Stellia and Enlightenment 2

We were working on the idea that Conjunctions and Stellia (groups of 3 or more planets close together) mean that some of our normal Cultural- and Language-Determined Distinctions (like Boy vs Girl, Blue vs Green, Idiotic vs. Imbecilic) get Merged, so we end up looking at People, Cool Colors, and Dumb instead. Each of these is a tiny Enlightenment. For instance, when we wake up one day and see People instead of Boys vs Girls, it’s Consciousness-Expanding. And we were using the very unusual Total Lunar Eclipse of 27-28 September 2015, which was loaded with Stellia and Conjunctions, as an excellent example. The chart is drawn at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2023/03/30/stellia-and-enlightenment-1/.

Just looking at the Eclipse itself, the Moon was in a Stellia of three, and the Sun was in a Stellia of eight, ie, unheard of. So what happens to our perspective when 8 of our normal Distinctions all run together? Well, let’s start with the simpler, the Stellia of 3…

• Eclipsed Moon – Instincts, Illuminated
• Vesta – Unconscious Limitations
• True South Node – Held Emotion

Our Held Emotions form the most Persistent Core of our Karma, as long ago we were highly Motivated to Never Think About Them again. They were too Painful. Often they were also Verboten in the Current Lifetime by our Programmers, cementing their Banishment for us.¹ Bringing them up into Consciousness by accident is almost impossible, because the clues are usually disguised by Addiction, Illness, or Culturally-Approved Victimizations. Dedicated and Persistent PIAVAs are Required.

¹ Forbidding something is probably the best way to assure that it gets constant Attention. Combining Forbidding and Punishing can drive an Energy into the Unconscious and Lock the door behind it, but that only means that we think about it all the time, without actually Recognizing it.

Our Unconscious Limitations are already the same thing as Held Emotions, but seen from a different Perspective. We just “don’t go there,” and our Behavior is so well-Justified that there’s no reason we’d ever want to. I’d Do Anything for Love, but I Won’t Do That! They’re Walled Off very Effectively by Judgments – in fact our Pet Peeves are often the best Clue to our Unconscious Limitations, but our Pet Peeves are Pictures of Our Identity – of Our Ego itself! The Ego has already made it Clear to anyone who will Listen that they’re Off-Limits. So this is an Effortless Merger!

But our Instincts! Only Carl Jung defined our Karma as a Persistent and Dedicated Effort by the Unconscious to get us to Open to and Accept our Held Emotions. So this sort of Merger is a Given to Jungians and followers of his followers. In Normal Circumstances for most people, this triple Merger would Precipitate a Major Crisis, as we would be forced to Admit or Reveal our Most Shameful Secrets. At the very least we’d be Hiding in a Cave somewhere, so no one would be allowed to Witness our Shame.

But these weren’t Normal Circumstances! Look at the Other Side of this Eclipse – a Stellium of eight planets – I don’t recall ever seeing that before!

• Sun – Essence
• True North Node – Life Mission
• Juno – Growth in Consciousness
• Black Moon Lilith – Self-Sovereignty
• Makemake Out of Bounds – Enhanced Manifestation
• Sisyphus Out of Bounds – Enjoying the Journey Rather than Anticipating the Destination, Exaggerated
• Tantalus Out of Bounds – Valuing Desire as the Essence of Living, More Highly than Satisfaction, Amplified
• Panacea – Healing

While our Ego is Lost in Shame, our Essence is Bathing in the Bright Light of Our Lifetime Mission. Our Mission is so multidimensional that our Ego and 2D Mind seldom actually Witness more than a Whiff of it. But here we’re Immersed in the Urge to Grow in Consciousness, and Intuitively we know that the most Powerful way to do that is to Open to a Held Emotion. With Emphasis on Self-Sovereignty, we’re less concerned than usual about What Everyone Else Will Think of us, which has potential to Neutralize our Shame.

Sisyphus and Tantalus are cousins in the Psyche, both dealing as they do with Forever – Sisyphus Condemns us to Repeat a Task Forever, and Tantalus leaves us Forever Frustrated because the Objects of our Desire Dissolve just as we are about, at long last, to Enjoy Them. Indeed, few things are more Tantalizing than the Desire to Complete our Sisyphean Tasks. Both make excellent adjectives for describing Karma.

Sisyphus and Tantalus are named like “Centaurs,” which are comet-like dwarf planets with elongated 50-100+ year orbits between Jupiter and Pluto, of which Chiron is the most well known. But they aren’t Centaurs at all, they’re “Apollos” – Near-Earth Asteroids that orbit between Venus and Mars. Tantalus is considered a Potentially Hazardous Asteroid, as it’s 4km/2½mi wide and comes within 16 LD (Moon-to-Earth Distances) of Earth, orbiting every 18 months between 0.9 and 1.7 AU (Distance from the Sun, where Sun-to-Earth is 1.0). Sisyphus is a little less dangerous, approaching within “only” 40 LD from Earth though at 9km/5½mi wide it’s bigger than Tantalus. It orbits every 30 months, between 0.9 and 2.9 AU. For comparison, Mars orbits at 1.4-1.7 AU, Venus at 0.7 AU.

Their presence in the 8-fold Merger tempts us to Imagine what Life will be like for us when our Karma is no longer Interminable, nor Fruitless. Panacea tells us that this Merger is a Healing! So it was entirely possible for a Witness to the 27-28 September 2015 Blood Moon to Experience a Significant Burst of Enlightenment. And whether we Witnessed it visually or not, we couldn’t Hide from the Energy of a Blood Moon like this one.

But what about the Kassandra T-Square, the thick red triangle that Challenges the Full Moon? The Full Moon is already a Debate, like any Opposition a Tension between the two sides of a Tug-of-War. But here the two sides are in total agreement – we need to Embrace our Held Emotions to Move into Enlightenment and 5D. So where’s the Tension? Kassandra means Disbelief. Who are we to Claim to be Enlightened? Everyone we know who does that is either a Guru or an Obvious Egotist, sometimes Both.

The green wedge pointing at Kassandra says that the T-Square is Self-Resolving. There’s nothing we need to do except somehow refrain from Interfering in the process as it Unfolds, since it may not Unfold all at once. It can actually help to be Unaware of the astrology at this point, because our lack of Awareness might help prevent our Interference. How does the Self-Resolution Unfold?

The two long green lines are “Quincunxes” – an “Unx” is one twelfth, here 1/12th of the Zodiac or one Sign, and “Quin” is of course 5 – the green lines are 5 Signs long. A Quincunx means Curiosity. Not Curiosity in the sense I gotta figure this out! but Curiosity in the sense of Awe. So our most appropriate Response to the Eclipse would be to Watch or Experience it Slack-Jawed, in Awe. A Quincunx is a Mystery School, where we need to put our 2D tools (Mind) back in the toolchest, Ask to be Informed, and Wait for nD tools to reveal themselves.

