Archive for the ‘Paradox’ Category

Healing Abuse Full Moon

March 30, 2018

The Paradox Yin Gate Full Moon will impact us strongly from a few days before 31 March (4:30 am PST), to several weeks thereafter.  It’s at 11 Degrees of Libra.  A Yin Gate (three Oppositions one Sign apart; the Power arises from the four Quincunxes formed by the ends of the Oppositions) Configuration symbolizes a Mystery School to Teach us how to Accept Paradox…

“The current composition of the Earth’s space comes into being through a very limited cooperation between the rational mind on one side and the consciousness of nature, including its life forces, on the other.  It is a result of a millennia-long process during which the [European-dominated] collective human mind has selected only those elements of the multidimensional reality that can be addressed through rational thought and causal logic.  We [in Cultures of European origin] currently perceive and live in space as a rationally structured extract of reality, not reality itself.” –Mark0 Pogačnik, Sacred Geography, p.13.

Communication (Mercury) Conjoins Essence (the Sun), indicating Insight, while asteroids Trust (Eurydike) and Endings (Atropos) are Merged with (Conjoin) the Goddess (Moon), signifying that we’re in the process of Letting Go of Barriers to Trust.  The Full Moon itself is one diagonal axis of the Yin Gate, while the Nodal Axis is the other – meaning that the Paradoxes that we’re Learning to Accept As They Are (rather than trying to squeeze them into Duality) here are Fundamental to Life.

Action (Mars), Focus (Saturn), and Letting Go of Obstacles to Self-Sovereignty (Hylonome) Challenge (T-Square) the Full Moon.  Bottom Line, this Full Moon (apart from the Paradoxes) is about Trusting that if we take the Risk to Express our True Self, the Universe will make a Safe Space for us.

We can Expect major Epiphanies around Fear, Truth, and Self-Abandonment (Mjōlnirs to Sedna from the Moon-Hylonome Square, to Veritas from the Sun-Hylonome Square, and to Hynonome-Saturn-Mars from the Veritas-Sedna Square; a Mjōlnir is formed when a third planet sits at the Far Midpoint between the two ends of a Square, Trioctile to each).  When Fear arises, and when you don’t feel Grounded, remember your Tapping, Breathing, and Kegels.

The crux (central axis) of the Paradox Lesson is the Opposition between Abuse and Privilege (Nessus) and Breaking Oaths (Orcus)Under the Duress of Abuse, we made Pledges to ourself such as “I can Never talk about this or they’ll Kill Mom,” and “This is too Painful or Weird, I have to Numb myself to it in order to Survive,” and “I don’t know how or when, but someday I’ll get even for this,” and the like. 

The Pledges may have been Conscious, Semi-Conscious, or fully Unconscious (made without our Conscious Awareness).  Abuse can take many forms – sexual, physical, mental, emotional, neglect or Abandonment, overfocus or Suffocation, Shaming, and many other processes, including Adults Expecting to be Parented by their Children.

These Oaths present major Lose-Lose Dilemmas.  By definition we were on the Losing end of Privilege, which means we lacked a context and language to put the Abuse into any sort of Framework or Context.  No matter how Obsessively we tried, we were never able to figure out “What did I do to Deserve this?” 

So we never had a way to Explain it to ourself, let alone talk about it, even if we could do so without disastrous consequences.  That’s still True today.  You can Justify neither your Victim nor your Outrage, and those two Mysterious and Powerful parts of yourself are still Arguing vehemently with one another inside yourself.

The Paradox is that It-Was-What-It-Was and there’s nothing we can do to Change it other than (starting by) Accepting our Confusion for the True Emotion that Confusion is, without trying to make Sense of it. 

It might help us get grounded if we open a journal and write out both sides of the Argument, one of the left-hand page and the other on the right-hand page.  The “Reasons” for the Abuse we received were not from the Current Lifetime, which Limits our ability to Grok What Happened and Why.  Give the Effort to Understand over to the Goddess, every time you’re Tempted to Indulge it.

Poor-Sweetheart your Abused Self, your Confused Self, your Angry Self, and any other Folk who show up.  Then Listen to see if they have anything to say to you.  Healing won’t occur till you Learn to Embrace every one of your Inner Denizens with Unconditional Self-Love.  Consistently and Permanently.  See if you can move in this direction while using as few words as possible.

Women and Chaos 4

March 13, 2018

Did you remember from chapter 1 that there are two Yin Gates in the March Stations chart?

This second one is about Fear of Growth (Sedna-Jupiter).  Or at least, it would be about that if we weren’t in the Reaches.  In the Realm of Paradox we know that Growing and Harnessing Fear as Power are set to Surprise us, if we’re Open to it, with all manner of new Information about all of the ways that they might Dance with one another. 

Marilyn’s Arcturian Source continues…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

The decision to take action toward reclaiming one’s power can be and often is very frightening for a person used to living under the thumb of some other person,  group or particular belief system.  This is especially true for those who in one or more past lives have experienced dire consequences from resisting a commonly held belief.  As a result, the energy of these experiences is frequently still alive and well in their cellular memory, causing them to hesitate and fear ‘rocking the boat’ even when they desperately want to.

“That is why in this time of intense awakening many of those ready and being urged to reclaim their power are experiencing confusion and fear for no apparent reason (most have no idea of why they are experiencing these emotions).  Old cellular memory is actively reminding them of what happens if they assert their independence and power.  This is why it is so important to clear all remaining old programming which you yourself can easily do.

In your quiet time when there will be no interruptions, state your choice and intention to clear all old and no longer relevant energy from past and present life experiences, from physical inheritance, and from all vows taken and promises made.  Invite your Higher Self and Guides to assist you in this meditation.  ‘In the presence of my Higher Self and my Guides, I choose…’

“Talk to the cells of your physical body, which have an  intelligence.  Tell them that it is time to release all old but still active third dimensional energy.  Visualize Light flowing through your physical, emotional, mental, spiritual bodies, and chakras with the intention of clearing them of all old programing and energy regarding health, age, deterioration, fears, abundance, etc. — any and all false concepts previously held as truth.  Intend that from now on they allow in only the high resonating energies of truth and Light.
 
