Bummers Rising III

Some folks objected to my referring to Bummers, but others, like this reader, thought otherwise…

“I loved one of your recents where you wrote…

‘An excellent test of how your very subtle Growth is progressing will be your sense of Being Violated.  Certainly not physically, but if you encounter Insults, Pay Attention.’

“It’s just schoolground taunts, but of course it’s a golden opportunity to revisit that sad little one on the playground of life.  And as you also wrote…

‘Take as much time as you need to start seeing the Humor in it.’

“So I’m smiling and waving adios as I move on down the road.  And I suppose I could also add Gratitude for the ones who are giving me a chance to remember that little one’s sadness enough to process it.

“I have to say the Confusion about new directions and The Whole Purpose of My Life is stunningly omnipresent, but I am working on The Most Important Thing, which I’m taking to be Deep Love for all my Inner Selves, especially those who were treated with indifference or cruelty by those I wanted to trust and receive love from.  Another one of my sources (Jonathan Zap) wrote…

‘Incarnation is not for sissies — not if you want to do it right.’

“And it’s clearer to me why so many refuse to revisit all that.  Even if you’re a cat, covered in scat, you would bite and claw the well-meaning human who wanted to bathe you.

“So the processing continues…  Huge emotional release this morning that I Tapped and Tapped through.  A croquembouche of tissues in front of me…  But that’s all krap that needed to be released up and out, right?  Deep gratitude for bathroom doors and ample paper products to clear it all out.”

Chiron and the South Node are both repositories for our Bummers, and when they convene, it’s literally Bummers Squared.  We can say that because Chiron Bummers are brightly lit flags pointing to places where our Limiting Beliefs are constraining our Lives, and because we know that Witnessing and Empathizing with Chiron Bummers will Tranform them into Grace.

And because South Node Bummers are dimly lit pointers to the places where we stashed some of our most Powerful Skills, hiding them behind Emotions that we’ll do almost anything to avoid Feeling – often “We’d rather die,” because that’s exactly what we have to do to reclaim those Skills, endure an Ego Death.

If you aren’t enduring any Bummers these days, that’s great!  I recommend two things…

• First, Celebrate your Gratitude that you’re already Liberated from the Trauma that many of your peers are working through.  It wouldn’t hurt to have a bit of Compassion for them while you’re at it, maybe send them a prayer, or at least wish them luck.
• And Second, seek out your own Bummers.  No one can say for sure what is Grace and what is Denial.  This is just practice; we’ll all be facing our Greatest Fears come June.  They’ll be Paper Tigers, but we won’t know that.  What does it matter that the Tiger is only Paper or Shadow, if we scare ourselves to Death Resisting it?  

I don’t normally recommend prying open locked dungeon doors, because Denial is a healthy psychological process, protecting our fragile Egos from Overwhelm, which can easily set Growth back for years if we don’t handle it right.  But in this case, where we’re being invited to Let Go of as much baggage as we can now, to make June easier, I think it would behoove us.  

Need a second opinion?  Here’s a good one…

http://bluedragonjournal.com/2014/04/12/archangel-ezekiel-greetings/

Bummers Rising

Well, if last week’s Total Solar Eclipse hasn’t been “fun” enough, we’re coming up on a pretty severe challenge over the next few days, if you aren’t already in the thick of it.  Just after 10am PDT on 18 March, we’ve an event that could be painful, even though it’s exactly what we need just now.

Chiron Initiates the South Node, at 22 Pisces, “A prophet carrying tablets of the new law is walking down the slopes of Mount Sinai.”  That’s a bit profound.

