What Did Micky Say to His Therapist?

I always get Pluto and Goofy mixed up, but I guess it’s Pluto that Supervises our current post-Eclipse Portal, not Goofy. And I’m sure Pluto’s 1-2 May 2023 Station helped make the Eclipse Portal so Heavy. But we don’t want to Pre-Judge it.

Before we get too Deep, let’s take care of some minor details…

• Mercury turned Retrograde today 21 April 2023, at PDT 1:34 am, BST 9:34 am, IST 2:04 pm, AEST 6:34 pm, in 16 Taurus (The Compulsive Truth of Love). It backs up till 14-15 May, PDT 8:16 pm 14th, BST 4:16 am 15th, IST 8:46 am, AEST 1:16 pm, in 6 Taurus (Persistence at Opening the Heart). If you run into hiccups while Traveling or Communicating while Mercury is Retrograde, First, Recall that Mercury is Retrograde; Second, Say Hi to Mercury.
• He’s a Trickster, and he’s trying to get yer Goat. Don’t get Uptight (he’ll Love that!), just Chuckle and Wink, to let him know you’re Paying Attention and you’re on to him. He’s constantly Amused by Doing these Jokes (and Expects us to be Amused too). Doesn’t matter to him whether you Fall For It or not, he just Loves Doing it. If everybody’s Chuckling, he’s having a Great Day! Every time I’ve Waved and Winked (like this morning when my ATM ran out of money), he’s Winked back and immediately showed me a Workaround. He’s not Malicious.

• The Moon Goes Out of Bounds North 22-23 April, at PDT 9:50 am 22nd, BST 5:50 pm 22nd, IST 10:20 pm 22nd, AEST 2:50 am 23rd, in 4 Gemini, Compulsively Drawn Toward the Ephemeral. Folks on the Northern Half of the Planet are more likely to Panic than they were yesterday. The Moon Returns In Bounds on 27-28 April, PDT 2:59 pm 27th, BST 10:59 pm 27th, IST 3:29 am 28th, AEST 7:59 am 28th, in 8 Leo, A Charmed Life, Proud of Surrendering to Spirit, but Modest in Recognizing that Grace is Spirit’s Work, Not Yours. Be Alert for Hurtful Jealousy.

Now, where were we? Oh yeah, we were just about to join Pluto…

Pluto’s a Big Deal to most astrologers, and appropriately so. It’s always been the Poster Child for the then-current State of the Weltanschauung of Society. We interpret it as mapping what Jung called the Universal Unconscious. In Jung’s view there were three overlapping major layers of the Unconscious – the Individual (Uranus), the Cultural (Neptune), and the Universal (Pluto). That still works…

• Uranus finished an 84-year Cycle and entered Aries when Linear Time ended in 2012. Aries is Creative Spirit. Spirit is In Charge, with Ego dragged along behind it on its ass. Aries is quite Prideful, so Ego is Puffed Up, but poke it once and it’ll Blubber all over about how Lost it Feels. Uranus got to Taurus in 2020, hand in hand with COVID. Taurus is Well Grounded, and with Ego Humiliated by now, it’s a lot Easier for the Soul to Connect. We often refer to Uranus in Taurus as Soul Descending into Matter. COVID gave us the Space to Integrate it, to the extent that we have.

• In 2026, Uranus moves into Gemini. At that point Ego gets a rude Awakening – just as it Feels like it’s starting to Understand what’s going on, Soul ups the Frequency several Octaves, and the best the Ego can do is to Hold On for “Dear Life” – another excellent reason to get Expert at Recognizing and Surrendering into Ego Death now while it’s a lot Easier than it will be then. The last time Uranus was in Gemini was 1943-1949. Folks who Survived WWII were forced to Start Over in a Culture that they had to Create themselves from scratch. If we can Trust the Process and our Support and get Excited about this Opportunity, 2027-2033 will be Fantastic.

• At the End of Time as We Knew It, Neptune was just leaving Aquarius and moving into Pisces. Neptune (Material Confusion but Spiritual Clarity) Loves Pisces. Anyone else think your Culture’s gotten more Confused since 2012? Or more Confusing? Obviously, lots of folks have gotten a lot more Certain than Confused. Hope they Enjoy themselves while they can – the only Certain Future for Certainty is Martyrdom.

• When I was Learning that Confusion is the First Sign of Growth, I Discovered that whenever I Felt Confused, I automatically switched to Anger. I assume that many of the Abusive people that crawl the Internet looking for Opportunities to Act Out the Big-Ego Bullying that they learned from TV, or drive about looking for an excuse to shoot somebody (like they learned from TV), are also using Anger as Cover for their Ego’s lack of Experience with Confusion, as they find Scapegoats for their Childhood and Karmic Powerlessness.

• Neptune gets to Aries in 2026, as Uranus enters Gemini. The Ego’s hardest job in Aries lies in dealing with the Culture’s Insistence that one Explain Oneself. The only way Aries can do that, is to make something up, because most of what Aries Does is more nD than its Actor or its Inquisitors. So in addition to becoming Expert at Ego Death over the next three years, we want to be sure that by then we’re very good at Embracing Confusion as the Sign that we need to Shut Up and Listen, and that we need to drop our Old Stories and Open to New Metaphors. And Realize that Reality, which has so many more Dimensions than we do, is Way Over Our Heads. From our Perspective, Metaphor Is All There Is.

• By the time Uranus is firmly in Gemini and Neptune firmly in Aries, Pluto will be entering the Aries Segment or Duad (a Duad is 2½ Degrees) of Aquarius, so very few people will be able to Explain What’s Going On. We will need to be Thinking Globally, in the sense of Paying Attention to What’s Good for the Planet, and Acting Locally, in the sense of Attending to the Survival of our Community.

The Avarice of Faceplant and Gargoyle may have Killed the Internet and Journalism by then anyway, but we need to start now breaking our Habit of Hanging on Every Word from the For-Profit Minia. Most of the Minia is owned by the Oligarchs, and they want us Scared and Confused so we don’t Feel Empowered to Threaten them.

We don’t want to Exclude the Possibility of Miracles, but barring that, when we Project current trends, the Worldwide Suffering will be too intense and widespread to reasonably comprehend, and our own Community will Require All of our Attention. The more Local we can keep our Attention, the higher the probability we will personally Encounter Miracles.

While we Manifest Surthrival for Ourself, even if it’s totally in Private, it Strengthens the Etheric Template that anyone can use to Create their own Surthrival. There is no Healing without Empathy, but Empathy for Yourself and Your Own Community need to come first. The only thing you can Change is Yourself. You can Pray for whatever you want, but Praying for someone else to Change to your view of how they Should be, even if it’s “for their own good” or “for the good of All,” is contrary to this Planet’s Emphasis on Free Will. Pray for General Conditions that will make your Surthrival Easier. Other people with similar Needs can use the Etheric Template of what you Create for their own Purposes.

Beyond Pluto

Pluto gains its Power over the Universal Realm of the Unconscious because it lies deep within the Unconscious. However, so do a lot of other dwarf planets that have been Discovered since Pluto was. Each one is associated with a Segment of the Monolithic Unconscious that Pluto Represents. When a dwarf planet’s orbit is fairly well understood, it’s assigned a Minor Planet Number. Of the more than 3,000 dwarf planets beyond Neptune that have been found so far, 900 have received numbers. Much later, when there’s demand for it, the planet can get an official name – there are 35 of these. We follow these 13, and we’re studying one more…

Altjira	the Energy Field that Permits Life to Exist
Varuna	the Life Force
Quaoar	Survival Instincts
Salacia	Commitment to Enlightenment
Zhulong	the Chinese Red Dragon of Enlightenment
Haumea	Rebirth
Eris	Revelation of What’s Been Denied
Orcus	Pattern-Breaking
Makemake	Manifestation
Varda	Abundance, Lakshmi
Gonggong	Intrusive Memories
Sedna	Converting Fear to Power
Ixion	Going Beyond the Cultural Paradigm

So we depend less on Pluto than we used to, though it’s still very useful as an Overview of the Weltanschauung.

The 1-2 May Station of Pluto (Emphasis on our Compulsions) occurs at 10:08 am PDT 1st, 6:08 pm BST 1st, IST 10:38 pm 1st, AEST 3:08 am 2nd, in 1 Aquarius, Intense Idenification with Both Sides of an Argument, One Conscious the Other Less So; Resolution Depends on the Demise of Judgment, adjacent to the Fixed Star Altair, Bold but not Selfish Action.

The Pluto Station chart is otherwise pretty Benign. The only real Challenge (a Naked Square) – the Argument in the Chandra Symbol – is between Our Fear that Hupers Won’t Learn Enough in Time to Prevent a Repeat of Atlantis (Sedna-Juno-Atlantis Stellium) and Our Need and Willingness to Seek Divine Help in Taking Full Ownership of Our Karma (Magdaena-Damocles-Karma Stellium). These both being Stellia, they represent Mini-Enlightenments and therefore could represent the Integration and Healing of such Fear and such Need/Willingness. Interesting Combination.

The Pluto Station itself, part of a Grand Cross (Sequence of Relatively Minor Hassles that Resolve One Another eventually, especially if we can Avoid 2D Intervention) is Merged with Prevarication (asteroid Pinocchio) – interesting in the context of the Fox-Dominion and Trump-Rape Victim trials, not to mention the general Shitstorm of Rightwing Conspiracies and Imaginative Paranoid Metaphors.¹

Hylonome (Codependence and Self-Sovereignty), which itself is Stationary (Strong) 27-28 April (PDT 5:40 pm 27th, BST 1:40 am 28th, IST 6:10 am 28th, AEST 10:40 am 28th) in 26 Capricorn (Confusing Assignment to Camouflage Ourself as Fitting into Muggle Culture while Hiding the Eternal Flame Inside, while being only Dimly Aware of the Purpose of our Assignment), is also a member of this Pluto-Pinocchio-Hylonome Stellium. The Hylonome (Bowing to Social Expectations on the Outside) and Pinocchio (A Charade) Explain one another’s presence in the Pluto Stellium and Explain the 26-Capricorn Chandra Symbol – we’re all Pretending to be Normal while Being Radical as Hell Inside!²

¹ The other three members of the Grand Cross are Pallas (Boundaries) in Cancer, Ka’epaoka’awela (Transformation…) Merged with Out of Bounds Hopi (…of our Judgments) in Libra, and the Stellium of Eris (Revelation of What’s Been Denied about…), Phaedra (…our Childhood and Karmic Shame that Prevents Us from Embracing…), and Arachne (…Mother Nature) in Aries. Combine this with our Pluto Compulsion to Act Out our Muggle Charade more or less Naively! That’s actually pretty Intense!

