Privilege Portal

The chart of the Emphasis on Privilege and Abuse that peaks at 5:03 am PDT on 14 June 2021 (Station of dwarf planet Nessus)…

…is all about Consciousness Expansion (the dominant feature is the T-Square [red triangle] from Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] Opposite asteroid Vesta [Unconscious Limitations] to asteroid Juno [Expansion of Consciousness], which is Conjunct the Great Attractor [Our Ultimate Destination] in 15 Sagittarius [“The Groundhog looking for its Shadow“]). While Heads always implies Tails as well, it appears to me that this Portal may be more about Privilege than about Abuse, as it Calls Out Greedheads (that is, Ground-Hogs as Hoarders and Abusers of Land). Consider this…

The guy in the pink sweater is the largest owner of farmland in the US. And he isn’t into Regenerative Farming – quite the opposite.

“Land is power, land is wealth, and, more importantly, land is about race and class. The relationship to land – who owns it, who works it and who cares for it – reflects obscene levels of inequality and legacies of colonialism and white supremacy in the United States, and also the world. Wealth accumulation always goes hand-in-hand with exploitation and dispossession. In this country, enslaved Black labor first built US wealth atop stolen Native land. The 1862 Homestead Act opened up 270m acres of Indigenous territory – which amounts to 10% of US land – for white settlement. Black, Mexican, Asian, and Native people, of course, were categorically excluded from the benefits of a federal program that subsidized and protected generations of white wealth.” —https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2021/apr/05/bill-gates-climate-crisis-farmland

But you’re probably familiar with the Shadow, “the unknown dark side of the personality. According to Jung, the shadow, in being instinctive and irrational, is prone to psychological projection, in which a perceived personal inferiority is recognized as a perceived moral deficiency in someone else. Jung writes that if these projections remain hidden, ‘the projection-making factor (the Shadow archetype) then has a free hand and can realize its object – if it has one – or bring about some other situation characteristic of its power.’ These projections insulate and harm individuals by acting as a constantly thickening veil of illusion between the ego and the real world.” —https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shadow_(psychology)

“On 24 February 2011, Italy’s Supreme Court upheld the criminal conviction of Cardinal Roberto Tucci, former president of Vatican Radio’s management committee, for creating a public nuisance by polluting the environment with radio waves. The Vatican’s broadcasts to the world, transmitted in forty languages, emanate from fifty-eight powerful radio towers occupying over one thousand acres of land, surrounded by suburban communities. And for decades, residents in those communities had been screaming that the transmissions were destroying their health as well as causing an epidemic of childhood leukemia. At the request of the Public Prosecutor’s office in Rome, which was considering bringing charges against the Vatican for negligent homicide, Judge Zaira Sacchi ordered an official investigation by the National Cancer Institute of Milan. The results, released 13 November 2010, were shocking. Between 1997 and 2003, children aged one to fourteen who lived between 6 and 12 km (3.7 to 7.5 mi) from Vatican Radio’s antenna farm developed leukemia, lymphoma, or myeloma at eight times the rate of children who lived further away. And adults who lived between 6 and 12 km from the antennas died of leukemia at almost seven times the rate of adults who lived further away.” –Arthur Firstenberg, The Invisible Rainbow, pp.231-232

“On 24 February 2011, the Supreme Court of Italy upheld the 2005 conviction of Cardinal Tucci for polluting Rome with radio waves. A ten-day suspended jail sentence was his only punishment. No one has ever been compensated for their injuries. The Prosecutor’s Office has not filed charges of negligent homicide. Vatican Radio’s antennas have not been shut down.” —ibid, p.261; see also https://www.indcatholicnews.com/news/11856

What is Unconscious is outside of our sphere of Healthy Control. Living from Unconsciousness, we’re Victims of our Fate and Karma. What is Conscious is subject to Choice. Consciousness doesn’t necessarily give us the Power, by ourself, to Change the World. But it does actually give us the Power to Change our World…

All of which doesn’t mean that our Abuse Memories (and our Outrage at Ongoing Personal and Global Abuse) won’t be Lit Up. Dwarf planets Gonggong (Intrusive Memories) and Eris (Revelation of What’s Been Denied), which abet Nessus in evoking our Abuse PTSD, haven’t been Lit Up brightly by our current Klotho/Eclipse/Nessus action, but Gonggong will be Lit Up by our 19-20 June Manifestation Adventures (simultaneous Stations of Makemake [Manifestation], Jupiter [Expansion], and Lachesis [Consciously Letting Go of Karma]). Every evocation of our Abuse PTSD is an Opportunity to Change our Programming from Revulsion to Healing. I don’t Believe that knowledge about how to make that Change is available before-hand. We just have to PIAVA the Outcome we Want, and then let it Arrive on its own.

