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Guilt that Ain’t 2

December 4, 2022

We got so swept away by Boundaries in the first Guilt that Ain’t post that we forgot to explain the title. Neptune should be Dominating the airwaves here, as it reaches Peak Vibes (Stationary) today 3 December 2022 4:14 pm PST (GMT 12:14 am 4th, IST 5:44 am 4th, AEDT Qld 10:14 am 4th), but I have to Reach to Detect it. Unusual. But as it Stands Still, asteroid Nemesis Merges with it, and we usually associate Nemesis with Guilt. But Neptune is a master of Subterfuge, so we could be Feeling sham Guilt, about things we have no reason to Feel Guilty about for instance. Or Regret that we didn’t follow through on Powerful and Meaningful Actions that would have Evoked Guilt, Inappropriately so in Retrospect. Or recalling places where someone else worked hard to make us Feel Guilty, when they were Power Tripping on us.

The 23 Pisces Degree Reading for the Neptune Station and Nemesis is intriguing – The Profoundly Impossible Search for Missing Soul Fragments When There Are No Clues, and the Miracle that Occurs When We Persevere with Our Intention to Embrace Them. Since we routinely interpret Neptune as Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, Neptune might just be trying to Confuse us. In the Neptune Station chart with three Degrees of Sensitivity or Orb, this Mysterious Neptune-Nemesis Energy Debates with a Strong Drive toward Resilience, and is Challenged by a Strong Need to be Aware of and Communicate Our Values.1

1 Neptune-Nemesis Debates (Opposes) Ceres-Sisyphus Out of Bounds (Emphasis on Resilience), which is Challenged (T-Squared) by Mercury OOB Merged with (Conjunct) Venus OOB (Emphasis on Awareness and Communication of Our Values). The Mercury-Venus OOB T-Square is Self-Resolving (a Diamond Star), and the root of the Self-Resolving Finger of the Goddess is the Sextile (Grace after Initial Huper Action) between Pan OOB (Spirit of Nature Embodied and Emphasized) and the Stellium (Group of Planets) of Veritas (Truth of the Mind), Black Moon Lilith (Self-Sovereignty), and Pallas OOB and Stationary (Boundaries Front and Center).

The latter, in my World at least, has been about Loosening my Boundaries with “Inanimate” Entities – Trusting Self-Sovereignty when it comes to Rejecting Codependence, but not when it comes to Rejecting Oneness With All. This evening I was cutting up Asparagus and Zucchini (literally, not just Vegetables A-to-Z) to steam when I realized that I needed to Apologize to the Asparagus for Treating Them like They were Inanimate, and then Ask for Their Permission to Merge, which They granted. But then a few minutes later I started cutting up the Courgettes without Remembering to Ask! So I had to apologize to Them and Ask for Their Permission. The Habits of Living Unconsciously Die Hard!

I hadn’t Connected till now that this was an Exercise in Respecting Pan and Becoming Aware of My Values in a Much Deeper Way. Thank you for the Loving and Gentle Teaching, Pan and Neptune! I’ve long been missing this kind of Deep Connection to the Natural World, without Seeing it as a Lost Soul Fragment that I haven’t been Owning! That blows the top of my head off, as I begin to Appreciate that my Muggletude may not be Terminal! What a Wonderful Epiphany!

Golden Barite (Barium Sulfate) is an Ancient Symbol for the Clarity and Integrity of Our Intentions.

Our Chief Astrology Officer has pointed out something we missed, that Mercury Out of Bounds (Emphasis on Communication and Travel) was Opposing Mars Out of Bounds (Emphasis on Action and Passion) on 29-30 November, and observed that such a Dance occurred less often than one would Expect. While the Outer planets like Neptune Strongly Influence our Inner Life, the Inner Planets like Mercury and Mars Strongly Influence our Outer Life and our Day-to-Day Surficial Reality. I did have some travel Challenges last week, which I’m hoping will Self-Resolve once this Energy fades. If I have time, I’ll write about this more before we get to the Full Moon.

Guilt that Ain’t

November 30, 2022

Our next Portal is about Guilt and Confusion. Neptune is Stationary till 3 December 2022 at 4:14 pm PST,* and Neptune represents Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity. Confusion is the first Sign of Growth in Consciousness, because our Unconscious Limitations are Encoded into our Mental Concept Set, the one that Keeps us Safe by Defining the Boundaries of our Reality. When out Rigid Concepts Conflict with one another, or with Possibly Valid Information from Outside of our Rigid Universe, of course we Get Confused. Our normal Reaction is to Run back to the Perceived Safety of our Rigid Concepts. In so doing, we can Deny Outside Information that Conflicts, we can Ignore Contradictions in our Concept Set, or we can Make Up Stories to Mitigate the Contradictions.

* GMT 12:14 am 4th December, IST 5:44 am 4th, AEDT Qld 10:14 am 4th, AEDT NSW 11:14 am 4th.

Better yet, we can Borrow such Stories from the Vast Store of them on the Internet. This is how we get to Rhetoric, or Unexamined Rote Concepts about the World which become Memes for these Stories. This process is so Clearly illustrated for us by Faux News and the Rabid Republicans that Inhabit and Inhale it. If we slip on a Virtual Reality Headset from Meta Inc. and tune it to Believe that the T.rumpian or Pootinian or the DiCostellian or Abbotic Realities are the Real ones, we can see the same process working in the Minds of the “Woke” Liberals as they Groom our Children into every Vile Reality Forbidden by the Old Testament or Sharia Law.

The Spiritual Function of the Prominence on the World Stage of these Parodies of Leadership has been to Demonstrate for us the Limitations of Creating Your Own Reality when it has no solid Connection to the Physical World and no Authentic Connection to the Spiritual World. Next time you see one of these Buffoons on TV or the Internet, Go Meta Ask yourself In the Present Moment, What’s Really Happening Here? How many times have Propaganda artists snagged Civilization on the end of their Hooks and Reeled them In? Is that Karma we wish to Continue? If not, can we No Longer Lend Our Strength to That Which We Wish to Be Free From?

Guilt Arises here because the Neptune Station Conjoins asteroid Nemesis, our astromeme for Guilt. Both sit in 23 Pisces, The Profoundly Impossible Search for Missing Soul Fragments When There Are No Clues, and the Miracle that Occurs When We Persevere with Our Intention to Embrace Them. Can these Unfunny Comedians really be Clues to Our Missing Soul Fragments? If not, why do we even Give them the Time of Day?

But before we move into Discussion of our Guilt about Having Lost Track of Our Soul Fragments…

We didn’t have time to write about the Emphasis on Boundaries over that last several days, but then, our primary goal is to Teach youalls to Monitor your own astrology, since your Experience with yourself is a jillion times every one else’s, and Self-Knowledge is a big prerequisite for Ascension, so no worries. I can just fill you in on what the last couple days have been about astrologically, and you can see how it compares to your Experience.

It hasn’t been Complicated, but it has been a shift. Asteroid Pallas, which is all about Boundaries, Stood Still till 12:36 am PST,* early this morning, 30 November 2022, in 27 Cancer. Any planet’s Impact on Earth is highest when it Stands Still, so you may have found yourself struggling with your Boundaries, or Setting Stronger Boundaries, or Loosening up some, or All of the Above! People may have Angered you, and you Felt Bad about Telling them Off, or Felt Bad about Not Telling them Off. You may have Felt Guilt about one or some of your Relationships, and maybe Let them Into your Private Life a bit more than you usually would have. You may even have Closed a Relationship or two, with or without Talking to them about it. You may just have found yourself really Confused about some of your Relationships.

* GMT 8:36 am, IST 2:06 pm, AEDT Qld 6:36 pm. Sorry about the Red. WordPress in its wisdom, except for Black and Red, offers only Light Colors for text, and every time you use one of them it warns you that it’ll be difficult to read, so you should oughta use a darker color. Brilliant. You probably have to pay extra to get access to darker colors.

We’ll get to the Guilt and Confusion shortly, as they’re about to get Louder, but they’re likely to have been Lit Up already. 27 Cancer is about being Obsessed with the Unmarked Path to Giving Birth to Our Cosmic Twin Soul. Wow, what an Intense and Exciting Degree Reading! Regular readers know that we always recommend looking up these full-page Degree Symbols in Lonsdale’s book (pp.152-3). We only squeeze what we can into a single sentence, and it’s never enough.

The single Challenge/Potential SuperPower in the Pallas Station chart is a Pattern-Breaker! Almost all of the Challenges for months now have been Self-Resolving, but this one isn’t, so we have to do the Work ourself. It’s about Denying our Compulsive Attachment to Expired Karma and Codependent Boundaries.*

* Eris (Revelation of What’s Been Denied ) T-Squared (Challenged ) by the Opposition (Debate) between Pluto-Atropos (Addiction to Expired Karma) and Pallas-Black Moon Lilith (Codependent Boundaries). Of course Black Moon Lilith mostly stands for Self-Sovereignty, so the Dynamic here could well be about Seeking Excessive Privacy to Hide the Symptoms of our Addiction. It may be useful to Think about whether we’re Hiding anything from our Closests.

Hmmm, that sounds suspiciously like Shame. Maybe we should check to see where Phaedra (Shame) is in this chart. Yup, very Meaningful! Phaedra makes a Biquintile to Stationary Pallas – a Teaching about Duality and Separation from Self. It also makes an Angle that’s 7/18th of the Zodiac (a Septununoctile?), Combining the Seventh (Timing) and 18th (Authenticity) Harmonics, so totally fitting for a chart about Denial and Boundaries and Compulsions.

