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March II – Neptune

February 28, 2017

At 7pm PST on 1 March Neptune Initiates the Sun – which as you may know is already in Pisces – in 12 Pisces, which Degree is about being “tested” as we enter a new phase of our Spiritual Evolution.  Marilyn Raffaele explains this in her Channeling of the Arcturians at http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html .  Since Marilyn’s “newest” will change after she enters a new post, we’ll send you to a copy that hopefully won’t change, at…

https://eraoflight.com/2017/02/28/arcturian-group-the-reclaiming-of-innate-power/

Marilyn or the Arcturians may actually do this on purpose, so you aren’t reading what’s no longer current and relevant.  We see our purpose here as Interpretation rather than Prediction, and a big part of Interpretation is Reinterpretation of our Life Events, so this website Intends to allow you to correlate your Journals and Memories with what was going on in the Sky at the time.  So, for what it’s worth, we prefer a link to a post that won’t Change as the Landscape Changes.

Marilyn’s Channeled picture of Doubt is different from the Expansiveness we suggested in the previous March I post, but equally probable, maybe more so for many people.  Astrology is after all Both/And when you take the Unconscious into account; it tells us Dimension (if we’re lucky enough to find a keyword that Communicates) but not Direction.  So yes, a Chaos Station can Feel incredibly Expanding or, if that’s too Scary and we shut down to Protect ourself, incredibly Contracting.

As for Neptune, the Strongest Lesson I’ve ever taken from it is that it Creates Confusion (aka Doubt) when we’re looking through Material Eyes, and Clarity (aka, at the moment, Expansiveness – not to disparage Contraction when it’s more appropriate) when we’re looking through Spiritual Eyes.

Remember that Confusion is “just” the first stage of Growth in Consciousness (aka Spiritual Evolution).  It means a glitch in our Set of Beliefs about how the World and our Lives are Limited – aka a tear the “Veil.”  So Confusion is always a sign of imminent Expansion, unless we Resist and try to ambush our Confusion with mindstuff.  

We’ll qualify the times when our Spiritual Expansion involves Learning about the places where we’ve been Programmed to Give our Power Away, because in those situations we Expand Spiritually by Contracting Politically – ie, Setting Better Boundaries.

Think of Confusion as a legitimate Emotion, and Accept it as is, without trying to change or “fix” it.  Like any Emotion, if you do that, it won’t last long.  Pretty soon you’ll be flooded with Insights, most of which probably won’t even seem Related to what your Confused about, and Excitement is likely to follow, especially if you’re Breathing.

 

Full Moon 29.11b

November 25, 2016

The New Moon itself will be a Big Challenge to the Ego and the status quo.  It occurs within a few arcminutes (ie, very little – one eighteen-hundredth of the Zodiac) from Juno, which symbolizes the Edges of Consciousness.  In other words, over the next three weeks we’re going to have to work like Hell to keep from Learning and Growing.  Don’t forget that this is in the context of the previous post.

In addition, it’s also Conjunct asteroid Nemesis.  The mythic Nemesis is about Punishment for Hubris.  If you’re Manifesting your True Self, and you’re not saddled with a Punishing God Image, you won’t demonstrate Hubris; you’ll be Enjoying Power-With “the Gods” rather than Power-Over.  So what then constitutes Hubris?  Trying to operate from the Ego rather than the True Self.  This is kind of like a “pop quiz” – we’ve been studying Mask Removal for almost five years now, and “Reality” is about to deliver to us homework on anything we’ve skimmed over.

If we ever wonder what we’re doing here and why, all we need to do is look at the Moon’s Nodes.  The South Node shows us the Emotions and Inertial Patterns that Limit us, and the North Node shows us what we need to do to Liberate our Self.  Hidden behind the Emotions and Inertial Patterns represented by the South Node are the Unclaimed Skills we need to achieve our Liberation.  We can’t do it without both.

Well, this New Moon also T-Squares – Mastery through Challenge – the Nodes.  So whatever Crisis the Ego undergoes will be an incredible Teaching about why we came here and what Unfinished Business we still have.  But a big sign on your bathroom Mirror –

??    VICTIM?    ??

 

 

and on your smartphone screen, and every time you see it,  check yourself.  Are you in any sense Feeling Victimized, by anything?  Is there anything in your Life that isn’t completely your own Choice?  This is what we’re working on for the rest of 2016.  If we do this homework, it doesn’t need to be difficult – other than the Ego Death, but we’re used to that, right?

“You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like a Victim around that, aren’t you.”

“Great Spirit, please help me to Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely Embrace all traces of Victimhood within my Energy Field, and Let It Go for good.  Thank you, Great Spirit!”

Look to see if there’s any Residual Emotion around it, and Tap it Out.  Go through the PIAVA list and pick out the one or two Choices that seem to fit best in the moment.

It’s not just the Nodes – Neptune is on the South Node, meaning that the Veil is very thin here.  This is good, because it gives us direct access to what would usually be hidden from us.  It may Feel horrible, but that’s just Ego Death, you’ve been through that so many times before, you’re no stranger to it.  Embrace it, look beyond it and Imagine how much better your Life will be without those Limitations.  Of course it’s Scary; keep Tapping on that till you’re shaking less and Feeling a little more in Control.  Then do your PIAVAs.

Ganeshi, please Remove All Obstacles to my Being Fully and Effortlessly Responsible to Everything in my Life that I have Chosen.  Thank you, Ganeshi!”

If you’re Responsible (able to Respond) to what you’ve Chosen, you won’t even have to think about it, you’ll just Act in your own Interests.  If your Choices aren’t the right ones, it should rapidly become obvious, and you can make different Choices.  If you’re being Responsible to things that you haven’t Chosen, that will fall away.  Don’t Hesitate to PIAVA these Changes if you Feel the Need.

And dwarf planet Orcus is on the North Node.  Orcus’s job is to Punish Oath-Breakers.  Nemesis’s big brother, the Bully.  You don’t need Oaths to Commit to your True Self.  Most Oaths are Self-Betrayals, and most of them have been outside of our Consciousness – till now.  At the Time, we needed them for our Safety, then we forgot we made them.  Now they’re just chains around our ankles and we can Let Them Go.  Orcus’s Punishment is Guilt, and you need to Stand Still for it.  Expect it, Locate it in your Body, be Loving with it there, “poor Sweetheart” it, PIAVA your Freedom.

So this is a Big Deal, kind of a Culmination of all the Work we’ve been doing all our Life.  Bigtime Learning Opportunity, Bigtime Mystery School, Bigtime Recovery of our Genius, Bigtime Karma-Buster, Bigtime Consciousness Goose, Bigtime Life Progress Review.  And that ain’t all.  The New Moon T-Squares the Nodes.  So what lies at the Vacancy Opposite to it, that would make it a more Balanced Grand Cross?  Vacancies represent what we need to provide, Consciously, to complete the circuit so the Energy can flow.

Aldebaran.  The Emperor of Stars, King of the Four Horsepeople of the Apocalypse.  Meaning Integrity.  From what I read about Aldebaran, they don’t mean Yangtegrity, they mean Yintegrity.  It’s not about keeping your Commitments to Other, it’s about Committing to the True Self.  Intense.  If you find yourself starting to Act to “Save Face,” stop yourself in mid-sentence and change course.

