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January Week 3 End – Big Doin’s

January 19, 2017

Whew, made it through the Ixion-Juno Initiation last night, but not without Tapping and Thetaing and Poor-Sweethearting for most of the night.  Our next Big Event is a Station of dwarf planet Haumea, 4am PST 22 January.  Haumea is Pele’s daughter, symbolizing Rebirth – by Fire!  It’s been within one Degree of Sensitivity to this Station since early November, so it’s a big part of what we’ve been Experiencing, as we’ve been trying to get as many of our Unconscious Masters (Archetypes, Karma, and Unfinished Business, O My) wrestled to the Ground so we can get Reborn as Cleanly as possible.

Now that “everything else” Big has gone under the bridge, the Rebirth part takes Center Stage.  Well, almost.  The Reality Show is still about

Bringing our Unconscious Fears Up Into Our Awareness in Order to Reclaim our Self-Sovereignty

for another week or so.  So this Rebirth is kind of a Mid-term in some ways.

By 1 February we’re firmly engaged in Rebuilding a New Timeline or Ego-Lifetime that’s based on Self-Love.

So a Laser Focus on Noticing any Self-Judgment for the next 7-10 days will pay big dividends.

Self-Judgment includes any Values you have that are Moral, or based on Either/Ors.  As Alan Watts informed us,

It’s Harder to Let Go of Good Karma than it is to Let Go of Bad Karma.

And we need to jettison both if we’re going to be able to approximate Self-Love.

Our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.

It’s more than fine to have Standards of Behavior, and above all to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect.  But our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.

If we betray our own Standards of Behavior, or fail to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect, we Make Amends and move on.  If we’re in the Habit of indulging Guilt or Remorse or the like (or having a big Reaction when others fail to treat us with Respect, which is just a Mirror for our own Lack of Self-Love), then we need to Change that Habit to Tapping it Out asap so we can get on with the Critically Important Work we’re doing Rebirthing the Planet one Psyche at a time (our own).  What was that Meditation threshold that squelched Crime?  One Percent of the Neighbors Meditating?

There’s a Catch here.  Two days after Haumea’s Station, asteroid Hopi Stations.  Hopi is about Respect for all Things.  Those Sentient Beings we have to Respect?  They don’t just include folks who look like you (regardless of Color).  They include Critters and Plants and Rocks and Dirt and Planets and Stars and anything that your mind is able to Separate from the Background Noise and assign a word to.  Oh, and the Background Noise is Sentient too, especially the Background Noise.  That’s the Unconscious, Master over most of our Behavior, thought, Emotion, and even our Physiology.

So we can say that again now, with the context more clear: It’s more than fine to have Standards of Behavior, and above all to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect.

But our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.  How will we every Learn to Love our Pathological Genius otherwise?

Saturn, The Most Important Thing, is only three weeks and less than two Degrees away from being Initiated by Ixion, our Forbidden Genius.  

Meanwhile, the Great Amplifier Jupiter is only two weeks and a third of a Degree shy of its Station, and less than two Degrees from Haumea.  In other words this isn’t any ordinary Molt of our Identity exoskeleton (Haumea is Stationary twice a year after all), but a Big Rebirth.  And you might notice that Sedna, our Emissary of Fear as a Gift Reminder to Embrace ourself, is Stationary along with Jupiter.

So we have a Choice here.  We can be Reborn into Big Fear, or we can be Reborn into Big Love.  We Choose the latter by hunting down our Unconscious Fear with a Searching and Fearless Inventory, then Loving our Fear into Submission.

It’s a safe bet that most or all of our Judgments have their roots embedded deep in Fear.  So if you aren’t Scared this week and next, start Examining your Judgments.  What Unconscious Fears stand behind those?  That includes our “positive” Moral Judgments – “I’m Good because I…” – what Fears stand behind those?  What would happen if you chose Yintegrity  or Self-Trust instead of “Good”?

This is what we took Birth for, and why the Planet is so overpopulated with Beings wanting in on the Action.

In case you’ve lost the bigger plot, Jupiter-Haumea is one corner of the Forbidden-Genius-Recovery Golden Rectangle that encloses our Sedna-Lilith Recovering-Self-Sovereignty-by-Embracing-our-Fear Yin Gate, which is about to morph into a Building-a-New-Lifetime-Based-on-Self-Love Yin Gate.  And of course the huge Yintegrity work we’ve been doing since Time As We Know It Ended in 2012, is another corner of the Golden Rectangle.

19 January 1am PST Ixion Initiates Juno Sadge 26
      2am PST Mars WAxing Square Saturn Pisces-Sagittarius 24

22 January 4am PST Haumea Stationary Retrograde Libra 25

24 January noon PST Hopi Stationary Retrograde Libra 13
      11pm PST Chiron Initiates Venus Pisces 22-3

25 January 2am PST Veritas Stationary Direct Gemini 10

26 January: Moon on Pluto T-Squaring Jupiter and Uranus, 1am-11am PST (Moon on Pluto 1am PST, Moon Square Uranus 7am PST, Moon Square Jupiter 11am PST)

27 January: Sappho Conjunct Klotho Scorpio 22 Opposite Sedna-Aletheia in the Yin Gate, with Sedna Stationary
      Quaoar Enters Capricorn
      New Moon 4pm Aquarius 9

30 January: Venus Enters Shadow Period Pisces 27

1 February: Neptune Initiates Pallas Pisces 11

6 February: Jupiter Stationary Retrograde Conjunct Haumea Libra 24
      Sedna Stationary Direct Taurus 26

15 February: Ixion Initiates Saturn Sagittarius 26

January, Week 2, Middle, Full Moon

January 12, 2017

The Most Important Thing about this first Full Moon of 2017 (12 January, 3:30am PST) is, unequivocally, Recovering our Abandoned Genius.  

Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Conjoins (Merges with) Ixion (Our Abandoned Genius), Juno (the Edges of our Consciousness), and Nemesis (Ego Death) Opposing dwarf planet Chaos, Quincunx to the Full Moon.  This Opposition is the central issue in the Yin Gate (Mystery School, or Learning to Accept Paradox) that the Full Moon forms.  The Full Moon is the other Opposition in the Golden Rectangle (Restoring Natural Harmony) that contains the Yin Gate. 

By our Abandoned Genius I mean the parts of ourself that were Forbidden to us in our Childhood, or that became Forbidden to us when, in the current Lifetime or another, we

Vowed that We’d Never Do That Again 
or 
Vowed that We’d Never Let That Happen to Us Again.

Chances are, what was Forbidden to us in our Childhood, was probably Forbidden because we made one of these two Vows in some earlier Lifetime, and we came into this Lifetime to Clear it – No better way to get something into Consciousness than to have it be Forbidden.  

We just have to have enough Self-Sovereignty, Self-Trust, Courage, and Self-Love to override the Forbidding and Open the (Yin) Gate to these Forbidden “Pleasures.”  We put that in quotes because Desire is a bit of a Trickster.  Here’s Michael Roads’s comment on Desire (email 10 January, http://int.michaelroads.org/ )…

“Yes. Desire is a prison!  An old saying goes like this: That which you most desire shall enslave you in the end.  Very true.  Oddly, the things that we desire hold very little appeal once we have them, but desire continually whets its appetite for more.  We get very attached to both the idea and the subsequent manifestation of our deep desires, yet our attachment to desire invariably has a price of disappointment and dissatisfaction.  Avoid the cycle of perpetual wants, the desire
for this or that.  If you really need it, get it.  There is a big difference between real needs and baseless desires.”

