Fearbruary IV

By now we’re bearing down hard on Fearbruary’s namesake, dwarf planet Sedna, which is about Converting Fear to Power. We’ve been reminding that Fear plus Breathing equals Excitement, Fear plus Tapping equals Grounding and Presence (which is intimidating to would-be antagonists), and Fear plus Kegels equals Power. In addition to a hefty dose of Terror, the Sedna story also contains strong elements of Anger and Competition.

I was into my forties before I realized that Anger was my Habitual Reaction to Fear. Useful when it’s a Fight you can Win, but when Flight or Freeze is Safer, let alone Negotiate, not so much. All Karma is a Powerful Skill, but only when we can Choose to use it when appropriate and not use it when it ain’t. If Karma is a knee-jerk Reaction, it’ll get us in trouble more often than not. We Heal that by getting Conscious about it.

Sedna is at its Strongest (Stationary) as we come up to 1pm PST 8 February, in 28 Taurus. The chart is pretty benign…

The basic Configuration is a “Square Fez with a Chinstrap” – a red-sided trapezoid with a fifth planet at the midpoint of the base. The Chinstrap – dwarf planet Ceres (Sustainability and Sustenance), is where the Power emerges. The two naked Squares (red lines) are where potential Challenges will be spawned – Sedna (Fear) to asteroid Karma (Karma) or Fear about Letting Go of What We Know Best (our Karma), and Pluto (TranceFormation) to dwarf planet Haumea (Rebirth) or Failing to Discern the Difference between Physical Death from Ego Death.

If we could train ourself to instantly Discern an Ego Death from a Threat of Physical Death, and Realize that Resistance is Futile when it comes to Letting Go of the Known (it’s inevitable, and it’ll probably be harder later), our Lives would be so much more Sustainable (the chinstrap), wouldn’t they. So we could Pray for Physical Safety, Pretend we’re Acting in a Play, Enjoy the Drama from the Perspective of the audience, and make the most out of these Opportunities to Practice these two Cosmic Skills (Ego Death and Letting Go of Karma). Letting Go of Karma usually requires an Ego Death anyway, so this is really an Amazing Opportunity.

Note: If you use a Theta Prayer, you can check to see if your prayer will work, modify it and check again, iterating as many times as necessary, till you find just the right Prayer to give you in-the-Gut Confidence in your Safety.

But a Square Fez offers an Alternative to its Challenges, namely its Diagonals (the green lines, which are “Quincunxes,” or 5 Signs long). Notice that each Square is simultaneously in two Tricolors (a triangle made up of a red Square, a green Quincunx, and either a Trine or a Sextile – a long or short blue line). A Tricolor allows one to Liberate the Grace in the blue lines by Embracing the Permanent Curiosity in the green line, which can Resolve the Challenge in the red line.

By Permanent Curiosity we mean Avoiding Trying to Figure It Out – Recognizing that Confusion is one of our most Valuable Emotions and not an invitation to “Left-Brain” Research and Analysis. If we can stay Present with the Confusion Emotion and Learn to Celebrate it, it will lead us to much more Powerful places. Someone once said (Einstein? Maybe) that “We can’t Solve a Problem using the same Thinking that postulated the Problem.” Confusion, if you can Embrace it as the Emotion that it is, will open your Intuition to a kind of Thinking that will Solve the Problem, or more likely, Perspectives that will Reframe the Problem into Opportunities.

A Quincunx is a miniature Mystery School, like a Zen Koan or a piece of a Yin Gate, a Portal to the next step in our Evolution. When you try to contemplate the sound of one hand clapping, for instance, if you take the effort seriously, you’ll be Expanding and Reframing your notions of Sound, of Hands, of Honoring, of Action, and who knows what else, and you might even discover why Beatniks used to “clap” by snapping their fingers.

The Major Tricolors (Square-Quincunx-Trine), like…

Pluto-Square-Haumea-Quincunx-Sedna-Trine-Pluto or TranceFormation Challenging Rebirth which is Curious about Fear and Power and how it might make TranceFormation Effortless,

and Sedna-Square-Karma-Quincunx-Pluto-Trine-Sedna,

…lead to Dumb-Luck Blessings that are typical of Trines. The Minor Tricolors (Square-Quincunx-Sextile), like…

Haumea-Square-Pluto-Quincunx-Karma-Sextile-Haumea or Rebirth making TranceFormation difficult while TranceFormation is in Awe of Inertia, and if we Step into it we can sort of see how Inertia facilitates Rebirth,

and Karma-Square-Sedna-Quincunx-Haumea-Sextile-Karma,

…lead to greater Engagement and probably more Wisdom, as a Sextile doesn’t unlock its Grace till we take the First Step, Participating instead of just Observing. Notice that we’re just following different paths around the lines inside the twelve-sided circle. Each path offers a different Curriculum for us, and if we have the time, we could maximize this Opportunity by following them all. Eventually we’ll end up at Ceres, the chinstrap, and make our Life more Sustainable. We’d just be adding -Sextile-Ceres to the end of each Major Tricolor, and -Quincunx-Ceres to the end of each Minor Tricolor.

So the keys to the Tricolors are Haumea-Quincunx-Sedna, Karma-Quincunx-Pluto, Pluto-Quincunx-Karma, and Sedna-Quincunx-Haumea. And then, if we Chose the more Rewarding but more Effortful Minor Tricolors, we’ll have to add Haumea-Quincunx-Ceres and Karma-Quincunx-Ceres in order to “Cross Go” and Earn our Sustainability Merit Badge (if you haven’t Learned to Fully and Lovingly Embrace All of your Emotions yet, you may not Realize that Earth is just a Very Deep board game). Let’s take an example, say, Haumea-Quincunx-Sedna.

So we have a Koan about the Relationship between Rebirth and Fear/Power. (It might help to remember what Artemisia said about Power in The Findhorn Garden.) Certainly we Fear Rebirth. Our Ego is probably very Attached to our Toys and Colleagues in the Current Incarnation, and loathe to give them up. Those are Intellectualizations, and the Intellect doesn’t have the Power to Evolve us, because it’s basically a Logic machine. Give it some rules and some starting conditions, and it can dummy up a pretty fair simulation. But where is the Evolution in that? We’re just rearranging the deckchairs in our Existing Concept Set.

How might there be Power in Rebirth? How might it Feel to be Conscious of all of our Parallel Lives? Now we’re starting to get into some Koan-like Questions, which may Open us to new Intuitions that Expand our Concept Set. “How might it Feel…” is particularly Open-Ended. If you don’t just find the list of Emotions in the back of your Alexanders book and highlight a few, but Open your Emotional Body to the actual Experience, what might happen? You probably Relive some part of your Past every day. Can you be there in the Cafeteria Line, and also Be Here Now? It might be more inviting to Remember what it was like to Make Love with your All-Time Favorite Lover and also Be Here Now.

Does that feel like fuses blowing in your head? That might be a good sign. One – just One – part of what’s involved with actual Permanent Curiosity (aka Awe or Wonder, but not Wondering about, Wondering at instead), is that we have to Conceive of more Dimensions than we’re used to working with, and different Rules. Since the Universe is Both/And, what is a Contradiction to the Intellect is a Paradox to our Curiosity. Do we even know what a Paradox is, or is it just something unexplainable? It should be something that defies our Concepts of Reality, something that forces us to Choose between what we See and what we Know, or somehow Embrace them both.

