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Ancestors Full Moon 2 (Boundaries VI)

February 18, 2019

The second Self-Resolving Challenge (Diamond Star) in the 19 February Full Moon is Focused on the Life Force (Varuna)…

The Stress that needs to be Resolved (the Opposition in the base of the T-Square or red triangle) is between Whether our Actions Serve our Soul’s Purpose (Mars-Uranus) in the Lifetime, and Whether our Boundaries are True to our Soul’s Purpose (Aletheia-Pallas, both of which are Stationary or Strong).  The Suggestion is that any Limitations in our Vitality will be clues about how our Actions and Boundaries aren’t Serving our Soul’s Purpose.

The Grace which Supports our Efforts and makes the Challenge Self-Resolving, is split between…

The big uptick in participation by the Ancestors (Sun-Klotho-OR10), which we discussed in the previous post, and…

Trusting our Unique and possibly or formerly Forbidden Genius to help us be Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Eurydike-Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar), which we also talked about earlier.

The next Big Configuration in the Full Moon chart is Profound Blessings (a Grand Trine and Almost-Grand-Sextile)…

The Big Dumb-Luck Blessing (Grand Trine) is on the Cusp between Fire and Earth, mirroring the imminent (6 March) movement of Soul (Uranus) into Matter (Taurus).  The Players are an Ego Challenge as our Inner Female steps forward – for any gender (the Moon on the cusp of Virgo), the Genius-Trust-Survival Dance we’ve spoken of (Eurydike-Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar on the Sagittarius-Capricorn Cusp), and the Question about whether our Actions Serve our Soul’s Purpose (Mars in Taurus Conjunct Uranus in Aries).

The two elements in the Almost-Grand-Sextile are the Ancestors (Sun-Klotho-OR10 in early Pisces), and the Changes in our Boundaries (Pallas-Aletheia in late Libra), both of which we’ve discussed.  A Grand Sextile means that all of the elements in it are Operating Cooperatively with one another – sort of the way everything will be in 5D.  So if we can Activate the Almost-Grand-Sextile, we’ll find our Boundaries, the Ancestors, our Survival, our Genius, our Instincts (Moon), and our Actions all in Alignment.

So how do we Activate an Almost-Grand-Trine?  We look at the Energy embedded in the sixth corner, the one that would Complete the Grand Sextile, called the Vacancy, and we Project that Energy Consciously.  Intention is probably Sufficient.  The Vacancy is 2 Cancer, “A man on a magic carpet hovers over a large area of land: The ability to expand one’s consciousness by stabilizing one’s point of view at a higher level.”  Wow, just what the original Self-Resolving Challenge, that we described in the previous post, Creates!  When astrology Repeat itself, we know we’re on the right track.  Remarkable.

The picture above also shows one other feature of the Full Moon – the Finger of God (grey-green wedge) pointing at Chiron (Despair and Miracles), so recently having moved into Aries (1pm PST 18 February).  Despair is one of the defining characteristics of Pisces, as Pisces’s job description is to Embrace All Excess Emotional Baggage, Karmic and otherwise.  So the last eight years, while Chiron has been in Pisces, have been Intense Emotionally for all of us.

By now we’ve hopefully all Learned how to Poor-Sweetheart ourself into Miracles.  By saying to ourself “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Bummed, aren’t you,” and then Changing the Subject (Putting our Attention elsewhere), we can instantly Shift our Identity from Bummed to Compassion.  We may have to rinse and repeat, or use Tapping or other PIAVAs, if we Obsess and have difficulty Changing the Subject.  (Leave a comment if these concepts are new to you.)

With Chiron in Aries, we of course could Encounter Spiritual Crises instead of Emotional Crises, and considering the State of the Planet, that may well happen.  And actually, we’re already hearing about just that on the Fake News every evening, aren’t we.  But a Spiritual Crisis is basically an Ego Death, and we’re well practiced at Embracing those, Right?  And now that we’re Adept at Embracing Emotional Crises after studying them for eight years, we won’t have to deal with those complications, Eh?

The Roots of the Chiron Finger of God are our Instincts about Ego Death (the Moon on the Cusp of Virgo), and our True Boundaries (Stationary Pallas and Aletheia).

The next Global Configuration in the Full Moon chart is a hidden Chin-Strap Square Fez, so called because the sides of the Moroccan-hat-shaped trapezium are Squares (red lines), and the blue triangle below the bottom looks like a chin strap…

It also forms a Parasol over the Juno Diamond Star, adding extra Grace to our Consciousness Expansion.  The Challenges (Squares) are real…

  • Genius-Trust-Survival (Ixion-Eurydike-Pholus-Quaoar) Challenging our Ability to Transform Despair into Miracles (Chiron).  Basically, this is about using the Tools we’ve Learned to Avoid being a Victim, for which there are many Opportunities.  We could be Victimized by Threats to our Survival.  All our Life we’ve been Victimized by the Programmers who drove our Forbidden Genius underground.  If we misinterpret Respond-Ability as Blame, we’re Victim there as well.  And Lack of Trust is a perennial source of Victimhood.

But – we know how to convert Despair to Miracles, Right?  Only our Ego can be Victim, not our Soul, and we’re in the process of moving our Ego closer and closer to Soul, Right?  So every trace of Victimhood is a Sign that we need to Surrender to an Ego Death and move into Respond-Ability.  We can do that as simply as saying to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’ve Feeling Vicimized here, aren’t you” and then Changing the Subject.

  • Our False Boundaries (Stationary Pallas and Aletheia) Challenging our Life Force (Varuna).  This can easily feel like Victimhood again – if our Boundaries aren’t working, we can feel like someone else is Manipulating or Hurting us.  If we don’t Recognize the connection, we can Experience that as a Diminution of our Vitality.  Again, we can Watch for Diminished Vitality, and when we Notice it, Look For places where our Boundaries are too weak or too strong.

But the key to any Fez is the Tricolors (red-green-blue triangles) created by the grey-green diagonals.  A Tricolor is a combination of Challenge (red), Curiosity (grey-green), and Grace (blue lines).  The prescription is to unlock the Grace by remaining in Curiosity about the Challenge, rather than trying to Figure It Out.  We can’t Figure It Out without Limiting ourself to our current concept-set, so by Avoiding that and staying with Curiosity instead, we invite Growth in Consciousness instead.

This is not the kind of Curiosity that inspires Study and Research – that’s the Figure-It-Out kind.  This is more akin to Awe and Wonder, Accepting What Is at Face Value, and Marveling at it.  Like we did very often as a kid, before we were perverted by the Over-Intellectualization of Colonial Society.

By Knowing Cause we can sometimes Manipulate circumstances to our Advantage.  To the Colonial or Capitalist mind, Win-Lose is Success.  We could use Cause for Win-Win, but first we have to Evert our notion of Success.

