Abuse and Boundaries III

As we were saying…

About an hour and a half before our Celebration of Boundaries (Station of Pallas) on 5 September 2020 at 6pm PDT, we reached a Significant Milestone in a recently Initiated (1½ years old) Cycle that’s about Our Confidence in Our Ability to Have Control Over Our Own Life, as Opposed to Always Being Victims of Our Karmic Limitations (the 15-year-long South Node-Chariklo Cycle).

The Milestone peaked yesterday, but it remains very much in effect through the end of September (using one Degree of Sensitivity).  The Milestone is an Opportunity to Easily Let Go Of Obsolete Patterns, kind of a Karmic Get-Out-of-Jail-Free card (Waning Unx).  There is a bit of an Oxymoron there, because Karma is Never Easy to Let Go Of, simply because we’re so Deeply Habituated to it.  We often don’t even Recognize that there’s either an Issue or an Opportunity, it just feels like More of the Same Old Same Old.  We don’t Realize that we actually have Options.

One hint is that the Old Cycle that’s Obsolete began in September 2005, fifteen years ago.  If there’s anything you’ve been doing for the last fifteen years that now Feels Tired or Threatened for any reason, we’re probably better off Winding it Down than working harder to try to Resuscitate it.  In brief, the Old Cycle was about Continuing Pre-Established Patterns (Initiated in 15 Libra, “Circular Paths“).  The New Cycle is about Taking the Time to Reconsider Everything (Initiated in 24 Capricorn, “A Woman entering a convent“).

The Ides-of-March 2019 Initiation chart for the New Confidence-That-We-Can-Create-What-We-Want Cycle (South Node-Chariklo)…

…tells us that, for the next 14 years, our Strategy for Letting Go of our Karma will be…

• Compulsive and Impossible to Ignore (Initiation Conjunct Pluto).

• All about Eliminating Judgement – Eliminating not just Racism, but Misogyny, and Exclusion of Anything, for example Eliminating Active Disrespect of Nature (Initiation Conjunct Pluto and Hopi [Respect for All Things]).

• All about Grounding our Boundaries in the Heart.  The overall Configuration of the chart is a Parachute, with all of the Energy from the very busy left side of the cart focusing through the Boundaries-Truth of the Heart-Rebirth Portal (Pallas-Aletheia-Haumea) on the right side.

• Challenged by Becoming Acutely Aware of our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (which of course are Karmic) and Expanding Beyond Them (T-Square to Vesta-Mercury-Sun [Unconscious Beliefs-Awareness-Essence] from Jupiter [Expansion] Opposite Sappho and Chaos [Self-Love and Unlimited Potential]).

• About Taking the Time to Reconsider Everything – complementing the Woman joining the Convent, the Vacancy that Completes the Full-of-Grace Grand Sextile is 24 Leo (“Totally concentrated upon Inner Spiritual Attainment, a man is Sitting in a state of complete neglect of bodily appearance and  cleanliness“).

• About Becoming Adept – the Vacancy that Completes the Acute-Awareness Challenge is 23 Virgo (“A Lion tamer displays their skill and character“).

Compared to the Dead-End of trying to Resuscitate the Dying Embers of our 3D past, this is a lot to Look Forward To.

Abuse and Boundaries II

Of course as Abuse is Lit Up, Boundary Issues can’t be far behind, because Boundaries are how we Respond or React to Abuse, how we Own our part of the Drama, once we Realize we need to do that.  People who haven’t escaped the Blame Universe – and it is a Closed Universe, with few Exits – believe that “Creating Your Own Reality” is the same as “Blaming the Victim.”  That couldn’t be furthur from the Truth.  Blame is never the Issue – Blame is an Ego Defense that Covers our Unwillingness to Expand our Boundaries.  It always takes Two to Tango.

It’s a different situation when there is no Balance of Power, when an alleged Adult Preys on Children, for instance, or a Powerful Political figure Urges his Goons to Abuse the Undefended.  Those situations are so Overwhelming to the Victim that it may take Lifetimes to work off the Abuse and Reclaim our Power.  But in most other cases, there’s always some Value – Growth to be Harvested – in Inquiring of ourself, What is it about my Ego-Unconscious Constellation that draws these Dramas to me?

The phrase You Create Your Own Reality does not refer to your Ego.  It refers to your Entire Self, most especially including that part of the Unconscious that is Attached to you, and your Soul-Self as well.  Blaming the Victim is what the Ego sees when if doesn’t understand that it’s not in control, and when it’s not Aware that Looking Deeper is an Option.  No Blame – even if we’re well Aware that we aren’t monolithic, and that this Option is always Available to us, we all encounter situations every day where we Forget in the Moment that we can Look Deeper, just like we encounter situations every day where we Forget to Ask the Goddess to Handle it for us.