There are several things to remember…

• Stop to verify that your Fear or Pain or Discouragement is actually arising from the Present Moment, rather than from Memories of similar Experiences.  
• Whether it’s Present Moment or not, make yourself Safe as best you can before you do anything else.
• Remember Humpty-Dumpty?  When your Personality fragments, you have to stop and put it back together again.  If you try to accomplish anything else with a fragmented Personality, you’ll just screw everything up.  Overwhelm is always Priority Number One.
• You can reduce Overwhelm by Tapping – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 .  Even if you “don’t Believe” in Tapping, measure your Fear or Pain on a scale of 1 to 10, then try Tapping, then measure again, and repeat several times.  Tap on phrases like “I am Scared” or “My Belly Hurts” or “I am Discouraged” or “I’m so Angry I could spit!”  Tapping does work to bring you back into the Present Moment, and if it doesn’t work for you, it’s probably because you haven’t practiced with it enough.
•  Next Ask yourself exactly what you’re Feeling now, and where it occurs in your Body.  Switch your Identification, from the likes of “I am Scared” to “I Feel Scared,” from the likes of “My Belly hurts” to “I Feel Pain in my Belly,” from “I am Discouraged” to “I Feel Discouraged,” and from “I am Angry” to “I Feel Angry.”  
• If you can do it comfortably, put your hand or hands on your Body where you’ve identified the Discomfort to reside.  Notice whether you’re Tense or Relaxed around that place, and Relax it.  Soften it, Warm it.  Fear is hard and cold; Love is Soft and Warm.  You want to be Loving with your Body, especially when it’s in Discomfort.
• Talk to yourself, out loud if you can.  “You poor Sweetheart, you were really Feeling scared, weren’t you.”  Or “You poor Sweetheart, your Belly still Hurts, doesn’t it.”  Or “You poor Sweetheart, you feel Discouraged, don’t you.”  Or “You poor Sweetheart, you really Felt Angry, didn’t you.”  Past tense or present, depending on which is true.  You can make it a statement or a question.  If you make it a question, wait for an answer.  It may not be verbal.  If you don’t get an answer, accept the one you’ve already rejected.  If your Body gave you an answer that allows you to be more accurate, modify your Self-Empathy.  
• Spend a few minutes Comforting yourself, put your arms around yourself, maybe rocking, maybe curling up under a blanket.
• Now take inventory.  
  • Are you feeling Healed?  Surprised that the Demons seem to be banished?  Shell-shock is appropriate.  We were Expecting Trauma, and found Compassion.  Give yourself a little more Space to be Gentle with yourself, then return to what’s left of your Life.  I say “what’s left” because it will be Changed.  For the Better.  It’ll take a while to see all the details, so go softly.  But go ahead.
  • Not Feeling Healed?  Make yourself Warm and Comfortable.  Scan your Body for Discomfort again.  Put your hands on the Discomfort, Warm it, Soften it.  Move your Attention into the center of it.  If it moves, follow it.  If it Resists your Attention, if it’s surrounded by fuzz and fog, persist.  Just gently push your Attention into the Edge of it.  When your Attention wanders, bring it back.  Keep pushing till you find its center, or till it moves.  If that takes a week, so be it.  It’s The Most Important Thing you’re doing.

This astroevent will reveal many of the places that we’ll be confronting between now and June, our Held Emotions and the Orphaned parts of ourselves, places that need our Love, the sooner the better.  The longer we push them away, the harder they’ll be to reclaim.   

Come June Eris will Initiate Uranus, bringing us in touch with our Orphaned Selves.  It will be a Soul Retrieval or a Nightmare, depending on how much practice we have Embracing what we’re in the habit of Rejecting.  “Blown inward by the Wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a Cornucopia” (24 Aries).  Will this represent Abundance, or a Chimera of the Wind?  That’ll depend on our readiness to Receive.  It’ll help to remember that Abundance means Having enough to Share.

Next week it gets heavier, as Saturn, Ixion, and Pholus all turn Retrograde within a few days.  Saturn-Ixion will tell us that The Most Important Thing is Loving our Abandoned Genius back into our Identity, while Pholus will Ask us to Take More Responsibility for this than we otherwise would have.  Remember that Responsibility looks to the Future to improve Outcomes, while Blame looks to the Past to try to figure out “who did it.”  

The Ixion Station is 25 Sagittarius at 5am PDT on 24 March, the Saturn Station in 17 Sagittarius at 3am PDT on 25 March, and the Pholus Station in 28 Sagittarius at half past 5am PDT 26 March.  Remember that Sagittarius is about Letting Go.  The Pholus Station on the Galactic Center reminds us however that when Gaia was replaced by Pi in 2012 as the overlighting Goddess of our current Home Planet, the Hupeople were cautioned that they need to start Taking Full Responsibility for their negativity, greed, and destructiveness.

While that’s going on, Chiron Initiates Ceres, still in 22 Pisces, at 5am PDT 24 March, “A prophet carrying tablets of the new law is walking down the slopes of Mount Sinai.”  The Ceres-Chiron Cycle is about making permanent our habitual Response to Discouragement – we recommend the process we described above.  When we bring home the Orphans that have been banished behind our Limiting Beliefs, the Law changes.

Kundalini Rising I

The machine is a bit Atlantean, but here’s a great musical introduction to today’s post…

http://www.npr.org/sections/allsongs/2016/03/03/469027281/be-amazed-by-this-marvelous-music-machine-powered-by-2000-marbles

And one in prose…

“In the late seventies I was a tool and process engineer at Chrysler Corporation when, almost overnight, all kinds of strange and uncontrolled perceptual changes began happening to me.  These changes were the start of over two long years of valiant struggle with both my body and my mind, while I was certain that I was going slowly insane.  Most of the uncontrolled perceptions coiuld only be called psychic experiences, but I had never had those kinds of perceptions before, not did I know of anyone else who might have had such unusual experiences.  