Above all, this is about Learning.  Look and Learn, Observe, eschew Judgment, eschew Conclusions.  Be Present and Loving with All of your Emotions, but don’t Identify with them.  Watch them, Embrace them, Feel them, don’t Be them.  Tap them Out if they’re Strong.  Be quick with your Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrades when you spot negative or compulsive thoughts.  

Sappho – Self-Love, recently Reborn, enters Scorpio on 27 November.  Scorpio is Relentless.  We’ll be extending Self-Love deeply into the Self, ferreting out any Obstacles to it, and taking no prisoners.  When you find an Obstacle to Self-Love, Avoid Judgment.  Self-Judgment is the antithesis of Self-Love.  Tender it a thousand Blessings, and Let It Go.  If you need to do that a hundred times before you’re able to Let Go of It, do it a hundred times.  Feel the Grief, the Regret, the Pain, but Let It Go.

Consequences of Another Intense Week

November 16, 2016

You can interpret a North Node Initiation two ways – on the one hand our Mission and Desires will Drive the way Orcus and Karma operate over the next half-Cycle.  On the other hand, the planets are now Descending, which is often seen as “negative” in the same way the Twelfth House or the Hanged Man are seen as negative.  In the sense that we’re likely to encounter Hassles that need to be Let Go of, it’s a Bummer.  

In the sense that we’re being given the Opportunity to Let Go and Move Beyond, it’s Liberating.  If we Choose Liberation.  The antidote to the “negative” elements of the Twelfth House (or for that matter Pisces) is Introversion and Meditation.  Similarly, in a half-Cycle Descending to the South Node, Letting Go of Goals and Expectations for success in our External Circumstances, and instead PIAVAing Survival and External Abundance, would behoove.  Substituting Goals and Expectations for success in our Internal Growth is likely to result in more satisfying outcomes.

In other words, we need to look at the Coin – Rudolph Steiner viewed Ascension and Descension as complementary and essentially equal parts of the interchange between Spirit and Matter.  It’s easy to view Spirit Descending into Matter as preferable to Spirit Ascending out of Matter – especially if we Fear “Death.”  The Coin is Movement, and since Energy without Movement is “just” Potential, we can see Movement itself as positive – as long as our Timing is right.  As Castaneda and the Seventh Harmonic advise, Potential can be used very Powerfully.

Let’s look at this “out loud,” and more explicitly…

  • Neptune represents our Relationship to anything larger than ourSelf – Culture, Goddessheart, etc 
  • Orcus is about Making Oaths, the resulting Limiting Beliefs, and Breaking them, enduring the resulting Guilt and Fear
  • The Moon’s North Node symbolizes our Mission in the Lifetime, and our Deepest Desires, which Drive us toward our Mission
  • The Moon’s South Node stands for our Held Emotions and Hidden Skills

Neptune will now be Ascending to the Moon’s North Node, while Orcus will be Descending toward the Moon’s South Node.

The Ascending phase is likely to favor success and prominence in the Outer World, while in the Descending phase we’re more likely to find satisfaction in the Inner World and Growth in Consciousness.  

So we can reasonably postulate that we’ve actually reached a Crisis Point in our Cultural and Religious (and Spiritual) Life (Neptune), and going forward these areas of our Life are likely to appear to improve.  I say appear not because it will be illusory per se, but because the improvement will reside in our Manifest Reality rather than in our Inner Truth.  The state of the World would certainly seem to reflect such a Healing Crisis.

Meanwhile, we’ve taken our Worldly fascination with Cults and Ideologies and Loyalties and all the other Either/Ors (Orcus) as far as it will go – as illustrated in the halls of would-be government as we speak, and it’s time to turn inward and Examine and Cull them.  In a Real Lifetime, as opposed to a Cartoon Lifetime, we Respond to each situation as appropriate in the Moment, not from some canned knee-jerk Archetype.

Wouldn’t it be great if this reading of the Stars had validity!  Of course we can all help to, as Captain Picard would say, Make It So.

Can we carry this a step further?  Last March, Chiron (Despair and Miracles) crossed the South Node and began Ascending relative to the Moon.  Can we say that last Spring we reached a Crisis Point in our tolerance for Despair, and going forward our willingness to risk abandoning the status quo and test new Perspectives have been characterizing Manifest Reality?  I believe that’s true; we could put both Bernie and The Donald in this folder, along with Brexit.

Let’s take it one step beyond.  Next Spring, the South Node will cross Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) and OR10 (Wailings from the Depths).  Will we have a Healing Crisis around Abuse and Privilege, accompanied by a sort of mass psychosis?  Considering how warped the status quo is, a mass psychosis from that Perspective might be very positive.  And a growing Transparency around Abuse and Privilege after that?  Sounds good to me.

A year or so later, the North Node will cross Varuna, and the Life Force will begin to Descend from our Sleeve to our Belly, as we move our Attention from exterior Ambitions to Inner Growth.  We could use that.

Nodal half-Cycles run about nine years long.  Can we see Neptune to have Descended and Orcus to have Ascended since 2007?  That’s when the collective “we” acquiesced to the Banksters’ version of “Reality,” that us deadbeats ripped them off and caused a “Housing Crisis.”  Have we been digesting our relationship to Culture since then while we saw our Either/Ors become more polarized?  Maybe so.

 

Another Intense Week

November 15, 2016

It may be hard to remember that the basic theme here is Rebirth of Self-Love, as Haumea Initiated Sappho on 11/11.  All of the flak and krap we’re Feeling is our Resistance to just that, Up in our face so we can, if we’re Willing and Able, Let It Go.  Karma does not grasp uswe grasp it.  We Unconsciously prefer the known Evil to the Unknown, even if the Unknown is full of Grace, simply because we’ve Learned that we can Trust our Resistance to preserve the status quo,  

Well, the status quo is no fun, so Let Go, K?  The Omens are good, just Heavy.  

This week’s Adventures…

17 November…

  • Neptune Initiates South Node, which Cycle is about Surrender into Pain (as in Held Emotions) and the resulting Growth from Acceptance and Letting Go.  At 10 Pisces, Flying Blind.  In other words, as Michael Roads advises, It Is As It Is.  As Astrobuss often advises, Confusion is Good.

19 November – Big Day…

  • Orcus Initiates asteroid Karma, PST 4am, which Cycle is about the Opportunity to Let Go of ancient obsolete Pledges we made to support our Repressors rather than our True Self.  Or Not.  Your Choice.  At 9 Virgo, which is about Creativity.
  • North Node Initiates asteroid Karma, PST 7am, which Cycle is precisely about this – the Dance between our Mission and our Habituation.  At 9 Virgo.
  • Orcus Initiates North Node, PST 9am, which Cycle is about Repudiating obsolete Oaths we’ve made that once Protected us but now Limit us, and probably – though we’d be better off without them because they’ll turn into Limits in turn – making new Oaths.  At 9 Virgo.
  • OR10 Stationary Direct, PST 5pm, which is about Memories, quite possibly krappy old musty Memories, worming their way out of the Dungeons of the Underwhere.  At 3 Pisces, Obsolescence.  
  • Neptune Stationary Direct, PST 8pm, which is about Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity.  The worst thing you can do today is try to squeeze anything into intellectual categories.  Celebrate Not Having to Understand.  Confusion is actually Fun, if you’re Safe – go out of your way to keep yourself Safe.  10 Pisces, Flying Blind.  Confusion is Good.