As Seth said long ago (in The Nature of Personal Reality), your Karma is obvious – it’s written in your Personal History.  When we Choose to remain Unconscious (or don’t Realize that there are other Options), we are total Victims to our Karma, our Fate.  When we Choose Consciousness, we suddenly have other Options.  It doesn’t really matter What we Choose, as long as it’s something Different.  The first several times we’ll Think we’re Choosing something Different, only to Discover that it’s the Same Old Same Old.  Like Blame, the Unconscious is a very Sticky Reality, Whole unto itself.  The Exits are not easily Discerned.

Once we Recognize that Oh yeah, we have to do this more than once! our Choices become more and more Different from our Ancient Dramas.  It’s a Virtuous Spiral – the more we Choose an Alternative to our Ancient Karma, the sooner we Recognize it when it Threatens to Arise again.  And the sooner we Recognize our tired Fate Arising again, the easier it is to Choose an Alternative.  It doesn’t take many Reps to Realize that Karma really is Dead, and you can See the Boundary between Fate and Choice, the low rock wall that separates the Zombies from the Living.  Karma and Liberation are no different than Muscles, the more frequently we exercise either one, the Stronger they become.

This Celebration of Boundaries (Station of Pallas) has been particularly difficult for me, as a couple of Lifetime Projects have rather suddenly appeared to be Worthless.  I Realized relatively quickly that these were Ego-Attachments that I needed to Surrender.  I needed to quit thinking that they were something that I was Doing and Doing Relatively Well, and instead I need to take my Gratitude to God/Goddess Deeper, Praying for Continuing Grace rather than patting myself on the back.  Which was a step forward, but didn’t much improve my Feelings or Outlook.

Like the 1 September 2020 Full Moon chart…

…the 5 September Pallas Station chart…

…shares the same Scorpio Vacancy to Excellent Grace (Grand Sextile), this time (at 13 Scorpio) closer to the Star Alphecca, the Sorrow that can accompany a Woman’s Crown, than asteroid Typhon, the Fierce Defender of his Mother Gaia.  Methinks I stumbled into that Sorrow.  Tapping on the Grief and Discouragement helped some.

I don’t often check my own astrology, usually only when I’m Feeling Lost.  This time I finally (thanks largely to reading Stephen Levine’s amazing posthumous book Animal Totems) Remembered to Ask, Duh, what’s going on in the Present Moment?  And of course the Answer was Self-Doubt.  So I looked to see what was going on with my natal Chariklo (Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence).  And boy did I get an education!

It’s very Lit Up by current astroevents, it’s Strong (Out of Bounds), it’s part of a Self-Resolving Challenge (one corner of a Diamond Star), and it’s one side of the business end (Central Axis) of a Yin Gate (Mystery School)!  I didn’t even know I had a natal Yin Gate, so that’s very validating.  This is natal, so it says I’ll be getting Lifelong non-Intellectual Lessons in how Doubt and Confidence relate to Fear, Vitality, and Sovereignty (Sedna, Varuna, Hylonome) – more specifically, Converting Fear to Power, Health and Kundalini, and Self-Sovereignty.  Exactly the Insight I needed!

I follow the Stations, because I’ve found them to be very important.  I follow the Cycles when I can, but there are so many of them (with the 44 or so planets I follow routinely, that’s more than 450 Cycles), and they don’t exactly leap out of ephemerides like the Stations do.  Many astrocalendars include lists of Angles or “aspects” (astrologuese for Angles), but the ones I’ve found don’t even include the four “major” asteroids, let alone the dwarf planets.

But the obvious question to Ask next, is What Angles is Chariklo making today?  The closest one turns out to be the Angle to the symbol for our Held Emotions or Karma (South Node), making a Waxing Unx to Chariklo.  An Unx is a one-Sign difference between planets, and it means Pattern-Breaking (the Twelfth Harmonic).  (The Nodes move backward, so “Waxing” means the Node is behind the slower planet, not ahead as is usually the case.)  So whatever Held Emotions (the ones we’d Rather Die than Feel) are Lit Up, this is about Letting Go of them, which is fabulous news!  I’m ready for that!

The Waxing Unx stage of a Cycle is about either Fighting to keep milking our Dying Investments from the Previous Cycle (like the Antichrist is doing – and like my two Lifelong Projects were about), or about Building the Foundation for the New Cycle, even though at this early stage we can’t expect a huge amount of Support from our Community, most of which will be Fighting to keep milking its Dying Investments from the Previous Cycle.

