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Self-Love Full Moon

February 8, 2020

A few of the Players have changed Partners, but otherwise the chart for the 8 February 2020 (11:30 pm PST) Full Moon is identical to the lovely symmetrical chart for the 5 February Self-Deprecation Squall (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/02/01/possible-self-deprecation-squall/), which hopefully for youalls turned out to be a Self-Love Squall.

We still have a Major Challenge (T-Square) to our Unconscious Limitations (asteroid Vesta), which is always fabulous, as long as we Recognize that it’s our Limits that are Threatened and not our Ego.  This one will be more In-Our-Face than the mid-week event (the base of this T-Square is the Full Moon itself, which is a junior SuperMoon; the base of the 5 February T-Square was Sun/ Essence Opposing asteroid Lachesis/Conscious-Pattern-Breaking).

And while our Codependence or Self-Sovereignty was Challenged mid-week (T-Square to Jupiter and dwarf planet Hylonome), the Full Moon will Challenge our Wannas and Gottas (T-Square to Pluto) themselves.  This is about the New Bravery Zeitgeist (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/01/11/where-are-we-then/).  The more we Resist our Wannas and Self-Loving Gottas, the more we Resist our Brave New World (No matter how hard you Resist, Pluto always Wins).

Unfortunately, our Obsolete Self-Deprecating Gottas are often loaded with Guilt and other Brakes on our Journey into Unconditional Self-Love.  But if we override the Brakes and take a Self-Abusive Gotta too seriously, we could end up burning Bridges that we Need.  It would be a good time to PIAVA the best of both Worlds.  Maybe something like…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All Things, I Command a Loving and Gentle and Smooth Transition from my Old Scarcity Identity to my New Abundance Identity.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  Show me!”

And as we described a few posts back (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/02/01/possible-self-deprecation-squall/), if your “Show me” isn’t Paydirt, Tap it Out, adjust your Command if necessary, and try again.

Midweek, our Sovereignty was Challenged by our Karma and our Self-Love (asteroids Karma and Sappho Opposing one another in the T-Square base).   Now we’re Challenged to End our Karma by Opening to “New” Information and Lovingly Expanding our Consciousness to Encompass It (asteroid Atropos/Consciously-Ending-Obsolete-Habits, dwarf planet Eris/Revelation-of-What’s-Been-Denied and asteroid Karma Opposing Stationary asteroids Juno/Growth-in-Consciousness and Sappho/Self-Love in the base of the T-Square).

The information we’ll be Receiving is “New,” in quotes, because we knew it all along, our Old Identity just didn’t Allow ourself to Acknowledge it.  This morning for instance, I discovered that when I’m interrupted while concentrating deeply, my behavior and tone of voice are “vicious.”  I didn’t know that.  In retrospect I can see it.  In the moment, all I’m trying to do is Protect the Space that I’m concentrating in (Channeling these posts, for instance, or juggling several tasks at once), so I don’t lose the plot.  Knowing this now, I can retrain myself to smile, raise a finger, and say “Please Wait?!?!” or the like.

The deed to the ranch is still Working with our Higher Powers, Guides, and Guardian Angels (Neptune as the key Player at the Apex of the Chrysalis and the Finger of God from Moon and Juno).  So it will behoove me to enlist them in this Behavior Change, with a Theta Command or other PIAVA, to make sure I stay Conscious for Interruptions while I’m Concentrating, because my Trance can obviously get pretty Deep in those circumstances.  I may even end up drastically Changing the way I use that Trance.  What if I could use if for Direct Healing?

Here’s the Full Moon chart…

There are three Stationary planets in this chart.  Sappho was Stationary on 5 February, and it loosely Conjoins the 8 February (10am PST) Juno Station.  The third Station, of dwarf planet Sedna/Converting-Fear-to-Power also occurs 8 February (7:30 pm PST).  Here’s the chart of the Juno and Sedna Stations…

The Juno and Sedna Stations Quincunx/Curiosity one another, and because the Sedna Station stretches the Sensitivity of the Juno Station, Juno Conjoins dwarf planet Haumea/Rebirth, making our Expansion of Consciousness potentially Life-Changing.

In these two extra-credit astroevents that accompany the Full Moon, the Big Challenge (T-Square) to how we Balance our Wannas and Gottas (Pluto) gets more complicated.  Now it becomes The Most Important Thing (it’s joined by Saturn and…), and it’s Critical to how we Balance our Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt (…dwarf planet Chariklo/Self-Assurance).

Since this is the Heart of the New Zeitgeist, it means that our Expanded Consciousness must Bravely Acknowledge Self-Doubt and Fear when they arise, so they can be Reframed into Confidence that by combining Vulnerability and Research we can Resolve the Doubt and Embrace the Fear, and no longer Introject Doubt into our IdentityWouldn’t that be the Cat’s Pyjamas!

These two events also add another Big Challenge, this time to our Skill with Ego Death (T-Square to asteroid Nemesis/Ego Death).  Of course we’re going to be working with Ego Death, as Transformative as these Challenges seem to be.  It’s a complicated Challenge (the base of the T-Square finds dwarf planets Chaos/Unlimited-Potential and Asbolus/Intuition Opposing Mars, dwarf planet Ixion/Forbidden-Genius, and asteroid Bee-Zed/ Transcendence).  Which means that, if we’re Willing to Let Go Of our Resistance to Ego Death, we can glimpse the Wonders that our Forbidden Genius can Manifest for us.

