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Paranoid Thoughts?

June 5, 2018

We’re approaching 9 June’s Station of Nessus (3am PDT).  As most of you know, a planet’s Energy is Strongest at, and leading up to, its Station, and Nessus is about Healing Abuse and Privilege.  It’s in Pisces, which is all about Finishing Business and Letting Go of Excess Baggage, especially Heavy Emotions, so we can begin the next leg of our next Journey with a Light load.

Of course the quickest way to Heal anything is to Embrace it with Unconditional Love and Empathy, and to do that, we sometimes have to Re-Experience it in some form.  So all manner of Guilt, Veiled (or otherwise) Fear or Terror, and other Ugliness may arise between now and 9 June, including otherwise-unexplained unpleasant Experiences with other people that are Unconsciously Standing In as bit players in our Karmic Dramas.

Yes, they could be Reincarnations of our former Perps, but why not give them the Benefit of the Doubt and let them be Innocent, as in their Present Incarnation they’re likely to be.  After all, they could as likely be Reincarnations of former Victims or your own Abuse and Privilege, just with the roles switched for variety.

It’s important to be Aware that this is happening, so we can Respond positively.  It’s very easy to attribute such Flushbacks to the Present Moment, even though our daily Dramas are probably dime-novel Re-Enactments of our Karmic Traumas and all of Their previous attempts at Re-Enacting themselves, some of which could have Been or Felt very Real.

Remember that Consciousness pervades Everything, including our Karmic Traumas, and if we’re still in Separation (which to some extent we All are if we’re still Incarnate), then these Traumas are virtually “Entities” with a Life of Their own.  Until we Merge with Them, which can Be and Feel quite Horrible while we’re Transitioning into Their Experience. 

And once we’re Inside of Their Experience, we may need some or all of our Enlightened Consciousness (we All have at least some) to be Unconditionally Loving with Them.  Considering how many Lifetimes we’ve probably Lived (likely approaching Infinity), we have Seen It All Before, so it’s more about Being Loving and Gentle with all the Ickiness, once we get past being Horrified.  Maybe we should practice with Slugs.

When we mis-identify Karmic Flushbacks as Present Moment events, we’re very likely to make Decisions or Oaths like “I’ll never do that again” or “I’ll never talk to them again,” or far worse.  Decisions like this rapidly become Unconscious Limitations, and inhibit our Liberation.

We’ll draw up the chart soon, but suffice it to say for now that Orcus, the planet of Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking, Opposes the Stationary Nessus, forming the base of a T-Square to asteroid Moira.  Moira is about Fate.  Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious; Choice is what we Choose to exercise when we’re Conscious.  So we’re Taking Our Power and Breaking an Ancient Contract with our Fate, potentially the one that equates Life with Suffering.

We tend to think of such Contracts as “Facts of Life,” but in fact they’re just Political Choices we made so long ago that we’ve forgotten that it was our Choice.  While the Resistance may be substantial, and the Implications may be complex, we can actually Choose Whatever We Want.  And if we Consider it carefully and boldly, we can actually also Choose trivial Resistance and simple Implications.  That’s on of the reasons why we recommend adding “Lovingly and Gently” to our PIAVAs.

There is also a T-Square to asteroids Nemesis and Lachesis in the Nessus-Station chart.  Nemesis is about Ego Death, while Lachesis is about Choosing to Shift a Karmic or Fated Timeline before it would Shift on its own.  So what we’re really doing here, should we Choose to Accept it, is Shifting our Approach to Ego Death, toward Love and Excitement rather than Fear and Resistance. The base of this second T-Square is the Nodal Axis, with Mars (Anger or Action) on the South Node (Held Emotions) and Aletheia (Truth) on the North Node (Mission in the Lifetime).

Here’s Daniel Scranton’s Channeling for today…

http://danielscranton.com/join-team-ascension-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

We are taking nothing for granted when it comes to our participation in the shift in consciousness.  There are so many beings in this universe who are working to ensure that the shift not only occurs, but that it occurs in the way that serves the most.  We invite any and all of you who want to be a part of this conscious creation to move beyond waiting for something to happen.

“We invite you to join us in ushering in the shift and bringing about an expanded consciousness throughout the entire universe.  You don’t have to wait for any major event to occur in order to participate.

“This is a shift in consciousness, which means nothing in the physical realm is going to be responsible for making it happen.  It is the true nature of consciousness to expand and evolve, and therefore, as you make it your mission not to do something in the physical realm, but instead consciously evolve, you are joining the team.  You have opportunities every single day. They come to you in the choices that you are being given.

“And you can help yourselves and help the entire universe at the same time by making the choice that is more inclusive than exclusive.  You can help by processing your emotions.  You can help by making eye contact with someone else and helping that person understand that he or she matters.  You can be kind instead of being right.  You can forgive.  You can send transmissions of love and compassion.  You can speak your truth, be true to yourself, and love yourself no matter what you have done, or said, or thought.

“As you make a commitment now to joining the team that spans the entire galaxy and all dimensions, you are helping to usher in the best possible shift that we can all experience.  We are inviting you to join us, and we know many of you already have, but as you make the declaration, you are automatically accepted onto our little team.

Gauntlet VIII – Chiron

April 16, 2018

Anybody who’s “been here” a while knows that Chiron can be a Bear. 

It’s about Getting Conscious of our Wounds.  Like Saturn helping to Educate us about which Traumas are Really Going On in the Moment and which are Flushbacks, if we’re Conscious of our Wounds we can Differentiate them from new Arrows.  For Present-Moment Traumas we want to improve our Boundaries to stop or dodge the Arrows and Prevent further Harm, and for Flushbacks we want to be very Loving with ourself in order to Heal the Wounds. These are very Different Responses.

That’s a hidden benefit of using our Mirrors to fend off apparent negative Energy coming at us.  Using a Mirror is very Powerful for any situation where you’re having Difficulty being Present with yourself (or Others) and staying Grounded… 

  • When you’re talking to someone and feel insulted for instance.  Is that your Wound, or are you being Attacked?  Or both?  It takes a bit of Practice to Imagine a big Mirror, facing them, while you’re talking to someone, but once you get the hang of it, it’s not too hard.  If the Mirror Changes your Feeling State almost immediately, you were being Attacked. If it doesn’t Change your Feeling State, then it may be “just” your Wound. 

Using Mirrors might seem like a silly game, but your Wound is a Hole in your Aura.  It was installed by your Programmers so they could Control you.  Being Persistent about using Mirrors like this will eventually become a Habit; you’ll start to do the Energetic Equivalent of using a Mirror, but without the Mirror, and without thinking about it.  And that’s just another way of saying that  you’ve Healed the Hole in your Aura and taken a big step toward Self-Sovereignty.

  • Another excellent Mirror situation is when you’re mind is stuck in a Helicopter Trip.  You keep going ’round and ’round, either about some Duality you can’t Decide about, or when you’re Imagining arguing with someone or justifying yourself to them.  Take the first person you think of (it may not be the same person you’re arguing with), and Imagine Mirroring them.  If the Cycling stops, you’re Golden.  If it doesn’t, try the second person that comes to mind.

For instance, one of my Programmers wanted very much for me to be a certain way.  It wasn’t a way I wanted to be.  I Mirrored them fairly often for months, maybe years.  They would “come around to the back door” when I set up the Mirror, and to find Peace I would have to use a miniature domed stadium lined with Mirrors on the outside.  Eventually it became a Habit. 

Often this is your only path toward improving your Relationship with someone who isn’t very Conscious – talking with them about it just isn’t in the realm of possibility.  My Programmer was certainly not Conscious that they were drilling a Hole in my Aura, and in the off chance that they were, would they admit it?  Unlikely.