“Many will find that the very things they fear or suffer from escalate following this type of clearing meditation, but this means that they have succeeded in allowing these old energies to surface in order to be looked at, seen for what they are, and once and for all released.
 
“Every awakened soul is being guided at this time to stand strong in their truth, be it taking issue with some concept alive and well within themselves, a personal circle of friends and family, or with regard to the many larger issues still alive and well in consensus consciousness.”

The corners of the blue box (which is actually a “Golden Rectangle” because the ratio of the long sides to the short is the Golden Ratio of Sacred Geometry – the significance is that if Flows with the Ease of Nature) can also Illuminate us.  Our old friends from Dragon Lore, Active Belief and Infinite Improbability (Mars-Vesta and Chaos) are there. 

But the other axis is New to us – Rebirth and Revelation (Haumea and Eris).  Remember that the Star Arcturus stands just behind Haumea, which explains why the Arcturian Channels have been mirroring the astrology so closely.  Haumea is acting as a Gravitational Lens focusing Arcturian Wisdom toward Earth.  Sometimes it just really seems like “You can’t make this stuff up.”

Or it could just be a trap, a Mind Control Ray sent to keep us from Paying Attention to the Lizards who continue to dismantle our Planet and deposit the shards in their little Bitcoin Wallets.  What a bad joke that is.  Actually, that’s the Mind Control Ray from the main stream, the “You’re Crazy” Scam. 

Truth is Different for everyone, and Truth resides in the Heart, not the Dualistic mind.  Truth is a Paradox.  From the first time I heard her sing it, when Jewel advises us to

“No Longer Lend Our Strength to That Which We Wish to Be Free From,”

it slides into my Heart between the DNA strands, filling the gap from which it had always been missing.

After twenty years it still brings Tears.  There is no Question where Truth resides.

Women and Chaos 3

March 13, 2018

Omigosh, I just realized that I fat-shamed those Aliens by comparing them to a Tent!  Please forgive me!  I didn’t mean it that way!  You folks have a lot more Muscle Definition, and far better Colors than the Tent.  And those orange knobs make perfect accessories.  And Oh, those boots!

But back to the March chart…  A Grand Sextile makes our Efforts Easy, by contributing Blessings from the Outside, and also by improving the results of our own Efforts.  An Almost-Grand-Sextile will do the same, but adding the one Missing “Almost” Energy is up to us.  If we fill in the Almost-Grand-Sextile in the March Stations chart, it looks like this…

The Energy we need to add is the Energy of the 24 Virgo Vacancy, “Mary and her little lamb.”  Rudyar adds “The need to keep a vibrant and pure simplicity at the core of one’s being.”  That shouldn’t be too hard; just eschew Complexity and Convolution. 

In this case there’s also a fixed Star in the Vacancy, Denebola, the tip of Leo the Lion’s tail.  Denebola Recommends Non-Conformance – that we Respect Our Own Viewpoint more than the mainstream’s, without Rejecting the latter.  If you have a natal planet near 24 Virgo you don’t have to do anything except be yourself, and you’re Golden.

The big blue triangle at the center of the chart is a big Expansion-Truth-Ego Death (Jupiter-Aletheia-Nemesis) Emotional Dumb-Luck Blessing (Water Grand Trine) that provides the major External Grace.  This is a boon, as it proposes that the Ego Deaths necessary to Allow us to Grow into our Truth will be much less Traumatic than they would otherwise be.  A good time to take Risks toward What We Want. 

Also an excellent time to Strive to Recover any Lost Emotions.  List the major Emotions – Joy, Anger, Fear, Grief… there are many more, and many shades of each.  How many do you Experience?  Are there any that you never Feel?  Do you even know about them if you’ve never Felt them?  You could compare your list with someone else’s to see.  If you find any that are missing from your Stable, it is an excellent time to go Round them Up.

The double Kites (Directed Blessings) also stand out, with Pluto and Sedna at the head of each.  A Kite is a Grand Trine with a fourth planet midway between two of the original three.  It moves the Grace toward the planet at the top of the Kite, here granting us extra Grace around Harnessing Fear (Sedna) and Transforming Addiction (Pluto).  Fear and Addiction are two major Barriers to Accepting the Ego Deaths that will Allow us to Grow into our Truth.

Fear is Power – you can Feel that very clearly in your Body when it Dances with you or even nearby.  If it renders you “Beside Yourself,” you can regain Control by Tapping it Out, or better yet, with Kegels.  Kegels Harvest Fear Energy directly by slowing Time.  And of course there are always the higher maths – “Fear plus Breathing equals Excitement.”

Addiction and Ego fit together as naturally as a Horse and and Horseshoe.  We’re definitely Addicted to the Karmic Archetypes that keep us from Growing into new Arenas, and often as not we use Addictive substances to help enforce them.  I’m nervous about doing that; I need a cookie to settle my nerves.  Oh, yeah, that’s right, cookies aren’t the best Nutrition; I’ll have ice cream instead.  Or maybe both.  What was it we were talking about?

But Pluto is also Transformation, or Trance Re-Formation, in addition to Compulsion.  If you’re struggling with repetitive Self-Sabotaging Behaviors, PIAVA to Learn the Trance that you need to Revert.  When did you make that Vow, and why?  Remember that Resistance is Futile when Pluto is involved.  When you start to lose traction on ice or snow, you have to steer into the slide, so your tires act like wheels again instead of skis.  What would “steering into” your favorite Self-Sabotaging Addiction look like?

Look closely at the blue box surrounding the red X in the middle of the Almost-Grand-Sextile chart.  Did you spot the distinctive green side-by-side dos equis that betray the Yin Gate embedded in it?

