Scary Lunar Eclipse II

Sandwiched between the Storm of Sign Changes 14-21 November 2021 (previous post) and the Gonggong-Nessus Abuse Review 20-25 November, all of which tickle the Sign Cusps, the 19 November (12:58 am PST) Dang-Near Total Lunar Eclipse Full Moon chart does a good job of summarizing the whole Pickle¹…

💥 The first thing to notice is the Moon-Sedna Merger. Sedna is the Star of a complex Inuit story, Goddess of the Sea and of the marine Critters that have always fed the Inuit. The dwarf planet Sedna has an orbit of over eleven thousand years, compared to Pluto’s two hundred fifty years. It takes eight minutes for Light to travel from the Sun to Earth. In the far reaches of Sedna’s orbit, it takes five and a half years for the Sun’s Light to arrive. It’s quite cold out there, and our anthem that Fear is Cold and Hard while Love is Soft and Warm fits here.

A powerful Shaman disguised himself as an everyday Inuit guy, and asked Her father for Sedna’s hand in marriage. But once her father realized that Her suitor was really a Giant Bird, the father tried to rescue Her from his nest. Enraged, the Bird-Shaman rose a storm and attacked their fleeing boat. In his Terror, the father threw Sedna overboard, and when She clung to the side of the boat, cut off Her fingers. Her fingers became the Seals, and She sank to the bottom, where She still Lives, commanding the Sea Critters. Before each hunt, a Shaman is sent into the Sea to comb Her hair, placating Her rage so She’ll send some of Her Critters to be hunted. A Mermaid representing Feminine Rage and Masculine Terror.

We interpret Sedna as Converting Fear to Power, and we could equally consider it Converting Rage to Power. We usually advise Kegels as a mechanical process that will Convert Fear to Power. Kegels slow down Time, and that could also Convert Rate to Power.

💥 The second thing to notice (though it’s not in the chart) is that the Eclipsed Moon is also Merged with the Fixed Star Algol, in the Constellation Perseus. Algol is the Eye of the Gorgon, in Perseus’s hand after he has cut off Her head, as part of the destruction perpetrated by Zeus of the symbols of the Matriarchy so he can replace them with the Patriarchy. Bernadette says (Brady’s Book of Fixed Stars, p.188), “All writers agree that this is the most malefic star in the heavens and causes hangings, death by the loss of one’s head, and any other foul, demonic deed that could befall the human race.” The Chinese referred to Algol as “Piled Up Corpses.” Algol too represents Feminine Rage and Masculine Terror.

💥 The third thing to notice is the Major Challenge² that asteroid Damocles presents to our management of these immense Energies. Damocles was a courtier to King Dionysius who flattered the opulence of the King’s Life so much that Dionysius offered to trade places with Damocles for a day. But to emphasize to Damocles that a King’s opulence comes at the price of constant danger from the King’s enemies, Dioysius hung a sword over the throne by a single horsehair. Damocles withdrew in Fear. Damocles in the chart is Larger than Life (Conjunct Jupiter).

Damocles is in the Gonggong corner of the chart, indicating that the Threat of Danger arrives through our Intrusive Memories which in the larger picture³ may well be Intrusive Memories of Abuse. However, between Damocles and Gonggong we have a Boon, in the form of asteroid Sappho, representing Self-Love. When we have our head on backwards, Sappho can also mean Self-Doubt, but Self-Doubt is never Real, it’s always just Thoughts about our Feelings.

When we Feel Self-Doubt about our Behavior or Goals, we can easily rectify that, deciding whether the Relationship merits making Amends for untoward Behavior, or running our Goals through our Heart to verify that they’re really Ours and not Someone Else’s. Self-Doubt about Our Self is Self-Abandonment. We probably need an Ego Death, but we know we can do that, don’t we, so No Worries. Usually when we Doubt Our Self, it’s because we’re trying to Judge ourself by someone else’s standards. We need to Ask ourself Who? and Why? and When did we start that? but beyond that, this is a strategy with no Winners, only Abuse.

I understand that this is can be a Dilemma if you’re trying to keep up with Amazon’s Performance Metrics and Fearing that you and/or your Family will starve if you don’t, or if Long COVID confines you to bed most of the day, but Recognize that this is about Behavior, not Self-Worth, and probably also Abusive. After a Lifetime of Abuse from others in our environs, it’s no wonder we’ve developed Habits of Self-Abuse, without even Realizing it. We feel like it’s just the Way the World Works. Many of us Bounce around from one attempt to another for the better part of our Life before we Find the place in the World where we Fit, if we ever do. Better to Bounce again than to Self-Abandon.