  • Emotions are supposed to visit for a little while, then move on.  We think of Emotions as “ours,” but they aren’t really, they’re like weather, they blow in and then they blow away.  Sometimes they Resonate and we can use them; other times they feel like they came uninvited out of “left field.”  When an Emotion blows through and sticks to you like Velcro, it may be an imitation of one of your Held Emotions.

One of the principles of Emotional Healing is that it’s Impossible to Let Go of Other Peoples’ Feelings.  So if an unwelcome Emotion moves in and unpacks, use your Mirror on the first person who comes to mind, to see if you’re carrying someone else’s Emotions.  If you get almost-immediate Relief, just bring back the Mirror whenever you start to go back into that closet.  Some people are very accomplished at getting Other people to carry their Held Emotions for them.

In fact, it’s highly likely that you and I do the same.  We’re Scared Shitless of Power, so we Project our Anger (Envy really) on folks who throw Power around like it was a Frisbee.  Death of any sort is such a big Threat to our Ego that we wrap ourself in Grief whenever anyone Transitions to a New Lifetime instead of helping them Celebrate and get Grounded into their new Surroundings.  If their next Life is anything like this one, they’ll be pretty Helpless for a while, and can use all the Support we can Give them.

The Mirror will help you Distinguish your own Held Emotions from Other people’s Held Emotions.  If an unfriendly Emotion moves in to stay, and you Mirror everyone who you suspect might be Projecting it your way, all to no effect, then it’s probably one of your own Held Emotions.  Feels like a Bummer, but in fact it’s a tremendous Opportunity – our Held Emotions are Unconscious, aka Invisible to us.  When one becomes opaque, we can take steps to Heal it.

How?  Own it.  Locate it in your Body, and Love it to Death.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Imagine Softening and Warming around the place where it sits in your Body.  Put your hand over where you find it in your Body, to Warm it.  If it moves, follow it.  Actually, once it moves, you’ve “won.”  Follow it anyway, just to be sure.  You might well get Images of what caused the Emotion to get stuck in the first place, but you don’t need them, and in fact if they appear they may put you in your Anal-ytical mind and distract you from Softening and Warming.

Guess what.  This is what Illness is about.  If you’re very good at Denying your Held Emotions on every other Level, they’ll come to visit on the Physical Level.  Besides, they aren’t Levels, they’re Perspectives.  It’s All One Thing, we just think it’s Different because we’re seeing it from a Different Angle.  So you may not begin with a Held Emotion, you may begin with a Toothache or any Pain or Physical Discomfort, or even Diagnosis if you’re in the Habit of Delegating care and feeding of your Physical Vehicle to the Medical Cartel.

Deal with Physical Pain and Discomfort the same way – Locate it in your Body, and Love it to Death.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Imagine Softening and Warming around the place where it sits in your Body.  Put your hand over where you find it in your Body, to Warm it.  If it moves, follow it.  Actually, once it moves, you’ve “won.”  Follow it anyway, just to be sure. 

And anybody who’s “been here” a while knows that we always recommend “Poor-Sweethearting” ourself whenever Chiron is Lit Up, and at any other time when you aren’t totally Pleased with your internal or external Circumstances.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling [Insulted] [Invaded] [Confused] [Sick] [Pain], aren’t you.”

We bring all this up because after seven years in Pisces, Chiron is moving into Aries (1am PDT 17 April).  Emotions don’t go away when Pisces goes away, though they get less Prominent.  And there are plenty of other planets still in Pisces; for instance Confusion/Neptune will be there till 2026, and Abuse/Nessus till 2034.  So you’ll have plenty of Opportunities yet to Practice your Mirroring and Poor-Sweethearting Skills.

As for Chiron, rather than the Emotional Crises we’ve been Enduring since 2011, we’ll be Experiencing Spiritual Crises till Chiron moves into Taurus in 2027, then we’ll be Enjoying Material Crises for a while.  So our Practice with Emotions will serve us well while we’re doing “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like God has Abandoned you, aren’t you” or “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like the Planet is Failing, don’t you.”

If course, long before then we’ll have enfolded all these Healing techniques into automatic Habits, and firing them off so fast we won’t even be Aware that we’re doing it.  Right?

New Province

April 2, 2018

We’re in a new Time Province.  There are still Flushbacks, for sure, but they’re different now, not as Grasping.  Saturn is Initiating Mars (2 April 9am PDT) as I write this; I’ll quote from the recent Survival post…

“The Saturn-Mars Initiation occurs on 2 April (9am PDT) at 9 Capricorn, “An Angel carrying a harp.”   This begins a two-year Cycle where this Angel will facilitate our Actions when our Actions Align with Being Responsive to our Survival and to the Survival of our Unique Genius.

And yesterday (1 April 6pm PST) our Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta) joined the crowd in Capricorn.  The Mutable Signs (Sagittarius, Pisces, Gemini, Virgo) are about Change, which is often quite uncomfortable.  The Cardinal Signs (Capricorn, Aries, Cancer, Libra) are about Creating, which is usually more Fun. 

While the popular press lists Athleticism as one of Sagittarius’s main features, Sadge is really Spiritual Fire – Burning Away what is no longer necessary or optimal.  Exercise is the only way you get your Lymph moved, so its an important factor in Immunity.  Since Exercise can also mute Emotions, it can be Addictive to someone trying to Avoid them.  There is a correlation between Huper Males specializing in Physical Labor, and their dysfunction with Emotion, or as Dubya might have said, “to not even have one.”

The other big public keyword for Sagittarius is Travel, which has many implications for Letting Go of the Unnecessary, starting with Excess Baggage of all sorts.  Travel can easily raise Emotions and raise Opportunities for Letting them Go, teasing Held Emotions for instance.  While not as Emotionally Intense or Sticky as Pisces, which specializes in Waterboarding, all of the Mutable Signs are still hard work, whether you’re Letting Go or Avoiding.

Dwarf planet Ixion and asteroids Karma and Hopi are still in Sagittarius, and Jupiter will arrive in November to do a thorough Spring Cleaning.  The Flushbacks we’re feeling today are the early warning signs of the 7 April (6pm PST) Station of Karma, a Challenge to Let Go of all Obsolete Habit Patterns, especially those that are Self-Sabotaging.  It’s Heavied Up by sitting on the “Great Attractor,” an unknown Cosmic Entity at the Ides of Sagittarius that is pulling our region of the Universe toward itself hungrily.

Asteroid Karma has been crossing the first half of Sagittarius since mid-January, and will back over it until late July, then recross it till early October.  The first half of Sagittarius is about Letting Go of Other, Flushbacks of all the unsatisfying Scorpio Experiences we’ve had with Other People…

https://undeniablysara.com/2018/04/02/the-tangled-mind/

While I don’t expect the rest of April to be as Heavy as the last half of March, lots of things get Lit Up nonetheless…