Yet Desire is our Guide to finding our Mission.  Why?  Because by pursuing our Desire we Discover the Curriculum our Soul designed for us in the Lifetime.  The title Michael gives to this piece is “Attachment Is the Lock on the Prison of Desire.”  We have to follow our Desire, but as we do we also have to give up our Attachment to Outcomes.  What was Forbidden was Forbidden for a reason, but not for the reason we were told.  The esoteric purpose was to pique our Desire. so we’d he compelled to investigate fully.

Remember how we described Squares and T-Squares as the sources of our greatest Frustrations and also our greatest Skills?  Because we are compelled to Perfect what is impossible to Perfect, and as a result we have more Experience with it, and Experience with it at more subtle levels, than anyone else.  This is also the nature of Desire.  Even if we Vowed to be good little girls and boys so Daddy wouldn’t beat us and Santa would Bless us, we’ve still worked out that Desire in more, and more subtle, Fantasies than anyone else can ever imagine.  We should at least take a nom de plume and write the novels about it, if we can’t muster the Self-Sovereignty, Self-Trust, Courage, and Self-Love to override the Forbidding.

This is why we refer to Squares as “Mastery through Challenge.”  Our Squares represent usually-unrecognized Mastery.  And there’s an excellent chance the Squares in your natal chart will lead you to at least part of your Forbidden Skills and Abandoned Genius.

The province of Forbidden Skills per se is the South Node (they are hidden under our Held – or Forbidden – Emotions), and Orcus (the Making and Breaking of Vows) Opposes the South Node.

The Full Moon chart gives us a good deal of information about how this Recovery of our Abandoned Genius might work.  First, it will lead us to Limitlessness.  That means that the core of our most Expansive Daydreams is our Abandoned Genius.  It also means that we’ll need to jettison our Limiting Beliefs to get there.

Second, it’s about Becoming Conscious of our Unconscious Fears.  Oxymoronic, eh – becoming Conscious of the Unconscious?  No; Paradoxical perhaps, but neither oxy nor moronic; we do it every day.  It’s the nature of Growth in Consciousness.  We don’t Grow Consciousness through Discovery, we Grow it through Differentiation – Differentiating Out what was previously undifferentiated background noise.  

Such as your Fears.  On a Casual basis, you might think that you don’t like Fatigue because when you’re Fatigued you don’t feel Productive.  But, Meditating into it, you might discover that your need to be Productive is really your Fear of Abandonment, Fear that your wicked stepsister won’t give you food if you don’t get your chores done.  Your wicked stepsister died years ago, but you still Feel your Desire to be Productive as a Desire rather than a Fear.  You bring this Fear into Consciousness by Differentiating Desire from Fear.

The central issue of the Yin Gate that endures through the end of January is the Opposition between Sedna-Aletheia (Getting Truthful with ourself about our Fears) and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty).  The Golden Rectangle (Restoring Natural Harmony) that contains it is formed by the Opposition between Jupiter-Haumea (Expansive Rebirth) and Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (Removing our remaining Masks and making their Removal Permanent; access to Memories of the events that caused us to put them on), and the Opposition between the Saturn-Ixion-Juno-Nemesis Stellium and dwarf planet Chaos.

Once into Consciousness, use your “You poor Sweetheart…”s and Tapping to Hold them and defuse them.  Don’t let them slip back into the Darkness.  Celebrate them – they will Liberate you.

Third, the Full Moon is all about Letting Go of what no longer serves us – and what has already Died but we’re ignoring the smell and acting as though it’s still Alive because we’re Habituated to it.  Such as our Karma, our Suffering, our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs, and even our Desires.  For many of our Desires we’re just going through the motions.  Think about it – would you really Accept it if your Fantasy came true?  I know, you Glow like a Phosphor when you Dream about it, but what if it was “Real-Life”?  Lots of Yes-Buts there, eh?

The Full Moon Conjoins asteroid Atropos (Endings, Death of an Ego Timeline).  These Endings are particularly important, because we’re about to Rebirth a whole new Ego Timeline based completely on Self-Love, as our enduring Yin Gate transitions from Sedna-Aletheia Opposite Lilith to Sedna-Aletheia Opposite Sappho (Self-Love) and asteroid Klotho (the cloth from which a new Timeline is cut).  Of course the Golden Rectangle that encloses this new Yin Gate is the Ixion-Chaos-Uranus-Haumea Golden Rectangle.

There is a degree of Urgency here, or at least of Importance relative to the steps we’ll encounter in the near future.  At the ides of February we begin a 35-year Cycle during which The Most Important Thing is the Recovery of our Abandoned Genius, as Ixion Initiates Saturn.  The nature of the Cycle is “A chubby boy on a hobby-horse: The anticipatory Enjoyment of Powers one can only as yet Dream of Utilizing” (25 Capricorn).  This is the Embodiment of the Limitlessness that awaits us when we find the Self-Sovereignty, Self-Trust, Courage, and Self-Love to Embrace our Abandoned Genius Unconditionally.

And there’s a huge Arrow in the Heavens pointing to the Beliefs we have which are Anti-Life and Beseaching us to Abandon them.  The fletchings on the Arrow are…

  • Setting Boundaries against Abuse and Privilege (Pallas-Nessus-OR10-South Node)
  • Becoming Conscious of our Abandoned Genius (Saturn-Ixion-Juno-Nemesis)
  • Giving up Prejudice (asteroid Hopi)
  • Communion with Nature (the star Menkar)

These are Big Doin’s.  This is the Foundation for our Future.  Build it Sturdy.

This is the Grand Quintile we’ve previously discussed.  It was prominent on 7 January, and on 12 January at 9am PST we have a Triple Conjunction of Moon (Authenticity), Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs), and Varuna (the Life Force) on this corner of the Grand Quintile.  In a traditional chart it shows up loud and clear as a Quintile Yod (Pay Attention to Learning This) – the Arrow – from a base of the Quintile between Saturn-Ixion et al and Pallas-Nessus et al.  The other two fletchings, Hopi and Menkar, show up when we complete the chart.

There’s a Meditation and process for a thorough Cleansing of all of our Disused Psychic and Behavioral contents at…

https://cauldronsandcupcakes.com/2017/01/12/full-moon-meditation-and-journalling-exercise-for-releasing-fear-january-2017/

It constantly amazes me how everyone is on the same page here as we enter a Province where we’ve never been.  There is a very strong Collective Synchrony here, operating completely out of the Awareness of the folks yelling about today’s Disasters on the nightly news – or maybe they’re yelling at us because they’re trying to distract us from the Collective Synchrony and Trance us back into Overconsuming Sheoplehood.

And here’s another missive from Michael Roads, this one titled The Situation You Are in – Now – Is the Very Substance of Your Growth

“You may not like the situation you are in, but you created it, and you can benefit from it.  First, pay attention to all the positives in your situation, and then work with them, building anew.  Odd as it may seem, most people focus on the negatives, then oppose them, creating
more stress and suffering.  

“Truly, nothing in life ever works against you.  But you, of course, can work against life.  This means working against yourself.  Turn this around.  Accept the growth that is on offer, work with your situation, not against, and be aware of, and grateful for the blessings it always confers.  It is with life to always . . . choose Love!”

Blind Cats Flying

January 7, 2017

A reader asks…

“You talked in one of your blogs of Mars initiating something which you described as “flying blind” and I had a dream about this.  It was the second dream about forgetting and I wondered if you could talk more about the memory asteroid.

“In the first dream I saw my beloved and long dead cat – he was thin and incontinent and being looked after by my cousin – I had forgotten about him and I felt bad – how could I have forgotten him when I had loved him so much?  This was clearly about my abandoned genius.

“The flying blind dream was about me flying a plane, a biplane or small plane with other people in it, but I wasn’t there, I was somewhere else at the time and I was aware the plane took off.  I felt confident I could go back to the plane, but when I tried to I realised I had forgotten how and by the end of the dream I had forgotten about the plane as I got involved with what was going on around me.

