed down our Self-Destruction.

A friend once said, “I know that This Too will Change.  But you, as an astrologer, know When it will Change!”  No matter how Crummy you Feel, know that your Work will bring an Abundance of May Flowers, and it’s not far away.

Consciousness Expansion II

The 23 December (7pm PST) Juno Station (21 Taurus) chart looks like this…

Its main feature is a Grand Cross (the red square), which occurs when four planets are more or less evenly spaced around the Zodiac.  While a Grand Cross is made up of four T-Squares (the four overlapping big red triangles), and a T-Square Challenges us to become Adept at something, a Grand Cross is usually a little easier because, being Balanced, the Lessons usually aren’t as Difficult.  Also, the Challenges are frequent and interrelated, so with additional and more varied practice, we’re likely to become Adept sooner – and particularly Adept at Multi-Tasking.

The four T-Squares here focus on…

• Eris (Emerging from Denial)
• Moon-Moira (Learning to Choose our Emotions)
• Aletheia-Pallas (Accepting the Truth about how well our Boundaries serve us)
• Pluto-Chariklo (Having to Confront our lack of Self-Confidence)

I’m sure every one of you could write a short play about someone Getting Their Consciousness Expanded (that’s Juno after all) by having to deal with the likes of…

Realizing (Eris) that their Life is being Sabotaged by lack of Self-Confidence (Pluto-Chariklo), Learning to Recognize the Emotions that Trigger their Self-Doubt (Moon-Moira), and Setting Boundaries to Prevent these Emotions from Fragmenting their Personality (Aletheia-Pallas)

…or something like that.  I’m sure most of us could write a short story about when we’ve gone through this process ourselves, which we’ve probably done many times.  Like when the school bully called us names that hurt, and our Mentors encouraged us to find alternatives to running home in tears or taking a swing and getting our ass kicked.

Sticks and stones and all that, pretty fundamental stuff, but I’m sure you can think of far more subtle parallels.  It would Behoove us to think up current situations where Certain Emotions Challenge our Ability to Keep our Act Together, as every astrological adventure is an Opportunity to make Life flow more smoothly, and this one is no exception.  If we could become Conscious of those Emotions and Learn new Responses to them, chances are we wouldn’t just be Expanding our Consciousness, but also Letting Go of our Karma.

For instance, what Triggers Anxiety for us?  Nothing is Manifested into Hardcopy Reality without first being Broadcast as Energy – this is the Power of PIAVAing.  What Anxiety does is Broadcast Fear and Failure.  Without our Conscious Intervention, Fear and Failure could then be Manifest into Form.  We could recast our reading as…

Realizing (Eris) that our Life is being Sabotaged by Anxiety (Pluto-Chariklo), Learning to Recognize the Emotions that Facilitate it (Moon-Moira), and Resolving to Prevent it from Creating our Reality (Aletheia-Pallas)

…by for example, by first Tapping on it (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) to Acknowledge it Honestly, and then Focusing on What We Want instead of What We Don’t Want.

Another example…

Suppose we don’t Trust our Instincts (Moon-Moira) to tell us what to Eat, so we set Boundaries against the Truth (Alethiea-Pallas) of our own Instincts (Moon) in order to continue to base our Self-Confidence on our Shoulds (Pluto-Chariklo) – till we Realize (Eris) that it’s not Working

So what would we do next?  We Respond to our Realization and Expand our Consciousness to include new Possibilities.  For instance, if we Lovingly Embrace our Desires when they arise, might we have less Difficulty Moderating them, and perhaps in the process Discover what our Soul Intended to Teach our Ego in the Current Lifetime?

A Trine Bridge (blue lines) shows an Easy Path toward becoming Adept and a Quincunx Bridge (green lines) outlines a Path of Curiosity.  Both are alternatives to following the more-Challenging paths of the Squares (red lines), without abdicating the invaluable Lessons to be Learned from the Challenges.  Same Destination, very Different Routes.

The position of Stationary Juno itself makes a Trine Bridge across the Confidence/Emotion-Choice axis (Pluto/Chariklo-Moon/Moira), and a Quincunx Bridge across the Realizations/Boundaries axis (Eris-(Aletheia/Pallas).  We can Learn faster…

• By just PIAVAing (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/) that our Consciousness Expand to Resolve our Crippling Self-Doubt or Anxiety (the Trine Bridge)
• Or by Wondering How or Why Self-Doubt or Anxiety so bombs our Personality (the Quincunx Bridge – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/wonder/)
• Or Both.

However, most of us are used to thinking of Curiosity as something to Resolve.  “I Wonder What…” or “I Wonder How…” is often an invitation or imperative to do research or to think about what sort of Answer we’d get if it was a Question.  True Curiosity does not seek Satisfaction; it is more than content to remain Curiosity.  Think of it like Awe or Amazement.  Like watching a Bird peck its way out of an Egg, or a Butterfly crawling out of a Chrysalis – literally a Miracle.

You’re wide-eyed and your mouth hangs open, but you don’t try to explain what’s happening or why, or to Generalize it into a Judgment, whether Good or Bad.  What if we Responded with wide eyes and a slack jaw the next time we heard someone insult us.  If they continued to insult us – if we were Safe, of course – we might even have to Laugh.  A friend used to say, “Don’t get Even, get Odd.”