20 November…

  • Asteroid Karma Opposes Neptune, PST 6pm.  This is all one big complex, tightly intertwined event.

Remember that in very Important ways, these events represent a Climax, a Letting Go, so if we’re Willing to Brace ourself and as much as possible Surrender into what befalls us, we’re likely to Feel much Relief once were past the 20th.  The more we can manage to Let Go Of this week, the greater will be our sense of Liberation next week.

We aren’t quite done, because Orcus is still Stationary, turning Retrograde on 7 December, so we’re still working over our ancient and contemporary Oaths, to Choose those which Serve us and Reject those which don’t.  But without all of the this week’s high-pressure TraumaDrama, that should be quite a bit easier. 

These are the True Nodes; we usually use the Mean Node instead.  The True Node zigs and zags all over the place, while the Mean Node walks a straight (well, curved) Retrograde path.  I’m told they have different interpretations, but I haven’t studied them, since in my Experience the influence of the Mean Node has always been evident.  The difference is a matter of Timing, not substance.

The Karma-Orcus-Mean North Node events occurred 10 November at 9 Virgo, Creativity.  The Neptune-Mean South Node event occurred 3 November at 10 Pisces.

You can interpret a North Node Initiation two ways – on the one hand our Mission and Desires will Drive the way Orcus and Karma operate over the next half-Cycle.  On the other hand, the planets are now Descending, which is often seen as “negative” in the same way the Twelfth House or the Hanged Man are seen as negative.  In the sense that we’re likely to encounter Hassles that need to be Let Go of, it’s a Bummer.  

In the sense that we’re being given the Opportunity to Let Go and Move Beyond, it’s Liberating.  If we Choose Liberation.  The antidote to the “negative” elements of the Twelfth House (or for that matter Pisces) is Introversion and Meditation.  Similarly, in a half-Cycle Descending to the South Node, Letting Go of Goals and Expectations for success in our External Circumstances, and instead PIAVAing Survival and External Abundance, would behoove.  Substituting Goals and Expectations for success in our Internal Growth is likely to result in more satisfying outcomes.

In other words, we need to look at the Coin – Rudolph Steiner viewed Ascension and Descension as complementary and essentially equal parts of the interchange between Spirit and Matter.  It’s easy to view Spirit Descending into Matter as preferable to Spirit Ascending out of Matter – especially if we Fear “Death.”  The Coin is Movement, and since Energy without Movement is “just” Potential, we can see Movement itself as positive – as long as our Timing is right.  As Castaneda and the Seventh Harmonic advise, Potential can be used very Powerfully.

Through the Veil – Huge Reboot 8

September 16, 2016

Here’s a fascinating blog…

https://paulsylvia.wordpress.com/about/ 

that I came across because, as a result of SoulSpeak’s reblog (Grazi!), Paul and Sylvia quoted parts of Huge Reboot 7 (again, Grazi!) in it.

The Loss of the Veil was predicted by Neptune’s Initiation of the Moon’s South Node in the birth chart for the current Century.  The Moon’s South Node is the place where its orbit crosses below the plane of the Earth’s orbit around the Sun.  It’s not darker down there, but it’s closer to the Ancestors, and so provides a broader Perspective.  It’s sort of as if the Moon turns Retrograde when it crosses its South Node.

The common interpretation of the South Node is that it’s where our Karma resides.  We of course see Karma as our collection of Habit Patterns.  Habits are great – what a pickle we’d be in if we had to remember to Breathe every few seconds!  The downside of Habits is that they easily fade into the Unconscious (switch frequently from manual to automatic transmission to see what I mean), which is good because we don’t have to make every Decision, but can disrupt our Lives because we can be driving on autopilot and not see the oncoming.

And we can be sucked into what are called Archetypes – huge extra-Individual Energy Patterns that have a Life of their own can take over an Ego and cause it to Act Out the Purposes of the Archetypal “Entity” rather than the Purposes of the Individual.  Self-Sabotage results.  Nationalism and Racism are great examples, as is Pleasing.  Archetypes are often anchored by Regional Geology.  They aren’t Evil, but they can have untoward effects if not managed properly.  A particularly troublesome Archetype at the moment is Greed.

The South Node also harbors the Hidden Skills that we need in order to Achieve the Mission we have set for the Lifetime, which hides in the North Node.  Our Mission is hidden behind our Deepest Desire – hidden because we usually feel some sort of Guilt or Shame about our Deepest Desire.  Our Deepest Desire isn’t the same as our Mission – it’s a roadmap that will lead us to our Mission, if we trust it enough to follow it.

In the South Node, our Crucial Skills are hidden behind “Held Emotions” – Emotions that we don’t allow ourself to Feel without Guilt or Shame.  Held Emotions also block our Intuition because they cloud our view across the Veil.  

The example I often use is, suppose we have a “Past” Life as a Warrior.  Well, of course that Life is likely to end brutally, that’s what Warriors do.  So if we ended up renouncing our Warriorship in Pain, making a Vow to Fight No More Forever, then that Oath will become a Limiting Belief in Lifetimes that follow.

Your natal Orcus, and its Angular Relationship to your natal South Node, will provide information about the Limiting Beliefs that hold you back from your Mission.  The asteroid Vesta is also a symbol for our Unconscious Beliefs.

Neptune represents our Relationship with all realms larger than ourself, including our Cultures, our Godheads and Goddesshearts, even our Archetypes.  Neptune symbolizes Confusion on the Material level, because when it’s Lit Up our Neptunian Relationships Change, and if they’re Foundational to our Ego, we’re in trouble.  As we often say, Confusion is the first stage of Growth, if we can manage to avoid circumventing it with mental autoeroticism.  

Neptune also symbolizes Clarity on the Spiritual level, because the Spiritual level is all about our Relationship to realms larger than ourself.  Neptune becomes Clarity when we put our Ego in its proper place relative to its Betters.  It should be obvious that whatever is Unconscious – Archetypes, for instance – will interfere with that.  Which is precisely why Confusion is the first stage of Growth – the Edges of our Consciousness are Expanding.

We think of the asteroid Juno as symbolizing the Edges of our Consciousness, because Juno is all about Merging.  The asteroid Pallas is her complement, as Pallas is all about Boundaries.  The asteroid Ceres, symbolizing Sustainability, is the “Coin” that subsumes the two.

So when Neptune Initiates the South Node, an Ego that’s unwilling to Grow is in big trouble.  We’ve talked frequently about Ego Death, how to identify it and how to deal with it, so we won’t go into that here.  This month we’ll be more likely confronted by our Upper Limits (“This is not Credible because I was taught that if something sounds too good to be True, it probably is”).  On the other hand, and Ego that’s willing to look beyond its birdcage, will find Surprise and Delight in a Neptune-South Node Initiation,

The South Node-Neptune Cycle that began at the turn of the Century was Initiated at 4 Aquarius, “A Hindu Yogi demonstrates his healing powers: The disciplined use of spiritual energies in restoring the natural harmony disturbed by man’s inharmonic attempts to transcend Nature through mind.

