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Self-Doubt 2

October 21, 2018

Here’s a great example of Self-Doubt, that katie labels “Imposter Syndrome”…

https://roseandcactusquartz.com/2018/10/20/imposter-syndrome/

“Something that has been popping up a lot around me lately in conversation has been ‘imposter syndrome’.  For anyone who has never heard of it, imposter syndrome is where people doubt their accomplishments or feel as if they will be exposed as fraudulent. 

“It could apply to anything such as whether you feel you deserved an “A” in school or even Einstein experienced it (there is a great TED talk about this) with some of his discoveries.  What was amazing to me was that someone as brilliant as Einstein could feel something that so many of us feel and I was wondering about why that is.”

A friend considers “Imposter Syndrome” to be a positive sign, that we’re Stretching our Creativity to its Edges.   So like other Self-Doubt eruptions, it’s another Opportunity to Let Go of our Unworthiness Programming and Shift to Unconditional Regard for ourself.  If Doubt is persistent, we might Tap on it, “Even though I feel like an Imposter, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…” 

Tapping – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4. 

We’re dealing with the Unconscious, so we can’t “Plan-Execute” our way into Self-Love.  But we can PIAVA something on the order of “All Obstacles between Self-Love and Me be Removed.”  Of course it would behoove to add “Lovingly and Gently” – or as Doug suggests “Gently and Powerfully,” or better yet, “Gently, Lovingly, and Powerfully” – lest Instant Healing fall upon us from on high and totally disorient us, causing us to scramble back to our Limiting Beliefs for Security.

PIAVAhttps://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

I used to feel like I had to “prove” astrology to the many people whose only experience with it was via the daily newspaper – “Watch out for open manhole covers today, Virgo!”  Of course they’re personhole covers, but the daily newspaper never did figure that out.  Nowadays I just understand that their Closed mind is their Loss.  I’ll be happy to help if they Ask, but I’ve better things to do than confront them about it.  There are other areas though, where I still at times Fear my disguise is wearing thin, and that the counterparties to my informal agreements will Abandon me.

Like many other Anxieties, an effective way to deal with that is to invert it.  When I Fear someone will Abandon or Betray me, I need to Ask, “Who am I Abandoning or Betraying?”  It’s may well be someone else entirely, and it may be in our Fantasies only.  Or when I Doubt my Accomplishments or Fear I’ll be Exposed as a Fraud, I need to Ask, “Where in my Life am I Betraying myself?” or “Who do I Judge as a Fraud?”  Introjections (such as Fear of being a Victim) and Projections (eg Seeing in Others what we Judge in ourself) are as Heads and Tails; what’s the Coin?

Denial.  Other than being an epithet we accusingly Project onto someone else, Denial is a healthy Ego process.  Ego itself is also often an epithet, but we would not be able to function without an Ego or Identity of some sort.  Of course if we aren’t Identified with our Soul, then we actually are a Fraud, aren’t we.  The Fear or sense of being a Fraud may just be an Invitation to Shift our “Assemblage Point” to our Soul.

But when we have a load of Clearing to do to get there, and it would Overwhelm us and Fracture our Ego if we dove into it now, we Healthily Deny it in order to focus on things that are more Important in that moment, such as Keeping On Keeping On.  Sometimes we do Avoid Opportunities to Clear, and Keep On Keeping On in order to keep ourselves too busy to Notice what we’re Denying.  But when the Ego Fractures, we can only do one thing – put it back together again.  If we try to do anything else it just makes everything worse.

But there are times when we have to Face our Searching and Fearless Inventory and address what we’ve been Denying.  Often that will occur when dwarf planet Eris, which symbolizes Denial, is Lit Up.  And it is Lit Up in the Sappho-Station chart that rules this week.  We’ll talk about that in the next installment.