So, what is this New Cycle about?  The 15-year South Node-Chariklo Cycle in general is about our Confidence in our Strategy for Letting Go of our Karma – or our Distress about how our Karma keeps “Victimizing” us.  The Ides-of-March 2019 Initiation chart for the New Cycle…

…tells us that, for the next 14 years, our Strategy for Letting Go of our Karma will be…

• Compulsive and Impossible to Ignore (Initiation Conjunct Pluto).
• All about Eliminating Judgement – not just Racism, but Misogyny and for example Active Disregard of Nature (Initiation Conjunct Pluto and Hopi).
• We’re out of gas for today; will continue tomorrow!
• …

 

2020 The Year… 2

As we said, there are three snapshots of the 1 January 2020 chart, for the Year and the Decade, that merit closer examination.  Well, actually, there are four, but we’ve already done one, because that one’s essentially the same as the Vesta Station chart we looked at in Beliefs, Values, Identity at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/12/29/beliefs-values-identity/, the one where we’re adding a cup or two of Unconditional to our Self-Love brew.

In the second one, we’re figuring out how much Abundance we Deserve.

You caught that oxymoron right off, eh?

We don’t Deserve Abundance, it’s our Birthright.  Any Not-Deserving is our own Personal (Karmic) Limitation (dwarf planet Makemake/Manifestation, which is Exactly Stationary/Strong on 4 January at 9pm PST, makes a T-Square/Challenge across the Nodal Axis/Karma-and-Mission).  It’s not Out There, it’s In Here.  And like it or not, it’ll be In Our Face in 2020 and beyond (Sun/Essence and Jupiter/Expansion sit on the South Node/Karma – see below).

We can Wipe it Off by Noticing it, Owning it as Ours, Facing it, Enduring it, Becoming Present with it and Neutral about it, Embracing it, and Reframing it as a Skill we’re In Love with.  Hardest thing we’ll ever do, but it’s Exactly what we came here for, because we’ll only be Pretending that it’s ours so we can Own it.  It’s really a small piece of Mother Earth’s Karma, and by doing this we’ll be Letting It Go for Her.  Our Body is an Electromagnetic Energy Transformer, and the “Shit” we’ve adopted – our Held Emotions, the Ones we’d rather Die than Feel – as Our Own is Exactly what needs to be Transformed.

You’re Wanting the Planet to Ascend?  Well, it’s not something that Happens, it’s something that We Do, and this is Exactly how it’s done.  Unfortunately (you won’t like this), it explicitly includes the Abuse we’ve Endured (dwarf planet Nessus/Abuse makes a Trine Bridge/Easy-Way-to-Resolve-the-Challenge across the Makemake T-Square).  We aren’t talking Forgiveness, we’re talking about Recognizing that we Know How it Happens, and Practicing with our Boundaries until we have Complete Confidence that we know how to Safely Prevent it from Happening again.

It will be very important NOT to try to Understand HOW Abuse relates to Manifestation, as it will be Surprising, and if we try to Intellectualize it we’ll just freeze ourselves in our present situation around Abuse (Makemake and Nessus are connected by a Quincunx/Curiosity).  If we Understood the Spiritual Purpose of Abuse, we’d have Stopped it long ago.  The same goes for Privilege.  If we Believe we Know What We Want, then by all means we can PIAVA it.  But if we Believe we Know How to Get What We Want, we’ll probably be better off Letting that Go.  (PIAVA: https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.)

As Alan Watts famously said, it’s harder to Let Go of our Good Karma than it is to Let Go of our Bad Karma.  So it also explicitly includes the Privilege we’ve Enjoyed (dwarf planet Nessus/Privilege is the other side of the Abuse Coin).  Dwarf planet Makemake, the Star of this Show, is about Manifestation, but it’s not about Avarice (except perhaps when it’s Afflicted).  Abundance means Having Enough To Share – and Sharing It.

Here’s the Makemake-Square-Nodes 1 January 2020 chart…

Jupiter Initiates a new Cycle with the South Node on 6 January in 8 Cancer, “A group of Rabbits dressed in Huper clothes walk as if on parade” – Wow, weird.  Rabbits, whose primary mode of Self-Defense is their Speed, are often associated with Fear.  Another virtue is their ability to multiply rapidly.  They aren’t running here, they’re walking, and for some reason parodying (perhaps) Hupers. 

Faeries entertain themselves no end by imitating Hupers; this sounds familiar.  Is this a military exercise, where the Rabbits symbolize the Fear that hides beneath all the Bravado of Soldiers? 

2020 The Year… 1

Before we look at 2020, it would be useful to take a few minutes and review 2019…

https://www.washingtonpost.com/magazine/2019/12/29/dave-barrys-year-review/

The 1 January 2020 chart is also the natality for the 2020’s Decade.  So it wouldn’t hurt us to review the 2010’s either.  Here’s our earlier prognosis for the Decade we’re finishing…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2010/01/01/eclipse-12312009-ch-1/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2010/01/01/eclipse-12312009-ch-2/

What a coincidence that I also started the Tens with Dave Barry.