We haven’t mentioned it because there was so much more going on at this “New Dawn” quasi-Eclipse, but in the Full Moon chart, Neptune is only a Degree and a half shy of Initiating the Moon’s South Node again, so Neptune and the South Node are in fact Conjunct, and anyone with two Degrees or more of Sensitivity to Neptune or the South Node, will be Feeling it already.  (With regard to Sensitivity, less is more – “two Degrees or more of Sensitivity” means “two Degrees or less of physical Separation.)

Our current Neptune-South Node Initiation, which will govern the next sixteen years, isn’t Exact until 3 November, at 10 Pisces – “An aviator pursues their journey, flying through ground-obscuring clouds: Hupersons’ ability to develop powers and skills which by transcending natural limitations allow them to operate in [non-physical] realms.”  Bodes well for Piercing the Veil.

Post-Modern Biology tells us that our Mitochondria, which have their own maternally given genes distinct from the paternal-maternal genes in our cell nuclei, have direct access to All of the Information in the Universe via their direct connection to the Zero Point Field.  There are two influences that can clog that direct connection and hence shut down our access to All of the Information in the Universe – heavy metals and Held Emotions.  In a word, The Veil.

We can’t in good conscience talk about South-Node Cycles without considering the other side of the Karmic Coin – North-Node Cycles.  While the Yogic Neptune-South Node Initiation of January 2000 would govern the following sixteen years, its effect would be Waning in the latter half of that period, while the North Node-Neptune Cycle Waned.  

The Neptune-North Node Initiation occurred in April 2008 at 25 Aquarius, “A butterfly with the right wing more perfectly formed: The capacity to develop the rational and fully conscious aspect of mind ahead of normal evolution.”  That Cycle will now begin to Wane.  2008, recall, was right in the middle of the Neptune-Chiron-Jupiter triple Initiation, our by-now well-known “Fresh Violets in an Ancient Pottery Bowl.”

Corresponding as it did with the Derivatives Meltdown engendered by the Greed Archetype, and based very clearly on previous Chiron-Neptune Cycles (which are about Despair and Miracles around the Relationship between the Individual and the Culture/Economy), we read the Fresh Violets as the roots of the underground Economy that has sprouted to replace the shift work that NAFTA and its cousins have assigned to the dustbin, and as the roots of the Victory Garden-equivalents that have sprouted to replace the denutritioned and poisoned faux Food sold by the Corporate Cartel.

We as Egos benefit from assigning Consciousness of some degree to supra-Personal Entities like the Archetypes.  It’s fairly obvious that the Greed Archetype is sowing the seeds of its own Fall from Grace, whether that’s the negative effect of becoming too Ambitious, or the positive effect of its natural striving for Balance.  We can see the Greater Good Archetype growing well since the 2008 peak of Greed – we have to consider them as one Coin, spinning slowly as it prepares to fall on one side or the other in alternate Universes.

So this New Dawn in inextricably bound to the new Neptune-South Node Initiation – Flying Blind, Trusting our Instincts.  Idealism, which will create a defined path from Present to Future, will be gradually replaced by our combined Instinctive Genii Surprising and Delighting us – once we Learn to Appreciate Confusion for it’s own sake.

Yintegrity Rising

June 23, 2016

A reader writes…

I don’t think they are happy with me.  I am not following their tradition and I’m not sure what the impact of that will be, but I don’t care!  I’m not doing what I should, I’m doing what I want.  And that is SO different for me.

“I’ve always been the analyze/plan/execute person.  I do my duty.  I fulfill my promises.  If I commit, I follow through.  Period.  No doubt.  No question.  I guess what you would call “Yangtegrity.”  And it has served me well.  Very well.  For my whole life.

“Over the past…18 months, two years, there’s been a growing resistance to all of it!  I don’t even want to show up half the time!  (I’ve always taught my kids-Showing up is 80% of success.)  My intellect is so confused, my ego is having panic attacks.  Is this moving into Yintegrity?  

“There’s a third part of me that is very calmly standing by, reassuring that we’ll work out a new way of functioning, everything will be fine, the earth will not stop spinning on its axis.  So is that the pressure and fear I’m feeling?  The shift into Yintegrity?”

You bet!!  

And like any Big Change, there’s a hollow space, a gap, where our Olde Ego is in Lackawanna (“I know I’m done for; why should I care?”), and our New Ego hasn’t got its training wheels on straight yet.  So we’re wobbly.  Confusion is good; it’s a reliable sign that we’re Growing.  Anxiety is common, as our Olde Patriarchy-Attuned Egos needed to know what was going on so they could figure out who to Please how, when.

Time for PIAVAs.  “Great Spirit, please help me Trust my True Future so I can Surrender my False Past more comfortably” or the like.  “I wonder where the Hell I’m going, anyway.”  With Saturn Waning Square to Neptune and moving into the Void Space between them, The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is Confusion (Neptune).  Neptune symbolizes Confusion when viewing the World through Material Eyes, and Clarity when we shift to Spiritual Eyes.  “Ganeshi, please Remove all Obstacles to Opening my Third Eye.”

 Another timely story…

https://alchemicalastrology.wordpress.com/2016/06/21/professionautism/

Love the title – ProfessionAutism.  I read it as Professionalism twice before I noticed the Aut.  In another post she says Pluto is on her Moon – I don’t know of any greater Emotional Challenge.  A perfect time to “hang loose,” but not even that is easy under Pluto-Moon.  “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that Ease and Grace fill my Life.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess. … Show me.”

That’s a simplified form of Theta Healing.  Once you say “Show me,” look to see whether your Vision or other Intuitive Sense shows you bathed in Ease and Grace.  If not, look to see what else you need to Command.  Maybe Trust, or Enough to Eat, or just Breathing.

When the World, or your Community, or just your Household or Camp, operates through Yintegrity, the whole World is different.  People do things when they want to, and when someone resents something not being done, it’s up to them to recognize that it’s their job to do.  Or their job to inspire (not require or bully) someone else to do it, maybe as a group project where participation is of course optional – you would join or not because, in the moment, it’s more fun than doing otherwise.  

The Most Important Thing gets done, even if it’s not what you thought was The Most Important Thing.  Between the Waning Saturn Square to Neptune and the next Initiation, Cultures break down.  The next Neptune-Saturn Initiation isn’t until 2026, six years into the Digital Age.  It’s at the Aries Point – Manifestation into (Feminine) Form.  Aries Creates by Instinct, not by having a picture beforehand of the “finished” product.  Creating and “finishing” are two different Universes, with only accidental intersections.

Here’s a picture of it anyway – it’s not a “finished” picture, but a picture of the Yintegrity process unfolding…

https://cristenrodgers.net/2016/06/23/speak-your-truth-not-your-mind/

I would suggest though, that “The ways in which Other Living Things can speak may also be almost infinite – the truth or a lie, clearly or in riddles, with language or with art.”  We maybe just haven’t heard them yet, till we get our Third Eye – or Ear – Open.  And that Everything is Living.