  • 1-7 April (till 6pm PDT), Karma (asteroid Karma Stationary Retrograde, 16 Sagittarius).  Remember, Karma is dead; any old Difficulties that arise are Opportunities to Banish the Hassle Forever.  The only thing you really need is to be in the Present Moment.  Maybe pinching yourself will help.  When Karma is Lit Up there are two Realities – the Sticky one you’re in, and the Present Moment.  Ask someone what year it is.  How Old would you be in that year, and How Old do you Feel?  Just Step Into the Current Year.
  • 4-11 April (till 8pm PDT), The Life Force (Varuna Stationary Direct, 30 Cancer)
  • 6-13 April (till 9am PDT), Self-Sovereignty (Hylonome Stationary Retrograde, 12 Capricorn)
  • 7-14 April (till 7pm PDT), Truth (Veritas Stationary Direct, 25 Leo). 
  • 12-15 April (till 2am PDT), Communication (Mercury Stationary Direct, 5 Aries).  These are going to be almost impossible to Separate; basically, we’ll be Rediscovering our Life Force by Communicating the Truth about our Self-Sovereignty.  Or Not, and likely ruing it.  To a large extent this will be Realizing-that-The-Most-Important-Thing (Saturn; see below) is Communicating the Truth about our Self-Sovereignty.
  • 17 April (1am PDT), Pain Eases (Chiron moves into Aries).  This should be quite a Relief, as the Dilemmas we face for the next Decade will be more about How-to-Create than How-to-Endure-Painful-Emotions“You Poor Sweetheart, you don’t know How to do this, do you.  What if we could Make it Up as we go?”
  • 10-17 April (till 7pm PDT), Priorities (Saturn Stationary Retrograde, 10 Capricorn).  Saturn does not mean Limitation and Deprivation; it means Focus and Concentration.  It can feel like Limitation if you’re Focused on what you’re Giving Up (or Not) rather than what’s The Most Important Thing in this Moment.  Realize that your Giving Up is only Temporary, till Saturn is done.  Our Trance Reformation (Pluto, see below) will make it feel Heavier than it is.
  • 15-22 April (till 8:30 am PDT), Trance Reformation (Pluto Stationary Retrograde, 22 Capricorn)
  • 16-23 April (till 6am PDT), Self-Confidence (Chariklo Stationary Retrograde, 20 Capricorn).  We won’t be able to Distinguish these two from one another, especially since they occur in almost the same Degree.  The trick is to be Confident that the Unknown Timeline you’re adopting is Better than the Known Timeline you’re Surrendering.  The sooner you Surrender, the Easier it will be.  Pluto Stations can feel like Swimming in Jello.
  • 28 April (till 12am PDT), Emotional Processing Eases (Juno moves into Aries).  Our Challenges around Growth of Consciousness for the next two months will be more about Allowing Exciting New Vistas than about Letting Go of Attachment to Dreary Old Ones.

Unfortunately, we don’t get much of a break from the Pressure till late in the month.  But while it’s Busy, it should be Easier than the last few weeks have been…

 http://danielscranton.com/the-next-5-10-years-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“It is the perfect time for all of you to consider how you would like to be moving forward in this next phase of your evolution.  You are getting to decide how you move forward, in spite of what you might be told from others, others who make it seem as though the next five to ten years are set in stone for all of you.  Nothing could be further from the truth.

“You are the pioneers here.  You are the creators and co-creators, and it is your time to be the deciders, the ones who actualize your own evolution.  You can, of course, just wait and see what happens.  You can look for new predictions to tell you what’s going to happen next, or you can take the wheel and decide for yourselves what it’s going to take for you as individuals to evolve.

“Do you need drama and trauma in your life to be inspired, to feel your emotions?  Do you need hardship in order to create?  Do you need to see evidence of the rest of humanity lagging behind in order to do something about the evolution of your consciousness?  When we talk about the evolution of your consciousness, we want you to know that it is something that happens automatically, but it is also something that you can facilitate.

“You can put your foot on the gas pedal and bring yourselves to a heightened sense of awareness.  You can choose to love more, to meditate more, to connect more with nature and Mother Earth.  You can reach out to other aspects of yourself.  You can reach out to higher dimensional beings.  You can be an active participant in the evolution of your consciousness, and you can steer the rest of humanity in that direction as well.

“You don’t have to sit around and wait for something to happen.  You don’t even have to wait for some grand, inspired idea.  Just stop what you’re doing from time to time and check in with how you’re feeling, how you’re vibrating.  Do some conscious breathing.  Meditate if you have to.  But just be sure you’re taking care of the evolution of your consciousness.”

Ending Limitation

April 2, 2017

Curious that both Daniel and Michael focused on Letting Go of our old baggage today.  Daniel…

http://danielscranton.com/re-creating-the-past-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

What we really want you to recognize is that you created something in your past that was meant to serve you in some way, and until you see it that way, it cannot.  You cannot receive the benefit of what you have created until you accept that you created it and that you created it for a very specific reason.  The reason is always that you have something to gain from the experience.

And Michael (2 April “365 Steps” email, http://int.michaelroads.org/ )…

“With the mind full of the detritus of life, it can literally ferment, causing a type of mental inebriation.  This is the person who, addicted to thinking, is regurgitating continually their endless negative mental clutter.  When we surrender the mind, discarding our burden of thought, letting go all attachment to our thoughts, to the ‘rights and wrongs’ of the ‘this and that’ of life, we become mindless.  It is quite a paradox when you consider that we need to be mindless to be more mindful!”

And the emphasis on Expanding beyond Limitation of the last few days – we wouldn’t normally see either of these as particularly Saturnian, though it makes total sense that they would be The Most Important Thing in this day and age.

Well, as is often the case, turns out there are good astological correlates.  What a coincidence!  Among other things, there are two Sign Changes, and a budding Initiation, that are all very relevant.

First, at 4pm PDT on 31 March, asteroid Atropos moved out of Gemini and into Cancer.  Atropos, which symbolizes Endings, has been anchoring one corner of the long-standing and now broken Golden Rectangle that we’ve been discussing for a long while, and which has provided the nest for our profound Yin Gates.

Gemini is good at Letting Go, but it has a short Attention Span; it’s just as likely to Grab It Back as it is to Let It Go permanently.  Letting Go is incidental to Gemini.  It’s primary job is to Disassemble a new Creation in order to find what is and isn’t working and what could be improved.  If the Creation stops working or fails to improve when Gemini Lets Go of a part, Gemini will Put It Back and move on to the next part.

Cancer on the other hand has a definite exogenous Purpose – Nurturing.  So it doesn’t matter if a part of our Creation works (to prop up an obsolete Identity for instance!) or not; if it doesn’t Nurture, Out It Goes.  That explains a lot of the background for Daniel’s and Michael’s readings.

Second, at 12am PDT on 1 April, asteroid Moira left Pisces and entered Aries.  Moira is about “Fate” – that which follows us faithfully till we Get Conscious about it so we can exercise Choice about whether or not we want to keep it and when we might want to use or disuse it.  Pisces is about Finishing Emotional Business.  And Aries is about Intuitively Creating a New Endeavor.

That makes it glaringly obvious that Holding On to what doesn’t work is just silly.  Who needs it!  Aries is completely non-intellectual about its Creation.  Aries has a quick mind, but it won’t have any idea what it’s Building till five years later.  It’s all seat-of-the-pants.

So Moira entering Aries will make us much more Willing to Accept the Unknown.  Normally we reject what we don’t Understand, but here we’ll be very Willing to walk undefended into unknown territory, and very Willing to drop our Defenses to do it.

And third, at 6am on 3 April, dwarf planet Chaos Initiates asteroid Veritas.  Chaos represents the Zero Point Field, or Unlimited Potential.  And Veritas means Truth.  So while previously we shied away from the relative Freedom of our Forbidden Genius because we Feared the Unknown, now we’ll understand the Truth of our Limitlessness, and recognize our former Limits as the Fake News that they were.

The Initiation occurs at 21 Gemini, “A tumultuous labor demonstration.”  This is a 64-month Cycle, so for the next five years we can expect those parts of our Selves that actually do the work – our Identities – to revolt against low wages (Lack of Self-Love), poor working conditions (unnecessary Limitation), and the absence of Respect and Safety (Self-Criticism).