A number of the folks in the Antichrist’s Cult may be doing that now, Knowing that just a month ago they were Legends in their Own Minds, but Seeing that now they’re Criminals. Many may Choose to be Martyrs, where both Stories can seem to be True, rather than Expanding their Concept Set to include the possibility that not everyone appreciates White Supremacy, or Expanding their Concept Set to include the possibility that Other People may actually have a right to Exist. But again, these are Intellectualizations. We can’t Predict how any given person will Expand their Consciousness if and when they do, because they’re an Organism much more Complex and Multidimensional than our Observing Mind.

The point is that we may be going through a similar process, where some of what we See and what we Know are splitting apart. If we find ourself trying to figure out how to put Humpty-Dumpty back together again, we may want to Change the Program, and begin to Appreciate Curiosity as the Blessing that it is, as it is, without having to Dissect it. You might also find yourself in a place where you’re being Reborn and your Trances Reformed and your Karma is backing off, you Feel Empowered and Delighted by the process, and it Feels Sustainable. More Power to you!

Wegetwhatweaskfor Full Moon II

WordPress has a new editing program which no longer appears to be optional, and in my 50+ years of working in the software industry I’ve never seen a more screwed-up (to put it politely) user interface.  So some “features” might disappear while I wrestle with it, and I may have to stop using it altogether.  I refuse to support Google or Facebook, so I won’t use the other leading alternatives.  Anybody have other suggestions?

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This 1 October 2020 Full Moon chart is remarkable on several levels. 

It’s perfectly symmetrical around the 25 Gemini-Sagittarius axis, which is totally appropriate since the 25th Degree is where Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence was Lit Up Big Time (dwarf planet Chariklo Stationary in Capricorn) a few hours ago (1:20 pm PDT 3 October), and very near where Trance Re-Formation aka Ego Death is Lit Up Big Time (dwarf planet Pluto Stationary in 23 Capricorn) a few hours hence (6:20 am PDT 4 October).  And as regular readers know, there are at least a dozen major astroevents occurring in or near 25 Degrees in the waning days of 2020.

Symmetry generally means Ease, though in the context of a Pluto Station – often one of our tougher Experiences – we have to scrape off the Salt to find the Ease.  In other words, it could be a lot worse, since New and Full Moon charts usually apply to the following several weeks, in this case the first half of October. But in general, if you too feel like the World is going to Shit, hopefully it will improve once Pluto starts moving again.

The Full Moon chart above features two Flying Squirrels (with tail, sans one ear) crossing while flying in opposite directions. (The Bat analogy won’t work here because without one ear the poor fellow would lose his stereo echo-location and starve to death.) I know they’re hard to see, so I’ve emphasized each one in turn…

We know that the essence of a Flying Squirrel Configuration is Coasting. They don’t really fly, they climb high, jump off, spread their Wings, and Coast. But here we’re Coasting in two different directions, and being torn in two. No Fun. Certainly feels like that to me, as I keep trying to Do what I Do, while whoever that is in there that’s in Rebellion, tosses krapola like non-functioning editors in the way, obviously Asking that I go a Different Direction, but offering few clues about which Direction.

Unfortunately, that’s the nature of a Pluto Ego Death. The Universe is now going in a Different Direction, it is casting a Different Trance, and it’s kind of up to us to Learn to make our Lemonade out of it. Meanwhile, we have all this Momentum going from the Old Trance. Of course the New Trance will become much Clearer as we go forward. But in the interim we’ll probably have to make some decisions. With strong winds blowing in both Directions, we’ll have to PIAVA how to maximize our gain from Both/And, how to Pivot our Old-Paradigm Investments so they can Grow Corn under the New Paradigm.

When we draw the chart for the Pluto Station, we’ll probably see that it has some good suggestions for us (I’ve only sketched it out so far, but I can see that it’s substantially different from the 25-Degree chart we’ve been studying…

• It advocates Trusting Respect for All Things, for instance (Eurydike-Hopi has moved in to Oppose Pluto-Chariklo-Saturn, so the overall Configuration is no longer a Challenging T-Square, but a more-Balanced Grand Cross).

• The Challenge to What we Do with our Karma (T-Square to the Nodes) is still there, but it’s no longer about Getting Conscious about which Habits to Change (Lachesis), but about Starting New Habits (Klotho).

• And it advises that we need to be Aggressive with Uncovering our Denial and Be Very Careful to Build new Structures that Eschew Guilt (Mars-Eris Opposite Nemesis-Haumea in the crossbar of the aforementioned Grand Cross).

Meanwhile, we find out more about what we’re Coasting toward by examining the green (Quincunx) Diagonals in the Fez that forms a Flying Squirrel’s airfoil – we interpret a Fez by interpreting the Diagonals. These are about Curiosity, so it’s very important that we Eschew Anal-ysis and Attempts to Understand them. They’re about Learning New Things that, relative to what we Believed we Knew beforehand, will seem Paradoxical at best and Ridiculous at worst, and our Old Ideas will cripple us if we let them.

The first Flying-Squirrel chart above has Just What Is It That We’re Creating? (Sun-Makemake) at it’s Head, so it should give us Input on Where We’re Actually Going. It’s Diagonals are Can We Be Open to Learning Brand New Relationships Between our Soul and our Fate, and Between our Soul and Choice? (Uranus Quincux Moira) and Can We Be Open to Learning Brand New Relationships Between Abuse and our Karma and Between Privilege and our Karma? (Nessus Quincunx asteroid Karma).

The second Flying-Squirrel chart above has Abuse and Privilege (Nessus) at it’s Head, so if we can succeed in staying out of our “Left Brain” – the part that Groks only Logic and Facts and not Heart and Intuition – it will probably give us a Surprising Education about how we might Maximize our Abundance without Harming Others, including All Non-Huper Entities. It’s Diagonals are Can We Be Open to Learning Brand New Relationships Between Our Soul and What We’re Manifesting? (Uranus Quincunx Sun-Makemake), and Can We Be Open to Learning Brand New Relationships Between Our Karma and the Facts? (asteroid Karma Quncunx Veritas).

What Am I Forgetting? II

Ho Ho, a Breakthrough on my Toe!  We will never be able to Manifest something New in our Lives if we let Mechanism Distract us.  The Discomfort in my Toe looks to be a Physical-Mechanical problem.  So it seems like only Physical-Mechanical or maybe Chemical (which is Physical after all) Intervention can help it.  So a couple of days ago I realized that I was Focusing on Mechanism!  And therefore Dead-Ending.

Since a Physical-Mechanical Healing didn’t seem easily Available, I would have to Manifest a Miracle.  I don’t have complete Confidence that I can Manifest Miracles at will before breakfast, so what to do?  Well, PIAVA, or course!  I started with a Theta Healing, because that allows me to see how I might be Blocking the Healing.  Then a Tapping, because that allows me to Balance the Energy in my Meridians, with the Possibility that it can Reduce the Tenacity of the Block.

