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Boundaries III

February 11, 2019

A we mentioned in Boundaries, “Other, of course, isn’t just Other Hupers.”  We’ve been writing about Libra and Pallas for several days without realizing till now that Other and Boundary are really the same concept or word, just seen from different Perspectives.  Without a Boundary there wouldn’t be an Other, and without Other we’d never have the notion of Boundary.  It’s all about Identity, which is a lot more Fluid than we usually think.  And about Duality, which is a lot more Limiting than we usually think.

We Hupers usually think of the Veil between us and the Other Side as more of a Limitation than a Boundary, but Boundary it is, and the Other Side is as much an element of Libra as your paramour.

“He was not wakened again by Alder, but he had a bad dream of his own.

“He was standing by a wall of stone near the top of a long hillside of dry grey grass that ran down from dimness into the dark.  He knew he had been there before, had stood there before, but he did not know when, or what place it was.  Someone was standing on the other side of the wall, the downhill side, not far away.  He could not see the face, only that it was a tall man, cloaked.  He knew that he knew him.  The man spoke to him, using his true name.  He said, ‘You will soon be here, Ged.’

“Cold to the bone, he sat up, staring to see the space of the house about him, to draw its reality about him like a blanket.  He looked out the window at the stars.  The cold came into his heart then.  They were not the stars of summer, beloved, familiar, the Cart, the Falcon, the Dancers, the Heart of the Swan.  They were the Other stars, the small, still stars of the dry land, that never rise or set.  He had known their names once, when he knew the names of things.

” ‘Avert!’ he said aloud and made the gesture to turn away misfortune that he had learned when he was ten years old.”  (Ursula Le Guin, The Other Wind, pp.12-13)

“We who have true names keep them when we die, it’s our use-name that is forgotten… This is a mystery to the learned, I can tell you, but as well as we understand it, a true name is a word in the True Speech. … When my master Aihal died, my wife was there with him; and as he was dying he said to her, ‘It is changed, all changed.‘  He was looking across that wall.  From which side I do not know.”  (ibid, p.45)

“Kalessin said: ‘Long ago we chose.  We chose freedom.  Men chose the yoke.  We chose fire and the wind.  They chose water and the earth.  We chose the west,  and they chose the east.’

“And Kalessin said: ‘But always among us some envy them their wealth, and always among them some envy us our liberty.  So it was that evil came into us and will come into us again, until we choose again, and forever, to be free.  Soon I am going beyond the west to fly on the Other Wind.  I will lead you there, or wait for you, if you will come.’ …

“Then Kalessin said, ‘Once we were one people.  And in sign of that, in every generation of men, one or two are born who are dragons also.  And in every generation of our people, longer than the quick lives of men, one of us is born who is also human.  Of these one is now living in the Inner Isles.  And there is one of them living there now who is a dragon.  These two are the messengers, the bringers of choice.  There will be no more such born to us or to them.  For the balance changes.’ ”  (Ibid, pp.167-68)

We can also compare our day-to-day Experience with that of Daphne Charters and her friends (Forty Years with the Fairies, pp.260-61)…

“This work, in which we all assist, is known as a transformation.  We seek and find a lost soul whose astral body, as well as the physical, has died, leaving no trace to normal Astral eyes.  However, because we cannot see a ‘dead’ person, owing to his faster rate of vibration, it does not follow that he has no body.  So it is with those whose vibrations have sunk through the years until only the Great Ones know where they lie.

“We find these people by their vibration, however slow and, although we are unable to see them when we reach them, we mark the spot and direct rays of power and love upon them until their vibrations are sufficiently raised for the bodies to become visible to us.  This is the first stage in the rehabilitation of ‘lost souls,’ as much power has to be directed to them over sometimes long periods before consciousness returns.

“In order to achieve even the first part of the transformation, it is necessary for many hundreds of people from the Astral to gather together.  By passing power through their bodies, it becomes sufficiently coarsened to be effective amidst very slow vibrating matter.  This is where Daphne is of use to us, for her physical body vibrates slower than those of us who live on the Astral, a higher plane, thus power which is passed through her coarsens the whole.