And, Saturn runs a Gauntlet of Initiations before it gets back to Neptune – Ixion, Pholus, Quaoar, the Galactic Center, Chariklo, Hylonome, Pluto. OR10, and Nessus!  Saturn will be a very different Animal by then, and we will be too.  Sounds like this Gauntlet would be worth a post of its own, eh?

And we didn’t even notice that Saturn was Initiated by the Great Attractor this last February, with an Exposition in May!  The Great Attractor is Headquarters to the Galactic Center – Cosmic HQ.  No wonder it’s been a heavy year so far, as if we haven’t had enough excuses!  We’re being asked to align ourselves with an Energy more Powerful than even Galactic Energy.

Uranus-Eris II+

June 10, 2016

As is often the case, our Chief Asteroid Officer noticed something I missed.  Our second layer of the Eris-Uranus Initiation horrorscope, the one where The Most Important Things are…

  • Embracing Confusion
  • Respect for All Things
  • Being Willing to Stretch
  • Staying Alert for Habits that no longer Serve

(see the previous post), and of course one that applies to the rest of the Century, stays lit up a bit longer.

To whit…

(1)  On 11 June we’re likely to be asked to Stretch a bit more.

(2)  Expect Confusion to remain Strong till 13 June – Embrace it, Wallow in it, don’t try to Change it.

I knocked over a full glass of Water today – twice.  Not wanting to think my Confusion was due to a TIA, I figured I must be Regressed to infancy, to a time before I knew that those wiggly things, on the end of that pink stick-like thing that keeps waving around randomly, were “my” fingers.

Once our CAO enlightened me, I knew instantly that it was a Poltergeist.  We create Poltergeists (seemingly independent actions by Material objects) by thoroughly Repressing an Emotion.  We do everything we can to Avoid some Emotions (like Confusion, often); bringing those into our Embrace will Expand our Emotional range and Open our Awareness to new Blessings.

But we don’t even know we’re Avoiding the Emotions that we’ve thoroughly Repressed.  Those are the Held Emotions that prevent our Awareness of the Lost Skills that are hiding behind our Karmic Limiting Beliefs – the ones that are Unconscious.  Recovering those is a Treasure bigger than Smaug’s, as we won’t achieve our Mission without them.

So be Mindful of anything unusual happening this weekend, especially if Water is involved.  What’s your immediate Reaction to it?  Mine was Irritation.    Call up that Feeling, then PIAVA “I Wonder what that was all about.”

(3)  Through 14 June, be prepared for major Breakthroughs in Innovation and Creativity.  If there’s a major project or hassle you’re working on… 

  • PIAVA a huge leap forward on 10 or 11 June (don’t be too specific, so you can be surprised),
  • Change the Subject on 12 and 13 June, then
  • Pay Attention on 14 June.

Good chance there’s a connection between (2) and (3) – and (1) as well.  In fact it would be surprising if there wasn’t.  What if I was able to Revert an Unconscious Limiting Belief that was installed before I was even Aware of my Physicality, let alone Verbal.  That would have a monumental impact on my Life.  It’s very difficult to approach preverbal Trauma for Healing, because the organization of our Worldview is so organized around our Languaging.

 

The Astrology

(1)  The Moon lights up Jupiter and the North Node for about eight hours starting around 8am PDT on 11 June.

(2)  Neptune (Material Confusion, Spiritual Clarity, and our Relationship to anything larger than ourself, Emotion, Water), which Squares Saturn and Vesta while Opposing Jupiter and hanging out near the South Node, is Stationary, turning Retrograde around 2pm PDT on 13 June.

(3)  The dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation) is Standing Still and Waxing Quintile to Saturn.  The Station occurs around 7am PDT 14 June.  The Insights will probably be most Fruitful between the Neptune and Makemake Stations, though the Moon crosses the Stationary Makemake at around 7pm PDT on 12 June.  The current Saturn-Makemake Cycle began in mid-September 2009 in 26 Virgo, a Degree devoted to Learning new, potentially Life-Changing Rituals.

It’s very significant when a Station makes few Angles with other planets.  Besides the Saturn Quintile, the only other close Angle that Makemake makes is a Waxing Unx (one Sign) by Lilith.  The Lilith-Makemake Cycle began at the end of last August, in the same 1 Libra as Makemake’s current Station – virtually the same arcminute!  The Moon crosses Lilith around noon PDT on 15 June.

Libra 1 is about how Observation Stops The Flow.  It’s an apparent fact of Quantum Physics – the Future (or even the Present) is indeterminate until it is Observed.  It’s interesting that 1 Aries, the beginning of the Personal half of the Zodiac, is about Discrete Form emerging from the Background Matrix (ie, Consciousness), while the beginning of the Relational half of the Zodiac is about The Flow, or The Zone, or Time.

Yindependence (Lilith) is of course about The Flow, about Staying in the Present Moment, Staying Present.  Being Here Now, as Ram Dass puts it.  And it’s appropriate that the Relational half of the Zodiac should begin with Yin and the Feminine.  Libra, like Aries, is a Dynamic or Masculine Sign, but it begins with the Yin.  And the Form that is Manifesting at 1 Aries is the Female form.  Like the Dao, or Taijitu, Duality Unfolding from Unity, or Duality Stopping The Flow.

The Unx Angle (one twelfth of the Zodiac) is about Changing Patterns.  Manifesting Yin by Changing Patterns to Cease Stopping the Flow.  This is getting Deep.  And of course, whatever minor or major Trauma befell me as a Newborn (which would be a Mirror for Past-Life Trauma), would have Created an Observer – Manifested Consciousness – and Stopped the Flow.  Changing Patterns – I think that’s a Stephen Stills song.  

“Stop, children, what’s that sound?
Everybody look what’s going down.”

Back to the Ouija Board ’60s!

I, Dentity

January 28, 2016

Another reader comment…

Forget Trance Formation…already too many zombies on this planet.  What we really want is tranceless humanity.  Ray Kurzweil wants to meet the Borg Collective and help them take over hupers!  Hard to believe I used to covet his synthesizers...”

I don’t want to be the one to Deny Unicorns…

https://sailingondreams.wordpress.com/2016/01/28/unicorns-arent-dead/

But assuming that what you mean by “tranceless humanity” is everyone Fully in the Present Moment (as I guess many of the Saints and Yogis are or have been reputed to be), tranceless humanity would require a very Big Download, which almost everyone would equate to Death, since the Confusion between Ego Death and Physical Transition out of a Lifetime is probably the Central Issue anyway.  It’s certainly Kurzweil’s Issue, and the Central Issue for all of the Once-Borns.  Stripped suddenly of all their Ego paraphernalia, everyone would be walking around like Zombies.

I think a more practical way of looking at it is that the Ego has to Expand gradually, enveloping and Letting Go of one Archetype at a time.  Here’s Robert Bosnak (Tracks in the Wilderness of Dreaming, p.31)…

“Identification [Trance, Archetype] is an involuntary, unconscious process and cannot be willed by the ego.  By force of will I can empathize with another, imagine what another is feeling, put myself in someone else’s shoes, but full identification cannot be brought about consciously.  Identification is something that happens to me.  Still, it is possible to create conditions under which identification is likely to occur.