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2010/01/03/eclipse-12312009-summary-1/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2010/01/03/eclipse-12312009-ch-3/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2010/01/04/saturn-pluto-and-january-2010/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2010/01/08/1231-eclipse-grand-cross-ch-1/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2010/01/12/focus-on-1/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2010/01/13/1231-eclipse-grand-cross-ch-2/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2010/01/15/descent/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2010/01/18/and-ascent/

Whew, I was a lot wordier then, weren’t I.  Seems like that was just yesterday.  I know few of you will read even any of that, let alone all of it.  But you’ll be missing out.  I’m very glad I read it.

There are three snapshots of the 1 January 2020 chart that are worth reviewing.  I write those up while you’re reading about the Twenty-Tens, K?

 

Beliefs, Values, Identity

The 29 December 2019 (2:30 pm PST) Station of the asteroid that symbolizes our Beliefs (Vesta) will likely have us Questioning some of our Perceptions and Reactions.  We may even Notice that we’re Inhabited by several Identities, each with different Beliefs.  For instance, when we’re Feeling good we may have one Belief about how Chocolate Dances with our Health, but quite another when an intolerable Emotion arises.  Or several different Beliefs about our Partner or our Job or our Worth, depending on the Circumstances or our Mood.

If the Dutch Doors between these various parts of ourself – our several distinct and semi-distinct Identities – are usually closed, we may be Wondering whether all of our Selves Live Up to our own Values (Vesta Station Square Venus).  Or whether we’re consistent about how we apply our Values to our Behaviors.  “Well, I was pretty drunk,” or “But I was really Angry!” may be valid excuses in our view for otherwise unacceptable Behavior.  That kind of flexibility may be a positive or a negative in our Value System.  The Bottom Line might be whether or not these several Identities Know and Accept one another, and Agree that their various Limits are reasonable.

The current-Lifetime source of these Internal Inconsistencies is often our Programming, since our Programming Mirrors our Karma.  We probably have places in our past where we Trusted or Surrendered to an External Authority, and we may still retain “Buttons” that Trigger Giving Away our Power to Others.  Suppose for instance that our Mother called us by one name when She was Pleased with us, and another when She was Angry at us.  When someone today uses the latter, our Current Identity may suddenly become a puddle on the floor.

There’s an unusual Window open here that may Allow us to Examine, and perhaps Change, some of these Self-Sabotaging Patterns (a T-Square/Challenge to dwarf planet Hylonome/Self-Sovereignty from an Opposition between the asteroids Sappho/Self-Love and Atropos/Ending TimeLines).  A second Window could well Illuminate for us the Original Stimuli that put the Patterns in place (a Grand Trine between Hylonome, Vesta, and dwarf planet Orcus/Pattern-Breaking that is stretched into a Kite by asteroid Eurydike/Trust).

If we See the Original Stimulus in the current Lifetime, it would Behoove us to Meditate on the Intention to follow that back into previous Lifetimes, to find the Original Trauma that Created the Karma (a Finger of God points to Orcus).

Our overarching Intention should be to move toward Unconditional Self-Love (a Finger of God pointing to Sappho).  Self-Love is not compatible with Allowing ourself to be Controlled by Others.

Here’s the Vesta-Station chart…

Survival or Bust IX Lightening Karma

Here’s a shot of our 25 December 2019 Annular Solar Eclipse, captured in the Wild by Shahrin Ahmad, from Oman…

https://spaceweather.com/archive.php?view=1&day=28&month=12&year=2019

Yes, good question; is our Karma Getting Lighter, or is it Striking us like a Bolt from the Sky?  Technically, the “e” should clarify that, but as asteroid Karma crosses Chiron, it could be either.  With Chiron though, symbolizing as it does both Despair and Miracle, we have our Trusty Swiss Army Incantation for Bummers.  Say it aloud or silently, but speaking to yourself…

“You Poor Sweetheart, you feel like you’ve been
Struck by Lightning, don’t you.”
or
“You Poor Sweetheart, you feel [whatever doesn’t
Delight you], don’t you.“

Two caveats.  First, this isn’t an Exclamation, it’s just a Neutral statement of fact.  And second, do be Mindful to Change the Subject after you say it.  If you keep thinking about the Bummer, you dump yourself right back into the Muck.  You may even need to say, “You Poor Sweetheart, you can’t Change the Subject, can you.” or Tap (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) on “Even though I can’t seem to Change the Subject, I deeply Love and Accept myself.”