Finally, we need to Recognize that Converting Fear to Power is a strong theme here, and be Watchful for it.  Remember near the beginning of this post, where we mentioned our “Old Scarcity Identity?”  That’s Scare-City.   We need to trade it in on a Joyful New Abundance Identity…

Fortunately, our work Converting Fear to Power (Sedna Station), and both of the Big Challenges (Foci of the two T-Squares) – our Confidently Brave New Identity (Saturn-Pluto-Chariklo) and our Willingness to Endure Ego Death (Nemesis), are all joined at the hip with Great Grace (Grand Trine/ Impossibly-Good-Luck).  So we may not actually have to Endure the Ego Death – it may just “happen,” and we may sail through it with little or no Discomfort, as it did for my vicious Evil Twin this morning.  It will pay, though, to be Proactive (Mars).  Don’t sit on it, take a Deep Breath and Bravely start a conversation about it.

Changes IV

January 29, 2020

Just a quick note to say that, while we may or may not be Adjusted to the Changes of the last three weeks (which are not at all routine or minor), this week is relatively quiet, in terms of new hurdles and portals.  We’re soon back into a couple of major new Adjustments, though, as we continue to Adapt to the Big Changes of 10-12 January 2020.

Next week we’ll cover several additional Lessons, mostly about Self-Love, Fear, Power, and Karma (5 February Station of asteroid Sappho/ Self-Love-and-its-Dark-Mirror, 7 February Stations of dwarf planet Sedna/Conversion-of-Fear-to-Power and asteroid Juno/Growth-in-Consciousness, 8 February Extinguishment-of-Karma Full Moon, and Mars/Action-and-Anger moving Out-of-Bounds 9 February through 2 March; Stations emphasize the Energy of a planet in the week or so prior, and the Energy of a planet is also emphasized while it is Out of Bounds).

To review, the Big Changes of 10-12 January were centered on the start of a New 35-year Cycle that forms the Zeitgeist that we Live In (12 January Pluto-Saturn/Transformation-Priority Initiation and related 10 January Lunar Eclipse), shaped by Descent of Soul and Insight into What Limits us (simultaneous 10 January Stations of Uranus/Soul into Matter/Taurus and dwarf planet Eris/Revelation-of-What’s-Been-Denied).

Since then we’ve Felt a Gauntlet of ancillary Changes, in Identity (14 January Station of asteroid Nemesis/Ego Death), Creative Power (24 January Manifestation New Moon and Lunar New Year), and a Whole New Rebirth (26 January Station of Haumea/Rebirth).

By way of preparation for the Big Changes, we Reviewed and Revised how we use our Creative Energy (4 January Station of dwarf planet Makemake/Manifestation), and began a major New TimeLine that will Change our Relationship to our Karma (6 January Station of asteroid Klotho/New Beginnings and Initiation of a New 7-year South Node-Jupiter Cycle/Expanded Attention to our Held Emotions).

We also started the Year and Decade with a Major Challenge to How We Deal with Our Karma (1 January Initiation of a New 5-year Cycle of asteroid Karma with Chiron/The-Edge-between-Being-Victimized-by-our-Karma-and-Becoming-Adept-with-It).  As a primary (or even The Most Prominent) feature of the birth chart for the Year and Decade, this Drama will characterize our experience of 2020 and 2020-2029.

Find more details about these Shifts in the posts we’ve published since the beginning of the year.

Along the way we’ve ignored a number of minor astroevents, simply because they were overshadowed by the Biggies.   These include…

  • Becoming more Practical about how we deal with the Absolutes that we harbor in our Hearts, which should be Beacons that Guide our Actions, but which we often instead use as Judgments to cudgel Other Folks who have Different Absolutes in their own Hearts (10 January Egress of asteroid Aletheia/Truth-of-the-Heart into Capricorn/Just-Fix-It).
  • Becoming more Practical about the Boundaries we set with these Other Folks (18 January Egress of asteroid Pallas/ Boundaries into Capricorn/Solution-Orientation).
  • Becoming more Heartfelt about our Respect for Other Beings and Things (19 January Egress of asteroid Hopi/ Judgment into Pisces/Compassion).
  • Becoming more Trustful of our Guides (26 January Egress of asteroid Eurydike/Trust into Aries/Spiritual-Creativity).
  • Becoming less Ruled by Self-Doubt (26 January end of a fourteen-year Out-of-Bounds episode by dwarf planet Chariklo/Self-Confidence-and-Self-Doubt, since November 2004).

If you Experience the Opposite of any of these Energies, Recognize that the Energy is prompting you to Let Go Of precisely that Habitual Reaction to events and entities, so you can replace the Reaction with a more Positive and Enjoyable Response.  We are creatures of Habit – Imagine how Unmanageable (and Awesome!) Life would be without Habits.  But the result of our Programming is that we are often slow to Respond to Changes in the Energy Fields that Embrace us, and sometimes we make Life a lot harder by Resisting these Changes entirely.

Self-Love Full Moon III

August 17, 2019

One of the poles of the Fabulous Grace (Grand Sextile) in the Full Moon – with the caveat that you have to kick-start the Blessings with at least a Prayer about What You Want, if not Action in that direction – is a Merger (Conjunction) between the symbol for Revelation of What’s Been Denied (dwarf planet Eris – which was recently Stationary) and the symbol for Ending Timelines or Habits (asteroid Atropos).

To facilitate this Getting Honest stuff, the symbol for Truth of the Heart (asteroid Aletheia) just entered (11:30 pm PDT 16 August) the Sign of Fearlessly Seeking the Truth (Scorpio).  You may not recall that the symbol for Truth of the Mind (asteroid Veritas) (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/07/25/truthiness-2/) entered the same Relentless Sign a short while ago.  While Head-Truth folks can Agree to Disagree, Heart-Truth people are less likely to be able to Compromise, because their Identity is invested in their Truth.  So we may wish to PIAVA or otherwise Pray that this Potential for increasing Violence doesn’t Manifest.

https://www.bbc.com/news/world-us-canada-49382386

Meanwhile, we’re now well into the Energy of Letting Go of Obsolete Habits (asteroid Atropos, Stationary) peaking 20 August (11:30 pm PDT).  The Fabulous Grace in the Full Moon, which should Bless at least the next two weeks, if we can Feel and Express enough Collective Gratitude for it, could well soften this potential Confrontation of Truths that are Held as Sacred.  We might PIAVA that we and others Decommision our Habits of resorting to Violence to “Get Our Way,” of preferring inflammatory Rhetoric to Listening, and of Working to Eliminate our Opposition rather than Accommodate or Contain it.