“Identification can be brought about by careful observation, by empathy, and by feeling oneself into the bodily posture or motion of another, combined with an attitude of waiting, of not causing something to happen.  The process leading to identification with [a different Trance] is necessarily slow.  If we try to bring it about quickly, we usually end up with a projection upon the [other Trance].  Projection – the process of unconsciously seeing elements of self in another person, while being convinced that these elements truly belong to the other … holds up an invisible mirror to self and prevents us from truly experiencing the presence of other.”

Before criticizing another, it’s important to walk a mile in their shoes.  That way, when you criticize them, you’re a mile away and you have their shoes.

On a more serious note, we have four planets that are highly involved with Trance, Archetypes, Identity, Karma (which as Inertia is literally just a Trance), Identification, and, when the Mirror is invisible, Projection.  By “coincidence,” they all happen to be Lit Up just now…

  • Planet Neptune, symbolizing our Unconscious Cultural Programming, in the foot of the Mjolnir
  • Dwarf planet Pluto, the Zeitgeist, Master of Trance (Re)Formation, behind the recent Mercury Station
  • Centaur Hylonome, occupying with Venus and Centaur Chariklo one Ray of the Seven-Pointed Fairy Star
  • Asteroid Juno, which very recently Initiated Mars on another Ray of the Fairy Star

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And by the way, we still have six points of the Grand Septile or Fairy Star, making the Vacancy, where the seventh Ray would be, its strongest point.  The Vacancy is the Cusp of Leo.  If you have any natal planets in that vicinity, you’ll find yourself Identified with the Fairy Star; Allow the Miracles accordingly.  

If you look with your Other Vision you can still see the faint Glow in the Sky where the Full Moon was complete, at 4 of Leo, “A formally dressed elderly man stands near trophies he brought back from a hunting expedition.”  Rather than intellectualizing the Symbol, use Bosnak’s technique to Identify with this elderly gentleman:

“Identification can be brought about by careful observation, by empathy, and by feeling oneself into the bodily posture or motion of another, combined with an attitude of waiting, of not causing something to happen.”

Imagine yourself standing next to trophies you’re proud of, adjust your posture accordingly, and wait to see what in your inner milieu Changes.

You can try the same with any of the other Degrees near the Leo Cusp until you find one that triggers a “Can-Do” sense for you…

  • Cancer 30, “A Daughter of the American Revolution”
  • Leo 1, “Blood rushes to a man’s head as his vital energies are mobilized under the spur of ambition”
  • Leo 2, “An epidemic of mumps”
  • Leo 3, “A middle-aged woman, her long hair flowing over her shoulders, in a braless youthful garment”

Wear that Can-Do sense in your Body for the next several days.  It’ll be good practice for taking Archetypes on and off like youthful garments or formal dress – a movement toward the “tranceless.”

  μ    μ    μ    μ    μ    μ  

Juno was Zeus’s wife, with frequent cause for Jealousy of her many rivals, whom she liked to turn to Stone.  As the object of our Projection, Juno is a symbol for the Edges of our Consciousness, the places where we have the opportunity to Discern and Witness and Embrace the Archetypes we normally can’t Distinguish from our Self, stretching our Edges.

Mars on Juno is the Anger under our Jealousy.  Be assured that whatever you’re Jealous of, that’s actually Who You Really Are, but you don’t give yourself Permission to Act out that Persona.  We look to Orcus – what Oath prevents us from Being Who We Really Are?  Orcus Opposes Neptune, which forms one foot of our Rebirthing Haumea-Station Mjolnir or Epiphany.  

We’re starting to understand what’s being Revealed here – major segments of our Cultural Programming.  Have we noticed that yet?  How have we Responded?  Defensively?  Excitedly?  Resistance?  Embrace?  What do you Feel when you Identify into The Donald, purposely or otherwise?  With Bernie?  Ammon Bundy?  Megyn Kelley?  Who is in the news in your neighborhood?

The Centaur Hylonome took it a step further.  She killed herself with the same spear that killed her Lover – not just Unconscious Identification, but no Differentiation from Ego Death, and Confusion with Physical Transition.  Hylonome gives us not just the opportunity to step out of some very deep Karma, but the instruction to Grieve the Loss of our Old Ego.  

Venus and Chariklo join Hylonome in this Ray.  Venus our Values, and Chariklo Walking in Beauty.  Ah, those “Pet Peeves” that we use to Define ourself, laying them on the bar like three aces, to see who else is in our Ego-Tribe, and who would want to trump us.  Who is it that is thus Peeved?  If we can use Bosnak’s technique to Identify into them, maybe we can Ask how old they are, and what incident branded their Life with this Limitation.

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Notice we have four different Trance planets in four different realms –

  • Juno in the asteroid belt between Mars and Jupiter, where it negotiates between Who We Are and How We Relate to Others
  • Hylonome the Centaur, dancing between Uranus and Neptune, negotiating between our Soul Self and our Larger Self in our Soul Tribe
  • Neptune the planet, symbolizing the Ocean of Oneness, where Ego dissolves
  • Pluto the dwarf planet, mediator of Time, shifting our Trances to Create the Illusion of Linear Time

Tranceless humans on Earth then becomes a bit of an oxymoron; these Trances are the Matrix in which the Soul and Ego are embedded.  Like Einstein’s picture of Gravity, where each object with Mass sits in its own dent in the fabric of Space-Time.  Each Ego and Soul has its own dents in the fabric of Life on Earth.  The Trance of Ascension is no different.  Anyone who wants to leave this Matrix without experiencing Physical Transition has only to invite a Walk-In to replace them, lest they leave their Body unoccupied, a Zombie indeed.

Our picture of our Mission here is to Identify with Humanity, lose ourselves in It, and gradually Expand our Consciousness by Discerning, Witnessing, Embracing, and making each Trance and Archetype and Drama an option we can then Choose, so we’re Responding to every situation with the Patterns that most effectively and efficiently accomplish the Outcomes we Desire.  Those might be Abundance, Wealth, Grace, Ascending, Descending, Union, Separation, Compassion, Security, Confidence, Insecurity, Creativity, Community, or whatever we Value.  The more Trances and Archetypes we “Master” (Learn to Dis-identify with and Identify with on command), the more Power we have to bend our World in the directions that please us.  Happier Ever After.

Portal 25.1.16 Plus One

January 25, 2016

Great reader comments today…

Thanks for the heads up on what sounds like a fantastic opportunity.   I’m on board!   Got a comment about Rudhyar’s interpretation of An official embassy ball – ‘Group consciousness as it flows at the highest level in cultural exchanges between representatives of the elite of the ruling class.’   An embassy is a small piece of one culture embedded in another.   Intended to represent the highest and the best.  

So if we view ‘Group consciousness as it flows at the highest level in cultural exchanges between representatives of the elite of the ruling class,’ as the people on the planet using consciousness to change…don’t the numbers define them as elite?  And separate?  And if consciousness does determine reality then aren’t they in fact the ‘ruling class?’  It all fits perfectly through the looking glass….”

Brilliant!  Catching my own pessimism on Culture and Huperity!  Thank you!  I’ll have to Witness and Embrace that, and Wonder what my Life will be like when I’m not so cynical about the Future of Hupers, while I Change the Subject and Pay Attention!