“Unless you are clairvoyant, you will not have seen a display of power so you cannot know the magnitude of the volume, or the intensity of light.  Fairies can naturally see this power for it is their life’s work to distribute it, but normally they know only the quantity which they can collectively produce in their own group.  Our own fairies, who always help us, are ever amused at the never-ending supply so we were interested to see how the delegates would be affected…”

“How different is the power which we witnessed today to that which is known by the same name on Earth.  Man ever seeks for power to overcome his neighbors, to add to his possessions, or to acquire authority over more people.  Today we were privileged to see the essence from which all these petty misnomers have their being.

“But this true-power, in its purity of purpose, performed a deed so wondrous that if men were told of it, they would not believe.  If only those who sought to misuse it understood the condition in which they will find themselves when their ridiculous, puffed-up physical bodies and accompanying personalities are no more, perhaps they would then use it to lift up instead of to crush, to comfort rather than exploit, and, in the happiness which they would at last know, they would find the key to a better world.”

So, I was Wondering about the Other planet in Libra, Makemake.  And it turns out that, at least for now, the Bottom Line of Makemake in Libra is that If we Want to Manifest What We Want, we have to Seek Out and Revert our Victim Postures.  Drawing up the Makemake chart for the moment when Juno enters Gemini – ie, when we are likely to be due for substantial Consciousness Expansion (8:30 pm PST 10 February)…

…Reveals two big Challenges (T-Squares)…

A Challenge to Manifestation itself (Makemake) between Making it a Value of ours to be Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Venus-Pholus-Quaoar) and Choosing Consciousness over Fate (asteroid Moira).

Fate is what happens To Us when we’re not Conscious of what’s going on.  It’s not about Why but rather about What.  What’s the Pattern?  When our Repeating Bummers happen, what Precedes them?  When “bad luck” befalls us, there’s a sequence of events that leads up to it.  We aren’t talking Cause & Effect – that’s a left-brain dead end.  Useful if you’re Stuck in the 3D Dynamic Masculine Creative process, but Obfuscating if you want to use 5D Magnetic Feminine Manifestation methods.

PIAVA that you become aware of What Precedes your Self-Sabotage.  If you already knew what it was you’d have fixed it long ago.  It’s behind your Blinders, and you won’t see it without enlisting the Cooperation of the Unconscious – that is, using PIAVA.  For instance, “Lord Ganesh, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Realizing How I Stumble into Self-Sabotage.”  Once you get Conscious about these Patterns, you can Choose otherwise.

We’ve been working with Responding Fully (Pholus) to our Survival Instincts (Quaoar) – ie, Disallowing our Yes-Buts that try to Protect our Routines – for a long time.  We’re running out of Excuses.  It’s past time to Accept this as a basic Value.

The second Challenge is about Reframing the Beliefs Created by our Victim Postures (Vesta-OR10-Nessus) between Ego Death (Nemesis) and Sustainability (Ceres).

Like our Survival Instincts, we’ve also been working with our Abuse Memories for a long time now.  First we have to Retrieve them – or Allow them to Retrieve us (OR10), and Acknowledge their Reality.  Then we have to Empathize with our Real Victim, Revert any Blaming-the-Victim behavior we indulged or encountered, and Deal with our Real Emotions.  That usually takes a lot more than a few hundred Poor-Sweethearts, though they can be useful.

People talk a lot about Forgiveness, but in a real sense what we need is the Opposite of Forgiveness, as our original Tolerance was a form of Forgiveness to begin with.  We don’t Forgive; we Discover that we’ve Forgiven.  It’s an Observation, not an Action.  As with Self-Sabotage, we need to Discover what Preceded our episodes of Abuse, so we can Learn to Recognize the Pattern before it turns Abusive, and Choose Otherwise.  While Sharing all this increases the Pain, it’s often very difficult to do alone.

Yes, just about every step in the process of Clearing Abuse – Recall, Acceptance, Self-Empathy, Embracing our Real, Explosive Emotions, Opening to the Patterns – requires an Ego Death (Nemesis).  Our Resistance to Ego Death must be Reframed, so we Recognize when it’s happening and Learn to Celebrate it as the fastest route to Living a Better Life.