One of the glories of the Paradoxes that Yin Gates promote  is that they force us to stay with Simplicity – Mary and her Lamb – while we move into what would otherwise be Complexity.  The central Distinction of this Yin Gate is Chaos or Infinite Improbability Opposing Mars-Vesta or – what sort of Beliefs would that be?  Vesta symbolizes Belief, Mars Action.  So we’d at least be talking about Active Beliefs.

In the Olde Days they’d write “There Be Dragons” on maps where they didn’t know what Improbabilities lurked.  That’s a good example of an Active Belief.  If you carried such a map and someone thought your Fears were silly, how would you Feel?  Your Actively Defended Beliefs are the most Dangerous.  You not only Believe it, but you can’t stand to hear otherwise.  Now we’re talking about something that begs to be Examined.

We’re still in the Water Grand Trine; we’ve just Morphed it into a Yin Gate.  So yes, Ego Death threatens.  We might have to prove your Belief to be wrong.  If we were in the Realm of Analysis that is.  But we aren’t.  We’re now in the Reaches, in the Realm of Paradox.  As Ursula likes to say, “Rules Change in the Reaches.”  Where there isn’t enough Repetition of the Olde Ways, there isn’t enough Power in the Olde Spells.  New Rules.

So we’ve Identified a Fear, and it implies a Belief.  From the Fear, of an Unsafe Place for example, we think we know what the Belief must be – “There Be Dragons,” for instance.  To do Paradox, we need to drop that step, that knowing, or thinking that we know.  In the Reaches, what we know Intuitively is probably wrong, or at least inappropriate.  Not enough Power in the Olde Spells.

We need to approach Paradox with Curiosity.  Not the sort of Curiosity that stays up late looking for answers, but the sort that causes your jaw to go slack when a bright green Butterfly with orange medallions crawls out of an ugly and lifeless black valise hanging from a twig, and Offers its Wings to the Sun Goddess.  Our ideas about who the Aliens are, are probably wrong, or at least inappropriate.

Here’s Marilyn Raffaele’s take on it…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

“Every soul holds the one and only Power within–it is your true identity and your birthright as an expression of Source.  However, living life after life on earth under the rules of a third dimensional belief system, has caused almost everyone at some point to surrender their power and give it to those they erroneously believed had a right to it, or to those who through violence took it. 
 
“The result of this as been the creation of a conditioned state of consciousness still alive and well in impersonal universal consciousness.  This state of consciousness manifests as game playing, lying, pretending to be something one is not, and falsity in all or select levels of life in the belief that this is necessary if one is to attain success or acceptance (desire for love). 
 
“Non-conformity is a facet of awakening and is the birth of integrity and true honesty.  Personal non-conformance begins when one awakens into a more enlightened state of consciousness which  brings new ways of seeing and knowing the truth about self and others.  This new state of consciousness then begins to express as more informed and higher resonating words and actions within all aspects of daily living. 
 
“The energy and resulting false powers of the third dimension are beginning to dissolve into the nothingness that they really are because their substance (beliefs), that which holds them in place, is disappearing as more and more people awaken.  Non-conformance is simply the act of knowing and living out from a higher sense of reality apart from commonly accepted but false concepts of an unenlightened society — ‘I am choosing to no longer play third dimensional games.’ “

Endings II

February 11, 2018

Another place where we get very Confused about Boundaries, is the Edge between Ego and Soul.  Most people I meet have a very hard time imagining anything except a solid, opaque wall between themselves and their Soul, and they don’t even expect Mexico to pay for it.  Daniel Scranton Channels some Pleiadian Wisdom about this…

http://danielscranton.com/mission-earth-%e2%88%9ethe-pleiadian-high-council-of-seven-3/

“Before you ever set foot on planet Earth for the very first time, you understood that this was a mission.  You understood that Earth had a very special place in the galaxy and that you were embarking upon a very specific mission for all of consciousness.

“You all saw this experience as the greatest possible challenge that you could embark upon.  And while you knew that there would be some very dark times, quite a bit of pain, and a little too much suffering, you stepped right up to it and decided that this was the only place for you to be.

“Now as you began your cycle of lifetimes on planet Earth, you also understood how far you would be able to expand.  You understood that the reward for being on planet Earth was like none other in the galaxy.  And so you feel that the pain and suffering was worth it.  You may not feel it now, from where you stand, but we guarantee you that you feel it on the level of your higher self and your oversoul.

“Your next mission on this journey will be to create a brand new Earthly experience for yourselves and for all future generations, and those experiences will not be about challenges.  The next mission is about experiencing joy and unbridled, unconditional love.  You have come this far in order to feel what it is like to move from the depths of darkness to the heights of ecstasy.

“Now when you decide to embark upon the new mission is up to you.  It is up to you how much longer you play with the third-dimensional rules and when you fully embrace the fifth-dimensional perspective, the fifth-dimensional frequency, the fifth-dimensional experience of reality.  We know that many of you feel ready, and we say to you that you are.  It is all just a matter of opening your heart, letting that be your guide, and forgetting everything that you think you have learned up until this point.”

The chart of the Atropos Station is relatively simple.  Atropos Conjoins – meaning that it’s Merged With (speaking of Boundaries) Eurydike, or Trust – still barely moving after it’s 4 February Station, and precisely Conjunct Atropos when the latter Stands Still.  Are we Scared to Let Go of What We Know So Well, this Karma, and Accept what lies beyond Endings, the Unknown?  That would be natural.  If you considered it carefully, you might well find you’d much rather Step Out of your Karmic Self-Sabotage Patterns than Stay In them.  But considering it carefully would mean you’d have to recognize that your Karma is your own Creation.  Most of the time most of us just Feel Victimized by our Archetypes, as if they were woven by Someone Else.

The ignorati refer to this as “New Age Guilt,” the idea that somehow I Chose to Manifest the Reality I Live in.  Why would I Choose Suffering?  They see it that way simply because they are unable to refer to their Soul as “I” – they see their Soul as Someone Else.  So this Adventure is about Trusting that we can End Habits that no longer serve us, and still Live Well afterwards.  If it was Someone Else who installed those Habits, do we Fear that they will Punish us if we End them?  If we still Live our Life as a Child subject to our Programmers’ rules, of course we do.  But we as a Soul Chose those Programmers, to set up situations that Mirror our Karma, so we can Recognize it and End it.  Part of our Mission.

