The two Trine Bridges (Blessed Paths) in the 8 July Haumea Station-Lilith T-Square were from Vesta-Ixion and Moira-Chaos. Let’s examine those a bit.
The Vesta-Ixion Cycle is short enough that we’ve already noticed one Ixion-Vesta Initiation, in November 2014 – https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/11/18/newthought-portals/. The Cycle itself is about the Unconscious Beliefs that “we” (that is, us collaborating with our programmers and our Karma) use to keep our Hidden Genius Forbidden.
Hopefully we will use each Initiation and Cycle to skim the Edges off of those Beliefs so we can get closer and closer to Embracing the Held Emotions at their Core. Alternately, we’d be likely to use the Initiations and Cycles to cement our Karma further into Stone – we do that every time we re-Experience the Energy as its Victim, rather than using the Opportunity to become Conscious and Adept with it.
We used to say “Master,” but we’ve changed that to “Adept” to eliminate any connotation of Slavery or Hierarchy, which as elements of the Patriarchy, are dead meat.
The New Cycle was Initiated at the last Equinox, 23 March, in 28 Sagittarius. That’s the Galactic Center, so this Cycle means business. 28 Sagittarius is about “An old bridge over a beautiful stream is still in constant use.” Without the Bridge we’d have to Wade the Stream, or Endure the Emotion. So this year and the next few, we get to rediscover and use Ancient Techniques for Letting Go of the Restraints on our Forbidden Genius.
The Arch, which allowed folks to build Bridges when felling a tree or two didn’t work, like the Wheel, was a Miracle when someone “first” Channeled the idea. Before they Channeled the notion of Brakes, the Wheel probably killed a lot of folks, and early imperfectly implemented Arches probably tumbled on a lot of heads too. If you’ve ever tried building a small stone Arch, you know that it’s still a Miracle. When we think of Miracles, we think of Chiron, so maybe one of our Ancient Techniques is Empathy – Poor-Sweethearting ourself.
“You Poor Sweetheart, you don’t have Permission to let your Greatest Genius Shine through to the rest of the World, do you.”
The Planet is a giant jigsaw Puzzle, and Each one of us is a piece in the Puzzle. Before it can come together into a Collaborative, Peaceful, Magical World, Enough of us need to stop hiding our Light under a Basket, and Let the World Enjoy it. The other pieces that mate with it are Waiting. Yes, the Boundaries of those Limitations and Restraints are tinged with Pain, but with our current Rebirth, they’re worth Testing again, as the Pain may have Magically Dispersed.
If it hasn’t disappeared, the best way I know to Magically Disperse Pain is with Warmth and Softness. Locate it in your Body. It doesn’t matter if you don’t have the right place; here it’s Intention that counts. Warm that place with your Hand, while you Imagine the flesh around it getting Soft and Receptive. That brings in Blood, Energy from the Heart. When your mind wanders, patiently bring it back to Focus on the place where Pain still resides. When the Pain moves, you can Follow it, or you can take a break from the exercise – when the Pain moves, you’ve succeeded in breaking the Trance.
The Physical World is not Distinct or Separate from the World of Emotions or Spirit or thoughts or Beliefs or Limitations. Each is just an alternate view of the Unity, as if you were walking around a house to see it from all angles. Moving Pain in your Body and Shifting Limiting Beliefs are Surrogates for one another. That’s another Miracle – how often has anyone in your Culture showed you how to Shift the Physical World by Shifting your Emotions or your Thoughts or your Prayers. How often have you succeeded at it?
More than once I’m sure, but it’s still a Miracle, isn’t it, because it’s outside of our Birdcage-Belief that the Physical and Emotional and Mental and Spiritual Worlds are “Levels” Distinct from one another. Time to Realize that if you’ve seen these Miracles even once, it’s your Birdcage-Belief in Separation that’s Obsolete and Limiting. Time to Realize that Trust is what Separates Doubt from Faith. Doubt kills Miracles, Faith Creates them. You can’t fake Trust, but you can Intend it.
Imagine how Powerful you will be – using your Power for the Benefit of All, including yourself, of course – when you can address every roadblock in your path with Tools from ALL FOUR of your Toolbelts – Spiritual, Physical, Emotional, Mental. It doesn’t matter which of these Realms your roadblock Manifests in. You can address it with All Four. And many others – for instance, to these four astrology adds Creation, Stabilization, and Mutation.
You can Create a detour around your roadblock, Stabilize a Bridge over it, or Mutate it into a smooth path – in any of the Four Realms that you once considered to be Levels of Reality. You probably once considered them to be Hierarchical Levels even, where one was better than another, or at least more equal than the others. Hierarchies are dead meat, as is Separation. Imagine Living at the Edges where Spirit and Matter meet. Guess what – that’s where all Conscious Entities Live. And all Entities are Conscious, whether or not we’ve Conceived of their Identity as Entities yet.
This is where we’re going. Pure Magic, relative to where we’ve been. Take a Deep Breath and Imagine every roadblock in your Life dissolving into Nothing. This is the Rebirth we’re Experiencing right now. Breathe It In.
Okay, more about the Full Moon chart and the Partial Eclipse that’s a Gateway to the impending Big Total Solar Eclipse that shines a spotlight on the USofA…
As with all Signs, we can run them Positively or we can run them Negatively. Remember though that the World (and hopefully your segment of it) needs ultimately to be in Balance, and is Multidimensional as well, so don’t get stuck in Archetypes that worship either side of that Duality.
(Actually, the World and yourself are always in Balance, it’s just that whatever is needed to Balance your Conscious side resides in the Unconscious. Since the Unconscious actually rules us, then from this Perspective, the nicer you are, the meaner you really are – and vice versa.)
You’ve been to performances where you’ve been Exhausted afterward, and other performances where you’ve felt Energized after. That’s the difference between someone who builds their own Confidence by sucking other people’s Energy (we can think of a prominent example who lives in a house that’s being remodeled at the moment), and someone who Shares their Abundant Leonine Self-Love broadly. Abundance is having enough to Share, After all.
This is the Duality often represented by Leo, where Sun and Mars and Atropos (Endings) are all parked at this Full Moon, along with the North Node (Lifetime Mission), Veritas (Truth), and Varuna (Life Force). Varuna will be in Leo for the next quarter-century, which should put a very Auspicious carpet under this Planet for a long while. As for Mars in Leo, if we wrote a song about our Anger, would it draw a cheering crowd? And when we mingle with the crowd afterward, are they the kind of people we’d Feel at Home with?
We all need a place to return to where we are Understood and Respected and Loved for exactly Who We Really Are, so for all but the most Saintly among us, that first sort of Community is what we need to Create, to make a Safe Space for us while we put the finishing touches on our Saintliness. While Anger tends to Divide, the presence of Atropos suggests that Expressing our Anger may help to Let It Go.
This is what the Leo-Aquarius Axis, which this Full Moon Illuminates, is all about, the Coin that unites the Duality. Leo is the epitome of the Individual Self, Aquarius the epitome of Community. Leo represents Fixed Fire, Stabilized Energy, or Spirit Manifested into Form. Aquarius represents Fixed Air, Ideology, or Intellect Manifested into Form. Michael Roads goes to great lengths to differentiate Intellect from Intelligence. To him Intelligence derives from the Heart and Gut, while Intellect derives from the Left Brain.
The Intellect is more than capable of supporting Intelligence, though in the Patriarchy, it’s more likely to support Morality, Politics, and the Preservation of Privilege. Intellect is finely tuned for Logical Analysis, but Logic is a house of cards built upon Assumptions. Propaganda manipulates your Logic without being Clear that its Assumptions may not be Universal. To Transform Aquarius into Intelligence Manifested into Form, we need to Let Go of our Karmic Archetypes. Our Archetypes and Limiting Beliefs are no more and no less than Unconscious Assumptions. As long as they’re Unconscious, we can only see half of the Universe.