By Believing we Know Cause, whether we do or not, and by Enjoying the fruits of Manipulating circumstances to our Advantage, we Seduce ourselves into Believing we’re Superior to those we’re Colonizing.  That somehow makes Colonialism okay – we Rationalize that we’re somehow Helping them while we’re robbing them blind.

The problem is that we never do actually Know Cause.  We may Know some Superficial Connections, but like Vale’s recent murderous dam failures in Brazil, Colonialism always ends up Defiling the Planet and the People for the Profit of the few, and the few usually live far away from the Carnage.

So to achieve non-Figuring-It-Out Curiosity-Awe-Wonder requires a Big Ego Death relative to our Lifelong training as children of Colonialists.  Like Racism and Sexism, it takes a big jolt just to Realize that we are Racist and Sexist and Colonialist, and that we don’t know how not to be.

Moving our Perspective from Appreciation – or literally Worship – of Figuring It Out (and of Wealth and Superiority) to Appreciation of Awe and Wonder (and Sustainability and Equality), takes a Searching and Fearless Inventory of everything in our Lives, but if we want to Trust our Unique Genius and Respond Fully to our Survival Instincts, it has to be done.

We can interpret the diagonals of the Fez and their Tricolors as PIAVAs.  Using just the Major Tricolors (those with the long blue lines or Trines), we have…

  • “I Wonder if I can Poor-Sweetheart myself into Allowing Miracles to Adjust my Boundaries so that my Vitality is Improved” (Varuna Square Pallas-Aletheia Quincunx Chiron Trine Varuna – the “Quincunx” or five Signs is the grey-green Curiosity line)

PIAVA is short for Prayer-Intention-Asking-Visualizing-Affirming.  There are other, “silent” letters as well, such as Wondering, Commanding, and Expanding.  These are all Triggers for our Intuition that can Magnetize what we Want to Receive and draw it toward us – the Feminine process of Creating.  It’s an alternative to the Dynamic or Masculine process of Plan-Execute and its corollaries.  Whenever you’re dealing with What You Don’t Know, aka the Unconscious, the Magnetic process is the only one that works – and it works Wonders.

In the above we’ve used Wondering to Trigger our Intuition, and to make it work – which is to say, to Avoid trying to Figure It Out – we need to immediately Change the Subject and put our Attention elsewhere.  See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/ for more details, some of which are important.  In the below we’ll use Prayer.

  • “Ganeshi, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Avoiding Victimhood about my Genius and my Survival, while Supporting my Vitality.”

Then we Change the Subject.  By Surrendering Control over the Relationships between (1) Victimhood (Chiron) and (2) Genius-Survival (Ixion-Quaoar) and (3) Vitality (Varuna), and Delegating them to the Remover of Obstacles Ganesh, we’ve Invited our Intuition to Resolve any Conflicts that may arise between them.

That leaves only what’s usually ignored in astrology – the four “Unxes” in the Full Moon chart.  Unx means one twelfth, and it names the Angle between two planets that are one Sign apart…

These are the short green lines.  This is the Twelfth Harmonic, which is about Pattern-Breaking.  So any Self-Sabotaging Habits you have between the Energies on each end of an Unx, this is a great time to replace these Habits with Self-Supporting Patterns.  The Unxes here are…

  • Do you Sabotage your Vitality, by eating Sugar or other empty calories like White Bread, for instance, or failing to eat enough Green Vegetables or Drink enough Water?  You have Instincts that tell you not to do this – do you Ignore them or not even Recognize them?  Now would be a good time to PIAVA that you Attune yourself to them.  (Moon Unx Varuna)
  • Many of us have Habitual Actions that don’t Serve our Soul.  It’s an excellent time to PIAVA that we become Conscious of them so we can Change them.  (Juno Unx Mars-Uranus)
  • And most of us probably feel like Victims of these non-Soul-Serving Actions, as if someone else made us do them (and indeed, we may have been Programmed to do them by someone else).  “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Victimized by those Actions, don’t you.”  (Chiron Unx Mars-Uranus)
  • I’m Worried that these Ancestors are coming to Kick Ass because we’re Screwing Up!  “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Scared by this Possibility, don’t you.”  (Chiron Unx Sun-Klotho-OR10)

Boundaries

February 9, 2019

Boundaries were prominent during the Sedna Station, as the Pallas-Haumea-Aletheia (Boundaries-Rebirth-Truth) Stellium (group of 3 or more planets) Squared the Nodes – which means that it is Important to our Life Path, and Opposed Uranus-Mars-Eris (Soul-Action-Revelation) – implying that we’d be Learning enough about what we’ve been Denying that we’d be Feeling Reborn with Boundaries that are less Defensive of the Ego, and more Welcoming to the Soul.

That Specific Ambient Energy has moved on now that the Sedna Station is Complete, but once we stopped Screaming and started Noticing what was happening, we probably Learned enough from its Passing, that as we move away from it we’ll be Noticing that our Resistance to Self-Love has Softened.

What hasn’t “gone away” is the Pallas-Haumea-Aletheia Stellium, as our next serious astroevent is an 18 February (9am PST) Pallas Station in the last Degree of Libra.  So whatever it was that we Learned, and whatever Introduced itself uninvited, around Boundaries during the Sedna Station and the Juno-Sedna Conjunction that preceded it, we’ll be Developing and Extending it for the next ten days.

Pallas is turning Retrograde, so it won’t move into Scorpio till the end of August, and it backs up over the last twenty Degrees of Libra.  It takes about four years for Pallas to run the Zodiac once, so divide your age by four and you’ll know how many times you’ve Iterated your Experience with Boundaries on the Spiral of Growth that is your current Lifetime.

Every four years when Pallas moves into Libra, we first Meet Other Anew, and after two years in the Personal half of the Zodiac, I’m sure it’s always a Shock.  In the second ten Degrees of Libra, we’re reinventing our Boundaries with Groups of Other, and in the third we get Confused about where we End and Other Begins – we’ve been here in this Confusion of Boundaries since New Years, and we’ll be here through early April.

Confusion of course is the first stage of Growth, so it’s a Positive thing if we can drop our Resistance to it.  We’re basically Debriefing what we’ve Learned about Other in this four-year Pallas Zodiacaloop, so we can be ready for Pallas in Scorpio, where we Deeply Fathom what this whole Me-Other business is all about.  We could be moving out of Codependence, or moving into Unity, and most likely Both, in different arenas of our Lives.  Other, of course, isn’t just Other Hupers.

Stationing as it is on a Cusp, Pallas joins several other planets Dancing on Cusps.  Juno Enters Gemini on 10 February (8:30 pm PST), Eurydike Enters Capricorn on 13 February (am PST), and Chiron finally Re-Enters Aries on 18 February (1am PST).