When we come to what feels like a Dead End, where we feel like we’re out of Bounces, we’re in the same situation as an Addict “hitting bottom.” A good way to cope with any Dead End, is to Poor-Sweetheart ourself for feeling like we’re at a Dead End. It’s a concise way to Surrender Control, to Let Go and Let God. Keep in mind that it’s not about how often we Fall Down, but how often we Get Up. If you have trouble Changing the Subject after Poor-Sweethearting yourself, Poor-Sweetheart yourself for having trouble Changing the Subject. Rinse and repeat as often as you need to. As your high-school coach used to say, “Sticktoitedness is Important.”

💥 The other two corners of the Famous Red Triangle also have their Boons. On the Moon-Sedna corner, the Moon’s North Node is nearby.⁴ That symbolizes our Lifetime Mission. It’s no Surprise that we’d encounter our “Upper Limits” (Gay Hendricks, The Big Leap) when we’re making major advances toward our Lifetime Mission.

💥 On the Sun corner, the Moon’s South Node⁵ (our Held Emotions, the ones we’d rather Die than Feel, aka our Karma) is Merged with asteroid Vesta, which symbolizes our Unconscious Limitations. That’s a tremendous Blessing, as it represents an Opportunity to Clear Out the Deepest of our Unconscious Limitations, the one’s that feel like Life or Death to us. If you Feel Deathly Ill or like Death would be a Relief, Celebrate it! That’s what it will feel like when you’re successfully Confronting Unconscious Limitations.

But the Big Boon on this corner is the asteroid Klotho, which symbolizes New Beginnings. In the midst of your Worst Feelings, you may find surges of Ecstasy climbing up your Spine – that’s what happens when you’re Willing to actually Feel those Feelings, though it’s always a Surprising “What the Devil is That about?” when it occurs. Honor it, it means Success! It means you can stop obsessing about those Bummers.

• ¹ The 25 November Station of Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is at 12 Degrees, so it’s not Cuspal, and we’ll consider it separately later. But taking the 21 November Gonggong (Intrusive Memories) Station as an introduction is warranted because Gonggong and Nessus have been traveling together for several years, so we’re accustomed to Enduring Intrusive Memories about Abuse and Privilege, so the Intrusive Memories on their own may well feel like Abuse Memories.
• The major impact of Stations (when a planet Stands Still in the Sky) is usually felt over the week or so prior to the Station, so we’re highly likely to notice the Exaggeration (Station) of Nessus entangled with the Exaggeration of Intrusive Memories, beginning as soon as now. I’m already (on 17 November) noticing Strong Trances of Intrusive Memories, not about what I would usually consider Abuse per se, but now that I’m thinking about it, they’re revealing to me how Abusive some everyday Behaviors actually are.
• ² The red triangle or T-Square that Damocles and Jupiter make to the Full Moon Opposition.
• ³ Gonggong and Nessus Stationary in the same week – see previous post and note ¹ above.
• ⁴ That’s the “headphones” or “earmuffs” symbol, in early Gemini. The Nodes move backwards, so from their Perspective it’s actually Late Gemini, but few Degrees.
• ⁵ The “stethoscope” symbol.

There’s more – a second Famous Red Triangle T-Square Challenge that also symbolizes rising from the Ashes of your Karma, and a very Strong naked Opposition that’s actually the primary access of a Yin Gate Mystery School. After the Misery Schools we’ve been working with, that’ll be Delightful, though also not without its Frictions. We’ll deal with those in our next installment. It’s a Daunting Time, but if it doesn’t Kill us, it’ll catapult us to a much Higher level, one that we need to Aspire to if we want to Survive, and want our Species to survive, these End Times.

Fearbruary

We start February with a week of Converting Fear to Power (dwarf planet Sedna Stationary 1pm PST 8 February in 28 Taurus). A good time to recall that…

Fear plus Breathing equals Excitement.

Fear plus Tapping equals Grounding and Presence. It may also help to Imagine a cable extending from the base of your Spine to the Center of the Earth.

Fear plus Kegels equals Power. Kegels slow down Time, so your Reactions are relatively more timely.

