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Whaddawe Make of That?

June 12, 2019

‘Twould be great if we could kick off our shoes and lean back after the last week of hard work around Abuse and Privilege, but, no dice.  Solstices are about Starting Over on something.  At the Equinoxes we Begin New Projects, and for the last couple of weeks we’ve been critiquing the Projects we began at the Ides of March.  What worked?  What didn’t?  What could be improved?  Next week we start Version 2.0, but the only thing we have to keep is What We Learned.  So Version 2 might not look anything like Version 1, but if you tease out the major Goals and Projects you’ve been working on for the last three months, you’ll probably be working on the same topics for the next three.

Northern Summer and Southern Winter will present two major Challenges, and most of us will be forced to multitask and work on both of them at once.  First of all, whatever Projects in the Material World that we’ve been working on, will get very Confusing.  It’s up to us to Recognize that Confusion is the first stage of Growth, stay Present with the Confusion, Avoid trying to Figure It Out, Focus our Attention on What We Want and NOT what we don’t Want, and then Let It Be.  If we can spend time Feeling what we Expect to Feel when we get What We Want, that’ll be like rocket fuel.  The more the better.

Second, whatever Projects in the Spiritual World that we’ve been working on, our Progress is likely to be so accelerated that we’re constantly amazed.  Go for it!  The Portal will be wide Open.  Be Mindful that we move to 5D on our own.  Some folks will come with us, some won’t.  We just have to Let Go of the ones who won’t.  By all means give them Big Blessings, but if they aren’t ready they aren’t ready.  You don’t have to Abandon them.  You just have to be Willing to Hold your 5D Space even when they don’t understand.  Give yourself advance Permission to do that.  It’s good Practice anyway.

We’ll be getting much Clearer on What We Want, even as we’re Confused about the Material implications of it.  By the end of June we’ll Trust it.

Here’s the outline; details to follow…

  • Full Moon 17 June (1:30 am PDT), 26 Sagittarius, quite close to the Galactic Center, which will strengthen your Inner Female for the several weeks to follow; if your Inner Male freaks out, be Compassionate with Him, but don’t back down If you Abandon your Inner Female here you’ll be in trouble.  Hint: She Knows What She Wants and you can’t talk Her out of it.  We aren’t talking about your partner; we’re talking about your INNER Female and Male.  Like it or not, you have both, even though you usually Project one or the other or both on Other People.
  • Until 17 June, The Truth of What You Want will be right in your face.  The astrosymbols for Manifestation (dwarf planet Makemake) and for Truth (asteroid Veritas) will both be very Strong (Stationary)(Makemake Station 2am PDT 18 June at 4 Libra; Veritas Station 1pm PDT 18 June at 27 Libra)
  • Until the Solstice, the Material World will be very Confusing.  Celebrate it, and Focus on the Spiritual Perspective.  The symbol for Material Confusion (Neptune) will be very Strong (Stationary) an hour and a half before the Solstice.  (Neptune Station 7:30 am PDT 21 June in 19 Pisces; Sun enters Cancer 9am PDT 21 June)
  • This Confusion will remain through September and beyond (Cancer Solstice Merged with Neptune).  We’ll be Challenged to Trust the Confusion and not try to override it with Cause-and-Effect thinking, because C&E thinking will be way off, it’ll divert our Attention from What’s Important, and it’ll totally screw up our Version 2.0 Projects.  Surrender to your Intuition instead.  (asteroid Eurydike Station 10pm PDT June 24 in 11 Aquarius)

Then we go back to Eclipse Season with the 2 July (noon PDT) Total Solar Eclipse at 11 Cancer in South America.  Have Fun!

Ancestors Full Moon 3 (Boundaries VII)

February 18, 2019

A reader asks…

“Now how to come upon that ego death, what is that – and what does that look like?  I know it’s in the ‘literature’; the fine print!  And am I reading between the lines, perhaps, that seem to be about moving up and beyond karmic entanglement?  …it feels so weighted now.”

