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Warmup for the Digital Age

December 19, 2020

Jupiter and Saturn are considered the “Social Planets” – the Inner Planets are more or less in charge of Personal Character, and the Outer Planets in charge of the goings-on in the Underwhere. Which, even though it underlies everything, is kind of a Freudian Perspective – we could instead be calling it the Overwhere, as we agree with Jung’s Perspective that the “Unconscious” provides a map to our Wholeness, Integration, Coherence, Enlightenment, Ascension, 5D, nD. It’s a Puzzle Map, not a “Turn Left in 32 Feet” kind of Guide, because if it was so Easy, who would Value it? Hupers are like that.

Many people are in stiff Resistance to this sort of notion, however, so I’ve always found it easier on everyone to assume that some folks are inherently Jungian, and some inherently Freudian. That way we never have to argue with anybody about whether or not they Roll Their Own.

The Political Economy is one of the stalwarts of Society (one of the warts as well of course), and the Jupiter-Saturn Conjunctions fall into 180-year Cycles that have a reputation for being heavily involved in the Political Economy. Jupiter laps Saturn every twenty years, and seven of their Conjunctions occur (and Cycles Begin) in the same Element, then they toggle, then seven in the next element. Here’s a full Turning of the Spiral…

… Preview in Water (first Conjunction in Water 1444, one Water Cycle 1444-1464),
Debriefing in Air (one last Conjunction in Air 1464, one last Air Cycle 1464-1484),
Age of Water (seven Conjunctions in Water 1484-1603, seven Water Cycles 1484-1623),
Preview in Fire (first Conjunction in Fire 1623; one Fire Cycle 1623-1643),
Debriefing in Water (one last Conjunction in Water 1643; one last Water Cycle 1643-1663),
Age of Fire (seven Fire Conjunctions 1663-1782; seven Fire Cycles 1663-1801),
Preview in Earth (first Conjunction in Earth 1801; one Earth Cycle 1801-1822),
Debriefing in Fire (one last Conjunction in Fire 1822; one last Fire Cycle 1822-1842),
Industrial Age (seven Earth Conjunctions 1842-1961; seven Earth Cycles 1842-1980),
Preview in Air (first Conjunction in Air 1980, one Air Cycle 1980-2000),
Debriefing in Earth (one last Conjunction in Earth 2000, one last Earth Cycle 2000-2020),
Digital Age (seven Conjunctions in Air 2020-2140, seven Air Cycles 2020-2159),
Preview in Water (first Conjunction in Water 2159, first Water Cycle 2159-2179),
Debriefing in Air (one last Conjunction in Air 2179, one last Air Cycle) …

and so on, with variation as always, of course. By “seven Water Cycles” we mean seven Jupiter-Saturn Cycles that Initiated in Water Signs. Like people, we characterize Cycles by the Sign they were born under. Notice we have Columbus and his fellow Colonialists and Thieves Sailing the Ocean Blue during the Age of Water, and Revolution common in the Age of Fire. The Industrial Age was filled with Coal and Iron and Oil and Mechanicals, Stuff of the Earth. The Digital Age will be all about Electromagnetism and Robotics and Stuff of the Mind – as was our 1980-2000 Preview of it.

The IBM PC was introduced in 1980, and the Dot-Com Crash occurred in 2000, both almost to the day of the Conjunctions. A large swath of Kansas (at high altitude) was reserved today for testing of a new generation of commercial supersonic aircraft. Musk and Bezos will be shooting their tin cans to Mars. The electromechanical technological leaps in the coming century-plus will make the 1980s and 1990s look like kindergarden. Unfortunately the next Water Age won’t be about Sailing the Ocean Blue, it’ll be about the Ocean Blue coming to live in our neighborhoods.

The Digital Age starts in earnest at 10:21 am PST 21 December 2020 Saturn-Jupiter Initiation, aka the Jupiter-Saturn Conjunction. Conjunctions frequently repeat (as the faster planet turns Retrograde), and it’s the first Conjunction of a sequence that begins a Cycle. We call it a Faster planet-Slower planet Conjunction because the Faster planet is overtaking the Slower planet. And we call it a Slower planet-Faster planet Initiation because at the Initial Conjunction the Slower planet plays the role of the Shaman or Guru or Mentor, conferring Shaktipat on the Faster Planet and giving it an assignment till they meet again. The Faster planet does the Bidding of the Slower planet.

We read the character of a Cycle by reading the chart of the Initiation. When we read the 21 December Jupiter-Saturn Conjunction, which we’ll do soon, it will be a reading about the political economy and social milieu of the next twenty years. There are several Sign Changes this week that we’ll need to talk about, which we intend to do soon, because they’re laying the foundation for the New Cycle – including Saturn and Jupiter entering Air Sign Aquarius. Saturn enters at 9am PST 16 December, and Jupiter at 5am PST 19 December. And of course the Sun enters Capricorn at 2:05 am PST 21 December, defining the Capricorn Solstice, aka the Northern Winter Solstice and the Southern Summer Solstice, when the Sun goes Stationary and our Essence is particularly Strong.

Asteroids Lachesis (Finishing Karmic TimeLines) and Juno (Growth in Consciousness), and dwarf planet Ixion (Our Hidden and Often Forbidden Unique Genius) also Change Signs this week, and the Exaggeration (Station) of asteroid Karma (Karma) dominates the rest of the week, giving us a chance to move into the New Age with a Clean Slate if we’re willing to Let Go of our Karmic Identities and Attachments.