Our Fear is likely to be enhanced by Moon Out of Bounds (Emotions are often more Intense), over the Southern Hemisphere, starting at 9:56 pm PST 6 February. It’s Stationary as it turns North again at 7:31 am PST 8 February It returns In Bounds at 5:24 pm PST 9 February. The Moon, barring a Catastrophe so huge we’d never notice it (we’d be well on our way to our next Incarnation), never turns Retrograde. It travels from 22 Sagittarius to 1 Aquarius while it’s OOB. It’s at 11 Capricorn (in Longitude) when it’s Stationary (in Declination).

So our Opportunity to practice becoming Adept with Fear probably peaks at around 7:30 am PST 8 February, as the Moon often triggers the Impact, on us, of larger astroevents, and the Moon is at Peak Intensity then. There may be another peak around 1pm PST 8 February, when Sedna is Stone Cold Still. Well, Sedna’s probably a Methane Iceball, so I guess it would be Ice Cold Still. And there may be a third peak at around 1pm PST 9 February, when the Moon Completes a meaningful Angle (a Waning Trine from Capricorn) to Sedna at 28 Degrees. At that point the Moon is still OOB, and Sedna is still very Stationary though slowly starting to think about moving forward again (it will have moved less than one ten-thousandths of a Degree since its actual Station – on a clock that would be a third of a second).

A Perspective we use is that the slower a planet moves (Sedna), the more Impact it has on the Planet as a whole, but also the less our Consciousness registers it. Conversely, the faster a planet moves (the Moon), the more Conscious we are of it, but the more fleeting is its Impact. We’re more Conscious of faster planets because we get a lot more Practice with them as they zip around and Light Up both our natal (when we were born) planets, and the other Transiting (in the sky now) planets.

In the case of Sedna and the Moon, this contrast is as big as it gets, as the Moon in its orbit takes 28 days to Journey round the Zodiacal loop, while Sedna takes 11,400 years to make one loop. That’s a ratio of about 1 to 150,000. Compare your biceps after 1 push-up to your biceps after 150,000 push-ups. So our Subjective Experience of the Fear could be 150,000 times as Intense as the actual Impact of the Earth Changes that the Sedna Station Creates. On the other hand, the Objective Unconscious Impact of Sedna’s Station could be 150,000 times larger than our Conscious Subjective Experience of it. Since Sedna is Changing your Unconscious as it Changes the Earth, keep these ratios in mind as you Breathe, Tap, and do your Kegels.

We belabor these notions because most astrofolks profess that 2021’s Biggest astroevent is the 17 February Square between Saturn and Uranus. To Ego astrology, Saturn represents Limitation, and Uranus represents Disruption. Seems like we’ve had plenty of that already, don’t it. To our flavor of astrology, however, Saturn represents The Most Important Thing and Uranus represents Our Soul. So yes, Uranus Disrupts, it Disrupts anything that’s no longer in Alignment with Our Soul. Uranus in Taurus represents Descent of Soul into Matter, or Reanimation of the Planet and Respiritualization of Humanity. Saturn in Aquarius means The Most Important Thing is Our Community.

That’s automatically a Conflict, because Our Community (or Family, in the most nuclear of Communities) expects us to Conform to the “Standards” it has set for its members (Yangtegrity), and Descent of Soul into Flesh requires that we stop sacrificing our Yintegrity to please Others. I guess if we see this happening without Consciousness, it’s one way to view what History books might call the Covidiot Rebellion or the White-Egos-Matter-Most Uprising, and its assault on the US Congress. And I’ll wager it’s a Challenge for most of us as well, on one level or another.

We suggested earlier that we’d also write about Jupiter’s 18 January Square to Uranus, and we still Intend to. The Saturn Square is a similar phenomenon, and more important, so it makes sense to write about them together. The most relevant information about them is that these are Waning Squares, corresponding to the Last Quarter Moon. While the primary indication of a Waxing Square is that a Change has reached the Mainstream, the primary indication is that the Change has run its course and it’s now time to Let Go of our Investments in the Current Cycle, so we can be Empty enough to be as Open as possible to the New Cycle when it arrives.

The Initiation of the Current Saturn-Uranus Cycle defined the Harmonic Convergence in mid-February 1988. It and its cluster of concurrent astroevents formed the basis of the original version of this series of essays, 32 years ago. The Sabian Symbol for the Current Saturn-Uranus Cycle (30 Sagittarius) was “The Pope, blessing the faithful.” Most of us who were Motivated by those Changes interpreted that as a “Pope” or Authority from a Higher Vibration than the one in Italy, an Authority more in tune with the Perennial Wisdom in Esoteric Religions. Rumi was a good candidate for such a position.