There’s more going on in this chart…

• Soul Letting Go of Discipline that Maintains the Current Ego (Saturn Waning Square Uranus),
• Soul Descending Sustainably into Matter (Ceres Conjunct Uranus in Taurus),
• Despair over the Impossibility of Change (Chiron Opposite Klotho)

…which we can explore in the next post.

Changing Vitality Patterns New Moon

We’ve been going on at length this last week about asteroid Moira, named after the Goddess of Fate.  We can rephrase that sentence as three Questions: Are we as individuals Fated to repeat the Experiences of the Great Depression and the Black Death?  Is Western Civilization Fated to Collapse, like all Civilizations that came before it?  Are we as a Planet Facing the inevitable End Times?

Well, in Virtual Reality we’re already doing all those things, aren’t we.  Most of the time Most of us can’t tell the Difference between Present-Moment Hard-Copy Reality, and the Life-Like Holographic Fragments that our Karma constantly feeds us, and this New Moon sets us up for that Big-Time (in the 24 March 1:30 am New Moon chart at 5 Aries, Mercury [Awareness] Merges with dwarf planet OR10 [Intrusive Karmic Memories], and that’s in Pisces [Unfinished Karmic Emotional Business] to boot).

We aren’t referring to the Idiots who spout off about the Coronavirus being fake news – they’re on a whole different Bum Trip.  We’re referring to the rest of us.  I mean, Most of us in Former or Parallel Lives were in one Plague or another, way too many Economic Discouragements, a Civilization Collapse or two, and an End Times.  As Ursula Le Guin says in Buffalo Gals, “Coyote is always Dying.”  Those Experiences were Traumatic, so it’s no wonder we still Remember them vividly.  Until we can watch all of those film classics with complete Detachment, we’ll continue to ReExperience their Toxic Scat.

I don’t know how many noble Trees have been sacrificed to the philosophical struggle between Fate and Free Will, but I can assure you it was a Waste.  Fate and Free Will, which we usually refer to as Fate and Choice, is a Duality, an Either/Or.  Real Life is Both/And, it’s Multifarious and Unitary.  Either/Or is always a property of the Observing Mind, not a property of External Reality.

Any time we get Stuck Believing that a Duality is Real, we’re not only Off the Tracks, but we’ve swallowed the Bait in someone else’s Political Crab-pot and we’re about to be somebody’s dinner.  Political is the adjectival form of Power – we’ve Given our Power Away to someone else (the New Moon Merges with Lilith [Self-Sovereignty and Obeisance] and Chiron [Dead Ends and Miraculous Escapes]).

The Mythological Moira had three Assistant Goddesses.  One of them was Lachesis, who was in charge of measuring How Long your Karma will last.  When we become Conscious, Fate becomes Choice.  So the asteroid Lachesis, through the lens of Choice, gives us license to End Self-Sabotaging Habits at Will.  The hard part of that is our own OCD – we’re all Obsessive-Compulsive to some extent.

It’s like switching back and forth between a manual transmission and an autocratic one.  When we lapse into Habit instead of Awareness, we kill the engine in the manual car at stop signs, and then we try to shift the autocratic one.  If we do this daily, we’ll soon develop a Habit of taking a split-second to Notice which car we’re driving, before we stop or accelerate.  Whenever we begin a new Process, it takes us a while to develop “Body Memories” of our Actions, that make them automatic.

If rather than starting with the Recognition that a new Process will take a bit of Practice, we start with the Notion that “I’ll never be able to do this!” then we don’t even try.  We have tremendous and persistent Motivation to End our Self-Sabotaging Karma, as it repeatedly puts us into Discomfort, sometimes extreme.  But as long as we regard our Karma as being Externally Sourced, our Resistance to Change is even greater than this Motivation.