While Astrology deals with Dualities, it also deals with the Multidimensional. Leo and Aquarius are not Complete without the other two Fixed Signs, Scorpio and Taurus (and of course the Fixed Signs are not Complete without the Creative and Mutational Signs). Scorpio as Fixed Water or Emotion, and Taurus as Fixed Earth or Matter, represent the Stabilized Emotional and Material aspects of Reality. Of course, depending on your Archetypes, Emotion and Matter can be Stabilized into either Constructive or Deconstructive Directions.
The Klotho-Sappho Conjunction (Creating a New Timeline Based on Self-Love), which is the Focus of the Full Moon T-Square, is in Scorpio, so we’re dealing with an Emotional version of Self-Love. That means the tears that come naturally to your eyes when someone validates the parts of you that are Unseen – your Genius Project, for instance – and when someone perpetrates an Act of Kindness that your own Personal Values wish everyone would do All the Time. And the Grace you Feel when someone Validates your Anger. The Leo-Aquarius Full Moon is about the Dynamic between the Individual and the Collective – between You and Other.
Which means that the Taurus or Matter side of the Four-Dimensional Balance is Vacant – we need to Consciously Ground the Energy. Dan and the Arcfolk concur –http://danielscranton.com/a-process-for-connecting-with-5d-energies-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/. The Vacancy is at 16 Taurus, “The inadequacy of past knowledge in times of crisis.” Hmmm. I’d rephrase that as “…in times of rapid Change” – in a Stable environment, traditional knowledge is actually very Powerful in a crisis. But the point is that we need to PIAVA how to Ground ourself and our Milieu.
There is, however, a Fixed Star in that location, Almach, which is the left foot of the Sacrificial Goddess Andromeda. Foot as in Power, left as in Feminine Power. Andromeda is a symbol of an Out-of-Power Tradition victimized by the Dominant Paradigm. In other words it’s important to bring Self-Trust into Expression of our Anger, and to remember that our Intention is Self-Expression, not to be Understood. If the Perpetrators Understand our Anger at their Oppression, their Dominance will be threatened, and they will be highly Motivated to torment us further.
Our Objective in Expressing our Anger is not Revenge or Restitution, but to Let Go of its Karmic Grasp of us. Actually, our Karma does not Grasp us, our Ego Grasps it. It’s a foundation for our Ego. So to the Ego, it Feels as if it’s the Karma doing the Grasping. We cannot Raise our Vibration until we Let Go of our Archetypes, including our Anger. While it feels like we’re Angry at the Perps in our Present Life, it has Karmic Roots that will not be pulled out by striking out in the Present Life.
To Let Go of Anger or any strong Emotion, we need to start by Poor-Sweethearting it. Strong Emotions are not Comfortable, and we need to Empathize with our own Discomfort. “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel Angry, don’t you.” It’s meant as a declaration of Self-Compassion, not an Accusation. If being Angry makes you a bad person, find a substitute that isn’t. “Your poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Irritated, don’t you.” Or “Agitated,” or “Worked Up.” Then Change the Subject, and see how long it takes for your Anger to return as a thought-stream.
The next time it arises, Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4). If it’s at all serious, it will take several Iterations. Measure the Intensity of your Anger on a scale of 1 to 10 before and after each Iteration, so you can Witness your Progress. Alternate Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and any other PIAVA you can Create, making sure to Change the Subject after each process.
We should note that the Full Moon and the T-Square occur on the Midpoints of the Fixed Signs, which are the Power Points of the Zodiac, symbolizing the Four Horsepersons of the Apocalypse – Apocalypse to the Ego, Liberation of the Soul.
We mentioned Obsession recently in this context, as Obsession can make it particularly difficult to Change the Subject, and a reader wrote to ask us how one might address Obsession. Well, the first question I’d ask, is how might Obsession be indicated in their chart?
If it’s really an Appropriate Expression of their natality, then they may only need to Learn to Love it to Death. That may not stop the Obsession, but it would make it more Pleasant, as once they Learned that, Obsession would trigger Love and Pleasure for them instead of Discomfort. Of course, Learning to Love Obsession will likely involve a good deal of Ego Death, as at least some part of them wants it to go away, and they probably have a big backlog of Other People telling them it’s wrong. But that’s all just a map of where they need to go to Learn to be Loving with it.
So, is Obsession an Appropriate Expression of their natal chart? What would we look for?
Well, the most obvious place to start looking is Scorpio, and to a lesser extent Taurus. These signs, especially Scorpio, don’t Let Go when they get hold of something they don’t fully grok yet, especially something Emotional, and especially something that seems Unfair. Does our friend have planets in Scorpio?
Well, yes. seven of them. We work with 45 planets and other points, so the average Sign should contain less than four planets. So seven is a whole bunch.
We can start by what we would tell any Scorpio that might help them Love themselves…
Scorpio is Compelled to Get to the Bottom of Things. We first Meet Other in Libra, and it raises all kinds of Questions for us, about whether We’re Okay and They Aren’t or They’re Okay and We Aren’t, whenever there seems to be a Conflict or even Contrast between us. This is how we first Discover that our own Childhood may not have been as Loving as it could have been, so it’s not at all trivial.
It’s not easy for Anyone to get to You’re Okay and I’m Okay, and for Scorpio it becomes a Compulsion. It takes a great deal of Maturity to understand that the end point is You’re Okay and I’m Okay rather than You’re Okay or I’m Okay, which complicates the whole process until we Realize that. We also have to Realize that just because You’re Okay and I’m Okay, that doesn’t mean I have to Tolerate you if you aren’t my cup of tea.
Also, Scorpio is Fearless in their Pursuit of Truth. Fearlessness is the most prominent element of Scorpio. Other people do not Trust Scorpio, partly because Scorpio asks penetrating questions that require them to examine themselves more deeply than they usually like to, partly because Scorpio has a tendency to make and hold eye contact longer than most people are comfortable with. Other people often feel like Scorpio is Looking into the Soul (which it is), and if they aren’t fully in Self-Love, it makes them want to run away.
Because of these kinds of Reactions from Other, Scorpio is one of the most difficult Signs to Embody in Left-Brain-worshiping Western Cultures. Remember we aren’t talking about folks with Sun in Scorpio, we’re talking about anyone with a strong emphasis in Scorpio – or Pluto, Scorpio’s “Ruler” – in their natal chart or even in their Transits and Progressions.
These kinds of influences often draw Scorpio toward Addiction, and Teaching them to Love Themselves Exactly As They Are is the first step to helping them get out of Addiction, as the most prominent trigger for their Desire to Medicate is the Anxiety produced by their Need to Get to the Bottom of Things that are Forbidden to them. Strong Scorpio is a good indicator that a person’s Forbidden Genius lies in sophisticated Research of Private Investigation.
That’s the gist of what we would tell any Scorpio, or anyone with a strong Pluto, in a reading.
So, which planets are we talking about? Ixion (Forbidden Genius), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), Ceres (Sustainability), Klotho (Plotting a New Timeline), and Vertex (Intuition) are all at the Midpoint of Scorpio, which just happens to be (there go those Coincidences again!) where Transiting Klotho and Sappho (Starting a New Timeline based on Self-Love) happen to be sitting as we speak, making their T-Square to the 7 August Full Moon.
Whoa, this is Big. The Midpoint of Scorpio is one of the Four Horsefolk of Ego Death, so we probably have a case of chronic Self-Attack (that is Ego-Attack, not Soul-Attack). Sir Self-Lance-a-Lot. All very strongly Lit Up this week. So we’d prescribe a strong ongoing dose of Poor-Sweethearts. Can we even interpret a Klotho-Sappho Transit, Square to a Full Moon, sitting on a natal Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium?
Oops, have to interrupt again. A Stellium (three or more planets in the same place) isn’t easy. What would we tell someone with a Stellium in their chart, to help them Learn to Appreciate their Uniqueness?
Well, the Culture we grow up in has certain Differentiations that are an integral part of the Culture. For instance, Boys are different from Girls, and never the twain shall meet. What fireworks have been going on the USofA when that Differentiation is Challenged! The youngsters understand that they’re both just People, but the Differentiation is so ingrained in the brains of the oldsters that they fight it all the way to the “Supreme” Court, and Obsess (!) on it.
