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Make Ego Great Again II

August 13, 2017

A friend sent this link to a Vedic interpretation of Eclipses…

http://visionaryreadings.com/the-meaning-of-eclipses-in-vedic-astrology/

And then described how their Life has been bothered by bureaucratic snafus recently. 

Where we are Looking has a lot to do with how we Perceive Reality.  Consider the contrast between Looking at the Fear Propaganda on TV in the USofA, or Looking at, for example, http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html or http://danielscranton.com/ .  Not to imply that the Arcturians have any kind of monopoly on Relevance to what’s happening on the Planet.  You might resonate more to the Pleiadeans or https://lightquest-intl.com/ or http://www.starwars.com/games-apps .

Vedic astrology has a tendency to Believe it does have a monopoly on Truth.  If it provides Perspective that is useful to you, then, as with any Perspective, by all means use it.  The more Lenses we have to see the World through, the closer we are to actually participating in Reality rather than our own Projections.  When any Perspective strikes Fear, though, we need to Tap Out the Fear before we use the Perspective.  If a Perspective is good for nothing more than bringing Unconscious Fear into Consciousness where you can Love it to Death, then it’s a very Powerful Perspective for you.  Alternatively, with a technique like Theta Healing, where the Outcome is immediately available to us, we can modify our Command until we find one that works, or alternate Theta and Tapping.

The root of the monopoly tendency in Vedic astrology is Religious Politics.  Simply put, if it’s Either/Or it’s Political.  If it’s Both/And, it’s Spiritual.  We make no claim that this is an absolute Truth, but we suggest strongly that it’s a very Reliable First Approximation and a very Useful Perspective.  Vedic astrology supported Political Hinduism, as distinct from Esoteric Hinduism.  Political Hinduism supported ongoing Abuse of the Dalit or Harijan caste just as Political Christianity supported ongoing Slavery and Abuse of Primary Cultures everywhere they were encountered.  Certainty is a Tool of Political Agendas.

We look at it this way.  Hinduism is frequently accused of promoting Fatalism, and Political Hinduism certainly appears to.  As with most Religions, I don’t believe that Esoteric Hinduism does promote Fatalism.  Fate and Free Will are usually seen as an Either/Or, so as with any Duality, we Know that this is a 3D Veil attempting to obscure the Both/And, Multifarious and Unitary Reality on the Other Side.

The difference between Fate and Free Will is that our Fate is what befalls us when we’re Captives of the Karmic and Generational and Social Archetypes that we usually refer to as our Limiting Beliefs.  Free Will is what we Obtain when we step outside of the Limited Reality of the these Archetypes.  Even the “Laws” of Physics are simply Archetypes, Projections of the Ego’s need for Stasis and the mind’s need for the Illusion of Understanding.  If you’ve ever had a Wannabe Guru Manifest in your bedroom in a pillar of shimmering colored pinpricks of light like on Star Trek, you’d understand this.  Or Channeled an Antarean, or met a Walk-In, or Encountered one of your Doubles.

To me Growth in Consciousness (which means Freeing yourself from some Archetype), which usually requires an Ego Death of some sort, is not about Discovery, but about Differentiation.  We See or Feel more layers of Reality when we start noticing that there are Trees in the Forest, Trees of different Colors, Trees that have Birds and Bears in them, Birds and Bear that may be different from one another and that eat different Foods, etc etc.  There is no better way to Illuminate an Archetype or Assumption that we’ve wrapped our Limited view of Reality around, than for it suddenly to disappear.

Would we notice if suddenly all the Birch Trees disappeared from the Forest?  We might only notice that something had Changed.  But if they reappeared while we were pondering what it was that Changed, then suddenly our Consciousness would have a whole new Perspective on Birch Trees.  This is precisely what happens during an Eclipse; that which we Assume is Constant blinks off for a short time, then returns to its former Glory.  And we’re talking about the Sun, which Symbolizes our Essence.  Hence we consider Eclipses to be about Illumination, and that’s precisely what they are. 

Remember that in the Unconscious there is no Negation.  When you Pray for No War, you’re most likely to get War, because the Unconscious does not have a No in its vocabulary.  As we usually put it, astrology and the Unconscious determine Dimension, but not Direction.  The Cat may still be Alive or Not.  Eclipse is the Absence of Light, as Fear is the Absence of Love.  The Dimensions in those statements are Light and Love.  The Direction – Absence or Presence – is a Political Decision by the Ego, by yourself.

When you make a Decision to Choose Light and Love rather than Absence on any Issue in your Life, you threaten the Karmic or Family or Cultural Archetype that would keep you in Scarcity, with Fire and Fury like the World has never known.  So guess what the Archetype does in return?  It threatens to surround your Ego with Missiles, while its Ally the Ego warns you to seek cover and “not” to look at the flash.  As if you would have time for anything approaching that.  Ego and Archetype are one and the same. 

Hence we always recommend adding “Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely” to our PIAVAs

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/

PIAVAs directly address the Unconscious.  The Unconscious is in Charge, and one of its “Rules” is that no Prayer goes unanswered – that’s just a Perspective, but we suggest strongly that it’s a Reliable First Approximation and a Useful Perspective.   Use it as a filter to Examine your Life.  Every Negative thought you have is a Prayer.  Every Victim Emotion that you have is a Prayer.  Your Prayers specify the Dimension, and your Negativity and Victimhood specify the Direction.  Thoughts and Emotions are self-reinforcing, and their Negativity and Victimhood reinforce each other.  Your Negative thoughts and Victim Emotions are generated by your Archetypes.

When you PIAVA something and you’re ready to Receive it, the Universe will deliver it, just like Amazon or Taobao.  When you aren’t ready to Receive it, what the Universe will deliver, when you see the Universe through a Benevolent Lens, is Illustration of Why You Haven’t Been Manifesting That All Along.  That often looks like the Opposite of what you Asked for – the same principle as an Eclipse; often the fastest way to get you to Notice something that you’ve been taking for granted, is to Remove it.

There are some things which you have always been Abundant in.  Your Archetypes support your Ego in those arenas.  There are other things that have always been Difficult for you.  Those Define your Self-Sabotaging Archetypes.  Jane Roberts’s (Seth’s) The Nature of Personal Reality is an excellent exposition of this Lens.

Your thoughts and Emotions are not beyond your Control.  Your Ego can Choose to Intervene and Change the Direction.  It may take years of Persistence to shut down a strong Archetype, but never consider it Impossible.  You can PIAVA Assistance in Changing the Direction of the Archetype from Scarcity to Abundance – or vice versa for Abuse, though you’re better off Asking for Respect and Inviolate Boundaries, or whatever it is that you Want, rather than Asking for what you Don’t Want.

In Real Life this is an Either/Or Universe.  Fate is still going on.  If your Fate is to be Rich and Famous and Irresistible, then you may not want to Change it – though “Good” Karma is said to be harder to Change than “Bad” Karma, so when you start to get tired of being Rich and Famous and Irresistible, you may want to PIAVA Choice.  You may want to Choose Rich and Famous and Irresistible on Tuesdays and Fridays, Happy and Private on Wednesdays and Thursdays, and Surprised on Saturdays and Sundays and Mondays – but even that is an Archetype that will be Obsolete soon.

There isn’t much difference between Attention and Intention.  If your Attention is always on Negativity and Scarcity, whether in thought or Emotion, the Unconscious will consider that your Intention, and Manifest it for you.  Your Attention is under your Control.  You may have a nasty Habit of Focusing on your Negative thoughts and Bummer Emotions, and it may take a lot of Work to Change the Habit, but it is doable.  The Key is Noticing and Congratulating.