There’s a Mysterious Relationship here between Pan, the Primary God of Nature, and Disbelief, that’s somehow involved with the Manifestation of our Enlightenment. And another Mysterious Relationship between Disbelief and The Birth (Klotho) of a New Field (Arachne). Arachne is Grandmother Spider, Who Weaves the Web of Life. So there are things that are Unfolding which are beyond what we can Understand Intellectually.

The Shift Network is sponsoring a course on Communicating Soul to Soul with the Spirit World, presented by “Mystic, Medium, and Author” Suzanne Giesemann. I’d never heard of her, but I Learned enough listening to her hour-long Preview last night, to Connect with many passed Relatives, and a few of my former Teachers. First time I’ve ever had two-way conversations with Disincarnate Spirits. She’s offering a free recording of this Preview for at least three more days (till 5 April 2023), at https://theshiftnetwork.com/Engage-in-Soul-to-Soul-Communication.

What sort of nD Relationships with Disbelief are we talking about here? The 2D Mind will only have enough bandwidth to find Metaphors, but we might be able to get more Intuitive Perspective by Asking for a download from our Teachers and Ancestors on the Other Side of the Veil. Just because someone’s on the Other Side, that doesn’t mean they Know more than you do already, but Suzanne introduces simple ways to Validate what you’re Picking Up. If you aren’t in steady Contact with the Other Side of the Veil already, there’s at least a Talking Mirror here. Validation is important, as our Comprehension of this New Field (Klotho-Arachne) is Explicitly Challenged by Untruthes (Square to asteroid Pinocchio).

There’s one more Stellium and one more Conjunction in this Blood Moon chart, so we haven’t Exhausted the Opportunities for mini-Enlightenments yet. They’re Linked to Pan through a Grand Cross (four planets more or less equally spaced around the Zodiac) which introduces a Series of Small Challenges that Complement one another. A Grand Cross is Self-Resolving, though there may be some Temporary Discomfort if the segments of the Resolution are separated in Time.

The Stellium involves Intrusive Memories (Gonggong), Truth of the Mind (Veritas), and Confusion (Neptune). The Intrusive Memories are highly likely to be Clues about our Held Emotions, if we Pursue them as Teachings, and sidestep the Temptation to Relive them as Coulda Woulda Shouldas. The Intrusive Memories Intruded in 2015, but remember that Everything that Ever Happened in a Place Is Still Going On, and we have the advantage that by reviewing the astrology we’re Indirectly Triggering our Experience of the 2015 Eclipse, even if we don’t Remember Experiencing its Energy.

The Truth of the Mind tells us to Compare Everything we Learn here to What We Already Know, but not to Reject Anything that doesn’t Agree, but to Practice our Skill with “Cognitive Dissonance,” the Practice of Holding Contradictory Propositions in Mind at the Same Time without Argument between them, which is Essential Practice for using our Mentality in Dimensions higher than 2.

Neptune, Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, here completes the Suite by Reminding us that Confusion is the First Stage of Growth in Consciousness. Without Being Comfortable with Confusion and Standing Still for It, we’ll never get to Allowing Cognitive Dissonance to Enliven Paradox. One trick to make it easier to Live with Neptune, is to shift our Vision from the Mind to the Heart, as the Heart Perceives Spirit and its Clarity. If we Channel the 2015 Blood Moon fully here, we won’t be able to Discern the Difference between Intellectual Truth, Confusion, and Ancient Memory, and that’s Important to Grokking the Enlightenment.

Besides Pan and the Gonggong Triad, the third member of the Grand Cross is the Merger between Mars and Orcus – only two Concepts to Merge – how Easy by now, right? Mars is about Action, and Orcus is about Pattern-Making and Pattern-Breaking, namely, Creating and Letting Go of Karma. So we’re Expected to Actively Let Go of any Attachment we have to Self-Sabotaging Habits. The subscript is that Anger may be involved in our Held Emotions, and that there may be Resistance to Letting Go of our Anger, especially if we’ve heavily Invested our Ego into being Victims of our Pet Peeves.

Mars was the God of War, and there’s nothing he Enjoys more. Orcus was the Enforcer of Oaths in pre-Roman days in what is now Italy, and his methods were gruesome, as most of the Oaths he Enforced were involved Commitment to Armies. Commitment to things like Fidelity were not even considered in those days. We were Free then to Abuse anyone or anything of lower status than ours. Financial Commitments were probably more one-way Commitments than two-way “Bargains” as Civilized Law expects. There’s probably no more Important Held Emotion to Embrace, than Anger, as we Experience Anger in the Unconscious as Anger Directed Toward us. Another Clue.

Finally, the fourth corner of the Grand Cross contained The Fall of Overtechnologized Civilization (asteroid Atlantis). If any of your Strategies involve Increasing Complexity, turn around and Walk toward Simplicity instead. Universal Equality and Respect for All Things is probably as Simple as we can get.

Fearbruary IV

By now we’re bearing down hard on Fearbruary’s namesake, dwarf planet Sedna, which is about Converting Fear to Power. We’ve been reminding that Fear plus Breathing equals Excitement, Fear plus Tapping equals Grounding and Presence (which is intimidating to would-be antagonists), and Fear plus Kegels equals Power. In addition to a hefty dose of Terror, the Sedna story also contains strong elements of Anger and Competition.

I was into my forties before I realized that Anger was my Habitual Reaction to Fear. Useful when it’s a Fight you can Win, but when Flight or Freeze is Safer, let alone Negotiate, not so much. All Karma is a Powerful Skill, but only when we can Choose to use it when appropriate and not use it when it ain’t. If Karma is a knee-jerk Reaction, it’ll get us in trouble more often than not. We Heal that by getting Conscious about it.

Sedna is at its Strongest (Stationary) as we come up to 1pm PST 8 February, in 28 Taurus. The chart is pretty benign…

The basic Configuration is a “Square Fez with a Chinstrap” – a red-sided trapezoid with a fifth planet at the midpoint of the base. The Chinstrap – dwarf planet Ceres (Sustainability and Sustenance), is where the Power emerges. The two naked Squares (red lines) are where potential Challenges will be spawned – Sedna (Fear) to asteroid Karma (Karma) or Fear about Letting Go of What We Know Best (our Karma), and Pluto (TranceFormation) to dwarf planet Haumea (Rebirth) or Failing to Discern the Difference between Physical Death from Ego Death.

If we could train ourself to instantly Discern an Ego Death from a Threat of Physical Death, and Realize that Resistance is Futile when it comes to Letting Go of the Known (it’s inevitable, and it’ll probably be harder later), our Lives would be so much more Sustainable (the chinstrap), wouldn’t they. So we could Pray for Physical Safety, Pretend we’re Acting in a Play, Enjoy the Drama from the Perspective of the audience, and make the most out of these Opportunities to Practice these two Cosmic Skills (Ego Death and Letting Go of Karma). Letting Go of Karma usually requires an Ego Death anyway, so this is really an Amazing Opportunity.