² Another situation where Lonsdale‘s Chandra Symbols seem to be written explicitly for this moment, as the interpretations for the planets and the Degree are independent of one another, but match perfectly in context. You’d think the Trush was knocking thrice on the side of Smaug’s mountain!

In the Hylonome Station chart itself, a Fully Self-Resolving Major Challenge shuttles Tension and Attention to Our Recollection of the Fall of Atlantis from an Argument between what seems to be the Outragousness of our Karma, and Our Enlightenment. Meanwhile, in both charts, the Crux of our astroevent, Our Muggle Charade, Enjoys Dumb-Luck Grace (Grand Trine) with Our Recollection of the Fall of Atlantis and with Emphasis on Sustainability.³

³ Growth-of-Consciousness-Juno Conjunct asteroid Atlantis in Taurus T-Square to the Opposition between Icarus Conjunct asteroid Karma in Aquarius and Samadhi in Leo. The T-Square is converted to a Diamond Star (Self-Resolving) by a Finger of the Goddess to Juno-Atlantis from Varda in Sagittarius (Abundance through Letting Go of Impediments) Sextile to Ka’epaoks’awela-OOB Hopi in Libra (Transforming Judgments).

The Grand Trine Connects the Pluto-Hylonome-Pinocchio Stellium in Capricorn with the Juno-Sedna-Atlantis Stellium in Taurus and Stationary Ceres (Emphasis on Sustainability) in Virgo (Ego Death). Ceres Stands Still on 6 May (PDT 12:27 pm 6th, BST 8:27 pm 6th, IST 12:57 am 7th) in 24 Virgo, Stubbornly Persistent Messenger of the Light.

If your Self-Sabotaging Habits are Sticky, try Soothing yourself with Blue Calcite, either Vicariously by Gazing at the picture, or picking up a Tumbled Stone or two at your local Rockshop. Calcite is Calcium Carbonite, like your bones, teeth, and the shell of the Crab you ate last night, even if it wasn’t a Blue Crab. It’s more often “Massive” (like Granite) than Crystalline (like Quartz), but you might find some poorly formed or partial Crystals.

Stellia and Enlightenment 2

We were working on the idea that Conjunctions and Stellia (groups of 3 or more planets close together) mean that some of our normal Cultural- and Language-Determined Distinctions (like Boy vs Girl, Blue vs Green, Idiotic vs. Imbecilic) get Merged, so we end up looking at People, Cool Colors, and Dumb instead. Each of these is a tiny Enlightenment. For instance, when we wake up one day and see People instead of Boys vs Girls, it’s Consciousness-Expanding. And we were using the very unusual Total Lunar Eclipse of 27-28 September 2015, which was loaded with Stellia and Conjunctions, as an excellent example. The chart is drawn at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2023/03/30/stellia-and-enlightenment-1/.

Just looking at the Eclipse itself, the Moon was in a Stellia of three, and the Sun was in a Stellia of eight, ie, unheard of. So what happens to our perspective when 8 of our normal Distinctions all run together? Well, let’s start with the simpler, the Stellia of 3…

• Eclipsed Moon – Instincts, Illuminated
• Vesta – Unconscious Limitations
• True South Node – Held Emotion

Our Held Emotions form the most Persistent Core of our Karma, as long ago we were highly Motivated to Never Think About Them again. They were too Painful. Often they were also Verboten in the Current Lifetime by our Programmers, cementing their Banishment for us.¹ Bringing them up into Consciousness by accident is almost impossible, because the clues are usually disguised by Addiction, Illness, or Culturally-Approved Victimizations. Dedicated and Persistent PIAVAs are Required.

¹ Forbidding something is probably the best way to assure that it gets constant Attention. Combining Forbidding and Punishing can drive an Energy into the Unconscious and Lock the door behind it, but that only means that we think about it all the time, without actually Recognizing it.

Our Unconscious Limitations are already the same thing as Held Emotions, but seen from a different Perspective. We just “don’t go there,” and our Behavior is so well-Justified that there’s no reason we’d ever want to. I’d Do Anything for Love, but I Won’t Do That! They’re Walled Off very Effectively by Judgments – in fact our Pet Peeves are often the best Clue to our Unconscious Limitations, but our Pet Peeves are Pictures of Our Identity – of Our Ego itself! The Ego has already made it Clear to anyone who will Listen that they’re Off-Limits. So this is an Effortless Merger!

But our Instincts! Only Carl Jung defined our Karma as a Persistent and Dedicated Effort by the Unconscious to get us to Open to and Accept our Held Emotions. So this sort of Merger is a Given to Jungians and followers of his followers. In Normal Circumstances for most people, this triple Merger would Precipitate a Major Crisis, as we would be forced to Admit or Reveal our Most Shameful Secrets. At the very least we’d be Hiding in a Cave somewhere, so no one would be allowed to Witness our Shame.

But these weren’t Normal Circumstances! Look at the Other Side of this Eclipse – a Stellium of eight planets – I don’t recall ever seeing that before!

• Sun – Essence
• True North Node – Life Mission
• Juno – Growth in Consciousness
• Black Moon Lilith – Self-Sovereignty
• Makemake Out of Bounds – Enhanced Manifestation
• Sisyphus Out of Bounds – Enjoying the Journey Rather than Anticipating the Destination, Exaggerated
• Tantalus Out of Bounds – Valuing Desire as the Essence of Living, More Highly than Satisfaction, Amplified
• Panacea – Healing

While our Ego is Lost in Shame, our Essence is Bathing in the Bright Light of Our Lifetime Mission. Our Mission is so multidimensional that our Ego and 2D Mind seldom actually Witness more than a Whiff of it. But here we’re Immersed in the Urge to Grow in Consciousness, and Intuitively we know that the most Powerful way to do that is to Open to a Held Emotion. With Emphasis on Self-Sovereignty, we’re less concerned than usual about What Everyone Else Will Think of us, which has potential to Neutralize our Shame.

Sisyphus and Tantalus are cousins in the Psyche, both dealing as they do with Forever – Sisyphus Condemns us to Repeat a Task Forever, and Tantalus leaves us Forever Frustrated because the Objects of our Desire Dissolve just as we are about, at long last, to Enjoy Them. Indeed, few things are more Tantalizing than the Desire to Complete our Sisyphean Tasks. Both make excellent adjectives for describing Karma.

Sisyphus and Tantalus are named like “Centaurs,” which are comet-like dwarf planets with elongated 50-100+ year orbits between Jupiter and Pluto, of which Chiron is the most well known. But they aren’t Centaurs at all, they’re “Apollos” – Near-Earth Asteroids that orbit between Venus and Mars. Tantalus is considered a Potentially Hazardous Asteroid, as it’s 4km/2½mi wide and comes within 16 LD (Moon-to-Earth Distances) of Earth, orbiting every 18 months between 0.9 and 1.7 AU (Distance from the Sun, where Sun-to-Earth is 1.0). Sisyphus is a little less dangerous, approaching within “only” 40 LD from Earth though at 9km/5½mi wide it’s bigger than Tantalus. It orbits every 30 months, between 0.9 and 2.9 AU. For comparison, Mars orbits at 1.4-1.7 AU, Venus at 0.7 AU.

Their presence in the 8-fold Merger tempts us to Imagine what Life will be like for us when our Karma is no longer Interminable, nor Fruitless. Panacea tells us that this Merger is a Healing! So it was entirely possible for a Witness to the 27-28 September 2015 Blood Moon to Experience a Significant Burst of Enlightenment. And whether we Witnessed it visually or not, we couldn’t Hide from the Energy of a Blood Moon like this one.

But what about the Kassandra T-Square, the thick red triangle that Challenges the Full Moon? The Full Moon is already a Debate, like any Opposition a Tension between the two sides of a Tug-of-War. But here the two sides are in total agreement – we need to Embrace our Held Emotions to Move into Enlightenment and 5D. So where’s the Tension? Kassandra means Disbelief. Who are we to Claim to be Enlightened? Everyone we know who does that is either a Guru or an Obvious Egotist, sometimes Both.

The green wedge pointing at Kassandra says that the T-Square is Self-Resolving. There’s nothing we need to do except somehow refrain from Interfering in the process as it Unfolds, since it may not Unfold all at once. It can actually help to be Unaware of the astrology at this point, because our lack of Awareness might help prevent our Interference. How does the Self-Resolution Unfold?

The two long green lines are “Quincunxes” – an “Unx” is one twelfth, here 1/12th of the Zodiac or one Sign, and “Quin” is of course 5 – the green lines are 5 Signs long. A Quincunx means Curiosity. Not Curiosity in the sense I gotta figure this out! but Curiosity in the sense of Awe. So our most appropriate Response to the Eclipse would be to Watch or Experience it Slack-Jawed, in Awe. A Quincunx is a Mystery School, where we need to put our 2D tools (Mind) back in the toolchest, Ask to be Informed, and Wait for nD tools to reveal themselves.

There’s a Mysterious Relationship here between Pan, the Primary God of Nature, and Disbelief, that’s somehow involved with the Manifestation of our Enlightenment. And another Mysterious Relationship between Disbelief and The Birth (Klotho) of a New Field (Arachne). Arachne is Grandmother Spider, Who Weaves the Web of Life. So there are things that are Unfolding which are beyond what we can Understand Intellectually.

The Shift Network is sponsoring a course on Communicating Soul to Soul with the Spirit World, presented by “Mystic, Medium, and Author” Suzanne Giesemann. I’d never heard of her, but I Learned enough listening to her hour-long Preview last night, to Connect with many passed Relatives, and a few of my former Teachers. First time I’ve ever had two-way conversations with Disincarnate Spirits. She’s offering a free recording of this Preview for at least three more days (till 5 April 2023), at https://theshiftnetwork.com/Engage-in-Soul-to-Soul-Communication.

What sort of nD Relationships with Disbelief are we talking about here? The 2D Mind will only have enough bandwidth to find Metaphors, but we might be able to get more Intuitive Perspective by Asking for a download from our Teachers and Ancestors on the Other Side of the Veil. Just because someone’s on the Other Side, that doesn’t mean they Know more than you do already, but Suzanne introduces simple ways to Validate what you’re Picking Up. If you aren’t in steady Contact with the Other Side of the Veil already, there’s at least a Talking Mirror here. Validation is important, as our Comprehension of this New Field (Klotho-Arachne) is Explicitly Challenged by Untruthes (Square to asteroid Pinocchio).