We’re still working to bring those Changes into our Lives. Restoring Indigenous Elders to their rightful Heritage is but one example. But the Waning Square tells us that we’ve done our Work, and it’s time to Let Go of our Investments and Rest Up for the next Adventure, which will begin in late June 2032 with (28 Gemini) “Through bankruptcy, society gives to an overburdened individual the opportunity to begin again.” Don’t read too much into that, because between now and then we’ll jettison so much Cultural Baggage that by 2032 it will have no resemblance to what it means to us today. One can never see Clearly beyond the Void between the Waning Square and the following Cycle, because our Perspective Changes so much while we’re in the Void.

If I was pressed to say something about the current Changes, I’d say that Striving to Be Faithful to some Standard, whether a Community’s or some interpretation of a Soul’s Standards, is what’s Obsolete. Rather than trying to Change ourself, Seeking to Love Ourself Unconditionally will be more appropriate in this Void. It represents a major Change in the manner of our Soul’s Descent into Flesh. Our Old Striving had its roots in Mentality, our Shoulds. Now we may need to “quit Shoulding on ourself” entirely, as the old saying goes. The Most Important Thing here is to Surrender to our Soul, which is not about Intellectual Reaching, it’s about Relaxing into Coming Home to our True Self, warts and all.

The Challenge will be to Let Go of the Friends and Communities who have Shared our Striving, if they’re unable to Suffer our True Self without Judgment.

4 July VII – Sedna in Real Time II

Reader alchemist0310 responds…

“yes, so none of these ‘white dudes’ are separate from us… that is what d.scranton is saying (see post below)… actually some of my absolute favorite peoples even subscribe to the fact that we all had a collective role in naming and claiming the current ‘administration’ … and i use that term very loosely… hard not to choke on my pretzels over here… but i’m really going to try to work this out in my 5d world… which as i write this is the point i suppose… voilà”

Yes, Naomi Klein’s book No Is Not Enough details the cultural trends that created the current misadministration, and points out that it’s not the “white dudes” per se that are the problem, but the trends – those are what’s in need of reversing.  But from the Perspective of the transition from Patriarchy to Yang Feminine, it is by and large the white dudes.  Not that more colorful dudes can’t be just as autocratic and Abusive; they just haven’t in recent history achieved the rank of World-Class Colonialists.

Of course it’s Both/And; remember that Sedna-Moon is making a Yin Gate – Paradox School – around Fear and Manifestation.

So if we’re All One then, how can we condemn these white dudes for Screwing all American Women politically because they don’t have the cojones to Screw them the way they prefer?  It’s like this.  We’ve Internalized these white dudes as our jailers.  We have Unconscious Limiting Karmic Beliefs that we are victims of their Abuse, that they have some Control over our Life.  Power-Over is a Hypnotic Trance, and our Personal Colonialists don’t even have to Hypnotize us any more; their Ancestors did that for them, and for us.

So yes, we can forgive these poor Dildos with dead batteries, but will that help?  It would be a lot more Powerful to look to the places in our own Life where we Act Out the role of Dildos with dead batteries, and then take out our Frustration on Others.  Hmmm.  Well, gosh, as a Political Entity, I am Acting like a Dildo with dead batteries when I Feel subjected to their Power-Over, aren’t I.  And then I take out my Frustration by calling them names.  What we Judge is never more than a Funhouse Mirror for our Limiting Beliefs.

So I can start by Poor-Sweethearting my Feelings of Helplessness in the face of their Hubris.  Then after Changing the Subject and Paying Attention, I could exercise my Real Power in any number of ways, hopefully by PIAVAing.

I’ll fall off my chair if anyone here has seen the movie The Apple War.  At least Netflix and Wikipedia now admit to having heard of it, even if no one seems to have access to a copy.  It’s even better than Over the Hedge.  In it the People call on the Old Powers to counter an attempted invasion of their Sacred Land by Big Industry.  Among many marvelous scenes where Industry is humiliated by the Old Powers, in one scene Industry tries to sabotage the People’s Resistance by setting Fire to their church.  The People simply Ask the local Giant to come and piss on the Fire.

