Changes III

I agree, it’s a very Confusing time.  I can tell by the number of folks calling up this blog but not entering through a specific post.  How are we supposed to Interpret these unusual events?

For instance, two probably-independent sources have recently advised me not to sleep over underground or moving Water, predicting dire consequences.  Well, there’s an apparent Spring, and a sump pump, in the crawl space under my bedroom.  While researching this, my stove started doing weird, “irrational” things.  WTF?  A stove?  I started Meditating with the Spring, floating in it, Embracing it, inviting Communication.  The next time I was in the kitchen, the stove had resumed normal “Inanimate-Object” behaviors.

Who was it that demonstrated that Poltergeists are produced by Unconscious Contents that are Desperate for Revelation?  Recall that the symbol for Revelation of What’s Been Denied (dwarf planet Eris) was, with Uranus/Soul, one of two planets that was very Strong (Stationary) at the 10-12 January 2020 Change of Zeitgeist (Pluto-Saturn Initiation).  Also recall that Denial is a Healthy process, one which we use to file away, for future unwrapping, material we aren’t ready to deal with yet.  It’s a time capsule we leave for ourself.

My usual income Stream is again being delayed without explanation.  Plus, I’ve been without an Internet connection for most of the last two days.  Three of my four income sources depend on the Internet.  Is the Universe suggesting that I should be Changing professions again?  Advising that our Future could be Internet-less, for any number of easily imaginable reasons, from hacking to cyberwar to censorship to economic collapse to technological failure?  As I was heading in to do a Joe Dispenza Meditation on the tatters of my Identity without the Internet, I decided to make one last reboot, and lo, my connection was back.

Deprived of the Internet yesterday, we watched a DVD of Part 2 of the sixteen-year-old video of Concert for George.  The video included Monty Python performing “I’m a Lumberjack.”

Not being that familiar with Monty Python, we aren’t sure who sang the Lumberjack lead, but Terry Jones is listed as the first songwriter.  Terry Jones died yesterday, rest his Soul.  There’s an asteroid for that, and the asteroid Terryjones Conjoins the standout planet in Friday’s 24 January (1:45 pm PST) New Moon.

In the song, Tom Hanks played one of the Royal Canadian Mounties in the chorus (first row, right side).  At Friday’s New Moon the asteroid Tomhanks occupies the same position as the 10 January Eclipse that also heralded the Change of Zeitgeist.  Oh, and did I mention that the asteroid Harrison, named after George, is in the same place?  Busy, busy, busy.  Methinks we’re going to need a Sense of Humor during this Zeitgeist.

So we better look at this 24 January New Moon chart…

The Standout Planet (Alone in half of the Zodiac) that Dominates the chart is the symbol for Manifestation (dwarf planet Makemake).  We’ve Changed the Water (the 10-12 January Change of Zeitgeist), we’ve jettisoned some of our Old Identities that won’t float (the 17 January Nemesis Station), and now we’re going to be Learning What Works to Create in this New Time Province.

I’m sure I’ve mentioned my experience with the film The Corporation…

After watching it, I left thinking, despondently, “Shit, I guess I’m going to have to go back to the barricades,” remembering the Vietnam War protests.  As I walked, a Green Dude, about 7 feet tall, half Muppet Lizard and half Praying Mantis, appeared in a sewer grate, telepathing to me, “No, that time is over; now it’s about Meditating on What You Want.”  Afterwards I could Feel the Earth Breathing, as the sidewalk rose and fell slightly with each step.

Shortly thereafter, when I relayed this Experience to RJ Stewart in a workshop, he told a story about the women who had protested the first British Nucular power plant.  They were unsuccessful, hounded out of England, and subsequently moved to California, starting a Meditation Group that Energetically evolved into the current US Environmental Movement.

So that’s the clear message to me –

Meditate on What We Want,
Let Go of What Anyone Else Is Doing to the Contrary,
spend as much time as we can
Feeling How We’ll Feel When We Have What We Want,
Let Go of any Attachments to What That Will Look Like, and especially to
Let Go of Any Pictures We Have or Don’t Have about the Mechanisms that It’ll Take to Get Us There because
The Mechanisms aren’t in 3D Reality.  They’re in 5D.

In the New Moon chart, the first thing to notice, after the Standout Planet, is the remarkable Perfect Symmetry.  Perfect Symmetry means everything fits together like Clockwork.  So yes, all this Serendipity around Meditation is right on.

Manifestation here is an Enhanced Self-Resolving Challenge (a Diamond Star or T-Square and Finger of God pointing to the same planet, that’s Enhanced by also being a corner of a Grand Trine/Dumb-Luck Grace), implying that Grace is likely to Flow Easily.  When it doesn’t, we need to Trust that Something Better is hatching behind the door.

The Manifestation planet forms a Contrast to (Opposes) the symbol for Despair and Miracles (Chiron).  That tells us that our Stops, our Blocks to Abundance (our Discouragement and Doubt), will be strongly Lit Up, so we can bring them into Consciousness and Let Them Go.  What is Unconscious Rules our Lives without our Knowing Why.  It can be very difficult to tease out the Why, and this planet (Chiron) is our roadmap, because it leads us directly there – but not Analytically.  Rather as a Contrast.  The Block is what Discourages us.

The glyph for Chiron is a Key, and the Key lies in Poor-Sweethearting ourself – “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Discouraged, don’t you.”  Then we have to Change the Subject, because if we don’t, we’ll just recycle our Despair.  If necessary, we may have to say to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re having Difficulty Changing the Subject, aren’t you.”  Chiron is non-Linear and non-Analytical.

When we Change the Subject, we Step Out of Discouragement, because when we say to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart,” we leave Despair and enter Compassion, Self-Compassion.  We move from Fear to Love, from Storm to Sunlight, Night to Day.  When we Change the Subject and cut the tape, canceling the replay, we are Free to Manifest What We Want instead of those old Karmic tapes of What We Don’t Want.

Manifestation here also “Squares the Nodes.”  The Nodes are on Opposite sides of the Zodiac, with our Karma on one side (the South Node, or stethoscope) and our Mission (the North Node or headphones) on the other.  A planet that “Squares” them, as Manifestation (Makemake) does here in this New Moon, sits exactly halfway between them (making a 90° angle or “Square” to each).  It means that the planet between the Nodes is the Fulcrum that we can use to Lever ourself out of Karma and into Liberation.

So it is Reframing our Discouragement (Chiron) about What We’re (Not) Manifesting (Makemake), into Gratitude for Being Shown the Key – what Discourages us – that Unlocks the Karmic Doorway from Fate to Choice.  But it’s non-Linear and non-Analytical.  So we don’t Analyze our Discouragement, we Poor-Sweetheart it.  Most of the time, we get Discouraged about the last 10% or 2% of What We Want – we’ve already Created the other 90-98%, but we’re Focused on the last few percent, because that’s what Separates us from the Bliss we seek – or so we Believe.

We aren’t actually Consumers, we’re Creators.  So there will always be another 10% or 2% more that we Want.  Which is fabulous, because Life would be Empty without ever-evolving Motivation.  Reminding ourself that we’ve already Created 90-98% of our Goal is a great Step toward turning Despair into Miracles.  So is Recognizing that 100% is only the Next Step, not the Perfect Endall.  It’s just a Goal, not an Epitaph.  Those tricks are helpful, but your real Leverage lies in Poor-Sweethearting yourself.