21.5.16 Full Moon II

May 19, 2016

 

Our Chief Asteroid Officer points out that Astraea (the fifth asteroid discovered after Ceres, Pallas, Juno, and Vesta) completes the Grand Cross with the Full Moon.  Astraea is about Innocence, and she’s right at home in early Virgo.  

We can think of Virgoan innocence as “Who, me?” in the sense that when your best friend Lovingly accuses you of hiding behind a Mask (when you actually are), and you naturally and innocently reply “Who, me?”  Not that your friend would ever be dumb enough to try to label someone else’s Masks; it’s just a metaphor to explain Virgo’s function.  

Leo is where the Ego’s Self-Confidence peaks, Libra is where it meets Other, which means that all bets on Self-Confidence are up for grabs.  Virgo is in charge of the Transition.  If Virgo is the palm, Pisces is the back of the hand.  Aquarius is where the Ego’s Confidence in Community peaks, Aries is where it meets brand new territory so success will only follow from “Don’t-Know” mind.  Pisces is in charge of that Transition.

At the Full Moon we have dwarf planets Opposite one another that are both Stationary (Strong) early in this Virgo-Pisces Ego-Transition, from having a fair degree of Certainty and Comfort, to becoming a complete newbie again.  With Astraea asking, “Who, Me?”  Or as a reader says…

“Kaboom, JUST connected.  I’m wiggin’ out because I hold this perspective & perception that EVERYTHING IS A TRADE OFF.  OMG – THAT belief?  I was completely indoctrinated into THAT.  Hugo mungo either/or thinking.  I never saw the depth of this trade-off perspective and never connected it to The Grand Either/Or that permeates so much.  That they are one and the same.”

I could tell similar stories about my own Epiphanies, but this stuff moves so fast, and the nature of this Edge between Consciousness and the Unconscious is so ephemeral, that I can’t keep track from day to day of what my Psyche is doing.  I just know it’s moving through Heavy territory and making it’s own connections.  

How old was I when they had to sew my tongue back on because I bit it almost off jumping off a couch while horseplaying with my sibs?  Three?  Of course that wouldn’t have triggered my Abandonment because my father had to spend money he didn’t have.  And of course that wouldn’t have anything to do with my allergy to hospitals and my recent experience of them.  

Without knowing what but knowing it was Heavy, I used to literally paint that picture when I was in high school, the scene from the neighbor’s car, looking out over the river in the darkness.  I obviously wasn’t in my Body.  Shortly after that we moved to the downriver side of the hospital, and it took me a long time to figure out why in this picture I was looking down river.

Another reader, born during the height of the original Ouija-Board Pluto-Uranus Initiation, recommended Bill Plotkin’s Wild Mind to me.  Here are some excerpts about our Masks…

“The grave problem with having made such a pact in childhood is that, once adopted, it becomes a bedrock layer of our personalities.  Achieving liberation from our Loyal Soldier survival strategies is one of the most challenging and long-lasting tasks of the individuation process, requiring a good deal of courage, discernment, and endurance even into genuine adulthood and elderhood.” (p.133)

His pact, or Oath, is our response to our need to protect our child self from likely-fatal Abandonment by our Family or Community.  The dwarf planet Orcus, which symbolizes these Oaths, is Stationary only a few degrees from Astraea.  It’s handy, having Astraea’s Innocence there, allowing us more Empathy for the pickle that our historical tykes found themselves in.  That allows us to slap our forehead with an OMG, instead of the “How stupid can we be?” that we might otherwise greet ourself with while opening these doors.

The Pisces side of this equation features the dwarf planet OR10 – also Stationary – and the Centaur Nessus.  OR10 is about irruption of material from the Unconscious – including sudden Epiphanies.  Nessus is about Privilege and Abuse.  And all this is in the context of having Mars (Action, Anger) Oppose Vesta (Limiting Unconscious Beliefs) less than a Degree from the Full Moon axis.  All preparation for June’s Eris-Uranus (Embracing the Previously Denied) – the cosmic choreography is quite amazing.

Plotkin continues…

“Our juvenile survival strategies of self-diminishment form the core of our most self-defeating patterns: those that disparage our dreams, our potentials, and our healthy wildness, or that aggravate low self-esteem and troubles with intimacy.  And, most irksome, these strategies are often on autopilot, launched outside our awareness and without our consent or control.”

Conspiring to hold our Unique Genius in its Orphanage – or as we bring them into Consciousness, to Set it Free, as Ixion (Genius) Trines (Grace) Eris-Uranus.

More Masks from Plotkin (p.157)…

Not all of our Wounded Children are trying to help us survive.  Some are simply casualties of our other [Masks] or of the unkind actions of others.  These are our Outcasts, elements of our psyches we rejected in order to survive, in order to be accepted by others.

“These are the versions of ourselves of which we are ashamed – perhaps our gentleness or our fierceness, our sexuality, our anger or sadness, our fear or embarrassment, our love of dance or poetry, our joy or vivaciousness, or our need for touch or compassion.  Once we reject these Wounded Children and label them bad or worthless, they exist in a marginal, banished state within our psyches.  Nonetheless, we live every day with some awareness of their pain and heartache.

“For children, conscious self-rejection is less harmful than being rejected by others, even if it’s no less painful.  By restraining ourselves from acting in ways that lead to being shamed, we’re less likely to be abandoned.  The price we pay is self-shaming, resulting in Outcasts within us we’re not willing to love, who we’ve neglected and exiled.  

“Although our Outcasts persist as pockets of pain within us, they embody great gifts – strengths and sensibilities not deemed worthy by others in our early lives, but gifts we can reclaim when we’re psychologically ready to do so.  The reclamation process usually begins with grief.  We must mourn our psychological woundings by others, our consequent self-woundings, and the loss of joy, aliveness, and relationships that resulted from all our self-diminishments.”

And again (pp.186-7)…

“We’re all in recovery from Western civilization.  Sooner or later, we each must address the paramount addiction in the Western and Westernized worlds: our psychological dependence on the worldview and lifestyle of Western civilization itself.  The Western worldview says, in essence, that technological progress is the highest value, and that we were born to consume, to endlessly use and discard natural resources, other species, techno-gadgets, toys, and often, other people, especially if they’re poor or from the global South.

“It’s a world of commodities, not entities, of consumers, not human beings, and economic expansion is the primary measure of progress.  Profits are valued over people, money over meaning, our national entitlement over global peace and justice, ‘us’ over ‘them.’  This addiction to Western civilization – especially now that the Chinese, too, are hooked – is by far the most dangerous one in the world because of how rapidly and extensively it’s undermining the natural systems of the Earth.

“Addiction to Western civilization keeps us from seeing and feeling the staggering price all Earthly life pays for our consumer habit.  And it protects us from having to make any radical changes in lifestyle, or from having to grow up, leave the ‘home’ of our adolescent comforts, and embark on the hazardous journey of initiation that leads to an existence that’s life enhancing, meaningful. and fulfilling.”

Pp.208-210…

“The Shadow, one of the archetypes identified by psychologist Carl Jung, is composed of those elements of our own psyches that are unknown to us … the Shadow is not what we know about ourselves, don’t like, and keep hidden.  Rather, the Shadow is what is true about us that we don’t know – don’t know at all – and, if accused of it, would adamantly and sincerely deny.”

“Who, Me?”

“The purpose of the Shadow is to protect us from enacting personal characteristics that, if expressed, might land us in big trouble with others or ourselves.  We stuff these forbidden parts of ourselves in a corner of our psyches where we can’t find them, where we can ‘fail to notice’ them.”

