Portal 1.5 III

As we mentioned in the previous post, “There are other Changes going on as well” – that is, other Initiations or Conjunctions or Changes of the Nature of the Field or Trance that we’re Embedded in.  I missed one in that post…

• Revelation of what’s been Denied Initiating Ego Death (Eris Initiating Nemesis)

until Marilyn Raffaele reminded me…

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“Choosing to to remain locked in some particular belief system in order to please others or simply ‘keep the peace’ is a surrendering of personal power. This does not mean that you abandon family and friends unless it becomes necessary which it sometimes does.  It simply means that you stay centered in truth and alert to the temptation to align with any beliefs the group may hold but that you no longer resonate with.   Life becomes  being ‘In the world, but not of it’.”

Though Marilyn’s Channeling would also fit perfectly well with…

• The Most Important Thing Initiating Letting Go of Codependence (Saturn Initiating Hylonome)

And with the fact that by now we’re deep into the Energy of the first Station of May, the 8 May Station of asteroid Vesta (1 am PDT at 5 Capricorn), which herself symbolizes Beliefs.  Unconscious Beliefs have a particularly strong hold on us because when we don’t Discern their existence, we never Reconsider them.  When they start to become Conscious and we begin to Question whether they Serve us or the Planet, it can be particularly disruptive, often even Blasphemously, to Relationships based on Mutual Belief.

So many of our Beliefs are Installed by our Programmers, using Repetition, “Logic” (such as “You wouldn’t want someone else to do that to you, would you?”), Story (Snidely: “Did you hear what Soandso did to Whozit?”), and particularly Shaming and other forms of Abuse.  Shame is one of the hardest Belief Traps to Escape from, because it’s a Feeling so Distasteful that we never want to do the Work Exploring it.  Abandonment can be as Difficult, as it can create a Blank Spot in our Awareness.

Many others of our Beliefs are Karmic and Enforced by other Held Emotions, Emotions that are equally Distasteful as Shame to us personally, Emotions that we’d “rather Die” than Experience again.  To break free of these we need on some level, Voluntarily or otherwise, to endure the Ego Death (Nemesis) that breaking out of our cage often requires.

Another of the “other Changes going on as well”…

• Fear Initiating Fate, or Embracing Fear as Power Initiating Choice, depending on whether the Universe is Perp or Partner to you (Sedna and Moira)

is also well covered in Marilyn’s Channeling…

“Words and actions that flow from an evolved state of consciousness are capable of triggering a new state of awareness for those seriously seeking a higher way for themselves and the world.  Many are on the verge of awakening at this time and those satisfied with the status quo are becoming a minority.  Some who have always lived in fear are now reclaiming the power they ignorantly gave away and feeling comfortable instead of fearful doing it.  You are on the verge of much change in spite of appearances but you must be patient and allow the process.

“We wish to speak to the idea of security which in the third dimension primarily revolves around vulnerability and separation, concepts designed to keep the majority locked in fear.  The only real security there ever is or will be is already fully present within you.  Safety and security is the automatic manifestation of the conscious realization that there is nothing you need to protect yourself against.  This is your protective work, not the hundreds of material concepts believed necessary for personal survival.

 

“The third dimensional belief system holds that there are millions of people, places, and things you need protection from–diseases, bad people, dangerous places and anything deemed dangerous by those in authority.  If there is only ONE, who or what can there be that you need protection from?”

Full Moon Blessings I

At first glance this Full Moon (6pm PDT 29 April) looks like a mess…

But it’s actually full of Blessings.  Let us count the ways…

The Full Moon itself illuminates our Mission, just as we’re in the process of opening up to Easily Learning (without irksome “Learning Opportunities”) new ways to Sustain our Priority Attention to it, Playfully Worshiping the way Mother Nature and Goddess Gaia/Pi Support us.

The Full Moon (Illumination) Squares (Challenges) the Nodal Axis (Mission and Karma), with North Node (Mission) Conjunct (Merged With) asteroid Ceres (Sustainability).  The North Node Initiates Ceres on 30 April (8pm PDT), starting a new 3-year 9-month Cycle at 11 Leo, “Children playing on a swing hanging from the branches of a huge Oak tree.”

This corner of the Grand Cross is the corner of the major Configurations (Grand Cross, T-Square) that intersects the Grand Quintile (light purple lines) which signifies the Gift of Important Wisdom about Sustaining our Mission.  More on this later.