In the Pallas Stationary chart Phaedra is Merged with the Moon (Authenticity, Instinct), Gonggong (Intrusive Memories), and Vesta (Unconscious Limitations), in the Aries Duad of Pisces (Beginning a New Life Cycle with Less Karmic Emotional Baggage). Intense! We can’t make this stuff up, can we?

The Phaedra portion of the Pallas Stationary chart includes two Fully Self-Resolving (Diamond Star plus Grand Trine) Challenges. In one, Phaedra-Moon-Gonggong-Vesta Opposing Samadhi-Sappho (Enlightenment Merged with Self-Love) is T-Squared by Moira (Fate or Choice). Wow. We can Choose between our Karmic Fate of Continuing to Hide our Shame that we’ve Adopted from our Ancestors, or moving into Self-Love and Ascension! What a Choice! But we have to Make it. Moira is in 6 Gemini, Single-Minded Obsession to Making It to the Bright Light that Must Be at the End of the Tunnel.

I don’t interpret that as shouting our Shame from the Rooftops. But I do interpret it as Stopping our Thoughts about it and Asking ourself, What am I Feeling? Where Is It in my Body? What does it Feel Like there? Softening it there, Warming it, Poor-Sweethearting Ourself. Would you have interpreted those Sensations as Shame? Shame is very Adept at Hiding. We need to be Loving and Gentle with those places in our Body. Just Opening this door and looking in is a Huge Ego Death. We wouldn’t have Felt Compelled to Hide it otherwise.

The other Fully Self-Resolving Challenge in the Phaedra portion of the Pallas Station chart Focuses on Narcissus – Big Surprise, and Eurydike (Trusting our Self-Image). Narcissus is in 2 Scorpio, Hard Battles to Overcome Ego. The base of the T-Square is Chariklo (Self-Confidence or Self-Doubt) Opposite Cyllarus-Varuna (Ego Death Merged with the Life Force). We’ve had to Hide this Shame in order to Manifest any sort of Self-Confidence, and the result has been having a Murderous impact on our Health. On the other hand, a Solid Ego Death or several should Restore our Health! While the Pallas Challenge itself is Not Self-Resolving, the Phaedra Challenges are Self-Resolving, and Fully so. That’s a Monster Gift!

So, Shame so well Hidden sounds like a Held Emotion, doesn’t it. We’d rather Die than Share this Secret with anyone. So we Ask, What’s going on with the South Node in the Pallas Station chart? The Mean South Node is in 12 Scorpio, Two Souls in One Body, the Inner Soul on an Essential Crusade in another Galaxy, while the Outer Body-Soul barely Hangs on to Ground the Pair into the Earth. The South Node Merges with Zhulong (Enlightenment ), Ka’epaoka’awela (Transmutation), and Requiem (Respect for Death). The North Node Merges with Uranus (Soul), and Lachesis makes a Diamond Star across the Nodal Axis. Lachesis sits in 14 Aquarius, Testing the Depths of Darkness in order to Let Go of the Shadows of Grandiosity.

A second Diamond Star is T-Squared by the Sun (Essence) in 9 Sagittarius, on the Opposition between Nessus-Juno (Growth in Consciousness around Abuse and Privilege) and Orcus-Thereus (Relentlessness about Breaking Difficult Patterns or Taming Bears). 9 Sagittarius is The Green Man, Serving Mystery and Forever Forbidden from Identifying with Anything on the Surface.

Lachesis symbolizes Unexpired Karma, but All Karma can be Let Go by Choice. While these Challenges are Self-Resolving but not Enhanced by Grand Trines, one side of the base of each T-Square is also one side of the base of the Finger of the Goddess of the other, so they do Complement one another. The second side of the base of each Finger is Ganesa (Remover of Obstacles). So is there Hope that these Two Souls in One Body can ever Integrate with one another? Are we talking about Fragmentation of our own Soul?

The answer to the second question is No. This is a Transit chart, not our Natal chart. We have Empathy because there are parts of our own Souls that are Split Off and waging some Crusade in another Galaxy. An excellent example is the original Shame Tracked out of its Hideout in the Pallas Station chart. So on these circuitous journeys through the distant parts of the Pallas chart, we’ve gained some Appreciation for the travails that this Lost Soul Fragment has been through – and that the Ancestors who passed this Trauma down to us have been through, and are still, in the Etheric Realms.

We Liberate their Soul Fragments as we Liberate Ours, by Stopping our Thoughts about our Shame and Lovingly, Gently Embracing the Sensations in our Body that we’ve been Denying all our Lives, the Sensations that threaten to make our own Body so fragile that it barely Hangs on to Ground our Multifarious and Unitary Lives into the Earth.

Another view of green Ajoite Crystals. Ajoite can help us Let Go of Shame.

Self-Love and Confusion

June 27, 2022

I try to hide most of the astrologuese in the footnotes because so many folks have complained that it Confuses them. Yes, Confusion is the First Stage of Growth, because it indicates that the Conceptual Bars in our Mental Birdcage have come loose, Granny isn’t home, and we’re expecting Sylvester to notice our Broken Cage any minute. Almost all of the educational systems in Western Civilization are Dictatorial and Dualistic, with a great emphasis on Right and Wrong, and a Strong Multi-Pronged Enforcement System on the Right part, including the liberal application of Shame. Shame is an excellent Enforcer, and many of us grew up under its thumb – or its knee on our neck.

I’m making a frequent exception for Moon Out of Bounds, which makes us more Vulnerable to Freakout, because it so dominates its 22-year Cycle, where for eleven or so years it goes Out of Bounds for several days every two weeks, then for the next ±11 years it stays In Bounds the whole time. Classic examples from the first Moon OOB of the prior and current Cycles – the first Moon OOB of the previous Cycle occurred at 9 am on 11 September 2001, which you may remember. The first Moon OOB of the current Cycle began when “On 16 or 17 March 2020, we find out whether the Coronavirus is the Headliner, or just a Teaser, as the Moon begins going ‘Out-of-Bounds’ (further away from the Equator than the ‘Tropics’ of Cancer and Capricorn at 23:27° N or S of the Ecliptic) in earnest.” (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/03/16/truth-or-dare/)

And it makes sense to make exceptions for the classical planets, which are probably familiar to most everyone, at least by name. Such as Neptune, which signifies Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, and which is Lit Up Bigtime (Standing Still in the Sky) until at least 12:54 am PDT 28 June 2022.1 The impact of planets on us Hupers and our Planet, is Greatest when they Stand Still.2 Neptune also symbolizes Everything Bigger Than the Individual Ego, but of course any Recognition that something larger than the Individual Ego Exists is likely to dump a Huper into Confusion about the Nature of Matter, so this is merely a Corollary. Spiritual Clarity moves us Beyond the Ego, but the Ego has to have enough Presence to remember to Request it.

The Neptune Station “features” two Challenges3 (known in the astrovernacular by the quaint geometrical term “T-Square”). They’re both Self-Resolving, but not Doubly so.4

One of them is a Contest between two Rival Compulsions.5 We Crave Rebirth, to Liberate us from our Limitations. But our Limitations are founded in our Security, and the Ego does nothing if not Protect our Security.6 So we Really Want to Clear that Brain Fog, so we can Focus more Intensely on our Enlightenment. But our Limitations are even Stronger, so they Really Want another Cookie, so we can Space Out and Avoid Facing the Sources of our Limitations and Clearing them! Besides, they’re very Deep, and we may not be able to Clear them! What if we’re able to Dredge them up out of the Dungeon, undo all those decades and Lifetimes of Conscious Suppression, forgo all that Hard-Earned Comfort, and they still won’t Leave? Our Life just becomes a Huge, Uniform Bummer again! Right?

Well, Life is Risky. I always suggest appending Lovingly and Gently to our PIAVAs, because if we bite off more than we can chew, it can set us back. Natha Jay advises, “Two coping skills stand out for this passage: remember to rest and be careful what you wish for” (https://medium.com/@nathajay/and-were-off-d5c27c7ad203). I’m already violating the first Skill, by exercising (successful) new Denial Skills to push away Brain Fog so I can Strive to finish these essays while the Energy is still Current. I know we’re Eager, but using another of Natha’s Metaphors, we don’t need to “Push the River.” We have All the Time in the World. Linear Time is an Illusion, one we Create.7 The secret door to this My-Own-Time Universe, according to Gay, is to Ask yourself, “What Am I Not Owning? ” I sounds weird, but it works.

The other Self-Resolving Challenge revolves around Neptune itself. As it Stands Still, it’s Merged with Guilt and The Brutality of the Patriarchy.8 If you were raised Catholic or one of the other Autocratic or Guilt-based Religions, you’re probably dealing with a good deal of Ancient Anger these days. Lord Knows there are ample Present-Moment Stories to Focus that on, potentially Losing the Opportunity to Dump a Solid Load of Karma.