“The Shadow is what our psyches repress (render unconscious), not what our Egos suppress (consciously hide from others). … This is difficult to accept and digest – that there are aspects or parts of ourselves we really don’t know and that are completely at odds with who we think we are.  

“Even when our other [Masks] act unconsciously (independently of our Egos), we know them by how they affect our lives, thoughts, and deeds.  Perhaps we don’t acknowledge them to others, but we do know them.  Not so for the elements of the Shadow.  The Shadow is always unconscious.”

Ah yes, dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sextile (Grace after we initiate) to Eris-Uranus.  Thank goodness there’s always More.

Fateful Full Moon

April 20, 2016

There are three big themes to the 21 April Full Moon (10:30pm PDT) – Transitions, Fate, and Truth.

  • Transitions because the Full Moon occurs on a Cusp between two Signs – a place of Change, Transformation, often Contradistinction.
  • Fate because the asteroid Moira – Fate – Motivates (T-Squares) it.  Fate and Free Will are of course a Duality, an Either/Or, an Intellectualization.  Real Life is Both/And.  How can anything be Both/And when they’re Opposites? Well, if that’s upsetting to you, the answer is in your hand – you’ve shifted into Emotion – Cusps again, the Cusps between modalities of Perception.  You could also have shifted into Body or Spirit.  Either/Or is a characteristic of mind, and though we’re trained to Believe that mind is bigger than the Universe, in Real Life the Universe is much bigger than mind.
  • Truth because both of the Truth asteroids – Aletheia (Greek) and Veritas (Roman) adjoin the Sun.  Which brings us back to the larger theme of Removing our Masks.

Let’s focus on the Cusps…

  • The Moon itself is on the Cusp of Scorpio.  Here we Change from intellectually and Creatively contemplating the new-found concept of Other (Not-I, including Other People), to intense Emotional Curiosity about Other.  Does Other really exist, or is that just a Mirror?  Does the Other Side really exist, or is it just a Projection?
  • The Sun is on the Cusp of Taurus, along with the asteroids Aletheia, Veritas, and Atropos.  Atropos is Responsible for enforcing the measure of length of Life – another form of Truth.  At the Cusp of Taurus we shift from Making Things Up, to Casting them in Stone.  The Edge between what may or may not be Fantasy, and what the Muggles would consider “Real.”  Natural-born Chemists think it’s Matter that’s Real, while natural-born Physicists know that it’s Energy that’s Real.  Yes, I do take sides, though of course it’s Both/And.
  • The asteroid Moira – Fate – sits on the Cusp of Aquarius, as do we.  Sit on the Cusp of the Age of Aquarius I mean.  Here we move from hard-nosed down-to-Earth Pragmatism, to Idealism, or Idolatry.  Notice anybody worshipping Sacred Cows or Golden Calfs?  Such as Power, or Profit?

All together eight of the twelve Cusps are involved in the Full Moon.  If we’re worried that our Fate is to contemplate Truth and Compassion (if Other is a Mirror, we better find Compassion!), the other five Cusps each provide alternate paths that are easier than that one.

  • Our first Escape Route is the Cusp of Capricorn (where reside the dwarf planets Quaoar and Hylonome), where we Change from Letting Go of difficulties, to actually having to try to Resolve them.  (Quaoar-Hylonome tells us that if we want to Survive, we need to Molt, shed our old Ego and Open Up to the new.)
  • The Cusp of Pisces is our second path to higher ground.  Here we’re fairly rudely dumped from drinking beer and discussing grand schemes for solving the problems created by the existence of Other, to having to Feel the Realities that arise because of the existence of Other.  (On this Cusp we find the asteroids Pallas and Lachesis, and the dwarf planets OR10 and Nessus, reminders that a Life in the realm of Matter is a Privilege and a Deep Mystery, and one which has well-defined Boundaries.)

The last three Cusps are about Curiosity (Quincunxes to the Sun or Moon).

  • The asteroids Ceres (Sustainability) and Mnemosyne (Memory) decorate the Cusp of Aries.  Buddhists say that if you immerse yourself in the Water (Emotion), you’ll come out in the Fire (Spirit), and this is the place where you’ll come out.  I Wonder where these Memories will lead me.
  • The asteroid Karma is parked on the Cusp of Gemini.  On this Cusp we go from being Trapped in Stone, to being Liberated, free to walk around and Be whomever we want to Be.  I Wonder how we could ever find a more perfect place for Karma.
  • Finally, the Cusp of Libra is where we find the dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation).  At the Cusp of Libra we’ve just finished an unpleasant-feeling period of Ego Transformations, and we’re ready to test our new Selves out on Other People.  I Wonder how I’ll be received.

Adventures in Consciousness!

Dragons, Centaurs, and Kings Oh My

April 17, 2016

Lovely sight out there, with the Fulling Moon kissing Jupiter.

A note on format – the unindented bold italic text is meant for everyone.  The indented normal text is meant for anyone who’s interested in more detail, and specifically for folks who know some astrology and/or who want to learn astrology.  And…

The yet-more indented italic text explains astrological terms and processes.

We don’t follow this format exclusively, but it’s sort of a goal.

We’re about three hours from the Moon crossing the near Midpoint between Jupiter and the North Node (2am 18 PDT April), and twelve hours from the Moon crossing the far Midpoint between Chiron and the South Node (11am PDT 18 April).  The Moon has been, and will be, within one Degree of Sensitivity from this complex between about 6pm PDT 17 April till about 5pm PDT 18 April, and within three Degrees of Sensitivity from around noon PDT 17 April till around 9pm PDT 18 April.  It’d be a useful time to measure your own Sensitivity.

So…what’s this all about?

The Nodes are often referred to as “The Dragon,” the North Node as the Dragon’s Head and the South Node as the Dragon’s Tail.  A Centaur is a planetoid chasing an irregular orbit between Jupiter and Neptune – Chiron is a Centaur.  Like the half-human-half-horse Greek Centaurs, the cosmic Centaurs and half comet and half asteroid.  Jupiter was the King of the Roman Gods.

“Sensitivity” is like “slop” – we don’t wait till an astrological event is Exact, we start feeling it when it’s still some distance away – three Degrees if we’re pretty Sensitive, one Degree even if we’re a Muggle.  Of course it could be a matter of education – even a Muggle experiences the astroevents, they just aren’t Conscious of how their emotions, thoughts, circumstances, and actions are related to what’s going on in the sky.

Midpoints are just Sensitive points halfway between two planets or other Heavenly Bodies.

The Moon triggers things that are thinking about happening.  The North Node represents our Deepest Desires and Mission in the Lifetime, while Jupiter symbolizes Expansion.  One way to interpret the South Node is that it stands for our Limiting Beliefs, probably adopted from “Past Lives.”  Maybe from Childhood, but Childhood Traumas are usually hangovers from Past Lives.  Chiron is trickier.  It represents Despair or Discouragement, but it’s “curable” through Empathy.  Empathy Heals, and when we Empathize with ourself, Despair Dissolves.

The Nodes are called the “Dragon” because, like their name-sake, they can breathe fire, and occasionally get hungry and fly around torching villages for the fun of it.  They kind of represent what we’re scared to face – we shy away from our Deepest Desires (North Node) because we feel Guilty about them, and we shy away from our Limiting Beliefs (South Node) because we don’t want to have to re-Experience the heavy Emotions that surround them.

So this is a very potent combination – feeling (Healable) Despair about our Limiting Beliefs while Conscious of the pull of our Deepest Desires and our Mission on the Planet.  If we’re lucky or Skillful, we break through the Despair and leap toward our Deepest Desires and Mission.  Mind is smaller than Mission, so most of us aren’t actually able to comprehend exactly what our Mission here is, why we came here.  Our Deepest Desires are a snapshot of our Mission – by following our Bliss we move toward our Mission.