North Node-Ceres is also one of two that are Diamond Stars (a T-Square and a Finger of God pointing to the same place).  A Diamond Star is the Gift of a Key to Resolving a Dilemma. 

The Gift of Easy Learning flows from our new but growing Realization that The Most Important Thing is Letting Go of our Attachment to Abuse and Privilege. 

The “Bowl of Grace” under the North Node-Ceres T-Square consists of Trine Bridges (the Easy Way) by Saturn-Hylonome (The Most Important Thing is Letting Go of Codependence) and dwarf planet Nessus (Abuse and Privilege).

#MeToo is a step in this direction, as Reactions to Abuse that are Held Inside are not likely to Heal, and Unconscious Attachment to Privilege is not likely to Change without Exogenous Wake-Up Calls.  As Alan said, it’s harder to Let Go of our “Good” Karma (the Patriarchy considers Privilege to be Good Karma) than our “Bad.”  And one reason for Holding Abuse Inside is Fear of Losing Privilege.

The new Saturn-Hylonome Cycle doesn’t Initiate till 25 December of this year (10:30 am PDT), at 11 Capricorn, “A large group of Pheasant on a private estate,” invoking the Enclosure of the Commons. 

In 18th-Century England the Privileged Aristocracy took lands that had been dedicated to the Sustenance of All (the “Commons”), and declared them to be Private Property where all of their Resources belonged to the new “owner,” while the People lost their right to hunt and forage.   Have you thought much about how your concept of private property jibes with 5D?  As the measure of individual Success at the Expense of Others, private property is a foundation of the modern Patriarchy.

The second Diamond Star in the Grand Cross focuses on the Moon – Authenticity, Instinct, Yintegrity.  It’s Bowl of Grace is comprised of Trine Bridges by Venus (Values) and asteroid Sappho (Self-Love).

The Full Moon will also Illuminate Values which we continue to hold but which Sabotage our Authenticity, Instinct, Yintegrity, and Self-Love.

Gauntlet III

A reader writes…

“I’m really trying to sit back and remind myself that it’s only yet another layer of karma.  But oh my goodness, how am I going to get through this alive and in one piece? 

Or is the whole point of this to get broken into pieces and remould myself later…”

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I hear ya!  There are a lot of Issues Lit Up, they’re all Heavy, and – fortunately – they all Complement one another, so if we can Hang On, there will be immense Healing going on.  One of The Most Important Things is not to try to Think It or Figure It Out. 

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Modulate the Heavy Emotions as best you can with Tapping, Kegels, Breathing, Poor-Sweethearting, and PIAVAs, especially PIAVAs that include some equivalent to “Loving and Gentle.”  Modulate the Regressions to other Timelines as best you can by repeatedly bringing yourself back to the Present Moment. 

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Whatever is Dominating your Experience, shift to a Different Modality.  For instance, if your Emotions or your Interpersonal Circumstances are barely (or even Not) tolerable, Ask yourself “What’s going on in my Body Physically?” and Focus there.  If you’re in Physical Pain, Ask yourself, “What Emotion would I be Feeling if I could do Emotions right now?”  If you Feel like the Goddess has Abandoned you, put your Attention on something Beautiful.

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If you’re stuck in a Solutionless Hyperloop in your Mindbone, who’s the primary Other in the Drama?  Imagine holding a wardrobe Mirror up between you and them, facing them.  Hold it for a few minutes, to see if you Feel more Grounded, while you watch to see if they try to stretch tentacles around the Mirror (expand the Mirror), or try to “come around to the back” (use a Dome-shaped Mirror if you need to; Intend that it Allows Air in).  If the Mirror doesn’t help, try the second candidate for primary antagonist – living or dead.

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If it’s a Arbitrary Authority that has you in its grasp, hold your Mirror up to whomever taught you to Obey that Authority more than your Own Instincts, Intuitions, and Intelligence.  If you’ve Personalized the Authority, Dare to hold the Mirror up to the vaunted Personage.  I mean, what would Jesus Do?  He Melts my Mirror and floods me with Love and Mirth.  What does your Air-Hero do?