Rather than beating yourself up when you Notice that you’re Unconsciously indulging your Negativity, Congratulate yourself for Noticing.  You’re substituting Positive Reinforcement for Negative Reinforcement, and the more often you do this, the easier it becomes.  You’ll be surprised at how Effective this simple step is; Congratulate yourself for Noticing that you’re Repeating an undesired Habit, rather than cursing yourself for Repeating the Habit.

This particular Eclipse occurs while Mercury is Retrograde, and the Vedic Eclipse interpretation we linked to at the beginning of this article reads much like the average Western astrology’s interpretation of Mercury Retrograde.  Our approach to Retrogradations is the same as our approach to Eclipses.  But rather than Demanifestation of something routine, a Retrogradation may encourage Obsession on it – not a matter of Dimension, just a matter of Direction, so absolutely available to be Changed by the Ego with PIAVAs and Persistence. 

I usually find Retrogrades to be more Contemplative than Obsessive, but the same Energies apply – Contemplate What you Want, not What you Don’t Want.  If you’re particularly Skilled at Obsession, Obsess on What you Want, not on What you don’t Want.  We’ve already talked about Obsession and Changing the Subject, an important step in PIAVAing

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/08/09/cause-an-defect-full-moon-iv/

If you can’t shake Negative Energy while you’re trying to Focus on What You Want, Tap it Out.  Be sure to measure the Intensity of the Energy before and after Tapping, and Recognize that you may need to Iterate, and even alternate with other forms of PIAVAing.  Persistence counts.

The dwarf planet that deals with our Unlimited Potential is Chaos, which is in the Air Grand Trine and Dynamic Grand Sextile of the recent Full Moon; see the previous post.  It’s joined in the Grand Trine by Haumea/Rebirth and South Node/Karma, but the other three, Fire, points in the Grand Sextile are North Node/Mission and Purpose, Eris/Revelation of Denial, and Lilith-Saturn-Ixion-Pholus/In Order to Achieve Self-Sovereignty the Most Important Thing is that we Become Responsible to our Unique and Probably Forbidden Genius.

The dwarf planet and Centaur Hylonome deals with Letting Go of Archetypes, and the asteroid Juno deals with the Edges of Consciousness.  It’s no Coincidence that they’re Conjunct as we speak.  Hylonome Initiated Juno in February 2017, starting a new 9-year Cycle at 8 Capricorn, “In a Sun-lit home domestic birds sing joyously.”  We’re in the middle of the Exposition (which actually peaked 28 July).  The Confidence-Builder occurs at the September Equinox.

Psychedelic

June 1, 2017

We thought Earthrise from the Moon was pretty amazing, that it would make Hupers realize we were All One, all mates on the same spaceship, and thus Change the World…

But this Rohrschach Psycopomp, Channeling Peter Bruegel the Elder and Vincent Van Gogh, is truly Mind-Blowing!  Watch it full screen…

This is the “surface” (cloud tops) of Jupiter, as seen by a close flyby of the Juno spacecraft.  Juno symbolizes the Edges of Consciousness, Jupiter symbolizes Expansion.  Notice how the fellow at 1:32 lies perfectly still so as not to be detected as an Entity.  I see this video as the Symbol the End of the Patriarchy and the Restoration of Mystery. 

Channeling Susan Osborn and Paul Winter…

Find more Jupiter at…

https://www.universetoday.com/135798/best-jupiter-images-juno-far/

January Week 3 End – Big Doin’s

January 19, 2017

Whew, made it through the Ixion-Juno Initiation last night, but not without Tapping and Thetaing and Poor-Sweethearting for most of the night.  Our next Big Event is a Station of dwarf planet Haumea, 4am PST 22 January.  Haumea is Pele’s daughter, symbolizing Rebirth – by Fire!  It’s been within one Degree of Sensitivity to this Station since early November, so it’s a big part of what we’ve been Experiencing, as we’ve been trying to get as many of our Unconscious Masters (Archetypes, Karma, and Unfinished Business, O My) wrestled to the Ground so we can get Reborn as Cleanly as possible.

Now that “everything else” Big has gone under the bridge, the Rebirth part takes Center Stage.  Well, almost.  The Reality Show is still about

Bringing our Unconscious Fears Up Into Our Awareness in Order to Reclaim our Self-Sovereignty

for another week or so.  So this Rebirth is kind of a Mid-term in some ways.

By 1 February we’re firmly engaged in Rebuilding a New Timeline or Ego-Lifetime that’s based on Self-Love.

So a Laser Focus on Noticing any Self-Judgment for the next 7-10 days will pay big dividends.

Self-Judgment includes any Values you have that are Moral, or based on Either/Ors.  As Alan Watts informed us,

It’s Harder to Let Go of Good Karma than it is to Let Go of Bad Karma.

And we need to jettison both if we’re going to be able to approximate Self-Love.

Our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.

It’s more than fine to have Standards of Behavior, and above all to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect.  But our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.

If we betray our own Standards of Behavior, or fail to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect, we Make Amends and move on.  If we’re in the Habit of indulging Guilt or Remorse or the like (or having a big Reaction when others fail to treat us with Respect, which is just a Mirror for our own Lack of Self-Love), then we need to Change that Habit to Tapping it Out asap so we can get on with the Critically Important Work we’re doing Rebirthing the Planet one Psyche at a time (our own).  What was that Meditation threshold that squelched Crime?  One Percent of the Neighbors Meditating?

There’s a Catch here.  Two days after Haumea’s Station, asteroid Hopi Stations.  Hopi is about Respect for all Things.  Those Sentient Beings we have to Respect?  They don’t just include folks who look like you (regardless of Color).  They include Critters and Plants and Rocks and Dirt and Planets and Stars and anything that your mind is able to Separate from the Background Noise and assign a word to.  Oh, and the Background Noise is Sentient too, especially the Background Noise.  That’s the Unconscious, Master over most of our Behavior, thought, Emotion, and even our Physiology.

So we can say that again now, with the context more clear: It’s more than fine to have Standards of Behavior, and above all to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect.

But our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.  How will we every Learn to Love our Pathological Genius otherwise?

Saturn, The Most Important Thing, is only three weeks and less than two Degrees away from being Initiated by Ixion, our Forbidden Genius.  

Meanwhile, the Great Amplifier Jupiter is only two weeks and a third of a Degree shy of its Station, and less than two Degrees from Haumea.  In other words this isn’t any ordinary Molt of our Identity exoskeleton (Haumea is Stationary twice a year after all), but a Big Rebirth.  And you might notice that Sedna, our Emissary of Fear as a Gift Reminder to Embrace ourself, is Stationary along with Jupiter.

So we have a Choice here.  We can be Reborn into Big Fear, or we can be Reborn into Big Love.  We Choose the latter by hunting down our Unconscious Fear with a Searching and Fearless Inventory, then Loving our Fear into Submission.

It’s a safe bet that most or all of our Judgments have their roots embedded deep in Fear.  So if you aren’t Scared this week and next, start Examining your Judgments.  What Unconscious Fears stand behind those?  That includes our “positive” Moral Judgments – “I’m Good because I…” – what Fears stand behind those?  What would happen if you chose Yintegrity  or Self-Trust instead of “Good”?

This is what we took Birth for, and why the Planet is so overpopulated with Beings wanting in on the Action.

In case you’ve lost the bigger plot, Jupiter-Haumea is one corner of the Forbidden-Genius-Recovery Golden Rectangle that encloses our Sedna-Lilith Recovering-Self-Sovereignty-by-Embracing-our-Fear Yin Gate, which is about to morph into a Building-a-New-Lifetime-Based-on-Self-Love Yin Gate.  And of course the huge Yintegrity work we’ve been doing since Time As We Know It Ended in 2012, is another corner of the Golden Rectangle.