“I was not at all familiar with concepts such as clairvoyance or clairaudience, nor did I know anyone who was.  I had neither read nor heard of anyone who claimed to be out of the body, or in two places at once.  I did not believe in reincarnation, mostly because I didn’t know anything about it beyond what the word suggested.  In addition, communication had always been something that happened between me and other people who were alive and right in front of me, or by telephone, perhaps by letter.  

“It is possible that if I had known anything about the subject of psychic experiences, this period of my life might have been a bit easier, less confusing, althought it probably would have been just as frightening.  I didn’t know it at the time, but I was suffering from what was known as kundalini, an ancient term for the sudden, massive awakening of consciousness with all of its powers, varieties of perception, and ability to enter other realms of existence.  Even if I had known something about kundalini, the metaphysical realm, or the possibiliies for experience beyond the immediate physical reality I was accustomed to, nothing would have prepared me for what I went through during this period.

“The processes of this ‘awakening’ resulted in such a wide variety of physical, mental, and emotional phenomena that every law of time, of space, of human capability and meaning that I had built my reality around was confronted, defied, and swept briskly away.  It was as if I had stumbled through some door into a realm where none of the old rules of reality applied.”

–Penny Kelly, The Elves of Lily Hill Farm, pp. ix-x

We’re moving into the last several days of the Aim Higher and Upper Limits Province (in Linear Time) that we talked about recently, as the Jupiter-North Node Quintile Yod fades.  It’s being replaced by the New Moon and Total Solar Eclipse of 8 March, 2016.  The Totality will be visible only if you’re in the mid-Pacific or Makulu or Sulawesi or Kalimantan or southern Sumatra.  That’s Borneo and Celebes to us oldsters – Celebes is where the Boogey Man lives, literally.  If you aren’t familiar with the Boogey Man, you can read about him in Tom Perkins’s Confessions of an Economic Hit Man, or Ursula Leguin’s five-book Earthsea Triology – both of which you need to read anyway, if you haven’t already.

In other words, there’s likely to be a fairly heavy four weeks ahead of us.  Let’s start with the astrology…

The Saturn-Chaos Opposition is the central axis of the Eclipse Chart.

The Most Important Thing during the next four weeks will be our Unlimited Potential.  In that sense, our Aim Higher suggestions will be more important than ever.  

Based on this information alone, what I’d suggest is that whatever ill befalls us – if any, Asking “I Wonder what Amazing Adventures will Open Up for me as a result of this Clearing” is probably our best recourse.  We want to be careful to Change the Subject after this Query, rather than trying to look for an Answer, because any Answer we come up with intellectually will be an extrapolation of our Limiting Beliefs, won’t be able to encompass the Unlimited Potential we’re moving into, and as a result will only keep us tethered to our current treadmill.  

A crazy-seeming Intuition would be a more reliable guide, but if you get one, take it with a sense of humor, as the Olde Mind can so easily make a house of cards out of it, Fantasizing on our obsolete Perceptions.  Take notes, then Change the Subject again.  Our Identities will be turned upside down in June, and we want to wait till we get past that shakeup before we start making conclusions about our individual and collective Futures.

The June Jupiter-North Node Initiation will be minor compared to the Eris-Uranus Initiation that will follow.  Eris-Uranus will bring us face to face with the elements of our True Self that we haven’t yet incorporated into our Conscious Ego.

The Saturn-Chaos Opposition is one pole of the Grand Cross.  The Opposition between the Eclipse and Jupiter forms the other pole.  The Eclipse adjoins the South Node and Chiron, and the North Node adjoins Jupiter.

By now any regular reader will be very familiar with the notion that Chiron represents Despair and Miracles, and that we convert Despair and Discouragement into Miracles by shifting from “I Am in Despair” to “I Feel Despairing,” then reaching back and Embracing our Despairing self, “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Discouraged, aren’t you.”   That shifts our Identity from being In Despair to being In Compassion.  If we can Change the Subject after that, we Open ourself to Miracles, in the sense that our Future is very likely to contain Gifts that were not within the realm of Possibility when we were in Despair.

If we aren’t successful at Changing the Subject, we Tap it Out – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 – then we circle back and Empathize with our Discouragement again.  It’s not how many times we fall down, it’s how many times we get up.  If we’ve been repeating a Pattern all our Life – which probably means many Lifetimes before that as well – then we can hardly expect to Change it with a few “reps,” though, since Karma is Dead, we’ll be surprised at how quickly we can Let Go of a Pattern that has been sabotaging us forever.