Another Boon is the symbol for Choosing Consciousness over Fate or Karma (asteroid Moira) entering the Sign of Ego Death (Virgo) on 19 August (5:30 pm PDT).  If our Ego is Attached to our Karma – which like it or not, for all of us, it is, or we’d just Let It Go before breakfast…

– we may now be more willing to Accept the Ego Death(s) necessary for us to Choose Awareness over Repeating our old Self-Sabotaging Patterns.  Ego Deaths don’t have to be Painful.

By 23 August, two other Boons arrive.  The symbol for Growing the Edges of Consciousness (asteroid Juno) also enters the Sign of Loosening Ego Attachment (Virgo) (5pm PDT).  And the symbol for New Beginnings (asteroid Klotho) moves into the Sign of Flexibility and Change (Gemini), which should make it easier to give up old intransigent Patterns (12:30 pm PDT).

It’s not often that all four of the Greek Mythology symbols for Fate versus Conscious Awareness are lit up at the same time.  The symbols for Fate itself (Moira), and for Starting New Timelines (Klotho) are both moving into new Signs, while the symbol for Consciously Ending Obsolete Timelines (Atropos) is very Strong (Stationary).  And we haven’t written about it yet, but the symbol for Consciously Choosing the Duration of our Habits (asteroid Lachesis) is Lit Up in the Full Moon chart (the focus of one of three Fingers of God).  I read this as a fairly Unique Opportunity for Massive Personal and Global Change.

Boundaries

February 9, 2019

Boundaries were prominent during the Sedna Station, as the Pallas-Haumea-Aletheia (Boundaries-Rebirth-Truth) Stellium (group of 3 or more planets) Squared the Nodes – which means that it is Important to our Life Path, and Opposed Uranus-Mars-Eris (Soul-Action-Revelation) – implying that we’d be Learning enough about what we’ve been Denying that we’d be Feeling Reborn with Boundaries that are less Defensive of the Ego, and more Welcoming to the Soul.

That Specific Ambient Energy has moved on now that the Sedna Station is Complete, but once we stopped Screaming and started Noticing what was happening, we probably Learned enough from its Passing, that as we move away from it we’ll be Noticing that our Resistance to Self-Love has Softened.

What hasn’t “gone away” is the Pallas-Haumea-Aletheia Stellium, as our next serious astroevent is an 18 February (9am PST) Pallas Station in the last Degree of Libra.  So whatever it was that we Learned, and whatever Introduced itself uninvited, around Boundaries during the Sedna Station and the Juno-Sedna Conjunction that preceded it, we’ll be Developing and Extending it for the next ten days.

Pallas is turning Retrograde, so it won’t move into Scorpio till the end of August, and it backs up over the last twenty Degrees of Libra.  It takes about four years for Pallas to run the Zodiac once, so divide your age by four and you’ll know how many times you’ve Iterated your Experience with Boundaries on the Spiral of Growth that is your current Lifetime.

Every four years when Pallas moves into Libra, we first Meet Other Anew, and after two years in the Personal half of the Zodiac, I’m sure it’s always a Shock.  In the second ten Degrees of Libra, we’re reinventing our Boundaries with Groups of Other, and in the third we get Confused about where we End and Other Begins – we’ve been here in this Confusion of Boundaries since New Years, and we’ll be here through early April.

Confusion of course is the first stage of Growth, so it’s a Positive thing if we can drop our Resistance to it.  We’re basically Debriefing what we’ve Learned about Other in this four-year Pallas Zodiacaloop, so we can be ready for Pallas in Scorpio, where we Deeply Fathom what this whole Me-Other business is all about.  We could be moving out of Codependence, or moving into Unity, and most likely Both, in different arenas of our Lives.  Other, of course, isn’t just Other Hupers.

Stationing as it is on a Cusp, Pallas joins several other planets Dancing on Cusps.  Juno Enters Gemini on 10 February (8:30 pm PST), Eurydike Enters Capricorn on 13 February (am PST), and Chiron finally Re-Enters Aries on 18 February (1am PST).

Juno barely dipped her toe into Gemini during October (she never got beyond the first Degree), but now she Dances all the way across it, until mid-April.  Juno in Taurus (since last July) has probably made Growth in Consciousness slower and stickier; in Gemini we’re likely to be Experimenting with all manner of Weird Notions, as we eagerly Explore the Edges of our Limitations.  We’ll be Growing by leaps and bounds, though we may not know it, because it will all Feel so Strange at first.

Juno will Dance with asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) in mid-March, cross dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential) in early April, and chase Sappho (Self-Love), catching up in early June.  Chaos Initiating Juno should be Life-Changing.

Consciousness Expansion

December 21, 2018

Back in the 1960s we’d get stoned (or not) and go Play Street Theater by Challenging “Straights” (as we called folks who looked like they were following the Cultural Party Line) with ideas that we believed might stretch their Concept Set a bit, about the Vietnam War for instance, or just Materialism in general.  We undoubtedly weren’t nearly as subtle as we thought we were, but we weren’t ideologically clubbing people either; we were mostly pretty gentle about it.

No one ever beat us up about it; in those days the rednecks were busy beating up Gay People – they somehow thought it was their civic duty – and didn’t much bother Stoners.  We called our little Game “Consciousness Expansion.”  We met some interesting people that way and made some good friends among those who were either willing to be Stretched, or already were.  A few of them were already Expanded waaay beyond where we were!  They Expanded our Consciousness, a whole lot.