Eurydike-Atropos Station in fact makes a Trine Bridge, defining the Easy Path, across the Nodal Axis.  The Nodal Axis is nothing if it’s not our map for getting from our Karma to our Mission.  Asteroid Sappho – Self-Love – sits on our South Node, which symbolizes the Karma that we’ve sown, the Patterns and Archetypes we took this Lifetime to Let Go of.  Do we Love Ourself in spite of our Karma?

Our Mission is not Letting Go of our Karma.  It’s just that the Hidden Skills which we need in order to Achieve our Mission, are hidden beneath our Held Emotions.  Held Emotions are the Emotions we cannot face because it would be too Scary, our cosmic PTSD.  Letting Go of our Karma, Letting Go of those Archetypes, those seemingly unshakeable Habits that Sabotage us over and over again, requires that we Feel those Forbidden Emotions, requires an Ego Death.  Yet the Ego’s job is to keep us Alive.  Which is the same error we all make – the Ego is supposed to keep us Alive, not to keep itself Alive.  How can it keep us Alive though, if it Dies?  Another Paradox.

Our Karmic Archetypes are Compulsive, or we’d be able to Let them Go easily.  In the map of the Station, Pluto, symbolizing Compulsion, makes a Quincunx Bridge to the Nodal Axis.  A Quincunx Bridge is like meeting Gollum.  But rather than Solve the constant stream of Riddles, we need to Zen them – leave them as Riddles, unanswered.  Anything that the Dualistic mind can conjure to Respond to them, will be a knife in the Heart of Mystery. 

That Fearless Child, in Awe at the marvelous things around Her, completely unprepared to try to make Sense of them, and, apart from trying to Understand the Abuse she so unfairly Received, having no need to make Sense of them.  That Child, pre-Abuse, is the one we need to Recover.  She holds the Ring.  The Abuse is the re-enactment of our Karma.  Who were we before we stumbled into these Patterns of Sabotage?  We’d need to go back to Lilith, to our Self-Sovereignty.  It’s a Mystery, but if you let “I” be your Soul for a few moments, you’ll Know Exactly what it is and Who You Are.

In the Station chart, Pluto is Conjoined by Chariklo, representing our Self-Confidence.  The two of them Square Atropos-Eurydike, symbolizing Mastery through Challenge.  Mastering the subtle Art of having Confidence that our Compulsions will lead us back to Awe, the subtle Art of Trusting that Ending our 3D Timeline will Liberate us to a Greater Mastery.  It’s the same as Sappho-South Node; Loving Ourself as our Karma.  Can you let “I” be your Karma for a few moments? 

When we drop all Self-Judgment then it doesn’t matter Who We Are, does it.  We are simply Unconditional Love, Personified.  If we are “just” Love, then what do Patterns and Habits and Archetypes matter?  They don’t even exist.  We can’t be “just” Love without being in the Present Moment, and in the Present Moment our Karma is undefined.  Habits by definition Remove us from the Present Moment.

Endings I

February 11, 2018

From several posts back…

“13 February (8:30 am PST) – Atropos Stands Still.  Atropos is about Endings.  Hopefully all month we’ve been working on Ending our Disregard for and Misplacement of Trust, and our Disregard for and Misinterpretation of Fear.”

So the trick is Letting Go of What We’ve Outgrown, and Keeping or Accepting What We Want to Grow Into.

Atropos is one of the three Fates, which represent Karmic Patterns that run our Lives until we become Conscious of them, after which, likely with a short Adjustment period, we Choose.  Remember that our Archetypes are Skills, incredible Skills.  What’s “wrong” with them is that we’re Stuck in them, they fire automatically, and we don’t have Free Choice to Choose the Action or Words that would be most appropriate relative to What We Want to Manifest.  Once we (1) Notice the Archetype we’re Stuck in, (2) Learn to Choose alternatives, and after we’ve (3) Ended the Compulsion, we can (4) add the Archetypal Skill back into our Repertoire.  It’s not time yet for (4); we’re mostly at (3), but definitely welcome (1) and (2) as well.

Atropos, which is turning Retrograde, will back across the first seven Duads (2½ Degrees in a Duad) of Libra.  At this point (17½ Degrees), after Exploring any number of new Encounters with Other (Other People, Other Anything) since 27 November 2017, we’re just getting to where we’re Noticing new things about our Boundaries, noticing where We End and Other Begins.

One of the most Fundamental Karmic Archetypes is Us versus Them.  It’s not just Personal, it’s deep in most Huper Culture.  Even before the Hyper-Competitive Patriarchy took over, the Matriarchies, where the Individual Ego was barely recognized, were usually sharply and often violently divided into Tribes.

Microbes don’t seem to have a strong Us-versus-Them Culture, as they freely share DNA; Antibiotic Resistance has taught us that.  Karmic Us-versus-Them may have begun with the development of Dermis.  At any rate, it’s Ancient, and Ancient Habits aren’t easily Broken.

Contrast that to the Spiritual Perspective that We Are All One.  How many of us are already “too” Empathic, taking on Other People’s and Other Entity’s issues without having Consciously Chosen to do so?  If we try to view this Contradistinction with the Dualistic mind, the gulf is uncrossable.

It’s a Paradox that actually leads us into our Multidimensionality.  In 3D we need our Mirrors to stay Safe and to keep our Empathy from Overwhelming our Ego.  Pushing the Ego beyond the point of Overwhelm can cause a backlash in our Growth.  In 5D we’re in Harmony with the rest of “Us” – with the extra Dimensions there is no Contradiction between Us as an Individual and Us as All One.  It’s Both/And.

In other words, from our 3D Perspective, Confusion is likely to rule.  Confusion is the first stage of Growth, if we can stand to Let It Be rather than trying to “figure it out.”