The purpose of Tapping is to Align your Thoughts and Feelings with your Energy System, as you Tap on the ends of each Meridian.  Since Bummers are usually Imbalances, fixing your Alignment often mitigates your Discontent.  So Tapping involves “I” statements, and the general “rule” about avoiding Negativity does not apply.  You Recognize the Negativity that you’re already Embracing.

The purpose of Poor-Sweethearting on the other hand, is to Step Out of your Bummer, so you Salute yourself, kindly and gently and without Judgment, from the other side of the Mirror.  It sounds like a grammatical trick, but it’s much more than that.  It actually changes your Perspective, which is necessary because “you can’t solve a Problem using the same thinking that postulated it.”

Poor-Sweethearting is also very different from Denial, because you’re Empathizing with yourself wearing the Bummer.  Before Poor-Sweethearting you were Identified with Bummer, now you’re Identified with Compassion for yourself.  Even if you don’t succeed at Changing the Subject, you’ve Experienced at least a moment of Unconditional Self-Love.

Chironean Miracles are subtle.  When you do succeed at Changing the Subject, you simply aren’t the same “You” that you were when you were wearing the Bummer.  Our Beliefs-of-the-Moment determine how we Interpret the World outside ourself, and in turn whether we Perceive someone to be Smirking about us or Smiling at us.  The World surrounding Compassionate-You contains events and things and Feelings that simply weren’t Possible in the World surrounding Bummer-You.  Those are the Miracles.

You may be too young to remember that old Xerox commercial…

And speaking of Beliefs-of-the-Moment, as we speak asteroid Vesta is very Strong (Stationary), peaking 29 December (2:30 pm PST).  Vesta symbolizes exactly that, our Beliefs-of-the-Moment.  While Multiple Personality Disorder, if they still call it that, is more extreme than most of us Experience, we all have many different Personalities or “Sub-Personalities,” and it’s our Beliefs-of-the-then-Moment that differentiate them.  Many of our Sub-Personalities have never met one another, because they take turns.

But we’re getting ahead of ourself, as we were supposed to be filling out our Interpretation of the Chiron-Karma Initiation chart (the second chart in the previous post) that’s Exact on 1 January 2020 (1pm PST).  The primary difference between Karma’s Aries-Ingress chart (the first chart in the previous post) and Karma’s Initiation-by-Chiron chart, is the addition of a major Challenge (T-Square) to our Vitality (dwarf planet Varuna) that’s about the relationship between our Fate (asteroid Moira) and our Soul (Uranus).

Remember that with Uranus now in Taurus, Soul is Descending into Flesh, and we will be Experiencing Physical Discombobulations while Flesh remodels for its new Tenant.  Soul will be taking the room where Ego used to Sleep.  Ego may throw a hissy-fit, but both Soul and Taurus are pretty Stubborn, so on some level, Ego will have to Compromise.  The close Involvement of Fate (Moira) suggests that Ego may have to Let Go of enough Karma to ease its Resistance.  The symbol for Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis) isn’t directly Involved, so Ego’s usual Resistance may be reduced.

If we look closely though, we see that this Challenge is Self-Resolving (the T-Square forms a Diamond Star with dwarf planets OR10 and Quaoar-Pholus).  So the Body will be getting its own Instructions from its Survival Instincts (Quaoar-Pholus) and its own Memories (OR10), and it will Behoove us to Accept its Ancient Wisdom.  As an alternative to Experiencing Pain and Discomfort as Dis-Ease and “Something’s Wrong,” we might try Reframing it to be a Map of Imbalance that can use our Active, Loving Involvement in Rebalancing.  Tapping can be very useful for that, if you don’t have an Acupuncturist handy.

 

Survival or Bust VIII Heavy Karma

Since our Big Deal astroevent  is unfolding on a Cusp (Jupiter-Quaoar-Pholus on the Cusp of Capricorn), any planet that Changes Signs will trigger It in one way or another, including the 27 December 2019 (8:30 pm PST) Ingress of asteroid Karma (Karma) into Aries.  This might (already) be a rough Transition, since Capricorn (Let’s Fix It) and Aries (Let’s Start Over) tend to Compete with one another, and since Chiron (Despair/Miracles) is guarding the Gate of Aries.

But when we get past these gauntlets, What A Relief!!  Karma in Pisces is all about Trauma Dramas, not for the sake of Drama, but because Pisces’s job as the Last Sign is Letting Go of Emotional Baggage and Held Emotions, and there’s no better way to Let Go than Drama.  On the other side of the Gate, Aries has neither History nor Herstory, but a Clean Slate.  We may Experience some tests of our Ego’s Relationship to Spirit, especially as Karma crosses Chiron, which it does on 1 January 2020 (1pm PST), at 2 Aries.  But other than that, Karma in Aries could mostly feel like a walk in the Park on a lovely Spring day.