Juno barely dipped her toe into Gemini during October (she never got beyond the first Degree), but now she Dances all the way across it, until mid-April.  Juno in Taurus (since last July) has probably made Growth in Consciousness slower and stickier; in Gemini we’re likely to be Experimenting with all manner of Weird Notions, as we eagerly Explore the Edges of our Limitations.  We’ll be Growing by leaps and bounds, though we may not know it, because it will all Feel so Strange at first.

Juno will Dance with asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) in mid-March, cross dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential) in early April, and chase Sappho (Self-Love), catching up in early June.  Chaos Initiating Juno should be Life-Changing.

Kegels 4

February 5, 2019

We haven’t left that Neptune New Moon chart, since the New and Full Moons impact the weeks following more than the weeks preceding.  But we have dropped, rather unceremoniously, into the unadulterated Sedna Station.  Sedna is about Learning to convert Fear into Power.  We’ve been practicing this for a while, so it may feel like we just aren’t so scared any more.  But what is it you are Feeling?  Maybe having a hard time staying awake, like me?  Emotions, especially our Held Emotions, are tricky.  They can hide behind Other Appearances.  Maybe it’s just your Implant tingling.

Here’s Dan Scranton’s Channeling for today, for example…

https://danielscranton.com/the-e-t-s-are-evolving-with-you-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/

“We have begun to investigate the different agendas that exist in the current moment amongst the extra-terrestrials who are keeping a close eye on humanity.  We know that most of you are aware that there are well-intentioned e.t.s and there are malevolent ones, and we also want you to recognize that as you evolve, so do they.

“They are not the same e.t.s that they once were, no matter whom we are referring to with that statement.  Therefore, it is time for humanity to start looking at your own fears and prejudices when it comes to your brothers and sisters from other parts of the galaxy.  You will need to come to terms with experiences that you have had in this lifetime and in past lives as you awaken those memories.

“The memories we are referring to here are the ones involving e.t.s who have either knowingly done you harm or unintentionally have created trauma within you.  Remember of course that everything is happening by co-creation and that you would only create an experience that would trigger fear within you because you needed to have that experience.

“So it is time for letting go, and it is time for tuning in to those emotions that come up when you consider being abducted, experimented on, or invaded by extra-terrestrial races.  All of these things have happened at some point in your history as a being who has incarnated all across the galaxy.  It’s time to make peace with that, and it’s time to consider that others can evolve, just like you.

“Now you are still going to need to use your discernment, but that discernment needs to come from your feelings and not from the facts that you have compiled.  So prepare yourselves for much more contact, and do it now, before the ships start landing and you have to face those fears all at once.  This method that we are proposing is going to make everything easier on you as you shift and ascend.”

This second example is an advertisement, and I’m not specifically endorsing Restore™ (though I do use it), but the text is a very concise description of the real threat that Glyphosate poses to our health, and what we can do about it.  It’s easy to associate Glyphosate (RoundUp) with GMO foods, but it’s less known that Glyphosate is used almost universally on non-GMO Grains and Sugars…

http://blog.restore4life.com/cancer-and-the-truth-about-pesticides/

And what have you been reading lately about Global Warming?  I often catch myself thinking, “You guys better get your act together.  I’m too old to be around for most of the carnage, but many of you aren’t!”  And then I think about my next Lifetime and where and when that might be.  And really, how many other Parallel Lifetimes is my Soul Living right now, and what are my age and circumstances in those?

When you read about the impacts of Global Warming that are already happening around the World, are you like me more readily Empathic with some folks and circumstances than with others?  That’s probably an excellent clue about where your Other Personas might be hanging out.  For instance, some of those Tropical Beaches have my name on them.  You can read it in the Sand when you kick the plastic aside.

https://www.permaculture.co.uk/news/extinction-rebellion-rebellion-day-london

A logical place to start discussing the Sedna Station is its Conjunction (Merger) with asteroids Lachesis (Conscious Choice of Timelines) and Juno (the Growing Edge of Consciousness) and its Waning Square (Challenge to Let Go) from Klotho-Mercury (Awareness that we need to Start Over).  Or the Grand Cross to the Nodes (Threats to our Survival and Mission) – that’s the biggest Zodiac-Spanning Configuration.  So let’s come back to those later, and start with the Chiron T-Square…

The Chiron T-Square (red triangle) and its many emoluments (blue and green lines) are drawn in heavy lines.  The basic Challenge is pretty Profound – Accepting our Unlimited Positive Potential (dwarf planet Chaos) by Trusting that our Forbidden Genius (Eurydike-Ixion) will know how to Transcend Despair and find Miracles (Chiron).

The primary Gift to make this Challenge Easier is the Truss Bridge (Double Trine Bridge, blue lines) formed by Mercury-Klotho (Acknowledging that we’re at a Cultural Dead End and we need to Begin Anew) and Uranus-Mars-Eris (Listening to the Soul’s Assertive Calls to Action around What We’ve been Denying).  If it’s been increasingly Difficult to keep your Forbidden Genius in the closet lately, this may be why.  You don’t understand the Relationship between your Forbidden Genius and your Mission, but your Genius does.

You’ll notice too that the T-Square is holding a Parasol (Gift of Grace) – the small triangle of blue lines that also point to Chiron, from the South Node (Held Emotions) and Stationary Sedna itself, with its companions Lachesis and Juno (Becoming Aware of our Unconscious Fears and Choosing Alternatives).  Our Held Emotions are going to be the most serious of our Unconscious Fears, almost by definition.  If we’re Feeling Fatigued or vaguely Sour, we’re probably sitting on the tip of these Nightmare Icebergs.

While this is a great deal of Grace, it’s also Complex, and doesn’t specify a definite Path to Transcendence.  But the chart also says, Clearly, Pay Attention! – to the Haumea-Aletheia-Pallas Stellium (the Truth about the New Boundaries we’re being Reborn into) at the bottom of the chart.  The big green wedge that points to it is called a Finger of God, and it means Pay Attention!

At the base (upper, wider end) of the Finger of God are both Chiron and Sedna et al.  Have you been Learning that Karma is Dead, and that if you Choose not to Grasp it when it Threatens, it’ll get bored and go bother someone else?  Even if you’ve only been practicing that on minor Self-Sabotages, if you’ve seen any Success at all with it, or with Poor-Sweetheart, or with Tapping, or with PIAVA and its many corollaries, then you’ve Learned that whatever you’ve been most Hesitant to Approach, may just turn out to be No Big Deal.

Our Held Emotions are probably like that.  Sure, it was the shits when those Palefaces in the covered wagon shot up your whole family.  But guess what.  That was then, this is Now.  The chart Invites us to PIAVA that our Held Emotions be Exposed as the Paper Tigers that they are, mere Shadows.  All you need to Eliminate Shadows is to cast Light on them.  If you use Light from all sides now, from up and down, but still somehow – Wait, wrong song! – you can Eliminate Shadows completely.  That’s what the Unseen Therapist does.