Neptune is the Outlet for these Stresses. The complex Source of the Stresses9 Revolve around our Feeling that we’re Stuck with it, that we’re Powerless against the Patriarchy. While that may be True in the short run, it’s not at all True in the long-term TimeLine. Remember that it will be 2081 before the New Pholus-Quaoar Cycle Climate Change Energy reaches its Waxing Square10 and becomes Mainstream, two generations hence. The demise of the Patriarchy will take at least that long as well. Like the Medieval Cathedrals that took generations to build, we’re putting in a foundation here, not a Rose Window. It will be our Great Grandchildren who will Witness the Results. Our job is to Hold the Vision and dig the basement.

  • 1 in 26 Pisces (Letting Go of Limitation). Of course it’s “Coincidence” that Neptune chose this Degree to Stand Still in, just when we’re being Asked to Let Go of Any Limitations We Have in the Quantity and Quality of our Self-Love (Chaos Initiating Sappho; see previous post). The Neptune Station is Exact at that time and date (meaning it’s still moving ever so slightly before and after); the Strength of the Energy usually Builds to a Max at the Exact Station, then Falls Off sharply. If however we Get Lost in Our Stories about the Energy (particularly Easy around Neptune) and make a Decision about it, to counteract it for instance, then we Extend the Energy in our own Lives.
  • I remembered for example that Black Radish and Lemon, with Food and much Water, might reduce the Brain Fog that the Neptune Station (in combination with other things, such as dietary shortcuts) is Triggering for me, so I tried it and it seems to be working. I didn’t want to resort to Caffiend, which only seems to Quicken the Fog, and it’s too late in the afternoon for a large dose of Vitamin B, which would be Healthy but keep me awake longer than I want. It would be better to Meditate on the Fog, that way I may be able to pick up on what it’s trying to Teach me, rather than just Learning how to Suppress it.
  • 2 Fortunately, the Earth doesn’t Stand Still, or we’d Fall Off. It spins at over 1,000 mph on the surface at the Equator, 700 mph at my Latitude (you can Feel the Breeze blowing your hair off your head, right? No wonder Flat-Earthers don’t Believe – think of the haircut money we could save!). So to actually Notice in “Real” Life that a planet is Standing Still, we have to take a dddddsnapshot of the same chunk of Sky every night at the same time. From our Perspective, it’s the fact that a Star stays in the same place in such snapshots, while, usually, planets move. So a Stationary planet is pretending to be a Fixed Star, trying to Fake us Out, pausing to wag a finger at us for ignoring it the rest of the time.
  • The Earth is also whizzing around the sun at 67,000 mph, and the Sun is zooming around the Milky Way at 448,000 mph. Tell your Dog to keep their head in the car, okay? Not to mention that the Dairy Queen is moving around the Local Galaxy Group at 216,000 mph, all of which is moving toward Leo at 1⅓ million mph. These numbers mean nothing of course, they’re just a Story. We all know we Live in a Snow Globe that moves only when Shaken.
  • 3 Known in the astrovernacular by the quaint geometrical term “T-Square” because lines drawn from each of the three planets involved to the center of the Zodiacal circle forms a “T.”
  • 4 Self-Resolving Hassles leave everyone Living Happily Ever After, if Everyone is able to Leave Well Enough Alone and patiently Endure any Discomfort that the Challenge Triggers (it’s still a Hassle, even if it’s Self-Resolving – we just have better odds of Surviving it Enhanced). On the contrary, Doubly Self-Resolving Hassles turn out to be basically Easy. Even if the Hassle itself produces Discomfort, the Self-Resolution process more than makes up for it.
  • The Crux of a T-Square falls on the planet at the base of the stem of the “T,” while the other two planets are three Signs away, a Graduate-Seminar sort of Angle, Teaching Rare Skills, but Asking us to Adjust our Identity in the process (ie, not as Fun). A Self-Resolving T-Square adds two more planets, each five Signs from the Crux planet, making a Wedge that astrologers call a Finger of the Goddess, or, in the case of Muggle astrologer, Finger of God. These Focus our Attention and add Context that makes it Easier for us to Adjust our Identity. A Doubly Self-Resolving T-Square adds two additional planets, each four Signs from the Crux, making an equilateral triangle called a Trine and meaning Dumb-Luck Blessings. The Trine makes both the Learning and the Adjustment Effortless.
  • That’s seven planets all together. We’re really talking about positions rather than planets, because each position can hold several planets. But we’ll continue to imagine that there’s only one planet in each position, as it’s easier. Adding an eighth planet Opposite the Crux planet, called the Vacancy of the T-Square, converts our T-Square into a Grand Cross – four planets more or less equally spaced around the Zodiac. Four is the number of Dominion, and the Grand Cross is Balanced, converting it from a Challenge and a Hassle, to a series of Irritations that Complement one another. We may still have to Endure some Discomfort while we patiently await the Complementary Actions, but a Grand Cross is much easier than a T-Square, as we know that we’re In Charge – we have Dominion over it.
  • Notice that any Natal or Birth planet(s) we have that fill any Vacancy in the T-Square “in the Sky Now” (called Transiting planets in astrologuese, as opposed to Natal or Birth planets) Count! So if we have two natal planets five Signs from the transiting Crux planet, We Are the Self-Resolution. That puts us in an excellent position to help others Expand their Identity and Learn from the T-Square. Similarly, if we have two natal planets four Signs from the transiting Crux planet, We Are the Double Self-Resolution. If we aren’t Arrogant about it, people will come clamoring for our Help.
  • Now suppose we also have two Natal planets that are each two Signs from the Crux. Combine these with the two planets four Signs from the Crux, and we have a Grand Sextile, one of the best Configurations in astrology, because it makes the whole process Full of Grace, and it includes the Crux of the Challenge. There’s only one Caveat with a Grand Sextile – we have to take the first step. If we’re willing to do that, the Goddess will handle the rest.
  • We’ve now filled ten positions. Suppose we happen to also have two Natal planets one Sign from the Crux planet. Added to the other ten, that now fills the Zodiac with a planet in each of the twelve positions, one in each Sign, in more or less the same Degree. Some will be Transiting, some Natal. With twelve planets Aligned and no Vacancies, we have what’s called a Grand Unx, an “Unx” meaning one twelfth of anything. A Grand Unx is like having Two Cats in the Yard, Life Used to Be so Hard, Now Everything Is Easy Cuz of [the Grand Unx]. The Unx Angle, which Muggle astrologers unromantically refer to as a “Semi-Sextile,” is the Twelfth Harmonic, symbolizing Pattern-Breaking. So Adjustments to Identity suddenly become Easy, as the Universe Unlocks all of the Patterns that Connect and Bind the Energies of those twelve planets.
  • 5 The Crux planet is Pluto – Compulsion, in 28 Capricorn (Letting Go of a Lifetime of Negativity). The base of a T-Square is an Opposition, the Second Harmonic, home of Duality and Argument.
  • 6 The Rebirth side of the Argument is dwarf planet Haumea (Rebirth), daughter of Pele, making new Land as her Fiery Lava – molten Stone – hisses into the Sea, in 28 Libra (Integration of Extremes). Rebirth into Ascension, Ego Death Be Damned.
  • On the other side of the table is dwarf planet Eris (Revelation of What’s Been Denied ), she who threw the Golden Apple into the dinner party with For the Fairest of them All written on it, generating a War-making Contest between the Classical Beauties – Aphrodite, Athena, and Hera – to claim the Golden trinket. None of the three Confronted their Vanity (Paris had to Decide, creating the War), so we have to do it for them.
  • Worse, Eris is Merged with Mars (Action, Anger), who’s likely to Struggle mightily to Defend Ego’s Role as Protector, and Keep in place the Subterfuges that we use Unconsciously, Semi-Consciously, and Consciously, to keep our Demons chained to the wall of our Sub-Dungeon. I’m guessing we’ll be working mostly with the Semi-Conscious and Conscious but Actively Resisted Energies in our Psyche.
  • Both are in 26 Aries (Union with All ).
  • Paradoxically, the base of the Self-Resolving Finger of the Goddess is a Sextile (Grace) between Koronis (Coronavirus) in 25 Leo (Discovering Soul Inside Convention and Codependence) and the Out-of-Bounds Moon (Vulnerability to Panic) Merged with asteroid Sisyphus (Perpetual Fruitless Effort ) and dwarf planet Asbolus (Intuition), all in Gemini 28 (Union with Evolving Energies), with Sisyphus and Asbolus also both Out of Bounds.
  • 7 Gay Hendricks, The Big Leap: Conquer Your Hidden Fear and Take Life to the Next Level, pp.159-184. See also O. Fred Donaldson, Playing By Heart: The Vision and Practice of Belonging, pp.192-195.
  • 8 Stationary Neptune Conjunct asteroids Nemesis (Guilt ) in 27 Pisces (Union with the Basic Design of Life) and Herakles (Assassin of the Sacred Symbols of the Matriarchy in Service of Zeus’s Patriarchy) in 28 Pisces (see note 1 above).
  • 9 The base of the Neptune T-Square, which describes the Source of the Challenge, is the OOB Moon-OOB Sisyphus-OOB Asbolus grouping that was part of the Self-Resolution of the first Challenge (see the end of note 6 above) Opposite asteroids Klotho (New Karma) and Atlantis (Demise of a Civilization) in 26-27 Sagittarius (Klotho in 26 – the Prenatal Decision to End All Karma in the Lifetime; Atlantis in 27 – Awareness of Many LifeTimes, Disguised as Everyday Knowledge). Sagittarius 26 is home to the Fixed Star Aculeus (Abuse that Strengthens Us), while 27 Sagittarius is adjacent to the Fixed Star Acumen (Destructive Gossip).
  • 10 See the Getting Wild Again series of posts, starting at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2022/03/04/getting-wild-again/, especially Ian Smith’s generous comment in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2022/03/15/getting-wild-again-7/#comments.
  • The Self-Resolving Finger of the Goddess in this second Challenge of the Neptune Station is based from the Sextile between asteroid Koronis at 25 Leo and dwarf planet Haumea at 28 Libra (see note 6 above).