 

 

Wants, Mission, Compromise 1

June 15, 2018

As we get ready to write about…

  • The Station of Makemake (Manifestation) at 16 June 7pm PDT 3 Libra
  • The Station of Neptune (Our Relationship to All That Is Larger than Ourself) at 18 June 4:30 pm PDT 17 Pisces
  • The Initiation of Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) by Eris (Revelation of What’s Been Denied) in between them at 17 June 9:30 pm PDT 24 Aries

…we find this Channeling of the Adept Sananda by Natalie Glasson about a topic I’ve tried to write about for years, never satisfactorily.  Sananda’s explication is exquisite…

https://www.omna.org/the-most-recent-channeling-from-the-sacred-school-of-omna/

“As you create an intention to follow and develop your spiritual pathway of awakening and remembering your truth, so you will move through levels and layers of ascension training.  Each period of your ascension pathway will focus you upon different areas of your body, thoughts, emotions, spiritual self, continuing until you have a deeper understanding and knowingness of yourself. 

“Your ascension journey and the levels or periods of growth and awakening you move through are unique to you and personal to the desires of your soul.  Humanity as a collective will move through layers and periods of ascension awakening and growth, this will also influence your ascension pathway and experiences. 

“It is most likely that you are evolving beyond the lessons that humanity as a collective are exploring and embodying.  However, this will influence you by returning your focus to old wounds and habits which have been resolved but may need attention at a deeper level or simply require you to confirm that the energies are no longer present within your being.

“Confirmation plays a big part in the ascension process.  You are often being guided to energies that have been resolved, healed or transformed in order to confirm to yourself the growth and understanding that has been made.  It is also a way of ensuring that all energies connected to the previous growth or awakening are balanced, harmonised and aligned before you move forth to explore a new dimension of yourself…”

And, given the recent New Moon, we’re likely to be working on old and new levels and layers of our Self-Sovereignty Issues.  Are we Manifesting What We Want?  What are the Hiccups in that process showing us about What We Still Need to Let Go Of?  Are we Compromising What We Want because of What Others Want?  Or because of What Others In our Personal or Karmic History Wanted?  Be Mindful that What We Want is always a Funhouse-Mirror Reflection of our True Mission.

As we move through this Intense span, Notice frequently What You’re Feeling.  How does it Compare to How You Want to Feel, or How You Expect to Feel when you Receive What You Want?  Are you Grounded?  Are you in Neutrality, or do you have Investments that Need to Bear Fruit before you can Relax into Acceptance?  If you’re Feeling Disappointment by recent Failures of Important Desires, how does your Current Disappointment Compare to your Past Disappointments about this?

You may find Remarkable Progress where there appeared to be crushing Disappointment.  As we “follow and develop our spiritual pathway of awakening and remembering our truth,” What We Want Changes, because We Change.  We Open to a wider Perspective and we see the World Differently.  Our Mission is the same, but our View of it is from a new place.  Celebrate the Shift.

Time’s Up I

January 13, 2018

Eris was the Lady who, failing to receive an invitation to the Big Party, tossed a Golden Apple, inscribed “To the fairest of them all,” into the Party, putting the other Big-Name Goddesses at the Party into a long-lasting tither that eventually led to the famed Trojan War.  Eris thus becomes the Goddess of “Discord and Strife,” and  Greek Mythology disses women as jealous and petty.  Once we realize that the Greek Mythos was the literary vehicle that described or proscribed the replacement of the Matriarchy by the Patriarchy, we can understand the motives behind the Myth, and reframe our interpretation of the dwarf planet that bears Eris’s name. 

We’ve Chosen to interpret Eris as the Revelation of what’s been Denied.  Recall though that, contrary to the common use of the word as a thinly veiled insult, Denial is a Healthy process that Protects the Ego from what would otherwise Overwhelm it, until the Ego is ready to deal with it, ie, until Eris comes along.  Since the Ego is in charge of insuring the Survival of it’s Vehicle (which is you or me), Denial is an important Survival Skill.  Till it’s not.

As greater Consciousness Descends onto Planet Earth, or the Earth Ascends into greater Harmony, depending on whom you ask, large portions of what’s been Denied are forcing their way into our Consciousness.  #MeToo, for instance, and now #ShitholePresident.  Imagine a future historian, needing only one source, Twitter.  The Patriarchy was not born overnight.  As Hupers gained more control over their Environment, the underlying Story shifted from Everything-We-Fear to Everything-We-Control, with a corresponding Inflation of the Ego.  Born out of Competition with the Matriarchy, Competition became the Foundation of the Patriarchy.