The five-year Karma-Chiron Cycle is about whether we’re Victims of our Long-Term Self-Sabotage Patterns, or we Choose to Alter them to our Advantage.  The latter Choice may take much Trial and Success and many False Starts, so we’ll also need Commitment and Dedication.  It will be very important to Remember that Angels Can Fly because They Take Themselves Lightly.

Most of the time most of us don’t even stop to consider whether we’re Victim to our Karma, we just are.  We seldom Realize that we have any Control over it, or even Conceive of the Possibility.  We may not even Notice that the Patterns are Recurring, so we may not even Regard it as Karma, just “bad things that happen to good people,” Randomly.  So long before there’s any Option to Choose to Alter our Karmic Patterns, we need to Get Conscious of them.

Well, there’s an App for that.  Er, I mean, there’s an asteroid for that, for Getting Conscious, in fact two of them, and one of them also “happens to be” Changing Signs on 1 January 2020 (5am PST).  Remarkable, these Coincidences, eh?  The asteroid is Moira, which was named after the Greek Goddess of Fate – aka Karma.  We’re all Helpless in front of our Fate … as long as we’re Unconscious of it.  Once we’re Conscious of our Fate, it’s Replaced by Choice.  Not always an Easy Choice, but Choice nevertheless. Scorpio is the Sign Moira is entering, which is all about Getting to the Bottom of Things.  Very handy.

Here’s Karma’s 27 December Aries Ingress chart…

In this chart Karma/Karma Challenges (Squares) our popular Survival or Bust Complex (Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar, joined now by Mercury/Awareness), implying that some of our Karmic Self-Sabotage may actually Threaten our Survival.  We don’t need to name names, but if we Project this onto the World Stage, we can see how events could Converge into Survival Threats for someone who isn’t very Conscious of their Karma.

The second Challenge in Karma’s Aries-Ingress chart applies to our Instincts (Moon) about the sort of Life we could be leading if not for our Self-Sabotage (Moon Square Moira-Haumea).  For instance, we could be Painfully Aware of how much our Karma Threatens our Well-Being, and while Painful Awareness might help Motivate us to Want to Change, it may also make it more Difficult to Launch our New Path.  If it does, don’t Worry about it.  While these Energies are Important and Powerful place settings for January’s Big Energy (Focusing on Transformation), by the Ides of January they’ll seem trivial.

We’ve plopped a Fixed Star into this chart and the one that follows.  If you’re old enough you may Remember the movie Beetlejuice that came out in 1988, in the middle of the Harmonic Convergence.  We’ve added the Star Betelgeuse because it’s also on a Cusp, but mostly because some old news about how it could turn Supernova any day now…

https://www.space.com/22009-betelgeuse.html

…is in the news today.  While Betelgeuse has a Reputation as a Star of Ultimate Benevolence, I’ll have to do some major Reframing in order to come to that Perspective about it’s influence in my own nativity.  It Seriously Challenges Karma-Chiron and our Survival Instincts (making the Karma-Chiron to Ixion-et al Square into a T-Square).

The 1 January Chiron Initiating Karma chart, which can double as Moira’s Scorpio Ingress chart, follows…

…but I keep face-planting into the keyboard, so I’m going to have to save its interpretation for morning.

We’re also deep into the 29 December (2:30 pm PST) Station of Vesta/Beliefs.

Survival or Bust VII Eclipse

Lets start with a review of essential research…

https://foodrevolution.org/blog/truth-about-chocolate/

And, thanks to alchemist0310 and Starhawk, a Prayer for the Solstice…

When the center of the Moon crosses in front of the center of the Sun, but the Moon is distant enough from Earth in its ovalish Orbit that the Moon doesn’t fully cover the face of the Sun, then rather than a Total Eclipse it’s called an Annular Eclipse.  That’s what happens at the 25 December 2019 (9am PST) New Moon.  It would look something like this…

…if we were in the narrow red band in this next picture…

And look like a Partial Solar Eclipse in the partially-shaded areas below…

The more heavily shaded areas are nighttime.

Eclipses are, Paradoxically, about Illumination, because the best way to make us Aware of something that we Take For Granted, is to Remove it.  Like Birdsong, for instance.  During a Total Eclipse, all of our Feathered Brothers and Sisters are eerily Silent.  It’s like someone throws a switch and turns off the background Music the moment Totality hits.  Then turns it back on again as soon as Daylight resumes.  It Feels as Strange as the Midday Semi-Darkness.