Note: If you use a Theta Prayer, you can check to see if your prayer will work, modify it and check again, iterating as many times as necessary, till you find just the right Prayer to give you in-the-Gut Confidence in your Safety.

But a Square Fez offers an Alternative to its Challenges, namely its Diagonals (the green lines, which are “Quincunxes,” or 5 Signs long). Notice that each Square is simultaneously in two Tricolors (a triangle made up of a red Square, a green Quincunx, and either a Trine or a Sextile – a long or short blue line). A Tricolor allows one to Liberate the Grace in the blue lines by Embracing the Permanent Curiosity in the green line, which can Resolve the Challenge in the red line.

By Permanent Curiosity we mean Avoiding Trying to Figure It Out – Recognizing that Confusion is one of our most Valuable Emotions and not an invitation to “Left-Brain” Research and Analysis. If we can stay Present with the Confusion Emotion and Learn to Celebrate it, it will lead us to much more Powerful places. Someone once said (Einstein? Maybe) that “We can’t Solve a Problem using the same Thinking that postulated the Problem.” Confusion, if you can Embrace it as the Emotion that it is, will open your Intuition to a kind of Thinking that will Solve the Problem, or more likely, Perspectives that will Reframe the Problem into Opportunities.

A Quincunx is a miniature Mystery School, like a Zen Koan or a piece of a Yin Gate, a Portal to the next step in our Evolution. When you try to contemplate the sound of one hand clapping, for instance, if you take the effort seriously, you’ll be Expanding and Reframing your notions of Sound, of Hands, of Honoring, of Action, and who knows what else, and you might even discover why Beatniks used to “clap” by snapping their fingers.

The Major Tricolors (Square-Quincunx-Trine), like…

Pluto-Square-Haumea-Quincunx-Sedna-Trine-Pluto or TranceFormation Challenging Rebirth which is Curious about Fear and Power and how it might make TranceFormation Effortless,

and Sedna-Square-Karma-Quincunx-Pluto-Trine-Sedna,

…lead to Dumb-Luck Blessings that are typical of Trines. The Minor Tricolors (Square-Quincunx-Sextile), like…

Haumea-Square-Pluto-Quincunx-Karma-Sextile-Haumea or Rebirth making TranceFormation difficult while TranceFormation is in Awe of Inertia, and if we Step into it we can sort of see how Inertia facilitates Rebirth,

and Karma-Square-Sedna-Quincunx-Haumea-Sextile-Karma,

…lead to greater Engagement and probably more Wisdom, as a Sextile doesn’t unlock its Grace till we take the First Step, Participating instead of just Observing. Notice that we’re just following different paths around the lines inside the twelve-sided circle. Each path offers a different Curriculum for us, and if we have the time, we could maximize this Opportunity by following them all. Eventually we’ll end up at Ceres, the chinstrap, and make our Life more Sustainable. We’d just be adding -Sextile-Ceres to the end of each Major Tricolor, and -Quincunx-Ceres to the end of each Minor Tricolor.

So the keys to the Tricolors are Haumea-Quincunx-Sedna, Karma-Quincunx-Pluto, Pluto-Quincunx-Karma, and Sedna-Quincunx-Haumea. And then, if we Chose the more Rewarding but more Effortful Minor Tricolors, we’ll have to add Haumea-Quincunx-Ceres and Karma-Quincunx-Ceres in order to “Cross Go” and Earn our Sustainability Merit Badge (if you haven’t Learned to Fully and Lovingly Embrace All of your Emotions yet, you may not Realize that Earth is just a Very Deep board game). Let’s take an example, say, Haumea-Quincunx-Sedna.

So we have a Koan about the Relationship between Rebirth and Fear/Power. (It might help to remember what Artemisia said about Power in The Findhorn Garden.) Certainly we Fear Rebirth. Our Ego is probably very Attached to our Toys and Colleagues in the Current Incarnation, and loathe to give them up. Those are Intellectualizations, and the Intellect doesn’t have the Power to Evolve us, because it’s basically a Logic machine. Give it some rules and some starting conditions, and it can dummy up a pretty fair simulation. But where is the Evolution in that? We’re just rearranging the deckchairs in our Existing Concept Set.

How might there be Power in Rebirth? How might it Feel to be Conscious of all of our Parallel Lives? Now we’re starting to get into some Koan-like Questions, which may Open us to new Intuitions that Expand our Concept Set. “How might it Feel…” is particularly Open-Ended. If you don’t just find the list of Emotions in the back of your Alexanders book and highlight a few, but Open your Emotional Body to the actual Experience, what might happen? You probably Relive some part of your Past every day. Can you be there in the Cafeteria Line, and also Be Here Now? It might be more inviting to Remember what it was like to Make Love with your All-Time Favorite Lover and also Be Here Now.

Does that feel like fuses blowing in your head? That might be a good sign. One – just One – part of what’s involved with actual Permanent Curiosity (aka Awe or Wonder, but not Wondering about, Wondering at instead), is that we have to Conceive of more Dimensions than we’re used to working with, and different Rules. Since the Universe is Both/And, what is a Contradiction to the Intellect is a Paradox to our Curiosity. Do we even know what a Paradox is, or is it just something unexplainable? It should be something that defies our Concepts of Reality, something that forces us to Choose between what we See and what we Know, or somehow Embrace them both.

A number of the folks in the Antichrist’s Cult may be doing that now, Knowing that just a month ago they were Legends in their Own Minds, but Seeing that now they’re Criminals. Many may Choose to be Martyrs, where both Stories can seem to be True, rather than Expanding their Concept Set to include the possibility that not everyone appreciates White Supremacy, or Expanding their Concept Set to include the possibility that Other People may actually have a right to Exist. But again, these are Intellectualizations. We can’t Predict how any given person will Expand their Consciousness if and when they do, because they’re an Organism much more Complex and Multidimensional than our Observing Mind.

The point is that we may be going through a similar process, where some of what we See and what we Know are splitting apart. If we find ourself trying to figure out how to put Humpty-Dumpty back together again, we may want to Change the Program, and begin to Appreciate Curiosity as the Blessing that it is, as it is, without having to Dissect it. You might also find yourself in a place where you’re being Reborn and your Trances Reformed and your Karma is backing off, you Feel Empowered and Delighted by the process, and it Feels Sustainable. More Power to you!

Self-Doubt 3

Here’s the picture of the Sappho-Station chart that stars Eris…

We’re actually getting a little ahead of ourself, as we haven’t discussed the role of Sappho in Her own Station chart yet, but this is important too.  The Configuration is called a Yin Gate.  You won’t find much information about the Yin Gate in the astrological literature, because I made it up.  But you can read all about it at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/12/02/the-yin-gate-and-piavas/.  In a nutshell, a Yin Gate is a Mystery School, where we’re forced to Accept Paradox as primary.  In order to do that, we need to reject Dualism and Contradiction, ie, get out of the mindbone.