Most of us probably feel good about the idea of “Mission,” unless we think of it as an unnecessary burden.  And most of us feel some degree of Guilt or other Hesitation about our Deepest Desires, because we think they’re Selfish, or somebody told us they were naughty.  That Guilt or Hesitation is a Mirror of our Limiting Beliefs.  We have to break through that to get closer to our Mission and to our Heart’s Desire.  

So this weekend, with a little self-Empathy (Honesty with ourself about what’s really going on) we get an Opportunity to break through our Limitations and soar toward What We Want out of Life.  Huzzah!!

All this happens between 11 and 26 (three Degrees of Sensitivity) or 13 and 24 (one Degree of Sensitivity) Degrees of Virgo (Moon-North Node-Jupiter) and Pisces (South Node-Chiron), so we’re mostly talking about the second Decanate of Virgo-Pisces, or the Capricorn Decanate (Practicality) of Virgo (Transformation) and the Cancer (Nurturing) Decanate of Pisces (Embracing Unfinished Emotions).  Whatever natal planets you have in these Degrees, or in the same span of Sagittarius or Gemini, will be lit up big-time this weekend.

A Decanate is a ten-Degree section of a Sign.  So for instance, the first Decanate of Virgo (Transformation) is the Virgo Decanate (Ego Death) of Virgo, the second is the Capricorn Decanate, and the third is the Taurus (Solidifying) Decanate.  So the Virgo Transformation process involves

  • Melting down the Ego we established in Leo (Ego Death, Virgo-Virgo),
  • Coming to understand what we have to Let Go of if we are to find a new Balance (getting Practical about it, Virgo-Capricorn), and
  • Settling into a new place of relative Stability (Virgo-Taurus) in order to prepare ourself to meet Other – Other People, and Not-Me in general – in Libra.  

We enter Virgo knowing Who We Are, and we leave Virgo knowing Who We Aren’t.

The Decanates follow the Qualities of each Sign – for instance, Virgo is an Earth Sign, so its three Decanades follow the three Earth Signs.  Pisces is a Water Sign, so its three Decanates chase Water around the Zodiac.

Here’s an excellent prediction about what might happen if we, collectively, don’t manage to be Honestly Loving with ourself soon…

https://sailingondreams.wordpress.com/2016/04/17/the-redeemer/

Could be a prediction for early June’s Initiation of Uranus (our Soul Self) by Eris (the Revelation of Denial).

Aim Higher

February 26, 2016

Step One: Focus on What you Want, not on What you don’t Want.  This step is critical, don’t skip it.

If that’s hard, start by finding something you can be Grateful for.  Running Water.  Hot Water.  Clean Water.  Enough Food, or even some Food.  A roof when it Rains.  A flush krapper.  A little less Pain than last week.  Make a short list of things you aren’t Anxious about.  The other shoulder doesn’t hurt.  Someone said a kind word to you last month.  You have a comfortable chair.  Anything will do.

Good start.  Now make a short list – several things – of what you Don’t Want.  Doesn’t matter if you’re already afflicted with it, or if it’s just threatening, or if you’re Anxious that it might threaten.  Give each of them a number, 1 to 10, 10 being “I’d Rather Die,” and 1 being “Oh Bother.”  Tap on each of them a couple times: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 if you need a review.  Then give them numbers again, 1 to 10.  Any reduction?  If not, circle that one, you’ll have to come back to it later.

Now make a short list of what you Do Want, several things.  They can be an inch away or Pie in the Sky, no matter.  Give them numbers, 1 to 10, 1 being “That’d be cool” and 10 being “I’ll Die without That!”  Make a short note about how you’ll Feel when you get each one.  In descending rank order (starting with your 10), for each one, take a minute and practice Feeling exactly that.

Step Two: Focus on What you Really Want.  Take your top Want and really Feel how it’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  Touch it.  Smell it.  Hear it.  Taste it.  Embrace it.  See it.  If your second Want is close to your top Want in number, do the same with it.

Step Three: What has Stopped you from Taking What you Really Want a long time ago?  Your underprivileged upbringing?  Guilt?  Your Significant Others?  Fear?  Your Belief that it’s happening to you?  Your Mother’s Ghost?  Do you Deserve it?  Are these reasons external to you, or internal?  Tap on a few of your Stops.  Bring them inside; if it’s a Bully that’s been Stopping you, recognize that it’s your Unwillingness to Confront, or your Belief that you’d be worse off if you Confronted, or your Hopelessness.  Rather than spend a lot of time on this, take notes.  This is important, so you’ll want to come back to it later.

Step Four: Focus again on What you Really Want.  Take your top Want and really Feel how it’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  Touch it.  Smell it.  Hear it.  Taste it.  Embrace it.  See it.  Notice if it’s any easier or deeper than it was in Step Two.  If it is, make a note to repeat Steps Two and Three later.  If you want, do the same with your second Want.

Step Five: Aim Higher.  What if you could have more of What you Really Want, or What you Really Want with a lot of bells and whistles?  Feel how that’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  If you Change your mind and decide that what you Really want is something else entirely, great!  Feel how that’ll be when you Receive it.  Any Stops?  Take notes so you can come back to them later.

Step Six: Now Aim a lot Higher.  Stay with What you Want, but get ridiculous about it.  You Wanted a Mate?  Imagine having three!  A house?  Make it a mansion with its own caretaker, and a luxury RV with professional driver besides.  World Peace?  Go for Galactic Peace, or Universal Peace.  You Wanted Good Health?  Go for Good Health and Superpowers.

At this point in our Timelines, this is where we need to be.

The dwarf planet Chaos, which symbolizes Unlimited Potential, turns Direct on 29 February a few minutes after 3pm PST, 11pm UT.  It’s Stationary (at it’s most Powerful) now.  It’s in Gemini (Mutation).  No better time to nurture Huge Changes than when your Infinite Improbability Drive is firing on all cylinders.  Did you think Douglas  Adams wrote fiction?

The Chaos Station Squares Chiron, so there’s great potential for Discouragement or even Despair, but far greater potential for Miracles when we Empathize with any Discouragement we feel.  Chiron’s moving through Pisces, where it’s churning up every Emotional component of our Limiting Beliefs and exposing them to the Sun, which will sterilize them.

The asteroid Juno, which symbolizes The Growing Edge of our Consciousness, turns Retrograde on 2 March at a few minutes before 3am PST or 11am UT, meaning it’s Stationary (at it’s most Powerful) now.  This occurs at the Midpoint of Scorpio – one of the Strongest points in the Zodiac, particularly adept at turning over rocks and diving deep to uncover hidden motives.  No better time to remove Limiting Beliefs and Grow your sense of the Possible.  And Chaos will still be Stationary.

Between the Full Moon and 8 March, a Quintile between Pallas (Boundaries) and Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs and Limits) forms the base of a Quintile Yod focused on Jupiter (Expansion).  The Quintile Yod says that It’s Really Important to Pay Attention to Learning This!  Learning what?  Learning to Expand our sense of Self by stretching our Boundaries to Let Go of Limiting Beliefs.  Jupiter is in Virgo, and Virgo is about Disassembling the Ego in order to make Space for Growth.

Jupiter completes a T-Square with Chaos and Chiron, focused on Chaos – Expanding our Discouragement and Overwhelm about the sheer quantity of Possible Futures we face, and Expanding the incredible Potential for Miracles waaay beyond what we can imagine!  We just have to stretch into them.  While it’s a few Degrees out of orb, Saturn (The Most Important Thing) completes the Grand Cross – so it’s our Willingness to Focus our Attention on what we Want to Create that will Co-Create the Big Shift.