An early step is distinguishing Responsibility from Blame.  Many Resist the idea of Creating Their Own Reality because they feel like they’re being Blamed for their own Misfortune.  But they totally miss the point.  When “We” Create Our Own Reality, the “We” is not our Ego, but our Soul.  Making the Jump from Identifying with our Ego, to Identifying with our Soul, is not Easy.  It usually feels like a Death, because it is, an Ego Death.  Since the Ego’s Job is to Prevent our Death, it fights like Hell to Resist.  We have to Learn to finesse that.

Blame involves assigning Guilt about some Past Event.  On the other hand, Responsibility means Being Willing to Change Future Outcomes.  Those are very different.  We may look for apparent or adjacent “Cause” of our Self-Sabotage, in order to help us Design Strategies for Changing Future Outcomes, but even that is seldom effective, because even though it’s sometimes explained with that Metaphor, Karma is not about Cause and Effect.

Karma is Inertia.  The Cause of Karma is that you Built a Habit at some point in your Past Experience, and that Habit has become Obsolete.  Maybe on “your” (your Soul’s, not your Current-Lifetime Ego’s) former planet they put the brake on the right and the gas on the left, and “you” were a truck driver there, so “you” had a zillion reps to cement that Habit in place.  And now someone’s trying to tell you that it’s “your own” fault that “you” keep hitting the gas instead of the brake?  Of course your Current-Lifetime Ego considers that Outrageous.

It’s Obvious that it must be a Demon “Causing” this problem, because “you” aren’t even “Home” when it happens, “you” are thinking about something else.  Or at lease an Evil Twin.  Until we work on it, usually with great Effort for a long time, our Karma is Unconscious to us, precisely because it’s about Habits that we developed so thoroughly that they’re Hard-Wired into “ourself.”

There are so many other ways to Interpret our Self-Sabotaging Habits.  This is just one of them.  It’s literally True only in the Both/And sense.  We present it because it’s a Useful way to conceptualize what we’re up against when we work at Letting Go of our Karma.

We bring all this up because asteroid Lachesis, which symbolizes Potential Success about Choosing to Change or End a Lifelong Self-Sabotaging Habit, is very Strong at this New Moon (it’s Stationary at 3:40 pm PST 25 March in 8 Leo, Trine to the New Moon).  Not only that, the Habits that are most Open to Change, are Habits around our Health (Lachesis Conjunct dwarf planet Varuna [the Life Force, our Vitality]) – how Timely is that?

Even in the best possible circumstances, much to most of our Karma is not accessible to the Conscious mind.  So if we want to Choose to Change or End a Lifelong Habit of getting Sick, we need to use our Magnetic Creativity, ie PIAVA (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/), because Dynamic Creativity is only capable of directly impacting our Conscious Reality.

In spite of Western European Culture’s addiction to Chemistry, it’s actually more Effective to approach Wellness through our Spiritual and Emotional Bodies.  I don’t for a moment Deny that the Coronavirus is Alive and Well in 3D Reality.  I can’t speak for everyone, but in the Personal Lives of anyone reading this, this New Moon makes it very clear that the Coronavirus for us is not Present Moment.  It’s Karmic, a Hologram of our Past Traumas, a Paper Tiger, a Shadow.

First, Lachesis-Varuna is Squared [Challenged] by asteroid Karma [our Karma]. 

Second, Lachesis-Varuna sits at the focus of a Finger of God [Pay Attention!] from the Sextile between Mercury-OR10 [Awareness of Intrusive Karmic Memories] and dwarf planet Quaoar [Survival] on the South Node [Karma, Held Emotions]. 

Finally, the New Moon, Merged with Lilith-Chiron [Reclaiming our Power], Opposes asteroid Sappho [Self-Love] and dwarf planet Makemake [Manifestation], while… 

Sappho-Makemake is the focus of a Finger of God from Karma and Mercury-OR10 [Pay Attention to using your Karmic Memories to Manifest Present-Moment Self-Love by Poor-Sweethearting the Helplessness of your Karmic Self], and…

Mercury-OR10 is the focus of a Finger of God from Sappho-Makemake and Lachesis-Varuna [Pay Attention to making a Loving and Gentle Connection between your non-Present-Moment Visions and your Healing].