Scary New Moon

November 18, 2017

The New Moon Opposes Sedna (Fear), which of course is great, as an Opposition implies Contradistinction, so as long as we’re Awake enough to Notice that Fear is present, we can contrast it to the Reboot (New Moon) of our Identity, and Congratulate ourself for Externalizing the Fear.  And yes, that part about “Awake Enough” is our bane.  But the Window is Open.

Fear has many disguises.  It often appears as Judgment and its cousins Resentment and Competition.  It can hide behind Codependence, Abandonment, or Suffocation.  It’s the source of Separation, the Ego’s Causative Principle.  We Be after all All One.  While the mind’s view of Reality is Dual, in Real Life it’s Unitary and Multifarious.  Sounds Paradoxical, and we’ll get to that.  We can think of Fear as the equivalent of Lucifer – Bringing of Light by Creating  Contrast to Darkness.  Fear, the Absence of Love, Brings Forth Love through Contrast.  If it’s not Unconditional Love – or Curiosity, it’s rooted in Fear.

Now this is the Scorpio New Moon, and how do we interpret Scorpio?  As Fearlessness.  Curiosity gone Compulsive, Relentless Curiosity.  When you find Fear, capture it, dissect it.  Does it have a Heart?  A Brain?  When it Shits, what comes out?  Does it fly like a Bat, or a Bird?  Is it Immortal?  What Color is it?  If it Creates, what is it likely to make?  What would your Universe look and Feel like without it?  Is Fear a Quantum, or a Vibration?  A Quark, or an Atom?  A Gas, or a Dust?  Next time it comes to your neighborhood, Ask it these questions, and any others that come to you.

When Neptune was the Outer Limit of our Consciousness, Pluto stood for Fate, that which we thought we couldn’t Escape.  Then we Stretched into Pluto, and Realized there was Choice.  From Sophocles to Shakespeare.  Now we’ve found and exceeded another Limit.  Most of the other dwarf planets beyond Neptune are called Plutoids because they have a lot in common with Pluto. 

Not Sedna.  It’s in a new class of its own, the Sednoids.  We know of only two so far.  While Plutoids take hundreds of years to circle the Zodiac, Sednoids take thousands.  The orbits of the Plutoids and Centaurs (dwarf planets between Jupiter and Neptune) are controlled by the Gravity of the Gas Giants (Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune), but Sednoid orbits are independent of all other planets, except the yet-to-be-located “Planet Nine.”

So here on the threshold of the next phase for Planet Earth and its denizens, the Outer Limit of our Consciousness is Fear.  When our Limits were Fated – or Fatal, we did not know Choice was possible.  There were Edges beyond which you simply Fell Off into Nothingness.  Now that we’ve seen the Infinite Improbability Machine – which is a necessary part of any Infinite Universe, our Edges are populated with Fear.  Now it’s Madness rather than Nothingness that lies beyond the Edge, where Fright Overwhelms all, the head spins around, and the Priest is useless.

If you’re finding anything other than Love, look underneath it Relentlessly, find where it’s Rooted in Fear.

The Moon-Sedna axis is the Central Axis of a Yin GateYin Gates are about Transcending the Linear or Dualistic mind, accepting Paradox, and courting Cognitive Dissonance, where we Emply and Enjoy several to many different apparently-conflicting Perspectives at the same time.  That Allows us to see more of Unitary and Multifarious Reality than the old Fundamentalist paradigms permitted.

On the map below, a Yin Gate is characterized by a blue rectangle divided in two the long way, with a green X in each half, and three intersecting red Oppositions defining the corners and  and the Central Axis…

The fundamental old-paradigm proposition is that Fear (Sedna) Opposes our Rebirth (New Moon).  Fear in all of its many forms pushes us back from the Edges of our Growth.  The Paradox is that Fear and Rebirth are Opposite sides of the Same Coin.  The Riddle lies in identifying the Coin.  Clues lie in the four corners of the blue rectangle, and their two additional Oppositions.  These are…

  • Dwarf planet Haumea (Rebirth – whereas the New Moon Rebirths on a scale of weeks, Haumea Rebirths on a scale of decades) Oppose the Stellium of Uranus (our Soul Self), and the asteroids Pallas (Boundaries) and Moira (Choice).  What Fears prevent us from Choosing to Relax the Boundaries between our Ego and our Soul?  Does that sound like Death to you?  Yes, certainly – Ego Death, the only Death there is.  The rest is Transformation and Rebirth.
  • Dwarf planet Chaos (not Disorder, but Unlimited Potential – Chaos is what Existed before the Greeks invented the Patriarchy, the sort of World where you could have Vipers for hair, and Rams could have fleece of Gold, the World that the Dualistic mind still Labors to suppress) is Opposed by the Stellium of Saturn (The Most Important Thing), the dwarf planets Ixion (our Forbidden Genius), Pholus (Responding in Full Consciousness in the Present Moment), and Quaoar (our Survival Instincts) – not to mention the Galactic Center.  That’s one Powerful Stellium!  Does it Balance Unlimited Potential?  Can you Feel the Coin in there?

The multiple Oppositions remind one of Da Vinci’s Vitruvian Man…

If you look closely, and include the two lightly-drawn green lines, you’ll see a second Yin Gate in this New Moon chart, this one wrapped around the Haumea-Uranus/Pallas/Moira Opposition.  So there are Mysteries and Paradoxes yet to unravel from our task of Choosing to Relax the Boundaries between Ego and Soul and Transcending Fear of Rebirth.  The other Oppositions in this Yin Gate are…

  • Sedna Opposing the New Moon.
  • Asteroid Atropos (Endings) Opposing Chiron – If we think of Chiron as the Unhealable Healer, then Ending this Unhealableness sounds like a great idea, even if it’s not very Mysterious or Paradoxical.  But we usually think of Chiron as the Opportunity to Transcend a Victim Space using Poor-Sweethearts.  In the Greek-Patriarchal view, Atropos are the Fated Endings.  But in our view, we look at the other side of the Coin – if we’ve got a good thing going, we can Choose not to End it.  So we would probably want to use this dynamic to dive Deeper, a la Scorpio, into TranscEnding our old views of Healing, and moving to a Deeper level of Skill.