There’s one more Stellium and one more Conjunction in this Blood Moon chart, so we haven’t Exhausted the Opportunities for mini-Enlightenments yet. They’re Linked to Pan through a Grand Cross (four planets more or less equally spaced around the Zodiac) which introduces a Series of Small Challenges that Complement one another. A Grand Cross is Self-Resolving, though there may be some Temporary Discomfort if the segments of the Resolution are separated in Time.

The Stellium involves Intrusive Memories (Gonggong), Truth of the Mind (Veritas), and Confusion (Neptune). The Intrusive Memories are highly likely to be Clues about our Held Emotions, if we Pursue them as Teachings, and sidestep the Temptation to Relive them as Coulda Woulda Shouldas. The Intrusive Memories Intruded in 2015, but remember that Everything that Ever Happened in a Place Is Still Going On, and we have the advantage that by reviewing the astrology we’re Indirectly Triggering our Experience of the 2015 Eclipse, even if we don’t Remember Experiencing its Energy.

The Truth of the Mind tells us to Compare Everything we Learn here to What We Already Know, but not to Reject Anything that doesn’t Agree, but to Practice our Skill with “Cognitive Dissonance,” the Practice of Holding Contradictory Propositions in Mind at the Same Time without Argument between them, which is Essential Practice for using our Mentality in Dimensions higher than 2.

Neptune, Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, here completes the Suite by Reminding us that Confusion is the First Stage of Growth in Consciousness. Without Being Comfortable with Confusion and Standing Still for It, we’ll never get to Allowing Cognitive Dissonance to Enliven Paradox. One trick to make it easier to Live with Neptune, is to shift our Vision from the Mind to the Heart, as the Heart Perceives Spirit and its Clarity. If we Channel the 2015 Blood Moon fully here, we won’t be able to Discern the Difference between Intellectual Truth, Confusion, and Ancient Memory, and that’s Important to Grokking the Enlightenment.

Besides Pan and the Gonggong Triad, the third member of the Grand Cross is the Merger between Mars and Orcus – only two Concepts to Merge – how Easy by now, right? Mars is about Action, and Orcus is about Pattern-Making and Pattern-Breaking, namely, Creating and Letting Go of Karma. So we’re Expected to Actively Let Go of any Attachment we have to Self-Sabotaging Habits. The subscript is that Anger may be involved in our Held Emotions, and that there may be Resistance to Letting Go of our Anger, especially if we’ve heavily Invested our Ego into being Victims of our Pet Peeves.

Mars was the God of War, and there’s nothing he Enjoys more. Orcus was the Enforcer of Oaths in pre-Roman days in what is now Italy, and his methods were gruesome, as most of the Oaths he Enforced were involved Commitment to Armies. Commitment to things like Fidelity were not even considered in those days. We were Free then to Abuse anyone or anything of lower status than ours. Financial Commitments were probably more one-way Commitments than two-way “Bargains” as Civilized Law expects. There’s probably no more Important Held Emotion to Embrace, than Anger, as we Experience Anger in the Unconscious as Anger Directed Toward us. Another Clue.

Finally, the fourth corner of the Grand Cross contained The Fall of Overtechnologized Civilization (asteroid Atlantis). If any of your Strategies involve Increasing Complexity, turn around and Walk toward Simplicity instead. Universal Equality and Respect for All Things is probably as Simple as we can get.

Guilt that Ain’t 2

We got so swept away by Boundaries in the first Guilt that Ain’t post that we forgot to explain the title. Neptune should be Dominating the airwaves here, as it reaches Peak Vibes (Stationary) today 3 December 2022 4:14 pm PST (GMT 12:14 am 4th, IST 5:44 am 4th, AEDT Qld 10:14 am 4th), but I have to Reach to Detect it. Unusual. But as it Stands Still, asteroid Nemesis Merges with it, and we usually associate Nemesis with Guilt. But Neptune is a master of Subterfuge, so we could be Feeling sham Guilt, about things we have no reason to Feel Guilty about for instance. Or Regret that we didn’t follow through on Powerful and Meaningful Actions that would have Evoked Guilt, Inappropriately so in Retrospect. Or recalling places where someone else worked hard to make us Feel Guilty, when they were Power Tripping on us.

The 23 Pisces Degree Reading for the Neptune Station and Nemesis is intriguing – The Profoundly Impossible Search for Missing Soul Fragments When There Are No Clues, and the Miracle that Occurs When We Persevere with Our Intention to Embrace Them. Since we routinely interpret Neptune as Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, Neptune might just be trying to Confuse us. In the Neptune Station chart with three Degrees of Sensitivity or Orb, this Mysterious Neptune-Nemesis Energy Debates with a Strong Drive toward Resilience, and is Challenged by a Strong Need to be Aware of and Communicate Our Values.¹

¹ Neptune-Nemesis Debates (Opposes) Ceres-Sisyphus Out of Bounds (Emphasis on Resilience), which is Challenged (T-Squared) by Mercury OOB Merged with (Conjunct) Venus OOB (Emphasis on Awareness and Communication of Our Values). The Mercury-Venus OOB T-Square is Self-Resolving (a Diamond Star), and the root of the Self-Resolving Finger of the Goddess is the Sextile (Grace after Initial Huper Action) between Pan OOB (Spirit of Nature Embodied and Emphasized) and the Stellium (Group of Planets) of Veritas (Truth of the Mind), Black Moon Lilith (Self-Sovereignty), and Pallas OOB and Stationary (Boundaries Front and Center).

The latter, in my World at least, has been about Loosening my Boundaries with “Inanimate” Entities – Trusting Self-Sovereignty when it comes to Rejecting Codependence, but not when it comes to Rejecting Oneness With All. This evening I was cutting up Asparagus and Zucchini (literally, not just Vegetables A-to-Z) to steam when I realized that I needed to Apologize to the Asparagus for Treating Them like They were Inanimate, and then Ask for Their Permission to Merge, which They granted. But then a few minutes later I started cutting up the Courgettes without Remembering to Ask! So I had to apologize to Them and Ask for Their Permission. The Habits of Living Unconsciously Die Hard!

I hadn’t Connected till now that this was an Exercise in Respecting Pan and Becoming Aware of My Values in a Much Deeper Way. Thank you for the Loving and Gentle Teaching, Pan and Neptune! I’ve long been missing this kind of Deep Connection to the Natural World, without Seeing it as a Lost Soul Fragment that I haven’t been Owning! That blows the top of my head off, as I begin to Appreciate that my Muggletude may not be Terminal! What a Wonderful Epiphany!

Golden Barite (Barium Sulfate) is an Ancient Symbol for the Clarity and Integrity of Our Intentions.

Our Chief Astrology Officer has pointed out something we missed, that Mercury Out of Bounds (Emphasis on Communication and Travel) was Opposing Mars Out of Bounds (Emphasis on Action and Passion) on 29-30 November, and observed that such a Dance occurred less often than one would Expect. While the Outer planets like Neptune Strongly Influence our Inner Life, the Inner Planets like Mercury and Mars Strongly Influence our Outer Life and our Day-to-Day Surficial Reality. I did have some travel Challenges last week, which I’m hoping will Self-Resolve once this Energy fades. If I have time, I’ll write about this more before we get to the Full Moon.

Guilt that Ain’t

Our next Portal is about Guilt and Confusion. Neptune is Stationary till 3 December 2022 at 4:14 pm PST,* and Neptune represents Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity. Confusion is the first Sign of Growth in Consciousness, because our Unconscious Limitations are Encoded into our Mental Concept Set, the one that Keeps us Safe by Defining the Boundaries of our Reality. When out Rigid Concepts Conflict with one another, or with Possibly Valid Information from Outside of our Rigid Universe, of course we Get Confused. Our normal Reaction is to Run back to the Perceived Safety of our Rigid Concepts. In so doing, we can Deny Outside Information that Conflicts, we can Ignore Contradictions in our Concept Set, or we can Make Up Stories to Mitigate the Contradictions.

* GMT 12:14 am 4th December, IST 5:44 am 4th, AEDT Qld 10:14 am 4th, AEDT NSW 11:14 am 4th.

Better yet, we can Borrow such Stories from the Vast Store of them on the Internet. This is how we get to Rhetoric, or Unexamined Rote Concepts about the World which become Memes for these Stories. This process is so Clearly illustrated for us by Faux News and the Rabid Republicans that Inhabit and Inhale it. If we slip on a Virtual Reality Headset from Meta Inc. and tune it to Believe that the T.rumpian or Pootinian or the DiCostellian or Abbotic Realities are the Real ones, we can see the same process working in the Minds of the “Woke” Liberals as they Groom our Children into every Vile Reality Forbidden by the Old Testament or Sharia Law.

The Spiritual Function of the Prominence on the World Stage of these Parodies of Leadership has been to Demonstrate for us the Limitations of Creating Your Own Reality when it has no solid Connection to the Physical World and no Authentic Connection to the Spiritual World. Next time you see one of these Buffoons on TV or the Internet, Go Meta Ask yourself In the Present Moment, What’s Really Happening Here? How many times have Propaganda artists snagged Civilization on the end of their Hooks and Reeled them In? Is that Karma we wish to Continue? If not, can we No Longer Lend Our Strength to That Which We Wish to Be Free From?

Guilt Arises here because the Neptune Station Conjoins asteroid Nemesis, our astromeme for Guilt. Both sit in 23 Pisces, The Profoundly Impossible Search for Missing Soul Fragments When There Are No Clues, and the Miracle that Occurs When We Persevere with Our Intention to Embrace Them. Can these Unfunny Comedians really be Clues to Our Missing Soul Fragments? If not, why do we even Give them the Time of Day?

But before we move into Discussion of our Guilt about Having Lost Track of Our Soul Fragments…

We didn’t have time to write about the Emphasis on Boundaries over that last several days, but then, our primary goal is to Teach youalls to Monitor your own astrology, since your Experience with yourself is a jillion times every one else’s, and Self-Knowledge is a big prerequisite for Ascension, so no worries. I can just fill you in on what the last couple days have been about astrologically, and you can see how it compares to your Experience.

It hasn’t been Complicated, but it has been a shift. Asteroid Pallas, which is all about Boundaries, Stood Still till 12:36 am PST,* early this morning, 30 November 2022, in 27 Cancer. Any planet’s Impact on Earth is highest when it Stands Still, so you may have found yourself struggling with your Boundaries, or Setting Stronger Boundaries, or Loosening up some, or All of the Above! People may have Angered you, and you Felt Bad about Telling them Off, or Felt Bad about Not Telling them Off. You may have Felt Guilt about one or some of your Relationships, and maybe Let them Into your Private Life a bit more than you usually would have. You may even have Closed a Relationship or two, with or without Talking to them about it. You may just have found yourself really Confused about some of your Relationships.