19 January 1am PST Ixion Initiates Juno Sadge 26
      2am PST Mars WAxing Square Saturn Pisces-Sagittarius 24

22 January 4am PST Haumea Stationary Retrograde Libra 25

24 January noon PST Hopi Stationary Retrograde Libra 13
      11pm PST Chiron Initiates Venus Pisces 22-3

25 January 2am PST Veritas Stationary Direct Gemini 10

26 January: Moon on Pluto T-Squaring Jupiter and Uranus, 1am-11am PST (Moon on Pluto 1am PST, Moon Square Uranus 7am PST, Moon Square Jupiter 11am PST)

27 January: Sappho Conjunct Klotho Scorpio 22 Opposite Sedna-Aletheia in the Yin Gate, with Sedna Stationary
      Quaoar Enters Capricorn
      New Moon 4pm Aquarius 9

30 January: Venus Enters Shadow Period Pisces 27

1 February: Neptune Initiates Pallas Pisces 11

6 February: Jupiter Stationary Retrograde Conjunct Haumea Libra 24
      Sedna Stationary Direct Taurus 26

15 February: Ixion Initiates Saturn Sagittarius 26

January, Week 3, Middle

January 17, 2017

We should be past the big jump in Fear, as the Aletheia (Truth, who’s camping with Fearsome Sedna) Station was twelve hours ago.  But Fear’s still running around loose at my house.  Carryover?  Or the first wave of what’s next?  What Is next?  

On 18 January the Moon Dances with Uranus (the Soul Self) and Eris (Revelation) and Jupiter (Amplification), but compared to what we’ve been through already, that’s pretty routine.  Just more Masks falling away, we’ve been doing that for almost five years now.  And besides, you’ve never minded being naked in public, have you?

This 19 January business could be the culprit – Ixion (our Abandoned Genius) Initiating (Starting a new Cycle with) Juno (the Edges of Consciousness).  This implies a major rend in the Wall between the Safety of our existing Identity and the untamed wilderness of the Unconscious, so it would make sense if our Identity was running Scared.  That’d be like Tweetybird having a big hole in his cage while Sylvester was about, if Tweety was prone to Freakouts.

And then Haumea (Rebirth) is Stationary on 22 January, so we’re undoubtedly Feeling that already.  A Rebirth is a Molt, so our old exoskeleton (ie, Identity) has to come off in the process.  So yes, our Olde Identity will be looking over a crumbling Edge into the Abyss.  That can be Disconcerting.  We don’t really have the Option of backing away from the Precipice.

And these, of course – Uranus, Ixion/Juno, Haumea – are three of the four corners of our Abandoned-Genius-Recovery Golden Rectangle, which is the cage that contains our Sedna-Lilith Yin Gate.  So this week we’re doing a lot of ancillary homework.  Our major task is still Getting Honest with Ourself about Embracing as many of our Unconscious Fears as we Can (Sedna-Aletheia) in order to Increase our Self-Sovereignty (Lilith).

Our Unique Genius is “Out There,” Risky, Perverse by your Culture’s Normal Standards of Conformity, a Rebel.  If She wasn’t, there’d have been no reason to have to Abandon Her in the first place, and if She’s going to Change the World She’s going to have to Innovate, which will threaten the many Defenders of the Status Quo.  

That means we’re going to have to put our Pleaser in the back room for a while, and you know what that means.  If we aren’t Pleasing people we’re probably going to be Angering them, and they’ll either beat us to a pulp or Abandon us, and we aren’t sure which is worse.  That’s Scary.

Full Moon 29.11b

November 25, 2016

The New Moon itself will be a Big Challenge to the Ego and the status quo.  It occurs within a few arcminutes (ie, very little – one eighteen-hundredth of the Zodiac) from Juno, which symbolizes the Edges of Consciousness.  In other words, over the next three weeks we’re going to have to work like Hell to keep from Learning and Growing.  Don’t forget that this is in the context of the previous post.

In addition, it’s also Conjunct asteroid Nemesis.  The mythic Nemesis is about Punishment for Hubris.  If you’re Manifesting your True Self, and you’re not saddled with a Punishing God Image, you won’t demonstrate Hubris; you’ll be Enjoying Power-With “the Gods” rather than Power-Over.  So what then constitutes Hubris?  Trying to operate from the Ego rather than the True Self.  This is kind of like a “pop quiz” – we’ve been studying Mask Removal for almost five years now, and “Reality” is about to deliver to us homework on anything we’ve skimmed over.

If we ever wonder what we’re doing here and why, all we need to do is look at the Moon’s Nodes.  The South Node shows us the Emotions and Inertial Patterns that Limit us, and the North Node shows us what we need to do to Liberate our Self.  Hidden behind the Emotions and Inertial Patterns represented by the South Node are the Unclaimed Skills we need to achieve our Liberation.  We can’t do it without both.

Well, this New Moon also T-Squares – Mastery through Challenge – the Nodes.  So whatever Crisis the Ego undergoes will be an incredible Teaching about why we came here and what Unfinished Business we still have.  But a big sign on your bathroom Mirror –

??    VICTIM?    ??

 

 

and on your smartphone screen, and every time you see it,  check yourself.  Are you in any sense Feeling Victimized, by anything?  Is there anything in your Life that isn’t completely your own Choice?  This is what we’re working on for the rest of 2016.  If we do this homework, it doesn’t need to be difficult – other than the Ego Death, but we’re used to that, right?

“You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like a Victim around that, aren’t you.”

“Great Spirit, please help me to Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely Embrace all traces of Victimhood within my Energy Field, and Let It Go for good.  Thank you, Great Spirit!”

Look to see if there’s any Residual Emotion around it, and Tap it Out.  Go through the PIAVA list and pick out the one or two Choices that seem to fit best in the moment.

It’s not just the Nodes – Neptune is on the South Node, meaning that the Veil is very thin here.  This is good, because it gives us direct access to what would usually be hidden from us.  It may Feel horrible, but that’s just Ego Death, you’ve been through that so many times before, you’re no stranger to it.  Embrace it, look beyond it and Imagine how much better your Life will be without those Limitations.  Of course it’s Scary; keep Tapping on that till you’re shaking less and Feeling a little more in Control.  Then do your PIAVAs.

Ganeshi, please Remove All Obstacles to my Being Fully and Effortlessly Responsible to Everything in my Life that I have Chosen.  Thank you, Ganeshi!”

If you’re Responsible (able to Respond) to what you’ve Chosen, you won’t even have to think about it, you’ll just Act in your own Interests.  If your Choices aren’t the right ones, it should rapidly become obvious, and you can make different Choices.  If you’re being Responsible to things that you haven’t Chosen, that will fall away.  Don’t Hesitate to PIAVA these Changes if you Feel the Need.

And dwarf planet Orcus is on the North Node.  Orcus’s job is to Punish Oath-Breakers.  Nemesis’s big brother, the Bully.  You don’t need Oaths to Commit to your True Self.  Most Oaths are Self-Betrayals, and most of them have been outside of our Consciousness – till now.  At the Time, we needed them for our Safety, then we forgot we made them.  Now they’re just chains around our ankles and we can Let Them Go.  Orcus’s Punishment is Guilt, and you need to Stand Still for it.  Expect it, Locate it in your Body, be Loving with it there, “poor Sweetheart” it, PIAVA your Freedom.

So this is a Big Deal, kind of a Culmination of all the Work we’ve been doing all our Life.  Bigtime Learning Opportunity, Bigtime Mystery School, Bigtime Recovery of our Genius, Bigtime Karma-Buster, Bigtime Consciousness Goose, Bigtime Life Progress Review.  And that ain’t all.  The New Moon T-Squares the Nodes.  So what lies at the Vacancy Opposite to it, that would make it a more Balanced Grand Cross?  Vacancies represent what we need to provide, Consciously, to complete the circuit so the Energy can flow.