So when we have two or more planets in the same place, we don’t know the Difference. Folks who start a Life when Mars and Venus are Conjoined (in or close to the same Degree) have no idea that there’s any Difference at all! So they have a difficult time Relating to, and Being Related to by, anyone who’s Obsessed with the Difference, because their brains are wired very differently.
And that’s just two planets. With a five-planet Stellium, the difficulty of Communicating with Others is multiplied many times. To start with, only 2.5% of us will have a 5-planet Stellium (using 45 planets), so we can expect to be able to Communicate at all with one person in 40. However, what’s the probability that the next person with a 5-planet Stellium is going to have a Stellium that includes the same five planets?
Without breaking any blood vessels in my brain, I’d guess that would be something like 1/9 to the fourth or fifth power, or about one person in 60,000, although that assumes that the 45 planets are distributed randomly around the Zodiac, which is far from true. You could start a worldwide club, advertising on the internet to connect with everyone who started Life with a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium. You might end up with just the people who were born on the same day and year as you.
And now you’re going to run into another problem. Very few of these people will have ever learned to Love themselves, even if their Stellium isn’t in Scorpio. When you meet a Soulmate, if your Self-Love isn’t Total, you’re going to Project your Self-Rejection all over one another, and end up hating one another, very soon. I once introduced two people with very similar, very unusual birth charts, Scorpios even, and they became housemates. That lasted about a month before they ran screaming from one another.
So until you Learn to Love your own Uniqueness fairly thoroughly, you may need to settle for non-intimate Relationships for a while. Look for people who are already Ascended or Enlightened, who may be able to Accept you Exactly As You Are, even if they’re not like you at all – they may even find your Uniqueness fascinating. There should be a reasonable number of those folks around. You won’t be their Onliest…
Since you are a shining light
There’s many that you’ll see
But I have to deal with envy
When you choose the precious few
Who’ve left their pride on the other side of
Coming back to you
as Leonard Cohen put it, but at least you’ll be Accepted, and you’ll get a taste of what it will be like to Love your Uniqueness, till you Lesrn to Obsess on Loving your Uniqueness.
Well, we know that this person, on the Soul Level, Intends in this Lifetime to Get to the Bottom of Self-Abuse (and I don’t mean self-pleasuring) once and for all (Klotho-Sappho). So they probably “hired” parents and other significant adults that programmed a good deal of persistent Self-Rejection (Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres) into them as Children. That’s how we do it – whatever we Intend to Let Go Of permanently in a Lifetime, we on the Soul level make sure we get a big dose of it, so we’ll Recognize it and be Motivated to Change the Pattern.
So, with Mars and Atropos on the Full-Moon Sun, it would be a fabulous time to start writing a series of Angry letters, that they don’t intend to send, to their Childhood Programmers, so they can begin Getting to the Bottom of their Abandoned Genius’s Real Feelings. We can Learn about Blame and Responsibility later.
Oh, did I forget to mention that Jupiter (Amplification) and Sappho (Self-Love) are also in Scorpio? So our friend is even more Determined to break out of her prison of Self-Admonishment, as she has Chosen (on the Soul level) to Obsess about her Amplified Desire for Self-Love!
Did someone say Obsession? Damn Right! Obsessed with this prison-break, and for damn good reasons!!! It’s a central theme of their Soul-level Plan for the Lifetime! So come Hell or High Water, they need to start Obsessing (and PIAVAing) on Learning how to Celebrate Obsession like it is the Incredible Gift to themselves that it truly is! Set a timer, and Celebrate Obsession at least once an hour, every day.
Okay, with the preliminaries out of the way we can get down the the meat of the issue. Their Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium is Opposed by Chiron (Despair and Miracle). That’s like a dagger held by her Programmers, slicing little chunks out of her skin constantly. To move from Despair to Miracle we need to Empathize with our Despair. “You Poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Down on yourself, don’t you.” Now, we know that Changing the Subject (which gets the mind and old Karmic Patterns out of the way so they don’t re-up the Despair) won’t be easy – that’s the whole issue, isn’t it.
So we can try building a strong practice of Tapping (YouTube link above). “Even though I’m Obsessing about this Despair, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.” Measuring the Intensity of Feeling (0 to 10) before and after each of many Iterations will be important – as long as you’re getting any reduction, keep Tapping, till you get close to zero. If you aren’t getting reduction, try alternating with Poor-Sweethearts, or Dancing, or doing anything Different. This is Multi-Lifetime stuff, so you need to be Obsessive about working on it, but then, that’s your specialty, eh?
Phew, that’s a lot, isn’t it. Are we done? Not a chance. Mercury, of all people, makes a T-Square across the Opposition between the Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium and Chiron. Now we have to interrupt again, since T-Squares are quite difficult, so we have to give our standard speech about how to Love a T-Square…
A T-Square is like a graduate seminar. We Expect to be able to “get it right” once in a while, so we can feel halfway Competent. But with a T-Square, there is no “getting it right.” In a graduate seminar there are no right Answers, only clever and relevant Questions. No matter how long anyone Lives a T-Square, they’ll never Feel Satisfied about it, until they Learn to Appreciate that on a Soul level they’ve adopted this Issue as a Lifetime Learning Opportunity, and each time it arises – which is likely to be daily – they’ll be working on a new, more subtle and broader, version of the same Lesson.
It’s pass/fail, and you only pass when you Recognize that this is your Lifetime Study Project, and Honor yourself for the Fact that you actually know a Hell of a lot more about it than most anyone else on the Planet, because you wrestle with it daily. You begin to Change a “bad” Habit by Noticing that you’re Doing it again, and Congratulating yourself for Noticing rather than Cursing yourself for Doing it again – substituting positive reinforcement for negative reinforcement, because reinforcement is cumulative.
So when you Notice that you’re working on that Issue again, Congratulate yourself for looking at it from yet another Perspective, and Honor yourself for all of the Perspectives you’ve already Discovered, rather than Indulging your Frustration at not getting it Right yet again, you’ll shift your Perspective toward what is otherwise one of your greatest Frustrations.
That’s what T-Squares are all about. Now, what about this Mercury T-Square? Well a Mercury T-Square (until you make the shift we just talked about) means that your mind is always picking at you. Anxiety ‘R’ Us, and it’s not just Worry, it’s Negative Self-Talk. So we have to Learn to Notice that we’re Doing Negative Self-Talk again, Congratulate ourself for Noticing, and Honor ourself for how Skilled we’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk.
If a friend complained to you about their Negative Self-Talk, I’ll bet you could give them a thousand suggestions for dealing with it. You’re a World Expert on Negative Self-Talk. You could write best-sellers about it. You need to Honor yourself for that, even if it doesn’t Feel True at first. I guarantee you, it is True.
Now, we’re dealing with Negative Self-Talk about Chiron Opposite a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium, which isn’t chicken-feed. With Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex as part of your Stellium, a deep part of you (with strong Scorpio, Diving Deep is one of your greatest Skills) knows Intuitively (Vertex) that your Survival (Quaoar) is Assured (Ceres) once you Begin (Klotho) to Love Yourself Exactly As You Are. You just don’t know where to start because no one has ever Mirrored your True Self to you.
Then we add Ixion. We have to interrupt again for our Learn-to-Love-Ixion speech…
Ixion was the Bad Boy of the Greek Pantheon, who was basically a sociopath who thought all rules applied to everyone else (like that fellow in the house that’s pained white and being remodeled). Well, talk to any Accomplished Genius, and they’ll tell you they didn’t get there by following other people’s rules. To live Genius you need to break as many rules as you can get away with.
But you’ll always be condemned for it. So, not actually being a sociopath, you’ll need to develop a thick skin about Criticism from Others. And with your parents and other Programmers probably very Critical people, you’re going to have a lot of Olde Reactions to Criticism, and probably “Leave your Body” (space out) when someone starts Criticizing you. Well, you probably want to enlist some friends and Act Out a thousand Criticism scenarios, till you can Stay Present with Yourself when being Criticized, and Learn when Defending yourself is a waste of time that’ll just get more Criticism, and How to Defend yourself when it’s worth it (ie, with a Relationship you Want to Keep).