Powerful post… I realize how I feel divided between doing my own art for the joy of it vs. wanting to make art that others will ‘respect’ and admire.  The desire to create to make meaningful connection with others is strong, but ultimately seems to be a false flag – it will happen organically if it’s meant to be.  The other is a remnant from childhood, maybe – using my gifts in the hopes of being truly seen and loved for that true being.  Subtle discernments are moving large underpinnings of beliefs...”

I know, the Conventional Wisdom is that we need to dive into all this Modern Marketing Hoopla of the personally-addressed sort that fills my inbox and I seldom read.  Some of the people who I used to respect for their apparent dedication to educating people and Changing the World are resorting to the “Are you sure you want to leave this page” BS that I read as “I don’t care about Changing the World as much as I care about getting your money” – my cynicism again!  They need the money to Change the World!  My main cash client almost didn’t get their contract renewed last month – and I would have been harassing you with some version of the Modern Marketing Hoopla too!  Look at the next comment…

There has been a feeling that today is a big day for putting a whole different side of my life into motion.  There has also been a feel that the entire ship of life is changing direction… And being a ship that was moving really fast, it’s taking a while for it to stop and turn, change direction.  But then all this is a feel, and I come back into my world and there seems no hope for anything shifting or changing..”

So this is what I tell people, and myself.  It (Recognition of our True Selves) “will happen organically if it’s meant to be” AND when we have Let Go of all of our Resistance to Allowing it to happen organically.  We could even say, Recognition of our True Selves will happen when we have Let Go of all of our Resistance to Allowing it to happen organically.

Chiron – which signifies our Ability to turn Despair into Miracles by Witnessing and Embracing our Emotions about Despair and the thoughts that drive them – is in Pisces.  Pisces is about Cleaning Up our Emotional Baggage so we can begin the next Cycle with as little encumbrance as possible.  So Chiron in Pisces – 2010 to 2019, is our opportunity to bring ourselves up out of Despair on a Global scale.  Remember that the worst kind of Despair is “Unconscious Despair,” where we don’t even believe something is Possible, so we don’t even consider the Potential for something to be different than it is.

After 2019 the Digital Age arrives in earnest, once two centuries of Air-Sign Saturn-Jupiter Initiations begin.  Jupiter-Saturn Cycles are the Expand-Focus pump that moves Society forward.  Not “forward” because it’s necessarily progress, “forward” because we’ve invented a one-directional clock.  If “the people on the planet using consciousness to change” indeed become the “ruling class,” then the Digital Age can see the reversal of the Wage Slavery of the Industrial Age, and a great boon can emerge for everyone.  But if the 1% are still the “ruling class” and own all of the machines, then the rest of us will be relegated to scavenging like Rey.  

The key is Discernment.  We need to PIAVA that we learn to Recognize our cynicism and our loss of Control and our loss of Hope quickly when it arises, Witness it, and Embrace ourselves.  “You poor Sweetheart, you really don’t have much faith in Hupers, do you.”  “You poor Sweetheart, you aren’t sure it’s possible to be Truly Seen and loved for that True Being, are you.”  “You poor Sweetheart, you get Discouraged about anything Shifting or Changing, don’t you.”

Saturn, which symbolizes our Focus, is in Sagittarius.  In Sagittarius, The Way Out Is to Let Go.  We did our Saturn-in-Scorpio trudge – 2012-2015, where The Way Out Was Through.  It will be far easier, with Saturn in Sagittarius – 2015-2017, to Discern the advent of Discouragement and step out of it.  Once we get to Saturn in Capricorn, 2017-2020, we’ll be Focused on Rebuilding.  Will be Rebuilding for the 1%, or for the 99%?

Neptune remains in Pisces till 2026.  Neptune can Lose itself in a Sea of Emotion, or soar in Bliss.  Pisces specializes in Emotion.  Soaring in Bliss will be short-lived as long as we haven’t Discerned, Witnessed, and Lovingly Embraced all of our Emotions.  The Buddhist saying is “Into the Water, out through Fire,” symbolizing the Ascent into Bliss as a result of the Descent into Emotion.  But it doesn’t work that way if we get stuck in the Emotion and can’t get out.  Ascension is a lot more likely if we first Learn to Discern and Witness, and then Descend into Emotion.

The Individual Soul is at its most Creative with Uranus in Aries, 2010-2019.  Once Uranus is in Taurus, we’ll be building what we’ve already conceived, and Change will be incremental improvements rather than leaps into the Unknown.  Pluto in Capricorn, 2008-2024, is about “Just Fix It!”  The Social Order will Change a lot when Pluto Transits Aquarius and Neptune moves through Aries, but on what foundation?  We’re really in the Manifestation Stage here for the next several years; our opportunity for Change may never be greater.

More Timely Wisdom

January 11, 2016

More timely wisdom from Elder Mountain…

https://eldermountain.wordpress.com/2016/01/11/chaos-magik/

As the Nodes (with Jupiter on the North Node) are backing into a Grand Cross with the dwarf planets Chaos and Ixion, and Neptune Opposes the dwarf planet Orcus, on 13 January, a few days hence.

A Grand Cross is formed when four planets are equally spaced around the Zodiac.  It’s like four T-Squares (Mastery through Challenge), except it’s Balanced, so it ends up being “just” Busy – lots of little Fires to put out, so we don’t have the luxury or the time to dwell on how imperfect it all Feels, like we do with a T-Square.  We’re so Busy multitasking that we get to Feel some degree of temporary Satisfaction from finding a series of adequate solutions that suffice for the short term.

The Nodes of course indicate what we’re doing here; the South Node where we came from, and the North Node where we’d like to go.  Of course All There Is Is Now, so the Nodes flip a lot…

Turns out we need to Let Go of the Held Emotions or Past-Life PTSD that our South Node represents, in order to Recover the Past Life Skills that are necessary to resolve the issues that stand between us and our destination, and realize our Mission for the Lifetime.

And as our CAO (Chief Asteroid Officer) points out, the asteroid Karma (the Inertia Created by Our Held Emotions) is approaching the dwarf planet Eris (Revelation of What’s Being Denied), crossing it on 18 January.  However, this is a Confidence-Builder crossing.  The Can-Opener occurred 8 October 2015, and the Exposition 30 December.

With Jupiter on the North Node, we’re hearing a Siren Song from our Mission…  

Our intuitive grasp of our “Real” Mission changes as we raise our Frequency to encompass more of the Universe.  Seeing as we do through a glass darkly, it really is a Siren Song that we’re hearing, tempting us to toss ourself into the morass of our Current Desires, rather than lose our current Ego in prayer that we may Embrace more of its True Meaning.

Which dilemma is also being lit up by an impending Initiation of Mars (Self-Assertion) by Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) that’s complete on 24 January.  

The dwarf planet Chaos represents Unlimited Potential – it’s the Zero Point Field or “Vacuum” that existed before Zeus and the Patriarchy “Created” “Order.”  In the Quantum World, “Reality” is indeterminate till it’s not.  (Or as they say, indeterminate till it’s Witnessed, but that’s incredibly anthropomorphic.)  Chaos is what you haven’t Manifested yet.