We might try PIAVAs like…

“I Wonder if it’s Possible to just Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely Blow Away my Held Emotions, as if they Never Were.”

“Ganeshi My Love, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Effortlessly Letting Go of my Held Emotions Completely.”

Held Emotions, if you’re new to the concept, are those which you’d rather Die than Feel.  Your thoughts are “I’d rather Die than Experience that again.”  But, as our Poor-Sweethearts have so clearly Illustrated, our Identity is very Flexible.  So the real situation is “I’d rather Die than Experience that again.”  In other words, you’re Inviting an Ego Death, or Shift in your Identity.  When we Resist Ego Death, it gets hard.  But it’s the Resistance that makes it hard – there’s no reason why an Ego Death can’t be as easy as just Choosing a Different Approach, or changing your pants.

If you’re new here, you might want to look up…

Use the Category list on the right to look up any other term that’s not clear; if there isn’t a Category list on the right, find it on the home page at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/.

Even if you aren’t Feeling what you usually refer to as “Fear,” you can still use Kegels.  See what happens when you do.  Different people can have very different names for the same Emotions.  We all Experience the World Uniquely.

In the same way that Cold is the Absence of Heat, Fear is the Absence of Love – from that Perspective neither Cold nor Fear actually Exist; they’re just very low levels of Warmth and Love.  Fear is Cold and Hard; Love is Soft and Warm.  It’s good to remember that whenever there’s Discomfort in your Body – nothing Heals quite like Love.  Notice when you’re Hardening yourself against Pain or Discomfort, and Soften and Warm instead.

And while I’m not so sure about the Alligators, I otherwise wholeheartedly Agree with Dale…

https://dalegreenearts.gallery/2019/01/28/john-dor-prairie-home/

“I returned to this place and the place is the same but I am not.  And the thing I discovered is that we are what we love, not what we fear.  But here is the unique miracle of our existence.  Of all the creatures that have ever risen and fallen on this tiny round stone traveling through nothing – we are able to choose.  Imagine an alligator deciding one day to be a vegetarian.  It can’t happen.  Alligators don’t have the capacity to choose.

“But we do.  We can choose.  We can wake up every day and choose.  So what do we choose?  Some choose anger, some bitterness, some loneliness.  But some,  far too few, choose peace and happiness and love.  And every day we all have the same day, the same now, the same choice.  No matter what our outer circumstances, we can choose how we regulate the inner world where we live.  And today I choose here.  And I choose now.  And I choose love.”

Did you know that Antarctica is On Fire?

Self-Judgment and Self-Love VI

January 20, 2019

Did we emphasize enough how we might Respond to encountering any Impediments to our Self-Love?  The Easiest would probably be Poor-Sweethearting.  All you have to do is say to yourself, silently or not, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Guilty, aren’t you.” for, e.g., Guilt.  You could plug in any other Self-Judgment, or a different verb, such as “Discouraged,” or even “you’d rather Die, wouldn’t you.”

But before we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, we may want to get Conscious of how we’re Identifying ourself.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’d rather Die, wouldn’t you” might be exactly what you need if you’re Identifying with Extricating yourself from a situation that has no other exits.  But we can make an intermediate step – Identifying with what we’re Feeling.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Hopelessness, aren’t you” Identifies that you’re dealing with an Emotion rather than hardcopy 3D Reality.

Emotions can be Crippling, we know that, but they aren’t the Whole Story.  There are always other Perspectives.  Just Acknowledging that we’re dealing with an Emotion, rather than a Complete Reality, Expands our Awareness because we can’t help but Realize now that there are other things in the Universe besides Emotion.  For many of us, our Emotions are our Bottom Line, but they aren’t Everything.  So doing your Poor-Sweetheart once again with Feeling is useful, but it’s not the real point of Poor-Sweethearting.

When you talk to yourself and address yourself as “You,” you Step Out of your former Identity.  When you talk to yourself Compassionately, you’re no longer Identifying with the Bummer you want to Leave Behind, you’re now Identifying with Compassion – you’re actually stepping into Self-Love.  As long as you aren’t saying it Sarcastically, by adding the Poor you also take a step toward Empathy.

Our Self-Talk and our Thoughts Reveal where our actual Identity sits in any given moment.  Becoming Aware that we’re Talking to Ourself and that we’re Thinking, is a major Expansion of Consciousness, especially if we can make it a Habit.  When we shift from “I’d rather Die” to “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair, aren’t you,” our Identity shifts first from Despair itself, to our Emotions.  We Create Miracles by taking the next step – we Change the Subject.

We’ve Poor-Sweethearted ourself, now we need to Step Aside so it can do its work.  If we continue to focus on Despair or Emotion after we’ve Poor-Sweethearted ourself, we aren’t using the Power inherent in it.  Think of a Bummer, even a tiny one, for a minute.  Then Poor-Sweetheart yourself about it, then look to see if your Mood or Vibration has shifted.  I always feel much Lighter afterward, and I suspect you will too.

Once we move our Attention away, the Magic can happen.  If we’re still thinking about the Bummer, nothing has Changed, and we may need to try another strategy, like Tapping.  Toggling back and forth from Poor-Sweethearting to Tapping, and back again, as many times as you need to, could be very Powerful.  Our Habitual Thoughts are Cages that stop us from entering the Dangerous (to the Ego) world of Growth.  Only by Changing the Subject can we allow the bars to re-form to Enclose a larger space.

A technical note: Feeling Like does not introduce an Emotion, it introduces a Thought.  The word Feeling must be followed by a word that indicates an Emotion, before you’re really dealing with Emotion.  If you’re Feeling Like Shit, you’re still in your Thoughts.  You’re Referring to neither your Emotions nor your Physical Body, but your Judgments about one or the other, or both.  Judgments are Thoughts.  Differentiating your Emotions from your Thoughts is a very Powerful Growth in Consciousness all by itself.

The chart of today’s (20 January 9:15 pm PST) 1 Leo Total Lunar Eclipse Vitality Full Moon, apart from the Grand Octile, is busy…

But if you look at the big blue triangle (Grand Trine, aka Dumb-Luck Blessings), you’ll notice that Chiron (it looks like a key) and Ceres (like an upside-down cuphook) are two of the three corners – Moon-Varuna-North Node (Instincts-Life Force-Mission) is the third.  Plus, by adding Sun-South Node-Karma-Atropos-Mercury (Essence-Held Emotions-Bad Habits-Endings-Awareness; it’s a story problem – make a sentence including all five of these concepts) we make a Kite (Directed Dumb-Luck Blessings).