Or a Poor-Sweetheart, because that can produce Miracles (Outcomes that were not Possible in the previous Concept Set) directly.  But a Poor-Sweetheart requires totally Changing the Subject, and I wanted a Miracle Now!  So I alternated Theta and Tapping till Show Me! showed me a positive Outcome – which it did!  So I’m Confident that Healing is underway.  Doesn’t mean I won’t need Booster sessions, but the Healing has begun.

Went to look for the Comet yesterday evening, no sign of it.  Could be a Hoax.

The 9 July 2020 Rebirth chart, which occurred in the same Degree, Challenged our Confidence (T-Square to Chariklo-Jupiter-Pluto).  But in the 20 July chart…

…the New Moon cleverly fills the Vacancy and Completes a more Balanced Configuration (Grand Cross).  Doesn’t mean there won’t still be Hassles, but it means they’ll Complement one another, if only in the sense that they won’t give us time to get too Freaked Out about any one of them because there may be too many of them (though they’re likely to be “smaller”).  Confidence is a lot Easier to maintain when we aren’t Freaked Out!  No matter what situation you find yourself in, your Reaction and Response to it is more than half of the Experience, and Feeling Victimized by an Experience calls in more Bummers.

Another planet has also joined the Confidence Energy, and it’s the planet that means Pay Attention to Priority #1 (Saturn), which will Light Up our Confidence Big-Time.  Which is good, because we’ll be more likely to Notice Self-Doubt and Counteract it (with a Poor-Sweetheart maybe, or Tapping, or just Recognizing that if we don’t Support ourself by Believing in ourself, why would anyone else)?  Even though most of us are Trained not to Believe it, Vulnerability is actually the Strongest form of Protection.  If your Community doesn’t Honor and Reward that, you need a new Community.

As it was with the Rebirth Energy, our basic Hassle is that we’re likely to be Denying our Need for Rebirth (Stationary Eris Opposite Haumea, and even though it’s been ten days since Haumea Stood Still, it’s only one arcminute from it’s Station – in other words, still very Strong).

Again as in the Rebirth chart, the overall Pattern is a Big-Eared Bat – I think that’s a better name for it than a Headless Flying Squirrel.  The hidden Head, tucked between the Ears, would be at 29 Scorpio, which we could consider to be a Vacancy.  No prominent asteroids there, but there’s a prominent Star, one meaning that a Healing, Consciousness-Expanding Journey is afoot (the Fixed Star Toliman, the foot of the Centaur [Chiron]).  The (Sabian) symbol for the Degree is about Vulnerability and Honesty (“A Native American woman pleading with the Chief for the lives of her children“).

Original Blessing 6

Okay, we’ve pretty well covered the Challenges (T-Squares) in the 9 July 2020 (11pm PDT) Rebirth (Station of dwarf planet Haumea) chart.  Before we move on to the 11 July (2pm PDT) Banishing-Victimhood (Station of Chiron) chart, is there anything else in the Rebirth chart that’s too important to ignore?

There’s significant, well-Grounded Grace, especially between our Guilt, our Fear, and our newly Expanding Confidence (Earth Grand Trine [Dumb-Luck Blessings] between asteroid Nemesis [Guilt, Ego Death], dwarf planet Sedna [Converting Fear to Power], and dwarf planet Chariklo [Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence] Conjunct Jupiter-Pluto [Expanded Trance]).

The overall Configuration is a Headless Flying Squirrel with Big Ears (or the shield of the Pennsylvania Railroad, if you ever played Monopoly).  Given the Ears, we should probably think of it as a Bat instead, though Bats have a rather ominous reputation, even though a lot more of them Enjoy Fruit than Jugulars.  We could wear a Turtle-neck just in case.  Actually, Bats are great for eating Mosquitoes and the like, and in most places they’re mostly invisible.  A Headless Flying Squirrel wouldn’t know where it’s going, which is a good omen for the Intuition we need to Navigate this Rebirth.  A Bat Navigates by echo-location more than Vision per se, and those Big Ears are great for that.  Flying Squirrels only Glide rather than Fly, while Bats are expert acrobatic Flyers, following the rapid zigs and zags of their Insect dinners.

The all-important Big Ears in the chart are our Rebirth (Haumea) and our Attention to Healing our Karmic Patterns and Recovering our Hidden Genius (Ixion-South Node-Galactic Center-Lilith).  Those are our Guides here.  You may not be used to being Guided by a Fetus, but it would be an excellent idea to Accept such a thing.  A New Identity is growing inside you, and you’d do well to strike up a conversation, and Listen more than you Talk.  Ask a lot of Questions, and PIAVA to Open All Possible Senses to “hear” the multi-dimensional Answers, or more likely, Stories.  Your Hidden Genius is its Invisible Friend, so it would be even better if you Inquired about them.  If you Think you Know what’s going on after that, you’re on the wrong track (Thinking is 2D, your Rebirth is at least 5D).  If you Kinda Feel like you have a Clue or two about your New Directions, you’ll be closer to Truth.

The Core of a Flying Squirrel Configuration is a Square Fez (a Trapezoid with blue top and bottom, and red sides, here Eris-to-Chariklo et al-to-Nemesis-to-North Node et al), and the key to any Fez lies in its Diagonals.  These are about Curiosity (Quincunxes, five Signs apart), the sort of Curiosity that’s about Awe or Wonder, more than any Answer-Seeking.  In fact, we need to be Vigilant about guarding against Answer-Seeking, because What We Want is the Discovery of Entirely New Insights that will Modify all of our other Concept Sets, not just moving the deck chairs around.  PIAVAs can help – in fact, might be Essential.  So the Quincunxes here are…

• New Relationships between Guilt and Revelation (Nemesis [Ego Death] Quincunx Eris [Denial and Revelation]) – a possible Theta PIAVA… “God/Goddess, Creator of All Things, I Command that Life-Changing Insights Be Delivered to Me.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank You, God/Goddess. … Show Me!”  The Insights may be so Delivered, but more likely your Show Me will show you a picture of you having your Mind Blown, and the Insights appear later, after you’ve Changed the Subject.  If you don’t get a picture of yourself having an Insight, you may want to Tap Out your Resistance, with something like “Even though I’m Blocking the Insights that Will Change My Life, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself,” and then do the Theta again.

• New Relationships between Expanded Confidence and Unlimiting our Lifetime Mission (Chariklo-Jupiter-Pluto Quincunx Asbolus-Eurydike-Chaos-Atropos-North Node [Ending all Blocks to Trusting Your Intuition to Take You to a Greatly Expanded Vision of Your Mission]) – Our Mission will require us to Accomplish the Impossible, which is only Possible after we Abandon our Current Identity and our Current Mindset (this is Chiron territory, Poor-Sweetheart Country, and fortunately Chiron is also Stationary as we speak).  You could try a Poor-Sweetheart, like “You Poor Sweetheart, you can’t Do the Impossible, can you.”  Followed by Changing the Subject of course.  Or any of the other PIAVAs – Prayer, Intention, Asking, Visualizing/”Feelizing,” Affirmation, or any of the silent terms, like “C or E or W.”  I tried this one, and it was Amazing!  (Still is!)  Or, we could try Microdosing.