“Two powerful dreams for the beginning of the year with memory as the theme.  I would be grateful for any comments.”

Cats are potent symbols.  They make good Genii.  What happens when you imagine yourself Being your Cat?  Your cousin?

The “Flying Blind” Initiation was Mars-Neptune, something about the Relationship between the Physical and the Spiritual, between Effort and Magic, between Matter and Energy.  Close to the South Node as it is, this Initiation also can’t help being about the Loss of the Veil.  The Flying Blind part is like the Lilith-Sedna Mystery School – Accepting Paradox, reverting to “Beginner’s Mind.”   It may be as if the Veil is ripped off, but we can’t “see” what’s behind the Glass Darkly because we can’t assemble the Revealed into anything we Understand.

That’s the Paradox of Growth in Consciousness – because any Interpretation we make freezes us back into Duality, we have to be willing and able to leave the symbols behind the Veil Uninterpreted, and Allow ourself to stay in Perpetual Curiosity.  “I Wonder if there’s anything in these Dreams that I need to Understand Consciously, or if the Dream has already done its Work” would be a good PIAVA with the potential to bypass our pre-existing Birdcage.

Is there anything about the Physical that Frightens you?  Anything about the Metaphysical that elicits Fear?  A Searching and Fearless Inventory about Fear would be useful. with “You poor Sweetheart…”s and Tapping on whatever you find.  The Deep Energy is about getting Honest with ourselves about Fear.  With our Fears calmed by Compassion and Truth, we can Manifest directly…

http://danielscranton.com/contentment-creation-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

I’ve often been in half-awake state thinking about some affliction I or someone else has, and spontaneously started imagining making a herbal potion, with absolute certainty about what Herbs to use.  Then poof I “wake up” and have no idea what Herbs might work, if any.  That tells me that I’ve a Curandera or Curandero among my Parallels (corroborated by other parts of my Life), I’m just not ready to Identify fully with her or him yet.

What happens when you Imagine yourself Being the plane?  Imagining yourself Being one of the other folks in the plane might also provide Insight.

Your knowing you could return to the plane then Forgetting how sounds very similar; you have a Metaphysical-Traveler Shaman in your Parallels whom you can utilize as a Guide till you’re ready to Transcend All of your Parallels so you can freely access all of their Skills as you wish.  Have you read any of Robert Moss’s books on Dreams?  

After Eugene Gendlin’s Let Your Body Interpret Your Dreams, I always try to leave my Dreams as Open as I can, so they don’t get trapped inside my a priori mental Dualities.  One way he recommends for that, is to append “…or something like that” to the end of every statement you would make about any possible meaning of the Dream.

The asteroid Mnemosyne is correlated with Memory, and it’s been traveling with the Uranus-Eris-Ceres Stellium.  So the “Ten Thousand Vignettes” of Memory that many of us have been having, is about Letting Go of our Masks and finding our Yintegrity.  Embracing our Fears and Recovering our Abandoned Genius are critically important parts of this.  Your Dream Stories sound very similar to our waking Vignettes.

Like John Said…

December 27, 2016

Remember Both/And; Truth is Different for each of us because Truth resides in the Heart, not in the mind’s Duality.  Even if this is not your Truth, it may be useful to you, as all New Perspectives are.  New Perspectives may help you Let Go of Judgment of Others, they may help you Let Go of Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, and they may Grow Corn for you in Unusual Circumstances.

  ♥    ♥    ♥    ♥    ♥    ♥    ♥  

2017, which is a Tenth-Harmonic (Abundance) Year, begins with dwarf planet Makemake Stationary.  A planet is at its Strongest when it’s Stationary.  The Essence of Makemake is Manifestation.  As John said…

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2016/12/it-is-now-arcturians-through-suzanne-lie.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EqP3wT5lpa4

But first we need to get past this week’s once-in-a-millennium Funfest.  Actually, though, since they’re co-incident, we need to interpret them as one astroevent.  How we Respond to this week will have a big Impact on how our Manifestation Skills shift in the New Year.  There are many Keys to that process…

(1) The Most Important Thing is inviting our Abandoned Genius to come Home.  Treat them like a Wild Animal that you’re trying to tame.  Offer them a Treat – like maybe an Open Heart to them, then step back and sit down, facing slightly away, so they don’t think you’re watching them (Change the Subject).  Then – sit quietly and Wait.  As long as it takes.  You can’t approach them directly.  You have to Demonstrate your Loving Kindness, Be Open and Inviting but Neutral and Non-Attached, and Let Them Approach You.  If you do that, they will come, you just don’t know how long it will take, so you need Patience.  

(2) You have Time, you don’t need to rush.  What you do need to do is to Show Them Consistency, and Avoid sudden moves that would Startle them.  Find your Space of Loving Kindness, and Apologize to your Abandoned Genius  for Allowing them be Banished from your Life.  Don’t Punish yourself, it was something you had to do in order to Survive at the Time, and your Safety was then paramount.  But Feel their Pain and Abandonment, over having been Banished all these years.  Then PIAVA that they Return to You, Let It Go, and send them Love.  Then after a while – several to many hours – check to see if you’ve Learned anything.  Then Do It Again.

(3) While you’re doing the Processes above and below, hold a Crystal or Jewel or Stone in your hand.  Choose one that you feel very Safe and Loving with.  If it’s wearable, great, wear it all week.  If not, keep it in a pocket if you can.  If it’s too big for that, put in a Sacred Space and Be There or Visualize it as you begin each of these Processes (do these whenever you think of it all week – constantly if possible!).  If you don’t have the perfect Crystal handy, gaze at this one…

Annabergite 3952 photo:J.Buss

Print it out (from http://www.jbuss.com/jbl4d/annabergite1.htm ) and carry it with you; that’s your Abandoned Genius sparkling there in the center, as It – that is, You, the Abandoned part of You – struggles to escape the maw that’s about to devour It – that is, You, your historical You.

(4) Be Compassionate with any Pain you Feel.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really hurting aren’t you.”  Then put your thoughts on something else.  After a while you can check in again to see if you’re still in Pain.  If you aren’t, spend a few minutes in Gratitude.  If you are still (or again) in Pain, give yourself another “You poor Sweetheart…”  When You are Hurting, that’s literally True – You Are Hurt.  When you give yourself a “You poor Sweetheart…” You aren’t Hurt any more, You Are Compassion.  And Empathy Heals.  

(5) You don’t have to Fix anything or Change anything, you just have to be Loving and Gentle with yourself.  It’s actually The Most Important Thing.  Ask yourself, “I Wonder what would happen if I Trusted that my own Empathy is Enough to Heal Myself.”  Don’t seek Answers, just stay in Wonder as long as you can.  If you want you can Imagine that it’s True, then look to see what your Inner Eye sees.  If you see Peace, you’re Golden.  If you see Trouble, Ask what you’re Feeling there, and give yourself another “You poor Sweetheart…” about that.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Doubt, aren’t you.”

(6) You are Learning a Paradox about how…

  • Self-Sovereignty (which includes Doing and Having What you Want)

is Related to… 

  • Being Truthful with Yourself about What you Fear

The Relationship isn’t Logical, so don’t try to make it so.  Imagine how you’ll Feel when you can Do and Have exactly what you Want to Do and Have, moment to moment.  Then Ask yourself if you have any Yes-Buts.  Take them one by one, and convert them to Yes-Ands.  This is a Paradox, remember, it doesn’t make sense.  Maybe something like… “I Have Complete Freedom and Abundance, Yes, And my Life is falling apart because I’m not honoring my ten zillion Commitments!”  Or… “I Have Complete Freedom and Abundance, Yes, And how am I treating other people?”  Then just Change the Subject.  Nothing to Solve, nothing to Fix, just another Paradox.  Trust a Perfect Unfoldment; you just See Through a Glass Darkly.