Ironically, the Greek version of Vesta was the Goddess of the Hearth, Hestia, and the ancient Greeks toasted Hestia before they toasted Zeus, and after they toasted Zeus.  They were smart enough to honor what really mattered while propping up the male Ego.  Vesta – Unconscious Belief – guards the Edges of Chaos, to keep too many Demons and Daemons and Diamonds from breaking through the Veil.  

This week’s Neptune-Orcas Opposition chart includes a Vesta Yod based on the Sextile between Mars-Juno and Orcas.

The dwarf planet Ixion represents our Pathological Genius.  Ixion was the male figure that ignored Zeus’s Rules of Order, and pursued his Desires without thought of Consequences.  Ixion is our feral unprogrammed Inner Child.  

Underneath our Programming we are all Mozarts and Einsteins and Jeannes d’Arc and Queen Victorias – we have an irrepressible Destiny that was not crushed by our Programming, only driven into the Unconscious.  Our Programming relegated our Genius to the realm of the Pathological – we were Punished and Shamed for it.  

No Blame here; this is how Consciousness grows.  As we Create Security we also Create boredom, so we seek the Light by venturing forth into the Wilderness.  Soon we’re Lost, and have to find our way back “Home.”  Then we rinse and repeat.  On the scale of a Lifetime, our Programmers are chosen to set up ways for us to get Lost that will cause us eventually to remember our Mission.  We are each puzzle pieces in a multibillion-piece puzzle, and like one of Gollum’s riddles, the puzzle will be “solved” when we all Embrace our Pathological Genii.

Putting all this together, we can expect that for most of January we’ll be rushing about putting out Karmic Fires.  If these take the form of rescuing anyone from their Pain, don’t waste the Mirror.  External hardcopy “Reality” is no different from our Dreams.  It all has something to do with what we’re bringing into Consciousness, though seldom in a straightforward manner.  

As I’ve done many times, I recommend Eugene Gendlin’s excellent book, Let Your Body Interpret Your Dreams.  It’s a collection of clever techniques for coaxing Meaning from your Dreams non-intellectually, and can very productively be used to coax Meaning from your daily adventures in the “Real” Hologram as well.  As an example, he recommends avoiding polarity flip-flops – when you Decide that a Change is necessary, don’t jump from Black to White; instead, shift to a 90%-saturated grey.  Our Symbols are road signs, not airports.

There are directions in our Life that have Unlimited Potential, and Embracing – Witnessing – our Shame and Fear of Punishment, can Create major leaps in that direction.  “You poor Sweetheart, they really Shamed you for that, didn’t they.”  By noticing that we’re in Shame or Fear and Lovingly Witnessing it, we stop being Shame or Fear, and instead become Compassion.

So our January will include glimpses of the Unlimited – like a billion-dollar lottery.  Then we’ll recall our humdrum daily life and how seldom we’ve Created real Miracles, dismiss the Dream, and fade back into worrying about the mortgage.  Then our Desires will rise up, and we’ll Fantasize doing what will Really make us come Alive, till our Held Emotions make us realize how incredibly uncomfortable we’d be if we actually came close to indulging that Fantasy.  

This is January’s Grand Cross.  We’re there already, aren’t we.  Celebrate it!  Embrace each glimpse of the Unlimited.  PIAVA it!  Make it BIG.  If we all had to split that lottery, we’d still have more money than we’ve ever dreamed of having.  We could all win!  

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.  We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?  Actually, who are you not to be?  You are a child of God.  Your playing small does not serve the world.

“There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.  We are all meant to shine, as children do.  We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.  It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.  And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.  As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”  (Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love, pp.190-191)

Notice when you return to worrying about the mortgage, or cancer, or whether Aunt Charlene was insulted, or anything else, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade, and Tap it out.  Tap on it till you’re Neutral about it.  

When your Forbidden Desire wells up, Celebrate the Excitement trapped in it.  A secret to Manifesting anything is to practice having the Feeling in your Body, that you’ll have when you Manifest it.  That’s what you really want!  You’ll get bored with a red Lamborghini, or scared by a trip around the World; you’ll never be bored or scared by Excitement.  Get Conscious of the Discomfort you’d feel if your Fantasy Materialized.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’d really Feel uncomfortable, wouldn’t you.  Do you want to talk about it?”  Ask yourself how old you are.

Neptune represents everything bigger than our Individual Soul – the Collective Culture, and its many Shadows.  When we try to look at Neptune through Material eyes, the result is Confusion – which of course is the first stage of Growth in Consciousness.  Shifting to Spiritual eyes, we find Clarity.  Unfinished Business, and all of our Emotional Baggage around it.

Orcus is the Punisher of Broken Oaths.  

Your Held Emotions are Held by vows never to put yourself into that position again.  As with Ixion, where you may have Amends to make over Unintended Consequences of Impulsive Actions, with Orcus you may have Yangtegrity Contracts that need to be Renegotiated.  If your counterparties are long since dead or otherwise gone from your Life, no worries.  If you can feel the Weight of the Contract, you can feel the counterparty, and you can Renegotiate with them exactly where they are in your “mind’s eye” or your bellyvision.

This Renegotiation might take the form of noticing the cable or garden hose that connects you with them in the Energy Realm.  It’s connected to your belly by a fishhook.  Gently twist it out with one hand, then use your other hand to seal the wound with Golden Light.  With grace, hand the hook and the cable back to your counterparty.  If they accept it with equal Grace, you’re Golden, though you don’t want to turn your back until they withdraw.  Make a note to scan your Body in a few days to make sure the cable hasn’t been replaced while you weren’t looking.  If so, rinse and repeat.

If they don’t accept it Gracefully, you may need to take more decisive Action.  Enlist the aid of a Carnivore, then reach out with your imaginary Bowie Knife, slice their end of the cable, and feed the cable to your helper.  An Alligator works great for this purpose.  Give your new friend the assignment to stand guard here, and eat any new attempts to re-cable you.  They may also plead for Mercy; don’t buy it, it’s a ploy.  You want your Energetic Contracts to be Equal-to-Equal.  In these realms, keep your spine straight and your shoulders lifted.  There can be no hindrance to your Energetic Self-Sovereignty.

If your counterparties are still Alive, use your wardrobe Mirrors – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/10/21/boundaries-forgiveness-mirrors/.  And remember to persevere.

So a Challenging Neptune-Orcus Angle would be about renegotiating our Social Contracts.

Our Social Contracts stretch a lot farther than we usually imagine.  For instance, if we’re chronically underfunded, we have a Social Contract to Give Away too much of what we need to Survive.  If our Relationships don’t Delight us, then we have a Social Contract of Mistrust or Unworthiness.  When we Renegotiate our Contracts, our counterparties may not be individuals, but Archetypes.  You may need to Renegotiate with Slavery, or Gender Inequality.

There’s an excellent reason why Primary Cultures personified their “Gods.”  If you personify an Archetype, you can Negotiate with it one-on-one.  You can shrink it from a Global Monolith to a Cocker Spaniel.  What if Gender Inequality was a Hamster, and Slavery was a Squirrel; you can personify them however you like, as long as your Vigilance prevents them from nesting in your petticoats.  Use your Mirror and Cable techniques till you stand Tall and Clear and Powerful Beyond Measure, and we can Enjoy the billion-dollar lottery payout together.