Yes, I realized last night that I should say more about Ego Death, but I’d already written so much that I didn’t want to stretch it out more.  So I appreciate the Question.

And yes, Ego Death is “in the literature,” at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/identity/ego-death/.  The essence is Noticing that you’re feeling like “I’d rather die than go through that again,” and a key to becoming Adept with this “ED” is to reframe the Experience from “I’d rather Die than…” to “I would rather die than…”  Making that a PIAVA would also be a boon.  There’s much more “in the literature,” for instance, when you get lost in your own ‘hood or can’t remember your own phone number, those are signs that you’re Newly Reborn.

Ego Death is a Psychological Molt that needs to occur whenever we feel Overwhelmed and Recognize that we have to Change something in order to Enjoy going on with our Life, but we also feel Trapped by our Commitments (or lack thereof if we’re Feeling Isolated) and don’t know what we even can Change.  Making our Ego Death a PIAVA Surrenders all that Change mishmash about What and Why and How and Who to our Intuition, which Knows well What needs to be Changed, and How to do it.

We might PIAVA an Ego Death with something like “I Wonder what I need to be Happy” or “Great Spirit, Please Make My Life Enjoyable (Again)” or Asking yourself “What Do I Really Want?” and then spending some time with the Feeling you would have in your Body if you had the Luxury of Allowing Yourself to Receive Exactly That.  And certainly “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel at your Wit’s End, don’t you” or “… you feel Anxious, don’t you” would be a quick way to Change the wallpaper.  Of course you’d Change the Subject after each PIAVA.

Folks say that all this “New Agey” stuff is just another excuse for putting off the Action that we need to take, but I differ adamantly about that.  Taking Action from our Dynamic Planning-Doing mindset Changes nothing, as our Inner Male can only perpetuate His Limitations.  We have to Appeal to our Inner Female to Change anything.  She Knows what must be done, and She Knows how to Motivate your Inner Male to Enjoy getting to Work when it’s Time and when it’s Right.

The whole idea behind PIAVA is that, sometime after you Change the Subject, you Wake Up and Notice that You Are Doing What It Takes to Solve the Problem, without even Noticing that you’re Doing it, because once you Changed the Subject you Changed your Perspective, and now the World is running on a whole New engine and transmission, and the words you used to use to describe your Frustration (if you even remember them, which often you won’t) aren’t even Relevant anymore.

Your Inner Lady IS your Heart, She Knows What You Want Intimately, and She Knows How to Get It, because She Knows the World Intuitively.  Your “Head” (really we’re talking about the Third Chakra, not the Sixth, so “Head” is a misnomer – your Inner Male comes out of your Solar Plexus) only Knows What You Think, and you’re Thinking that What You Want is Unreachable, and since He only Knows the World Empirically, He can only Act to Keep On Doing What He’s Been Doing, which Aint Working, or you wouldn’t be in need of an Ego Death.

And yes, Karma has been Dead for a long time now, except for our own Grasping of it.  As for the Weight,

there’s probably an Ego Death in there, and probably a Held Emotion (aka Karmic PTSD).  The quickest way to find out is to make yourself Comfortable, Locate the Heaviness in your Body, Warm It, Soften around It (Fear is Hard and Cold, Love is Soft and Warm), put your Full Attention into the Center of It, and Hold It there until the Heaviness Moves. Then Change the Subject.

Of course it will help to Give your Inner Child Permission to Blubber unashamedly and uncontrollably, and to Complain to friends – but only those who will understand that your Intention is to Let Go rather than to Bitch (a la RC – see https://www.rc.org/) or to Accuse anyone of anything.

By the way, do you know how to Complain without putting the load right on your Listeners?  You speak in I statements rather than You or They Statements, and you use Feeling verbs rather than Thinking verbs (“Feel Like” is a Thinking verb – a Feeling verb is always followed by an Emotion word such as Angry or Excited or Bummed).  This way your Listeners can Enjoy your Story, and to the extent they’re able, Empathize, without having to Take Responsibility for your Process.  If you want to study how to do this, see https://www.cnvc.org/.