(7) Be on the lookout for Ego Death.  The Signs are Thinking “I’d rather Die” or “I’d do anything for Love, but I won’t do That,” Not recognizing the landmarks in your own neighborhood, Feeling Confused, Not being able to keep your regular schedule, Feeling like you’re just now meeting old friends or colleagues for the first time.  It’s like you’re a Walk-In, but you aren’t.  It’s Weird.  An Ego Death is actually an Ego Rebirth.  It’s exactly what you Crave.  Our natural Reaction is to do everything we can to Prevent a Death/Rebirth; you want to do everything you can to be Loving and Gentle with it.  You’re a Babe in Arms, put yourself to your Breast, rock, and coo.

(8) Every Memory, Flashback, Vignette, and Historical Flash you Receive is Significant.  This is what it’s about.  They’re all either…

  • Related to how you were before your “Betters” Abandoned/Abused you
  • Related to the chronic or acute Traumas that characterized or precipitated your Abandonment
  • Related to your resulting Lifetime Self-Abandonment
  • Related to the many episodes in your Life where you exercised your now-Habitual Self-Abandonment (any “If-Only-I’d-Have…” Flashbacks?)
  • Related to your Shoulds (which are all Self-Abandonments)
  • Related to the Limiting Beliefs and Karmic Archetypes that are Lit Up so you can become Conscious of them and Choose to Let them Go
  • Related to episodes of Genuine Self-Love and Self-Care (for Contrast)

Or several/many/ all of the above.

As we’ve said, these are Big Doin’s.

Makemake’s Exact Retrograde Station is at 3pm PST on 2 January.

(1) Abandoned Genius (AG) as The Most Important Thing (TMIT): Saturn/TMIT Conjunct Ixion/AG and Nemesis/Ego-Death Oppose dwarf planet Chaos/Unlimited-Potential, forming the base of a Chiron/Despair-and-Miracle T-Square/Challenge.  Saturn-Ixion Opposite Chaos and Jupiter-Haumea/Big-Rebirth Opposite Uranus-Ceres-Eris-Mnemosyne/Memories -to-make-our-True-Self-Sustainable form a  Golden Rectangle/Creative-Genius.

(2a) Having Time: Ixion Initiates Saturn 15 February in 25 Sagittarius.  Other closely related intermediate events:

  • Ixion Initiates Nemesis 6 January 25 Sagittarius
  • Juno Opposes Chaos 6 January
  • Juno Squares Chiron 7 January 
  • Saturn Initiates Juno 11 January 23 Sagittarius
  • Ixion Initiates Juno 19 January 26 Sagittarius
  • Jupiter Stationary Retrograde Conjunct Haumea 6 February 24 Libra

(2b) Survival/Safety: Moira/Fate Sextile Saturn-Ixion-Nemesis-Juno etc etc.

(3) Crystal: the Vacancy that completes the Chiron T-Square is 22 Virgo, A royal coat of arms rich in Precious Stones.  Annabergite is one of the few Crystalline Minerals that was Organically Alive just before it Crystalized.  The appropriate Heart color and dangerous positioning on this one is a convenient “coincidence.”  Or, you could use this Cluster (from http://www.jbuss.com/jbl4/tbam1878bp.htm ), with the Violet Flame:

(4) Compassion/Empathy: the Chiron T-Square.

(5) Wonder and Trust: the Tricolor Saturn-Ixion-Nemesis-Juno Square Chiron Quincunx Eurydike/Trust Trine Saturn-Ixion et al.

(6) Self-Sovereignty/Truth-Fear: Sedna-Aletheaia/Being-Truthful-about-our-Fear to Lilith/Self-Sovereignty Yin Gate/Mystery School embedded in the Golden Rectangle in (1).

(7) Ego Death: Jupiter/Amplification Conjunct Haumea/Rebirth, Uranus-Eris Stellium, Saturn-Ixion Stellium, etc etc etc.

(8) Flashbacks: Mnemosyne/Memories in the Uranus-Eris Stellium, Nemesis/Regret in the Saturn-Ixion Stellium, Aletheia/Truth on Sedna, etc etc etc.

Learning to Transcend

July 24, 2016

Being very much still under the influence of the Big-Pattern-Breaker and The-Time-Is-Now Full Moon, there’s lots of Action going on, eh?  

The 19 July Full Moon featured a Grand Unx (Bigtime Pattern Breaking) and a Grand Septile (Timing is Everything).

Can we shed any more Light on that, based on what’s going on now?  

I’m not a huge fan of Cognitive Therapy, because it works mostly for folks who run their lives from their minds, so their Shoulds probably already have them Living someone else’s Life rather than their own, and Cognitive Therapy can make that worse, unless it’s done just right.  

But if you can lead someone into Insight about their previously Unconscious Self-Sabotage (and if necessary provide Tools to facilitate Change), it really doesn’t matter how you do it.  If someone has their Mercury (Thought) or Venus (Values) in an Air Sign (Mind), then the Cognitive approach may be their natural path.  Right at the moment, Mercury and Venus are both in Leo, a Fire (Spiritual) Sign, so in general folks are probably trying to put their best foot forward.

Leo, though, is also a Fixed Sign, so a danger is that folks may be thinking and Feeling that their Perspective on Spirit is the onliest or bestest one.  The Big Opportunity here is to Learn about the places where our Superiority and Privilege – and the places where we acquiesce to Superiority and Privilege in Others – are being exposed.

Part of the ongoing Sappho-Orcus (Challenges to Oaths that are no longer Self-Loving) Opposite Nessus-OR10-Pallas (Setting Boundaries against Abuse and Clearing Boundaries against Memories of Abuse), now T-Squared (Mastery through Challenge) by asteroid Veritas (Truth).

Sappho (Self-Love) is moving out of this Configuration, and is now one foot of a Saturn (The Most Important Thing) T-Square, with Neptune (Our Relationship with Everything Larger than Ourself, such as our Culture, the Goddess, and in general, Other) at the other foot, which is to say…

The Most Important Thing here is to be Self-Loving in our Response to the ongoing Collapse of our Culture and Economic Milieu.  An excellent process for this is to Give Over Control to some aspect of the Godhead, such as “Ganeshi, please Remove any and all Obstacles between me and Ongoing Abundance,” where Abundance of course means Having Enough to Share.

l don’t know if you’ve noticed, but The Donald is a perfect example of Yintegrity.  It’s just Yintegrity mixed with Narcissism.  The hunger for Yintegrity is so great that The Donald is able to hypnotize many people into believing that he will help them Manifest their Narcissism, or at least their Permission to Act Out their childhood and adolescent Fantasies.  

As we move from the Patriarchy to Yang Feminine Cultural Structures we will have to expect to see a good deal more of this, as our repressed Fantasies are Set Free from the Should Prisons they’ve been locked into.  Most of our Terror of our own Fantasies results from their being imprisoned for so long that we Fear they will take over our Consciousness – while in Truth they’ve been running the show all along, just on the Unconscious level.

Yes, we set Oaths to keep them under cover because we would have been – or were – punished for displaying them.  But how old were you when you swore those Oaths?  The urges underlying these Fantasies are still just that old, and it will take some Work and Skill to bring them up to age-appropriateness.  Once they’re Liberated from Repression, our Fantasies will mature – in the sense of being Constructive to Community – surprisingly quickly.

Libertarianism is the -ism that expounds Yintegrity, but as far as I’ve seen its spokesfolks refer only to Economic Libertarianism, which boils down to your right to rip me off if you can get away with it.  Hence The Donald would banish any law that would prevent his making money by destroying the Planet and exploiting People.  Of course, that’s exactly what the WTO, NAFTA, the TPP, and all of the other elements of “Globalization” promote, and which are already law in many places.