Aldebaran.  The Emperor of Stars, King of the Four Horsepeople of the Apocalypse.  Meaning Integrity.  From what I read about Aldebaran, they don’t mean Yangtegrity, they mean Yintegrity.  It’s not about keeping your Commitments to Other, it’s about Committing to the True Self.  Intense.  If you find yourself starting to Act to “Save Face,” stop yourself in mid-sentence and change course.

Above all, this is about Learning.  Look and Learn, Observe, eschew Judgment, eschew Conclusions.  Be Present and Loving with All of your Emotions, but don’t Identify with them.  Watch them, Embrace them, Feel them, don’t Be them.  Tap them Out if they’re Strong.  Be quick with your Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrades when you spot negative or compulsive thoughts.  

Sappho – Self-Love, recently Reborn, enters Scorpio on 27 November.  Scorpio is Relentless.  We’ll be extending Self-Love deeply into the Self, ferreting out any Obstacles to it, and taking no prisoners.  When you find an Obstacle to Self-Love, Avoid Judgment.  Self-Judgment is the antithesis of Self-Love.  Tender it a thousand Blessings, and Let It Go.  If you need to do that a hundred times before you’re able to Let Go of It, do it a hundred times.  Feel the Grief, the Regret, the Pain, but Let It Go.

Asteroids

October 16, 2016

A Question from a regular reader…

“How do we read an asteroid conjunct one of our planets?  Eg I have a Transiting asteroid conjunct my natal Sun and Mars.  Does this mean its influence is particularly strong now, as it is tied to my core self and drive?  Should we look out for asteroid returns like we do for planets?

Yes, absolutely.  I’d use every “Transit” (when a planet in the Sky now interacts with a planet in our natal chart) by and to asteroids as Opportunities to get more Conscious about the Energies represented by the asteroids.  And an asteroid Return (when the ‘roid returns to the Degree where it was in our natal chart) is an even greater Opportunity.

None of the pychological, social, and ecological principles behind the four most commonly-used (and earliest-discovered) asteroids are taught to us in grade school…

  • Vesta – Unconscious Beliefs
  • Juno – the Edge of Consciousness
  • Pallas – Boundaries
  • Ceres – Sustainability and Sustenance

But all four are critical to our joie de vivre.  If we learned anything about the Unconscious in school it was probably about the Freudian Subconscious, the dank dungeon where we stuff our Shame, rather than the Jungian Unconscious, the potentially-daylight basement from whence our Motivations and Behavioral Controls (many of which Limit us) arise.  

Boundaries are fundamental for any Relationship, but who teaches them?  

And we’re not programmed to strive for Sustainability and Balance, but to Crave More so we can keep the Great Capitalist Treadmill running at maximum speed, scooping the results of your Life and the crumbling remains of your Planet into the great offshore Corporate treasury – and increasing GDP.  The faster the Treadmill uses you up and destroys the Planet, the greater is GDP.  And your “democratically elected” government’s primary measure of success is to increase GDP.  

Is that what democracy and “Freedom” means to you?  Are you Manifesting this Intentionally?  Maybe we should talk less about Programming and Archetypes, and more about Propaganda.  If maximizing GDP isn’t your freely-Chosen personal Intention, maybe we should focus on bringing Propaganda into Consciousness.  Our budding Nemesis-Juno Yin Gate would be a good starting point.

So, since we’re talking about Learning things that are primarily Unconscious, how do we go about this?  We use PIAVA.  Accessing the Unconscious is what PIAVA does  for a living.  

  • “I Wonder what this Vesta Transit over my Mars will Teach me about how well my Physical Energy serves my Conscious Goals.”  
  • “Great Spirit, please Lovingly and Gently show me how this Pallas Transit over my natal Ceres will Teach me to use Boundaries to more Sustainably maintain my own Safe Space.”  
  • “I Affirm that I will become Conscious of everything that this upcoming Juno Return is Teaching me.”  
  • “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that this Sun-Vesta Transit synchronize my Conscious Goals and my Unconscious Desires, and Lovingly and Rapidly Resolve any apparent Conflicts between them.  It Is So, It Is So, It Is So.  Thank you, God/Goddess.”

We could say the same for the other asteroids that we follow whenever they’re particularly Lit Up by the other planets…

  • Nemesis – our Ego’s “Achilles Heel”
  • Sappho – Self-Love
  • Karma – our Inertial Habits, Patterns, and the Archetypes that we Grasp
  • Hopi – Respect for All Things
  • Veritas and Aletheia – Truth
  • Mnemosyne – Memories

If you keep track of your own natal chart and want to follow any of these fellows, you can use…

http://www.true-node.com/eph1/?inputNumber=sappho&day=1&month=2&year=1983&time=00%3A00%3A00&zone=GMT+0&interval_num=1&interval=day&lines=31&calendar=Gregorian&zodiac=Tropical&origin=Geocentric&lighttime=Apparent&clock=Universal+Time&zodsec=D%B0M&longitude=on&.submit=Get+Ephemeris

to locate them.  Like most ephemerides, you’ll get their location at 12am (or “00:00 hour”) UT or GMT, ie, London time.  The asteroids between Mars and Jupiter average about one fourth of one Degree per day, so you don’t need to worry too much about adjusting for local time of day, unless you want to know their Sabian Symbols.  If anyone wants me to coach them on finding exact asteroid locations at local times, let me know.

Charles Hervé-Gruyer tells us…

“I had until then seen our world as the great river: terribly powerful.  And I often found myself swept up against my will by the current, unable to resist.  Modernity takes us along without asking our opinion, and no one really knows where we’re going.  Yet this world that is so incredibly powerful generates countercurrents: if I learned to identify them, I realized, I would not have to struggle, to exhaust myself in a losing battle.  By positioning myself in my proper place, I would be able to carve out a path aligned with my heart and my dreams.

“The defining trait of the modern Western world is hypertechnicity, a pursuit of material progress.  Despite undeniable advances in countless areas, this form of progress, as it has been developed to date, provokes a rapid and massive destruction of the biosphere.  We continue to artificialize nature, replacing life with technology.  It is the dominant current – strong, rapid, and terrifying.

“But the countercurrents exist, everywhere: lively little veins of water that bring us hope.  All around the world, millions of people of goodwill are striving with all their force to invent lifestyles that are respectful of people and the planet.”  —Miraculous Abundance: One Quarter Acre, Two French Farmers, and Enough Food to Feed the World, p.9.

 

Nemesis

September 30, 2016

Nemesis.  The word evokes images of Downfall, weakness, Vulnerability, Achille’s Tendon.  The Goddess was a punisher of scofflaws.  But the asteroid is Coming into our Consciousness in a big way during October, we need to find a way to turn those Negatives around.  

Astrology shows us Dimensions, not Directions.  If someone has cast an Energy as Permanently sitting on one end of a Dimension, as an Either/Or, we know we’re looking at Political Programming.  When we unwind Programming, the result is Liberation, Freedom from Slavery to an Archetype.  So, how do we unwind this Lovely Goddess?

Let’s start with the Programmers, the Greeks.  What do we know about the Greeks?  That they wrote the Guidebook for the Patriarchy.  Nemesis was their Enforcer.  She punished anyone who tried to behave as if they were a God or Goddess.  Anyone who demonstrated their Brilliance, Gorgeousness, Talent, and Fabulosity perhaps?  

So yes, Pride is often a point of weakness.  But what if we weren’t talking about Pride.  Anyone have Significant Adults in their Childhood who didn’t “advise them against” – or punish them for – Pride?  Pride has its chin in the air.  What if we accepted our Brilliance, Gorgeousness, Talent, and Fabulosity with a level chin, simply as a fact of Life.  

What if we arrived at our BGTF not through Competition or thinking ourself to be Better Than, but through our Right to Be.  What if we could be BGTF and so could everyone else.  Wow, a Team of Superstars but without the Competition!  Hard to Imagine, eh?  Well, we need to start Stretching.  Competition is part and parcel of the Patriarchy, and the Patriarchy is dying.