We’ll look at the 11 July Chiron Station next…

Intuition, Choice, Self-Sovereignty III

The 21 March 2020 Station of asteroid Moira (Fate and Choice) also includes a hidden feature that holds a lot of Promise (a Septile Fez – a Configuration comprised of three Biseptiles and one Septile; we Interpret a Fez most easily by interpreting its Diagonals).

In this video, Rita Wilson explains a traditional, and Powerful, Manifestation process…

Basically, she Achieves sufficient Clarity to be able to Extend a healthy quantity of Positive Emotion into her Vision, and a series of Miracles follow, both Initiated by her Clarity (Dynamic Creativity), and also Bestowed by “Outside Forces” that she Inspires (Magnetic Creativity).  It’s a good Metaphor for what’s going on in this chart Pattern.

An astrological “Fez” is a Configuration that looks like one of those Turkish felt hats, an isosceles (equal-sided) trapezoid or trapezium, like so…

The Angles between these planets are in the Seventh Harmonic – that is, they’re multiples of one seventh of the way around the Zodiac.  The Seventh Harmonic is about Timing.  When you’re trying to Manifest something, Timing Is Everything.

This Fez tells us that, in particular, the Time is Right for…

• Focusing your Attention Fully on your Mission (diagonal Saturn [The Most Important Thing] Triseptiling the North Node [our Mission]).  This won’t be easy, because any number of other Priorities will attempt to intervene – such as using your Dynamic Manifestation Skills (Plan, Execute) and Magnetic Manifestation Skills (PIAVA, see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/) to Assure your Survival.

But if you Give First Priority to Your Mission, your other Priorities will take care of themselves.  Scary, I know.  If you Think or feel like you already know what your Mission is, be sure to suffix it with “…or something like that.”  Our Mission is vastly multidimensional, and the Intellect is merely Dual, so Thinking you know what it is will never be more than partially correct.

Feeling like you know what your Mission is, isn’t much better, because “Feeling like” is really Thinking.  Naming your Mission is similar, as Verbalization is always filtered through Thinking, unless you’re Channeling or doing Automatic Writing or Free Association.

But if you can Feel your Mission in your Body, without Verbalizing it, you definitely want to spend time Focusing Intently on that Feeling in your Body.

Plan/Execute and other Dynamic Manifestation Skills are very difficult without Verbalization.  But a great advantage of Magnetic Manifestation Processes is that they require only vague Verbalization.  For instance a PIAVA such as…

“God/Goddess, Guide me so that everything I do is Directly Applicable to My Mission in this Lifetime.”

…is sufficient.  Preview all of your Actions and PIAVAs with that one, even your Dynamic Creativity applied to your Secondary (for now) Priorities such as Survival, and you’ll stay on track.

• Growing our Consciousness by Focusing on the Ephemeral more than the Visible (diagonal asteroid Juno [Growth in Consciousness] triseptiling Neptune [Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity]).  Growth in Consciousness usually requires a shift in Identity, aka an Ego Death, so if you Discover that you’re Avoiding Discomfortable Changes, take a small step toward those Changes instead.

Material Confusion is certainly a prominent part of our Current Moment Reality, but rather than trying to Grok what’s happening to your Species and your Planet by following the News closely so you can Anal-yse it, PIAVA that your Intuition tells you where you’ll end up after this Big Disruption, so you can start Maximizing your Adjustment to your Future Self and Role now, and not waste your Attention on short-term Noise, of which there is plenty.

And of course you’ll also want to PIAVA that you are Available to your Intuition, so you’re Open to Receiving it, Trusting it, and Following its Guidance.

Asteroid Moira might seem like a bit player, but She governs what may be The Most Important Thing we can Learn on this Planet – the Difference between Fate and Choice. 

That Difference – which is synonymous with Letting Go of our Karma – determines whether we’re Victimized by our Life Force, or Adept at Managing It.  It leads Directly to Enlightenment or Ascension, and it’s Essential to Surviving this Decade’s Descent of the Soul into Matter (Uranus in Taurus).  If we don’t Master this before the Age of Aquarius arrives In Earnest (starting this coming December), we’ll find ourselves Living in a World of Warring Ideologies (Aquarius as Fixed Air) and 5G (a possible source of Coronavirus symptoms, as we’re literally Cooked by Microwaves) instead of Living in Collaborative 5D.

This is the beginning of a poem by Kristin Flyntz, titled An Imagined Letter from Covid-19 to Humans…

Stop.  Just stop.
It is no longer a request.  It is a mandate.
We will help you.
We will bring the supersonic, high speed
merry-go-round to a halt.
We will stop
the planes
the trains
the schools
the malls
the meetings
the frenetic, furied rush of illusions and ‘obligations’ that keep you from hearing our single and shared beating heart,
the way we breathe together, in unison.
Our obligation is to each other,
As it has always been, even if, even though, you have forgotten.
We will interrupt this broadcast, the endless cacophonous broadcast of divisions and distractions,
to bring you this long-breaking news:
We are not well.
None of us; all of us are suffering…

Find the rest of the Channeling at https://olyclimate.org/2020/03/17/an-imagined-letter-from-covid-19-to-humans/.

Possible Self-Deprecation Squall

That’s possible for the next several days, because the asteroid that symbolizes Self-Love (Sappho) is Lit up Strongly (Stationary) on 5 February, 2020 (just after 12am PST).  We can do Negative astroshrinkology, and assume that this asteroid symbolizes Self-Abandonment, or we can do Positive – Jungian or Spiritual – astropsychology, and assign Self-Love to the asteroid, and describe how a Constructive if sometimes Uncomfortable and/or Abstruse Unconscious likes to point out our Shortcomings to us so we can Upgrade them.

In a nod to the Unconscious’s Habit of Attending to Dimension while ignoring Direction, we thus interpret this asteroid, Sappho, as implying the Dimension of Self-Love-and-Self-Judgment.  Under the asteroid’s Influence, we could Experience either or both.  And we proactively regard Self-Judgment and it’s variations – Self-Hate, Self-Criticism, Regret, Self-Abandonment, and the like – as Illustrations of how we Lack Self-Love, and hence Opportunities to Convert them to Unconditional Self-Love.  Which is how Self-Love should work, Unconditionally.

We use a tried-and-true Habit-Change process to accomplish this Conversion.  First and foremost, we Notice that we’re Self-Judging.  Then we Congratulate ourself for Noticing, rather than Condemning ourself for Self-Judging Again.  This replaces Negative Reinforcement with Positive, making the process easier and faster the next time.  It may well require some Practice, before we can be Genuinely Grateful that we’ve Noticed and therefore prove that we’ve actually started the Change process.

Once we’ve approached Neutrality, we have several options.  We can Contemplate Alternatives.  We can PIAVA (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/) more Positive Responses.  We can set a Boundary with people who routinely Trigger our Self-Judgment, without Blame if possible.  We can find a Safe place to curl up in the fetal position, Hug ourself, and Poor-Sweetheart ourself (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/).

Or we can just go for the Chocolate.  Since the Chocolate can reinforce Denial, though, we should first do some Noticing, Congratulating, PIAVAing, and/or Poor-Sweethearting.  Since both PIAVAing and Poor-Sweethearting require that we subsequently Change the Subject, then we can go for the Chocolate.  Hey, Best of Both Worlds, eh?  That’s what Self-Love is all about!