As we approach 26 January, the symbol for Rebirth (dwarf planet Haumea) is very Strong (Stationary).  The theme (Sabian Symbol) for this astroevent, and for the Natality (Birth) that follows it, is “Becoming Aware of Spiritual Forces Surrounding and Assisting us” (28 Libra), the same anthem as the 35-year Zeitgeist we’re leaving.  So the Bravery that kernelizes the New Zeitgeist is about Being Brave enough to set our Ego aside and Receive Assistance from our Invisible Friends.

Survival or Bust IX Lightening Karma

Here’s a shot of our 25 December 2019 Annular Solar Eclipse, captured in the Wild by Shahrin Ahmad, from Oman…

https://spaceweather.com/archive.php?view=1&day=28&month=12&year=2019

Yes, good question; is our Karma Getting Lighter, or is it Striking us like a Bolt from the Sky?  Technically, the “e” should clarify that, but as asteroid Karma crosses Chiron, it could be either.  With Chiron though, symbolizing as it does both Despair and Miracle, we have our Trusty Swiss Army Incantation for Bummers.  Say it aloud or silently, but speaking to yourself…

“You Poor Sweetheart, you feel like you’ve been
Struck by Lightning, don’t you.”
or
“You Poor Sweetheart, you feel [whatever doesn’t
Delight you], don’t you.“

Two caveats.  First, this isn’t an Exclamation, it’s just a Neutral statement of fact.  And second, do be Mindful to Change the Subject after you say it.  If you keep thinking about the Bummer, you dump yourself right back into the Muck.  You may even need to say, “You Poor Sweetheart, you can’t Change the Subject, can you.” or Tap (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) on “Even though I can’t seem to Change the Subject, I deeply Love and Accept myself.”

The purpose of Tapping is to Align your Thoughts and Feelings with your Energy System, as you Tap on the ends of each Meridian.  Since Bummers are usually Imbalances, fixing your Alignment often mitigates your Discontent.  So Tapping involves “I” statements, and the general “rule” about avoiding Negativity does not apply.  You Recognize the Negativity that you’re already Embracing.

The purpose of Poor-Sweethearting on the other hand, is to Step Out of your Bummer, so you Salute yourself, kindly and gently and without Judgment, from the other side of the Mirror.  It sounds like a grammatical trick, but it’s much more than that.  It actually changes your Perspective, which is necessary because “you can’t solve a Problem using the same thinking that postulated it.”

Poor-Sweethearting is also very different from Denial, because you’re Empathizing with yourself wearing the Bummer.  Before Poor-Sweethearting you were Identified with Bummer, now you’re Identified with Compassion for yourself.  Even if you don’t succeed at Changing the Subject, you’ve Experienced at least a moment of Unconditional Self-Love.

Chironean Miracles are subtle.  When you do succeed at Changing the Subject, you simply aren’t the same “You” that you were when you were wearing the Bummer.  Our Beliefs-of-the-Moment determine how we Interpret the World outside ourself, and in turn whether we Perceive someone to be Smirking about us or Smiling at us.  The World surrounding Compassionate-You contains events and things and Feelings that simply weren’t Possible in the World surrounding Bummer-You.  Those are the Miracles.

You may be too young to remember that old Xerox commercial…

And speaking of Beliefs-of-the-Moment, as we speak asteroid Vesta is very Strong (Stationary), peaking 29 December (2:30 pm PST).  Vesta symbolizes exactly that, our Beliefs-of-the-Moment.  While Multiple Personality Disorder, if they still call it that, is more extreme than most of us Experience, we all have many different Personalities or “Sub-Personalities,” and it’s our Beliefs-of-the-then-Moment that differentiate them.  Many of our Sub-Personalities have never met one another, because they take turns.

But we’re getting ahead of ourself, as we were supposed to be filling out our Interpretation of the Chiron-Karma Initiation chart (the second chart in the previous post) that’s Exact on 1 January 2020 (1pm PST).  The primary difference between Karma’s Aries-Ingress chart (the first chart in the previous post) and Karma’s Initiation-by-Chiron chart, is the addition of a major Challenge (T-Square) to our Vitality (dwarf planet Varuna) that’s about the relationship between our Fate (asteroid Moira) and our Soul (Uranus).

Remember that with Uranus now in Taurus, Soul is Descending into Flesh, and we will be Experiencing Physical Discombobulations while Flesh remodels for its new Tenant.  Soul will be taking the room where Ego used to Sleep.  Ego may throw a hissy-fit, but both Soul and Taurus are pretty Stubborn, so on some level, Ego will have to Compromise.  The close Involvement of Fate (Moira) suggests that Ego may have to Let Go of enough Karma to ease its Resistance.  The symbol for Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis) isn’t directly Involved, so Ego’s usual Resistance may be reduced.

If we look closely though, we see that this Challenge is Self-Resolving (the T-Square forms a Diamond Star with dwarf planets OR10 and Quaoar-Pholus).  So the Body will be getting its own Instructions from its Survival Instincts (Quaoar-Pholus) and its own Memories (OR10), and it will Behoove us to Accept its Ancient Wisdom.  As an alternative to Experiencing Pain and Discomfort as Dis-Ease and “Something’s Wrong,” we might try Reframing it to be a Map of Imbalance that can use our Active, Loving Involvement in Rebalancing.  Tapping can be very useful for that, if you don’t have an Acupuncturist handy.

 

Fate/Choice/Action New Moon

The 30 August 2019 (3:30 am PDT) 7 Virgo New Moon holds Suzerainty over the first two weeks of September.  It’s Merged with (Conjoins) the planet symbolizing Action (Mars) and the asteroid symbolizing Fate and Choice (Moira).  If you still Believe that Fate and Free Will are a matter of Debate, think again.  Like every other Either/Or, we know that this resides only in the mind, not in External Reality, because only the mind is Dualistic.

Being Unitary and Multifarious, External Reality is replete with Paradox.   And the Paradox isn’t even a property of Reality, it’s just a word meaning that mind isn’t capable of getting beyond Duality.  No Blame there, the mind is very good at what it does well – Process Dualities.  Western Culture is just woefully overdue at realizing that the mind only works on B&W snapshots, not even B&W videos, let alone 3D Reality in all its Throbbing, Flittering Technicolor Complexity.  The mind has yet to Realize that by Projecting Duality onto Reality, Huperity is irreparably fouling its own Nest.

The Earth will Survive and do just fine.  If She can toss off an Ice Age with the (time-adjusted) Ease that you take off your jacket, and roast the Dinosaurs by calling in a passing friendly asteroid to Embrace (That was some Barbecue!), She won’t hesitate a bit to flick off an infestation of Huper-Fleas.  Which is excellent support for the jump to 5D.  First though we need to Recognize that Ego-Identifying with mind keeps us in 2D!

The Difference between Fate and Free Will is a Choice.  Belief in Fate is the equivalent of Acceptance that your Karma is unavoidable.  Don’t Blame yourself for that Limitation; it’s been Preached by Powermongers and Greedheads ever since at least the Greeks, in the all-too-often successful effort to encourage us to Give Away Our Power.  Instead of Blame, try saying to yourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you Believe in Fate, don’t you.”  Since we all have Unconscious Limitations, it wouldn’t hurt any of us to say that to ourself.

Then, of course, Change the Subject, and if you want, PIAVA to Lovingly and Gently but Rapidly and Completely, Reduce your Limitations.

If you run across any term here that you don’t understand, like PIAVA, look it up under the “Categories” in the right-hand column.  If you don’t have a right-hand column on your screen, open https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/.

Changing the Subject after any Invocation of our Feminine Power (such as PIAVA, Poor-Sweetheart, etc.) is necessary because if we continue to think about what we’re PIAVAing or Poor-Sweethearting, we’ll trap ourself in our Old 2D Paradigm, because the mind is incapable of reaching beyond its current Limitations.  We have to Solicit our Intuition to stretch beyond our current Limitations.