And the South Node, what does that symbolize?  None other than Patterns we’ve probably been practicing for many Lifetimes before this one, Patterns that may be self-sabotaging.  Like Kim D’Eramo says, there are no positive or negative Emotions, there are only positive and negative reactions to Emotions.  In the same vein, there are no positive or negative Patterns, there are only Patterns we repeat mindlessly and Patterns over which we have the Power to Choose to use when appropriate to the situation, and the Power to Choose not to use when it’s not appropriate – Archetypes that have us in their Spell, and Archetypes we can manipulate Consciously.  There are no negative Archetypes, only Archetypes used Unconsciously.  Breathing is an Archetype.

The bane of self-sabotage is Consciousness.  If we’re Conscious that a Pattern is repeating, we have the option to Choose an alternative.  The sooner we Notice that we’re about to do that again, the easier it is to stop.  If we add the step of Congratulating ourself for Noticing rather than Condemning ourself for repeating the Pattern, we accelerate the Change process, even if we’ve already repeated the Pattern.  We create a Virtuous Cycle – Repeat, Repeat, Notice, Repeat, Congratulate, Notice, Congratulate, Choose.  It gets easier and easier.

My Guides showed me this trick when Uranus was crossing my Neptune.  I was just starting to learn astrology.  Neptune, the Undifferentiated Sea of the Unconscious, and Uranus, the Soul’s Urge.

The worst kind of Despair is Unconscious Despair – when we don’t even consider the Possibility that something might exist – such as our Deepest Desires, or Elves – because we’ve integrated our Limiting Beliefs so well that they define our “Reality.”  We’ve encountered our Limiting Beliefs so often, and been Discouraged by their apparent impermeability, that we’ve come to accept them as just the way things are, just another “Law of Nature.”  Dwarf Planet Chaos teaches us that Possibility is Limited only by our Imagination.

If you interpret that in the most Reductionist sense, you could think, Sure, but that’s not Reality, it’s Imaginary.  So what if it’s “only” Imagination.  If we can Imagine having What we Want, we can Feel it, and if we can Feel it, we can Become it – that’s just the Chironean Empathy process in reverse.  If we Become it, we Are it, we have arrived.  Its the difference between Greed and Abundance.  Abundance is Having Enough to Share.  Stepping out of skepticism, there is ample research to show that if we can Imagine it and Feel it, and it Motivates us enough, we can also Manifest it into Hardcopy Reality, if Abundance isn’t enough for us yet.

With Jupiter on the North Node, our Deepest Desires are brightly Illuminated, even exaggerated.  The more we Let Go of our Held Emotions and Limiting Beliefs, the closer our Deepest Desires approximate our Mission for the Lifetime.  You may have noticed that when you fulfill a Deep Desire, the fulfillment becomes hollow rather rapidly, and gets replaced by another Deep Desire – if you’re lucky enough to avoid the span of Discouragement and Lackawanna that often resides between them.  That’s because Desire is not a destination, but a road sign.  Your Mission for the Lifetime always hides behind it.  This creates Pain for some.

The Saturn-Chaos Opposition is also the central axis of the Kite that rides the Grand Trine between Chaos, Pallas, and Lilith-Haumea.  

Haumea Initiates Lilith on 19 March, “A Butterfly with a third Wing on its left side,” which Rudhyar interprets as “The ability to develop new modes of response to basic Life situations” – more Chironean Breakthroughs.  It’s a curious “Coincidence” that the Butterfly’s third Wing is on the Yin side, when the Initiate is Lilith, our symbol of Yindependence and Self-Sovereignty.  Haumea, of course, represents Rebirth.  

Rebirth of the Feminine.  Earth First! used to pass out very low-quality bumper stickers, low quality because that made them difficult to remove.  You could surreptitiously paste them onto megatruck bumpers on wilderness portals.  They said, “With a pecker as small as mine, you need a huge powerwagon like this.  Big hands or not.  You didn’t want to get caught.

While we read Pallas as Boundaries, remember that negation is not a property of Unconscious Reality, which is to say, not a property of non-Egoic Reality.  In other words, we can read Pallas in our Kite as Letting Go of our Boundaries with Unlimited Potential and the Rebirth of Self-Sovereignty.  And of course our Saturn Kite represents Grace aplenty, so we can read the Kite as…

This will be a particularly Easy time to Gracefully Let Go of Limiting Beliefs that Separate us from a whole new Identity of Healthy Egoic Control over our Relationship to Unlimited Possibility, and to Potentiate Futures that we would Consciously Choose to Experience.  Yes, while Mindful of our Upper Limits – but in a particularly auspicious time to Transcend our Upper Limits.  Our Noticing, as we described above, may be critical in differentiating Fear of Surrendering to the threat of Ego Annihilation, from Realization that the threat was not a hungry Tiger at all, but a painting on tissue paper of a hungry Tiger, requiring more Intention than Exertion to walk through.