In this particular Sappho Station astroevent, it’s particularly important to Avoid Blame, because whatever it is that we’re in Judgment about, it’s not Present-Moment, it’s Karmic (Stationary Sappho Opposes the asteroid Karma/Karma).  It has its Origins in other Lifetimes.  Blame and Judgment are inseparable, so neither will ever take us to Neutrality, which we Need, because Nothing ever Changes until we Accept it Unconditionally just as it Is.  To do that we have to be in Neutrality.

This particular Sappho Station astroevent will also emphasize the places where we Give Away Our Power (asteroids Sappho and Karma are T-Square to/Challenged-by dwarf planet Hylonome/ Self-Sovereignty-and-Codependence, which is Conjunct/ Merged-With Jupiter/Expansion).  Blame is the quintessence of Giving Away our Power.  Blame is focused on Judging the Past; Responsibility is focused on Improving Future Outcomes.  Blame prevents Change.

Fortunately, this Sappho-Station astroevent is very Conducive to Deep Change (the chart contains a second T-Square/Challenge, to asteroid Vesta/Unconscious-Beliefs from Sun/Essence and asteroid Lachesis/Conscious-Change).  Deep Change is a Challenge (T-Square) here, but Accepting the Challenge, and Reverting our Habits of being Victimized by our own Self-Judgment, promises a Big Pay-Off (a T-Square is a Challenge to Mastery).

The overall Configuration of the chart is that of a Chrysalis (aka Takeout Carton, though this one’s upside down) – a cocoon that’s about to complete a Metamorphosis into a whole new Form…

It’s also very Conducive to Enlisting the Aid of our Higher Power and other Guides and Invisible 5D Helpers (Finger-of-God/Pay-Attention! pointing to Neptune/Relationship-to-Goddess at the apex of the Chrysalis).  We could do that very Productively (the basic Configuration is a Fez, with which we most effectively work through the diagonal Quincunxes) by using PIAVAs such as…

• God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Fully Embrace Unconditional Self-Love.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank You, God/Goddess!  Show Me.  (Sappho Quincunx to asteroid Vesta/Unconscious Beliefs)

• God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Lovingly and Gently Fully Embrace my Self-Sovereignty.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank You, God/Goddess!  Show Me.  (Asteroid Lachesis/Conscious-Change Quincunx to dwarf planet Hylonome/Self-Sovereignty Conjunct Jupiter/Expansion)

As we’ve recommended several times, it’s particularly Powerful to alternate each of these Theta Healings (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/) with Tapping…

We Command the Healing, and as we finish we Pay Attention to What We Get when we say Show Me (which may be a Picture, a Gut Feeling, or any other Intuitive Form).  If we see or hear Yes-Buts, we can then Tap Those Out.  For instance, I needed to Tap Out “Even Though I have some Fear about Fully Accepting my Self-Sovereignty, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself.”  Then we Command the Healing again, repeating as necessary until our Show Me comes out “Clean,” and perhaps Triggers a jet of Kundalini up the Spine.

Whenever we overthink Self-Love, in one way or another we come up against Narcissism.  Narcissists also need Unconditional Self-Love.  Narcissism per se isn’t the Problem we face in our Fearsome Leaders; the Problem is the Perverse Manipulation of their Psychological Disorders by the Snakes who gain from it.  Narcissism has its legitimate role in the World.  And if the Snakes didn’t bring us to the brink of Destruction, would we ever have the Courage to Mutiny?

Self-Love is also a perennial source of Confusion for anyone with Strong Virgo in their natality.  Virgo’s Spiritual Function is Ego Death, to unwind Leo’s focus on Self and substitute preparation for Meeting Libra’s Other with Openness and Equanimity.  So Self-Criticism seems like an Essential step in Virgo’s Process.  But that’s not Virgo’s only option.  Once a person with Strong Virgo becomes fully Aware of their Role in the Cosmic Cycle, and becomes Aware through their Emotions that a Transformation is imminent, they might for instance PIAVA it directly, with something like…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All Things, I Command that I Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely be Transformed Directly into my next Natural Phase.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank You, God/Goddess.  Show Me.”

This would take a lot of Courage, because everyone else’s Expectations of Consistency would be repeatedly Disappointed.  Which is an Issue not just for Virgo, but for anyone who is True to Their Own Power.

Trusting Hurricanes

Trust is our Biggest Issue till 3 September 2019 at around 3:30 pm PDT, as the astrosymbol for Trust Dominates (asteroid Eurydike Stationary).  That’s 6:30 pm Tuesday evening Florida time.  Sometimes the slate needs to be wiped Clean for us before we Recognize that we need to Start Over.  The astroevent is at 2 Aquarius, so you may be Feeling this pickle around any of your natal planets in the Zone between 29 and 5 Degrees.  Unless we make a long list of individual notes (for instance, we could dissect the four [!] Square-Fez Takeout Cartons), the chart isn’t easy to interpret…

The two major Challenges (T-Squares) are aligned so as to make one another Self-Resolving (Diamond Stars, ie, a T-Square and a Finger of God pointing to the same Focus), so we won’t worry much about them.  We’ll mention them in the next post, since they may scare us while they’re Resolving themselves.  They’re about Health, and about Which Way to Proceed as we Start Over.

Once we bypass those, we’re left with the Hurricane, in the form of a Singular Challenge between our Despair over Real and Imagined Traumas and the Threats that Climate Change brings (the naked Square between asteroid Karma Conjunct Chiron in early Aries and dwarf planets Pholus and Quaoar Conjunct on the Cusp of Capricorn).  We aren’t all Threatened by Hurricanes – some of us just by the Loss of the Illusion of Democracy.  The excessive immigration that Triggered Brexit, for instance, resulted from Drought in the Middle East and North Africa.

Our Karma is not Present-Moment, which is to say, is not Real.  It is Imagined.  Once it begins to Threaten us, our Expectations take over, and we Recreate the Patterns that we know so well, often making it Present Moment.  That’s actually Optional, but since our Karmic Patterns are so well-Practiced (often “Perfect” even), we often don’t Notice.

We’re familiar with Chiron, the symbol for Converting Despair to Miracles.  When we Poor-Sweetheart ourself (“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re feeling like those Old Bummers are threatening again, aren’t you.”), we shift from Identifying with what was Bumming us Out, to Identifying with Compassion.  As Einstein famously may or may not have said, we can’t solve a problem using the same Paradigm that Created it.  We have to Shift to a new Paradigm, and there’s no Shift more Powerful than a Shift of Identity.  Once we do, what was Impossible in the Old mindset, becomes Easy in the New one – a Miracle.

Asteroid Karma is Retrograde, and hasn’t been Initiated by Chiron yet – that won’t happen till New Years Day 2020.  Talk about Prophetic!  The New Cycle will begin at 2 Aries, “A comedian reveals Human Nature.”  In other words, we either need to Receive 2020 as a Cosmic Joke, or we need to get really good at Shifting our Paradigms.  We could even Shift ourself right into 5D, and skip 2020 entirely.