I’m sure you’ve Noticed that our Evolution has sped up markedly, and the Changes have deepened.  Ego Death has become a daily Adventure that we can barely keep up with.  The next one hits us while we’re still in Infancy from the last one, sending us Reeling.  The Sign Virgo is the Bridge from Leo the Pinnacle of Individuality (for better or worse) and Libra the Introduction to Other.  This New Moon is in the Virgo third (Decanate) of the Virgo Sign!  Ego Death galore!

The New Moon chart is pretty easy to interpret…

That blue box with the red asterisk and the green dos equis inside is a Configuration (Yin Gate) that means we’re in a Mystery School.  A Mystery School means that we’re being taken beyond 2D.  The mind is very persistent; it will Resist mightily if we let it.  The red line in the middle of the blue box is the place where 2D breaks, the place where we need to replace Understanding with Wonder and (Permanent) Curiosity.  It appears to be a Contradistinction (Opposition), but we know Contradistinctions and Contradictions exist only in the Dualistic mind.  So we have to PIAVA to Grok the Mystery embedded in it.

This red line connects the astrological symbol for Despair and Miracles (Chiron) to the symbol for Creative Manifestation (dwarf planet Makemake).  That’s pretty straightforward – to maximize our Creative Manifestation we need only Replace our Despair with Miracles.  We can do that easily enough with “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair, aren’t you.” and then Changing the Subject.  Difficulty arises because we’ve Felt our Despair – our Unconscious Limitations – so long that we just think of it as The Way It Is.  So we may not even know we’re in Despair, Despair being any Belief that something is not Possible.

We might be better off with the likes of “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Limited, aren’t you.”  I mean, who among us doesn’t Feel Limited about something, most of the time.  If you believe those Limitations reside outside yourself, you haven’t read enough “Science Fiction”…

You can even say to yourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Limited about …, aren’t you.”

There’s one addendum to the Yin Gate; notice how the lighter lines connect the question mark or inverted cuphook at the bottom of the chart (dwarf planet Ceres) to the planets in the blue box.  The question mark signifies Sustainability and it’s inverse, Sustenance.  This addendum means that it’s not enough to just Grok the Mystery of Creative Manifestation of Miracles here; we need to Adopt it so we can put it in our Toolkit for daily use.

The question mark symbolizes a Challenge (focus of a  T-Square) to the apparent Contradistinction (Opposition) between our Grasp of Active Choice as the preferred alternative to Fate and Karma (Mars-Moira New Moon) on the one hand, and Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet OR10) on the other.  Some of our Intrusive Memories are Intuitions.  Some of them are Guidance from the Other Side.  Most of the rest are Karmic krap.  The Challenge is Sorting Out which is which, Trusting the Intuitions, Evaluating the Guidance, and rejecting the Karma. 

We get our first big Test between now and 3 September, when the whole issue of Trust is Lit Up Bigtime (asteroid Eurydike Stationary), culminating at 3:30 pm PDT 3 September).  It’s a very complex-looking chart, which we’ll try to sort out in our next post.

Busy August V

“Just when we begin to feel expert and comfortable, that is exactly when the nature of life’s restless heart forces us to move completely out of that previously comfortable era into one in which we are hopelessly inexpert.  In every stage it is as if we have to learn how to live all over again.  Though normal and unavoidable, often these natural life changes can be experienced as deep losses…

“The grief of raising children who are golden original mind-boggling beautiful sprites who become teenagers who hate us and want to get as far away from us as possible, or the grief of watching those same kids become adults as limited, afraid, and rigid as we are… are just a few of the stages of living filled with grief that are totally expected.

“For this reason, though natural, common, and anticipated, it is also just as right that we should deeply express these changes as losses through grief.  For this reason, in most of the world’s natural cultures, these changes are understood and experienced tribally as lines that must be crossed ritually with the help of the entire village…

“Natural culture doesn’t need to address life changes with therapy because they anticipate these changes and have a place for the grief.  These rituals of life changes are the major parts of their tribal everyday spiritual existence.  In this way grief is not left hanging but is converted into ritual beauty and culture-supporting continuity, which is not only experienced by the people in a massive communal way, but in a massive communal way these rituals also have the people giving life back to the Divine that gives life to them and the world.”

–Martín Prechtel, The Smell of Rain on Dust, pp.9-10.

Folks of our ilk may so Celebrate the Solstices and Equinoxes, and maybe even the Cross-Quarter Days.  But the sort of Celebrations that Martín describes are less common, and more important.  And it reminds us that one Loss we often Fear but seldom Grieve is Ego Death.  Astrology schedules Ego Deaths for us frequently – such as this week.

The symbol for our Soul (Uranus) and the symbol for Expansion (Jupiter) are both Strong (Stationary) on 11 August, and the impact of the Expansion part is greatly amplified (Jupiter Stations in front of the mid-Sagittarius “Great Attractor” and the “Shapley Supercluster,” two Galaxy Clusters, one behind the other, both mostly behind the Milky Way, and each stronger than the previous, that pull all of us toward them with a Gravitational Force thousands of times that of the Milky Way itself).

In other words, you can say, “Oh, No Thanks!” but it won’t much help.

With our Uranian Soul symbol in the Sign of Matter (Taurus), we’ve recently begun a seven-year period that we can safely call The Descent of Soul into Matter.  Soul is Asking us to Expand a great deal beyond our usual day-to-day Limitations and Habits.  Just as an example, Soul is immortal, so while it may be Compassionate, it doesn’t have the Fear of Death that “we” – our Egos – have.  So we have to Expect that it will show us pictures of Death, in a “gentle” attempt to help us move closer to Recognizing our Immortality as Souls.

Energy precedes Matter, so if we continue to Project Demise and Fear of it out in front of us, more Death is what we’ll Create.

No question that it’s usually inconvenient to have to Surrender a Lifetime where we undoubtedly have Unfinished Business, but even in that circumstance we can reframe the Ego’s Intention as helping us to move closer to Recognizing what’s Really Important – our Ego’s education! That’s a lot more important than any Unfinished Business.  It’s the inept Political notion of Karma as Retribution that leads to the conclusion that Unfinished Business weighs us down.  Sure, we can rue Unfinished Business and thus make Karma out of it, but that’s just a different Curriculum we can Choose.

But Martín is right that All Losses Must Be Grieved, and every Ego Death is a Loss.  Rather than Respectfully and Gratefully Grieve our Ego Deaths after the fact, we usually Burn Up the same Energy in Fear before the fact.  We can Feel it coming on, and the Ego starts pedaling backwards as fast as it can.  We Expect a huge Soul Download over the next several days.  Open to it.  Invite it.

Invite your Transition to be Loving and Gentle, and Ask your Current Ego to Respond to it with Respect, Gratitude, Surrender, and Relief.  Remind your Current Ego that it’s done a fabulous job of Keeping You Alive (its job description) so far, remind it that it can Trust the Soul to do a great job of selecting a bright-eyed Happy New You for the next assignment, and give it one last Hug.

In fact, Trusting the Soul is the biggest Challenge this week (asteroid Eurydike [Trust] Square Stationary Uranus).  And the basic process is all about Manifesting Miracles into Form by Following our Inner Voices (dwarf planet Makemake [Manifestation] Opposite Chiron [Despair/Miracles] and at the Focus of a Finger of God from the Sextile between Uranus itself and dwarf planet OR10 [Intrusive Memories])…

We may have to be tricky to Hear the Voices (OR10) – Sitting Silently with our Eyes closed and Shushing the mind, for instance, or Clearing our Current-Moment Thoughts and Paying Attention to Random Memories or Stories that cross our mind – maybe a plot from last week’s TV show, a Stranger you passed today who reminded you of someone, a Strange but somehow familiar Smell, or a sudden Memory of a tale your favorite Aunt told you when you were but a golden original mind-boggling beautiful sprite yourself.