The major difference is that Obama and Hillary would banish any law that would prevent their campaign funders from making money by destroying the Planet and exploiting People.  The Culture in the U.S. worships “Success,” which means “Having Enough Money” to do whatever you Want, whenever you Want to.  A friend used to refer to “Enough Money” as “the Ultimate Oxymoron.”

In truth it’s not about Money, but about Courage.  What if “Success” meant “Having Enough Courage” to do whatever you Want, whenever you Want to.  In U.S. elections, Libertarian candidates have never gotten more than around 1% of the vote, because people are so frightened by their own Repression.  And because the other 99% of us lack the Narcissism and Psychopathy necessary to Worship Exploitation as the Highest Virtue.

Much of Economic Theory used in the U.S. and exported to the rest of the World through the IMF, World Bank, and Goldman Sachs alumni in Central Banks worldwide, is based on Milton Friedman’s work at “the Chicago School” of Economics.  Uncle Milty even has a Nobel Prize for it.  Ted Cruz is one of his rabid disciples.  You can find excellent summaries of how it works in Naomi Klein’s Shock Doctrine and John Perkins’s New Economic Hit Man.

Another noted Libertarian, Narcissist, and Exploitation expert is Doug Casey.  Here’s what Doug has to say this weekend…

http://www.caseyresearch.com/articles/weekend-edition-how-to-profit-from-these-massive-brexit-induced-trends

Doug and his fellow Vulture Capitalists and 1%-ers know what they’re talking about, and we will never win an economic contest if we try to compete with them.  We can maybe support our own Survival by riding their coattails – Doug is generous enough to be Honest and forthright – to the extent we can ride their coattails and stay within our own Values.  

And of course, we need to be mindful that Economists and folks like Doug are famous for predicting 25 of the last 10 economic slumps.  But as we’ve said, we’re in the last few hairs at the end of the tail of the Industrial Revolution, as we descend into economic and social chaos between now and 2020.  We’ll talk more about that soon.  Our primary focus this week is on what we’re Learning.

Today’s chart features a Grand Quintile – a complete Configuration making Learning and Teaching the primary current process, in the context of the Pattern-Breaking and Timeliness of the Full Moon chart.  The five planets in the Grand Quintile are…

  • Mercury – Mind and Communication
  • Chiron – Despair and Miracles
  • Juno – the Edges of Consciousness
  • Asteroid Veritas – Truth
  • Pluto – Trance ReFormation

In addition, two planets sit at the Midpoints between two of the Grand Quintile planets, making Deciles (Fortune) to their neighbors, a Biquintile to one another, and Trideciles to Mercury.  These two planets are…

  • Saturn – The Most Important Thing
  • Ceres – Sustainability and Sustenance

Because it has more Active Angles in the Grand Quintile, we have to call Mercury the “head” of the GQ, which is convenient, implying that much of what we Learn here under the GQ and its Decile embellishments will come directly into Conscious Awareness.

We also have to flag five other members as Prominent, because they participate in T-Squares with planets outside the GQ.  That leaves one planet unflagged, and we could easily make the case that this one becomes The Most Important one by virtue of its uniqueness.  We don’t need to do that, though, because the unflagged planet is Pluto, which always points to what’s Mandatory.

Pluto recall is like a big River, the River of Time.  The current is too strong to paddle against; if we try we’ll just be swept over the waterfall backwards.  If we Choose to move with the current, though, we’ll be able to steer to one bank or the other, and portage around the rapids and falls.  Hence we think of Pluto as Transformation – it Changes everything, and often symbolizes a major Change of Zeitgeist.

Since any form of Zeitgeist is a Mass Hypnosis (we forget it was or will ever be different than it is), we often misspell Transformation as Trance(Re)Formation

The T-Squares?  

Foremost are Saturn and Veritas, as they form a Grand Cross with Sappho and Neptune.  (A Grand Quintile does not include Oppositions, but the Decile embellishments on this GQ Oppose members of the GQ.)  Sappho and Veritas complete a Grand Cross with the Waning Saturn-Neptune Square…

As the Culture and Economic Structure Collapse, The Most Important Things for us are to Stay Present with the Truth, and Maintain our Self-Love.  As we’ve suggested, PIAVAing Ongoing Abundance – Having Enough to Share – will allow us to Survive and help our Community Survive as well.  But we have to Sustain ourself first, or we’ll have nothing to Give.

Similarly, Juno and Ceres Oppose one another, forming the base of a T-Square to the Sun…

As we Stay Present with the Truth, we bring our own former Unconscious Limitations up into Consciousness.  Compensating for and Replacing these will allow us to Let Go of what is Unnecessary and Stay Focused on what we Need for Sustainability.

Finally, Chiron is T-Square to the Opposition between dwarf planets Chaos (Unlimited Potential) and Ixion-Pholus (Taking Full Responsibility for our Abandoned Genius).

The rest of the decade will be Challenging.  To avoid Despair we will need to stop discounting our own Skills, and PIAVA to Connect with Unique Skills we didn’t know we had.  Of course Embracing ourself in Despair and Empathizing with ourself no matter what we’re Feeling, is critically important.  

But as they say, “If it doesn’t make you stronger it will kill you” – either way, you’re Liberated from Suffering.  Wait – did I get that backwards?  Mastery follows from Challenges.  Remember Marianne Williamson’s famous anthem…

“Our deepest Fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest Fear is that we are Powerful beyond measure.  It is our Light, not our Darkness That most frightens us.

“We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?  Actually, who are you not to be?  You are a Child of God.  Your playing small does not serve the world.  There’s nothing Enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.

“We are all meant to Shine, as Children do.  We were born to make Manifest the Glory of God that is within us.  It’s not just in some of us;
It’s in everyone.  And as we let our own Light shine, we unconsciously give other people Permission to do the same.  As we’re Liberated from our own Fear, our Presence automatically Liberates others.”

Hidden Genius lies within All of us.  All we need to do is to stop preventing it from arising.  Accept the Challenges being Presented to you, and Allow your Native Creativity and Curiosity to Surpass them.  The Challenges and your Creative Responses are part and parcel of the Ascension of the Planet.

Uranus-Eris II+

June 10, 2016

As is often the case, our Chief Asteroid Officer noticed something I missed.  Our second layer of the Eris-Uranus Initiation horrorscope, the one where The Most Important Things are…

  • Embracing Confusion
  • Respect for All Things
  • Being Willing to Stretch
  • Staying Alert for Habits that no longer Serve

(see the previous post), and of course one that applies to the rest of the Century, stays lit up a bit longer.

To whit…

(1)  On 11 June we’re likely to be asked to Stretch a bit more.

(2)  Expect Confusion to remain Strong till 13 June – Embrace it, Wallow in it, don’t try to Change it.

I knocked over a full glass of Water today – twice.  Not wanting to think my Confusion was due to a TIA, I figured I must be Regressed to infancy, to a time before I knew that those wiggly things, on the end of that pink stick-like thing that keeps waving around randomly, were “my” fingers.

Once our CAO enlightened me, I knew instantly that it was a Poltergeist.  We create Poltergeists (seemingly independent actions by Material objects) by thoroughly Repressing an Emotion.  We do everything we can to Avoid some Emotions (like Confusion, often); bringing those into our Embrace will Expand our Emotional range and Open our Awareness to new Blessings.

But we don’t even know we’re Avoiding the Emotions that we’ve thoroughly Repressed.  Those are the Held Emotions that prevent our Awareness of the Lost Skills that are hiding behind our Karmic Limiting Beliefs – the ones that are Unconscious.  Recovering those is a Treasure bigger than Smaug’s, as we won’t achieve our Mission without them.