In Cultures that Value Conformity, Ixion is Rejected out of hand. That’s why we refer to that part of ourself as our Forbidden or Abandoned or Pathological Genius, and refer to Recovery of that part of ourself as our Genius Project. It’s a Big Project for everyone, but especially important for you. Eventually, once you become the World’s foremost Psychoanalyst, or the World’s most Unique Artist who Communicates with parts of people that have never been Communicated to before ever, you’ll understand how Unique you are, and Honor it.
But meanwhile, there’s homework to be done, because you’re probably in the Habit of giving your Unique Genius more Negative Self-Talk than anyone. So you’ll have to Learn toNotice that you’re Doing Negative Self-Talk about your Unmirrored Uniqueness again, Congratulate yourself for Noticing, and Honor yourself for how Skilled you’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk about your Uniqueness.
Lots of work ahead, but at least now you have a curriculum.
What’s that? Oh, we aren’t quite done? Oh yeah, remember that Jupiter-Sappho in Scorpio? Well, it happens to be in a “Grand Cross,” Opposite a Stellium of Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sedna (Fear), Chariklo (Self-Confidence), and Moira (Choosing Consciousness), with Sedna Stationary (Strong), Square to a Stellium of Sun (your Essence), Atropos (Endings), and Mnemosyne (Memory), which is in turn Opposite to a Stellium of Orcus (Breaking Vows), Hylonome (Escaping from Archetypes), and Lachesis (Duration), with Lachesis Exactly Stationary (very Strong). All this is actually enormously Positive, but there’s a lot in it that needs to be Learned to Love.
We won’t take that up now, we’ll save it for after you’ve digested some of the earlier homework, which is more than ample. The earlier homework is Lit Up Bigtime by the Full Moon, so it’s a more current assignment anyway. This later Grand Cross is Lit Up only by the Transiting Conjunction of Varuna (the Life Force) and Veritas (Truth), which is actually quite a lot, but nothing compared to how much your Mercury T-Square and Ixion Stellium are Lit Up.
Oh, also, when you’re ready, remind me to talk about the “Vacancy” to your Mercury T-Square.
And, once you’ve started on the earlier homework in earnest, we can talk about that friend you mentioned, and see how they might, by virtue of their own birth chart, inadvertently trigger either your Mercury-Chiron-Ixion-et al T-Square or your Lachesis-et al Grand Cross, or both. We’ll also need to cover Blame and Responsibility then.
Oh, and since Pluto (Transformation) is similar to Scorpio, and likely to be involved in Obsession, we should eventually look at that too. It’s after all Conjunct Saturn (The Most Important Thing), so that’s a strong indication that Obsession is actually your Greatest Skill, you just need to Learn to Love it. Also, Pluto-Saturn makes a T-Square across your Nodes (Why You Took This Lifetime), so that’s another indicator that This is the Lifetime you Chose, on the Soul level, to become the World’s greatest Expert on Obsession, and once and for all Let Go of your Ego Attachment to it, and Let Go of your Rejection of Obsession and of yourself.
Plus, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is on your North Node (Your Mission in the Lifetime) and Moon-Venus (Your Instincts and Values) is on your South Node (The Karmic Impediments to your Mission that you Chose on the Soul level to help you Accomplish your Mission in the Lifetime, which Impediments happen to hide the Skills you need to Accomplish your Mission), further complicating this T-Square.
That’s a lot, but Remember that, as the Findhorn Transformation Game says, the Hardest Assignments are only given to the Best People.
A friend asks, “What do your Arcturian friends say about us creating our own reality?
Same thing Seth said in The Nature of Personal Reality. If we want to know our Karma (the Beliefs and Habit Patterns we came into the Lifetime with, whether Productive or Self-Sabotaging in each stage of the current Life), just look at our Lifetime so far. What we’ve Created, and are Creating, is Who We Are, Karmically. We have the Power to Change it, sometimes quite simply, other times with impossible difficulty. First step is to Notice what we’re Creating and have Created, and Recognize that We have Created it.
At this point we have to stop and Examine whether we’re In Blame. Blame is about assigning Cause to something. It’s about the Past. Responsibility is about Recognizing that, one way or another, we have the Power to Change Future Outcomes. People who are unable to step out of Blame will never be able to Recognize that they Create their own Reality. Their Reality is stuck in circular finger-pointing, and it won’t Change till they figure out how to step off of the Blame treadmill.
If we can step out of Blame then…
Is What we’re Creating What We Want? If not then we need to Change it. 99% percent of ourself is Unconscious, and the Unconscious is non-Dual, so the Dualistic Mind can’t do the job. The Mind is a screwdriver, the Unconscious is put together with bolts. Cause and Effect is a Linear process, quite relevant to the realm of the Ego, but the Unconscious operates by different rules. Time isn’t even Linear in the Unconscious – are your Dreams Linear?
Best tools for influencing the Unconscious that I’ve found so far are the PIAVAs. Think about Intention, for instance – you’re starting with Effect and then producing Cause! So much for Linear Time.
Yes, our Childhood Programming is overlain on top of our Karma. But who Created our Childhood Programming? We did. Not We/Ego, but We/Soul. No Judgment here; We/Soul just decided We Wanted to have more Experience in a certain arena or several. In that sense We/Soul Chose our parents and the propaganda mills that would Program us – to Reinforce our Karma so we’d Notice it and be inspired to Change it.
It is my opinion that at least some of us came to this Planet at this time in order to Assist the Planet to finish business with the Age of Pisces. Pisces must Eschew Blame if it is to find the elevator to the next level and “get out of going through all this twice” as Dylan put it. In that context We/Soul have adopted for We/Ego (prior to Enlightenment) a set of Karma as if it were a set of underwear; it isn’t even really “ours,” we’ve just picked it out at Goodwill because it reflects how We/Soul have Chosen to Assist the Planet.
Which is a fine way to look at it regardless – Karma is Inertia, not Retribution, so it actually has no Value (as in good or bad), it’s Neutral, just as we need to be Neutral in order not to get sucked into the Drama that the Age of Pisces gets stuck in. Neutrality means that we don’t have any investment in any of the Outcomes, other than, optionally, those we’ve Chosen to Change. And in fact, one of the best way to Change anything is through Acceptance. To go one step further, we could say, unequivocally, that Nothing Changes until we Accept it Exactly As It Is.
Which simply means that we’ve Noticed that we’ve Created it, and since we Realize that, as John (and Michael Roads) says, All There Is (That’s Real) Is Love, then we have no Choice but to figure out how to Love what we’ve Created. For instance, consider our Genius Project. Of course we’re frustrated because it hasn’t paid off on the first try. Duh. How many Lifetimes have we (or the Planet) been working on this Project? Do we Expect to Change it with one PIAVA? (Of course it might; we might just be ready.)
What has happened so far with our Genius Project, and how do we Feel about it? Have we figured out how to Embrace those Feelings Lovingly, so we can Lovingly Embrace what’s happened so far, so we can get on to the next step? We need at least to Poor-Sweetheart them. This is the Pay Attention stage of the PIAVA process. How is what has happened related to What We Want?
Have we appeared to move in the wrong direction? That’s where I’m at. That’s very common, because the Unconscious is Asking and Telling We/Ego, “Do you Trust us? If you won’t Hold the Intention, we can’t Hold it for you.” It’s Ego that has Focus, not the Unconscious. It takes a Partnership to Manifest. Even a Village.
If it feels like Nothing has happened, or something unexpected has indeed happened, but it doesn’t appear to be Related to our Genius Project, then we might have to PIAVA that we come to grok (as opposed to “understand”) the Relationship well enough that we know what to do next to bring our Forbidden Genius out of Hiding. Or better yet, just PIAVA that we take the appropriate next step, period, and just bypass the Linear Mind, and the Controlling Status-Quo-Loving Ego, entirely.