Samhain

October 24, 2021

Enjoy the relative break this week (there are no Stations1), as it gets busier in November.2 By the end of the week though, we’re likely to be struggling with “Decisions” about our Fate – as if Fate and Decision belong in the same sentence.3 They do, actually, as the Path to Leaving Fate Behind lies through Consciousness. Since our Anal-ytical Mind doesn’t have the Key to the Gates of the Unconscious, we have to Invite our Intuitive Mind (with a PIAVA or several) if we want to bring our Fate into our Consciousness, where we can Replace it with Choice. So we can at least make the Decision to PIAVA Exploration of the Underwhere – that’s pretty much what Samhain’s about anyway.

  • 1 As regular readers know, for our Interpretations we rely mostly on the Planetary Stations – when planets Stand Still in the Sky. The planets don’t Stand Still like a Hummer or a Kestrel Hovering. Since the Earth spins at about a thousand miles per hour at its surface, the “Stars” are always moving. So the only way we can tell that a planet is “Standing Still” is by taking a snapshot of it at the same time every night, to see if it’s moving relative to the stable background Stars. The influence of a planet is Strongest when it Stands Still. The fact that, at the Equator, the surface of the Earth travels at a thousand miles an hour in the Round-Earth Metaphor, yet we can stand up without getting knocked down or blown off, should be strong evidence for an Alternate Metaphor.
  • 2 Besides Moira/Fate (see note 3 below), November also includes Stations/Exaggerations of…
    • Varuna/Life Force in Leo/Confidence on 6 November 2021,
    • Pallas/Boundaries in Pisces/Emotions Versus Thoughts About Same on 8 November,
    • Gonggong/Intrusive Memories in Pisces/Unfinished Business on 21 November,
    • Veritas/Truth of the Mind in Aries/Clean Slate on November 24,
    • Nessus/Abuse and Privilege in Pisces/Victimhood on 25 November, and
    • Neptune/Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity in Pisces/Emotional Confusion and Spiritual Devotion on 1 December.
  • So the second half of November could be pretty Heavy, as we could be grappling with Intrusive Memories about Abuse and Privilege, while during that span both the Moon and Venus are Out of Bounds (Strong, Heavily Justified Emotions always a Time to Strive to Differentiate our Emotions from our Thoughts-About-Our-Emotions). Plus, Nemesis/Guilt Changes Signs, entering Capricorn/Just the Facts, Ma’am on 21 November. The Gonggong-Nessus events occur during Thanksgiving Week in the US, a time when many of us already struggle with Unfinished Family-of-Origin Business. But this isn’t our first time Carving the Turkey, as Gonggong and Nessus have been traveling together and Stationing together for several years already, and their cross-contamination is actually declining. If you can talk yourself into “That Was Then, This Is Now,” and realize that what was happening then was Abuse while what’s happening now is Emotion, that might help.
  • November includes lots of Sign Changes as well…
    • Mercury/Mind enters Scorpio/Fearless Search for the Ultimate Truth on 5 October 2021 and enters Sagittarius/The Way Out is Through Letting Go on 24 November,
    • Venus/Values enters Capricorn/Just Fix It, OK? on 5 November,
    • Ixion/Forbidden Genius enters Capricorn/Damn the Torpedoes, Do It Anyway 6 November,
    • Chariklo/Confidence and Doubt enters Aquarius/Barroom Politics 9 November,
    • Juno/Growth in Consciousness enters Capricorn/If It Doesn’t Grow Corn, Start Over 14 November,
    • Asteroid Karma/Karma enters Scorpio/Relentlessness 15 November,
    • Vesta/Unconscious Limitations enters Sagittarius/Throw Caution to the Wind 16 November,
    • Sappho/Self-Love enters Pisces/Emotional Baggage, but You Can Let It Go If You Just Renounce Your Victimhood, and
    • Klotho/Rebirth enters Sagittarius/Choose Freedom and Self-Expression This Time 26 November.
  • Venus/Heart is Out of Bounds all month (from 10 October till 7 December) so we’ll likely find ourselves Outraged by Violations of our Values, and
  • The Moon is Out of Bounds/Well-Rationalized Heavy Emotions for several days following the 7th and 20th November.
  • Busy Busy Busy.
  • 3 Asteroid Moira/Fate and Choice Stationary 2 November 2021, in 15 Pisces/Hopeless Cases and Lost Causes. Pisces is about Unfinished Business and Unnecessary Baggage, Emotionally, so it could Feel pretty Heavy for us. If you get Discouraged, don’t forget to try Poor-Sweethearting yourself. It seems trivial, but if you take it seriously, it often produces Miracles. You do have to Change the Subject though.

Without Stations, we should be getting a Break, right? Well, we did just have a Full Moon, and the New and Full Moons tell us about the several weeks that follow them. So we’ll look to the 20 October Full Moon to Guide us through the rest of October. It’s not the prettiest Moon in the Cheese Shop…

Any Compulsive Self-Doubt we have may be Lit Up pretty Brightly. This will ultimately be very Healing, but in the interim we’ll likely have to Endure some pretty serious Secret Revelations and Ego Rebirth, turning our Life around completely.4

And there may be more Zombies than usual among the Trick-or-Treaters this Halloween.5 Again, like usual, it’s Ego Death we worry about, and it’s seldom Fatal, except to your old Limited Ego.

  • 4 A Pluto-Chariklo Conjunction (Compulsive Insecurity – or Narcissism) in Capricorn (Pragmatism) makes a serious Challenge (T_Square) to a Competition (Opposition) between Previously Hidden Deep Truths (Aletheia/Truth of the Heart Conjunct Eris/Revelation of What’s Been Denied, behind the Full Moon in Aries) and a Very Confusing and Complicated Rebirth (Haumea/Rebirth Conjunct asteroids Pandora/Travails and Hope and Atlantis/Technological Self-Destruction, behind the Sun). One could have a Field Day translating that into US Politics, but I won’t. Or the Drama-of-the-Week at Facebook (recently renamed Faceplant).
  • 5 A second Challenge involves Sedna/Converting Fear to Power T-Squaring (Major Challenge) the Dance (Opposition) between Respect for Death (asteroid Requiem in Leo/Self-Love) and the Sword of Damocles (asteroid Damocles in Aquarius/Social Ideals). We’ll likely Enjoy Life more if we Remember that we very rarely actually physically Die, but that our Ego Molts often, and that usually feels like we’re Fixin’ to Die.

Living in the Heart

December 29, 2020

Brenda Hoffman channels some wonderful Wisdom today…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2020/12/28/adding-your-puzzle-pieces/

“You are likely no longer comfortable being the source of others’ jokes or the instigator of downplaying others’ importance. You are discovering an inner voice that often stops you in mid-message or sentence. A voice that invalidates what you once thought or said. For you are beginning to lead with your heart instead of social norms.

“Perhaps there was a time when you made fun of a certain person or action. But doing so now does not provide you with the same feeling of conquest. It merely makes you sad. For you are a different being with a different focus, and most importantly for this topic, different needs.

“Your needs before your transition and the energies of this December were often to be better than others. And to project that difference, you needed to make fun of their mistakes, their being. You needed to talk down to them and about them.

“You are discovering that doing so no longer gives you the same high, the same feeling of satisfaction. Instead, doing so makes you feel different, a difference you are beginning to explore. Some of you will display those unpleasant feelings physically. Others of you will merely lose your sparkle, your sense of fun. For in the past, ‘getting one over someone’ was fun, but it is no longer.

“You are a different being. It does not matter if your former targets have changed. For you feel bad even if they have not. You express fewer negative, hurtful comments, for you no longer wish to live in that world.

“Such will not happen in a few minutes or even a few days. Instead, you are shifting in that direction daily. You might still enjoy teasing someone – until you do not. We are merely informing you that new you will have different feelings and actions – from the heart instead of the mind.

“Conversations will likely be confusing for a bit because one of you will speak from your heart and the other from his or her mind. And perhaps those of you speaking from your heart will be hurt until you build your strength in that area. Similar to building your physical body at a gym, your heart instincts will become stronger the more you use them.

“You will find less need to tease, to pretend something is, that is not, to spread ‘little white lies,’ to try to be better than someone. 

“In 3D, better than someone was a key survival element. Beyond 3D, following your heart is the key. You will discover interests and people that speak to your heart regardless of the panache such interests or people might have in the greater society. It will no longer matter if you are the best at something. Interest, not dominance, is new you. Something you will learn throughout 2021.

“You are building your structure on the 2020 foundation you created – a structure right for you and no one else. You are beyond living for others in whatever form that takes. 

“That is not to say you will be isolated for the opposite is true. As you develop and explore numerous interests, you will tap into larger and larger groups of like-minded people. The difference between doing so in 3D and dimensions beyond is you will connect with like-minded and like-hearted others.