* GMT 8:36 am, IST 2:06 pm, AEDT Qld 6:36 pm. Sorry about the Red. WordPress in its wisdom, except for Black and Red, offers only Light Colors for text, and every time you use one of them it warns you that it’ll be difficult to read, so you should oughta use a darker color. Brilliant. You probably have to pay extra to get access to darker colors.

We’ll get to the Guilt and Confusion shortly, as they’re about to get Louder, but they’re likely to have been Lit Up already. 27 Cancer is about being Obsessed with the Unmarked Path to Giving Birth to Our Cosmic Twin Soul. Wow, what an Intense and Exciting Degree Reading! Regular readers know that we always recommend looking up these full-page Degree Symbols in Lonsdale’s book (pp.152-3). We only squeeze what we can into a single sentence, and it’s never enough.

The single Challenge/Potential SuperPower in the Pallas Station chart is a Pattern-Breaker! Almost all of the Challenges for months now have been Self-Resolving, but this one isn’t, so we have to do the Work ourself. It’s about Denying our Compulsive Attachment to Expired Karma and Codependent Boundaries.*

* Eris (Revelation of What’s Been Denied ) T-Squared (Challenged ) by the Opposition (Debate) between Pluto-Atropos (Addiction to Expired Karma) and Pallas-Black Moon Lilith (Codependent Boundaries). Of course Black Moon Lilith mostly stands for Self-Sovereignty, so the Dynamic here could well be about Seeking Excessive Privacy to Hide the Symptoms of our Addiction. It may be useful to Think about whether we’re Hiding anything from our Closests.

Hmmm, that sounds suspiciously like Shame. Maybe we should check to see where Phaedra (Shame) is in this chart. Yup, very Meaningful! Phaedra makes a Biquintile to Stationary Pallas – a Teaching about Duality and Separation from Self. It also makes an Angle that’s 7/18th of the Zodiac (a Septununoctile?), Combining the Seventh (Timing) and 18th (Authenticity) Harmonics, so totally fitting for a chart about Denial and Boundaries and Compulsions.

In the Pallas Stationary chart Phaedra is Merged with the Moon (Authenticity, Instinct), Gonggong (Intrusive Memories), and Vesta (Unconscious Limitations), in the Aries Duad of Pisces (Beginning a New Life Cycle with Less Karmic Emotional Baggage). Intense! We can’t make this stuff up, can we?

The Phaedra portion of the Pallas Stationary chart includes two Fully Self-Resolving (Diamond Star plus Grand Trine) Challenges. In one, Phaedra-Moon-Gonggong-Vesta Opposing Samadhi-Sappho (Enlightenment Merged with Self-Love) is T-Squared by Moira (Fate or Choice). Wow. We can Choose between our Karmic Fate of Continuing to Hide our Shame that we’ve Adopted from our Ancestors, or moving into Self-Love and Ascension! What a Choice! But we have to Make it. Moira is in 6 Gemini, Single-Minded Obsession to Making It to the Bright Light that Must Be at the End of the Tunnel.

I don’t interpret that as shouting our Shame from the Rooftops. But I do interpret it as Stopping our Thoughts about it and Asking ourself, What am I Feeling? Where Is It in my Body? What does it Feel Like there? Softening it there, Warming it, Poor-Sweethearting Ourself. Would you have interpreted those Sensations as Shame? Shame is very Adept at Hiding. We need to be Loving and Gentle with those places in our Body. Just Opening this door and looking in is a Huge Ego Death. We wouldn’t have Felt Compelled to Hide it otherwise.

The other Fully Self-Resolving Challenge in the Phaedra portion of the Pallas Station chart Focuses on Narcissus – Big Surprise, and Eurydike (Trusting our Self-Image). Narcissus is in 2 Scorpio, Hard Battles to Overcome Ego. The base of the T-Square is Chariklo (Self-Confidence or Self-Doubt) Opposite Cyllarus-Varuna (Ego Death Merged with the Life Force). We’ve had to Hide this Shame in order to Manifest any sort of Self-Confidence, and the result has been having a Murderous impact on our Health. On the other hand, a Solid Ego Death or several should Restore our Health! While the Pallas Challenge itself is Not Self-Resolving, the Phaedra Challenges are Self-Resolving, and Fully so. That’s a Monster Gift!

So, Shame so well Hidden sounds like a Held Emotion, doesn’t it. We’d rather Die than Share this Secret with anyone. So we Ask, What’s going on with the South Node in the Pallas Station chart? The Mean South Node is in 12 Scorpio, Two Souls in One Body, the Inner Soul on an Essential Crusade in another Galaxy, while the Outer Body-Soul barely Hangs on to Ground the Pair into the Earth. The South Node Merges with Zhulong (Enlightenment ), Ka’epaoka’awela (Transmutation), and Requiem (Respect for Death). The North Node Merges with Uranus (Soul), and Lachesis makes a Diamond Star across the Nodal Axis. Lachesis sits in 14 Aquarius, Testing the Depths of Darkness in order to Let Go of the Shadows of Grandiosity.

A second Diamond Star is T-Squared by the Sun (Essence) in 9 Sagittarius, on the Opposition between Nessus-Juno (Growth in Consciousness around Abuse and Privilege) and Orcus-Thereus (Relentlessness about Breaking Difficult Patterns or Taming Bears). 9 Sagittarius is The Green Man, Serving Mystery and Forever Forbidden from Identifying with Anything on the Surface.

Lachesis symbolizes Unexpired Karma, but All Karma can be Let Go by Choice. While these Challenges are Self-Resolving but not Enhanced by Grand Trines, one side of the base of each T-Square is also one side of the base of the Finger of the Goddess of the other, so they do Complement one another. The second side of the base of each Finger is Ganesa (Remover of Obstacles). So is there Hope that these Two Souls in One Body can ever Integrate with one another? Are we talking about Fragmentation of our own Soul?

The answer to the second question is No. This is a Transit chart, not our Natal chart. We have Empathy because there are parts of our own Souls that are Split Off and waging some Crusade in another Galaxy. An excellent example is the original Shame Tracked out of its Hideout in the Pallas Station chart. So on these circuitous journeys through the distant parts of the Pallas chart, we’ve gained some Appreciation for the travails that this Lost Soul Fragment has been through – and that the Ancestors who passed this Trauma down to us have been through, and are still, in the Etheric Realms.

We Liberate their Soul Fragments as we Liberate Ours, by Stopping our Thoughts about our Shame and Lovingly, Gently Embracing the Sensations in our Body that we’ve been Denying all our Lives, the Sensations that threaten to make our own Body so fragile that it barely Hangs on to Ground our Multifarious and Unitary Lives into the Earth.

Another view of green Ajoite Crystals. Ajoite can help us Let Go of Shame.

Self-Love and Confusion

I try to hide most of the astrologuese in the footnotes because so many folks have complained that it Confuses them. Yes, Confusion is the First Stage of Growth, because it indicates that the Conceptual Bars in our Mental Birdcage have come loose, Granny isn’t home, and we’re expecting Sylvester to notice our Broken Cage any minute. Almost all of the educational systems in Western Civilization are Dictatorial and Dualistic, with a great emphasis on Right and Wrong, and a Strong Multi-Pronged Enforcement System on the Right part, including the liberal application of Shame. Shame is an excellent Enforcer, and many of us grew up under its thumb – or its knee on our neck.

I’m making a frequent exception for Moon Out of Bounds, which makes us more Vulnerable to Freakout, because it so dominates its 22-year Cycle, where for eleven or so years it goes Out of Bounds for several days every two weeks, then for the next ±11 years it stays In Bounds the whole time. Classic examples from the first Moon OOB of the prior and current Cycles – the first Moon OOB of the previous Cycle occurred at 9 am on 11 September 2001, which you may remember. The first Moon OOB of the current Cycle began when “On 16 or 17 March 2020, we find out whether the Coronavirus is the Headliner, or just a Teaser, as the Moon begins going ‘Out-of-Bounds’ (further away from the Equator than the ‘Tropics’ of Cancer and Capricorn at 23:27° N or S of the Ecliptic) in earnest.” (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/03/16/truth-or-dare/)

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/03/20/what-if-our-visitor-could-talk/

And it makes sense to make exceptions for the classical planets, which are probably familiar to most everyone, at least by name. Such as Neptune, which signifies Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, and which is Lit Up Bigtime (Standing Still in the Sky) until at least 12:54 am PDT 28 June 2022.¹ The impact of planets on us Hupers and our Planet, is Greatest when they Stand Still.² Neptune also symbolizes Everything Bigger Than the Individual Ego, but of course any Recognition that something larger than the Individual Ego Exists is likely to dump a Huper into Confusion about the Nature of Matter, so this is merely a Corollary. Spiritual Clarity moves us Beyond the Ego, but the Ego has to have enough Presence to remember to Request it.

The Neptune Station “features” two Challenges³ (known in the astrovernacular by the quaint geometrical term “T-Square”). They’re both Self-Resolving, but not Doubly so.⁴

One of them is a Contest between two Rival Compulsions.⁵ We Crave Rebirth, to Liberate us from our Limitations. But our Limitations are founded in our Security, and the Ego does nothing if not Protect our Security.⁶ So we Really Want to Clear that Brain Fog, so we can Focus more Intensely on our Enlightenment. But our Limitations are even Stronger, so they Really Want another Cookie, so we can Space Out and Avoid Facing the Sources of our Limitations and Clearing them! Besides, they’re very Deep, and we may not be able to Clear them! What if we’re able to Dredge them up out of the Dungeon, undo all those decades and Lifetimes of Conscious Suppression, forgo all that Hard-Earned Comfort, and they still won’t Leave? Our Life just becomes a Huge, Uniform Bummer again! Right?

Well, Life is Risky. I always suggest appending Lovingly and Gently to our PIAVAs, because if we bite off more than we can chew, it can set us back. Natha Jay advises, “Two coping skills stand out for this passage: remember to rest and be careful what you wish for” (https://medium.com/@nathajay/and-were-off-d5c27c7ad203). I’m already violating the first Skill, by exercising (successful) new Denial Skills to push away Brain Fog so I can Strive to finish these essays while the Energy is still Current. I know we’re Eager, but using another of Natha’s Metaphors, we don’t need to “Push the River.” We have All the Time in the World. Linear Time is an Illusion, one we Create.⁷ The secret door to this My-Own-Time Universe, according to Gay, is to Ask yourself, “What Am I Not Owning? ” I sounds weird, but it works.