Don’t Strain – the Stories and Voices are meant to Trigger your Intuition, so making it Stressful will just clamp the tubing.  You Want only Joy and Fun here; certainly your Soul wound Want it that way.  Be continually Mindful for Bummers, and Poor-Sweetheart them or Tap them Out.  When Bummers arise, know that they’re Up so you can Let Go of them (Chiron). 

If no Bummers arise, Look for them!  We all have Beliefs that we Accept as Just the Way It Is (Chiron), and those are the fences that keep us as limited, afraid, and rigid as we are.  But we Accept them as Just the Way It Is, so we aren’t Aware that they keep us Limited, Afraid, and Rigid.  When we Open those Windows, Miracles await just beyond the Pane.

Jupiter will be Lighting Up our natal planets in the neighborhood of 15 Degrees, and Uranus those in the vicinity of 7 Degrees.

New Awareness 1

As we approach 9 July we’re regaled with a Big Increase in our Awareness (Mercury Stationary in 5 Leo 4pm PDT 7 July) of our Victimhood (Chiron Stationary in 6 Aries 4:30 pm PDT 8 July)  and of our Hidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion Initiates asteroid Bee-Zed in 28 Sagittarius 1:30 pm PDT 8 July), which results in a Significant Rebirth for us (dwarf planet Haumea Stationary in 25 Libra 2:30 pm PDT 9 July).

We need to parse this, one phrase at a time…

The Awareness parameter (Mercury) links with great Blessings (Grand Trine and Kite) to our Ability to Manifest (Makemake), our Victimhood (Karma-Chiron), and Sustainability (Ceres), which is a fabulous Gift.  It also connects (via a Tricolor) to our Soul (Square to Uranus) and our Survival Instincts (Quincunx to Quaoar-Pholus).  Our Soul is best served if we don’t try to pin down our Survival Instincts too precisely, but we instead use them as General Guidance (the Quincunx in the Tricolor, which Advises us to stay in Curiosity), helping them to help us become Aware of their broad suggestions, and Letting specifics unfold as we and others Co-Create our Futures.

However, this Awareness is highly Complex because it’s Merged with (Conjunct) our Anger (Mars), our Vitality (Varuna), and our Self-Love (Sappho).  We need to be particularly Alert to our Anger, as it’s likely to be the doorway to our Increased Awareness of our Victimhood and our Genius.  For one reason or another most of us were Punished in our Youth for displaying our True Genius, and whether it’s Conscious or not, most of us are still Angry about that.  So if we’re Alert enough to catch the scent, we may be able to track down our Genius where She is hiding.

Enervation or Self-Doubt could also be doorways to our Genius.  Be careful to look beyond any Negative Thoughts and Emotions that arise to find the person who is Thinking or Feeling Negative, and Lovingly and Gently interview them.  Start with “How old are you?”  See if you can Discover why they’re Negative.  If you’re irreparably Merged, you might have to Ask “How old am I?” instead, and try to Discover why you were Negative at that age.

The Victimhood variable (Chiron) here is more than “just” your seemingly-Unhealable wounds, it includes your Karmic Baggage (asteroid Karma Conjunct Stationary Chiron).  We sometimes forget that Victimhood is Reversible, and many times we don’t even Realize that we’re embedded in our Victimhood – we’ve been there so long we just think that’s the way the World is.  But Karma is just a Habit, and it’s foiled by Becoming Conscious of it and Creating new Habits that plug in where the Old ones used to be.

If you’re anywhere less than Bliss, you’re in some way in a Victimhood trap, even if you don’t know it.  If you can Imagine being in Bliss, get in the habit of spending some time there every day.  If you can’t Imagine it, try saying “You Poor Sweetheart, Something is Holding you Back, isn’t it.”  And then, of course, Change the Subject – instead of either Bliss or Victimhood, think of a Purple Elephant.  Then go about your business.

The Focus of the astrological Configuration that Awareness and Victimhood – and Sustainability (Ceres) – are part of (Grand Tribe and Kite), is Manifestation (Makemake at the head of the Kite).  That’s where we’re heading, toward Manifesting What We Want.  If we spend time thinking and feeling What We Don’t Want, that’s what we’ll Manifest.  We might see that happening very quickly here.  Form follows Energy.  When we Imagine (that’s Energy) Bliss, we Create the Potential for Bliss to Manifest.  Whether it does or not depends on how many other Energies we’re Creating, Consciously and Unconsciously.

If we’re still Angry at Dad for not letting us pound on the Piano keys while he was watching TV, we may have an Unconscious Thought and Feeling that we don’t have Permission to have What We Want, and that our Unique Genius is Forbidden to Express themself.  If we grew up in an Either/Or household with lots of Rules, we may not even have Permission to Be our True Self, let alone Express our Genius!  Keep an eye out for themes like these in your Life over the next while.

Here’s the chart for the Awareness and Victimhood half of the Energy that dominates through 9 July…

Notice how Gloriously Symmetrical this chart is.  Symmetry is a hint that the chart is likely to Create Balance.  Let It In.

Gordy’s Merit Badge for Knots #1

Now that we’re past the Orcus (Oath-Breaking) Station, we’re well into a Gordian Knot of Energies, starting with the Station of asteroid Hopi on 26 May (3am PDT) in 5 Aquarius.  Hopi is the symbol for Respect for All Things, and by Inversion, Letting Go of Judgment, or at least, Examining our Judgments.  Earlier in May, Hopi Initiated asteroid Eurydike, symbol of Trust, in the same 5 Aquarius, which Degree is about seeking the Guidance of the Ancestors.

The 18-year Eurydike-Hopi Cycle is about Examining our Prejudices, especially the places where we don’t know that our Respect is Lacking.  I’m lucky enough to be able to Live in a place where Respect for the Planet, and Nature, and all of her Constituents, including the Ancestors, is widespread – but by no means universal.  A few days ago I had a vision where this typical view of our Bay…

was replaced with one like this…

Was I just seeing an Earth with eleven billion people instead of seven?  While the county I Live in, or rather the local Land Trust, has done a good job of protecting Farmland and Forests from development, that’s not so in the urban areas nearby, where four feet of gravel has been shoveled onto the best Farmland, and miles-long single-story “Fulfillment Centers” built on top of it.  That was after damning the Rivers so they could no longer refresh the valleys every spring with sediments fertile enough to Feed us.  Only 3% of the Planet is arable.  If we “solve” Climate Change and find viable alternatives to Farms, will that rocket us to eleven billion all the faster?

Can we Trust that the Future Earth will Look or Feel or Be anything like someplace where we would like to Live?  Or are we just Once-Borns who are here to milk the Planet for all we can get out of Her, and leave our children and our own Future Incarnations to fend for themselves in what, if anything, is left?  Of course, if we make it to 5D we won’t have this Lebensraum problem, because our Universe will have many other Dimensions in addition to the three or four that we already know and Love.

Here’s a lovely map of how we can get to 5D from here (Marko Pogačnik, Sacred Geography, p.242)…

♥ The chart of the recent Hopi-Eurydike Initiation and Hopi Station – and hence of the 18-year Cycle that we’re Beginning – makes several suggestions about this…

First, we notice that Hopi-Eurydike makes a Challenging Angle (Square) to the symbol for Our Soul (Uranus).  If our Ego and Body can Live in an eleven-billion Future, can our Soul Survive in it?