And as we move through Abuse, we have to Recognize that we’re likely to be Abused in some ways every day.  Every “trivial” unkind remark, Intentional or otherwise, can make us Feel Less-Than.  So we have to get very good at Recognizing it, Owning and Healing our Reactions, and approaching Ego Death as we would a Latte, in order to make this whole process Sustainable (Ceres).

And Sustainability-Ceres is the kingpin of the whole chart, as it is the head of a Kite that connects the two T-Squares.  A Kite is a Grand Trine (three planets equally spaced around the Circle) with a fourth planet halfway between two of the three.  The fourth planet – Ceres – becomes the Focus of the substantial Dumb-Luck Blessings served up by the Grand Trine.

So we have a Golden Opportunity to bring these Challenges – Cleaning Up our Manifestations by Choosing to Support our Survival Instincts, and Rooting Out the Limiting Beliefs that our Abuse History has left us with – into Resolution, where they Serve our Deepest Desires rather than Sabotaging them.

The three corners of the Grand Trine, or Big Grace, are Manifestation (Makemake), Ego Death (Nemesis), and The End of Karma (asteroids Atropos and Karma).  We’ve actually been working on the Death of Karma for a lot longer than we’ve been working on Abuse Memories or Responding to Survival Instincts.  The Realization in the Western World that Karma is about Inertia rather than Retribution has been with us since Alan Watts’s books in the 1950s.

A corollary is that Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp it.  Like our Other Challenges, Letting Go of Our Karma involves Noticing when it’s recurring, Reverting our Belief that it’s Inevitable, Discovering the Patterns that led up to it, Noticing when those Patterns Begin the next time, and Choosing an Alternative.  The Death of Karma is a Given in this Drama; it’s not something we’re being Scheduled to work on, it’s something that we can use as a model for the Abuse and Survival Issues we are working on.

Dragon, of course, is a synonym for Karma, and as we saw, Dragons have gone to fly on the Other Wind.


November 9, 2015

When we looked at Nessus’s “Discovery” chart, we extended our portfolio of interpretations, to include…

  • Privilege, especially Masculine Privilege, and the other side of its Coin, Abuse.
  • Teaching us about our Resistance to the external World.
  • Learning how to Liberate ourselves from Archetypes, Self-Sabotage, and Limitation.
  • Teaching us about our Separation.
  • Teaching us to set Solid Boundaries against Denying our Intuition.
  • Introducing Complexity into our Lives.
  • Revealing to us the Oaths we swore that bound us to Archetypes, Self-Sabotage, and Limitation.

The Complexity is particularly important.  Life as it really is, is simple.  How often do you need to be reminded to Exhale after you Inhale, or Krap after you Eat, or Respond when you Feel Loved?  Sure, our intellectual Curiosity (the kind that wants Answers – as opposed to our Permanent Curiosity, the kind that inspires Awe) can dissect Breathing and make it into all manner of irrelevant Detail, but that doesn’t impact our actual Breathing.  It may be useful at the Edges – say, if we stopped Breathing, we may want to find out why.  But even that is just Resistance, Resistance to sliding effortlessly into another Lifetime, Resistance created by the Ego Archetype.  It’s our Archetypes, Self-Sabotage, and Limitations that make Life appear Complex.  So when our Limiting Beliefs get up in our face, suddenly things get very Complicated.

It’s not just Nessus that’s Stationary at this 11/11 New Moon.  Vesta – itself symbolizing Unconscious Beliefs – is too.  And Nessus, as it has been since mid-year and as it will be till the end of the year, is Out of Bounds, or unusually Strong.  So our Limiting Beliefs are Really up in our face.  Which is a tremendous Opportunity, since these Ascensional Leaps that we’re scheduled for (such as 11/11!) will by and large be Painful to the extent that our Limiting Beliefs create Resistance to them.  So now is the time to decode the message that we’re getting.  If we’re Victim to our Limiting Beliefs, we not only miss out on the Leap, but more importantly, we miss out on the Opportunity to get Conscious of the Limiting Belief.  Getting Conscious of them is a prerequisite to Changing them.