Which brings us to the Present Moment, where Competition is reaching the Limits of its Utility, and begs to be replaced with Cooperation.  This last week, dwarf planet Eris was at its Strongest (Stationary, Exact 10 January at 2am PST).  Eris is still Traveling with Uranus (our Soul-Self) – they’re less than two Degrees apart, so it wouldn’t hurt to review their Initiation, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/06/03/eris-uranus-new-moon/.

It’s often said that “Timing is Everything,” and we agree.  If you’re in the Right Place at the Right Time, everything can fall into place Effortlessly – one of the reasons why we put such a heavy emphasis on PIAVAing – the Masculine Dynamic Creative Process can Manifest a lot, but unless Complemented by excellent Intuition and Flexibility, it can be consummately Destructive, as our Planet is Witnessing.  On the other hand, the Feminine Magnetic Creative Process, which we abbreviate as PIAVA, is capable of “Controlling” (actually, Coordinating) many variable far beyond the scope of the Dynamic Process.  (See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/ to review PIAVA).

For instance, many are Dynamically Manifesting Abundance, which as Catherine Ponder remind us (in The Dynamic Laws of Prosperity), means Having Enough to Share.  But can we Dynamically Manifest Abundance that Benefits All Sentient Beings?  Not so Easy to even Plan, let alone Do.  But it’s Easy to PIAVA – for example, “Ganeshi my Love, please Remove All Obstacles to Manifestation of Abundance for All Sentient Beings.”  Sure, you can scoff at that as silly, but what if everyone made that Prayer every day.  How the World would Change relative to everyone Competing to take their own Abundance away from Others.

A major Hindrance to Manifesting Magnetically is that our own Limiting Beliefs will prevent us from Noticing when key portions of our PIAVA fall into place, because our Limiting Beliefs block our Intuition.  As we’ve explained many times, we circumvent that using the Change-the-Subject and Pay-Attention elements of PIAVA, Poor-Sweethearting, and Tapping, in order to Let Go of our Limiting Beliefs and Karmic Archetypes.  A huge part of our Intuition and our Manifestation is Timing.  Being in the wrong place at the Right Time, or the Right Place at the wrong time to Notice and Receive our Blessing, does us no good.

In astrology, Timing is governed by the Seventh Harmonic.  It represents what Don Juan meant when he was always telling Grasshopper Castaneda to “Save his Energy.”  The Tarot equivalent is The Chariot – Stillness and Motion.  The Essence is that Movement is necessary, but it’s wasted if it’s not at the Right Time in the Right Place.  We don’t often see the Seventh Harmonic (multiples of one seventh of the Zodiacal Loop, or 51½ Degrees, the “Septile”) very often, and Configurations or Combinations of Seventh-Harmonic Angles are even rarer. 

Of course the main reason we don’t see it is because it’s not a multiple of the thirty Degrees that the Zodiac is divided into – it’s Easy to Notice the alignment between ten Degrees of Leo and ten Degrees of Libra, a lot harder to Notice that ten Degrees of Leo are also aligned with two Degrees of Libra.  However, the software I use tallies Septiles, so I watch for Septile Configurations in every chart I draw.  Of all the charts I publish in this diary, not many include Septile Configrations.

All of which is only an introduction to this week’s Energy; the chart of the 10 January Eris Station we mentioned earlier features a Strong Seventh-Harmonic Pattern, drawn here in purple…

A “Grand Septile” consists of seven planets equally spaced around the Loop; here we have five of the seven, which form their own Pattern.  Recognize the shape, even though it’s “upside down”?

Image result for chrysalis

Let’s call this Configuration a Chrysalis, and in the process preserve the implication of  Imminent Transformation. 

There’s a clear emphasis on the “top” (which on the chart here is pointing down), a Pluto-Sun-Venus or Mandatory-Essence-Values Stellium (which means a Group of three or more planets).  Mandatory-Essence-Values.  That’s pretty heavy, and certainly applies to #MeToo – we Need to Focus on the Essence of our True Values, and quit Denying the constant Violations of it.  And it’s been a major emphasis of the International critiques of #ShitholePresident.