One way of integrating all this is to Open to Ending the Limitations imposed upon us by Fear – by Noticing and Dissecting deeper and more subtle layers of  the Beliefs that constrain our Infinite Improbability Machine.  Starting maybe with our Belief that the Infinite Improbability Machine in our Imaginary closet doesn’t really work, and even if it did it would never work on our Perpetually-Frustrating unresolved Deepest Desires.  I mean, by now we’ve made so many Compromises, and so often Settled for what we thought was probably the best we could do, that it would be impossibly complicated to unwind all that, even if by some Miracle our Deepest Desires showed up on our front porch. 

How can we Manifest our Deepest Desires within the context of all of our Compromises and Make-Dos?  That would take a Miracle, wouldn’t it.  Well, would that be a Paradox?  Are we Afraid to Believe in Miracles?

Mentation

October 9, 2017

Michael Roads, in his “365 Steps…” message for today, here in the center of several Paradox-filled Yin Gate Configurations, describes better than I can the utility of mentation in our Spiritual Adventures…

http://int.michaelroads.org/

“Understanding is usually inappropriate for our spiritual journey.  Mystery is Truth unrealised.  Most understanding is based on a conceptual rationale, rather than actual realisation.

“Understanding is a valid challenge for our everyday life in a world of ever-increasing technology.  On your spiritual journey – which is the soul purpose of you being here in the first place – understanding is an anchor that will snag on every intellectual obstacle in your immediate vicinity.

“The way to make your spiritual journey as smooth and trouble free as possible is to eschew all need to spiritually understand it.  Accept the Mystery.  Accept that while Truth is unrealised, understanding is useless flotsam on a vast ocean.  It will not support you!  When you reach the shores of Truth, you will know just how futile that intellectual flotsam was!  Even though you may experience it, it is unlikely that you will ever truly understand the power of consciously . . . choosing Love!”

May 3

May 2, 2017

Lots of Convergence in the Channeled material this week…

http://drkimderamo.com/working-hard-coaching-business/

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2017/05/01/pushing-the-easy-button/

http://danielscranton.com/doing-what-you-love-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

http://danielscranton.com/your-new-abilities-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

All about Making (or Taking) it Easy.  At first glance though the Mercury Station chart (3 May 10am PDT) looks pretty complicated…

We’ll deconstruct it in a minute; for now, notice the orange lines forming a “bowl.”  This is the beginnings of a Grand Quintile (Excellent Opportunity for Learning) that pretty much dominates the 10 May Full Moon chart as the Sun moves into the Vacant fifth position in the Configuration. 

We’ll talk more about that soon; for now, just be Alert that whatever Difficulty or Confusion you Encounter is really about Learning.  We can Learn all manner of “information” without encountering Discomfort, but Real Learning, as in Growth of Consciousness, is often accompanied by Difficulty or Confusion or both.  The Grand Quintile tells us not to try to Puzzle it Out, but to just be Open to Big Change.  Big Change always introduces the Unknown, and Puzzling it Out can only rearrange the deck chairs.

The rest of the chart is actually two Yin GatesBased on our recent Experience we probably think Yin Gates are pretty common, but they actually aren’t.  Two at once is fairly remarkableThe Spiritual Function of a Yin Gate is to give us the Opportunity to Embrace Paradox – that is, to escape the tyranny of the Patriarchal “left brain” and witness the World and the Mysteries more Wholistically.  Again, more admonitions not to try to make Logical Sense out of what we Experience, but rather to make Esoteric Sense out of it.

Let’s tease out the two Yin Gates

First, here’s the Rebirth into Yintegrity Yin Gate.  A Yin Gate is an Opposition (long red line) at the center of a Golden Rectangle (blue box).  Normally an Opposition represents a Duality; a Yin Gate Asks us to Pay Attention to the Coin rather than the heads or tails.  This one has Haumea (Rebirth) on one end and the Merger of Stationary Mercury (Paying Attention), Uranus (our Soul Self), and Eris (the Compulsion to Live our Truth) on the other.

The latter threesome represents YintegrityYangtegrity is Doing what we said we were going to do, no matter what.  Yintegrity is Doing what we darn well Feel like doing, moment to moment – this is, Trusting our Instincts and Intuitions more than we Trust our Commitments.  Of course in Yintegrity we’d Minimize our Commitments, Renegotiate often, and make quality Amends where Renegotiation wasn’t possible and the Relationship was worth keeping – we’d prefer both Yin- and Yang-tegrity to One or the Other (or neither), though we might emphasize One more than the Other while we Learn how they Differ and Practice each One.

Second there’s the Stealing Energy from Fear and Investing It in Self-Love Yin Gate, with Sedna (Fear) on one end and Sappho (Self-Love) on the other.  We’ve had Experience with this one, and discussed it at length, earlier this year.  Suddenly the Channelings – Pushing the Ease Button, Trusting Ourself – start to make Sense, eh?

In each picture we’ve drawn in the rest of the Configuration with lighter lines.  Notice that the two Yin Gates are connected by a Grand Cross (the tilted red square with the X in the center).  That just means that they’re tightly Integrated, giving us the Opportunity to Practice Yintegrity in the context of Self-Love and vice versa.

It’s worth Paying Attention to the other two Oppositions – Chaos (Unlimited Potential) Opposite Saturn-Ixion (The Most Important Thing is to Recover our Abandoned Genius), which is on the Galactic Center (Orders from HQ) and asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things) Opposite Chiron (Healing the Unhealable). 