Second, the chart contains a Compounded Challenge (T-Square) focused on the symbols for Holding our Reality Stable (Moon), Self-Sovereignty (Lilith), and Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet OR10).  The base of the T-Square is an Opposition between the symbols for Sustainability (asteroid Ceres) and our Essence (Sun).  Sounds like more of the same – what’s the Challenge to Sustaining our Essence?  It’s maintaining our Identity as a Soul in a Physical Vehicle while Reality becomes so Virtual that we can’t keep track of which Emotions are our own.

And third, how exactly will we Manifest (dwarf planet Makemake as the Isolated Stand-Out in the chart) this Future?  Will we Co-Create it in the Image of our Despair (Makemake Opposite Chiron’s Unhealable Wound)?  Or will we Co-Create it as a Picture of the Miracles we can Imagine (Makemake Opposite Chiron’s Wound Healed by Empathy)?

Look at all the Options…

• Through the Hard Work (Mars) of Being Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar, Square to Chiron-Makemake – thin red lines).

• Through the Dumb-Luck Grace (Grand Trine – thin and thick blue lines) that will flow from Respect for All Things, especially Respect for our own Essence (Hopi-Eurydike Trine Sun and Makemake).

• By Surrendering (Finger of God – thin green lines) to the Mysteries (Quincunxes) of our Soul (Uranus) and Holding our Reality Stable through our Attention to our Self-Sovereignty and to our Memories of what 5D Looks and Feels Like (Moon-Lilith-OR10).

Intrusive Memories are not intrinsically Negative.  They can be Memories of our Source.  And actually, these three major Options are not Either/Or; they’re Both/And, ie, All At Once.

♥ The Timeline for this Knot unfolds like this…

13 May – Hopi Initiates Eurydike (Trusting Diversity) in 5 Aquarius

18 May – Sedna Full Moon (Mastering Fear) in 28 Scorpio-Taurus

19 May – Saturn Initiates South Node (The Most Important Thing Is Our Karma) in 21 Capricorn

23 May – Orcus (Oath-Breaking) Stationary in 10 Virgo

See the Karma Repair series of previous posts.

26 May – Hopi (Respect for All Things) Stationary in 5 Aquarius

30 May (11pm PDT) – asteroid Pallas (Boundaries) Stationary in 11 Libra

31 May (3am PDT) – dwarf planet OR10 (Intrusive Memories) Stationary in 5 Pisces

31 May (6:30 am) – asteroid Aletheia (Truth) Stationary in 16 Libra

3 June (3am PDT) – Sovereignty New Moon in 13 Gemini

♥ Then we go back to dealing with Abuse (Nessus Station in 12 Pisces, 11 June), though not as the same Person we were last month.

Ancestors Full Moon 2 (Boundaries VI)

The second Self-Resolving Challenge (Diamond Star) in the 19 February Full Moon is Focused on the Life Force (Varuna)…

The Stress that needs to be Resolved (the Opposition in the base of the T-Square or red triangle) is between Whether our Actions Serve our Soul’s Purpose (Mars-Uranus) in the Lifetime, and Whether our Boundaries are True to our Soul’s Purpose (Aletheia-Pallas, both of which are Stationary or Strong).  The Suggestion is that any Limitations in our Vitality will be clues about how our Actions and Boundaries aren’t Serving our Soul’s Purpose.

The Grace which Supports our Efforts and makes the Challenge Self-Resolving, is split between…

♥ The big uptick in participation by the Ancestors (Sun-Klotho-OR10), which we discussed in the previous post, and…

♥ Trusting our Unique and possibly or formerly Forbidden Genius to help us be Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Eurydike-Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar), which we also talked about earlier.

♥ The next Big Configuration in the Full Moon chart is Profound Blessings (a Grand Trine and Almost-Grand-Sextile)…

The Big Dumb-Luck Blessing (Grand Trine) is on the Cusp between Fire and Earth, mirroring the imminent (6 March) movement of Soul (Uranus) into Matter (Taurus).  The Players are an Ego Challenge as our Inner Female steps forward – for any gender (the Moon on the cusp of Virgo), the Genius-Trust-Survival Dance we’ve spoken of (Eurydike-Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar on the Sagittarius-Capricorn Cusp), and the Question about whether our Actions Serve our Soul’s Purpose (Mars in Taurus Conjunct Uranus in Aries).

The two elements in the Almost-Grand-Sextile are the Ancestors (Sun-Klotho-OR10 in early Pisces), and the Changes in our Boundaries (Pallas-Aletheia in late Libra), both of which we’ve discussed.  A Grand Sextile means that all of the elements in it are Operating Cooperatively with one another – sort of the way everything will be in 5D.  So if we can Activate the Almost-Grand-Sextile, we’ll find our Boundaries, the Ancestors, our Survival, our Genius, our Instincts (Moon), and our Actions all in Alignment.

So how do we Activate an Almost-Grand-Trine?  We look at the Energy embedded in the sixth corner, the one that would Complete the Grand Sextile, called the Vacancy, and we Project that Energy Consciously.  Intention is probably Sufficient.  The Vacancy is 2 Cancer, “A man on a magic carpet hovers over a large area of land: The ability to expand one’s consciousness by stabilizing one’s point of view at a higher level.”  Wow, just what the original Self-Resolving Challenge, that we described in the previous post, Creates!  When astrology Repeat itself, we know we’re on the right track.  Remarkable.

♥ The picture above also shows one other feature of the Full Moon – the Finger of God (grey-green wedge) pointing at Chiron (Despair and Miracles), so recently having moved into Aries (1pm PST 18 February).  Despair is one of the defining characteristics of Pisces, as Pisces’s job description is to Embrace All Excess Emotional Baggage, Karmic and otherwise.  So the last eight years, while Chiron has been in Pisces, have been Intense Emotionally for all of us.

By now we’ve hopefully all Learned how to Poor-Sweetheart ourself into Miracles.  By saying to ourself “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Bummed, aren’t you,” and then Changing the Subject (Putting our Attention elsewhere), we can instantly Shift our Identity from Bummed to Compassion.  We may have to rinse and repeat, or use Tapping or other PIAVAs, if we Obsess and have difficulty Changing the Subject.  (Leave a comment if these concepts are new to you.)

With Chiron in Aries, we of course could Encounter Spiritual Crises instead of Emotional Crises, and considering the State of the Planet, that may well happen.  And actually, we’re already hearing about just that on the Fake News every evening, aren’t we.  But a Spiritual Crisis is basically an Ego Death, and we’re well practiced at Embracing those, Right?  And now that we’re Adept at Embracing Emotional Crises after studying them for eight years, we won’t have to deal with those complications, Eh?

The Roots of the Chiron Finger of God are our Instincts about Ego Death (the Moon on the Cusp of Virgo), and our True Boundaries (Stationary Pallas and Aletheia).

♥ The next Global Configuration in the Full Moon chart is a hidden Chin-Strap Square Fez, so called because the sides of the Moroccan-hat-shaped trapezium are Squares (red lines), and the blue triangle below the bottom looks like a chin strap…

It also forms a Parasol over the Juno Diamond Star, adding extra Grace to our Consciousness Expansion.  The Challenges (Squares) are real…

• Genius-Trust-Survival (Ixion-Eurydike-Pholus-Quaoar) Challenging our Ability to Transform Despair into Miracles (Chiron).  Basically, this is about using the Tools we’ve Learned to Avoid being a Victim, for which there are many Opportunities.  We could be Victimized by Threats to our Survival.  All our Life we’ve been Victimized by the Programmers who drove our Forbidden Genius underground.  If we misinterpret Respond-Ability as Blame, we’re Victim there as well.  And Lack of Trust is a perennial source of Victimhood.