So be Mindful of anything unusual happening this weekend, especially if Water is involved.  What’s your immediate Reaction to it?  Mine was Irritation.    Call up that Feeling, then PIAVA “I Wonder what that was all about.”

(3)  Through 14 June, be prepared for major Breakthroughs in Innovation and Creativity.  If there’s a major project or hassle you’re working on… 

  • PIAVA a huge leap forward on 10 or 11 June (don’t be too specific, so you can be surprised),
  • Change the Subject on 12 and 13 June, then
  • Pay Attention on 14 June.

Good chance there’s a connection between (2) and (3) – and (1) as well.  In fact it would be surprising if there wasn’t.  What if I was able to Revert an Unconscious Limiting Belief that was installed before I was even Aware of my Physicality, let alone Verbal.  That would have a monumental impact on my Life.  It’s very difficult to approach preverbal Trauma for Healing, because the organization of our Worldview is so organized around our Languaging.

 

The Astrology

(1)  The Moon lights up Jupiter and the North Node for about eight hours starting around 8am PDT on 11 June.

(2)  Neptune (Material Confusion, Spiritual Clarity, and our Relationship to anything larger than ourself, Emotion, Water), which Squares Saturn and Vesta while Opposing Jupiter and hanging out near the South Node, is Stationary, turning Retrograde around 2pm PDT on 13 June.

(3)  The dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation) is Standing Still and Waxing Quintile to Saturn.  The Station occurs around 7am PDT 14 June.  The Insights will probably be most Fruitful between the Neptune and Makemake Stations, though the Moon crosses the Stationary Makemake at around 7pm PDT on 12 June.  The current Saturn-Makemake Cycle began in mid-September 2009 in 26 Virgo, a Degree devoted to Learning new, potentially Life-Changing Rituals.

It’s very significant when a Station makes few Angles with other planets.  Besides the Saturn Quintile, the only other close Angle that Makemake makes is a Waxing Unx (one Sign) by Lilith.  The Lilith-Makemake Cycle began at the end of last August, in the same 1 Libra as Makemake’s current Station – virtually the same arcminute!  The Moon crosses Lilith around noon PDT on 15 June.

Libra 1 is about how Observation Stops The Flow.  It’s an apparent fact of Quantum Physics – the Future (or even the Present) is indeterminate until it is Observed.  It’s interesting that 1 Aries, the beginning of the Personal half of the Zodiac, is about Discrete Form emerging from the Background Matrix (ie, Consciousness), while the beginning of the Relational half of the Zodiac is about The Flow, or The Zone, or Time.

Yindependence (Lilith) is of course about The Flow, about Staying in the Present Moment, Staying Present.  Being Here Now, as Ram Dass puts it.  And it’s appropriate that the Relational half of the Zodiac should begin with Yin and the Feminine.  Libra, like Aries, is a Dynamic or Masculine Sign, but it begins with the Yin.  And the Form that is Manifesting at 1 Aries is the Female form.  Like the Dao, or Taijitu, Duality Unfolding from Unity, or Duality Stopping The Flow.

The Unx Angle (one twelfth of the Zodiac) is about Changing Patterns.  Manifesting Yin by Changing Patterns to Cease Stopping the Flow.  This is getting Deep.  And of course, whatever minor or major Trauma befell me as a Newborn (which would be a Mirror for Past-Life Trauma), would have Created an Observer – Manifested Consciousness – and Stopped the Flow.  Changing Patterns – I think that’s a Stephen Stills song.  

“Stop, children, what’s that sound?
Everybody look what’s going down.”

Back to the Ouija Board ’60s!

Uranus-Eris I

June 7, 2016

There are several layers to the 8-9 June Eris Initiation of Uranus.  The Initiation, and the next Century that it colors (the Cycle lasts about a Century), is about Abundance – Abundance of Spirit, and Abundance of the Material toys that Spirit likes to play with.  Abundance, of course, means Having Enough to Share.

Uranus symbolizes our Connection to our Individual Soul, and Eris represents the Revelation of what’s been Denied – and what threatens to remain Denied.  This is the Energy we’ve been dealing with all year so far: Removing our Masks, getting Honest with ourself, Insights about our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs, the Ego Death we need to endure in order to Expand into our Life Mission, and most prominently the Rebirth we’re Experiencing in the process.

Where has your Attention been so far this year?  On the Ego Death, or on the Rebirth?  If you Learn to recognize the symptoms of Ego Death, you can put its discomfort into Perspective while you look forward to, and PIAVA, the glorious Future your Rebirth promises.  Intention follows Attention.  The more you dwell on the Ego Death, the more you’re likely to depress your Future.

Details

(1)  The Big Picture in the first layer is all about the Rebirth.  As Rebirths go, this one is Blessed.  If we can be Present with the difficulties that are normal for Ego Death and Rebirth, the result promises Abundance of Spiritual and Material rewards.

(2)  A complexity that could hinder the Grace if allowed to develop negatively (for instance, if we failed to Love our Fear to Death, or if we sank into Despair about how distant we seem to be from Living from our True, Effortless, Joyful, Playful, Shameless Talents), can be resolved by PIAVAing “Ganeshi, please remove all Obstacles between me and Embracing my Despair” and “I Affirm that my most Powerful Skills are available for me to use without Fear.”  Or something like that.

(3)  Recovery of the Soul’s message that we’ve been Denying (seeking Truth) will leverage the Energy locked in our Fear of (Ego) Death, and in our Despair, to Power an even more profound Rebirth.  Think about it; haven’t you been thinking about how your Future looks and Feels more inviting to you than it has in a while?  Haven’t you been smiling to yourself more often in the last several days?

(4)  All year we’ve been unavoidably dwelling on what’s not been working, because it’s forced us to detour from our regular schedule to put out the Brushfires and frighten away the Wolves.  Well, we should be done with that now.  In the process we’ve Let Go of a lot of old baggage we no longer need, and, now streamlined, we’re Free to Manifest our Heart’s Desire.

(5)  The ring-pass-not between Ego Death and Rebirth is Confusion.  Most of us instantaneously convert our Confusion to either Fear or Anger, or both.  Use that Energy to protect your Boundaries, either by taking precautions against whatever your Fear warns against, or by Safely expressing your Anger to those who would Abuse you.  Then, when you’re Safe, go back and look for the Confusion beneath the Fear or Anger.

There’s a Question there – what is it?  Maybe “Why don’t people Respect me?” or “Why are people so Selfish?” or “What did I ever do to them?”  Whatever it is, make it into a PIAVA.  Maybe “I Wonder how I might command Respect” or “What would it Feel like to be as Selfish as they are, without violating my own Values” or “God/Goddess, please show me how I might Act differently, that would produce a better result.”

Think about the areas of your Life that have been working just fine.  “I Wonder what’s different about my Energy in these areas that are working, in contrast to my Energy in the areas that aren’t working.”

(6)  A major result of this Ego-Death Rebirth, is that we will be permanently Changed, as we are Learning to apply our Energy directly toward our Desires in a very Sustainable way.  You’ve probably already detected those Changes, eh?

The Astrology

(1)  The Eris-Uranus Initiation, which takes place at 24 Aries (a Vision of Abundance) is at the base of a Haumea Kite (Rebirth with Grace).  Haumea is Conjoined by the asteroid Nemesis – Rebirth is the Nemesis of the Olde Ego.  The arms of the Kite are Sappho (Self-Love) and Ixion (our Forbidden Genius).  The Grand Trine that forms the body of the Kite shines great Grace on the mantra of Soul-Love-Genius.  The Kite itself promises Rebirth into this mantra.