So whatever else is going on here at the Sappho-Station Total-Lunar-Eclipse Vitality Full Moon, the route to making it all Effortless lies through Chiron (Despair, Miracles, Poor-Sweethearting) and Ceres (Sustainability) – making it a Lifetime Habit to Poor-Sweetheart yourself at the first sign of distress.  You aren’t Avoiding anything by Poor-Sweethearting it; you’re Stepping Out of the Way so your Heart (aka your Inner Female) can Love it to death without interference from the Limitations of your Present-Moment Ego.

Dr. Kim is on track with the Year of Self-Love as well – if like me you’re irritated by the constant movement of the camera, you may want to click to a blank tab so you can Listen without the distraction…

I wonder if it’d be easier to watch if I said to myself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Irritiated, aren’t you.”  Let me give it a try…  Yup, complete transformation!

Wow XI

December 11, 2018

Another reader writes…

“Thank you as always for your excellent and enlightening insights – this week and always!  I wanted to share a strange thing that happened recently, as it pertains to the alignments this week.  I’m accustomed to following my natal and transiting chart regularly, and my own knowledge and awareness is constantly growing, much to which is to your credit.

“Roughly two years ago, and what a year 2016 was, I was living in London where I’d been relocated for work.  There were many absolutely awful occurrences over the course of my time there – on the global and personal scale – but what totally upended my entire time there and ultimately my entire career was a seemingly fated freak accident that occurred immediately after I landed back in London, on January 6, 2017.

“I tripped on a cobble stone, on Abbey Road no less, and split my knee open end to end in a deep gash that required 23 stitches, put an air bubble in the joint itself, and required 2 follow-up surgeries, the second of which I had when I returned home to the states.  I ended up leaving that job and I’ve been in a very odd state of flux in the meantime, trying to ground myself.

“What is odd is that two nights ago, December 9, I was walking home carrying a bag of groceries, and very intently thinking about the knee injury and how long the recovery took and how much I needed to push forward with exercising more – with everything, really.  Not even within 60 seconds of this very distinct thought process, I tripped into an open pothole in my street – flailing for what felt like an eternity before slamming down EXACTLY on the direct spot that my January 6 injury hit, directly on the most scarred part where the surgeon had removed a lot of damaged tissue.

“I could hardly believe it, or that it was mere coincidence, so as soon as I limped back inside I looked at my natal/transiting chart for Jan 6 2017 and that day’s chart of Dec 9.  I know Capricorn rules knees (and career) and thus Saturn as ruler carries those influences as well.  On that January day, the sun and pluto were in close conjunction in Cap on my descendant, as well as transiting Saturn on my natal Karma (in Sag but house ruled by Cap).

“BZ has been fascinating me lately and I really appreciate your latest interpretations of meaning.  Currently as you know the moon (as of the 9th anyway) Saturn, BZ and Karma are all right around the exact positions they were in Jan 2017.  Moira is smack on my ascendant at the moment, directly across from Pluto.

“Apologies for the long story, but I’m trying my darn best to find the message here – I can’t help but think that 2 falls to the same knee, same spot, and particularly when I was so consciously aware of the injury directly before the second fall and didn’t prevent it anyway – that something is bringing me to my “knees” – and I feel like I’m missing the message entirely.  Is this all because of the Pluto Capricorn position?

“If Moira is on my ascendant I am hoping it will help me release the kinds of karmic repetitions I seem to be caught up in. I’d love to be grounded – with both knees – and I can’t tell what I’m missing here, but just thought I would share, and thank you again for all your illuminating brilliance. :-)”

Wow is right!  Talk about “Coincidences”!

For a while during the 1980s I was doing “content-free” readings.  I’d make no attempt to interpret or predict what was going on, I’d just tell clients that their Experience of the next month would be similar to their Experience of such-and-such a month in the past (when their Transits were similar).  One client responded that they didn’t think this was going to be possible, because at the earlier time she was busy Attending to her infant daughter, and she was now beyond child-bearing age.  A month later she wrote back to say that she was busy Attending to her infant granddaughter because her daughter had been unexpectedly unable to do so.

Thanks, by the way, for your kind words!  Namaste!

The first thing that pops to mind for me is how important it is to be Conscious of what we’re thinking about, so that we’re able to interrupt the thinking process by saying “Cancel, Neutralize, Update” whenever we catch ourself thinking about any result we don’t Want.

The Ritual is short for Cancel those thoughts, Neutralize the Vibrations they’ve Created, and Upgrade the person who thought them – namely us.

The Universe seems to be Telling or Reminding you about how much Power you have.  As Dan Scranton’s Arcturian friends put it, Nothing Manifests into hardcopy Reality without first being Manifested as Energy – without first being Consciously or Unconsciously PIAVAed in other words.  All Prayers are answered, and all thoughts are actually Prayers.  So whichever part of the Universe is in charge of Physical Manifestation, It/They heard your thoughts as an Intention.  Which is an ever-present danger for all of us, even if we rarely Experience it so vividly.

There’s the Mindfulness Perspective, and a Powerful Reminder that thinking is always a major impediment to Mindfulness and Spontaneity.  Often thinking prevents Mindfulness completely.  Do you remember what you were thinking about when that Abbey Road cobblestone interrupted you?

I hope your knee wasn’t seriously hurt this time.

If so, Gratitude that you can make a “misstep” with less serious Consequences now, relative to two years ago, and Self-Recognition for your Progress, are very much in order.  Remember that our Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp it.  Whenever it recurs, we have the Choice of thinking…

“Shitodear, that again!  Will I ever be free of that?”

or thinking…

“Oho, there’s that old Karmic Pattern again, trying to trick me into getting Heavy about it again.  No, I’m hip to that Pattern.  I’ll just PIAVA that I’m done with it.”

Angels can fly because they take themselves Lightly.

It would be a good place to do Theta and Tapping together, where we Theta that we’re done with it…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I am Complete with the Pattern of Injuring my Knees.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  Show me…”  (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/)

Then if you get a picture in your mind’s eye that your knees are fine, or a Feeling in your Belly that All Is Well, you’re done.  If you get a Troubling picture or Feeling, then Tap It Out

“Even though I’m injuring my knees too often, I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself…”  (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4)

Then do the Theta again, to see if the Outcome has changed.

Keep repeating the duet until you’re Clear, each time making whatever modifications to your Theta Command and your Tapping setup statement that seem to be Meaningful in the moment.

(That’s Eric Clapton on lead guitar in this version.)

This is an hour long, but Nick is a leading proponent of Tapping as a Tool for anyone to “Try on Everything.”  If you haven’t watched much in the way of EFT videos, I highly recommend you watch it…

I think this is the most important Lesson any of us have to Learn, that Karma is Dead.  Only its Echo Lives in our Expectations and Fears, where we Unconsciously Choose to perpetuate it, until we Realize…

“Wait a minute, I Create My Own Reality.”

That statement becomes indisputably true when we Realize that “I” doesn’t mean our Ego, it means our Complete Entity, our Soul if we can use the word that way, to mean the Full Spiritual, Emotional, intellectual, Physical, Egoic Entity that we are.  As Popeye would say, “I Yam What I Yam.”