These days, because there are so many charts and so little time, I usually just read the central axis, which is, after all, what distinguishes a Yin Gate from an “ordinary” Golden Rectangle.  But feel free to read the four Quincunxes (long green lines) yourself – the link above tells how, as they’re always instructive…

• Fear/Power (Sedna) and Rebirth (Haumea)
• Denial (Eris) and Expansion (Jupiter)
• Truth (Aletheia) and Denial (Eris)
• Rebirth (Haumea) and Despair/Miracles (Chiron)

And you can read the two diagonal Oppositions (long red lines) that Describe the Golden Rectangle itself…

• Fear (Sedna) and Expansion (Jupiter) – what’s Mysterious about Expanding into Fear?
• Truth (Aletheia) and Despair/Miracles (Chiron) – which is actually closer to Truth, the Despair or the Miracle?

The central axis here is Eris Opposite Haumea.  To the Left Brain this represents a Contradiction between Denial and Rebirth.  That might suggest to us that by Opening Up To What We’ve Been Denying, we can be Reborn.  That’s common in religions, where Opening Up to the Denial that the Great Spirit (usually in one of Her Fraudulent Disguises) is In Charge Allows us to be Born Again. 

And that’s Great, because Denial of a Higher Power is one of the worst Self-Sabotages we can Perpetrate – it’s exactly how Science is Destroying the Planet.  Of course the religions, with their Fake-News Godheads, are doing Gaia no favors either.  Both tend to be Fundamentalist, which means that they take their Metaphors Literally – they Believe their own Propaganda.  And that’s exactly how they Sabotage themselves, because they aren’t Open to the Multidimensionality of Real Life.  Their strategies work until they don’t.

The crux is that we can’t Open Up To What We’ve Been Denying, because it’s in the Unconscious, which by definition is not accessible to our Consciousness.  By Dynamic or Plan-Execute means.  But that’s exactly what PIAVA does, it Allows the Ego and the Unconscious to Communicate and Co-Create Constructively.

So in a Yin Gate, an Eris-Haumea Opposition suggests that we need to Open Up to the Paradoxes about how Denial and Rebirth Interact.  What are those?  Well, they’re Unknowable, because in a Yin Gate they cross the Conscious-Unconscious Barrier.  So we have to PIAVA – Pray or Intend or Ask or Visualize or Affirm (or Command or Feel Into or Go Meta or…) that these Paradoxes be Revealed to us – and that we don’t instantly murder them by stuffing them into the closed box of Understanding.

Healing Abuse Full Moon

The Paradox Yin Gate Full Moon will impact us strongly from a few days before 31 March (4:30 am PST), to several weeks thereafter.  It’s at 11 Degrees of Libra.  A Yin Gate (three Oppositions one Sign apart; the Power arises from the four Quincunxes formed by the ends of the Oppositions) Configuration symbolizes a Mystery School to Teach us how to Accept Paradox…

“The current composition of the Earth’s space comes into being through a very limited cooperation between the rational mind on one side and the consciousness of nature, including its life forces, on the other.  It is a result of a millennia-long process during which the [European-dominated] collective human mind has selected only those elements of the multidimensional reality that can be addressed through rational thought and causal logic.  We [in Cultures of European origin] currently perceive and live in space as a rationally structured extract of reality, not reality itself.” –Mark0 Pogačnik, Sacred Geography, p.13.

Communication (Mercury) Conjoins Essence (the Sun), indicating Insight, while asteroids Trust (Eurydike) and Endings (Atropos) are Merged with (Conjoin) the Goddess (Moon), signifying that we’re in the process of Letting Go of Barriers to Trust.  The Full Moon itself is one diagonal axis of the Yin Gate, while the Nodal Axis is the other – meaning that the Paradoxes that we’re Learning to Accept As They Are (rather than trying to squeeze them into Duality) here are Fundamental to Life.

Action (Mars), Focus (Saturn), and Letting Go of Obstacles to Self-Sovereignty (Hylonome) Challenge (T-Square) the Full Moon.  Bottom Line, this Full Moon (apart from the Paradoxes) is about Trusting that if we take the Risk to Express our True Self, the Universe will make a Safe Space for us.

We can Expect major Epiphanies around Fear, Truth, and Self-Abandonment (Mjōlnirs to Sedna from the Moon-Hylonome Square, to Veritas from the Sun-Hylonome Square, and to Hynonome-Saturn-Mars from the Veritas-Sedna Square; a Mjōlnir is formed when a third planet sits at the Far Midpoint between the two ends of a Square, Trioctile to each).  When Fear arises, and when you don’t feel Grounded, remember your Tapping, Breathing, and Kegels.

The crux (central axis) of the Paradox Lesson is the Opposition between Abuse and Privilege (Nessus) and Breaking Oaths (Orcus).  Under the Duress of Abuse, we made Pledges to ourself such as “I can Never talk about this or they’ll Kill Mom,” and “This is too Painful or Weird, I have to Numb myself to it in order to Survive,” and “I don’t know how or when, but someday I’ll get even for this,” and the like. 

The Pledges may have been Conscious, Semi-Conscious, or fully Unconscious (made without our Conscious Awareness).  Abuse can take many forms – sexual, physical, mental, emotional, neglect or Abandonment, overfocus or Suffocation, Shaming, and many other processes, including Adults Expecting to be Parented by their Children.

These Oaths present major Lose-Lose Dilemmas.  By definition we were on the Losing end of Privilege, which means we lacked a context and language to put the Abuse into any sort of Framework or Context.  No matter how Obsessively we tried, we were never able to figure out “What did I do to Deserve this?” 

So we never had a way to Explain it to ourself, let alone talk about it, even if we could do so without disastrous consequences.  That’s still True today.  You can Justify neither your Victim nor your Outrage, and those two Mysterious and Powerful parts of yourself are still Arguing vehemently with one another inside yourself.

The Paradox is that It-Was-What-It-Was and there’s nothing we can do to Change it other than (starting by) Accepting our Confusion for the True Emotion that Confusion is, without trying to make Sense of it. 

It might help us get grounded if we open a journal and write out both sides of the Argument, one of the left-hand page and the other on the right-hand page.  The “Reasons” for the Abuse we received were not from the Current Lifetime, which Limits our ability to Grok What Happened and Why.  Give the Effort to Understand over to the Goddess, every time you’re Tempted to Indulge it.

Poor-Sweetheart your Abused Self, your Confused Self, your Angry Self, and any other Folk who show up.  Then Listen to see if they have anything to say to you.  Healing won’t occur till you Learn to Embrace every one of your Inner Denizens with Unconditional Self-Love.  Consistently and Permanently.  See if you can move in this direction while using as few words as possible.