Juno was Zeus’s (Jupiter’s) wife.  She was of a Jealous temperament, and Zeus was not the least interested in monogamy.  He was the Head God, for god’s sake.  He defined Yintegrity.  For himself, not for others.  A poster child for Competition, Juno was always turning her rivals to Stone.  Competition, Jealousy, Merging with her Lover, this is an Archetype.  

By reducing the Matriarch from Queen to Archetype, the dominance of the Patriarchy was complete.  Competition among males was the pinnacle of Heroism (this was the Age of Aries, after all, the Age of Heroes) – we’re still dancing this tune in the Olympics.  Competition among Females was degenerate.  In Truth, it is Competition itself that’s degenerate.

That’s one way to recast the Story anyway.  We think of the asteroid Juno as symbolizing the Edges of Consciousness, that which is Coming into Awareness.  Let’s try interpreting asteroid Nemesis as whatever – Guilt, Fear, Shame – causes us to try to Disguise or Hide our Brilliance, Gorgeousness, Talent, and Fabulosity.  She can be the bushel basket that we hide our Light under.

But let’s take her a step further.  She can symbolize the lifting of the bushel basket that we hide our Brilliance, Gorgeousness, Talent, and Fabulosity under.  When we bring our Reticence into Consciousness, we no longer need to hide our BGTF.

Immediately what comes to mind is the situation where I’m ensconced in my BGTF, and someone Doubts me.  They don’t even have to Challenge me.  They can Doubt me with a glance.  They can sneeze and I might interpret it as a Doubt!  Well, we aren’t talking about situations where we’re faking it till we make it.  I’ve been in plenty of those, and they never work.

We’re talking about situations where we simply don’t question our own Competence, because we know we’re Competent.  In that arena.  We don’t even need to get Defensive.  I’ve been there, too, and it always Opens doors.  Not our BS, but our BGTF.  Not our Pride, but our Competence.  Not to Compete, but to  work toward a common Goal with a Team of Entities who are all Conscious of their BGTF.  Where we can hand off a task to someone better at that task if they’re Open, and where we can back one another up rather than stab one another in the back.

Sound reasonable?  Sounds a lot like what Genia Pauli Haddon describes in her book Body Metaphors: Releasing God-Feminine in Us All, where she’s describing the Yang-Feminine phase that she expects to follow the imminent demise of the Yang-Masculine Patriarchy that in turn followed the Yin-Feminine Matriarchy.

At any rate, we’ll all get an excellent Opportunity to study Nemesis, as she and Juno dance together all month.  They travel at almost the same speed – 4.36 years for Juno and 4.56 years for Nemesis – so it would take a lot of work just to figure out who’s Initiating whom.  Suffice it to say that on 18 October they’re Conjunct, at 5pm PDT.  They were also Conjunct in April 2015.

Since Nemesis is the slower planet it would be Nemesis that Initiates Juno, but we don’t know when that first happened in this Cycle, so we’ll just call this an Exposition – we’re Learning More about how they Interact with one another in our Psyche.  It should be interesting.  

Today Nemesis is approaching Juno from behind, and they’re three-quarters of a Degree apart, well within one Degree of Sensitivity.  They’re within one Degree of each other from 26 September till 11 November.

Jack Rosenberg, in Body, Self, and Soul: Sustaining Integration, pointed out that when the Personality Fragments we’re like Humpty Dumpty.  If we try to do anything from a Fragmented state, we’ll only screw it up.  He proposes that we need to Stop everything we’re doing, and put the Personality back together again before we do anything else.  That’s excellent advice.

This month we may be able to Discern what it is that Triggers the disintegration of our Self-Love, our BGTF.  Having Learned the Trigger or Triggers, we can watch to see what comes just before the Trigger, and Stop at that point, then use our Tools – Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade; Poor Sweetheart; Tapping; PIAVA; and the like – to avoid Taking the Great Fall.

“Ganeshi, please Remove All Obstacles to my Learning to Stay in Self-Love All of the Time” might be a good way to start our October.  

With all of our recent Sappho-Jupiter-Makemake and New Moon work, this is starting to look like a Movement.

We’ll talk about the 18 October chart soon.  The Conjunction sits at the head of a Yin Gate, which is pretty exciting.  It’s also at 24 Degrees of Scorpio, which is where much of the Action has been occurring for several years now.  In their respective Signs, Uranus-Eris, Sedna, Chaos-Veritas, Hopi, Sun-Haumea, Ixion-Pholus, and Chiron are all within a few Degrees of 24.

And if my RA-to-Tropical Zodiac conversion is correct, 24 Scorpio is also the location of the Nova that appeared a few days ago.  Turns out astronomers are calling it a “16-kt Assassin” – a Nemesis for the Ego, perhaps…

http://phys.org/news/2016-09-bright-binocular-nova-lupus.html 

Star of Wonder, Star of Night, Star with Royal Beauty Bright.  It may yet grow into a 24-kt Assassin of our Self-Meh Ego!

Through the Veil – Huge Reboot 8

September 16, 2016

Here’s a fascinating blog…

https://paulsylvia.wordpress.com/about/ 

that I came across because, as a result of SoulSpeak’s reblog (Grazi!), Paul and Sylvia quoted parts of Huge Reboot 7 (again, Grazi!) in it.

The Loss of the Veil was predicted by Neptune’s Initiation of the Moon’s South Node in the birth chart for the current Century.  The Moon’s South Node is the place where its orbit crosses below the plane of the Earth’s orbit around the Sun.  It’s not darker down there, but it’s closer to the Ancestors, and so provides a broader Perspective.  It’s sort of as if the Moon turns Retrograde when it crosses its South Node.

The common interpretation of the South Node is that it’s where our Karma resides.  We of course see Karma as our collection of Habit Patterns.  Habits are great – what a pickle we’d be in if we had to remember to Breathe every few seconds!  The downside of Habits is that they easily fade into the Unconscious (switch frequently from manual to automatic transmission to see what I mean), which is good because we don’t have to make every Decision, but can disrupt our Lives because we can be driving on autopilot and not see the oncoming.

And we can be sucked into what are called Archetypes – huge extra-Individual Energy Patterns that have a Life of their own can take over an Ego and cause it to Act Out the Purposes of the Archetypal “Entity” rather than the Purposes of the Individual.  Self-Sabotage results.  Nationalism and Racism are great examples, as is Pleasing.  Archetypes are often anchored by Regional Geology.  They aren’t Evil, but they can have untoward effects if not managed properly.  A particularly troublesome Archetype at the moment is Greed.

The South Node also harbors the Hidden Skills that we need in order to Achieve the Mission we have set for the Lifetime, which hides in the North Node.  Our Mission is hidden behind our Deepest Desire – hidden because we usually feel some sort of Guilt or Shame about our Deepest Desire.  Our Deepest Desire isn’t the same as our Mission – it’s a roadmap that will lead us to our Mission, if we trust it enough to follow it.

In the South Node, our Crucial Skills are hidden behind “Held Emotions” – Emotions that we don’t allow ourself to Feel without Guilt or Shame.  Held Emotions also block our Intuition because they cloud our view across the Veil.  

The example I often use is, suppose we have a “Past” Life as a Warrior.  Well, of course that Life is likely to end brutally, that’s what Warriors do.  So if we ended up renouncing our Warriorship in Pain, making a Vow to Fight No More Forever, then that Oath will become a Limiting Belief in Lifetimes that follow.

Your natal Orcus, and its Angular Relationship to your natal South Node, will provide information about the Limiting Beliefs that hold you back from your Mission.  The asteroid Vesta is also a symbol for our Unconscious Beliefs.