One way to Rectify Ego with Creating-Our-Own-Reality, is to refer to the part of us which is Disconnected from our Sense of Self, as “Unconscious.”  We postulate that there is an Unrecognized part of ourself that Wants our Attention, and is desperate enough for it that it’s willing to Hurt us to get it.  Then our Path is clearly Getting to Know this Stranger!  We might use a Gestalt technique, with two chairs, or we might just Recognize that Hey, this is the Unconscious, which means that we don’t have Conscious access to it, so we have to use PIAVA techniques (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/).

Since we’ve Identified a place where we’re a Victim, we could even Poor-Sweetheart ourself – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re unintentionally Hurting your knees, aren’t you.”  It was Chiron that was Lit Up on 9 December after all, Chiron the Adept at Making us Aware of our Victim places, the places where we Give Away our Power.  What was Chiron up to in your January 2017 Transits?  (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/).

Just to take this a step further, our approach to the Unconscious more or less follows Jung’s Perspective, that the Unconscious (not Subconscious) represents the rest of our Wholeness, beckoning to us.  But I’ve been reading RJ Stewart lately, an expert on Irish/Celtic Mythology.  The Celts may be the remnant of Atlantean Wisdom that survived in Europe.

RJ tells us that there’s no such thing as the “Unconscious,” there’s only Other Realities in other Dimensions.  If we intersect the notion of {Karma as information left over from Past Lives} with the notion that {All There Is Is Now}, this is an obvious introduction to Parallel Lives.

But this kind of turns our notion of Karma on it’s head.  It’s as if what was Karma becomes Bleedthrough, where one of “our” (not the Ego but the Complete Entity) Parallel Lifetimes is providing Riddles to the Lifetime that we usually Believe is the only one we’re Living, Riddles that will help us toward Integration.  As if our Complete Entity is Weaving a Complex Conspiracy to make each of us parts or spawn of Itself, Conscious of as much of us as possible.

So our Karma becomes our Introduction to the Rest of Ourself.  Of course, we usually interpret Karma (the South Node) as our Held Emotions, those we’d rather Die (ie, Ego Death) than Feel, and which obscure the Hidden Skills we need to Achieve our Mission in the Lifetime.  If our Ultimate Mission is Integration with our other Parallels, then this fits perfectly.

We also usually think of our current Lifetime as a Courtesy Mission to help our Host Planet deal with an Obstacle to its own Integration (though it’s presumptuous to assume a planet isn’t already Integrated).  Since our current Lifetime is a cell in the Consciousness of the Planet – we aren’t Separate – Expansion of our own Consciousness is actually a small Integration for the Planet.

Finally, we need a short note about Moira.  The Greek Tragedies describe what happens when we’re not Mindful of what’s going on around us.  They’re written to make us Feel Trapped in our Fate, but Conscious Awareness – of our Karma – turns our Fate into Choice.  So the prominence of Moira is a Tell that we’re ready to Transcend the Victimhood of Karma.

Wow VII

December 9, 2018

This Chiron-Station (9 December 12am PST) chart is worth another look…Chiron (Pain/Miracles) itself is the focus of a T-Square (Challenge) from Chaos (Unlimited Potential) and Ixion-Pholus (Being Responsive to our Forbidden Genius).  That’s pretty big.  It says that our Discomfort is arising from our failing to Stretch far enough into the Big Opportunity that would be Created by Opening to our Forbidden Genius.  We intuitively know what a Gift we’re Rejecting.  So how to intervene?  Poor-Sweethearting our Victim.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you aren’t feeling on top of the World, are you.”

Then Change the Subject, put your Attention on something else, something unrelated.  If you try to intellectualize the situation you’ll just screw it up, because you’ll impose your Old Limitations on it.  We need to Escape our Old Limitations, not run back to their Safety.  To be continued…

Wow II

December 3, 2018

When trying to grok something that’s happening, you want to look for Exact Events, to the Arcminute or at least within one Degree, like both Uranus and the Nodes being at 29:06 on 2 December.  For further grokking the Event, let’s back off to 3-Degree Sensitivity – here’s the Uranus-Nodes T-Square on that Time Scale…

Venus (Values) steps in to complete the Grand Cross, and South Node is joined by Vesta (Beliefs) and Klotho (Beginnings).  Since Hupers are Real rather than Dual, they’re filled with Contradictions, and Healthily so.  So there’s no requirement that anyone’s Values and our Beliefs Align with one another.  But if we aim to “Ascend” to a more Collaborative Life, it will behoove us to Align both with our Mission and our Soul – and this Event provides exactly that Opportunity.

We could say that we’re Beginning (Klotho) to Recognize (Mercury Stationary in a Quincunx Bridge across the Soul-Values Opposition) that our Limiting Beliefs (Vesta) have descended from our Held Emotions (South Node) – it’s not that the World is Limited, it’s that The Emotions We Don’t Want to Feel Limit our Experience of the World.  Reading that relative to my Experience of 2 December, I Realize that I Avoid Embarrassment at all costs, and the Avoidance helps to Separate me from What I Want.  Of course it’s never that simple, but nevertheless that is a new Insight.

Chiron (Pain/Miracle), which is Stationary (Strong), makes a Trine Bridge (Easy Path) across the Nodal Axis, suggesting that we may be able to Poor-Sweetheart our Resistance to Growth.  For me that might be “You Poor Sweetheart, you don’t like to be Embarrassed, do you.”

For Newbies or Reminders, see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/ for more information about Poor-Sweethearting.

Stationary Mercury (Awareness), joined by Trust (Eurydike), also makes a Trine Bridge across the Nodal Opposition, so another Easy Path to Growth in this Timeline is through Trusting our Observations.  So even though my Skeptic is saying, “So what, everybody hates Embarrassment,” I need to Reject that Judgment and Change the Subject.  Changing the Subject is part of making a Poor-Sweetheart Create Miracles.

In fact, Chiron and Mercury-Eurydike are two corners of a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings) with the North Node (our Mission in the Lifetime), making a Kite to Klotho-Vesta-South Node, indicating that we very much have the Wind at our Back here.  The Caution is that we don’t want to try to pin it down to concisely, as we’ll go much farther with Questions (or PIAVAs) than Answers (the three Quincunx Bridges).

The Soul-Values (Uranus-Venus) Duality gets Assistance (Trine Bridge) from a Strong Response to our Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar).  However, there’s a Challenging Relationship between our Poor-Sweethearting (Chiron) and our Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar).  We can help Resolve that potential Challenge by Wondering how our Survival Instincts might be Related to our Lifetime Mission – should we be more Cautious, or more Fearless, about our Survival?  That’s a Question.  You don’t want to Answer it (Chiron-Square-Pholus/Quaoar-Quincunx-North Node-Trine-Chiron Tricolor).