And that’s exactly what we’re all doing this weekend, Expanding our Consciousness, as asteroid Juno (Growth in Consciousness) Stands Still on 23 December (7pm PST) at 21 Taurus.  Since the Ides of October it’s been moving backwards from the first Degree of Gemini, over what’s called the Capricorn Decanate (ten Degrees) of Taurus.

The first ten Degrees of Taurus are about Making a Stand, Establishing a Solid Position, Making Rules That Work, and generally finding Stability.  It’s a natural Reaction to Aries, which flies around being totally Intuitive and Breaking all the Rules because Aries serves Creativity.  In the second ten Degrees of Taurus, the Virgo Decanate, the Bull has its Ferdinand moment, and looks inward to see if they may be overdoing it.  So the middle of Taurus is squishier than the Beginning.

The third Decanate is about Pragmatism – okay, so just exactly which Rules and Postures actually Served our Goals, and which ones didn’t?  Which ones are Keepers?  Toward the center of this Decanate, in the 25-27 Degree Zone, Taurus meets the Fixed Stars Capulus and Algol, symbolizing from the Patriarchal Perspective Male Violence and Female Rage.  We can translate that to Male Servitude and Female Self-Respect, but whichever Perspective we use, late Taurus has to pass this test – do the new Rules we’re considering work in this context?

Asteroid Juno entered the third Decanate of Taurus in mid-August, five weeks after Mr. Kavanaugh was nominated to help decide which laws are Keepers for the USofA.  He was approved for this position in early October, a week before Juno turned Retrograde on the Gemini Cusp.  Obviously there was a serious eruption of Female Rage and Male Servitude (in this case clustering into the Old Boys Club) while Juno made its initial pass through this Zodiacal territory.

While the Patriarchy may perceive this as a Big Win, I don’t doubt that it will find it has Hell to Pay.  And soon.  A Retrograde period is a time to Go Inside and give an issue Serious Consideration – What do we think about this?  How does it Feel?  Does it match our Values and serve our Goals?  Can I Adapt to it, or must I go back to the barricades?  This being Juno, we’ve all had some big Expansions of Consciousness during this Retreat.  And this being the last Decanate of Taurus, we’ve come to some pretty firm Conclusions.

Now we begin to cross this Decanate for the third time, and it’s time for all of our Expanded Consciousness and New Conclusions to come out of the closet.  I expect some serious Ego Death for the Patriarchy.  Perseus may have Believed that he slew Medusa, but it never works that way.  Medusa is a Deep, Indomitable, Very Powerful Current in the Huper Psyche.  When it’s forced Underground, like any Unconscious Energy, it seeps up around the Edges in Disguise, and takes Control of our Lives.

Asteroid Juno will cross Capulus, Perseus’s sword, for the third time around 23 January.  Juno will cross Algol, the Eye of Medusa, around 31 January.  Mark those dates on your calendar, and see what happens.

Greek Mythology describes what happens when we React to Life, Unconsciously.  We can pretty much just turn it over to see what it would be like to Respond to Life Consciously.  Juno was the Latin name for Hera, Zeus’s wife.  Zeus was the poster child for the Patriarchy, as he basically Fucked everything that walked, and many things that didn’t.  If he was here today they’d call him a “Force of Nature.”

Hera/Juno meanwhile had a strong Jealous streak, and tended to turn her Rivals to Stone.  The #MeToo Movement these days is instead throwing Stones where they belong, at the self-proclaimed “Forces of Nature,” rather than at their fellow Goddesses.  That’s a big Expansion of Consciousness.  On a deeper level, acrimonious Jealousy is a symptom of Merging, of Codependence.  Juno could easily have just gone after Ulysses, or Paris, or Hercules, but she didn’t want to surrender her Privilege as Queen of the Garden.

These kinds of dilemmas aren’t foreign to any of us, though hopefully in much less Dramatic fashion.  But we’ve Learned to Avoid Reactions that we subsequently Regret, or that just perpetuate the Pain that Abandonment gives us.  For instance, one good way to shift from Reaction to Response, is to Realize that we all have Abandonment issues within us.  So instead of Blaming that so-and-so for Hurting us, we can instead say to ourself, “Oh, there’s my Abandonment again!” and use the Opportunity to study it more.

It’s an Ancient Emotion, as in many situations, Banishment meant Death, so it behooves us to study it well.  Through much of recent Herstory, Genders were not Equally regarded, and when a Woman was Abandoned, it often meant Death or worse.  Men have no less Abandonment in them, as their missteps often meant Death as well; that’s why they love Hierarchies.  It gives them an Alpha to follow, and if they Play that Game right they may be able to Avoid being Abandoned themselves.  It’s tricky, sucking up to your Alpha while somehow showing your Gammas that, while they aren’t as good as you, they can Get Ahead by regarding you as their Beta.

Making all these Abandonment and Loyalty and Fealty Games so Public, so we can get Conscious of them and Learn to Play Games that are more Collaborative and Constructive and Productive, more Fun, and more in line with our Goals and Values, is a Public Service being offered by the Dramas in the Antichrist’s tawdry White House.  The Circus in London and Dublin, and that place with the Sprouts, is probably doing the same, but apparently at a more sophisticated level.  More Shakespeare, less Melville.

Self-Doubt 1

October 19, 2018

As is so often the case, Daniel Scranton’s Arcturian friends are right on time, as our next major event is the 26 October (11:30 pm PDT) Station of asteroid Sappho, which symbolizes Self-Love, in 27 Gemini.  Of course whenever Self-Love is Lit Up, our Self-Doubts will arise to be Let Go Of.  Our Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp it.  Self-Doubt arises, and rather than Recognizing it as Fake News and Dismissing it, we Imagine all the potential reasons why we might Doubt ourself, and, typically, wallow in them. 