Women and Chaos 4

Did you remember from chapter 1 that there are two Yin Gates in the March Stations chart?

This second one is about Fear of Growth (Sedna-Jupiter).  Or at least, it would be about that if we weren’t in the Reaches.  In the Realm of Paradox we know that Growing and Harnessing Fear as Power are set to Surprise us, if we’re Open to it, with all manner of new Information about all of the ways that they might Dance with one another. 

Marilyn’s Arcturian Source continues…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

“The decision to take action toward reclaiming one’s power can be and often is very frightening for a person used to living under the thumb of some other person,  group or particular belief system.  This is especially true for those who in one or more past lives have experienced dire consequences from resisting a commonly held belief.  As a result, the energy of these experiences is frequently still alive and well in their cellular memory, causing them to hesitate and fear ‘rocking the boat’ even when they desperately want to.

“That is why in this time of intense awakening many of those ready and being urged to reclaim their power are experiencing confusion and fear for no apparent reason (most have no idea of why they are experiencing these emotions).  Old cellular memory is actively reminding them of what happens if they assert their independence and power.  This is why it is so important to clear all remaining old programming which you yourself can easily do.

“In your quiet time when there will be no interruptions, state your choice and intention to clear all old and no longer relevant energy from past and present life experiences, from physical inheritance, and from all vows taken and promises made.  Invite your Higher Self and Guides to assist you in this meditation.  ‘In the presence of my Higher Self and my Guides, I choose…’

“Talk to the cells of your physical body, which have an  intelligence.  Tell them that it is time to release all old but still active third dimensional energy.  Visualize Light flowing through your physical, emotional, mental, spiritual bodies, and chakras with the intention of clearing them of all old programing and energy regarding health, age, deterioration, fears, abundance, etc. — any and all false concepts previously held as truth.  Intend that from now on they allow in only the high resonating energies of truth and Light.

 

“Many will find that the very things they fear or suffer from escalate following this type of clearing meditation, but this means that they have succeeded in allowing these old energies to surface in order to be looked at, seen for what they are, and once and for all released.

 

“Every awakened soul is being guided at this time to stand strong in their truth, be it taking issue with some concept alive and well within themselves, a personal circle of friends and family, or with regard to the many larger issues still alive and well in consensus consciousness.”

The corners of the blue box (which is actually a “Golden Rectangle” because the ratio of the long sides to the short is the Golden Ratio of Sacred Geometry – the significance is that if Flows with the Ease of Nature) can also Illuminate us.  Our old friends from Dragon Lore, Active Belief and Infinite Improbability (Mars-Vesta and Chaos) are there. 

But the other axis is New to us – Rebirth and Revelation (Haumea and Eris).  Remember that the Star Arcturus stands just behind Haumea, which explains why the Arcturian Channels have been mirroring the astrology so closely.  Haumea is acting as a Gravitational Lens focusing Arcturian Wisdom toward Earth.  Sometimes it just really seems like “You can’t make this stuff up.”

Or it could just be a trap, a Mind Control Ray sent to keep us from Paying Attention to the Lizards who continue to dismantle our Planet and deposit the shards in their little Bitcoin Wallets.  What a bad joke that is.  Actually, that’s the Mind Control Ray from the main stream, the “You’re Crazy” Scam. 

Truth is Different for everyone, and Truth resides in the Heart, not the Dualistic mind.  Truth is a Paradox.  From the first time I heard her sing it, when Jewel advises us to

“No Longer Lend Our Strength to That Which We Wish to Be Free From,”

it slides into my Heart between the DNA strands, filling the gap from which it had always been missing.

After twenty years it still brings Tears.  There is no Question where Truth resides.

Women and Chaos 3

Omigosh, I just realized that I fat-shamed those Aliens by comparing them to a Tent!  Please forgive me!  I didn’t mean it that way!  You folks have a lot more Muscle Definition, and far better Colors than the Tent.  And those orange knobs make perfect accessories.  And Oh, those boots!

But back to the March chart…  A Grand Sextile makes our Efforts Easy, by contributing Blessings from the Outside, and also by improving the results of our own Efforts.  An Almost-Grand-Sextile will do the same, but adding the one Missing “Almost” Energy is up to us.  If we fill in the Almost-Grand-Sextile in the March Stations chart, it looks like this…

The Energy we need to add is the Energy of the 24 Virgo Vacancy, “Mary and her little lamb.”  Rudyar adds “The need to keep a vibrant and pure simplicity at the core of one’s being.”  That shouldn’t be too hard; just eschew Complexity and Convolution. 

In this case there’s also a fixed Star in the Vacancy, Denebola, the tip of Leo the Lion’s tail.  Denebola Recommends Non-Conformance – that we Respect Our Own Viewpoint more than the mainstream’s, without Rejecting the latter.  If you have a natal planet near 24 Virgo you don’t have to do anything except be yourself, and you’re Golden.

The big blue triangle at the center of the chart is a big Expansion-Truth-Ego Death (Jupiter-Aletheia-Nemesis) Emotional Dumb-Luck Blessing (Water Grand Trine) that provides the major External Grace.  This is a boon, as it proposes that the Ego Deaths necessary to Allow us to Grow into our Truth will be much less Traumatic than they would otherwise be.  A good time to take Risks toward What We Want. 

Also an excellent time to Strive to Recover any Lost Emotions.  List the major Emotions – Joy, Anger, Fear, Grief… there are many more, and many shades of each.  How many do you Experience?  Are there any that you never Feel?  Do you even know about them if you’ve never Felt them?  You could compare your list with someone else’s to see.  If you find any that are missing from your Stable, it is an excellent time to go Round them Up.

The double Kites (Directed Blessings) also stand out, with Pluto and Sedna at the head of each.  A Kite is a Grand Trine with a fourth planet midway between two of the original three.  It moves the Grace toward the planet at the top of the Kite, here granting us extra Grace around Harnessing Fear (Sedna) and Transforming Addiction (Pluto).  Fear and Addiction are two major Barriers to Accepting the Ego Deaths that will Allow us to Grow into our Truth.

Fear is Power – you can Feel that very clearly in your Body when it Dances with you or even nearby.  If it renders you “Beside Yourself,” you can regain Control by Tapping it Out, or better yet, with Kegels.  Kegels Harvest Fear Energy directly by slowing Time.  And of course there are always the higher maths – “Fear plus Breathing equals Excitement.”

Addiction and Ego fit together as naturally as a Horse and and Horseshoe.  We’re definitely Addicted to the Karmic Archetypes that keep us from Growing into new Arenas, and often as not we use Addictive substances to help enforce them.  I’m nervous about doing that; I need a cookie to settle my nerves.  Oh, yeah, that’s right, cookies aren’t the best Nutrition; I’ll have ice cream instead.  Or maybe both.  What was it we were talking about?