As we’ve often said, the “best kind of chart to have,” from the Perspective of Doingness, is a chart with both a Grand Cross and a Grand Trine.  The Grand Trine provides a priori Skill and “Luck,” while the Grand Cross provides Motivation and Skill at multitasking.  We achieve the most by starting with our best native Skills and practicing them as if we were talentless.  This is true no matter how we define “achieve.”  It’s especially auspicious if the Grand Cross and Grand Trine share a corner.  Here the Grand Trine is expanded into a Kite, and it shares its central axis with one of the arms of the Grand Cross – particularly auspicious.

They say, “Be careful what you Ask for” because no matter how carefully and exhaustively you Ask, you’re still likely to trigger unintended consequences.  And when we Ask for anything, unless we’re right on the verge of Manifesting it anyway, the first thing the Universe will provide is information about why we haven’t been Manifesting it all along.  That’s why we cycle around to Paying Attention after we Change the Subject when we PIAVA, so we can discover what else needs to be Let Go of or Asked for.

We all have Effortless Manifestation of something.  If you’ve never spent two days without Food, Fasting excepted, then you Effortlessly Manifest Food.  If you’ve never spent two days without Freedom, then you Effortlessly Manifest Freedom.  If you’ve never gone two days without Pain, then you Effortlessly Manifest Pain.  What are your Deepest Desires?  Have you ever met anyone who never seems to be without the very thing that you Want so much?  If anyone has ever Manifested it, that’s a demonstration that it’s not Reality that lacks What you Want, it’s your Limiting Beliefs that constrain your picture of Possible Realities.

These are the Main Effects.  There are a lot of Embellishments, which we’ll take up tomorrow.

Heavy I

With so many planet clustering near the Midpoints of their Signs, the Full Moon features a couple of very large-scale  Configurations.  Let’s call the first one a Butterfly, in 17-20 Degrees.

To make a Butterfly, take a Quincunx Box – two Oppositions one Sign apart – and add a T-Square to each Opposition.  A Quincunx Box is driven by the Oppositions, but the foci of the T-Squares would obviously be dominating points as well, since they overlight the Oppositions.  Once we interpreted the T-Squares, we could say that the Quincunx between the two T-Square foci is the crux of the Butterfly Configuration.

The Oppositions are Jupiter-Chiron (Be Mindful that Discouragement doesn’t get Blown Up here; Witness and Embrace it, and it will be the Miracles that Explode instead) and Lilith-Uranus (How does your Olde Ego prevent your True Self from having Sovereignty over “You”?).  They’re joined by Unxes (Pattern-Breaking) and Quincunxes (Curiosity).  So we might see the Box as…

The Emotions may not seem straightforward here, but this Feels a lot more complicated than it really is.  What is it that your True Self wants, that You aren’t Allowing it to pursue?  The last thing we need is Confrontation between the Ego and the True Self – and at this time…

Because the Full Moon Opposing the OR10-Nessus Initiation will give anything Repressed a great deal of Power.  Even though it’s the True Self, it could easily arrive in the guise of a threatening intruder, if the Olde Ego isn’t willing to Grow on it’s own.  Remember that we’re rehearsing for an Eris-Uranus Initiation, where unflattering secrets will be thrown onto the table, in the effort to get us to clean up any unfinished Uranus-Pluto Yintegrity business.  Jupiter and Chiron are both about to Initiate the Nodes as well, so this is all about Karma and Mission – and Deepest Desires.

…this could easily be what occurs, if we don’t take steps to avoid it.  What steps?

Move to the Quincunxes – Lilith-Chiron and Jupiter-Uranus…

We don’t deal with the Unconscious using the same methodology we’d use to build a Fire or plant a Tree.  We don’t Act, we Allow.  We need PIAVA.  We need Questions on the order of…

Great Spirit, how might I Surrender Gracefully to my Higher Self, without being hijacked by my Fears and Discouragements?

I know, you were Programmed as a child to Believe that your Deepest Desires were Unholy, rather than urges from your Higher Self.  That’s the Programming we’re working with here, our Fears of Unholiness.  It’s called Karma.  Most of us also Learned that Karma can’t be Changed – hence our Discouragement.  That’s what we’re overcoming.

With dwarf planet Orcus Opposite the Neptune-Ceres Opposition, all of our Beliefs that our Deepest Desires are socially unacceptable are lit up.  With Asbolus T-Squaring this Opposition, however, Intuitions are available about how we can turn this around.  

It’s not a Question we’re seeking to Answer; it’s a Question we want to Forget for a while.  If our Ego or True Self don’t let us Forget, we need to patiently and persistently keep Changing the Subject.  Your Ego honestly doesn’t Know how to Answer it, and the mind can only screw things up more than they are; if the mind could Answer this Question, it would have done so a loooong time ago.  After a week or so, we can look back to see if the Great Spirit has provided any Insights.