Why?  Because we were taught to…

https://danielscranton.com/love-yourselves-unconditionally-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have a perspective that we would like to share with you on what we see as the continuation of some programming you picked up when you were very young on this planet in this lifetime.  We see you looking for reasons to love yourselves.  We see you attempting to earn your own love through something that you would accomplish or become, even from the way that you look.

“We are noticing that this conditional love got started in childhood for most of you when you learned very quickly what would please your parents, and your teachers, and even your friends.  You also learned what would get you in trouble or not please the other people in your life.  And most of you could feel the withholding of love during those times when you disappointed someone important in your life.

“Now, as adults, most of you continue to run that programming.  Most humans have not found a way to love themselves unconditionally.  Instead, you work very hard to try to earn your own love, and then you get into a romantic relationship, and you expect the other person to love you unconditionally, even though you have not found the ability to do that for yourself.

“So you go from relationship to relationship, looking for someone to give you the love that you never really got from another human and haven’t been able to supply to yourself.  So we are here to tell you how important it is to let yourself off the hook, to not let your self-love be performance based, and we want you to show yourselves even more love when you have met with a defeat of some kind, or when someone else has proven once again that they are not loving you unconditionally.

“That is when you need your own love to come forth from within you.  You need to access it, you need to feel, and you need to give it to yourselves freely, without hesitation, without condition, and no matter what anyone else says or does to you.  In fact, if you’re being mistreated by others, you need to give yourselves more love and more compassion.  It makes perfect sense, if you think about it.  Who better to love you than the one who knows your entire story?

We have two intervening events on 24 October, but the Overwhelming Energy for the next week will be about Self-Love, ferreting out any excuses we make to ourself for withholding it, and banishing them to the trash heap.  Like most Consciousness-raising exercises, it’s about Noticing, and Responding Differently.  It’ll be an excellent time to use our Gestalt techniques…

When you detect a Self-Doubt arising, set out three chairs facing toward the same place. 

Sit down in one and talk about your Self-Doubt – what it feels like, what Justifies it, how it has Constrained your Enjoyment of things you would have like to have done with your Life. 

Then move to the other chair and Empathize – “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Limited by that, don’t you.”  Follow that up with whatever Feels appropriate.  Then Ask the version of you that was sitting in the first chair, “How has this Self-Doubt Protected us from unwanted Outcomes?”

Move back to the first chair and talk about how your Life has been Better as a result of your Self-Doubt.  What has it bought you?  Maybe Rescued you from potential Shame or Embarrassment, or Punishment even, or Fear?  See if you can boil your Positive Intention down to one or two words, like “Safety” or “Integrity.”

Go back to the second chair and Acknowledge your Chair-1-Self for these good Intentions.  Then talk about the things you might have done if you didn’t have this Self-Doubt.  Maybe you’d have had more Fun, taken more Risks, Achieved more, or Followed your Dreams.  Boil all those down to one or two words, like “Fun” or “Success.”

Now move to the third chair.  Imagine your Self-Doubt Self still sitting in Chair 1, and your WouldaCoulda Self still sitting in Chair 2.  Ask them to figure out how to do both – how to “be Safe” and “have Fun,” or how to “have Integrity” and “Success,” or whatever your Meaningful words were.

Then, Change the Subject.  Asking is one of the “A’s” in PIAVA.  Once you’ve gotten Honest with yourself about your Hesitations and Regrets, all manner of new ideas may pop up.  Jot them down.  But mostly you want to Open Up Space for New Material to come into your Life, and you can’t do that without Changing the Subject, because your old Birdcage is too Strong.

Now you can go off and do something else.  You don’t even have to revisit it later, unless you want to.  Chances are you’ll start Changing your Life and doing new things without even thinking about it.

The 24 October events are asteroid Juno backing into Taurus at 1am PDT, and the Full Moon at 10 am PDT. 

Juno represents the Edges of Consciousness.  In Gemini it was Opening Up to Change; in Taurus it’s likely to revert to Conservatism.  Conservatism means needing an Authority, not Trusting one’s own inherent Wisdom and Instinct.  Knowing this, we can Notice when we aren’t Trusting our own Perspective, and regard it as an Opportunity to Liberate ourself from that Limitation. 

Juno won’t return to Gemini till 24 December.  It crosses Sedna – Fear – around election day in the USofA.  Between now and then, Teach as many people as you can how to convert Fear into Power (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/10/14/another-molt-i/).

The Full Moon Merges with our Soul (Uranus-Moon) and our Heart (Venus-Sun) and our Mission (Square the Nodes).  There’s a good chance, if we’re Open to it, that we’ll be Remembering things from other TimeLines that are Important to our current Lives (OR10 T-Square on Atropos Opposite Juno-Lachesis) and making Shifts in our current TimeLine accordingly. 

Or, if we Remember that All There Is Is Now, Important things may be Bleeding Through from our Parallels.  We’ve been taught that we can’t Change the Past.  Of course that’s Fake News, but if we Believe it, then Parallel Lives make everything more Flexible than “Past” Lives.  Which is all the more Important because the overarching Sappho Station is Merged with Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos) and our Forbidden Genius (Opposite dwarf planet Ixion).

Expanding or Floating up to the County Level will be a good practice this coming week, so we can have the Perspective we need to make the Multidimensional tweeks to our Life or Lives that we’ll be Inspired to make.