If you’re Estranged from anyone, this would be an excellent time to Clear the Conflict, even if it’s “just” to Finish Business and Move On.  And there’s an excellent chance that what you discovered you couldn’t stand about them, or the unacceptable critique they made of you, are big neon signs pointing to your Abandoned Genius.  You don’t need to discuss that with them if it’s not Safe to do so, but you do need to spend time Exploring it on your own or with Safe Friends, because your Abandoned Genius is part of the missing link that will Heal the Unhealable elements of our Huperity, of our misuse of the Home Planet, and of the Despair we can’t help but feel about it.

Re-listen or Re-read the Channelings we began the post with; with a little Effort you’ll see the footprints of your Abandoned Genius in them.

This week I was invited to Attend a Conference on Sustainability put on by Native Americans, but I had a very difficult time finding out the timing and the agenda, even after asking for help.  Rather than reading that as a Sign that it wasn’t my cup of Buffalo Water, it occurred to me that my current path may be leading me away from Reunification with Nature – especially around the Money issues we discussed a couple of posts ago in Forbidden Genius and Responsibility

It’s very easy to make a case that Money is an Artifact of the Industrial Revolution that is on its final Debriefing (till 2021).  Is relaxing about it a Sign that we’ve Transcended it, or a Sign that we’ve Surrendered to it?  Well, today I realized that of course it’s Both/And – how could it be otherwise! – just another Paradox!

Why Are We Doing This Again?

January 9, 2017

A note from the Arcturians on what all this Shedding is about…

http://danielscranton.com/your-galactic-selves-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

At the end there they mention Off-Planet folks.  Don’t fall for any mass-media reports about Off-Planet folks.  There are those who Believe that once Epidemics and Vaccinations and four-hour erections no longer Scare enough people, the Lizards will cook up an Alien Invasion to amp up their mass-media advertising revenue.  No Blame, it’s just another potentially useful Perspective.

You can speak directly with Off-Planet folks anytime you want – just Suspend Disbelief, PIAVA it, Change the Subject, and Meditate.  You’ll probably meet your Kin, and maybe even remember how you got here.  After all, we just heard from folks who hail from Arcturus.  Arcturus Lives around 25 Libra; got any natal planets there?  Jupiter just happens to be amplifying Haumea (Rebirth) there as we speak.

I know, Suspending Disbelief may be the hardest part, but it’s a very Powerful Practice, and a Skill that you very much want to develop to increase your Embrace of Paradox – which, as you recall, we’re studying intensely at the moment, Embracing our Unconscious Fears, in our Yin Gates.  

If the Channel for Off-Planet information wasn’t ourself, should we Trust it?  Ask your Heart, your Heart knows your own Truth.  Double-check for Fear – if you’re coming from Fear, you aren’t in Truth.  Tap it Out.  Don’t let commercial television – or the Internet – be your intermediary, and be careful to read or hear Channelings from Off-Planet (or On!) with your Heart, not your Mind.

And a note from Yeshua and Mary about our Brilliance, Gorgeousness, Talent, and Fabulosity…

https://ouremergingdivinity.com/2017/01/08/direct-voice-channeling-of-yeshua-and-mary-magdalene-by-fran-zepeda-1-7-17/

That’s precisely why we’re doing this.  Thanks to https://eraoflight.com/ for the clues to finding this information.

Like John Said…

December 27, 2016

Remember Both/And; Truth is Different for each of us because Truth resides in the Heart, not in the mind’s Duality.  Even if this is not your Truth, it may be useful to you, as all New Perspectives are.  New Perspectives may help you Let Go of Judgment of Others, they may help you Let Go of Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, and they may Grow Corn for you in Unusual Circumstances.

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2017, which is a Tenth-Harmonic (Abundance) Year, begins with dwarf planet Makemake Stationary.  A planet is at its Strongest when it’s Stationary.  The Essence of Makemake is Manifestation.  As John said…

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2016/12/it-is-now-arcturians-through-suzanne-lie.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EqP3wT5lpa4

But first we need to get past this week’s once-in-a-millennium Funfest.  Actually, though, since they’re co-incident, we need to interpret them as one astroevent.  How we Respond to this week will have a big Impact on how our Manifestation Skills shift in the New Year.  There are many Keys to that process…

(1) The Most Important Thing is inviting our Abandoned Genius to come Home.  Treat them like a Wild Animal that you’re trying to tame.  Offer them a Treat – like maybe an Open Heart to them, then step back and sit down, facing slightly away, so they don’t think you’re watching them (Change the Subject).  Then – sit quietly and Wait.  As long as it takes.  You can’t approach them directly.  You have to Demonstrate your Loving Kindness, Be Open and Inviting but Neutral and Non-Attached, and Let Them Approach You.  If you do that, they will come, you just don’t know how long it will take, so you need Patience.  

(2) You have Time, you don’t need to rush.  What you do need to do is to Show Them Consistency, and Avoid sudden moves that would Startle them.  Find your Space of Loving Kindness, and Apologize to your Abandoned Genius  for Allowing them be Banished from your Life.  Don’t Punish yourself, it was something you had to do in order to Survive at the Time, and your Safety was then paramount.  But Feel their Pain and Abandonment, over having been Banished all these years.  Then PIAVA that they Return to You, Let It Go, and send them Love.  Then after a while – several to many hours – check to see if you’ve Learned anything.  Then Do It Again.

(3) While you’re doing the Processes above and below, hold a Crystal or Jewel or Stone in your hand.  Choose one that you feel very Safe and Loving with.  If it’s wearable, great, wear it all week.  If not, keep it in a pocket if you can.  If it’s too big for that, put in a Sacred Space and Be There or Visualize it as you begin each of these Processes (do these whenever you think of it all week – constantly if possible!).  If you don’t have the perfect Crystal handy, gaze at this one…

Annabergite 3952 photo:J.Buss

Print it out (from http://www.jbuss.com/jbl4d/annabergite1.htm ) and carry it with you; that’s your Abandoned Genius sparkling there in the center, as It – that is, You, the Abandoned part of You – struggles to escape the maw that’s about to devour It – that is, You, your historical You.