T-Squaring the Lilith-Uranus Opposition is Pluto.  Transformation awaits us, and it’s not optional.  We will be operating more from our Self-Sovereignty in the Future.  What’s optional is how we handle the Egoic Disruption.  It might behoove to add a qualifier…

Great Spirit, how might I Surrender Gracefully to my Higher Self, Lovingly and Gently, without being hijacked by my Fears and Discouragements?

T-Squaring the Jupiter-Chiron Opposition is the dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential, not Disorder)…

The danger here is that we’ll be thinking waaay too small.  In fact, we shouldn’t be thinking at all – about solutions.  This would be an excellent time to fantasize.  Pull out all the stops.  What if anything you Want was easily within your grasp?  How would that Feel in your Body?  I know, you’d be bored to tears very quickly.  But how would it Feel for the first several years, while you were busy putting your Deepest Desires into motion, before you got jaded.  

And what about the belt, that big Pluto-Chaos Quincunx from wingtip to wingtip?  

We’re almost guaranteed to get Out of Control here.  When we do, we have to go with it.  Like turning into a skid on an icy road.  If our Actions or Words are Out of Control, once we realize it, we don’t need to keep “making it worse.”  But if our Emotions get Out of Control, it’s all the more important that we Witness and Embrace them.  Once we Witness them we can step back into them and Experience what it’s like to go Beyond ourself.  Not while operating machinery of course.  In meditation.

The Butterfly also features two Major Tricolors…

In this case Pluto-Square-Uranus-Quincunx-Jupiter-Trine-Pluto, for which our earlier Question about Surrendering Gracefully would work, and Chaos-Square-Chiron-Quincunx-Lilith-Square-Chaos…

If being Out of Control is Discouraging to us, we can PIAVA something like…

I wonder how I can Shift my Perspective to emphasize my Self-Sovereignty – if I had to please only Myself, I wonder how that would Change things.

Again, this is not a Wondering in search of an Answer; it’s an invitation for a Miracle to enter, once you’re looking the other way.  

The model for these PIAVAs is finding your car keys.  If you find them “where you last had them,” fine, no worries, no need for PIAVA.  If they went Walkabout, you need to Ask for them, then Change the Subject, put your mind and attention on something else entirely.  Next thing you know, you’ll find them in the Butter dish when you go to Butter your Happy Camper Organic Gluten-Free Toast.  If they aren’t there, keep Changing the Subject.

If they don’t eventually jump out at you, you’ll need to Pay Attention.  What did happen?  You had to call a colleague and ask for a ride to work?  How is that related to your car keys?  Does your job excite your True Self?  And how is it related to your Self-Sovereignty?  If you had to please only yourself, would this be the job you’d choose?  Some things aren’t easy to Change with Force; we may need Power instead.

This Pattern gets even more interesting if we drop down to include 16 Degrees.  We add Saturn, which Opposes Chaos and turns our Chaos T-Square into a Grand Cross.  Then we look at the Midpoint of Leo, and find the asteroids Klotho and Sappho, completing the Grand Trine with Saturn and Uranus, and making a Lilith Kite.  Klotho and Sappho together cut a new cloth for your Life, Singing the Praises of Love.  

There’s also a Klotho-Sappho Yod, on a base of the Chiron-Pluto Sextile.  Sextiles mean we need to take the first step, and it needs to be Witnessing any Discouragement that may arise.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Discouraged, aren’t you.”

We may also need to remember that Witnessing is Magic.  If “I’m Discouraged,” then I’ve Changed my name and Identity.  This is Identity Self-Theft, and it can be as difficult to Recover from.  If “I Feel Discouraged,” then I’m Experiencing an Emotion.  You’ll seldom be Out of Control under “I Feel”; you could easily be Out of Healthy Control under “I am.”  By itself, Witnessing is what Einstein was referring to when he said that we can never solve a problem using the same thinking that postulated the problem.

When we add Empathy to Witnessing – not just “I Feel,” but “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel,” we’ve shifted our Identity again, and our Identity is now Compassion, Compassion for ourself.  Eugene Gendlin wrote the ground-breaking book Focusing; in his PhD thesis he showed that it doesn’t so much matter what techniques you use for Healing, what matters is the presence or absence of Empathy.  Empathy Heals.

After shifting from I am to I Feel and adding You poor Sweetheart, it’s again time to Change the Subject, while we wait for Miracles.  As with PIAVA, if you don’t Change the Subject, you’ll keep looking at the same-old same-old, using the same thinking that created the problem.  At this point mind is not your helper, and it needs to be assigned elsewhere.  