But Pluto is also Transformation, or Trance Re-Formation, in addition to Compulsion.  If you’re struggling with repetitive Self-Sabotaging Behaviors, PIAVA to Learn the Trance that you need to Revert.  When did you make that Vow, and why?  Remember that Resistance is Futile when Pluto is involved.  When you start to lose traction on ice or snow, you have to steer into the slide, so your tires act like wheels again instead of skis.  What would “steering into” your favorite Self-Sabotaging Addiction look like?

Look closely at the blue box surrounding the red X in the middle of the Almost-Grand-Sextile chart.  Did you spot the distinctive green side-by-side dos equis that betray the Yin Gate embedded in it?

One of the glories of the Paradoxes that Yin Gates promote  is that they force us to stay with Simplicity – Mary and her Lamb – while we move into what would otherwise be Complexity.  The central Distinction of this Yin Gate is Chaos or Infinite Improbability Opposing Mars-Vesta or – what sort of Beliefs would that be?  Vesta symbolizes Belief, Mars Action.  So we’d at least be talking about Active Beliefs.

In the Olde Days they’d write “There Be Dragons” on maps where they didn’t know what Improbabilities lurked.  That’s a good example of an Active Belief.  If you carried such a map and someone thought your Fears were silly, how would you Feel?  Your Actively Defended Beliefs are the most Dangerous.  You not only Believe it, but you can’t stand to hear otherwise.  Now we’re talking about something that begs to be Examined.

We’re still in the Water Grand Trine; we’ve just Morphed it into a Yin Gate.  So yes, Ego Death threatens.  We might have to prove your Belief to be wrong.  If we were in the Realm of Analysis that is.  But we aren’t.  We’re now in the Reaches, in the Realm of Paradox.  As Ursula likes to say, “Rules Change in the Reaches.”  Where there isn’t enough Repetition of the Olde Ways, there isn’t enough Power in the Olde Spells.  New Rules.

So we’ve Identified a Fear, and it implies a Belief.  From the Fear, of an Unsafe Place for example, we think we know what the Belief must be – “There Be Dragons,” for instance.  To do Paradox, we need to drop that step, that knowing, or thinking that we know.  In the Reaches, what we know Intuitively is probably wrong, or at least inappropriate.  Not enough Power in the Olde Spells.

We need to approach Paradox with Curiosity.  Not the sort of Curiosity that stays up late looking for answers, but the sort that causes your jaw to go slack when a bright green Butterfly with orange medallions crawls out of an ugly and lifeless black valise hanging from a twig, and Offers its Wings to the Sun Goddess.  Our ideas about who the Aliens are, are probably wrong, or at least inappropriate.

Here’s Marilyn Raffaele’s take on it…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

“Every soul holds the one and only Power within–it is your true identity and your birthright as an expression of Source.  However, living life after life on earth under the rules of a third dimensional belief system, has caused almost everyone at some point to surrender their power and give it to those they erroneously believed had a right to it, or to those who through violence took it. 

 

“The result of this as been the creation of a conditioned state of consciousness still alive and well in impersonal universal consciousness.  This state of consciousness manifests as game playing, lying, pretending to be something one is not, and falsity in all or select levels of life in the belief that this is necessary if one is to attain success or acceptance (desire for love). 

 

“Non-conformity is a facet of awakening and is the birth of integrity and true honesty.  Personal non-conformance begins when one awakens into a more enlightened state of consciousness which  brings new ways of seeing and knowing the truth about self and others.  This new state of consciousness then begins to express as more informed and higher resonating words and actions within all aspects of daily living. 

 

“The energy and resulting false powers of the third dimension are beginning to dissolve into the nothingness that they really are because their substance (beliefs), that which holds them in place, is disappearing as more and more people awaken.  Non-conformance is simply the act of knowing and living out from a higher sense of reality apart from commonly accepted but false concepts of an unenlightened society — ‘I am choosing to no longer play third dimensional games.’ “

Endings II

Another place where we get very Confused about Boundaries, is the Edge between Ego and Soul.  Most people I meet have a very hard time imagining anything except a solid, opaque wall between themselves and their Soul, and they don’t even expect Mexico to pay for it.  Daniel Scranton Channels some Pleiadian Wisdom about this…

http://danielscranton.com/mission-earth-%e2%88%9ethe-pleiadian-high-council-of-seven-3/

“Before you ever set foot on planet Earth for the very first time, you understood that this was a mission.  You understood that Earth had a very special place in the galaxy and that you were embarking upon a very specific mission for all of consciousness.

“You all saw this experience as the greatest possible challenge that you could embark upon.  And while you knew that there would be some very dark times, quite a bit of pain, and a little too much suffering, you stepped right up to it and decided that this was the only place for you to be.

“Now as you began your cycle of lifetimes on planet Earth, you also understood how far you would be able to expand.  You understood that the reward for being on planet Earth was like none other in the galaxy.  And so you feel that the pain and suffering was worth it.  You may not feel it now, from where you stand, but we guarantee you that you feel it on the level of your higher self and your oversoul.

“Your next mission on this journey will be to create a brand new Earthly experience for yourselves and for all future generations, and those experiences will not be about challenges.  The next mission is about experiencing joy and unbridled, unconditional love.  You have come this far in order to feel what it is like to move from the depths of darkness to the heights of ecstasy.

“Now when you decide to embark upon the new mission is up to you.  It is up to you how much longer you play with the third-dimensional rules and when you fully embrace the fifth-dimensional perspective, the fifth-dimensional frequency, the fifth-dimensional experience of reality.  We know that many of you feel ready, and we say to you that you are.  It is all just a matter of opening your heart, letting that be your guide, and forgetting everything that you think you have learned up until this point.”

The chart of the Atropos Station is relatively simple.  Atropos Conjoins – meaning that it’s Merged With (speaking of Boundaries) Eurydike, or Trust – still barely moving after it’s 4 February Station, and precisely Conjunct Atropos when the latter Stands Still.  Are we Scared to Let Go of What We Know So Well, this Karma, and Accept what lies beyond Endings, the Unknown?  That would be natural.  If you considered it carefully, you might well find you’d much rather Step Out of your Karmic Self-Sabotage Patterns than Stay In them.  But considering it carefully would mean you’d have to recognize that your Karma is your own Creation.  Most of the time most of us just Feel Victimized by our Archetypes, as if they were woven by Someone Else.

The ignorati refer to this as “New Age Guilt,” the idea that somehow I Chose to Manifest the Reality I Live in.  Why would I Choose Suffering?  They see it that way simply because they are unable to refer to their Soul as “I” – they see their Soul as Someone Else.  So this Adventure is about Trusting that we can End Habits that no longer serve us, and still Live Well afterwards.  If it was Someone Else who installed those Habits, do we Fear that they will Punish us if we End them?  If we still Live our Life as a Child subject to our Programmers’ rules, of course we do.  But we as a Soul Chose those Programmers, to set up situations that Mirror our Karma, so we can Recognize it and End it.  Part of our Mission.