(2)  The arms of the Kite form the Trine atop a Square Fez, as both Sappho and Ixion are Squared by planets one Sign away on either side of Uranus-Eris.  In this Square Fez, the determining Quincunxes are Sappho-to-Chiron (Embracing our Despair) and Ixion-to-Sedna (Overcoming Fear of Embracing our Forbidden Genius).  The secret to resolving a Fez is to Surrender any difficulty in the Squares (Sedna-to-Sappho, or Fear to Love, and Ixion-to-Chiron, or Despair over ever being able to pursue our Deepest Desires), to the Mystery (ie, PIAVA) of the Quincunxes.  Sedna is Conjoined by Mercury and Atropos (Awareness of Fear of Death, or Awareness of the Death of Fear).

(3)  Chiron and Sedna-Mercury-Atropos make a Yod to Haumea-Nemesis.  Uranus-Eris makes it into a Yod Kite.  I’m told by my CAO that folks call this a Boomerang Yod, and that the focus remains on the point of the Yod (Haumea-Nemesis), but with the Power of Uranus-Eris acting like a bow-string to activate Haumea-Nemesis (Ego Death/Rebirth) even more strongly.

(4)  This Fez overlain on a Trine Kite makes a huge Five-Pointed Star (Manifestation, Power, Magic), also pointing at Haumea-Nemesis – Yet another Booster for Rebirth into our Future.  It looks a little like a Jack-in-the-box hidden inside one of those old wire-handled white thin-cardboard take-out containers from a Chinese restaurant.  We might even call the Configuration a Jack-in-the-Box, or a Chinese Takeout.

(5)  Mars (Energy, Anger) butts in, Opposing Sedna-Mercury-Atropos, and making a T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) to Sappho, in Leo, doubling our Challenge to Self-Love.  The Vacancy (26 Aquarius) that will make this into a Balanced Grand Cross is about Innovation – taking what you know about one field, and applying it to solve a problem in another field.

(6)  Mars is one corner of the foot of a Quintile Yod pointing at Ceres (Sustainability), along with Jupiter, which is Conjunct the North Node (Expanding into our Lifetime Mission, and into more directly pursuing our Desires).

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn et al Stationary II

March 23, 2016

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Irrespective of the accoutrements that decorate the Saturn Station (discussed in the previous post), it makes a very tight T-Square with Jupiter and Venus.  A T-Square means Mastery through Challenge.  Jupiter and Venus mean Expanding our Values.  So in addition to Taking Full Responsibility for the Survival Value of our Abandoned Genius we want to also Pay Attention to Challenges that Ask us to Expand our Values.  We could even consider it to be The Most Important Thing.

Pluto forms a Trine Bridge across the T-Square.  A Trine Bridge is a Shortcut, showing the Easy way to address the Challenges and arrive at Mastery.  Pluto represents a Mandatory Transformation, usually of Who We Believe Ourselves to Be.  This means that when we move to Expand our Values, there is likely to be an obvious Path of Least Resistance.  It also means that Resistance is futile.

That all happens within one Degree of Sensitivity, so there’s no question that the above will impact all of us, even the Muggles.  What if we Expand our Sensitivity to three Degrees?  Three Degrees is a typical level of Sensitivity for assessing astroevents to see if they’re likely to have a measureable impact on current events.  

At three Degrees, our T-Square evolves into a Grand Cross, as the dwarf planet Chaos Opposes the Stationary Saturn.  Chaos represents Unlimited Potential.  We also gain two more Trine Bridges, to Juno and Uranus, and a Quincunx Bridge to Stationary Klotho.

It’ll behoove us to Allow our Values to Expand without Limit (Chaos), as much as we’re able.  If we do encounter Resistance to Expanding our Values, being Loving and Gentle with it will benefit us.   We have two other Easy Shortcuts (Trine Bridges), which entail Allowing the Edges of our Consciousness to Grow (Juno), and Allowing our True Self to step out from behind any remaining Masks that constrain it (Uranus).  

We’re building the Foundation for a new Ego Identity (Klotho) here, and the appropriate approach to that Identity is Permanent Curiosity (Quincunx Bridge).  Not Curiosity as in seeking Answers, but Curiosity as in Avoiding Answers persistently, Curiosity as in Awe and Wonder.  This is New Territory, and any notions we have about what our New Identity may look like will constrain us to just more of the Old – which will be the wrong Frequency to fit into what the Planet is Becoming.

Pay Loving Attention to any strange Physical symptoms.  Avoid diagnosis if you can, as diagnosis will hypnotize you into a narrow niche in the Allopathic Medical model, a niche where something is Wrong.  What’s going on here is that something is Right, it’s just Right relative to who you’re Becoming (Klotho), not Right relative to who you’ve Been.  Your Foundational New Identity extends to your DNA and your cells, and your Physicality will seem strange until the rest of you catches up to the Changes.

The Stationary-Klotho Quincunx Bridge is also part of a Klotho Finger of God on the Venus-Pluto Sextile, which puts an additional Strong emphasis on the Transformation of the Foundations of our Identity and Biology.

This whole process will probably be much Easier than it could be, as if we stretch a bit beyond three Degrees, we can summarize the whole Configuration as a Chaos Diamond Star coinciding with a Chaos Kite – very auspicious.

From Robert Moss’s Dreamgates, pp.69-70…

“On a visit to Sydney more than two decades after I had left my native Australia, I wandered rapt among the painted worlds of the Aboriginal artists gathered at an extraordinary exhibit at the Museum of Contemporary Art.  The Rainbow Serpent coiled and stretched, shape-shifting into the prizefighter’s bulk of a bull kangaroo, sprouting horns of a water buffalo.  

“Yes, I remember you.  My mind went whirling back to a boyhood dream – a dream more real and more terrifying than anything in my waking life – in which something immense, with the horns of a bull, had ripped me apart, scattering the pieces of my dismembered body to the four quarters.  I was told:

” ‘You were born for this.  I put stakes through your body.  You did not die.  You did not even cry out.’

“In the face of the horned dragon, these thoughts, that had come to me from an intelligence beyond my normal mind, returned to me.

“I moved on around the gallery, and froze in front of a series of ghostly figures.  I seemed to know them too.  I looked at the personal statement by the artist.  He had depicted the lives of the mimi spirits because when he got sick, he went to live with them in the spirit world, and when he got well, he came back to his home in the surface world.  

“I felt giddy.  I was hurled back again into the serial medical emergencies and temporary deaths of my boyhood.  I remembered leaving my body in an operating theater and eventually plunging down through the earth, into a world of beautiful, pale, elongated beings, similar to these mimi spirits, who welcomed me as one of their own.  I grew up among them, forgetting the boy in the Melbourne hospital.  I knew the love of women and became a kind of shaman, a grandfather and an elder.

“When my body in this world-within-the-world was used up, I floated up on the smoke of a cremation fire – and was pulled back into the body of a nine-year-old Australian kid coming back from general anesthesia after an emergency appendectomy.  My mother told me later that the operating staff were worried that I wouldn’t come back, since I lost vital signs for a time.  ‘Poor bloody kid,’ a doctor told her, ‘He died and came back.’ “

Real Time is not Linear.  It’s Energy that’s Real, not Matter.  The Iriquois say that the Edge between Life and Death is exactly the thickness of a Maple Leaf.  So are the Edges between Matter, Emotion, Mind, Spirit, and Consciousness.  Stretch Time.

Saturn and (False) Limitation

March 19, 2016

With next week’s Stations, it’s a good idea to remind about Saturn.  Saturn is about Focus, Concentration, and The Most Important Thing.  Saturn asks us to temporarily suspend our Attention to Priorities 2, 3, 4, and 5, and Focus only on The Most Important Thing.  Saturn has a reputation among Muggles as Limitation.  If you feel Limited this coming week, move your Focus to The Most Important Thing.  

Not sure what The Most Important Thing is?  Is there anything you’re shying away from?  If, as the week progresses, you find your Attention wandering, what is it wandering to?