Neptune represents our Relationship with all realms larger than ourself, including our Cultures, our Godheads and Goddesshearts, even our Archetypes.  Neptune symbolizes Confusion on the Material level, because when it’s Lit Up our Neptunian Relationships Change, and if they’re Foundational to our Ego, we’re in trouble.  As we often say, Confusion is the first stage of Growth, if we can manage to avoid circumventing it with mental autoeroticism.  

Neptune also symbolizes Clarity on the Spiritual level, because the Spiritual level is all about our Relationship to realms larger than ourself.  Neptune becomes Clarity when we put our Ego in its proper place relative to its Betters.  It should be obvious that whatever is Unconscious – Archetypes, for instance – will interfere with that.  Which is precisely why Confusion is the first stage of Growth – the Edges of our Consciousness are Expanding.

We think of the asteroid Juno as symbolizing the Edges of our Consciousness, because Juno is all about Merging.  The asteroid Pallas is her complement, as Pallas is all about Boundaries.  The asteroid Ceres, symbolizing Sustainability, is the “Coin” that subsumes the two.

So when Neptune Initiates the South Node, an Ego that’s unwilling to Grow is in big trouble.  We’ve talked frequently about Ego Death, how to identify it and how to deal with it, so we won’t go into that here.  This month we’ll be more likely confronted by our Upper Limits (“This is not Credible because I was taught that if something sounds too good to be True, it probably is”).  On the other hand, and Ego that’s willing to look beyond its birdcage, will find Surprise and Delight in a Neptune-South Node Initiation,

The South Node-Neptune Cycle that began at the turn of the Century was Initiated at 4 Aquarius, “A Hindu Yogi demonstrates his healing powers: The disciplined use of spiritual energies in restoring the natural harmony disturbed by man’s inharmonic attempts to transcend Nature through mind.

We haven’t mentioned it because there was so much more going on at this “New Dawn” quasi-Eclipse, but in the Full Moon chart, Neptune is only a Degree and a half shy of Initiating the Moon’s South Node again, so Neptune and the South Node are in fact Conjunct, and anyone with two Degrees or more of Sensitivity to Neptune or the South Node, will be Feeling it already.  (With regard to Sensitivity, less is more – “two Degrees or more of Sensitivity” means “two Degrees or less of physical Separation.)

Our current Neptune-South Node Initiation, which will govern the next sixteen years, isn’t Exact until 3 November, at 10 Pisces – “An aviator pursues their journey, flying through ground-obscuring clouds: Hupersons’ ability to develop powers and skills which by transcending natural limitations allow them to operate in [non-physical] realms.”  Bodes well for Piercing the Veil.

Post-Modern Biology tells us that our Mitochondria, which have their own maternally given genes distinct from the paternal-maternal genes in our cell nuclei, have direct access to All of the Information in the Universe via their direct connection to the Zero Point Field.  There are two influences that can clog that direct connection and hence shut down our access to All of the Information in the Universe – heavy metals and Held Emotions.  In a word, The Veil.

We can’t in good conscience talk about South-Node Cycles without considering the other side of the Karmic Coin – North-Node Cycles.  While the Yogic Neptune-South Node Initiation of January 2000 would govern the following sixteen years, its effect would be Waning in the latter half of that period, while the North Node-Neptune Cycle Waned.  

The Neptune-North Node Initiation occurred in April 2008 at 25 Aquarius, “A butterfly with the right wing more perfectly formed: The capacity to develop the rational and fully conscious aspect of mind ahead of normal evolution.”  That Cycle will now begin to Wane.  2008, recall, was right in the middle of the Neptune-Chiron-Jupiter triple Initiation, our by-now well-known “Fresh Violets in an Ancient Pottery Bowl.”

Corresponding as it did with the Derivatives Meltdown engendered by the Greed Archetype, and based very clearly on previous Chiron-Neptune Cycles (which are about Despair and Miracles around the Relationship between the Individual and the Culture/Economy), we read the Fresh Violets as the roots of the underground Economy that has sprouted to replace the shift work that NAFTA and its cousins have assigned to the dustbin, and as the roots of the Victory Garden-equivalents that have sprouted to replace the denutritioned and poisoned faux Food sold by the Corporate Cartel.

We as Egos benefit from assigning Consciousness of some degree to supra-Personal Entities like the Archetypes.  It’s fairly obvious that the Greed Archetype is sowing the seeds of its own Fall from Grace, whether that’s the negative effect of becoming too Ambitious, or the positive effect of its natural striving for Balance.  We can see the Greater Good Archetype growing well since the 2008 peak of Greed – we have to consider them as one Coin, spinning slowly as it prepares to fall on one side or the other in alternate Universes.

So this New Dawn in inextricably bound to the new Neptune-South Node Initiation – Flying Blind, Trusting our Instincts.  Idealism, which will create a defined path from Present to Future, will be gradually replaced by our combined Instinctive Genii Surprising and Delighting us – once we Learn to Appreciate Confusion for it’s own sake.

That Big River in Egypt

April 29, 2016

Many thanks to a reader for asking the provocative question…

“Any way you could share what you yourself feel you need to let go of that you’ve been clinging to so I can see whether I’m on the right track?” 

Eris is about Denial – namely, that which has been pushed into the Unconscious in order not to Overwhelm Consciousness or shatter the Ego.  So as Uranus approaches Eris it’s not about “what we feel we need to let go of that we’ve been clinging to,” it’s about what we will discover in the way of unknown Beliefs, or long-standing Limits that we’ve misinterpreted as Irritations or social norms, and which are likely to come into Focus as Self-Sabotage.  These aren’t just the Masks we put on to meet others, but the Masks we wear to Protect our Ego from the sometimes-brutal Honesty of the Self.

Denial is a healthy process, helping to keeping the Ego functioning in order to keep the Vehicle Safe.  However, the Revelation of Denial, when it’s Gentle and Loving, is also a very healthy process – to everything there is a Season.  The theory, true or otherwise, is that when we persistently ignore Gentle and Loving hints about what’s being ignored, and the Soul feels that Expanded Consciousness has become more important than the Safety provided by the Denial, the Unconscious will resort to more serious tactics than the Gentle and Loving,

Note that when anyone else accuses you of being “in Denial,” it’s always a Manipulation, an attempt to Intimidate and Control you.  They know nothing about the relationship between your Soul and Ego, and never will.  A gifted Psychic may have some information about that, but no Psychic worth listening to would ever accuse anyone of being “in Denial.”  I know Gurus who use a shock method for communicating, but in my experience they’re shocking you into listening to the Inner Voices that you already know of, but which you’ve been discounting for years.  Taking “the answer you’ve already rejected” is a Gentle way of moving in that direction.

Our reader continues…

Something came up yesterday where in retrospect I can see I felt a powerful need for attention or validation or appreciation or recognition, or something along those lines, from sources from which it’s just not going to come.  This theme is so ancient that it has become exhausting.  I felt sharp pain and anger for a brief moment, but recovered nicely, if not altogether tidily, and the moment passed pretty quickly, all things considered.  I’m left feeling a little…silly, infantile and embarrassed, though not really ashamed because I seem to have already forgiven myself for the temporary lapse in sanity.  Does that qualify?  And if so does it mean I need to provide those things for myself?”

There’s a strong correlation between our Masks and our unmet Childhood needs.  For instance, as a child many of us had “a powerful need for Attention or Validation or Appreciation or Recognition from a source from which it never came.”  So we put on a Mask that protected our Vulnerability to what we were inappropriately led to believe was a weakness.  We all need Attention or Validation or Appreciation or Recognition, and some sources are critical.  For instance, anyone who doesn’t expect that from a spouse or employer or friend is probably in an Abusive Relationship.  A Codependent Relationship is one where the Validation of the Other is more important to us than our own Values.