Eurydike-Atropos Station in fact makes a Trine Bridge, defining the Easy Path, across the Nodal Axis.  The Nodal Axis is nothing if it’s not our map for getting from our Karma to our Mission.  Asteroid Sappho – Self-Love – sits on our South Node, which symbolizes the Karma that we’ve sown, the Patterns and Archetypes we took this Lifetime to Let Go of.  Do we Love Ourself in spite of our Karma?

Our Mission is not Letting Go of our Karma.  It’s just that the Hidden Skills which we need in order to Achieve our Mission, are hidden beneath our Held Emotions.  Held Emotions are the Emotions we cannot face because it would be too Scary, our cosmic PTSD.  Letting Go of our Karma, Letting Go of those Archetypes, those seemingly unshakeable Habits that Sabotage us over and over again, requires that we Feel those Forbidden Emotions, requires an Ego Death.  Yet the Ego’s job is to keep us Alive.  Which is the same error we all make – the Ego is supposed to keep us Alive, not to keep itself Alive.  How can it keep us Alive though, if it Dies?  Another Paradox.

Our Karmic Archetypes are Compulsive, or we’d be able to Let them Go easily.  In the map of the Station, Pluto, symbolizing Compulsion, makes a Quincunx Bridge to the Nodal Axis.  A Quincunx Bridge is like meeting Gollum.  But rather than Solve the constant stream of Riddles, we need to Zen them – leave them as Riddles, unanswered.  Anything that the Dualistic mind can conjure to Respond to them, will be a knife in the Heart of Mystery. 

That Fearless Child, in Awe at the marvelous things around Her, completely unprepared to try to make Sense of them, and, apart from trying to Understand the Abuse she so unfairly Received, having no need to make Sense of them.  That Child, pre-Abuse, is the one we need to Recover.  She holds the Ring.  The Abuse is the re-enactment of our Karma.  Who were we before we stumbled into these Patterns of Sabotage?  We’d need to go back to Lilith, to our Self-Sovereignty.  It’s a Mystery, but if you let “I” be your Soul for a few moments, you’ll Know Exactly what it is and Who You Are.

In the Station chart, Pluto is Conjoined by Chariklo, representing our Self-Confidence.  The two of them Square Atropos-Eurydike, symbolizing Mastery through Challenge.  Mastering the subtle Art of having Confidence that our Compulsions will lead us back to Awe, the subtle Art of Trusting that Ending our 3D Timeline will Liberate us to a Greater Mastery.  It’s the same as Sappho-South Node; Loving Ourself as our Karma.  Can you let “I” be your Karma for a few moments? 

When we drop all Self-Judgment then it doesn’t matter Who We Are, does it.  We are simply Unconditional Love, Personified.  If we are “just” Love, then what do Patterns and Habits and Archetypes matter?  They don’t even exist.  We can’t be “just” Love without being in the Present Moment, and in the Present Moment our Karma is undefined.  Habits by definition Remove us from the Present Moment.

Endings I

From several posts back…

“13 February (8:30 am PST) – Atropos Stands Still.  Atropos is about Endings.  Hopefully all month we’ve been working on Ending our Disregard for and Misplacement of Trust, and our Disregard for and Misinterpretation of Fear.”

So the trick is Letting Go of What We’ve Outgrown, and Keeping or Accepting What We Want to Grow Into.

Atropos is one of the three Fates, which represent Karmic Patterns that run our Lives until we become Conscious of them, after which, likely with a short Adjustment period, we Choose.  Remember that our Archetypes are Skills, incredible Skills.  What’s “wrong” with them is that we’re Stuck in them, they fire automatically, and we don’t have Free Choice to Choose the Action or Words that would be most appropriate relative to What We Want to Manifest.  Once we (1) Notice the Archetype we’re Stuck in, (2) Learn to Choose alternatives, and after we’ve (3) Ended the Compulsion, we can (4) add the Archetypal Skill back into our Repertoire.  It’s not time yet for (4); we’re mostly at (3), but definitely welcome (1) and (2) as well.

Atropos, which is turning Retrograde, will back across the first seven Duads (2½ Degrees in a Duad) of Libra.  At this point (17½ Degrees), after Exploring any number of new Encounters with Other (Other People, Other Anything) since 27 November 2017, we’re just getting to where we’re Noticing new things about our Boundaries, noticing where We End and Other Begins.

One of the most Fundamental Karmic Archetypes is Us versus Them.  It’s not just Personal, it’s deep in most Huper Culture.  Even before the Hyper-Competitive Patriarchy took over, the Matriarchies, where the Individual Ego was barely recognized, were usually sharply and often violently divided into Tribes.

Microbes don’t seem to have a strong Us-versus-Them Culture, as they freely share DNA; Antibiotic Resistance has taught us that.  Karmic Us-versus-Them may have begun with the development of Dermis.  At any rate, it’s Ancient, and Ancient Habits aren’t easily Broken.

Contrast that to the Spiritual Perspective that We Are All One.  How many of us are already “too” Empathic, taking on Other People’s and Other Entity’s issues without having Consciously Chosen to do so?  If we try to view this Contradistinction with the Dualistic mind, the gulf is uncrossable.

It’s a Paradox that actually leads us into our Multidimensionality.  In 3D we need our Mirrors to stay Safe and to keep our Empathy from Overwhelming our Ego.  Pushing the Ego beyond the point of Overwhelm can cause a backlash in our Growth.  In 5D we’re in Harmony with the rest of “Us” – with the extra Dimensions there is no Contradiction between Us as an Individual and Us as All One.  It’s Both/And.

In other words, from our 3D Perspective, Confusion is likely to rule.  Confusion is the first stage of Growth, if we can stand to Let It Be rather than trying to “figure it out.”

Scary New Moon

The New Moon Opposes Sedna (Fear), which of course is great, as an Opposition implies Contradistinction, so as long as we’re Awake enough to Notice that Fear is present, we can contrast it to the Reboot (New Moon) of our Identity, and Congratulate ourself for Externalizing the Fear.  And yes, that part about “Awake Enough” is our bane.  But the Window is Open.

Fear has many disguises.  It often appears as Judgment and its cousins Resentment and Competition.  It can hide behind Codependence, Abandonment, or Suffocation.  It’s the source of Separation, the Ego’s Causative Principle.  We Be after all All One.  While the mind’s view of Reality is Dual, in Real Life it’s Unitary and Multifarious.  Sounds Paradoxical, and we’ll get to that.  We can think of Fear as the equivalent of Lucifer – Bringing of Light by Creating  Contrast to Darkness.  Fear, the Absence of Love, Brings Forth Love through Contrast.  If it’s not Unconditional Love – or Curiosity, it’s rooted in Fear.