The other Self-Resolving Challenge revolves around Neptune itself. As it Stands Still, it’s Merged with Guilt and The Brutality of the Patriarchy.⁸ If you were raised Catholic or one of the other Autocratic or Guilt-based Religions, you’re probably dealing with a good deal of Ancient Anger these days. Lord Knows there are ample Present-Moment Stories to Focus that on, potentially Losing the Opportunity to Dump a Solid Load of Karma.

Neptune is the Outlet for these Stresses. The complex Source of the Stresses⁹ Revolve around our Feeling that we’re Stuck with it, that we’re Powerless against the Patriarchy. While that may be True in the short run, it’s not at all True in the long-term TimeLine. Remember that it will be 2081 before the New Pholus-Quaoar Cycle Climate Change Energy reaches its Waxing Square¹⁰ and becomes Mainstream, two generations hence. The demise of the Patriarchy will take at least that long as well. Like the Medieval Cathedrals that took generations to build, we’re putting in a foundation here, not a Rose Window. It will be our Great Grandchildren who will Witness the Results. Our job is to Hold the Vision and dig the basement.

• ¹ in 26 Pisces (Letting Go of Limitation). Of course it’s “Coincidence” that Neptune chose this Degree to Stand Still in, just when we’re being Asked to Let Go of Any Limitations We Have in the Quantity and Quality of our Self-Love (Chaos Initiating Sappho; see previous post). The Neptune Station is Exact at that time and date (meaning it’s still moving ever so slightly before and after); the Strength of the Energy usually Builds to a Max at the Exact Station, then Falls Off sharply. If however we Get Lost in Our Stories about the Energy (particularly Easy around Neptune) and make a Decision about it, to counteract it for instance, then we Extend the Energy in our own Lives.
• I remembered for example that Black Radish and Lemon, with Food and much Water, might reduce the Brain Fog that the Neptune Station (in combination with other things, such as dietary shortcuts) is Triggering for me, so I tried it and it seems to be working. I didn’t want to resort to Caffiend, which only seems to Quicken the Fog, and it’s too late in the afternoon for a large dose of Vitamin B, which would be Healthy but keep me awake longer than I want. It would be better to Meditate on the Fog, that way I may be able to pick up on what it’s trying to Teach me, rather than just Learning how to Suppress it.
• ² Fortunately, the Earth doesn’t Stand Still, or we’d Fall Off. It spins at over 1,000 mph on the surface at the Equator, 700 mph at my Latitude (you can Feel the Breeze blowing your hair off your head, right? No wonder Flat-Earthers don’t Believe – think of the haircut money we could save!). So to actually Notice in “Real” Life that a planet is Standing Still, we have to take a dddddsnapshot of the same chunk of Sky every night at the same time. From our Perspective, it’s the fact that a Star stays in the same place in such snapshots, while, usually, planets move. So a Stationary planet is pretending to be a Fixed Star, trying to Fake us Out, pausing to wag a finger at us for ignoring it the rest of the time.
• The Earth is also whizzing around the sun at 67,000 mph, and the Sun is zooming around the Milky Way at 448,000 mph. Tell your Dog to keep their head in the car, okay? Not to mention that the Dairy Queen is moving around the Local Galaxy Group at 216,000 mph, all of which is moving toward Leo at 1⅓ million mph. These numbers mean nothing of course, they’re just a Story. We all know we Live in a Snow Globe that moves only when Shaken.
• ³ Known in the astrovernacular by the quaint geometrical term “T-Square” because lines drawn from each of the three planets involved to the center of the Zodiacal circle forms a “T.”
• ⁴ Self-Resolving Hassles leave everyone Living Happily Ever After, if Everyone is able to Leave Well Enough Alone and patiently Endure any Discomfort that the Challenge Triggers (it’s still a Hassle, even if it’s Self-Resolving – we just have better odds of Surviving it Enhanced). On the contrary, Doubly Self-Resolving Hassles turn out to be basically Easy. Even if the Hassle itself produces Discomfort, the Self-Resolution process more than makes up for it.
• The Crux of a T-Square falls on the planet at the base of the stem of the “T,” while the other two planets are three Signs away, a Graduate-Seminar sort of Angle, Teaching Rare Skills, but Asking us to Adjust our Identity in the process (ie, not as Fun). A Self-Resolving T-Square adds two more planets, each five Signs from the Crux planet, making a Wedge that astrologers call a Finger of the Goddess, or, in the case of Muggle astrologer, Finger of God. These Focus our Attention and add Context that makes it Easier for us to Adjust our Identity. A Doubly Self-Resolving T-Square adds two additional planets, each four Signs from the Crux, making an equilateral triangle called a Trine and meaning Dumb-Luck Blessings. The Trine makes both the Learning and the Adjustment Effortless.
• That’s seven planets all together. We’re really talking about positions rather than planets, because each position can hold several planets. But we’ll continue to imagine that there’s only one planet in each position, as it’s easier. Adding an eighth planet Opposite the Crux planet, called the Vacancy of the T-Square, converts our T-Square into a Grand Cross – four planets more or less equally spaced around the Zodiac. Four is the number of Dominion, and the Grand Cross is Balanced, converting it from a Challenge and a Hassle, to a series of Irritations that Complement one another. We may still have to Endure some Discomfort while we patiently await the Complementary Actions, but a Grand Cross is much easier than a T-Square, as we know that we’re In Charge – we have Dominion over it.
• Notice that any Natal or Birth planet(s) we have that fill any Vacancy in the T-Square “in the Sky Now” (called Transiting planets in astrologuese, as opposed to Natal or Birth planets) Count! So if we have two natal planets five Signs from the transiting Crux planet, We Are the Self-Resolution. That puts us in an excellent position to help others Expand their Identity and Learn from the T-Square. Similarly, if we have two natal planets four Signs from the transiting Crux planet, We Are the Double Self-Resolution. If we aren’t Arrogant about it, people will come clamoring for our Help.
• Now suppose we also have two Natal planets that are each two Signs from the Crux. Combine these with the two planets four Signs from the Crux, and we have a Grand Sextile, one of the best Configurations in astrology, because it makes the whole process Full of Grace, and it includes the Crux of the Challenge. There’s only one Caveat with a Grand Sextile – we have to take the first step. If we’re willing to do that, the Goddess will handle the rest.
• We’ve now filled ten positions. Suppose we happen to also have two Natal planets one Sign from the Crux planet. Added to the other ten, that now fills the Zodiac with a planet in each of the twelve positions, one in each Sign, in more or less the same Degree. Some will be Transiting, some Natal. With twelve planets Aligned and no Vacancies, we have what’s called a Grand Unx, an “Unx” meaning one twelfth of anything. A Grand Unx is like having Two Cats in the Yard, Life Used to Be so Hard, Now Everything Is Easy Cuz of [the Grand Unx]. The Unx Angle, which Muggle astrologers unromantically refer to as a “Semi-Sextile,” is the Twelfth Harmonic, symbolizing Pattern-Breaking. So Adjustments to Identity suddenly become Easy, as the Universe Unlocks all of the Patterns that Connect and Bind the Energies of those twelve planets.
• ⁵ The Crux planet is Pluto – Compulsion, in 28 Capricorn (Letting Go of a Lifetime of Negativity). The base of a T-Square is an Opposition, the Second Harmonic, home of Duality and Argument.
• ⁶ The Rebirth side of the Argument is dwarf planet Haumea (Rebirth), daughter of Pele, making new Land as her Fiery Lava – molten Stone – hisses into the Sea, in 28 Libra (Integration of Extremes). Rebirth into Ascension, Ego Death Be Damned.
• On the other side of the table is dwarf planet Eris (Revelation of What’s Been Denied ), she who threw the Golden Apple into the dinner party with For the Fairest of them All written on it, generating a War-making Contest between the Classical Beauties – Aphrodite, Athena, and Hera – to claim the Golden trinket. None of the three Confronted their Vanity (Paris had to Decide, creating the War), so we have to do it for them.

By Anton Raphael Mengs – Steffi Roettgen, Anton Raphael Mengs 1728-1779, vol. 2: Leben und Wirken (Munich: Hirmer, 2003), plate 12b.Scan:James Steakley, Public Domain, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=11012041

• Worse, Eris is Merged with Mars (Action, Anger), who’s likely to Struggle mightily to Defend Ego’s Role as Protector, and Keep in place the Subterfuges that we use Unconsciously, Semi-Consciously, and Consciously, to keep our Demons chained to the wall of our Sub-Dungeon. I’m guessing we’ll be working mostly with the Semi-Conscious and Conscious but Actively Resisted Energies in our Psyche.
• Both are in 26 Aries (Union with All ).
• Paradoxically, the base of the Self-Resolving Finger of the Goddess is a Sextile (Grace) between Koronis (Coronavirus) in 25 Leo (Discovering Soul Inside Convention and Codependence) and the Out-of-Bounds Moon (Vulnerability to Panic) Merged with asteroid Sisyphus (Perpetual Fruitless Effort ) and dwarf planet Asbolus (Intuition), all in Gemini 28 (Union with Evolving Energies), with Sisyphus and Asbolus also both Out of Bounds.
• ⁷ Gay Hendricks, The Big Leap: Conquer Your Hidden Fear and Take Life to the Next Level, pp.159-184. See also O. Fred Donaldson, Playing By Heart: The Vision and Practice of Belonging, pp.192-195.
• ⁸ Stationary Neptune Conjunct asteroids Nemesis (Guilt ) in 27 Pisces (Union with the Basic Design of Life) and Herakles (Assassin of the Sacred Symbols of the Matriarchy in Service of Zeus’s Patriarchy) in 28 Pisces (see note ¹ above).
• ⁹ The base of the Neptune T-Square, which describes the Source of the Challenge, is the OOB Moon-OOB Sisyphus-OOB Asbolus grouping that was part of the Self-Resolution of the first Challenge (see the end of note ⁶ above) Opposite asteroids Klotho (New Karma) and Atlantis (Demise of a Civilization) in 26-27 Sagittarius (Klotho in 26 – the Prenatal Decision to End All Karma in the Lifetime; Atlantis in 27 – Awareness of Many LifeTimes, Disguised as Everyday Knowledge). Sagittarius 26 is home to the Fixed Star Aculeus (Abuse that Strengthens Us), while 27 Sagittarius is adjacent to the Fixed Star Acumen (Destructive Gossip).
• ¹⁰ See the Getting Wild Again series of posts, starting at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2022/03/04/getting-wild-again/, especially Ian Smith’s generous comment in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2022/03/15/getting-wild-again-7/#comments.
• The Self-Resolving Finger of the Goddess in this second Challenge of the Neptune Station is based from the Sextile between asteroid Koronis at 25 Leo and dwarf planet Haumea at 28 Libra (see note ⁶ above).