“You will have little need to compete, to outshine, to be better than. For your new interactions will be like a giant puzzle in which the pieces lock together easily and effortlessly. You might wish to explore one area of the puzzle for a bit and then move to another, only to return to the first area – or not. And doing so will not reduce your interactions or your love.

“This is a new world dominated by the heart instead of the mind. Your interests will be heart-based instead of mind directed. Eliminating the need for competition, greed, or self-compensation.

“Instead of a tall building of have and have-nots based on greed and better-than as was true in 3D society, your new world is a flat puzzle in which every puzzle piece is equally important and beautiful. So be it. Amen.”

I couldn’t agree more. The 29 December 2020 Full Moon is Bridged (Doubly Trine-Sextiled) by two Energies. One of them can be read as Obedience to Our Own Soul (Lilith [Self-Sovereignty] Conjunct Uranus [the Individual Soul]). The other is quite fascinating – it has to do with Making Abuse and Privilege Sustainable (Conjunction of dwarf planets Ceres [Sustainability] and Nessus [Abuse and Privilege]). Well, how would we do that without yielding the Planet to the Antichrist’s goons? I’ve been thinking of Abuse as the Other Side of Privilege. But the Other Side of Abuse-and-Privilege would be Respect-and-Equality, wouldn’t it! With a Namaste to Brenda for the Insight!

The Full Moon chart also includes Epiphany about our Limiting Beliefs – a Configuration of planets that we interpret as Epiphany (and which we call a Mjölner) because it features the convergence of two Angles (Trioctiles) that combine Adjustment toward Balance (Eighth Harmonic) and Love with Wisdom (Third Harmonic). These Angles converge on the symbol for Unconscious Limiting Beliefs (asteroid Vesta), giving us Insight into a Wise and Loving Rebalancing of our Limitations.

(Mjölner is Norwegian for Thor’s Hammer, which is the usual astroname for this Configuration of two converging “Sesquisquares.” We prefer the Norwegian name because, being a new term, we hope to escape the baggage of Destruction, as Norse Myth often pictures Thor’s Hammer as a Sledgehammer. Shades of Neal Cassady (a parallel story in itself). Hindu Myth includes the same weapon, the Vajra, but it symbolizes Lightning – Illumination – Destruction, yes, of the Ego’s former Limitations. “A vajra [or dorje in Tibetan] is a ritual weapon symbolizing the properties of a diamond [indestructibility] and a thunderbolt [irresistible force] and is the Sanskrit word having both meanings” – Wikipedia.)

Whether it’s a Mjölner, a Vajra, a Dorje. or a Hammer of Thor, the two Trioctiles or Sesquisquares begin at each end of a Challenge, or Square. In the Full Moon chart the Challenge is between the Soul’s Sovereignty (Lilith-Uranus) and Setting Truthful Boundaries (Conjunction of asteroids Veritas [our True Unvarnished Thoughts] and Pallas [Boundaries]). In other words, our Transition from 3D to 5D, from Competition to Cooperation, from Head to Heart, will include getting Clear and Honest about our Boundaries, which could require some possibly-Challenging Rebalancing of our Relationships.

In the chart below, the Trioctiles are drawn in the thinner orange lines…

Note that the asteroid Vesta is Opposed by Neptune, which symbolizes our Relationship to anything larger than our Self, including our Relationship to God/Goddess. Which adds Octiles (Semi-Squares, Eighth Harmonic, symbolizing Adjustment, Rebalancing) between Neptune and the shoulders of what becomes a Mjölner Kite, with Neptune at the Top. Neptune also symbolizes Confusion, but in fact it’s Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity. So our Spirituality is also being Rebalanced by this process.

It’s important to Remember to Experience Confusion as an Emotion, devoid of grammatical objects and prepositional phrases – it’s not You Confuse me… or I’m Confused by…, it’s I Feel Confused. Period. Locate Confusion in your Body, not in your Thoughts. Be Loving and Gentle with it there in your Body, and don’t let anyone talk you into Attributing it to anything other than a Vibe your Limbic antenna picked up from the Airwaves.

Attack on Codependence

November 30, 2020

The 28 November 2020 (4:30 pm PST) Exaggeration of the Fuzzy Spaceout (Station of Neptune in 19 Pisces) occurs roughly halfway between the Atropos Station (Emphasis on Ending Karmic Patterns) and the Full Beaver Moon, both of which still feature Abuse and Privilege, though in a Positive way, hopefully Letting Go Of it (the Full Moon is Challenged [T-Squared] by dwarf planet Nessus, but it’s a Self-Resolving Challenge; the Atropos Station shares the same chart).

Being Fuzzy-Headed and Spaced Out is a common feature of Neptune, as the planet is where Hypnosis and Trance abide. It can be quite Emotional, though when it’s Strong (like it is now), Spaceout is more likely. In it’s Home Sign of Pisces, its impact is multiplied. The Bottom Line for Neptune when Strong is that the 3D Material World may be very Confusing, but if you step over to the Spiritual World, All is Crystal Clear.

In this particular Neptune Station, Neptune Challenges our Lifetime Mission (T-Squares the Nodes). The current Destination of our Hero’s Journey is Adaptability (North Node in Gemini), and to get there we’re Blessed by a Strong Option to Let Go Of our Held Emotions (Sagittarius South Node – the South Node tells us what we have to do in order to Approach our Life Mission). Spirituality is Unique to the Individual, but here it may have something to do with Seeking Input from Reliable Sources (“A master instructing her disciple,” 19 Pisces).

This Neptune Station is also a serious Attack on Codependence, as our Patterns of Giving Away Our Power to Avoid Conflict is Actively Replaced by New and Skillful Ways to Say No (Hylonome [Codependence] in Capricorn [Pragmatism] T-Squaring [Challenged by] Mars [Action] in Aries [Intuitive Action] Opposite asteroid Klotho [Beginning New Habits] in Libra [Social Skills]).

The two Challenges Complement (Sextile) one another, and both are Assisted by much Grace (the two halves of a Golden Rectangle [Trine-Sextile Box] each Bridge both Oppositions) – Active Attention to Healing our Held Emotions (Mars Trine South Node) and New Patterns that Serve our Life Mission (Klotho Trine North Node). Held Emotions are the ones we’d rather Die than Feel

The Moon goes Out of Bounds on 1 December (4:44 am PST), till 4 December (5:26 am PST), probably making everyone a bit more Emotional than they would otherwise be. Otherwise, it’s a quiet week, at least for Stations.

Abuse Flushbacks III

November 26, 2020

Alas, we aren’t done with our Abuse Flushbacks yet, as the 30 November 2020 Full Moon (1:30 am PST, in 9 Gemini) is Challenged (T-Squared) by Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus). The Full Moon also includes a second significant Challenge. While not done pouting, and probably not done seeking revenge, at least the Antichrist has allowed the Future to proceed. Interesting coincidence that he did it the day after his favorite planet, Nessus, finished being Exaggerated (Stationary).

We have a couple of Thresholds today (Sign Changes, on 25 November). The asteroid of Trust (Eurydike), having dipped his toe into Majesty (Leo) for two weeks, discovered that the World was not ready to Embrace Respect (Leo) yet, and at 8am PST hightailed it back into Compassion (Cancer). He’ll try again in early June to see if we’re able by then to have Confidence (Leo) in our Trust for one another. I hope everybody remembers that if one party plays Win-Win and the other plays Win-Lose, the Win-Lose party Wins.

And at around 1pm PST, the asteroid of Self-Love (Sappho) finished her Investigation of Hidden Impediments (Scorpio) to Unconditional Self-Love, and moved into the space where she can Shake them Off (Sagittarius), Tenderize the scar tissue, and fully Embrace herself. This period only lasts till the end of January, but then she Gets to Work in Earnest (Capricorn) on the many new projects that her newfound Wholeness permits, before she does a Deep Review of the Social Contract (Retrograde in Aquarius) starting in April and taking up most of the rest of 2021.

Meanwhile, back to the future, as we’re already Deep in the Arms of Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity (Neptune Stationary 28 November 4:30 pm PST in 19 Pisces). The most important thing to Remember while Neptune is Acting Out, is that Confusion is the first Stage of Growth. Confusion means that the intellectual justifications for our Limiting Beliefs are Breaking Down, and these Beliefs are like a Birdcage that keeps us Locked In, but also provide Comfort because it’s Familiar. It’s Scary when the bars in the Cage loosen, as if Granny gave Sylvester the keys to Tweety’s Cage, and we’re Tweety. If it’s too Scary, try Kegels. Or just Breathe – Fear plus Breathing = Excitement.

Simultaneous with the Neptune Station we’re Blessed with an Exaggeration of our Ability to Reject Obsolete Habits (Station of asteroid Atropos 27 November 12:50 pm PST in 8 Leo), especially with regard to Health and Vitality (Conjunct dwarf planet Varuna). The Atropos Station occurs two and a half days and one and a half Degrees before the Full Moon, and Atropos-Varuna is the Focus of the second Challenge in the Full Moon chart. We’ll describe the details of that Challenge later.

Be Mindful that Rejecting Obsolete Health and Vitality Habits often coincides with “Healing Crises,” when symptoms worsen. Many of us got special treatment when we were sick as children, and we Learned that getting sick was a way to get an extra vacation, even if we had to tolerate the symptoms of it. Though the “modern” Scienterrific and Capitalist view is that Illness is a Biochemical process, Biochemistry is really a Perspective, not an Objective Absolute.