(4) Be Compassionate with any Pain you Feel.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really hurting aren’t you.”  Then put your thoughts on something else.  After a while you can check in again to see if you’re still in Pain.  If you aren’t, spend a few minutes in Gratitude.  If you are still (or again) in Pain, give yourself another “You poor Sweetheart…”  When You are Hurting, that’s literally True – You Are Hurt.  When you give yourself a “You poor Sweetheart…” You aren’t Hurt any more, You Are Compassion.  And Empathy Heals.  

(5) You don’t have to Fix anything or Change anything, you just have to be Loving and Gentle with yourself.  It’s actually The Most Important Thing.  Ask yourself, “I Wonder what would happen if I Trusted that my own Empathy is Enough to Heal Myself.”  Don’t seek Answers, just stay in Wonder as long as you can.  If you want you can Imagine that it’s True, then look to see what your Inner Eye sees.  If you see Peace, you’re Golden.  If you see Trouble, Ask what you’re Feeling there, and give yourself another “You poor Sweetheart…” about that.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Doubt, aren’t you.”

(6) You are Learning a Paradox about how…

  • Self-Sovereignty (which includes Doing and Having What you Want)

is Related to… 

  • Being Truthful with Yourself about What you Fear

The Relationship isn’t Logical, so don’t try to make it so.  Imagine how you’ll Feel when you can Do and Have exactly what you Want to Do and Have, moment to moment.  Then Ask yourself if you have any Yes-Buts.  Take them one by one, and convert them to Yes-Ands.  This is a Paradox, remember, it doesn’t make sense.  Maybe something like… “I Have Complete Freedom and Abundance, Yes, And my Life is falling apart because I’m not honoring my ten zillion Commitments!”  Or… “I Have Complete Freedom and Abundance, Yes, And how am I treating other people?”  Then just Change the Subject.  Nothing to Solve, nothing to Fix, just another Paradox.  Trust a Perfect Unfoldment; you just See Through a Glass Darkly.

(7) Be on the lookout for Ego Death.  The Signs are Thinking “I’d rather Die” or “I’d do anything for Love, but I won’t do That,” Not recognizing the landmarks in your own neighborhood, Feeling Confused, Not being able to keep your regular schedule, Feeling like you’re just now meeting old friends or colleagues for the first time.  It’s like you’re a Walk-In, but you aren’t.  It’s Weird.  An Ego Death is actually an Ego Rebirth.  It’s exactly what you Crave.  Our natural Reaction is to do everything we can to Prevent a Death/Rebirth; you want to do everything you can to be Loving and Gentle with it.  You’re a Babe in Arms, put yourself to your Breast, rock, and coo.

(8) Every Memory, Flashback, Vignette, and Historical Flash you Receive is Significant.  This is what it’s about.  They’re all either…

  • Related to how you were before your “Betters” Abandoned/Abused you
  • Related to the chronic or acute Traumas that characterized or precipitated your Abandonment
  • Related to your resulting Lifetime Self-Abandonment
  • Related to the many episodes in your Life where you exercised your now-Habitual Self-Abandonment (any “If-Only-I’d-Have…” Flashbacks?)
  • Related to your Shoulds (which are all Self-Abandonments)
  • Related to the Limiting Beliefs and Karmic Archetypes that are Lit Up so you can become Conscious of them and Choose to Let them Go
  • Related to episodes of Genuine Self-Love and Self-Care (for Contrast)

Or several/many/ all of the above.

As we’ve said, these are Big Doin’s.

Makemake’s Exact Retrograde Station is at 3pm PST on 2 January.

(1) Abandoned Genius (AG) as The Most Important Thing (TMIT): Saturn/TMIT Conjunct Ixion/AG and Nemesis/Ego-Death Oppose dwarf planet Chaos/Unlimited-Potential, forming the base of a Chiron/Despair-and-Miracle T-Square/Challenge.  Saturn-Ixion Opposite Chaos and Jupiter-Haumea/Big-Rebirth Opposite Uranus-Ceres-Eris-Mnemosyne/Memories -to-make-our-True-Self-Sustainable form a  Golden Rectangle/Creative-Genius.

(2a) Having Time: Ixion Initiates Saturn 15 February in 25 Sagittarius.  Other closely related intermediate events:

  • Ixion Initiates Nemesis 6 January 25 Sagittarius
  • Juno Opposes Chaos 6 January
  • Juno Squares Chiron 7 January 
  • Saturn Initiates Juno 11 January 23 Sagittarius
  • Ixion Initiates Juno 19 January 26 Sagittarius
  • Jupiter Stationary Retrograde Conjunct Haumea 6 February 24 Libra

(2b) Survival/Safety: Moira/Fate Sextile Saturn-Ixion-Nemesis-Juno etc etc.

(3) Crystal: the Vacancy that completes the Chiron T-Square is 22 Virgo, A royal coat of arms rich in Precious Stones.  Annabergite is one of the few Crystalline Minerals that was Organically Alive just before it Crystalized.  The appropriate Heart color and dangerous positioning on this one is a convenient “coincidence.”  Or, you could use this Cluster (from http://www.jbuss.com/jbl4/tbam1878bp.htm ), with the Violet Flame:

(4) Compassion/Empathy: the Chiron T-Square.

(5) Wonder and Trust: the Tricolor Saturn-Ixion-Nemesis-Juno Square Chiron Quincunx Eurydike/Trust Trine Saturn-Ixion et al.

(6) Self-Sovereignty/Truth-Fear: Sedna-Aletheaia/Being-Truthful-about-our-Fear to Lilith/Self-Sovereignty Yin Gate/Mystery School embedded in the Golden Rectangle in (1).

(7) Ego Death: Jupiter/Amplification Conjunct Haumea/Rebirth, Uranus-Eris Stellium, Saturn-Ixion Stellium, etc etc etc.

(8) Flashbacks: Mnemosyne/Memories in the Uranus-Eris Stellium, Nemesis/Regret in the Saturn-Ixion Stellium, Aletheia/Truth on Sedna, etc etc etc.