Fear and Loathing

October 8, 2018

If, like me, you woke up Remembering Scary Episodes in your Young Life, what did you do about it?  My Habit of Tapping kicked in before I had a chance to even think about it, which is fabulous.  And my Body contributed a couple of Kegels before I finished Tapping my karate chop point.  I didn’t even finish a Tapping sequence; instead I just Realized, “Wait a minute, this isn’t Present Moment stuff!”, checked in with the people I’m Merged with to be sure they are Safe, and thought about what I might do differently if a similar situation arose again.  Surprisingly, the alternative approach seemed like it might work.  Then I got up, Energized, got some food, and got to work. 

Tapping?  See https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4

Kegels?  See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/03/20/aries-equinox-molt/.

Fear is really Power in disguise; like all Emotions, it just needs to be Loved into submission.  My Fear Memories were tied to Prejudice – situations with people I don’t have reason not to Mistrust.  Which is remarkably close to the astrology in the 11 October Juno-Station chart which is calling the shots this week.

The primary feature of the chart is a T-Square or Challenge focused on as-yet-unnamed dwarf planet “2007 OR10,” which symbolizes Intrusive Memories.  The base of the T-Square is the Stationary (Strong) Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) Conjunct (Merged with) Sedna (Fear and Power) Opposing (Highlighted by) asteroid Hopi, which stands for Respect for All Things.  Right out of the textbook I haven’t written yet.  Suspicious, eh?

The T-Square is Truss-Bridged by Trines (Grace) to Chiron (Despair and Miracles) and the South Node (Karmic Held Emotions and the Essential Skills they Obscure), which probably helped to accelerate my Realization that I was out of the Present Moment.  The T-Square  is also Wonder-Bridged by Quincunxes (Curiosity) to Uranus (Soul), Mercury (Awareness), and Saturn-Quaoar-Pholus (the Most Important Thing is to Be Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts).  How might we translate these Complexities out of astrologuese?

We actually get plenty of Cosmic Hand-Holding along with this Fear Homework.  I could easily have not Noticed that in Real Time I was actually quite Safe in bed, and easily fallen into Despair about my Security.  It’s not like there’s a shortage of Potential Threats to our Safety these days.  If I had, would I have Remembered to Poor-Sweetheart myself?  Hope so.

“Poor-Sweetheart?”  See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/.

That South Node is also one corner of the Varuna Grand Cross that we wrote about yesterday in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/10/07/that-was-a-trick-question/.  More on this later.

And the chart advises that we’ll get plenty of mileage out of having an Open Mind and Being Present with Wonder rather than Responding to Curiosity by “trying to Figure It Out.”  Such as…

“I Wonder what else I might Learn by Imagining those situations again and, for instance, looking more closely at my Feelings as the situations developed.”

“I Wonder what my Soul’s Purpose might have been in this morning’s Dance with Fear.”

“I Wonder to what extent my Fear this morning was an Intuition about the Future.”

To be continued.  Now I’m yawning my head off – maybe back to bed to finish snoozing!

But speaking of Xenophobia, here’s Dan Scranton’s Channeling for today…

https://danielscranton.com/e-t-s-meeting-with-spiritual-leaders-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have been the biggest supporters of sending a group of extra-terrestrial beings to meet with the spiritual leaders that you have on your world, and we know that this is going to happen at some point to further the full open contact agenda.  We recognize the significance of certain individuals, who we will not name, in terms of their ability to share their experiences with all of you and to help those who are still on the fence about the whole extra-terrestrial thing.

“We know that there will be more and more people waking up, even after an event like this would take place with the spiritual leaders on Earth.  And those newly awakened people then would be told of this experience, and they would be able then to open themselves up more to having an experience with e.t.s themselves.

“We are always looking for ways to ease humanity into the experience of full open contact, and so are the physical extra-terrestrials that you have monitoring you and watching for your progress and readiness for that inevitable day.

“We will continue to express that we feel your readiness for an event like this, and we know that you as individuals also feel ready for your experience of physical contact.  We are aware of that readiness, and again we are expressing on your behalf to the e.t.s that could easily walk through a portal and into your home.  We are excited to witness those personal events as well.”

That Was a Trick Question

October 7, 2018

Of course it wasn’t, since on so many levels so many of us will be Choosing our Karma, because it’s so Comfortable.  Think about your Least-Favorite recurring circumstances, especially your recurring Bummers.  Now reframe your Experience so you see yourself as Comfortable in those circumstances.  That’s what Karma is all about.  Least-Favorite, Bummer, and “Comfortable” seem like strange bedfellows.  But think about why those circumstances are your Least-Favorite.  Maybe you don’t like the Emotions involved, or maybe they make you Doubt yourself (I think of Doubt, like Confusion, as an Emotion).  But if they recur, you’re Familiar with them, and maybe Familiar isn’t so far from Comfortable.

But the sense that it actually was a Trick Question, is that we’ve dropped into a Station of asteroid Juno, and Juno is about the Edgs of our Consciousness.  Station means “Strong,” so we’ll actually have to work to not Grow our Consciousness between now and 11 October, when Juno actually Stands Still.  We say a planet is “Stationary” whenever it’s moving so slowly that we can hardly tell it’s moving at all, because that’s when we Feel the impact of the planet most strongly.  Usually we Feel this intensity for about a week before the planet actually Stands Still, depending on what else is going on, and how Sensitive we are to it.

We’re suggesting that you Assertively Choose Consciousness because the Portal is Open here – sure, we’ll all get a hit without trying, but while the Door is Open, let’s get Greedy.  As Gordon said, “Greed [about Consciousness] is Good!”   The Juno-Station chart is more complex than the New-Moon chart…

So we won’t get through it all tonight, but at the risk of sounding like a broken record, it’s really more of the same.  Well, maybe I should sound like a broken record, because this stuff – about Identity, Ego, Soul, Karma, Held Emotions, etc – is so Subtle and so Profound that we have to have it pounded into us.  We can hear or read the same thing a thousand times, and then on the next pass it coincides with some other goings-on and a Light goes on, and we suddenly “get” it.  “Oh, That’s what you meant!”  So as the Priestess may have said, “Repetition is Good!”