So one end of this Challenge is about Choosing to Either wallow in our Victimhood (Karma), Or Shift into Creating Miracles.  I found our earlier essays on Karma-Chiron to be informative (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/cycles/asteroid-cycles/karma-chiron/), especially the Cerussite-Barite-Hematite Crystals.

The other end of the Challenge is Climate Change.  Dwarf planet Quaoar symbolizes our Survival Instincts.  Our Instincts should tell us not to burn the siding to keep warm in the winter, but as the Slapstick Hupers that we are, we often “naively” do just that.  Thing is, they’re Instincts.  Like Intuition and Dream and Coincidence, Western “Civilization” and its Patriarchal focus on mind has relegated our Instincts to the “Only” category – You can Ignore that, it’s Only your Instincts (Hint – it was Political).

Dwarf planet Pholus, meanwhile, is about What we think we can Ignore.  Or even, What we haven’t thought about.  Are we not thinking about it because it’s Overwhelming?  Paradise CA was, as towns go, quite well Prepared for Fire.  But not at all Prepared for that kind of Fire, because no one even Conceived of it, or if they did, they Dismissed it as Paranoid.  As they say, Just because you’re Paranoid, doesn’t mean “they” aren’t out to “get” you.  Now, does it make sense to spend 300% of our time and resources preparing for something with a vanishingly small probability of occurring?  It’s “never” happened before, after all.

No, it doesn’t make sense.  But that’s what the Mythological Pholus discovered – major Catastrophe as a result of something he hadn’t considered.  Vanishingly small probability.  His oversight got him dead, along with many of his mates, and got Chiron so famously Wounded.  Now the probability of Catastrophic Climate Change, like the probability of Catastrophic Earthquakes for many of us, is closer to One than Vanishingly small.  Yet how much Effort do we put into Preparation?  How much Effort is appropriate?  It may be too late for Prevention.  How do we allocate our time and resources?

But if we’re Attending to our Instincts and Intuitions, it’s not about Making Sense, is it.  It’s about Trust, once we get out of the “Left-Brain” Paradigm enough to discover what to Trust!

Busy August VII

A reader writes…

“August 2nd (rather bluntly as you put it)… my company cut back my hours… but there has been a calm inside like this is all a part of dropping the old for something new manifesting (like making space for the new).  A tiny part wants to scream… you idiot do you know how low your paycheck is right now.. how will you survive… and yet a calm that will not let that little part take over… a trust that seems rooted in faith to the higher self.”

A good example of Soul Descending into Hardcopy Consciousness (Uranus Stationary in Taurus abetted by a very Strong Stationary Jupiter).  We’re Praying that their Abundance (Having Enough to Share) is not seriously interrupted, but their Awareness of their Soul-Confidence is a huge head start for them.

It wouldn’t hurt to look at the Jupiter Station chart.  Compared to most of the charts we look at, it’s weird…

If we were going to give this strange Configuration a name, it would have to be an “Unx Fez” – Fez because it’s an isosceles trapezoid, and Unx because its nonparallel sides are Unxes, or one Sign in length (an Unx is one twelfths of something).  An actual Fez hat would never be this shallow, but the name is consistent with our Sextile Fez, Square Fez, and Trine Fez Configurations.  The short sides are actually of equal length, even though they aren’t drawn that way because the crowd of planets in Leo pushes asteroid Nemesis out of place.

We interpret a Fez by interpreting the diagonals, which are always Quincunxes (five signs apart).  That means the Fez is a Configuration of Paradox, because the Quincunx is a Question that does not seek an Answer.  It’s a Sacred Mystery, like a Seed or a Conception, or Shaktipat, or a Miracle.  Western Culture’s worship of the Dual has pretty much Destroyed the Sacred, with its unquenchable thirst for Answers and Theories and Mechanisms that Betray the Unitary and the Multidimensional that compose the Mystery in Reality.

We often interpret a Quincunx as an “I Wonder” statement, with a period rather than a question mark, using Wonder as in Awe…

• I Wonder how Expanding and Surrendering into my Sacred Lifetime Mission will Feel (Stationary Jupiter Quincunx North Node).

• I Wonder if Attending to the Emotions I can’t stand to Feel will absolve me of Guilt (Saturn-South Node Quincunx to Nemesis).

The Angular Relationships in astrology are not parallel to equivalences in Words.  Lilith and Hylonome both indicate Self-Sovereignty or Codependence, but they can still Challenge (Square) each other.  Mercury and Neptune point to opposite sides of the Brain, but they can still Bless (Trine) one another.

We may think of Mission (North Node) and Expansion (Jupiter) as Related terms, but there are Mysterious additional Dimensions hidden there when they’re connected by a Quincunx.  And we may think of Karma (South Node) and Guilt (Nemesis) as Related in another way, but the Quincunx implies that there’s a Mysterious hidden Unity between them – perhaps that each is a Mystical Doorway into the Other – or something like that.  Quincunx interpretations always need to be followed by “…or something like that” – with a Bow and a Namaste to Eugene Gendlin.

Because Quincunxes Invite us into the Unconscious, we always need to leave them Unanswered.  Answers to Questions can only be given by the mind’s existing concept set, so they always prevent us from Growing.  We can Wonder about a Quincunx and then Change the Subject, using them like a PIAVA to Inspire our Intuition.  So our Intuition may Deliver an Answer of sorts, but it will be more Wholistic than Deterministic.  We may Grok it more than Understand it.

Better yet if we can Leave it as a Mystery.  Buddhists practice “Don’t Know,” and “Beginner’s Mind,” and Zen Koans to get beyond the mind into Dimensions other than the Dual – the First (All There Is Is One) and the Multi.  Challenge yourself to Think for a day (or a minute) without using Cause and Effect, for instance.  We’re so brainwashed into Believing that if we don’t Know and can’t Manipulate the Mechanisms, we can’t have any Effect on Reality.  If we instead Focus on Outcomes and let a Force Greater Than Ourself do the Manifesting, we can Enjoy the Mystery of the Universe.

Take Affirmation, for instance.  For Affirmation to work, we have to Believe and Trust that the Outcome will be Delivered.  Say “I Affirm Peace on Earth” and see how that rattles around in your brain.  Yes, it’s possible that Huperity will be a Failed Experiment, and your vision of Conflagration may be what Creates Peace – without Hupers.  But that’s a Mechanism.  It’s not What We Want.  How about “I Affirm that Hupers mostly Collaborate” – what happens in our Field after that Affirmation?

Self-Judgment and Self-Love

Well, my apologies.  I finally see why many folks are checking the blog’s home page – when I was cataloging the “first half of 2019” (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/12/24/2019-first-half/) I just plain missed a couple of Stations.  I thought we were getting a short break between the 12 January Lachesis Station and the 20 January Full Moon Eclipse, but no such luck!

We have to add…

♥ Self-Judgment and Self-Love, 11-20 January

• Nemesis (Guilt, Ego Death) Station, 6 Gemini, 17 January (2:30 pm PST)
• Sappho (Self-Love) Station, 12 Gemini, 20 January (9:30 pm PST)

I’ll amend that earlier post.