But – we know how to convert Despair to Miracles, Right?  Only our Ego can be Victim, not our Soul, and we’re in the process of moving our Ego closer and closer to Soul, Right?  So every trace of Victimhood is a Sign that we need to Surrender to an Ego Death and move into Respond-Ability.  We can do that as simply as saying to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’ve Feeling Vicimized here, aren’t you” and then Changing the Subject.

• Our False Boundaries (Stationary Pallas and Aletheia) Challenging our Life Force (Varuna).  This can easily feel like Victimhood again – if our Boundaries aren’t working, we can feel like someone else is Manipulating or Hurting us.  If we don’t Recognize the connection, we can Experience that as a Diminution of our Vitality.  Again, we can Watch for Diminished Vitality, and when we Notice it, Look For places where our Boundaries are too weak or too strong.

But the key to any Fez is the Tricolors (red-green-blue triangles) created by the grey-green diagonals.  A Tricolor is a combination of Challenge (red), Curiosity (grey-green), and Grace (blue lines).  The prescription is to unlock the Grace by remaining in Curiosity about the Challenge, rather than trying to Figure It Out.  We can’t Figure It Out without Limiting ourself to our current concept-set, so by Avoiding that and staying with Curiosity instead, we invite Growth in Consciousness instead.

This is not the kind of Curiosity that inspires Study and Research – that’s the Figure-It-Out kind.  This is more akin to Awe and Wonder, Accepting What Is at Face Value, and Marveling at it.  Like we did very often as a kid, before we were perverted by the Over-Intellectualization of Colonial Society.

By Knowing Cause we can sometimes Manipulate circumstances to our Advantage.  To the Colonial or Capitalist mind, Win-Lose is Success.  We could use Cause for Win-Win, but first we have to Evert our notion of Success.

By Believing we Know Cause, whether we do or not, and by Enjoying the fruits of Manipulating circumstances to our Advantage, we Seduce ourselves into Believing we’re Superior to those we’re Colonizing.  That somehow makes Colonialism okay – we Rationalize that we’re somehow Helping them while we’re robbing them blind.

The problem is that we never do actually Know Cause.  We may Know some Superficial Connections, but like Vale’s recent murderous dam failures in Brazil, Colonialism always ends up Defiling the Planet and the People for the Profit of the few, and the few usually live far away from the Carnage.

So to achieve non-Figuring-It-Out Curiosity-Awe-Wonder requires a Big Ego Death relative to our Lifelong training as children of Colonialists.  Like Racism and Sexism, it takes a big jolt just to Realize that we are Racist and Sexist and Colonialist, and that we don’t know how not to be.

Moving our Perspective from Appreciation – or literally Worship – of Figuring It Out (and of Wealth and Superiority) to Appreciation of Awe and Wonder (and Sustainability and Equality), takes a Searching and Fearless Inventory of everything in our Lives, but if we want to Trust our Unique Genius and Respond Fully to our Survival Instincts, it has to be done.

We can interpret the diagonals of the Fez and their Tricolors as PIAVAs.  Using just the Major Tricolors (those with the long blue lines or Trines), we have…

• “I Wonder if I can Poor-Sweetheart myself into Allowing Miracles to Adjust my Boundaries so that my Vitality is Improved” (Varuna Square Pallas-Aletheia Quincunx Chiron Trine Varuna – the “Quincunx” or five Signs is the grey-green Curiosity line)

PIAVA is short for Prayer-Intention-Asking-Visualizing-Affirming.  There are other, “silent” letters as well, such as Wondering, Commanding, and Expanding.  These are all Triggers for our Intuition that can Magnetize what we Want to Receive and draw it toward us – the Feminine process of Creating.  It’s an alternative to the Dynamic or Masculine process of Plan-Execute and its corollaries.  Whenever you’re dealing with What You Don’t Know, aka the Unconscious, the Magnetic process is the only one that works – and it works Wonders.

In the above we’ve used Wondering to Trigger our Intuition, and to make it work – which is to say, to Avoid trying to Figure It Out – we need to immediately Change the Subject and put our Attention elsewhere.  See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/ for more details, some of which are important.  In the below we’ll use Prayer.

• “Ganeshi, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Avoiding Victimhood about my Genius and my Survival, while Supporting my Vitality.”

Then we Change the Subject.  By Surrendering Control over the Relationships between (1) Victimhood (Chiron) and (2) Genius-Survival (Ixion-Quaoar) and (3) Vitality (Varuna), and Delegating them to the Remover of Obstacles Ganesh, we’ve Invited our Intuition to Resolve any Conflicts that may arise between them.

♥ That leaves only what’s usually ignored in astrology – the four “Unxes” in the Full Moon chart.  Unx means one twelfth, and it names the Angle between two planets that are one Sign apart…

These are the short green lines.  This is the Twelfth Harmonic, which is about Pattern-Breaking.  So any Self-Sabotaging Habits you have between the Energies on each end of an Unx, this is a great time to replace these Habits with Self-Supporting Patterns.  The Unxes here are…

• Do you Sabotage your Vitality, by eating Sugar or other empty calories like White Bread, for instance, or failing to eat enough Green Vegetables or Drink enough Water?  You have Instincts that tell you not to do this – do you Ignore them or not even Recognize them?  Now would be a good time to PIAVA that you Attune yourself to them.  (Moon Unx Varuna)

• Many of us have Habitual Actions that don’t Serve our Soul.  It’s an excellent time to PIAVA that we become Conscious of them so we can Change them.  (Juno Unx Mars-Uranus)

• And most of us probably feel like Victims of these non-Soul-Serving Actions, as if someone else made us do them (and indeed, we may have been Programmed to do them by someone else).  “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Victimized by those Actions, don’t you.”  (Chiron Unx Mars-Uranus)

• I’m Worried that these Ancestors are coming to Kick Ass because we’re Screwing Up!  “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Scared by this Possibility, don’t you.”  (Chiron Unx Sun-Klotho-OR10)

Boundaries

Boundaries were prominent during the Sedna Station, as the Pallas-Haumea-Aletheia (Boundaries-Rebirth-Truth) Stellium (group of 3 or more planets) Squared the Nodes – which means that it is Important to our Life Path, and Opposed Uranus-Mars-Eris (Soul-Action-Revelation) – implying that we’d be Learning enough about what we’ve been Denying that we’d be Feeling Reborn with Boundaries that are less Defensive of the Ego, and more Welcoming to the Soul.

That Specific Ambient Energy has moved on now that the Sedna Station is Complete, but once we stopped Screaming and started Noticing what was happening, we probably Learned enough from its Passing, that as we move away from it we’ll be Noticing that our Resistance to Self-Love has Softened.

What hasn’t “gone away” is the Pallas-Haumea-Aletheia Stellium, as our next serious astroevent is an 18 February (9am PST) Pallas Station in the last Degree of Libra.  So whatever it was that we Learned, and whatever Introduced itself uninvited, around Boundaries during the Sedna Station and the Juno-Sedna Conjunction that preceded it, we’ll be Developing and Extending it for the next ten days.

Pallas is turning Retrograde, so it won’t move into Scorpio till the end of August, and it backs up over the last twenty Degrees of Libra.  It takes about four years for Pallas to run the Zodiac once, so divide your age by four and you’ll know how many times you’ve Iterated your Experience with Boundaries on the Spiral of Growth that is your current Lifetime.

Every four years when Pallas moves into Libra, we first Meet Other Anew, and after two years in the Personal half of the Zodiac, I’m sure it’s always a Shock.  In the second ten Degrees of Libra, we’re reinventing our Boundaries with Groups of Other, and in the third we get Confused about where we End and Other Begins – we’ve been here in this Confusion of Boundaries since New Years, and we’ll be here through early April.