Illness is actually a Trance, and with enough Power and Skill it’s possible to Take Off an Illness the way we Take Off a coat, though so far, relatively few people have that much Power and Skill. You may know someone who’s Experienced such a “Miracle Healing,” or Experienced one yourself. I’ve mentioned a few in these pages. They’re common in Homeopathy and Acupuncture, because we’ve been Programmed to Believe in the Allopathic Birdcage that excludes low-profit modalities.

The Bottom Line is that, if you’re Feeling Unwell and your symptoms worsen this weekend, wait until after the 30 November Full Moon to get Scared about it. You may discover that your Fear would have been wasted, as you were just having a “Healing Crisis.” But meanwhile, we have a fabulous Opportunity to watch ourself argue with ourself over which Mental-Emotional Reality we Want to Subscribe to – “I’m gonna Die!” or “I Wonder if I really can Take this Off like a coat.” Have Fun with it.

When you’re in the “Wondering if you really can Take this Off like a coat” role, make the Effort to stay in Curiosity, and Avoid Anal-ysis and Answers and Yes-Buts, and Especially Avoid looking for Mechanisms. If you know the Mechanism, it’s not a Miracle, and you Want to Cultivate Miracles so you can go Directly from Objective to Outcome through enlisting the right Allies and Perspectives, as we will in 5D. More like, “Wouldn’t it be Awesome if I could Take this Off like a coat.” Indulge that “Fantasy,” and see how long you can stay in that “Daydream.” You might start to Recognize other Lifetimes where that sort of Healing was routine.

We’ve been busy working on other Issues and haven’t been talking about it, but don’t forget that we’re only three and a half weeks from the Beginning of the Digital Age (Jupiter-Saturn Conjunctions in Air Signs, this one 21 December 9am PST in 1 Aquarius, 7 hours after the Capricorn Solstice). This replacement for the 200-year Industrial Age (Jupiter- Saturn Conjunctions in Earth Signs) that faded in 1980 to make room for a 20-year Digital Teaser (1980-2000) and a 20-year Industrial Debriefing (2000-2020), will span the next two centuries.

Remember what Life was like when computers only lived in Institutions? The desktop computer became useful for more than hobbyists and feasible on a wide scale when IBM introduced the “PC” with Microsoft “DOS” software, just about the time of the first Jupiter-Saturn Air Conjunction in 1980. At about the same time, clumsy “1G” cellular phone systems were introduced in Japan and Scandinavia (the first iPhone didn’t appear till 2007). A primitive version of Microsoft Windows appeared in 1985. The World Wide Web (then commonly called the “World Wide Wait”) and the “web browser” were introduced in 1991. The “Dot-Com Crash” in 2000 coincided almost to the day with the end of the Digital Teaser (last Earth-Sign Jupiter-Saturn Conjunction).

The Digital Teaser was about more than computing, though most of the other new technologies that came along were enhanced, or even made feasible, by computing. The “rare-earth” Neodymium Magnet, which makes modern electric cars and wind power generation feasible, was developed in 1984. The Lithium-Ion Battery was prototyped in 1985 and commercialized in 1991. Toyota combined these with a small gasoline engine, controlled by computer, in the Prius, the first mass-produced modern electric car, introduced in 1997. Without the higher power output of the Nd Magnet and the light weight of Li-ion Batteries, electric cars never got beyond the golf cart.

On 29 November (4pm PST in 14 Virgo), Vesta (Unconscious Limiting Beliefs) Conjoins Orcus (Breaking Karmic Vows and Decisions). We’ve talked about this a couple of times recently, and it’s a window where Letting Go of Obsolete Habits may be Easier than they would be otherwise. On the other hand you may have to Re-Experience some of the reasons you made those Karmic Vows and Decisions, which could be a Bummer. Be Mindful of this, so you can Focus on the Letting Go instead of being Sucked into the Emotional Drama of the Memories.

Also on 29 November, asteroid Karma leaves Leo and moves into Virgo (6pm PST). The upside here is that Virgo is about Ego Death, and we need Ego Death in order to Jettison our Attachment to Karma, because our Karma is a big part of that Birdcage that keeps us Comfortable but Limited. “Ego” is just Identity. One minute you’re a Nurse or a Construction Worker or a Cook, another you’re a Spouse or a Parent or an Employee, the next you’re Watching TV. “You Are” is a statement of Identity, “You Are X” means that you and X are the same thing.

If you have a heavy Mental-Emotional Investment in being a Nurse or Spouse or TV-Watcher, then that Identity (Ego) will Limit your Ability to Shift your Identity. That’s Ego Death, where our Investment causes us to think “I will Die!” instead of I will Die!” (ie, “My Identity will be Transformed!“), with all of the Emotional Baggage that comes along with Fear of Death. I hope you’re starting to see how we’re tied into a huge Gordian Knot this weekend, where everything is all tangled up with everything else. Keep Fantasizing about how much you’ll Enjoy 5D, where you’re so In Tune with Nature that you know exactly Who to Ask to Manifest any Outcome you Want, without having to Force anything.

Abuse Flushbacks II

November 22, 2020

The second red-triangle Challenge (T-Square) and blue-triangle Dumb-Luck Blessings (Grand Trine) combination in the 22 November 2020 Exaggeration (Stations) of dwarf planets Gonggong and Nessus (Intrusive Memories of Abuse and Privilege) is Focused on asteroid Moira (Fate and Choice) and dwarf planets Pholus (our Ability to Respond) and Quaoar (our Survival Instincts). (Even though the new WordPress editor makes it really clumsy and time-consuming to add those pinknesses and brownies, the sentence was just too complicated without them!)

Fate aka Karma Happens To us when we’re Unconscious about it. We can’t help being Victims when that Happens. When we get Conscious about our Fate/Karma, then we are able to Choose alternatives. This isn’t about Blaming the Victim as our Resistance wants to label it, it’s about the old saw Fool me once, Shame on You – Fool me twice, Shame on Me. Except that we need to toss the Shame part, and extend it a bit. Something more like, The first time someone rear-ended me, it was an Accident. The second time, it was Suspicious. The third time, my tail-gunner shot out his right front tire before he got there.

A little extreme, but the idea is that once we Notice that there’s a Pattern, we can Choose to Alter it. Of course we feel like the Victim the first several times, and it may take us more than three repetitions – or three hundred Lifetimes – to Notice the Pattern, let alone begin to Take Action to Alter it. The nature of Karma is that it flies under the radar, so we need to be Alert to Identify it. As Seth famously said long ago, It’s Easy to Identify our Karma – it’s writ large in our Personal History. It just looks like it’s Happening To us, not something we have anything to do with.

It’s not our Ego that Creates Our Own Reality, it’s our Soul, and it’s Adamant that we get hip to our Ego’s Habitual Negative Creations, so we can Change them to Creations that we Want to Manifest. That’s why it Repeats our Bummers for us. Folks often say “You can’t take it with you (beyond Death),” but we certainly do! Just not in Material Form, but in Habitual Form!

Pholus-Quaoar, as we’ve written many times, is the astrological correlate of Global Balming. So the second critical Challenge in this Memories of Abuse chart is about whether or not we’re going to continue to be Victims of Climate Change, or have our tail-gunner shoot out it’s tire before it gets here. Well, before it gets worse. We’ve already dallied the first several thousand times. But what can We do, we’re just One Person! everyone says. Except Greta of course. The rest of us just don’t have her Courage. We need to get rear-ended, or Coronavirused, a few hundred more times before we figure it out.

They built a huge concrete Sarcophagus around Chernobyl. We can do the same with the White House – lock the doors from the outside, flip the lid open, and fill it with concrete, like any other irretrievably polluted SuperFund site. Joe can work from home, in Delaware.

The base of this second Challenge/T-Square is the Opposition between Chiron (Despair and Miracles) and dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation). This is really straightforward to interpret – we just have to Decide (Moira) whether we’re going to continue to Create (Makemake) more Victimhood, or Create Miracles (Chiron). The World we Live in is a Mirror for What We Believe. We Believe we’re Powerless to Manifest the World We Want to Live in because we Focus on the Media that’s continually telling us that we need more Stuff to be Happy, and using the Senseless Dramas that they thrive on to keep us Engaged and Anxious.

Who in the World Outside Yourself captures your Attention? That’s who you’re Giving Your Power to. No wonder we don’t feel like we have the Power to Impact our own Survival and Create a World We Want to Live In – we’re Giving Our Power Away. If you want the Monster to get Bigger, Keep Feeding It. It’s Eating Your Power. Every time you Notice yourself Thinking about WhatYouDon’tWant, Stop! Bring your Thoughts back to WhatYouDoWant. Our Thoughts are the first step in the Creative Process.

Not having Control over our Thoughts is one of the most debilitating Karmas we can reinforce. Every time we Think about WhatWeDon’tWant, we Strengthen our Negative Habits. Every time we Stop and Shift to WhatWeWant, we break the chain and Strengthen our Positive Karma. It really is One Thought At A Time. Like climbing a Mountain, putting one Thought in front of the Other.

The blue triangle, Dumb-Luck Blessings, in this combo with Choosing to Manifest Our Own Future (Moira-Pholus-Quaoar T-Square) connects firstly to Vesta-Orcus – Canceling the Oaths we once made (Orcus) which subsequently Created our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (Vesta). That was part of the first Combo we talked about in the previous post. Secondly the Blessings Link in Lilith-Uranus – Claiming our Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) by Following our Soul’s Path for us in the Lifetime (Uranus, which in Taurus is in the process of Descending into Matter).