For instance, one friend is in the middle of a botched dental procedure, and has been indulging their completely justified Victimhood around it for the last week and more.  Today they recognized their Victim, shifted gears, Affirmed Empowerment instead, and the procedure finished successfully.  Another friend suffered a computer crash that was a major threat to their income, with a project deadline looming.  They gave priority to working with their Fear until it was resolved.  They remarked that they were Curious all day about how casual they felt about it now, and then they discovered later in the day that the deadline had been relaxed.  A third friend hit a troubling glitch in an important business deal, spent the weekend in Meditation, and resolved the glitch effortlessly once they had tamed their Panic.  

Three examples of Safety First.  Now, the next step is decoding the message.  What was the Limiting Belief?  What was its origin?  These are optional steps, as all three friends mastered the Safety First technique.  Once we connect Anxiety and Panic with the need to Withdraw and restore Grounded Presence, we’ve Mastered a technique that can be used for any speedbump or roadblock.  But the bump or block is an Opportunity to get more Conscious of the nature of the Limiting Belief that was triggered.  What triggered it?  Why?  If we avoid Certainty and add “or something like that” to every tentative conclusion we reach, intellectual Curiosity (and Answers) may be useful here.  The New Moon is only a few Degrees from Mercury, which symbolizes Analytical Consciousness.  We’d probably Learn even more by PIAVAing these Questions, but combining PIAVA with analysis, if the two processes are respectful of each other, may be more powerful yet.

Let’s review Wednesday’s Full Moon.  As we said, it’s a few Degrees from Mercury.  It makes a Trine Bridge across the Jupiter-Chiron Opposition (Healing Despair).  Our friend Vesta sits on the South Node (Self-Sabotage Revealing our Limiting Beliefs), and Mars on the North Node (Taking Action toward our Mission).  And the Quaoar-Chariklo-Hylonome Stellium (Revelation of any Identification we have with Feminine Privilege and its Survival Advantage) T-Squares the Nodal Axis (Implying that the Privilege may inhibit our Survival if we aren’t Conscious of our Identification with it).

Vesta and Nessus are not Conjunct; they are simultaneously Stationary.  The effect is the same – we are unable to Differentiate their relative influences.  Which in this case is fine, since they’re implying very much the same thing – bringing Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, especially around Privilege, up into Consciousness.  We can view our Limiting Beliefs in a variety of ways.  They are the bars on our Birdcage, the very cage that keeps us Safe from Puddytat.  They are the result of Oaths we made in this Life or another, that resulted in the accumulation of Karma.  They are probably Archetypes – Cultural Images much larger than ourselves.  They stand in the way of our Ascension, if that’s a Goal of ours, and in the way of Living Life Joyfully and Effortlessly, in case that’s a Goal of yours.  They not only inhibit understanding and pursuit of our Mission, but they obscure Skills and Tools that we learned in other Lifetimes, that we need if we are to achieve our Mission.  They block our Intuition and our Yintegrity.  They constitute our Shadow, or the characteristics we Judge and sometimes Deny in ourself and therefore Judge in others – and constitute our Self-Hate when we aren’t in Denial.  We could go on.

This post by Tim Urban is long, and though he’s an engaging writer, he suffers from critical limitations – namely, he’s Once-Born, and doesn’t know that he’s not connected to his Inner Female or “right brain” – but he does a good job of describing some of our Archetypal, Identity, Denial, and Victim Patterns, as well as examples of Liberation…

The Cook and the Chef: Musk’s Secret Sauce

The more the merrier when it comes to Perspectives, even if they’re Limited Perspectives – as long as we understand their Limitation.

Vesta makes a Waxing Unx to Nessus.  The Initiation occurred at the end of March 2015, at 3 Pisces, “Petrified tree trunks lie broken on desert sand” – yet another amplifier of the process of Bringing Unconscious Limits up into Consciousness.  A New Energy is born at the Initiation – and all Initiations are Can-Openers by the way, so we probably encountered some Limiting Beliefs in March, and our Experience then is probably related to our Experience now – and at the Waxing Unx we’re given the Opportunity to Break old Patterns that inhibit our Embrace of the New Energy.  So the entire four-year Vesta-Nessus Cycle will be devoted to Breaking up Limiting Beliefs, and the more progress we make now, the easier will be the next three and a half years.