Are we making any sense?
Things haven’t felt very satisfying or stable the last several days, as Jupiter Squares Pluto, amplified by the impending 7 August Full-Moon Partial Eclipse, prelude to the 21 August Big One. We’ll write about that next.
All about Making (or Taking) it Easy. At first glance though the Mercury Station chart (3 May 10am PDT) looks pretty complicated…
We’ll deconstruct it in a minute; for now, notice the orange lines forming a “bowl.” This is the beginnings of a Grand Quintile (Excellent Opportunity for Learning) that pretty much dominates the 10 May Full Moon chart as the Sun moves into the Vacant fifth position in the Configuration.
We’ll talk more about that soon; for now, just be Alert that whatever Difficulty or Confusion you Encounter is really about Learning. We can Learn all manner of “information” without encountering Discomfort, but Real Learning, as in Growth of Consciousness, is often accompanied by Difficulty or Confusion or both. The Grand Quintile tells us not to try to Puzzle it Out, but to just be Open to Big Change. Big Change always introduces the Unknown, and Puzzling it Out can only rearrange the deck chairs.
The rest of the chart is actually twoYin Gates. Based on our recent Experience we probably think Yin Gates are pretty common, but they actually aren’t. Two at once is fairly remarkable. The Spiritual Function of a Yin Gate is to give us the Opportunity to Embrace Paradox – that is, to escape the tyranny of the Patriarchal “left brain” and witness the World and the Mysteries more Wholistically. Again, more admonitions not to try to make Logical Sense out of what we Experience, but rather to make Esoteric Sense out of it.
Let’s tease out the two Yin Gates.
First, here’s the Rebirth into YintegrityYin Gate. A Yin Gate is an Opposition (long red line) at the center of a Golden Rectangle (blue box). Normally an Opposition represents a Duality; a Yin Gate Asks us to Pay Attention to the Coin rather than the heads or tails. This one has Haumea (Rebirth) on one end and the Merger of Stationary Mercury (Paying Attention), Uranus (our Soul Self), and Eris (the Compulsion to Live our Truth) on the other.
The latter threesome represents Yintegrity. Yangtegrity is Doing what we said we were going to do, no matter what. Yintegrity is Doing what we darn well Feel like doing, moment to moment – this is, Trusting our Instincts and Intuitions more than we Trust our Commitments. Of course in Yintegrity we’d Minimize our Commitments, Renegotiate often, and make quality Amends where Renegotiation wasn’t possible and the Relationship was worth keeping – we’d prefer both Yin- and Yang-tegrity to One or the Other (or neither), though we might emphasize One more than the Other while we Learn how they Differ and Practice each One.
Second there’s the Stealing Energy from Fear and Investing It in Self-LoveYin Gate, with Sedna (Fear) on one end and Sappho (Self-Love) on the other. We’ve had Experience with this one, and discussed it at length, earlier this year. Suddenly the Channelings – Pushing the Ease Button, Trusting Ourself – start to make Sense, eh?
In each picture we’ve drawn in the rest of the Configuration with lighter lines. Notice that the two Yin Gates are connected by a Grand Cross (the tilted red square with the X in the center). That just means that they’re tightly Integrated, giving us the Opportunity to Practice Yintegrity in the context of Self-Love and vice versa.
It’s worth Paying Attention to the other two Oppositions – Chaos (Unlimited Potential) Opposite Saturn-Ixion (The Most Important Thing is to Recover our Abandoned Genius), which is on the Galactic Center (Orders from HQ) and asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things) Opposite Chiron (Healing the Unhealable).
If you’re Estranged from anyone, this would be an excellent time to Clear the Conflict, even if it’s “just” to Finish Business and Move On. And there’s an excellent chance that what you discovered you couldn’t stand about them, or the unacceptable critique they made of you, are big neon signs pointing to your Abandoned Genius. You don’t need to discuss that with them if it’s not Safe to do so, but you do need to spend time Exploring it on your own or with Safe Friends, because your Abandoned Genius is part of the missing link that will Heal the Unhealable elements of our Huperity, of our misuse of the Home Planet, and of the Despair we can’t help but feel about it.
Re-listen or Re-read the Channelings we began the post with; with a little Effort you’ll see the footprints of your Abandoned Genius in them.
This week I was invited to Attend a Conference on Sustainability put on by Native Americans, but I had a very difficult time finding out the timing and the agenda, even after asking for help. Rather than reading that as a Sign that it wasn’t my cup of Buffalo Water, it occurred to me that my current path may be leading me away from Reunification with Nature – especially around the Money issues we discussed a couple of posts ago in Forbidden Genius and Responsibility.
It’s very easy to make a case that Money is an Artifact of the Industrial Revolution that is on its final Debriefing (till 2021). Is relaxing about it a Sign that we’ve Transcended it, or a Sign that we’ve Surrendered to it? Well, today I realized that of course it’s Both/And – how could it be otherwise! – just another Paradox!
“Things have been going downhill at work for almost a year now… and I did get into my mental loop of how do I make more money to make ends meet… but then I came to a point where I saw, I may not have money to splurge, but any time I need extra money, it somehow shows up…
“I have been leading a ladies dance group (its free, we all meet up and dance for an hour) for almost a year now…and on March 26th
(ie, the 25 March Ixion Station, the 26 March Sappho Station,
New Moon 27th March, discovering the roots of our Forbidden Genius, and amping up our Self-Love) I had the inspiration to ask my dance group if they would like to start an art group… and the interest was phenomenal…
“So on April 11th
(Mercury Stationary 9 April, Hylonome Stationary 10 April,
Varuna Stationary 10 April, Full Moon 10 April: huge Potential for Letting Go of Karmic Chains that have inhibited our Life Force.) we started our art group. I did not plan to take any money for this, just told them we would pool in some money to buy art supplies.
“So many ladies showed interest that I have had to split the group into two batches.. and now two evenings I have our art group meeting up, one evening dance and one evening volunteering at prison to teach computers (this I have been doing for many years now). I have never felt so good.. it feels like being that school kid again, leading many groups into creative things… something I lost after life happened, as a kid nothing could stop me… but then life happened and I lost my confidence and it’s like I am finding it all again…
“Last evening as I worked with the art group, I actually felt like I was back in touch with that child I remember I was… it’s a lot of work but the joy of doing it all gives me this unexplainable energy that I can keep going and not feel tired. I also feel like I am giving back for all I have received for years now… and a knowing… it will all be OK financially… to have faith. Not that worries don’t show up every now and then, but I am finding that I can chose to go with faith and allow the financial stress to subside.”
Pretty neat! I’ve been seeing myself Letting Go of Anxiety around Money on multiple levels as well, and I’m frequently shocked at how Relaxed I feel even while I’m very Busy. Previously, being Busy and being Relaxed seldom if ever Shared the same space.
Just looking at what the Moon Lights Up, this weekend should be Globally and Personally noteworthy, especially from around 9am PDT to 9pm PDT or so on 29 April. The Moon first Tickles our Forbidden Genius (Ixion), then The Most Important Thing (Saturn), which, as it’s on the Galactic Center, is Channeling instructions from Headquarters that we eschew Despair (Venus-Chiron). Then the Moon crosses The Truth (asteroid Veritas), before it Dances with Full Responsibility (Pholus) and our Survival Instincts (Quaoar). Remember Responsibility ain’t Blame. We listed that sequentially, but we’re likely to Experience it as All One Energy. This is 26-2 Degrees.
Then on 30 April, roughly from 8am PDT to 8pm PDT, it Tickles our Grief about Letting Go of Archetypes that have kept us Safe (Hylonome) then facilitates Letting Go of Karmic Attachments (asteroids Atropos and Moira, and Pallas), and finally Dances with our Expanding Self-Confidence (Chariklo and Jupiter). 8-16 Degrees. There is nothing so Attractive to Hupers as Self-Confidence – that’s why they refer to swindling as a “Con” Game. If you know someone whose only marked attribute is Self-Confidence, they don’t serve to make us Doubt Self-Confidence, but to remind us that we aren’t empty suits inflated with hot air.