If you can pick out the faint blue lines that Bridge the T-Squares – such as Chiron to Aletheia to Bee-Zed to Makemake, these are additional Allies for us. The presence of Bee-Zed here says that the entire first Challenge (Transcending our Abuse Karma) is an Ally to this second Choosing to Manifest Our Own Future Challenge. Asteroid Aletheia is new to us here. She means The Truth of the Heart. Following your own Heart’s Truth, which is Different from everyone else’s Heart’s Truth, and which has nothing to do with Facts and Fabrications. When you take your Attention out of the gutter of External Events, you can put it into Your Own Heart.

The Bridge or faint blue lines in the first Challenge, Transcending our Abuse Karma, runs from Ceres-Gonggong-Nessus to Moira-Pholus-Quaoar to Nemesis-Zhulong-Venus to Vesta-Orcus. Moira-Pholus-Quaoar in the Bridge says that the second Challenge, Choosing to Manifest Our Own Future, is another Ally to Transcending our Abuse Karma. The newcomer here is Nemesis-Zhulong-Venus – minor planet Zhulong is the Red Dragon of Enlightenment that’s Awakening our Heart (Venus) to Realize that our unpleasant Ego Deaths (Nemesis) are only the Suicides of the parts of ourself that are Stuck in the Status Quo and are Afraid to go to 5D because they Fear Change of any kind.

Which illustrates that the two Challenges are just one Sign apart. An Angle of one Sign is an “Unx,” which symbolizes Pattern-Breaking (the Twelfth Harmonic). So the two Challenges are mutually assisting one another to break through the Muck into Clarity. While we’re doing that, all we can see is the Muck, because that’s what we’re being Shoved Through. Once you get through (the Nessus Station was complete a half hour ago as I write this), grab the Imaginary Energy Hose that’s lying there, and hose yourself down with it.

Then Enjoy some Wild Dreams, or a Disorienting day. You’ve just been Reborn, so you’re seeing Everything through New Eyes. Confusion is the first stage of Growth – practice Celebrating Confusion. It’s a new Habit that will serve you well, as Confusion is a Guiderope on the path to 5D.

And just in time, as the Exaggeration (Station) of Neptune (Material Confusion but Spiritual Clarity) dominates the coming week (peaking 28 November at 4:30 pm PST).

Asteroid Atropos, which is in charge of Ending Timelines (whether Habits, Chunks of Karma, Lifetimes, Relationships, anything bounded by Time), is also Exaggerated this week (peaking 27 November at 1pm PST). Atropos-Eurydike-Varuna was a corner of the Transcendence (Bee-Zed) Grand Trine. Atropos Standing Still so close to Varuna (the Life Force), and beginning to back over it, will give us excellent Opportunities to Heal Physical ailments and the Earth, since Varuna animates Mother Nature.

Remember that Healing happens not when symptoms disappear, but when we stop Fearing Negative Future Outcomes, whether because we can See or Feel symptoms diminishing, because we accept the Limitations that our symptoms cause (which is often the moment when symptoms start to fade), or because we simply Surrender to Higher Powers and put our Attention elsewhere.

Orcus (Oath-Breaker) Initiates it’s new Cycle with Vesta (Unconscious Limitations) on 29 November, giving us greater Motivation and potentially greater Ease in Letting Go of Negative Unconscious Beliefs If you come upon Negative Limiting Beliefs this week, they could Feel very Oppressive. The more the better, because that Oppression is your Signal to Let Them Go.

You can Revert them, Tap Them Out, PIAVA them away, Theta otherwise, Poor-Sweetheart them, use a Fire Ceremony or a Water Rebirth, or any other Magic Ritual to Thank them for Serving you, wish them well in their new Life, and Let Them Go Once and For All. An Oath sworn in different circumstances and then Forgotten becomes a Karmic Curse in the Present, so if you can Revert and mean it, you’ll be Golden. If your Climate and Weather permit, you can Ask Mother Earth to use your Trauma as Compost, and sit for a while with your back against a Tree, or lie on the Earth. I once completely dispelled a nasty cold in a half hour by laying on my back on the Earth in a grove of small Trees.

Self-Love New Moon 2

November 14, 2020

In the 14 November 2020 New Moon chart, the planets in the “Basket of Grace” (blue upside-down Truss Bridge) under the red triangle are an interesting pair. They tell us How the Nasty Challenge (T-Square red triangle) will Self-Resolve. First there’s dwarf planet Eris, which is about Revelation of What’s Been Denied, and second there’s dwarf planet Asbolus, meaning Intuition, Merged With (Conjunct) the North Node, which indicates our Lifetime Mission.

Our Life Mission is way too multidimensional for the Dualistic Mind to be able to do more than get an occasional glimpse of it from one angle, so if our Life Mission were an Elephant, we’d be the seven Blind Men trying to figure out what it is. Our Intuition, though, is able to handle many more Dimensions, as long as we don’t constantly Diminish it by squeezing it into Words. So our Intuition has been giving us Videos of our Life Mission in the form of Skits from our Childhood and Past Lives (Eris).

Asbolus and the North Node are three and a half Degrees apart and separating, so the Connection is weakening, but both of them are well within three Degrees of the New Moon, so they’re Reconnected and Re-Energized by the New Moon. (Three Degrees is the Limit of Connection that we use in this blog; it and one Degree are the most common Limits of Connection that astrologers use. The less Difference between the Locations, the Stronger the Connection.) The Asbolus-North Node Connection was Exact at the end of August, within one Degree between mid-August and mid-September, and within three Degrees between late July and late September, so we’ve been Experiencing this Connection for a while.

Intuition can be illusive. My Intuition Teacher advised me to Ask myself “What If I Did Know?” and tentatively Believe the Answer I got. Translating an Intuition into Words is like pinning a Butterfly to a block of styrofoam – it might look good, but you’ve just Killed it. So Word Pictures of Intuitions are always tentatively or “…Or Something Like That,” as Eugene Gendlin liked to say. But the point is that the Information is Available. We can try retrieving it with a Theta such as “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Grok the Intuitions about my Life Mission that I Received over the Summer (North) or Winter (South) so they will Help Me Let Go of Karmic Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You God/Goddess. Show Me!

In case you haven’t read Heinlein, Grok means “to drink in all available aspects of reality or to become one with the observed,” the multidimensional equivalent of “Understanding,” which is what the Limited Dualistic Mind does. You may or may not Notice any lightbulbs over your head, but it may be better if you don’t, because then you’ll be less Tempted to Wordify it. Just Trust that you’ve Received and Grokked the Download, and that it has Changed you accordingly.

We need this because the next week plus will be Challenging. Our Ability to Trust, and to Grok what’s Trustable so we can Trust it, is Lit Up through 17 November, as asteroid Eurydike, which symbolizes Trust, is increasingly Exaggerated until 1am PST on 18 November. As usual with astrology, that’s for Good or Ill, as our Trust will be Challenged so we can Witness the places where we OverTrust and UnderTrust and Adjust accordingly.

In the New Moon chart asteroid Veritas, the Truth of the Mind, is Merged with Pluto, Compulsion. We may or may not Believe Facts, depending on whether or not they Align with our current Concept Set. For instance, many people Reject the Fact that the Earth is Flat (when seen from the center of a plain, for instance) because they’ve been Hypnotized by “Science” to Believe that it’s Round. It might Look Round from the Moon, but we don’t Live on the Moon. It might Look Curved from an airplane, but there are lots of Curves that aren’t Round. The Dualistic Mind will always Delude you unless you always specify the conditions under which each “Fact” is “True” – and what a Headache that would be.

It’s a lot Easier if we just recognize that like Loki or Coyote, the Mind is a Trickster, simply because it usually thinks in Either/Or, while the Universe is Both/And. “Figures don’t Lie, but Liars sure can Figure,” is a general rule that Statisticians use, if they know what they’re doing. The Truth of the Mind is always Relative to usually-unspecified and often-unknown Assumptions and Conditions, and it’s Dual, so it usually Flips rather than Adjusts. Goddess Knows we’re getting a graduate seminar in Exactly This in our Political Dramas these days. This is Grade-School Bullshit, and we need to see through it so we can instead Focus on The Most Important Thing – Climate Change, as the Dali Lama reminds us. If we don’t, Death by COVID might turn out to be the more Merciful Choice.

In the New Moon chart, Pluto-Veritas (Compulsive Belief in “Facts”) is Challenged (Squared) by Eris, or Revelation of What’s Been Denied. Compulsive Belief in “Facts” is also Contrasted (Opposed) to Respect for All Things (asteroid Hopi) – we will never see Peace and Collaboration and 5D and Sustainability as long as we invest our Trust in Either/Or. Reality is always Both/And.

Besides Compulsive Belief in “Facts” (Pluto-Veritas), Revelation of What’s Been Denied (Eris) and Respect for All Things (Hopi), the fourth corner of the big red square (a “Grand Cross” in astrologuese) in the New Moon chart is The Heart (Venus). It’s the Heart that Groks. The Truth of the Heart is symbolized by asteroid Aletheia. For any given Person, the Truth of the Heart is not Relative like “Facts” are, but Absolute. What we have to Remember about the Heart is that Everyone’s Truth of the Heart is Different. You can, if you’re clever, convince someone to Believe in the “Truth” of your “Facts.” Shame on you, but you can do it.