In other words, asteroid Nemesis – Ego Death – is Stationary as we speak.  There’s at least one positive about it – it could mean that US federal employees will start getting paid again by 18-20 January, but we’ll get to that.  The other big positive may not Feel so good, but it’s a big Opportunity.  The Nemesis Station Squares (Challenges) our old “friends” OR10 and Nessus, respectively Intrusive Memories and Abuse and Privilege.  Two things to Remember…

1. A Square seems to be about Repeated and Possibly Infinite Torture, while in fact a Square is about Complete Mastery of a Subject.  We – our Current-Moment Ego – didn’t sign up for Repeated and Possibly Infinite Torture, but actually it’s the quickest and most effective path to Complete Mastery.  Because Master can imply Slave, we’ve abandoned Mastery as a description of the Impact of a Square, however, and substituted Adeptness.  A Square is the quickest and most effective path to Becoming Completely Adept at something.
2. Karma is Dead.  When we Re-Experience a Trauma, our natural Reaction is to Push it Away.  But unfortunately that doesn’t work.  The only way to prevent it from returning Again (and Again and Again) is to Move Into it.  Recovery from Trauma was a major theme in the 1980s when Pluto was in Scorpio (fittingly), and the Anthem we used then was The Way Out Is Through.

Now that isn’t always True.  Once Pluto entered Sagittarius, The Way Out Was Letting Go.  Now Pluto is in Capricorn, so now The Way Out Is to Just Fix It.  So how to do that?  Well, one way is to toggle between Moving Into It and Letting It Go. 

We apologize for using a song sung by a Barbie-Doll mimic, because that’s just another thing that we need to Let Go of.  No wonder Lasseter’s in trouble with #MeToo…

https://msmonotone.wordpress.com/2017/09/08/hour-glass-figure/

We’ve all Suffered Abuse in some form; if you aren’t Aware of how you’ve been Abused, Ask for Awareness.  This is an Opportunity to increase your Healthy Control over your own Life.

The Key is that Karma is just Habit, and Habit is Built and Replaced by Repetition.  Every time you Re-Experience Trauma as its Victim you add cement.  But Every time you Let It Go as an Adept, you chip away the mortar.  That’s As An Adept.  That means you first have to dip your toe into it.  You can no longer Run Away from it.  It’s subtle and tricky, to Touch your old Trauma without getting sucked in and drowning in it.  If you have a friend, or a mnemonic, to remind you that it’s no longer Present Moment, that’ll help.

In the 1980s we used “What Color is the Wallpaper?” as our mnemonic, because the walls of the room we’re in now are probably a different color than the walls of the room where our Trauma occurred.  But that may suck you in too deep, if you even remember.  You need to keep at least one hand on the railing so you can pull yourself back out into Now.  Maybe a big

2019

sign?  Or a placard or poster that says something like

“Karma is Dead!
(As long as I continue to Let My Bummers Go and Let My Hurting Self into my Own Heart Unconditionally!)”

Let your Inner Artist work on that one.

Poor-Sweethearting yourself can be Powerful too (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/).

Don’t neglect Tapping.  Gary Craig had great success leading Vietnam PTSD Victims through Re-Experiencing the Edges of their Trauma and Tapping with them.  This is heavy…

In order to Move Through and Let Go of Deep Trauma you may need an EFT professional who’s familiar with PTSD.  A workable approach might be to locate one near you (or within telephone distance), connect with them, tell them you want to try EFT on your Trauma first by yourself, and ask them if they’re willing to take your call if you get in over your head.  They may have useful information for you.  The basic EFT technique I use is this one…

Finally, if it’s Painful between now and 17 January, Recognize that the 20 January Sappho Station that follows, which is all about Self-Love, occurs within a few minutes of the Total Lunar Eclipse, which will make Self-Love very Powerful and more Long-Lasting.

The major Configuration of the Nemesis Station chart…

…is a Square Fez – the Moroccan hat with red sides and blue top and bottom.  The red sides (Squares) are…

• Nemesis Square OR10-Nessus (Abuse/Privilege).  This is a Challenge – consider it an Invitation – to Let Go of our Beliefs that Abuse and Privilege follow us around like a Lost Puppy.

In the Unconscious, Opposites are Equal.  So one way to Approach our Beliefs that we attract or deserve or allowed Abuse (if we don’t bring these Beliefs into Consciousness they’ll Control our Life), is to Examine the ways we are Privileged.  Privilege is actually useful – as long as it doesn’t leave someone else without Privilege.  If you have a friend who likes to buy you lunch, Enjoy it!  And pay it forward, pass it around.  Save half to give to the homeless person on the corner.

But we want to Strive for Balance.  We want to Grant as much Privilege as we Receive.  And we want to Give as little Abuse as possible, and Receive even less.  Having Received Abuse it’s inevitable that we will Give it, Unconsciously if not Consciously.  Stay Safe, but try to steer it toward Abusers…

https://msmonotone.wordpress.com/2017/10/06/pigs-in-politics/

The Keys to any Fez are the green Diagonals (called “Quincunxes” because they connect planets that are five [Quin] Signs [Unx = 1/12] apart).  They’re part of two interlocking Major Tricolors or red-green-blue triangles, indicating Challenge/red, Question/green, Blessing/blue; the green Question Liberates the blue Blessing to resolve the red Challenge.  By Question we mean Curiosity, of the kind that eschews “Figuring It Out.”

Aka PIAVA – Praying, Intending, Asking, Visualizing or Pre-Feeling, Affirming, Commanding, Expanding, or any other Magnetic approach to Creating; see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.  We don’t want Answers, we want to Express our Curiosity about How the Result we Want will Manifest – then we want to Let It Be so the Universe can Surprise us.  Resist the Desire to know ahead of time; if you don’t get Surprised, you aren’t Growing.  If we already knew the Answer, we’d have already Manifested it.

The two Major Tricolors are…

• Nemesis Square OR10/Nessus (the Challenge to gently assist the Molt of our Abused Ego),
  • OR10/Nessus Quincunx Makemake (“I Wonder what that’ll look like when it Manifests!“),
  • Makemake Trine Nemesis (Ego Death is the Open Door to Creating).

• Makemake Square Hopi/Quaoar (the Challenge to Recognize and Relax our Judgments in order to Allow What We Want to Manifest),
  • Hopi/Quaoar Quincunx to Nemesis (“Ganeshi, Please Remove All Obstacles to Letting Go of my Attachments to my Judgments“),
  • Nemesis Trine Makemake (I’ll be better able to Manifest What I Want once I Let Go of my Inner Blocks to Receiving it).

Many thanks to MSMonotone, https://msmonotone.wordpress.com/about/home-art-work-titled-nathan-original-works-by-msmonotone-jayanti-maloney/, for the art!

Gauntlet XI – Winding Down

We’re down to the last day of the April Gauntlet.  The Pluto Station (Changing the Water in the Aquarium we’re immersed in) and the Chariklo Station (Transforming our Concept of Walking in Beauty) are a day and two Degrees apart, so they basically share a chart…

The Stations are complicated by issues of Self-Sovereignty and Action, not to mention a big Challengeto Acknowledge the Truth that our previous Timeline has run its course and, should we Choose to Accept it, our Life will be very Different from now on – or at least from tomorrow on, once the Chariklo Station (6am PDT 23 April) finishes with us.