What make us feel Phony is Abandoning our Forbidden Genius and being Adopted by Archetypes, not our Self-Confidence. We’ve been faking it, but as we Allow ourself to be Adopted by our Genius, and to Abandon our Archetypes, we “make” it instead – Self-Love and Self-Confidence without any underlying Self-Doubt and Fear.
Whatever we Learn this weekend, we follow it on May Day with two different Energies…
Early on (around 7am-2pm PDT) the Moon Encourages another step toward our Rebirth into Yintegrity with our Soul Self (Haumea and Eris-Uranus-Mercury) 24-26 Degrees
Toward early evening PDT, the Moon Triggers a new Influx of Life Force (Varuna) as we recognize that the Edges of our Consciousness have Grown (Vesta) 29-30 Degrees
The Venus Station occurs at 3am PDT on 15 April, in 27 Pisces. While the chart has several notable features, the two most prominent are both Diamond Stars…
A Diamond Star is a T-Square (red triangle), which symbolizes Mastery through Challenge, and a Finger of God (green arrow), signifying Pay Attention!, both pointing at the same planet. The two of them are intertwined here, so are harder to pick out. There’s a picture of an isolated Diamond Star at…
along with a portrait of a gorgeous Manganophyllite. In the chart above, the two Diamond Stars point down, and toward the upper left.
The blue lines symbolize the Grace that a Diamond Star creates, making the Challenge of the T-Square much Easier to handle and Mastery Easier to achieve. In the Venus Station chart we also have a Grand Sextile, the six blue lines around the perimeter of the chart. A Grand Sextile is one of the most Grace-full indications we can be Gifted with.
The Foci of the Diamond Stars in the Venus Station chart are standouts. They are…
Sun-Uranus-Eris, symbolizing Being True to Our Soul Self
Saturn-Ixion, representing Recovery of Our Forbidden Genius
A Venus Station in general is about Reconsidering the Validity of Our Values Relative to Our True Self.
These Arcturian Channelings are always Expanding my Awareness and bringing me new Insights about how things fit together. For instance, I’d never thought of it this way…
“This is a time of increased awareness of yourselves and the others that you share your planet with. This is a time of uncovering, discovering, and being transparent to one another. It is one of the reasons why you have so much sharing of information happening through your technology, including the unwanted and invasive spying techniques that are employed at times by people in positions of power.
“This is not meant to elicit feelings of victimization. This reality that you are creating for yourselves is meant to get you ready for a full telepathic society. Those of you who are empathic are already reading the emotions of others and feeling them within yourselves. Once you transition to being fully telepathic, there will be no secrets and there will be no hiding. There will be no reason to try to deceive another or hide a thought or a feeling.
“And so you are readying yourselves for that eventuality. This is a part of the evolution of your consciousness, because in order for you to be willing to share everything about yourselves, you must release your fears, your shame, and your judgment.
When you accomplish this undertaking, which is well underway for all of you, you will not feel a need to hide anything from each other, and you will be willing to speak to one another about what you are feeling, what you are thinking, and what you desire.
“This openness is going to create a deepening of the connection that you all have with one another and a strengthening of the human collective, which will ultimately assist you in your ascension process.
Now, in the meantime, what would be most beneficial to all of you would be to start by being honest with yourselves. Start by acknowledging how youfeel, acknowledging what you want to do and what you don’t want to do, and even stating out loud to yourself how you feel, what it is that you want, and what it is that you are wanting to release.”
So says Daniel Scranton, Channeling the Arcturian Council, at…
There’s more to the Channeling, and it’s worthwhile.
You might notice that the base of the Saturn-Ixion Forbidden Genius T-Square is the Venus Station itself, Conjunct Chiron (Despair and Miracles), Opposing asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things). Your Natural Genius, your Programmed Values, your Despair, and your Gratitude/Respect are all Competing here for your Ego’s Loyalty. The Venus-Chiron Conjunction Asks that youFind a Space of Win-Win between all of these contestants.
The base of the Sun-Uranus-Eris T-Square is the Opposition between asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) and the Conjunction of Vesta (Limiting Beliefs) and Varuna (The Life Force) – In order to Let Go of Unconscious Beliefs that Limit our Life Force so we can Allow our Light to Shine Through, we need to be willing to face Ego Death.
We’ve drawn the Venus Station chart using fairly rigid three-Degree Sensitivity that’s appropriate for evaluating the Now. If we stretvh that just a bit, which is completely appropriate for evaluating the likely Future course of the Projects we Begin here, we would include dwarf planet Haumea (Rebirth) Opposite Sun-Uranus-Eris, and asteroid Veritas (Truth) Opposite Saturn-Ixion, converting both T-Squares into Grand Crosses and Easing our Challenges further.
Including these also resets the Sappho-Sedna Yin Gate that we worked with earlier in the year. As Daniel says, “in order to be willing to share everything about ourselves, we must release our fears, our shame, and our judgment.” The message of this Yin Gate is that we must Embrace our Fear (Sedna) to Complete our Self-Love (Sappho). The Sappho-Sedna Yin Gate re-forms next week through mid-May and again between late August and mid-September.
So often right on cue, Dan and the Arcturians describe an excellent process for discovering the roots of our Forbidden Genius (ie, the 25 March Ixion Station) and amping up our Self-Love (which is to say, the 26 March Sappho Station)…
“Greetings. We are the Arcturian Council. We are pleased to connect with all of you.
“When you are ready to explore your consciousness to the greatest extent that you possibly can, you are going to uncover a litany of aspects of who you are. You are almost ready to experience your whole selves and to become your whole selves. What blocks you from doing so is the fear that you will uncover something about yourself that you cannot reconcile, that you cannot forgive, and that you cannot love.
“To be a whole being means that you must accept all aspects of you, and that means uncovering the parts of you who are lingering around because they have not yet been forgiven, accepted, and loved. You hold the power to do this, and it’s easier than you might think.
“When you see someone in the outside world doing something that you find abhorrent, you can rest assured that there is an aspect of you that has done the exact same thing in another lifetime. So in order for you to move forward with the integration of all aspects of self, you must be able to forgive the person that you have become aware of, and their actions. It is not easy.
“You often determine your goodness by how you are capable of refraining from doing such things. That makes it easier to look down upon someone who is doing the thing, or who has done the thing, that you would never do. But this is your mission. This is what it means to be unconditional love. This is what it means to be compassion in action.
“There must be something, some condition, some action that you find reprehensible in order for you to make the shift. We are not talking about the big shift here. We are talking about making the shift from judgment and condemnation to compassion and unconditional love.
“That is in essence what the big shift is all about. It is an opportunity for you to leave all the baggage behind, the baggage of the third dimension, the baggage that contains your judgments, your condemnations, whether they be of yourself or others. Recognize this, however. When you experience a judgment, or a condemnation, or both, of someone else, you might as well be experiencing it of yourself, because you cannot become aware of something that you are not already in some way, shape, or form yourself.
“When we ask you to love yourselves, we are asking you to love all aspects of yourselves, and we know it is not always easy. But it is always worth it.
“We are the Arcturian Council, and we have enjoyed connecting with you.“
Whew, made it through the Ixion-Juno Initiation last night, but not without Tapping and Thetaing and Poor-Sweethearting for most of the night. Our next Big Event is a Station of dwarf planet Haumea, 4am PST 22 January. Haumea is Pele’s daughter, symbolizing Rebirth – by Fire! It’s been within one Degree of Sensitivity to this Station since early November, so it’s a big part of what we’ve been Experiencing, as we’ve been trying to get as many of our Unconscious Masters (Archetypes, Karma, and Unfinished Business, O My) wrestled to the Ground so we can get Reborn as Cleanly as possible.
Now that “everything else” Big has gone under the bridge, the Rebirth part takes Center Stage. Well, almost. The Reality Show is still about
Bringing our Unconscious Fears Up Into Our Awareness in Order to Reclaim our Self-Sovereignty
for another week or so. So this Rebirth is kind of a Mid-term in some ways.