The Eclipse falls on the Cusp of Capricorn.  What else have we been reading about lately that’s falling on that Cusp?  It’s within our usual three-Degree Sensitivity of Jupiter/Expansion, Quaoar/Survival Instincts, and Pholus/Full Respond-Ability.  If we stretch our Sensitivity a bit, it’s also Merged with the South Node/Held Emotions and Ixion/Forbidden Genius.  Busy busy busy.  These are the planets we’ve been equating to the Climate Crisis, not to mention the Confusion about whether the Political Economy of the World is about to Surge or Collapse.

It’s at a corner of two Configurations that look like Take-Out Boxes from a Chinese restaurant (or, as we usually package them, a Square Fez with a Chinstrap, that is, a Zodical Loop consisting of Square-Sextile-Square-Sextile-Sextile).  The Configuration features three Challenges (Squares) and four Pay Attention! Flags (Fingers of God).  The Four planets/Energies we’re Asked to Pay Attention to are…

• The Climate and Existential Crisis (Eclipse-Jupiter-Quaoar-Pholus).
• Manifestation (dwarf planet Makemake).
• Vitality (dwarf planet Varuna).
• Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet OR10).

Our three Challenges are…

• Are we Skillful Enough with Abundance to Survive the Climate Crisis and it’s accompanying Disruptions (Eclipse et al Square Makemake)?  Our recommendation for maximizing this is to Strive for as much Neutrality as you can muster, by Seeking and Embracing your Held Emotions (South Node).  Neutrality doesn’t mean Absence of Passion or Action.  It just means that our Actions and Non-Actions are Well Conceived and Effective, and we’re Not Attached to Outcomes.  Our best portal into our hidden Held Emotions may be through our Judgments, which often mask What We’d Rather Die than Feel.  Our Judgments are different from our Preferences, though the latter is often used to try to hide the former.

• Are we Conscious Enough about the Descent of our Soul into Flesh, to be Loving with the Changes in our Body and Vitality that are needed to Make Room for it (Varuna Square Uranus)?  We may be Challenged by what appears to be Illness, which mainstream Medicine may or may not have Diagnoses for.  We’re probably better off if it doesn’t, because then we won’t also have to Struggle against the Soul-Numbing Drugs and Body-Crippling Surgeries they want to foist on us.  A possible best-of-both-worlds strategy?  Go with Acupuncture.

• How do we Interpret all those weird Voices and seemingly-Random Memories, Dreams, and Hallucinations we’re having (asteroid Klotho/New Beginnings Square OR10)?  Those Movements you keep seeing out of the corner of your Eye?  Faeries?  Visitors from the Other Side?  Just your Imagination?  Are they Friendly, or are you Afraid to find out?  Those “Random” Flashes from Childhood?  Do you Welcome them?  What do you Feel when they arise?  They may be other doorways to Held Emotions you can Choose to Let Go Of.  The people we’re running into that we haven’t seen in years?  The unexpected events that Mirror Ancient events?  Do we Embrace them as more Opportunities?

Here’s the Eclipse chart…

OOB Mercury

Formal and informal astrologers Learn early on about planets turning Retrograde.  We emphasize the Stations of the planets.  Those are the times when they’re slowed to a crawl, just before they stop to turn around and (from our Perspective here on Earth) start to back up, or turn around and go forward again.  We do that because we’ve observed that the impact upon us of a planet is strongest when it’s Stationary.  And it’s one of the best times to Learn what that planet’s Energy feels like.

But most of us are much less familiar with the influence of planets that are going Out of Bounds, or “OOB.”  That means they’re overhead at a position more than a fourth of the way from the Equator to either Pole (0.26 to be exact, or 23:27 Degrees of Declination, which for practical purposes is the same as Latitude; 23:27 Degrees is the maximum that the Sun moves north or south of the Equator).  Most of the planets rotate in a single plane around the Sun, so most of them don’t stray much from being overhead at the Equator.  But some do, and when they do, it changes their Dynamic, usually making their Influence Stronger.

Mercury (Mind, Communication, Short-Distance Travel) will be giving us an Opportunity to Experience this for the next several weeks.  Mercury goes Out of Bounds on 22 December 2019 (4pm PST), and stays OOB till 12 January (5:30 am PST).  Pay Attention to how this impacts your Young Life…

Do your Thoughts make you more Anxious than usual?  Less Anxious?  Are your Thoughts more or less Penetrating or Discriminating or Judgmental or Decisive or Prominent?  How does any of that make you Feel?  Is the News more Dramatic than usual?  Are you Reacting to it more Intensely than usual, or Feeling Detached?