The Most Important Thing that the Lizards are here to Teach us, is that Crisis breeds Opportunity.  Read Naomi Klein’s Shock Doctrine and Tom Perkins’s New Confessions of an Economic Hit Man, and turn them on their heads – like it or not, Crisis is here, and likely to remain till 2020 (when Saturn Initiates Jupiter), What are WE going to do with the Opportunity?  Do we have enough cumulative Attention to Focus on What we Want and Shift the Planet away from Greed and Competition, and back toward Community and Collaboration?  Do we have enough Self-Love to Create what we Need for our own personal Peace, in order to have Loving Attention to spare for the Planet, so we aren’t just Projecting our Anxiety?

Jupiter meanwhile is moving toward an Initiation of the North Node (Mission and Deepest Desires) – Expanding our sense of What we Want and Where we’re Going.  That’ll happen in June, close to when Eris Initiates Uranus and we come face to face with all the ways we’ve been forcing the True Self to Hold Back.  Jupiter and the North Node are now two Degrees apart – Conjunct, in other words – meaning that we can’t tell the difference between them.  The more Work we do with our Wants and Stops now, the easier June will be, and the impact will be exponential.

Lunar Portals along the way, all ± three hours…

  • 10am PST 28 February, Moon over Stationary Juno
  • 11pm 1 March till 7am PST 2 March, Moon over Saturn corner of the Grand Cross
  • 11am PST 6 March, Moon over Pallas
  • 11am till 9pm PST 8 March, Moon over Chiron corner of the Grand Cross
  • New Moon at 6pm PST 8 March Conjoins Chiron, stretching the Grand Cross into the rest of March

If you focus on what you Don’t Want over the next several weeks, you’re going to be miserable, because you’ll be wallowing in everything you’re going to have to Give Up in order to Grow into What you Want.  If you focus on your Pain about having to Give Up what you Don’t Want but you like better than the Unknown, that’s fine – but Witness it and Embrace it.  Put All of your Attention into the center of your Pain, and leave it there until the Pain melts away.  Or step back and “You poor Sweetheart” yourself to Death.

This is, after all, a colossal Ego Death.  Re-read our Full Moon readings, Heavy I and Heavy II.  The World is Changing fast, and even when we stand up our arms aren’t long enough to reach the cord to ring the driver to let us off.  Focus on What you Want to Create, be Loving and Gentle with every Resistance you encounter, be especially Loving and Gentle with your Grief about what you’re Giving Up, but stay Present with the realization that what you’re Creating will be far better than what you’re Giving Up. 

Remember that Confusion is the first Stage of Growth, it means that your rigid mental structures, which are the intellectual rationalizations for your Limiting Beliefs, are starting to break down.  Try to avoid talking yourself out of Confusion.  Don’t forget Curiosity.  “I Wonder how the devil we’re going to pull this off!”  It is WE – we’re in this Together!  Curiosity is next to Love, as both eschew Judgment, and we know that Love is greater than Hope or Faith.

If you have notes from Steps One or Three or Four or Five, set aside as much time as you can spare between now and March 1, and between now and March 8, to work on these more.  Use your PIAVAs when you get stuck on something; see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/ if you need a review.  If What you Want is important to you, the time you spend on this will be more important than that.

Not only are the relevant Changes happening in the Unconscious, but they’re shifting the Future, and most of us most of the time aren’t able to see either.  There will be plenty of time for Planning, Doing, Executing the details of our Manifestations as we go forward.  Now is the time for PIAVAing the Big Picture of What we Want our Manifestation to look like, and most of all, Lovingly and Gently Letting Go of all of our internal obstacles to Receiving what we Really Want.

Heavy II

February 22, 2016

The other big Configuration in the cluster near the Midpoints of the Signs is a Yin Gate in 22-25 Degrees.  There’s a nice picture and description of a Yin Gate in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/06/13/full-moon-yin-gate-and-portal-7-5-15/ .  A Yin Gate represents an Initiation into Mystery, embodied by the Central Opposition, the one with Yods to both ends of it.  The Central Opposition in the current Yin Gate is Vesta-Eris in Aries to Haumea in Libra…

The Central Issue here is…

Becoming Aware of the Limitations imposed on our Life by our Unconscious Beliefs.  

We normally have very good reasons for keeping Unconscious Beliefs repressed, though the reason could be as simple as we’re too busy or too lazy to rework our entire approach to Life just because a few pieces don’t fit together well.  The folks at the Tea Parties carrying “Government Keep Your Hands off my Medicare” come to mind.  Or the poor saps who don’t realize that “Making American Great Again” means making it Great for the billionaires.

Often though it’s about not wanting to face down our Held Emotions – the situations that we in one Body or another endured and never want to revisit.  As we mentioned in the previous Heavy I post, those could well be coming up this week.  We can look for more clues in the “Subsidiary Issues” which we elaborated in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/06/20/the-second-harmonic/ ), but first, getting our Limiting Beliefs pulled up by the Roots is only half of the Central Issue.  The other half is a…

Rebirth of our Social Self and the way we Relate to the Outside World.

We can dig for more information about that in the Sabian Symbol, “The sight of an autumn leaf brings to a pilgrim the sudden revelation of the Mystery of Life and Death.”  I don’t think Elsie used “Pilgrim” in the same way that John Wayne did.  My guess is that rather than thinking “That Asshole!” about a fellow Pilgrim who doesn’t Behave the way Mom said every decent person should, we might think, “Whoa, that poor Bloke has probably Lived through the same sort of Nightmares I have.”

The Subsidiary Issues provide reinforcement and background, but not a lot of Insight.  They’re

  • The Threat of being Overwhelmed when our Held Emotions well up in our throat ( South Node in Pisces ) versus Allowing our Ego to be Overhauled to reorient our Life toward our Deepest Desires ( North Node in Virgo ) and 
  • Actions Motivated by Fear of Loss ( Sedna in Taurus ) versus Actions Motivated by a Deep Intuitive Understanding of Context ( Mars in Scorpio )

But now, this is a Yin Gate, which means that the two Subsidiary Issues are bound together with a Great Deal of Grace ( the Golden Rectangle ), so they complement and educate one another.  The Trines indicate Dumb-Luck Grace between Fear and Desire (which would appear to suggest that it might be a good time to Face Down our Fear), and between Karma and Action.  What sort of Action?  That’s suggested by the Sextiles, in this case Action in Pursuit of our Mission, or in Pursuit of our current picture of our Mission – namely our Deepest Desires.

The Goddess is no Dummy; she encoded our Mission into our Deepest Desires, so there’s no way we could possibly forget it.  Motivation from the intellect is fine, as far as it goes.  But it doesn’t have nearly the Power and Persistence as Motivation from the Heart or the Gut or the Groin.  We were just Programmed to Believe that those kinds of Motivations were Silly or Stupid or Uncivil.  We were easy to Program because that’s what our Held Emotions told us anyway.  Which is just another way of saying that’s what we’re doing this week, examining our Programming and our Vulnerability to it.

Then there are the Dos Equiis, the four Curiosities, where the Universe is advising us to eschew Analysis and substitute Wonder.  These are…

  • I Wonder how my Unconscious Beliefs have warped my Deepest Desires
  • I Wonder how my Beliefs have constrained my Actions
  • I Wonder how Fear of Loss Limits my social interactions
  • I Wonder how my Held Emotions have warped my social interactions

These are Mysteries.  If your mind jumps at the chance to provide simple Answers to these Musings, thank it for Contributing and change the wording.  For instance, if it’s obvious to you how your Fear of Loss Limits your social interactions, change it to “I Wonder what would happen to my Social Life if my Fear of Loss was assuaged,” or something else that triggers your Imagination rather than your intellect.