By 1 February we’re firmly engaged in Rebuilding a New Timeline or Ego-Lifetime that’s based on Self-Love.
So a Laser Focus on Noticing any Self-Judgment for the next 7-10 days will pay big dividends.
Self-Judgment includes any Values you have that are Moral, or based on Either/Ors. As Alan Watts informed us,
It’s Harder to Let Go of Good Karma than it is to Let Go of Bad Karma.
And we need to jettison both if we’re going to be able to approximate Self-Love.
Our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.
It’s more than fine to have Standards of Behavior, and above all to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect. But our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.
If we betray our own Standards of Behavior, or fail to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect, we Make Amends and move on. If we’re in the Habit of indulging Guilt or Remorse or the like (or having a big Reaction when others fail to treat us with Respect, which is just a Mirror for our own Lack of Self-Love), then we need to Change that Habit to Tapping it Out asap so we can get on with the Critically Important Work we’re doing Rebirthing the Planet one Psyche at a time (our own). What was that Meditation threshold that squelched Crime? One Percent of the Neighbors Meditating?
There’s a Catch here. Two days after Haumea’s Station, asteroid Hopi Stations. Hopi is about Respect for all Things. Those Sentient Beings we have to Respect? They don’t just include folks who look like you (regardless of Color). They include Critters and Plants and Rocks and Dirt and Planets and Stars and anything that your mind is able to Separate from the Background Noise and assign a word to. Oh, and the Background Noise is Sentient too, especially the Background Noise. That’s the Unconscious, Master over most of our Behavior, thought, Emotion, and even our Physiology.
So we can say that again now, with the context more clear: It’s more than fine to have Standards of Behavior, and above all to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect.
But our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional. How will we every Learn to Love our Pathological Genius otherwise?
Saturn, The Most Important Thing, is only three weeks and less than two Degrees away from being Initiated by Ixion, our Forbidden Genius.
Meanwhile, the Great Amplifier Jupiter is only two weeks and a third of a Degree shy of its Station, and less than two Degrees from Haumea. In other words this isn’t any ordinary Molt of our Identity exoskeleton (Haumea is Stationary twice a year after all), but a Big Rebirth. And you might notice that Sedna, our Emissary of Fear as a Gift Reminder to Embrace ourself, is Stationary along with Jupiter.
So we have a Choice here. We can be Reborn into Big Fear, or we can be Reborn into Big Love. We Choose the latter by hunting down our Unconscious Fear with a Searching and Fearless Inventory, then Loving our Fear into Submission.
It’s a safe bet that most or all of our Judgments have their roots embedded deep in Fear. So if you aren’t Scared this week and next, start Examining your Judgments. What Unconscious Fears stand behind those? That includes our “positive” Moral Judgments – “I’m Good because I…” – what Fears stand behind those? What would happen if you chose Yintegrity or Self-Trust instead of “Good”?
This is what we took Birth for, and why the Planet is so overpopulated with Beings wanting in on the Action.
In case you’ve lost the bigger plot, Jupiter-Haumea is one corner of the Forbidden-Genius-Recovery Golden Rectangle that encloses our Sedna-Lilith Recovering-Self-Sovereignty-by-Embracing-our-Fear Yin Gate, which is about to morph into a Building-a-New-Lifetime-Based-on-Self-Love Yin Gate. And of course the huge Yintegrity work we’ve been doing since Time As We Know It Ended in 2012, is another corner of the Golden Rectangle.
19 January 1am PST Ixion Initiates Juno Sadge 26 2am PST Mars WAxing Square Saturn Pisces-Sagittarius 24
22 January 4am PST Haumea Stationary Retrograde Libra 25
The Most Important Thing about this first Full Moon of 2017 (12 January, 3:30am PST) is, unequivocally, Recovering our Abandoned Genius.
Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Conjoins (Merges with) Ixion (Our Abandoned Genius), Juno (the Edges of our Consciousness), and Nemesis (Ego Death) Opposing dwarf planet Chaos, Quincunx to the Full Moon. This Opposition is the central issue in the Yin Gate (Mystery School, or Learning to Accept Paradox) that the Full Moon forms. The Full Moon is the other Opposition in the Golden Rectangle (Restoring Natural Harmony) that contains the Yin Gate.
By our Abandoned Genius I mean the parts of ourself that were Forbidden to us in our Childhood, or that became Forbidden to us when, in the current Lifetime or another, we
Vowed that We’d Never Do That Again or Vowed that We’d Never Let That Happen to Us Again.
Chances are, what was Forbidden to us in our Childhood, was probably Forbidden because we made one of these two Vows in some earlier Lifetime, and we came into this Lifetime to Clear it – No better way to get something into Consciousness than to have it be Forbidden.
We just have to have enough Self-Sovereignty, Self-Trust, Courage, and Self-Love to override the Forbidding and Open the (Yin) Gate to these Forbidden “Pleasures.” We put that in quotes because Desire is a bit of a Trickster. Here’s Michael Roads’s comment on Desire (email 10 January, http://int.michaelroads.org/ )…
“Yes. Desire is a prison! An old saying goes like this: That which you most desire shall enslave you in the end. Very true. Oddly, the things that we desire hold very little appeal once we have them, but desire continually whets its appetite for more. We get very attached to both the idea and the subsequent manifestation of our deep desires, yet our attachment to desire invariably has a price of disappointment and dissatisfaction. Avoid the cycle of perpetual wants, the desire for this or that. If you really need it, get it. There is a big difference between real needs and baseless desires.”
Yet Desire is our Guide to finding our Mission. Why? Because by pursuing our Desire we Discover the Curriculum our Soul designed for us in the Lifetime. The title Michael gives to this piece is “Attachment Is the Lock on the Prison of Desire.” We have to follow our Desire, but as we do we also have to give up our Attachment to Outcomes. What was Forbidden was Forbidden for a reason, but not for the reason we were told. The esoteric purpose was to pique our Desire. so we’d he compelled to investigate fully.
Remember how we described Squares and T-Squares as the sources of our greatest Frustrations and also our greatest Skills? Because we are compelled to Perfect what is impossible to Perfect, and as a result we have more Experience with it, and Experience with it at more subtle levels, than anyone else. This is also the nature of Desire. Even if we Vowed to be good little girls and boys so Daddy wouldn’t beat us and Santa would Bless us, we’ve still worked out that Desire in more, and more subtle, Fantasies than anyone else can ever imagine. We should at least take a nom de plume and write the novels about it, if we can’t muster the Self-Sovereignty, Self-Trust, Courage, and Self-Love to override the Forbidding.
This is why we refer to Squares as “Mastery through Challenge.” Our Squares represent usually-unrecognized Mastery. And there’s an excellent chance the Squares in your natal chart will lead you to at least part of your Forbidden Skills and Abandoned Genius.
The province of Forbidden Skills per se is the South Node (they are hidden under our Held – or Forbidden – Emotions), and Orcus (the Making and Breaking of Vows) Opposes the South Node.
The Full Moon chart gives us a good deal of information about how this Recovery of our Abandoned Genius might work. First, it will lead us to Limitlessness. That means that the core of our most Expansive Daydreams is our Abandoned Genius. It also means that we’ll need to jettison our Limiting Beliefs to get there.
Second, it’s about Becoming Conscious of our Unconscious Fears. Oxymoronic, eh – becoming Conscious of the Unconscious? No; Paradoxical perhaps, but neither oxy nor moronic; we do it every day. It’s the nature of Growth in Consciousness. We don’t Grow Consciousness through Discovery, we Grow it through Differentiation – Differentiating Out what was previously undifferentiated background noise.
Such as your Fears. On a Casual basis, you might think that you don’t like Fatigue because when you’re Fatigued you don’t feel Productive. But, Meditating into it, you might discover that your need to be Productive is really your Fear of Abandonment, Fear that your wicked stepsister won’t give you food if you don’t get your chores done. Your wicked stepsister died years ago, but you still Feel your Desire to be Productive as a Desire rather than a Fear. You bring this Fear into Consciousness by Differentiating Desire from Fear.