Samhain

Enjoy the relative break this week (there are no Stations¹), as it gets busier in November.² By the end of the week though, we’re likely to be struggling with “Decisions” about our Fate – as if Fate and Decision belong in the same sentence.³ They do, actually, as the Path to Leaving Fate Behind lies through Consciousness. Since our Anal-ytical Mind doesn’t have the Key to the Gates of the Unconscious, we have to Invite our Intuitive Mind (with a PIAVA or several) if we want to bring our Fate into our Consciousness, where we can Replace it with Choice. So we can at least make the Decision to PIAVA Exploration of the Underwhere – that’s pretty much what Samhain’s about anyway.

• ¹ As regular readers know, for our Interpretations we rely mostly on the Planetary Stations – when planets Stand Still in the Sky. The planets don’t Stand Still like a Hummer or a Kestrel Hovering. Since the Earth spins at about a thousand miles per hour at its surface, the “Stars” are always moving. So the only way we can tell that a planet is “Standing Still” is by taking a snapshot of it at the same time every night, to see if it’s moving relative to the stable background Stars. The influence of a planet is Strongest when it Stands Still. The fact that, at the Equator, the surface of the Earth travels at a thousand miles an hour in the Round-Earth Metaphor, yet we can stand up without getting knocked down or blown off, should be strong evidence for an Alternate Metaphor.

• ² Besides Moira/Fate (see note ³ below), November also includes Stations/Exaggerations of…
  • Varuna/Life Force in Leo/Confidence on 6 November 2021,
  • Pallas/Boundaries in Pisces/Emotions Versus Thoughts About Same on 8 November,
  • Gonggong/Intrusive Memories in Pisces/Unfinished Business on 21 November,
  • Veritas/Truth of the Mind in Aries/Clean Slate on November 24,
  • Nessus/Abuse and Privilege in Pisces/Victimhood on 25 November, and
  • Neptune/Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity in Pisces/Emotional Confusion and Spiritual Devotion on 1 December.
• So the second half of November could be pretty Heavy, as we could be grappling with Intrusive Memories about Abuse and Privilege, while during that span both the Moon and Venus are Out of Bounds (Strong, Heavily Justified Emotions – always a Time to Strive to Differentiate our Emotions from our Thoughts-About-Our-Emotions). Plus, Nemesis/Guilt Changes Signs, entering Capricorn/Just the Facts, Ma’am on 21 November. The Gonggong-Nessus events occur during Thanksgiving Week in the US, a time when many of us already struggle with Unfinished Family-of-Origin Business. But this isn’t our first time Carving the Turkey, as Gonggong and Nessus have been traveling together and Stationing together for several years already, and their cross-contamination is actually declining. If you can talk yourself into “That Was Then, This Is Now,” and realize that what was happening then was Abuse while what’s happening now is Emotion, that might help.
• November includes lots of Sign Changes as well…
  • Mercury/Mind enters Scorpio/Fearless Search for the Ultimate Truth on 5 October 2021 and enters Sagittarius/The Way Out is Through Letting Go on 24 November,
  • Venus/Values enters Capricorn/Just Fix It, OK? on 5 November,
  • Ixion/Forbidden Genius enters Capricorn/Damn the Torpedoes, Do It Anyway 6 November,
  • Chariklo/Confidence and Doubt enters Aquarius/Barroom Politics 9 November,
  • Juno/Growth in Consciousness enters Capricorn/If It Doesn’t Grow Corn, Start Over 14 November,
  • Asteroid Karma/Karma enters Scorpio/Relentlessness 15 November,
  • Vesta/Unconscious Limitations enters Sagittarius/Throw Caution to the Wind 16 November,
  • Sappho/Self-Love enters Pisces/Emotional Baggage, but You Can Let It Go If You Just Renounce Your Victimhood, and
  • Klotho/Rebirth enters Sagittarius/Choose Freedom and Self-Expression This Time 26 November.
• Venus/Heart is Out of Bounds all month (from 10 October till 7 December) so we’ll likely find ourselves Outraged by Violations of our Values, and
• The Moon is Out of Bounds/Well-Rationalized Heavy Emotions for several days following the 7th and 20th November.
• Busy Busy Busy.

• ³ Asteroid Moira/Fate and Choice Stationary 2 November 2021, in 15 Pisces/Hopeless Cases and Lost Causes. Pisces is about Unfinished Business and Unnecessary Baggage, Emotionally, so it could Feel pretty Heavy for us. If you get Discouraged, don’t forget to try Poor-Sweethearting yourself. It seems trivial, but if you take it seriously, it often produces Miracles. You do have to Change the Subject though.

Without Stations, we should be getting a Break, right? Well, we did just have a Full Moon, and the New and Full Moons tell us about the several weeks that follow them. So we’ll look to the 20 October Full Moon to Guide us through the rest of October. It’s not the prettiest Moon in the Cheese Shop…

Any Compulsive Self-Doubt we have may be Lit Up pretty Brightly. This will ultimately be very Healing, but in the interim we’ll likely have to Endure some pretty serious Secret Revelations and Ego Rebirth, turning our Life around completely.⁴

And there may be more Zombies than usual among the Trick-or-Treaters this Halloween.⁵ Again, like usual, it’s Ego Death we worry about, and it’s seldom Fatal, except to your old Limited Ego.

• ⁴ A Pluto-Chariklo Conjunction (Compulsive Insecurity – or Narcissism) in Capricorn (Pragmatism) makes a serious Challenge (T_Square) to a Competition (Opposition) between Previously Hidden Deep Truths (Aletheia/Truth of the Heart Conjunct Eris/Revelation of What’s Been Denied, behind the Full Moon in Aries) and a Very Confusing and Complicated Rebirth (Haumea/Rebirth Conjunct asteroids Pandora/Travails and Hope and Atlantis/Technological Self-Destruction, behind the Sun). One could have a Field Day translating that into US Politics, but I won’t. Or the Drama-of-the-Week at Facebook (recently renamed Faceplant).

• ⁵ A second Challenge involves Sedna/Converting Fear to Power T-Squaring (Major Challenge) the Dance (Opposition) between Respect for Death (asteroid Requiem in Leo/Self-Love) and the Sword of Damocles (asteroid Damocles in Aquarius/Social Ideals). We’ll likely Enjoy Life more if we Remember that we very rarely actually physically Die, but that our Ego Molts often, and that usually feels like we’re Fixin’ to Die.

Living in the Heart

Brenda Hoffman channels some wonderful Wisdom today…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2020/12/28/adding-your-puzzle-pieces/

“You are likely no longer comfortable being the source of others’ jokes or the instigator of downplaying others’ importance. You are discovering an inner voice that often stops you in mid-message or sentence. A voice that invalidates what you once thought or said. For you are beginning to lead with your heart instead of social norms.

“Perhaps there was a time when you made fun of a certain person or action. But doing so now does not provide you with the same feeling of conquest. It merely makes you sad. For you are a different being with a different focus, and most importantly for this topic, different needs.

“Your needs before your transition and the energies of this December were often to be better than others. And to project that difference, you needed to make fun of their mistakes, their being. You needed to talk down to them and about them.

“You are discovering that doing so no longer gives you the same high, the same feeling of satisfaction. Instead, doing so makes you feel different, a difference you are beginning to explore. Some of you will display those unpleasant feelings physically. Others of you will merely lose your sparkle, your sense of fun. For in the past, ‘getting one over someone’ was fun, but it is no longer.

“You are a different being. It does not matter if your former targets have changed. For you feel bad even if they have not. You express fewer negative, hurtful comments, for you no longer wish to live in that world.

“Such will not happen in a few minutes or even a few days. Instead, you are shifting in that direction daily. You might still enjoy teasing someone – until you do not. We are merely informing you that new you will have different feelings and actions – from the heart instead of the mind.

“Conversations will likely be confusing for a bit because one of you will speak from your heart and the other from his or her mind. And perhaps those of you speaking from your heart will be hurt until you build your strength in that area. Similar to building your physical body at a gym, your heart instincts will become stronger the more you use them.

“You will find less need to tease, to pretend something is, that is not, to spread ‘little white lies,’ to try to be better than someone. 

“In 3D, better than someone was a key survival element. Beyond 3D, following your heart is the key. You will discover interests and people that speak to your heart regardless of the panache such interests or people might have in the greater society. It will no longer matter if you are the best at something. Interest, not dominance, is new you. Something you will learn throughout 2021.

“You are building your structure on the 2020 foundation you created – a structure right for you and no one else. You are beyond living for others in whatever form that takes. 

“That is not to say you will be isolated for the opposite is true. As you develop and explore numerous interests, you will tap into larger and larger groups of like-minded people. The difference between doing so in 3D and dimensions beyond is you will connect with like-minded and like-hearted others.

“You will have little need to compete, to outshine, to be better than. For your new interactions will be like a giant puzzle in which the pieces lock together easily and effortlessly. You might wish to explore one area of the puzzle for a bit and then move to another, only to return to the first area – or not. And doing so will not reduce your interactions or your love.

“This is a new world dominated by the heart instead of the mind. Your interests will be heart-based instead of mind directed. Eliminating the need for competition, greed, or self-compensation.

“Instead of a tall building of have and have-nots based on greed and better-than as was true in 3D society, your new world is a flat puzzle in which every puzzle piece is equally important and beautiful. So be it. Amen.”

I couldn’t agree more. The 29 December 2020 Full Moon is Bridged (Doubly Trine-Sextiled) by two Energies. One of them can be read as Obedience to Our Own Soul (Lilith [Self-Sovereignty] Conjunct Uranus [the Individual Soul]). The other is quite fascinating – it has to do with Making Abuse and Privilege Sustainable (Conjunction of dwarf planets Ceres [Sustainability] and Nessus [Abuse and Privilege]). Well, how would we do that without yielding the Planet to the Antichrist’s goons? I’ve been thinking of Abuse as the Other Side of Privilege. But the Other Side of Abuse-and-Privilege would be Respect-and-Equality, wouldn’t it! With a Namaste to Brenda for the Insight!

The Full Moon chart also includes Epiphany about our Limiting Beliefs – a Configuration of planets that we interpret as Epiphany (and which we call a Mjölner) because it features the convergence of two Angles (Trioctiles) that combine Adjustment toward Balance (Eighth Harmonic) and Love with Wisdom (Third Harmonic). These Angles converge on the symbol for Unconscious Limiting Beliefs (asteroid Vesta), giving us Insight into a Wise and Loving Rebalancing of our Limitations.