While this astroevent is in effect, if you encounter a situation where you aren’t sure whether to take a Risk or seek Security, let it remain an Unanswered Question.  Don’t Answer with your Dualistic Mind; see if you can find a way to let your Body or your Passions or your Spirit Respond Intuitively or Impulsively at the last minute.  The Quincunx is the ultimate PIAVA Angle in astrology.  If you stay within your Conceptual Cage, you’ll just Create more Limiting Beliefs instead of more Growth.

See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/ if you aren’t absolutely certain what we mean by PIAVA.

Remember that Confusion is the first stage of Growth.

Self-Doubt 5

October 24, 2018

When we Deny something it’s often because we don’t like it, and often it’s something about ourself on one level or another.  Denial is Repression by another name, or Banishment into the Unconscious.  Unfortunately, the Unconscious has more Power over us than our Consciousness or Ego.  So Denial always comes with a cost, and almost always a cost that we become Victim to, Projecting it onto Others or onto “Fate.”  We eliminate these Self-Sabotages by bringing them into Consciousness.

Which isn’t always Easy, but at times the Astrology gives us a hand – or an ultimatum.  That usually involves dwarf planet Eris.  We spoke about Eris’s involvement in the 26 October Sappho-Station chart in Self-Doubt 3, at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/10/21/self-doubt-3/.  Given the critical role of Denial in Self-Love, we believe that the Eris-Haumea Yin Gate, that we described therein, is the most important part of the Sappho-Station chart.

However, Sappho herself wan’t involved in that Yin Gate.  So, what of Sappho herself while she’s Front and Center?  She’s no shrinking Violet here.  First and foremost, she is Merged with (Conjoins) dwarf planet Chaos, which we’ll abbreviate “dp Chaos” here in order to make it clear when we’re referring to the actual planet.  Dp Chaos doesn’t symbolize Disorder.  “Chaos” was the condition of Reality that the Greek Gods found and brought Order to.  In fact though, much of Greek Mythology is about murdering the previous, or Matriarchal, Order.  So we could Easily equate dp Chaos with the Demise of the Patriarchy.

We give the Greeks some backhanded credit, though, by focusing on their notion of Disorder, and considering dp Chaos to symbolize Unlimited Potential.  What to any given agenda is Disorder, is actually not only Order of another Dimension, but also the Potential for Unlimited Change, since we have no shortage of Dimensions.

Of course a given Huper Lifetime has Potential somewhat Limited by its Soul’s Mission.  But if you consider our many Detours on this path toward our Mission, Variation is more prominent than Limitation.  And, when we become Aware of the Parallel Lives of our Soul, our Variation becomes almost Infinite, if not truly so.  Then add the fact that We Are All One, and you multiply our Potential Diversity by an additionally infinite number of infinities.  And we haven’t even considered non-Huper Entities.  Thus, Unlimited Potential.

So, when you think about asteroid Sappho, symbol of Self-Love, Standing Still only a Degree from dp Chaos, symbol of Unlimited Potential, I would hope you will find yourself among the Stars.  Back in the Olde Days we would have called it “mind-blowing,” as the birdcage of our everyday Ego and Conceptual Matrix and Emotional Limits Exploded into Cosmic confetti. 

Watch for this.  Don’t turn away from it in Fear or Horror.  It may be subtle, or it may Feel like a sword to the belly, like it may have been for some Wall Street traders today.  Remember that the Duality of Self-Love is Self-Doubt, so when Self-Doubt arises, know that its purely a graphic illustration of a corner of your Life where you’re not in Self-Love, a corner that needs correcting ASAP.  Without Self-Love, you’re condemned to repeat the soap opera without end.

Here’s the chart…

You can see that Self-Love and Unlimited Potential are Challenged (T-Square) by Truth (Aletheia) and Suffering/Miracles (Chiron).  What’s the lever that converts Suffering to Miracles?  Self-Empathy, a particularly precious form of Self-Love.  The Challenge is to Remember Self-Empathy every time we encounter Suffering.

And you can see that it’s Opposed by our Forbidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion) and our Willingness to Respond to Support it (dwarf planet Pholus).  Rudhyar’s advice that “When we don’t follow our nature there is a hole in the universe where we were supposed to be” points directly at our Forbidden Genius – the places where our Programmers shut us down. 

No Blame (except in the beginning when you’re Letting Go of your pent-up Anger about it), your Soul hired them to give you something to push against so you wouldn’t blow the Lifetime posting selfies on your Facebook page.  Do we know who our Forbidden Genius is?  Notice that Eris and Haumea are both Pathfinders (Trine Bridges) for Sappho-Chaos Opposing Ixion-Pholus.  In other words, it would be a fine time to stumble into a Rebirth of your Forbidden Genius through Reclaiming what’s been Denied.

Of course since Denial is all about the Unconscious, and the Unconscious, since it’s Unconscious, isn’t accessible to us through everyday Actions.  We might be able to Notice parts of it by analyzing everyday Actions, but that a very slow way to get Conscious. So we PIAVA.  I’m guessing that most of us actually know our Forbidden Genius, we just don’t know how to Integrate it into the rest of our Lives.

When we put all these elements together, we might come up with something like…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that my Forbidden Genius be Reborn into Polite Company and that the Resulting Integration Convert Suffering to Miracles and Open Up Unexpected Vistas of Opportunity and Ease for me.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you God/Goddess! … Show Me.”

Oh.  Did I mention Daniel Scranton’s recent Channeling from the Arcturians? …

We are putting forth an invitation to anyone and everyone who wants to experience the up-leveling of your vibration.  We are offering this service because we know that there is nothing better for you than to put out a higher frequency of vibration, and we love so much to give to all of you in whatever way that we can.  In order to receive our up-leveling, all you need to do is state your intention to receive it as you are drifting off to sleep.

“The delivery system will be through a meeting that will take place in the astral realm.  That is where you are able to meet ninth dimensional beings at this time.  And so we are happy to meet up with you and to provide you with this service.  Now, you are going to experience some changes once you receive this vibrational upgrade.  You are going to heal more quickly.  You will receive more inspired ideas.  You will feel more joy, and love will flow easily to you and through you.

“We have seen the results of these vibrational upgrades in those who have accepted them from us in the past, and we are very pleased with how you all shift your vibrations so easily when you are open to receive.  We also want you to recognize that we are really just the facilitators here.  You are the ones who will accept our invitation, and you are the ones who will meet us in the astral plane so that you can receive what was always yours for the taking.

“A higher vibration is your birthright, and as many factors as there are on your world that keep your vibrations in the lower frequency range, there are as many of us in the higher realms looking to support you in holding a higher vibration.  We always have and we always will.”