The Big Highlights of the chart include Juno itself Dancing with Fear and Power (Sedna) – remember your Kegels (Fear + Kegel = Power).  Juno in Gemini should be an Open Portal for Consciousness to Grow already, because Gemini is to flibbertigibbet.  No offense to your Gemini planets, but Gemini is probably the most loosy-goosy Sign in the Zodiac.  That’s Freedom par excellence, but it can also be Spacey and sometimes Scarily so.  Sedna Initiated Juno, which would have introduced us to our Fear in a whole new way, on 14 September.

Juno only stays in Gemini for a month, before it backs into Taurus.  Taurus is the Rock of the Zodiac.  Taurus and Change are not at all Comfortable together.  Stability is Good, but if we’re talking about Stable Self-Sabotage, which is what Taurus and Karma would do together, Shaking things up would be Good too, if not very Comfortable.  Juno doesn’t get back to Gemini for good till 24 December.  So our Window where it will be Easier to Change what needs Changing, will be Open till 24 October – take Advantage of it!  Changing our Relationship with Fear, so we Grok it’s Power, will be an option for us again in the second week of November.

The other Big Highlight of the Juno Station is that our Health and Vitality (Varuna) is the Star of the Show.  While the rest of the chart is packed in like a lunchbox, Varuna and the North Node look like the gondola under the balloon, where “everything” happens.  So a particular theme in this Station is our Opportunity to see how our Karmic Patterns Sabotage our own Vitality.  We’ll talk more about this over the next few days.

Gauntlet XII – More Con Games

April 24, 2018

Well, we get a couple of weeks without Stations, till the Ides of May.  That should be a relief.

In the interim, Action/Agitation meets Compulsion on 26 April (4am PDT) when Pluto Initiates Mars, beginning a new two-year Cycle at 22 Capricorn, “By accepting defeat gracefully, a general reveals nobility of character.”  As Alan Watts averred, it’s harder to Let Go of our “Good” Karma than our “Bad” Karma.  So we may be Asked to Let Go of our Attachment to Success over the next few days and the next couple of years.

Then on 28 April (12am PDT) Juno leaves Pisces and moves into Aries.  Since Juno represents the Edges of Consciousness, that should make Life a little Easier, as we’re likely to be Growing our Spiritual Consciousness more rather than our Emotional Consciousness.  While Held Emotions (the one we’d Rather Die than Feel) may not be so prominent, we’re still likely to be dealing with Death, as one of the more prominent elements of Spirit is its immutability.  If that’s an intellectual Concept for you rather than a Foundation of your Beliefs, you may be in for Surprises.

Chariklo is about Confidence, and we’ve just squirmed out of a fairly big Challenge to our Confidence, as Chariklo and Pluto shared their Stations over the last few days (Gauntlet IX to XI).  It turns out though that our Confidence Work isn’t quite done.  For the next week we’ll be Working on Confidence in our Self-Sovereignty, as Chariklo Initiates Lilith on 1 May, starting a new nine-year Cycle at 20 Capricorn – “A hidden choir singing during a religious service.”

The “hidden choir” could be our True Self telling us what we’d be Doing and Saying if we were Speaking and Acting from our Self-Sovereignty, or it could be the echos of the many Voices that, throughout our Life, have told us Who and How We Should Be and Do instead of Being and Doing Ourself.  As a Jungian I assume that the Unconscious is always trying to move us forward, even when it requires us to walk through the Swamp instead of around it. 

So I’m opting for the Hidden Choir being our Shoulds.  After all, would our True Self be Shoulding on us?  You know how it Feels when you ignore an Intuition, that “Still Small Voice”?  That’s more likely to be the Voice of our True Self.  Mine doesn’t come from over my Shoulder.  When we get talkback from over our Should-er, if we Notice and just Imagine turning our head to look, or listening for the tone of voice and accent, or just Asking, it will probably be pretty easy to Discern whose Shoulds we’ve Internalized as our own in the current case.

Then we can cycle through Anal-yzing, PIAVAing, and State-Changing (Tapping, Kegeling, Poor-Sweethearting, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrading, and the like) to examine the Agenda of that particular Control Freak, to see if their input is still useful in our Present Life.

Which is kind of the Other Side of the Coin here, or the Other Side of the Mirror – when our own Control Freak comes out of its cave and we Notice that we’re wanting someone else to Act or Speak differently than they are, it would be of great value to our Evolution for us to cycle through Anal-yzing, PIAVAing, and State-Changing to get to the Roots of our own Distaste for whatever it is that they’re up to. 

It may contribute more to Confidence in our Self-Sovereignty to Work with the times when we Should Other, than it does to Work with the Internalized Voices that Should us!

Be Mindful that Shame and Guilt are primary tools that Control Freaks use to manipulate our Behavior, so be Aware that these Emotions may be your first indication that you’re being Shoulded.  Nothing wipes out Confidence and Sovereignty faster and more completely than Shame, and it takes a huge Effort to get Present with Shame.  The first step is Noticing, and if you’re lucky enough to do that, then Poor-Sweethearting will be worth trying, as well as Tapping and Kegeling.

Gauntlet V – Revelation New Moon

April 14, 2018

I must be Denying some element of Truth, because it’s been kind of a hard day for me.  Probably my sugar Addiction.  As for the Strong elements of the Truth/Veritas-Stationary chart…

  • Choosing to Expose our Essence (Lachesis-Eris-Sun) probably wins this lottery, as it’s a corner of both the Grand Cross (red square and cross) and the Grand Trine (blue Triangle)

There’s an additional vote for this Stellium (group of planets) being the Strong point of the Veritas Station chart – tomorrow’s New Moon (7pm PDT 15 April) is in the same place, extending the impact of the Station chart for another several weeks. 