(Mjölner is Norwegian for Thor’s Hammer, which is the usual astroname for this Configuration of two converging “Sesquisquares.” We prefer the Norwegian name because, being a new term, we hope to escape the baggage of Destruction, as Norse Myth often pictures Thor’s Hammer as a Sledgehammer. Shades of Neal Cassady (a parallel story in itself). Hindu Myth includes the same weapon, the Vajra, but it symbolizes Lightning – Illumination – Destruction, yes, of the Ego’s former Limitations. “A vajra [or dorje in Tibetan] is a ritual weapon symbolizing the properties of a diamond [indestructibility] and a thunderbolt [irresistible force] and is the Sanskrit word having both meanings” – Wikipedia.)

Whether it’s a Mjölner, a Vajra, a Dorje. or a Hammer of Thor, the two Trioctiles or Sesquisquares begin at each end of a Challenge, or Square. In the Full Moon chart the Challenge is between the Soul’s Sovereignty (Lilith-Uranus) and Setting Truthful Boundaries (Conjunction of asteroids Veritas [our True Unvarnished Thoughts] and Pallas [Boundaries]). In other words, our Transition from 3D to 5D, from Competition to Cooperation, from Head to Heart, will include getting Clear and Honest about our Boundaries, which could require some possibly-Challenging Rebalancing of our Relationships.

In the chart below, the Trioctiles are drawn in the thinner orange lines…

Note that the asteroid Vesta is Opposed by Neptune, which symbolizes our Relationship to anything larger than our Self, including our Relationship to God/Goddess. Which adds Octiles (Semi-Squares, Eighth Harmonic, symbolizing Adjustment, Rebalancing) between Neptune and the shoulders of what becomes a Mjölner Kite, with Neptune at the Top. Neptune also symbolizes Confusion, but in fact it’s Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity. So our Spirituality is also being Rebalanced by this process.

It’s important to Remember to Experience Confusion as an Emotion, devoid of grammatical objects and prepositional phrases – it’s not You Confuse me… or I’m Confused by…, it’s I Feel Confused. Period. Locate Confusion in your Body, not in your Thoughts. Be Loving and Gentle with it there in your Body, and don’t let anyone talk you into Attributing it to anything other than a Vibe your Limbic antenna picked up from the Airwaves.

Attack on Codependence

The 28 November 2020 (4:30 pm PST) Exaggeration of the Fuzzy Spaceout (Station of Neptune in 19 Pisces) occurs roughly halfway between the Atropos Station (Emphasis on Ending Karmic Patterns) and the Full Beaver Moon, both of which still feature Abuse and Privilege, though in a Positive way, hopefully Letting Go Of it (the Full Moon is Challenged [T-Squared] by dwarf planet Nessus, but it’s a Self-Resolving Challenge; the Atropos Station shares the same chart).

Being Fuzzy-Headed and Spaced Out is a common feature of Neptune, as the planet is where Hypnosis and Trance abide. It can be quite Emotional, though when it’s Strong (like it is now), Spaceout is more likely. In it’s Home Sign of Pisces, its impact is multiplied. The Bottom Line for Neptune when Strong is that the 3D Material World may be very Confusing, but if you step over to the Spiritual World, All is Crystal Clear.

In this particular Neptune Station, Neptune Challenges our Lifetime Mission (T-Squares the Nodes). The current Destination of our Hero’s Journey is Adaptability (North Node in Gemini), and to get there we’re Blessed by a Strong Option to Let Go Of our Held Emotions (Sagittarius South Node – the South Node tells us what we have to do in order to Approach our Life Mission). Spirituality is Unique to the Individual, but here it may have something to do with Seeking Input from Reliable Sources (“A master instructing her disciple,” 19 Pisces).

This Neptune Station is also a serious Attack on Codependence, as our Patterns of Giving Away Our Power to Avoid Conflict is Actively Replaced by New and Skillful Ways to Say No (Hylonome [Codependence] in Capricorn [Pragmatism] T-Squaring [Challenged by] Mars [Action] in Aries [Intuitive Action] Opposite asteroid Klotho [Beginning New Habits] in Libra [Social Skills]).

The two Challenges Complement (Sextile) one another, and both are Assisted by much Grace (the two halves of a Golden Rectangle [Trine-Sextile Box] each Bridge both Oppositions) – Active Attention to Healing our Held Emotions (Mars Trine South Node) and New Patterns that Serve our Life Mission (Klotho Trine North Node). Held Emotions are the ones we’d rather Die than Feel…

The Moon goes Out of Bounds on 1 December (4:44 am PST), till 4 December (5:26 am PST), probably making everyone a bit more Emotional than they would otherwise be. Otherwise, it’s a quiet week, at least for Stations.

Abuse Flushbacks III

Alas, we aren’t done with our Abuse Flushbacks yet, as the 30 November 2020 Full Moon (1:30 am PST, in 9 Gemini) is Challenged (T-Squared) by Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus). The Full Moon also includes a second significant Challenge. While not done pouting, and probably not done seeking revenge, at least the Antichrist has allowed the Future to proceed. Interesting coincidence that he did it the day after his favorite planet, Nessus, finished being Exaggerated (Stationary).

We have a couple of Thresholds today (Sign Changes, on 25 November). The asteroid of Trust (Eurydike), having dipped his toe into Majesty (Leo) for two weeks, discovered that the World was not ready to Embrace Respect (Leo) yet, and at 8am PST hightailed it back into Compassion (Cancer). He’ll try again in early June to see if we’re able by then to have Confidence (Leo) in our Trust for one another. I hope everybody remembers that if one party plays Win-Win and the other plays Win-Lose, the Win-Lose party Wins.

And at around 1pm PST, the asteroid of Self-Love (Sappho) finished her Investigation of Hidden Impediments (Scorpio) to Unconditional Self-Love, and moved into the space where she can Shake them Off (Sagittarius), Tenderize the scar tissue, and fully Embrace herself. This period only lasts till the end of January, but then she Gets to Work in Earnest (Capricorn) on the many new projects that her newfound Wholeness permits, before she does a Deep Review of the Social Contract (Retrograde in Aquarius) starting in April and taking up most of the rest of 2021.

Meanwhile, back to the future, as we’re already Deep in the Arms of Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity (Neptune Stationary 28 November 4:30 pm PST in 19 Pisces). The most important thing to Remember while Neptune is Acting Out, is that Confusion is the first Stage of Growth. Confusion means that the intellectual justifications for our Limiting Beliefs are Breaking Down, and these Beliefs are like a Birdcage that keeps us Locked In, but also provide Comfort because it’s Familiar. It’s Scary when the bars in the Cage loosen, as if Granny gave Sylvester the keys to Tweety’s Cage, and we’re Tweety. If it’s too Scary, try Kegels. Or just Breathe – Fear plus Breathing = Excitement.

Simultaneous with the Neptune Station we’re Blessed with an Exaggeration of our Ability to Reject Obsolete Habits (Station of asteroid Atropos 27 November 12:50 pm PST in 8 Leo), especially with regard to Health and Vitality (Conjunct dwarf planet Varuna). The Atropos Station occurs two and a half days and one and a half Degrees before the Full Moon, and Atropos-Varuna is the Focus of the second Challenge in the Full Moon chart. We’ll describe the details of that Challenge later.

Be Mindful that Rejecting Obsolete Health and Vitality Habits often coincides with “Healing Crises,” when symptoms worsen. Many of us got special treatment when we were sick as children, and we Learned that getting sick was a way to get an extra vacation, even if we had to tolerate the symptoms of it. Though the “modern” Scienterrific and Capitalist view is that Illness is a Biochemical process, Biochemistry is really a Perspective, not an Objective Absolute.

Illness is actually a Trance, and with enough Power and Skill it’s possible to Take Off an Illness the way we Take Off a coat, though so far, relatively few people have that much Power and Skill. You may know someone who’s Experienced such a “Miracle Healing,” or Experienced one yourself. I’ve mentioned a few in these pages. They’re common in Homeopathy and Acupuncture, because we’ve been Programmed to Believe in the Allopathic Birdcage that excludes low-profit modalities.

The Bottom Line is that, if you’re Feeling Unwell and your symptoms worsen this weekend, wait until after the 30 November Full Moon to get Scared about it. You may discover that your Fear would have been wasted, as you were just having a “Healing Crisis.” But meanwhile, we have a fabulous Opportunity to watch ourself argue with ourself over which Mental-Emotional Reality we Want to Subscribe to – “I’m gonna Die!” or “I Wonder if I really can Take this Off like a coat.” Have Fun with it.

When you’re in the “Wondering if you really can Take this Off like a coat” role, make the Effort to stay in Curiosity, and Avoid Anal-ysis and Answers and Yes-Buts, and Especially Avoid looking for Mechanisms. If you know the Mechanism, it’s not a Miracle, and you Want to Cultivate Miracles so you can go Directly from Objective to Outcome through enlisting the right Allies and Perspectives, as we will in 5D. More like, “Wouldn’t it be Awesome if I could Take this Off like a coat.” Indulge that “Fantasy,” and see how long you can stay in that “Daydream.” You might start to Recognize other Lifetimes where that sort of Healing was routine.

We’ve been busy working on other Issues and haven’t been talking about it, but don’t forget that we’re only three and a half weeks from the Beginning of the Digital Age (Jupiter-Saturn Conjunctions in Air Signs, this one 21 December 9am PST in 1 Aquarius, 7 hours after the Capricorn Solstice). This replacement for the 200-year Industrial Age (Jupiter- Saturn Conjunctions in Earth Signs) that faded in 1980 to make room for a 20-year Digital Teaser (1980-2000) and a 20-year Industrial Debriefing (2000-2020), will span the next two centuries.

Remember what Life was like when computers only lived in Institutions? The desktop computer became useful for more than hobbyists and feasible on a wide scale when IBM introduced the “PC” with Microsoft “DOS” software, just about the time of the first Jupiter-Saturn Air Conjunction in 1980. At about the same time, clumsy “1G” cellular phone systems were introduced in Japan and Scandinavia (the first iPhone didn’t appear till 2007). A primitive version of Microsoft Windows appeared in 1985. The World Wide Web (then commonly called the “World Wide Wait”) and the “web browser” were introduced in 1991. The “Dot-Com Crash” in 2000 coincided almost to the day with the end of the Digital Teaser (last Earth-Sign Jupiter-Saturn Conjunction).