While the realm of Possibility under I am and even I feel is Constrained, the realm of Possibility under You poor Sweetheart is Unlimited.  Once you Change the Subject, the Universe is a different place.  If you want you can look back later and see what happened that wasn’t originally possible, but you probably won’t.  You’ll be too busy Enjoying your new Universe.  No matter; the only important things are to Witness, Embrace, and Change the Subject.

By the way, Uranus will probably remain Lit Up through at least June, and when Uranus is Lit Up it’s folly to try to control your Sleep Patterns.  As much as you can, Sleep or Nap when you’re Sleepy, and do something Fun when you aren’t.  You’ll get a lot more done that way, and what Sleep you do get, even if it’s less than you Expect to get, will be enough.  Uranus and Expectations aren’t very good bed partners.

 

Hopi New Moon

The 8 February New Moon Opposes our new favorite asteroid Hopi, and continues for the next several weeks the Energy we talked about in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/02/04/my-new-favorite-roid/ – namely “What all this means, is that any projects we started last week, or start in February, will fly like a rocket!  Full of Motivation, full of Love, full of Ease and Grace, and full of natural Effortless Alignment.“

I still remember 1980 – when Hopi was Discovered – vividly; the Hopi Discovery chart was the chart we all lived under in June 1980.  My Life was totally transformed.  I did things that still amaze me, far exceeding my normal Limits.  I was for more Optimistic, Proactive, Extroverted, Willing to take big Risks, Curious, and Innovative than before or since.  I left a steady job at a prestigious University, and started the business that still today allows me the free time to provide this Seva to anyone willing to read it.

In 1980 it was not about overcoming Fear; it was about Feeling Safe enough to break free of traditional Limits Effortlessly.  Sedna is still Stationary, so we may have an additional opportunity here to Love our Karmic Fear-Limits into becoming our greatest Allies, adding a booster to our rocket.  This isn’t about Ego, it’s about Fun.  Exploring new Territory, Doing things you’ve never done, making yourself Available and Allowing yourself to be Open to whatever Shows Up.  

It may not provide the Recognition and External Validation we’ve been craving all of our Lives because that Unconditional Love Birthright of ours was Denied to us as infants.  But it’s not about Braving Up and Faking it till we Make it, either.  It’s about Feeling Safe enough that we can put ourselves out there in public without needing the External Validation, because we’re just Exploring. Angels Fly because they take themselves Lightly.

The New Moon Grand Sextile spans 15-20 Degrees of the Yang (Air and Fire) Signs – not quite close enough to make it Feel like we’ve arrived in “Real” Time Heaven, but plenty close to light a big Fire under any projects (or people) born under it.  And of course any New Moon chart is the template for the four weeks that follow it.  Conjunctions expand the hot zone to 25 or so degrees.  The Grand Sextile includes…

• The New Moon at 20 Aquarius, “A large white Dove bearing a message” – which in itself is pretty hot.
• Asteroid Hopi at 16 of Leo, joined again by asteroids Arachne at 19, and Pandora and Sappho at 21 Leo.
• Saturn at 15 Sagittarius.  Saturn is also the focus of a T-Square across the Nodal Opposition, which we’ll talk about soon.  If we stretch we can include dwarf planet Ixion at 26 Sagittarius, which we may as well do, to honor their upcoming Initiation.  Ixion Initiating Saturn after all implies that The Most Important Thing is Embracing our Abandoned Genius.  It occurs on the Ides of next February at 26 Sagittarius, “A flag bearer in a battle.”  We’re in the dregs of the current Cycle, Initiated 1 November 1984 at 18 Scorpio, “A path through woods brilliant with multicolored splendor.“
• Dwarf planet Chaos at 19 Gemini.  Chaos implies Unlimited Potential, not Disorder, though of course it may appear to be Disorder to the Eye that is blind to the Potential.  Chaos is also the focus of a Diamond Star, but we’ll talk about that in a minute.
• Vesta-Uranus (recently Initiated) at 18-19 Aries, stretching to 23 Aries if we include the impending Eris-Uranus Initiation, which occurs in early June 2016 at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the Wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a Cornucopia.”  Eris Initiating Uranus means that we will no longer be able to Deny the Soul’s impulse.  The current Eris-Uranus Cycle, in its dotage, Initiated in April 1927 at 2 Aries, “A Comedian reveals Human Nature.” 
• Lilith at 19 Libra, streching to 25 Libra if we include Haumea.  The impending Haumea-Lilith Initiation occurs March 28 at 24 Libra, “A Butterfly with a third wing on its left side.“

The Grand Cross in the Hopi New Moon chart is Mutable, connecting the Saturn-Chaos Sagittarius-Gemini Opposition with the Nodal Opposition (with Jupiter on the North Node and Chiron on the South Node) at 20-24 of Virgo-Pisces.  This is the core of the chart, and implies that The Most Important Thing here is to Pay Attention to the Unlimited Potential available, as it will Expand us into our Deepest Desires and Allow us to Witness and Lovingly Embrace our former Limits, thereby Recovering the Hidden Skills which are necessary for us to Complete our Mission in the Lifetime.  This is worth repeating…

The core of the Hopi New Moon chart is that The Most Important Thing here is to Pay Attention to the Unlimited Potential available, as it will Transform and Expand us into our Deepest Desires and Allow us to Witness and Lovingly Embrace our former Limits, thereby Recovering the Hidden Skills which are necessary for us to Complete our Mission in the Lifetime.  In other words, Shoot for the Moon!