Now this is the Scorpio New Moon, and how do we interpret Scorpio?  As Fearlessness.  Curiosity gone Compulsive, Relentless Curiosity.  When you find Fear, capture it, dissect it.  Does it have a Heart?  A Brain?  When it Shits, what comes out?  Does it fly like a Bat, or a Bird?  Is it Immortal?  What Color is it?  If it Creates, what is it likely to make?  What would your Universe look and Feel like without it?  Is Fear a Quantum, or a Vibration?  A Quark, or an Atom?  A Gas, or a Dust?  Next time it comes to your neighborhood, Ask it these questions, and any others that come to you.

When Neptune was the Outer Limit of our Consciousness, Pluto stood for Fate, that which we thought we couldn’t Escape.  Then we Stretched into Pluto, and Realized there was Choice.  From Sophocles to Shakespeare.  Now we’ve found and exceeded another Limit.  Most of the other dwarf planets beyond Neptune are called Plutoids because they have a lot in common with Pluto. 

Not Sedna.  It’s in a new class of its own, the Sednoids.  We know of only two so far.  While Plutoids take hundreds of years to circle the Zodiac, Sednoids take thousands.  The orbits of the Plutoids and Centaurs (dwarf planets between Jupiter and Neptune) are controlled by the Gravity of the Gas Giants (Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune), but Sednoid orbits are independent of all other planets, except the yet-to-be-located “Planet Nine.”

So here on the threshold of the next phase for Planet Earth and its denizens, the Outer Limit of our Consciousness is Fear.  When our Limits were Fated – or Fatal, we did not know Choice was possible.  There were Edges beyond which you simply Fell Off into Nothingness.  Now that we’ve seen the Infinite Improbability Machine – which is a necessary part of any Infinite Universe, our Edges are populated with Fear.  Now it’s Madness rather than Nothingness that lies beyond the Edge, where Fright Overwhelms all, the head spins around, and the Priest is useless.

If you’re finding anything other than Love, look underneath it Relentlessly, find where it’s Rooted in Fear.

The Moon-Sedna axis is the Central Axis of a Yin Gate.  Yin Gates are about Transcending the Linear or Dualistic mind, accepting Paradox, and courting Cognitive Dissonance, where we Emply and Enjoy several to many different apparently-conflicting Perspectives at the same time.  That Allows us to see more of Unitary and Multifarious Reality than the old Fundamentalist paradigms permitted.

On the map below, a Yin Gate is characterized by a blue rectangle divided in two the long way, with a green X in each half, and three intersecting red Oppositions defining the corners and  and the Central Axis…

The fundamental old-paradigm proposition is that Fear (Sedna) Opposes our Rebirth (New Moon).  Fear in all of its many forms pushes us back from the Edges of our Growth.  The Paradox is that Fear and Rebirth are Opposite sides of the Same Coin.  The Riddle lies in identifying the Coin.  Clues lie in the four corners of the blue rectangle, and their two additional Oppositions.  These are…

• Dwarf planet Haumea (Rebirth – whereas the New Moon Rebirths on a scale of weeks, Haumea Rebirths on a scale of decades) Oppose the Stellium of Uranus (our Soul Self), and the asteroids Pallas (Boundaries) and Moira (Choice).  What Fears prevent us from Choosing to Relax the Boundaries between our Ego and our Soul?  Does that sound like Death to you?  Yes, certainly – Ego Death, the only Death there is.  The rest is Transformation and Rebirth.

• Dwarf planet Chaos (not Disorder, but Unlimited Potential – Chaos is what Existed before the Greeks invented the Patriarchy, the sort of World where you could have Vipers for hair, and Rams could have fleece of Gold, the World that the Dualistic mind still Labors to suppress) is Opposed by the Stellium of Saturn (The Most Important Thing), the dwarf planets Ixion (our Forbidden Genius), Pholus (Responding in Full Consciousness in the Present Moment), and Quaoar (our Survival Instincts) – not to mention the Galactic Center.  That’s one Powerful Stellium!  Does it Balance Unlimited Potential?  Can you Feel the Coin in there?

The multiple Oppositions remind one of Da Vinci’s Vitruvian Man…

If you look closely, and include the two lightly-drawn green lines, you’ll see a second Yin Gate in this New Moon chart, this one wrapped around the Haumea-Uranus/Pallas/Moira Opposition.  So there are Mysteries and Paradoxes yet to unravel from our task of Choosing to Relax the Boundaries between Ego and Soul and Transcending Fear of Rebirth.  The other Oppositions in this Yin Gate are…

• Sedna Opposing the New Moon.

• Asteroid Atropos (Endings) Opposing Chiron – If we think of Chiron as the Unhealable Healer, then Ending this Unhealableness sounds like a great idea, even if it’s not very Mysterious or Paradoxical.  But we usually think of Chiron as the Opportunity to Transcend a Victim Space using Poor-Sweethearts.  In the Greek-Patriarchal view, Atropos are the Fated Endings.  But in our view, we look at the other side of the Coin – if we’ve got a good thing going, we can Choose not to End it.  So we would probably want to use this dynamic to dive Deeper, a la Scorpio, into TranscEnding our old views of Healing, and moving to a Deeper level of Skill.

One way of integrating all this is to Open to Ending the Limitations imposed upon us by Fear – by Noticing and Dissecting deeper and more subtle layers of  the Beliefs that constrain our Infinite Improbability Machine.  Starting maybe with our Belief that the Infinite Improbability Machine in our Imaginary closet doesn’t really work, and even if it did it would never work on our Perpetually-Frustrating unresolved Deepest Desires.  I mean, by now we’ve made so many Compromises, and so often Settled for what we thought was probably the best we could do, that it would be impossibly complicated to unwind all that, even if by some Miracle our Deepest Desires showed up on our front porch. 

How can we Manifest our Deepest Desires within the context of all of our Compromises and Make-Dos?  That would take a Miracle, wouldn’t it.  Well, would that be a Paradox?  Are we Afraid to Believe in Miracles?

Mentation

Michael Roads, in his “365 Steps…” message for today, here in the center of several Paradox-filled Yin Gate Configurations, describes better than I can the utility of mentation in our Spiritual Adventures…

http://int.michaelroads.org/

“Understanding is usually inappropriate for our spiritual journey.  Mystery is Truth unrealised.  Most understanding is based on a conceptual rationale, rather than actual realisation.

“Understanding is a valid challenge for our everyday life in a world of ever-increasing technology.  On your spiritual journey – which is the soul purpose of you being here in the first place – understanding is an anchor that will snag on every intellectual obstacle in your immediate vicinity.

“The way to make your spiritual journey as smooth and trouble free as possible is to eschew all need to spiritually understand it.  Accept the Mystery.  Accept that while Truth is unrealised, understanding is useless flotsam on a vast ocean.  It will not support you!  When you reach the shores of Truth, you will know just how futile that intellectual flotsam was!  Even though you may experience it, it is unlikely that you will ever truly understand the power of consciously . . . choosing Love!”