Once again with astrologuese…

The Stations are complicated by issues of Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) and Action (Mars), not to mention a big Challenge (T-Square, the red triangle) to Acknowledge the Truth that our previous Timeline has run its course and, should we Choose to Accept it, our Life will be very Different from now on (the base of the T-Square is Rebirth/Haumea and Truth/Veritas Opposing Ego Death/Nemesis, Revelation/Eris, and Choice of Timelines/Lachesis) – or at least from tomorrow on, once the Chariklo Station (6am PDT 23 April) finishes with us.

We’ve highlighted should we Choose to Accept it because that’s a key to the whole complex.  Asteroid Lachesis is the “Fate” or Goddess that “measures the length” of a Lifetime or a Timeline (a thematic segment of a Lifetime).  Fate is what happens to us when we Live from the Unconscious.  When we Live from Consciousness, we substitute Choice for Fate.

Pluto is the Big River of Time, the personification of Irresistible Power.  Planets exercise their Strongest Impact when they’re Stationary.  So we can read the Stationary Pluto-Stationary Chariklo-Mars-Lilith Stellium (group of 3 or more planets) as Having the Supreme Confidence (Stationary Chariklo) to Use the Momentum Created by the Current Big Shift in the Flow of Time (Stationary Pluto), to Act (Mars) in Support of Our Willingness to Create Our Own Reality (Lilith).

Remember that our aim here is Consciousness, so we regard Interpretation as much more important than Prediction.  So if you’re thinking, “Shit, I wish I’d have known that ahead of time,” see if you can reframe that to “Oh, okay, I see where I might have Responded Differently.”  However we didn’t Live our Brutus Moment, that’s the Experience that is leading us to Wisdom, to where we might see it as a Mandela Moment instead.

The part about Truth (Veritas)-Rebirth (Haumea) is pretty straightforward.  The Ego Death/Nemesis-Revelation/Eris-Lachesis/Choice Stellium is more complex.  Eris is about Accepting the Revelation of what’s been hitherto Denied.  Nemesis is the Revelation that a Timeline, and the Value System that supported it, has reached a Dead-End.  In the Unconscious, it’s Ended by Punishment.  In Consciousness it’s Ended by Choosing a better Path into the Future.

So when we Face the parts of our Life that are no longer Working and Accept that we have to Let them Go, we’re Liberated into Birthing a New Reality for ourself.

The Big Challenge (T-Square) reveals an Easy Way Out (Trine Bridge, the blue lines) through our Recognition of Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos).  In other words, we’ll jump forward by thinking in terms of “What Do I Really Want in this Lifetime“ rather than “How Can I Weasel my way out of this Pickle.”

The second Opposition (long red line) in the chart is closely related conceptually as well as astrologically – Fate Herself (asteroid Moira) Opposing Expansion (Jupiter).  As if there’s a simple Dualistic Choice between Unconsciousness (Moira) and Growth (Jupiter).  The fact that the Stations and their Baggage form the Easy Way Out (Trine Bridge) to this Opposition belies that simplicity. 

Unconsciousness is an Addiction, and while Choice is a critical step in Confronting Addiction, it’s only one step of many – ten by one common measure.  We have to Choose Consciousness over and over again until it’s Second Nature to do so (and then we have to Confront that Habit as an Archetype).  We have to Sustain Choice, and we’ll talk about that in a moment.

Then we notice that the Stations are involved in another important, if subtle, Configuration – a “Sextile Fez” (trapezoid).  In any Fez, we want to Pay Attention to the diagonals, in this case…

• Unlimited Potential (Chaos) Quincunx (Curiosity) to the Stations and their Baggage (Pluto-Chariklo-Mars-Lilith)
• Growth (Jupiter) Quincunx to Choosing Ego Death (Nemesis-Eris-Lachesis)

The important thing is to Allow the Curiosity to stay Curiosity, and not try to “Figure It Out.”  Figuring It Out creates Knowledge, which may be useful but is never complete or accurate.  Letting it sit as is creates instead Awe and Wonder, which is where we need to be, Awestruck by the unfathomable Miracles that surround us every day, rather than Powerhungry with the Egobound Illusion that we have Dominion here.  So we might PIAVA something like…

• “I Wonder just how much Power I could Contain if I had the Confidence to Assert Who I Am” – notice we’re “Containing” Power, not “Asserting” it.  Reread Castaneda if you don’t understand how this works.
• “I Wonder how Growth and Ego Death are Related – like a Crab or a Butterfly perhaps?”

Notice that these are this week’s Quincunxes, therefore this week’s Curiosities.  We’re blessed that astrology isn’t all Quincunxes, leaving us Stoned out of our minds with Awe all the time.  Curiosity and Confusion are twin Feeling States that Western “left-brain” don’t allow to be the Emotions that they actually are, instead co-opting them as Challenges to the Intellect and shutting down their pathways to Intuition and Wisdom.

Then we notice that there is a lovely perfect Five-Pointed Star in the chart, drawn in light purple lines.  That’s called a “Grand Quintile,” as it divides the Zodiac into five equal parts.  Five is the number of Learning and Teaching – we could even refer to it as Curiosity! 

The Quincunx after all if Five Unxes, or five twelfths of the way round the Zodiacal Loop.  The Twelfth Harmonic is Pattern-Breaking.  So Learning to be Present with Curiosity as an Emotion in its own right is a Powerful Pattern-Breaker and a Powerful tool for breaking free of Unconsciousness and our Limiting, Self-Sabotaging Archetypes.

So this time is shown to be a humongous Learning Opportunity.  We’re Learning about the Relationships between the five planets that make up the Grand Quintile.  Remember that while all Learning leaves a permanent Impact, it’s important that we Recognize that this chart is about the Present Moment, not about Eternity.  It’s the Wisdom we gain from Experience that can Work in Time Provinces other than the current one.  The Conclusions we draw in the Present Moment are only as good as they increment our Stash of Wisdom.

The five corners of this Grand Quintile are…

• Rebirth-Truth (Haumea-Veritas) – This is the most important corner because it cohabits with the Configuration that holds the Stations.  The most valuable Lesson is that Ego Death is just a reboot, not a hard disk crash.  Rebirth is actually a tremendous Gift, because without if we’re stuck in Limbo, in the Void, for a while.  If you think Resisting the Temptation to pigeonhole Curiosity and Confusion is hard, what till you get to spend time in the Void!

• Unconscious Beliefs (Vesta) – Being Unconscious, these are not generally subject to Choice, so we usually have to approach them through PIAVA.  In this case, the chart will be Exposing many of our Unconscious Beliefs for the ancient scams that they are, perpetrated by the historical equivalent of the St. Petersburg Internet Research Agency

• Confusion (Neptune) – Ah, there She is.  She should be in here somewhere.

• Values (Venus) – As our Unconscious Beliefs evolve, so must our Values, though we may not realize it for a while, till all the Contradictions work their way through.

• Sustaining Commitment to our Mission – To the extent that we can generalize our Individual Missions, it’s fair to say that it’s about Growing our Consciousness, since it’s next to impossible to execute any nontrivial Mission without Growing in Consciousness.  We hinted at this while we were discussing Addiction earlier, and here it is.