Summer of Self-Love V

September 26, 2018

The Big Deal here is that Chiron has Retrograded back into Pisces.  Chiron often means Despair if you get Lost in your Feelings, and Miracles if you Empathize with your Feeler (that’s you) – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair again, aren’t you” – said to yourself.  And of course no one gets Lost in their Feelings more than Pisces.

We tend to Identify with our Emotions and thoughts – you can tell when that’s happening just by “Watching your Language” – when we say “I Am Angry,” Angry’Я’Us – we and Anger are the same, we’re Identified with the Emotion.  That’s actually very different from “I Feel Angry,” where an Emoter’Я’Us, not an Emotion.  This is not a silly distinction.  Go a step further and say to yourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Angry, aren’t you,” and now Empathy’Я’Us.  Empathy Heals, especially Self-Empathy.

There’s another Important Distinction that we all need to Learn – the Difference between Emotions and Thoughts.  Emotions happen in your Body in the Present Moment.  If you stop and Experience your Body in Real Time when you’re Feeling Anger, you’ll find all kinds of things going on – jaw jutting forward, teeth grinding, belly tightened, any number of Sensations.  That is Emotion.

Now, when we’re Angry we usually Talk to ourself to pump up our Anger.  “That so-and-so did such-and-such to me and I don’t like it.  How could anyone be such a creep!  Grrrrr”  That’s not Emotion.  That is thought.  Thought does horrible thing to Emotions.  We totally Abandon the Body and the Present Motion, and bury ourself (literally) in our thoughts about our Emotion, and in the “Past” (they did such-and-such!) and “Future” (that’ll ruin our plans!).

Past and Future are Illusions.  Really, All There Is Is Now.  Like Ram Dass liked to say, “Be Here Now.”  That’s all that’s Real.  And your thoughts, noisy and irrepressible as they are, are not Real either.  Thoughts don’t Grow Corn.

While Anger makes a good example, because it’s pronounced in the Body and because it’s so evocative of self-reinforcing thoughts, Anxiety and Despair are more important Emotions to Examine.  Where and How does Anxiety Feel in the Body in the Present Moment?  Anxiety is tricky.  It could show up as an Urge to Eat, whether we’re actually Hungry or not.  Or as Nausea.  It could show up as Vibration in the Body, or Restlessness, or an urge to check our smartphone, or to buy something. 

Often a way to Identify Anxiety is by the Obsessive and Circular thoughts that accompany it.  When thoughts are Obsessive and Circular, we need to Ask ourself, What’s Going On in My Body Right Now?  While any Emotion can go Unconscious, Anxiety is very good at it.  Anxiety may be Unconscious low-grade Fear, and our Circular Obsessions Efforts to Keep ourself Safe. 

We Liberate ourselves from Circular Obsessions by Getting into the Present Moment.  What do I Feel in my Body, Where, Right Now?  Developing this Habit – shifting from Focusing on the Content of our thoughts about our Feelings, to Identifying the Feelings themselves as Sensations in our Present-Moment Body – is Life-Changing.

Another complexity around Anxiety – it’s often not even Ours.  If Obsessive Circular thoughts keep recurring even when we Identify the Emotion in our Body, it’s worth a try to take the first person who comes to mind, and Mirror them.  Hold up an imaginary wardrobe Mirror facing them for a few minutes, which watching to see if your Inner Sensations Change.  While this Habit of Mirroring may end up being more complicated, it can also become Life-Changing.

Then there’s Despair, Chiron’s favorite “Unhealable Healer” Emotion.  When I think about Despair, other than slumping shoulders and a downward chin, I can’t even Identify what my Physical Sensations would be.  It’s as if Despair is just a thought trap, where all of our thoughts focus on negative outcomes and negative regard for self.  It hardly qualifies as an Emotion, it’s more a shitstorm of thoughts.

Chiron hangs out in Pisces till mid-February before returning to Aries “for good” (well, for nine years; it doesn’t return to Pisces till 2061).  You can see that this really is an Opportunity.  You could easily make a case that many of the Souls here today are here to take advantage of Chiron in Pisces, because it’s the Ideal environment for Finishing Business with the Held Emotions that Limit our Lives on many fronts.

With the 26 September Chaos Station still Prominent with its Limitless Potential – our Limitless Potential – there’s no better time than now to make that Shift.  Instantaneous Healing is not only Possible, it’s Available to you.  PIAVA it.  You never know what might happen.  You might Trip Out so far you never get back to know that you’ve left.  Oh, by the way, did I mention that the Chaos Station Squares Chiron?

 

in Despair, you’re likely to find your head drooping, your shoulders slumped

A Potentially Rough Week IV

August 27, 2018

A friend who has Chiron Lit Up in their natal chart worries about the Saturn-Chiron Square in the Full Moon chart…

I interpret Saturn as The Most Important Thing, and Chiron as Despair and Miracles, so this Square means that The Most Important Thing is for us to convert our Despair to Miracles.  How to do that?  The best method I’ve found is Self-Empathy.  You just say to yourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair aren’t you,” and then Change the Subject.  If your mind comes back to the Despair, do it again, maybe Tapping it Out first.

When the mind is in Despair, We Are (Our Identity Is) Despair.  Doesn’t Feel good.  As soon as we step outside of our current Despairing Self and Empathize with ourself, We Become Compassion.  Despair and Compassion Live in entirely different Worlds, even though the road signs might be the same.  Miracles that are not even remotely Possible in the Despair Universe are entirely Probably and even Everyday in the Compassion Universe. 

Of course our major hurdle at that point is Expectation; the Miracles we’d like to see happen are unlikely, because they’re Miracles engendered from Despair, and unlikely to exist in a Compassion Universe.  What is likely to happen, are Miracles that Open us to Paths that Despair was unable to See, and those Paths will lead to Places Unimagined.  So we have to stay Open, and the best way to do that is to Change the Subject – occupy ourself with something entirely different.

But we’re done with Saturn Square Chiron.  Its first “Can-Opener” occurrence was New Years 2017, its Retrograde Exposition occurrence was around May 1, 2017, and its final Confidence-Builder occurrence around November 1, 2017.  The only things remaining are its Ghosts.  They aren’t Real.  We can make them seem Real by Clinging to them.  That’s the Nature of Karma – it doesn’t Cling to us, we Cling to it.  We Clear Karma by Loving it to Death.

When you Meditate, Meditate Deeply on Despair.  Walk past the Fear and Locate it in your Body, and Love it there.  If you don’t know where it is, Ask yourself, “What if I did know?”  Love is Soft and Warm; Fear is Cold and Hard.  Put your hand over your Despair and Warm it Up.  Imagine Softening the area around it.  Open Up to it as if it’s a lost Kitten crying for your help.  PIAVA, “Great Spirit, Please help me Respond to Despair Lovingly, so that I can Let It Go Gently, Rapidly, and Completely.  Thank You, Great Spirit!”