This introduces two other impending Initiations – North Node-Jupiter and Chiron-South Node.  The South Node crosses Chiron on 18 March at 22 Pisces, “A prophet carry tablets of the New Law is walking down the slopes of Mount Sinai.”  That’s pretty heavy.  Jupiter crosses the North Node on 24 June at 17 Virgo, “A Volcanic eruption,” which Rudhyar explicates as “The explosive energy of long-repressed contents of the [Un]conscious.”  

Rudhyar says [Sub], but we know better, though I’m sure for some folks [Sub] will be more appropriate.  As a reminder, the Subconscious is Taurean Freud’s Dungeon where  we’ve stuffed all manner of disgusting krap, while the Unconscious is Leonine Jung’s Treasury where the Dragon guards the Jewels that will complete our Wholeness – what we call our Hidden Skills, hard-won Talents from “previous” Lives that we Deny because they’re tied to our Held or Frozen Emotions, aka our South Node.  Alternately, you could see it as the collapse of the Veil that separates us from complementary Parallel Lives.

With thanks to a reader for the introduction, here’s an interesting commentary on “long-repressed Unconscious contents,” from Genia Haddon’s Body Metaphors (p.18)…

“Where a quadrant [Masculine Yang, Feminine Yin, Feminine Yang, or Masculine Yin] is largely undeveloped, repressed, or unconscious in its functioning, abrupt reversals between under- and over-energizing of that mode are likely.  This is because rejected aspects of human nature do not go away.  

“On the contrary, when banished from conscious inclusion, they continue to operate in the larger, nonconscious psyche, secretly gathering to themselves life energy (libido).  Periodically, this energy builds to the point of discharge, temporarily overwhelming the conscious personality with the rejected content, until it again falls into the background of the psyche.”

Having a Volcano, we have to ask where 2007 OR10 sits, since that’s its signature.  It’s still tightly Conjunct Nessus and Ceres (recall they co-Initiated on 4 February), and four Degrees away from Neptune (more recent and impending Initiations!) on one corner of a tight Asbolus T-Square, Opposite Orcus.  Which tells us that Our Hidden Skills will be accessible to our Intuition.  Also worth repeating…

Those very Hidden Skills will be accessible through our Intuition.  Trust it this month, even when it seems silly or stupid.  If it seems dangerous, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade or Tap Out or Theta-Heal your trepidation, PIAVA complete Safety, and proceed cautiously.

Theta-Healing recommends itself, because after we close our eyes and roll them up, do our “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that [our list of requests complete with all the adjectives and adverbs desired]” and our “Thank you, God/Goddess, It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done” then we can pause and add “Show me,” and we may or may not see a vision of Grace, or feel an Emotional snapshot of what else we need to add on the next round.  

For instance, we might Ask to “Let Go of All Inappropriate and non-Present-Moment Fear, Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely, while staying Present for any Real dangers” and then we might be shown that some Appropriate Present-Moment Fear or Real danger remains.  Then we would have to go back in and Command that [What we Wanted] “be accomplished in Complete Safety” or the like, then see or feel what happens when we Ask, “Show me.”

A second indication reinforces the Availability of our Held Emotions and Hidden Skills – the Eris-Vesta Initiation on 18 February in 23 Aries, “A pregnant Woman in light summer dress,” implying that whatever’s still Hidden will be lightly covered!

In the New Moon chart a second would-be Yin Grand Sextile has only four Rays – Jupiter-North Node at 22-24 Virgo, Mars-Juno at 14-19 Scorpio, Pluto-Venus-Mercury at 17-24 Capricorn, and Chiron-South Node at 20-24 Pisces – though our Stationary Sedna sits at 25 Taurus, leaving only Cancer as a potential Vacancy.  This is the same span of Degrees as the full Grand Sextile, though the Sensitivity is not close enough to call it a Grand Unx.

A Grand Unx is twelve planets equally spaced around the Zodiac.

What is within Orb, in addition to the Grand Cross, are two Diamond Stars – Venus-Pluto, and Mars-Juno.  And three of the four corners (all but Saturn) of the Grand Cross are Diamond Stars.  We’ll get to these, and the Neptune Initiations, in our next installment.