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Here’s the chart we’re in…

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As you can see, the Hylonome (Becoming Conscious of Codependence) Station (Strong Energy thereof) and the Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Station are in the same Zodiacal location and only a few days apart.  So The Most Important Thing is Becoming Conscious of our Codependence.  Codependence just means that we let someone else, or some Thing else (such as an Unconscious Archetype or Belief, or an Abstract Authority) make our Decisions for us, leaving us without Choice.  As we’ve seen Choice and Consciousness are pretty much synonymous.

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We face three main tightly-coordianted Challenges here, in addition to Untangling The Most Important Thing from our Codependence (which is a Challenge, but not one we’re likely to Master here, as the two Energies are hopelessly Merged)…

• Facing Codependence as The Most Important Thing involves Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis Squaring the Hynonome-Saturn Stations – heavy lines)
• Healing Abuse involves Setting New Boundaries that Keep us Safe (Pallas T-Square on Orcus-Nessus Opposition – light lines)
• Making our Dedication to our Mission Sustainable involves Facing our Held Emotions (Nodal Axis with Ceres on the North Node – light lines)

As John Muir says, “The minute we try to pick out anything by itself, we find it hitched to everything else in the Universe.”  I mean, these are really all the same Issue, just seen from Different Angles, and it’s an incredible Gift from the Universe to be able to Let them Heal One Another.  If we can stay out of their way.

So let’s look at the ways they Heal one another…

• The Ego Death-Codependence Conundrum is Embraced by two PIAVAs (the Nemesis-Hylonome/Saturn Square is part of a Trine Fez, and we deal with a Fez by attending to the diagonal Quincunxes)…
  • “I wonder about the Relationship between my Codependence and the Sustainability of my Mission” – Not Think about but Wonder about (Ceres-North Node Quincunx to Stations).  Sort of the way you Wonder about how in the devil that gorgeous, brilliantly colored Butterfly just crawled out of that brown turd-like valise!  (If you’re a biologist, Wonder instead about the Night Sky instead.)
  • “Ganishi, Please Remove All Obstacles to Reverting my Limiting Oaths with Loving and Gentle Ego Deaths” – our Oaths (such as “I can never tell anyone or he’ll Kill Mom”), if they are Limiting, are protected by Integration with Ego (Orcus Quincunx Nemesis)

• Our Like-It-or-Not Focus on Healing our Codependence (see above) AND our Attention to our Mission (see below) both represent Easy ways to Master our Boundary Challenges (Both Hylonome-Saturn, and the Nodal Axis, Trine-Bridge the Pallas T-Square on the Orcus-Nessus Opposition)

• Our Ego Deaths facilitate Movement toward Sustaining our Mission (Nemesis Trine-Bridges the Nodal Axis)

So being Loving and Gentle with our Ego Deaths turns out to be one of the Levers of Power.  PIAVAing that will help, because Ego Deaths aren’t an intellectual process, nor a Power-Over process – we’re attempting to Manipulate the Unconscious.  One of the most Powerful ways to soften an Ego Death is to recognize that “I’d rather Die!” and “I feel like I’m Dying!” are literally untrue as we usually interpret them.  We naturally put our emphasis on the Die/Dying part, whereas what’s really happening is that the accent is actually on the “I” part.

“I’d rather Die” means yes, an Ego Death would be preferable to Re-experiencing our Held Emotions and Traumas, which is great.  When we’re Conscious that an Ego Death is occurring, they’re Easy.  We just recognize that Confusion is the first sign of Growth, Accept the Confusion as an Emotion in its own right, without trying to Fix it, and bang, we’ve mid-wifed our New Identity.  It has some re-orienting to do, so a little Confusion will remain for a while, but we’re basically done.

“I feel like I’m Dying!” is just code for “Oh, there’s my Held Emotion!  Aren’t I Delighted to finally get that out in the Open where I can be Present and Loving with it, because hiding in the cave like it’s been, it Sabotages my Entire Life!”  Make that Reframe and you’re likely to feel tremendous Excitement instead, as you watch the detritus falling off of your Future Timeline.

Bon Voyage!

Oh, one more thing.  Hidden in the chart are several light purple lines that make a wedge pointing at Vesta-North Node.  This is a “Quintangle,” a wedge make up of two Biquintiles (Learning to Break out of Dogma) and a Quintile (Learning and Teaching).  The object of the Lesson Plan is Sustaining our Dedication to our Mission, and the curriculum involves Beliefs (Vesta) and Confusion (Neptune).  Learn to regard the Emotion of Confusion as one of the Greatest Gifts you can Receive, as long as you Celebrate it without trying to “Figure it out.”