Stationary Juno is also Merged with (Conjunct) asteroid Lachesis, which symbolizes Consciously Changing our Timelines.  For instance, if we were Living a Timeline of being Bullied, and we succeeded in Changing our Response to it, we would be Consciously Ending that Timeline, or at least Beginning to Consciously End it.

There’s another Configuration in the Juno-Station chart, another Mjölnir Kite like we had at the 22 December Full Moon (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/12/20/dumpster-fires/)…

When a planet sits at the Far Midpoint between two other planets that are three Signs apart, a Mjōlnir is formed.  Mjōlnir is Norwegian for “Thor’s Hammer,” the usual name for this Configuration.  We changed it because Thor’s Hammer is often confused with Ultimate Destruction, when actually it’s more about Indestructibility and Instantaneous Precision – not a sledgehammer but Lightning, or Sudden Illumination.  So we associate a Mjōlnir with Epiphanies.  When there’s also a fourth planet at the Near Midpoint, the Mjōlnir becomes a Mjōlnir Kite.

The Mjōlnir Kite reinforces our earlier interpretations of the Juno Station – Epiphanies about our Mission and our Held Emotions (North and South Nodes).  We would normally rather Die than Feel our Held Emotions, as our Experiences in Parallel Lives cause us to strongly associate them with Dying.  But we can’t proceed toward our Mission in the current Lifetime without first Learning to Embrace our Held Emotions.  So the Aletheia-Pallas Conjunction in the Juno-Station Grand Cross is also about Relaxing the Boundaries which keep our Held Emotions at bay.

The Square (red line) in the Mjōlnir is between Neptune (Confusion) and Mercury-Jupiter (Precociousness).  The Juno Station is about Growth in Consciousness, and this Square Illuminates the classic impediment to Growth – regarding Confusion as a sign that we need to struggle mightily to Understand!  Actually, when we Believe we’ve Understood why we’re Confused, we’ve just Quashed our Growth!

Our Concepts about What Is and What Isn’t Possible form a Cage that we’re trapped inside of.  Confusion arises when one of our Limiting Beliefs becomes Open for Questioning.  But if we Intellectualize it (Jupiter-Mercury), we’ll invariably Reinforce our Limiting Concepts, because those are the raw material for our thoughts.  Like Curiosity, we need to Let Confusion Be.  If we regard Confusion as an Emotion, and just Feel it, Embrace it, Enjoy it, our Consciousness will Grow on its own, naturally, without Effort.

Gauntlet IX – Confidence

Once we get through Chiron’s passage into Aries (1am PDT 17 April) Saturn’s Most-Important-Thing Station (7pm PDF 17 April), the most prominent Energies will be the Station of Pluto (8:30am PDT 22 April) and Chariklo (6am PDT 23 April), and they’ll already be in full Force.  In fact, we could be Experiencing some flashforwards from them already.

Pluto is just Heavy.  “Swimming through Jello” is one way Pluto Stations have been described.  Pluto means Transformation, Trance Re-Formation, Big Changes, even Changes in the very Zeitgeist that we’ve long since come to accept as The Way It Is.  You’ll get Bruised up pretty good if you try to fight against Pluto.  You aren’t Helpless, you can steer to one bank or another to portage around the Falls, you just don’t want to try to paddle upstream because the current is a lot Stronger than you are.

Chariklo is about Confidence, especially Self-Confidence.  Confidence is the most Charismatic characteristic that a person can have, whether we think it’s warranted or not.  Wonder why the Antichrist is so Teflon?  So our Confidence is being Transformed.  Our Confidence, unless we’re a Grifter, is almost always a Trance, below the level of our Consciousness.

Having Chiron in Aries will help a lot, as we’ll be less assailed by the Emotional Bleeding from our Lifelong “Unhealable” Wounds.  Unless you’re Faithless, in which case your Spiritual Lymph might be spilling everywhere.  Faith and Trust are both Important in Confidence – while the Saturn and Hylonome Stations (Trust, Priority, Boundaries, Codependence) will weaken after they’re Exact, they won’t disappear instantaneously.

So if your Confidence crumbles, know it’s “just” a Wound being re-Triggered, and Respond accordingly (Poor-Sweetheart, Soft-and-Warm, Mirrors, everything that Chiron in Pisces has taught us).  It’s just an Ego Death, not a “real” Arrow.  Trust that it will be better in the New Trance on the Other Side.

The Pluto and Chariklo Stations are also only two Degrees apart, with Chariklo on the Waning side of Pluto, which means that we’re laying the Groundwork for a major Letting Go of the Sources of Confidence that we’ve been using since 1931’s “Young woman awaiting a sailboat” Pluto-Chariklo Initiation.  Not embarking on her own journey, but waiting for someone else to give her a ride.

Pluto Initiates Chariklo into a brand-new 90-year Cycle next February, in the same 23 Capricorn as the Pluto-Saturn Initiation we discussed earlier – “A soldier in combat boots receiving two awards for bravery.”  If we Imagine them to be high-heeled combat boots, we could easily Give these awards to the #MeToo troops.