Oh, and dwarf planet Orcus [Oath-Breaking] Opposes Mercury-OR10.  Karma often has its origins in Oaths or Vows; if we can Channel a fairly Clear Vision of the Drama that sources our Intrusive Memories, we may be able to Revert the Ancient Oath that is at the Heart of our Attachment to 3D.

Like so…

Whether we’re Conscious of it or not, our most likely Emotional Response to the Coronavirus is Fear.  So we might Choose a PIAVA such as Tapping (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) to kick-start the Healing of our Karma…

“Even though I well remember Sickness and Famine unto Death, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself…”

Supplemented by Theta Healing (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/)…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All There Is, I Command that for me and my Loved Ones, 2020 be filled with Good Physical and Financial Health.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank You, God/Goddess! … Show Me!“

If your “Show Me” isn’t a picture of Wellness and Abundance, Tap Out any flaws you find in the picture, and then do Theta again.  Repeat the two Prayers as necessary till you get a Perfect Show-Me and a surge of Joy up your spine.

Alternatively, we could zero in on the Flying Squirrel Configuration that has Mercury-OR10 as the head, Karma and Quaoar-South Node as the hands, Lachesis-Varuna and Sappho-Makemake as the feet, and Orcus as the tail.  Notice that a Flying Squirrel is a Kite [Directed Grace] inside a Square Fez [Mystery School] – we could regard it as a Self-Resolving Fez.

Self-Resolving or not, the Prescription of any Fez is to Avoid Anal-yzing the diagonal Quincunxes…

• “God/Goddess, Please Grant me the Manifestation of Self-Love for, and in spite of, any Karma I might have to the Contrary [Karma Quincunx Sappho-Makemake].”

• “My Survival Karma and my Perfect Health are entwined in Mysterious Ways; I Ask that they be disentangled and Healed [Quaoar-South Node Quincunx Lachesis-Varuna]”

Held Emotions Aura Holes

The “general rule” is that no one can Invade our Space if it’s Filled with our own Energy.  But as we’ve averred, our Childhood Programmers often Manipulated our Karmic Wounds to create and maintain Holes in our Aura, usually in our Back, where they could metaphorically reach in and pull our Puppet-Strings so they could maintain Control.  These Holes make it Impossible for us to keep our Space Filled with our own Energy.  So, how to Heal them.

First we have to Notice that they Exist.  That actually just requires some Reframing.  Anyone routinely and repeatedly make you Feel Angry?  Hurt?  Outraged?  Anything else Unpleasant?  Of course no one can “make you” Feel anything, but it may seem that way, and they can certainly Trigger your Feelings, and they may well do it on Purpose, the Asshole.  We have to Reframe them into our Teacher, without giving then any Deference or Respect that they haven’t Earned.  When we step out of Blame and Victimhood, these Assholes, er, Teachers, point out to us where the Holes in our Auras are, so we can Own them and Heal them.

How about Obsession?  Does anything ever Grab you and not Let Go, so your mind can’t help but Grind on it, maybe for weeks at a time?  Sure, you can get a Song fragment stuck in there, and that’s a minor example.  Send in the Clowns for instance maybe, or Stuck inside of Mobile with the Memphis Blues Again.  Sorry, hope those don’t get stuck.  But often it’s when someone does something Dumb or Hurtful or Inconsiderate, and our mind has a hard time Letting Go of it, or some insoluble Real or Imagined or Potential Problem arises, like Climate Change or a Layoff or a strange noise in the transmission or how to find a safe place to sleep, and our mind is Crunching away at it trying to Figure Out how to make it work.

Those usually aren’t as direct as someone making us Angry, but they’re Obsessions in the same ballpark.  Then there are the Disturbances in the Force, where we or It, doesn’t Feel Right, and we Obsess on what’s “wrong” or what we can do about it (beside Chocolate or Ice Cream, if we’ve brought it that far enough up into Consciousness) – or even, if Chocolate or Ice Cream keeps beckoning us like a Harpie and we don’t even Realize it’s because something doesn’t Feel Right!

In other words, we’ve Noticed an Obsession of some kind, where our Thought-Emotion Loops are caught in a Helicopter Trip, and we can’t Let Go or we’ll fall out of the Sky.  Let’s Allow ourself to make the Projection, as if someone was actually torturing us by sending Negative Energy our way.  Who would it be?  No Blame, we’re just using them as a Foil, and we won’t be hurting them.  You could Choose the person who makes you Angry, or the person who does Hurtful things, or the person you’re Obsessing about, or the first person that comes to mind as you reach for the Chocolate.  It doesn’t really matter who it is, you could Choose someone at random.