Gauntlet II

The Life Force (Varuna) Station chart is very straightforward – the Life Force is Merged with (Conjoins) Memories (asteroid Mnemosyne), and is Related through Curiosity (Quincunx) to Being Fully Responsive about Examining any shortage of Survival Value in our Unconscious Beliefs (Pholus-Quaoar-Vesta).  Wondering how the Beliefs that tint our Perception, but that we haven’t Noticed or Differentiated yet (that is, we haven’t Realized that they’re Beliefs rather than facets of Reality), Self-Sabotage us.

Getting Conscious is not a matter of Discovery, it’s a matter of Differentiation – like looking right at a Bird sitting in a Tree but seeing only the Tree till the Bird moves and flies away.  The Bird was there all along, we just failed to Differentiate it from the background information.  This is how our Archetypes work.  They direct our Actions and words, but we don’t Notice that they’re Beliefs because we think they’re Reality.  If we don’t Trust People, for instance, then we’ll be surrounded by People who Betray us.  If we don’t Love Ourself then the Love that comes to us from Others will be Conditional.

As Seth said a long time ago (Jane Roberts, The Nature of Personal Reality), our Karma is right there in front of our face as our Personal History.  Chronic Disappointments and Difficulties in our Personal History are red flags for Self-Sabotaging Beliefs; we just need to look in the Mirror and PIAVA to Become Fully Responsive about Examining any shortage of Survival Value in our Self-Sabotaging Beliefs about “Reality.”

Let’s take Trust of People (our Abandonment) as an example.  Lord Knows it’s easy enough to find People who will Betray us!  The question is, Why do we Choose to make ourself Vulnerable to them, Why don’t we Intuit that they’re Unreliable, and Why don’t we Trust our Intuition till we’ve been Betrayed.  Once we Realize that Trust is a Self-Sabotaging Issue in our Life, we could start our Becoming-Conscious process by PIAVAing something like “Great Spirit, Please Lovingly and Gently give me Immediate and Complete Clarity around my Intuitions about People who will Betray me, and about People who won’t Betray me, and Please Help me to Act upon those Intuitions to Avoid Betrayal.”

Once we get past Varuna’s Station and into Hylonome’s and eventually Saturn’s, it gets trickier.  Both of these Stations Light Up a Challenge to Master (T-Square) Boundaries (Pallas) that will Allow us to Avoid Oaths (Orcus) that will Expose us to Abuse or Privilege (Nessus). 

Since the World we Witness is a Mirror for our Personal Relationship to the Unconscious (“As Without So Within” as they say), Oaths that would Grant us Privilege and therefore Abuse Others, are really the same as Oaths that would Expose us to Abuse. 

If he’s lucky, Tony Robbins might pick that up, after his story about “Powerful” and “Important” men.  Tony has done great work with many people, but in spite of the way he names his seminars, he Teaches Hypercompetitive Power-Over, not Collaborative Power-With (see Starhawk’s Truth or Dare for comparisons).  If he accepts the Opportunity that Nanine McCool has offered him, more Power-With to him.  It’ll take a whole lot of Self-Examination, and so far he’s Expressed no Respect at all for Ms McCool.  His apologies sound as self-serving as The Zuck’s.

Hylonome itself is about Choosing to Let Go of Codependence.  Or not, as was Hylonome’s own Choice, to Kill herself with the lance that Killed her Lover.  Since we Strive toward Consciousness, we can Choose whatever we want, or at least fake it till we make it.  We don’t have to follow the mythical Hylonome’s example, we can instead read her Story as an example of a Mirror for our Personal History.  While Codependence is commonly applied to a Relationship with another person, it applies just as well to our Relationships with our Archetypes.  We Delegate to the Other our own Power to Respond . 

While the Hylonome and Saturn Stations Light Up a Challenge to Master Boundaries that will Allow us to Avert Oaths that will Expose us to Abuse or Privilege, their charts are also a very tight-knit Healing of same, involving the Stations (The Most Important Thing is Becoming Conscious of our Codependence), Ego Death (Nemesis), our Held Emotions (South Node), and Sustaining our Mission (Ceres-North Node).  We’ll say more about all this in the next post.