There are three purple wedges here, which are Septile Yods.  A Yod or Finger of God is the astrological equivalent of ACHTUNG! – “PAY ATTENTION!”  In the Seventh Harmonic it means Pay Attention to the Timing here, or quite literally, when combined with an Eris Station, Time’s Up!  for that Denial.  One of the Septile Yods points to the Pluto Stellium at the “head” of the Chrysalis. 

The other two Septile Yods point to the base of the Chrysalis – these are the Foundations of the Shift in Timing…

  • Dwarf planet Chaos says that It’s Time to Expand Waaay Beyond What You’re Accustomed To!
  • Ceres-North Node says that It’s Time to Make Your Mission on the Planet in the Lifetime the Permanent Focus of your Attention!

Which leaves the two “Shoulders” of the Chrysalis, which we can consider to be the Supporting Cast of the Change…

  • Neptune says that It’s Time to Avoid Material Confusion by shifting our Perspective to the Spiritual – or of course by Rejecting the mind’s attempts to Analyze the source of our Confusion, and Accepting it as an Emotion in its own Right, one that we need to just Sit With and Feel, without trying to Change it.  Confusion is the first stage of Growth.
  • Asteroids Vesta and Karma in combination tell us that It’s Time to Let Go of the Unconscious Archetypes that have been running our Life so far.  We’ve been writing about that in many recent posts.

The Initiation of Vesta by Karma occurred at 11am PST on 8 January, in 27 Scorpio, “A military band marches noisily on through city streets.”  Notice that it’s not at War, but it is trained for Warfare, and making a Statement loud and clear – It’s Time to stop letting your Unconscious Karmic Beliefs run your Life, and celebrate it with noisy fanfare; It’s Time to Speak Up when we Witness Discrimination or Abuse!

We can peek at the Future of our Emergent Butterfly by looking at the other tight Conjunctions and Sign Changes in the chart that aren’t related by Angle to the Septiling planets…

  • Pholus Initiates Klotho 9 January (5am PST) in 30 Sagittarius – “The Pope blessing the faithful”; A New Timeline for our sense of Responsibility.  Not about Blame, but about what we’re Willing to Respond to.  It’s Time to use our Spiritual Authority to Actively Reinforce Inclusive Behavior and Discourse.
  • Quaoar Initiates Klotho 13 January (8am PST) in 1 Capricorn – “An Indian chief claims power from the assembled tribe”; a New Timeline for our sense of Ultimate Authority, which flows from the Heart.  It’s Time to Recognize that we have the Political Authority to Speak our Truth.  Don’t worry about whether or not it’s Accepted by others; Truths that are Ready to Overcome Denial by the Collective will be Accepted, others will wait patiently, but your Voice is a Vote in the Consensus-Building Process.
  • Hylonome Initiates Lilith 1 February in 10 Capricorn – “An albatross feeding from the hand of a sailor”; It’s Time to Let Go of Inhibitions to our Self-Sovereignty and Fully Support Cooperation over Competition.
  • Sappho is moving from Capricorn into Aquarius – We’ve been Focused on the Practical and Private elements of increasing our Self-Love; now It’s Time to Extend our Self-Love into our Relationship with our Community by Speaking our Truth Out Loud.
  • Klotho is moving from Sagittarius into Capricorn – The New Timelines we’ve been Creating recently have been about Letting Go of Inhibitions; now It’s Time to Use our Newfound Clarity to Help to Fix What’s Wrong.

Never forget that the First Rule is Safety First.  Everyone will be trying to outshout everyone else, including the Racists and Bigots.  You don’t need to be Bullied, and it’s okay to Step Back rather than Argue.  Say your Peace and step toward those who are Speaking in Alignment with you.  Hupers can’t resist gravitating toward what’s Popular, so gradually people who aren’t fully Committed to their Truth will drift over toward a different Truth, to try that on to see if it suits them better. 

As Groups form, those Committed to False Truths will gradually Feel their Shame and step down, either recanting or disappearing.  The Sociopaths will keep Shouting, but they’ll end up Friendless on their soapbox Shouting into the Wind.  The Truths that are Ready for their Time will come forth.  You don’t need to Force them, just to Let Your Own Truth be Known, in a Safe manner.

We’ll talk about Ego Death, and its impact on apparent Safety, in the next post when we talk about the rest of the Eris-Station chart.