So if I really hear Marianne when she says “Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure,” what might I do next?  Ah, maybe Visualize (the V in PIAVA, right?) myself as a Giant pissing on their parade?  Horrifying?  Piss never killed anybody; these white dudes will kill a lot of people if they have their way with us.  Imagine these Dildos running to their secret meetings through a golden shower from a hundred Giants and Giantesses.  They won’t even get electrocuted; their batteries are dead.

That’s not even Revenge, just Political Theater, like the Yes Men or Pussy Riot.  No harm done, just the remote possibility that someone (a spectator, probably not the white dudes) might get their mind pried open a little wider.  Uranus and Eris, while now five Degrees apart (still plenty close for Projects such as our Rebirth), are both part of the Grand Unx, in cahoots with Sedna-Moon-Nodes.  If we stretch our Sensitivity we could even say that Uranus still Squares Pluto – that’s all about Reliving the 1960’s, right?

Seriously, remember that Expansion is one of the silent members of the PIAVA team.  We’ve probably all done Meditations where we Imagine ourself as big as the house, the neighborhood, the town, the riding, the shire, the island, the kingdom, the continent, the Planet, the Solar System, the Galaxy, to Infinity and Beyond.  There’s enormous Power in PIAVAing from that Expanded state.  As a Giant with a full bladder, what Land would you like to Irrigate?

As Naomi says, No Is Not Enough.  As Dr. Kim says, we need to change our Yes-Buts to Yes-Ands.  While What We Don’t Want might lead us to our Abandoned Orphans the way the white dudes led us to our Powerful Giant, we need to Focus on What We Do Want, and more particularly How We’ll Feel when we Receive or Achieve exactly that, because these are Precisely the Lunar Emotions that with enough Inertia will cement that Reality into Form.  So in your Personal Utopia, who would you have replace those white dudes in their pee-soaked suits and Royal-Class Lifetime healthcare, and what would they be selling us?  Maybe it would even be You that replaces them.

It’s Dynamic Creativity that focuses on Mechanism, on How we might Receive our Freedom from Oppression.  That works great when we’re copying something we already have and Know how to Make.  Magnetic Creativity, like Responsibility, focuses on Outcomes.  Unless we’re a World-Class inventor, Mechanisms are always Limited by what we Already Know.  Outcomes are only Limited by Imagination.  Failures of Imagination are caused by our Limiting Beliefs. 

Michael Roads’s Story for today is about Doubt…

“Doubt attempts to destroy trust, but trust is the killer of doubt.

“Any situation you are in that holds any doubt at all, simply trust.  If you doubt yourself, then look on it as an opportunity to learn to trust.  No matter how much doubt attempts to destroy trust, it cannot win.  Trust is the killer of doubt.  Trust, and keep on trusting.  If it all goes wrong,  you can rejuvenate doubt, or you can keep on with the power of trusting!

“No matter what it takes, trust, trust, and trust.  In what or whom do you trust?  You trust in the magnificent, metaphysical, multidimensional, immortal Being of Love and Light . . . your Self!  Never doubt this; you are capable, worthwhile, and powerful.  Your power is in your positive action.  Truly, positive action does not get more positive or powerful than when living your trust in Self. “

The Goddess of Trust Eurydike Conjoins the North Node (our Destination) and Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) on one corner of the Sedna-Moon-Nodes Grand Cross (Powerful Motivation) and Grand Unx (Powerfully Breaking Patterns).

The Midpoint of Sagittarius is the home of the “Great Attractor.”  No one knows what it is, but we and our neighbor Galaxies are all pouring toward it at Galactic speed.  Lilith is sitting in front of the Great Attractor, Channeling its Power into her Insatiable Lust for Self-Sovereignty.  She happens to be at the Focus of a Mjölnir (Epiphany), from Uranus-Eris (Yintegrity) and Mercury-Varuna (Awareness of the Life Force).  We’ll get to that soon, when we talk about the Klotho (Initiation of a New Timeline) and Sappho (Self-Love) Stations that are simultaneous with our Sedna-Moon-Nodes event.  The Stations are one Sign away (Breaking Patterns) from Lilith.

So it’s Clearly Time to find our Giantess of Power lurking back there in the Shadows of our Wholeness.  Don’t worry about Gender; We Be All One, remember?  If we could get five people all Feeling their Giantess of Power at once, we’d have a Movement.  Who knows what sort of Reality we might Manifest.