Confusion of course is the first stage of Growth, so it’s a Positive thing if we can drop our Resistance to it.  We’re basically Debriefing what we’ve Learned about Other in this four-year Pallas Zodiacaloop, so we can be ready for Pallas in Scorpio, where we Deeply Fathom what this whole Me-Other business is all about.  We could be moving out of Codependence, or moving into Unity, and most likely Both, in different arenas of our Lives.  Other, of course, isn’t just Other Hupers.

Stationing as it is on a Cusp, Pallas joins several other planets Dancing on Cusps.  Juno Enters Gemini on 10 February (8:30 pm PST), Eurydike Enters Capricorn on 13 February (am PST), and Chiron finally Re-Enters Aries on 18 February (1am PST).

Juno barely dipped her toe into Gemini during October (she never got beyond the first Degree), but now she Dances all the way across it, until mid-April.  Juno in Taurus (since last July) has probably made Growth in Consciousness slower and stickier; in Gemini we’re likely to be Experimenting with all manner of Weird Notions, as we eagerly Explore the Edges of our Limitations.  We’ll be Growing by leaps and bounds, though we may not know it, because it will all Feel so Strange at first.

Juno will Dance with asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) in mid-March, cross dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential) in early April, and chase Sappho (Self-Love), catching up in early June.  Chaos Initiating Juno should be Life-Changing.

Kegels 4

We haven’t left that Neptune New Moon chart, since the New and Full Moons impact the weeks following more than the weeks preceding.  But we have dropped, rather unceremoniously, into the unadulterated Sedna Station.  Sedna is about Learning to convert Fear into Power.  We’ve been practicing this for a while, so it may feel like we just aren’t so scared any more.  But what is it you are Feeling?  Maybe having a hard time staying awake, like me?  Emotions, especially our Held Emotions, are tricky.  They can hide behind Other Appearances.  Maybe it’s just your Implant tingling.

Here’s Dan Scranton’s Channeling for today, for example…

https://danielscranton.com/the-e-t-s-are-evolving-with-you-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/

“We have begun to investigate the different agendas that exist in the current moment amongst the extra-terrestrials who are keeping a close eye on humanity.  We know that most of you are aware that there are well-intentioned e.t.s and there are malevolent ones, and we also want you to recognize that as you evolve, so do they.

“They are not the same e.t.s that they once were, no matter whom we are referring to with that statement.  Therefore, it is time for humanity to start looking at your own fears and prejudices when it comes to your brothers and sisters from other parts of the galaxy.  You will need to come to terms with experiences that you have had in this lifetime and in past lives as you awaken those memories.

“The memories we are referring to here are the ones involving e.t.s who have either knowingly done you harm or unintentionally have created trauma within you.  Remember of course that everything is happening by co-creation and that you would only create an experience that would trigger fear within you because you needed to have that experience.

“So it is time for letting go, and it is time for tuning in to those emotions that come up when you consider being abducted, experimented on, or invaded by extra-terrestrial races.  All of these things have happened at some point in your history as a being who has incarnated all across the galaxy.  It’s time to make peace with that, and it’s time to consider that others can evolve, just like you.

“Now you are still going to need to use your discernment, but that discernment needs to come from your feelings and not from the facts that you have compiled.  So prepare yourselves for much more contact, and do it now, before the ships start landing and you have to face those fears all at once.  This method that we are proposing is going to make everything easier on you as you shift and ascend.”

This second example is an advertisement, and I’m not specifically endorsing Restore™ (though I do use it), but the text is a very concise description of the real threat that Glyphosate poses to our health, and what we can do about it.  It’s easy to associate Glyphosate (RoundUp) with GMO foods, but it’s less known that Glyphosate is used almost universally on non-GMO Grains and Sugars…

http://blog.restore4life.com/cancer-and-the-truth-about-pesticides/

And what have you been reading lately about Global Warming?  I often catch myself thinking, “You guys better get your act together.  I’m too old to be around for most of the carnage, but many of you aren’t!”  And then I think about my next Lifetime and where and when that might be.  And really, how many other Parallel Lifetimes is my Soul Living right now, and what are my age and circumstances in those?

When you read about the impacts of Global Warming that are already happening around the World, are you like me more readily Empathic with some folks and circumstances than with others?  That’s probably an excellent clue about where your Other Personas might be hanging out.  For instance, some of those Tropical Beaches have my name on them.  You can read it in the Sand when you kick the plastic aside.

https://www.permaculture.co.uk/news/extinction-rebellion-rebellion-day-london

A logical place to start discussing the Sedna Station is its Conjunction (Merger) with asteroids Lachesis (Conscious Choice of Timelines) and Juno (the Growing Edge of Consciousness) and its Waning Square (Challenge to Let Go) from Klotho-Mercury (Awareness that we need to Start Over).  Or the Grand Cross to the Nodes (Threats to our Survival and Mission) – that’s the biggest Zodiac-Spanning Configuration.  So let’s come back to those later, and start with the Chiron T-Square…

The Chiron T-Square (red triangle) and its many emoluments (blue and green lines) are drawn in heavy lines.  The basic Challenge is pretty Profound – Accepting our Unlimited Positive Potential (dwarf planet Chaos) by Trusting that our Forbidden Genius (Eurydike-Ixion) will know how to Transcend Despair and find Miracles (Chiron).

The primary Gift to make this Challenge Easier is the Truss Bridge (Double Trine Bridge, blue lines) formed by Mercury-Klotho (Acknowledging that we’re at a Cultural Dead End and we need to Begin Anew) and Uranus-Mars-Eris (Listening to the Soul’s Assertive Calls to Action around What We’ve been Denying).  If it’s been increasingly Difficult to keep your Forbidden Genius in the closet lately, this may be why.  You don’t understand the Relationship between your Forbidden Genius and your Mission, but your Genius does.

You’ll notice too that the T-Square is holding a Parasol (Gift of Grace) – the small triangle of blue lines that also point to Chiron, from the South Node (Held Emotions) and Stationary Sedna itself, with its companions Lachesis and Juno (Becoming Aware of our Unconscious Fears and Choosing Alternatives).  Our Held Emotions are going to be the most serious of our Unconscious Fears, almost by definition.  If we’re Feeling Fatigued or vaguely Sour, we’re probably sitting on the tip of these Nightmare Icebergs.

While this is a great deal of Grace, it’s also Complex, and doesn’t specify a definite Path to Transcendence.  But the chart also says, Clearly, Pay Attention! – to the Haumea-Aletheia-Pallas Stellium (the Truth about the New Boundaries we’re being Reborn into) at the bottom of the chart.  The big green wedge that points to it is called a Finger of God, and it means Pay Attention!

At the base (upper, wider end) of the Finger of God are both Chiron and Sedna et al.  Have you been Learning that Karma is Dead, and that if you Choose not to Grasp it when it Threatens, it’ll get bored and go bother someone else?  Even if you’ve only been practicing that on minor Self-Sabotages, if you’ve seen any Success at all with it, or with Poor-Sweetheart, or with Tapping, or with PIAVA and its many corollaries, then you’ve Learned that whatever you’ve been most Hesitant to Approach, may just turn out to be No Big Deal.

Our Held Emotions are probably like that.  Sure, it was the shits when those Palefaces in the covered wagon shot up your whole family.  But guess what.  That was then, this is Now.  The chart Invites us to PIAVA that our Held Emotions be Exposed as the Paper Tigers that they are, mere Shadows.  All you need to Eliminate Shadows is to cast Light on them.  If you use Light from all sides now, from up and down, but still somehow – Wait, wrong song! – you can Eliminate Shadows completely.  That’s what the Unseen Therapist does.