The central issue of the Yin Gate that endures through the end of January is the Opposition between Sedna-Aletheia (Getting Truthful with ourself about our Fears) and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty). The Golden Rectangle (Restoring Natural Harmony) that contains it is formed by the Opposition between Jupiter-Haumea (Expansive Rebirth) and Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (Removing our remaining Masks and making their Removal Permanent; access to Memories of the events that caused us to put them on), and the Opposition between the Saturn-Ixion-Juno-Nemesis Stellium and dwarf planet Chaos.
Once into Consciousness, use your “You poor Sweetheart…”s and Tapping to Hold them and defuse them. Don’t let them slip back into the Darkness. Celebrate them – they will Liberate you.
Third, the Full Moon is all about Letting Go of what no longer serves us – and what has already Died but we’re ignoring the smell and acting as though it’s still Alive because we’re Habituated to it. Such as our Karma, our Suffering, our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs, and even our Desires. For many of our Desires we’re just going through the motions. Think about it – would you really Accept it if your Fantasy came true? I know, you Glow like a Phosphor when you Dream about it, but what if it was “Real-Life”? Lots of Yes-Buts there, eh?
The Full Moon Conjoins asteroid Atropos (Endings, Death of an Ego Timeline). These Endings are particularly important, because we’re about to Rebirth a whole new Ego Timeline based completely on Self-Love, as our enduring Yin Gate transitions from Sedna-Aletheia Opposite Lilith to Sedna-Aletheia Opposite Sappho (Self-Love) and asteroid Klotho (the cloth from which a new Timeline is cut). Of course the Golden Rectangle that encloses this new Yin Gate is the Ixion-Chaos-Uranus-Haumea Golden Rectangle.
There is a degree of Urgency here, or at least of Importance relative to the steps we’ll encounter in the near future. At the ides of February we begin a 35-year Cycle during which The Most Important Thing is the Recovery of our Abandoned Genius, as Ixion Initiates Saturn. The nature of the Cycle is “A chubby boy on a hobby-horse: The anticipatory Enjoyment of Powers one can only as yet Dream of Utilizing” (25 Capricorn). This is the Embodiment of the Limitlessness that awaits us when we find the Self-Sovereignty, Self-Trust, Courage, and Self-Love to Embrace our Abandoned Genius Unconditionally.
And there’s a huge Arrow in the Heavens pointing to the Beliefs we have which are Anti-Life and Beseaching us to Abandon them. The fletchings on the Arrow are…
Setting Boundaries against Abuse and Privilege (Pallas-Nessus-OR10-South Node)
Becoming Conscious of our Abandoned Genius (Saturn-Ixion-Juno-Nemesis)
Giving up Prejudice (asteroid Hopi)
Communion with Nature (the star Menkar)
These are Big Doin’s. This is the Foundation for our Future. Build it Sturdy.
This is the Grand Quintile we’ve previously discussed. It was prominent on 7 January, and on 12 January at 9am PST we have a Triple Conjunction of Moon (Authenticity), Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs), and Varuna (the Life Force) on this corner of the Grand Quintile. In a traditional chart it shows up loud and clear as a Quintile Yod (Pay Attention to Learning This) – the Arrow – from a base of the Quintile between Saturn-Ixion et al and Pallas-Nessus et al. The other two fletchings, Hopi and Menkar, show up when we complete the chart.
There’s a Meditation and process for a thorough Cleansing of all of our Disused Psychic and Behavioral contents at…
It constantly amazes me how everyone is on the same page here as we enter a Province where we’ve never been. There is a very strong Collective Synchrony here, operating completely out of the Awareness of the folks yelling about today’s Disasters on the nightly news – or maybe they’re yelling at us because they’re trying to distract us from the Collective Synchrony and Trance us back into Overconsuming Sheoplehood.
And here’s another missive from Michael Roads, this one titled The Situation You Are in – Now – Is the Very Substance of Your Growth…
“You may not like the situation you are in, but you created it, and you can benefit from it. First, pay attention to all the positives in your situation, and then work with them, building anew. Odd as it may seem, most people focus on the negatives, then oppose them, creating more stress and suffering.
“Truly, nothing in life ever works against you. But you, of course, can work against life. This means working against yourself. Turn this around. Accept the growth that is on offer, work with your situation, not against, and be aware of, and grateful for the blessings it always confers. It is with life to always . . . choose Love!”
“You talked in one of your blogs of Mars initiating something which you described as “flying blind” and I had a dream about this. It was the second dream about forgetting and I wondered if you could talk more about the memory asteroid.
“In the first dream I saw my beloved and long dead cat – he was thin and incontinent and being looked after by my cousin – I had forgotten about him and I felt bad – how could I have forgotten him when I had loved him so much? This was clearly about my abandoned genius.
“The flying blind dream was about me flying a plane, a biplane or small plane with other people in it, but I wasn’t there, I was somewhere else at the time and I was aware the plane took off. I felt confident I could go back to the plane, but when I tried to I realised I had forgotten how and by the end of the dream I had forgotten about the plane as I got involved with what was going on around me.
“Two powerful dreams for the beginning of the year with memory as the theme. I would be grateful for any comments.”
Cats are potent symbols. They make good Genii. What happens when you imagine yourself Being your Cat? Your cousin?
The “Flying Blind” Initiation was Mars-Neptune, something about the Relationship between the Physical and the Spiritual, between Effort and Magic, between Matter and Energy. Close to the South Node as it is, this Initiation also can’t help being about the Loss of the Veil. The Flying Blind part is like the Lilith-Sedna Mystery School – Accepting Paradox, reverting to “Beginner’s Mind.” It may be as if the Veil is ripped off, but we can’t “see” what’s behind the Glass Darkly because we can’t assemble the Revealed into anything we Understand.
That’s the Paradox of Growth in Consciousness – because any Interpretation we make freezes us back into Duality, we have to be willing and able to leave the symbols behind the Veil Uninterpreted, and Allow ourself to stay in Perpetual Curiosity. “I Wonder if there’s anything in these Dreams that I need to Understand Consciously, or if the Dream has already done its Work” would be a good PIAVA with the potential to bypass our pre-existing Birdcage.
Is there anything about the Physical that Frightens you? Anything about the Metaphysical that elicits Fear? A Searching and Fearless Inventory about Fear would be useful. with “You poor Sweetheart…”s and Tapping on whatever you find. The Deep Energy is about getting Honest with ourselves about Fear. With our Fears calmed by Compassion and Truth, we can Manifest directly…
I’ve often been in half-awake state thinking about some affliction I or someone else has, and spontaneously started imagining making a herbal potion, with absolute certainty about what Herbs to use. Then poof I “wake up” and have no idea what Herbs might work, if any. That tells me that I’ve a Curandera or Curandero among my Parallels (corroborated by other parts of my Life), I’m just not ready to Identify fully with her or him yet.
What happens when you Imagine yourself Being the plane? Imagining yourself Being one of the other folks in the plane might also provide Insight.
Your knowing you could return to the plane then Forgetting how sounds very similar; you have a Metaphysical-Traveler Shaman in your Parallels whom you can utilize as a Guide till you’re ready to Transcend All of your Parallels so you can freely access all of their Skills as you wish. Have you read any of Robert Moss’s books on Dreams?
After Eugene Gendlin’s Let Your Body Interpret Your Dreams, I always try to leave my Dreams as Open as I can, so they don’t get trapped inside my a priori mental Dualities. One way he recommends for that, is to append “…or something like that” to the end of every statement you would make about any possible meaning of the Dream.
The asteroid Mnemosyne is correlated with Memory, and it’s been traveling with the Uranus-Eris-Ceres Stellium. So the “Ten Thousand Vignettes” of Memory that many of us have been having, is about Letting Go of our Masks and finding our Yintegrity. Embracing our Fears and Recovering our Abandoned Genius are critically important parts of this. Your Dream Stories sound very similar to our waking Vignettes.
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