At mid-month, this Configuration was not just a Yin Gate, but also a Flying Yoda, with a Kite stretched across the Golden Rectangle, topped by Haumea, and with T-Squares to each corner-to-corner Opposition in the Golden Rectangle.  We talk about Flying Yodas in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/12/04/orcus-ii/ , but in that essay I don’t think we mentioned the embedded Yin Gate or the T-Squares.  

The picture in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/03/30/very-busy-march-31/ shows the tailed Flying Squirrel, and actually, if we moved Ceres a few degrees forward, Mercury-Juno-Makemake-Ceres-Mercury would trace out a Golden Rectangle and enclose a Yin Gate.  (That’s a hypothetical; Mercury would be likely to move forward four times faster than Ceres.)  The T-Squares in that picture would be Pallas on Mercury-Opposite-Makemake, and Mars on Juno-Opposite-Pallas.

At the moment we have only a one-armed Flying Yoda, since the other arm was formed by Klotho and Sappho.  Klotho-Sappho (cutting a new Fabric for Life based on Singing the Praises of Love) is a great arm for a Haumea Kite to have, and not only can we easily conceive that the full Flying Yoda has provided a continuing Blessing, but any projects born around mid-February will certainly receive that Blessing.

The persisting arm of the Flying Yoda is Ixion, another fabulous Blessing.  If you didn’t notice the aroma of our Abandoned Genius in the earlier discussion of Programming and Desire, you might want to re-read it.  It’s quite a “coincidence” that Ixion occupies a Ray of the Grand Trine, because while we didn’t name it that, the Ixion Discovery chart contains a full Flying Yoda, focused on Ixion itself!  See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/03/23/ixion/ .

We’ll be able to bring our Abandoned Genius home here as well, as Grace surrounds it and connects it to our Rebirth.

 

Portal 25.1.16 Plus One

January 25, 2016

Great reader comments today…

Thanks for the heads up on what sounds like a fantastic opportunity.   I’m on board!   Got a comment about Rudhyar’s interpretation of An official embassy ball – ‘Group consciousness as it flows at the highest level in cultural exchanges between representatives of the elite of the ruling class.’   An embassy is a small piece of one culture embedded in another.   Intended to represent the highest and the best.  

So if we view ‘Group consciousness as it flows at the highest level in cultural exchanges between representatives of the elite of the ruling class,’ as the people on the planet using consciousness to change…don’t the numbers define them as elite?  And separate?  And if consciousness does determine reality then aren’t they in fact the ‘ruling class?’  It all fits perfectly through the looking glass….”

Brilliant!  Catching my own pessimism on Culture and Huperity!  Thank you!  I’ll have to Witness and Embrace that, and Wonder what my Life will be like when I’m not so cynical about the Future of Hupers, while I Change the Subject and Pay Attention!

Powerful post… I realize how I feel divided between doing my own art for the joy of it vs. wanting to make art that others will ‘respect’ and admire.  The desire to create to make meaningful connection with others is strong, but ultimately seems to be a false flag – it will happen organically if it’s meant to be.  The other is a remnant from childhood, maybe – using my gifts in the hopes of being truly seen and loved for that true being.  Subtle discernments are moving large underpinnings of beliefs...”

I know, the Conventional Wisdom is that we need to dive into all this Modern Marketing Hoopla of the personally-addressed sort that fills my inbox and I seldom read.  Some of the people who I used to respect for their apparent dedication to educating people and Changing the World are resorting to the “Are you sure you want to leave this page” BS that I read as “I don’t care about Changing the World as much as I care about getting your money” – my cynicism again!  They need the money to Change the World!  My main cash client almost didn’t get their contract renewed last month – and I would have been harassing you with some version of the Modern Marketing Hoopla too!  Look at the next comment…

There has been a feeling that today is a big day for putting a whole different side of my life into motion.  There has also been a feel that the entire ship of life is changing direction… And being a ship that was moving really fast, it’s taking a while for it to stop and turn, change direction.  But then all this is a feel, and I come back into my world and there seems no hope for anything shifting or changing..”

So this is what I tell people, and myself.  It (Recognition of our True Selves) “will happen organically if it’s meant to be” AND when we have Let Go of all of our Resistance to Allowing it to happen organically.  We could even say, Recognition of our True Selves will happen when we have Let Go of all of our Resistance to Allowing it to happen organically.

Chiron – which signifies our Ability to turn Despair into Miracles by Witnessing and Embracing our Emotions about Despair and the thoughts that drive them – is in Pisces.  Pisces is about Cleaning Up our Emotional Baggage so we can begin the next Cycle with as little encumbrance as possible.  So Chiron in Pisces – 2010 to 2019, is our opportunity to bring ourselves up out of Despair on a Global scale.  Remember that the worst kind of Despair is “Unconscious Despair,” where we don’t even believe something is Possible, so we don’t even consider the Potential for something to be different than it is.

After 2019 the Digital Age arrives in earnest, once two centuries of Air-Sign Saturn-Jupiter Initiations begin.  Jupiter-Saturn Cycles are the Expand-Focus pump that moves Society forward.  Not “forward” because it’s necessarily progress, “forward” because we’ve invented a one-directional clock.  If “the people on the planet using consciousness to change” indeed become the “ruling class,” then the Digital Age can see the reversal of the Wage Slavery of the Industrial Age, and a great boon can emerge for everyone.  But if the 1% are still the “ruling class” and own all of the machines, then the rest of us will be relegated to scavenging like Rey.  

The key is Discernment.  We need to PIAVA that we learn to Recognize our cynicism and our loss of Control and our loss of Hope quickly when it arises, Witness it, and Embrace ourselves.  “You poor Sweetheart, you really don’t have much faith in Hupers, do you.”  “You poor Sweetheart, you aren’t sure it’s possible to be Truly Seen and loved for that True Being, are you.”  “You poor Sweetheart, you get Discouraged about anything Shifting or Changing, don’t you.”

Saturn, which symbolizes our Focus, is in Sagittarius.  In Sagittarius, The Way Out Is to Let Go.  We did our Saturn-in-Scorpio trudge – 2012-2015, where The Way Out Was Through.  It will be far easier, with Saturn in Sagittarius – 2015-2017, to Discern the advent of Discouragement and step out of it.  Once we get to Saturn in Capricorn, 2017-2020, we’ll be Focused on Rebuilding.  Will be Rebuilding for the 1%, or for the 99%?

Neptune remains in Pisces till 2026.  Neptune can Lose itself in a Sea of Emotion, or soar in Bliss.  Pisces specializes in Emotion.  Soaring in Bliss will be short-lived as long as we haven’t Discerned, Witnessed, and Lovingly Embraced all of our Emotions.  The Buddhist saying is “Into the Water, out through Fire,” symbolizing the Ascent into Bliss as a result of the Descent into Emotion.  But it doesn’t work that way if we get stuck in the Emotion and can’t get out.  Ascension is a lot more likely if we first Learn to Discern and Witness, and then Descend into Emotion.

The Individual Soul is at its most Creative with Uranus in Aries, 2010-2019.  Once Uranus is in Taurus, we’ll be building what we’ve already conceived, and Change will be incremental improvements rather than leaps into the Unknown.  Pluto in Capricorn, 2008-2024, is about “Just Fix It!”  The Social Order will Change a lot when Pluto Transits Aquarius and Neptune moves through Aries, but on what foundation?  We’re really in the Manifestation Stage here for the next several years; our opportunity for Change may never be greater.