Dwarf planet Eris is all about Revealing what’s been Denied, often with Ego-Death consequences – hence Eris’s Reputation for Dischord among the Stuck-in-the-Mud set.  And Lachesis is about Measuring the length of a Timeline.  When we’re dealing with Consciousness – aka Choice – then, it’s about Choosing to prematurely End or posthumously Extend a Timeline (which is a temporary or characteristic theme in a Lifetime) relative to its “Fated” Expiration.

The new Lachesis-Eris Cycle began at 2pm PDT today, 14 April, at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia.”  Remember that Denial is a Healthy Response to Ego-breakthroughs that we aren’t ready to deal with yet.  Trying to break an Ego prematurely usually leads to backlash and Ego entrenchment.  Look at what happens when you try to break someone else’s Ego with insults – you trigger the other person’s Ego Defenses.  The five-year Lachesis-Eris Cycle is about being Able to Choose if, when, and How to make significant Changes to our Ego.

So then, do I Choose to End my sugar Addiction?  Well, it’s not that Easy to squelch an Addiction, is it.  But Notice that it is in my Consciousness, which is one of the first steps.  So I can PIAVA to end or modify it to make it Life-Affirming, if it isn’t already – Self-Love/Sappho is Merged with Edges of Consciousness/Juno after all. 

Maybe I’ll have an All Organic Go Raw Sprouted Pumpkin Seed Bar with 5g of sugar instead of a Cascadian Farm Organic Honey Roasted Nut Protein Chewy Bar with 10g.  I know, they’re both Prefab Food, but I just had a big bowl of homemade Soup of Wildcrafted Fresh Nettles, organic Shiitakes, organic Farmers-Market Rhubarb, organic Onion, organic Bone Broth, and homegrown Garlic, Oregano, and Thyme, so I may survive.

Speaking of which…

  • Loving the Edges of our Consciousness as alternative to Ego Death (Sappho-Juno) also heads a Diamond Star

Now this one could be a Life-Changer if we take advantage of it.  A Diamond Star is an Emphatic (Finger of God) Challenge to Mastery (T-Square) made Easy by Grace (the Trine-Sextile Lace connecting the bases of the T-Square and Yod).  What if we broke the Karmic Dread-Reaction that most of have to Ego Death, and replaced it with a surge of Excitement and Love about the Liberation from Limitation that we’re about to Receive!  That would definitely be Life-Changing.

The 17-year Sappho-Juno Cycle began on 13 March at 9 Pisces, “A jockey spurs his horse, intent on outdistancing his rivals.”  Whoa, Competitive Love!  Well, if we’re Competing with ourself to see if we can Embrace the next Ego Death better than we Embraced the last one, that’s probably a fine use of Competition, which is after all a normal Huper Urge, even if we sneer at it as the Fundament of the Patriarchy.  And there’s no reason Competition can’t be Friendly, and even coexist with Collaboration.

The apparent Contradistinction that Powers the Challenge to Mastering such Edgy Self-Love involves our Forbidden Genius (Ixion) and our Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos), with our Forbidden Genius Channeling (Conjunct) the Galactic Center.  We could easily interpret this as Galactic HQ giving us orders to Open Up our Forbidden Genius.  The Grace is provided by Easy Relationships between Unlimited Potential, Stationary Truth/Veritas, Rebirth/Haumea, and Hidden Genius.

  • New Beginnings (Klotho) are Important because they head a Diamond Star (T-Square and Yod pointing to same planet)

This one is tightly Integrated with the previous two Configurations, as the base of the New Beginnings Challenge to Mastery involves Rebirth/Haumea and Choosing to Expose our Essence (Lachesis-Eris-New Moon), and the Lace of Grace involves Unlimited Potential/Chaos and Truth/Stationary Veritas.

The Unx Angle (the short green lines) reflects the Twelfth Harmonic, Pattern-Breaking.  They’re drawn lightly in the Truth-Station chart in the previous post, but they’re an important key to our success as Self-Transformation, since without them we Change not at all.  They connect Loving our Edges (Sappho-Juno) with Choosing Insights (Lachesis-Eris-New Moon), Embracing Fear as Power (Sedna and Kegels), Unlimited Potential (Chaos), and Truth Squared (Aletheia and Stationary Veritas).

Finally, we neglected to include what might be the most immediate Challenge of this Truth Station, the Challenge between Truth/Veritas and Embracing Fear as Power/Sedna.  If you’re having trouble seeing Fear as Power, look at what it does to the Body – it can give you extraordinary Powers of Flight, Fight, or Freeze that arise directly from the Unconscious, without your Volition.  Have you Experienced the equation “Fear Plus Breathing Equals Excitement”?  And next time you’re watching a Scary movie, try Fear Plus Kegels to see how they Change your Experience of your Body and your Surroundings.

This is the Waxing Square in the six-year Veritas-Sedna Cycle that began in June 2016 at 26 Taurus, “A Spanish gallant serenades his beloved,” which is to say, at least during this Cycle, Fear Enchants Truth.  Certainly being Honest with ourself about our Fears (which after all are highly correlated with our Held Emotions) is a requirement for Authenticity and Yintegrity and all things Fifth-Dimensional.

At the Waxing Square, the Energy of a Cycle Emerges from Underground and enters the Mainstream.  Veritas, now moving forward again, is working toward it’s third Waxing Square to Sedna; the first occurred mid-October 2017 (when the Emergence from the Unconscious of a “new” Fear may have Shocked us), the second late March 2018 (when we would have Learned more about this new-to-our-Ego Fear), and this third one will Complete 13 May.  At this third event we’re scheduled to gain Confidence in our command of the Truth about our Fears.