Then you take one of those portable Wardrobe Mirrors, and you hold it up, facing them.  Hold it for several minutes, while you watch what’s going on inside.  Feel Guilty?  That’s a foolproof sign that you’re on target.  Guilt and Shame were the tools used to Create the Holes in our Aura, or at least, bring them into the Current Lifetime.  Hold the Mirror, facing them, for several minutes, so the Energy is either Reflected back to them, or at least Reflected away from you.  Do you now Feel any Different than you Felt before you deployed the Mirror?  If you Feel Relief, you got the “right” person.  Still no Blame, they may just be a symbol for the right person or situation.

If you don’t Feel some Relief after a few minutes, try another person.  A different Associate, perhaps.  Or a Sibling, or an Ex.  Or the person who Programmed you – almost always a parent or parent surrogate like a grandparent or a teacher.  Once you find any person that, when you Hold the Mirror between you and they, facing them, you Feel some Relief within a minute or two, then you can move on.  Again, no Blame.  You might Feel Intensely toward this person – don’t squelch your Feelings.  But this is about You, not them.  Stay with your Real Passions, but be Present with them as Yours, not Theirs.  When you’re dealing with Karmic material, everyone else is just a bit player.

Once you have a solid Target, Hold the Mirror, facing them, for several minutes, while you watch to see what’s going on outside of yourself.  Do they just “come around to the back,” looking or walking around the Mirror, or over it, or even under it?  Many of our Programmers were just doing to us as they were done unto, they think that’s what parenting is about, so they feel no guilt about it.  If they go around your Mirror, make the Mirror bigger.  There is the Appearance of an External Source of Energy that’s being Directed at you, and it doesn’t Feel good.  So tune your Mirror to reflect this Energy back to where it came from.  Again, if you Feel Guilt, that means you’re Really on the right track.

Every time you set the Mirror, and Push Back against your Guilt, you Fill the Hole in your Aura.  This is your own Energy Body you’re working with, and your own Skill with Boundaries.  The other person or Energy source is just a symbol.  If they really have been Manipulating you in the Present Moment, they’ll Feel it, and won’t know what to make of it.  If they’re just an Innocent Stand-in for one of your Programmers or even for whomever Victimized you in that Past Life, they won’t even Notice what you’re doing.

The only thing you can ever Change is Yourself.  That’s True even for things like Climate Change, Brexit, and the Antichrist.  And most of the time our Puppet Strings are Karmic, so it’s not easy to Replace them with Self-Supporting Habits that Fill our Energy System with our own Energy.  So no one else can get in.  The secret to Replacing any Habit is Repetition.  We (1) Notice the old Habit (Giving Away our Power, Blame, Victimhood), we Respond to our Noticing first by (2) Congratulating Ourself for Noticing and then by (3) Setting a New Habit, namely using our Mirror, and (4) Repeating this sequence as many times as it takes to Replace the Habit Permanently.

I know, you’ll be Angry that you have to make this Effort, over and over, when it should be your Birthright.  You’re right, it is your Birthright, but you have to Claim it.  After a few Mirroring you’re likely to Abandon the Practice because it takes Attention, and the Burden shouldn’t be on you.  It’s your Choice.  You’re Free to continue to Suffer the Karma.  But ultimately it is your Choice.  No one else is going to do it for you.  The only thing you can Change is You, and the only thing that can really Change you is You.  But it takes Persistence.  It may take years of Reps.

They’ll get easier and easier the more you Practice.  Pretty soon you’ll start using your Mirror automatically.  With enough Practice you can actually use it while you’re talking to the person who Triggers you.  Or even while you’re talking to your former Programmer.  If you can Learn to talk and drive a car at the same time, you can Learn to talk and Mirror at the same time.  Once your New Habit is Stable enough that the Mirror starts to deploy on its own, your Holes are almost Full.  Pretty soon you’ll forget about the Mirror because you won’t need to Remember it, because your Energy System will be Full of your own Energy.  You’ll be Claiming Your Space Habitually, rather than Giving Away Your Power Habitually.