We feel Saturn as Limitation when Fear of Failure arises around our Most Important Thing.  You can Trust that your Subsidiary Priorities will be very Safe while you Focus on Priority #1.  They’re just out in the parking lot having a smoke.  When your Attention returns to them after 25 March, they’ll be rested and ready to go – and eager to collaborate with your revised approach to The Most Important Thing.

There are also a couple of asteroids Stationary next week.  Klotho is Stationary Direct on 25 March at 15 Leo, and Sappho Stationary Direct 28 March at 12 Leo.  Sappho is about Devotion to Love.

Klotho is about Designing the structures of a new Ego, so its Station at the Powerful Midpoint of Leo, Trine to simultaneously-Stationary Saturn, is extremely beneficial.  Klotho and Saturn are five Degrees away from making a Grand Trine with Soul-Self Uranus, but since we’re Birthing a new Identity here, that’s plenty close.  Chaos (Unlimited Potential), in Gemini, completes a Kite, and Klotho is also at the focus of a Finger of God from Venus and Pluto.

Remember that Pholus (Responsibility) is also Stationary, and Chiron is Initiating Ceres (Building lasting Habits of Creating Miraculous Breakthroughs by Embracing our Discouragement – recall that there are no negative Emotions, only negative Reactions to some Emotions; the positive function of Discouragement is that it is advice from our Guides to rest up a bit, to take a break and be Loving with ourself).

So the timing here is exquisitely auspicious for restructuring our Identity and building into it Recognition for our Unique Genius.  If there is Guilt or Threat of Punishment associated with your Unique Genius (as is often the case), then the restructuring will be around having Compassion for your sense of Guilt or Threat around your Greatest Skills.  “You poor Sweetheart, you don’t feel particularly Safe around that, do you.”  In the short run, finding Empathy for your Unique Genius may well be The Most Important Thing.

Then there’s Tuesday’s Lunar Eclipse; we’ll cover the next.

Heavy II

February 22, 2016

The other big Configuration in the cluster near the Midpoints of the Signs is a Yin Gate in 22-25 Degrees.  There’s a nice picture and description of a Yin Gate in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/06/13/full-moon-yin-gate-and-portal-7-5-15/ .  A Yin Gate represents an Initiation into Mystery, embodied by the Central Opposition, the one with Yods to both ends of it.  The Central Opposition in the current Yin Gate is Vesta-Eris in Aries to Haumea in Libra…

The Central Issue here is…

Becoming Aware of the Limitations imposed on our Life by our Unconscious Beliefs.  

We normally have very good reasons for keeping Unconscious Beliefs repressed, though the reason could be as simple as we’re too busy or too lazy to rework our entire approach to Life just because a few pieces don’t fit together well.  The folks at the Tea Parties carrying “Government Keep Your Hands off my Medicare” come to mind.  Or the poor saps who don’t realize that “Making American Great Again” means making it Great for the billionaires.

Often though it’s about not wanting to face down our Held Emotions – the situations that we in one Body or another endured and never want to revisit.  As we mentioned in the previous Heavy I post, those could well be coming up this week.  We can look for more clues in the “Subsidiary Issues” which we elaborated in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/06/20/the-second-harmonic/ ), but first, getting our Limiting Beliefs pulled up by the Roots is only half of the Central Issue.  The other half is a…

Rebirth of our Social Self and the way we Relate to the Outside World.

We can dig for more information about that in the Sabian Symbol, “The sight of an autumn leaf brings to a pilgrim the sudden revelation of the Mystery of Life and Death.”  I don’t think Elsie used “Pilgrim” in the same way that John Wayne did.  My guess is that rather than thinking “That Asshole!” about a fellow Pilgrim who doesn’t Behave the way Mom said every decent person should, we might think, “Whoa, that poor Bloke has probably Lived through the same sort of Nightmares I have.”

The Subsidiary Issues provide reinforcement and background, but not a lot of Insight.  They’re

  • The Threat of being Overwhelmed when our Held Emotions well up in our throat ( South Node in Pisces ) versus Allowing our Ego to be Overhauled to reorient our Life toward our Deepest Desires ( North Node in Virgo ) and 
  • Actions Motivated by Fear of Loss ( Sedna in Taurus ) versus Actions Motivated by a Deep Intuitive Understanding of Context ( Mars in Scorpio )

But now, this is a Yin Gate, which means that the two Subsidiary Issues are bound together with a Great Deal of Grace ( the Golden Rectangle ), so they complement and educate one another.  The Trines indicate Dumb-Luck Grace between Fear and Desire (which would appear to suggest that it might be a good time to Face Down our Fear), and between Karma and Action.  What sort of Action?  That’s suggested by the Sextiles, in this case Action in Pursuit of our Mission, or in Pursuit of our current picture of our Mission – namely our Deepest Desires.

The Goddess is no Dummy; she encoded our Mission into our Deepest Desires, so there’s no way we could possibly forget it.  Motivation from the intellect is fine, as far as it goes.  But it doesn’t have nearly the Power and Persistence as Motivation from the Heart or the Gut or the Groin.  We were just Programmed to Believe that those kinds of Motivations were Silly or Stupid or Uncivil.  We were easy to Program because that’s what our Held Emotions told us anyway.  Which is just another way of saying that’s what we’re doing this week, examining our Programming and our Vulnerability to it.

Then there are the Dos Equiis, the four Curiosities, where the Universe is advising us to eschew Analysis and substitute Wonder.  These are…

  • I Wonder how my Unconscious Beliefs have warped my Deepest Desires
  • I Wonder how my Beliefs have constrained my Actions
  • I Wonder how Fear of Loss Limits my social interactions
  • I Wonder how my Held Emotions have warped my social interactions

These are Mysteries.  If your mind jumps at the chance to provide simple Answers to these Musings, thank it for Contributing and change the wording.  For instance, if it’s obvious to you how your Fear of Loss Limits your social interactions, change it to “I Wonder what would happen to my Social Life if my Fear of Loss was assuaged,” or something else that triggers your Imagination rather than your intellect.

At mid-month, this Configuration was not just a Yin Gate, but also a Flying Yoda, with a Kite stretched across the Golden Rectangle, topped by Haumea, and with T-Squares to each corner-to-corner Opposition in the Golden Rectangle.  We talk about Flying Yodas in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/12/04/orcus-ii/ , but in that essay I don’t think we mentioned the embedded Yin Gate or the T-Squares.  

The picture in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/03/30/very-busy-march-31/ shows the tailed Flying Squirrel, and actually, if we moved Ceres a few degrees forward, Mercury-Juno-Makemake-Ceres-Mercury would trace out a Golden Rectangle and enclose a Yin Gate.  (That’s a hypothetical; Mercury would be likely to move forward four times faster than Ceres.)  The T-Squares in that picture would be Pallas on Mercury-Opposite-Makemake, and Mars on Juno-Opposite-Pallas.

At the moment we have only a one-armed Flying Yoda, since the other arm was formed by Klotho and Sappho.  Klotho-Sappho (cutting a new Fabric for Life based on Singing the Praises of Love) is a great arm for a Haumea Kite to have, and not only can we easily conceive that the full Flying Yoda has provided a continuing Blessing, but any projects born around mid-February will certainly receive that Blessing.

The persisting arm of the Flying Yoda is Ixion, another fabulous Blessing.  If you didn’t notice the aroma of our Abandoned Genius in the earlier discussion of Programming and Desire, you might want to re-read it.  It’s quite a “coincidence” that Ixion occupies a Ray of the Grand Trine, because while we didn’t name it that, the Ixion Discovery chart contains a full Flying Yoda, focused on Ixion itself!  See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/03/23/ixion/ .

We’ll be able to bring our Abandoned Genius home here as well, as Grace surrounds it and connects it to our Rebirth.