The part about “I’m left feeling a little…Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed, though not really Ashamed because I seem to have already forgiven myself for the temporary lapse in Sanity” needs to be reversed.  It was the feeling of  “Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed” (or Pain and Anger, as the case may be) that IS the Sanity.  Just not necessarily age-appropriate Sanity, although it would be perfectly age-appropriate in a close Relationship.  “Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed” and “Pain and Anger” were age-appropriate at the age when you were striving for Validation and learned that it was never to be forthcoming.  

It’s not the Emotions that are ever age-inappropriate, it’s their Expression.  When we regress to a Childhood circumstance, which you likely did, our Skillset regresses with us.  So we’re trying to deal with a Current-Moment situation with the Social Skills of a four-year-old or two-year-old, or sometimes even a preverbal child whose primary Social Skills are Awe and an obsession to hunt for Mirrors.  So of course we’re going to feel Silly, Infantile, and Embarrassed.  When we begin to Recover these Lost parts of our Self, we have to endure this for a while, as we give ourself the Space to Practice.  We come up to Current-Moment speed very quickly. however, once we can discern the difference between Present Moment and Regression.

The “brief” part of your Pain and Anger is important.  The faster we “correct,” edit, or Control our True Emotions, the deeper is our Unconscious Devotion to the Archetype (in this case, Vulnerability is Not Safe) rather than to the Self and Soul.  So all three of the “Pain and Anger,” the “Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed,” and the Judgment about “Lapse in Sanity” are doorways to whatever it is that you’re Masking from yourself.  You may already be well aware of it intellectually, but this is not an intellectual process, it’s a deep Emotional one.  To intellectually understand a chronic or acute Trauma is very useful for everyday Control, but it’s far different from the Re-Experience of the original Emotions which is necessary for Healing.

The Cultural idea that “Maturity” means having Control over your Emotions is part of the Patriarchical propaganda that we need to overcome.  “Maturity” certainly includes the ability to avoid Harm to Self and Other through Skillful Expression, but Emotions are the stock and trade of True Relationships, so Controlling them is a serious Self-Abandonment.  Exactly as the Patriarchy desires, because a Self-Abandoned Ego is easily Controlled from the outside.

Do note that the Re-Experience of the original Emotions need not be Re-Traumatizing, as has been shown by Gary Craig, David Feinstein, and Dawson Church in the case of Vietnam Veterans, and by the latter two in many international situations such as the Genocide in Bosnia.  Bessel van der Kolk’s amazing book, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma very readably covers his journey from rookie to Master of these regions.  He believes that buried Trauma is the greatest danger facing Huperity today.  And I would agree that it’s buried Trauma – aka Limiting Beliefs – that create and perpetrate the other greatest dangers that the Planet faces.

Your Reaction to the Pain and Anger was immediately suppression – that is the sort of information that Eris is revealing to us.  The Goddesses who fought one another over Eris’s Golden Apple never realized that Eris was revealing their Vanity, nor did the Gods who presided name it, and the rest of Greek history reflects that lack of Consciousness.  The ending to that story can be attributed to the idea that Greek Mythology is the chronicle of the Patriarchy overcoming the Matriarchy – the Golden Apples story demeans women as irretrievably Devoted to the Archetype of Vanity, and the “superiority” of male Devotion to the Archetype of Warriorship in its defense.  Substitute Vanity for Vulnerability and Warriorship for Maskmaking, and Eris’s story is the same as yours.

You’ve “forgiven yourself” for the Silly, Infantile and Embarrassed.  And you refer to your True Emotions as a “temporary lapse in Sanity.”  More information gifted from Eris.  We’re speculating, as I have no business butting into the Relationship between your Ego and your Soul, but here are some possibilities…

You may have a Limiting Belief that your Childish Joy (Silly, Infantile, Embarrassed) is not valid.  If so, that would be likely to be a strong inhibition on your Spontaneity and Creativity.

You may have a Limiting Belief that Pain and Anger are not suitable for polite company.  If so, that could seriously inhibit your ability to rapidly and effectively set good Boundaries.

You may have a Limiting Belief that your True Emotions are not “Sane.”  If so, that would be a tight collar on your Relationships and your Ability to share your ample Wisdom to Lead others.

You can explore these doorways if you wish, by first making sure you’re Safe, and then recalling as best you can, in turn, the moment when you felt Infantile, the moment when you judged your feelings as not Sane, and the moment when you felt the Pain and Anger.  I’d recommend approaching each in its own session (repeated as useful).  Set a firm Anchor before you start – for instance, some incontrovertible evidence of your current age, so you can return at will to the Present Moment if you begin to get lost in the Past.  Carkeys in hand is a possibility.  Your objective for all three sessions is Wonder

“I Wonder what if anything this has to do with Expanding my Consciousness to include the portions of my Soul that have been missing.”  Or – 

“I Wonder how this might translate into a Limiting Belief that sabotages my ability to Manifest my Heart’s Desire.”  Or even –

“I Wonder if I’m really Living my own Truth around these issues, and if not, how I might move Gently and Lovingly in that direction.”

Or something like these.  Your “sessions” could be as brief as that, if you then Changed the Subject and let your Intuition work on the question.  If Memories start to flow (the asteroid Mnemosyme – Memory – entered Aries a few days ago, and it won’t be far from the Eris-Uranus Initiation in early June), let them come, as long as you still feel Safe.  If you start to feel Unsafe, Revert to your Anchor, and resume later after you’ve Grounded yourself (Food often works).

Be Mindful of Conclusions; you want to Open windows, not close doors.  Remember that Confusion is good, as it indicates that the Consciousness-Expansion has begun.  You want small incremental Ahas, not big Decisions.  Suffix everything with “… or something like that.”  We have time yet, we don’t need to push ourselves, and this is very delicate territory, this Edge between Consciousness and the Unconscious.  

Besides Eris, the major planets dealing with this Edge include…

  • Juno, whose modus operandi was to turn threats to her Ego into Stone
  • Hylonome, who killed herself when confronted with alienation from her favorite Archetype
  • Vesta, symbolizing (for good or ill – we’d be long lost without Habits!) Unquestioned Archetypes

Compared to these, Eris is a Gentle and Loving partner in our urgent need to escape from Archetypes which encode the End of Civilization.  It’s also useful to remember that the Eris-Uranus Initiation is occurring in Aries – that which hasn’t happened before, that which we’re beginning to Create from Scratch (out of Spirit actually), that which we will have no hope of actually understanding for a long time – probably till Uranus gets to its Waxing Square with Eris.  “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia,” suggesting rich rewards for those willing to be Open to the inscrutable Winds of Spirit.

Your original question about “what I myself feel I need to let go of, that I’ve been clinging to”?  If I rephrase that as “where does Eris seem to be leading me next?” then I have no shortage of Stories, which I intend to tell.

Aim Higher

February 26, 2016

Step One: Focus on What you Want, not on What you don’t Want.  This step is critical, don’t skip it.

If that’s hard, start by finding something you can be Grateful for.  Running Water.  Hot Water.  Clean Water.  Enough Food, or even some Food.  A roof when it Rains.  A flush krapper.  A little less Pain than last week.  Make a short list of things you aren’t Anxious about.  The other shoulder doesn’t hurt.  Someone said a kind word to you last month.  You have a comfortable chair.  Anything will do.

Good start.  Now make a short list – several things – of what you Don’t Want.  Doesn’t matter if you’re already afflicted with it, or if it’s just threatening, or if you’re Anxious that it might threaten.  Give each of them a number, 1 to 10, 10 being “I’d Rather Die,” and 1 being “Oh Bother.”  Tap on each of them a couple times: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 if you need a review.  Then give them numbers again, 1 to 10.  Any reduction?  If not, circle that one, you’ll have to come back to it later.