What about your Communications, both those you Receive and those you Give?  Are they more or less Anxious?  Insightful?  Concise?  Forgiving?  Muddled?  Are you Communicating more or less than you usually do?  When you Communicate, is your Tone of Voice and Body Language Congruent with the Emotions you’re Feeling, and their Degree of Intensity?  More or less so than would normally be the case?  Are you being more Passionate or more Detached than usual with your Communications?

And how are you on the Road – driving, walking, bicycling, skating, sledding, skiing, running, riding the bus or train, or however you Travel on short trips?  More or less Attentive?  Distracted?  Rushed?  Relaxed?  How is traffic?  Faster or Slower?  More Crowded than usual?  More Confrontational or more Forgiving?  More or fewer missed Connections, flat tires, sprains, Collisions, tickets, detours, or other Difficulties?  Does Travel feel more or less Dangerous than usual?  How patient or impatient are you with any Travel glitches?

Mercury is never far from the Sun, so during this time it spans 21 Sagittarius to 23 Capricorn.  Those are very busy Degrees.  Mercury will be crossing many planets, and it we can Learn a lot about the planet and about ourself while Mercury’s Laser Light shines on them…

• Mercury crossing Aletheia 23-24 December – Learning Opportunities re the Truth of the Heart.
• Crossing asteroid Bee-Zed 24-25 December – Learning re Transcendance.
• Dwarf planet Ixion 28 December – re our Hidden or Forbidden Genius.
• Dwarf planet Pholus 30 December – re important issues that we aren’t Aware of or would rather Minimize.
• Dwarf planet Quaoar 31 December – re our Survival Instincts.
• Jupiter 2 January – re our Expansion.
• South Node 3 January – re our Held Emotions.
• Dwarf planet Hylonome 7 January – re our Self-Sovereignty.
• Saturn, Pluto, and dwarf planet Ceres 12 January – re Sustaining our Focus on Transformation.

 

Survival or Bust VI Solstice

Dwarf planets symbolizing Survival (Quaoar), Responding (Pholus), and Rule-Bending (Ixion) are all sitting on the Cusp of the Sign of Rules and Structures (Capricorn) as the Sun reaches the furthest extent of its Southward travel and begins to turn around and head back North.  The December 21, 2019 (8pm PST) Solstice chart exerts its influence till the March Equinox.

We can combine the principles of Rules, Rule-Bending, Responding, and Surviving any way we want, but when I look at the State of the World it seems to me that the most appropriate way is something like Since the Cultural Structures we Live in are rapidly Destroying the Natural Basis for our Survival, if we want to Respond to our Desire to Survive, we’ll have to Bend the Rules we Learned in School.

The Master Megacorporations, the 1%, and their Poster Child the Antichrist will probably see it as Man, do we ever know how to Bend the Rules and Get Away with it, and there’s no denying that.  We’re still five days from the actual Solstice though, and given their propensity to Self-Destruct, there’s no guarantee that by the weekend they’ll still be “on top of the World” – that is, in the Missionary Position on Mother Gaia, and Love it ain’t.

The (Sun-Quaoar-Pholus-Ixion) crowd (Stellium) on the Capricorn Cusp is Challenged (Squared) by our Ancient Habits (asteroid Karma) and our tendency to Feel like we’re Victims (Chiron).  As long as we’re Victims of our Self-Destructive Patterns, we don’t know that we have the Power to Change them.  Even if we Feel Enlightened, we all have some lingering Karmic Baggage, or we wouldn’t be Overwhelmed by the impending End of Civilization as we know it.  So our Mission over the next few months is to be Watchful for that Karmic Baggage, and Heal our Subservience to it.  The neighborhood of New Years Day may be a Standout for this (see below).

The Solstice chart also tells us that this process is an important part of the Soul’s Descent (or the Ego’s Ascension if you prefer to see it that way), and warns us to Expect that our Values will be undergoing radical Change (Venus T-Square across an Opposition from Uranus/Soul to Haumea/Rebirth).  As an aside, it also mentions that our Success is likely to lie through Converting our Fear to Power (Finger of God to dwarf planet Sedna).  Here’s the chart…

The new Cycle between asteroid Karma and dwarf planet Chiron Begins on New Years Day 2020 (1pm PST) at 2 Aries – “A comedian reveals Human nature.”  That’s a Big Hint – Laughing at ourselves will likely be a Powerful way to Lighten the Ego’s Grasp on the Obsolete Patterns that we need to Jettison. This is a five-year Cycle, so this won’t apply only to the next three months.  The Cycle we’ve just finished began on 30 April 2015 at 21 Pisces, “Under the watchful and kind eye of a Chinese servant, a girl fondles a little white lamb.”  Whoa, what a Loaded Metaphor!  Feel free to let your Imagination run Wild as you try to blend this Image with your Impressions of the last five years.