The Digital Teaser was about more than computing, though most of the other new technologies that came along were enhanced, or even made feasible, by computing. The “rare-earth” Neodymium Magnet, which makes modern electric cars and wind power generation feasible, was developed in 1984. The Lithium-Ion Battery was prototyped in 1985 and commercialized in 1991. Toyota combined these with a small gasoline engine, controlled by computer, in the Prius, the first mass-produced modern electric car, introduced in 1997. Without the higher power output of the Nd Magnet and the light weight of Li-ion Batteries, electric cars never got beyond the golf cart.

On 29 November (4pm PST in 14 Virgo), Vesta (Unconscious Limiting Beliefs) Conjoins Orcus (Breaking Karmic Vows and Decisions). We’ve talked about this a couple of times recently, and it’s a window where Letting Go of Obsolete Habits may be Easier than they would be otherwise. On the other hand you may have to Re-Experience some of the reasons you made those Karmic Vows and Decisions, which could be a Bummer. Be Mindful of this, so you can Focus on the Letting Go instead of being Sucked into the Emotional Drama of the Memories.

Also on 29 November, asteroid Karma leaves Leo and moves into Virgo (6pm PST). The upside here is that Virgo is about Ego Death, and we need Ego Death in order to Jettison our Attachment to Karma, because our Karma is a big part of that Birdcage that keeps us Comfortable but Limited. “Ego” is just Identity. One minute you’re a Nurse or a Construction Worker or a Cook, another you’re a Spouse or a Parent or an Employee, the next you’re Watching TV. “You Are” is a statement of Identity, “You Are X” means that you and X are the same thing.

If you have a heavy Mental-Emotional Investment in being a Nurse or Spouse or TV-Watcher, then that Identity (Ego) will Limit your Ability to Shift your Identity. That’s Ego Death, where our Investment causes us to think “I will Die!” instead of “I will Die!” (ie, “My Identity will be Transformed!“), with all of the Emotional Baggage that comes along with Fear of Death. I hope you’re starting to see how we’re tied into a huge Gordian Knot this weekend, where everything is all tangled up with everything else. Keep Fantasizing about how much you’ll Enjoy 5D, where you’re so In Tune with Nature that you know exactly Who to Ask to Manifest any Outcome you Want, without having to Force anything.

Abuse Flushbacks II

The second red-triangle Challenge (T-Square) and blue-triangle Dumb-Luck Blessings (Grand Trine) combination in the 22 November 2020 Exaggeration (Stations) of dwarf planets Gonggong and Nessus (Intrusive Memories of Abuse and Privilege) is Focused on asteroid Moira (Fate and Choice) and dwarf planets Pholus (our Ability to Respond) and Quaoar (our Survival Instincts). (Even though the new WordPress editor makes it really clumsy and time-consuming to add those pinknesses and brownies, the sentence was just too complicated without them!)

Fate aka Karma Happens To us when we’re Unconscious about it. We can’t help being Victims when that Happens. When we get Conscious about our Fate/Karma, then we are able to Choose alternatives. This isn’t about Blaming the Victim as our Resistance wants to label it, it’s about the old saw Fool me once, Shame on You – Fool me twice, Shame on Me. Except that we need to toss the Shame part, and extend it a bit. Something more like, The first time someone rear-ended me, it was an Accident. The second time, it was Suspicious. The third time, my tail-gunner shot out his right front tire before he got there.

A little extreme, but the idea is that once we Notice that there’s a Pattern, we can Choose to Alter it. Of course we feel like the Victim the first several times, and it may take us more than three repetitions – or three hundred Lifetimes – to Notice the Pattern, let alone begin to Take Action to Alter it. The nature of Karma is that it flies under the radar, so we need to be Alert to Identify it. As Seth famously said long ago, It’s Easy to Identify our Karma – it’s writ large in our Personal History. It just looks like it’s Happening To us, not something we have anything to do with.

It’s not our Ego that Creates Our Own Reality, it’s our Soul, and it’s Adamant that we get hip to our Ego’s Habitual Negative Creations, so we can Change them to Creations that we Want to Manifest. That’s why it Repeats our Bummers for us. Folks often say “You can’t take it with you (beyond Death),” but we certainly do! Just not in Material Form, but in Habitual Form!

Pholus-Quaoar, as we’ve written many times, is the astrological correlate of Global Balming. So the second critical Challenge in this Memories of Abuse chart is about whether or not we’re going to continue to be Victims of Climate Change, or have our tail-gunner shoot out it’s tire before it gets here. Well, before it gets worse. We’ve already dallied the first several thousand times. But what can We do, we’re just One Person! everyone says. Except Greta of course. The rest of us just don’t have her Courage. We need to get rear-ended, or Coronavirused, a few hundred more times before we figure it out.

They built a huge concrete Sarcophagus around Chernobyl. We can do the same with the White House – lock the doors from the outside, flip the lid open, and fill it with concrete, like any other irretrievably polluted SuperFund site. Joe can work from home, in Delaware.

The base of this second Challenge/T-Square is the Opposition between Chiron (Despair and Miracles) and dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation). This is really straightforward to interpret – we just have to Decide (Moira) whether we’re going to continue to Create (Makemake) more Victimhood, or Create Miracles (Chiron). The World we Live in is a Mirror for What We Believe. We Believe we’re Powerless to Manifest the World We Want to Live in because we Focus on the Media that’s continually telling us that we need more Stuff to be Happy, and using the Senseless Dramas that they thrive on to keep us Engaged and Anxious.

Who in the World Outside Yourself captures your Attention? That’s who you’re Giving Your Power to. No wonder we don’t feel like we have the Power to Impact our own Survival and Create a World We Want to Live In – we’re Giving Our Power Away. If you want the Monster to get Bigger, Keep Feeding It. It’s Eating Your Power. Every time you Notice yourself Thinking about WhatYouDon’tWant, Stop! Bring your Thoughts back to WhatYouDoWant. Our Thoughts are the first step in the Creative Process.

Not having Control over our Thoughts is one of the most debilitating Karmas we can reinforce. Every time we Think about WhatWeDon’tWant, we Strengthen our Negative Habits. Every time we Stop and Shift to WhatWeWant, we break the chain and Strengthen our Positive Karma. It really is One Thought At A Time. Like climbing a Mountain, putting one Thought in front of the Other.

The blue triangle, Dumb-Luck Blessings, in this combo with Choosing to Manifest Our Own Future (Moira-Pholus-Quaoar T-Square) connects firstly to Vesta-Orcus – Canceling the Oaths we once made (Orcus) which subsequently Created our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (Vesta). That was part of the first Combo we talked about in the previous post. Secondly the Blessings Link in Lilith-Uranus – Claiming our Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) by Following our Soul’s Path for us in the Lifetime (Uranus, which in Taurus is in the process of Descending into Matter).

If you can pick out the faint blue lines that Bridge the T-Squares – such as Chiron to Aletheia to Bee-Zed to Makemake, these are additional Allies for us. The presence of Bee-Zed here says that the entire first Challenge (Transcending our Abuse Karma) is an Ally to this second Choosing to Manifest Our Own Future Challenge. Asteroid Aletheia is new to us here. She means The Truth of the Heart. Following your own Heart’s Truth, which is Different from everyone else’s Heart’s Truth, and which has nothing to do with Facts and Fabrications. When you take your Attention out of the gutter of External Events, you can put it into Your Own Heart.

The Bridge or faint blue lines in the first Challenge, Transcending our Abuse Karma, runs from Ceres-Gonggong-Nessus to Moira-Pholus-Quaoar to Nemesis-Zhulong-Venus to Vesta-Orcus. Moira-Pholus-Quaoar in the Bridge says that the second Challenge, Choosing to Manifest Our Own Future, is another Ally to Transcending our Abuse Karma. The newcomer here is Nemesis-Zhulong-Venus – minor planet Zhulong is the Red Dragon of Enlightenment that’s Awakening our Heart (Venus) to Realize that our unpleasant Ego Deaths (Nemesis) are only the Suicides of the parts of ourself that are Stuck in the Status Quo and are Afraid to go to 5D because they Fear Change of any kind.

Which illustrates that the two Challenges are just one Sign apart. An Angle of one Sign is an “Unx,” which symbolizes Pattern-Breaking (the Twelfth Harmonic). So the two Challenges are mutually assisting one another to break through the Muck into Clarity. While we’re doing that, all we can see is the Muck, because that’s what we’re being Shoved Through. Once you get through (the Nessus Station was complete a half hour ago as I write this), grab the Imaginary Energy Hose that’s lying there, and hose yourself down with it.

Then Enjoy some Wild Dreams, or a Disorienting day. You’ve just been Reborn, so you’re seeing Everything through New Eyes. Confusion is the first stage of Growth – practice Celebrating Confusion. It’s a new Habit that will serve you well, as Confusion is a Guiderope on the path to 5D.

And just in time, as the Exaggeration (Station) of Neptune (Material Confusion but Spiritual Clarity) dominates the coming week (peaking 28 November at 4:30 pm PST).

Asteroid Atropos, which is in charge of Ending Timelines (whether Habits, Chunks of Karma, Lifetimes, Relationships, anything bounded by Time), is also Exaggerated this week (peaking 27 November at 1pm PST). Atropos-Eurydike-Varuna was a corner of the Transcendence (Bee-Zed) Grand Trine. Atropos Standing Still so close to Varuna (the Life Force), and beginning to back over it, will give us excellent Opportunities to Heal Physical ailments and the Earth, since Varuna animates Mother Nature.

Remember that Healing happens not when symptoms disappear, but when we stop Fearing Negative Future Outcomes, whether because we can See or Feel symptoms diminishing, because we accept the Limitations that our symptoms cause (which is often the moment when symptoms start to fade), or because we simply Surrender to Higher Powers and put our Attention elsewhere.

Orcus (Oath-Breaker) Initiates it’s new Cycle with Vesta (Unconscious Limitations) on 29 November, giving us greater Motivation and potentially greater Ease in Letting Go of Negative Unconscious Beliefs If you come upon Negative Limiting Beliefs this week, they could Feel very Oppressive. The more the better, because that Oppression is your Signal to Let Them Go.

You can Revert them, Tap Them Out, PIAVA them away, Theta otherwise, Poor-Sweetheart them, use a Fire Ceremony or a Water Rebirth, or any other Magic Ritual to Thank them for Serving you, wish them well in their new Life, and Let Them Go Once and For All. An Oath sworn in different circumstances and then Forgotten becomes a Karmic Curse in the Present, so if you can Revert and mean it, you’ll be Golden. If your Climate and Weather permit, you can Ask Mother Earth to use your Trauma as Compost, and sit for a while with your back against a Tree, or lie on the Earth. I once completely dispelled a nasty cold in a half hour by laying on my back on the Earth in a grove of small Trees.