Now make a short list of what you Do Want, several things.  They can be an inch away or Pie in the Sky, no matter.  Give them numbers, 1 to 10, 1 being “That’d be cool” and 10 being “I’ll Die without That!”  Make a short note about how you’ll Feel when you get each one.  In descending rank order (starting with your 10), for each one, take a minute and practice Feeling exactly that.

Step Two: Focus on What you Really Want.  Take your top Want and really Feel how it’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  Touch it.  Smell it.  Hear it.  Taste it.  Embrace it.  See it.  If your second Want is close to your top Want in number, do the same with it.

Step Three: What has Stopped you from Taking What you Really Want a long time ago?  Your underprivileged upbringing?  Guilt?  Your Significant Others?  Fear?  Your Belief that it’s happening to you?  Your Mother’s Ghost?  Do you Deserve it?  Are these reasons external to you, or internal?  Tap on a few of your Stops.  Bring them inside; if it’s a Bully that’s been Stopping you, recognize that it’s your Unwillingness to Confront, or your Belief that you’d be worse off if you Confronted, or your Hopelessness.  Rather than spend a lot of time on this, take notes.  This is important, so you’ll want to come back to it later.

Step Four: Focus again on What you Really Want.  Take your top Want and really Feel how it’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  Touch it.  Smell it.  Hear it.  Taste it.  Embrace it.  See it.  Notice if it’s any easier or deeper than it was in Step Two.  If it is, make a note to repeat Steps Two and Three later.  If you want, do the same with your second Want.

Step Five: Aim Higher.  What if you could have more of What you Really Want, or What you Really Want with a lot of bells and whistles?  Feel how that’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  If you Change your mind and decide that what you Really want is something else entirely, great!  Feel how that’ll be when you Receive it.  Any Stops?  Take notes so you can come back to them later.

Step Six: Now Aim a lot Higher.  Stay with What you Want, but get ridiculous about it.  You Wanted a Mate?  Imagine having three!  A house?  Make it a mansion with its own caretaker, and a luxury RV with professional driver besides.  World Peace?  Go for Galactic Peace, or Universal Peace.  You Wanted Good Health?  Go for Good Health and Superpowers.

At this point in our Timelines, this is where we need to be.

The dwarf planet Chaos, which symbolizes Unlimited Potential, turns Direct on 29 February a few minutes after 3pm PST, 11pm UT.  It’s Stationary (at it’s most Powerful) now.  It’s in Gemini (Mutation).  No better time to nurture Huge Changes than when your Infinite Improbability Drive is firing on all cylinders.  Did you think Douglas  Adams wrote fiction?

The Chaos Station Squares Chiron, so there’s great potential for Discouragement or even Despair, but far greater potential for Miracles when we Empathize with any Discouragement we feel.  Chiron’s moving through Pisces, where it’s churning up every Emotional component of our Limiting Beliefs and exposing them to the Sun, which will sterilize them.

The asteroid Juno, which symbolizes The Growing Edge of our Consciousness, turns Retrograde on 2 March at a few minutes before 3am PST or 11am UT, meaning it’s Stationary (at it’s most Powerful) now.  This occurs at the Midpoint of Scorpio – one of the Strongest points in the Zodiac, particularly adept at turning over rocks and diving deep to uncover hidden motives.  No better time to remove Limiting Beliefs and Grow your sense of the Possible.  And Chaos will still be Stationary.

Between the Full Moon and 8 March, a Quintile between Pallas (Boundaries) and Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs and Limits) forms the base of a Quintile Yod focused on Jupiter (Expansion).  The Quintile Yod says that It’s Really Important to Pay Attention to Learning This!  Learning what?  Learning to Expand our sense of Self by stretching our Boundaries to Let Go of Limiting Beliefs.  Jupiter is in Virgo, and Virgo is about Disassembling the Ego in order to make Space for Growth.

Jupiter completes a T-Square with Chaos and Chiron, focused on Chaos – Expanding our Discouragement and Overwhelm about the sheer quantity of Possible Futures we face, and Expanding the incredible Potential for Miracles waaay beyond what we can imagine!  We just have to stretch into them.  While it’s a few Degrees out of orb, Saturn (The Most Important Thing) completes the Grand Cross – so it’s our Willingness to Focus our Attention on what we Want to Create that will Co-Create the Big Shift.

The Most Important Thing that the Lizards are here to Teach us, is that Crisis breeds Opportunity.  Read Naomi Klein’s Shock Doctrine and Tom Perkins’s New Confessions of an Economic Hit Man, and turn them on their heads – like it or not, Crisis is here, and likely to remain till 2020 (when Saturn Initiates Jupiter), What are WE going to do with the Opportunity?  Do we have enough cumulative Attention to Focus on What we Want and Shift the Planet away from Greed and Competition, and back toward Community and Collaboration?  Do we have enough Self-Love to Create what we Need for our own personal Peace, in order to have Loving Attention to spare for the Planet, so we aren’t just Projecting our Anxiety?

Jupiter meanwhile is moving toward an Initiation of the North Node (Mission and Deepest Desires) – Expanding our sense of What we Want and Where we’re Going.  That’ll happen in June, close to when Eris Initiates Uranus and we come face to face with all the ways we’ve been forcing the True Self to Hold Back.  Jupiter and the North Node are now two Degrees apart – Conjunct, in other words – meaning that we can’t tell the difference between them.  The more Work we do with our Wants and Stops now, the easier June will be, and the impact will be exponential.

Lunar Portals along the way, all ± three hours…

  • 10am PST 28 February, Moon over Stationary Juno
  • 11pm 1 March till 7am PST 2 March, Moon over Saturn corner of the Grand Cross
  • 11am PST 6 March, Moon over Pallas
  • 11am till 9pm PST 8 March, Moon over Chiron corner of the Grand Cross
  • New Moon at 6pm PST 8 March Conjoins Chiron, stretching the Grand Cross into the rest of March

If you focus on what you Don’t Want over the next several weeks, you’re going to be miserable, because you’ll be wallowing in everything you’re going to have to Give Up in order to Grow into What you Want.  If you focus on your Pain about having to Give Up what you Don’t Want but you like better than the Unknown, that’s fine – but Witness it and Embrace it.  Put All of your Attention into the center of your Pain, and leave it there until the Pain melts away.  Or step back and “You poor Sweetheart” yourself to Death.

This is, after all, a colossal Ego Death.  Re-read our Full Moon readings, Heavy I and Heavy II.  The World is Changing fast, and even when we stand up our arms aren’t long enough to reach the cord to ring the driver to let us off.  Focus on What you Want to Create, be Loving and Gentle with every Resistance you encounter, be especially Loving and Gentle with your Grief about what you’re Giving Up, but stay Present with the realization that what you’re Creating will be far better than what you’re Giving Up. 

Remember that Confusion is the first Stage of Growth, it means that your rigid mental structures, which are the intellectual rationalizations for your Limiting Beliefs, are starting to break down.  Try to avoid talking yourself out of Confusion.  Don’t forget Curiosity.  “I Wonder how the devil we’re going to pull this off!”  It is WE – we’re in this Together!  Curiosity is next to Love, as both eschew Judgment, and we know that Love is greater than Hope or Faith.

If you have notes from Steps One or Three or Four or Five, set aside as much time as you can spare between now and March 1, and between now and March 8, to work on these more.  Use your PIAVAs when you get stuck on something; see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/ if you need a review.  If What you Want is important to you, the time you spend on this will be more important than that.

Not only are the relevant Changes happening in the Unconscious, but they’re shifting the Future, and most of us most of the time aren’t able to see either.  There will be plenty of time for Planning, Doing, Executing the details of our Manifestations as we go forward.  Now is the time for PIAVAing the Big Picture of What we Want our Manifestation to look like, and most of all, Lovingly and Gently Letting Go of all of our internal obstacles to Receiving what we Really Want.