We might try PIAVAs like…

“I Wonder if it’s Possible to just Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely Blow Away my Held Emotions, as if they Never Were.”

“Ganeshi My Love, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Effortlessly Letting Go of my Held Emotions Completely.”

Held Emotions, if you’re new to the concept, are those which you’d rather Die than Feel.  Your thoughts are “I’d rather Die than Experience that again.”  But, as our Poor-Sweethearts have so clearly Illustrated, our Identity is very Flexible.  So the real situation is “I’d rather Die than Experience that again.”  In other words, you’re Inviting an Ego Death, or Shift in your Identity.  When we Resist Ego Death, it gets hard.  But it’s the Resistance that makes it hard – there’s no reason why an Ego Death can’t be as easy as just Choosing a Different Approach, or changing your pants.

If you’re new here, you might want to look up…

• https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/ and/or
• https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/ and/or
• https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/unseen-therapist/ and/or
• https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/tapping-eft/ and/or
• https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/fear/kegels/.

Use the Category list on the right to look up any other term that’s not clear; if there isn’t a Category list on the right, find it on the home page at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/.

Even if you aren’t Feeling what you usually refer to as “Fear,” you can still use Kegels.  See what happens when you do.  Different people can have very different names for the same Emotions.  We all Experience the World Uniquely.

In the same way that Cold is the Absence of Heat, Fear is the Absence of Love – from that Perspective neither Cold nor Fear actually Exist; they’re just very low levels of Warmth and Love.  Fear is Cold and Hard; Love is Soft and Warm.  It’s good to remember that whenever there’s Discomfort in your Body – nothing Heals quite like Love.  Notice when you’re Hardening yourself against Pain or Discomfort, and Soften and Warm instead.

And while I’m not so sure about the Alligators, I otherwise wholeheartedly Agree with Dale…

https://dalegreenearts.gallery/2019/01/28/john-dor-prairie-home/

“I returned to this place and the place is the same but I am not.  And the thing I discovered is that we are what we love, not what we fear.  But here is the unique miracle of our existence.  Of all the creatures that have ever risen and fallen on this tiny round stone traveling through nothing – we are able to choose.  Imagine an alligator deciding one day to be a vegetarian.  It can’t happen.  Alligators don’t have the capacity to choose.

“But we do.  We can choose.  We can wake up every day and choose.  So what do we choose?  Some choose anger, some bitterness, some loneliness.  But some,  far too few, choose peace and happiness and love.  And every day we all have the same day, the same now, the same choice.  No matter what our outer circumstances, we can choose how we regulate the inner world where we live.  And today I choose here.  And I choose now.  And I choose love.”

Did you know that Antarctica is On Fire?

Self-Judgment and Self-Love VI

Did we emphasize enough how we might Respond to encountering any Impediments to our Self-Love?  The Easiest would probably be Poor-Sweethearting.  All you have to do is say to yourself, silently or not, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Guilty, aren’t you.” for, e.g., Guilt.  You could plug in any other Self-Judgment, or a different verb, such as “Discouraged,” or even “you’d rather Die, wouldn’t you.”

But before we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, we may want to get Conscious of how we’re Identifying ourself.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’d rather Die, wouldn’t you” might be exactly what you need if you’re Identifying with Extricating yourself from a situation that has no other exits.  But we can make an intermediate step – Identifying with what we’re Feeling.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Hopelessness, aren’t you” Identifies that you’re dealing with an Emotion rather than hardcopy 3D Reality.

Emotions can be Crippling, we know that, but they aren’t the Whole Story.  There are always other Perspectives.  Just Acknowledging that we’re dealing with an Emotion, rather than a Complete Reality, Expands our Awareness because we can’t help but Realize now that there are other things in the Universe besides Emotion.  For many of us, our Emotions are our Bottom Line, but they aren’t Everything.  So doing your Poor-Sweetheart once again with Feeling is useful, but it’s not the real point of Poor-Sweethearting.

When you talk to yourself and address yourself as “You,” you Step Out of your former Identity.  When you talk to yourself Compassionately, you’re no longer Identifying with the Bummer you want to Leave Behind, you’re now Identifying with Compassion – you’re actually stepping into Self-Love.  As long as you aren’t saying it Sarcastically, by adding the Poor you also take a step toward Empathy.

Our Self-Talk and our Thoughts Reveal where our actual Identity sits in any given moment.  Becoming Aware that we’re Talking to Ourself and that we’re Thinking, is a major Expansion of Consciousness, especially if we can make it a Habit.  When we shift from “I’d rather Die” to “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair, aren’t you,” our Identity shifts first from Despair itself, to our Emotions.  We Create Miracles by taking the next step – we Change the Subject.

We’ve Poor-Sweethearted ourself, now we need to Step Aside so it can do its work.  If we continue to focus on Despair or Emotion after we’ve Poor-Sweethearted ourself, we aren’t using the Power inherent in it.  Think of a Bummer, even a tiny one, for a minute.  Then Poor-Sweetheart yourself about it, then look to see if your Mood or Vibration has shifted.  I always feel much Lighter afterward, and I suspect you will too.

Once we move our Attention away, the Magic can happen.  If we’re still thinking about the Bummer, nothing has Changed, and we may need to try another strategy, like Tapping.  Toggling back and forth from Poor-Sweethearting to Tapping, and back again, as many times as you need to, could be very Powerful.  Our Habitual Thoughts are Cages that stop us from entering the Dangerous (to the Ego) world of Growth.  Only by Changing the Subject can we allow the bars to re-form to Enclose a larger space.

A technical note: Feeling Like does not introduce an Emotion, it introduces a Thought.  The word Feeling must be followed by a word that indicates an Emotion, before you’re really dealing with Emotion.  If you’re Feeling Like Shit, you’re still in your Thoughts.  You’re Referring to neither your Emotions nor your Physical Body, but your Judgments about one or the other, or both.  Judgments are Thoughts.  Differentiating your Emotions from your Thoughts is a very Powerful Growth in Consciousness all by itself.

The chart of today’s (20 January 9:15 pm PST) 1 Leo Total Lunar Eclipse Vitality Full Moon, apart from the Grand Octile, is busy…

But if you look at the big blue triangle (Grand Trine, aka Dumb-Luck Blessings), you’ll notice that Chiron (it looks like a key) and Ceres (like an upside-down cuphook) are two of the three corners – Moon-Varuna-North Node (Instincts-Life Force-Mission) is the third.  Plus, by adding Sun-South Node-Karma-Atropos-Mercury (Essence-Held Emotions-Bad Habits-Endings-Awareness; it’s a story problem – make a sentence including all five of these concepts) we make a Kite (Directed Dumb-Luck Blessings).

So whatever else is going on here at the Sappho-Station Total-Lunar-Eclipse Vitality Full Moon, the route to making it all Effortless lies through Chiron (Despair, Miracles, Poor-Sweethearting) and Ceres (Sustainability) – making it a Lifetime Habit to Poor-Sweetheart yourself at the first sign of distress.  You aren’t Avoiding anything by Poor-Sweethearting it; you’re Stepping Out of the Way so your Heart (aka your Inner Female) can Love it to death without interference from the Limitations of your Present-Moment Ego.

Dr. Kim is on track with the Year of Self-Love as well – if like me you’re irritated by the constant movement of the camera, you may want to click to a blank tab so you can Listen without the distraction…

I wonder if it’d be easier to watch if I said to myself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Irritiated, aren’t you.”  Let me give it a try…  Yup, complete transformation!