WhyAreWeFeelingGuilty New Moon 2

October 15, 2020

Time flies (away) when you’re doing taxes, but (phew!) that’s milk under the Bridge now, so we can Celebrate with a New Moon, among other Energies. Many of us broke out of several weeks of Chagrin into more Hopeful places at the end of last week, but if you’re starting to Feel Overwhelmed again, just Embrace the Confusion as a Feeling, and don’t try to “Fix It.” Confusion is the first sign of Growth in Consciousness, but only if we don’t try to Anal-yze It, “Figure It Out,” or Fix It. We’re now in the middle of several Strong Energy cross-currents, including…

💓 The 16 October 2020 (12:30 pm PDT) New Moon in 24 Libra, which is all about Being Reborn Out of Lifelong Guilt Patterns (New Moon Conjunct dwarf planet Haumea [Rebirth] and asteroid Nemesis [Guilt, Ego Death]) and Assertively Opening Up to Long-Hidden Secrets – or Finding that the Universe Aggressively Opens Them Up “For” Us – or what might feel like “Against” us (New Moon Opposite Mars [Action, Assertion] and dwarf planet Eris [Revelation of What’s Been Denied]).

Because the New Moon strongly Triggers that Energy, we’ve combined the New Moon chart with the chart of the 3-4 October Exaggerations (Stations) of Confidence and Doubt (dwarf planet Chariklo) and of Compulsion and Trance-Formation (dwarf planet Pluto)

To Create a New Habit, we Hypnotize ourself. Various components of our Universe are always introducing new Trances into our Life as well. The consummate Adept at Trance-Formation is dwarf planet Pluto. It’s pretty much in charge of our Culture’s Weltanshaung at any given Moment, and since Pluto Guards the entrance to the Underwhere, and since the Underwhere is the Source of our Trances, we damn well better Befriend Pluto if we want to Live a Life that, from the Ego’s Perspective, “works,” and provides us any sort of Satisfaction.

Planet Earth entered a New Time Province around Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt on 3-4 October. If you haven’t figured out yet that You Can Choose Between Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence, the next few weeks (the period when the New Moon has its greatest impact) is a great time to make that Choice. We spoke a bit about this in the previous post. I know, Self-Doubt has a Life of its own, fostered by Power Figures in our Personal History that stoked it for their own gain. However, like any Bane in our Life, we need to Learn to interpret any Triggering of our Self-Doubt as an Opportunity to Let It Go once and for all.

Since Trance and Habit and Karma and élan all sit on the Edge between our Consciousness and the Unconscious, this is PIAVA territory. Trying to influence the Unconscious with Dynamic (“Masculine”) Plan-Execute Energy, while useful, is at best arduous (“training,” “reps,” “practice”), and often not even effective, especially if Discipline isn’t our Greatest Joy. But this is precisely where Magnetic (“Feminine”) Energy Excels. So we might try a Sustainable (Ceres Stationary Conjunct Damocles 18 October) global PIAVA like this Theta

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that henceforth, whenever Self-Doubt Arises, I Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely, and Safely, Choose Self-Confidence instead. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!”

Of course you’ll want to go over that and modify it so that all of your Yes-Buts are satisfied.

In this chart the Guilt-Free-Rebirth-New Moon is Challenged by the New Global Trance (Pluto and Chariklo Stations), which in the chart is The Most Important Thing (Conjunct Saturn). So it’s Important to carefully Examine how Self-Confident or Self-Doubting you’ve been since the beginning of October, and modify your PIAVA accordingly. For instance, if you’ve been blistering your feet Fire-Walking or the equivalent, you’ll want to Emphasize the Safety part more.

If you’ve been Wallowing in Self-Doubt, you may want to add terms about Gradual Improvement with Frequent Checkpoints or the like, so you don’t Sabotage yourself by Overreaching and Bouncing off your Goals. It’s always more Sustainable to move 10% in the Direction you want to Change, than it is to do a 180. So you might want something like…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that henceforth, whenever Self-Doubt Arises, I Choose to Lovingly and Gently and Safely Move A Few Steps Toward Self-Confidence instead. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!”

As usual, if your “Show Me!” doesn’t reveal Bliss, Tap Out whatever Stands in the way, and then repeat the Theta, modified accordingly if necessary.

Trust in Respect for All Things (asteroids Eurydike and Hopi Opposing Saturn-Pluto-Chariklo) is part of the Complex Equation here, so if you encounter Global themes like Racism or Misogyny or Abusiveness in your Yes-Buts, take that into account. For instance, a Black Man in a traffic stop by a racist cop might Trigger the cop’s worst Trances by Acting Confident. Or a woman in an Abusive Relationship. We want internal Confidence that we can finesse our way out of a Dangerous situation, not outer Confidence that we’re Bullet-Proof, which could get us Dead. We might need something closer to…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that henceforth, whenever Self-Doubt or Fear Arises, I Choose instead to Lovingly and Gently and Safely and Carefully Move Toward a Belief That I Can Effectively Finesse My Way Out of Trouble. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!”

Or something like that. There are five Challenges (T-Squares) in this chart, and the Challenge of The Most Important Thing is Self-Confidence that my Trance Serves Me (Saturn-Chariklo-Pluto T-Square) is the only one that promises to be Self-Resolving (Diamond Star, or T-Square and Finger of the Goddess coinciding), so “The Goddess is on our side” here.