You’ll never convince anyone to Believe in the Truth of your Heart, if their Heart has a Different Truth. They might pretend to Believe to get you off their back, but our Heart-Truths are Permanent and Inviolable. We Recognize them Intuitively, not Intellectually. Heart-Truths are multidimensional, and suffer Wordification poorly. As long as Hupers fail to Recognize the Difference between Mind-“Facts” and Heart-Truths, and fail to Realize that Everyone’s Heart-Truths are Different, there will never be Peace on the Planet.

How does asteroid Aletheia relate to the New Moon chart? Like so…

That’s a “Grand Quintile,” Grand because it fills the whole chart, and Quintile because it features five planets more or less equally space around the Zodiac. Quintiles are about Teaching and Learning, and a Grand Quintile is about Multidimensional Teaching and Learning. There are twenty-six Relationships we’re being Taught to Grok

  • Truth of the Heart (Aletheia) to Self-Love (Sappho-New Moon)
  • Heart-Truth to Pattern-Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus)
  • Heart-Truth to Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos)
  • Heart-Truth to Freedom (Fixed Star Alpheratz)
  • Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking
  • Self-Love to Unlimited Potential
  • Self-Love to Freedom
  • Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential
  • Pattern-Breaking to Freedom
  • Unlimited Potential to Freedom

Then there are the sixteen Interaction terms…

  • Heart-Truth to Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking etc (10)
  • Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential to Freedom etc (5)
  • Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential to Freedom to Heart-Truth to Self-Love (1)

That’s a lot to Learn. It’s a good thing it’s Intuitive, as it’d boggle the Mind. These apply to the New Moon chart, ie, the next two weeks. Meanwhile we’re Dealing with Trust until 18 November, as Eurydike Stands Still. So we’ll be Learning how Trust Relates to each of those twenty-six Relationships. Busy Busy Busy.

Then the Real Teaching takes center stage, as Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet Gonggong) are Lit Up till 20 November and Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus) are Lit Up till 22 November. The Poster Child for Abuse and Privilege is the Antagonist of the Big Political Drama, and it’s our own Intrusive Memories of all of our own Karmic Abuse and Privilege Experiences and Patterns that will be Triggered. How many of us will be able to Differentiate the Present Moment from our Regressions?

And the Mind-Truths of Privilege for the White Supremacists? The Heart-Truths of Privilege for the Narcissists? I doubt that many of them will Know the Difference between Reality and their Projections, but we can always pray for Miracles. There are Intriguing Possibilities in the Angle between the New Moon and each of the three Stations – Eurydike, Gonggong, Nessus. We’ll talk about those in the next post.

Charts of the Portals III

September 12, 2020

Today, 12 September 2020, it’s all about Jupiter, which is Strong (Stationary) till at least 5:40 pm PDT…

Jupiter usually Feels pretty good, but with everything else going on, it’s just making me Scattered.  It took me an hour to get focused enough to get through a Tapping while imagining the Tapping Points – my mind would wander before I was halfway done.  Once I Tapped physically (on “Even though I’m sooo Scattered…”), it was much easier.

The Big Topics in the Jupiter Station are…

  1. Boundaries! (Jupiter Station Conjunct Pallas).
  2. Guilt! (Jupiter et al one foot of a T-Square to asteroid Nemesis).
  3. Codependence! (while the Hylonome [Self-Sovereignty] Station in the same chart doesn’t occur till 23 September, the Jupiter Station is very much Conjunct to the already-Stationary dwarf planet Hylonome).
  4. Trust!  Especially Trusting those whom you usually Judge (the Jupiter Station Opposes asteroids Eurydike [Trust] and Hopi [Respect for All Things]).  See also #6ff.
  5. Pride.  Don’t be Surprised if some Authority figure accuses you of being too Prideful today (a second T-Square to asteroid Hybris [Hubris] which Conjoins the Great Attractor [Source of Profound Gravity]).
  6. Confusion about Abuse, Privilege, and Pride (Neptune [Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity] loosely Conjoins dwarf planet Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] in one foot of the Hybris T-Square).
  7. However you Express the Opposite of Pride – Shame, Reticence, Shyness, Self-Judgment, or ?.  Astrology defines Dimension (Pride <==> Shame), not Direction (not Pride OR Shame – we’re much more likely Experience Both) It’s Ego that Defines Direction.  Note though that Ego is Neutral, it’s simply how we Relate to the World.  It’s usually used as an insult, but that sullies the word unnecessarily.  See #5-6.
  8. Resolution!

No matter how much you have Suffered Under or Surrendered To Abuse or Privilege or Pride or Shame in the Past, including Giving Away Your Power and Letting Others Define your Priorities, today is an Opportunity to Begin to Turn That Around (asteroid Klotho [Beginning New TimeLines] Conjunct Sun [Essence] and dwarf planet Orcus [Making and Breaking Patterns and Habits] in the other foot of the Hybris T-Square).  This is very subtle Work.

It’s Klotho that Initiates New Habits, like Self-Care for instance, or Letting Go of Judgment.  The number of people who Actually Take Conscious Responsibility for Initiating their Habits, excepting our famous chronic failures at New Years, is small.  We don’t think of it as “Eating Well” or “Acting in My Own Best Interests,” we think of it as “Dieting” or “Refusing to Give Away My Power Any More” – we Express our Resolve in the Negative, which Dooms it from the start.  We also Express it in the Absolute, which is Counter-Productive.

We Begin any New Habit with a Decision (Orcus).  But making an Absolute Decision Changes Nothing – it could Change us from a total Push-Over to a total Hard-Ass, and we want Neither.  We Want the Flexibility to be a Push-Over when it Serves us and to be a Hard-Ass when that Serves us, and to be a Pleasant Companion or Colleague when neither is necessary.  And especially we want to Learn the Skill of saying NO Politely but Definitely and Incontrovertibly when we Choose to do so.  We want to Have Our Cake, Eat It Too, and Keep Our Bridges Intact.

What we really Want To Do, is to Become More Conscious around whatever we’re Intending to Change.  We want to Notice whenever an old Self-Sabotaging Habit begins to Operate.  We want to Notice whenever someone makes a Request that would Violate our Intentions – including Requests from our Inner Selves who Gain from our Self-Sabotage.  For instance if we Eat more than is Best for us, we may well be doing it to make ourself Feel Better because we were starting to recall Abuse and we want to Stop those Feelings before they fully emerge and Hijack our Identity.

Give yourself a Thousand Points for Learning that Skill, because it’s Saved Your Life many times, before you Condemn it to the Habit Dustbin!  It’s a Skill you want to keep, you just want to Learn other Effective Skills that you can use more often in its place, so you can save that one for when you Absolutely Need It.  In fact, All of our Skills are Skills we want to keep, and use to an appropriate degree in situations where using them is Appropriate and Constructive and Self-Serving.

So the first Decision we want to make, is that We Notice when we’re at the top of any Slippery Slope.  The second Decision we want to make, is that We Have Ways to Rescue Ourself if we start to Slip.  We don’t need to worry about Mechanisms for Rescuing ourself yet, because we can Trust ourself to eventually develop as many of those as there are situations.  For Now (while Orcus [Decision-Making] and Klotho [New-Habit-Developing] are Dancing with our Sun [our Essence]) we’re just looking for a few Critical Decisions that will Change our Life.

Today I Decide to Be Conscious Enough to Notice When I’m in Danger of Slipping into Self-Sabotage. 

Today I Decide to be Resourceful Enough to Be Able to Pull Myself Back When I Make an Initial Mistake.

We can cast those into any form of PIAVA we like.  I’ve cast them as Intentions here, but they would be Powerful as Thetas.  You could even toggle between Thetas and Tappings to locate any Hesitations you have and Accommodate them in your Thetas.  These Decisions might be general enough to cover most situations – see if they Work for you.

We all have Wants that Appear to Conflict with one another, like the example of Eating Well and Modulating our Emotions when Necessary.  So which then is the Self-Sabotage, the Eating or the Modulating?  That’s why it’s so important to Avoid Analysis.  Which of our Conflicting Wants is Self-Sabotaging will depend on the Circumstances.  We want to Trust Ourself to know which is which in each Moment of each Circumstance.

We may even find ourself in a Situation where this one bite will be an Appropriate and Successful Modulation, while this next bite will be a Self-Sabotage.  Two minutes later we may be back to one more bite to Modulate.  But in the process we’re meeting both of our Wants, being more Conscious about both, and probably Sabotaging ourself less.  We may find ourself Eating to Modulate, but in the process Eating Well, eating Food that’s Constructive to our Mood and Constructive to our Body.  This is how Habits are Developed, one iteration at a time.

It’s not in the PIAVA acronym, but Expansion is actually a PIAVA (Magnetic Manifestation Technique) as well, so this would be an excellent time to use Expansion as the PIAVA Vehicle for our Decisions.  Just get Bigger.  Fill the room with your Consciousness.  Then fill the building.  Then fill your block, then your neighborhood, then your town, your county, your state or province or shire or borough – take it as far as you’re Comfortable.  Then, from that Expanded Space, Declare your Intention or Theta or whatever other form you want to use to give your Decisions maximum Pull in the Unconscious.